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The testimony, the testimony, the testimony.
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With Paula Briony, the Diva for Christ Day.
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Wattle she tuning every Tuesday and not he's since then.
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The time.
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You are listening to the testimony with Hosts aka Deva
for Christ an In case you don't know what that
stands for, it's the finely inspired vessel appoints it and
anointed for a time.
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Such as this.
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Hey, every Tuesday at nine pm Eastern.
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You don't want to miss on specause that's how come
now now now.
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Yes, yes, yes, praise the Lord.
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Yes I am Paula brion the Diva for Christ. Yes,
we come to you every Tuesday at nine pm Eastern
Standard time just for your listening pleasure and for your
closeness or getting closer to God. Yes, that is an
experience and there's nowhere you can get it like we
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bring it every every Tuesday. We don't do anything as
always without going to the Throne of God, and today
would be no different. We are going to that throne
Father God. I thank you just for allowing me to
see another Tuesday so that I can get the opportunity
to introduce you to the listeners your people. Lord, Father God,
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I thank you for allowing me to be that vessel,
and I find it to be honoring just to be
that for you, Lord.
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Anything for you, anything.
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To build up your kingdom and to let your people
know more and more about you so that they will
be craving the opportunity to get to know you for themselves.
Father God, thank you, we thank you, We thank you
for another time for me to open up my eyes
or today. Lord, that is beautiful. That is a beautiful thing. Again.
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I can't say enough and say thank you enough for
all that you have done and are continuing to do
for me and God's people. Father God, we just asked
all of this. Elevate this show. Do what you need
to do for this show, because this is your platform, Lord,
so you do it as you see fit in your
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precious name above all names. Amen, jens Us, we love
you in the name of Jesus. Yes we will. I'm
just on fire today. I'm on fire today. Oh, we
are so excited on today because we again are gonna
bring you another amazing opportunity to be introduced to my sister,
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a woman of God. She is a wife. She is
a mentor, She is a motivational speaker, she is all that,
a recording artist. She is just that and so much
much more. And I'm telling you you have not been
blessed until you get to understand about this woman. I
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told soon as I met her, I just I'm telling
you Google, God, God, we clicked, we clicked, and it
was just it's just been wonderful ever since. But I
bring to you if my sister's on the line, Crystal Wallace,
if she's in the house, are you in the house.
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Ses, I'm in the house, Sis, what's going on?
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How are you?
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God?
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Bless you, God, bless you?
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And thank you, thank you, Yes, thank you for having me.
I really appreciate it.
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Oh No, you are truly truly blessing us the listeners,
because we're just gonna learn so much about you on tonight.
That is the whole gist of this. And also for
us to take people from their test to their testimony,
and again we would ask that you would show them
just how easy and just how you could just be
about your business, just to be about Daddy's business, which
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is God. Okay, So were going start with the first question,
the question I want to ask you is how did
it begin for you? You are my sister, you're a
woman of God, you're a wife, a motivation vader, and
you are songistress. How did alls begin for you? Oh?
Speaker 1 (05:16):
Goodness? Wow? So do you want to know my testimony
or do you want to know where it began for
me when I started singing?
Speaker 5 (05:27):
Well?
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Where did it begin for you? Some people are doing
a little bit of all of this, so you know,
I can't say where that's at, but I definitely would
like to know, you know, just where you feel that
God just started using you mighty in the different gifts
that He has given you. Because there's just so many
of them. We can't we can't look at the show.
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Ain't long enough? Girl?
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No, no, no. So it started from me, I would say,
when I was about eight years old, I wrote my
first poem. But my mom didn't leave that I wrote it,
and so she made me write in front of her
and she said, well, you know, I guess you did
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write the poem. And so it started with me with poetry.
And then I would say around fourteen, I was like, ooh,
you know, people kept telling me that I could sing.
I didn't believe it, but that's what people said. And
so I was singing in church and I had to
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sing a song and it was really high and I
was like a Mickey Mouster print on man. My voice
was so hot pitched and I said wow. But yeah,
essentially it started with writing. And I still write occasionally,
writing this song that I'm coming out with soon and
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my up and coming project Woo. I wrote the song
I had. There was another lady who did the music. Uh,
she composed the music. That was doctor Gail Johnson. But yeah, yeah,
it started with writing. And also I was told that
I couldn't do both. I had to kick one. So
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I chose naturally, I chose writing, you know, because the
whole idea of Jack of all trades or Jane of
all trades and my keys are a master of men.
But then when I was in my twenties, I said, well,
a monelis use whatever God has given me. So that's
what we're doing. And you was doing it.
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Well, I'm telling you you are really doing it. You
are doing it. You are doing it, and I'm just
so overly blessed, so wonderful to know that poetry brought
you into this thing because it's all about words, right,
It's God's words as well, so it just elevates you
from one plateau to one plateau. And can you give
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me just an idea of when you say poetry and
I know, oh you were writing your own. Do you
have a favorite poem that you can render to the
listeners just a little piece of it or even a title,
just so that they can get a goat and like
look it up if it's something that's been published already,
or even if you have something that you just have
on your head that you like to bless the listeners with.
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Because writing is very important and like they say biblically,
write the vision, make it plain. So what do you feel?
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What poem?
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Or can you attack a poem that you might have
wrote or someone else wrote to how it began for you?
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Oh?
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Putting me on the spot, definitely. I walk into a
room just as cool as you please, and to a
man to follow sands or fall to their knees. Then
they form around me like a hive, one hundred bees.
I say, it's the fire in my eyes and the
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flash of my teeth to swing in my way, and
the joy in my feet. I'm a woman phenomenally phenomenal woman.
That's me. Now, I didn't write that, you know, my
Angelo broke that. Yes, yes, but a.
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Power sens I love it.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
I love it.
Speaker 2 (09:16):
That is that's one of my favorite that that really
is a one of my favorites. And I love me
some maa. So you know you just hit me with
that one. That's a blessing. And you call yourself being
off the fire here, okay, you are there. You was
caught doing this. But I love it. I love it
because it does start well. I was a person that
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loved to write. I used to love to write stories
growing up and I and I just always had a
story attached to something. I wouldn't say I was a poet,
but I always had a story and I could write.
I could write. They tell me write a page, I'll
be writing twelve pages, you know. So being a writer
is like, hey, write that vision naked.
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Plain, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2 (09:55):
And that's that's a beautiful poem that you you chose
because it's power in that poem. And and and as
a woman, it speaks volumes, you know. And and I
can see that that was a form of encouragement, right uh.
And as we always know when it comes down to
the Maya she's on, she's gonna encourage the women of
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God and that and that's uh yeah, without a doubt
because my my other minds is like Rocks still our ride,
so you know that's my thing, you know, with her
as well, So it's like yeah, and it was always
like yeah, I could do this, I can do this.
So definitely I understand great choice, great choices. But let
me ask you a questions in writing, because now you're writing,
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You're you're writing songs, You're you're getting ready to go
in the studio, you're doing all this wonderful stuff with that,
utilizing that because you say you don't do the music yet,
but it's coming, because I thought I was one of
those people that only wrote lyrics too, But God would
have you to elevate and elevate, so I know it's coming.
But the fact that you collabsed with a producer or
a music person on the merit to that where did
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this particular song? Can you introduce us a little bit
to that song via we can't play it, but i'd
love to, you know, have you introduce it or you know,
maybe you just might want to sing a little bit
of it up to you, it's or to you, this
would be the exclusive Paula brionn. Yeah, I mean you're
Paula brion exclusive. It could be just a verse of course,
whatever you choose. But I'd like to hear a little bit.
Speaker 1 (11:22):
Okay, well, okay, let's let's let's backtrack. So I'm going
back in the studio. This particular project is finished. It is,
and it's mixing and mastering phage right now. But this
song is called my Phrase, and yeah I wrote it
and I sung it, but it it came from just
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you know, we all go through and when we go through,
you know, it's you know, what did someone say that
when you experience suffering? And make sure that'll writer and
I would venture and make your singer. You know. Now
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you see it's not like it's just words on a
cage anymore. And also, just before I get to the
song part, to share a little bit about where a
lot of or me saying yes the singing came from,
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I can't I share a little bit about I think
you know the neagh of the so's the testimony? Can
I share a little bit about my testimony without a doubt? Okay, okay.
So essentially this journey for me started some years ago.
So not to get too heavy, but we don't have
to get heavy, because testimonial are real. So it started
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when I was a faulted. I was actually a faulted
by someone considered to be a friend. And with that,
I had a lot of different feelings and emotions, and
you know, I just was in my head a lot,
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and I blamed myself, you know, and I felt a
lot of shame and a lot of guilt, and I
was like, the first thing, I was thinking, well, what's
the church gonna say, you know what people want to think.
