March 29, 2026 • 34 mins
Stop adjusting your truth to fit into rooms you were destined to lead.
In this episode, we dive deep into the "Zero Point" of identity—the moment where old patterns have come full circle (or rather, full spiral) and we are forced to confront one question: Do I belong here, or am I still dimming my light to stay?
We explore the transition from the fight-or-flight DNA of our ancestors to the 5D frequency of the heart. This isn't a season of proving your worth or "growing" into your power; it is a season of reclaiming your authority in real time.
In this episode, we discuss:
- The Full Spiral: Why your growth isn't a circle, but a spiral moving toward your highest truth.
- Aries Energy & New Paradigms: Stepping into roles you don't feel "ready" for but know are your truth.
- The 3D to 6D Shift: Moving from material reality and mental static into sovereignty and energetic architecture.
- Authentic Register: Finding the frequency where you no longer have to change your voice to fit in.
- Boundary Reset: Why being "bored" with low-frequency connections is actually a sign of your evolution.
It’s time to stop waiting for a knock on the door. The energy of this moment requires action—building your new identity one brick at a time and refusing to adjust your vibration for anyone who cannot meet you at your level.
"You don’t grow into authority; you stop questioning why you were in the room."
Additional Resources:
Your Vulnerability is Your Strength with Stewart Pearce
Don’t Quit Before the Miracles
Host: Amanda Rieger Green
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Speaker 1 (00:08):
Hi, everyone, it's Amanda Rigo Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions. Man.
We are traveling through March at warp speed and this
year twenty twenty six, and I know sometimes it can
feel energetically or even externally like sludge, because it's it's
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like time goes slowly and then it speeds up, and
it's this interesting convergence of linear time and multi dimensional
diamond that's coming through on a lot of levels.
Speaker 2 (00:40):
Today.
Speaker 1 (00:40):
I want to dive into something that's been a collective
theme that is not only recurring, and it's a personal
theme as well, so it'll touch on you personally for sure,
but collectively we're at an interesting origin point of a
pattern that is shifting, and.
Speaker 2 (01:02):
The energy is so ripe.
Speaker 1 (01:04):
And only going to become more poignant in the weeks ahead.
We're at this origin point in old patterns around identity,
and identity is a huge theme this year for twenty
twenty six on a multitude of levels. Energetically and metaphysically,
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twenty twenty six is a one year. Numerologically, We've got
this huge arees push of energy, arees initiatory stepping into
a new paradigm identity energy, but we're at an origin
point where old patterns have come full circle. And full
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circle is really an old linear way to describe it.
It's like through an entire spiral. Think of it a spiral,
like in your mind right now, Just quiet your mind
for a moment.
Speaker 2 (02:04):
And when I.
Speaker 1 (02:04):
Say full circle, it's like the circle never begins or ends.
It's like the zero the zero point in the frequency
of the number zero in numerology. So the zero is
like this loop that is infinite and never begins or ends.
But when you think of a spiral like a DNA strand,
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you know, or the Fibonacci sequence that occurs naturally in
nature sacred geometry, start thinking in those terms. It's like
we've come through a spiral. Like so it's not full circle,
it's full spiral. Just chew on that and see how
it lands for you. But we're coming to a place
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where identity, wherever your identity or our collective identities have
been distorted, told that we were too much or not enough.
It's like we are being repatterned and redesigned and poised
to come into a deeper vibration of truth and authenticity
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on a human level, humanity and on a personal level.
And it's like people are being positioned right now, including
myself and many people that I know for roles that
they don't feel fully ready for, kind of that imposter
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syndrome energy, right, but on a deeper level that they
know is their truth, Like, wow, I know I'm built
for this. I know I'm designed for this. This is
who I am in my bones and my DNA am,
my being and my identity in this lifetime. But it's
like do I meet the energy of the room, do
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I belong in the room i enter? Or am I
still adjusting my truth to fit in or stay there?
So old identities are starting to fade and we're starting
to build new architecture around our containers and our reality.
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And I know I sound a little esoteric and ungrounded,
and I'm going to ground it into reality and give
you some tangible things to chew on and think about.
But this isn't a time of growing into your authority
or proving your authority. It's a time of not questioning
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your authority. So it's not we're not striving, growing, learning, evolving.
I mean we are in ways, but from an identity perspective,
it's about not questioning our value anymore, where our stories,
our truths, our voice, and reclaiming ourselves in real time
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and this more, I was journaling and writing something in
the community that I've been engaged with the frequency feel,
and it was like things were coming through so poignantly
around identity and the integration of new identity and my
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evolved identity, not trying to fit in an old or
outdated container, and so many moments where I felt like
an impostor or not good enough or valuable enough to
meet the energy of certain rooms and audiences that started
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to fade away. And the way that I see myself
has really been changing, and it's the me that always
was there, not the me that I'm trying to be
or have been growing into. It's that the me that
was always there is there now. And what I've like
back to was when I got into graduate school. I
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went straight to graduate school from college, and the first
seminar I was in, I felt it was a really
small seminar, and the professor was someone who I admired,
respected and was totally intimidated by, and of course also
a little bit like awestruck, just academically, philosophically, intelligence wise.
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He had written books that I knew, and I'd gotten
into this program and it was a pretty it's a
I mean, I have a great master's degree. It was
a pretty prestigious program. But everybody went around the table.
It was a small seminar. There were maybe thirteen of
us in it, and I'm twenty two years old, and
everybody went around the table, introducing themselves and giving a
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little context and background on who they were and why
they were engaging with the Masters of Public Health, which
is what I had, but specifically a focus in health law, bioethics,
and human rights, and so it's very specialized and everybody's
going around the table, and I knew I was supposed
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to be there.
Speaker 2 (07:13):
In my bones.
