July 26, 2024 • 13 mins
Today we have a poignant chat about panic attacks. Prefaced by an even more poignant chat about "doing a scissor".
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
You guys, really are you? Jace Jayce Yes Kezy.
Speaker 2 (00:08):
Fan of the Hadarky Big Show podcast. Make sure you
check out more from Jay, Smike and Kezy on their.
Speaker 3 (00:13):
Instagram at Hodaky Big Show.
Speaker 2 (00:15):
Batching into them four to seven every weekday on Radio Hdarky.
Speaker 1 (00:21):
Thanks mate, o Enjie there.
Speaker 4 (00:24):
Cracking open a red ball the beginning of the end.
Speaker 1 (00:27):
Well, Jason has been up early filming the top secret project,
so he's a bit tuckered. Is this one A that's
sugar free?
Speaker 4 (00:35):
Okay, that's good, disgusting, Yeah, that's all right, No, it's
not hit the moogie, that's quick. I'm looking forward to
the weekend, fellas same, just because I don't want to
be here, you know what I'm saying. Nice cup of coffee,
froll Kezy over there.
Speaker 2 (00:50):
I'll tell you why I am mogie.
Speaker 3 (00:52):
We've had just shocking weekends because my wife and my
child and myself for a little while there were sick.
Speaker 2 (00:59):
The high time. So we've had the most horrendously tedious.
Speaker 3 (01:03):
Weekend and then the Batch weekend. Well actually the Batch
weekend followed three weekends in a row of illness. Yeah,
and so you know we're looking we've got all these
plans for the weekend.
Speaker 4 (01:16):
It's going to be great good.
Speaker 2 (01:20):
Susan lots of stuff to buy.
Speaker 3 (01:22):
Keysy, We're going to go and figure out what line
are we want to put in our bathroom.
Speaker 4 (01:27):
That's why you've been putting fifty bucks into your car
for guests.
Speaker 3 (01:29):
And vanities for the bathroom and showers we've got to
get so we've brought a whole lot of plants. We
need some stands. I want to get a Tiffany lamp.
My wife's not into it. Incidentally, Pudson. He gave me
a little tip of a place and because we go
to sort of antique, sort of different shops rather than
your normal retail, and he said, check this place out
(01:52):
in Newmarket.
Speaker 2 (01:54):
So I went to their website today.
Speaker 1 (01:56):
Jesus expensive.
Speaker 2 (01:57):
What wages is he on? I think I know the
joint hundreds of thousands. It was just like, what the
this is outrageous?
Speaker 1 (02:08):
When he gets paid in yin is that what it is? Yeah?
So for him it works, it comes out in the
wash and it's all quite affordable. Right, Yeah, I've been
to that place. It's really nice, yes, but shit it's expensive.
Speaker 2 (02:19):
Yeah is that?
Speaker 3 (02:21):
But then it has really cheap, kind of shitty little
things in it too.
Speaker 1 (02:24):
What's that about?
Speaker 3 (02:25):
But there was a suitcase moogie that he was selling
seventeen hundred dollars and it would just looked like a
brand new one.
Speaker 2 (02:34):
Well, no, it's an old one.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
It leave the one with the straps.
Speaker 2 (02:37):
Well no, it was.
Speaker 3 (02:37):
Actually a sort of bizarre silver kind of it was like,
what seventeen hundred bucks.
Speaker 1 (02:43):
But the thing is he must sell stuff like that,
or she he must. They must always sell stuff like
that really, like you know, so.
Speaker 4 (02:50):
It's a good spot to be selling Parnell people, and
you know there's a few.
Speaker 2 (02:55):
Bucks there, definitely, definitely for sure. Yeah yeah, but no,
like you.
Speaker 3 (02:59):
I'm looking for of the week and it'll be good
and hopefully if it's weather like this too.
Speaker 1 (03:03):
Well, I've got a romantic dinner tomorrow night with my
wife a fancy restaurant called Culprit.
Speaker 4 (03:09):
Are you're just going to complain about how much things
cost the whole time? That's always a messive turned on?
Speaker 2 (03:14):
You got a voucher?
Speaker 1 (03:16):
What do you get when my wife got sacked?
Speaker 4 (03:19):
Oh?
Speaker 2 (03:19):
Nice, I think I've been to Culprit.
Speaker 1 (03:23):
And yeah it was really good. It was good. Yeah, yeah,
it wasn't just that. It was okay because is that
just down here?
Speaker 2 (03:28):
Eh?
Speaker 1 (03:29):
I actually don't know. It's in town somewhere. Yeah, it's
a set menu.
