The Internet Is Ruining Us

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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.
She cooked, she cleaned, cared for her children and the
man of the house, and of course.

Speaker 2 (00:08):
She didn't talk back.

Speaker 1 (00:09):
She was both.

Speaker 2 (00:10):
Obedient and soft by nature.

Speaker 1 (00:12):
She was a good woman who always made good choices.
That we're good mom's bad choices?

Speaker 3 (00:18):
Who single mom?

Speaker 1 (00:19):
Who said? But the patriarchy shared all.

Speaker 3 (00:21):
Their bad choices and found out they were so bad
after all, we're experts. Overhairs and your new vestie. Sit
back and near the ride. I can do a pat
on my I can do a bad all on my
Welcome back to good mom's bad choices. I'm Erica and

(00:43):
I'm Mela. Happy Humpday, bitchy, happy motherfucking hump day. It's
another grand Wednesday with the good moms. How are you feeling, dear.

Speaker 1 (00:52):
I feel good. I'm a little bit under the weather,
but I'm healthy. I'm tan, I'm thriving great. I am too,
I'm not under the weather. I'm never under the weather.

Speaker 3 (01:02):
I feel like I rarely get sick, thank to the heavens,
because I can't handle it. I don't want to get sick.

Speaker 1 (01:08):
I feel all right over here too.

Speaker 3 (01:12):
Well. Usually we start the show and then we open up.
But today, you guys, we have some very excited gentlemen
on the show. And you know, it's rare that we
have gentlemen on the show. And it's even rare that
we have two gentlemen on the show. And we have
two grand gentlemen, not grand gentleman, one of which I

(01:35):
went to elementary school with since I'm a child, and
the other is my friend of me slash side husband
to hear more and Patrick Cloud of the Damn Internet
You Scary Podcast.

Speaker 1 (01:51):
You guys went to elementary school together.

Speaker 3 (01:52):
Yes, oh kindergarten. Actually. Fun fact, his older brother was
my first boyfriend and he has the same birthday as
my current husband, so it was always writing in the stars.

Speaker 4 (02:05):
I don't know that his brother does.

Speaker 3 (02:07):
Yeah, you know his brother, remember he he hosted our
first live show, Ryan Houston.

Speaker 1 (02:11):
Oh ship, that's your bro.

Speaker 3 (02:15):
The resemblance. Shout out to Ryan. What's his uh? His
his his YouTube right now?

Speaker 1 (02:22):
That's pop it Golden Hour.

Speaker 3 (02:24):
Golden Hour, Ryan Houston, who does the Golden Hour. Yeah,
thank you guys for coming on our show.

Speaker 4 (02:30):
Absolutely, thank you for having us.

Speaker 3 (02:31):
Of course, I couldn't wait to have you guys on
the show, especially to hear so I could chastise you
publicly on my platform. You love each other so much
and all we do is talk ship but then love
each other. But talk ship and love each other right
to hear lies, lies and deception. He was just at

(02:52):
my birthday party all weekend, like you the bomb, big Mama.
I was like, tell me to hear you the.

Speaker 5 (02:58):
Bomb big Babi before. Yeah, I told you that the confidence.

Speaker 4 (03:02):
Now you've never heard again.

Speaker 1 (03:03):
Damn Live podcast. I tell you a little flosy.

Speaker 3 (03:12):
Eric and I were on damn Internet. You're scary like
two three years ago.

Speaker 1 (03:16):
Yeah, I had to be like almost four years ago.

Speaker 4 (03:19):
That's when we first met.

Speaker 1 (03:20):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (03:21):
Yeah, it was like four years ago because I think
maybe Alonda had just moved here, and I was like,
we're gonna go to here's birthday party because my man
needs new friends. And to hear you, guys, you're gonna
best friends. And I set them up like a mom,
and now they're best friends in the whole white world.

Speaker 5 (03:33):
That's my dog. I'll tell you what. Like Lando, I'm
usually the aggressor. When I like said I'm gonna be
some friends with somebody, I'm like, yo, niggas pull up here.
We're gonna be doing this. We're gonna be popping. It's
gonna be great. Orlando invited me over to the house.
He's like, cool up, I'm gonna cook for you.

Speaker 4 (03:47):
I was like what.

Speaker 5 (03:48):
He's like, you never had is it a and sewtfish?
And I was like nah, He's like, yeah, come on over.
I had never had it before. So I got on
the phone when I was like this nigga trying to
fuck bro. I ain't never had a nigga invite me
over for a home cooked meal and then Jamaican at that.
And I get there and nig ain't got no shirt on.
He got his cross beads on. I was like, I'm
gonna just stay by the door. He's like, you take

(04:09):
your shoes off.

Speaker 1 (04:09):
I'm gonna keep it my mom.

Speaker 5 (04:10):
I might have to run, but that's that's been my
nigga hundred cross Well, he got the waist beads on,
but they crossed his chest like Ammo like Rambo.

Speaker 3 (04:20):
To hear, always think somebody trying to fuck people.

Speaker 4 (04:23):
Gottau me he because I'm like a leprechaun.

Speaker 1 (04:26):
How many black Gingers.

Speaker 4 (04:27):
Do you know?

Speaker 3 (04:27):
Do you know many times. I've heard this at our friendship.
I know niggas with freckles, my nigga.

Speaker 4 (04:32):
You know black gingers with freckles that play tennis.

Speaker 1 (04:35):
He thinks I was first seen actually call a black
ginger with but he is a gay man.

Speaker 4 (04:42):
I know, Na, do you really know?

Speaker 3 (04:45):
No, I wish I did that.

Speaker 4 (04:46):
Hilarious see ah got shut the.

Speaker 3 (04:50):
Fuck up, just kidding. I mean, look at your calls
this niggas guy.

Speaker 5 (04:59):
It was cragny for the long it's time. I never
thought Pat was light skinned. I always was like, he's
not light skin. I thought he was more like brown skin.

Speaker 1 (05:04):
But I guess he is.

Speaker 3 (05:06):
You know, black people have the most interesting take on skin,
the color spectrum, because we're also for yourself like skin.

Speaker 4 (05:16):
But you're like, I'm more red, I'm light skinned. I'm red.

Speaker 3 (05:18):
It's a little my little red bone relaxed.

Speaker 1 (05:21):
Wow, to call a big red balls redbone only for women,
I feel like I've.

Speaker 5 (05:26):
Only heard it regarded to women, like I got me
a little red bone, little red thing.

Speaker 3 (05:30):
You know, feminist. I like to use things both ways.

Speaker 4 (05:33):
Yeah, like.

Speaker 3 (05:36):
Yellow is I don't that's everything I never knew it was.
It was gender specific.

Speaker 5 (05:40):
No, we're not high yellow, I don't think, but red Bone.
I had only grown up hearing it.

Speaker 3 (05:44):
That's your new nickname.

Speaker 4 (05:45):
No it's not.

Speaker 1 (05:46):
I will block you, mister Red. Don't mister Red. Come on,
that's that's.

Speaker 3 (05:52):
My little redbone right here to hear.

Speaker 5 (05:54):
It's not that bad you got.

Speaker 3 (06:00):
How did you guys come to be? How did my
two love and my my initial brother love interest and
to hear come to be? How did you guys.

Speaker 4 (06:07):
Meet all deaf?

Speaker 5 (06:08):
Yeah, we used to working all death together and Pat
at that time was you were more producer?

Speaker 4 (06:13):
Actually you first.

Speaker 6 (06:14):
Started, I was a Yeah, I was a I think
I was the equipment manager when you pulled up.

Speaker 3 (06:19):
Really okay, I'll talk about walking working your way out.

Speaker 6 (06:22):
Yeah, yeah, I didn't know what any of the equipment was,
so that they.

Speaker 3 (06:28):
Figured it out quickly.

Speaker 5 (06:28):
You didn't know ship, Let's see if you can produce
something because this isn't I don't know where anything is.
And then he became a producer and director, and then
I came home around the same time as my co
host Meg and we were just part time at the time.
This is when the studio was in Culver City, and
then we moved downtown and shared a building with the Clippers,

(06:49):
and that's when we really started jail because we started
working on a lot more projects together. And so when
All Deaf kind of took a break from the public
while they were transitioning and getting new owners and stuff
like that, me and Pat had just started uh a
podcast called the Internet Undefeated Undefeated because the company had

(07:12):
kind of went under when dark for a second, we
wanted to keep the momental gone, so we came up
with damn in a net, You're scary. And initially we
started we were filming with two iPhones.

Speaker 4 (07:21):
Actually we did that for like the first three years.

Speaker 3 (07:24):
We did that for a long time.

Speaker 5 (07:25):
We did that for a long because we were doing
it that place first, Yeah, and then keVs and we
did that kiss place.

Speaker 1 (07:30):
It was three iPhones. And how annoying wasn't to get
that ship off the phone into the computer? Well it was,
it was. I'm only saying that because we did the
same ship.

Speaker 5 (07:39):
It wasn't that bad because the high editing on on
on the mac, so it was air dropping it.

Speaker 3 (07:46):
The episodes probably were fucking two hours. Yeah, that's true,
because we'd have to like break it up and hour
and a half. Well, maybe you had better iPhones than us, because.

Speaker 1 (07:54):
It all depends on It was a huge struggle. What
year was this? Yeah, okay, maybe maybe had the twenty
seventeen phones. Yeah, that's when air Drop was really tempered.
Middle Sometimes we didn't have her doing. We had to
put it.

Speaker 3 (08:08):
We were the equipment man, so we didn't understand like
the beat, like the seconds per whatever, Like the sound
wouldn't fucking match up. It was the whole thing. It
was a It makes me want to smoke. Actually, I'm
rolling up the background. Even even thinking about being in
the dining room trying to air drop and match up
that ship literally stresses me out, and I get stressed
pretty easily.

Speaker 4 (08:26):
So i'm you wear it well. Yeah, you wear your
stress well.

Speaker 3 (08:30):
I kind of think that's the problem though nobody knows
that I'm stressed, and then we don't take you seriously inside,
and then one day they're like she was just fine
with the I was like, I'm dying on the inside.

Speaker 5 (08:41):
I'm seeing I've seen you in all I think forms
of emotions.

Speaker 3 (08:45):
I think that's have you never seen me cry or sad? Yeah?
When when.

Speaker 1 (08:52):
Lying? No, absolutely I've seen you cry tears of.

Speaker 3 (08:55):
Joy, joy maybe in Vegas. Okay, I was getting married yeah.

Speaker 4 (09:00):
Still counts still and then oh fuck, we were at not.

Speaker 1 (09:06):
When did you see me cry?

Speaker 3 (09:08):
Right?

Speaker 1 (09:09):
Prove I wanted what day was it? This is my diary.

Speaker 3 (09:12):
I go home, dear diary. That bitch finally cried today.
She thought she's so strong. Wrong, She's a weak ass
bitch and I knew it, smiley face, you know what?
You know what? This weekend I turned thirty eight, and

(09:33):
we were together because he's my best friend enemy, and
I realized this weekend I was like, I am usually
so chill and well collected that when I'm not doing well,
nobody respects me. Nobody respects that I'm not doing well
like I was. We went to a sex party. Shout
out to the play we had. I launched my birthday
party with the Matrix play party, which was beautiful and wonderful.

(09:55):
But I think because I am well versed in tantra
and like very familiar or very like sensitive to sex energy,
sometimes it gets like a big It could be a big,
it can be overwhelming.

Speaker 4 (10:07):
And ready to go.

Speaker 3 (10:08):
I mean I had been there for eight hours. So
it was a beautiful party and it was everything was great,
except at the end, I like did a little chanting
and then I was like, oh, maybe tapped in too hard.
And then I was like, Orlando, it was like in
the mid stroke, and I was like, I'm ready. I
think I need to shift and need to take him
on it. And he got mad.

Speaker 4 (10:27):
He was like, I've been holding this not all night. No,
it wasn't.

Speaker 3 (10:32):
Even that far in. He was just like, this is
where I thrive. And I was like, I'm having a
hard time. He literally said these words to me, like
this is my space. And I said, actually, this is
my party, and it's my birthday. Actually it's my birthday
and I'm coming married.

