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(00:07):
Hey, y'all, Hey y'all,Hey y'all. How y'all doing, y'all
go to that y'all ate good whatyou had? Glad to hear it.
AnyWho, welcome back to the lifeof Legs and you already know it's your
girl, big licks, Mike,welcome back. You know. Yeah,
life is lifing. Definitely life,Mike. I don't know about y'all,
(00:32):
but does it just feel like whenyou start gaining your strength back to your
no fight back, Cause you can'tjust lay down in the middle of this
fight with life, Like, eventhough it seems convincing, right, you
can't do that fun story right.When I was in high school, so
the thing at my high school wasif you got enough fight, they had
(00:53):
police at our high school. Sothe police were gonna take you to the
jail and then your parents had tocome pick you up. So when I
relayed this message to my mother,my mother was like, well, if
you got enough fight, just laydown. But I was trying to tell
her that, like, you know, even if I just lay down,
they're still gonna take me because Iwas involved in the altercation. Anyho,
(01:18):
life ain't like that. You can'tjust lay down. You gotta fight back
because if anybody put their hands onyou, you fight back. And my
mama didn't tell like, she didn'ttell me that when I was growing up.
And I don't know if your mamatold you that if somebody put their
hands on you, you hit themback. But let me be the one
(01:38):
to tell you that if anybody puttheir hands on you, put your hands
on the Okay, fight back likeyou ain't got to, you know,
go for the juggler. You ain'tgotta just beat them up, but fight
back. Defend yourself. And inthis walk of life, you gotta learn
(01:59):
to defend yourself and say, hey, ain't gonna let this keep me down.
I'm gonna keep going. So yeah, I'm in that phase where it's
like, Okay, I'm getting mymomentum back. I'm fighting back. But
life got hands. She got hands, But I got hands too. Let's
not get that confused. Because Iused to fight sometimes, and most of
(02:23):
the time there was never a winnerdeclared because somebody had to pull me off
of somebody, or somebody off.It was mainly somebody pulling me off of
somebody, so the fights were alwaysbroken up, so no one actually won.
If that makes sense. Anyhow,I was in deep thought the other
(02:43):
day and I was just being sothankful for this life I've been given,
Like even though there were times whenI just wanted to lay down, not
even fight anymore, just let lifego, okay, I'm thankful that I
didn't. And I'm thankful for thosebattles because they make me stronger. Like
(03:05):
if I didn't give up, thenwhat makes you think I'm goin to give
up? Now? You know whatI'm saying. So I was in deep
thought and you know, just thankful. And I don't know about y'all,
but I have this thing where,well I think I've discussed it and I
have discussed this with my therapist aswell, But when she was talking to
(03:28):
me one day, I was like, oh, there remightds be of something
I wrote in my journal last night, and then I read it and then
she was like, well, youjust cracked the gold. So that what
that meant for me was that wheneversomething's going good in my life, I
feel like bad is immediately on itstails. Like just when you think life
(03:50):
couldn't get no better, it hitsa U turn, it hits a side
street you didn't see coming. Okay, it hits the dirt road where you
get left in the dust. Okay, that's my thought process. And as
I was in that deep thought,I had to remind myself that bad doesn't
(04:10):
always have to happen. They don'thave to be bad unless you make it
bad, you know what I'm saying, Like, Okay, they went down
a dirt road. We can godown a dirt road too. Like you
want to act crazy, I canact crazy too, you know what I'm
saying. Like you want to youwanna you know what I'm saying. Whatever
(04:32):
they can do, I can doa little better. But when I have
to, if I have to doit, we ain't gonna like that.
So I can either just not worryabout it, let it go, keep
moving right, because life is gonnakeep happening whether you're here or not.
Like that's just the honest truth.Like most of the stuff will still be
(04:58):
here whether you're here or not,whether I'm here or not, you know
what I'm saying. So why I'mhere, I'm gonna have fun. Okay,
I can't worry about the bad becausethe bad is gonna just keep getting
worse if I let it. Likeyou could stub your toe and you know
that hurts, especially the pinky whenyou get that pinky. Okay, so
(05:21):
we can let this pinky can stubturned into something worse, or we can
just say, oh, I stubmy toe. Keep on moving because you
didn't break your whole foot. Youdidn't even break your toe, you just
bumped it. Okay, you cankeep walking, you can keep moving.
It's gonna hurt. But if you'removing, just writing, you doing what
(05:44):
you're supposed to do, you're gonnaforget that your toe hurts. I have
forgotten every single time that I've stubbedmy toe because I kept moving, all
right, forgot that it was hurting. So that's just how I gotta start
coming at life. If like,yeah hurts, stuff's gonna happen, and
stuff's gonna hurt. That's life,right. Things are gonna happen, Things
(06:08):
are constantly changing, Like this earthis constantly moving. I'm just gonna move
with it, like I gotta keepgoing. I don't want to get left
behind. I don't want to laydown and give up, because they don't
give out trophies for giving up.They just don't they give participation trophies.
