25. The Projector (Part 2)

In this episode, we continue our 2 part exploration of the Projector through diving into the experience of recognition, success, bitterness, and guidance. Projectors are designed to master the art of seeing and knowing the other, but this wisdom can only emerge through correct invitations, self-recognition, and deep deconditioning.

Kelsey explores the energetic challenges of being a non-energy type in a Generator world, the sacred responsibility of Projector's attention, and what it truly means to wait for the invitation and recognition. This conversation offers insight into how Projectors can release bitterness, reclaim their authority, and step into their natural role as outer authorities who guide through awareness, not effort.

What's Discussed in this Episode:

• The Projector’s signature of success and the not-self theme of bitterness
• Recognition as the key to authentic invitations and correct relationships
• The danger of seeking recognition through initiating or incorrect invitations
• How Projectors absorb and amplify conditioning, and why deconditioning is crucial for their auric function
• The seven-year deconditioning process and how it transforms awareness
• The role of attention as a Projector’s most valuable resource
• Importance of navigating projection, blame, and resentment through self-responsibility
• What it means for Projectors to be outer authorities
• Guidance through asking the right questions, not giving answers
• The energetic relationship between Generators and Projectors as the foundation for humanity’s evolution
• The necessity of correct relationships in a Projector’s life because who they plug into shapes everything

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Episode Transcript

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Projector conditioning hitsthe deepest energetically, literally,
because of the absorbing aura,because it goes inside of immerses
itself into another being'sexperience and deeply absorbs the
conditioning more deeply thanany of the other three types. And
on top of having this verydeep level of absorption taking place,
there's also this fact thatfor the projector and the reflector

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as well, the deconditioning issignificantly more imperative to
the Auric role than for theother types of A generator can still
build, create, do from a veryconditioned place, can still be a
generator, a manifester canstill initiate and make impact and
move the Maya with theirmotorized throat from a deeply conditioned

(00:43):
place. But for the projector,your Auric functionality of seeing
and guiding, it's contingenton that no agenda, that neutrality
and that neutrality, that lackof an agenda for the projector comes
through a deconditioned awareness.

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Welcome to the Living Your Desig Podcast. I'm your experimentor,
Kelsey Rose Tortorice. Thispodcast is an audio only release
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thank you for tuning into mytransmission of Living youg Design.
It's a deeply personal andsomewhat vulnerable share that I
feel honored, humbled andexcited to release into the world.
I hope that it helps youremember and come home to yourself.
This episode is part two of mylecture on the projector type. Check

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out the previous episode forthe first half.

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A bit more on what is successhere. So just like we've looked at
it with the other typesorienting towards the signature success
and the not self theme ofbitterness for projectors through
mechanics. Right? So we knowthat when a projector is invited
by those who recognize them,they will experience success. Those
who truly recognize aprojector recognize them for their

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awareness, not for theirability to be manipulated energetically.
And thus the invitation is aninvitation to guide, not an invitation
to do. This leads to successvia projectors successfully living
as themselves. Ra has a quotethat is success for a projector is
when being a non energy typeis no longer an issue for you, you've

(06:13):
accepted this role of beingrather than doing. You've stopped
trying to distort yourself oreven just having the narrative as
a default that you should bedoing more, that you should be doing
this correct invitation leadsto success via the felt experience
of guiding the transmutationof frustration into satisfaction.

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So everything we've talkedabout on the other slide, as well
as success via an easy lifewhere everything comes to you without
you having to do. However,when a projector seeks recognition
through initiating and oraccepts incorrect invitations where
they're not truly recognizedand or overstays those invitations
beyond the potential outcomeof success, beyond when that timeline

(06:58):
needs to have been over anddone with, where the success has
been found and now it's on tothe next. In all of these instances,
a projector will experiencebitterness. And this happens when
the mind, through thenarratives of the not self and the
openness of the projector'sdesign, attempts to hijack the form.
Remember, projectors take inconditioning very deeply so that

(07:18):
they can guide efficiently andeffectively. That's projectors are
designed to be deeplyconditioned because it's a part of
the Auric function for theprojector is to take that in and
absorb it. Order to offer whatthey see. But without awareness,
without the awareness of oh,that's you, not me. This is your

(07:39):
movie that I'm absorbing. Thisis not my ultimate truth. The conditioning
then disrupts the projectoraura's natural inclination to wait,
to be invited. The depth ofabsorption happening in the projector
reform results in taking in alot of distortion. So projectors
are feeding, feeding off ofeating, digesting, absorbing the

(07:59):
distortion of the not selfworld. When they're in the presence
of not self frequency in theother, wherever the projector is
open, they're taking indistorted frequencies of the definition
of others around them. And sothis amplification of distortion
inside the projector's formdoes not feel great. If you listen
to Ra's lecture, the theprojector signature moving from success

(08:23):
to Bitterness. He uses themetaphor of like the projector being
this really nice car thatisn't just going to take shitty fuel.
It's not just going to takeany, any old diesel fuel into its
system. It's going to beparticular selective about what fuel
it takes in and digests. Nowthat doesn't mean that the projector

(08:43):
is going to get, you know,obsessed with only helping people
who don't experiencedistortion. Because the whole point
for the projector is toexperience the success through checking
in with where things aredistorted and helping facilitate
back on track the problemsolvers. Essentially. Right. But
there has to be some level ofintentionality on behalf of the other

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person to be willing toreceive that awareness, to be willing
to consider, to un grasp thehold that their mind has on the thing
leading them to distortion.And it's when the person is in that
place that they then are ableto recognize and invite the projector
in. But meanwhile theprojector is taking in these distorted

(09:28):
frequencies really whereverthe projector goes. And that amplification,
as I already said inside theprojector form doesn't feel great.
It's very loud distortion thatthe projector experiences in their
deeply absorbing body. Andthat is made all the more irritating
when the projector is takingin this distortion and able to see

