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Speaker 1 (00:00):
A half gallon of a beam and I'm just saying
every single day what I was doing, it's fixed one
on six.
Speaker 2 (00:05):
I can't teara That's.
Speaker 3 (00:06):
How we opened the show at five third this morning
with some lou reed class because today's a big day.
Today's Quinn's eighteenth year. He celebrates sobriety. We only have today,
can't tear ra we only have it today.
Speaker 1 (00:17):
It's funny like I I would see guys that would
come into like you know, when I when I was
brand new, like six months or whatever, and I'd be
going to these meetings trying to figure out what the
hell is going on in my life, and guys would
come in they did twenty five years, twenty six years,
and then they'd come in next week and to be like, yeah,
I lost it, I lost it, I lost it all,
(00:37):
and I'm starting back from scratch, and it'd be welcome.
Then we'd just start all over again.
Speaker 2 (00:41):
At least they showed back up.
Speaker 1 (00:43):
Absolutely. It doesn't always the work like that, but I
mean I used to blow my mind it He'd be
guys would be sober for that long.
Speaker 3 (00:48):
But no, it's like I imagine there's a level of
guilt you feel after blowing twenty five years and coming back.
Speaker 1 (00:55):
And it's funny because the whole thing with and I'm
not pushing aa you guys, do what you want to do.
That's just happened to be like what got me to
the point where I didn't even need to do a anymore?
Might I say that? But it's like people all have
their different bottoms, they all have their different moments, and
whatever yours is is yours. You know, it's yours. It's
(01:19):
as bad as it's going.
Speaker 3 (01:19):
To get for you probably, So with that in mind, Yeah,
why eighteen years ago was eighteen years ago today your bottom?
Speaker 2 (01:25):
Or was it the day.
Speaker 3 (01:26):
Before eighteen years ago?
Speaker 2 (01:29):
In a day where was the bottom?
Speaker 1 (01:30):
It was early today? It was early on today, Yeah,
it was like early. I was staying at my uncle's.
My uncle had a place you know where you know
where they shot those mineseltans over there in Minneapolis. My
uncle had a house over there, and I was staying
in it. It was an empty house, and we had
gotten fired from our job in Rhode Island, and I
(01:51):
was in Minneapolis trying to figure out what they hell
to do in my life.
Speaker 3 (01:54):
And I remember I just I like to say that
they the contract ran out. Yeah, I hate through the
end of the contract.
Speaker 1 (02:01):
I'm sorry, you know. Yeah, maybe well it's it's not
really the point of the spot. Sorry, but you know,
I also had to go to rehab after the first
time we got fired too, So that's, uh, that's something
I got to pay attention to, you know.
Speaker 2 (02:13):
Yeah, that's that'd be a trigger.
Speaker 1 (02:15):
For you, so fired. So what do you want to know? Again?
Speaker 3 (02:19):
So the bottom for you was earlier today, eighteen years ago.
You're your uncle's cat, right.
Speaker 1 (02:24):
So I woke up that morning. I'm in my uncle's
house and I'm lying on a futon on a hardwood floor,
and I've got a bowl next to me because I'd
been vomiting whatever I could put in my mouth that
night before into that bowl because I didn't want to
vomit on his hardwood floors or whatever. Right. And then
I woke up the next day and I was all
out of booze and I had nothing, and I was
starting to get the shakes, which is very common and uh,
(02:45):
and you desperately need to fix that, right, And so
I started then to talk to the bowl of my
own food with killed with beam, right. Oh, And I
would I would threaten it. I'm like, I'm going to
drink you, and that's a bad thing if I do that.
I've gone over a real big lying here.
Speaker 2 (03:00):
But I'm new to you.
Speaker 1 (03:01):
Yeah, I mean, I already kicked back some orange Lilestreen
at one point or another prior to that. It's a
real alcoholic, bro, It's someone who has lost the power
of choice over their drinking. And you have no choice
until you have to tell. You find yourself asking for help.
And so yeah, the second I put that beam vomit
to my mouth, I gave in. I gave up, and
(03:24):
I asked. I asked my grandmother for some help. I said,
what am I going to do?
