July 2, 2024 • 61 mins
*Trigger warning - This episode discusses traumatic themes*
Nix Nicola 'Nix' Adams, a woman who defies stereotypes and embraces her authenticity. 🌟 Former methamphetamine addict, sex worker, and ex-convict turned social media sensation, Nix's raw honesty and authenticity have earned her 1.3 million online followers and the title of "Personality of the Year" at the New Zealand TV Awards. 💬 From sharing her journey of recovery to making people laugh with comedic skits and funny make-up tutorials, Nix fearlessly speaks her mind and refuses to filter her thoughts. 🎥
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey, just a heads up. This podcast episode of Cordinor
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to hear. If you need any help, don't be afraid
to reach out. There are contact details to resources and
organizations that can help in the show notes. And you
know what the best thing you can do is call
it or.
Speaker 2 (00:28):
With the cord we die, Why way, height of Mind.
Speaker 3 (00:34):
This is carding off the podcast and I am Macio from.
Speaker 4 (00:42):
Phoenix.
Speaker 5 (00:42):
Look up in me well chair, that's fantastic. I'm looking
for the bank.
Speaker 4 (00:48):
Also from Final Days talking out and would you guess everybody,
this is the final episode of season why the final
count down? Yeah? I was like, we've had so many
guests on our show and today is like none other.
Speaker 5 (01:05):
But it's going to be amazing. Welcome to Ends and Me.
Speaker 4 (01:08):
iHeartRadio's latest, greatest, Colorful Marti Fantastic Altior podcast. That is
right the podcast that celebrates all things Maori, all things entertainment, politics, howater, fashion, coolness, everything,
(01:30):
but more importantly celebrating all things to tye to right
here at court at all.
Speaker 2 (01:35):
And you're so right.
Speaker 3 (01:36):
We have had the best guests on here celebrating all
of those things, you know, that is the norm, that
is the stereotype of what it means to be Maldi
everything and it is so cool. And so we've got
one more episode, but I'm gonna put it out there.
Speaker 2 (01:52):
We're gonna have another season.
Speaker 5 (01:54):
All the fans, all the millions of fans out there listening,
who enjoyed it. You have to uproar, create an uproar.
There better be a season two.
Speaker 4 (02:01):
I've already signed the contract, of course.
Speaker 6 (02:05):
Nah.
Speaker 2 (02:05):
Anyway, well I not.
Speaker 3 (02:06):
This is all about inspiring the fin note raahi, everybody
at home all over the world.
Speaker 4 (02:11):
Eat.
Speaker 2 (02:12):
Then if you want to be somebody and you want to.
Speaker 5 (02:14):
Go somewhere, wake up and pay attention.
Speaker 3 (02:16):
If you want to be somebody and you wanna go somewhere,
you wake up and pay attention.
Speaker 5 (02:24):
We've said that teen episodes. Now I am loving us.
Speaker 3 (02:27):
Yeah.
Speaker 5 (02:27):
If you're not paying attention by now, you ain't listening.
Speaker 2 (02:30):
And if you didn't sing along, this is probably your
first episode.
Speaker 5 (02:34):
Shape gosh, I'm so excited.
Speaker 2 (02:37):
To go out the copa the topic of the day.
Speaker 5 (02:40):
As you all know, it's a EWI for ten episodes.
Speaker 4 (02:43):
Now there's a Copapper topic of the day where we
hone into the fabulousness of all of our people across
them all to but more so to create an example
of how you could be achieving this at home. And
today's copper or Tea is about Mary Wahin in entrepreneurship, roles,
business and social media influencing and ah oh.
Speaker 5 (03:05):
Masia homming back, coming back, Masia.
Speaker 4 (03:08):
I'm so excited for this one because we have saved
one of the best for last. She has gone on
to be one of the most recognized social media influencers
in altyodor. She is funny, she's creative, she goes hard
out where she needs to. She has no barrier, she
has no filter, straight up, straight up.
Speaker 5 (03:26):
I'm a massive fan of her.
Speaker 4 (03:28):
She really came into herself in the last few years
and now she is making herself the business. It's the
one and only social media influencer, Mama businesswoman.
Speaker 5 (03:37):
Next isn't the funner?
Speaker 2 (03:40):
Next isn't the funner? Next is in the funner?
Speaker 5 (03:44):
I'm so excited to get out Yes, and I.
Speaker 3 (03:48):
Feel because she's gonna be in the funny that worth
somewhat made it.
Speaker 4 (03:54):
You know what I'm with you, I'm smelling what you
were staying at him I'm like, you know what, she
got on a plane and come to our copapa order
because why because we want to be somebody and we're
going somewhere and we've woken up to pay attention.
Speaker 2 (04:06):
Yes, thank you?
Speaker 3 (04:07):
Next any anyway, quotquarter or co where who do you keep?
They had, like, it's on you, my, you want to
stick around because it's going to be nothing.
Speaker 5 (04:15):
But short of hilarious.
Speaker 2 (04:17):
Next coming up very soon today though, Yeah.
Speaker 3 (04:20):
Let's have them order their cuffee for the day for
kick kick Kick Cafe c back kick kick kick Cack Cafe.
Speaker 4 (04:26):
That's right, ten episodes now, ten ways to order your
coffee around them or too. And if you've tried it
at home, good on you keep going. And if people
still don't get it, shame on them.
Speaker 5 (04:35):
But you keep going. So for today's cuffe, Ted Marcia,
where we going to order? What are we gonna do?
Speaker 3 (04:41):
I've got next in mine and possibly you'd say I've
got you in mind as well.
Speaker 2 (04:46):
For this coffee order, it is just simply a.
Speaker 4 (04:49):
Long black, a long black, zero calories and that calories
or energy or caffeine.
Speaker 2 (04:55):
I'm sure next will be a fan of the long black.
Speaker 4 (04:57):
Well, I remember way back in I've just I literally
just got what you were going how he was like,
Luke wants a long black, hold the caffeine, hold the coffee,
order long and.
Speaker 5 (05:11):
Hold hold the E gauge.
Speaker 4 (05:14):
But man, episode three, I think we ordered a short
black and recorded the Phoenix.
Speaker 3 (05:19):
Yes, now the long black, we shall call it.
Speaker 2 (05:25):
The phoenix to go Phoenix Phoenix.
Speaker 5 (05:30):
How am I going to order a long black? Massia simple?
Speaker 2 (05:35):
Mark?
Speaker 4 (05:35):
Oh?
Speaker 2 (05:37):
Because you know, usually black is.
Speaker 3 (05:39):
The describer, right, but in this sentence, Raw is the describer.
So it sounds weird when you've got to describing things.
You're like, what what is long and black? It's just
we're just talking about the coffee. It's just a long black.
Speaker 5 (05:53):
I didn't actually think of it, Raw, Mark, Oh, okay,
I want you.
Speaker 2 (05:58):
Depending on the breasta, they'll go, are you talking about
the coffee?
Speaker 7 (06:01):
Or so.
Speaker 4 (06:04):
If I walk into a cafe and we're going to
go coming into one and I want my long black,
I'm gonna say kura.
Speaker 8 (06:12):
Mkuye, and then then come out with this thing that's
not a coffee.
Speaker 2 (06:19):
And hopefully come out with a long black. It's find out.
Can you tell me? Though? For the you know, non
coffee drinker. What exactly is a long black.
Speaker 4 (06:28):
It's a long black is essentially what we had a
short black, but it's more water added water.
Speaker 2 (06:33):
I was just thinking it's the same thing, but a
bigger cap.
Speaker 5 (06:36):
Well yeah, yeah, it's like a double shot, a little
bit more, but.
Speaker 2 (06:39):
You don't add more coffee.
Speaker 4 (06:41):
No, it's strong enough, trust you just.
Speaker 2 (06:44):
Add more water.
Speaker 5 (06:45):
It's the same, even worse.
Speaker 8 (06:46):
It's the same. So short black was just the shot
of coffee. It's the short black plus water. Yeah, so
to like to like water it down a little bit,
make it a little less hush and.
Speaker 4 (06:56):
An Americano from one of our previous episodes is just.
Speaker 5 (06:59):
A lot of water.
Speaker 3 (07:00):
Yeah, okay, And so you justus and you are to
order one of these. You're purely just ordering this because
you need that punch, not because of the taste.
Speaker 5 (07:09):
Yeah, you need a punch, and you also want to
feel it in your groins and like that for the taste,
your psycho. Have you ordered one before a long black? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (07:19):
But I like the Americano medicandal because it's more it's
lest thing.
Speaker 5 (07:30):
Look, you want to cuddle.
Speaker 7 (07:34):
Fienna, use that the chocolate you got that choc there,
Marcus and I have a long black Yes, ah, look
at that.
Speaker 4 (07:47):
You've got ten ways you eat. Order your coffee across
the wall. To give it a go and let us
know how you put it.
Speaker 5 (07:53):
Put that in your dating profile too, I will. I'm
looking for.
Speaker 3 (07:58):
Mark and then's kick. Okay, it's time to call it
over with our brought to you every time by our
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(08:21):
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Speaker 5 (08:27):
Go and buy it, have some fun, judge it like
we do.
Speaker 8 (08:33):
Call my mitti met is like, so tour isn't bum.
Speaker 5 (08:45):
Oh meet meat? I got it. You know I got it.
Speaker 2 (08:50):
You got a meat stum.
Speaker 5 (08:56):
Two c's bomb She thick, No, that's not. Don't donker,
but don't dumper.
Speaker 2 (09:04):
Pull up to my bumper.
Speaker 4 (09:05):
Yeah, I'm I'm guessing it's a it's a it's a
boombye bum like a boombee. Why my hands doing like
boomby light bob change the light of boom And that's
how you know it's it's not pull up to its
got anything to do with a bum yes, okay, meet meeting,
(09:27):
meeting me and meat. See I was getting meat like
misteak like waggy you bum like you gotta waggy you bum.
Speaker 5 (09:36):
Medi Okay.
Speaker 4 (09:42):
If it was midy mid, I'm like, oh your message
the bom you got a message, but it's me meet
like me in the far North?
Speaker 2 (09:52):
Could be.
Speaker 5 (09:56):
What's the vibe if you're talking about you know, tell
Wade that's where the way do I go? I feel
like it does?
Speaker 3 (10:06):
It does?
Speaker 5 (10:07):
Why do it travels up to? Know that? But it
stops at a break at over there, carries on to
so maybe you need a rest bump.
Speaker 2 (10:17):
And saying that, yeah, do you bathe them there?
Speaker 4 (10:21):
No?
Speaker 5 (10:21):
Oh yeah, I don't know if you're supposed to do
I haven't, but I don't know that. It's just like a.
Speaker 2 (10:27):
I don't know.
Speaker 3 (10:28):
I'm actually like using taker dictionary right now for mittimity,
like just so we can get an insight.
Speaker 5 (10:36):
Yeah, because I'm a bit stuck on.
Speaker 2 (10:38):
Because obviously I know I just want them to confume.
Speaker 5 (10:40):
Oh yeah, because you don't want to be wrong the dictionary.
Speaker 3 (10:44):
Okay, So Mitti says to lick or to lick up,
which is this is not the translation, but I'm telling
you what it says.
Speaker 2 (10:54):
Okay, okay, Macia, you said it locky locky bum?
Speaker 5 (11:02):
Why but I'm gonna go would we use it?
Speaker 2 (11:04):
And the key? It's not that it doesn't it's.
Speaker 4 (11:07):
Not like locking your wounds.
Speaker 5 (11:10):
You know, a great save like you got to kick
up the try.
Speaker 8 (11:16):
It's a PG show, right, you know, you know that's
your wounds. You know you got to boot up the bum,
lock your wounds in the corner.
Speaker 2 (11:27):
I actually like that. You always try, you know bad.
Some things to.
Speaker 5 (11:36):
My mom would be like very good, Yes, that was
what pulling?
Speaker 4 (11:40):
Yeah, so is he right? Is it loocking the butt?
Look the word that's wrong?
Speaker 2 (11:46):
Okay, is someone there is a kiss as oh.
Speaker 4 (11:50):
Yeah yeah yeah yeah we all know one of those
in the workplace. Look at that tongue.
Speaker 5 (11:57):
I thought, yeah, so I thing.
Speaker 2 (12:04):
It's you know, and they give it's Lisa who's also
the boss to match.
Speaker 5 (12:11):
Or you see them in the office with the boss
and you're like, bro, look at that follow.
Speaker 2 (12:17):
I'll get your breakfast all.