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the path to success withoutbeing invited to offer it and being
kind of discarded or worse,asks to be a workhorse in this already
distorted process where theirawareness is not being registered
as the thing they're there tooffer. And so a not self projector
is going to identify with theamplification of frustration or anger

(10:09):
or disappointment from aposition of feeling discarded in
this case. And this is whatcreates bitterness. Another quote
on success here from Ra. See,success is something that is earned
over time. There's no suchthing as overnight success, not for
a projector. It's notpossible. It will take any projector,
when they enter into a path ofcorrectness, at least seven years

(10:32):
to master the Other. That'swhat they're here for. What is so
important about the nature ofthe potential of the projector is
that in its perfection it isable to recognize the potential of
the other. That's the gift, torecognize the potential of the other
and to be able to provide theother with guidance. The most important
leader of any grouptheoretically, and ideally should

(10:53):
be a projector. And yetprojectors are not here to lead.
Manifestors lead. Projectorsare a non energy type. They cannot
lead. They can only guide. Andthey can only guide when they're
invited. So this is my setupto kind of talking about this idea
of leadership versus guidanceand manifestors being the old world
leader and projectors beingthe new world leader, which is something

(11:14):
you'll hear a lot in the humandesign space and is something that
is true and we'll talk aboutthat. But bitterness. Let's talk
about bitterness a bit more. Iforgot to put this one in quotes,
I guess. But this is also araw quote from the same lecture.
The dilemma that exists forthe projector is that the projector
child, who is deeplydisadvantaged as a child, who comes
into the world with parentsthat want them to be manifesters,

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that comes into a world thatoverloads them and turns them into
hyperactive beings for therest of their lives, drives them
constantly to be somethingthat they're not. A world that rewires
their metabolism. I mean,projectors go through hell as children
because they're notrecognized. So this bitterness again
is this knowing thatprojectors have like deep in their

(11:56):
bones that there's. This isnot what they're meant for. They're
not meant for this constantprocess of feeling manipulated by
the. The distortions of thenot self world of energy beings.
They're meant to cut loosefrom that cycle of inefficiency and

(12:17):
distortion and to simply beand be honored for their awareness
and their attention that helpsget things back on track. So yeah,
just another raw quote here tokind of orient us to what bitterness
is. And the key to get frombitterness to success over and over
again in the little ways andthe big ways to ultimately recalibrate

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the entire body for theprojector for success rather than
for bitterness, isrecognition. So this is a quote from
the definitive book of humandesign. Recognition is the projector's
key to understanding the waytheir strategy connects them to their
authority in the world. Insome ways, recognition is to projectors
what responding is togenerators. Their powers of strategic

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recognition provide them withtheir boundaries, which they maintain
by being selective whenaccepting invitations. Both the projector's
ability to recognize what isavailable to them from others and
the need for their own uniquegifts to be properly recognized by
others are part of thespecific ways their auras are designed
to connect. The projector aurais an I am open to invitation field

(13:26):
that draws people in and outof their lives by provoking invitations
from them. Recognition,accompanied by a formal invitation
is the way the other typeshonor and empower projectors. As
with generators, weighting isthe quality of the projector strategy.
However, the clarity of theiranswer is not as immediately accessible
as a Sacral response. So wetalked about that already, the mundane

(13:50):
truth that generators havethrough that sacral response. And
then the book goes on to say,to further analyze these subtle differences,
we've divided projectors intothree basic categories based on the
configurations. And we'llcover that, but we'll cover it through
authority, because that'sessentially what this book, the definitive
book of human design, goes onto do is. It goes on to talk about

(14:12):
the process of discerninginvitations for projectors, whether
they're energy projectors, nonenergy projectors, or mental projectors.
And those are just ways ofcategorizing the potential authorities
for projectors. So we'll talkabout that in the authority section.
So I've mentioned a coupletimes this idea of like, it's like
flipping a switch. The notself projector is going to experience

(14:35):
bitterness because they'rechasing recognition rather than waiting
for invitations that alreadycarry recognition. It's from the
definitive book of humanDesign. That sort of show what I
mean when I talk about, for aprojector settling into strategy,
surrendering to strategyreally is like flipping this switch
from bitterness as the defaultstate to the potential for success.

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So in this book it says, whennot self projectors, eager for recognition
of any kind, try to meet theexpectations of others and thus are
recognized instead for whothey are not, they can get confused
and attach themselves toanyone, even someone who is detrimental
to them. Healthy projectorsare those who avoid this trap by
recognizing themselves andunderstanding their own limitations,

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as in, you're not an energytype. When they are no longer dependent
on external sources foraffirmation of any kind, because
they recognize themselves, thetrue projector gift of recognition
is returned to its rightfuland properly functioning place in
their strategy. Nothing booststhe mood of projectors like being
recognized or drops themfaster into a state of bitterness

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when they are not. Whenprojectors try to get others to see
them, they are perceived asneedy and demanding. Other types
feel this need for recognitionand resist it. By initiating and
inviting themselves,projectors are giving their inherent
power to the other person,which places them at a huge disadvantage.
You know, I always pictureprojectors like on thrones. That's

(16:06):
how I picture it. And forsome, I, for some reason I picture
a football field and I picturelike generators are running around
the football field doing theplays, doing the thing. And when
they run up into problems,they might look out and see like,
oh, there's a projector overthere, like sitting elevated on their
throne that can see thingsfrom outside. This like cloud of

(16:28):
frustration that I'M in. Maybeif I ask nicely, they'll tell me
what they see. Like maybethey'll. Because they have an awareness
that I am lacking in thismoment of frustration. So maybe if
I ask nicely, they'll show mewhat they see from up there on their
throne. That's like the imageI always get. Ra sometimes uses the
word hierarchical, and I thinkI might even have quotes where he

