Daily Highlight: Gandhi Talks About How She is Feeling

Following her hospital stay over the summer, Gandhi has been processing all her emotions since and talks about how she is feeling during a vulnerable moment on the show.

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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Today's Daily Highlight from Elvis Duran in the Morning Showy.

Speaker 2 (00:05):
Now, Gandhi has sent this text me the other day
and I asked her if it's okay if I read it,
and you're you're totally fine, okay, yes, right, okay, And
I'm so happy that you're sharing this.

Speaker 3 (00:15):
Thank you.

Speaker 2 (00:16):
I think I'm hitting a little patch of depression and
I'm not totally sure what to do about it because
I think I know what's causing about it, but not
one hundred percent sure, and it's not really fixable in
the near future, so I don't know. That's where I
am in life. And so we of course went through
a brother sister conversation, yeah, back and forth, which you

(00:37):
know whatever, and it was a great meaningful conversation. And
I think it's very important that as you listen to
us every day and we play your favorite songs, we
send you around the world on beautiful cruise ships and
we laugh and cut up that you know, just like you,
we're human beings as well. And the fact that we
can actually talk about this because I think it could

(00:58):
be the most relatable topic we could ever talk about
on this show with all these listeners.

Speaker 4 (01:03):
So thank you.

Speaker 2 (01:04):
For allowing us to talk about it.

Speaker 3 (01:05):
Yeah, for sure. So I mean, you guys all know
over so I'm going to do this without crying. That
is my goal. If my voice shakes, I'm not crying.

Speaker 2 (01:12):
You know what, If you cry, then just go with it.

Speaker 4 (01:14):
Baby, good that.

Speaker 3 (01:15):
I'm sick of crying. Okay, so we know that over summertime,
I went through some crap. I got really sick, got
over it. I felt really good. I was so excited.
I'm still physically I'm doing well. My health is fine.
But as we've talked about, I hit the after shock,
which is all of my hair falling out, and it
is Jurassic like. I don't think you guys really understand
it because I hide it so much. But Diamond actually

(01:38):
kind of made it validated how bad it was because
she was helping me put in the fake hair and
she was like, wow, this is crazy. I didn't realize
like it was so bad. So I thought, Okay, this
is silly to get so sad. You're just losing your
hair like it's not a big deal. But then I
realized it was so much more than that. Because I'm
starting to deal with I don't even know if I
would call it like the PTSD, but really realizing how

(02:01):
bad it was over summer and how life is now
just suddenly different in a way that I don't want
it to be, because you know, my whole life, I've
always gone to the doctor and it's like, oh, there's
no medical history of anything. Oh everything's fine, And now
there is. And now every little pain or pain, I'm like,
is that something that I need to worry about? And
it's just like my life took this sudden turn that

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I wasn't prepared for and now I'm dealing with it.
And now it's of course the worst time for us,
where we see everybody and I just feel like I
look like crap, which is so stupid. I feel like
to be complaining about this, but I'm not crying if
it sounds like it, but yes, way I know. But
you know, we see everybody, and we are face to

(02:43):
facing with everybody, and we have concerts and I have
this art show coming and I'm going to see all
of these people that I haven't seen in so long.
And I look in the mirror and I don't recognize
myself and it's just really hard. And I have so
much great stuff in my life I have an amazing life.
I get to see all of you guys every day,
and you guys make me laugh every day, and I

(03:04):
just can't get over feeling sad about something that feels
so stupid to me. And I don't know, it's just
a weird like I can't I'm not just gonna grow
my hair back tomorrow. It's gonna take a really long time.
It was so long for, you know, my whole life.
And I realized I'm sort of I've always used my
hair as a veil. I hide behind it for a

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lot of reasons, like I don't love my face. You know,
you can hide choby cheeks when you have a lot
of hair, And now I can't do that anymore. And
it's just like highlighting a lot of crap that I
wasn't ready for.

Speaker 2 (03:35):
Well now, and some of the things we talked about,
including this, First of all, your feelings are very valid
and they're not stupid. And if anyone, including yourself, is
going through a patch of depression or sadness, and someone says, oh,
you know what, your hair will grow back, You're fine.
Look how great you have it. You've got a great
job and good friends. You know what, you mean, well,

(03:57):
when you say those things to someone that you love,
but that it's not gonna help anything.

Speaker 4 (04:01):
No, you're minimalizing, you know, the end of.

