SEASON 4 EPISODE 9-NONovember

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:26):
Hey, world, Welcome back to The Spill Podcast, your favorite podcast,
featuring your favorite podcast host, me, your girl missus will
sung bem pm pim pim pim pim pim y'all. I
figured out how to kind of add that to the recordings.

(00:47):
I hadn't mastered it yet and I don't want to
mess nothing up. But until then, you're going to get
my verbal vocal live pims. Okay, welcome back to feel
Listens to episode nine of season four. We are wrapping
up season four, y'all. In less than two months, will

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be four years since I recorded the very first The
Spill Podcast episode. Your girl been around almost four years, fellers. Listen,
y'all know what that means, right, I ain't going nowhere.
You can't get rid of me, the hate and the
auden the what. I'm not going anywhere, Okay, and shout

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out to y'all. Thank y'all's feelers for your support, for
your love, for following, for sharing, for helping the Spill
Podcast to grow and continue to be calm. And I
said that because I have not created an episode in
about three for weeks. All right, your girl been booked

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and busy. We'll get into that later, but I hadn't
created an episode in about one at one or whatever.
However the pot, the website or the production company. I'm
sorry that I produced my episodes through sends me statistics
weekly of my podcast, the different areas that my podcasts

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and regions that it's been played in, and countries and
states and cities. And when I say y'all, I think
the last two weeks I may have shown shared a
spill podcast something like twice. Y'all been tapping in. Do
you hear me? Y'all have been listening, y'all have been following,
y'all have been supporting, and those numbers, numbers, I'm sorry,

(02:34):
have just been blowing my mind. So I first thank God,
and I thank God for y'all, and I thank God
for y'all support and y'all following, and I just thank
y'all for having my bag because I ain't been I
been loyal, loyal, but I ain't. I ain't been, I've
been tied. I'm just gonna keep you one on it. Listen.
I am a wife, I am a mother of a

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college student, and on the opposite side of the country.
Do you hear me? Like we've never been this far
from each other. I am a choir member, i am
a sister, I'm a daughter, I'm a friend. I'm an evolver,
I'm a supporter. And I've been shaking and baking, moving

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and grooving. I've been doing a lot, and I'm not
gonna speak. I'm tired because i'm not thank you, Lord
for the strength that you continue to give me every day,
all day to do what I love, to do, what
I enjoy to do, and to have fun. But I
have been busy. However, I'm intentional about creating a couple
of last couple episodes before we wrap this season. I've

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already told y'all next year we'll be back on a groove.
I'm praying about my guests right now. Mister Wilson, my
amazing husband. His work schedule is a little different. It's
a little weird, so we're gonna have to record different
days now, a day that fits both of us right now.
But I just don't know when it's gonna hapen, but

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the Lord and work out as Ms. Wilson be having
something to say and I'll be going, y'all here we
got to say. But anyway, I'm back. I'm excited to
be back. I'm excited about this night episode. I'm gonna
talk about a little bit. Some of the stuff that
I'm gonna talk about is some stuff that's already happened,
but I'm grateful it happened. I'm happy it happened, and
I'm gonna get it off my chest because it's all
my chance to to be get off right anyway. Spillers,

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you know what time it is. It's time to move
on to the spill mental check and time. This is
the time of the episode where we do our self love,
self awareness, mental check, where we dig deep internally to
connect with our emotions and identify with how we are feeling.
This is the time of the year where it's very
heavy for so many people, spillers, be it grief, the

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death of a loved one, of a relationship, marriage, friendship.
This is a season that you probably weren't ready or
prepared to be in and you ready to get out of.
You could probably be one of the ones dealing with
the ramifications of this government shut down. Thank god that
just ended. The food insecurities from the shutdown, a financial struggle,

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job issues, be it a loss of a job or
waiting unemployment. The people are going through this. It's some
issues right now. Okay, So it may be rough, but
one thing that I live by my pastor reminded, reminds
us often that there is a temper. Sorry, there is
an expiration date on everything that we go through. Okay.

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In other words, y'all trouble don't last all ways. Okay,
but still, this is a time where you need to
identify with how you feel. Sit in those emotions for
a second. Okay. I don't want you to bask in them.
I don't want you to get comfortable with them, but
I want you to be able to sit in them
so that you can identify with how you're exactly how

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you're feeling, being real with yourself. We're not running from it,
we're not in denial. Maybe a little bit embarrassed, but
nobody knows about that embarrassment. But you okay, but identify
with exactly how you're feeling and sending those emotions for
a second. And the reason it's important, spill, is that
we sit in those emotions because in order for us
to truly grow, we have to be able to identify

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what that thing is so that we can fix it
or work on fixing it. Okay, So identify with what
it is. If you are happy, if you have joy,
if you have peace, praise God, thank God for that moment,
basking it, appreciate it. Show your gratitude publicly, verbally, emotionally, physically,

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show your gratitude because if you're not already in the storm,
and obviously you're not, you're probably headed to one. So
basking the joy that you have right now, build your strength,
build your faith because something is coming. And I'm not
being negative or anything, but that's just life. I'm a Christian,
I'm a believer of the Bible. In God's word, his bob.

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His word tells us that he chastises those that he loves.
So it's coming. You know it's coming. So appreciate what
you're going through now. If you are going through spillers,
identify with whatever it is and work on fixing it.
Say something so that we can do something. If it's
an emotion or a feeling that's beyond your control, something
that you can't help, you don't like, you don't know

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what to do, say something. Okay, that's the only way
we can actually get it taken care of, we can
get it worked out, is if we say something. Okay,
if you have a friend, if you have a therapist,
if you have a pastor, make sure it's somebody trusted. Okay,
but say something so that we can do something. Okay,
mental health, Spillers is wealth and in order to be

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completely wealthy and I'm talking about wealthy and on all
rams spiritually, emotionally, physically, financially, romantically in your career, in
order to be wealthy, you must first be healthy mentally. Okay,
So say something, Spiller so that we can do something.
If all is not well, I pray that you get

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the resources that you need to make it well. I'm here,
It's a lot of people here, and I have access
to resources that can be there for you. Okay. As
far as me and my house feelers, Oh, I'm in
a season. I feel like where I'm facting with the

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man and the mirror. I'm asking, can you change fast
and any clear? If you want to make a change, tap,
take a tap and well, yeah everything. Michael Jackson said,
that's the season I'm in right now. And while I'm

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in this season, I like to be by myself. I
like to be isolated because I like to cry, I
like to pray, read my devotions, inspiring meditations, prayers, books,
I'm reading reading the Song of Songs by Tony Morrison,
just different things that's gonna help build me emotionally and mentally. Yeah,

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the Lord is dealing with dealing with me in this
season in some ways that well, they say you break that,
he break you down a build up, and I'm appreciating
this breakdown because I feel like had I been stuck
in where I was, I would continue to miss out
on the amazing blessings and amazing things that He hasn't
swear for me. And I'm tired. You know, I'm too old.