(16:51):
says that included in thisslide. So maybe it is hierarchical,
but it's not hierarchical theway our minds want to see it. Where
it's synergistic, you know,it's symbiotic. That's the word I
keep looking for. I think Isaid synergistic earlier when I went
symbiotic. It's symbiotic. Theprojector wants to plug in to the

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generators out on the field.It feels good. That's how projector
feels successful. It's anecess. It's a need they have that's
dependent on the other. Andthe generator, when it's correct,
sees the value in thatattention and therefore is willing
to pay up, whether that meansmoney, recognition, praise, energetic

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resources in whatever formthey come. A generator is willing
to offer that when theexchange is symbiotic. But when projectors
initiate and invite themselveswhen they're out on the. The thrones
on the edge of the footballfield, shouting and going, do this,
do this, do this. Thegenerators are like, hey, I don't
need it right now. Or themanifestors, the reflectors, the

(17:53):
other projectors, whoever itis, is like, no, like that you're
poking. That's not the. Idon't want advice from somebody who's
trying to force something.Because when a projector forces,
it's coming from distortion.And the other types feel that, or
even other projectors feelthat. We can feel that the awareness
being offered is not actuallyneutral. In order for a projector

(18:17):
to really offer theirawareness, there has to be this level
of neutrality to it, where theprojector doesn't have an agenda.
And so long as the projectoris seeking, like thirsty for craving
this recognition, that's theagenda. And that gets in the way
of the projector actuallyhonoring their supreme awareness,

(18:38):
their supreme attention. Soprojectors are giving their inherent
power to the other person,which places them at a huge disadvantage
when the projector initiatesand invites themselves. This often
happens in familyrelationships where they have not
been seen as themselves fromthe beginning. Because a projector
kid is a very different thingfrom a generator kid is a very different

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thing from a Manifestor Kidfor the projector, taking their power
back is really difficult. Atfirst, it involves shifting their
focus, standing securelygrounded in awareness of their own
gifts, and waiting until theirown Auric message is clearly received.
This allows the people aroundthem to recognize and invite their
real gifts into therelationship and changes the basis
of the relationship as awhole. From something that likely

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feels vampiric and controllingand coercive, probably to some extent
both ways, into thatpotentiality for a symbiotic exchange.
So again, like flipping aswitch here or just saying the same
thing. In other words, whenprojectors feel starved for energy,

(19:41):
they will compromise andsettle for an invitation to the wrong
energy exchange. Accuraterecognition and proper invitation
is what sets a projector'sgifts in motion and increases their
value to others. For example,when someone says to an emotionally
defined projector, I love theway you process your decisions through
your feelings, they know theperson sees them. This gives the

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projector access to cleanenergy and potentially a receptive
ear for their insightfulguidance and advice, which is key
to success rather thanbitterness. It's through understanding
of others that projectorsarrive at a clear understanding of
themselves. If their agendafor reaching out to people comes
with the expectation that theywill get attention or recognition,

(20:25):
however, they will meet withresistance. Because, like I said
on the other slides, the othertypes can feel that neediness. The
only way for the potentialpotentially correct symbiotic exchange
to happen is when the othertypes realize that it's them petitioning
the projectors for attentionand not the projectors petition,

(20:48):
not the other way around.Essentially, others petition projectors
for attention, but when aprojector is petitioning for attention
themselves, it literallydisables the potentiality for that
correct exchange to happen,because it has to happen through
mechanically correct responseor initiation or whatever it is for

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the other person. The othertype. Like all types, projectors
need to be aware of theirunderlying agenda and hidden expectations.
Projectors have a very strongintellect. They like to study and
take in information. Becauseof this, they tend to have a deeply
conditioned mind that tries tocontrol their lives and circumstances
through the not selfstrategies of their open centers.

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They tend to feel that theywill not get the life they really
want, and so they compromisein their relationships and jobs by
settling for what they thinkthey can get. And settling is a huge
problem for the projector,especially when there are bills to
pay. I think Ra has a quotewhere he talks about like human beings
in general, although you'llsee this more dramatically in projectors,

(21:53):
but human beings in general,we Tend to settle for second, third,
fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh,eighth, ninth, to infinity choice,
because we don't believe thatwe are worthy of that. We will have
access to that. Surrenderingto the flow of things will give us
the life we want. And so wesettle over and over and over. And

(22:13):
for projectors specifically,what this looks like is settling
for incorrect relationshipsand incorrect invitations. Because
there is this truth that theprojector knows underneath everything,
which is that they do need theother to be successful. But their
whole life they've been sodeeply conditioned to distort who

(22:34):
they are, to try to receivethe attention, receive the recognition,
that they end up in thishamster wheel of chasing recognition
rather than getting off thatwheel entirely, learning to recognize
themselves, flipping theswitch and watching how people will
now petition for your energy.And the invitations come flowing.