Speaker 5 (12:20):
The one killing class they brought the teacher in Apple. Yeah,
you know they're like, no, chicken, he's always the here.
Speaker 4 (12:27):
I'm here.
Speaker 5 (12:30):
Kiss us you're talking about Saturday. Oky by right, they
called it off for today. They ain't got caught.
Speaker 2 (12:45):
My cupoo guaranteed though, louis or.
Speaker 5 (12:52):
All right, it's called the corner off.
Speaker 2 (12:58):
Here by my ya wa going at the Moroco.
Speaker 4 (13:02):
It is it? It is just everybody. I'm so excited
for this because we have saved one of the biggest
ones for last.
Speaker 5 (13:11):
She is in the funny.
Speaker 2 (13:13):
I can smell her, I can feel her energy.
Speaker 5 (13:16):
Here are you ready?
Speaker 4 (13:17):
Should we do? It?
Speaker 2 (13:18):
Is my new hity time too good?
Speaker 5 (13:20):
Oh here we got.
Speaker 2 (13:44):
Away looking stand up?
Speaker 5 (13:47):
Give me a cattle. Bring it up, beautiful people. The
one and only, the one and only.
Speaker 2 (13:58):
Nikola next Adams, I know my height and my uh
so cool to have you here. Actually a little bit
starstruck lot Yeah, and.
Speaker 5 (14:13):
I don't know have you heard it before? I don't
know have you heard it before?
Speaker 3 (14:17):
But because we've got you on our last guest for
the season, we feel like we've made it.
Speaker 5 (14:25):
That means we made it.
Speaker 8 (14:26):
I was saying earlier in the show, I'm genuinely starstruck
to you. I feel like someone texts my mom tell
her I made it made even.
Speaker 4 (14:36):
My mom today when I told her we were coming
into it to film with Nick.
Speaker 5 (14:39):
She's like, like, yep, that's also great.
Speaker 4 (14:47):
Before we get into the nitty gritty, we are so
grateful to have you on our show. But as always,
we always a bit of research on our money hitty
to make sure they're all legit. As you can probably tell,
our show is all about celebrating greatness of the mind
North to Tie, Tokio and Boomy, we know who you are,
but those that don't shame Marcia does a little research
(15:07):
to make sure we're building it up.
Speaker 2 (15:15):
Okay.
Speaker 3 (15:15):
Social media sensation Nikola Nix Adams reckons her ever growing
popularity is down to the fact that she's straight up,
honest and authentic about who she is. With one point
three million probably more online followers and having one Personality
of the Year, social media sensation Nixt is the first
admit she's an anomaly.
Speaker 4 (15:37):
Oh next, like that is amazing now knowing all of
that before we get into the Q and a nervous
by girl before we get into the Q and a
tell everybody where you're from.
Speaker 5 (15:51):
And who you are?
Speaker 6 (15:52):
Yeah, so yeah, I'm from a Hippata which is way
up north, beautiful little paradise. Who am I? Oh?
Speaker 4 (16:03):
Fuck?
Speaker 6 (16:05):
Well, hey, I swear heap. So I'm just going to
throw that out there now. But it builds my you know,
that's a part of my character. I'm a mother of
holy rick.
Speaker 4 (16:17):
How many now a tribe.
Speaker 6 (16:19):
I've got a tribe. So at home we've got five
teenagers between fourteen and eleven. Wow, you know, I stepped
into my relationship with my beautiful partner with my two.
He was a solo dead with his two. And then
we've got a fungo boy as well, who's from from Katya,
so choice. We brought him all the way down to
(16:41):
Wellington see the Big Light, and he's fucking loving it.
It was only supposed to be for term and now
it's been two years, but we love him. And then
we've got, of course, fifteen month old Egypt r Oh
and she's just the boss of the house.
Speaker 4 (17:01):
She's I love watching her online and her literally mannerisms
of which she's like eating and then the Rata trip
and she's just like living.
Speaker 6 (17:10):
Because you walk into our lounge, you've got all these five,
you know, big teenagers and they're all sitting there watching
Sesame Street, don't you tell? Or they could be watching
a movie. And then she comes crawling in.
Speaker 5 (17:27):
It's good kids.
Speaker 8 (17:29):
I know exactly how that goes. We've got a daughter
who does exactly the same before her. It's Gabby's doll house,
no matter what's on. As soon as she comes in, Gabby,
I want Gabby and we have to drop out.
Speaker 5 (17:40):
You know, I watched that for myself, stopper.
Speaker 6 (17:46):
Fucking The thing is the lounge is the biggest TV.
Speaker 2 (17:49):
Yeah, true, and she knows that.
Speaker 6 (17:51):
And she knows it.
Speaker 4 (17:52):
Now we know you as not only a friend but
television personality, social media influencer of the gods.
Speaker 5 (18:01):
That are a matua carry on woman. You've got your
own brand, but.
Speaker 4 (18:07):
You have a group of people who literally you. They
resonate with who you are because you do keep it real.
You're unfiltered. You say what you say and you mean
it as well. But where did it all start for you?
Speaker 6 (18:20):
Oh? It started with me just trying to get the
attention of my children's father, to be honest. Yeah, that's
why I I jumped on the internet. Is because at
the time I had just got out of jail and
I was on a six month mail program in Australia
(18:41):
where I had to fucking you know, behave are we're
talking about that we're talking about, like social media.
Speaker 5 (18:50):
From you from when you started from your.
Speaker 6 (18:56):
Just say fucking keep going. Six years ago, I just
got out of jail, and you know, I was thinking,
fucking now, I need to get a hold of my kids.
My kids were in New Zealand, and I was thinking,
how am I going to get a hold of them
(19:17):
to let them know that Mum's you know, I'm back.
I want to get back into their lives. I had
been absent, For those that don't know, I had been
absent from my children's lives for five years because of
the last of my fifteen month old son. He had
(19:37):
passed away in Perth, Australia, and right at that moment,
I just completely died. And I ended up spending five
years on methamphetamine, five years of doing whatever it was
(19:57):
that I needed to do to get them, need to
get the drugs, because I needed to have that blanket
over me so that I didn't have to acknowledge that
my son had actually died. You know, So I tried
to bury myself in addiction.
Speaker 4 (20:16):
Wow.
Speaker 6 (20:17):
Yeah, And that was purely because I didn't want to
face the truth. You know, who the hell wants to
acknowledge that They're never ever going to get to brush
their child's here, never going to get to touch their child,
never going to see their child smile again or look
at them.
Speaker 4 (20:37):
You know.
Speaker 6 (20:37):
Fuck, that's a hard bloody road to take, and especially
like I remember the last night that he was alive.
You know, I gave him dinner and he had a pie,
and I mean, fucking hell, I'm not the healthiest of
dinners now I'm looking back, but hey, I'm still feeding
(20:58):
my kids. Had pie and he had a bun with it,
and I went away, probably outside for cigarette, to be honest,
And then I came back and there was nothing on
his high chair and I was saying, boy, you little
shit without how did you throw it? You know, I'm
thinking he's thrown his pie and that away. I'm checking
the couches and there no he ate it, So yay,
(21:18):
I love that.
Speaker 5 (21:21):
Good boy boy.
Speaker 6 (21:22):
Anyway, he was a fucking mess. I should have seen
by his face. He had pie all over his face.
So anyway, straight into the bath with his two siblings.
Jordan in Russia had all three of them in the bath,
and you know they were laughing. I remember, you know,
drawing his hair and all the kids were laughing, and
(21:43):
it's like, you know, when I think about that last night,
it's like a fucking movie. I can see it so clearly.
Took them out of the bath, I changed him Alaska,
and I put vix. I had this thing of the
baby vix with the Johnson and Johnson's moisturizer and it
(22:04):
just once you mix them together, it just smelled fucking beautiful.
And the doctors had said, stop fucking doing that, because
when your baby's sick, their vix ain't gonna do shit.
But anyway, fuck you, and I did it.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
That night.
Speaker 6 (22:21):
I put it on his feet and you know, put
his socks on as we do, and made them a bottle,
put them into bed. They all slept in the same room,
put them into bed, gave them all the curse, and
walked out. You know, same fucking routine I've done every
single night, nothing out of the ordinary, except the next
(22:42):
morning when I'm win and he had passed away. And
you know that that breaks you. That fucking breaks you,
you know, especially because three months prior me and my
husband had split up, so now it was just me
and the three babies, you know, so anyway, that broke me.
(23:04):
And like I said, you know, you have a choice
in a moment like that. I mean, there's nothing that
could ever prepare you for something like that. There's no manual,
And even if there was a fucking manual, who the
hell's going to pick that up and read? Okay, this
is how I would deal if one of my children died.
(23:25):
No one's going to read that, because we don't want
to acknowledge that that could potentially be us. And there
was me. So when you're in that situation, you have
a choice. One is either to face it head on
and acknowledge it and accept it. And for me, I'm
not fucking doing that, you know. Fuck in order to
(23:48):
accept it and acknowledge it. Oh, I didn't have their
strength inside me. And you know a lot of people
would be like, well, hey, you should have focused on
the children. You know, I did have Jordan and Russia
and treeson as well. But my mindset at the time
was I couldn't even keep Alaska alive. I did everything
(24:11):
I fucking could to keep my kids alive, and I failed,
you know, So in that time, I thought, man, my kids,
I don't think I can keep them alive. So when
they went to their father, it was like, I think
that's the best place for them. You know. Then I
(24:32):
started to use, and I remember that first hit. That
first hit of methamphetamine was like all of the loud noise,
the thoughts, the thoughts of suicide, the thoughts of failure,
the guilt was gone, and it was just.
Speaker 4 (24:52):
Silent. Wow.
Speaker 6 (24:54):
And that is what got me addicted. You know a
lot of I definitely wasn't taking the drug so I
can get rowdy and I can have a party and
fucking all of this. I didn't need that. I needed
something to drown out all the feelings of wanting to
(25:14):
commit suicide so I could be with him, all the
feelings of guilt and how I wasted every fucking moment
that I had with him. You know, like especially if
me and his dad were arguing and they he would
be sitting there watching. I would conjure up those experiences
(25:35):
and they're not feel guilty because instead of arguing, I
should have been fucking playing with him, or I should
have been you know, that's enough to drive a bitch crazy,
And just those thoughts and then when i'd have their hit, bom,
everything's gone. So yeah, I was hooked immediately, you know. Anyways,
(25:56):
I lived that life for five years. Eight months after
he died, the kids dead, you know, he would pop
in to see me, and by then I was fucking
I had lost half my weight already. I was already
in the fifty kg oh wow, fifty kgs.
Speaker 7 (26:17):
You know.
Speaker 6 (26:18):
Fuck I I was gone. And he made the decision. Man,
these you know, Jordan and Russia, they don't deserve to
see this person. They don't know this lady. They know
this mum that you know, gave a fuck. They don't
know this person. So I'm taking them back to New Zealand.
(26:38):
Of course, he didn't converse with me prior he made
that decision, and at the time, of course, I'm thinking.
Speaker 5 (26:47):
You madterfucker, how did you take my kids?
Speaker 6 (26:51):
And then I'm sitting there chewing my fucking face off,
you know. But it's not until now that I can
look back and say, boy, you know the best fucking
thing for those kids, because damn So that's the life
I lived for those five years. And then it all
came to a screaming holt when I ended up in
(27:12):
jail for an armed robbery. I didn't get convicted of
the armed robbery because I'm too lazy to do something
like that, But I did spend a month in jail.
During that month, sitting in that jail cell, there was
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my rock bottom, and I was thinking, Man, I'm so
fucking tired. Like I'm tired of running, I'm tired of
constantly looking for a hit. I'm tired of being scared
of my reality. I'm tired of, you know, knowing that
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what I was doing was wrong, but fighting it just
so that I didn't have to deal with my emotions.
Like a lot of that five years. I know what
the fuck I was doing was wrong. I know I
shouldn't have been on drags.
Speaker 2 (28:10):
I knew that.
Speaker 6 (28:11):
Sitting in this house with cockroaches running around me, five
people and we're passing around the fucking pipe, you know.
I know I shouldn't have been there. I should have
been at home with my fucking children.
Speaker 4 (28:25):
Yeah.
Speaker 6 (28:26):
But in order for me to do that, I would
have had to face all those feelings of suicide feelings
and I would have had to face them hit on
and I just couldn't do it. Tired, and I was
tired of being fucking tired sitting in there jail, So
I was tired of being tired, and I just said
to myself, Nah, this isn't man, Fuck this is it.