Speaker 4 (10:49):
What's yours is yours.

Speaker 3 (10:51):
But I think I wear my my stress too well.
And so now in my thirty eight years of living,
I'm gonna I decided that very moment at the party
suck everybody. Everybody's gonna hear what the fuck I have
to say. So I put my foot down. And so
for those of you that know me and don't know me,
I'm gonna start putting my foot down and I'm going
to say everything I need to say. And so if
I need to cry in the middle of the fucking party,

(11:11):
I will. I did not cry at the middle of
this party, but I almost punched it again the face
which was my husband. We made up later actually to
hear was there. I was laying on his lap and
he's like, I just want you to have fun. I
just want so much into this. I want you to
have fun. I'm like, He's like, I want you to
do whatever you want to do. I was like, I'm
doing exactly what I want to do, and he was like.
He looked at me and he said, actually, I want
you to do what I want you to do. What

(11:31):
I want you to do, and I said. I got
up and I said, that's the fucking pra I said,
I'm so happy you said it. I'm so happy you
said it before I had to say it, because this
is exactly how I was feeling. This is about you.
He was like, yeah, kind of. He was like, you
know what, I'm sorry I did make it about me.

Speaker 4 (11:46):
He did, but he admitted it.

Speaker 5 (11:48):
He was like, this is the first year I've been
in the position financially to provide for her fully. I
didn't want to have to worry about anything. I didn't
want to have to lift the finger. I didn't want
to have to think about car transportation where we're staying.

Speaker 4 (12:02):
And I was able to do that.

Speaker 1 (12:03):
And so he just yeah, yeah, he was just a
FESTI he was.

Speaker 3 (12:06):
Just AESTI literally looked at me and said, actually, don't
do what you want to do. Yeah, do what I
want you to do. And I said, nigga, you're out
of your goddamn mind. And then that's when it turned on,
and I said, I gotta put my foot down. Niggas
are going to know who the boss is and that's me.
God damn it.

Speaker 1 (12:20):
And you're in the mood because of chanting. No, I'm
genuinely you said. That's when it shifted.

Speaker 6 (12:27):
So I kind of wanted to ask about that part.

Speaker 1 (12:32):
What was chanting?

Speaker 3 (12:33):
Thank you for listening.

Speaker 4 (12:34):
She got thirty eight ancestors inside of her and they
was like, it is time to let him know.

Speaker 1 (12:40):
I thought chanting was the time to leave every party.
That's what we call a seance.

Speaker 5 (12:47):
I will say nothing, but we in the middle of
the sex party. It's fucking going on, and Mila's lightning
forty eight candles.

Speaker 1 (12:54):
Forty eight candles.

Speaker 5 (12:55):
She's lighting instants and taking says, tell the fucking ear, well,
little I'm not answer about it here.

Speaker 3 (13:02):
We tried to get that.

Speaker 6 (13:06):
Killed.

Speaker 3 (13:10):
So that's a very good question, Patrick, And the answer
to that is, I'm a sexologist and a tangent practitioner
that's well versed in a specific lineage, and in that
lineage there are specific chants that you can tap into.
And I thought it was a good time to tap
into the life force energy because everybody was fucking and
I had a good idea. I was like, there was
a good amount of white people at this party, and
I was like, white people, I mean, we collaborated, and

(13:34):
I thought, this is you know, this is a good
time to tapp into the white privilege and the audacity
because white people don't have it, don't really have any cares.
And I said, I'm gonna I'm gonna tap in. I'm
gonna take some of this.

Speaker 4 (13:46):
She did immediately. She started calling me a hard r
right after.

Speaker 3 (13:49):
That, just like shut up, nigger, and hey, hey up,
that never happened. Take it back, I take it back
on camera. That's not true. Such a comedian, you think
everything the fucking joke. Anyway, there are some chances that
you could tap into. And while I was getting my
pussy a, so this is a good time to like,
use my chance.

Speaker 4 (14:06):
Well that's when you're chanted.

Speaker 3 (14:07):
Wow, you're supposed to, but probably not with a room
full of other people. And then I got really tapped
in and I was like, who this is a bit much.
There's a lot of fucking going on. It's just like
a lot of life force energy. If you are very
sensitive to certain energy and you're aware of it, and
you're aware of your body, then you'll know. So that's
why the chanting maybe have like you know, tapped in
too deeply to the to the every energy in the room.

(14:30):
I'm a witch, Patrick, I'm a fairy witch.

Speaker 1 (14:34):
A night for you both.

Speaker 3 (14:35):
Yeah, you can, you can be whatever you want to be.

Speaker 1 (14:38):
Wings are broomstick, but we're both wings on the broomstick.

Speaker 3 (14:43):
In case something happen to the broomstick. I just I'm
also the goddess of indulgence, so excessive it would be
a good a good word to describe me. You are
the only thing we've agreed to today. Yes, anyway, did
you enjoy the sex party since you weren't chanting?

Speaker 1 (14:59):
It was?

Speaker 5 (15:00):
Uh, it was probably the most will produced and thoroughly
produced play party I've ever been to. The theme was
throughout the entire event. They had you know, picture stations
before you entered the place, you could take pictures, and
like they had missions for everyone, like they had like
welcome missions and then like a little spicy missions.

Speaker 1 (15:22):
Tons of of of drinks and.

Speaker 3 (15:27):
There was niggas and suits passing out our dirves.

Speaker 4 (15:29):
It was crazy and a lot of them white, which
felt appropriate for jun Yeah yeah, yeah, you don't.

Speaker 3 (15:38):
Know, but give me one of those meat balls again,
come back here.

Speaker 5 (15:43):
But it was it was fire and it was and
it felt really low stakes as for us, Like sometimes
I've been the event saying people just like what.

Speaker 4 (15:50):
Time you was getting started, like what was going on?

Speaker 5 (15:53):
This is this feels creepy, But this one it was
super chill, super relaxed, and everybody was like themed out.

Speaker 4 (15:59):
It was right. It was a great time.

Speaker 5 (16:00):
I had a great time and it was open bar.
I liked that they had planned out everything. There was
no cash, no hierarchy, uh, no tipping or nothing. Everything
was included in your ticket so you didn't need a
reason to bring any cash.

Speaker 4 (16:14):
So it was it was a super dope thing. Shout
out to Michael for putting it.

Speaker 3 (16:17):
And the tickets weren't cheap because oh yeah.

Speaker 4 (16:20):
Yeah, they weep out like heio heatos priced people out too.

Speaker 3 (16:23):
Now have you ever been to a play party before?
But you were you were gonna come that. Where do
you wish you would have joined the festivities?

Speaker 6 (16:30):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (16:31):
My brother shout out to Ryan Golden Hour, he through
the Golden.

Speaker 3 (16:34):
You've ruined it for your brother. I sure you don't
want to come enough. I can't imagine Patrick getting a
play party setting. Do you think you could have? Do
you think you would have been fine? Yeah?

Speaker 6 (16:49):
I mean I'm not like I mean, I would probably
just be like, you know, chilling washing and stuff, you know,
like oh cool, oh Daryl, you know, but I'm never
like I'm not like, oh, you know, like I can hang.

Speaker 4 (17:02):
I just don't be outside a lot. So people don't think.

Speaker 1 (17:03):
I wanted to see him at the morning.

Speaker 4 (17:05):
I like, they just don't do that right here, I'm like, yeah,
everywhere else too.

Speaker 3 (17:10):
At one point there was like chains from the from
the vaults, like high ceilings. I don't know if there's things,
I don't think if anybody saw one girl, she she
had like a chain performance and she came out a
black girl, and then she had like a baby chainsaw
and she was like then like the the fire was
like going around. I was like, wow, that looks dangerous. Yeah,

(17:30):
and it was like very was also very June teens
because she was cutting the chains and I was like girl.

Speaker 1 (17:36):
At first, I was like a black woman was performing
in chains.

Speaker 3 (17:39):
Was like hew. But then she then she cut him
with the chainsaw, and I said, I wasn't expecting.

Speaker 5 (17:43):
I was noting, and I thought as soon as I
saw the change, I was like, this seems a little
too on the nose.

Speaker 3 (17:49):
Wait then I saw a nigga hanging from the change.
Oh Jesus, okay, no, no, no, no, no, okay no
like this like handhand, foot, foot, And then the girl
was giving him head while he was spinning in a circle.

Speaker 4 (18:02):
And then he was like yeah, and I was just
like this, she's just kept going around because.

Speaker 3 (18:06):
He and I was. I was at the top looking
down and I was like, no, that's something you don't
see every day.

Speaker 4 (18:11):
Everything at that fucking party was something you don't see
every day.

Speaker 1 (18:14):
I don't think you see much of any of those things.

Speaker 4 (18:16):
And we're playing it really cool. That ship was fire
as fuck.

Speaker 5 (18:18):
I ain't even gonna hold don I'm tired of playing
it cool. That ship was crazy. Okay, it was crazy crazy.
I couldn't have been high on that ship like that
that I need. I needed to be sober for that event.
It was.

Speaker 4 (18:31):
It was a psight to see.

Speaker 1 (18:32):
Wow.

Speaker 3 (18:33):
I thought it was pretty impressive. I'm the type of
person who likes to go and see things that I've
never seen before. Though some people are like that's too much,
I'm like, bring it. I want to see what the
Fu's going on over there. So if you're curious, then
you want to tap into the play that's the place
to go to, the top notch high end NA.

Speaker 4 (18:48):
That's the Fountain Blue of play parties. I mean, that's
it was good.

Speaker 5 (18:54):
They had a massage station that was like non sexual,
but like if you just needed to go and relax,
massage you.

Speaker 3 (18:59):
You had a loom cups to keep up and they
had our names on all of the cups.

Speaker 4 (19:03):
Bro it was. It was nice and it was like
real order. It's not just like you know, meatballs and
bro it was. They did it right.

Speaker 3 (19:11):
There was a chef there. She'd bring your chef out.

Speaker 4 (19:13):
Yeah, that was great. It was a good time.

Speaker 1 (19:15):
Why you didn't come, I was out of town.

Speaker 3 (19:18):
I was it was fun. Though it was.

Speaker 1 (19:21):
I was on my little solo vacation.

Speaker 4 (19:25):
How often do you do that? Like, oh, really nice?
I thought that you would have been way more.

Speaker 1 (19:30):
I know I've done like I've gone places alone, but
I've never gone to multiple cities by myself. Oh you
did like that, like a multiple city?

Speaker 4 (19:36):
Where all did you go?

Speaker 1 (19:37):
I went to Mexico City and I went to.

Speaker 5 (19:40):
I would not be able to tell people I went
to that second place because I not not to say
that motherfucker right there now, I do love Mexico City.
Mexico City one of my favorite places vacation, so beautiful,
good food. It feels like a miniature in New York.

Speaker 1 (19:50):
It is because like a jungle. Yeah, the nature just
like bursting.

Speaker 4 (19:55):
Through the but good food, good music everywhere.

Speaker 1 (19:59):
It's like one of my favorite good because a lot
I hear that.

Speaker 6 (20:03):
That's kind of dangerous right there for for American tourist,
ye about.

Speaker 1 (20:08):
Everything about Mexico.

Speaker 4 (20:10):
Anything, any problems. I didn't have any.

Speaker 5 (20:12):
And I was walking late at night all by myself
when I was in Mexico City, just like the Budio.

Speaker 1 (20:17):
For sure, probably you shouldn't just like you, we probably
wouldn't go to the rolling sixties at past nine pm
by yourself, you know, like you know, somewhere to go,
where to be. But I was fine. I was I
and I was alone. I was a woman. I felt
I felt safe the whole time.

Speaker 3 (20:30):
I wish we could have a travel show that we
went into the underground of sex world and food, just
putting that out there, food and sex.

Speaker 1 (20:39):
Yeah, I mean that's never allowed cameras usually, right.

Speaker 3 (20:42):
Uh, well, you know, I met this girl at the
party and she was saying she just got back from
Dubai and there's like an underground sex world in Dubai. Bitch,
I said, bitch, you are risky, because.

Speaker 4 (20:50):
Yeah, that's planning taking a joint.