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What is the fundamentalprerogative of the vehicle? For projectors,
Projectors are the guides. Thevehicle's fundamental prerogative
is to plug in, to penetrateother beings, to plug in to outlets
that are correct for them. Andthrough the Auric function, through
that Auric process of pluggingin and absorbing with awareness,

(23:15):
projectors are able tofacilitate a process within the other
that unfolds into greaterclarity. Projector auras are the
yang to the generator. Yinmanifestors and projectors have in
common. Yang auras versusreflectors and generators have yin
auras that are more aboutreceiving. Projectors have to penetrate

(23:36):
in order to receive. The auraitself is penetrative. I don't remember
what moved me to search thedefinition of penetrated, but then
once I did, I really likedthat the first word in the definition
of dictionary, online.com orwhatever is succeed. To penetrate
is to succeed in forcing a wayinto or through a thing. So success

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for the projector is literallythe aura simply being able to do
the thing it does, the aurabeing able to penetrate without resistance.
Projectors are the mostrelational type. Projectors are designed
to be fixated on the other.But projectors, the energy sources
that are healthy for you toplug into, for you to fix your attention

(24:22):
onto, they need and thusrecognize you as much as, or maybe
even more than you need andrecognize them. So if there isn't
that sense of symbioticplugging in, of I am needed and recognized
here from the other, then itis not the healthy relationship and.
Or it's just not the correcttiming for you to plug in. Another

(24:46):
raw quote here. The world thatwe live in is a world for generators
and projectors. This is themost important relationship that
exists on the Planet. In thegenerator lecture, I quoted, I think
I quoted, or at leastmentioned in passing the idea of,
like, you have to wake upgenerators to wake up the world.
And the type that is uniquelydesigned to facilitate awakening

(25:09):
within the generator is theprojector. And so this is why this
is the most important, thesymbiotic relationship I keep talking
about. I'm talkingspecifically about the relationship
between generators andprojectors. And this brings me to,
as I was saying earlier,projectors are like the new leaders.
I don't understandmechanically how this is the case.

(25:29):
I have, I guess I haven't beenin a position where I've been able
to ask one of my teachers thisspecific question before. Maybe next
time I meet up with them Iwill. And I'm sure there's a lecture
on it somewhere. But I don'tquite understand how we didn't have
projectors prior to 1781,like, mechanically. But I accept
that it is the case. Theprojector type is the newest as of

(25:52):
1781. So with the discovery ofUranus, with the mutation from 7
centered to 9 centered beings,we got a new type on the scene, and
that is projectors. Very, veryyoung as an aura type relative to
all the other aura types. AndRa has said both. We have quotes

(26:13):
from Ra saying both of thesethings. One, projectors are the new
leaders, and also projectorscannot lead. So I want to talk about
this because it is true in myview, that projectors are the new
leaders and also leadership.Again, one of those words that the
mind has a history with. And Ithink it's really important for projectors

(26:37):
to understand that the waythat you are going to lead looks
absolutely nothing like we asa society orient to leadership. Now,
projectors will lead throughawakening individuals to come into
their own inner authority, tobecome their own authority. Projectors
will not lead through force orthrough being an outer authority

(26:59):
that takes over the individualinner authority. So we're talking
about leadership throughguidance, not through any kind of
leadership we've seen before.Not leadership through actually moving
energy, making impact,shifting the Maya, dictating directionality,
which was the way of themanifestor. Motorized throat is able

(27:19):
to do those things, isdesigned to do those things. For
projectors, we're changing theworld one aura at a time. And projectors
guide lead, facilitate withquestions, not with answers, not
with commands, not withenergy, power, force, and not with
blame. Another quote here fromthe definitive book of human design.

(27:39):
Specifically, the part herethat I really like is this phrase
taking leadership itself in anew direction. Because projectors
Aren't necessarily becomingthe leaders. Projectors are facilitating
this awakening happeningacross the entire consciousness through
all of the aura types, wherewe understand that we are each meant

(27:59):
to be led by our own innerauthority. And projectors have a
specific primary role inleading this awakening process. Through
their attention, through theirawareness, through their insights,
Projectors represent a newenergy archetype on the planet that
emerged after 1781. Until theadvent of the human design system,

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Projectors had no direct meansby which to fully comprehend either
their unique auric field forthe particular role they are here
to play as one of the fourtypes. Up until the last century,
manifestors and generatorsdominated positions of leadership
and authority around theworld. In the future, however, it
is the projector who willbegin to move into positions of greater
power, Taking leadershipitself in a new direction. This will

(28:44):
happen when the energy typesrecognize and empower the projector's
natural potential by invitingthe projector to guide them. As manifestors
are freed to initiate,processes and generators begin to
realign with their own naturalpower as creative builders, Projectors
will emerge as theadministrators of the new order.

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Another raw quote from hisprojector lecture. The projector
is not here to discuss themand Dane. They're here to ask the
right questions. And they'rehere to ask the right questions.
Because they have the gift ofbeing able to absorb and focus on
another in a way that asanother themselves, they can truly
grasp what's there there, andknow what to ask that force in order
to move them in a way that iscorrect for them, or at least to

(29:27):
open up the opportunity forthem to respond this way or that.
It's these questions that welack. You see, answers are not important,
not when it comes to what theprojector is good for. There is no
universal answer. There isonly unique truth for each of us.
And each being has the rightto the correct question, Not a homogenized
question. It is a great giftof the projector to know precisely

(29:48):
what question can betransforming in the other's life.
And it is a question thatcarries with it no agenda. This is
the crucial part of this quotehere, and why I wanted to include
is not a question in which theprojector prefers a certain answer.
When the projector does have acertain agenda, that is the agenda
of their not self. It is aquestion that arises out of awareness

(30:11):
of the other. This is the roleof projectors. A projector does not
guide by telling you what todo. A projector does not lead by
performing themselves, bydoing themselves the way in which
a Projector guides is thatthey simply ask the right question.
That's all I want to talkabout. This idea of projectors deeply

(30:31):
absorbing here, there's kindof two pieces to this. So one projector
conditioning hits the deepestenergetically, literally, because
of the absorbing aura, becauseit goes inside of immerses itself.
The projector immerses theirattention into another being's experience
and deeply absorbs theconditioning more deeply than any
of the other three typesreceive conditioning. And on top

(30:54):
of having this very deep levelof absorption taking place inside
the projector form, there'salso this fact that for the projector
and the reflector as well, thedeconditioning is significantly more
imperative to the Auric rolethan for the other types. And what
I mean by that, that is agenerator can still generate from
the not self. A generator canstill build, create, do from a very