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When I get out, I need to get my shit together.
I need to get back to my children. And that's
exactly what I did. I got out. And when I
got out of jail, like I said in the beginning,
I was put on a six month bail program and
I had gotten a job volunteering at this little cafe
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outside of the Sunshine Courthouse in Australia, in Melbourne. And
fuck it was choice. It's a little caravan. It's called
second Chance because they give offenders a second chance. It's
voluntary work. You don't get paid, but what it gives
you is routine, or it gives you back some kind
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of structure in your life, and it gives you the
opportunity to earn trust in society. I mean, fucking now,
you're making coffees for lawyers, you know, and really you
don't want to be anywhere near them. But I really
took that opportunity and ran with it, you know. And
so I started at nine and I would work until one.
(30:02):
In order to get there, I would have to catch
a train and then a bus and then i'd get
there at nine. I'd make the sandwiches, and oh they
would have went down ho if I wasn't there making
the sandwiches, because dam and I'd stay there till one
and the courthouse had jacked all of that up. They
gave me cards to get on public transportation. They got
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me the job at Second Chance Cafe, and they also
got me a gym membership, nice at the gym right
across the road. So as you can imagine, I had
all the foundations to create some type of structure and
routine in my life, and I fucking loved it. And
it made me feel normal again, you know, like holy fuck,
(30:49):
I'm I'm human again. Like you know, before my son
passed away, I had structure. I had routine with those kids.
Fuck you need to if you've got kids, otherwise, holy wreck,
go crazy.
Speaker 4 (31:01):
Just a question. From the time of the passing of
your boy to the working at the Second Chance for
how long was that?
Speaker 6 (31:08):
That was five years?
Speaker 2 (31:10):
Five years?
Speaker 6 (31:11):
So five years I was stuck in that cycle. And yeah,
so I had routine, Like I said, dinner, I gave
the kids dinner and then it was bath and then
they had a little play, then they had a miload,
then they were in bed by seven that was our
fucking routine. Then five years of absolutely no routine. I
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mean funk. While I was Fridays, I was staying up
for like five days straight until my fucking eyeballs were
screaming for sleep. Shut me, he's asleep.
Speaker 5 (31:48):
Oh my god.
Speaker 6 (31:49):
I thank god live streaming wasn't around Peck, you know,
you would have seen it all. But yeah, so anyways,
it gave me back structure and routine. So I loved it.
And then I thought, after you know, a month or
(32:11):
so of being out of jail and having their routine,
and that I was lonely. You know, I had nobody,
I had no friends, I had no real friends. I
got bailed to this house with this couple and he
was still I had met him while I was getting fried,
and he was still getting fried while I was bailed
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towards house. I mean, I'm grateful. I'm so fucking grateful
that they let me stay there because otherwise I had
nowhere to go. So I'm so grateful, But it was
I mean, I don't have control over him. He knew
I was trying to sort my shit out, and you know,
he would go into the garage and have have his
(32:52):
pipes and whatnot. But this was a moment for me
to say, how bad do you fucking want it? Like you,
I could easily get up and go on that garage
and say give me a hit, and then you're back
down there and then all those goals and fucking thing
are down the toilet, or you can stay your hoss
in the room, wait for him to get out, and
then you're going for your smoke, you know, for your cigarette.
(33:15):
So it was an opportunity for me to really test
how bad did I want it? Because it was easily accessible,
and I didn't. I was like, nah, I'll go to
sleep because I've got to get up at seven. I've
got to walk to the train, get on the train,
get on the bus, go to the gym for an hour,
have a shower there. Then I'll go across the road.
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Then I'll volunteer until one o'clock, you know. And then
because I was lonely, I pulled out my phone and
I started doing some videos on Facebook. And I didn't
know who the fuck was watching. I didn't even care.
But at the time I had like lost my parents' truss, right,
(33:59):
because I mean, nobody wants to see their daughter lose
themselves correct, and so so many times my mum would
be like, oh my god, baby, are you getting sober?
And I'd be like, Mom, I haven't smoked for days
and my eyes are fucking pinging. And I'd say, can
I have some money? You know, I'm quitting, Mom, I
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haven't smoked for days. Can I have some money? And
because she just wants to believe, she just wants to
believe that actually her daughter is and so she'd give
me the money and then I'd be straight out there
to buy me some more, you know, And so what
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do you call it? I had burned all those bridges.
So when I was, you know, just got out of
jail and going through that, I didn't really have anybody.
So I started doing these videos online. And initially, you know,
I didn't really have a plan, and I was just
like I put the first little video out and I
(35:03):
was like, fuck, that was pretty cool, Like just having
something to focus on. That's initially what it was, just
having something to focus on. Then I was like, oh,
I could do a cooking video. And then I was like, bro,
you got no money because I'm volunteering, so I have
no money. Well, she's smoking ciggies.
Speaker 5 (35:23):
Though, and.
Speaker 6 (35:30):
We lived right across the road from this supermarket and
then next to the supermarket with Salvation Army Bin. So
I was like, oh, I'm in heaven. The universe has provided.
And so what I did. I found one of the
full that I was living with. He had those big
Hiver's vests. Yeah, but you know, like the road works
(35:56):
the road workers vest. So I was like, okay, ideas
coming to me. So what I did was I fucking
put that on and I opened it up. I cut
the inside of both you know, the vest, and then
I would walk on the supermarket and steal me some food.
I would steal me some food, tampons, well if I
need it, and like I would steal a chicken breast,
(36:19):
a piece of garlic, some chili, and then I would
like go back across the road, set my camera up. Okay, guys,
we're gonna make us keep me busy. Sorry to the Woolworths.
I think you're I'm not.
Speaker 4 (36:43):
So essentially your your social media influence came from desiration.
Speaker 6 (36:50):
Yeah, inspiration for connection. Well, I don't even know if
it would be connection because I didn't give a fuck
who was.
Speaker 4 (36:59):
It was more so.
Speaker 2 (37:02):
Something for me to focus on.
Speaker 6 (37:03):
If I'm not focusing on doing something constructive and positive,
I'm focusing on getting fried.
Speaker 5 (37:11):
You know.
Speaker 6 (37:12):
So it just so happened for me. It was social
media Facebook essentially, and then the other.
Speaker 5 (37:27):
Got the ingredients the same way.
Speaker 6 (37:32):
Yeah, I know, but hey, we all talk about humble
beginning now I work along some of these open markets
and resourcefulness.
Speaker 4 (37:47):
Hello, utilizing the resource when you when was the clincher
for you when you realized, heck, I'm actually really good
at this and people want more of the social media
ah fu.
Speaker 6 (38:01):
That came later down, way later down the trip. I
don't even think I'm there.
Speaker 5 (38:05):
Oh girls, up, shut the gates, HULTI fire.
Speaker 6 (38:10):
As we progress into this little journey we're on at
the moment, then you'll kind of figure out why I
still don't feel like I'm there.
Speaker 2 (38:18):
Have you made it on the show? You've made it?
Speaker 6 (38:22):
Well, then I finally made.
Speaker 4 (38:23):
It because if you fast fast rewind a little bit,
when covid was a thing here and al or the world,
your videos really went nuts and people went this check like,
I really got an idea of who you were just
back then. But I had realized then, oh, she's been
around it for a week while and then it just
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took off.
Speaker 3 (38:46):
Yeah, I think our video was the same one. The
first video that we've seen, just the two pression shower.
Speaker 5 (38:54):
It's such as honestly, and I think yeah, there was two.
Speaker 8 (38:58):
There was that one and then there was the one
where you were doing the tutorial on how to use
the sharpie to do your makeup.
Speaker 5 (39:04):
D the Vivid and.
Speaker 6 (39:07):
Those ones, especially the Vimen and that actually all of
them is something for me to focus on positives. That's
my thing. That's how I started, was just something to
focus on. And yeah, I just feel like that's what
it's been.
Speaker 4 (39:27):
When did you finally realize though, that there was people
out there who really resonated with your story and you
could actually do more for them?
Speaker 6 (39:35):
Yeah, so how they start? Wait, I just want to
share one more thing, just you know what, the Hyves jacket.
I can't let the side without telling you the other
way I utilized that jacket and there are my videos.
My first really is I started wearing that and walking
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over there and I'm on curfew. I'm not even allowed out,
and I I wanted to go through the Salvation Army
bins and so what I would do is we're there
and then walk over there and cars would be pulling
into the supermarket and I would make it look like
I was I worked for the council, and I was
cleaning shut up and I was cleaning shu up. Oh,
(40:17):
I was going through a babe fu. Yeah, And what
I would do. I remember finding bags of makeup, bags
of like play you know, playtime kind of jewelry, and
I was thinking, I'm going to take that for my
baby when I see you, my daughter in New Zealand.
And so that's what I was doing my first videos.
(40:39):
Hey guys, I'm just got my Hiver's jacket on and
we're going to go over to the bins and we're
gonna just we're going to pretend that we're working, you know,
but we're going to go through and see what we
can find, you know. And Yeah, what I would do
is I remember finding a Foreman grill box and I
was like, what motherfucker would brow them? So I took
(41:03):
it home, of course, cleaned it up, and then the
next day I caught the train, caught the bus, went
to my job, and then I sold it to the
owner of Second Chance Cafe and she gave me like
forty dollars entrepreneur boom, and then I went and bought
my citie Yeah, and they got me four. That's how
I had to be resourceful. I had to think about
(41:25):
how I was gonna fucking make some money. Yeah and yeah,
in a situation like that, you have to think how
you're going to get your arms out and how urban hunting.
Speaker 5 (41:35):
Yeah. If you see me at the supermarket with a
highber's jacket, don't mind your business.
Speaker 6 (41:45):
I don't wear those anymore, saying I don't own any
of those.
Speaker 4 (41:49):
Anywhere we watch you on social media, you are you
don't fluff around, You don't. It's no smoky mirrors. It's
you and you're fuddy. If the kids have done the dishes,
it's really loved. But does that how does it work
for you? Like?
Speaker 5 (42:03):
Do you do you love that? Do you get criticism
for it?
Speaker 7 (42:06):
Oh?
Speaker 5 (42:07):
Yeah, you do you overcome that?
Speaker 4 (42:10):
Well?
Speaker 6 (42:10):
I mean I have an option or I have a choice.
Everybody has a choice. Your choice is you're either going
to wear a mask or you're not going to wear
a mask. And the reason, you know, you have to
sit with yourself. And this is for anywhere you go.
This's not even just for social media. This could be
for your job, this could be for whatever. You have
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to sit with yourself and kind of say, well, hey,
if I wear a mask, I've got to wear that
mask for so long, you know, during my day, And
what the fuck would I be wearing that mask for?
To make other people comfortable, to make me more easily digestible? Oh,
pray for a fucking stranger, please, we all need that.
(43:00):
Or I just pot myself out there. And the thing
is you wear their musk, They're still going to find
something to criticize. So their mask isn't sitting properly, it's
the wrong color, it's that ah fuck off. Yeah Na,
And you put yourself out there and you say hey man,
And that's one thing that I had to that I
(43:21):
did think about doing when I first started. Put yourself
out there in the club. They either fucking take it
or they leave it. If they leave it, sweet, I
didn't have you to begin with, no fucking loss for me.
Should you were nothing in my life? Where were you
when I was down and out?
Speaker 5 (43:38):
Oh?
Speaker 4 (43:39):
Fuck?
Speaker 6 (43:39):
Who knows, Rach? But if you stay, that means you
accept me for who the who the hell I am? Yeah,
And you're the type of people I wanted my life.
I want someone in my life that wants that expects
nothing of me, then for me to be myself one
hundred percent, because that's what I expect of you. You
don't have to wear a fucking mask around me, I love.
Speaker 4 (44:03):
Do you?
Speaker 2 (44:03):
How do you?
Speaker 4 (44:04):
Because I mean you must get the trolls on there
that's seen a message and this and there, and we
know you as like the if this and if there
no mask, which is awesome, But do you respond to
those those people who criticize and if you do, how
do you? How do you deal with it?