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I'm forty some going on forty some again, and I
just want to continue to live my best life. But
in order to do that, I have to work on
me first. In order for me to be a better wife,
in order for me to be a better daughter, a
better mother, a better sister, a better friend, a better
prayer and accessor in order for me to be better,
I have to work on me. And so that's the

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season I'm in right now. All is well with my husband,
all was well with my daughter. God is shaking some
things up, moving and shaking, shaking and moving, but we're
trusting and believing. So all is well. I pray all
is well with you, Spillings. If not, say something so
we can brew something. Okay, I had to hurryup because
they sure to move on because Spillers, if you know

(10:10):
LaToya Danielle Hunter Wilson by bet that thing of us
that I cry in a minute, And I'm at a
point in my life where I don't like the emotions
that stems from pain and crying, but I like the
after feeling, and so I like to feel better. So
I cry to get it out. And I know it's

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gonna make me better, and I know it's about to
get better, and it's gonna make me stronger for the
next situation or storm. So I had to move on,
y'all because your girl eyes got a little water. Anyway,
we are moving one to our social media shout out time.
This is the time of the episode Spillers where we
shout out our social medias. If you are not following

(10:56):
the spill podcast, what are you doing? Like, What's what's
really going on? Let's have a conversation, cuz shout out
to my Instagram spill Us. I have over four hundred
Instagram followers, listen for a podcast to be a little
bit less than four years. Oh, that's averaging over one
hundred followers a year. I'll take it. I listen. I'm

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not bragging or nothing, but I'm doing this all by myself,
from the bottom up, from the ground up. I'm putting
out content, trying to reel my rule. I got the
Fisher polet y'all. I'm really y'all, in really my spillers,
and thank y'all, okay for supporting me. So if you
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(11:41):
to my YouTube followers. I have of one hundred and
fifty one. I feel like I can do a lot better,
but I'm gonna let y'all. I'm gonna let y'all do,
y'all because y'all gonna keep growing and keep having a
spell podcast become like you're doing, go right. I'm speaking
those things that are not as if they are. But
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more personal on those two platforms for me, a little

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bit of my personality. But still follow like subscribe, share,
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So support the movement and reach out to me if
you want your business advertised. Okay, Spillers, we are now
moving one to the spill trend topic time. Now the
spill trand topics time, Spillers is the time of the
episode where we talk about everything that is trending in

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the black black of tea black black of the black
black culture. Now, I might throw in some other little
stuff like little politics and stuff that, you know, but
it has something to do with us. However, I do
want to reiterate this is not a t session and
this is not a trending session where we talk negative stuff.
We do godsaping are We just create dialogue about things

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that are going on in the culture that can potentially
have an effect on our culture or on us individually
or collectively, negatively or positively. Okay, So take it how
you take it. But this is spil trans topics. How
Like I said last episode, I'm gonna go ahead and
make this the dis climate. Okay, It's a lot going

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on in the world in the States of the United
of the Americas. Your girl is not a politician, nor
do I desire to be a politician. However, I'm sure
to be privy on everything that's going on politics because
whether I want to believe it or not, politics has
an effect, will have an effect, and had an effect

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on my life, my future, my being, my career and everything.
So while I'm here on this here earth, the days
that the Lord has given me, I'm gonna try to
stay privy about the things that's going on because it
affects my life, whether I want to or not, whether
I believe it or not. Okay, So this is what
I'm saying. How I'm saying, Why I'm saying it. Have
you received it? How have you received it? So listen,

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thank god, we are finally coming out of our government
shut down. This is the se the longest government shut
down our country has experienced. It. The first government shut
down was I think thirty five days long under this
same administration. Today, because y'all, I'm like mad, I get mad,

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honey all, but this is the second government shut down,
but the longest one our country is experienced. This government
shutdown was actually forty three days long, y'all. Forty three days,
forty three days to where we've lost over ten billion
dollars per week. As a country, six hundred seventy thousand
government workers were furloughed in this country. Over seven hundred

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thirty thousand federal government workers were furlowed in this country.
Billions of dollars were not given to the people who
receive EBT and SNAP benefits, which created a massive food insecurity.
So food banks, everybody just food, just hongry. We just
the food is just it's a shortage. Okay. It's just

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been a mess. It's been a mess. Okay. I'm grateful
because personally it has not affected my home. However, I
know people I have friends who work for the government.
Who works for the federal government, I'm sorry that has
been out of work literally for a little bit over
a month. I have friends, they receive friends and family

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they receive SNAP benefits that needs it, that has not
received it, Okay. People that I know receive housing stipends
have not been received. Like it may not have touched home,
but it's touched close to home, okay. And the fact
that things are close to home, which means it's them
today and it could be you tomorrow. Okay. I said

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all that to say, if you are not privy to
what's going on, in our government. It's very important that
you do your part and you study, you learn, you
research you. I was gonna say, Google, Google don't always
give the right information. Find out about your local politicians

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and the cities and the towns and the states that
you're in, and ask questions, Okay, because this can affect us.
This government shut down was forty three days long. Allegedly
both parties really didn't come to the agreement that they
really wanted to come through. So there is an a
seventy five percent chance that January thirtieth, there's gonna be

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another government shut down, and it could possibly be longer
than that. Okay. I have a kid that is on
the other side of the country. I was praying for
the people that has been that's deal with the ramifications
of this government shut down prior to the shutdown ending,
and my prayer was also that it ends because people
that are traveling, the TSA workers that are not getting paid,

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the airlines that are counseling flights, the airports that are
dealing with everything that they're dealing with. I want to
see my baby. And I'm not trying to sound selfish
by any means. I'm not, but that was something that
I'm worried about because I love to travel. We've already
paid for our kids holiday plane tickets for the next
couple months. We want to see her, you know what

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I'm saying, And as long as this government shut down
is in effect, that could possibly affect us seeing her
and then still losing our money because they're really not refunding.
They're telling you, well, you can get a refund to
pinball about. No, they're giving you credits. If you get
credits anyway. That's you need to hear. Nono there. This
shutdown is affecting so many people. Learn, learn the laws,

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learn how it can affect you going forward or in
the future, and make sure when these local elections come up,
these national elections, these statewide elections come up, that you
get out and vote. Shout out to the states and
the cities, the Virginias and the Mississippis and the Georgias,
and the the blue wave that has just that's just baby.