Speaker 1 (20:53):
I said, girl, well, the underground it's run by all
the wealthy men, so it's it's like run by the
people that are condemning the women.

Speaker 3 (20:59):
So I think she said a lot of expects it's
an ex pat sex world, and I was like, you're
you're really torisk your life for this time.

Speaker 1 (21:07):
I said, I'm not the rich.

Speaker 4 (21:08):
Man that run that. Motherfucker are the ones that I
ain't got to worry about going to.

Speaker 1 (21:12):
You because there is an underground sex like like space,
but it is run by. I mean, I don't know
about the xpat one, but like the men, Oh.

Speaker 3 (21:20):
That's the ones that they were like a group on,
like all the bitches. All the bitches were going to
get shitted on.

Speaker 1 (21:23):
No, no, no, I mean like it's I mean they
probably have. They probably all different types.

Speaker 3 (21:27):
I'm sure you remember that time in like twenty seventeen,
all the bitches were going to do Bay and I
was like, is there a fucking two for one flight
to Dubai? You remember that? That's because they were getting
paid to get shitted on.

Speaker 5 (21:39):
To get shipped on, or to shipped on people to
get shipped probably both. Wait what it was always them
doing the ship now they.

Speaker 4 (21:47):
Would get the ship.

Speaker 3 (21:49):
Fifty k.

Speaker 1 (21:50):
It's a ship pro.

Speaker 3 (21:52):
They were getting fifty k. The sheikhs were paying bitches
like fifty k to go ship on Themy so.

Speaker 1 (21:59):
Fifty k and a free ticket and they're paying for
your hotel.

Speaker 4 (22:03):
No, you're not doing it.

Speaker 3 (22:04):
I'm not going into the country.

Speaker 1 (22:05):
Is there any logic behind that?

Speaker 4 (22:06):
Like a power thing, you gotta like like there's a.

Speaker 6 (22:11):
Power thing, there's a power thing and degradation because you know,
like you know Vince McMahon, now w w rain.

Speaker 4 (22:17):
You got pooping on people too?

Speaker 3 (22:19):
What do you mean he got caught?

Speaker 1 (22:20):
It's powerful people.

Speaker 6 (22:21):
Like the powerful people feel like once they got money,
they got women, they just want to you know, they're
just like the last thing I want to, well I need.

Speaker 5 (22:32):
Yeah, we just verbally saying I'm shitting on these niggas.
We don't really mean it, but I mean, I mean
that's taking. It's a whole another level.

Speaker 3 (22:39):
Like the smell.

Speaker 1 (22:40):
You get bored you, It doesn't matter what race you are,
you'll do some girding. Yeah, powerful people get way too
bored you.

Speaker 5 (22:46):
If you grow up with money and you have access
to everything, like regular sex gets boring and I imagine that.

Speaker 3 (22:52):
Don't believe that if you're like people. Proven people always
say like, oh, if you're so rich, then you get gay.
Like niggas don't just want to say gay, bored and rich.

Speaker 4 (23:00):
Yeah, I wouldn't say gay, but I'm saying delation.

Speaker 3 (23:03):
Of gayness before you did some gay.

Speaker 4 (23:05):
Ships hard left.

Speaker 5 (23:07):
Yeah, I was talking about like the shipting and a
pan and stuff like I think you get advanced like
the water sports and the Kinks.

Speaker 1 (23:12):
I think. Yeah, I was gonna say, I was gonna
say it could just be drugs. You do enough drugs.
Actually that kind of felt good.

Speaker 4 (23:20):
I think it's power for sure, because it's always number.

Speaker 1 (23:22):
One is power then drugs.

Speaker 3 (23:24):
Would you guys?

Speaker 4 (23:25):
Should they wipe out the words or they just get
in a shower?

Speaker 1 (23:27):
I got questions because I.

Speaker 3 (23:29):
Don't know that rich they have a golden shower.

Speaker 6 (23:31):
Probably play with it a little bit, I think, like
I assume that the bedroom looks like you know, dexter plastic.

Speaker 1 (23:37):
Everywhere, they rub it all over, they put it in
their mouth.

Speaker 3 (23:43):
Let's be doing this, okay for for one hundred.

Speaker 4 (23:47):
K No, does it matter where they do it at?
Does that change your answer?

Speaker 5 (23:53):
Like if they're not shipping, yeah, like if they're not
shipping on your chest, like I.

Speaker 4 (23:58):
Love the balls of feet. I just want to ship
on the ball of your foot, your left foot. That's
all I want to do, Just to ship your belly.
But I know yeah, yeah, yeah, in the belly. But anyway,
because you don't know if it's gonna be solid.

Speaker 3 (24:13):
Yeah, I forgot about people eat like certain foods so
they could produce a show.

Speaker 1 (24:18):
I'm thinking about is parasites. Parasites as they break open
the poop.

Speaker 4 (24:23):
That's all you're thinking about.

Speaker 1 (24:27):
Yeah, I mean, I'm thinking about a lot of things.

Speaker 5 (24:29):
What if what if they come pick you up from
the airport and they like give you a little taste
and a fart and they roll the windows up and
so oh, yeah, this is what you're getting ready for.

Speaker 3 (24:36):
Yeah. People people have fart kinks too.

Speaker 4 (24:40):
Yeah I was.

Speaker 5 (24:42):
I don't know if it was like a funny video,
but this ship was like farting bottles yours them making money.

Speaker 1 (24:51):
She's farting in jars.

Speaker 3 (24:52):
And one of her homegirls had a guy who would
like text her all the time asking to see pictures
of her ship, and she would send them some Oh my.

Speaker 1 (25:01):
God, people, man, that's too freaky.

Speaker 4 (25:04):
I don't know what activate.

Speaker 5 (25:07):
So I wonder does it activate something sexual or does
it activate something something else?

Speaker 1 (25:13):
Is just to like know what's coming out of your body,
like it's.

Speaker 4 (25:15):
Just you just made that.

Speaker 1 (25:17):
Huh, what did you eat?

Speaker 3 (25:19):
What else?

Speaker 4 (25:19):
What did you eat today?

Speaker 1 (25:20):
There's a lot of veis.

Speaker 4 (25:21):
I see it's kind of green greens.

Speaker 3 (25:23):
Today out there has these fetishes call us, we want
to interview. We could fuzze your face out. Maybe I
don't know if we've had that technology.

Speaker 1 (25:31):
But that's crazy. Have y'all made any bad choices this week?

Speaker 4 (25:37):
Not a bad mom, but a bad mom, so good.

Speaker 1 (25:46):
Is freaky choices? Yeah?

Speaker 6 (25:55):
I was about to say, like they're stupid, Like what
it's not even like it's not even a fun answer,
you know. I'm trying to think of a funner answer
than this.

Speaker 4 (26:05):
Just be honest, A bad choice.

Speaker 1 (26:10):
What are you laughing about over there?

Speaker 4 (26:12):
Ship?

Speaker 5 (26:12):
This is a fucking it's a hate paler ship for
me to choose from. I'm just trying to figure.

Speaker 4 (26:16):
Out what fucking what I need to fucking what does
that the hate thing do?

Speaker 6 (26:20):
What is it?

Speaker 3 (26:21):
What does it go about?

Speaker 4 (26:22):
No, but what's the one thing? No, it's the pickfork. Pitchfork, pitchfork, pitchfork.

Speaker 1 (26:26):
That's what it is.

Speaker 4 (26:27):
I need a pitchfork to get through all of it.
You have to go first, Yeah, you know, because like
if I do something crazy and you'd be like I
paid my rent, Like.

Speaker 1 (26:39):
That's that's the level of.

Speaker 4 (26:42):
Damn.

Speaker 1 (26:42):
I want a fun one. I know that made some
bad choices. It'll get inspired by your hears.

Speaker 4 (26:46):
All right, man?

Speaker 5 (26:51):
Uh, stand out all day drinking, partying, kicking it and
catching up with friends for dinner, hanging out in the
hotel to time for the afters, going to the afters drinking, partying, uh,
and then promising to pick somebody developed at the airport
at eight And when I just left the hotel at
six and I was like, all right, I can give

(27:11):
you an hour and a half asleep.

Speaker 1 (27:12):
Did you make it?

Speaker 3 (27:13):
Fuck?

Speaker 4 (27:14):
No, I just get there.

Speaker 5 (27:15):
I was like, listen, I ain't gonna make you get
into Ober because you gotta do the whole la exiting,
I got a black cart.

Speaker 4 (27:20):
I got him a black car.

Speaker 3 (27:21):
When he looked over at the hotels and I had
to pick up somebody in two hours, I said, nigga
call a car. Yeah, yeah, I think that's a ridiculous
call of car taker.

Speaker 4 (27:29):
I was.

Speaker 5 (27:30):
I was, and I I had to drop somebody off
before after I left the hotels, I had to go
to the valley drop somebody off. I was like, all right,
I'm just going and I should have just went out
to l A. I was like, I'm napping the car.

Speaker 4 (27:39):
I was like, my bed right there.

Speaker 1 (27:41):
I got in the car to hey, Lizen. Because my
word is.

Speaker 5 (27:45):
Big to me, like if I say I'm gonna do it,
I like to be a man in my words. So nah, man,
I said six alarms. I said six and l a
X pickup is like, that is true? That is real, real, friend,
I put my mom, I'm in a black cart.

Speaker 1 (28:01):
Friend.

Speaker 4 (28:01):
Yeah, yeah, what not better?

Speaker 5 (28:04):
Yeah, that's better because it's hard, like especially with lex
because it's hard to determine when the bags are gonna
come out, depending on what airline you come on. It's
just a lot just getting in sometimes can be twenty
thirty minutes getting in lax.

Speaker 4 (28:16):
So I was like, man, I just I'll just pay
the money. Man, this is less.

Speaker 1 (28:19):
It's somebody I ain't seen in like years.

Speaker 4 (28:21):
I'm paying that money. Bro.

Speaker 3 (28:23):
Everybody knows how to catch an uber. My dad asked
me to pick him up from somewhere the other day
and I told him no, or was it lax?

Speaker 4 (28:30):
No, it was just a bad daughter. No, it was
fucked up person. My dad fucked up person. Man, that's
what it is.

Speaker 3 (28:36):
My dad does that a lot.

Speaker 4 (28:38):
What actually to pick you.

Speaker 3 (28:39):
Has expectations that he didn't discuss.

Speaker 4 (28:41):
Your dad nutted and gave you life. You're here because.

Speaker 3 (28:44):
When the words you got pleasure out of that. Damn
I didn't ask to be here, and I damn sure
didn't ask to pick you up fifteen minutes out of
my way, and you know what, I'm thirty a. I
have boundaries.

Speaker 4 (28:56):
Fifteen minutes out of LA can literally just be four
miles in LA.

Speaker 3 (29:01):
Because debate.

Speaker 4 (29:03):
I was just I was, I was still going to
speaking on it. I had a thought on my mom,
I was gonna finish it my.

Speaker 3 (29:08):
Happy Father's Day.

Speaker 1 (29:09):
And he forgave me.

Speaker 3 (29:10):
I'm pretty sure, so sorry, dad, he did not forgive you.

Speaker 4 (29:13):
He texted me the other day like this, mother did.

Speaker 1 (29:15):
That Actually sounds exactly what like he would say.

Speaker 4 (29:17):
Yeah, Yeah, we've been talking and.

Speaker 3 (29:21):
I said, Lena, we're not picking him up.

Speaker 4 (29:24):
You have the baby with you denied the baby of
seeing her grandfather.

Speaker 1 (29:28):
Listen that So the next time when when Luna is
grown and she wanted to daddy, remember when you didn't
pick up the grandpa. Yeah, I'm not picking your ass.

Speaker 3 (29:36):
I'm not depending on anybody to get me from point
A to point b. Ever in my life, if I
can't get back, it's not happening because I'm a grown
ass woman.

Speaker 5 (29:44):
You're also collect you know, you know Daniels collecting infinity stones.
Mila is a collector of stragglers, and I have to
tell her ass. Hey, one time we hanging out. She
was like, I didn't make a stop and she popped
in the club and she comes out with.

Speaker 1 (30:03):
Six fucking people.

Speaker 4 (30:05):
SI fucking people always gonna drop them off.