(31:19):
conditioned place, can stillbe a generator, a manifestor can
still initiate and make impactand move the Maya with their motorized
throat from a deeplyconditioned place, from a not self
place. But for the projectorand the reflector, but we're focusing
on the projector here. YourAuric functionality of seeing and
guiding, it's contingent onthat no agenda, that neutrality and

(31:45):
that neutrality, that lack ofan agenda for the projector, comes
through a deconditionedawareness. And so again, this idea
of like the flip beingswitched, that's just the image I
keep getting for projectors.Like, it's so the deconditioning
process is so imperative, it'sso important for the projector to
actually be able to live asthemselves, to actually be able to

(32:08):
facilitate and guide from thissuccessful neutral place, rather
than from a place ofbitterness. And so we talk about
the seven year deconditioningprocess in human design and what
I've noticed and what I'veheard from R.A. and from my teachers
in from projectors that I, I'man in observance with and that I'm
friends with is the seven yeardeconditioning process is extremely

(32:29):
crucial, especially for theprojectors because the conditioning
is so deep and because it sogets in the way of the actual Auric
function, which for both theprojector and the reflector requires
a neutral awareness to be ableto perform. And kind of along those
lines, I liked this quotefrom, from the projector lecture.

(32:49):
With Ra, awakening begins notwith the potential of projectors,
but with the fact thatprojectors are so deeply, deeply
conditioned, so lost in theMaya. And there's no blame in that.
It's no fault of their Own. Sofor projectors, you know, I think
another quote I had earlierkind of carried the sentiment. Another

(33:10):
raw quote carried thesentiment of like, it's not an instant
gratification for projectors,which it can be for generators, right?
At this point, you've heard metalk about the potentiality of simplicity
for the generator. Like, eventhough there's all these complex
layers of conditioning in theway of listening to the gut, yes
or no, for the sacral beingmechanically itself, it's simple.

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It's not so mechanicallysimple for the projector because
for the projector, all thatlittle stuff that the generator is
able to check in with in everymoment of every day through their
sacral response, all thatlittle mundane stuff of life for
the projector is based onwhose movies they are immersing themselves
in as an awareness, as anattention payer in any given moment.

(33:54):
And the trajectory that theprojectors are on before finding
human design in most cases ismultiple steps away from the alignment
of the movies of people whoactually truly recognize them for
themselves. Because I thinkfor projectors it takes some time
to really truly even recognizethemselves for themselves. And it's

(34:15):
only through that personalrecognition, that self recognition,
that correct alignedinvitations can come when the projectors
stop chasing recognitionthrough their conditioning. And so
yeah, I just, I want to pointthat out. I think maybe it might
feel a little harrowing, butit's just something I've found to
be true as I've watched andlearned about the mechanics of aura

(34:37):
types, is that there's anecessity for the projectors of like,
it's kind of this weirdcontradiction. Again, it feels like
a lot of contradiction in theprojector experience to me. There's
contradiction for all of us,but it feels specific, very specific
in the projector experiencewhere there's this level of self
worth and self validation andself recognition and sovereignty

(35:00):
over oneself and understandingjust how extremely highly valued
your attention is as aprojector. Again, this like putting
you on your throne, assumingthe position of your throne, where
other people petition you foryour attention. Like this huge kind
of regal element to theprojector awakening. But in the same

(35:21):
vein, there's this level ofhumility that has to come hand in
hand with that, where theprojector recognizes that yes to
all of that. And also it'sgoing to be a process for me to decondition
my mind because as mentionedpreviously, and I think I have another
slide or two on this, like theprojector mind is so projectors have

(35:42):
sharp minds, projectors havereally good minds. But because the
Mind is so sharp, it reallylearns how to try to manipulate reality
according to the non selfstrategies. So it's just like the
conditioning has its feet dugin a little bit deeper with projectors.
I definitely see for me likethe difference between a projector

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that's deconditioning withsome humility around the fact that
like yes, I'm assuming thisleadership role, I am the new leader
and also I am affected by mynot self mind. There's such a huge
difference in my experience inthat version of the projector deconditioning
than the version of theprojector deconditioning who just

(36:27):
the not self mind just kind ofgrasps onto these ideas of being
the new leaders. Becauserightfully so, it is so bitter from
not being recognized up tothis point that the mind will just
take this new narrative of I'mthe leader, my attention is so valuable
and just decorate it with allthese old patterns and old bitternesses,

(36:50):
old not self orientationstowards trying to control and manipulate.
That's just the same thing nowdressed up in the language of human
design. And you know, to beclear, we all do this. We all do
this. It's just the, the waythe projector mind orients because
it's such a good mind becauseit's designed to be an outer authority.

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And the depth, the level ofdepth that the projector body takes
the conditioning in at justmakes for such a huge potential shift
in either the conditioned orthe deconditioned projector or the
conditioned and the humblydeconditioning projector. Another
raw quote here. With theirnatural brilliance and openness to

(37:33):
taking on the expectations andenergies of others because that's
what they're designed for.They have managed to effectively
imitate both manifestors andgenerators, losing themselves in
the process. So again, kind ofcoming back to this idea here, I
as a manifestor, I was stillfunctioning as a manifestor even
when I was doing it from a notself place. Generators auric function

(37:54):
still is that of a generatoreven when they're doing it from a
not self place. But projectorscompletely lose themselves in the
process of trying to conformto this world of energy beings. And
you're able to imitate moreeffectively because you're designed
to take on the energy ofothers. I also want to note this.