And so, you know, it was becoming to be heavy,
too heavy, and I got to a place where I
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said I don't want to live anymore. And I said
it to the Lord. It was just him and I
in my apartment, and I asked God twice to take
my life. I said, I don't want to do it.
I want you to do it. I don't see how
this is gonna be different twenty years from now. This
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will always be my I never wanted this to be
a part of my story. This is not what I'm about,
you know, I'm like and oftentimes when you hear of
these this sexual crimes. Oftentimes not everyone, but oftentimes people
blame the victims. And so what were you, what were
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you wearing? What were you doing? You know the things
that people say, they don't necessarily even mean to say it,
but what they don't even mean for it to come
across the way, it goes right, you know. But it's
just like, you know, I was having all these thoughts
and it was just becoming to be too much. So
I've got it's a guy to take my life from me.
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And I went to sleep, pride myself asleep, walk up.
The next morning. I was still there. The next day.
I've got again, Lord, just take my life. I don't
want it anymore. And and you know, I said, well,
you know, the next day, same thing, cried myself asleep,
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cry myself waking up, and you know, I was still there,
and I said, well, Lord, I don't know what you
want from me? What do you want from me? And
so it was clear as day the Lord was just like,
worship me. And so that's the space that I've been in.
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I'm like, I'm just gonna worship God. And not that
I didn't before, but it got more in depth. It
got more stronger, It got more for real. If I
thought I was not for real before, I definitely for
real now. And I'm not saying that things have turned
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out and their spectacular. You know, still go through trialiship
relations and as a believer, you cannot expect that you're
gonna have this walking them off no lifestyle, it's not possible,
not in this lafe. What you do with the suffering right,
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how you respond to it is what God is after.
Are you crying out to him? I'm not saying don't
be hurt, but be hurt giving it to the Lord.
Crying out to him. You know, he said in his
word that he will will no one will be put
to shame. If you cry out to him, you will
not be put to shame. So crying out to him
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is a good thing. Telling him these things is on
your mind. Those are good things. That's how you start
your healing. And so fast forward now some years later,
marry two children. Life has gone on, but I still
remember that it's still in of me. God is now
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rewrote my story, have a different story, but met God
will change their life. But it's funny because God will
change their life, but he don't always but he don't
change their memory. I still have that memory. I can
tell you exactly what happened that night. I'm not going to,
but I can tell you exactly what happened that night
because I remember, and that's part of the testimony, that's
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part of the worship. You know, Without that memory I can,
I won't be able to worship the same If that
makes sense, you wouldn't worship the same without both memories
that you have. So now again, fast forward, We're in
a place where we are seeking God and finding out
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what is the extent. And it only made sense to
just all out sing right, whatever it is, because it's life,
it's short, and do it for the honor of the Lord.
And what have happened? Is this happens? So yes, yes,
that's what I will say. So I am prepared to
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sing a part of a different song that I didn't write,
but I think absolutely suit my castimony. If I could sing, now, okay,
pull in my house, which I love you, I love
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you too, I love you too. Go says no, suh,
that's not the way in it. Fall makes with God, shine,
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shine makes me a pretty The good happened? Dad? Oh
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there you go?
Speaker 2 (19:40):
Yeah, that's my song though, be greatful who you go
sing that song?
Speaker 1 (19:45):
Sis?
Speaker 2 (19:46):
Yeah, I tell you it. What a what a testimony?
You know?
Speaker 1 (19:51):
Uh?
Speaker 2 (19:52):
And again you know I say this on the show
all the time. We have to go through our test Unfortunately,
that is the way it is. And I feel it
has to be that way, just like you're saying, because
you go through the rough times and it only makes
you appreciate, like you said, you know, the the good
times even more so, like you said, nothing takes away
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those memories. I'm a right rape victim. I definitely understand
where you're going with that. And and I oftentimes I
find it hard to even to be dedicated in relationship
because of things that I've gone through, you know, And
I know you can understand that. Sometimes my my self
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esteem seems so low because I've been in that dark
place and and and it's hard for me to understand
that I am worth it. Sometimes sometimes you just you
do sink into that that rut where you're feeling sorry
for yourself, where you're feeling, you know, like sometimes like
you're even alone. But thank God for for the people
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that pray in the gaps for us. Sometimes I can't
even pray for myself. Sirs, I ain't even on front.
I ain't even front on this line because I'm really
straight to the point, you know what I'm saying. These
people they profess you know, oh yeah, you know, you
know God, you've known for yourself whatever, and you don't
go through none of this.
Speaker 1 (21:17):
Yes we do, listeners, Yes we do.
Speaker 2 (21:20):
We go through these things, and it's a day to day,
minute to minute, second to second movement that we have
to go through just to get to the next level.
In him, It's nothing said it was gonna be easy.
He sure ain't say it was gonna be easy. But
you take one step and then he'll take two.
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And I believe that.
Speaker 2 (21:44):
I believe that just like you're saying, you know, so,
I truly truly understand where you're at, not just because
I experienced it, but I know what it is from
day to day that I have to go through. I
mess up in relationships because of my my myself for
esteem issues. I go through stuff still as an adult,
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still as a woman of God pastoring. Like literally, I
still have things that I still have challenges with, But
it doesn't what I've learned in being in this walk
to day it doesn't take away from who I am.
Saying that I am God's chosen, I am God's child.
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What does that.
Speaker 1 (22:26):
Say to you?
Speaker 2 (22:27):
You know when I say something like that, what does
that mean for you?
Speaker 1 (22:33):
Being God's Yeah, being God's child is someone who is
not is following him. So yeah, calling on the name
of the Lord, following him not perfect, Uh, no one
is perfect, but calling on him and seeking him. And
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I wanted to say something to what you said. So
people don't realize the trauma and the mental beatings you
go through with yourself after something like that has happened,
because you do experience and you'll and the insecurities, but
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the trauma is there. You know, I don't even like
touching them like that. You know, there's something I'll give
no problem, but you know, if it's not myself, I
don't really want you to touch me, just because it just
doesn't make me feel comfortable. Whereas before I wouldn't have cared,
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but now it's you know, in front of me. It's
just like, I don't really want that, But it's the
what if it's you have to fight and battle with
anxiety a lot, you know, especially you know, I just
even when I you know with my boys, super protective
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of my kids. You know, I understand. So you know,
like someone said, oh, my goodness, I love children, and
it was a gentleman, Oh certainly, no goodness, I love children.
I love children. I can't wait until with your sons.
And I'm was like, wait a minute. I had to
take a minute. I'm like, okay, he didn't mean it
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like that. But you know, but what if you you know,
you go into that anxiety anytime you're you're worth that's
anxiety anytime that But besides that, it's just like we
struggle with this so much. But this is the very
thing that God has told us throughout his words. Don't
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be anxious for anything, don't be anxious for him. How
many friends I've been told not to be anxious? How
you know? What did Jesus say? You know how many
of you by worrying, can add even a day or
an hour to your life span? You know? This is
you can't have anything f your life by stressing all
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the stuff you can't control that hasn't even happened yet,
you know. And so I would tell you what helped
me a lot to get through the day to day
was obviously God's word and prayer. But besides that, therapy, exercise,
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getting out of me, going out the house, doing things
that I enjoy doing that absolutely helped me and it
still helps me. So now you sink back into a
dark place. So, yeah, anyone who was listening, if you're
going through things like that or even something similar, or
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just feeling like you're in a bunch having a bunch
of anxiety, you know, talk to somebody about a trained professional. Look,
friends are great, but there's something about having a trained
professional to say, hey, you know what this is, this
and this is that you know, and to listen to
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you and they continue to do that. So your friends
they're listening to you because they like it and they love you.
But after a while, you know, it's not so much
they could say. But you know, yeah, definitely, therapy was
like a big thing to kind of help with a
lot of those that trauma.
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Mm hm yes, it's it's so so real, you know,
especially in the African American community, they don't really gravitate
to therapy. And I admit I I you know, they
never I was one of them that never went to therapy.
I think it was because I was embarrassed I didn't
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know how to come out and talk about this. Like
I said, Thanks be to the Lord, I'm honest enough
to open up and and shed my platform on you know,
things that people haven't haven't known about me on this platform.
And I feel that there's a healing in this that's
you know, that's that that's just how God works, right,
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He would have you to set up a platform where
one's tests take them to their testimony. And and so
I'm walking that journey. I'm still continuing to walk that journey.
Like I said, I I and I truly believe that
most times God will leave that thorn in your side
so that it's a remembrance of where you should not go.
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And just like you said, your children don't have to
tell that story.
Speaker 1 (27:38):
I was very very.
