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(00:07):
Hey, y'all, Hey, y'all, Hey, y'all. Welcome back to
the life Alex. It's your girl, big legs. How do y'all like
this new intro song? I feellike you need a beat drop a little
boom boom boom boom, you know, a little eight o'd wait something a
welcome back. It's been a minute, it's been a week or two,
but here we are, and Ijust want to know how y'all feeling,
(00:28):
y'all. Good, y'all ate TodayI had some oat meal. You know
what oatmeal does? It works onyou and it was working on me.
But here I am, and Ijust want to tell y'all that I'm glad
to be back. Like every dayI'm thinking about the podcast, like what
can I do to make it better? How much I love doing it.
(00:49):
I talk about it pretty often,but not often enough. An it's been
a minute. Let me cut y'allup. So you're girl got a cool
job, right cool? And Iget to do all of the things that
I grew up not knowing that Icould do, but also not being able
(01:11):
to afford to do, and nowI'm getting paid to do them, if
that makes sense. Because where I'mfrom right, there's just a little place.
And I'm not gonna say the namebecause I worked there. You know
what, I am gonna say thename. It's called Callaway, right,
And you know, Callowe was aplace where you maybe went once every couple
(01:34):
of years, like not even oncea year, once every couple of years
because it's pretty expensive to get intofor you know, me and my folks
and my family, so we didn'tgo too often. Like four July they
do fireworks and we wouldn't go in. We would be outside watching the fireworks.
And that's what I grew up doing. So now that I'm an adult
(01:57):
and I got this awesome opportunity towork there, I get to be in
there, you know what I'm saying. Like I can go to the beach,
I can see the circus. Ihadn't seen the circus in over ten
years, right, Like I getto go see the butterflies. I get
to do the stuff that I grewup wanted to do basically, and it's
awesome. Like I didn't know thatit was as big as it is.
(02:20):
All that stuff was back there becauselike I said, I ain't go there
too often, and I grew upmaybe ten fifteen minutes away from it.
Who knew? AnyWho. It's justso great to see my inner child just
learning about stuff because when they wouldtake us on field trips, I would
be extremely bored. Now as anadult, I'm like, ooh, what's
(02:43):
this? What's that all of Likeyou have all these animals just roaming around
this place. Cool? So yeah, and you know, I'm just living
life. Love you the Loka couldn'tbe more thankful, right Mayah. On
my mind, I have just beentrying to figure out like, Okay,
(03:06):
I'm this age now, I'm twentysix. Now I feel old, but
I'm really not that old. LikeI'm only twenty six. So from twenty
six and up, what who Iwant to do with my life? You
know what I'm saying? Like somepeople have a plan, some people don't,
and they just do like they dowhatever it's available, And that's not
(03:27):
what I want to do. Andlike I told you all the last episode,
and I'm pretty sure the episode beforethat, I'm going back to school
because I need to have a plan. And also when I tell people I'm
going to school and I tell themwhat I'm going to school for and they're
like, oh, well, whatkind of business do you want to open
or what kind of business do youwant to have? And I'm like,
I don't know, like a bunchof them. I just want to help
(03:49):
a whole lot of people anyway possible. But apparently there's different needs on every
community, and I have to figureout what's something that I need so that
I can help like other people.Because if I need help with this specific
thing, I'm pretty sure a lotof other people do too. So we're
(04:11):
working on that. But in themeantime between time, I'm just gonna vibe
out. I'm gonna have fun,like just gonna enjoy being young and energetic
and full of life and learn howto love my adult body because if you
don't know you have an adult body, just like you had a child body
(04:34):
that was growing at the speed oflight, like you would wake up a
couple of inches taller and not knowI stopped growing like a long, long,
long, long, a long,long long time ago. Why does
stuff growing? Because pretty sure it'sbecause I love coffee. Like that's what
they told me growing up that coffeestunts your growth. And I'm like it
(04:54):
kind of makes sense because in highschool I didn't grow more. I was
also drinking like two three cups ofcoffee every day for school. So when
two plus two weekles four, youknow, I gotta put that on the
tailly. And here I am stilldrinking coffee. I'm still the same height
(05:15):
I was in middle school. Ithink, anyho in my adult body,
like this time last year, Iwas a lot skinnier, well, a
lot thinner. And as I wasrealizing that I looked better than I did
when I was in high school becauseI waghed less. But I can't compare
myself to my child body because itwas going through some things. Then I
(05:41):
was stressed out right because I rememberlosing weight when I was in high school.