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It shook. It shook the house of the people, you
know what I'm saying. It has shaken them. And this
blue wave has really given me some type of hope
for our country because I don't know what to say,
since it's been leve months, I feel like we've been
going through foolish a long time. It's been the longest
eleven months, and it's not gonna get better if we
don't do what we're supposed to do. Okay, respectfully to

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those who voted for him, you know, a hard head
makes a soft ass, you know. My for lack of
better words, my grandmother used to say that back in
the day. Respectfully, naibulu because what like, what did you think?
What did you think? You know? Did you not think
the black woman was going to be on your side?

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Did you not think she was gonna be beneficial? Because clearly,
if you're not a billionaire, you could not have thunk
that this was gonna be good for you. But anyway,
asking me to hear her there again, I'm not a politician.
I'm not in for debay, I'm not in for none
of it. Do what you gotta do. It's a lot
of elections coming up, there's a lot of hope because
of this blue wave that has just happened, and I
need you as a country to hendy your business. Okay,

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do she gotta do? And if you got any questions
coming to concerns about what I just said, talk to
the Lord about it, because I you know, shout out
to my Jamaican family and friends that had survived Hurricane Alyssa.
Make God bless y'all. I've been praying for my people.
That's one of my most favorite islands ever. I've visited
several different parishes on that island, Big Kingston, Negrill, Montigo, Bade,

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just some of the big ones. Saint Anne's, Saint James,
I visited a lot of them. Those are resilient people. People.
I'm sorry, and the Lord is going to put it
back together like he did before. So I'm praying for them.
I said that to say we praying for the Jamaican
said deal with Hurricane Melissa, but don't come for LaToya
because Hurricane Missus Wilson ain't what you no been a

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non seriousness. Praying for my Jamaican family and friends. I've
reached out to a lot of them. They've given me
assurance that all is well with them. I'm praying for them,
praying with them and all of the surrounding areas and
islands that have been dealing with the ramifications of Hurricane Melissa.
And people always talking about the weird coming to listen. Learn,

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learn your islands, learn your oceans, and learn your weather
and the seasons of weather. Okay, global this this global
climate change definitely has an effect. However, we'll know when
when the Lord getting ready to blow that horn. You
know he don't, Yeah, will know. You just need to

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be y'all so ready. Just get yourself ready to make
sure your house is in order. Make sure you you know,
at the end of the day, like my pastors say,
if you were to die today, where's your soul gonna go.
I don't care what you're thinking about, what you're believing.
If you feel like it's so gonna go to the
black hole. God bless you in that black hole. My
soul is going with my Lord. And say, Jesus Christ,
that's why I be trying to be good child. That's why,

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like I'll be trying not to curse a lot as much,
you know, and fuss and stuff, because Babe, I got
to go to heaven. Babe bye, but back I guess
to see them punted face to face. But anyway, so
we're moving right on in our spill trends. I don't
beg y'all market to anyway, Now on the happy time,
y'all know what the spill trend, Missus Wilson gonna talk

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about some crazy madness that may be happening, but I'm
also gonna throw throwing. I'm always gonna throw in some good,
good good judy tea. Okay, some good good judy and
ts N positive t okay, So this is not the
negative tea anyway. Shout out to cast Money and know
LEI records for putting on for the culture at the versus,

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y'all told y'a earlier, I was gonna talk about some
stuff that I already happen. But baby, this has been on
my spirit. I can watch that versus all day every day.
I think that night my husband said I he don't
remember me sitting down at one time, and I had
tried to think about it a few times, and I
don't recall it either. I recalled tearing up that living
room floor. Do you hear me? They put on now?

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I love no limited cash money, but I'm a cash
money girl, cash money draw. You know, I'm just I'm
just saying what I'm saying. I'm cash money. But Queen
mea X did she not put on for no limit,
Like I feel like if Mia wasn't there, I don't know.
I don't know if the tank was a tank. I'm
just saying because Weizy wasn't even there for cash money,

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but cash money still cash money, you know what I'm saying.
The tank being what that did, but me a X
definitely put on for the tank. Okay, now I do
want to stay. Now, I had Wheezy and a Mysical
been there, it definitely would have been a problem. You know,
So shout out to Lil Wayne, you know he's allegedly
was under the weather. And shout out to Mysical you

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know he's sitting down somewhere. It might be what's best,
but shout out to both of them. But the verses
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(24:34):
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letting y'all know, now, Okay, all right, Last, but not least,

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on a serious note, there are many states preparing for midterms.
Please get to know the people that are running. This
is the time. There are people right now signing and
starting their campaigning right now. Study your people, and don't
just be voting for people because you normal. It's people
you know, because you know they know who they know

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and why they know. Now, you vote for people that
are standing up for things that you are in agreeance with,
or that are making things happen that you need to
see happen in your community or in this country, or
on the floor of that Congress at the people's house
that you cannot get to. Okay, Learn what they stand for.
Whatever it is that you need and want to see
improved in your community, voice it, okay, and you voice

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it s feelings by making sure you vote. We are
in a very critical time of our country, and in
order for everyone to benefit, vote right, vote right, forget left,
right up, downside to side, vote what's right. Vote with integrity, okay,
with integrity, period, with morals, with values. Okay, but that's

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how you vote that period like I hear, I know
the Blue Wave railway. We intall that. But vote with integrity,
vote based on your morals and values. Okay, So study, learn, activate,
be an activists, use your voice and vote. Okay. We
are now moving on, spillers to our spill topic time.