Speaker 6 (44:18):
In the beginning, when I first started on social media,
I did. I became very defensive, and I felt like
I had to stand up for myself because if I didn't,
who was going to. As time has progressed and probably
as I've grown up, you know, every time I get
(44:39):
a negative comment or something like that, oh believe me,
I start writing the message. Then I'm writing and I'm like,
oh you mother, and then it takes growth to delete
that message, and I delete it. And because this is
this has been my all for years now, the whole
(45:02):
time I've been on social media. When someone says something negative,
it's like a game of table tennis, and when they
put their opinion out there, they're whacking the ball into
your square and onto your side of the court. Now
it's up to you. As that ball is in the
(45:23):
air and you've seen it, it's on its way and
you're processing, you have a decision to make, and that
decision is to react and respond by hitting that ball
back over and just know that when you hit it,
she's gonna hit her back and it's gonna forever be
a fucking game of tennis. Or you can step aside
(45:47):
and let that ball fly off the fucking table by felicios.
Speaker 2 (45:53):
And that's it.
Speaker 6 (45:54):
Game over. The energy you would have used to hit
that ball back over to her care, you could have
taken their energy and gone over there and done something
positive for yourself. Yes, and I guarantee you're going to
get a positive return on that of that energy. Now,
which one would you prefer to? Do I head it
(46:16):
back or do I go over here and play with
my child, play with my kids, play or invest my
energy into something. I'm going to get a positive I
packed there every day all day. It's not to say
that I walk over here and not forgotten off yah, yeah,
fucking mother, take my mind off this. But she don't
(46:41):
need to hear them.
Speaker 2 (46:42):
Yeah exactly, my walls could.
Speaker 6 (46:49):
But yeah, that's it. Everything comes down to having a choice.
Speaker 4 (46:54):
That's right. Well, we're all from the North, the mighty North,
and we're loud up there. We're very proud people, and
I wish more people were unfiltered. A lot of them are.
We love that about you, especially being from in the
far north of Ahiapata Paradise. Amazing. You said earlier about
your mum and your mom and dad and you felt
(47:15):
like your mom had lost your trust in you. But
the dynamic now from what we see, is amazing. And
how much how much does your family mean to you
and your children, your lifestyle, your man, what does it
all mean to you?
Speaker 6 (47:29):
Number one supporters now? And you know when I decided,
when I got out of Joe, I decided to change
my life. It wasn't just about changing the last five years.
I decided, Holy Rick, there were things that you know
I had way before, like jealousy, insecurities. This was prior
(47:51):
to my son passing away. This was my opportunity to
rebuild who the fuck I was and I had to
think what parts of me prior to Alaska passing, and
do I want to take into the next thirty years.
You know, me and my mum especially, we've had our
We've been through our things. You know, you have two
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people that are spot on identical shit, you are going
to have your moments where you're going to clash and
things like that. So we had a journey and then
when you know, when I decided that I was going
to kind of focus on all those things that I
didn't want to take into the next thirty years, me
and my mom came together and we really invested a
(48:36):
lot of time into each other. You know, we didn't
just talk about all those bridges that I burned with her.
We took it way back, We stripped everything back, We
dealt with our trauma, and we began to heal together. Now,
I mean, fuck, I'm flying to tomorrow. She's flying there
(48:59):
too for the weekend. Like she's my best fucking friend. No,
she's everything to me. And again, like when you see us,
you would never have thought that actually our journey together
had been so strained. You know, without going into detail, do.
Speaker 4 (49:18):
You think though in hindsight, the experiences you have and
the loss, but also with the addiction that it's actually
made you even stronger amazing, which and if you hadn't
had that, do you think you'd be doing this now?
Speaker 6 (49:34):
Oh no, no, no, no, see prior to me and that,
you know. So the thing is, when you hit rock bottom,
everyone's just afraid of hitting rock bottom. And if you
don't even need to hit that, I love that for you.
But people need to remember that there's so much growth
(49:54):
in rock bottom you that the only way from there
is up, and you you have the choice to recreate
this ideal person that you want to be on your
journey up from rock bottom. You know what was the question?
Speaker 4 (50:15):
Yeah, yeah, absolutely, that's it, because you've clearly you made
a choice.
Speaker 5 (50:19):
And the choice was, well, I met rock bottom and
this is not cool and I need to go.
Speaker 6 (50:25):
And also the thing was just reflecting on me and
my mum's relationship.
Speaker 4 (50:29):
Amazing, you know she is.
Speaker 6 (50:31):
She's fucking the bomb digity. That's why people when they're like,
god you swear heaps, I'm like, fuck up, where do
you meet my mother? But the thing was as well,
while I'm sitting there, I'm thinking I don't want another
thirty years of a strange relationship with my mother. I
want to fuck in the next thirty years to be
me and her right or die. Yeah, you know, I'm
(50:52):
the only daughter and she's my queen. We need to
be fucking connected.
Speaker 2 (50:58):
We need to you know.
Speaker 6 (51:00):
And you know in these last six years that I've
been out of jail and that, man, we've just become
so tight. You can see us on social media.
Speaker 3 (51:11):
You know, you like, because all this may be that
you do like some would say, oh, she's just going
live and you know, but we know it to be
that it's hard made.
Speaker 2 (51:21):
How do you say motivated and energized?
Speaker 4 (51:23):
Oh good question, A.
Speaker 6 (51:27):
Very good question. The thing is you've got to think
about who's on the receiving end of that, you know, man.
And I just got back as he's no from RaRo
yesterday and I've been over there and ich Tucky doing
woman's empowerment retreats, and yeah, come back with this whole
(51:51):
thing of I need to do this here in New Zealand.
So I utilized that experience as somewhat of a pilot
and I'm back here now to do some money and
to get these up and going, because man, our women
need to be empowered. If we're not empowered, and we're
not strong, and we're not you know, courageous. We will
(52:13):
put up with ship that we shouldn't be fucking putting
up with, you know, or we will find ourselves in situations.
Speaker 2 (52:19):
That we shouldn't be in.
Speaker 6 (52:22):
So yeah, so that's what I What was the question,
How I keep motivating? It's that type of thing. It's
hearing that the minute I go live. On the other end,
there may be someone that's going through a fucking hard time,
somebody that's had a shit day, and you know, they
may watch something or they may hear something that I've
(52:42):
said that has just given them that little bit of
car to push through, you know, and give give it
another go. I remember getting a message from this lady
and she had messaged me to say that the night before,
and this was a few years ago. The night before
Nick's I was I had just dropped Wait, I'll go back.
(53:08):
The night before I had gotten beaten from my husband
and I woke up in the morning and he had
gone to work, and I dropped my daughter off to
school and I came home. I got in my most
beautiful outfit. I wrote a letter, a suicide letter. I
(53:30):
put it on the bed I stood up, I put
my neck in the noose, and something that you had
said made me step away from the noose, get down.
I grabbed that letter. I went in my daughter's room,
I pecked her a suitcase, went to the school, picked
her up, and now her and I are on the road. Yes,
(53:51):
and I'm fucking I'm staying alive. I'm going to keep
pushing through for my daughter, and I'm leaving him and
we're fucking out there.
Speaker 5 (53:58):
I mean, Brosn't it not funny?
Speaker 4 (54:02):
Is it's it's quite surreal when you don't even know
you have that kind of power, but it reads something
about what you say or do or how you act
as just an unfiltered manawa that it resonates with someone,
and how big or small that is. It saves people.
Speaker 6 (54:17):
Yeah, that's right. And that's why when these negativity that
comes and you just have to remind yourself, Hey, you
may not find me easily digestible. You know, you may
not like the way I look, you may not like
the way that I sound. This person over here does, yes,
And it's for this person over here who needs to
(54:39):
be empowered and motivated by somebody like me, just because
of that you can go and get fucked.
Speaker 2 (54:46):
Yes, I have the date with that.
Speaker 4 (54:50):
I truly do.
Speaker 5 (54:51):
And I think I needed to hear that myself because
I that's.
Speaker 4 (54:57):
Give it because it's true.
Speaker 5 (54:59):
I do the same thing I.
Speaker 4 (55:00):
Think you guys know, like I'd like to please people,
and then sometimes those people don't like that I'm not
digestible for them, and I go, well.
Speaker 2 (55:08):
Why you should like me?
Speaker 5 (55:09):
I have a cool guy, But actually nah.
Speaker 6 (55:14):
And itself the approval, you don't need that at all.
Speaker 5 (55:19):
I need that.
Speaker 6 (55:19):
The only fucking approval and validation you need is the
one you'd give to your fucking self.
Speaker 5 (55:24):
Oh I feel alive.
Speaker 6 (55:26):
Yeah.
Speaker 5 (55:28):
So seemingly it's so you've done all this amazing my head,
You've you know, I think that's why people resonate with
your quarter, to resonate with you as a person.
Speaker 4 (55:35):
Is because we've seen where you come from and all
of that.
Speaker 8 (55:39):
So we're too next like so because it seems like
you've done it all already, but we're too what's the
big goal, what's the big ambition, what's the drive?
Speaker 6 (55:46):
Yep? So what I'm wanting to focus on is these
women empowerment you know, retreats. And that's just because I
now see the need to have our women be empowered
and brave and just to know that they are worth it.
(56:09):
You know, they deserve to be loved, to be seen,
to be heard. I was just talking about this this morning.
You everybody deserves to be seen and heard. And you
also do not deserve to be in a toxic relationship.
You do not deserve to be abused, whether that's physically,
(56:31):
you know, psychologically, mentally, all of that. There's such a
fucking good life out there. And this isn't just for
you know, these women and this woman's empowerment retreat just
to humans. There's such a fucking big world out there.
The world is our oyster, and I just really want
(56:51):
to push people to focus on there and get out
there and experience.
Speaker 5 (56:55):
It absolutely well.
Speaker 4 (56:58):
Next, we are massive fans of yours, and uh, I've
known you a couple of years and I didn't know
that full full story. So hey, thank you so much.
Speaker 6 (57:09):
Here because I feel like people just think I'm this
fucking clown that does tiktoks and things like that. When
like scratching, that's just a glimpse of that's just actually
when I board, when I'm bored, I'm into depth.
Speaker 4 (57:32):
Yes, Well before we say hi and martiwa any final words,
you've got to say.
Speaker 6 (57:38):
Oh, keep your ill is peer peeled and your eyelids
peeled back and every other thing you want to peel back,
because yes, there's there's more to come, definitely more to come.
Speaker 4 (57:52):
I love it. Well, it's a thank you so much,
Native Mihi queer, and thank you for your story, for
being you, for being that a glimmer of hope out
here and showing people there is more to it that
meets the eye. And keep on keeping on. You are
truly truly amazing. We can thank you enough feels emotion.
Speaker 3 (58:16):
Or straight up tongue up the guts or self belief
and I'm not worrying about the outside noise.
Speaker 2 (58:24):
Love that and love your copropa au.
Speaker 3 (58:30):
And thanks for sharing time and call it or and
wan Nanga and they'll fundy card it all today.
Speaker 4 (58:35):
Thank you for having me next everybody, Yes, the one
and only, Oh girl.
Speaker 5 (58:46):
Amazing.
Speaker 2 (58:47):
That was the next hard on Mike.
Speaker 4 (58:50):
Like you know she she's very open about her story
online anyway, but not I did not know the depth
of that story and that that will that break anybody.
Speaker 8 (59:00):
So what a woman I was a fan before. I'm
more of a fan now after having heard that. Yeah,
and also too, because you know, I got fully so
oh man, as soon as you started.
Speaker 4 (59:10):
Talking about yeah, you know, I could feel it.
Speaker 6 (59:13):
Man.
Speaker 4 (59:13):
That's you know what I love the most about her too.
Speaker 5 (59:16):
She's utilized her experience and herself to create business, to
create income, to create motivation, and to create aspiration for others.
That is massive.
Speaker 2 (59:26):
I was like, feel privilege that we were able to
yeah sits.
Speaker 3 (59:30):
In one hour with her saying and to see a
side where yeah, she is right. We do think she's
just you know that straight up. They got's funny, take
the puss out.
Speaker 5 (59:39):
Of everything, you know, but.
Speaker 2 (59:44):
And we were able to.
Speaker 5 (59:46):
Be in that that is right.
Speaker 4 (59:48):
Well she was our final guess yes for episode ten,
season one, The Nicks.
Speaker 5 (59:54):
I can't see what way.
Speaker 3 (59:56):
I feel like we sort of wasted an opportunity there
because I was also wondering or like thinking about at
the same time she's sitting here about just a huge
plate of kime on cimelives yeah, muscle, yeah yeah, So
I was like, oh, Nick, time, next time one has
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a must.
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Bringing up why not the EWE.
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Teen season? Can we just give a Paka back into
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It's been an amazing season, all of our gifts, ten episodes.
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We thank you, we praise you, we love you, and
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With the cord we die, Why way, height of Mind.