Speaker 3 (03:28):
Call?
Speaker 1 (03:28):
I made a phone call my grandmother, bless her heart,
and sent the car over to pick me up to
drive me to rehab. They wouldn't even come near me
at this point, my family. They would stay miles away.
They'd be in the same vicinity.
Speaker 2 (03:39):
But they believe you this time.
Speaker 1 (03:41):
Yeah, of course they of course did. This is like
this is also after my mom dropped that one hundred
dollars bill in my chest in the in the hospital
and said, you know, I can't do this. I can't
see you. So I took that car all the way
up to Center City, Minnesota, and I came out of
the thing that got in the car in my bare feet,
and I had a bottle of wine in my hand
that was ready to rock and roll. And I drove
(04:02):
up there. I was drinking of chugging wine, but not
for the enjoyment of the wine or being in a
car time. I'm knowing that I'm going to shake and
I'm going to go through all this awful stuff if
I don't get as much down. And that is powerlessness, man,
that is something that really changes you. And it may
take you five or six times. Some guys take it
thirty times. Some guys never get it.
Speaker 3 (04:22):
I was gonna ask you, how many times did you
go in and as far as.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
How many times did you have to go to rehab
before it's stuck? Right?
Speaker 1 (04:28):
So I went to rehab in two thousand and four.
I went to rehab in two thousand and eight, and
then I went to a second, a third rehab that
was attached to that two thousand and eight rehab out
in Colorado. So I did like months and months and
months of rehab, and that that helped me to get
clean and help me understand what it felt like to
have good things happening and do the next right thing
in my life and make good decisions. And they tell
(04:50):
you a bunch of crap in these meetings, like oh,
the world's gonna come to you, You're gonna get all
these things that they answers to are gonna pop out
of nowhere. You're gonna be blown away. And by God,
is that true? By not sucking booze down my gullet
every single day, crap started to happen. I started to
make good decisions. The money that i'd lost, with all
the with all the rehab money that I had to spend,
(05:13):
everything I had I had to spend to get sober,
I started to make that back. You know. It's like,
oh my god, they're not kidding. I got a job.
Speaker 2 (05:21):
Money came back to you in drone stock.
Speaker 1 (05:22):
Tough it out. He came back to me in his stock.
It was a lot of money, and I lost it
all and about another like a couple of days later,
like it like literally a thirty second drive to work.
It was amazing.
Speaker 3 (05:32):
If you're just joining us, Yeah, we scrapped the feed.
We thought it was an important story. Because it's an
important day. At Quinn celebrated eighteen years sober and we
were talking. We were talking about rock bottoms, like some
of you people were sharing, you guys were sharing on
the on the talk back button.
Speaker 1 (05:45):
The iHeartRadio exactly exactly, So I don't know, I listened.
Speaker 2 (05:49):
What about what about the just for the meetings? Right?
Speaker 3 (05:52):
Because you're not like you're you're your own god person, yes,
but you're accepting your Tryney's help from AA, but you're
also like not a god.
Speaker 1 (06:00):
Guys, right, and think about AA that they do do
if you're not a god person, that you can you
can say, uh, you name anything to be your God.
You could name a door door handle. It has to
be something other than you. You have to not completely
it can be anything. Mine was what they called creative intelligence,
which is like, you know, kind of an answer for
AI and the sky kind of thing. That's but either way,
(06:24):
you know, you're you're gonna bottom, You're gonna have your
problems and if you can make it, then bless your heart,
make it. But you know you might find yourself wandering
around and diapers in the middle of the street as
a grown adult out of work with no place to
stay staying in the American hotel with the last eighty
bucks you have to your name that your mom gave
you when you're on the hospital bed. You know, it
(06:45):
gets ugly.
Speaker 3 (06:46):
That's as honest as it gets, you, guys, that's as
honest as it gets. It's eighteen years is a big number.
Speaker 1 (06:51):
Yeah, it is big.
Speaker 3 (06:52):
You must look back and go, okay, I mean you'll
pack yourself on the back.
Speaker 1 (06:55):
A little bit here.
Speaker 2 (06:55):
It got you.