I was sixteen and I was stayingwith my cousin. I wasn't really
eating. I was walking to schoollike I didn't understand why I was losing
weight. And then when I wentto go stay with my godmother, I
didn't have to walk to school anymore. I didn't have to really do much
(06:02):
walking at all, and I waseating better, and so I picked up
a little weight. And by thetime I had my breast reduction at eighteen,
when like the day of the surgery, I stepped on the scale.
I weighed one eighty seven right whenI got off of the operating table,
and you know, I woke up, and I think as soon as I
(06:24):
woke up, like maybe a minuteor two later, I just threw up.
But that's probably because I ate beforesurgery and to told you not to
do that. But your girl washungry. Okay. I had me a
cup of vanilla way for so I'mnot even gonna hold you, but you
know, yeah, they told methey took seven pounds off my chest,
so three and a half off ofeach you know, boob. And I
(06:45):
was like, oh, so Iweighed one eighty now, And in my
head, I was like, well, let me maintain this one eighty weight.
And I tried that. And thenI went to college, right,
And I thought that I was gonnabe healthy in college because I had access
to the gym, to the track, you know, walking everywhere. But
I also had open access to food. And nobody tell me I couldn't eat
(07:09):
the food right because it was abuffet. I had the unlimited meal plan
and it was a buffet. I'mgonna be here all day, okay.
I was eating good for pretty surea month straight. Every time I went
to the dining hall. I gotme two slices of pizza. I was
paying for it. After that firstmonth, it was rubbing my chest the
(07:30):
wrong way, so that didn't stopme from eating. So I kept getting
bigger and bigger, but I didn'tnotice it because I was having the time
of my life. Everybody was gettingbigger right the freshman fifteen, but then
they don't tell you about the sophomorethirty. Right by the time I became
a sophomore, I just I don'tknow. I was more busy working than
(07:55):
I was health wise, like caringabout my health, and so as long
as I had money and food,I was good. I also tried to
make healthier decisions my sophomore year,and so before class, I think for
a semester before class, I wouldgo downstairs because in the dorm I lived
(08:15):
in, there was a track downstairsand a gym, so go downstairs.
I think during that summer I wouldrun around the track, but I was
on birth control. I had toimpulling on in my arm, and every
time I would run, it wouldmake me start spontaneously bleeding. So I
stopped running on the track. Iwould just go in the gym. I
would do a little cardio lift littleweights, go back to my dorm room,
(08:37):
take out my fruit for my smoothies, shower and get ready for class.
Make my smoothie, and I'm onmy way to class. I was
probably late a couple times because Iwas making smoothie that's neither here nor there.
But somehow that stopped. I thinkit stopped when I moved dorm rooms.
I want to say, no,that that healthy thing actually started when
(09:01):
I moved dorm rooms, because myfirst dorm room roommates were terriable, like
why are you? They were friends, right, and so there are four
bedrooms in this one dorm, twoof them. They'd being their separate bedrooms
on FaceTime with each other, yellinglike no, I can't live like that,
and then they started like being messy. The passive aggressiveness on Twitter and
(09:24):
Snapchat was off the chain. SoI ended up moving and got focused.
But then the summer came and Iwas working, working, working, like
working working, and I ended upgetting my own apartment. Wasn't really going
to that gym because then I hadto walk there, and that then shit
(09:46):
real well in my spirit and inmy mind, so I didn't really go
to the gym. That was mainlyjust working. So like with me,
health was uh spontaneous for a shorttime thing. And then last cheer when
I got a job and I waslike, well, I'm gonna need some
assistance, some support before I goto work to keep me working at my
(10:09):
best. So and also I liketo take showers before I go to work,
and I was living with my dadand he told me I could only
take one to my shower day.So I was like, well, if
I get a gym membership, Ican go to gym before work, take
my shower there, then go towork. And that way, you know,
I've built up momentum in my bodybecause a body emotion stays emotion,
(10:30):
and that worked for me. Iwas losing weight like crazy. I looked
good. But then I ended upstaying with a friend and we've been eating
good, real good. Like shetold me yesterday. She was like,
oh, your thighs have spread,girl, And I was like, it's
just the gravy. Because most ofthe times that we cook like a starch,
whether that be mashed potatoes or rice, I need some gravy to go
(10:52):
on top of it. I'm noteating no, just plain mashed potatoes and
no plane. Right, I needgravy, and I don't just put a
little bit of gravy. I gottasmother hitting gravy. So that's my bee,
that's my bad. So I gottawork on that. But now you
know, I understand what a healthylifestyle looks like, and in order to
(11:13):
get the results that I want outof myself, I have to, you
know, implement those healthy practices.And it's not just a momentary thing where
you just do, you know,healthy stuff for a little bit and stop
because you're not gonna get what youwant of that. I learned that the
hard way. So here I am, and I'm just gonna do my best
(11:35):
to live healthier ish probably gonna stillput gravy on my price and mashed potatoes,
and it's not up for de bait. Just don't give me no playing
rice and no playing messed potatoes.And I ain't gotta worry about it any
who. Life is all about whatyou make of it. And so as
much as I want to spend time, you know, hating myself and hating
(11:58):
the way I look, I haveall of the power to change that.