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I had a friend, a fellowmanifestor, who has been in his experiment
much longer than me, likeseven or eight years. And we were
talking at an in person humandesign event after we had done some
like in aura experimentationwhere types were hanging out with
their own auras, justmanifesters, just projectors, just

(38:36):
generators. And then we didsome experimentation where we came
into contact with other auratypes and we all just kind of discussed
what it felt like, all of thatin a side, I suppose. But this manifesto
friend of mine voicedsomething in that discussion about
like, don't projectors feelyoung to you? And in the moment,
I was like, no, not at all.Because when I think about the projectors

(38:57):
in my life, the projectorsthat have been in my life long term
especially, but also theprojectors that I've. I've come into
contact with more recently,like, these are people that I've
always esteemed as sort oflike old souls. At least the projectors
that have been correct for me,right, Who I naturally felt inclined
to petition for theirattention because I valued what they

(39:18):
saw, those projectors. To me,they feel wise as all hell, you know,
like, I'm like, they seesomething, you know, I sense that.
But as I thought about it moreand as I talked to this friend of
mine more, I understood morewhat. What he meant. Like, projectors
are the youngest aura type. Soit's not a. It's not about, like,

(39:38):
immaturity as an awareness or.Yeah, it's not about an immaturity
so much as it's just like weas a society are very early on, we
as a species and collectiveare relatively in the very early
stages of learning how tooperate this aura type. So those
of you who have incarnated inthis lifetime as projectors, like

(39:59):
you, are doing this service ofbeing among the first to operate
this aura type. Earlier in themanifestor lecture, I think it was
maybe the generator and themanifestor lecture a little bit,
I talked about how we all havethis inherited trauma of the era
in which manifestors wereviolent, and it's through violent

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force and violent initiationthat manifestors led. Now, those
of us incarnated asmanifestors today, we deal with the
repercussions of that. Evenwhen we are not being violent, we
still carry these auras thatincite fear, that threaten others.
The projector version of thatis you are being of service to the
collective by being among thefirst, in a linear time sense, to

(40:43):
try to operate this pointy,focused aura, to be the people in
the world that are here toguide and facilitate in this brand
new way that we haven't as acollective yet evolved to really
fully understand how to. Howto use this energy type. And I say
both from inside of it and outof it, because those of you who are

(41:03):
projectors you are learninghow to do this from the inside of
it, but those of us outside ofit are learning too. And I think
a lot of times about howsometimes that invitation can feel
kind of clunky, right? I thinkabout that like we're just, we're
learning how to honorprojectors for their attention rather
for any energy exertion. We'relearning how to honor the depths

(41:28):
to which projectors take onour stuff in order to do their role.
And it can feel clunky becauseit's new. On a collective evolutionary
level, projectors in theirbeing and watching, feel and look
different than the energytypes who are doing their thing.
So when we notice theprojector gaze, when we notice the

(41:49):
pokiness of the aura, wenotice that's something different,
that's something new. That'swhy projectors are naturally recognized
their attractive field. As RAtalks about it, everyone can feel
their penetration, their gaze.And we're in the process of evolving
towards an interdependentreality that knows how to utilize
that aura correctly. Andthere's a contradiction here, right?

(42:10):
There's the potential for thisvery wise sage type, but it's in
its infancy stages from anevolutionary development perspective
of the functionality of thatwise sage type as a collective. So
more contradiction here in theprojector. We've already talked about
this a bunch, but I just wantto look at it a little bit directly
here. You know, so much ofwhat we talk about with the projector

(42:32):
is in self recognition inorder to be selective about who gets
your attention. So likeextremely basic boundaries work is
so important for theprojector, both on an awareness level,
like just simply having theawareness that not everybody is ready
for or deserving of yourattention. And on an energetic boundaries,
energetic hygiene, energeticboundaries level, because where air,

(42:55):
your aura points, it focusesand absorbs. And so there's a necessity
for the projector on beingselective about who you put your
attention onto because you'retaken in their world, beauty, distortion,
all of it, the good, the badand the ugly. But also this necessity
of like unplugging andrecalibrating back to your body in
order to trust your ownauthority as you move through this

(43:17):
process of immersing yourselfin the other. So the, the contradiction
here is like everything'sabout the other. But in order for
me to show up in integrity forthe other, I have to be focused on
discernment and boundaries asa self and self recognition. So everything
for the projector, their wellbeing comes down to the other, right?
These questions of who is theother. What other is for me? How

(43:39):
am I or who am I to thisother? How do I recognize this other
and does this other recognizeme? Or how do I recognize this other?
Here's Ross speaking on that.It comes back to one thing and one
thing only. If you cannotmaster your world, if you cannot
master your ability to graspand understand and recognize the
other, then there is somethingessential that always is going to

(44:02):
be missing in your life andcan destroy your life, that you do
not have the discernment torecognize who belongs in your life.
This is Ross speaking toprojectors. When you're walking around
as a not self projector withyour plug in your hand, you plug
into anything, anything. Andyour not self mind will rationalize
for you that it's okay, it'sall right, here's what you'll get
out of it, blah, blah, blah,all that stuff. And it's this mindless

(44:25):
plugging into the other thatis so destructive to the projector
because you live off of theirfrequency. Separate quote, but similarly
in terms of its intent. It isthe irony of being a projector. You
can only focus on the otherand the danger is getting lost in
the other. And the answer isthat the other has to be correct.
Nobody needs to be more rigidabout who they bring into their life

(44:48):
than a projector. Projectorspay a deep, deep price for not being
aware. So again, thissentiment of like, it's imperative,
the awareness, thedeconditioning is so imperative for
a projector because of thatdeeply immersive quality to your
existence into the other.Generators are designed to surrender.