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This is carding off the podcast and I am Macio from.
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Look up in me well chair, that's fantastic. I'm looking
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Speaker 4 (00:48):
Also from Final Days talking out and would you guess everybody,
this is the final episode of season why the final
count down? Yeah? I was like, we've had so many
guests on our show and today is like none other.
Speaker 5 (01:05):
But it's going to be amazing. Welcome to Ends and Me.
Speaker 4 (01:08):
iHeartRadio's latest, greatest, Colorful Marti Fantastic Altior podcast. That is
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but more importantly celebrating all things to tye to right
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And you're so right.
Speaker 3 (01:36):
We have had the best guests on here celebrating all
of those things, you know, that is the norm, that
is the stereotype of what it means to be Maldi
everything and it is so cool. And so we've got
one more episode, but I'm gonna put it out there.
Speaker 2 (01:52):
We're gonna have another season.
Speaker 5 (01:54):
All the fans, all the millions of fans out there listening,
who enjoyed it. You have to uproar, create an uproar.
There better be a season two.
Speaker 4 (02:01):
I've already signed the contract, of course.
Speaker 6 (02:05):
Nah.
Speaker 2 (02:05):
Anyway, well I not.
Speaker 3 (02:06):
This is all about inspiring the fin note raahi, everybody
at home all over the world.
Speaker 4 (02:11):
Eat.
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Then if you want to be somebody and you want to.
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Go somewhere, wake up and pay attention.
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If you want to be somebody and you wanna go somewhere,
you wake up and pay attention.
Speaker 5 (02:24):
We've said that teen episodes. Now I am loving us.
Speaker 3 (02:27):
Yeah.
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If you're not paying attention by now, you ain't listening.
Speaker 2 (02:30):
And if you didn't sing along, this is probably your
first episode.
Speaker 5 (02:34):
Shape gosh, I'm so excited.
Speaker 2 (02:37):
To go out the copa the topic of the day.
Speaker 5 (02:40):
As you all know, it's a EWI for ten episodes.
Speaker 4 (02:43):
Now there's a Copapper topic of the day where we
hone into the fabulousness of all of our people across
them all to but more so to create an example
of how you could be achieving this at home. And
today's copper or Tea is about Mary Wahin in entrepreneurship, roles,
business and social media influencing and ah oh.
Speaker 5 (03:05):
Masia homming back, coming back, Masia.
Speaker 4 (03:08):
I'm so excited for this one because we have saved
one of the best for last. She has gone on
to be one of the most recognized social media influencers
in altyodor. She is funny, she's creative, she goes hard
out where she needs to. She has no barrier, she
has no filter, straight up, straight up.
Speaker 5 (03:26):
I'm a massive fan of her.
Speaker 4 (03:28):
She really came into herself in the last few years
and now she is making herself the business. It's the
one and only social media influencer, Mama businesswoman.
Speaker 5 (03:37):
Next isn't the funner?
Speaker 2 (03:40):
Next isn't the funner? Next is in the funner?
Speaker 5 (03:44):
I'm so excited to get out Yes, and I.
Speaker 3 (03:48):
Feel because she's gonna be in the funny that worth
somewhat made it.
Speaker 4 (03:54):
You know what I'm with you, I'm smelling what you
were staying at him I'm like, you know what, she
got on a plane and come to our copapa order
because why because we want to be somebody and we're
going somewhere and we've woken up to pay attention.
Speaker 2 (04:06):
Yes, thank you?
Speaker 3 (04:07):
Next any anyway, quotquarter or co where who do you keep?
They had, like, it's on you, my, you want to
stick around because it's going to be nothing.
Speaker 5 (04:15):
But short of hilarious.
Speaker 2 (04:17):
Next coming up very soon today though, Yeah.
Speaker 3 (04:20):
Let's have them order their cuffee for the day for
kick kick Kick Cafe c back kick kick kick Cack Cafe.
Speaker 4 (04:26):
That's right, ten episodes now, ten ways to order your
coffee around them or too. And if you've tried it
at home, good on you keep going. And if people
still don't get it, shame on them.
Speaker 5 (04:35):
But you keep going. So for today's cuffe, Ted Marcia,
where we going to order? What are we gonna do?
Speaker 3 (04:41):
I've got next in mine and possibly you'd say I've
got you in mind as well.
Speaker 2 (04:46):
For this coffee order, it is just simply a.
Speaker 4 (04:49):
Long black, a long black, zero calories and that calories
or energy or caffeine.
Speaker 2 (04:55):
I'm sure next will be a fan of the long black.
Speaker 4 (04:57):
Well, I remember way back in I've just I literally
just got what you were going how he was like,
Luke wants a long black, hold the caffeine, hold the coffee,
order long and.
Speaker 5 (05:11):
Hold hold the E gauge.
Speaker 4 (05:14):
But man, episode three, I think we ordered a short
black and recorded the Phoenix.
Speaker 3 (05:19):
Yes, now the long black, we shall call it.
Speaker 2 (05:25):
The phoenix to go Phoenix Phoenix.
Speaker 5 (05:30):
How am I going to order a long black? Massia simple?
Speaker 2 (05:35):
Mark?
Speaker 4 (05:35):
Oh?
Speaker 2 (05:37):
Because you know, usually black is.
Speaker 3 (05:39):
The describer, right, but in this sentence, Raw is the describer.
So it sounds weird when you've got to describing things.
You're like, what what is long and black? It's just
we're just talking about the coffee. It's just a long black.
Speaker 5 (05:53):
I didn't actually think of it, Raw, Mark, Oh, okay,
I want you.
Speaker 2 (05:58):
Depending on the breasta, they'll go, are you talking about
the coffee?
Speaker 7 (06:01):
Or so.
Speaker 4 (06:04):
If I walk into a cafe and we're going to
go coming into one and I want my long black,
I'm gonna say kura.
Speaker 8 (06:12):
Mkuye, and then then come out with this thing that's
not a coffee.
Speaker 2 (06:19):
And hopefully come out with a long black. It's find out.
Can you tell me? Though? For the you know, non
coffee drinker. What exactly is a long black.
Speaker 4 (06:28):
It's a long black is essentially what we had a
short black, but it's more water added water.
Speaker 2 (06:33):
I was just thinking it's the same thing, but a
bigger cap.
Speaker 5 (06:36):
Well yeah, yeah, it's like a double shot, a little
bit more, but.
Speaker 2 (06:39):
You don't add more coffee.
Speaker 4 (06:41):
No, it's strong enough, trust you just.
Speaker 2 (06:44):
Add more water.
Speaker 5 (06:45):
It's the same, even worse.
Speaker 8 (06:46):
It's the same. So short black was just the shot
of coffee. It's the short black plus water. Yeah, so
to like to like water it down a little bit,
make it a little less hush and.
Speaker 4 (06:56):
An Americano from one of our previous episodes is just.
Speaker 5 (06:59):
A lot of water.
Speaker 3 (07:00):
Yeah, okay, And so you justus and you are to
order one of these. You're purely just ordering this because
you need that punch, not because of the taste.
Speaker 5 (07:09):
Yeah, you need a punch, and you also want to
feel it in your groins and like that for the taste,
your psycho. Have you ordered one before a long black? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (07:19):
But I like the Americano medicandal because it's more it's
lest thing.
Speaker 5 (07:30):
Look, you want to cuddle.
Speaker 7 (07:34):
Fienna, use that the chocolate you got that choc there,
Marcus and I have a long black Yes, ah, look
at that.
Speaker 4 (07:47):
You've got ten ways you eat. Order your coffee across
the wall. To give it a go and let us
know how you put it.
Speaker 5 (07:53):
Put that in your dating profile too, I will. I'm
looking for.
Speaker 3 (07:58):
Mark and then's kick. Okay, it's time to call it
over with our brought to you every time by our
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Speaker 5 (08:27):
Go and buy it, have some fun, judge it like
we do.
Speaker 8 (08:33):
Call my mitti met is like, so tour isn't bum.
Speaker 5 (08:45):
Oh meet meat? I got it. You know I got it.
Speaker 2 (08:50):
You got a meat stum.
Speaker 5 (08:56):
Two c's bomb She thick, No, that's not. Don't donker,
but don't dumper.
Speaker 2 (09:04):
Pull up to my bumper.
Speaker 4 (09:05):
Yeah, I'm I'm guessing it's a it's a it's a
boombye bum like a boombee. Why my hands doing like
boomby light bob change the light of boom And that's
how you know it's it's not pull up to its
got anything to do with a bum yes, okay, meet meeting,
(09:27):
meeting me and meat. See I was getting meat like
misteak like waggy you bum like you gotta waggy you bum.
Speaker 5 (09:36):
Medi Okay.
Speaker 4 (09:42):
If it was midy mid, I'm like, oh your message
the bom you got a message, but it's me meet
like me in the far North?
Speaker 2 (09:52):
Could be.
Speaker 5 (09:56):
What's the vibe if you're talking about you know, tell
Wade that's where the way do I go? I feel
like it does?
Speaker 3 (10:06):
It does?
Speaker 5 (10:07):
Why do it travels up to? Know that? But it
stops at a break at over there, carries on to
so maybe you need a rest bump.
Speaker 2 (10:17):
And saying that, yeah, do you bathe them there?
Speaker 4 (10:21):
No?
Speaker 5 (10:21):
Oh yeah, I don't know if you're supposed to do
I haven't, but I don't know that. It's just like a.
Speaker 2 (10:27):
I don't know.
Speaker 3 (10:28):
I'm actually like using taker dictionary right now for mittimity,
like just so we can get an insight.
Speaker 5 (10:36):
Yeah, because I'm a bit stuck on.
Speaker 2 (10:38):
Because obviously I know I just want them to confume.
Speaker 5 (10:40):
Oh yeah, because you don't want to be wrong the dictionary.
Speaker 3 (10:44):
Okay, So Mitti says to lick or to lick up,
which is this is not the translation, but I'm telling
you what it says.
Speaker 2 (10:54):
Okay, okay, Macia, you said it locky locky bum?
Speaker 5 (11:02):
Why but I'm gonna go would we use it?
Speaker 2 (11:04):
And the key? It's not that it doesn't it's.
Speaker 4 (11:07):
Not like locking your wounds.
Speaker 5 (11:10):
You know, a great save like you got to kick
up the try.
Speaker 8 (11:16):
It's a PG show, right, you know, you know that's
your wounds. You know you got to boot up the bum,
lock your wounds in the corner.
Speaker 2 (11:27):
I actually like that. You always try, you know bad.
Some things to.
Speaker 5 (11:36):
My mom would be like very good, Yes, that was
what pulling?
Speaker 4 (11:40):
Yeah, so is he right? Is it loocking the butt?
Look the word that's wrong?
Speaker 2 (11:46):
Okay, is someone there is a kiss as oh.
Speaker 4 (11:50):
Yeah yeah yeah yeah we all know one of those
in the workplace. Look at that tongue.
Speaker 5 (11:57):
I thought, yeah, so I thing.
Speaker 2 (12:04):
It's you know, and they give it's Lisa who's also
the boss to match.
Speaker 5 (12:11):
Or you see them in the office with the boss
and you're like, bro, look at that follow.
Speaker 2 (12:17):
I'll get your breakfast all.
Speaker 5 (12:20):
The one killing class they brought the teacher in Apple. Yeah,
you know they're like, no, chicken, he's always the here.
Speaker 4 (12:27):
I'm here.
Speaker 5 (12:30):
Kiss us you're talking about Saturday. Oky by right, they
called it off for today. They ain't got caught.
Speaker 2 (12:45):
My cupoo guaranteed though, louis or.
Speaker 5 (12:52):
All right, it's called the corner off.
Speaker 2 (12:58):
Here by my ya wa going at the Moroco.
Speaker 4 (13:02):
It is it? It is just everybody. I'm so excited
for this because we have saved one of the biggest
ones for last.
Speaker 5 (13:11):
She is in the funny.
Speaker 2 (13:13):
I can smell her, I can feel her energy.
Speaker 5 (13:16):
Here are you ready?
Speaker 4 (13:17):
Should we do? It?
Speaker 2 (13:18):
Is my new hity time too good?
Speaker 5 (13:20):
Oh here we got.
Speaker 2 (13:44):
Away looking stand up?
Speaker 5 (13:47):
Give me a cattle. Bring it up, beautiful people. The
one and only, the one and only.
Speaker 2 (13:58):
Nikola next Adams, I know my height and my uh
so cool to have you here. Actually a little bit
starstruck lot Yeah, and.