Speaker 1 (07:14):
It was one of those moments where I knew that
I didn't want to be a doctor. I decided I
wanted a Master of Public Health because I wanted to
touch population health and humanity and people and looking at
us as populations as species, and I didn't want to
practice individual medicine. I'd had all these major quantum leaps
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in my bones and then I find this master's program.
It all the lines, it clicks, I flip and get in,
you know, I get in at twenty two years old.
I mean, it all aligned, and I'm sitting there at
the table in this seminar because I was accepted. You know,
I was accepted into the room. I just didn't quite
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believe in my value yet. But everybody goes around the
table and it's like, I'm the CEO of a pharmaceutical company.
I live in California, but I'm coming out here for
this program because i really want to understand the bioethics
and health law aspects of these big pharma companies and
this and that. And then the next person is a
neurosurgeon that is getting a master's degree, and here's the
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ethical implications in the hospital systems and with neurology and
what brain death is, and that's those are the kind
of topics we were talking about. The next person is
the editor of a law review. The next person is
an attorney that is a health law attorney, and on
and on and on and then it gets to me
and I'm twenty two years old, and I'm like.
Speaker 2 (08:39):
I just graduated from college.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
I was a camp counselor this last summer in North Carolina.
Speaker 2 (08:47):
You know, I felt so.
Speaker 1 (08:50):
Small instead of feeling proud that I was at the
table with people that were older than me, had more wisdom, experience,
maybe more academic prowess and intelligence, or were further along
in the scale whatever I was measuring as far as success,
intelligence identity. At the time, I didn't think I met
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the level. And I had already been told I met
the level to be in the room, but I didn't
believe it. And I remember when it got to me,
I had broken out in hives.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
I was totally red.
Speaker 1 (09:29):
My neck was so red and my chest and I
broken out in hives, and then my voice was just
like huh. I was a camp counselor. After college, I
took a little break. I played out in the woods
with kids for a while, you know, in the Blue
Ridge Mountains in North Carolina. And now I'm here, you know,
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and this is why I want to be here.
Speaker 2 (09:54):
But nobody questioned me.
Speaker 1 (09:58):
And within a week of that, and I've just been
feeling like an impostor, I met this group of women
and well they met me, really they saw me, and
we had just come out of a big class and
this woman came over to me and she's still a
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friend of mine today and we're connected and one of
the smartest women I've ever met, smartest, savviest, quick on
her feet, and she just has reflected back to me.
She said, we were just supposed to know you. We
were supposed to bring you into our fold. And these
women were all like twenty seven to thirty and I'm
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twenty two. But it's like they saw me where I
didn't see myself. I always belonged. I was always a match.
But they brought me into the fold and they really
helped me have the confidence to meet the room during
that couple years of graduate school and succeed and excel
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and work hard and feel more like I belonged. But
it was difficult and it didn't really settle in. But
I put my head down, I did the work. But
I had people that essentially, and I'm going to say
it this way, could love me until I could love myself.
And I wouldn't say that I loved myself or had
any kind of self love or awareness at that point.
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But it was more about saw my capacity, saw my light,
saw my truth, my mojo, what I knew in my
bones before I could see it myself.
Speaker 2 (11:37):
And they bridged that gap for me.
Speaker 1 (11:41):
And then something really interesting happened and I'm sure with
what I'm sharing you can relate to times you've sat
in a room, whether it's in an academic a professional capacity.
There are multiple times where we sit in rooms or
sit amongst people where we feel like fish out of water,
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or we feel that we don't belong or that we're
not capable of or our contribution won't be understood or heard,
and so we don't speak up, or we disengage, we
dismiss ourselves. So I could have easily left the program.
It's not really who I am, It's not in my DNA.
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I mean, I'm a nine attitude, a nine life path born,
and a nine year So it's all about completion. So
there's usually when I start something, I usually follow through.
Doesn't mean that I won't quit or stop or end it,
but it's like I want to follow through. So I
was gonna see it through even though it scared me
to death and it was hard. But there have been
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times where I've quit, or I've exited, or I have
just said screw it all and escaped, right, I mean,
my story of addiction and alcoholism is you know, was
my choice later on in life to escape and say
screw it all essentially, let's just burn down, burn it
all down because it's not worth it, because it feels
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too much. You know, when things feel too much, then
our systems shut down. And for me, you know, I
know what my coping or escaping mechanisms have been, and
choosing to confront those is another part of or layer
of identity and truth. But anyway, when I finished graduate school,
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I had a job offer in Massachusetts, which is where
my grad program was. And it was so expensive to
live in Massachusetts, and I had student loans from graduate school,
and I was already working part time. I worked in
Ann Taylor while I was doing grad school and a practicum,
all the things those couple of years. But I mean
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just paying my rent. I got this job offer from
the state of Massachusetts and was great job. It would
have been a lot of grunt work and a totally
different trajectory from where I would be now, probably professionally,
in a multitude of ways, but who knows, right, all
roads seemed to lead back to the same path, like
the path capital T capital p the identity right, But anyway,
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it was like for a really nominal amount, there is
no way I could have done that job. Probably met
the forty to fifty sixty hour work weeks that were
ahead of me, and paid my rent and my student
loans and my bills, and had any money to you know,
I just couldn't. It was not sustainable. It didn't make sense.
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And I also had a job offer in San Francisco
very much the same, another city where I couldn't afford
to live, but had a job offer that matched my credentials,
my education in the track I thought I was going anyway,
and I ended up moving back to Texas. And here's
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what happened that derailed the heck out of me for
a hot minute, and my identity that I had been
bridging for those past couple of years in terms of
my value and my worth, and knowing that if I
was accepted, it was I was entering a room or
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accepted somewhere that I qualified and I belonged, and that
I didn't have to adjust myself. When I got back
to Texas, it was like I stepped back in time,
and one thing after another happened. First of all, I
couldn't find a job in my field. People would say,
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what the heck is a master of public health? This
is two thousand and five. It wasn't as popular like
a MHA or an MPH, and I had come from
a very charged place academically politically, I mean Massachusetts, for
goodness sakes, especially on the healthcare front with healthcare reform
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and policy and bioethics and health law. I mean, I
was where I was supposed to be, but I couldn't
afford it. So I left, right. I didn't stay that
course I left. I You know, I don't think I quit.