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All right, spillers, I hope you enjoy those amazing jazz
tunes for my guys, Philly Moo and Quincy Q. Note Wattson.
I've been knowing him for a long time, y'all. I
met Philip. My grandmother was a member of Saint John
Baptist Church in Little Rock, Arkansas, under the Reverend Seednisselt

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what Senior, and so when I was little, we would
go to all the vacation Bible studies, all the summer programs,
and all of that stuff. I've always been a member
with my mom. My mama left Saint John before it
was a long time ago, before I was the eighties
or something, but I still used to go to Saint
John with my grandmother for everything, all the summer programs,

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anything that involved the youth. We were there. So I
met Philip when I was tiny. We're in our forties now,
so we had to be like five or six, I remember,
and Quincy we Actually I don't know if I met
him at NYSP and I would have been twelve or
sears and I was sixteen, So I met him at
one of those either my first real job seers or

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a summer program in WHS Speop. But anyway, that was
my boy. The trap jazz Giants and the little City
of Little Rock. Hit them up, follow them down load.
They have music on all the platforms and I listened
to it often because it gives me a sense of peace. Okay,
so listen, spillers, we're moving on to the topic time.
I told y'all earlier that your girl been working on

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your girl. I'm out here doing at work. I'm doing
that self care y'all, y'all be doing self care work.
Tell me what y'all do for self care. I had
a little debate with somebody or recently and she was
like hurt, Sorry, that was some amost burt. Sorry, but
she was saying that. I asked her what are some
things that she did for self care? One of my

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peers actually, because she was telling me. She was, you know,
I'm just sorry, I'm stressed. I'm gonna take off tomorrow
and I just need some time to just decompose and
just stress, to just relieve some stress and blah blah blah.
And so I was like, well, what are you gonna do?
And she was like, well, I'm gonna go help my sister.
I'm gonna blah blah blah. And I was like, how
was that helping you? The oh? And she's like, what

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do you mean? I said, well, you said you needed
a mental day, you needed to do some self care.
So you going to help somebody else and doing something
for somebody else, How is that helping you? She was like, Wilson,
I never really thought about that. And I was like, yeah,
that's something you should think about, because whenever you're intentional

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about doing self care, you have permission to be selfish.
In case spillers, you have permission to be selfish, and
that means selfish as far as being a spouse, mother, child,
whatever it is. When it's time for you to rewire
and regulate your mental health. It's okay for you to

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be selfish for a little bit of time. Okay, now
saying I'll be a wife and a mama and all
that for days and howls and stuff. But if you
feel like you need to take the day off of work,
a day that your husband has to be at work,
a day that your children has to be at school, daycare,
wherever they are, and you're just by yourself taking care

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of yourself. You're not doing anything that you're obligated to do.
That's what I call a self care day. Okay. If
it's going to get a manicure and having a glass
of wine, if it's sitting in the sun, if it's
going to the sauna, if it's sitting at home just
in the bed, laying down all day, just a day
to yourself, that's what I call a self care day.

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And I said that to say we really need to
be intentional about making sure that we're taking care of ourself, spiller,
because if we don't take care of ourselves, we cannot
take care of anybody else. We can't be who we
need to be for anybody. First of all you need
to be who needs to be for you, okay. But
if you want to be your best self for you

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and others, you have to make sure that you're taking
care of yourself. Okay. So something that I'm working on,
I'm trying to be better and graduate past DaVita and Patrisha. Okay,
this selfish, spoiled spirit that I sometimes get, it's just foolish, okay.
So that's a part of my self care. Now I'm

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working on trying to eliminate them to honey baby them
girls right there, them to them. I I'm not gonna
say they're my alter egos. They are characteristics that I
project that I no longer want to some intentions about
I do it? And am I disclaiming for the people
who don't know the Vita and Patricia Lord da Vita.
Y'all know the Vita David in the Bible. So I

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call myself the Vita sometimes from David, and then I
call myself petishaw not Peter, but to petition, support petition,
sometimes from Jesus' disciple Peter. Now listen, I'm not a disclaient,
no back betrayal, you know, like Pete was. I'm not
a backstabber like he was. I'm not a denier like
he was. I'm not unsure like he was. However, I

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got this little bad attitude and their little Hurson's spirit,
that little smart maut you know, I got. I got it, okay,
even with David. You know, David was a little you know,
he had to act a little cool cool, you know
what I'm saying. You know, David was. He was one
of the ones that baby, he'd be up right now,
hide in the spirit, and five minutes later, Baby, every
time I try to do good, some even come yeah, yeah,

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that's it. Okay. So I had to get that at
there so I can know who the Viata and Petiiti was. Those, however,
are too. And I'm not an adulter because David, you know,
he had his fair share of people hunting off. I'm
a married one woman's one woman's wife husband. I'm only

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my husband. That's I only got an eye for my husband.
And that's it, okay. I said, take fix it up
and then tell me how I'm supposed to see it,
because I just didn't come out right right now. Anyway,
I do struggle with my self daily spillers, and I
feel like I'm always asking God for a do over.
Like one of my favorite prayers is on I pray
every single day is Oh Lord, please create me a

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clean heart and renew the right spirit within me. I
say that prayer every single day spillers because, for one,
I know that His promises are new every single morning,
because he tells us, you know greatest, his faithfulness, His
mercies are new every single morning. I be looking forward
to the mercies, baby, because your girl, the struggle is
real when you have to just in life. I was

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gonna say, when you have to deal with people, blah
blah blah, just in life, even dealing with yourself. You
know what I'm saying. Every single day, when the Lord
gives you a new day, that's a new day to
be more grateful, a new day to have more gratitude,
and a new day to depend on those mercies. And
I depend on those mercies, okay, because listen, the children, children,

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our children too. I ain't gonna I ain't gonna hold you,
you know, because baby, I I go listen. Yeah, I
got I'm not perfect. I've never claimed to be. I
know I'm jacked up and got some issues, but I'm
working on that. Like, I'm very intentional every single day
with being a better me so that I can be
a better me for those whom I love, those who

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love me, and then I can be a better me
in God's eyesight. Okay, So first off, I'm learning that
graduating past dabda and petition requires a change of mind. Okay,
we have to change our mind mindset, spellers. Just because
we think something, are feeling a certain way about certain
things or everything, does not mean we always gotta say something. Look, Hooya, Danielle, Holla, WELSI,

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you ain't gotta always say something. It doesn't matter how
real it is. It doesn't matter how honest you are
or how honest you're just being, or you just gotta
tell it like it is. Sometimes that is not necessary, y'all.
I talk to my cousin past, the cedric Minister Cedric Black,
earlier this week, and that man minister me. He told me,
he said, sometimes people just having their spirits and in