Speaker 2 (04:04):
The at the end of the day, if you want
to be sad about it, be sad about it, because
you're validating what you're going through, and what you're going
through is real and should not be swept under a rug.
You shouldn't say, well, look, you got a great job.
Oh my gosh, you have beautiful friends, a great boyfriend.
Of course you do, but that doesn't change the fact
that you're going with you're going what you're going through,

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and what you're going through Gandhi goes far beyond what
your hair is doing to you. It's just your hair
loss reminds you of the bigger picture of what you're
living through.

Speaker 4 (04:33):
Yeah, and you know.

Speaker 2 (04:35):
You were very sick.

Speaker 4 (04:37):
We were.

Speaker 2 (04:39):
God, I don't want to say it out loud, but
I will. I we all thought that maybe you wouldn't return.

Speaker 3 (04:44):
Yeah, that's that's what I'm gathering when I talk to
some of my doctors and stuff now, which I didn't
realize all the time.

Speaker 1 (04:49):
Yeah, yeah, I think because it was it was like
a mystery, like they couldn't figure it out. And I
think all of us here, I remember sitting here going
what is happening? Like?

Speaker 4 (05:00):
What is like?

Speaker 1 (05:00):
We were like, what is happening? So for you have
gone through it to feel that way, and it's come
back and come back in all different ways. It makes
total sense.

Speaker 2 (05:10):
Well, you know our listeners are checking in. We love you, Gandhi.
This conversation is everything I need. And here's someone who
really is paying attention. We love you, Danielle. You're gonna
be okay, Thank.

Speaker 4 (05:20):
You, Thank you so much.

Speaker 1 (05:21):
You will rebuild.

Speaker 3 (05:24):
I think that, like the hard part for me and
all of this is, as we talk about so often,
I totally believe in practicing gratitude and being grateful for
all of the things that you have. And I really
focus on all the good things I have, and there's
this part of me that just feels ungrateful to the
universe right now because I got over it. I'm feeling good.
There are people who are losing their hair and they

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have cancer and they're not feeling good and I just
feel like an a hole being so bummed out about this.

Speaker 4 (05:51):
But I can't get our shit.

Speaker 2 (05:52):
You shouldn't, you shouldn't absolutely and.

Speaker 1 (05:55):
You went through a lot. Your body went Sorry, your
body went through so much. And this is actually part
of what you went through because they told you that.
That's the reason that it's falling out. So you're still
going through it. Yes, you've come through the other end,
you know, body wise and then health wise, but you're

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still feeling what you know parts of it, and so
it makes total sense that you're going to be feeling
this way.

Speaker 3 (06:22):
Well, thanks, you guys are making me feel better. It
always makes me feel better coming in.

Speaker 4 (06:25):
We love you.

Speaker 2 (06:26):
But you know what the worst thing you could ever do?
And GANI this is advice I've heard you give other people.
You cannot compare yourself to other people ever in life,
and that as far as wealth or job position, or
marriage position or relationships or body fat or whatever, you
cannot compare. And as you minimalize how you feel, minimalize

(06:46):
yourself because you feel like you're an ant hole because
you you have it great. Don't do that you're comparing
stop it. We love you, Nate, what's up?

Speaker 4 (06:55):
Well?

Speaker 2 (06:56):
Can you turn them on.

Speaker 4 (06:57):
As somebody that's gone through a couple of things like this?
And I know Froggy can speak about it too. When
you get discharged from the hospital. One of the things
they say. And the doctors are great, the nurses are fantastic,
but I think the one place they fall short is
they say, hey, you might get a little depressed after
having gone through all of this. As someone who has

(07:19):
been through an ocean of depression post hospital stays and
medical issues, I can tell you that this is all
normal and that what you're going through will get better.
But that is my one beef with the things that
people go through as far as what they battle with

(07:40):
their bodies, is you don't know how depressing it can
be until you actually go through it yourself. And I
know I had conversations with Froggy where it was like
I was talking to myself because it's just so hard

(08:00):
and you're doing it though you are one to zero.
You beat it. Yeah, and I hope you don't ever
have to do it again.

Speaker 3 (08:09):
Yeah, me too.

Speaker 4 (08:10):
But there's gonna be scars, and there's gonna be memories
and you're gonna remember things, and it's very very hard,
but you're doing it now.

Speaker 3 (08:21):
I feel bad we're not checking on Nate and Froggy Moore.

Speaker 4 (08:28):
All.

Speaker 2 (08:28):
We're all learning. We're all learning and we're moving forward,
but we just wanted to stop down and have this conversation.
Because people are listening in and through the text, I
can see that majority of them are totally understanding it.