Now, Like, isn't that whatpeople were so upset about that gen Z
(06:31):
was getting, you know, awardedfor participating. But at least you participated,
whether you won the game or not, you should be celebrated for participating.
You cannot celebrate giving up. Soit's it's litly like a titty every
day that you are here doing yourbest, okay, So why not just
(06:56):
keep trying to do your best.You ain't gotta do it kept, but
try, okay, But you can'tgive up. So that's how we were
moving. Friend. Okay, Besty, We're not giving up. We are
not going to lay down in themiddle of this fight. We're not gonna
just start screaming. If somebody putstheir hands on us, We're gonna fight
(07:17):
back. We're gonna defend ourselves.We're going to keep going until it's done,
Okay, until there's a winner.Don't let nobody pull you up off
nobody, okay, because that's whyI can't just actually tell y'all that I
used to win fights because they're alwaysbroken up. But I mean, when
stuff don't make sense, you gottabreak that up. And I was just
(07:43):
just it never made sense, butI was fighting. I ain't give up
even though my Mama told me to, but we ain't gonna we're gonna talk
about that. What we are gonnatalk about is what's ahead in life.
Like as I was in that deepthought, I know I got off on
a tan I don't know if y'alllove it when I go off on a
tangent and just start talking about somethingelse and don't go back to the original
(08:05):
message. But I'm gonna try mybest to work on that. So back
to the original message that deep thought. So I had to do affirmations,
like I had to affirm myself thatbad doesn't have to happen, Bad doesn't
have to happen, Bad doesn't haveto happen. And as I kept repeating
it to myself, I started like, I guess it was doing the reverse
(08:28):
effect on me because I started imaginingand getting worse in all the possible ways
that it could get worse. That'show my brain works. And then I
guess I started having a panic cottext. I was just like, oh my
gosh, I got to not focuson the bad that could happen and focus
on what is happening. And that'sjust my usual cycle, Like I'm always
(08:52):
imagining the worst possible scenario of everythinginstead of just letting it happen and riding
the wave, because when we dothat, it happens a whole lot better
than what we could imagine, becausewhat the spongement, I say, usual
Imaginay, Okay, we can't justlive in fear, right, because I
(09:16):
was doing that for a long time, And I also thought to myself today.
I don't know if I was takinga shower of taking the poop,
but in one of those occasions,I thought to myself that all of the
things I was afraid of last yearwere just fierce that, you know,
stuff that could go wrong given thecontext. Right. I wasn't imagining anything
(09:39):
good coming out of the context becauseI didn't want it to get better,
to be quite honest, Like youhave just been in a situation and you're
like, I've seen this, youknow, in a good place, and
then it always leads up here,and it wasn't. I didn't see it
getting better, so imagine the worst, and I focused on that worst,
(10:03):
and then I freaked myself out becauseI'm like, oh, I didn't know
I could imagine it getting that bad, Like it could get that bad,
so let me prepare for that instead. Of Okay, does this actually make
sense for me to be imagining theworst possible scenario while pretending like I'm not
(10:24):
right? Does it make sense forme to be in a relationship that I
didn't want to be in point blankperiod? Not me, you know,
trying to see how bad it couldget. I could just be straight up
honest with myself, could have justsaid, hey, I don't want to
be in this relationship anymore. That'sthat like I've tried, but I can't
(10:48):
do it anymore. Instead of me, like I said, I was imagining
everything. I was trying to lookfor clues in real life to match my
imagine nations. That's called snooping andlurking. Okay, if you didn't know
what that meant, But yeah,I caught myself doing that, and I
(11:11):
had to just be honest with myselfand say, hey, it doesn't matter
if X, Y and Z wasgoing on. I didn't know it,
and I'm just now finding out.It does not matter if I find out
today, tomorrow, and two yearsfrom now, in twenty years from now,
it's not gonna matter. Because Iwasn't happy, and so it was
(11:33):
only on me to move off ofmy life. I guess, and that's
what I needed to do. AsI was lurking and all that other stuff.
I needed to just move on becauseit's not gonna matter. I moved
on, you know what I'm saying? Like if Johnny had three apples,
right, That's one of my favoritesaving sayings now, Like when somebody says
(11:54):
something that doesn't make sense, I'mlike, if Johnny had three apples,
ya and Susie too, What isreally going on here? But AnyWho,
I'm get out y'alls here. Idid mine, so I don't have to,
you know, wake up and domine anymore. I got twists,
so AnyWho, love piece of chitten, grease y'all, and please don't go
(12:18):
fucking up nobody's day. It ain'tcool no more, friend, ain't cool,
No okay, bye
Hey, y'all, Hey y'all,Hey y'all. How y'all doing, y'all
go to that y'all ate good whatyou had? Glad to hear it.