Speaker 1 (30:07):
No the fuck we're not.

Speaker 4 (30:09):
No the fuck we not. I don't know these niggas
right home.

Speaker 5 (30:14):
I'm not letting all of these random ass niggas get
behind me in this fucking car.

Speaker 1 (30:17):
You crazy? And it was in her car, but I
didn't give them fuck.

Speaker 3 (30:20):
Nobody told you to tell my fucking business. That was
a private private what conversation experience?

Speaker 1 (30:24):
Were These just promises you made throughout the night.

Speaker 3 (30:26):
I just went in and then they were like, can
you get me right home? And I was like sure.
I'm like, we're six people.

Speaker 5 (30:30):
I'm like, and that's what she said, I got, I got,
I'm I'm coming back. Plans change a little bit. I'm like,
what what the fuck you mean plans? Because I'm in
the car, I'm in the loading zone right, I'm looking
around because we're also at also like three in the morning,
after our spot, and you know, after I was kind
of anything goes. Niggas walking up with chainsaws and ship
one nigga got like a like a baby dog and it's.

Speaker 4 (30:50):
On fire and he's swissing it around the fucking wild
wild West.

Speaker 5 (30:53):
We're two blocks over from skid row, like they're selling
body parts next to the guy selling hot dogs.

Speaker 1 (30:58):
She was like, Oh, coming up was some friends.

Speaker 3 (31:00):
I think you're from East St. Louis to hear.

Speaker 4 (31:02):
Yeah, that's exactly why I don't want to go back
to an environment.

Speaker 5 (31:04):
That he was here. He's alive because then niggas didn't
get in. M yeah, because only two were getting in.
I'm not letting all these niggas.

Speaker 4 (31:14):
I don't care. It's your car, no where they did
they live close?

Speaker 3 (31:17):
Yeah? Anyway, Uber, this is why I don't bring friends
on the show. I talked to you fucking much. We
have a wonderful game that we called Trigger.

Speaker 4 (31:30):
No y'all didn't say y'all bad choices.

Speaker 1 (31:32):
I know, it's just y'all. Oh, Pat, you come on,
we can move on.

Speaker 3 (31:37):
Come on, Pat, it's boring.

Speaker 4 (31:39):
Tell us it's not even like the Vibe but the show.

Speaker 3 (31:42):
You're Virgo, right, Pat? Yes, Virgo and Pisces. Can't you
tell the difference.

Speaker 6 (31:48):
I just didn't do anything this week, so I didn't
have any Okay, I I had to cancel on a
shoot because of choices that I made.

Speaker 3 (31:55):
You got too drunk?

Speaker 6 (31:57):
No, I was just I was just really tired and
it was like a shoot that I really made plans
or promises for.

Speaker 4 (32:04):
But I did feel bad boring to you to do
disappoint That's what I'm trying. That's what I'm trying to
do more of.

Speaker 1 (32:12):
You know, more people pleasing.

Speaker 4 (32:14):
Yeah, exactly, okay, So I'll tie it into something.

Speaker 3 (32:16):
Yeah, do you want to play Trigger? Yeah?

Speaker 4 (32:21):
Oh do you have?

Speaker 1 (32:21):
I gave it to you thought you're just telling me
to add stuff?

Speaker 3 (32:24):
Sorry I can.

Speaker 4 (32:25):
I can do it.

Speaker 3 (32:27):
I'm going to light the backwood as we play trigger.
So Trigger is a game that we play that we're
going to give you one word, and you're gonna give
us the first word that comes to mind. Don't think
about it too much, don't overthink about it, don't over
think about it.

Speaker 1 (32:39):
And I like this.

Speaker 3 (32:41):
We're smoking a true, a true rap aromatic. This is
one of my favorite Have you tried these guys? I
don't have to gut it or anything. It just comes
ready to go.

Speaker 4 (32:51):
Oh wow.

Speaker 1 (32:51):
That what makes it true?

Speaker 3 (32:52):
Yep?

Speaker 1 (32:53):
It's true, easy, peasy, simple, you ready for trigger.

Speaker 4 (32:57):
I've never smoked before, wore, I.

Speaker 1 (33:02):
Feel like I've smoked with you. Yeah, anyway, I've never
done drunks in my life ever.

Speaker 4 (33:11):
You never drake did no drugs, none of that.

Speaker 5 (33:13):
Ship sober Actually time, I actually just got my license,
uh to be a pastor.

Speaker 4 (33:18):
So we're about to start the church, so.

Speaker 3 (33:20):
We can call you pastor pastor pastors more to hear
pastor moore more. That sounds kind of freak.

Speaker 1 (33:26):
She's opening a church's chicken.

Speaker 3 (33:32):
Churches is disgusting. Watch eats churches.

Speaker 4 (33:38):
Not a real nigga ever planning to be Sometimes I.

Speaker 3 (33:42):
Think that does not eat church's chicken in your hands.

Speaker 4 (33:45):
That's real nigga ship. That is real nigga shire.

Speaker 5 (33:47):
She real nigga adjacent though she want the accolades of
being a real nigga because she hung with real niggas
and she sucked a couple of real niggas.

Speaker 3 (33:55):
I'm a rich, real nigga church.

Speaker 4 (33:57):
You shut your valley ass up. You're not real. You're
a real nigga. Move right now, be fine.

Speaker 3 (34:02):
I have all the niggas. Yeah, I have the luxury
apartment to watch.

Speaker 4 (34:05):
Whatever churches lit, there will be no church is slander
on my fucking watch.

Speaker 3 (34:11):
If you hat churches into twenty twenty six, we need
to talk.

Speaker 1 (34:14):
I feel like Erica.

Speaker 4 (34:15):
Said, Dad, he would fuck with some church.

Speaker 1 (34:17):
Even know what the fuck that is.

Speaker 5 (34:17):
I'm seeing him, but you know the way he laughing. Yeah,
he didn't have the halopenos before and a little bite over.

Speaker 1 (34:23):
Put the last vegan. He's vegetarian. He lives off juices
and berries.

Speaker 4 (34:28):
God damn you had to put them. He didn't had
churches before that. I bet he missed it right now
if I called him not in.

Speaker 3 (34:33):
The last ten years? Have you had have your church
in the last ten years? All right?

Speaker 4 (34:37):
So neither one of y'all have had churches in the
last five years.

Speaker 3 (34:40):
My stomach, I give a fuck about my son.

Speaker 1 (34:41):
No you don't.

Speaker 4 (34:43):
I've seen what you eating before and my party with
you don't give the stomach or the line it.

Speaker 1 (34:46):
What about you. I've never had churches, chicken, that's not
I know, was boo.

Speaker 3 (34:53):
I didn't like it's Daddy is a doctor. He never
had no damn churches, Chicken.

Speaker 1 (34:57):
That has nothing to do with anything.

Speaker 4 (34:58):
I have had churches, but I don't like.

Speaker 1 (35:00):
Yeah, I'm still helping you prove your point.

Speaker 3 (35:03):
When did you eat? When did your church of sugar?

Speaker 4 (35:06):
What days?

Speaker 3 (35:06):
When? Like how many years ago? Like years ago?

Speaker 1 (35:09):
The time stuff?

Speaker 3 (35:10):
I know at school he went to So what you
went to the same school, bitch, elementary school Atlanta with
a ghetto girl. Me and Pat.

Speaker 5 (35:23):
We didn't we'd have been in Atlanta together, throwing money
back to back, making a round.

Speaker 4 (35:27):
I'm lying, Pat is so frugal in Atlanta nice, so
frugal up And as you said, I well.

Speaker 5 (35:37):
First of all, we've been in Atlanta together. We departied
in Atlanta together, went to Strict Club. We had a
good time. We met in Saint Louis together. I took
him to East Saint Louis. We got some hood rice
in East St. Louis, praan racgoon, Saint Paul. All this
ship we were sucking it up.

Speaker 1 (35:49):
Now when we went to.

Speaker 4 (35:50):
Atlanta, we went to the ATM was like yo. I
was like, yo, I've never balled out in the Strict club.
You want to do it tonight?

Speaker 5 (35:58):
He was like, fuck, yeah, let's do it. So I
went to got a couple I mean boom, he got it.
I got mine boone. So you know what I'm saying,
this is my front. Don't read to go to the club.
It ain't really my thing, but I'm like, fuck it,
I'm gonna pretend tonight, right, so boom, don't want to boom.

Speaker 4 (36:10):
We pulling coup of chicks side section We had a
section ship like that boom. You know what I'm saying.
I'm forty five minutes in. I didn't I don't know.
Probably I done blew through, like I don't know.

Speaker 1 (36:18):
Four hundred dollars right, Pat got one chick. He danced
with a boom.

Speaker 4 (36:22):
She on him right now, right, I'm about forty five
minutes in. I look onto him.

Speaker 5 (36:25):
I was like, yeah, you need some more? He was like,
I only I've only gave twelve dollars. Was I supposed
to get more?

Speaker 3 (36:35):
See his faces? Yeah? Absolutely?

Speaker 5 (36:38):
Oh. I got to tell you what his nigga was doing.
This nigga Pat was doing. This is how he was
tippic to write every every a couple of minutes, he would.

Speaker 4 (36:46):
Just be like, like every songs, I thought that was hell,
what you know.

Speaker 1 (36:52):
You didn't look around?

Speaker 4 (36:53):
But look then the same dollar.

Speaker 5 (36:54):
He would be like this fortnight he went over her
whole anatomy with that one dollar bill.

Speaker 4 (37:01):
The entire song got corrected and one night.

Speaker 3 (37:04):
And he was like, okay, he had less regrets. In
the morning, he did, Yeah, I'm.

Speaker 1 (37:12):
Talking about I went we were filming.

Speaker 5 (37:16):
Squad cares or d all Way asked one time virtually
and he had his camera on. I was like, there, boy,
you're finna do some washingt or something like that, because
the stacking ones like on the desk.

Speaker 1 (37:26):
And I saw it.

Speaker 5 (37:26):
He's, oh, no, I'm sad to say. I'm like what
He's like, he's the same ones from Atlanta. It was
like two years later.

Speaker 4 (37:32):
It's still there. Not two years it's still there.

Speaker 1 (37:36):
It's still a rainy day.

Speaker 4 (37:40):
Boy.

Speaker 3 (37:40):
He's from l A.

Speaker 1 (37:42):
Never go to this strip club with Patrick.

Speaker 3 (37:44):
Halfway through, I just I those is that dollar bills
on your underwears?

Speaker 1 (37:51):
Oh yeah, damn, that's ironic.

Speaker 3 (37:53):
I was like, now that you telling this story money
and I want to now all on my underwear and
I made them apparel, xerox them.

Speaker 1 (38:04):
I decided I wanted to keep it.

Speaker 4 (38:07):
Y'all don't want to see pasts. It's only fans.

Speaker 1 (38:09):
Is JG. Went Worth, it's my money. I want to know.

Speaker 4 (38:16):
That's so crazy.

Speaker 6 (38:17):
I did nothing with that stack. I might as well
thrown it. It's just in a drawer, but I have it,
I have access to it.

Speaker 1 (38:25):
Wow, that's a good side. I did throw. What's your clip?
Did y'all go to.

Speaker 4 (38:32):
No blue magic?

Speaker 3 (38:34):
Blue flame, blue flame magic? Is it fucking crack you guys?

Speaker 1 (38:38):
Listen? Magic City?

Speaker 4 (38:41):
Are you ready for trigger away or churches want to
be triggered?

Speaker 1 (38:46):
Oh my god?

Speaker 3 (38:47):
Do we need to do a sm R churches? We
live in the valley. Where the fuck are we gonna
get churches? It's not one in the twenty male radius?
Probably Google where's the close do it?

Speaker 4 (38:59):
Let me know if.

Speaker 1 (39:01):
And religion word that comes to mind?

Speaker 4 (39:08):
First thing?

Speaker 3 (39:11):
Come on? Ye?

Speaker 1 (39:15):
Okay, church urch, chicken, churches.

Speaker 4 (39:25):
Chicken?

Speaker 6 (39:30):
Oh my god, aliens real amazing, feminism awesome, great, yeah,
the best.