I can just work out. Ican just walk I can just you know,
not eat two servings of rice andmashed potatoes smothered and gravy. Like,
we have the ability to change ourown you know, actions to live
(12:18):
a healthier lifestyle. So that's whatI'm gonna do, like from this point
four, I don't want to revertback to old patterns of pretending to be
healthy one day and then doing anunhealthy thing by the end of the night.
Like, it doesn't work like that, So you know, expect changes,
(12:39):
I guess. And also being opento change helps a lot when making
decisions because if you're closed off tochange, guess what You're not gonna do
change. You're gonna stay the same. And who wants to stay the same?
If I was the same person Iwas ten years ago, yeah,
(13:00):
we would not be here. Ican tell you that for sure, we
would not be here. And beingopen to change, being open to growth,
has helped me out a lot,because I can't close myself off to
old beliefs, old thinking patterns.Because this is twenty twenty four. You
gotta be open every Happy Pride month, y'all. Yay, anyhow, I'm
(13:24):
gonna get out y'all's hair. Ijust want to come talk to y'all.
Let y'all know what's good and allthat chats anyhow up piece and chicken grease
y'all, And like I always say, don't go fucking up nobody's say,
like I don't care how bad YOday is going, Make it good,
make it better. You better makeit better, Like don't even don't go
(13:46):
fucking Okay, Bye,
Hey, y'all, Hey, y'all, Hey, y'all. Welcome back to
the life Alex. It's your girl, big legs. How do y'all like
this new intro song? I feellike you need a beat drop a little
boom boom boom boom, you know, a little eight o'd wait something a
welcome back. It's been a minute, it's been a week or two,
but here we are, and Ijust want to know how y'all feeling,
(00:28):
y'all. Good, y'all ate TodayI had some oat meal. You know
what oatmeal does? It works onyou and it was working on me.
But here I am, and Ijust want to tell y'all that I'm glad
to be back. Like every dayI'm thinking about the podcast, like what
can I do to make it better? How much I love doing it.
(00:49):
I talk about it pretty often,but not often enough. An it's been
a minute. Let me cut y'allup. So you're girl got a cool
job, right cool? And Iget to do all of the things that
I grew up not knowing that Icould do, but also not being able
(01:11):
to afford to do, and nowI'm getting paid to do them, if
that makes sense. Because where I'mfrom right, there's just a little place.
And I'm not gonna say the namebecause I worked there. You know
what, I am gonna say thename. It's called Callaway, right,
And you know, Callowe was aplace where you maybe went once every couple
(01:34):
of years, like not even oncea year, once every couple of years
because it's pretty expensive to get intofor you know, me and my folks
and my family, so we didn'tgo too often. Like four July they
do fireworks and we wouldn't go in. We would be outside watching the fireworks.
And that's what I grew up doing. So now that I'm an adult
(01:57):
and I got this awesome opportunity towork there, I get to be in
there, you know what I'm saying. Like I can go to the beach,
I can see the circus. Ihadn't seen the circus in over ten
years, right, Like I getto go see the butterflies. I get
to do the stuff that I grewup wanted to do basically, and it's
awesome. Like I didn't know thatit was as big as it is.
(02:20):
All that stuff was back there becauselike I said, I ain't go there
too often, and I grew upmaybe ten fifteen minutes away from it.