Speaker 5 (14:13):
I don't know have you heard it before? I don't
know have you heard it before?
Speaker 3 (14:17):
But because we've got you on our last guest for
the season, we feel like we've made it.
Speaker 5 (14:25):
That means we made it.
Speaker 8 (14:26):
I was saying earlier in the show, I'm genuinely starstruck
to you. I feel like someone texts my mom tell
her I made it made even.
Speaker 4 (14:36):
My mom today when I told her we were coming
into it to film with Nick.
Speaker 5 (14:39):
She's like, like, yep, that's also great.
Speaker 4 (14:47):
Before we get into the nitty gritty, we are so
grateful to have you on our show. But as always,
we always a bit of research on our money hitty
to make sure they're all legit. As you can probably tell,
our show is all about celebrating greatness of the mind
North to Tie, Tokio and Boomy, we know who you are,
but those that don't shame Marcia does a little research
(15:07):
to make sure we're building it up.
Speaker 2 (15:15):
Okay.
Speaker 3 (15:15):
Social media sensation Nikola Nix Adams reckons her ever growing
popularity is down to the fact that she's straight up,
honest and authentic about who she is. With one point
three million probably more online followers and having one Personality
of the Year, social media sensation Nixt is the first
admit she's an anomaly.
Speaker 4 (15:37):
Oh next, like that is amazing now knowing all of
that before we get into the Q and a nervous
by girl before we get into the Q and a
tell everybody where you're from.
Speaker 5 (15:51):
And who you are?
Speaker 6 (15:52):
Yeah, so yeah, I'm from a Hippata which is way
up north, beautiful little paradise. Who am I? Oh?
Speaker 4 (16:03):
Fuck?
Speaker 6 (16:05):
Well, hey, I swear heap. So I'm just going to
throw that out there now. But it builds my you know,
that's a part of my character. I'm a mother of
holy rick.
Speaker 4 (16:17):
How many now a tribe.
Speaker 6 (16:19):
I've got a tribe. So at home we've got five
teenagers between fourteen and eleven. Wow, you know, I stepped
into my relationship with my beautiful partner with my two.
He was a solo dead with his two. And then
we've got a fungo boy as well, who's from from Katya,
so choice. We brought him all the way down to
(16:41):
Wellington see the Big Light, and he's fucking loving it.
It was only supposed to be for term and now
it's been two years, but we love him. And then
we've got, of course, fifteen month old Egypt r Oh
and she's just the boss of the house.
Speaker 4 (17:01):
She's I love watching her online and her literally mannerisms
of which she's like eating and then the Rata trip
and she's just like living.
Speaker 6 (17:10):
Because you walk into our lounge, you've got all these five,
you know, big teenagers and they're all sitting there watching
Sesame Street, don't you tell? Or they could be watching
a movie. And then she comes crawling in.
Speaker 5 (17:27):
It's good kids.
Speaker 8 (17:29):
I know exactly how that goes. We've got a daughter
who does exactly the same before her. It's Gabby's doll house,
no matter what's on. As soon as she comes in, Gabby,
I want Gabby and we have to drop out.
Speaker 5 (17:40):
You know, I watched that for myself, stopper.
Speaker 6 (17:46):
Fucking The thing is the lounge is the biggest TV.
Speaker 2 (17:49):
Yeah, true, and she knows that.
Speaker 6 (17:51):
And she knows it.
Speaker 4 (17:52):
Now we know you as not only a friend but
television personality, social media influencer of the gods.
Speaker 5 (18:01):
That are a matua carry on woman. You've got your
own brand, but.
Speaker 4 (18:07):
You have a group of people who literally you. They
resonate with who you are because you do keep it real.
You're unfiltered. You say what you say and you mean
it as well. But where did it all start for you?
Speaker 6 (18:20):
Oh? It started with me just trying to get the
attention of my children's father, to be honest. Yeah, that's
why I I jumped on the internet. Is because at
the time I had just got out of jail and
I was on a six month mail program in Australia
(18:41):
where I had to fucking you know, behave are we're
talking about that we're talking about, like social media.
Speaker 5 (18:50):
From you from when you started from your.
Speaker 6 (18:56):
Just say fucking keep going. Six years ago, I just
got out of jail, and you know, I was thinking,
fucking now, I need to get a hold of my kids.
My kids were in New Zealand, and I was thinking,
how am I going to get a hold of them
(19:17):
to let them know that Mum's you know, I'm back.
I want to get back into their lives. I had
been absent, For those that don't know, I had been
absent from my children's lives for five years because of
the last of my fifteen month old son. He had
(19:37):
passed away in Perth, Australia, and right at that moment,
I just completely died. And I ended up spending five
years on methamphetamine, five years of doing whatever it was
(19:57):
that I needed to do to get them, need to
get the drugs, because I needed to have that blanket
over me so that I didn't have to acknowledge that
my son had actually died. You know, So I tried
to bury myself in addiction.
Speaker 4 (20:16):
Wow.
Speaker 6 (20:17):
Yeah, And that was purely because I didn't want to
face the truth. You know, who the hell wants to
acknowledge that They're never ever going to get to brush
their child's here, never going to get to touch their child,
never going to see their child smile again or look
at them.
Speaker 4 (20:37):
You know.
Speaker 6 (20:37):
Fuck, that's a hard bloody road to take, and especially
like I remember the last night that he was alive.
You know, I gave him dinner and he had a pie,
and I mean, fucking hell, I'm not the healthiest of
dinners now I'm looking back, but hey, I'm still feeding
(20:58):
my kids. Had pie and he had a bun with it,
and I went away, probably outside for cigarette, to be honest,
And then I came back and there was nothing on
his high chair and I was saying, boy, you little
shit without how did you throw it? You know, I'm
thinking he's thrown his pie and that away. I'm checking
the couches and there no he ate it, So yay,
(21:18):
I love that.
Speaker 5 (21:21):
Good boy boy.
Speaker 6 (21:22):
Anyway, he was a fucking mess. I should have seen
by his face. He had pie all over his face.
So anyway, straight into the bath with his two siblings.
Jordan in Russia had all three of them in the bath,
and you know they were laughing. I remember, you know,
drawing his hair and all the kids were laughing, and
(21:43):
it's like, you know, when I think about that last night,
it's like a fucking movie. I can see it so clearly.
Took them out of the bath, I changed him Alaska,
and I put vix. I had this thing of the
baby vix with the Johnson and Johnson's moisturizer and it
(22:04):
just once you mix them together, it just smelled fucking beautiful.
And the doctors had said, stop fucking doing that, because
when your baby's sick, their vix ain't gonna do shit.
But anyway, fuck you, and I did it.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
That night.
Speaker 6 (22:21):
I put it on his feet and you know, put
his socks on as we do, and made them a bottle,
put them into bed. They all slept in the same room,
put them into bed, gave them all the curse, and
walked out. You know, same fucking routine I've done every
single night, nothing out of the ordinary, except the next
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morning when I'm win and he had passed away. And
you know that that breaks you. That fucking breaks you,
you know, especially because three months prior me and my
husband had split up, so now it was just me
and the three babies, you know, so anyway, that broke me.
(23:04):
And like I said, you know, you have a choice
in a moment like that. I mean, there's nothing that
could ever prepare you for something like that. There's no manual,
And even if there was a fucking manual, who the
hell's going to pick that up and read? Okay, this
is how I would deal if one of my children died.
(23:25):
No one's going to read that, because we don't want
to acknowledge that that could potentially be us. And there
was me. So when you're in that situation, you have
a choice. One is either to face it head on
and acknowledge it and accept it. And for me, I'm
not fucking doing that, you know. Fuck in order to
(23:48):
accept it and acknowledge it. Oh, I didn't have their
strength inside me. And you know a lot of people
would be like, well, hey, you should have focused on
the children. You know, I did have Jordan and Russia
and treeson as well. But my mindset at the time
was I couldn't even keep Alaska alive. I did everything
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I fucking could to keep my kids alive, and I failed,
you know, So in that time, I thought, man, my kids,
I don't think I can keep them alive. So when
they went to their father, it was like, I think
that's the best place for them. You know. Then I
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started to use, and I remember that first hit. That
first hit of methamphetamine was like all of the loud noise,
the thoughts, the thoughts of suicide, the thoughts of failure,
the guilt was gone, and it was just.
Speaker 4 (24:52):
Silent. Wow.
Speaker 6 (24:54):
And that is what got me addicted. You know a
lot of I definitely wasn't taking the drug so I
can get rowdy and I can have a party and
fucking all of this. I didn't need that. I needed
something to drown out all the feelings of wanting to
(25:14):
commit suicide so I could be with him, all the
feelings of guilt and how I wasted every fucking moment
that I had with him. You know, like especially if
me and his dad were arguing and they he would
be sitting there watching. I would conjure up those experiences
(25:35):
and they're not feel guilty because instead of arguing, I
should have been fucking playing with him, or I should
have been you know, that's enough to drive a bitch crazy,
And just those thoughts and then when i'd have their hit, bom,
everything's gone. So yeah, I was hooked immediately, you know. Anyways,
(25:56):
I lived that life for five years. Eight months after
he died, the kids dead, you know, he would pop
in to see me, and by then I was fucking
I had lost half my weight already. I was already
in the fifty kg oh wow, fifty kgs.
Speaker 7 (26:17):
You know.
Speaker 6 (26:18):
Fuck I I was gone. And he made the decision. Man,
these you know, Jordan and Russia, they don't deserve to
see this person. They don't know this lady. They know
this mum that you know, gave a fuck. They don't
know this person. So I'm taking them back to New Zealand.
(26:38):
Of course, he didn't converse with me prior he made
that decision, and at the time, of course, I'm thinking.
Speaker 5 (26:47):
You madterfucker, how did you take my kids?
Speaker 6 (26:51):
And then I'm sitting there chewing my fucking face off,
you know. But it's not until now that I can
look back and say, boy, you know the best fucking
thing for those kids, because damn So that's the life
I lived for those five years. And then it all
came to a screaming holt when I ended up in
(27:12):
jail for an armed robbery. I didn't get convicted of
the armed robbery because I'm too lazy to do something
like that, But I did spend a month in jail.
During that month, sitting in that jail cell, there was
(27:33):
my rock bottom, and I was thinking, Man, I'm so
fucking tired. Like I'm tired of running, I'm tired of
constantly looking for a hit. I'm tired of being scared
of my reality. I'm tired of, you know, knowing that
(27:55):
what I was doing was wrong, but fighting it just
so that I didn't have to deal with my emotions.
Like a lot of that five years. I know what
the fuck I was doing was wrong. I know I
shouldn't have been on drags.
Speaker 2 (28:10):
I knew that.
Speaker 6 (28:11):
Sitting in this house with cockroaches running around me, five
people and we're passing around the fucking pipe, you know.
I know I shouldn't have been there. I should have
been at home with my fucking children.
Speaker 4 (28:25):
Yeah.
Speaker 6 (28:26):
But in order for me to do that, I would
have had to face all those feelings of suicide feelings
and I would have had to face them hit on
and I just couldn't do it. Tired, and I was
tired of being fucking tired sitting in there jail, So
I was tired of being tired, and I just said
to myself, Nah, this isn't man, Fuck this is it.
(28:49):
When I get out, I need to get my shit together.
I need to get back to my children. And that's
exactly what I did. I got out. And when I
got out of jail, like I said in the beginning,
I was put on a six month bail program and
I had gotten a job volunteering at this little cafe
(29:12):
outside of the Sunshine Courthouse in Australia, in Melbourne. And
fuck it was choice. It's a little caravan. It's called
second Chance because they give offenders a second chance. It's
voluntary work. You don't get paid, but what it gives
you is routine, or it gives you back some kind
(29:36):
of structure in your life, and it gives you the
opportunity to earn trust in society. I mean, fucking now,
you're making coffees for lawyers, you know, and really you
don't want to be anywhere near them. But I really
took that opportunity and ran with it, you know. And
so I started at nine and I would work until one.
(30:02):
In order to get there, I would have to catch
a train and then a bus and then i'd get
there at nine. I'd make the sandwiches, and oh they
would have went down ho if I wasn't there making
the sandwiches, because dam and I'd stay there till one
and the courthouse had jacked all of that up. They
gave me cards to get on public transportation. They got
(30:25):
me the job at Second Chance Cafe, and they also
got me a gym membership, nice at the gym right
across the road. So as you can imagine, I had
all the foundations to create some type of structure and
routine in my life, and I fucking loved it. And
it made me feel normal again, you know, like holy fuck,
(30:49):
I'm I'm human again. Like you know, before my son
passed away, I had structure. I had routine with those kids.