(45:09):
Projectors must accept untilthey know. So I think what that piece
is about is like generatorssurrender in the moment to this dance
of availability of sacral yesand no projectors on a moment to
moment basis. Again, this ideaof like, it's not such an instant
gratification. You have toaccept where you're at and who you're
with. Because the nature ofyour aura is to focus, penetrate,

(45:33):
absorb, and become immersed inthat other. That's what you have
available to you until yourown inner authority guides you to
a knowing that this is notcorrect. Right? So it's an acceptance.
I'm along for the ride untilyou know. So everything for the projector
comes down to the other. Andyet projectors still must know themselves

(45:57):
and take responsibility forthemselves. But you cannot just master
it in a moment because despitethe fact that you don't care about
yourself, just the naturalinclination of the projector to want
to plug into the other and beMore focused and attentive to the
other. The fact that you'reonly focused on the outside does
not mean that you can avoidbeing correct for yourself and that

(46:17):
you don't have an authority toguide you. So projectors, although
everything for your well beingcomes down to the well being and
the correctness of the othersand the correctness of the symbiotic
exchange with the others thatyou plug into, you still have to
know yourself. You still haveto take responsibility for yourself
rather than blaming the other.It's natural for the projector when

(46:41):
things aren't going right,when the projector's trying to distort
themselves, not feelingthey're receiving adequate recognition,
to feel into the bitternessand want to blame the other. Like
that just makes sense. That'snatural that that's what the not
self projector would do.Because you've been immersed in this
other and things don't feelgood, it must be the other. And there's

(47:01):
a truth to that. But there'sno agency or sovereignty in that.
So the personalresponsibility, the shift away from
that victimhood for theprojector comes from getting out
of that blame game andtrusting your own body, being willing
to unplug without knowing whoor when or how you'll plug back into
something unplugging becauseyou can feel that it's not a healthy

(47:25):
symbiotic connection. Rightnow. There's a level of faith, a
level of trust, and a level ofdiscipline that that requires. But
it is only through that thatthe projector can actually show up
in integrity for the nextinvitation. And it's only through
that that the projector hastheir own sense of agency and power

(47:46):
and sovereignty over theirexperience. So it's extremely crucial.
The not self projector thrivesin the blame game. Here's another
raw quote here. Endless blame.And all as a way to try to answer
their own bitterness. You'reto blame for messing up my life for
this, for that. But this blameis a disease. The other is only going
to bring you bitterness.That's what happens in these endless

(48:08):
not self rounds ofrelationships. So when the projector
is running around like Rasaid, with the plug in their hand,
just desperate for a source ofenergy to put their attention into,
it will always lead tobitterness. And you can see how having
that agenda of I need to plugin, I need another that is going

(48:28):
to be resisted by the peoplearound you. Because so long as you
have that agenda, you are notin a position where you can observe
with neutral awareness. Andthat neutral awareness is the prerequisite
to your facilitation, yourguidance. So the not self projector
thrives in the blame gameuntil they take responsibility. And

(48:50):
this taking the personalresponsibility that happens for the
projector that reorients themto their sovereignty and to their
agency. Their power happens asawareness forms through the process
of surrendering to yourstrategy and authority. Over time,
you're cellularly transformed.The bitterness is kept at bay. And
instead of blame, theprojector is able to see where their

(49:12):
natural agency lies. Ra saysof projectors, this is what I hope
for in the future. More andmore projectors who truly understand
their nature, who are notvictims, who are not full of blame,
who have the right people intheir lives and can begin to express
this gift. And I've mentionedthis a few times throughout, but
I want to give it its own sortof segment here. The projector role

(49:33):
is an inherent outer authorityfor the other. The mind is sharp
to support in this rolebecause the part of us that is able
to communicate with the otheris the mind, right? The mind is the
antenna. It's how we connectto others through this process of
sharing what we know. This istrue for all types. But because the
projector functionality is tobe the outer authority that facilitates

(49:57):
awareness and alignment on theplanet for the other, their mind
has to be really good. It's aprimary tool. So projectors are gifted.
These like very good mindsthat think systemically, that see
things, and are able to veryaptly orient in a mental capacity
to what it is they see.Because they have to be able to do

(50:18):
that, to communicateeffectively, to perform their auric
function of that energeticsurgery. But the sharp mind without
awareness is still an agent ofnot self distortion. So Ra says,
it's the curse of being aprojector. You're given this kind
of mind so that you can reallyprobe things and recognize them.
But as not self, that mindbecomes an absolute horror trip.

(50:41):
And then you go to all thoseplaces of openness where the conditioning
comes in, the undefinedcenters, the undefined channels and
gates, and the mind jumps onit. And you have these complex projector
minds who twist and turn theconditioning. And so again, that
idea of like, for theprojector, awareness doesn't begin
with the potential of, oh, I'mhere to guide, I'm here to lead.

(51:01):
It begins first with theawareness and acceptance of the extent
to which the conditioning isso deep and has likely massively,
if not entirely, taken overthis very apt mind you have. The
mind is so sharp that it isable to take anything and Systemically

(51:21):
work with it in a way thatfurthers the agenda of the mind.
Through the strategies of thenot self and the undefined centers.
A projector's attention istheir greatest asset. But through
this distortion process that,that I've pointed to multiple times
now, the projector's attentioncan become this commodity that is
acquired and controlled viamanipulation and not self addiction.

(51:45):
And I put a asterisk ondistortion because distortion from
the other is initially, youknow, what distorts the projector.
But then it's the projector'sold own enabling of that distortion,
of that manipulation and abuseand control through accepting that
type of coercive way ofrelating, codependent way of relating.

(52:10):
It's the projectors on notself distortion that enables the
not self distortion and thecontinued taking in of it and acceptance
of the not self distortion.The not self invitations the not
self recognition thatprojectors receive. So I just wanted
to talk about this idea hereof like attention as a commodity
and the sort of dance ofcodependency and enabling that projectors

(52:34):
and whoever they're immersedin in a not self distorted way are
playing together. Another rockquote here. The hardest thing in
the world for a not selfperson to do is to give up a projector's
attention, right? So projectorattention can feel really good. And
it can either feel really goodbecause there's a part of me, my
true self, that would reallybenefit from having an attent, a

(52:55):
loving, neutral attention onit to help me navigate my own awareness,
release the blockages that areborn of my mind and come back into
flow and surrender with mynatural state of being. Or it can
feel and, or it can feelreally good. Because my not self
mind, through the flavors ofconditioning and whichever of my
undefined centers I'm stuck onis telling me that I need attention.