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About my kids and not going to stay at people's
houses and all that kind of craziness of keep sitting
on men's laps. I don't play that. I don't play
none of that, and I still don't. And I truly
thank God for that that experience taught me what not
to do with my own children and and praise God
and not saying that anything can happen in the future
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or whatever in their life. But because of that experience,
I can honestly say that they didn't have that story
to tell as a child, as you hear some people do.
And I praised God for that, you know what I'm saying. So,
so I had to look at the positives in what
that life gave me. And it made it to a
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point where I dated because my husband and we didn't
go make it, you know what I'm saying. So I
was raising a child by myself and then another child
by myself, and they were both females, So that was,
you know, that was it for me. So anytime someone
wanted to get with me, you know, dating, whatever, whatever,
I took it outside my kids was not privy to
the meeting men as my man or my boyfriend. It
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just never went there. And I truly believed that it
was the priority was to.
Speaker 1 (28:49):
Raise my children.
Speaker 2 (28:50):
Right. We go through things, we go through things in life,
and I and I just thank God for a lot
of the test that we go through because they're teachable moments,
and as an educator, that's what we do. Even in
the classroom, it's so much more of an experience when
you give a child a teachable moment something that they
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go home and they and they can live with and
then they bring to the classroom opposed to just you know,
the everyday just you know, chalk and talk type of
type of lesson. It's more rewarding when they can, you know,
just like a child, if you give them a book,
you know, that child's first book is the one that
has the you know, the material on it where they
can feel, they can experience what it is to say, Okay,
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this is war, you know what I'm saying. This is
a button, this is a zipper.
Speaker 4 (29:40):
You know.
Speaker 2 (29:40):
And we oftentimes you know, our first babies, that's what
you know, we bought those kind of books because everything
came into play, you know. And and that's really how
it is in life. And again I'm not saying that
I've you know, I've experienced and I.
Speaker 1 (29:54):
And I've delivered.
Speaker 2 (29:55):
I'm definitely not you know what I'm saying. But but God,
but God, it's a it's a a walk, it's a journey.
It's a slow process. Like I said, minute a minute
second to second. Yes, it you you do so many things,
you know what I'm saying. Uh you you uh sent
me a video of you singing. Uh America. The beautiful.
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I think it was right, and and it just was Yes, yes,
that one. It was just beautiful because you you really
really have such a beautiful and I told you it
was so wonderful to see the man he was looking
at you. If he could have ran into your mouth,
he would have because he was he was just I
ain't never you know, and I ain't gonna lie to y'all.
It was a white guy, I'm telling you, and he
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was just all up in the mouth, you know what
I'm saying that. I mean, it was like, oh my god,
each words you said just made just took it to
a whole nother level. And I laughing because that's the
kind of blessing that God has bestowed upon you.
Speaker 1 (30:56):
Everybody who sings cannot reach.
Speaker 2 (31:00):
Into the depths of people and bring them into your world.
And I just want you to know that that's what
was so welcoming about watching your performance. I will be
so happy when you're so. Do you have like a
date or or an absolute time frame as to when
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your project is going to be finished? Because I am
definitely one that wants to purchase it. I want to
get it, because, like I said, you are so inviting
as the people who heard you sing just a minute ago.
And you can't say that about everybody, says you just
can't say that about everybody. Everybody does not bring you
into their world when they're ministering a song, you know,
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and even when it ain't a song, you know, people
figure you just got to be singing gospel to invoke
that uh personable, that atmosphere so that people come into
your world. It's just what you do. And I just
commend you so much for that performance because it was
amazing to hear you, but it was more amazing to
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see this man's or oring. He would just fall over
the top just watching you and that, and that's beautiful
because in that moment it wasn't He didn't see color.
And we we battle with racism, we battle with presidents,
you know, oftentimes, but when you see a situation like that,
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you can't help but getting golfed in what God had
done beyond the song that you sang. He brought two
entities race wise together under one umbrella. And it was
all about hearing you sing.
Speaker 1 (32:46):
Well, it was all about.
Speaker 2 (32:51):
No, go ahead, go ahead, because I was like, take
you by that.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
I just really was, well, I'll tell you so the song.
I was a little skeptical initially about singing it because
I'm like, you know, as an African American grown up
in this country, you know, just like what are I'm
always thinking of how things come across, and so I
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want to make sure I'm given the right message. But
after doing some research and taking some time to sit
with it, I realized that this song really is a prayer.
It's a patriotic him, God bless America. And so it's
a patriotic him and you are asking God. The writer
of the song said, God bless America, the land that
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I love, stands beside her and guide her uh through
the night or to the night, or through the right
light from above. And he says from the mountains to
the prairies, to the white with palms, and he's God,
bless us, blessed this thing. And so it's like, well,
(34:04):
what do you want God to bless? You want to
Him to bless something that's already blessed or something that's
a mess, because right now I don't know not to
get it at all, But you know, I don't know.
We need all the lessons we can get at this point.
So yes, so what do you want him to do?
(34:25):
It's like, oh, let him stay and us. No, I
want him to bless this. And so when I got
more comfortable with it, then I was able to deliver
it in a way that it would speak to someone
who was listening. And you know, people were coming up
afterwards and just like oh my goodness, goose bumps and
you know that, Oh I never heard it song that way.
(34:45):
So I'm like, you know, it's because I really meant it.
It's because it's you know, I pray and this is
a song of prayer and a nation that I do love,
and I want him to guide us and I want
him to it stands inside us.
Speaker 6 (35:01):
Yeah, definitely, you know.
Speaker 1 (35:05):
Where you are in the world, Yes, on the plane
or in a mountain or.
Speaker 2 (35:10):
In the ocean, yes, yes, mm hmmm yes, no, real,
so real. I mean it. It's like, like like you said,
we don't hear that often write that song.
Speaker 1 (35:23):
You know.
Speaker 2 (35:25):
Yeah, And and like I said, if it ain't the
Star Spangled Banner, it ain't nothing right usually, but that
particular song. Seriously, when I when I opened up that
Lincoln just heard that, I was like wow, and like
you said, so appropriate for a time such as this.
You know, we we need God to intervene.
Speaker 1 (35:44):
We need it.
Speaker 2 (35:47):
And and and what like I said, what a what
I mean, what a choice for you to even send
that uh you know it to me? It just said
me in so many ways. And and like I said,
even through the even through the injustices of that, this
man was in awe. And it wasn't him looking at
you for one thing or another other than the fact that,
(36:10):
like he said, that song ministered to him. That song
did something to him. I mean, it was all of
his expressions and faith. He couldn't stop turning around. He
just had to keep looking at you, you know. And
and and yeah, that that that's God. That's God. That's
the kind of God that we stirred, you know what
I'm saying, And and and and who to known that
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song would be so appropriate once to day? You know,
we never saw this this day coming, did we. I mean,
Trump is just a whole nother animal. I say it,
I'll put it out there, you know, but you know,
but God, but God, but go if you if you
had something, and you've been talking all this time, and
(36:56):
I know sometimes I talk a lot, but I just
want people to understan then, you know, what would you
leave with the listeners on today, with with everything that
you've been through, with all the stuff that's coming up,
the wonderful life that God has bestowed upon you through
the storm, through the test, what would be a word,
(37:18):
a quote, or anything that you would lead to the listeners.
Speaker 1 (37:23):
Oh, if I had to believe something, I would say I
would leave trust God even when it hurts. It is
so very easy to get caught up and whatever we
have going on, and when we're hurt. You know, we
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we treat God the way we treat people, you know,
and either we get angry, we start talking to the person,
or you know, whatever it is. You know, trust God
even when it hurts. You know he has a greater
plan and a bigger purpose. We just can't see it.
And it took me a minute to be able to
(38:12):
come to grips with that. During that whole ordeal, I
was just by God. I know you weren't sleeping when
this happened? Why did this happen? And you know the
person I should have asked him so, because that was
a very honest question. You're not sleeping, you you were
very much awake. Why did this happen? And if not
(38:32):
on him, it's because of sin in the world, because
you live in a city land that these bad things happened.
It's not his fault that that happened. But he has
promised in his words to turn ashes into beat and
he takes the most hard situations, in ugliest situations, and
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he makes them beautiful. And they were me. My beauty
was just saying I yield to you, and people who
knew what happened got to stand by and see that.
And I couldn't tell you how many people have said, oh, wow,
you're so strong, Like, no, I'm not. I found myself
(39:17):
to sleep every night, but you know, but yeah, but
it's because I had to learn to develop the muscle
of trusting him even though it hurt me too. And
that was the biggest lesson that I have learned to date.
Taken him at his word. Either his word is either
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all proof or it's all false, but it can't be both.