I just made a choice. And I get to Texas
and it was like I stepped back into a timeline
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where couldn't find a job.
Speaker 2 (16:35):
People dismissed.
Speaker 1 (16:37):
I guess some of the confidence I had built academically,
I just ended up in this. I don't know how
to explain it, but I ended up in a place
for a period of time where it really felt like regression.
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I didn't feel recognized. I feel felt like I was
having to dim my prowess, my moxie.
Speaker 2 (17:07):
If that made sense.
Speaker 1 (17:08):
Let me see if I can explain this, because I mean,
I'm originally from Texas and Louisiana, and I get it.
But when I was in Massachusetts, and especially in the
early two thousands, I met women who built up women.
I mean like bad ass, smart, savvy, take no bs women.
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I mean for the first time. New England is a
different energy than Texas at the south. It just is
it was. There was still kind of a DeLint, not
kind of There was a delineation, a difference in culture
and mentality and progression and attitude at the time for me.
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And this is the lens of the early two thousands
and also my early twenties, right conditioning, lots of things,
what was proper, what was improper, And then you get
up to New England and the rules of engagement were different.
Then I come back to Texas and it was more
about formality and it wasn't about women building up women,
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and I one after the other there I didn't have
that same kind of confidence and mojo and camaraderie and
felt seen.
Speaker 2 (18:28):
And it was like I chiseled away at all of.
Speaker 1 (18:36):
The energy and identity that had been strengthening and clarity
of my track and conviction in the direction I was going.
And then it got side railed. And now I know
it got sidetracked or derailed. I said side rail, but
I don't think that's a word. Sorry, but it got sidetracked.
Speaker 2 (19:00):
Because it was.
Speaker 1 (19:00):
It's all like in the divine plan, right. I look
back and all of these things makes sense. But this morning,
when I was typing and writing and thinking about the
energy we're in and this year being a year of
like an origin point of patterns in our identity. Where
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I am in my identity today, where you are, where
we are as a humanity. We are clearing some old DNA,
some energy in our cells, in our cellular memory and
our tissues in our bones that comes from a place
of fight or flight, needing to change our voice, modulate
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our truth, our energy, feel to fit in, whether we
think we're too much or not enough, and something about
that doesn't fit anymore. That we are no longer needing
to question why we are where we are or what
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room we're in. We're starting to know better who we are.
And I hope that in the weeks ahead, as you
see yourself and recognize yourself, you're seeing your value, your voice,
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your truth, and when you hit that authentic note, when
your true voice comes through, your true register, your true note.
And I've talked about this before. First of all, the
vibration or frequency of authenticity. It also makes me think
back to my conversation with Stuart Keearce, who has been
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a voice coach for a very long time, and he's
a very divine human being and just his voice if
you look him up or you listen to that old episode,
will link that one in the show notes, because I
think it would be great right now. Just the vibration
of that conversation alone has a frequency to it, It
has a tone, but you can hear the resonance in
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his voice. I mean, he has a beautiful speaking voice,
is a beautiful orator. He teaches people to speak from
their register. We are coming into a place where we're
learning to speak from our register, and it's becoming clear
not only within ourselves but in the people we interact with.
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But because now whereas I've been able to see energy
for a long time.
Speaker 2 (21:41):
It's one of my gifts.
Speaker 1 (21:42):
I'm an intuitive and I can see energy. I can
read energy. I know energy. It's just part of my
makeup and it's become a working part of my identity.
But other people are starting to see energy too, and
energy in others. And if sometimes seeing is not through
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the eyes, it's through the energy of the fifth dimension,
which is the heart space, Meaning we are moving out
of fourth dimensional energy, which is kind of where emotions
and mental energy get trapped. We move into the heart
space of the fifth dimension, where it's like, oh, I'm
a match to this person, I'm a match to this room,
I'm a match to this energy, and here's how I respond,
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Here's how I engage. Because something flows through you that's
other than. It's like a higher consciousness, a group consciousness
flows through you, and it's other than. But you are
wholly present, or you feel or see where you're misaligned
or where you are not on the same frequency, the
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same page. However, you want to say that as someone
and maybe someone you love, maybe as part of your
family of origin. Maybe it is a best friend you've
had since childhood, and right now y'all are not in
the same frequency. That one keeps coming up a lot
with people where childhood friends that they love and care for.
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It's like, I can't I can't hold this energy. I
had a conversation this week with a twenty one year
old she's a client of mine, and she's a client
of mine's daughter who I get to spend time with her.
I get to support her and be with her on
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this journey at twenty one years old, and so she
blows my mind. But she said some of the most
fascinating self aware stuff at twenty one years old that
I was amazed and astounded by. And she was talking
about someone who she loves and cares for very much,
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a friendship she's had a long time, who actually is
her roommate, and how she said, I love her. I'm
noticing how I carry all of her emotional energy. I
carry her emotions whether she's high or lower, up or down.
I'm the cheerleader, or I take on the heavy emotions.
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I adjust my truth, my authenticity to meet her. And
they've known each other since childhood. They care about each other,
their roommates.
Speaker 2 (24:23):
And she said, I'm.
Speaker 1 (24:25):
Not only exhausted. I said, you're probably angry. She's a
Libra like me, by the way. So I thought this
was very curious, because you know, we've got all this
aris energy, the polarity of libra libra relationships aries, the
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individual finding the balance between the two.
Speaker 2 (24:52):
So I thought this was so astute.