Speaker 3 (03:31):
I went there with a good mate and dear, yes,
it's a set menu and it's very key we yana too.
They do sort of twists on classics, sort of Kiwi.
Speaker 1 (03:40):
And you Love Me.
Speaker 2 (03:41):
It was really good.
Speaker 1 (03:41):
Okay, that's really good because it's one of those ones
where it's like and Mike, it goes against everything I
stand for. It's like fifty sixty dollars for a.
Speaker 2 (03:49):
Minute, she wasn't cheap and who wasn't. Oh the restaurant
wasn't cheap, and.
Speaker 1 (03:54):
So I hate that because I'm not paying for it. Yeah,
three sweet airs days?
Speaker 2 (03:58):
Will you make love after that?
Speaker 1 (04:00):
Absolutely?
Speaker 4 (04:02):
Man?
Speaker 2 (04:03):
Remember that?
Speaker 1 (04:04):
Why are you so tired? What's wrong? Did you have
a bad sleep?
Speaker 4 (04:08):
Did I better than the night before? Better than the
night before? Just bagged?
Speaker 2 (04:17):
I was saying to Mogi.
Speaker 3 (04:18):
Actually, because I've been having shockers for a day after day,
I had a really early call this morning and I had.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
A great sleep.
Speaker 4 (04:26):
Well it.
Speaker 3 (04:29):
Was actually it was actually sex there. I had to
be that they changed and you had a good sleep.
I had a really good sleep.
Speaker 1 (04:34):
That's really weird.
Speaker 2 (04:35):
And I woke up, you.
Speaker 3 (04:36):
Know, because I got up at about five and I
felt good. Right, There was no no sort of ah,
it was like, yeah, I had some decent hours there.
Speaker 1 (04:46):
I always wake up way too early for those things.
How did filming go?
Speaker 4 (04:51):
You know? Your lines?
Speaker 1 (04:52):
What were they?
Speaker 4 (04:53):
Again?
Speaker 2 (04:55):
Just in us?
Speaker 4 (04:56):
One line?
Speaker 3 (04:56):
I can't he went that way like that?
Speaker 2 (05:01):
Though, yeah I did. Oh god, he went that way?
Speaker 1 (05:04):
Surely that's not the line. Really he went that way?
The riding is top not.
Speaker 2 (05:09):
Yeah, so good.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
We've been at the pub all afternoon. Yeah, what's the occasion?
Speaker 2 (05:14):
Friday?
Speaker 4 (05:14):
Am? All right?
Speaker 1 (05:15):
Big Dilly one half of the Ummy Boys, it's his
final day. Was in tinship?
Speaker 4 (05:19):
Are they not keeping them on? Now?
Speaker 1 (05:20):
He'll be staying around for a wee bit but until
an actual job comes up, I guess. But he's covering
the pants Man while he's away for five weeks, so
plenty of you know.
Speaker 4 (05:28):
So he's not leaving for another five weeks. But you
guys went on the past for three hours.
Speaker 1 (05:32):
But what it is is, when you finish your internship,
you've got this whole assignment thing. You need a hand
in and it's quite involved. However, he asked for an extension,
so he hasn't actually done that yet.
Speaker 2 (05:41):
Did Pegs go along for the drinks?
Speaker 1 (05:44):
Pugs refused to come along for the first sort of
hour and a half to two hours, and then popped
by at the end had half a beer.
Speaker 2 (05:50):
I was going to say slearing when I came in today, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (05:55):
And then spilt aoli down his shirt and then we left.
Speaker 2 (05:57):
I'm not going to say what even for me it
was not what was it?
Speaker 4 (06:03):
Just your brain seduced it said.
Speaker 2 (06:05):
No, I rejected it before it came out of.
Speaker 1 (06:08):
My mouth, because last night before we left, Jason's mouth
has filtered. It pretty much disappeared that the stuff you
were saying, Remember the stuff was he saying about it's
towards It was in the six o'clock hour. Then we
were like, Jesus, I can't remember about you guys crushing
your bulls together in the bath.
Speaker 2 (06:25):
Yeah, yeah, that's all right. Of course, it is a surprise.
Speaker 4 (06:28):
I was surprised by that.
Speaker 3 (06:29):
I said it on the well, what else do you
mean to do with them when you're in a bath together?
It's the whole purpose of two men being in a
bath together is to crush the bullets.
Speaker 1 (06:38):
That's so physically tough to do.
Speaker 2 (06:43):
My god, the whole.
Speaker 1 (06:50):
Archy Big Show days from four on Radio Hurdarchy.