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their heart how they want to be. That's just how
they want to be, what they want to think, what
they want to feel, and it ain't nothing you can
do about it. You confront them about the situation. It's
not gonna make them change their mind. You speaking your
mind or telling your truth or telling how you feel,
it's not gonna make them feel or think any different.
So sometimes it's okay to shut up, And he said

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it just like that, it's okay to shut up, toy,
pray about it, trust that God gonna work that thing out,
let it go and move on. Just keep praying about
it and pray about it in the spirit and pray
for you. You gotta be able to let it go
and move on because they feel how they feel intentionally
meaning they want to feel how they feel. They want
to respond and react the way that they react. But

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if you get bothered, that's your fault because that's something
that they want to do. But you don't have to
participate or receive that. One of my line sisters we
went on a retreat, not my line sister, I'm sorry,
one of my soritty sisters. We were on a retreat
yesterday and we were coming back. We talked y'all a
whole two hours there, two hours that she said, I
slipped for a little less than an hour, but whatever

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I heard what I needed to hear. But she said
her therapist told her It's okay to observe, but don't
absorb what that man do when he dropped that bone,
y'all with the meat on the ball, he just get
the baby. She heard that, and I could have opened
the door on I fourty west. You understand what I'm saying,

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because that is so true. You can observe everything that's
going on, everything that the next person is doing, but
you do not have to absorb absorb it. Okay, that's
something that I'm working on. Okay, Just because they said
something that I don't like being something about me, something
about a situation that I know about him involved in
I heard, I know the truth of it, it does

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not mean that I have to add what I want
to add. Okay, Let them feel how they feel. Let
them as long as they're not putting your hands on
And I'm learning that now, y'all, because it's easier said
than done to me. It's easier for me to be like, well,
I need to say something, I need to clarify these
or I need to do this. It's so easy for

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me to feel like that, and it's easy for me
to also say, well, as long as I put their
hands on me, oh well, that's easy to say, but
it's hard to feel and deal when you're in those
moments and in those situations, Okay, when somebody says something
to me about somebody else or someone as depending on
the person that's telling me, because I'm still I told
you that that's the Peter in me, like what who

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would you say? Like the nerve of you like, but
I said in different words that was the clean version,
but defensing on the person, depending on person that's telling me,
cause you know, you can't talk to everybody about everybody
about nobody without people mixing up stuff as stuff, taking
away stuff that was originally said you just got to
be just shut up, like past the Minister Black said,

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just shut up. But I always tend to feel away spillers,
and sometimes I feel like I have to speak on
it in those moments, and it's something that I do
not like about me. It's something that I'm working on
with me. Is something that I'm trusting God to deliver
me from because I like, especially when we ain't got
no room to talk. And that's something that I'm learning

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in this big forty some years of age of life.
I feel like a lot of people, especially the ones
that's doing the most talking. I ain't got no room
to talk. Okay. One way that I alleviate myself from
having to deal with that is I don't even make
people feel comfortable with coming to me talking about nobody
or nothing. No more like I make you feel real
uncomfortable because then I'm gonna ask some questions. That's gonna

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kind of deflect, but it's gonna deflect back to well
what did you do about the situation or or why
you saying it? Or well, you know what I'm saying.
I'm gonna ask them some questions. That's where I am
in my life right now. That's where I am. But anyway,
that's the David and the Peter and me that I'm
working on crucifying so that I can be a better person.

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I feel like the Lord didn't give us the give
to read people mind for a reason, because even want people.
When I'm talking to people or I feel a certain way,
I feel like I want to say stuff, the stuff
that be on my mind and now the stuff that
be on my mind. Baby, if I didn't know the Lord, babe,
i'd have been busted. Baby, Listen, the stuff that be

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on this brain of mind. Like sometimes I'll be like, now, God,
why are you let me think that? Now? Why are
you bringing it to my like, just get it out moving.
You know what I'm saying, And I'm staying that to say,
I just want to be better. And I'm sure I'm
helping some of you speelers to just want to be

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better too. But in order for us to intentionally work
on being better, we really have to understand that sometimes
some things are better left unseid, Like they're just left unseid.
Like Minister Black said, some people are intentional about how
they feel and there's nothing they can do for you.
In other words, they intentional about misunderstanding you or not

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liking you, or one to cause beef or strife, riff quarrels,
some foolishness. Some people are just intentional about doing that, okay,
And you have to be intentional about being the bigger
person and walking away. I'm like, I'm dropping the chicken,

(40:20):
the brisket again or whatever the bones the ribs. We
gotta be intentional skillers. And it is so challenging because
for me, I feel like I'm so grown and why
the hell do I have to keep letting it slide?
You know? I feel like at this age, grown people
should be able to understand the grown just life period

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and things like it's like the I just don't be
I can't get with it. It's just the struggle for
me to get with people mindset and people being intentional
about misunderstanding you. People not putting them selves and your
shoes if they don't piss me off, Cause it's almost like,

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what would you do if you was in my situation?
You know, you pull up on you wrote you you know,
like what would you flip the script? It don't matter
what it is, flip the script, especially if you don't
and then people don't be knowing what be going on.
You listen to the outside noise, you listen to stuff
people say, you don't call, clarify, try to get the
facts of nothing, and you just it's just it's stupid.

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For lack of a better words, like put yourself and
people shoes, okay, but the people that are in the shoes,
that's having to deal with the projection and the negativity
and the foolishness that people are putting out the lies.
People don't be knowing that people just go with even
just going with what they see. Baby and I'm good now.

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I thank the Lord for working on me because I
feel like the receipts that I be having, you know
what I'm saying and stuff I be knowing, Like I'd
be like, oh God, oh they looking, and God be
telling me. Now you lucky shut up, and I'll be
shutting up. I'd be quiet. Who was that Friday? He said?

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When he come back? I'll be quiet when he leave.
I'll be talking about when he come back. I'll be
quiet again. Yeah, he don't never leave. I still gotta
be talking about brother. He make me bite my tongue.
Whatever he do, he gonna shut me up, and I
shuts up. But spillers to move past graduating from the
Divida and Patitia, the David and Peter attitude. Okay, we
have to change our mindset, Okay, think on things that

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are positive, things that are true, things that are pure,
things that are honest, things that are lovely, Like we
literally have to be intentional about changing our mindset, especially
when it comes to dealing with humans, because people really
don't be knowing. And then if you're on a different
spiritual realm, thank you Lord for that. If you're on
a different level spiritually Baby, you gotta move different and

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you gotta think different, okay, because they just don't know,
they don't be understanding. And like I'm learning the you know,
Vengeance's mind, says the Lord. And you know I do
throw in. You know, Jesus told you I got a
little peed in. It might be a little cook swear,
but I'm gonna always go back to that Bible and
he knows my heart. Lord, forgive me here. I'm working progress.