Speaker 1 (24:54):
Of her to say, yeah, even angry. And I said, period,
So you get to start setting boundaries, redefining your voice,
your energy. You get to love her like her, but
you get to reset the tone, you know, and here
are some tools, and here are the things that are
coming through. But what was and doing it with love?
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Meeting her with love? And do you know what that
is right there? Doing it with love, and then restructuring
the container, the dynamic, the relationship. That's the sixth dimension,
that's the architecture, that's the container we're building, so you
get it. The third dimension is like the plane, the
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reality plane, the material world. The fourth dimension is mental
and emotional and it's real staticky in there, and it's
like wires are crossed and it can be a hot mess.
But we're piercing through to other frequencies, which is that
frequency of the heart where everything expands and contracts simultaneously,
and it is infinite, it's mystical, it's transcendent, it's connected,
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it's we are all one whoa. The universe is big,
vast and magical. And then we move into the sixth dimension.
And we've been doing this for a while because we
use the language of sovereignty, agency boundaries, things like that.
We've been working six dimensionally. It's like this architecture, this
virtual reality where we are structuring our identity and our
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energy field to meet our authenticity, which is actually pushing
us into higher dimensions seventh dimensional, eighth dimensional, which have
resonance due and I won't go there now, but I'm
trying to ground this in practically, metaphysically in all the
things we're in, this incredible moment an origin point in
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humanity and in your story. Where you are your identity.
Don't want you to notice within yourself and where you
are in life, the people you're surrounding yourself with, the
relationships you're in, where you physically live, your physical space,
is your identity ringing true on all front or where
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are you redesigning your architecture? Where do you need some
redesign rather than defaulting to an old architecture, an old identity,
trying to build an evolved identity in an old architecture
in an old space. That's not working in this energy
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and this energy takes action, meaning sitting still waiting for
something or someone to knock on your door and change
your life, you know, publishers clearing house or speaking.
Speaker 2 (27:51):
You know, the love of your life to show up
on your doorstep.
Speaker 1 (27:53):
Whatever it is that doesn't, that's not the manifestation of
this innergy. This energy says what is my role and
how do I meet the energy? And sometimes our role
is to listen, like sometimes the action is is stillness.
It's more integration or listening, and we are integrating but
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moving from a cleaner energy in our identity. And one
thing I want to close on, and this is probably
the most awkward of where we are identity wise, is
especially with family, family of origin, where it's like we're
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just disengaged or not or bored with people that don't
meet our energy and people we love or people we
are like biologically.
Speaker 2 (28:47):
Linked to, and it just like and it's not.
Speaker 1 (28:52):
It's like in difference, but not because in difference and
apathy are really dangerous places. They are for me at least,
those are not energies. I want to meet anybody with
or engage with myself because it never leads to anything healthy.
My boredom doesn't because then it goes down a slippery
slope in a multitude of ways. But it's not about
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hate or dislike or disagreement. It's more about, oh, our
frequencies are not on the same page. I get to
love them, I get to see them, I get to interact,
but they're not filling my cub or enriching, enhancing, magnifying
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my energy, my identity. I'm having to adjust it to
meet theirs. And that's the question I encourage you to
ask yourself, and then what can you do to adjust that,
to redesign your architecture, to communicate that, to set your boundaries.
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For me, A lot of time, I'm really warm, I'm
super loving, I'm affectionate. I'm affectionate and personal with people. I'm,
for goodness sakes, i'm a cancer rising. So when people
meet me at first glance, it's warmth. It's the intimacy
of cancer. And it's funny because like behind the scenes,
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I'm like, what, I'm so cold.
Speaker 2 (30:21):
And I'm not cold. I'm joking with you all. I'm not.
Speaker 1 (30:25):
But I can be abrupt, I really can in my
mind and in my energy field. But I am warm
and I am loving. But a lot of times that
warmth and that love has become a coping mechanism or
a way for me to keep the peace rather than
to be clear, direct and to the point. So I
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keep things intimate and warm and too personal maybe rather
than setting some boundaries for myself, because that ends up
overwhelming me and feeling like access is too much, and
then emotionally I get overwhelmed. So look and so I
know my behaviors and so I'm changing.
Speaker 2 (31:07):
I have had to change.
Speaker 1 (31:09):
My mindset and my awareness first, or at least become
aware of it before the change. And then I've had
to alter some of my language. And it's uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable,
it's awkward. So growth identity shifts, coming into higher frequency,
it's awkward, it's uncomfortable. It takes architecture, it takes building,
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it takes one brick at a time. But just know
this that you belong and that wherever you are right now,
that you don't have to adjust your truth to stay there.
You adjust your perspective of yourself and your value. That's
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where your power is. That is where our sovereignty, our
agency are higher frequent sea is right now. So if
you feel like you're having these moments of clarity and
they're not quite sustaining or landing yet, you're not alone,
like it's like they're coming through, but we're learning to
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hold that clarity, hold that truth in higher dimensional capacities.
So it's like sustaining it longer and building it into
our architecture. But we're still going high to low energetically,
and it can feel a little crazy making or really anxious,
really depressive, disillusioning. I've talked about this, So hold the line,
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toe the line. Know that you belong and you matter,
and your authenticity is is really starting to shine through.
How are you believing that and taking part in your
own evolution? Because you taking part is the action and
it spills over into what's happening on an evolutionary and
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revolutionary level for humanity energetically and in reality.
Speaker 2 (33:10):
I promise.
Speaker 1 (33:10):
I promise because I know it and I feel it.
All right, everyone take care, be well. I'm rooting for us.
Thank you so much for listening to Soul Sessions. If
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I appreciate you and your life. Thanks for listening.
Hi, everyone, it's Amanda Rigo Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions. Man.