Speaker 3 (39:42):
You're lying.

Speaker 1 (39:44):
Patriarchy hy it?

Speaker 4 (39:48):
I guess birth overrated?

Speaker 3 (39:53):
Overrated? Nigga, you were birst, crowded, don't even care crowded, crowded, fatherhood.

Speaker 4 (40:01):
Necessary Nope, oh no, no kids for you.

Speaker 1 (40:07):
You're done, I mean never you have kids? Okay? Love, language, time,
act service, the Internet, exhausting, scary, cannabis relaxing, all right, backwards? Amazing?

Speaker 4 (40:33):
Oh is this one of them.

Speaker 5 (40:34):
Uh uh, trusted amongst the ball smokers. We're gonna keep
it going for We're gonna get that back.

Speaker 1 (40:43):
Polyamory hm fun when done right?

Speaker 4 (40:50):
Unsure?

Speaker 1 (40:51):
How does one do polyamory write? I think it's important to.

Speaker 5 (40:58):
Have the conversations that are necessary to go into that
with the right mindset and make sure that you're doing
it for the right regals. Both partners, I think, should
have to be equally invested in it, even if they're
like their dynamic is different, but both people have to be.
They can be one person doing it just because the
other person wants to do it. It's not gonna work
like that.

Speaker 1 (41:18):
And you have you ever explored polyamory?

Speaker 4 (41:21):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (41:21):
And did you enjoy it?

Speaker 3 (41:23):
Yeah?

Speaker 4 (41:23):
It was? It was cool.

Speaker 6 (41:24):
I think that it has to come with a lot
of communication, like to hear we're saying. And I did
it when I was like a little bit younger, so
I didn't I wasn't really like good at that part
of it, so it didn't work out.

Speaker 3 (41:36):
But I see the are you good at it now
now that you're much older and wiser?

Speaker 4 (41:41):
I feel like I would be.

Speaker 1 (41:41):
Yeah, are you in a relationship? No single about you?

Speaker 4 (41:46):
Yeah? I'm rried.

Speaker 1 (41:48):
Yeah, I'm mess black man king, strong, white man there.

Speaker 6 (41:59):
Thief, white woman, wife of the thief, careful, wife of
the thief, wife of the thief.

Speaker 4 (42:06):
That sounds like a book that.

Speaker 3 (42:11):
Careful, careful?

Speaker 4 (42:13):
Is it one word or just whatever?

Speaker 3 (42:17):
Do you date white woman?

Speaker 4 (42:18):
Patrick? I've never done it, but I've smashed experienced.

Speaker 1 (42:22):
Yes, favorite food.

Speaker 5 (42:25):
Mexican facos, I would say, Mexican, Yeah, guilty. Pleasure masturbating necket.

Speaker 1 (42:35):
What because take it all over?

Speaker 4 (42:36):
Yeah, like most of the times.

Speaker 1 (42:37):
We masturbate is is it's a quick fix. You know,
cans are just down. You know what I'm saying, You
got one leg out.

Speaker 4 (42:43):
Doing a quick you know? And always yeah, I do
standing up. I'm always weirdedout bout people like, yes, I
lay down or sit down or jack off. I'm like,
how do you do that?

Speaker 3 (42:52):
Women don't have the privilege of like standing and.

Speaker 4 (42:56):
Talking about I can't.

Speaker 5 (42:58):
Yeah, you absolutely can't stand up, put one leg up there,
do a deep squat like a farmer and put the headphones.

Speaker 4 (43:07):
Go DJ. But yeah, like masserbating fully naked.

Speaker 5 (43:11):
And I recently got into like toys, so like I
have this egg thing now because for years I just
was a dry jacker.

Speaker 1 (43:18):
I never used. I never did anything.

Speaker 5 (43:21):
Because I just didn't want to clean up using when
I was jacking.

Speaker 3 (43:24):
Right, huh, just the clean up either way.

Speaker 1 (43:26):
But low shit is weird because it like mixes with everything.

Speaker 4 (43:29):
Yeahry jacker too.

Speaker 1 (43:31):
I jack off right in the toilet. It falls in there.

Speaker 4 (43:33):
I take a little tissue time.

Speaker 1 (43:35):
Women have been lathering our hands up and spinning on things.
We could just drive jack. Well, here's the thing.

Speaker 5 (43:40):
I drive jack because I know what gets me there.
I got the right video cued up. I get jack off,
and I can be done too many.

Speaker 1 (43:47):
That's a good point.

Speaker 4 (43:47):
Yeah you can't.

Speaker 5 (43:49):
Yeah, you don't know my rhythm the same way guys
don't know y'all rhythm like that, And y'all can get there,
probably faster doing it yourselves than than a man doing it.

Speaker 4 (43:58):
But I reasonly got into like the egg and I
have my loop. I put it in there.

Speaker 3 (44:02):
You're doing a grown up jacking off.

Speaker 1 (44:04):
Like I've been jacking off with glasses on, lady.

Speaker 3 (44:06):
Because you're such an adult, I am stand on and
your egg, I would.

Speaker 4 (44:11):
It just a sweater van, I don't put the shirt underneath,
but that sweel.

Speaker 1 (44:16):
Can you send a snippet, what's your guilty pleasure.

Speaker 6 (44:22):
I gotta start going first, I gotta start going. It's
gotta be like a builder, I would say. I would say, eating.

Speaker 4 (44:32):
Late, eating.

Speaker 1 (44:35):
Up. You already did it, babe, my guilty pleasure, Yeah,
jacket standing.

Speaker 4 (44:41):
You wanted to throw another?

Speaker 3 (44:43):
What's your other one?

Speaker 4 (44:44):
Go ahead sending up videos while I say the nag.

Speaker 3 (44:47):
You like to send that videos while saying bitches names. Yeah,
that per request and that's just your request.

Speaker 4 (44:53):
I would never do that.

Speaker 1 (44:55):
Crazy crazy, But that's like so multiple women have quested
that of you, or you have.

Speaker 4 (45:01):
Like a menu, he suggests.

Speaker 1 (45:02):
W You're like, these are the options. No, no, no,
not people like me to know.

Speaker 3 (45:06):
You know you can, like you can pay somebody to
say happy birthday to you, but that's an only fans requests, like,
but like people don't only fans like you pay extra
to get them to say your name.

Speaker 1 (45:16):
That's why it's very specific.

Speaker 4 (45:17):
My first lady was the first person, that.

Speaker 3 (45:21):
First lady of the church, really of your church that
you went to grew up in churches, not the pastors.
Why not the pastor's wife you were you were fulling
around with the pastor's wife.

Speaker 4 (45:32):
No, no, no, no, she worked the fire.

Speaker 5 (45:35):
The first lady churches churches church or churches chicken mashed
potatoes in.

Speaker 3 (45:40):
Christ anyway, not mashed potatoes of Christ.

Speaker 1 (45:44):
The first lady of churches is crazy. That's crazy.

Speaker 5 (45:48):
He only takes orders. You can't like gloves, you don't
do all that cooking. Right there, she moved up.

Speaker 1 (45:53):
It's porn, favorite porn category.

Speaker 4 (45:57):
You the creamy.

Speaker 1 (46:00):
You heard that.

Speaker 3 (46:03):
Pov ebony creamy, I.

Speaker 4 (46:05):
Should say amateur first, amateur pov ebony creamy. Is that
one video?

Speaker 5 (46:09):
Okay, no, that's those are the categories. So I go,
I don't even look at the thumb nail ship. I
go straight to the search bar, put that in amateur
pov ebony creamy and then wet because it can't just
be creamy because creamy ship it is just a little
like like bit you spilled.

Speaker 4 (46:21):
Cake better all up in there.

Speaker 5 (46:22):
So there's creamy and yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah are
the ones that do it, because like there are people
that use like they have like the creamy lube that
you can use like if you are a fan of
that creamy like look and you know, for the visuals.

Speaker 4 (46:35):
So but sometimes that can mess up to a woman's
pH so like, oh.

Speaker 3 (46:39):
Ship a creamy lube sounds like no good.

Speaker 1 (46:43):
I cannot wait to hear yours. What is it?

Speaker 3 (46:45):
Why?

Speaker 1 (46:46):
Why it's like the Yan and the Yang because you
didn't go first?

Speaker 4 (46:51):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (46:52):
Oh yeah, Can you start first so we can have
like an uplid. Okay, let's switch now.

Speaker 5 (46:59):
First all, I just want to say that my ship
sounds wild because it's mainly like sex center. Pat lives
a crazy fucking life, y'all just not answering the white question.

Speaker 4 (47:08):
When we worked it all day together.

Speaker 5 (47:10):
Everybody in the office would come in on Monday and
be like, did y'all see pasts Instagram?

Speaker 3 (47:14):
Hat was a crazy life?

Speaker 1 (47:15):
This part right here, Pat was what I mean. It's
just but it's just a different.

Speaker 3 (47:19):
Seven dollars at the shrimp club.

Speaker 1 (47:23):
This episode.

Speaker 5 (47:25):
It's it's at different areas that he ventured, like like
he went to the fucking desert and did real life
fruit Ninjer had swords and him and his cousin were
throwing fruit at each other and actually just filming it, like.

Speaker 1 (47:39):
Really slicing watermelons in handlopes.

Speaker 4 (47:42):
Bananas kiwis to no, we were cutting them, threw them
in like.

Speaker 3 (47:49):
No, no, it was just fun, brite, that down to
do that.

Speaker 1 (47:54):
Fierce oceans.

Speaker 4 (47:55):
And then one weekend was just on this stupid, big
ass yacht.

Speaker 5 (47:59):
We're like eighty chicks. I was like, I thought you
hate the water. He was like, yeah, but it was
a yacht. Yeah, you're not in the water, you know
what I mean.

Speaker 4 (48:08):
It's pretty. It's a few.

Speaker 6 (48:14):
I usually go for amateur. Also, POV is cool. People
be getting too close. I'm too close. I feel like
POV you have to have kind of like a director's
mindset because people would just be like all, like, I
don't know.

Speaker 4 (48:28):
I just I feel like it's it's not shocked.

Speaker 3 (48:30):
Very well POV professional POV.

Speaker 1 (48:33):
Like you know, strategic, strategic POV POV. I like, I
like looking up group stuff.

Speaker 4 (48:38):
You know.

Speaker 1 (48:39):
Yeah, after life.

Speaker 4 (48:43):
It was still triggered.

Speaker 1 (48:44):
Yes, after life.

Speaker 4 (48:45):
Oh uh hmm, that's a good one. Nothing really came
to mind. I guess I hope.

Speaker 1 (49:02):
You hope that you make it to the afterlife.

Speaker 4 (49:05):
This one.

Speaker 1 (49:12):
Sounds fun.

Speaker 4 (49:14):
He he uh, great time, no problems over here, no
problem care important.

Speaker 1 (49:24):
Essential retention.

Speaker 4 (49:26):
Stupid as fuck. Actually I get it, Hm, I get it.
I understand it now.

Speaker 1 (49:34):
Not stupid as fuck, stupid as fuck.

Speaker 5 (49:37):
I just I just saw this one and I had
to screenshot it because I was gonna make a video
about this.

Speaker 1 (49:44):
And I was like, it's a real thing, though I
tried it this year. Yeah, no, I hear it.

Speaker 3 (49:48):
And and how what happened when you tried it? While
he's looking at the video? Did you find it?

Speaker 4 (49:52):
Yeah? But it wasn't the video.

Speaker 5 (49:53):
It's just I think I love having sexual attension more
than actually engaging in the act.

Speaker 3 (49:57):
And I was just like, that's not that's not seman retention.

Speaker 6 (50:00):
I know.

Speaker 1 (50:00):
I just I mean along the lines of I was like,
have you never had blue balls? So you don't know
the pain balls?

Speaker 4 (50:07):
You said are not real? Oh, because you've had balls before,
so you've had Okay, then up telling me that blue
balls ain't real.

Speaker 1 (50:14):
I have balls all my life. I've been clothed burning
since I was nine.

Speaker 4 (50:18):
Oh, so you're telling us how to work our bodies, right.
People are like Femininem grosses the line you can't you
don't don't do that. It don't do no, No, I'm good.
I ain't even smoke.

