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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey, y'all, thanks to the end. This is the Fighters
in podcasts. I am your host, Jess Man. Look y'all,
if you haven't already, please make sure you're following the podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:11):
Uh, thank you to the ones who are already following.
Speaker 1 (00:13):
And yeah, so make sure you're following it so when
I post a new episode, you'll get the notification straight
to your phone. So I know it has been so
long with since I've put out an episode, y'all, because
I've really I won't even say I've lost focus. I
would say I've been distracted myself. Like it be small
stuff like when I sit down to like get into
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an episode, my laptop, Michael dead, or the sound card,
maybe the It's like it be small stuff.
Speaker 2 (00:42):
And then I'd be like, well, I do it another day.
Speaker 1 (00:45):
And then the another day came and I let something
else get in the way of me doing it. So
it took my husband saying something today that really gave
me the push to like get back on.
Speaker 2 (00:57):
This whole podcast thing.
Speaker 1 (00:59):
Uh.
Speaker 2 (01:00):
We were just talking about some.
Speaker 1 (01:01):
People on YouTube, you know who started who got podcasts,
cause you everybody got a podcast. But I'm not knocking them,
and you know, I don't know that reason for doing
Some of them got good reasons.
Speaker 2 (01:12):
Some of them doing it just because it's a trending.
Speaker 1 (01:14):
But like I told y'all before, like I wanted something
I could use as an outlet, like instead of having
all their anger built up, I wanted to be able
to release it somewhere, but not in a negative way.
So I feel like I started this podcast as a
healing process, you know, to talk about talk more about
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my traumas or little stuff that bothers me, you know,
talking about it, recording it, putting it out there so
it can encourage somebody else.
Speaker 2 (01:45):
So I won't knock anybody for starting to podcast.
Speaker 1 (01:48):
Everybody, ill, I don't even encourage somebody else. I feel like,
you know, got an interesting story or people want to
hear from you, Like I don't encourage a person to
you know, your podcast, But any who did y'all know,
I'll get all off topic. Well, we was watching some
people on YouTube and uh, this one particular guy. I
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know a lot of people don't even know, but I
was just telling him. I'm like, man, you know, he
give me a lot of inspiration now because his content
is good. He does not have very good content, but
it's the fact that you're consistent with it, Like you
still putting out even though you only getting this many
reviews even though your background and and and and I'm
wrong for this, I'm so wrong. But it's like I'm
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critiquing him, but he's doing more than I'm doing, you
know what I'm saying. It's like I'm sitting over here
in fear of messing up or you know, wherever it
if I'm gonna get so many listeners.
Speaker 2 (02:45):
But then it's like, dang, I see him.
Speaker 1 (02:47):
He's being consistent, He's still putting it out like it
don't matter, because that like that shows me like he's
doing it for personal reason.
Speaker 2 (02:54):
Yeah, he might be getting paid, that's a audition, but
I wish I was getting paid. But any who, he's
getting paid.
Speaker 1 (03:00):
But he also enjoy you know, making the videos even
though his content is just very reported. But and it's
not about that. I see the driving in him and
that kind of gives me motivation. So I mentioned it
to Terry. I was like, you know, like, now all
his content don't even be by there, but you know,
he consistent with it, And I was like, I'm noticing
how he you know, peoping game from other people and
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applying it to his podcast, and you know that may
be working for him, and I saying like he trying
to steal from nobody, but you learn.
Speaker 2 (03:32):
And you know.
Speaker 1 (03:33):
Terry, he cause he act like he didn't had a
podhead before anyway. So he was like, uh, yeah, that
that that's how you gotta do that shit. You gotta
keep you gotta keep putting it out da da dad.
So I was just I may have said some about
like I can't like it be hard for me to
do da.
Speaker 2 (03:50):
So he was like, uh, you don't see you don't
really wanna do it.
Speaker 1 (03:56):
And then I kind of looked at him, like, yes
I do, and he was like, you can't because you
not giving it your time.
Speaker 2 (04:03):
Now the on me, I've got mad. I called a attitude.
Speaker 1 (04:09):
We probably that I probably had some words for him,
but I took that as constructive criticism.
Speaker 2 (04:16):
Why because this person is in the house with me.
Speaker 1 (04:19):
You see the small stuff that I'll put before the podcast.
But y'all, instead of me taking that the wrong way,
I took it as motivation. And I think he knows
that by him responding that way, it was gonna kind
of put that battery in my pack enty d cause
I mean here recording the episode. So it's like, dang,
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it made me realize, like you you lose, you been
distracting yourself like small stuff. Get in there and just record,
and then if you stumble over some words, shit, stumble
over and keep going, you know. And so that's when
I feel like, yeah, so this is where I'm at now, y'all.