We are traveling through March at warp speed and this
year twenty twenty six, and I know sometimes it can
feel energetically or even externally like sludge, because it's it's
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like time goes slowly and then it speeds up, and
it's this interesting convergence of linear time and multi dimensional
diamond that's coming through on a lot of levels.
Speaker 2 (00:40):
Today.
Speaker 1 (00:40):
I want to dive into something that's been a collective
theme that is not only recurring, and it's a personal
theme as well, so it'll touch on you personally for sure,
but collectively we're at an interesting origin point of a
pattern that is shifting, and.
Speaker 2 (01:02):
The energy is so ripe.
Speaker 1 (01:04):
And only going to become more poignant in the weeks ahead.
We're at this origin point in old patterns around identity,
and identity is a huge theme this year for twenty
twenty six on a multitude of levels. Energetically and metaphysically,
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twenty twenty six is a one year. Numerologically, We've got
this huge arees push of energy, arees initiatory stepping into
a new paradigm identity energy, but we're at an origin
point where old patterns have come full circle. And full
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circle is really an old linear way to describe it.
It's like through an entire spiral. Think of it a spiral,
like in your mind right now, Just quiet your mind
for a moment.
Speaker 2 (02:04):
And when I.
Speaker 1 (02:04):
Say full circle, it's like the circle never begins or ends.
It's like the zero the zero point in the frequency
of the number zero in numerology. So the zero is
like this loop that is infinite and never begins or ends.
But when you think of a spiral like a DNA strand,
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you know, or the Fibonacci sequence that occurs naturally in
nature sacred geometry, start thinking in those terms. It's like
we've come through a spiral. Like so it's not full circle,
it's full spiral. Just chew on that and see how
it lands for you. But we're coming to a place
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where identity, wherever your identity or our collective identities have
been distorted, told that we were too much or not enough.
It's like we are being repatterned and redesigned and poised
to come into a deeper vibration of truth and authenticity
(03:10):
on a human level, humanity and on a personal level.
And it's like people are being positioned right now, including
myself and many people that I know for roles that
they don't feel fully ready for, kind of that imposter
(03:30):
syndrome energy, right, but on a deeper level that they
know is their truth, Like, wow, I know I'm built
for this. I know I'm designed for this. This is
who I am in my bones and my DNA am,
my being and my identity in this lifetime. But it's
like do I meet the energy of the room, do
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I belong in the room i enter? Or am I
still adjusting my truth to fit in or stay there?
So old identities are starting to fade and we're starting
to build new architecture around our containers and our reality.
(04:12):
And I know I sound a little esoteric and ungrounded,
and I'm going to ground it into reality and give
you some tangible things to chew on and think about.
But this isn't a time of growing into your authority
or proving your authority. It's a time of not questioning
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your authority. So it's not we're not striving, growing, learning, evolving.
I mean we are in ways, but from an identity perspective,
it's about not questioning our value anymore, where our stories,
our truths, our voice, and reclaiming ourselves in real time
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and this more, I was journaling and writing something in
the community that I've been engaged with the frequency feel,
and it was like things were coming through so poignantly
around identity and the integration of new identity and my
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evolved identity, not trying to fit in an old or
outdated container, and so many moments where I felt like
an impostor or not good enough or valuable enough to
meet the energy of certain rooms and audiences that started
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to fade away. And the way that I see myself
has really been changing, and it's the me that always
was there, not the me that I'm trying to be
or have been growing into. It's that the me that
was always there is there now. And what I've like
back to was when I got into graduate school. I
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went straight to graduate school from college, and the first
seminar I was in, I felt it was a really
small seminar, and the professor was someone who I admired,
respected and was totally intimidated by, and of course also
a little bit like awestruck, just academically, philosophically, intelligence wise.
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He had written books that I knew, and I'd gotten
into this program and it was a pretty it's a
I mean, I have a great master's degree. It was
a pretty prestigious program. But everybody went around the table.
It was a small seminar. There were maybe thirteen of
us in it, and I'm twenty two years old, and
everybody went around the table, introducing themselves and giving a
(06:50):
little context and background on who they were and why
they were engaging with the Masters of Public Health, which
is what I had, but specifically a focus in health law, bioethics,
and human rights, and so it's very specialized and everybody's
going around the table, and I knew I was supposed
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to be there.
Speaker 2 (07:13):
In my bones.
Speaker 1 (07:14):
It was one of those moments where I knew that
I didn't want to be a doctor. I decided I
wanted a Master of Public Health because I wanted to
touch population health and humanity and people and looking at
us as populations as species, and I didn't want to
practice individual medicine. I'd had all these major quantum leaps
(07:37):
in my bones and then I find this master's program.
It all the lines, it clicks, I flip and get in,
you know, I get in at twenty two years old.
I mean, it all aligned, and I'm sitting there at
the table in this seminar because I was accepted. You know,
I was accepted into the room. I just didn't quite
(07:59):
believe in my value yet. But everybody goes around the
table and it's like, I'm the CEO of a pharmaceutical company.
I live in California, but I'm coming out here for
this program because i really want to understand the bioethics
and health law aspects of these big pharma companies and
this and that. And then the next person is a
neurosurgeon that is getting a master's degree, and here's the
(08:20):
ethical implications in the hospital systems and with neurology and
what brain death is, and that's those are the kind
of topics we were talking about. The next person is
the editor of a law review. The next person is
an attorney that is a health law attorney, and on
and on and on and then it gets to me
and I'm twenty two years old, and I'm like.
Speaker 2 (08:39):
I just graduated from college.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
I was a camp counselor this last summer in North Carolina.
Speaker 2 (08:47):
You know, I felt so.
Speaker 1 (08:50):
Small instead of feeling proud that I was at the
table with people that were older than me, had more wisdom, experience,
maybe more academic prowess and intelligence, or were further along
in the scale whatever I was measuring as far as success,
intelligence identity. At the time, I didn't think I met
(09:14):
the level. And I had already been told I met
the level to be in the room, but I didn't
believe it. And I remember when it got to me,
I had broken out in hives.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
I was totally red.