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But the Vengeance's mind is real. You know what I'm saying,
Like when you know who you are, when you know
you're moving in honesty and you're moving trying to be genuine,
you're not lying you you're moving from a place of
love impurity. Baby, God, he gonna he got your back.
He got your back. And when it's time to flip

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that script, baby, he's going to flip it for you.
Please believe, Please believe. When it's time for them tables
to turn Babel, he's gonna prepare the table. He gonna
prepare it. Baby. The enemy's gonna be their footstool, and
they gonna be watching you. Yeah, prosper, They're gonna He's
gonna make them watch everything. So let's learn when we

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change our mindset, change our mindset knowing that God has
already worked everything out for you. And sometimes a lot
of times, most of the time, all the time, it's
okay to just shut up. Some stuff is just left
is better left unset, because when people are intentional about
feeling the way that they feel about you or a situation,

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it ain't nothing you can do. Not can't do nothing.
You can't change their mind, you can't change your hearts.
They're mad because they want to be mad, and they're
always gonna find foolishness in being mad and staying mad.
So your best bet is to just keep it moving,
keep it moving. Let God do God, And it's easy,
it said, then done, but give it to him. And

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I've learned that when I give it to him, it
feels so much better, especially when I know I ain't
doing nothing, when I know, like to you, this time
you were useless. You good, It wasn't you. That's on them,
and God, I'm gonna get that to you, sir. Wash
your hands of it. Okay, wash your hands of it. Now.

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That's the pedal, you know, changing my mindset, getting an
attitude and the curse word, getting all that stuff out
of mind and thinking on the right things. Okay, now next,
I've learned this the bittom in me, the David, the
lady David. I feel like I'm getting better and better
in that area, and that area is gossiping. Listen. I

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had to take a sip. I had to take a sip, Spellers,
because the Bible says tell your foster sins to one
to another, and the first step to healing recovery is admitting, listen,
gossip and then feeling bad and begging God to forgive
me and forget it ever happened. It don't work for me.
I'm gonna tell y'all right now. And I just had
this conversation with somebody very close to me. I feel

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like every time somebody bring me something, because that's the
only time I really gossip, because I promise I don't
call them out and say, girl, what happened with such
and such? Girl? What I may ask was everything okay?
That this? Am I doing the right thing? Like do
I need to work something like that? But I'm not
calling say did you see such and such on? I
would never do that. However, if something brought to me

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I was trying to do the little bubble, you know,
bubble when you see it. But if something is brought
to me, I will listen, We'll forgive me and I
will add my two three folk seventeen cents. Lord forgive me.
But I have learned in doing that, even just within
the last two three months. Every time I do it, y'all,

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when I say the Lord, baby throw a wrench in
whatever party I got going on, I said, okay, Lord, yeah, yeah,
I want to go together and I want to be
a better person, babe, but this just this ain't gonna
get me there. Now. I know he's gonna chastise me.
I know I'm gonna go through some things, but I

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promise you I have literally witnessed and watch every time
I do something and disobedience where it's speaking about a
situation that prop it don't be didn't like this last
situation had nothing to do with me. It was public information.
But I had my little say so on it. It
was like the Lord humble me too. You know what
I'm saying. He humbled me too, and here I am

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feeling bad after he done humble me. I was gonna
say humiliated, but that was my own I humiliated myself
and then I'm begging and asking him for forgiveness. Bible readers,
y'all know, y'all know how David was. David stayed getting
in some stuff. Baby, he was. He was in everything
I'm talking about, what named something? David was in it, Okay,

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And he every time he got into stuff, he was convicted.
He felt super bad and he got to begging God
to forgive his begging God to deliver him doing everything.
It just he just felt bad, convicted. Okay. But every
single time Big God came through for David, and every
single time Big comes through for me, da vida. But

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it's such not a good feeling when I say it's alwa,
it's such a horrible feeling to keep going through things
that I know better, Like I know better, so I'm
changing my mindset and now I have to change my intentions.
Like when I know better, I gotta do better. Spillers,
you gotta do better when you know better. Okay. The

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Lord he's he reminds us and he's quick to remind
me every single day. And that's something that I pray
for and I thank him for for the reminders and
just by seeing things them today and it could be
you tomorrow. Literally. Okay, So I know we all deal
with life and trials and tribulations and all that stuff.

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We deal with that stuff that's going to happen. But
a wise person once said, when you know better, spillers,
you do better. Okay, it's we're gonna slip. Sometimes I'll
have said, falling short up the glory of God, we're
gonna slip, We're gonna file, we're gonna trip. Baby, every
single day, it's gonna be do some that we gonna
do something we ain't got no business doing. But if
you're not convicted and you don't catch yourself, that's where
the problem comes in. Okay, catch yourself, put yourselves in

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people's shoes. How would you feel feelings to know, even
though you're in the situation is public. How would you
feel if people sitting around gossiping about it? Which, if
they're doing it, it's being done. But if you were
the one that was on the receiving end of the
gossip and being gossiped about, how would you feel? You
wouldn't feel good? Now, now I probably wouldn't give a

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red hands. I ain't gonna lie. I'd probably be like
it is it what it tease. That's how my I'm
gonna said it teas what it teas. But I know
it wouldn't be a good feeling to be the subject
of a conversation in a negative manner. People gonna do
that anyway, you know what I'm saying. That's gonna be
done anyway. But when you're living with intention and your

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purpose driven and you're you know, trying to walk the
straight and narrow wall, you don't want to be the
subject of conversations. So if you don't want to be
the subject of conversations, don't be in the subject of
other conversations. Don't put your two cents in saying stuff
about other people. Like be intentional about changing the trajectory

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of that conversation. Somebody brings something to you, Be like
mm hmm, I did that. I passed that test one
time because somebody brought them to me about something and
was like, girl, why such and such. I was like, girl,
the Lord blessed them, so hey, that's what I'll do
if I had a baby, and listen. I walked away
from that situation, knowing I was being talked about, like
look at her, she But I thank the Lord, I
said Lord, thank you, because that was a moment to