Speaker 1 (50:30):
Before I would smoke, but I don't want to get
nobody sick. Blue balls is not a medical condition.

Speaker 3 (50:35):
You, guys, you're not going to have any side effects
if you have to mid Broner not finish, ladies. Blue
balls is not real. Do not let niggas.

Speaker 1 (50:45):
Disappointment is in a medical condition either, But it still happens.

Speaker 3 (50:50):
Disappointment.

Speaker 1 (50:51):
No, it is an actual pain. It's an actual pain.

Speaker 5 (50:55):
It's like a build up of that imagine. So it's
a million nuts, right, a million nuts right here. They
already in the shaft, them niggas is in the train,
and then they see they stop and they.

Speaker 4 (51:08):
Trying to get off the train, but you're like, okay
right now, and they just piling up.

Speaker 1 (51:12):
That's what it feels like. It's very painful.

Speaker 5 (51:14):
And even when you jack off after you have blue
balls for too long, you still experience that discomfort. Blue
balls is absolutely a real thing.

Speaker 1 (51:21):
Martin, Fuck you, Fuck you.

Speaker 4 (51:24):
I almost called you a bitch because I see what
you're trying to do. You're trying to push them over
the edge. Biggest regret, Oh, biggest regret.

Speaker 6 (51:33):
Uh, bad negotiations, people, please, A biggest accomplishment, hm, biggest accomplishment.

Speaker 1 (51:54):
I don't know you can go first on this one.

Speaker 4 (51:56):
Betting on myself.

Speaker 1 (51:57):
I was gonna say that but I was like, they
just don't say that.

Speaker 6 (52:00):
It wos to say the first thing that comes to mind.

Speaker 3 (52:04):
But I feel like y'all are looking for spicy stuff,
and I don't go today for your truest answer.

Speaker 1 (52:10):
There's no there's no batter good answer.

Speaker 4 (52:13):
Yeah. I was gonna say, take it a risk and
with it.

Speaker 1 (52:16):
Pet Peeve. It's not people pleasing.

Speaker 6 (52:18):
Oh you're right right, Pet Peeve, Pet Peeve, just I
don't know people who like people who like suck their
teeth loud, very.

Speaker 3 (52:34):
Specific, you hang around Jamaican childhood, Grandma.

Speaker 4 (52:43):
Done black or this thing. Okay, now I'm hitting home.

Speaker 1 (52:50):
I hate that. There you go. Do you hear me?
That person who's listening, who fucking does that style doing it?
It's fucking disgusting.

Speaker 3 (53:00):
Stop.

Speaker 4 (53:00):
Yeah, what's your pet peeve?

Speaker 1 (53:03):
To hear?

Speaker 4 (53:04):
How much time do we have?

Speaker 1 (53:07):
How much time do you have?

Speaker 4 (53:08):
Is the question a lot tardiness?

Speaker 1 (53:10):
Tardiness she's looking at us because we're more starting sorry.

Speaker 4 (53:14):
Uh, people who burp loudly, farting loud.

Speaker 3 (53:20):
That didn't yeah that now like both of those things.

Speaker 5 (53:23):
Yeah, I feel like people are more prone to burp
than they are far like far as like genially accidental,
but people were like, I couldn't stop it an't for.

Speaker 4 (53:30):
The come, yes, the did you had two fucking soldiers.

Speaker 5 (53:34):
You didn't know that all that fucking bubbles just gonna
come up burping proudly.

Speaker 3 (53:40):
Especially women.

Speaker 1 (53:41):
It's making me want to burp now, making you want
trying to bur gonna throw up?

Speaker 4 (53:46):
Now that cut it out. You just said it was sick,
you know, your little soft slub ass.

Speaker 1 (53:50):
That didn't even that, said burber loudly. You could do
that on cue Q as a kid.

Speaker 4 (53:55):
Because I was hanging with my my cousin, my boy cousin.
Just pull back the air. Oh my god, see I
gross it in.

Speaker 1 (54:08):
Okay, what's up?

Speaker 4 (54:10):
That's crazy?

Speaker 6 (54:12):
Monogamy beautiful if if that's for you and it's with
the right person, could you be monogamous?

Speaker 4 (54:20):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (54:21):
Do you enjoy monogamy? Like long term?

Speaker 5 (54:24):
I think if it's with the right person, I think
anything is beautiful enough. And also like if y'all are like,
I have a lifestyle that requires me to be out
a lot, right, but if I'm anagurism with my person
and I know, like I have high sexual andnergo, I
just want my person with me all the time.

Speaker 1 (54:38):
Someone want to.

Speaker 4 (54:39):
Grab that booty and we can still observe beautiful people.

Speaker 5 (54:41):
I'm like, damn, she thinks, fuck you know what I'm saying,
But like we know that what we got right here
is so solid, like we can be Monogoy allows you
the ability to be completely nasty with that one person, right,
But that is very difficult to do because a lot
of times it's easier for us to be super nasty
with And I'll just say this as a man who's
talked to other men about this when it comes to

(55:05):
like sex kind of trailing off or things changing from
when you get married to when you were dating. It's
because men see our wives on this pedestal and sometimes
it feels difficult to do the disrespectful shit we like
to do to this person that raises our kids and
co exprekfast to take care of us. And also I've

(55:26):
shown her the vulnerable side of me, my fears, my ambitions,
the things that I want to do but haven't done yet.
Like we hold you in a different wace, so it's
hard to like choke you out while come on your
face and spit in your hair and call you the
bitch that you want to be because I'll put you
on this pedestal as this position, right, So it takes
a lot to make monogamy on that level work because
you have to be able to acknowledge this to your

(55:48):
queen and all this. But I all still acknowledge this
is still my little slut too, And I think that's
hard for a lot of men to wrap their mind around.
So I applaud to people that good point or able
to do that. I believe when I could, you know,
get to a level I can definitely do that, I.

Speaker 4 (56:06):
Would say.

Speaker 6 (56:09):
Monogamy. I feel like it, it can work, it could work. Situational, situational,
got it?

Speaker 4 (56:16):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (56:17):
Therapy necessary? Yeah, yeah yeah.

Speaker 5 (56:23):
I was so anti therapy, I know. I know that
hurt a couple of years of my marriage because I
was so anti therapy. I didn't think that talking about
my problems with someone was beneficial to solving my problems.
But I also didn't have a healthy view or understanding
of communication because I associated communication with conflict anytime voices

(56:44):
would rise, or curse words would use, or there was
a difference of opinion. Because I grew up seeing my
aunts and my mom get beat when they oppose the
man that they was with, and so I didn't have
any healthy examples of discourse when it came to communication,
and so, you know, early on with me and my
wife would getting into it, I would just shut down
because I didn't I didn't want to be one of

(57:06):
my uncles or my sister dad.

Speaker 4 (57:08):
And so now I'm shut down and we not talking,
and it's weird in the house because I'm.

Speaker 1 (57:13):
I'm gonna let you know.

Speaker 5 (57:14):
I'm mad, I'm coming in quiet, i don't want nothing
to eat, I'm good, I'm going to bed early.

Speaker 4 (57:18):
Whatever, you know.

Speaker 5 (57:18):
And I would keep that going for two three days
until she would finally, you know, just give in and
be like fine. And that was so unfair for her
because she didn't get a chance to address whatever it
was that she wanted to talk about, whatever it was
that was pressing enough for her to bring it to me.
I denied hear that ability. And that's because I wasn't
in therapy. I was anti therapy. I didn't know how

(57:39):
to effectively communicate, and that was fucked up. But now
I'm a big, big advocator and proponent for therapy, and
I think everyone should do it, even if you ain't
got nothing going wrong. In your life, get the therapy,
like do let somebody get in there and pick around
and ask questions and shit like that.

Speaker 1 (57:55):
So I was very mature of you.

Speaker 4 (58:00):
Is absolutely wrong.

Speaker 3 (58:01):
How many years have you been? How long have you
been in therapy now?

Speaker 4 (58:05):
Five and a half maybe six?

Speaker 1 (58:06):
Closer to nice?

Speaker 3 (58:07):
Yeah, solid, h.

Speaker 1 (58:11):
You've survived trigger. That's actually really tough.

Speaker 4 (58:19):
The quick thinking I was, I'm gonna call y' I'm
gonna text y'all.

Speaker 5 (58:23):
I'm like, hey, it's trigger Sidney's words, send me back
voice immediately.

Speaker 1 (58:28):
In the In regards to therapy, do you guys have
any affirmations that you guys you know, live by or
help motivate you on the daily?

Speaker 4 (58:41):
Worrying is like a work rocking chair gives you something
to do, but get you nowhere.

Speaker 1 (58:46):
Worrying like a rock.

Speaker 3 (58:47):
It is like a rocking chair.

Speaker 4 (58:50):
I'm I'm trying. I've been.

Speaker 5 (58:51):
I've been leaning into that more. I've been leaning into
If you got a problem and there's something you can
do about it, don't worry about it. If there's nothing
to do about don't worry about it. Just kind of
like letting, letting shit have, Like if if you can,
if you got a problem that can't be solved within
twenty four hours, then there's nothing you can do about it.

(59:11):
You know, you just prepare for it, and you know,
prepare for whatever the results may be or whatever the
consequences may be, and then you go from there. And
I really been trying to lean more into that. And
even though I've been like going through like a really
a down pier right now, like I had, I would say,
this is the most I've been able to lean on
my friends.

Speaker 4 (59:30):
And like outside of like my my my house unit,
my family unit, like Pat has been I feel like
a big brother watching the little brother growing up and
say he has been texting me and like, hey man,
you're good. You need anything.

Speaker 5 (59:43):
He's been like, yo, I'll take care to ask this week,
don't worry about it. Coming over to the crib and
pulling up to the house just to go with shows
with me. He's like he's really been just instrumental, instrumental
in this this this process, in this period of my life.
And the same thing with my boy Dion Man Dion
and Will pull He pulled up on me one time
it was like let's go walk against some hot dogs.

Speaker 4 (01:00:03):
I was like, you do it?

Speaker 5 (01:00:04):
Bitch, because a lot of times when you're going through
something that's depressed, when people hit you up and like yo,
what do you need?

Speaker 4 (01:00:14):
Like we don't know.

Speaker 5 (01:00:16):
I don't know what I need when I'm down like that,
I don't know what will make me feel better. But
sometimes pulling up on me and be like, oh, let's
get out the house. I won't want to tell you
no because I know you took the time out to
come over, so.

Speaker 4 (01:00:26):
I'm like, let's do it.

Speaker 1 (01:00:28):
That's the thing about depression, because I feel like I
was moving through that a lot in the last like
i'd say, on and off two years, and like that
question coming up around, like what is it? What do
you need? It's like, nigga, I don't know. And I
think that's almost like sometimes the most triggering question you
can ask somebody who's moving through some sort of like
up and down and emotion and depression, because it makes
you feel even less in control, in control, and just

(01:00:52):
like like week week and just like I don't don't
you have nothing you there's no way out of it.
You don't even know the path out. So that's really
great that you have each other in that way. And
I feel like a lot of men. I feel like
I'm grateful for the men that I have in my
life and that I've seen, including like you and Orlando

(01:01:14):
and like just the men that I've seen that have
other men that they can depend on in those moments
and be vulnerable with.

Speaker 5 (01:01:21):
Right, That's a that's a big thing, being vulnerable in
front of a because you have these friends that you're like,
oh yeah, hood, that's my nigga and all of this
type of stuff. Really, has he seen you cry? Has
he picked you up when you fucked up and they
were there for you? Has he come through for you?
Have you reached out to a friend when you know
this was essential for you to get something done? Is

(01:01:44):
this somebody that you trust that much?

Speaker 4 (01:01:45):
You know?

Speaker 3 (01:01:46):
So?

Speaker 4 (01:01:47):
Yeah, man, I.

Speaker 5 (01:01:49):
Yeah, I'm grateful for Pat Orlando, for Dion, homegirl Chantel,
this niggat.

Speaker 4 (01:01:58):
Who Orlando was before that.

Speaker 1 (01:02:03):
Which you.