So trusting him, taking him at his word even when
it hurts, even when it's not convenient. And to answer
your initial question, my singles should be released day after
m okay, that's in January. So yeah, rocking and very
(40:10):
excited about my praise here.
Speaker 2 (40:12):
Oh man, and long awaited, long awaited, I must say,
it's long overdue, long waited. Well you know what, praise
God that we we would meet under the constraints about
our dear brother Baron Harris and give him a shout
out right now, you know, just for bringing us us together,
(40:34):
yes under it's it's a wonderful, wonderful ministry and and
and you know, just bringing wonderful people together, uh in
in in the music accolades or or like you said,
the uh acting or just all kinds of different platforms.
So I just again blessed God for Baron and and
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and just for you, because from the moment I met you,
there was just this sister, the thing, you know. And
and I tell you, I thank God for that that
relationship that he's now building in us so that we
can do a greater and greater work for him, so
that he, of course can get all the glory. And
(41:14):
I and I just thank you for for being on
this platform, because it just it's so rewarding for for
us as women to come together and knowing that we've
been through the things that we've been through, but we
can still find it not robbery to upperlist God's people
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and be a motivator for them so that they can
too rise up no matter what it looks like out there,
just to set the platform so that they know that
they still have a chance.
Speaker 1 (41:54):
It's not over. It's not over. You know.
Speaker 2 (41:56):
God has still left you here for another day of
another moment, another second for you to make a difference
in someone's life. And every time I do this platform,
I pray that that is what is happening. I'm praying
that people lives are being changed, that they're you know,
and and and from every test that one goes through
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on this platform until their rich testimony, because.
Speaker 1 (42:22):
It ain't over.
Speaker 2 (42:23):
Pry your testimony is still going and and praise God,
you know that will go through with your children, with
your you know, in your your uh marriage, it will
just like you are setting tones every time that you
go and and do ministry and you do the things
that you do uh in life. You know, it's all
(42:46):
it all ties up. And I just really thank you
for you know, being on this platform and offering you know,
to the people, to the listeners, uh, the thing that
you have gone through, you know, because it's it's not easy.
It's not easy to say those things, you know, but
with God, because we know He is the beginning and
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the end. He is that, you know what we need
to just breathe, I should say. You know what I'm
saying on a day to day basis, you know, And
I'm just so blessed that He's chosen you and me
to come together on a time such as this to
do even a bigger work for him. That's what it's about.
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It's ministry building, it's bringing touching lives, you know what
I'm saying. And I just love you, girl, because you're
just wonderful. You're so wonderful and you've been that from
the moment, you know, the moment that you called me
and said can I come on this show? Yes you can, girl,
because you you know, regardless of what you know, we are,
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it's about God. It no matter what we've been through,
it's what we show the people in our deliverance. And
I thank you since, thank you, you know, just for
being all that you've been. And again, you know, I
gotta ask you. You want to shout out anybody, you
want to show somebody some love, and then I'm going
to ask you to give me, give me information. You
(44:13):
can even do that first of how people can reach
out to you, because that's important with this platform, so
that people know that you're reachable and that you you know,
they can come to you if they need to.
Speaker 1 (44:26):
Absolutely, Well, let me start by saying thank you for
having me once again. Uh, there are times when you
meet people who you just automatically stick with. You are
one of those people. There's not many people that you
just automatically just gel with.
Speaker 7 (44:45):
And so I love it, and you love your heart Lord,
and you come across very genuine and you know, see
that is a very forgotten treat that people can have
today because there's people that they're not always very genuine.
Speaker 1 (45:08):
So you come all very genuine and very kind and
just willing to help even if it's not necessarily benefiting you.
And so you know what I'm talking about. So you know, like, hey,
you know, I felt the opportunity SuperFect for you. I
want to fight. You know who does that? That is
just so sweet? And so I just think you are
(45:31):
a ball of encouragement. And who knew that God would
link me up with someone where our trauma would match
and so you know, and then and and just let
me just put a cap on this by saying this
that there are sartistics that show that one in average
few women have been sexually assaulted in the US, But
(45:53):
I would venture to say that the number is higher
because those are the only ones that I've reported, because
not many of them. Yes, all, you know, it's a
very horrible epidemic that's going around in this country, and unfortunately,
because of the way our leader system is, there are
many people who commit these crimes and they're repeated offenders.
(46:18):
That is the one crime when you find the keated
sex offenders typically when you have done it once, they've
done it before. But at the end of the day,
God who sees all and knows all, he knows that
avenges is.
Speaker 2 (46:35):
His and he.
Speaker 1 (46:38):
They didn't get away with it. They just are walking now.
But thank God has a way better than we ever could.
You can find me on Facebook, I'm on TikTok, even Instagram,
k Wallace, Crystal Wallace, Kywaller things as things on TikTok
(47:03):
and Instagram and Crystal Wallace on Thanksbok connect me. You
know you can say that needs that way and I'll
be happy to stop you Listen, you want to book
mere available for that too, But yes, it's just it's
been such a sweet time. And thank you so much
for having me share my testimony.
Speaker 2 (47:24):
Oh always, and this is an open door policy, and
I look forward to bringing you back once you get
your project out, girl, and we're gonna kick it about
your project, yes, and all the good stuff that you're
gonna be doing in that in that season. And I
just thank you for allowing yourself to be a part
of this experience, because that's what it is. It's an
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experience and and just one that will come together just
to uplift and motivate God's people into moving into where
God would have them to be. So I thank you
so much for your test that took you to your
test the morning. It's rich and it's it's so much
value in that. And I just again thank you for
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allowing God to use you for a time such as this.
And I just want to thank Jerry Royce and Positive
Power twenty one for always having me to come back
to this platform. It's been a long time and we've
been doing it strong, and he's he's truly been behind
me just making this platform move and I just so
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thank him and all the listeners that come back every
Tuesday at nine pm. He'still standard time and they don't
have a problem coming back. And to hear my mouth, nonetheless,
that's a beautiful thing because I always like to run
my mouth. Lord, but God finally found away a reason
for the season, a reason.
Speaker 1 (48:46):
To use it and how to use it.
Speaker 2 (48:48):
And I'm just so blessed that is because you know,
it's what I do and he needed it right, you know,
So just bless God that I thank you, my sister,
yes you can't give out out out and yes.
Speaker 1 (49:02):
Yes so to my husband, Charles Wallace, to my church,
Mill Street Church, to the listeners, yeah, thank you so
much for listening and being a part of this time.
Speaker 2 (49:20):
Amen. Amen, and I'm going to have you because we
start with prayer and we end with prayer, so of
course I'm going to give you the platform to pray.
Speaker 1 (49:29):
If you wouldn't mind, Oh I wouldn't mind. So thank
you Lord for bringing us together Lord tonight, and thank
you that you are very real. We may have real
problems and you're a very real God. Thank you that
nothing is out of your scope. You see all, and
you know all, and you are you care for us.
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So thank you for your provision. Thank you for the
breast and our lung to worship you and to serve you. God,
give a strength for our journeys. God, give us the
grace to endure whatever it is we're facing. So, if
there's someone that is going through a hard time, Father
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with you, remind them of your presence, remind them of
who you are in their lives. Well, God, cause them
to you, to You and to seek You God, and
to cry out to you. Lord. Thank you for my
sister Paula. Lord, and thank you for her ministry with
the station.
Speaker 5 (50:36):
Lord.
Speaker 1 (50:36):
I pray that you will multiply it and bless it
and her, Oh God, for the work that she is doing.
Oh God, that you are enabling her to do. Lord,
You enable us to care for one another. You enable
us to love you, and we thank you for it. God,
And would you send us out with your perfection and
your guidance and your law. And we ask you sing
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you say.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
Amen, Amen, Thank you sirs. God, bless you, God, bless you.
Speaker 1 (51:05):
Listeners.
Speaker 2 (51:06):
You have been blessed by my girl, Crystal Wilads. I'm
telling you what a wonderful, wonderful interview. Thank you so
much again. Come back next Tuesday, and now I'm here
in Eastern Standard time so that we can share some
more time and so much, some more motivational time. And
I'm blifting and just inspiring atmospheres. And and I just
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again thank you Lord for all that you do for us. Girl.
I love you, God bless all.
Speaker 1 (51:36):
Right.
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Speaker 6 (01:38):
Yes, yes, yes, praise the Lord.
Speaker 2 (01:41):
Yes I am Paula brion the Diva for Christ. Yes,
we come to you every Tuesday at nine pm Eastern
Standard time just for your listening pleasure and for your
closeness or getting closer to God. Yes, that is an
experience and there's nowhere you can get it like we
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bring it every every Tuesday. We don't do anything as
always without going to the Throne of God, and today
would be no different. We are going to that throne
Father God. I thank you just for allowing me to
see another Tuesday so that I can get the opportunity
to introduce you to the listeners your people. Lord, Father God,
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I thank you for allowing me to be that vessel,
and I find it to be honoring just to be
that for you, Lord.