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where that person really wanted me to get in deep
with them and get to talking about the next person.
I ain't got that for you, because when you see
that person, you're gonna be smiling in that person face,
you know, and the conversation that you're gonna have with
that person. If Latoya's name is brought up, it's gonna
be like what she showed said that if if she
was as blessed as you was, that she'll do it too. Yeah,
So change your intentionality when it comes to gossip. Change

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the whole trajectory of a conversation if it's brought to you.
Put yourself in that person's shoes that you don't want
to be the subject of no conversation or the topic
of a conversation. So don't make nobody else, even if
it is public information. I learned to just read and
scroll text and scroll and be like mmmmm, my god,
sister Alicia, she'd be like, hmm, she acts just like

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a daddy. All the times. She'd be like hmm, Like
they do this little noise. They'll never say nothing, especially
if you're brought to them, but they say hmm. Be
okay with yours. And that's where I am in my
life right now. I'm okay with somebody me bringing me
something and being like, hmm okay, it's hard, but it's

(51:43):
it's worth it, okay. And the crazy part about it
is you're going to be tested. So until you are
serious about changing that and changing the trajectory of conversations,
especially when you know it can be damaging or harmful
or hurtful to the person, baby, all type of foolish
is gonna come to you. And I look at situations

(52:04):
like that as a test. I'd be like, okay, lord,
you know when I'm like thinking because I I be
having to catch myself, baby, don't let me be at work.
I'd be like, oh now, but I don't say nothing back.
But that's just his worst, you know, feedingto it, and
it's just his worst. It's not going back and forth.
So let's be yeah, let's let's work on that. Let's

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work on changing our mindset. Let's work on being intentional
about changing the trajectory of conversations and things when we
have the power to do so. And last, but ill
leash y'all, baby. I know Peter was quick to snap
and curtse I don't know if y'all seen that meme
of Ike Turner. Well, Lawrence f Born when he was

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playing Ike Turner and he got looked up like it's
a meme with him looking like who you're playing with? Like,
don't play. That's how Peter was. That's how Peter was
a baby. I'm like that because baby, my face has
changed real quick, like who like play with your pa?
Find something safe to do that. So it's gonna be
my face a curse where it's gonna be something. But

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the Lord is working on me in that area too. Spillers, Okay,
remember the early conversation when I said I was working
on voicing my opinion in certain situations. This the attitude,
the mindset, the intentionality. I'm working on my reaction and
my response too. That goes back to my mindset because
so that the man think it, So it's see you
know you're thinking it, so you believe it or you

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feel it, or you want to say it, you might
as well let it out or let it out. Sometimes
it's okay to think it and not let it out.
And that's where I am. Okay, God's cheering and I'm
one of history. And we something now, Babe, we'll challenge
the times when it comes to do, Babe, we is
something else. I was talking to my God's sister because
I admired the way she softly responds to adults that

(53:52):
approaches her harshly. And Baby, when I say, the approach
that you give me is the respons and a reaction
that you're gonna get. Sometimes sometimes it might just be
a little bit worse. However, I'm a work in progress.
I'm working on that. I'm doing so much better. I'm
paying myself on the bed, y'all ain't gotta see the change.
I see it. I'm pray out of me. I know

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what the Lord is yet doing in my life. I
don't take for granted that he does not make space
for me to be in certain places, situations, around certain people,
none of that, because I know I make him mad
and he'll have to whoop me again. And I don't
be mad, like for real, Listen, it don't matter where
it is, whether it's at work, at church, in my community,

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to listen. If the Lord does not put it on
my heart to work in that capacity where it's dealing
with multiple personalities, multiple people, I don't care how big,
it's gonna make you look or how good, I'm not
gonna do it. I'll sit down real quick. I true
it to baby. Let me throw some I thought. I
get y'all donation. And I'm like that because I know

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my I know my attitude, I know my energy. For one,
I'm grown. It's hell like I'm super I'm grown. I've
been grown for a long time. I've been doing stuff
by myself, taking care of myself for a very long time.
I thank the Lord for my village if something were
to ever happen and I need them. But you're grabbing
in these streets for a long time, handling her own business. Okay.

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I'm not gonna let nobody talk to me any kind
of way. I'm just not. We're just not gonna let
nobody do that, okay. And so I'm saying that to say,
the peda in me is calming down from responses and
reactions because you just can't say what you want to

(55:41):
say to anybody and expect them not to say nothing.
And that goes for me too. That's why I'm very
I feel like I'm approachable, I feel like I'm respectful.
I feel like I try not to be nice and nasty.
I used to be real, real, nice and nasty, but
now I'm just like, Okay, yeah, never mind. I don't
worry about it, or I don't even put myself in
situations to where I know I'm an feel uncome because
I have a high in spirit of discernment. I've told

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you all that time and time again, and I feel
like the Lord kind of warns me, like, Okay, you're
finna go up here. She's finna have attitude. This has
she finna be acting. Either you're gonna be calm or
you need to go to other direction. And nine times
out of ten, I'm probably gonna go to another direction
because I'm gonna be calm. But I'm gonna meet you
where you meet me. You know what I'm saying. If
you go high, I'm going higher. If you go low,

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I'm going just close enough to the fire that me
shake Shareck and the Bendigo was in. I'm just saying,
I ain't there yet. Okay. We have to learn how
to talk to people. We have to learn how to
approach people, and we have to learn to be approachable,
and we have to learn to be learn how to
respond when it's time to respond to people in the

(56:44):
way that we want to be responded to or talk to. Okay,
because people, you know, and the first thing we'll say,
she called us at our Christianne, she called us this,
and she went off like that and she said that,
and she maybe I'm saved, but I'm not sold. Okay,
So what you give me nine times out of ten,

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that's probably what you're gonna get back, if not worse.
But if you catch me now going into twenty twenty seas,
you're gonna get the real, real soft Missus Wilson, the
real real South. Yeah, you can have it. I'm good,
the real real soft soft. I'm not. I ain't even
gonna say soft girl era. I'm in my soft peace era.
Like I really want peace. I'm really finally like at

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the mountaintop when it comes to my peace, and I
just I can't. I'm just FeelA. You just can't take
it from me. You can't take it from me. You
cannot take it from me. I'm observing and I'm not
as absorbing. Okay, I'm seeing what's going on. Thank you
already appreciate it. That's all I need to see, That's