Who knew? AnyWho. It's justso great to see my inner child just
learning about stuff because when they wouldtake us on field trips, I would
be extremely bored. Now as anadult, I'm like, ooh, what's
(02:43):
this? What's that all of Likeyou have all these animals just roaming around
this place. Cool? So yeah, and you know, I'm just living
life. Love you the Loka couldn'tbe more thankful, right Mayah. On
my mind, I have just beentrying to figure out like, Okay,
(03:06):
I'm this age now, I'm twentysix. Now I feel old, but
I'm really not that old. LikeI'm only twenty six. So from twenty
six and up, what who Iwant to do with my life? You
know what I'm saying? Like somepeople have a plan, some people don't,
and they just do like they dowhatever it's available, And that's not
(03:27):
what I want to do. Andlike I told you all the last episode,
and I'm pretty sure the episode beforethat, I'm going back to school
because I need to have a plan. And also when I tell people I'm
going to school and I tell themwhat I'm going to school for and they're
like, oh, well, whatkind of business do you want to open
or what kind of business do youwant to have? And I'm like,
I don't know, like a bunchof them. I just want to help
(03:49):
a whole lot of people anyway possible. But apparently there's different needs on every
community, and I have to figureout what's something that I need so that
I can help like other people.Because if I need help with this specific
thing, I'm pretty sure a lotof other people do too. So we're
(04:11):
working on that. But in themeantime between time, I'm just gonna vibe
out. I'm gonna have fun,like just gonna enjoy being young and energetic
and full of life and learn howto love my adult body because if you
don't know you have an adult body, just like you had a child body
(04:34):
that was growing at the speed oflight, like you would wake up a
couple of inches taller and not knowI stopped growing like a long, long,
long, long, a long,long long time ago. Why does
stuff growing? Because pretty sure it'sbecause I love coffee. Like that's what
they told me growing up that coffeestunts your growth. And I'm like it
(04:54):
kind of makes sense because in highschool I didn't grow more. I was
also drinking like two three cups ofcoffee every day for school. So when
two plus two weekles four, youknow, I gotta put that on the
tailly. And here I am stilldrinking coffee. I'm still the same height
(05:15):
I was in middle school. Ithink, anyho in my adult body,
like this time last year, Iwas a lot skinnier, well, a
lot thinner. And as I wasrealizing that I looked better than I did
when I was in high school becauseI waghed less. But I can't compare
myself to my child body because itwas going through some things. Then I
(05:41):
was stressed out right because I rememberlosing weight when I was in high school.
I was sixteen and I was stayingwith my cousin. I wasn't really
eating. I was walking to schoollike I didn't understand why I was losing
weight. And then when I wentto go stay with my godmother, I
didn't have to walk to school anymore. I didn't have to really do much
(06:02):
walking at all, and I waseating better, and so I picked up
a little weight. And by thetime I had my breast reduction at eighteen,
when like the day of the surgery, I stepped on the scale.
I weighed one eighty seven right whenI got off of the operating table,
and you know, I woke up, and I think as soon as I
(06:24):
woke up, like maybe a minuteor two later, I just threw up.
But that's probably because I ate beforesurgery and to told you not to
do that. But your girl washungry. Okay. I had me a
cup of vanilla way for so I'mnot even gonna hold you, but you
know, yeah, they told methey took seven pounds off my chest,
so three and a half off ofeach you know, boob. And I
(06:45):
was like, oh, so Iweighed one eighty now, And in my
head, I was like, well, let me maintain this one eighty weight.
And I tried that. And thenI went to college, right,
And I thought that I was gonnabe healthy in college because I had access
to the gym, to the track, you know, walking everywhere. But
I also had open access to food. And nobody tell me I couldn't eat
(07:09):
the food right because it was abuffet. I had the unlimited meal plan
and it was a buffet. I'mgonna be here all day, okay.
I was eating good for pretty surea month straight. Every time I went
to the dining hall. I gotme two slices of pizza. I was
paying for it. After that firstmonth, it was rubbing my chest the
(07:30):
wrong way, so that didn't stopme from eating. So I kept getting
bigger and bigger, but I didn'tnotice it because I was having the time
of my life. Everybody was gettingbigger right the freshman fifteen, but then
they don't tell you about the sophomorethirty. Right by the time I became
a sophomore, I just I don'tknow. I was more busy working than
(07:55):
I was health wise, like caringabout my health, and so as long
as I had money and food,I was good. I also tried to
make healthier decisions my sophomore year,and so before class, I think for
a semester before class, I wouldgo downstairs because in the dorm I lived
(08:15):
in, there was a track downstairsand a gym, so go downstairs.