Speaker 1 (09:29):
My neck was so red and my chest and I
broken out in hives, and then my voice was just
like huh. I was a camp counselor. After college, I
took a little break. I played out in the woods
with kids for a while, you know, in the Blue
Ridge Mountains in North Carolina. And now I'm here, you know,
(09:51):
and this is why I want to be here.
Speaker 2 (09:54):
But nobody questioned me.
Speaker 1 (09:58):
And within a week of that, and I've just been
feeling like an impostor, I met this group of women
and well they met me, really they saw me, and
we had just come out of a big class and
this woman came over to me and she's still a
(10:18):
friend of mine today and we're connected and one of
the smartest women I've ever met, smartest, savviest, quick on
her feet, and she just has reflected back to me.
She said, we were just supposed to know you. We
were supposed to bring you into our fold. And these
women were all like twenty seven to thirty and I'm
(10:40):
twenty two. But it's like they saw me where I
didn't see myself. I always belonged. I was always a match.
But they brought me into the fold and they really
helped me have the confidence to meet the room during
that couple years of graduate school and succeed and excel
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and work hard and feel more like I belonged. But
it was difficult and it didn't really settle in. But
I put my head down, I did the work. But
I had people that essentially, and I'm going to say
it this way, could love me until I could love myself.
And I wouldn't say that I loved myself or had
any kind of self love or awareness at that point.
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But it was more about saw my capacity, saw my light,
saw my truth, my mojo, what I knew in my
bones before I could see it myself.
Speaker 2 (11:37):
And they bridged that gap for me.
Speaker 1 (11:41):
And then something really interesting happened and I'm sure with
what I'm sharing you can relate to times you've sat
in a room, whether it's in an academic a professional capacity.
There are multiple times where we sit in rooms or
sit amongst people where we feel like fish out of water,
(12:04):
or we feel that we don't belong or that we're
not capable of or our contribution won't be understood or heard,
and so we don't speak up, or we disengage, we
dismiss ourselves. So I could have easily left the program.
It's not really who I am, It's not in my DNA.
(12:28):
I mean, I'm a nine attitude, a nine life path born,
and a nine year So it's all about completion. So
there's usually when I start something, I usually follow through.
Doesn't mean that I won't quit or stop or end it,
but it's like I want to follow through. So I
was gonna see it through even though it scared me
to death and it was hard. But there have been
(12:50):
times where I've quit, or I've exited, or I have
just said screw it all and escaped, right, I mean,
my story of addiction and alcoholism is you know, was
my choice later on in life to escape and say
screw it all essentially, let's just burn down, burn it
all down because it's not worth it, because it feels
(13:13):
too much. You know, when things feel too much, then
our systems shut down. And for me, you know, I
know what my coping or escaping mechanisms have been, and
choosing to confront those is another part of or layer
of identity and truth. But anyway, when I finished graduate school,
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I had a job offer in Massachusetts, which is where
my grad program was. And it was so expensive to
live in Massachusetts, and I had student loans from graduate school,
and I was already working part time. I worked in
Ann Taylor while I was doing grad school and a practicum,
all the things those couple of years. But I mean
(13:55):
just paying my rent. I got this job offer from
the state of Massachusetts and was great job. It would
have been a lot of grunt work and a totally
different trajectory from where I would be now, probably professionally,
in a multitude of ways, but who knows, right, all
roads seemed to lead back to the same path, like
the path capital T capital p the identity right, But anyway,
(14:21):
it was like for a really nominal amount, there is
no way I could have done that job. Probably met
the forty to fifty sixty hour work weeks that were
ahead of me, and paid my rent and my student
loans and my bills, and had any money to you know,
I just couldn't. It was not sustainable. It didn't make sense.
(14:44):
And I also had a job offer in San Francisco
very much the same, another city where I couldn't afford
to live, but had a job offer that matched my credentials,
my education in the track I thought I was going anyway,
and I ended up moving back to Texas. And here's
(15:07):
what happened that derailed the heck out of me for
a hot minute, and my identity that I had been
bridging for those past couple of years in terms of
my value and my worth, and knowing that if I
was accepted, it was I was entering a room or
(15:29):
accepted somewhere that I qualified and I belonged, and that
I didn't have to adjust myself. When I got back
to Texas, it was like I stepped back in time,
and one thing after another happened. First of all, I
couldn't find a job in my field. People would say,
(15:50):
what the heck is a master of public health? This
is two thousand and five. It wasn't as popular like
a MHA or an MPH, and I had come from
a very charged place academically politically, I mean Massachusetts, for
goodness sakes, especially on the healthcare front with healthcare reform
(16:10):
and policy and bioethics and health law. I mean, I
was where I was supposed to be, but I couldn't
afford it. So I left, right. I didn't stay that
course I left. I You know, I don't think I quit.
I just made a choice. And I get to Texas
and it was like I stepped back into a timeline
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where couldn't find a job.
Speaker 2 (16:35):
People dismissed.
Speaker 1 (16:37):
I guess some of the confidence I had built academically,
I just ended up in this. I don't know how
to explain it, but I ended up in a place
for a period of time where it really felt like regression.
(16:57):
I didn't feel recognized. I feel felt like I was
having to dim my prowess, my moxie.
Speaker 2 (17:07):
If that made sense.
Speaker 1 (17:08):
Let me see if I can explain this, because I mean,
I'm originally from Texas and Louisiana, and I get it.
But when I was in Massachusetts, and especially in the
early two thousands, I met women who built up women.
I mean like bad ass, smart, savvy, take no bs women.