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all I need to know. And I'm not internalizing it.
I'm not absorbing it because I love this piece. When
you get peace y'all. Somebody said the other day, they
grown people when they get to a level of peace
to where they're happy, they're content, they have joy. Stuff
comes at them, they learn, they deal with it, and
they move on accordingly, like you don't want nobody to

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disturb that. And that's where I am now. I don't
want nobody to disturb it. Hurricane Toya. We try to
bear her, you know, like we're trying to get rid
of her. So leave me be. And that's what I'm doing.
I'm leaving people be. I'm in a season tour. I'm
leaving you be. It is okay. And if you need
to leave me be, I'm okay with that too, cause
I'm again, like I said earlier, I'm not perfect. But

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I have work to do and we all have work
to do it. But in order for us to do
this work and to be who we're supposed to be,
who were called to be, and to walk in our
purpose and living our purpose and fulfill our purpose, we
really have to dig deep and do the work. We
have to change our mindset. Okay, we have to be
intentional with the way that we react and respond to people, okay,

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And then we got to be okay with movie own
and living in peace. You know, you gotta be okay
with sometimes being misunderstood. You gotta be okay with sometimes
people intentionally, one to misunderstand you or one to not
like you. It ain't nothing you did to make them
feel that way. It ain't nothing you can do to
make them not feel that way. But you have to

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be okay with that. Stop trying to prove yourself, okay,
Stop begging for relationships and for friendships and for spaces
and for situations that God don't have for you. If
you notice when you beg or when you force yourself
to be in those situations, of those moments, they don't
never go right. I don't care if it's a friendship circle,

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a family function, or something. When you force yourself to
be a part of that foolishness, some always happen. You're
disturbing your own peace. I ain't good time, I ain't
got time, I ain't got time. I'm in a season
to where I'm being very accountable for myself for the
choices that I make. And we all have to be
that waste feelings. We have to be accountable for ourselves.

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We have to be accountable for the choices that we make.
So understand when it's time to become a better person,
it has nothing to do with anyone else. It starts
with you. And it's this case, Fellows, it's starting with me.
When I say your girl out here working, I'm working
like I'm really in a season to where God, I

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just want to have joy. You know, the joy of
the Lord is my strength. You know the joy that
the lawyer gave to you to work and then't give
it to the work. I ain't take it away. You
know the peace that's the passed all understanding. That's what
I want. That's what I want. I want to sit
back twel my toes watch God do amazing things for
my husband because I know, as he do amazing things
for him, it's gonna turn around in my family. My

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family's gonna continue to be good. I want him to
continue to elevate my daughter, bless her, open doors for
her because I know in a few years, your girl
gonna be able to retire up. I'm gonna be able
to retire early, and she's gonna make sure her mama
is good the rest of her mama's life, and I'm
gonna be able to watch her. The Lord bless her
with an amazing husband. Bless me with some amazing grandchildren, baby,

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to raise them and watch them grow up. To me,
that's where I'm in life. But I don't. I done
drop the rib bone again. Baby, That's all I want.
I want peer joy and peer peace. I understand that
I'm gonna be chastised. I understand that life is gonna
come with storms, but I know God got me, and

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I want that peace to know. Okay, Lord, you gave
this to me, go ahead and let me handle it.
But I'm moving out my own way. I don't want
to be in my own way. I don't want my
attitude and my response and my reaction and my mindset
and my intentionality to put me in situations that I
don't need to be in, okay, or to put me
in situations that take me a long time to get
out of and feel like the Lord taking his time

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well doing what he doing with me. I don't want that.
I don't want that for my life. I don't want it,
and you shouldn't want it either. Spill us you shouldn't
want it. Okay, how y'all feel about this topic. Did
y'all appreciate that? Because I feel like I needed to.
We'll sigh and get that out. Because life is life
and people people and people. People ain't putting themselves in

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your shoes. That's hard to cause. It's like flip the script.
You know. People want to misunderstand you. People want to
be disrespectful, people want to feel privileged and like you
owe them something like the people want to people, but

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you can people too. Change your mindset, change your response,
change your reaction, change your approach, change your attitude, and
God to do the risk for you. Okay, spell ass.
I hope shall hope y'all can relate to what I
just talked about. I hope y'all learned something. I hope
this has helped y'all. I hope this was encouraging for

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y'all because it was for me. Okay, So I am
moving on to our spill encouragement time. June one, twenty
four says, now unto him that is able to keep
you from falling and to present you faultless before the
presence of His glory with excent joy, hallelujah. That's what

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I'm looking forward to, Spillers. And I know time sooned
a Lord, like I know, I get about forty fifty
more years and man, yeah about forty fifty about fifty fold, Yeah,
about fifty four more years. Lord, thank you. This verse
tells that God has the power to keep us from stumbling,
which is falling into sin, and then present us faultless,
meaning like we haven't done anything in His presence with

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great joy. I don't know about y'all, but I want
to be presented as faultless one judgment day. This starts
with us and through us, Spillers. Okay, it starts with
us being intentional about being good people, being honest, being kind,
being loving, being care being sharing, just to name a

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few of the most important characteristics of being a follower
of Jesus Christ. That all starts by doing the personal work, Spillers,
and that is one ourselves. We are living in a
very wicked world. There are enough mean and considerate, selfish, sharing, hateful, uncondstingy, miserable, nasty, nice, nasty,

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devilish and considerate. Won't put themselves in your shoes. It's
enough of them people already in this world let's not
us be one of them. Okay, you can make sure
you're not one of them, spillers by doing internal work
and fixing your heart to be the best that you
need to be and that you can be that your
husband needs you to be, that your children needs you

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to be, your family needs you to be. Your friends,
your peers, your coworkers, your community, your sister or brotherhoods.
Be who God wants you to be first, and everybody
else will fall in. Be that light. Be a better
person for not only you, boy, for everybody around. Ye. Okay, listen,

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spill this. I love y'all so much. I thank y'all
for joining me. We are going into this amazing holiday season.
We're going to get into it with positive presuming positive intent,
meaning that we are going to project positivity. We're gonna
project love. We're going to project caring. We're going to
project sharing. We're gonna pray, pray one for another so

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that we can be not only the best that God
wants us to be for ourselves, but the best that
He wants us to be for others. All Right, that
was a struggle anyways, Feelings, I love y'all so much,
Thank you so much. For tuning in. I pray this
episode bless y'all because they blessed me and may be

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a better person. I'm gonna have a great rest of
the day and rest of the week and until next time,
this is your girl, Missus Wilten signing out.