(53:18):
Undefined throat. I needattention. I need people to pay attention
to me. Undefined G center. Ineed love and direction. So this
person attention is. Thisperson's attention is giving me a
sense of purpose anddirection. Undefined ego. If this
person pays attention to me,then I must be worthy for whatever
Undefined spleen. I needattention from someone to feel safe.
Well, projectors haveattention and can give attention

(53:41):
and recognition in a way thatno other type can. It's what they're
designed for. And so whensomeone is in a not self position,
accepting that attention,feeding off that attention, trying
to manipulate and keep andretain that attention, they're going
to keep, you know, doingwhatever it is they're driven by.
The not self to do to keepthat projector's attention in their

(54:02):
life. And the projector, notself, who thinks that holding attention,
holding recognition andstaying hooked into a person, regardless
of whether the connectionfeels symbiotic and healthy or not,
enables that process. So Ragoes on to say, we have mutual addictions
in the not self. The projectorthat is addicted to plugging in with

(54:22):
the person to is who isaddicted to having that attention.
So this leads us to like theprojector, sovereignty is really
about being selective inregards to who gets your attention.
And once there's thewillingness to surrender to waiting
for the invitation, there'sstill a step there of acknowledging
that there's a necessaryselectivity in regards to accepting

(54:44):
invitations. And that can bereally tricky for the projector.
It can be really tricky to sayno. Ra says for a projector, this
is something holy. To stand intheir own authority and be able to
say no. Because you're no.Just like for a generator. The no
is not about I don't like you,it's about I don't have sacral energy
for that. It's a nonnegotiable same with the projector.

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Your own body, your ownauthority knows whether you are receiving
the type of recognition thatactually allows for you to facilitate
your role successfully or not.So it's not about them. The no isn't
personal, it's just what is.And it's a very necessary step towards
your success. From thedefinitive book of human design.

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When projectors understand thesanctity of their aura, they will
nurture and protect it. Thisbegins with creating an essentially
aura free space in their homethat they can retreat to in order
to properly relax and releasethe auric energies that they have
absorbed during the day. So ifyou don't live alone as a projector,
it's a necessity for you tohave a time and a place in your regular

(55:52):
everyday life where you can bealone. Because so long as another
aura is around, you arefocusing on it and absorbing it,
you're immersed in that movie.And in order for you to even with
even within the umbrella ofinvitations, such as a job, a friendship,
a romantic relationship, afamily, a living situation, even

(56:12):
within those longer terminvitations, in order for you to
be checking in with whetherthose terms still work for you, whether
it still feels successful ornot, a projector has to unplug, orally,
be in their own energy, andcalibrate back to your own body in
order to feel to check in withthe terms. Sleeping alone is also

(56:35):
important for a projector.Because 70% of the population is
generating sacral motorenergy. In order to enter a deep,
restful sleep, projectors mustfirst take time to diffuse the extra
energy they've taken inachieving a healthy balance between
activity and rest in theirlife begins with learning to sense
when enough is enough, when tolet go of the residual auric energy

(56:56):
of others, and when to bealone. So a lot of this is sacral
deconditioning that we'vetalked about quite a bit. Generators
are here to know themselves.Who am I? Is their question. Projectors
are here to know the other.And through knowing the other, they
know themselves. So thequestion for projectors is who are
they? But in order for aprojector to do that, comparing and

(57:16):
contrasting. Because rememberthe. One of the primary mechanics
of the projector aura is thatyou're not a generator and you're
not a manifestor, but you'realso not a reflector. You don't have
sacral, you don't have motorto throat, but you do have some definition.
There is a you. There is aconsistent life force of you within
your two or more definedcenters. But you only can see your

(57:40):
functionality, your auricfunctionality that is a part of you.
Your life force do its thingthrough penetration of the other.
So you have to plug into theother, and you plug into this other,
this other, thesecircumstances, this other. And it's
through that that you're ableto see what is my movie, the other.

(58:01):
What are all these differentmovies that I watch when I plug into
the other through correctinvitation and what's always the
same, right? So through all ofthat knowing the other, you learn
to know who you are. Who's theconsistent projector, what's the
consistent life force showingup in each of these experiences of
immersion, Manifestors arehere to know their impact. Reflectors

(58:24):
are here to know who isdifferent. And lastly, here's my
little parting words forprojectors. Projectors, you live
in an aura that carriesinherent contradiction. You are here
for the other. And yet inorder to be of authentic, undistorted
service to the other andrecognize for your your value in
being, so you must establishyourself within your own awareness

(58:47):
as a being who knows themselffrom the other. It is only in that
awareness that you will beable to know, honor, trust and surrender
to the correct timing andcircumstances for your involvement
in their process. Projectors,you are the outer authority for the
other. In a world where innerauthority must prevail, subjectivity

(59:09):
and differentiation throughinner authority is the only option.
You and your life are not anexception to this. Rather, your acceptance
of this allows for the fullestpotential of your service as an outer
authority to come to life. Theinherent contradiction for the projectors
here. You're here to know theother, to plug into the other. And
yet your potential is to be achampion of individuality and inner

(59:33):
authority. And in honoringyour own, you're able to advocate
for others. Once this is theprojector's way of being, after a
necessary process ofdeconditioning, then you are able
to experience and demonstratetrue, interdependent, healthy, relating,
foreign.

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