(17:35):
I mean for the first time. New England is a
different energy than Texas at the south. It just is
it was. There was still kind of a DeLint, not
kind of There was a delineation, a difference in culture
and mentality and progression and attitude at the time for me.
(17:56):
And this is the lens of the early two thousands
and also my early twenties, right conditioning, lots of things,
what was proper, what was improper, And then you get
up to New England and the rules of engagement were different.
Then I come back to Texas and it was more
about formality and it wasn't about women building up women,
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and I one after the other there I didn't have
that same kind of confidence and mojo and camaraderie and
felt seen.
Speaker 2 (18:28):
And it was like I chiseled away at all of.
Speaker 1 (18:36):
The energy and identity that had been strengthening and clarity
of my track and conviction in the direction I was going.
And then it got side railed. And now I know
it got sidetracked or derailed. I said side rail, but
I don't think that's a word. Sorry, but it got sidetracked.
Speaker 2 (19:00):
Because it was.
Speaker 1 (19:00):
It's all like in the divine plan, right. I look
back and all of these things makes sense. But this morning,
when I was typing and writing and thinking about the
energy we're in and this year being a year of
like an origin point of patterns in our identity. Where
(19:22):
I am in my identity today, where you are, where
we are as a humanity. We are clearing some old DNA,
some energy in our cells, in our cellular memory and
our tissues in our bones that comes from a place
of fight or flight, needing to change our voice, modulate
(19:46):
our truth, our energy, feel to fit in, whether we
think we're too much or not enough, and something about
that doesn't fit anymore. That we are no longer needing
to question why we are where we are or what
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room we're in. We're starting to know better who we are.
And I hope that in the weeks ahead, as you
see yourself and recognize yourself, you're seeing your value, your voice,
(20:28):
your truth, and when you hit that authentic note, when
your true voice comes through, your true register, your true note.
And I've talked about this before. First of all, the
vibration or frequency of authenticity. It also makes me think
back to my conversation with Stuart Keearce, who has been
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a voice coach for a very long time, and he's
a very divine human being and just his voice if
you look him up or you listen to that old episode,
will link that one in the show notes, because I
think it would be great right now. Just the vibration
of that conversation alone has a frequency to it, It
has a tone, but you can hear the resonance in
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his voice. I mean, he has a beautiful speaking voice,
is a beautiful orator. He teaches people to speak from
their register. We are coming into a place where we're
learning to speak from our register, and it's becoming clear
not only within ourselves but in the people we interact with.
(21:36):
But because now whereas I've been able to see energy
for a long time.
Speaker 2 (21:41):
It's one of my gifts.
Speaker 1 (21:42):
I'm an intuitive and I can see energy. I can
read energy. I know energy. It's just part of my
makeup and it's become a working part of my identity.
But other people are starting to see energy too, and
energy in others. And if sometimes seeing is not through
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the eyes, it's through the energy of the fifth dimension,
which is the heart space, Meaning we are moving out
of fourth dimensional energy, which is kind of where emotions
and mental energy get trapped. We move into the heart
space of the fifth dimension, where it's like, oh, I'm
a match to this person, I'm a match to this room,
I'm a match to this energy, and here's how I respond,
(22:27):
Here's how I engage. Because something flows through you that's
other than. It's like a higher consciousness, a group consciousness
flows through you, and it's other than. But you are
wholly present, or you feel or see where you're misaligned
or where you are not on the same frequency, the
(22:48):
same page. However, you want to say that as someone
and maybe someone you love, maybe as part of your
family of origin. Maybe it is a best friend you've
had since childhood, and right now y'all are not in
the same frequency. That one keeps coming up a lot
with people where childhood friends that they love and care for.
(23:10):
It's like, I can't I can't hold this energy. I
had a conversation this week with a twenty one year
old she's a client of mine, and she's a client
of mine's daughter who I get to spend time with her.
I get to support her and be with her on
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this journey at twenty one years old, and so she
blows my mind. But she said some of the most
fascinating self aware stuff at twenty one years old that
I was amazed and astounded by. And she was talking
about someone who she loves and cares for very much,
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a friendship she's had a long time, who actually is
her roommate, and how she said, I love her. I'm
noticing how I carry all of her emotional energy. I
carry her emotions whether she's high or lower, up or down.
I'm the cheerleader, or I take on the heavy emotions.
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I adjust my truth, my authenticity to meet her. And
they've known each other since childhood. They care about each other,
their roommates.
Speaker 2 (24:23):
And she said, I'm.
Speaker 1 (24:25):
Not only exhausted. I said, you're probably angry. She's a
Libra like me, by the way. So I thought this
was very curious, because you know, we've got all this
aris energy, the polarity of libra libra relationships aries, the
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individual finding the balance between the two.
Speaker 2 (24:52):
So I thought this was so astute.
Speaker 1 (24:54):
Of her to say, yeah, even angry. And I said, period,
So you get to start setting boundaries, redefining your voice,
your energy. You get to love her like her, but
you get to reset the tone, you know, and here
are some tools, and here are the things that are
coming through. But what was and doing it with love?
(25:18):
Meeting her with love? And do you know what that
is right there? Doing it with love, and then restructuring
the container, the dynamic, the relationship. That's the sixth dimension,
that's the architecture, that's the container we're building, so you
get it. The third dimension is like the plane, the
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reality plane, the material world. The fourth dimension is mental
and emotional and it's real staticky in there, and it's
like wires are crossed and it can be a hot mess.
But we're piercing through to other frequencies, which is that
frequency of the heart where everything expands and contracts simultaneously,
and it is infinite, it's mystical, it's transcendent, it's connected,
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it's we are all one whoa. The universe is big,
vast and magical. And then we move into the sixth dimension.
And we've been doing this for a while because we
use the language of sovereignty, agency boundaries, things like that.
