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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey guys, and welcome back to another week of GIA Diaries.
We are home from Bravocon, Thank God. As much as
it was such a fun weekend, Holy Cow, I always
worked to the bone, like, oh my god, maybe a way.
Speaker 2 (00:20):
Over my limit.
Speaker 1 (00:22):
We had three full days of Bravocon. I landed in
Vegas on Thursday. At the same time as doing Bravocon,
we were also filming for Nextion myc and I also
had to record some iHeart podcasts for Casual Chaos and
Dirty Rush, so it was a jam packed weekend. I
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was also selling Waking Up in the Morning in Casual Chaos,
merch in the Bizarre. There was just a lot happening
and a lot of moving parts. Just know that you
always need to take care of yourself and I am
someone that.
Speaker 2 (00:56):
Always is go, go go.
Speaker 1 (00:59):
And on Sunday, I had this really crazy thing that
happened to me and that has never happened to me
in my life to that extent, and it.
Speaker 2 (01:09):
Was really scary.
Speaker 1 (01:11):
Throughout the entire weekend, I was probably running on two
to three hours of sleep every night, so obviously that
was not nearly enough for what the days were. I
had long days that were starting at six am for
glam and ending at like one am, and just by
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the time I got back to my hotel room and
showered and got ready for bed, I was going to
bed every night around like two thirty three o'clock. I
can't remember the last time I actually had a day off.
Speaker 2 (01:43):
So I yeah, I mean, I'm young.
Speaker 1 (01:48):
This is the time to work and this is the
time to really grind.
Speaker 2 (01:52):
And on Sunday.
Speaker 1 (01:54):
Morning, I woke up at six forty five, got my
makeup done, and then it was time to do my hair.
I sat down in the makeup I sat down in
the hair chair and I was like, wait one second,
like I don't feel good, and I got up.
Speaker 2 (02:10):
And also it's Bravo Con.
Speaker 1 (02:13):
Really like nobody is drinking while they're at Bravo Con.
It is like it's just too much, like you're talking
to fans, you're working, it's not the place to get hammered.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
Like then when you're.
Speaker 1 (02:24):
Going out at night, you don't even want to drink
because you have early days, like why feel like So
it was just not even a drinking weekend. It was
just exhausting. So I'm sitting in the hair chair and
I was like, whoa, I do not feel good. I
stood up and I started kind of pacing back and forth,
and then my hands started tingling, my feet started tingling,
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they started kind of going numb. I was like losing
saliva in my mouth, and then my chest felt like
it was tightening and like I couldn't breathe and that
I was going to pass out. And I've had anxiety before,
and it was so crazy because I know I told
you guys that after Special Forces my anxiety went away,
and it did. And then all of a sudden, like
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I don't even know if this was an anxiety attack
or a panic attack, Like it was something that I've
never experienced in my life before. So I look over
at Christian, my cousin who does my makeup, Lena, she
does my hair. I literally looked over at them and
I go cold, nine one one, like I feel like
I'm having a heart attack, and.
Speaker 2 (03:28):
They called nine one one.
Speaker 1 (03:29):
I was sitting on the ground because it was cold
and my body was so hot. They were putting like
cold towels all over my body, all over my head,
and my body was like overheating that like they were
literally it was literally making the cold towels warm, and
I just felt like I was going to pass out,
have a heart attack, die, like I didn't know what
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was happening to me. So immediately, like obviously, my hairdresser
called my mom. She was staying at a different hotel.
She's rushing over, and I like blacked out, Like I
didn't pass out, but I was just I was blacked
out and like just super scared. And finally the ambulance came,
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which it felt like an hour, but it was honestly
probably like ten minutes. They came and they were like
hooking me up to all these machines and all these
to check my vitals and take a picture of my
heart and to see my oxygen levels and everything, and
all of a sudden, I look over and I see
my uncle. Then I see a Bravo like big Boss
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Bravo walking and I was like, oh my gosh, guys,
like I'm so sorry, And.
