Justin Bieber Opens Up About Drug Use, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts & More

By Peyton Blakemore

September 3, 2019

Justin Bieber is finally healing.

On Monday (September 2), the 25-year-old singer wrote a candid and emotional Instagram post where he addressed his previous troubled past, drug use, struggle with depression and the overall negative effect fame has had on his life, before ultimately giving a positive update on the state of his mental health.

"It's hard to get out of bed in the morning with the right attitude when you are overwhelmed with your life your past, job, responsibilities, emotions, your family, finances, your relationships," he began. "When it feels like theres trouble after trouble after trouble. You start foreseeing the day through lenses of 'dread' and anticipate another bad day. A cycle of feeling disappoint after disappoint. Sometimes it can even get to the point where you don't even want to live anymore. Where you feel like its never going to change..I can full sympathize with you."

Justin, who has previously admitted to seeking professional help for his mental health, went on to explain how his quick rise to fame and fame itself affected his psyche. "I can not change my mindset. I am fortunate to have people I'm life that continue encourage me to keep going. You see I have [a lot] of money, clothes cars, accolades, achievements, awards and I was still unfulfilled. Have u noticed the statistics of child stars and the outcome of their life?" he asked. "There is an insane pressure and responsibility put on a child whose brain, emotions, frontal lobes (decision making) aren't developed yet. No rationality, defiant, rebellious, things all of us have to go through. But when you add the pressure of stardom it does something to you that is quite unexplainable."

"You see I didn't grow up in a stable home, my parent were 18 separated with no money still young and rebellious as well," he continued. "As my talent progressed and I became ultra successful it happened within a strand of Two years. My whole world was flipped on its head. I went from a 13 year old boy from a small town to be praised left and right by the world with millions saying how much they loved me and how great I was."

"I don't know about you but humility comes with age. You hear theses things enough as a young boy and you actually start believing it, Rationality comes with age and so does your decision making process (one of the reasons you can't drink until your 21) .. everyone did everything for me so I never even learned the fundamentals of responsibility," the "I Don't Care" singer explained. "By this point, I was 18 with no skills in the real world, with millions of dollars and access to whatever I wanted.”

“This is a very scary concept for anyone,” Justin added. “By 20, I made every bad decision you could have thought of and went from one of the most loved and adored people in the world to the most ridiculed, judged, and hated person in the world.”

After admitting to doing pretty heavy drugs at 19, abusing his relationships, disrespecting women, distancing himself from those who cared about him, and just feeling hopeless, Justin said he finally found comfort and support from those closest to him, including his wife Hailey Baldwin. "It’s taken me years to bounce back from all of these terrible decisions, fix broken relationships, and change relationship habits," he wrote. "Luckily, God blessed me with extraordinary people who love me for me. Now I am navigating the best season of my life ‘MARRIAGE’ !! Which is an amazing, crazy, new responsibility."

"You learn patience, trust, commitment, kindness, humility, and all of the things it looks like to be a good man," he continued "All this to say even when the odds are against you, keep fighting. Jesus loves you. Be kind today, be bold today and love people today, not by your standards but by God’s perfect unfailing love."

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