Speaker 1 (06:56):
You got to do radio again too. You know it's
like all these things weren't that, weren't that? We're gone,
and we're gone. To me, it's great, I really really listen.
I have great memories from rehab too. I've always loved
a good institutional living situation. I love that because it's
it is as raw squares, as real as it gets.
He got the guy across you and with the with
(07:17):
the meth eyes. You got the crack cocaine, you know,
bar owner, you got the Johnny businessman, millionaire whose wife
left him. You know, just straight booze, like I do.
I do. I really liked it. Uh wait, it helps
you really work through it. But you've got to work
through it. And uh look, there's an answer. That's what
they telled me. There's an answer out there.
Speaker 2 (07:38):
Quinno.
Speaker 3 (07:38):
I mean he said it during COVID. He'll say it today.
If you want to take a walk with him, he'll
talk to you.
Speaker 1 (07:43):
I actually, uh went to the bathroom number two once
and it hit the ceiling. I don't know how it
hit the ceiling, and it hit the wall in the ceiling.
That was also in my uncle's house. This is in
the attic of my uncle's house. I think I was
trying to sit down on like a storage box to
go or something like. I know where I was wandering around.
Speaker 2 (08:01):
Technical But was it a pitch roof in the attic?
Speaker 3 (08:04):
You're hitting almost It wasn't pitch troop.
Speaker 2 (08:07):
That's a good point. That's great, that's exactly what.
Speaker 1 (08:11):
But impressive, But only from about two feet on the
wall and up to the ceiling. Nothing on the floor.
Speaker 3 (08:16):
It's a pollock bro a poll It's like, it's just
a lot of balls to share.
Speaker 1 (08:22):
So appreciate that. Sure, people appreciate that. I'm so happy
this way. You have a whole new way to live
and the world changes for you.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Should you share your story?
Speaker 3 (08:31):
Yeah, pass along your message by opening up the free
iHeartRadio app and hitting the talk back.
Speaker 2 (08:34):
But it's that simple.
Speaker 1 (08:35):
Yeah, it's quite can't tear it picks one of six
A half gallon of a beam and I'm just saying
every single day what I was doing, it's fixed one
on six.
Speaker 2 (00:05):
I can't teara That's.
Speaker 3 (00:06):
How we opened the show at five third this morning
with some lou reed class because today's a big day.
Today's Quinn's eighteenth year. He celebrates sobriety. We only have today,
can't tear ra we only have it today.
Speaker 1 (00:17):
It's funny like I I would see guys that would
come into like you know, when I when I was
brand new, like six months or whatever, and I'd be
going to these meetings trying to figure out what the
hell is going on in my life, and guys would
come in they did twenty five years, twenty six years,
and then they'd come in next week and to be like, yeah,
I lost it, I lost it, I lost it all,
(00:37):
and I'm starting back from scratch, and it'd be welcome.
Then we'd just start all over again.
Speaker 2 (00:41):
At least they showed back up.
Speaker 1 (00:43):
Absolutely. It doesn't always the work like that, but I
mean I used to blow my mind it He'd be
guys would be sober for that long.
Speaker 3 (00:48):
But no, it's like I imagine there's a level of
guilt you feel after blowing twenty five years and coming back.
Speaker 1 (00:55):
And it's funny because the whole thing with and I'm
not pushing aa you guys, do what you want to do.
That's just happened to be like what got me to
the point where I didn't even need to do a anymore?
Might I say that? But it's like people all have
their different bottoms, they all have their different moments, and
whatever yours is is yours. You know, it's yours. It's
(01:19):
as bad as it's going.
Speaker 3 (01:19):
To get for you probably, So with that in mind, Yeah,
why eighteen years ago was eighteen years ago today your bottom?
Speaker 2 (01:25):
Or was it the day.
Speaker 3 (01:26):
Before eighteen years ago?
Speaker 2 (01:29):
In a day where was the bottom?
Speaker 1 (01:30):
It was early today? It was early on today, Yeah,
it was like early. I was staying at my uncle's.