Speaker 1 (02:36):
Anything for you, anything.
Speaker 2 (02:38):
To build up your kingdom and to let your people
know more and more about you so that they will
be craving the opportunity to get to know you for themselves.
Father God, thank you, we thank you, We thank you
for another time for me to open up my eyes
or today. Lord, that is beautiful. That is a beautiful thing. Again.
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I can't say enough and say thank you enough for
all that you have done and are continuing to do
for me and God's people. Father God, we just asked
all of this. Elevate this show. Do what you need
to do for this show, because this is your platform, Lord,
so you do it as you see fit in your
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precious name above all names. Amen, jens Us, we love
you in the name of Jesus. Yes we will. I'm
just on fire today. I'm on fire today. Oh, we
are so excited on today because we again are gonna
bring you another amazing opportunity to be introduced to my sister,
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a woman of God. She is a wife. She is
a mentor, She is a motivational speaker, she is all that,
a recording artist. She is just that and so much
much more. And I'm telling you you have not been
blessed until you get to understand about this woman. I
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told soon as I met her, I just I'm telling
you Google, God, God, we clicked, we clicked, and it
was just it's just been wonderful ever since. But I
bring to you if my sister's on the line, Crystal Wallace,
if she's in the house, are you in the house.
Speaker 1 (04:20):
Ses, I'm in the house, Sis, what's going on?
Speaker 2 (04:26):
How are you?
Speaker 1 (04:26):
God?
Speaker 2 (04:27):
Bless you, God, bless you?
Speaker 1 (04:30):
And thank you, thank you, Yes, thank you for having me.
I really appreciate it.
Speaker 2 (04:36):
Oh No, you are truly truly blessing us the listeners,
because we're just gonna learn so much about you on tonight.
That is the whole gist of this. And also for
us to take people from their test to their testimony,
and again we would ask that you would show them
just how easy and just how you could just be
about your business, just to be about Daddy's business, which
(04:58):
is God. Okay, So were going start with the first question,
the question I want to ask you is how did
it begin for you? You are my sister, you're a
woman of God, you're a wife, a motivation vader, and
you are songistress. How did alls begin for you? Oh?
Speaker 1 (05:16):
Goodness? Wow? So do you want to know my testimony
or do you want to know where it began for
me when I started singing?
Speaker 5 (05:27):
Well?
Speaker 2 (05:27):
Where did it begin for you? Some people are doing
a little bit of all of this, so you know,
I can't say where that's at, but I definitely would
like to know, you know, just where you feel that
God just started using you mighty in the different gifts
that He has given you. Because there's just so many
of them. We can't we can't look at the show.
(05:48):
Ain't long enough? Girl?
Speaker 1 (05:49):
No, no, no. So it started from me, I would say,
when I was about eight years old, I wrote my
first poem. But my mom didn't leave that I wrote it,
and so she made me write in front of her
and she said, well, you know, I guess you did
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write the poem. And so it started with me with poetry.
And then I would say around fourteen, I was like, ooh,
you know, people kept telling me that I could sing.
I didn't believe it, but that's what people said. And
so I was singing in church and I had to
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sing a song and it was really high and I
was like a Mickey Mouster print on man. My voice
was so hot pitched and I said wow. But yeah,
essentially it started with writing. And I still write occasionally,
writing this song that I'm coming out with soon and
(06:50):
my up and coming project Woo. I wrote the song
I had. There was another lady who did the music. Uh,
she composed the music. That was doctor Gail Johnson. But yeah, yeah,
it started with writing. And also I was told that
I couldn't do both. I had to kick one. So
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I chose naturally, I chose writing, you know, because the
whole idea of Jack of all trades or Jane of
all trades and my keys are a master of men.
But then when I was in my twenties, I said, well,
a monelis use whatever God has given me. So that's
what we're doing. And you was doing it.
Speaker 2 (07:34):
Well, I'm telling you you are really doing it. You
are doing it. You are doing it, and I'm just
so overly blessed, so wonderful to know that poetry brought
you into this thing because it's all about words, right,
It's God's words as well, so it just elevates you
from one plateau to one plateau. And can you give
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me just an idea of when you say poetry and
I know, oh you were writing your own. Do you
have a favorite poem that you can render to the
listeners just a little piece of it or even a title,
just so that they can get a goat and like
look it up if it's something that's been published already,
or even if you have something that you just have
on your head that you like to bless the listeners with.
(08:19):
Because writing is very important and like they say biblically,
write the vision, make it plain. So what do you feel?
Speaker 1 (08:27):
What poem?
Speaker 2 (08:28):
Or can you attack a poem that you might have
wrote or someone else wrote to how it began for you?
Speaker 5 (08:36):
Oh?
Speaker 1 (08:37):
Putting me on the spot, definitely. I walk into a
room just as cool as you please, and to a
man to follow sands or fall to their knees. Then
they form around me like a hive, one hundred bees.
I say, it's the fire in my eyes and the
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flash of my teeth to swing in my way, and
the joy in my feet. I'm a woman phenomenally phenomenal woman.
That's me. Now, I didn't write that, you know, my
Angelo broke that. Yes, yes, but a.
Speaker 2 (09:13):
Power sens I love it.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
I love it.
Speaker 2 (09:16):
That is that's one of my favorite that that really
is a one of my favorites. And I love me
some maa. So you know you just hit me with
that one. That's a blessing. And you call yourself being
off the fire here, okay, you are there. You was
caught doing this. But I love it. I love it
because it does start well. I was a person that
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loved to write. I used to love to write stories
growing up and I and I just always had a
story attached to something. I wouldn't say I was a poet,
but I always had a story and I could write.
I could write. They tell me write a page, I'll
be writing twelve pages, you know. So being a writer
is like, hey, write that vision naked.
Speaker 1 (09:54):
Plain, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2 (09:55):
And that's that's a beautiful poem that you you chose
because it's power in that poem. And and and as
a woman, it speaks volumes, you know. And and I
can see that that was a form of encouragement, right uh.
And as we always know when it comes down to
the Maya she's on, she's gonna encourage the women of
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God and that and that's uh yeah, without a doubt
because my my other minds is like Rocks still our ride,
so you know that's my thing, you know, with her
as well, So it's like yeah, and it was always
like yeah, I could do this, I can do this.
So definitely I understand great choice, great choices. But let
me ask you a questions in writing, because now you're writing,
(10:37):
You're you're writing songs, You're you're getting ready to go
in the studio, you're doing all this wonderful stuff with that,
utilizing that because you say you don't do the music yet,
but it's coming, because I thought I was one of
those people that only wrote lyrics too, But God would
have you to elevate and elevate, so I know it's coming.
But the fact that you collabsed with a producer or
a music person on the merit to that where did
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this particular song? Can you introduce us a little bit
to that song via we can't play it, but i'd
love to, you know, have you introduce it or you know,
maybe you just might want to sing a little bit
of it up to you, it's or to you, this
would be the exclusive Paula brionn. Yeah, I mean you're
Paula brion exclusive. It could be just a verse of course,
whatever you choose. But I'd like to hear a little bit.
Speaker 1 (11:22):
Okay, well, okay, let's let's let's backtrack. So I'm going
back in the studio. This particular project is finished. It is,
and it's mixing and mastering phage right now. But this
song is called my Phrase, and yeah I wrote it
and I sung it, but it it came from just
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you know, we all go through and when we go through,
you know, it's you know, what did someone say that
when you experience suffering? And make sure that'll writer and
I would venture and make your singer. You know. Now
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you see it's not like it's just words on a
cage anymore. And also, just before I get to the
song part, to share a little bit about where a
lot of or me saying yes the singing came from,
(12:29):
I can't I share a little bit about I think
you know the neagh of the so's the testimony? Can
I share a little bit about my testimony without a doubt? Okay, okay.
So essentially this journey for me started some years ago.
So not to get too heavy, but we don't have
to get heavy, because testimonial are real. So it started
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when I was a faulted. I was actually a faulted
by someone considered to be a friend. And with that,
I had a lot of different feelings and emotions, and
you know, I just was in my head a lot,
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and I blamed myself, you know, and I felt a
lot of shame and a lot of guilt, and I
was like, the first thing, I was thinking, well, what's
the church gonna say, you know what people want to think.
And so, you know, it was becoming to be heavy,
too heavy, and I got to a place where I
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said I don't want to live anymore. And I said
it to the Lord. It was just him and I
in my apartment, and I asked God twice to take
my life. I said, I don't want to do it.