So I'm back, and I promise I ain't going to
try my best to be more consistent, like I gotta
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keep you know, even when I get and I can't
even I can't even come pup. I can't even put
it on the kids because then in school now even juicy, y'all,
I finally got hood in daycare, it's been awesome, not
yelling majority of the day. Well okay, so cause I'm
getting out of the topic, I don't have any any distractions
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whatsoever because the kids are in school, Telly leave and
go to work, so it's like I'm here by myself, quiet,
but any other time, it's like I'll find something else
that needs to be done, you know inside, you know,
beside putting this podcast as a priority. Of course, my
kids and my husband a priority. But after that, this
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is something that I want, just something I want to
be prior of, so I'm doing it. So yeah, I
didn't notice the episode was gonna p I I had
a topic I wanted to talk about, but I feel
like the the vibe is.
Speaker 2 (06:01):
Kind of like, you know, I'm talking off the top
of my head.
Speaker 1 (06:04):
So I'm gonna close this book and let's just talk
about this bes that happened the other day with the
nineteen year old going around the city shooting people.
Speaker 2 (06:17):
Y'all.
Speaker 1 (06:17):
They had to be the the scariest little moment of
my life. I won't even say the scary moment of
my life, but that moment was super scary.
Speaker 2 (06:25):
For one.
Speaker 1 (06:26):
When he was out actually really doing all the shooting,
we knew nothing about it.
Speaker 2 (06:31):
It's like I didn't know anything about it. You know.
Speaker 1 (06:35):
That was a scared of time because I have to
go pick my kids up, and you know, my son's
school is in one direction and jazz school is in
a whole, totally different direction. So to know that you
are in the same city with a person that is
going around randomly shooting people. Thank god, I was already
at home safe and I knew nothing about it until
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a brick or Colly, that's my cousin in Mississippi three
hours away. She takes like, y'all at home. I'm like, yeah,
she was like okay, good, I'm like, what going on?
She was like grandt somebody's going around shoot. And initially
I'm like, okay, maybe just on roma. Then she hit
me with the thing from the police department. And I'm like, y'all,
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we all living in such a scary town and and hell,
the world being scary, but it's like the shit is.
Speaker 2 (07:24):
Starting to hit closer to home. And what I mean
by even if.
Speaker 1 (07:28):
We're not directly affected, like okay, he shot those people,
if within our family, so you know, it's like, dang,
it's messed up, but you ain't really directly affected, it
still need to be something, like it has to be something.
And and I think what really touched my heart, y'all
is there. He's nineteen and in tarror. And my brother
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was like, no he you know, he growl, you know
he doing I can't help a And please trust me,
I don't feel sorry for him. I think they need
to put it's dick in the dirt, give him the chill.
Don't get me wrong, the shit he did I can't justify.
Speaker 2 (08:06):
Uh uh a, none of that. It was dead wrong.
You need to pay for what you did.
Speaker 1 (08:12):
But then on the flip side, it's like I feel
sorry for him all that because of.
Speaker 2 (08:20):
You know, like, w what is your story? I mean,
it don't really hold much right now because I know people.
Speaker 1 (08:26):
Like oh, people are putting stuff on mental health and trauma,
and I'm not putting his actions on it.
Speaker 2 (08:33):
I'm not like most I'm not justifying sh nothing that
he did.
Speaker 1 (08:37):
He what he did was so wrong, But because it
was so senseless, I can't help but to think, like,
what's really going through this young w w W?
Speaker 2 (08:49):
Like where did it all go bad for him?
Speaker 1 (08:51):
You? Nineteen and and which? And I'm saying that, like
I should be surprised, but it's like.
Speaker 2 (08:59):
DP, now they still got damn grown like these sixteens
and sixteen. I don't look now, I'm fifteen, don't no.
They so grown up here.
Speaker 1 (09:09):
And I know it's just not only in Mephi's, It's
it's probably everywhere, but it ain't y.
Speaker 2 (09:14):
You don't see a lot of that down there where
I'm from.
Speaker 1 (09:17):
I'm from this real small community, plum grow but real
and and I we used to that.
Speaker 2 (09:24):
Like I felt like, so where I'm from, we.