Speaker 2 (04:44):
It was like just the craziest thing. But they.
Speaker 1 (04:48):
They were hooking me up to everything, and my heart
looked normal, my oxygen levels looked normal, my heart rate
was obviously a little elevated because of what was happening,
but my sugar was okay. Everything else was okay, and
they said, you know, if you go to the hospital,
they'll just run all these tests again and they'll probably
send you home because you're perfectly fine. So I ended
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up getting an ivy come to my hotel room and
really just like fill me with everything that I need,
like nutrients and everything like that, but my body is
still really weak. I slept the entire plane ride. I
took a little bit of I took a little load
off of my schedule. On Sunday at Bravocan, I did
my panels, but I just kind of relaxed a little
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bit when it came to my photo moments and just
kind of letting myself take a beat. I was taking
little naps in between in the exact green rooms and
just really giving my body a rest. I think the
panic attack like put my body into a like into shock,
and like I that made me even more exhausted, and
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like I was just shaking and it was just very scary.
So I still obviously wanted to go to Bravokan, and
work comes first, and I take my work very seriously,
even though everyone literally told me like you are crazy
and you do not have to go to for today,
like your health is more important. But after the IVY
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and after the paramedics like telling me everything was okay,
and like my mom and my uncle and everyone being there,
and I was like, okay, I think I'm okay. Like
I'm still going to go to work. But I did
take a couple of things off the schedule just to,
you know, just to let me rest a little bit.
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But yeah, it was the scariest thing of my entire life.
And my next day, my day off is on Wednesday,
where I'm going to take it easy on Wednesday. But yeah,
I just landed from the Red Eye this morning. I
have the Wicked premiere tonight. I have a bunch of
Special Forces press tomorrow because, as you guys know, the
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season finale of Special Forces is coming out on Thursday.
I'm so excited. I cannot wait for you guys to
see it. We actually did get a sneak peek of
this week's episode, which we didn't get episodes beforehand for
Special Forces. So when I'm not as tired, I'm gonna
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watch it because every time I lay in my bed,
I fall asleep. So I have the Wicked premiere tonight
and I am so excited for it. But coming straight
home after and going right to bed because tomorrow morning
is another six am morning. I have Amazon Live first
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and then Special Forces Press, so it's going to be
another long day. But Wednesday is my day that I
am resting for real and not doing a thing. And
I think I'm gonna make weekly ivy drips a part
of my a part of my every day routine because
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that thing made me feel great and maybe just you know,
I don't know, I have to. I don't know why
that happened to me. I think it might have been,
like you, we also were not hydrating ourselves the way
that we should. I think it was dehydration, sleep deprived
and just kind of being a little overworked. I think
it was. It was. It was a lot, But I
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need to realize, you know, within myself, sometimes you don't
have to say yes to everything and just kind of
give my body a break. Because I don't even think
it was Bravo con you know that sent me over
the edge. I think just everything that I do on
a day to day basis, it's very, very exhausting.
Speaker 2 (08:50):
So I need to listen to my body.
Speaker 1 (08:54):
Sometimes then I wonder why I wake up and I'm like, oh,
I'm so tired. I'm sure you guys have seen. We
are in a very good place with my aunt and uncle,
and I seriously could not be happier. We went to
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his comedy show on Saturday night, and he is so funny.
Speaker 2 (09:22):
I couldn't believe how funny he was. I was dying.
Speaker 1 (09:26):
My mom was dying just watching her, like watch her brother.
It was so cute. She had a smile on her
face the whole time, and she was just mesmerized watching him.
She ended up going up on stage with him, and
that was just hilarious. They're just not She's not real.
She's just so funny.
Speaker 2 (09:46):
But it feels really good. I don't know.
Speaker 1 (09:50):
I think this time, out of everything, it feels really
just different and real.