My uncle had a place you know where you know
where they shot those mineseltans over there in Minneapolis. My
uncle had a house over there, and I was staying
in it. It was an empty house, and we had
gotten fired from our job in Rhode Island, and I
(01:51):
was in Minneapolis trying to figure out what they hell
to do in my life.
Speaker 3 (01:54):
And I remember I just I like to say that
they the contract ran out. Yeah, I hate through the
end of the contract.
Speaker 1 (02:01):
I'm sorry, you know. Yeah, maybe well it's it's not
really the point of the spot. Sorry, but you know,
I also had to go to rehab after the first
time we got fired too, So that's, uh, that's something
I got to pay attention to, you know.
Speaker 2 (02:13):
Yeah, that's that'd be a trigger.
Speaker 1 (02:15):
For you, so fired. So what do you want to know? Again?
Speaker 3 (02:19):
So the bottom for you was earlier today, eighteen years ago.
You're your uncle's cat, right.
Speaker 1 (02:24):
So I woke up that morning. I'm in my uncle's
house and I'm lying on a futon on a hardwood floor,
and I've got a bowl next to me because I'd
been vomiting whatever I could put in my mouth that
night before into that bowl because I didn't want to
vomit on his hardwood floors or whatever. Right. And then
I woke up the next day and I was all
out of booze and I had nothing, and I was
starting to get the shakes, which is very common and uh,
(02:45):
and you desperately need to fix that, right, And so
I started then to talk to the bowl of my
own food with killed with beam, right. Oh, And I
would I would threaten it. I'm like, I'm going to
drink you, and that's a bad thing if I do that.
I've gone over a real big lying here.
Speaker 2 (03:00):
But I'm new to you.
Speaker 1 (03:01):
Yeah, I mean, I already kicked back some orange Lilestreen
at one point or another prior to that. It's a
real alcoholic, bro, It's someone who has lost the power
of choice over their drinking. And you have no choice
until you have to tell. You find yourself asking for help.
And so yeah, the second I put that beam vomit
to my mouth, I gave in. I gave up, and
(03:24):
I asked. I asked my grandmother for some help. I said,
what am I going to do?
Speaker 3 (03:28):
Call?
Speaker 1 (03:28):
I made a phone call my grandmother, bless her heart,
and sent the car over to pick me up to
drive me to rehab. They wouldn't even come near me
at this point, my family. They would stay miles away.
They'd be in the same vicinity.
Speaker 2 (03:39):
But they believe you this time.
Speaker 1 (03:41):
Yeah, of course they of course did. This is like
this is also after my mom dropped that one hundred
dollars bill in my chest in the in the hospital
and said, you know, I can't do this. I can't
see you. So I took that car all the way
up to Center City, Minnesota, and I came out of
the thing that got in the car in my bare feet,
and I had a bottle of wine in my hand
that was ready to rock and roll. And I drove
(04:02):
up there. I was drinking of chugging wine, but not
for the enjoyment of the wine or being in a
car time. I'm knowing that I'm going to shake and
I'm going to go through all this awful stuff if
I don't get as much down. And that is powerlessness, man,
that is something that really changes you. And it may
take you five or six times. Some guys take it
thirty times. Some guys never get it.
Speaker 3 (04:22):
I was gonna ask you, how many times did you
go in and as far as.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
How many times did you have to go to rehab
before it's stuck? Right?
Speaker 1 (04:28):
So I went to rehab in two thousand and four.
I went to rehab in two thousand and eight, and
then I went to a second, a third rehab that
was attached to that two thousand and eight rehab out
in Colorado. So I did like months and months and
months of rehab, and that that helped me to get
clean and help me understand what it felt like to
have good things happening and do the next right thing
in my life and make good decisions. And they tell
(04:50):
you a bunch of crap in these meetings, like oh,
the world's gonna come to you, You're gonna get all
these things that they answers to are gonna pop out
of nowhere. You're gonna be blown away. And by God,
is that true? By not sucking booze down my gullet
every single day, crap started to happen. I started to
make good decisions. The money that i'd lost, with all
the with all the rehab money that I had to spend,
(05:13):
everything I had I had to spend to get sober,
I started to make that back. You know. It's like,
oh my god, they're not kidding. I got a job.
