Nicki Minaj is usually pretty composed but she shed some tears while speaking about her recent break-up with longtime love, Safaree Samuels during a recent radio interview with New York's Power 105.1's Angie Martinez.
“I’ve never been single for the last 15 years of my life. And I don’t even know if I’m single now. My first relationship overlapped into my second. I wasn’t broken up when I was writing a lot of these songs,” she said.
“A song is like an argument frozen in time. Sometimes in an argument you say things that don’t necessarily lead to a breakup. But when yo breakup, you say the same things you said six months ago. But everything came from a place of love.”
It’s clear Nicki is still heartbroken over her split.
“My relationship was based on love. There was nothing but love there. This wasn’t someone I just picked up off the street. This is somebody I grew up with like I don’t even know how I’m gonna function without this person in my life,” she said.
“Like, I’ve never lived my life as a famous person without him. I still want to tell him stuff and get his opinion.”
She also acknowledged how difficult it has been to go through her breakup in the public eye.
“It’s not just a relationship or a breakup, that was like a humongous part of my life. I know because of the world we live in, relationships are not even sacred anymore. They’re so disposable. Everybody’s on Instagram trying to hurt each other. It’s like we don’t value relationships anymore. So when people see you like…this is not something people are used to,” she said.
“This is a lifetime. People get married and have three children in this amount of time. So this can’t be compared to the little people who get together just to be on paparazzi pics…this is not that. This is real deal. It’s something I’m dealing with publicly. If I were not putting out an album I wouldn’t talk about it. It’s not easy. I’m not gonna joke about it and disrespect him like he didn’t mean the world to me. And I’m not gonna be corny either. I’m just figuring it out.”
In the end, Nicki blames fame for ruining her relationship.
“You know what’s so crazy, if I wasn’t a rapper we’d have children and be married and be happily ever after. And that’s what’s so… cause we know this sh*t is what did it,” she said. “Fame is the worst drug known to man. It’s stronger that Heroin.”
When it comes to finding another guy, Nicki doesn’t seem too optimistic at the moment.
“I just feel like if I was to be with someone at this point they would have to be more similar to me,” she said. “And it is a challenge finding a dude that’s crazy like me and hood too.”
She also dished on working with Beyonce. “I never knew how she felts about me as an artist. I worked on “Flawless” for a while,” she said. “She stopped by the studio. When I did send it to her, she told me, “Jay told me to tell you he was inspired."
Watch Nicki's full interview below:
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