Speaker 2 (06:55):
Remember the Big Show podcast.
Speaker 3 (06:57):
Because you said you did that when you hit that
spar with doing Christ, shouldn't you my mate?
Speaker 2 (07:02):
Yeah?
Speaker 4 (07:02):
Three years ago?
Speaker 1 (07:04):
This is three years ago, very early doors in the show,
Jason's still referencing to you.
Speaker 2 (07:08):
But was that more sort of sword fight scenario.
Speaker 1 (07:11):
That was me visiting a friend who had recently moved
down there and married one of my relatives. And then
as crushing our balls together.
Speaker 2 (07:20):
As a us.
Speaker 3 (07:21):
Yeah, for people not finding out about the two crushing
your balls together.
Speaker 1 (07:25):
Do you know what's funny is pug Son is now
online friends with that guy park Son hasn't doesn't realize
that we've crushed our balls together, and I because we
game together.
Speaker 2 (07:35):
And let me just tell you game.
Speaker 3 (07:37):
If you're if you're good, if you're doing a scissor.
Speaker 2 (07:41):
With Bloody no scissoring, it's called if you're scissoring.
Speaker 3 (07:45):
With pArg Son, your bulls are going to be crushed
with his massive malons.
Speaker 1 (07:52):
Oh he's got massive so it's not just a massive piece,
it's huge testicles as well, of course, of course keys
of you.
Speaker 2 (08:01):
Yeah, seriously think rock melon wow? Yeah, yeah, not honey Jew. Yeah,
it could be a honey Jew far out game.
Speaker 3 (08:12):
I've got a feeling Magie's gonna have one of those
days where he shouts out random.
Speaker 4 (08:17):
I'll tell you what. I've got to bring the energy somehow.
Speaker 2 (08:19):
So yeah, I read go smash it in. They're really good.
Speaker 4 (08:24):
I want to be able to watch the league eight
o'clock tonight. I don't want to be for that.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Yeah, that's good eight o'clock.
Speaker 1 (08:30):
Is it eight o'clock in the Tigers must win a
Warrior is by thirty. Yeah, but Mogi, if you had
a red Bull now, then both you and Jace could
be having panic attacks at the same time.
Speaker 4 (08:40):
On It been actually pretty good with the panic attacks lately.
I think both you and I have come pretty good
on that.
Speaker 2 (08:45):
Yeah. I haven't had too many. Yeah, early on my
standy four or five a day, Yeah.
Speaker 4 (08:50):
Only five a day. Yeah, got through stints. But it's
been a little while, which is nice, nice little break
from that. And is it when you really busy? Nah,
there's no rym or reason to it, right. Yeah. When
they first started, now, when they first started ten years ago.
(09:13):
Was I'd never been happier, right, And I was on
holiday right, And I think it was because I was
so happy that my brain said, I'm going to give
you something.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
To worry about, Yeah, something very much.
Speaker 4 (09:31):
I honestly think that's what it was, because I was
so happy, like I just met the missus. I can't
remember what was happening with work, but it must have
been going good. And then yeah, and I I was
so happy. I could have died happy. That's how happy
I was. Yes, Wow, And said that to a mate
like I was driving up to Auckland from Wellington, caught
it with some mates and Leven I said, honestly, man,
if anything happens to me on this drive, just know
(09:52):
that I would die happy. That I picked the misses
up from the airport and I had a fucking enormous
panics which I'd never have experienced in my life. And
then they went for four months, Yes, every single day.
Speaker 3 (10:05):
Yeah, it's your brain telling you, oh, it's all going
too good, brother, it's about time to fall apart.
Speaker 2 (10:11):
I got them in my twenties. That good time.
Speaker 3 (10:14):
Where's one that I ever had? What I told you
about was the opening night of Viagra monologues. Standing on
stage under the lights, full house, two hundred and fifty
people there staring at me. I've got sixteen pages of
script monologues to do, and I can't think of my
first line. And my heart was hammering, full panic attack,
(10:34):
to the point where I couldn't even see the crowd.
Speaker 1 (10:36):
So what did you do?
Speaker 2 (10:37):
And I felt like I was breathing through a straw.
Speaker 1 (10:40):
Did you get the lines out?
Speaker 2 (10:41):
I did?
Speaker 1 (10:42):
Was it funny?
Speaker 2 (10:43):
I was amazing? I was fucking amazing.
Speaker 4 (10:49):
In fact, you just blacked out, and when you came
to it was a standing ovation. Peter called it longer
was hanging you remember, you know Peter called it the
reviewer no Ah, Well, he used.
