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Crying is healing. I've been sostrong. It's something that releases in your
heart when you cry. And I'mnot on here to put on a show.
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I'm really crying right now. AndI said, Okay, this is
a good moment, a real momentto let you guys know that I feel
for you, I care for you. I understand where you're coming from.
But sometimes crying can be very healing. To let it all go. Whether
you're a man or a woman,it doesn't matter. To release it all
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is to just let it go.And when you just breathe deeply sometimes and
just let it all go, releaseit, it's something replenishes in your soul.
It washes your soul, all thatgook and all that gunk and all
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that junk and this and that andthe other from a healthy unhealthy diet to
you know, just uh, youjust been doing things that has not been
yourself lately. You been just runningup a marathon and you're not even looking
to see who's next to you.You're just running. You're just running for
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your life. You're running for survival. I'm telling you, your heart is
a muscle, and I know whatit means now when it's say do not
stress out because your heart tenses likea muscle. It just tastes tight,
and when you cry, it's somethinglike that. It's something in that muscle
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that releases tension else and in yourheart. I felt it in my chest
today, something released out of me. I'm crying for so many reasons because
I have been so strong. Ihaven't cried in a very long time.
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I don't even cry in church anymore. And everybody cries in church, well,
at least they used to. Thesedays, everybody's just struggling to even
get it, to even make itto church. It's a struggle to get
to church. You have to mentallyprepare yourself all week long. Am I
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going to church? But it shouldbe releasing when you get there, just
like you have to prepare yourself beforeyou cry. Sometimes you just don't even
know. Sometimes it just happens youyou can't control it. But this time
it is just one of those crieswhere it's it's like, WHOA, I've
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been holding that long a long time. I've been holding that one a long,
long, long long time. Ihave a secret to tell you.
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I finally spoke with my ex husband, my first husband. We weren't together
for twelve years, and through ourdivorce process, we did not talk and
we didn't talk through the whole process, and it was just a mess,
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and we didn't you know, Ididn't want, you know, to go
through those feelings without talking to him. But we ended up happening. We
got a divorce, we signed thepapers. There was no communication between him
and I, and so that wholein my heart that's been there for so
long, that dark hole that's beenthere for so long, that wound has
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been just hurting for years and yearsand years on top of years, because
it just kept me wondering what wouldI say if I talked to him,
and we finally talked on the phone. I end up calling him because,
you know, I found out somethings. I just wanted to know if
he was okay. You know,sometimes you just want to know if people
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are okay, and that's how yourelease it. And anyway, I think
I'm crying because I'm going through allthese emotions in my body that I've been
holding in my heart has been sotense, and when I cried today,
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I just realized, in my goodness, I've been holding a lot of tens
in my heart. My heart hasbeen broken to pieces. But when reality
hello, it's a muscle that's beentight tightened by all the things that's broke
me in the past. And ofcourse I got a second divorce. I
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don't want to even go there anymorebecause I know we're still best friends.
We still talk almost every day.I love him to death, you know
what I mean. I love himso much. He's always there for me
when I need him, He's alwaysthere when I want him. There is
a difference. I just feel relieved. I feel relieved to hold pain like
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that for so long and not talkabout it. You have to get closer.
Sometimes you just have to seek it. Somebody says you were so some
time, I'm not gonna get closure. Well, I really feel sorry for
that person. And even that doesn'teven try to get closure, because if
I had to wait on him alldight, I probably would have never heard
his voice and something would have happenedto him, or something would have happened
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to me. I would have beendevastated if something would have happened and we
didn't even talk. No, don'tlet it go to the grade like that.
Don't ever let it go to thegrave like that ever in your life.
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Well, I just want to saythat crying is soothing, and crying
is relaxing, and it's not thebaddest thing to do. If you need
to do it, just do it. Give yourself that moment to just release
the tension that's in your heart,that's in your brain. Your brain is
a muscle too, and you knowwhat, we might be scrunching all this
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stuff up in our bidy and wedon't even know anything about it. But
when you feel it, when youcry and your heart releases, or something
in your chest releases. When Italk to my ex husband, something in
my back popped. My first husband, I've never really talked about him because
I just was really silent. Italked to him about one time. You
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know whatever, We'll you know whatever. That's really besides the point. I
don't want to go there. Ifeel so much better now that I let
it go, now that I foundclosure, Now that I have emotional safety
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and around my whole entire life.I may not ever see him again.
I may not ever see or talkto him again, but that's what Now.
I have that closure in my heart, and my heart feels like it's
so much better. It gave mestrength to fine closure. It's okay to
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be the bigger person sometimes, andsometimes impasts are always the bigger person.
They will find themselves always being thebigger person because they're so compassionate that they
can't hold it for too long.But for twelve years for an impact is
a very long time. Did Itry to reach out to him before?
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Yes, I did, but hechanged his number. It wasn't time,
It wasn't meant to be at thattime. We weren't meant to be,
but at least we had a expectfor each other to listen to each other
over the phone. I said,I didn't want to bring up the past.
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I just want to know if you'reokay, And I meant that because
the past is the past. AndI left it at that. Who I
feel so much better. Well that'sall, folks. It's getting real hot
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up in here because I am sofired up.