Fuck you need to if you've got kids, otherwise, holy wreck,
go crazy.
Speaker 4 (31:01):
Just a question. From the time of the passing of
your boy to the working at the Second Chance for
how long was that?
Speaker 6 (31:08):
That was five years?
Speaker 2 (31:10):
Five years?
Speaker 6 (31:11):
So five years I was stuck in that cycle. And yeah,
so I had routine, Like I said, dinner, I gave
the kids dinner and then it was bath and then
they had a little play, then they had a miload,
then they were in bed by seven that was our
fucking routine. Then five years of absolutely no routine. I
(31:33):
mean funk. While I was Fridays, I was staying up
for like five days straight until my fucking eyeballs were
screaming for sleep. Shut me, he's asleep.
Speaker 5 (31:48):
Oh my god.
Speaker 6 (31:49):
I thank god live streaming wasn't around Peck, you know,
you would have seen it all. But yeah, so anyways,
it gave me back structure and routine. So I loved it.
And then I thought, after you know, a month or
(32:11):
so of being out of jail and having their routine,
and that I was lonely. You know, I had nobody,
I had no friends, I had no real friends. I
got bailed to this house with this couple and he
was still I had met him while I was getting fried,
and he was still getting fried while I was bailed
(32:32):
towards house. I mean, I'm grateful. I'm so fucking grateful
that they let me stay there because otherwise I had
nowhere to go. So I'm so grateful, But it was
I mean, I don't have control over him. He knew
I was trying to sort my shit out, and you know,
he would go into the garage and have have his
(32:52):
pipes and whatnot. But this was a moment for me
to say, how bad do you fucking want it? Like you,
I could easily get up and go on that garage
and say give me a hit, and then you're back
down there and then all those goals and fucking thing
are down the toilet, or you can stay your hoss
in the room, wait for him to get out, and
then you're going for your smoke, you know, for your cigarette.
(33:15):
So it was an opportunity for me to really test
how bad did I want it? Because it was easily accessible,
and I didn't. I was like, nah, I'll go to
sleep because I've got to get up at seven. I've
got to walk to the train, get on the train,
get on the bus, go to the gym for an hour,
have a shower there. Then I'll go across the road.
(33:36):
Then I'll volunteer until one o'clock, you know. And then
because I was lonely, I pulled out my phone and
I started doing some videos on Facebook. And I didn't
know who the fuck was watching. I didn't even care.
But at the time I had like lost my parents' truss, right,
(33:59):
because I mean, nobody wants to see their daughter lose
themselves correct, and so so many times my mum would
be like, oh my god, baby, are you getting sober?
And I'd be like, Mom, I haven't smoked for days
and my eyes are fucking pinging. And I'd say, can
I have some money? You know, I'm quitting, Mom, I
(34:21):
haven't smoked for days. Can I have some money? And
because she just wants to believe, she just wants to
believe that actually her daughter is and so she'd give
me the money and then I'd be straight out there
to buy me some more, you know, And so what
(34:42):
do you call it? I had burned all those bridges.
So when I was, you know, just got out of
jail and going through that, I didn't really have anybody.
So I started doing these videos online. And initially, you know,
I didn't really have a plan, and I was just
like I put the first little video out and I
(35:03):
was like, fuck, that was pretty cool, Like just having
something to focus on. That's initially what it was, just
having something to focus on. Then I was like, oh,
I could do a cooking video. And then I was like, bro,
you got no money because I'm volunteering, so I have
no money. Well, she's smoking ciggies.
Speaker 5 (35:23):
Though, and.
Speaker 6 (35:30):
We lived right across the road from this supermarket and
then next to the supermarket with Salvation Army Bin. So
I was like, oh, I'm in heaven. The universe has provided.
And so what I did. I found one of the
full that I was living with. He had those big
Hiver's vests. Yeah, but you know, like the road works
(35:56):
the road workers vest. So I was like, okay, ideas
coming to me. So what I did was I fucking
put that on and I opened it up. I cut
the inside of both you know, the vest, and then
I would walk on the supermarket and steal me some food.
I would steal me some food, tampons, well if I
need it, and like I would steal a chicken breast,
(36:19):
a piece of garlic, some chili, and then I would
like go back across the road, set my camera up. Okay, guys,
we're gonna make us keep me busy. Sorry to the Woolworths.
I think you're I'm not.
Speaker 4 (36:43):
So essentially your your social media influence came from desiration.
Speaker 6 (36:50):
Yeah, inspiration for connection. Well, I don't even know if
it would be connection because I didn't give a fuck
who was.
Speaker 4 (36:59):
It was more so.
Speaker 2 (37:02):
Something for me to focus on.
Speaker 6 (37:03):
If I'm not focusing on doing something constructive and positive,
I'm focusing on getting fried.
Speaker 5 (37:11):
You know.
Speaker 6 (37:12):
So it just so happened for me. It was social
media Facebook essentially, and then the other.
Speaker 5 (37:27):
Got the ingredients the same way.
Speaker 6 (37:32):
Yeah, I know, but hey, we all talk about humble
beginning now I work along some of these open markets
and resourcefulness.
Speaker 4 (37:47):
Hello, utilizing the resource when you when was the clincher
for you when you realized, heck, I'm actually really good
at this and people want more of the social media
ah fu.
Speaker 6 (38:01):
That came later down, way later down the trip. I
don't even think I'm there.
Speaker 5 (38:05):
Oh girls, up, shut the gates, HULTI fire.
Speaker 6 (38:10):
As we progress into this little journey we're on at
the moment, then you'll kind of figure out why I
still don't feel like I'm there.
Speaker 2 (38:18):
Have you made it on the show? You've made it?
Speaker 6 (38:22):
Well, then I finally made.
Speaker 4 (38:23):
It because if you fast fast rewind a little bit,
when covid was a thing here and al or the world,
your videos really went nuts and people went this check like,
I really got an idea of who you were just
back then. But I had realized then, oh, she's been
around it for a week while and then it just
(38:44):
took off.
Speaker 3 (38:46):
Yeah, I think our video was the same one. The
first video that we've seen, just the two pression shower.
Speaker 5 (38:54):
It's such as honestly, and I think yeah, there was two.
Speaker 8 (38:58):
There was that one and then there was the one
where you were doing the tutorial on how to use
the sharpie to do your makeup.
Speaker 5 (39:04):
D the Vivid and.
Speaker 6 (39:07):
Those ones, especially the Vimen and that actually all of
them is something for me to focus on positives. That's
my thing. That's how I started, was just something to
focus on. And yeah, I just feel like that's what
it's been.
Speaker 4 (39:27):
When did you finally realize though, that there was people
out there who really resonated with your story and you
could actually do more for them?
Speaker 6 (39:35):
Yeah, so how they start? Wait, I just want to
share one more thing, just you know what, the Hyves jacket.
I can't let the side without telling you the other
way I utilized that jacket and there are my videos.
My first really is I started wearing that and walking
(39:56):
over there and I'm on curfew. I'm not even allowed out,
and I I wanted to go through the Salvation Army
bins and so what I would do is we're there
and then walk over there and cars would be pulling
into the supermarket and I would make it look like
I was I worked for the council, and I was
cleaning shut up and I was cleaning shu up. Oh,
(40:17):
I was going through a babe fu. Yeah, And what
I would do. I remember finding bags of makeup, bags
of like play you know, playtime kind of jewelry, and
I was thinking, I'm going to take that for my
baby when I see you, my daughter in New Zealand.
And so that's what I was doing my first videos.
(40:39):
Hey guys, I'm just got my Hiver's jacket on and
we're going to go over to the bins and we're
gonna just we're going to pretend that we're working, you know,
but we're going to go through and see what we
can find, you know. And Yeah, what I would do
is I remember finding a Foreman grill box and I
was like, what motherfucker would brow them? So I took
(41:03):
it home, of course, cleaned it up, and then the
next day I caught the train, caught the bus, went
to my job, and then I sold it to the
owner of Second Chance Cafe and she gave me like
forty dollars entrepreneur boom, and then I went and bought
my citie Yeah, and they got me four. That's how
I had to be resourceful. I had to think about
(41:25):
how I was gonna fucking make some money. Yeah and yeah,
in a situation like that, you have to think how
you're going to get your arms out and how urban hunting.
Speaker 5 (41:35):
Yeah. If you see me at the supermarket with a
highber's jacket, don't mind your business.
Speaker 6 (41:45):
I don't wear those anymore, saying I don't own any
of those.
Speaker 4 (41:49):
Anywhere we watch you on social media, you are you
don't fluff around, You don't. It's no smoky mirrors. It's
you and you're fuddy. If the kids have done the dishes,
it's really loved. But does that how does it work
for you? Like?
Speaker 5 (42:03):
Do you do you love that? Do you get criticism
for it?
Speaker 7 (42:06):
Oh?
Speaker 5 (42:07):
Yeah, you do you overcome that?
Speaker 4 (42:10):
Well?
Speaker 6 (42:10):
I mean I have an option or I have a choice.
Everybody has a choice. Your choice is you're either going
to wear a mask or you're not going to wear
a mask. And the reason, you know, you have to
sit with yourself. And this is for anywhere you go.
This's not even just for social media. This could be
for your job, this could be for whatever. You have
(42:32):
to sit with yourself and kind of say, well, hey,
if I wear a mask, I've got to wear that
mask for so long, you know, during my day, And
what the fuck would I be wearing that mask for?
To make other people comfortable, to make me more easily digestible? Oh,
pray for a fucking stranger, please, we all need that.
(43:00):
Or I just pot myself out there. And the thing
is you wear their musk, They're still going to find
something to criticize. So their mask isn't sitting properly, it's
the wrong color, it's that ah fuck off. Yeah Na,
And you put yourself out there and you say hey man,
And that's one thing that I had to that I
(43:21):
did think about doing when I first started. Put yourself
out there in the club. They either fucking take it
or they leave it. If they leave it, sweet, I
didn't have you to begin with, no fucking loss for me.
Should you were nothing in my life? Where were you
when I was down and out?
Speaker 5 (43:38):
Oh?
Speaker 4 (43:39):
Fuck?
Speaker 6 (43:39):
Who knows, Rach? But if you stay, that means you
accept me for who the who the hell I am? Yeah,
And you're the type of people I wanted my life.
I want someone in my life that wants that expects
nothing of me, then for me to be myself one
hundred percent, because that's what I expect of you. You
don't have to wear a fucking mask around me, I love.
Speaker 4 (44:03):
Do you?
Speaker 2 (44:03):
How do you?
Speaker 4 (44:04):
Because I mean you must get the trolls on there
that's seen a message and this and there, and we
know you as like the if this and if there
no mask, which is awesome, But do you respond to
those those people who criticize and if you do, how
do you? How do you deal with it?
Speaker 6 (44:18):
In the beginning, when I first started on social media,
I did. I became very defensive, and I felt like
I had to stand up for myself because if I didn't,
who was going to. As time has progressed and probably
as I've grown up, you know, every time I get
(44:39):
a negative comment or something like that, oh believe me,
I start writing the message. Then I'm writing and I'm like,
oh you mother, and then it takes growth to delete
that message, and I delete it. And because this is
this has been my all for years now, the whole
(45:02):
time I've been on social media. When someone says something negative,
it's like a game of table tennis, and when they
put their opinion out there, they're whacking the ball into
your square and onto your side of the court. Now
it's up to you. As that ball is in the
(45:23):
air and you've seen it, it's on its way and
you're processing, you have a decision to make, and that
decision is to react and respond by hitting that ball
back over and just know that when you hit it,
she's gonna hit her back and it's gonna forever be
a fucking game of tennis. Or you can step aside
(45:47):
and let that ball fly off the fucking table by felicios.
Speaker 2 (45:53):
And that's it.
Speaker 6 (45:54):
Game over. The energy you would have used to hit
that ball back over to her care, you could have
taken their energy and gone over there and done something
positive for yourself. Yes, and I guarantee you're going to
get a positive return on that of that energy. Now,
which one would you prefer to? Do I head it
(46:16):
back or do I go over here and play with
my child, play with my kids, play or invest my
energy into something. I'm going to get a positive I
packed there every day all day. It's not to say
that I walk over here and not forgotten off yah, yeah,
fucking mother, take my mind off this. But she don't
(46:41):
need to hear them.