Speaker 2 (10:58):
To review do all the review for the for the Herald,
and he saw up here.
Speaker 3 (11:05):
Yeah, he saw our comedy shows and saw me in
a number of things. And for that particular thing, he said,
and this, Jason Hoyt, boy, oh boy, what a talent
is emerging here.
Speaker 4 (11:19):
And then what happened?
Speaker 2 (11:20):
Do you think I fell apart? My panic attacks took
over my alcoholism.
Speaker 1 (11:27):
And you know, was there an element of you with
your drinking where.
Speaker 4 (11:34):
You sort of the people that you admired as actors,
an artist and things you knew them to be alcoholics,
and so it was sort of a romanticism to it.
Speaker 2 (11:41):
I think so.
Speaker 4 (11:42):
Yeah, I think so too.
Speaker 1 (11:43):
Yeah, Yeah, I feel like they go hand in hand.
There's certainly highly creative.
Speaker 2 (11:48):
People often that way inclined.
Speaker 1 (11:51):
I wonder why that is.
Speaker 3 (11:52):
And also, but to be fair, like the whole panic
attack anxiety thing is society wide, but of course it
is certain certainly prevalent in the art let me put
it that way.
Speaker 1 (12:04):
And not apparently because it sounds stupid, but a friend
of mine who was going through it was saying and
they because they were going through therapy sessions, and the
therapist was saying that if you are a creative person
who uses your creative brain for their work, when it
comes to having depression and thinking and anxiety and thinking
of the things that could possibly go wrong, you're so
creative you can come up with the worst scenario.
Speaker 2 (12:26):
That's the story of my life.
Speaker 1 (12:29):
Whereas someone who's not very creative, Mike like you, you
would be sweet.
Speaker 4 (12:32):
That's true. I think there's some truth on that.
Speaker 2 (12:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (12:34):
So I thought that was really interesting.
Speaker 2 (12:36):
Yeah, so.
Speaker 3 (12:39):
Poignant, poignant into the podcast, there and.
Speaker 1 (12:44):
The poignant special?
Speaker 4 (12:46):
Is this?
Speaker 1 (12:46):
Is this on YouTube? Pugs?
Speaker 2 (12:48):
Can we call this the melon Special?
Speaker 1 (12:51):
Pugson Massive Melon Special? Are you guys excited for that
new promo we're going to do with Pugs and his
massive Load?
Speaker 2 (12:58):
Yeah?
Speaker 4 (12:59):
I be aware of it, but yeah, I'm keen.
Speaker 1 (13:00):
We had a meeting about it on Wednesday ago. You
were there, Oh that yeah, and we were like, it's
called massive pug Soun's Massive load.
Speaker 4 (13:08):
Yeah, get a load of Pugs.
Speaker 1 (13:09):
And he was like, not keen on it. There's another
one the other day too, which was.
Speaker 2 (13:15):
I just oh my god, what's going on in my
brain at the moment?
Speaker 1 (13:18):
Is it Pugs is massive loaf?
Speaker 3 (13:20):
Yes it is, but and combined with the load and
a Connie Ah good ship.
Speaker 1 (13:26):
I'm glad this one's on YouTube.
Speaker 2 (13:27):
Hey, listen to delete that, Pugs, Pugs.
Speaker 1 (13:31):
If this goes on YouTube, we're gonna be furious.
Speaker 3 (13:34):
Yeah, and you know what the title will be, Podcaster
loses the plot?
Speaker 1 (13:42):
Hey, Hoducky seven weekdays? You get around it.
Speaker 2 (13:47):
Or don't, I don't really care.
Speaker 1 (13:48):
What's sweet of God
You guys, really are you? Jace Jayce Yes Kezy.
Speaker 2 (00:08):
Fan of the Hadarky Big Show podcast. Make sure you
check out more from Jay, Smike and Kezy on their.
Speaker 3 (00:13):
Instagram at Hodaky Big Show.
Speaker 2 (00:15):
Batching into them four to seven every weekday on Radio Hdarky.
Speaker 1 (00:21):
Thanks mate, o Enjie there.
Speaker 4 (00:24):
Cracking open a red ball the beginning of the end.
Speaker 1 (00:27):
Well, Jason has been up early filming the top secret project,
so he's a bit tuckered. Is this one A that's
sugar free?
Speaker 4 (00:35):
Okay, that's good, disgusting, Yeah, that's all right, No, it's
not hit the moogie, that's quick. I'm looking forward to
the weekend, fellas same, just because I don't want to
be here, you know what I'm saying. Nice cup of coffee,
froll Kezy over there.