I think during that summer I wouldrun around the track, but I was
on birth control. I had toimpulling on in my arm, and every
time I would run, it wouldmake me start spontaneously bleeding. So I
stopped running on the track. Iwould just go in the gym. I
would do a little cardio lift littleweights, go back to my dorm room,
(08:37):
take out my fruit for my smoothies, shower and get ready for class.
Make my smoothie, and I'm onmy way to class. I was
probably late a couple times because Iwas making smoothie that's neither here nor there.
But somehow that stopped. I thinkit stopped when I moved dorm rooms.
I want to say, no,that that healthy thing actually started when
(09:01):
I moved dorm rooms, because myfirst dorm room roommates were terriable, like
why are you? They were friends, right, and so there are four
bedrooms in this one dorm, twoof them. They'd being their separate bedrooms
on FaceTime with each other, yellinglike no, I can't live like that,
and then they started like being messy. The passive aggressiveness on Twitter and
(09:24):
Snapchat was off the chain. SoI ended up moving and got focused.
But then the summer came and Iwas working, working, working, like
working working, and I ended upgetting my own apartment. Wasn't really going
to that gym because then I hadto walk there, and that then shit
(09:46):
real well in my spirit and inmy mind, so I didn't really go
to the gym. That was mainlyjust working. So like with me,
health was uh spontaneous for a shorttime thing. And then last cheer when
I got a job and I waslike, well, I'm gonna need some
assistance, some support before I goto work to keep me working at my
(10:09):
best. So and also I liketo take showers before I go to work,
and I was living with my dadand he told me I could only
take one to my shower day.So I was like, well, if
I get a gym membership, Ican go to gym before work, take
my shower there, then go towork. And that way, you know,
I've built up momentum in my bodybecause a body emotion stays emotion,
(10:30):
and that worked for me. Iwas losing weight like crazy. I looked
good. But then I ended upstaying with a friend and we've been eating
good, real good. Like shetold me yesterday. She was like,
oh, your thighs have spread,girl, And I was like, it's
just the gravy. Because most ofthe times that we cook like a starch,
whether that be mashed potatoes or rice, I need some gravy to go
(10:52):
on top of it. I'm noteating no, just plain mashed potatoes and
no plane. Right, I needgravy, and I don't just put a
little bit of gravy. I gottasmother hitting gravy. So that's my bee,
that's my bad. So I gottawork on that. But now you
know, I understand what a healthylifestyle looks like, and in order to
(11:13):
get the results that I want outof myself, I have to, you
know, implement those healthy practices.And it's not just a momentary thing where
you just do, you know,healthy stuff for a little bit and stop
because you're not gonna get what youwant of that. I learned that the
hard way. So here I am, and I'm just gonna do my best
(11:35):
to live healthier ish probably gonna stillput gravy on my price and mashed potatoes,
and it's not up for de bait. Just don't give me no playing
rice and no playing messed potatoes.And I ain't gotta worry about it any
who. Life is all about whatyou make of it. And so as
much as I want to spend time, you know, hating myself and hating
(11:58):
the way I look, I haveall of the power to change that.
I can just work out. Ican just walk I can just you know,
not eat two servings of rice andmashed potatoes smothered and gravy. Like,
we have the ability to change ourown you know, actions to live
(12:18):
a healthier lifestyle. So that's whatI'm gonna do, like from this point
four, I don't want to revertback to old patterns of pretending to be
healthy one day and then doing anunhealthy thing by the end of the night.
Like, it doesn't work like that, So you know, expect changes,
(12:39):
I guess. And also being opento change helps a lot when making
decisions because if you're closed off tochange, guess what You're not gonna do
change. You're gonna stay the same. And who wants to stay the same?
If I was the same person Iwas ten years ago, yeah,
(13:00):
we would not be here. Ican tell you that for sure, we
would not be here. And beingopen to change, being open to growth,
has helped me out a lot,because I can't close myself off to
old beliefs, old thinking patterns.Because this is twenty twenty four. You
gotta be open every Happy Pride month, y'all. Yay, anyhow, I'm
(13:24):
gonna get out y'all's hair. Ijust want to come talk to y'all.
Let y'all know what's good and allthat chats anyhow up piece and chicken grease
y'all, And like I always say, don't go fucking up nobody's say,
like I don't care how bad YOday is going, Make it good,
make it better. You better makeit better, Like don't even don't go
(13:46):
fucking Okay, Bye,
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