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Welcome to Babies from Beyond, the podcast that gives all
babies a voice whether they are still in spirit or already earth
side. I'm Lauren Dionysius, a former
registered NICU nurse turned baby soul communicator, and I'm
here to share the wisdom of today's babies to guide you on
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your motherhood journey. So today I'm going to be talking
about a topic that is actually very close to my heart and very
close to home for me. So I really hope that it may
resonate with some of you out there who are also on a similar
path. So recently I did an episode, it
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was episode 15, about what if you don't want to have any more
children so you feel that your family is complete.
So if that is you, then I encourage you to go back and
listen to that episode. But this episode is for those of
you who are not sure that you want children ever.
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And I wanted to do something a little vulnerable and putting
myself out there a little more around my own journey with this.
It's something that I don't generally share publicly because
it's been a very personal and private journey for me that I'm
still in the process of integrating and probably will be
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for quite a long time. Some of you may know, some of
you may not know, but I do not have children and I very likely
will not be having children in this life.
But this wasn't always my story.I remember even as a child
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wanting to be a mother with a baby, especially when my little
brother came along when I was 5.And then as I got older that
shifted to I want to be a nurse and look after the babies, which
I did when I was 23. I ended up working as a
registered nurse in the nursery,so if you want to hear more
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about that part of my story, youcan head back to episode 5 where
I talk about my journey as a registered nurse and then that
morphing into what I'm doing nowwith baby Soul Communication.
But what happened for me is thatas I got older, this desire for
children shifted in me. It changed in me and even as a
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teenager I felt I want to have children, but not, not yet.
I thought, OK, maybe around 30, you know, when you're a
teenager, 30 seems like a reallylong way away.
And I had this feeling of, yeah,I think by the time I'm 30, it
would be good to get married andand have babies.
And throughout my 20s, I was travelling all around the world.
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I lived over in the UK for a couple of years, travelling all
throughout Europe, Scandinavia, and then I came back to
Australia for a little while. And then around my 30th and my
early 30s, I was travelling through Africa with husbands and
babies being the furthest thing from my mind as I volunteered
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with animals and Wildlife Conservation in southern parts
of Africa. And then as I went into my 30s,
I had set this, I don't know where it came from, but this
rule or some kind of box for myself that if I didn't have
children by the age of 35, then I didn't want to have children
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because that's what, you know, heavily influenced by my role as
a registered nurse. You know, there's the term of
geriatric mother came into play during my career.
And at that point it was classes35 and above.
And I thought, oh, God, like, there's no way I want to be an
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old mother, a geriatric mother. So I put a rule on myself that
if I didn't have children by 35,then that was it.
I believe that that number is a lot lower now.
I know some places you can be 32and be called a geriatric
mother, which I think is just socruel and so unfair and so
brutal and so inaccurate in my opinion, but I couldn't dive
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into that too much. My point is, I had these rules
that society expected of me thatI should or shouldn't do or
should have done or shouldn't have done by a certain age.
And I remember when I woke up onmy 35th birthday, I remember
feeling really sad. I felt this sense of loss, that
sense of grief that maybe I won't be a mother in this life.
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Maybe that's not my journey. And I had a lot of mixed
feelings around that. You know, my own intuitive gifts
was just starting to come onlineat this time where I was
starting to connect more with the spirit realms and starting
to have experiences with babies,and my worlds were starting to
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merge between science and spirit.
So I was really curious. But I distinctly remember that
grief like, well, what if I don't have children?
You know, I'll never get to be part of that club that every
woman seems to be a part of in this world.
It's certainly something that mysister was part of, my brother
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was soon to be part of that parenting club.
And I felt really on the outsideof that, I felt like I'd missed
out on something. I felt like I had missed the
boat somewhere along the line. And there was absolutely a
grieving process around that. That still comes up for me now.
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I'm in my mid 40s now, but afterthis time, as I went further
into my 30s and my late 30s, things started to shift for me
and it became almost the opposite of what I found with a
lot of women. So I work with a lot of women
that as they approach their late30s and 40's, the desire for a
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child intensifies and becomes more urgent with that
realization that they're runningout of time in some way.
But for me, it was different. For me, the more I went into
this work, the more peace I was able to find, the more trust I
was able to find, and the more Irealized that actually, maybe
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it's OK if babies and children are not part of my life.