I want you to do it. I don't see how
this is gonna be different twenty years from now. This
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will always be my I never wanted this to be
a part of my story. This is not what I'm about,
you know, I'm like and oftentimes when you hear of
these this sexual crimes. Oftentimes not everyone, but oftentimes people
blame the victims. And so what were you, what were
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you wearing? What were you doing? You know the things
that people say, they don't necessarily even mean to say it,
but what they don't even mean for it to come
across the way, it goes right, you know. But it's
just like, you know, I was having all these thoughts
and it was just becoming to be too much. So
I've got it's a guy to take my life from me.
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And I went to sleep, pride myself asleep, walk up.
The next morning. I was still there. The next day.
I've got again, Lord, just take my life. I don't
want it anymore. And and you know, I said, well,
you know, the next day, same thing, cried myself asleep,
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cry myself waking up, and you know, I was still there,
and I said, well, Lord, I don't know what you
want from me? What do you want from me? And
so it was clear as day the Lord was just like,
worship me. And so that's the space that I've been in.
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I'm like, I'm just gonna worship God. And not that
I didn't before, but it got more in depth. It
got more stronger, It got more for real. If I
thought I was not for real before, I definitely for
real now. And I'm not saying that things have turned
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out and their spectacular. You know, still go through trialiship
relations and as a believer, you cannot expect that you're
gonna have this walking them off no lifestyle, it's not possible,
not in this lafe. What you do with the suffering right,
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how you respond to it is what God is after.
Are you crying out to him? I'm not saying don't
be hurt, but be hurt giving it to the Lord.
Crying out to him. You know, he said in his
word that he will will no one will be put
to shame. If you cry out to him, you will
not be put to shame. So crying out to him
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is a good thing. Telling him these things is on
your mind. Those are good things. That's how you start
your healing. And so fast forward now some years later,
marry two children. Life has gone on, but I still
remember that it's still in of me. God is now
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rewrote my story, have a different story, but met God
will change their life. But it's funny because God will
change their life, but he don't always but he don't
change their memory. I still have that memory. I can
tell you exactly what happened that night. I'm not going to,
but I can tell you exactly what happened that night
because I remember, and that's part of the testimony, that's
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part of the worship. You know, Without that memory I can,
I won't be able to worship the same If that
makes sense, you wouldn't worship the same without both memories
that you have. So now again, fast forward, We're in
a place where we are seeking God and finding out
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what is the extent. And it only made sense to
just all out sing right, whatever it is, because it's life,
it's short, and do it for the honor of the Lord.
And what have happened? Is this happens? So yes, yes,
that's what I will say. So I am prepared to
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sing a part of a different song that I didn't write,
but I think absolutely suit my castimony. If I could sing, now, okay,
pull in my house, which I love you, I love
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you too, I love you too. Go says no, suh,
that's not the way in it. Fall makes with God, shine,
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shine makes me a pretty The good happened? Dad? Oh
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there you go?
Speaker 2 (19:40):
Yeah, that's my song though, be greatful who you go
sing that song?
Speaker 1 (19:45):
Sis?
Speaker 2 (19:46):
Yeah, I tell you it. What a what a testimony?
You know?
Speaker 1 (19:51):
Uh?
Speaker 2 (19:52):
And again you know I say this on the show
all the time. We have to go through our test Unfortunately,
that is the way it is. And I feel it
has to be that way, just like you're saying, because
you go through the rough times and it only makes
you appreciate, like you said, you know, the the good
times even more so, like you said, nothing takes away
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those memories. I'm a right rape victim. I definitely understand
where you're going with that. And and I oftentimes I
find it hard to even to be dedicated in relationship
because of things that I've gone through, you know, And
I know you can understand that. Sometimes my my self
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esteem seems so low because I've been in that dark
place and and and it's hard for me to understand
that I am worth it. Sometimes sometimes you just you
do sink into that that rut where you're feeling sorry
for yourself, where you're feeling, you know, like sometimes like
you're even alone. But thank God for for the people
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that pray in the gaps for us. Sometimes I can't
even pray for myself. Sirs, I ain't even on front.
I ain't even front on this line because I'm really
straight to the point, you know what I'm saying. These
people they profess you know, oh yeah, you know, you
know God, you've known for yourself whatever, and you don't
go through none of this.
Speaker 1 (21:17):
Yes we do, listeners, Yes we do.
Speaker 2 (21:20):
We go through these things, and it's a day to day,
minute to minute, second to second movement that we have
to go through just to get to the next level.
In him, It's nothing said it was gonna be easy.
He sure ain't say it was gonna be easy. But
you take one step and then he'll take two.
Speaker 1 (21:42):
And I believe that.
Speaker 2 (21:44):
I believe that just like you're saying, you know, so,
I truly truly understand where you're at, not just because
I experienced it, but I know what it is from
day to day that I have to go through. I
mess up in relationships because of my my myself for
esteem issues. I go through stuff still as an adult,
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still as a woman of God pastoring. Like literally, I
still have things that I still have challenges with, But
it doesn't what I've learned in being in this walk
to day it doesn't take away from who I am.
Saying that I am God's chosen, I am God's child.
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What does that.
Speaker 1 (22:26):
Say to you?
Speaker 2 (22:27):
You know when I say something like that, what does
that mean for you?
Speaker 1 (22:33):
Being God's Yeah, being God's child is someone who is
not is following him. So yeah, calling on the name
of the Lord, following him not perfect, Uh, no one
is perfect, but calling on him and seeking him. And
(22:57):
I wanted to say something to what you said. So
people don't realize the trauma and the mental beatings you
go through with yourself after something like that has happened,
because you do experience and you'll and the insecurities, but
(23:18):
the trauma is there. You know, I don't even like
touching them like that. You know, there's something I'll give
no problem, but you know, if it's not myself, I
don't really want you to touch me, just because it just
doesn't make me feel comfortable. Whereas before I wouldn't have cared,
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but now it's you know, in front of me. It's
just like, I don't really want that, But it's the
what if it's you have to fight and battle with
anxiety a lot, you know, especially you know, I just
even when I you know with my boys, super protective
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of my kids. You know, I understand. So you know,
like someone said, oh, my goodness, I love children, and
it was a gentleman, Oh certainly, no goodness, I love children.
I love children. I can't wait until with your sons.
And I'm was like, wait a minute. I had to
take a minute. I'm like, okay, he didn't mean it
(24:24):
like that. But you know, but what if you you know,
you go into that anxiety anytime you're you're worth that's
anxiety anytime that But besides that, it's just like we
struggle with this so much. But this is the very
thing that God has told us throughout his words. Don't
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be anxious for anything, don't be anxious for him. How
many friends I've been told not to be anxious? How
you know? What did Jesus say? You know how many
of you by worrying, can add even a day or
an hour to your life span? You know? This is
you can't have anything f your life by stressing all
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the stuff you can't control that hasn't even happened yet,
you know. And so I would tell you what helped
me a lot to get through the day to day
was obviously God's word and prayer. But besides that, therapy, exercise,
(25:30):
getting out of me, going out the house, doing things
that I enjoy doing that absolutely helped me and it
still helps me. So now you sink back into a
dark place. So, yeah, anyone who was listening, if you're
going through things like that or even something similar, or
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just feeling like you're in a bunch having a bunch
of anxiety, you know, talk to somebody about a trained professional. Look,
friends are great, but there's something about having a trained
professional to say, hey, you know what this is, this
and this is that you know, and to listen to
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you and they continue to do that. So your friends
they're listening to you because they like it and they love you.
But after a while, you know, it's not so much
they could say. But you know, yeah, definitely, therapy was
like a big thing to kind of help with a
lot of those that trauma.
Speaker 2 (26:29):
Mm hm yes, it's it's so so real, you know,
especially in the African American community, they don't really gravitate
to therapy. And I admit I I you know, they
never I was one of them that never went to therapy.
I think it was because I was embarrassed I didn't
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know how to come out and talk about this. Like
I said, Thanks be to the Lord, I'm honest enough
to open up and and shed my platform on you know,
things that people haven't haven't known about me on this platform.
And I feel that there's a healing in this that's
you know, that's that that's just how God works, right,
(27:10):
He would have you to set up a platform where
one's tests take them to their testimony. And and so
I'm walking that journey. I'm still continuing to walk that journey.
Like I said, I I and I truly believe that
most times God will leave that thorn in your side
so that it's a remembrance of where you should not go.
(27:32):
And just like you said, your children don't have to
tell that story.
Speaker 1 (27:38):
I was very very.