Speaker 2 (09:57):
I think.
Speaker 1 (09:59):
A lot of people are, you know, questioning it, and
that's okay, You're allowed to have your opinion. But I
can promise you that if my mom did not feel
it to be real and genuine in her heart, she
would not be doing this right now. And I think
that goes for all of us. We are in a
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time in our lives where we're all not getting any younger,
and it's crazy that fifteen years have passed of dealing
with this family feud and showing everybody that this is normal,
because quite honestly, it was embarrassing and disgusting and we're
all ashamed of it that this was the representation of
our family, because this is not how you know, we
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were all raised.
Speaker 2 (10:44):
And this is not what This is not.
Speaker 1 (10:49):
Like a loving Italian family that you know, we all
were raised to be. And unfortunately, obviously things got in
the way and things got really out of hand. But
now I think we're all out of time in our
lives where we don't want to fight anymore. We just
want to love and enjoy each other's company, and I
just want to be close with my cousins again and
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have my uncle back in my life and have my
aunt back in my life. I think it's you know,
it's takes more energy to be mad and stay mad
and really, you know, hold grudges and hold this resentment.
It takes more energy to do that than to just
kind of let the past, go own what has gone
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wrong in the past, and just move on and realize
that this is way more important than anything, Like my
mom was not in my staying in my hotel, so
looking over and obviously I had my cousin who's I
make up artist and Christian there, but looking over and
seeing my uncle, I was like WHOA, Like that was
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everything to me because just having family there and having
that support there and it was it was beautiful. Like
I was like, well, you know, this is what it
should have always been. And it's so sad that it
ever that this ever had to stop, because it's in us.
We are family people. We will be there for our
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family no matter what. After Saturday of Bravocan, I had
a film for Next Gen and then I shot right
over to my uncle's comedy show. The rest of my
castmates went out, and you know, they knew I had
this and they could tell this was something I wanted
to do and something I was so excited to go to.
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So yeah, family before everything, And you know, I actually
loved my ZM Melyssa's caption. Don't question it, just support it,
and that's really what we need from all of you.
Just love that this is happening. Support that this is happening.
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And if you don't, you're just asking for a family
to stay broken. And that's a you problem. That's a
you problem. We are going to keep thriving and being
so happy that this is where we're at and loving
and embracing it. And just like my mom's caption was love, love, love,
and that is that is what's happening, and that is
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where we're at. So busy, busy weeks, busy lives. But
just now, take care of yourself, take care of your body,
listen to your body, and just be happy. I think
you guys could see it a lot of the BRAVOCN
interviews that I've done.
Speaker 2 (13:45):
This is.
Speaker 1 (13:48):
My mom just asked me, do you want Bella?
Speaker 2 (13:50):
Like, yes, i want my dog back. Thank you.
Speaker 1 (13:52):
I just landed from Bravo Kon, Like, give me a minute,
I'm gonna go get her. But this is the happiest
I've ever been, regardless of obviously working myself and needing
to maybe take care of myself a little more, this
is the happiest I've ever been in my life. Just
moving into my new place, my mom and uncle reconciling,
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just work has been amazing. Life has been amazing. I'm
so excited for you guys to see the finale of
Special Forces and yeah, this is what life is all about.
So I'm so so happy, genuinely, and thank you guys
for loving and supporting me and always being there for
me throughout my journey. You guys have been amazing and
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seeing you all at Bravo Con was just the best
feeling in the world. Seeing how much you guys love
and support me and how you guys have really been
there throughout my entire life. It's truly amazing and that's
the best part of Bravocan because I would not be
where I am if it wasn't for you guys, and
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your love and support means the absolute world to me.
So just know, if it wasn't for you guys, I
would not be where I am today. And I love
and support you guys more than you know, and I
appreciate your love and support towards me. And that is
it for this week's GIA Diaries. I will see you
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guys soon. Love you guys. Bye.