We've been working six dimensionally. It's like this architecture, this
virtual reality where we are structuring our identity and our
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energy field to meet our authenticity, which is actually pushing
us into higher dimensions seventh dimensional, eighth dimensional, which have
resonance due and I won't go there now, but I'm
trying to ground this in practically, metaphysically in all the
things we're in, this incredible moment an origin point in
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humanity and in your story. Where you are your identity.
Don't want you to notice within yourself and where you
are in life, the people you're surrounding yourself with, the
relationships you're in, where you physically live, your physical space,
is your identity ringing true on all front or where
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are you redesigning your architecture? Where do you need some
redesign rather than defaulting to an old architecture, an old identity,
trying to build an evolved identity in an old architecture
in an old space. That's not working in this energy
(27:37):
and this energy takes action, meaning sitting still waiting for
something or someone to knock on your door and change
your life, you know, publishers clearing house or speaking.
Speaker 2 (27:51):
You know, the love of your life to show up
on your doorstep.
Speaker 1 (27:53):
Whatever it is that doesn't, that's not the manifestation of
this innergy. This energy says what is my role and
how do I meet the energy? And sometimes our role
is to listen, like sometimes the action is is stillness.
It's more integration or listening, and we are integrating but
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moving from a cleaner energy in our identity. And one
thing I want to close on, and this is probably
the most awkward of where we are identity wise, is
especially with family, family of origin, where it's like we're
(28:37):
just disengaged or not or bored with people that don't
meet our energy and people we love or people we
are like biologically.
Speaker 2 (28:47):
Linked to, and it just like and it's not.
Speaker 1 (28:52):
It's like in difference, but not because in difference and
apathy are really dangerous places. They are for me at least,
those are not energies. I want to meet anybody with
or engage with myself because it never leads to anything healthy.
My boredom doesn't because then it goes down a slippery
slope in a multitude of ways. But it's not about
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hate or dislike or disagreement. It's more about, oh, our
frequencies are not on the same page. I get to
love them, I get to see them, I get to interact,
but they're not filling my cub or enriching, enhancing, magnifying
(29:36):
my energy, my identity. I'm having to adjust it to
meet theirs. And that's the question I encourage you to
ask yourself, and then what can you do to adjust that,
to redesign your architecture, to communicate that, to set your boundaries.
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For me, A lot of time, I'm really warm, I'm
super loving, I'm affectionate. I'm affectionate and personal with people. I'm,
for goodness sakes, i'm a cancer rising. So when people
meet me at first glance, it's warmth. It's the intimacy
of cancer. And it's funny because like behind the scenes,
(30:18):
I'm like, what, I'm so cold.
Speaker 2 (30:21):
And I'm not cold. I'm joking with you all. I'm not.
Speaker 1 (30:25):
But I can be abrupt, I really can in my
mind and in my energy field. But I am warm
and I am loving. But a lot of times that
warmth and that love has become a coping mechanism or
a way for me to keep the peace rather than
to be clear, direct and to the point. So I
(30:47):
keep things intimate and warm and too personal maybe rather
than setting some boundaries for myself, because that ends up
overwhelming me and feeling like access is too much, and
then emotionally I get overwhelmed. So look and so I
know my behaviors and so I'm changing.
Speaker 2 (31:07):
I have had to change.
Speaker 1 (31:09):
My mindset and my awareness first, or at least become
aware of it before the change. And then I've had
to alter some of my language. And it's uncomfortable. It's uncomfortable,
it's awkward. So growth identity shifts, coming into higher frequency,
it's awkward, it's uncomfortable. It takes architecture, it takes building,
(31:32):
it takes one brick at a time. But just know
this that you belong and that wherever you are right now,
that you don't have to adjust your truth to stay there.
You adjust your perspective of yourself and your value. That's
(31:53):
where your power is. That is where our sovereignty, our
agency are higher frequent sea is right now. So if
you feel like you're having these moments of clarity and
they're not quite sustaining or landing yet, you're not alone,
like it's like they're coming through, but we're learning to
(32:15):
hold that clarity, hold that truth in higher dimensional capacities.
So it's like sustaining it longer and building it into
our architecture. But we're still going high to low energetically,
and it can feel a little crazy making or really anxious,
really depressive, disillusioning. I've talked about this, So hold the line,
(32:39):
toe the line. Know that you belong and you matter,
and your authenticity is is really starting to shine through.
How are you believing that and taking part in your
own evolution? Because you taking part is the action and
it spills over into what's happening on an evolutionary and
(33:03):
revolutionary level for humanity energetically and in reality.
Speaker 2 (33:10):
I promise.
Speaker 1 (33:10):
I promise because I know it and I feel it.
All right, everyone take care, be well. I'm rooting for us.
Thank you so much for listening to Soul Sessions. If
you've got questions, do not hesitate to reach out. Email
(33:31):
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Speaker 2 (34:02):
I appreciate you and your life. Thanks for listening.
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Kingdom of Fraud
It’s the unlikeliest of criminal partnerships: a devout polygamist from an insular Utah sect joining forces with a shadowy Armenian tycoon from LA. The result - a billion dollar fraud conspiracy. In Kingdom of Fraud, investigative reporter Michele McPhee traces the origins of the extraordinary alliance between Jacob Kingston and Levon Termendzhyan. Together, the two men trigger the largest tax investigation in American history and weave around themselves a web of dirty cops, influential political relationships and transnational money laundering. All this is set against the backdrop of Jacob Kingston’s clan – The Order. A powerful and secretive polygamist organization in Salt Lake City. To whom Jacob is desperate to prove his worth. Kingdom of Fraud is produced by Novel for iHeart Podcasts. For more from Novel, visit https://novel.audio/. You can listen to new episodes of Kingdom of Fraud completely ad-free and 1 week early with an iHeart True Crime+ subscription, available exclusively on Apple Podcasts. Open your Apple Podcasts app, search for “iHeart True Crime+, and subscribe today!