Speaker 2 (27:40):
About my kids and not going to stay at people's
houses and all that kind of craziness of keep sitting
on men's laps. I don't play that. I don't play
none of that, and I still don't. And I truly
thank God for that that experience taught me what not
to do with my own children and and praise God
and not saying that anything can happen in the future
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or whatever in their life. But because of that experience,
I can honestly say that they didn't have that story
to tell as a child, as you hear some people do.
And I praised God for that, you know what I'm saying. So,
so I had to look at the positives in what
that life gave me. And it made it to a
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point where I dated because my husband and we didn't
go make it, you know what I'm saying. So I
was raising a child by myself and then another child
by myself, and they were both females, So that was,
you know, that was it for me. So anytime someone
wanted to get with me, you know, dating, whatever, whatever,
I took it outside my kids was not privy to
the meeting men as my man or my boyfriend. It
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just never went there. And I truly believed that it
was the priority was to.
Speaker 1 (28:49):
Raise my children.
Speaker 2 (28:50):
Right. We go through things, we go through things in life,
and I and I just thank God for a lot
of the test that we go through because they're teachable moments,
and as an educator, that's what we do. Even in
the classroom, it's so much more of an experience when
you give a child a teachable moment something that they
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go home and they and they can live with and
then they bring to the classroom opposed to just you know,
the everyday just you know, chalk and talk type of
type of lesson. It's more rewarding when they can, you know,
just like a child, if you give them a book,
you know, that child's first book is the one that
has the you know, the material on it where they
can feel, they can experience what it is to say, Okay,
(29:36):
this is war, you know what I'm saying. This is
a button, this is a zipper.
Speaker 4 (29:40):
You know.
Speaker 2 (29:40):
And we oftentimes you know, our first babies, that's what
you know, we bought those kind of books because everything
came into play, you know. And and that's really how
it is in life. And again I'm not saying that
I've you know, I've experienced and I.
Speaker 1 (29:54):
And I've delivered.
Speaker 2 (29:55):
I'm definitely not you know what I'm saying. But but God,
but God, it's a it's a a walk, it's a journey.
It's a slow process. Like I said, minute a minute
second to second. Yes, it you you do so many things,
you know what I'm saying. Uh you you uh sent
me a video of you singing. Uh America. The beautiful.
(30:18):
I think it was right, and and it just was Yes, yes,
that one. It was just beautiful because you you really
really have such a beautiful and I told you it
was so wonderful to see the man he was looking
at you. If he could have ran into your mouth,
he would have because he was he was just I
ain't never you know, and I ain't gonna lie to y'all.
It was a white guy, I'm telling you, and he
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was just all up in the mouth, you know what
I'm saying that. I mean, it was like, oh my god,
each words you said just made just took it to
a whole nother level. And I laughing because that's the
kind of blessing that God has bestowed upon you.
Speaker 1 (30:56):
Everybody who sings cannot reach.
Speaker 2 (31:00):
Into the depths of people and bring them into your world.
And I just want you to know that that's what
was so welcoming about watching your performance. I will be
so happy when you're so. Do you have like a
date or or an absolute time frame as to when
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your project is going to be finished? Because I am
definitely one that wants to purchase it. I want to
get it, because, like I said, you are so inviting
as the people who heard you sing just a minute ago.
And you can't say that about everybody, says you just
can't say that about everybody. Everybody does not bring you
into their world when they're ministering a song, you know,
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and even when it ain't a song, you know, people
figure you just got to be singing gospel to invoke
that uh personable, that atmosphere so that people come into
your world. It's just what you do. And I just
commend you so much for that performance because it was
amazing to hear you, but it was more amazing to
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see this man's or oring. He would just fall over
the top just watching you and that, and that's beautiful
because in that moment it wasn't He didn't see color.
And we we battle with racism, we battle with presidents,
you know, oftentimes, but when you see a situation like that,
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you can't help but getting golfed in what God had
done beyond the song that you sang. He brought two
entities race wise together under one umbrella. And it was
all about hearing you sing.
Speaker 1 (32:46):
Well, it was all about.
Speaker 2 (32:51):
No, go ahead, go ahead, because I was like, take
you by that.
Speaker 1 (32:55):
I just really was, well, I'll tell you so the song.
I was a little skeptical initially about singing it because
I'm like, you know, as an African American grown up
in this country, you know, just like what are I'm
always thinking of how things come across, and so I
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want to make sure I'm given the right message. But
after doing some research and taking some time to sit
with it, I realized that this song really is a prayer.
It's a patriotic him, God bless America. And so it's
a patriotic him and you are asking God. The writer
of the song said, God bless America, the land that
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I love, stands beside her and guide her uh through
the night or to the night, or through the right
light from above. And he says from the mountains to
the prairies, to the white with palms, and he's God,
bless us, blessed this thing. And so it's like, well,
(34:04):
what do you want God to bless? You want to
Him to bless something that's already blessed or something that's
a mess, because right now I don't know not to
get it at all, But you know, I don't know.
We need all the lessons we can get at this point.
So yes, so what do you want him to do?
(34:25):
It's like, oh, let him stay and us. No, I
want him to bless this. And so when I got
more comfortable with it, then I was able to deliver
it in a way that it would speak to someone
who was listening. And you know, people were coming up
afterwards and just like oh my goodness, goose bumps and
you know that, Oh I never heard it song that way.
(34:45):
So I'm like, you know, it's because I really meant it.
It's because it's you know, I pray and this is
a song of prayer and a nation that I do love,
and I want him to guide us and I want
him to it stands inside us.
Speaker 6 (35:01):
Yeah, definitely, you know.
Speaker 1 (35:05):
Where you are in the world, Yes, on the plane
or in a mountain or.
Speaker 2 (35:10):
In the ocean, yes, yes, mm hmmm yes, no, real,
so real. I mean it. It's like, like like you said,
we don't hear that often write that song.
Speaker 1 (35:23):
You know.
Speaker 2 (35:25):
Yeah, And and like I said, if it ain't the
Star Spangled Banner, it ain't nothing right usually, but that
particular song. Seriously, when I when I opened up that
Lincoln just heard that, I was like wow, and like
you said, so appropriate for a time such as this.
You know, we we need God to intervene.
Speaker 1 (35:44):
We need it.
Speaker 2 (35:47):
And and and what like I said, what a what
I mean, what a choice for you to even send
that uh you know it to me? It just said
me in so many ways. And and like I said,
even through the even through the injustices of that, this
man was in awe. And it wasn't him looking at
you for one thing or another other than the fact that,
(36:10):
like he said, that song ministered to him. That song
did something to him. I mean, it was all of
his expressions and faith. He couldn't stop turning around. He
just had to keep looking at you, you know. And
and and yeah, that that that's God. That's God. That's
the kind of God that we stirred, you know what
I'm saying, And and and and who to known that
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song would be so appropriate once to day? You know,
we never saw this this day coming, did we. I mean,
Trump is just a whole nother animal. I say it,
I'll put it out there, you know, but you know,
but God, but God, but go if you if you
had something, and you've been talking all this time, and
(36:56):
I know sometimes I talk a lot, but I just
want people to understan then, you know, what would you
leave with the listeners on today, with with everything that
you've been through, with all the stuff that's coming up,
the wonderful life that God has bestowed upon you through
the storm, through the test, what would be a word,
(37:18):
a quote, or anything that you would lead to the listeners.
Speaker 1 (37:23):
Oh, if I had to believe something, I would say I
would leave trust God even when it hurts. It is
so very easy to get caught up and whatever we
have going on, and when we're hurt. You know, we
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we treat God the way we treat people, you know,
and either we get angry, we start talking to the person,
or you know, whatever it is. You know, trust God
even when it hurts. You know he has a greater
plan and a bigger purpose. We just can't see it.
And it took me a minute to be able to
(38:12):
come to grips with that. During that whole ordeal, I
was just by God. I know you weren't sleeping when
this happened? Why did this happen? And you know the
person I should have asked him so, because that was
a very honest question. You're not sleeping, you you were
very much awake. Why did this happen? And if not
(38:32):
on him, it's because of sin in the world, because
you live in a city land that these bad things happened.
It's not his fault that that happened. But he has
promised in his words to turn ashes into beat and
he takes the most hard situations, in ugliest situations, and
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he makes them beautiful. And they were me. My beauty
was just saying I yield to you, and people who
knew what happened got to stand by and see that.
And I couldn't tell you how many people have said, oh, wow,
you're so strong, Like, no, I'm not. I found myself
(39:17):
to sleep every night, but you know, but yeah, but
it's because I had to learn to develop the muscle
of trusting him even though it hurt me too. And
that was the biggest lesson that I have learned to date.
Taken him at his word. Either his word is either
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all proof or it's all false, but it can't be both.
So trusting him, taking him at his word even when
it hurts, even when it's not convenient. And to answer
your initial question, my singles should be released day after
m okay, that's in January. So yeah, rocking and very
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excited about my praise here.