Like what if I actually came here in this life to have a life
of mothering in the traditional sense?
Like what if my soul did not plan to have children, did not
need to have children in this life?
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And it was something that I often questioned and played with
in my mind because it was something that was so foreign to
me because I felt like everybodywas having babies and children
around me. And it really left me feeling on
the altar like I was doing something wrong.
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So what happened for me and the shift that occurred for me is
connecting with my own baby soul.
As I got deeper into this work and I was connecting with other
people's babies all the time, I realized why not connect with my
own baby soul? Like do I have any around me
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like, and if so, what do they have to say?
And I remember connecting with afeminine baby soul who was in my
energy field and I could only feel her.
I couldn't feel any others. But once I saw her, once I felt
her, I felt like she was there all the time.
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And to start with, I didn't really ask her why she was
there. It was confusing for me because
I've had these mixed feelings about have being a mother and
feeling like it wasn't going to happen for me.
But then sensing this feminine soul in my energy field.
And it wasn't until probably I will want to say like a year or
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more later where I stopped and Iasked and I'm like, why are you
here with me? Like are you planning to have a
life with me on the earth at this time?
Or are you just covering about? Are you just curious, interested
looking at the world through my experience, like what's going on
here? And as I connected and
communicated with her over the following months and even
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longer, she started to share with me that my soul came here
to mother in different ways. That my soul came to have a life
of mothering after many, many past lives of, of being a
mother, of birthing, of raising children, of having big families
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and in some lives having 1012 children.
Also really challenging past lives around lots of children
and lots of husbands as well, which was so brutally painful,
not just in those lives, but also helped to explain a lot of
the fear I had around relationships in this life.
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And through a lot of really deepsoul works, past life
regressions, soul retrievals, I learned that my soul's journey
in this life was not to be a mother in the traditional sense,
that I had done this so many times.
I knew how to birth babies. I knew how to raise them within
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the years of the times in history that I had these
families and that I grew these babies and raised them.
And there was something when I heard this that was so resonant
in my soul and just connected with me on such a deep level
that the guilt and the shame just fell away from me.
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And it made absolute sense. And also so much relief that you
know what? My soul didn't come to mother in
the traditional sense. Like my soul came here to
contribute to this next generation or to support this
next generation or to mother this generation in a very
different way, in a multidimensional way, in a way
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that was well beyond the physical.
And, you know, that's not to saythat that is better than
birthing babies in the physical.Like not at all.
Like all of those women who are here to bring these children to
earth have an incredibly important job to do in a very in
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a time in the world's journey that is very intense and very
challenging in many ways. And so hats off absolutely to
those women whose souls have puttheir hands up to receive babies
on the earth this life, but alsojust really wanting to
acknowledge those other women like myself who are not here to
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birth in the traditional sense. And for a young time I thought
that I wasn't proper woman is like I was only half baked is
how it felt that I was missing out on something that I have
failed in some way. And it was something that I had
to do a lot of work on to come to terms with that and to find
peace with that. And as I said, I'm feel like I'm
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on the tail end of that process now.
But I feel like now it's so beautiful for me and I feel so
grateful to be able to work withbabies in this way.
Because I know that if I did go ahead and have children, it
would completely change the way that I show up for this work.
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Because now I don't have my own experiences to influence the
messages that come through from these babies.
There's no bias there. There's no preference for one
way of birthing over another, orone way of conception over
another, or one way of journeying through pregnancy
over another, or one way of parenting that superior over the
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other. So it allows me to be a Clear
Channel for these babies to share their wisdom and their
messages with those who need it most.
So I wanted to share this story because I know that times are
really changing for women on theearth at this time.
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I feel like we're definitely a generation where we have had a
lot more choice, where we have had choice around education,
around Korea, around travel, around having the autonomy do
our thing in the world, whateverthat may be.
That's well beyond just being here on the earth to birth
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children and raise them. And as I said, it's a very
important role. But I just really want to
acknowledge that not all of us women are here for that job, for
that role, and that there's other ways to use that energy,
that creative energy, that energy of growth, that energy of
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births, that energy of motheringand nurturing.
That has become such a huge partof my life.
Not just with the work I do, butI have so much creative energy
and so many things that I want to birth into the world.
Not just through my work and different projects that I have,
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but also writing and the energy that I have to give to others
and support others and to nurture others.