Speaker 1 (09:27):
Got all these different community around us. They would say, Okay,
plum grows the smallest. Now we're not technically on the map,
but it's a thing plum Gold, Mississick. But down there,
I felt like in school you had plum Gold Arteaers
of Crawford rich some Pine which was slick, kind of
light with Crawford. And then you had those old by
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the rebel, you know, which I felt like they were Columbus,
but you had Crawford Artisier plum Growth.
Speaker 2 (09:56):
I always felt like plum Plum Grove. The kids who
grew up in plumb Rove were just always behind, you know,
not as.
Speaker 1 (10:05):
Far as light, slow or dumb, It's just as far
as like growing up.
Speaker 2 (10:10):
I feel like we grew.
Speaker 1 (10:12):
Up a lot slower than the other communities around us.
So therefore, you know, at nineteen I was I think
I feel like I was the typical nineteen year old.
Speaker 2 (10:24):
You know, even even the guys that went to school
with like them niggas was here.
Speaker 1 (10:28):
Them boys wouldn't go and and and shoot shoot out,
no around the person.
Speaker 2 (10:33):
You know what I'm saying, Like those boys, not all
of them, but you know, most eighteen nineteen year.
Speaker 1 (10:39):
Old they they focused on some some women, some little
two too, So I'm not used to singing these kids
so grown. Even with my step son, he fifteen, and
it's just like when I sit down and talk to him, y'all,
he gives me.
Speaker 2 (10:58):
So much older than his age.
Speaker 1 (11:00):
I know, you fifteen, but why are you giving me
like this seventeen and eighteen year old vibe? Because of course,
at some point in his life he had to grow
up a little faster than other kids his age, which
means you have a lot of you had some some
big responsibilities at fifteen, you know.
Speaker 2 (11:23):
And it's like, I don't know. Part of me wanted to.
Speaker 1 (11:26):
Say, like I feel like a lot of kids be uh,
you know, wibber their childhood, you know, when they are
forced to grow up. But then again, I can't really
say that because people gotta work. But we don't have
that that village like we used to have back in
the day, where you because nobody to watch the kids
and you ain't got to worry about no nobody had
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no other side of the head or even worse, you know,
touching all 'em and shit. So it's like we don't
have it now. So there's a lot of trusts aft
up in the community. You know, people don't wanna genuinely
help you out, even growing even grandparents y'all. Y'all know
these grandparents ain't watching kids like they used to. So
it's like, man, one thing I canna say about Memphis.
These folks up here gonna get some money. They gonna
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get some money. You know. I shot shout out to
all those all the single mothers, because I can I
know it's a lot of work.
Speaker 2 (12:15):
I'm married and it could be a lot of work.
Speaker 1 (12:17):
So I can imagine a single parent, you know, happing
to hold down both roads.
Speaker 2 (12:23):
So my hat's off to you.
Speaker 1 (12:26):
But like I said, one thing about these females, but
people general in Memphis, they're gonna get some money. And
so when you have a mother with kids and she
gotta work, you know, she can't not work. So what
she gotta do. She gotta put a child and daycare. Okay, well,
well the child's school age. You know what I'm saying.
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He gets sick, you gotta miswork. It's it's it's ha
it's hard, it's hard. Uh, I say, hell, it's hard.
Even two parent home and and both parents working. It's
home had so because that mama got the hustle so hard.
Speaker 2 (13:05):
Because that mama got the hustle so hard. You know,
it's like she's working hard to provide for her kids.
Speaker 1 (13:12):
But at the same time, do you know is it's
it's the child getting like the shorthand of the stick,
you know.
Speaker 2 (13:21):
And I mean, in that situation, what do you do?
You know? And I'm not saying, you know, I'm not
knocking nobody for that.
Speaker 1 (13:30):
And going back to the guy who was on the
King's fray up, they start like what they gonna do anytime,
But I'm.
Speaker 2 (13:35):
Just saying, like, it's sad to me that he had to.
Speaker 1 (13:39):
I just feel like, I don't big one notice, man,
But I just feel like because I when he uppeared
in court, I was watching the video and I'm just
studying him because see now he's down off that high
or wherever the hell he was on the night he
decided to do that. But now you then came down
off that high and now I ain't seeing like a
night teen year old. It's like, now you just snapped
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back into reality.
Speaker 2 (14:05):
But I'm not it. It's just like just to need
to been a re tc.
Speaker 1 (14:09):
Tiny piece of my heart and don't feel bad for him,
But I really and truly wanna know what was going
through your mind, you know, So, y'all, i'm'a do a
part two to this. I'm not sure what the tiger
are gonna be, but i'm'a do a part two. So
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