AnyWho, welcome back to the lifeof Legs and you already know it's your
girl, big licks, Mike,welcome back. You know. Yeah,
life is lifing. Definitely life,Mike. I don't know about y'all,
(00:32):
but does it just feel like whenyou start gaining your strength back to your
no fight back, Cause you can'tjust lay down in the middle of this
fight with life, Like, eventhough it seems convincing, right, you
can't do that fun story right.When I was in high school, so
the thing at my high school wasif you got enough fight, they had
(00:53):
police at our high school. Sothe police were gonna take you to the
jail and then your parents had tocome pick you up. So when I
relayed this message to my mother,my mother was like, well, if
you got enough fight, just laydown. But I was trying to tell
her that, like, you know, even if I just lay down,
they're still gonna take me because Iwas involved in the altercation. Anyho,
(01:18):
life ain't like that. You can'tjust lay down. You gotta fight back
because if anybody put their hands onyou, you fight back. And my
mama didn't tell like, she didn'ttell me that when I was growing up.
And I don't know if your mamatold you that if somebody put their
hands on you, you hit themback. But let me be the one
(01:38):
to tell you that if anybody puttheir hands on you, put your hands
on the Okay, fight back likeyou ain't got to, you know,
go for the juggler. You ain'tgotta just beat them up, but fight
back. Defend yourself. And inthis walk of life, you gotta learn
(01:59):
to defend yourself and say, hey, ain't gonna let this keep me down.
I'm gonna keep going. So yeah, I'm in that phase where it's
like, Okay, I'm getting mymomentum back. I'm fighting back. But
life got hands. She got hands, But I got hands too. Let's
not get that confused. Because Iused to fight sometimes, and most of
(02:23):
the time there was never a winnerdeclared because somebody had to pull me off
of somebody, or somebody off.It was mainly somebody pulling me off of
somebody, so the fights were alwaysbroken up, so no one actually won.
If that makes sense. Anyhow,I was in deep thought the other
(02:43):
day and I was just being sothankful for this life I've been given,
Like even though there were times whenI just wanted to lay down, not
even fight anymore, just let lifego, okay, I'm thankful that I
didn't. And I'm thankful for thosebattles because they make me stronger. Like
(03:05):
if I didn't give up, thenwhat makes you think I'm goin to give
up? Now? You know whatI'm saying. So I was in deep
thought and you know, just thankful. And I don't know about y'all,
but I have this thing where,well I think I've discussed it and I
have discussed this with my therapist aswell, But when she was talking to
(03:28):
me one day, I was like, oh, there remightds be of something
I wrote in my journal last night, and then I read it and then
she was like, well, youjust cracked the gold. So that what
that meant for me was that wheneversomething's going good in my life, I
feel like bad is immediately on itstails. Like just when you think life
(03:50):
couldn't get no better, it hitsa U turn, it hits a side
street you didn't see coming. Okay, it hits the dirt road where you
get left in the dust. Okay, that's my thought process. And as
I was in that deep thought,I had to remind myself that bad doesn't
(04:10):
always have to happen. They don'thave to be bad unless you make it
bad, you know what I'm saying, Like, Okay, they went down
a dirt road. We can godown a dirt road too. Like you
want to act crazy, I canact crazy too, you know what I'm
saying. Like you want to youwanna you know what I'm saying. Whatever
(04:32):
they can do, I can doa little better. But when I have
to, if I have to doit, we ain't gonna like that.
So I can either just not worryabout it, let it go, keep
moving right, because life is gonnakeep happening whether you're here or not.
Like that's just the honest truth.Like most of the stuff will still be
(04:58):
here whether you're here or not,whether I'm here or not, you know
what I'm saying. So why I'mhere, I'm gonna have fun. Okay,
I can't worry about the bad becausethe bad is gonna just keep getting
worse if I let it. Likeyou could stub your toe and you know
that hurts, especially the pinky whenyou get that pinky. Okay, so
(05:21):
we can let this pinky can stubturned into something worse, or we can
just say, oh, I stubmy toe. Keep on moving because you
didn't break your whole foot. Youdidn't even break your toe, you just
bumped it. Okay, you cankeep walking, you can keep moving.
It's gonna hurt. But if you'removing, just writing, you doing what
(05:44):
you're supposed to do, you're gonnaforget that your toe hurts. I have
forgotten every single time that I've stubbedmy toe because I kept moving, all
right, forgot that it was hurting. So that's just how I gotta start
coming at life. If like,yeah hurts, stuff's gonna happen, and
stuff's gonna hurt. That's life,right. Things are gonna happen, Things
(06:08):
are constantly changing, Like this earthis constantly moving. I'm just gonna move
with it, like I gotta keepgoing. I don't want to get left
behind. I don't want to laydown and give up, because they don't
give out trophies for giving up.They just don't they give participation trophies.