Speaker 5 (01:02:09):
Now me La has been Her and Orlando have opened
up their houses to me, their house to me, and
even Mela was like, you can come over here any
time in the day. I'm just alway working or cleaner,
is it? And like just to have somebody that cares
about my will being, my mental health, Uh, so I'm
not just sitting at the crib along while everybody else
is at work or you know, doing things. It's essential
because sometimes like it's just it's it's it's debilitating, like you.

Speaker 4 (01:02:30):
Can't get up.

Speaker 5 (01:02:32):
I've had to cancel a show recently, and I've never
had to do that while you know, battling with depression.
And I thought that, you know, being in therapy and
getting the tools and adding them to the toolbox, I'd
be able to handle it. But that ship is differently,
you know what I'm saying. So depending on what it is,
it's just it's heavy.

Speaker 3 (01:02:50):
Man.

Speaker 6 (01:02:52):
It's really interesting what you said about uh that you
don't know, because yeah, that's that's that makes a lot
of sense. I never really thought of it like that,
like you actually don't know, and it makes that that
makes it worse for you, because yeah, it's it's it
is tough like when you when you do reach out
and they don't know and then you're like, okay.

Speaker 1 (01:03:14):
But what I think it is is like what what
what te hear said was just like you just pulling
up right, Like I think when your friends show up
for you, you begin to understand what it is that
you need. Oh, I guess I need I need companionship.
Oh I guess I just need somebody there, or I
guess I needed to just go get some motherfucking hot
dogs today. You know, like you you start to understand
what your needs are, but like when you are moving

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through depression, and like kind of I think, because I
think a lot of times depression is like you shedding something.
It's like whether you're shuting a relationship, a version of yourself.
There's something going on. And so like when you're in
the metamorphosis, you don't know what you need because you're
literally becoming something different. So there's no there's no like
tools to tell you, oh, well now you need And
of course, yes, like you said, you go to therapy,

(01:03:56):
you have all the little same here. I've been. I've
done the I've done the ton I've done the fucking therapy,
I've done the life coaching, I've done all the things,
and I'm like, why are none of these things helping
me right now? And then also sometimes like you reject
those things too. It's like I know that I can
do this, but I don't even I can't even meditate today.
I don't want to meditate today. And then you kind
of like revel in them not feeling good. You're like,

(01:04:17):
I just want to not feel good.

Speaker 4 (01:04:18):
Yeah, I would love not not feeling good. I will
play sad music. Let me tell you so. I got
a playlist that's so good.

Speaker 5 (01:04:26):
For depression but so anti good like this is, oh, yes,
I feel everything.

Speaker 3 (01:04:34):
I have a nerve. I'mers, I'm exsed to nerve.

Speaker 1 (01:04:40):
There goes you'all monetization.

Speaker 5 (01:04:41):
But I will say I was talking to her free
yesterday and I was telling her like the space I've
been in, and she told me this thing she does
is she talks to herself all loud, like why am
I feeling this way? Like what is it about this
situation on this point in life that has me feel
in this way? And she'll just start yelling the things out,

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and then when she gets to something that she feels
something like it brings anxiety or the hair stands up,
she's like, okay, let's explore this all right, I'm feeling
anxious around this because and whatever comes to her mind,
she just says it out loud, and then she'll write
it down and then she'll not fixate. But she'll look
over that and be like, what about this is causing
this triggering experience in my life. She's like her own therapist. Yeah,

(01:05:22):
but I've never thought about Actually I have thought about
saying things out loud, but it's more with like what
I need to get done, like this is like what
I need healed or what's bothering, what's aching me.

Speaker 4 (01:05:34):
I had never thought about doing it.

Speaker 5 (01:05:35):
So I'm going to try that going forward, just to
see if it helps, and like I'm always up for
sharing tips.

Speaker 1 (01:05:41):
One of the things that I've done in that is
I've done that as well, but it's I don't even
have a term for it. I guess it's just like raging,
Like you start talking out loud and then you just
start saying like kind of the worst thoughts that you have,
the worst thoughts that you might have about yourself, the
worst thoughts you might have about people, just the shit.
That's really just like because when you're depressed, you're not
just like not thinking about shit, You're like thinking about
everything you know, and like it is true, like releasing

(01:06:04):
it like verbally does help, but also sometimes like fucking
yelling that ship, screaming that ship hitting some ship, like
a lot of things are trapped in our bodies, and
we think that we can just like therapize it away
or calmly talk it away or meditated away. And oftentimes
I found that, Like my biggest releases have been through
rage honestly, and movement, and even like I'm a hooper,

(01:06:27):
I love hula hooping, So when I hula hoop, I
do a lot of talking as well. What no, I
was a soccer player. I don't got them, I don't
got them hands. But like that practice for me like

(01:06:51):
helps me come to I usually use hooping when I'm
trying to come up with ideas, but even like talking
and moving your body while you're doing it, like there's
something in it that kind of like gets you out
of the way and just kind of lets your own
spirit just kind of come through.

Speaker 4 (01:07:04):
So do it. I think move movement, and action are great.

Speaker 5 (01:07:11):
Combatants of depression if you can get to that point,
if you're at a point where you already sort of
staying in bed, then it's a little harder to break
out of that. But like earlier this year and last year,
when I was hiking, I was still going through the
same shit, but I was I was getting up every
morning early like seven seven thirty and I'm going hike it.
And that kind of set the tone for the day.
Made me feel like I could be productive. I can

(01:07:31):
own this day. When it got to a point when
I was traveling a lot and I wasn't able to
like go hiking, that's when the shit started to set
up and put up tents and houses. And then by
the time I came back here then but it just
had a whole community inside of me, nigga.

Speaker 4 (01:07:45):
And I was just I was just down back.

Speaker 5 (01:07:48):
So yeah, it's hard, but you know, I feel like
I'm getting close to the end of it and I'm
looking forward to it.

Speaker 4 (01:07:54):
But I'm very thankful for my community.

Speaker 3 (01:07:57):
Man, No, thank you for being vulnerable. That is I
think necessary. A lot of Black men, a lot of men,
a lot of women are not able to, you know,
just share and be vulnerable and say I'm not doing
okay right now, and even like to the point where
you can say it on the mic and then say
when you came over and just pulled up on me,
thank you. And there's so many there's just so many

(01:08:18):
rules I think around how we can be and I
didn't realize that until recently. I mean, i'd have realized it,
but someone said I heard someone say it out loud.
It's like there's so many rules about being a black man.
It's like how can like, god damn, how can exist?
You can't pop still, you can't do this, and it's
like there's so many things are like no homo or
even like me, like we've gone hiking, or we hang
out without Orlando, like as friends and we can have

(01:08:39):
intimate platonic time together. And there's all these rules about
like if you're married, you can hang out with my man,
you know, my husband's wife or whatever the fuck the
rules are, or how men should show up for men
are just pulling up on your homeboy, Like no, that's gay, nigga,
Like you are right, stop crying, you know. It's like
these rules that we are inducted in really keep us
from our mental health, like keep us from being well,

(01:08:59):
keep us from being connected and just loving each other
and just accepting shit, Like all these rules that we've
created about how we can express, how we can feel
when we don't know what's wrong, and it's like or
just how we express as men or men to men
or women, you know, whatever, these rules are, like they
keep us so separated, and it's just so unnecessary, and
so like the more we have these conversations and be

(01:09:21):
honest and and talk about things that we do that
are outside of the rule box, right, everything about sex.
This is how we heal, This is how we come
together as a community. And there's so I always mean
or mean meaning to hear, always talking about everything before

(01:09:41):
the sex. And like, I'm like, people are so uncomfortable
in that middle area. You know. It's like you either
be homeb these friends with this strong boundary or we're
fucking you know, And like, as you know, I'm naked
around my house. I'm naked around my friends often. And
it's like for some people that's uncomfortable or foreign, but
it's like it means nothing. It means that I'm in
my house, my nigga, and I'm comfortable. And even if

(01:10:02):
you know, I'm dancing on to here and it is
love and affection and it doesn't is not an invitation.
And there's so much We've shared, so much intimacy as friends,
platonic friends that I think people are so uncomfortable with.

Speaker 4 (01:10:15):
But if you they don't know, Like perception is crazy.

Speaker 5 (01:10:19):
And I've really been trying to work on my perception
and my perspective when I approach different things, even with
what I'm dealing with when it comes to another person,
to make sure I'm trying to view it from another
person's perspective and that doesn't take away from how something
made me feel, because intention doesn't necessarily dictate how a
person receives what you meant. But like when we were

(01:10:41):
hanging out and I was like, hey, don't dance on me,
like Nick ain't here. I got to make sure it's okay,
Like I know it's harmless.

Speaker 3 (01:10:46):
But like I don't want him to think everybody else
out here you're my husband.

Speaker 5 (01:10:49):
I know, but still, But because of traditional mas societal
norms when it comes to platonic relationships and friendships with
someone that is married and stuff like that, I I
like to found the parameters. I like to found the
boundaries and have those conversations because it's it's not it
is still kind of taboo unless you have that community.
But people that are new to that community or people

(01:11:11):
that are outside of that community, they're looking at it
from a different.

Speaker 1 (01:11:13):
Perspective, like why the fuck that's crazy? I ain't no
way I was.

Speaker 3 (01:11:16):
We know you wouldn't.

Speaker 5 (01:11:17):
We know you wouldn't, right, but you haven't also put
in the work of being there for these people and
showing up for their events saying like hey, can I
help or can I promote, or just pulling up to
a show like that's where you build that community.

Speaker 4 (01:11:29):
In that community is what UH grows.

Speaker 5 (01:11:34):
That understanding and evolving of your mentality or your perception
of what that looks like, what that friendship looks like,
what that I'm your husband when this nigga ain't here
And that's why the niggas ain't getting that car because
it ain't no fucking way.

Speaker 4 (01:11:52):
And I told, I told, I told that night as
I absolutely did.

Speaker 5 (01:11:56):
Call that down and I told all your ass and
she why would you call him a tellica us because
you ain't even getting in trouble driving?

Speaker 3 (01:12:04):
You was with me.

Speaker 4 (01:12:04):
And all of a sudden, now the eight niggas in
one vehicle.

Speaker 3 (01:12:07):
Fuck no, this my new friends to hear just giving
him ride down the street.

Speaker 1 (01:12:10):
Relax crazy, Like what.

Speaker 4 (01:12:12):
Car is that easy? A Jeep car that they would
not have. They ain't going, They ain't going, everybody ain't going.
I was very adamant and very rude, and I don't.

Speaker 3 (01:12:22):
Give listen you did you did think it? How do
you guys feel about the esoterics? Do you guys want
to pull a card for tarot time?

Speaker 1 (01:12:57):
Sure?

Speaker 4 (01:12:58):
Is that with.

Speaker 3 (01:13:00):
Aerosot like the mystics. The mysticals is a pib card
tereole time un lets you go first?

Speaker 4 (01:13:06):
You want to go first? I've been going first all
the time, not half the time. H turn it around
the chariot.

Speaker 3 (01:13:20):
Oh you run to pick yours to hear? Okay, do
key Patrick, the chariot I said some good cards. Okay,
this is a cool card though, Yeah, this is it

(01:13:43):
is good art. The chariot is a card of will, power, determination,
and strength. You virgo, you have discovered how to make
decisions in alignment with your values with the Lover's card,
and now you're taking action on those decisions. When the
chariot appears in a chariot reading, take it as a
sign of encouragement. You have set your objective and are
now channeling your inner power with a fierce dedication to

(01:14:03):
bring them to fruition. When you apply discipline and commitment
and will power to achieve your goals, you will succeed.
Now is the time to be passive in the hope
that things will work out in your favor. Take focus, action,
and stick to the course no matter what challenges may
come your way, because believe me, there will be challenges.
You may be pulled in opposite directions and find your
strengths and conviction tested. Others may try to block you,

(01:14:24):
distract you, or drag you down to pursuit in pursuit
of your goal, but the chariot is an invitation to
draw upon your willpower and home in on what's essential
to you so you can push past the obstacle in
your way.

Speaker 4 (01:14:37):
I love that. Yeah, that was really good.

Speaker 1 (01:14:39):
It's fire.