Speaker 2 (40:12):
Oh man, and long awaited, long awaited, I must say,
it's long overdue, long waited. Well you know what, praise
God that we we would meet under the constraints about
our dear brother Baron Harris and give him a shout
out right now, you know, just for bringing us us together,
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yes under it's it's a wonderful, wonderful ministry and and
and you know, just bringing wonderful people together, uh in
in in the music accolades or or like you said,
the uh acting or just all kinds of different platforms.
So I just again blessed God for Baron and and
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and just for you, because from the moment I met you,
there was just this sister, the thing, you know. And
and I tell you, I thank God for that that
relationship that he's now building in us so that we
can do a greater and greater work for him, so
that he, of course can get all the glory. And
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I and I just thank you for for being on
this platform, because it just it's so rewarding for for
us as women to come together and knowing that we've
been through the things that we've been through, but we
can still find it not robbery to upperlist God's people
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and be a motivator for them so that they can
too rise up no matter what it looks like out there,
just to set the platform so that they know that
they still have a chance.
Speaker 1 (41:54):
It's not over. It's not over. You know.
Speaker 2 (41:56):
God has still left you here for another day of
another moment, another second for you to make a difference
in someone's life. And every time I do this platform,
I pray that that is what is happening. I'm praying
that people lives are being changed, that they're you know,
and and and from every test that one goes through
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on this platform until their rich testimony, because.
Speaker 1 (42:22):
It ain't over.
Speaker 2 (42:23):
Pry your testimony is still going and and praise God,
you know that will go through with your children, with
your you know, in your your uh marriage, it will
just like you are setting tones every time that you
go and and do ministry and you do the things
that you do uh in life. You know, it's all
(42:46):
it all ties up. And I just really thank you
for you know, being on this platform and offering you know,
to the people, to the listeners, uh, the thing that
you have gone through, you know, because it's it's not easy.
It's not easy to say those things, you know, but
with God, because we know He is the beginning and
(43:08):
the end. He is that, you know what we need
to just breathe, I should say. You know what I'm
saying on a day to day basis, you know, And
I'm just so blessed that He's chosen you and me
to come together on a time such as this to
do even a bigger work for him. That's what it's about.
(43:28):
It's ministry building, it's bringing touching lives, you know what
I'm saying. And I just love you, girl, because you're
just wonderful. You're so wonderful and you've been that from
the moment, you know, the moment that you called me
and said can I come on this show? Yes you can, girl,
because you you know, regardless of what you know, we are,
(43:50):
it's about God. It no matter what we've been through,
it's what we show the people in our deliverance. And
I thank you since, thank you, you know, just for
being all that you've been. And again, you know, I
gotta ask you. You want to shout out anybody, you
want to show somebody some love, and then I'm going
to ask you to give me, give me information. You
(44:13):
can even do that first of how people can reach
out to you, because that's important with this platform, so
that people know that you're reachable and that you you know,
they can come to you if they need to.
Speaker 1 (44:26):
Absolutely, Well, let me start by saying thank you for
having me once again. Uh, there are times when you
meet people who you just automatically stick with. You are
one of those people. There's not many people that you
just automatically just gel with.
Speaker 7 (44:45):
And so I love it, and you love your heart Lord,
and you come across very genuine and you know, see
that is a very forgotten treat that people can have
today because there's people that they're not always very genuine.
Speaker 1 (45:08):
So you come all very genuine and very kind and
just willing to help even if it's not necessarily benefiting you.
And so you know what I'm talking about. So you know, like, hey,
you know, I felt the opportunity SuperFect for you. I
want to fight. You know who does that? That is
just so sweet? And so I just think you are
(45:31):
a ball of encouragement. And who knew that God would
link me up with someone where our trauma would match
and so you know, and then and and just let
me just put a cap on this by saying this
that there are sartistics that show that one in average
few women have been sexually assaulted in the US, But
(45:53):
I would venture to say that the number is higher
because those are the only ones that I've reported, because
not many of them. Yes, all, you know, it's a
very horrible epidemic that's going around in this country, and unfortunately,
because of the way our leader system is, there are
many people who commit these crimes and they're repeated offenders.
(46:18):
That is the one crime when you find the keated
sex offenders typically when you have done it once, they've
done it before. But at the end of the day,
God who sees all and knows all, he knows that
avenges is.
Speaker 2 (46:35):
His and he.
Speaker 1 (46:38):
They didn't get away with it. They just are walking now.
But thank God has a way better than we ever could.
You can find me on Facebook, I'm on TikTok, even Instagram,
k Wallace, Crystal Wallace, Kywaller things as things on TikTok
(47:03):
and Instagram and Crystal Wallace on Thanksbok connect me. You
know you can say that needs that way and I'll
be happy to stop you Listen, you want to book
mere available for that too, But yes, it's just it's
been such a sweet time. And thank you so much
for having me share my testimony.
Speaker 2 (47:24):
Oh always, and this is an open door policy, and
I look forward to bringing you back once you get
your project out, girl, and we're gonna kick it about
your project, yes, and all the good stuff that you're
gonna be doing in that in that season. And I
just thank you for allowing yourself to be a part
of this experience, because that's what it is. It's an
(47:45):
experience and and just one that will come together just
to uplift and motivate God's people into moving into where
God would have them to be. So I thank you
so much for your test that took you to your
test the morning. It's rich and it's it's so much
value in that. And I just again thank you for
(48:07):
allowing God to use you for a time such as this.
And I just want to thank Jerry Royce and Positive
Power twenty one for always having me to come back
to this platform. It's been a long time and we've
been doing it strong, and he's he's truly been behind
me just making this platform move and I just so
(48:27):
thank him and all the listeners that come back every
Tuesday at nine pm. He'still standard time and they don't
have a problem coming back. And to hear my mouth, nonetheless,
that's a beautiful thing because I always like to run
my mouth. Lord, but God finally found away a reason
for the season, a reason.
Speaker 1 (48:46):
To use it and how to use it.
Speaker 2 (48:48):
And I'm just so blessed that is because you know,
it's what I do and he needed it right, you know,
So just bless God that I thank you, my sister,
yes you can't give out out out and yes.
Speaker 1 (49:02):
Yes so to my husband, Charles Wallace, to my church,
Mill Street Church, to the listeners, yeah, thank you so
much for listening and being a part of this time.
Speaker 2 (49:20):
Amen. Amen, and I'm going to have you because we
start with prayer and we end with prayer, so of
course I'm going to give you the platform to pray.
Speaker 1 (49:29):
If you wouldn't mind, Oh I wouldn't mind. So thank
you Lord for bringing us together Lord tonight, and thank
you that you are very real. We may have real
problems and you're a very real God. Thank you that
nothing is out of your scope. You see all, and
you know all, and you are you care for us.
(49:53):
So thank you for your provision. Thank you for the
breast and our lung to worship you and to serve you. God,
give a strength for our journeys. God, give us the
grace to endure whatever it is we're facing. So, if
there's someone that is going through a hard time, Father
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with you, remind them of your presence, remind them of
who you are in their lives. Well, God, cause them
to you, to You and to seek You God, and
to cry out to you. Lord. Thank you for my
sister Paula. Lord, and thank you for her ministry with
the station.
Speaker 5 (50:36):
Lord.
Speaker 1 (50:36):
I pray that you will multiply it and bless it
and her, Oh God, for the work that she is doing.
Oh God, that you are enabling her to do. Lord,
You enable us to care for one another. You enable
us to love you, and we thank you for it. God,
And would you send us out with your perfection and
your guidance and your law. And we ask you sing
(50:59):
you say.
Speaker 2 (51:01):
Amen, Amen, Thank you sirs. God, bless you, God, bless you.
Speaker 1 (51:05):
Listeners.
Speaker 2 (51:06):
You have been blessed by my girl, Crystal Wilads. I'm
telling you what a wonderful, wonderful interview. Thank you so
much again. Come back next Tuesday, and now I'm here
in Eastern Standard time so that we can share some
more time and so much, some more motivational time. And
I'm blifting and just inspiring atmospheres. And and I just
(51:27):
again thank you Lord for all that you do for us. Girl.
I love you, God bless all.
Speaker 1 (51:36):
Right.
Speaker 3 (52:08):
The testimony, The testimony, The testimony.
Speaker 4 (52:13):
With Paula Friay, the Diva for Christday.
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Wattle tune Every Tuesday at nine he sends down to time.
Speaker 6 (52:35):
You are listening to the testimony.
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With hosts Pulabrion ak D for christ An In case
you don't know what that stands for, it's the finely
inspired vessel appointed and anointed for a time such as this. Hey,
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