Now, Like, isn't that whatpeople were so upset about that gen Z
(06:31):
was getting, you know, awardedfor participating. But at least you participated,
whether you won the game or not, you should be celebrated for participating.
You cannot celebrate giving up. Soit's it's litly like a titty every
day that you are here doing yourbest, okay, So why not just
(06:56):
keep trying to do your best.You ain't gotta do it kept, but
try, okay, But you can'tgive up. So that's how we were
moving. Friend. Okay, Besty, We're not giving up. We are
not going to lay down in themiddle of this fight. We're not gonna
just start screaming. If somebody putstheir hands on us, We're gonna fight
(07:17):
back. We're gonna defend ourselves.We're going to keep going until it's done,
Okay, until there's a winner.Don't let nobody pull you up off
nobody, okay, because that's whyI can't just actually tell y'all that I
used to win fights because they're alwaysbroken up. But I mean, when
stuff don't make sense, you gottabreak that up. And I was just
(07:43):
just it never made sense, butI was fighting. I ain't give up
even though my Mama told me to, but we ain't gonna we're gonna talk
about that. What we are gonnatalk about is what's ahead in life.
Like as I was in that deepthought, I know I got off on
a tan I don't know if y'alllove it when I go off on a
tangent and just start talking about somethingelse and don't go back to the original
(08:05):
message. But I'm gonna try mybest to work on that. So back
to the original message that deep thought. So I had to do affirmations,
like I had to affirm myself thatbad doesn't have to happen, Bad doesn't
have to happen, Bad doesn't haveto happen. And as I kept repeating
it to myself, I started like, I guess it was doing the reverse
(08:28):
effect on me because I started imaginingand getting worse in all the possible ways
that it could get worse. That'show my brain works. And then I
guess I started having a panic cottext. I was just like, oh my
gosh, I got to not focuson the bad that could happen and focus
on what is happening. And that'sjust my usual cycle, Like I'm always
(08:52):
imagining the worst possible scenario of everythinginstead of just letting it happen and riding
the wave, because when we dothat, it happens a whole lot better
than what we could imagine, becausewhat the spongement, I say, usual
Imaginay, Okay, we can't justlive in fear, right, because I
(09:16):
was doing that for a long time, And I also thought to myself today.
I don't know if I was takinga shower of taking the poop,
but in one of those occasions,I thought to myself that all of the
things I was afraid of last yearwere just fierce that, you know,
stuff that could go wrong given thecontext. Right. I wasn't imagining anything
(09:39):
good coming out of the context becauseI didn't want it to get better,
to be quite honest, Like youhave just been in a situation and you're
like, I've seen this, youknow, in a good place, and
then it always leads up here,and it wasn't. I didn't see it
getting better, so imagine the worst, and I focused on that worst,
(10:03):
and then I freaked myself out becauseI'm like, oh, I didn't know
I could imagine it getting that bad, Like it could get that bad,
so let me prepare for that instead. Of Okay, does this actually make
sense for me to be imagining theworst possible scenario while pretending like I'm not
(10:24):
right? Does it make sense forme to be in a relationship that I
didn't want to be in point blankperiod? Not me, you know,
trying to see how bad it couldget. I could just be straight up
honest with myself, could have justsaid, hey, I don't want to
be in this relationship anymore. That'sthat like I've tried, but I can't
(10:48):
do it anymore. Instead of me, like I said, I was imagining
everything. I was trying to lookfor clues in real life to match my
imagine nations. That's called snooping andlurking. Okay, if you didn't know
what that meant, But yeah,I caught myself doing that, and I
(11:11):
had to just be honest with myselfand say, hey, it doesn't matter
if X, Y and Z wasgoing on. I didn't know it,
and I'm just now finding out.It does not matter if I find out
today, tomorrow, and two yearsfrom now, in twenty years from now,
it's not gonna matter. Because Iwasn't happy, and so it was
(11:33):
only on me to move off ofmy life. I guess, and that's
what I needed to do. AsI was lurking and all that other stuff.
I needed to just move on becauseit's not gonna matter. I moved
on, you know what I'm saying? Like if Johnny had three apples,
right, That's one of my favoritesaving sayings now, Like when somebody says
(11:54):
something that doesn't make sense, I'mlike, if Johnny had three apples,
ya and Susie too, What isreally going on here? But AnyWho,
I'm get out y'alls here. Idid mine, so I don't have to,
you know, wake up and domine anymore. I got twists,
so AnyWho, love piece of chitten, grease y'all, and please don't go
(12:18):
fucking up nobody's day. It ain'tcool no more, friend, ain't cool,
No okay, bye
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