Speaker 2 (46:42):
Yeah exactly, my walls could.
Speaker 6 (46:49):
But yeah, that's it. Everything comes down to having a choice.
Speaker 4 (46:54):
That's right. Well, we're all from the North, the mighty North,
and we're loud up there. We're very proud people, and
I wish more people were unfiltered. A lot of them are.
We love that about you, especially being from in the
far north of Ahiapata Paradise. Amazing. You said earlier about
your mum and your mom and dad and you felt
(47:15):
like your mom had lost your trust in you. But
the dynamic now from what we see, is amazing. And
how much how much does your family mean to you
and your children, your lifestyle, your man, what does it
all mean to you?
Speaker 6 (47:29):
Number one supporters now? And you know when I decided,
when I got out of Joe, I decided to change
my life. It wasn't just about changing the last five years.
I decided, Holy Rick, there were things that you know
I had way before, like jealousy, insecurities. This was prior
(47:51):
to my son passing away. This was my opportunity to
rebuild who the fuck I was and I had to
think what parts of me prior to Alaska passing, and
do I want to take into the next thirty years.
You know, me and my mum especially, we've had our
We've been through our things. You know, you have two
(48:13):
people that are spot on identical shit, you are going
to have your moments where you're going to clash and
things like that. So we had a journey and then
when you know, when I decided that I was going
to kind of focus on all those things that I
didn't want to take into the next thirty years, me
and my mom came together and we really invested a
(48:36):
lot of time into each other. You know, we didn't
just talk about all those bridges that I burned with her.
We took it way back, We stripped everything back, We
dealt with our trauma, and we began to heal together. Now,
I mean, fuck, I'm flying to tomorrow. She's flying there
(48:59):
too for the weekend. Like she's my best fucking friend. No,
she's everything to me. And again, like when you see us,
you would never have thought that actually our journey together
had been so strained. You know, without going into detail, do.
Speaker 4 (49:18):
You think though in hindsight, the experiences you have and
the loss, but also with the addiction that it's actually
made you even stronger amazing, which and if you hadn't
had that, do you think you'd be doing this now?
Speaker 6 (49:34):
Oh no, no, no, no, see prior to me and that,
you know. So the thing is, when you hit rock bottom,
everyone's just afraid of hitting rock bottom. And if you
don't even need to hit that, I love that for you.
But people need to remember that there's so much growth
(49:54):
in rock bottom you that the only way from there
is up, and you you have the choice to recreate
this ideal person that you want to be on your
journey up from rock bottom. You know what was the question?
Speaker 4 (50:15):
Yeah, yeah, absolutely, that's it, because you've clearly you made
a choice.
Speaker 5 (50:19):
And the choice was, well, I met rock bottom and
this is not cool and I need to go.
Speaker 6 (50:25):
And also the thing was just reflecting on me and
my mum's relationship.
Speaker 4 (50:29):
Amazing, you know she is.
Speaker 6 (50:31):
She's fucking the bomb digity. That's why people when they're like,
god you swear heaps, I'm like, fuck up, where do
you meet my mother? But the thing was as well,
while I'm sitting there, I'm thinking I don't want another
thirty years of a strange relationship with my mother. I
want to fuck in the next thirty years to be
me and her right or die. Yeah, you know, I'm
(50:52):
the only daughter and she's my queen. We need to
be fucking connected.
Speaker 2 (50:58):
We need to you know.
Speaker 6 (51:00):
And you know in these last six years that I've
been out of jail and that, man, we've just become
so tight. You can see us on social media.
Speaker 3 (51:11):
You know, you like, because all this may be that
you do like some would say, oh, she's just going
live and you know, but we know it to be
that it's hard made.
Speaker 2 (51:21):
How do you say motivated and energized?
Speaker 4 (51:23):
Oh good question, A.
Speaker 6 (51:27):
Very good question. The thing is you've got to think
about who's on the receiving end of that, you know, man.
And I just got back as he's no from RaRo
yesterday and I've been over there and ich Tucky doing
woman's empowerment retreats, and yeah, come back with this whole
(51:51):
thing of I need to do this here in New Zealand.
So I utilized that experience as somewhat of a pilot
and I'm back here now to do some money and
to get these up and going, because man, our women
need to be empowered. If we're not empowered, and we're
not strong, and we're not you know, courageous. We will
(52:13):
put up with ship that we shouldn't be fucking putting
up with, you know, or we will find ourselves in situations.
Speaker 2 (52:19):
That we shouldn't be in.
Speaker 6 (52:22):
So yeah, so that's what I What was the question,
How I keep motivating? It's that type of thing. It's
hearing that the minute I go live. On the other end,
there may be someone that's going through a fucking hard time,
somebody that's had a shit day, and you know, they
may watch something or they may hear something that I've
(52:42):
said that has just given them that little bit of
car to push through, you know, and give give it
another go. I remember getting a message from this lady
and she had messaged me to say that the night before,
and this was a few years ago. The night before
Nick's I was I had just dropped Wait, I'll go back.
(53:08):
The night before I had gotten beaten from my husband
and I woke up in the morning and he had
gone to work, and I dropped my daughter off to
school and I came home. I got in my most
beautiful outfit. I wrote a letter, a suicide letter. I
(53:30):
put it on the bed I stood up, I put
my neck in the noose, and something that you had
said made me step away from the noose, get down.
I grabbed that letter. I went in my daughter's room,
I pecked her a suitcase, went to the school, picked
her up, and now her and I are on the road. Yes,
(53:51):
and I'm fucking I'm staying alive. I'm going to keep
pushing through for my daughter, and I'm leaving him and
we're fucking out there.
Speaker 5 (53:58):
I mean, Brosn't it not funny?
Speaker 4 (54:02):
Is it's it's quite surreal when you don't even know
you have that kind of power, but it reads something
about what you say or do or how you act
as just an unfiltered manawa that it resonates with someone,
and how big or small that is. It saves people.
Speaker 6 (54:17):
Yeah, that's right. And that's why when these negativity that
comes and you just have to remind yourself, Hey, you
may not find me easily digestible. You know, you may
not like the way I look, you may not like
the way that I sound. This person over here does, yes,
And it's for this person over here who needs to
(54:39):
be empowered and motivated by somebody like me, just because
of that you can go and get fucked.
Speaker 2 (54:46):
Yes, I have the date with that.
Speaker 4 (54:50):
I truly do.
Speaker 5 (54:51):
And I think I needed to hear that myself because
I that's.
Speaker 4 (54:57):
Give it because it's true.
Speaker 5 (54:59):
I do the same thing I.
Speaker 4 (55:00):
Think you guys know, like I'd like to please people,
and then sometimes those people don't like that I'm not
digestible for them, and I go, well.
Speaker 2 (55:08):
Why you should like me?
Speaker 5 (55:09):
I have a cool guy, But actually nah.
Speaker 6 (55:14):
And itself the approval, you don't need that at all.
Speaker 5 (55:19):
I need that.
Speaker 6 (55:19):
The only fucking approval and validation you need is the
one you'd give to your fucking self.
Speaker 5 (55:24):
Oh I feel alive.
Speaker 6 (55:26):
Yeah.
Speaker 5 (55:28):
So seemingly it's so you've done all this amazing my head,
You've you know, I think that's why people resonate with
your quarter, to resonate with you as a person.
Speaker 4 (55:35):
Is because we've seen where you come from and all
of that.
Speaker 8 (55:39):
So we're too next like so because it seems like
you've done it all already, but we're too what's the
big goal, what's the big ambition, what's the drive?
Speaker 6 (55:46):
Yep? So what I'm wanting to focus on is these
women empowerment you know, retreats. And that's just because I
now see the need to have our women be empowered
and brave and just to know that they are worth it.
(56:09):
You know, they deserve to be loved, to be seen,
to be heard. I was just talking about this this morning.
You everybody deserves to be seen and heard. And you
also do not deserve to be in a toxic relationship.
You do not deserve to be abused, whether that's physically,
(56:31):
you know, psychologically, mentally, all of that. There's such a
fucking good life out there. And this isn't just for
you know, these women and this woman's empowerment retreat just
to humans. There's such a fucking big world out there.
The world is our oyster, and I just really want
(56:51):
to push people to focus on there and get out
there and experience.
Speaker 5 (56:55):
It absolutely well.
Speaker 4 (56:58):
Next, we are massive fans of yours, and uh, I've
known you a couple of years and I didn't know
that full full story. So hey, thank you so much.
Speaker 6 (57:09):
Here because I feel like people just think I'm this
fucking clown that does tiktoks and things like that. When
like scratching, that's just a glimpse of that's just actually
when I board, when I'm bored, I'm into depth.
Speaker 4 (57:32):
Yes, Well before we say hi and martiwa any final words,
you've got to say.
Speaker 6 (57:38):
Oh, keep your ill is peer peeled and your eyelids
peeled back and every other thing you want to peel back,
because yes, there's there's more to come, definitely more to come.
Speaker 4 (57:52):
I love it. Well, it's a thank you so much,
Native Mihi queer, and thank you for your story, for
being you, for being that a glimmer of hope out
here and showing people there is more to it that
meets the eye. And keep on keeping on. You are
truly truly amazing. We can thank you enough feels emotion.
Speaker 3 (58:16):
Or straight up tongue up the guts or self belief
and I'm not worrying about the outside noise.
Speaker 2 (58:24):
Love that and love your copropa au.
Speaker 3 (58:30):
And thanks for sharing time and call it or and
wan Nanga and they'll fundy card it all today.
Speaker 4 (58:35):
Thank you for having me next everybody, Yes, the one
and only, Oh girl.
Speaker 5 (58:46):
Amazing.
Speaker 2 (58:47):
That was the next hard on Mike.
Speaker 4 (58:50):
Like you know she she's very open about her story
online anyway, but not I did not know the depth
of that story and that that will that break anybody.
Speaker 8 (59:00):
So what a woman I was a fan before. I'm
more of a fan now after having heard that. Yeah,
and also too, because you know, I got fully so
oh man, as soon as you started.
Speaker 4 (59:10):
Talking about yeah, you know, I could feel it.
Speaker 6 (59:13):
Man.
Speaker 4 (59:13):
That's you know what I love the most about her too.
Speaker 5 (59:16):
She's utilized her experience and herself to create business, to
create income, to create motivation, and to create aspiration for others.
That is massive.
Speaker 2 (59:26):
I was like, feel privilege that we were able to
yeah sits.
Speaker 3 (59:30):
In one hour with her saying and to see a
side where yeah, she is right. We do think she's
just you know that straight up. They got's funny, take
the puss out.
Speaker 5 (59:39):
Of everything, you know, but.
Speaker 2 (59:44):
And we were able to.
Speaker 5 (59:46):
Be in that that is right.
Speaker 4 (59:48):
Well she was our final guess yes for episode ten,
season one, The Nicks.
Speaker 5 (59:54):
I can't see what way.
Speaker 3 (59:56):
I feel like we sort of wasted an opportunity there
because I was also wondering or like thinking about at
the same time she's sitting here about just a huge
plate of kime on cimelives yeah, muscle, yeah yeah, So
I was like, oh, Nick, time, next time one has
(01:00:17):
a must.
Speaker 5 (01:00:18):
Bringing up why not the EWE.
Speaker 2 (01:00:23):
Teen season? Can we just give a Paka back into
all our ten gears.
Speaker 4 (01:00:28):
It's been an amazing season, all of our gifts, ten episodes.
Speaker 5 (01:00:32):
We thank you, we praise you, we love you, and
we can't wait to see you all again for season two.
Take caught it Off.
Speaker 3 (01:00:40):
Let's go because you know you want us and your
and you're funny and the power of your hands on
your computers every week.
Speaker 5 (01:00:46):
Season two, card it all, caught it All with two
o's because it's season two, Bring it back.
Speaker 2 (01:00:51):
Bring it back, and.
Speaker 3 (01:00:56):
Remember you can go back to episode one and listen
again and again and again on all platforms.
Speaker 2 (01:01:03):
Go follow us, share us, like it all of you.
Speaker 5 (01:01:05):
Yeah, buy it, abuse it, get it Huy not Maya.
Speaker 2 (01:01:12):
Here, not that I took it out, Nati.
Speaker 8 (01:01:19):
Phoenix, hook young here, took me here, I don't like.
Speaker 4 (01:01:28):
Wherever you are across the country, across the world. Tune
and in did me iHeartRadio. We can't thank you enough
for joining us for season one and we begg for
season two. What to do?
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What car it? Maya come I at all
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