Speaker 4 (01:14:39):
Yeah, this is a great one.

Speaker 1 (01:14:41):
And you have the magician. Yeah that was a god.

Speaker 3 (01:14:46):
That was a good blurb.

Speaker 4 (01:14:48):
It's good reading.

Speaker 1 (01:14:49):
The Magician upright represents manifestation, resourcefulness, power, inspired action. As
a master manifestor, the Magician brings you the tools resource
This is an energy you need to make your dreams
come true. Seriously, everything you need right now is at
your fingertips to hear it, to hear you have spiritual, physical, mental,
and emotional resources to manifest your desires, and when you

(01:15:12):
combine them with the energy of the spiritual and earthly realms.
You will become a manifestation powerhouse. Now is the perfect
time to move forward on an idea that you recently conceived.
The seed of potential has sprouted, and you are being
called to take action and bring your intention to fruition.
In your quest to manifest your goals, you must establish
a clear vision of what you will create before you act.

(01:15:34):
It is not enough to be motivated by ego, money, status,
or fame. You need to have a sole connection to
your goals and intentions. You are a powerful creative being
and this is your opportunity to bring your higher self
in alignment with your day to day actions to create
the future you want the most.

Speaker 2 (01:15:51):
Wow boom, I sounded like homework, Go home, study, get
serious about it. Didn't walk in that path, sell some seeds.

Speaker 1 (01:16:03):
Welcome to like squall of they good moms.

Speaker 4 (01:16:11):
When the thing I love about tarot cards is that
it is random, so that it's for you.

Speaker 1 (01:16:18):
It's not it's not really random. It's the energy so
you know you're.

Speaker 3 (01:16:21):
Gonna get what you need to get right before we
get out of here. Fellas, do you guys have any horries?
Any horror stories? When you're a top notch top level
ten hoh stories. It was the craziest who time story

(01:16:46):
you could think of.

Speaker 4 (01:16:50):
It was good. I wouldn't get out of my car first,
I should go.

Speaker 6 (01:16:53):
First, okay, since we okay, So in my twenties I
did have a very horri whatuld you call it? A
horror hoory hoary face.

Speaker 5 (01:17:10):
It was.

Speaker 1 (01:17:12):
It was at night that I was passed around like
a blunt.

Speaker 4 (01:17:16):
A group of young ladies ran what they call a
train on you on me.

Speaker 3 (01:17:20):
Oh okay, how many young ladies or three of them?

Speaker 4 (01:17:24):
Yep? They and uh it was. It was very disrespectful, really,
so please do. It was like, yeah, it was kind
of like a like a.

Speaker 6 (01:17:35):
Like a take turns one person watches. I think somebody filmed.

Speaker 1 (01:17:39):
Oh damn.

Speaker 3 (01:17:41):
Yeah, it was very It was like, say, still shut up, Jerry,
little boy.

Speaker 4 (01:17:46):
Kept pulling his hairbag, not pull his hairbags in his mouth.

Speaker 3 (01:17:54):
I kind of like that.

Speaker 4 (01:17:55):
I was, yeah, and it was.

Speaker 6 (01:17:56):
It was one of those things where it's like I
never experienced that, so I did. Didn't think on paper
it wasn't something I would like, but I was just
like your little whore, you know.

Speaker 4 (01:18:06):
I looked at it. I went home and looked at
the r like, yeah, you're a little horse.

Speaker 3 (01:18:12):
You enjoyed kind of being the piece of meat for
the night.

Speaker 1 (01:18:14):
Yeah, you know what I mean, was thrown into you said,
what did.

Speaker 3 (01:18:18):
Your due diligence for the seminon you? You were a
devotion exactly.

Speaker 6 (01:18:23):
Any any like bent up or built up anger they
had against men, it wasn't actually it wasn't like disrespectful
like that.

Speaker 4 (01:18:29):
Like they weren't like.

Speaker 3 (01:18:29):
Hitting me, and like, you know, how did they propose
this to you? It was like after a night hour
or were they like, hey, can you come over? We
have an idea?

Speaker 4 (01:18:36):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (01:18:37):
Really, And it was weird. It was kind of like
a ritual because they were all wearing.

Speaker 4 (01:18:40):
The same thing.

Speaker 3 (01:18:41):
Really, I like these girls color.

Speaker 6 (01:18:43):
It was like a they all had like that was
kind of weird. Yeah, they had like black crew necks
on with no bottoms.

Speaker 5 (01:18:50):
You were a sacrifice, a sacrifice sacrifice.

Speaker 1 (01:18:54):
I wasn't a sacrifice in a pussy cult.

Speaker 4 (01:18:58):
They had like.

Speaker 3 (01:19:02):
Why a fucking yeah, like what you got on right now?

Speaker 4 (01:19:05):
Oh my god, oh my god, what get this away?

Speaker 3 (01:19:14):
Shut up?

Speaker 4 (01:19:16):
Damn they're wearing what I'm wearing now. Pretty much it
was like a black crew neck. But they had no bottoms, which.

Speaker 1 (01:19:21):
Was they were wearing a sweatshirt with no panties on.

Speaker 4 (01:19:27):
Yeah, you were sacrifice one black.

Speaker 3 (01:19:30):
They had sacrifice. It sounds it sounds like that's why
you're getting blessed, look at your life.

Speaker 4 (01:19:34):
It was. It was definitely.

Speaker 1 (01:19:35):
It was just a blessing that was just dropped off.
I didn't even hang out with them.

Speaker 3 (01:19:39):
I just knew he was only one of them, and
there was no conversations though, like, ah, let's take some shots.
It was like get naked.

Speaker 6 (01:19:46):
I was there for like maybe ten fifteen minutes, but
I walked in and they had no bottom so I
kind of knew what you know, But yeah.

Speaker 3 (01:19:54):
They like, uh you eat it, pussy?

Speaker 4 (01:19:56):
I typically, how do you not pussy?

Speaker 1 (01:19:59):
There's three bitches, That's.

Speaker 4 (01:20:00):
What I'm saying.

Speaker 1 (01:20:00):
It was a buffet.

Speaker 3 (01:20:02):
The deeps damn for the ladies ship.

Speaker 1 (01:20:04):
It's a buffet.

Speaker 4 (01:20:05):
And actually I actually did uh.

Speaker 6 (01:20:09):
Well, I don't know, because it lasted so long that
eventually just like two of them were like all right,
I gotta go, and so like two left. But I guess,
I mean, I'm just gonna I'm just gonna toot my
own horn. I guess the head I was given was
so good that the last one was just like, yeah,
well no, I wasn't at my house. I went somewhere else,

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which was actually pretty dangerous because they have like baby
daddies and stuff.

Speaker 3 (01:20:32):
But not baby daddies and stuff.

Speaker 1 (01:20:35):
But that was my I guess that was the reason
why I stayed. And that was like the hoary part
because she was like, daddy's like the current in relationships
or just like I don't think so I don't know.

Speaker 3 (01:20:44):
So she said I'm gonna go. I'm gonna stay a
little later and get a little extra head because you're
doing a fire.

Speaker 6 (01:20:48):
This was the This was the disrespect because one of
them was like, I have to go, I have to
wake up, and she was just like, are you.

Speaker 1 (01:20:54):
Sure you don't want.

Speaker 3 (01:20:57):
You'd be good for birth tomorrow.

Speaker 1 (01:21:03):
To look it up, like please say no, it's just
so tired. I was just like, drop trop drop traps,
it's been eighty four years.

Speaker 3 (01:21:14):
Can I have a little bit of water? Shut up?

Speaker 4 (01:21:19):
You don't want this is wed enough down there.

Speaker 1 (01:21:21):
It's like a blood Like you sure you don't want
to hit this wobble?

Speaker 3 (01:21:26):
Oh that was great, that was beautiful. That was beautiful.

Speaker 4 (01:21:31):
I said these are hoary story. It's not horror, okay.

Speaker 1 (01:21:33):
I mean it could be both. It could be a
combo of.

Speaker 3 (01:21:38):
It could be great. Yeah it went terribly wrong, it
could be right.

Speaker 1 (01:21:42):
I was like one time a heato it's always he though.

Speaker 4 (01:21:47):
The homie.

Speaker 5 (01:21:49):
It was a girl came to the to the room,
was like, yo, I got these four chicks they on
the on the day pass. They gotta get in going
like two hours. They said, what's up?

Speaker 1 (01:22:00):
J passes wild.

Speaker 4 (01:22:03):
Because you should do.

Speaker 1 (01:22:04):
That's like one sixty.

Speaker 3 (01:22:06):
So they try to get their money worthy.

Speaker 5 (01:22:08):
So uh, she went back and got them and uh
came back to our our room because we were one
of the rooms that's right on the waterfront, so it
has its own jacuzie and ship like that.

Speaker 4 (01:22:19):
So it's like eight of us in this uh and
uh you know, you know where are you from all
that ship.

Speaker 5 (01:22:27):
It was like two minutes and there was like somebody
was like I want to see you eat her pussy,
and I want to say you eat her pussy, and
we all dried off and it was like eight people
on this this fucking bed and it was just it.

Speaker 4 (01:22:41):
Was it was wild.

Speaker 3 (01:22:42):
Everybody's getting pussy.

Speaker 4 (01:22:44):
Pussy, that's how it started.

Speaker 5 (01:22:47):
They started eating pussy in a jacuzie and then by
the time we made to the bed, it was all
off fest.

Speaker 3 (01:22:51):
So it's the eight people fast.

Speaker 1 (01:22:53):
Wait, so how many men were there?

Speaker 3 (01:22:55):
Two?

Speaker 1 (01:22:55):
And then six worlds? Whoa, this was a lot of work.

Speaker 4 (01:23:00):
That's that's a it's a workout, workout, it was. It
makes you have to replen with the water at least
three of them for the rest of that night.

Speaker 5 (01:23:11):
Yeah, the water went fast. I was replenishing with a
rare stripe. I was just living a wild lot crazy.

Speaker 1 (01:23:16):
That's all we had.

Speaker 5 (01:23:17):
Yeah, we had rare stripe and like a Fanta orange
and then rum, like tons of rum.

Speaker 4 (01:23:23):
So yeah, it was a time, but I was long
fluids after words, but.

Speaker 3 (01:23:29):
It was all of dehydrated as fu don't try to
sit home without fluids.

Speaker 4 (01:23:36):
That don't do that.

Speaker 3 (01:23:38):
I mean, those were lovely. Those are top notes. I'm
very proud that you guys came with the heat.

Speaker 1 (01:23:42):
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Speaker 3 (01:24:03):
Dry or yeah, summertime, come on?

Speaker 1 (01:24:06):
Come on?

Speaker 3 (01:24:06):
How growl summer opened, Little bus open. I don't know
if Patrick made that story up or he's just trying
to get all the d ms.

Speaker 1 (01:24:15):
But would.

Speaker 4 (01:24:20):
Why would they DM me for that?

Speaker 1 (01:24:23):
Once? Church is chicken that you don't have three SUPs.

Speaker 4 (01:24:29):
You ain't never had churches either.

Speaker 1 (01:24:31):
I don't care. I'm okay with that.

Speaker 4 (01:24:33):
That's fair.

Speaker 3 (01:24:35):
I don't care. Okay, you're not missing anything.

Speaker 1 (01:24:39):
Friend, your ass up? Did you look and see what
the closes churches is?

Speaker 3 (01:24:44):
I'm about to look right now.

Speaker 4 (01:24:45):
Late, None look for me. I look for myself.

Speaker 3 (01:24:49):
You gotta go anywhere anyway if you want to find
these two gentlemen, where can we find you?

Speaker 6 (01:24:56):
Instagram at to hear more, I mean Instagram prison right now,
so follow me at Cloudy Arcade my backup page, but
Patrick cloud everywhere else?

Speaker 5 (01:25:05):
Yeah, and then you can find our show. Damn in
and that you're scary on Instagram, Twitter, YouTube. It's just
damn Internet.

Speaker 4 (01:25:15):
You're scary, damn with no in so damn Internet, you're
scary we out there, and.

Speaker 1 (01:25:20):
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Speaker 3 (01:25:38):
That's it.

Speaker 1 (01:25:39):
Bye Easy

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