Episode 002: Still Here, Still Held

In this short episode, I share a real moment of reflection on struggling to stay in the Word, remembering who my Father is, and trusting God even when faith feels small. A reminder that God never leaves us. He’s always been here.

Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey, y'all, I didn't I didn't plan this episode. I
just got our prayer with Pastor Spencer on Instagram Live
and I just felt something shift in me. I just
all it was sudden, felt powerful again. I remembered who
I am, and I felt led to press record. So
because I know I'm not the only one who's been
struggling so lately, it's been hard for me to stay

(00:25):
consistent in the word. But it's it has nothing to
do because it has nothing to do with because I
don't love God or I don't believe, but because life
has been real heavy mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Some days
I knew what I needed to do, but I just
couldn't bring myself to do it. And it seems like

(00:48):
when you were in that place, it's easier to start
feeling like somewhat guilty or distant, like I know God
disappointed in me. But let me tell y'all something. I
had to be reminded, and it was just this morning.
Even when I wasn't consistent, God was Even when I
felt far, he never moved. Even when I was tired,

(01:08):
overwhelmed and struggling, God was still showing up. So God's
been with me through my darkest moments, through the confusion,
through the fear, through the seasons where I didn't even
recognize myself myself, and he's still here. Sometimes we don't
need a new word or or nothing like that. We

(01:29):
just need to remember who we are, who our father is,
and what he's capable of. Y'all. I'm in excited. It
just it just hit me like, oh my God, remember
who you are and who your father is. So this
walk with God isn't about perfection, y'all. Is about trust.
It's about having faith and trusting him when you feel strong,

(01:51):
trusting him when you feel weak, and trusting him even
when your faith feels small, like it's okay, you just
got to you know, when your faith is tilled to
be like, oh Lord, I know, I know you you
got me, but I'm word lift it. You have to.
You have to trust him, y'all. If you can't trust
nobody else here, you can trust God. So even when

(02:12):
it seems a little sketchy and you're kind of nervous,
it's okay, keep on trusting him. So because the Bible
says the faith the size of a muster seed is enough, okay,
And if we all know what the size of a
muster seed is, so just keep that in mind. So
small faiths still mold mountains quiet, They still counts. Uh.

(02:33):
And I'm gonna say this one out faith, It's still faith.
God knows how heart. God knows when we're struggling mentally
and emotionally and we don't have the right support in
our system. We got to stop being so hard on ourself. So, like,
if you've been struggling to stay in the word, or
you feel disconnected or been beating yourself up, then I

(02:54):
want to remind you that God has not left you,
you have not lost your identity, and this season does
not define your relationship with him. Okay, so if he
did it before, he can do it again. If he
carried you, then you'll carry you now. Trust me, I know,
and with our Father on our side, anything is possible.
Sometimes all we need is or remind him. And today

(03:15):
it is yours because I was reminded this morning. So,
like I said, this was just a spur of the
moment episode I wanted to record. I'm not gonna even
go back and listen to it. I don't care if
I stumbled over my words or stuttering I don't care
because I'm excited and I just felt the need to
go ahead and get it out of my system. Okay,
thank y'all so much for tuning in and real quick,

(03:36):
I want to close out with a prayer, just to
pray over y'all and you know, pass this episode along
to somebody else. So, Father God, we thank you for
never leaving us even when we driven, even when we struggle,
even when we fall short. Thank you for being a
constant God and inconsistencies in hallelujah. Thank you for the
grace that meets us where we are and love that

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never runs out. Father God, Strengthen our trusting you our
faith even when they feel small. Remind us of who
we are and whose we are. Okay, for anyone listening
who feels distant, tired, or discourage, covered them right now,
write there, excuse me, Wrap them in your peace, draw
them back gently, not with kills, Father God, but with love.

(04:18):
We choose to trust you, we choose the faith, and
we believe that with you, Father God, all things are possible.
In Jesus' name, Amen,