So it's been a really powerful process for me to journey
through and one that has felt very lonely at times.
As I said, when you're around everybody, you know, in your
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peer group or your friendship circles, they're all having
babies or raising children, you know, it can feel very
isolating. But I really want to share in
this episode that it doesn't need to be like that, that
there's more and more women who are choosing either by that
choice can be a very conscious choice here on the Earth, or it
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may be a choice on the toll level that may have happened
more through circumstance. Yeah, in the physical.
And it may feel like there's not, though there hasn't been a
conscious choice. Or you may have felt like me,
where you feel like you've missed the boat somewhere along
the line and don't get to have that opportunity to mother.
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But I'd really love for you to lean into what if your soul
didn't have that plan for this life, that you are not meant to
have children in this life because you're meant to use that
energy in other ways to support humanity, to support the growth
and the evolution of the planet.Because finally, and I think
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it's been a long time coming over many generations, that we
are starting to realize the value of women and how that
extends well beyond babies and birth and mothering and
parenting. By recognizing that rise of the
divine feminine, which is not all about babies and children.
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That there's so many more roles,so many more gifts to offer the
world beyond that traditional motherhood role when it comes to
women. As I've said, not to dismiss
those roles here and now, but just to really lean into those
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other, other ways to be a woman here on the earth.
And especially those of you who may feel like I mentioned may
have missed the boat or feel that it's getting too late, or
maybe there is a little part of you that is with spring to you,
that's all part of you is whispering to you about being
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honest with yourself. What do you really want in this
life? And if you do want children,
where is that coming from? Is that coming from deep within
your heart, within your soul, within your bones?
Or is it something that you're feeling pressure from, from the
external world? Because I think like, and it's
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what my own baby soul was able to teach me and show me, you
know, she asked me to really TuneIn, what did I want for my
life? How did I want to show up in the
world? How did I want to be of service
in the world? And when I really tuned in to my
heart, to my soul, to my bones around that, it was absolutely
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supporting babies and supportingchildren and being there for
them and being their voice, being able to support them.
That deep mission for me has never wavered, I think over
many, many lifetimes. But it's shifted gears a little
bit and it's changed and it's tweaked.
And even though that was really hard for me to understand and
come to terms with, now it just feels so aligned.
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And I actually feel so much relief that I can put my whole
heart and soul into porting babies in this way and but from
a plate of passion and creativity and love rather than
from a plate of lack or FOMO or missing out in some way.
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And this baby's soul, she is so supportive.
She has never put any pressure on me to bring her aside.
There's never been any pressure.She said.
If you choose to do so, she saidshe will honor that and respect
that. But what she helped me to see is
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that as I said in my bones, thatis not what my soul wanted for
this life. That's not what I came to
explore and and to journey through.
And so now like she is always around me and I can turn into
her. I can feel her at any time I
want to. And she helps me with this work
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from the spirit side of the fence.
I feel like she's this little pocket rocket that will help me
to connect with babies. It helps us to align the
frequencies and the energies so that we can connect and
communicate in a clear and honest way.
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To me, it's been such a beautiful connection with her to
be able to potentially have her in my life and to have her
presence and to feel her, but without any pressure whatsoever
to bring her to earth. I, it's been a really beautiful
and profound journey for me. And I really wanted to share
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that with those of you who may not be sure that that motherhood
is the for you in this life at this time.
And to really take the time to sit with that in your heart and
turn into what feels right for you, that's what's most
important. So I really hope that this
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episode was able to bring you some clarity, perhaps some
peace, and a little more understanding and insight into
the roles that baby souls can play in our life.
I often say in my work that. There's so many reasons why a
baby's soul may be around you, and only one of those is to
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bring them earthside. There's so many other reasons.
And as I said, for me, you know,this little soul is like this
little guiding light for me, like a little candle in the
ethers that helps to guide me and to also guide other babies
to me is how it feels. And we have such a beautiful
connection. So yeah, I really hope this
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episode is able to shine a different light or a different
perspective onto to the motherhood journey and to
connect with those of you who may be feeling that motherhood
is not the journey for you in that life.
And I just really want to validate those feelings and give
you permission to not have children if that's what your
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heart and soul is telling you. Thank you for tuning in to
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And check out the show notes formore ways that you can connect
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with your baby soul, including one-on-one readings and online
programs to support you. Until next time, trust your
journey and your baby. Take care.