Speaker 2 (05:21):
Money came back to you in drone stock.
Speaker 1 (05:22):
Tough it out. He came back to me in his stock.
It was a lot of money, and I lost it
all and about another like a couple of days later,
like it like literally a thirty second drive to work.
It was amazing.
Speaker 3 (05:32):
If you're just joining us, Yeah, we scrapped the feed.
We thought it was an important story. Because it's an
important day. At Quinn celebrated eighteen years sober and we
were talking. We were talking about rock bottoms, like some
of you people were sharing, you guys were sharing on
the on the talk back button.
Speaker 1 (05:45):
The iHeartRadio exactly exactly, So I don't know, I listened.
Speaker 2 (05:49):
What about what about the just for the meetings? Right?
Speaker 3 (05:52):
Because you're not like you're you're your own god person, yes,
but you're accepting your Tryney's help from AA, but you're
also like not a god.
Speaker 1 (06:00):
Guys, right, and think about AA that they do do
if you're not a god person, that you can you
can say, uh, you name anything to be your God.
You could name a door door handle. It has to
be something other than you. You have to not completely
it can be anything. Mine was what they called creative intelligence,
which is like, you know, kind of an answer for
AI and the sky kind of thing. That's but either way,
(06:24):
you know, you're you're gonna bottom, You're gonna have your
problems and if you can make it, then bless your heart,
make it. But you know you might find yourself wandering
around and diapers in the middle of the street as
a grown adult out of work with no place to
stay staying in the American hotel with the last eighty
bucks you have to your name that your mom gave
you when you're on the hospital bed. You know, it
(06:45):
gets ugly.
Speaker 3 (06:46):
That's as honest as it gets, you, guys, that's as
honest as it gets. It's eighteen years is a big number.
Speaker 1 (06:51):
Yeah, it is big.
Speaker 3 (06:52):
You must look back and go, okay, I mean you'll
pack yourself on the back.
Speaker 1 (06:55):
A little bit here.
Speaker 2 (06:55):
It got you.
Speaker 1 (06:56):
You got to do radio again too. You know it's
like all these things weren't that, weren't that? We're gone,
and we're gone. To me, it's great, I really really listen.
I have great memories from rehab too. I've always loved
a good institutional living situation. I love that because it's
it is as raw squares, as real as it gets.
He got the guy across you and with the with
(07:17):
the meth eyes. You got the crack cocaine, you know,
bar owner, you got the Johnny businessman, millionaire whose wife
left him. You know, just straight booze, like I do.
I do. I really liked it. Uh wait, it helps
you really work through it. But you've got to work
through it. And uh look, there's an answer. That's what
they telled me. There's an answer out there.
Speaker 2 (07:38):
Quinno.
Speaker 3 (07:38):
I mean he said it during COVID. He'll say it today.
If you want to take a walk with him, he'll
talk to you.
Speaker 1 (07:43):
I actually, uh went to the bathroom number two once
and it hit the ceiling. I don't know how it
hit the ceiling, and it hit the wall in the ceiling.
That was also in my uncle's house. This is in
the attic of my uncle's house. I think I was
trying to sit down on like a storage box to
go or something like. I know where I was wandering around.
Speaker 2 (08:01):
Technical But was it a pitch roof in the attic?
Speaker 3 (08:04):
You're hitting almost It wasn't pitch troop.
Speaker 2 (08:07):
That's a good point. That's great, that's exactly what.
Speaker 1 (08:11):
But impressive, But only from about two feet on the
wall and up to the ceiling. Nothing on the floor.
Speaker 3 (08:16):
It's a pollock bro a poll It's like, it's just
a lot of balls to share.
Speaker 1 (08:22):
So appreciate that. Sure, people appreciate that. I'm so happy
this way. You have a whole new way to live
and the world changes for you.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Should you share your story?
Speaker 3 (08:31):
Yeah, pass along your message by opening up the free
iHeartRadio app and hitting the talk back.
Speaker 2 (08:34):
But it's that simple.
Speaker 1 (08:35):
Yeah, it's quite can't tear it picks one of six
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