Speaker 2 (00:50):
I'll tell you why I am mogie.
Speaker 3 (00:52):
We've had just shocking weekends because my wife and my
child and myself for a little while there were sick.
Speaker 2 (00:59):
The high time. So we've had the most horrendously tedious.
Speaker 3 (01:03):
Weekend and then the Batch weekend. Well actually the Batch
weekend followed three weekends in a row of illness. Yeah,
and so you know we're looking we've got all these
plans for the weekend.
Speaker 4 (01:16):
It's going to be great good.
Speaker 2 (01:20):
Susan lots of stuff to buy.
Speaker 3 (01:22):
Keysy, We're going to go and figure out what line
are we want to put in our bathroom.
Speaker 4 (01:27):
That's why you've been putting fifty bucks into your car
for guests.
Speaker 3 (01:29):
And vanities for the bathroom and showers we've got to
get so we've brought a whole lot of plants. We
need some stands. I want to get a Tiffany lamp.
My wife's not into it. Incidentally, Pudson. He gave me
a little tip of a place and because we go
to sort of antique, sort of different shops rather than
your normal retail, and he said, check this place out
(01:52):
in Newmarket.
Speaker 2 (01:54):
So I went to their website today.
Speaker 1 (01:56):
Jesus expensive.
Speaker 2 (01:57):
What wages is he on? I think I know the
joint hundreds of thousands. It was just like, what the
this is outrageous?
Speaker 1 (02:08):
When he gets paid in yin is that what it is? Yeah?
So for him it works, it comes out in the
wash and it's all quite affordable. Right, Yeah, I've been
to that place. It's really nice, yes, but shit it's expensive.
Speaker 2 (02:19):
Yeah is that?
Speaker 3 (02:21):
But then it has really cheap, kind of shitty little
things in it too.
Speaker 1 (02:24):
What's that about?
Speaker 3 (02:25):
But there was a suitcase moogie that he was selling
seventeen hundred dollars and it would just looked like a
brand new one.
Speaker 2 (02:34):
Well, no, it's an old one.
Speaker 1 (02:35):
It leave the one with the straps.
Speaker 2 (02:37):
Well no, it was.
Speaker 3 (02:37):
Actually a sort of bizarre silver kind of it was like,
what seventeen hundred bucks.
Speaker 1 (02:43):
But the thing is he must sell stuff like that,
or she he must. They must always sell stuff like
that really, like you know, so.
Speaker 4 (02:50):
It's a good spot to be selling Parnell people, and
you know there's a few.
Speaker 2 (02:55):
Bucks there, definitely, definitely for sure. Yeah yeah, but no,
like you.
Speaker 3 (02:59):
I'm looking for of the week and it'll be good
and hopefully if it's weather like this too.
Speaker 1 (03:03):
Well, I've got a romantic dinner tomorrow night with my
wife a fancy restaurant called Culprit.
Speaker 4 (03:09):
Are you're just going to complain about how much things
cost the whole time? That's always a messive turned on?
Speaker 2 (03:14):
You got a voucher?
Speaker 1 (03:16):
What do you get when my wife got sacked?
Speaker 4 (03:19):
Oh?
Speaker 2 (03:19):
Nice, I think I've been to Culprit.
Speaker 1 (03:23):
And yeah it was really good. It was good. Yeah, yeah,
it wasn't just that. It was okay because is that
just down here?
Speaker 2 (03:28):
Eh?
Speaker 1 (03:29):
I actually don't know. It's in town somewhere. Yeah, it's
a set menu.
Speaker 3 (03:31):
I went there with a good mate and dear, yes,
it's a set menu and it's very key we yana too.
They do sort of twists on classics, sort of Kiwi.
Speaker 1 (03:40):
And you Love Me.
Speaker 2 (03:41):
It was really good.
Speaker 1 (03:41):
Okay, that's really good because it's one of those ones
where it's like and Mike, it goes against everything I
stand for. It's like fifty sixty dollars for a.
Speaker 2 (03:49):
Minute, she wasn't cheap and who wasn't. Oh the restaurant
wasn't cheap, and.
Speaker 1 (03:54):
So I hate that because I'm not paying for it. Yeah,
three sweet airs days?
Speaker 2 (03:58):
Will you make love after that?
Speaker 1 (04:00):
Absolutely?
Speaker 4 (04:02):
Man?
Speaker 2 (04:03):
Remember that?
Speaker 1 (04:04):
Why are you so tired? What's wrong? Did you have
a bad sleep?
Speaker 4 (04:08):
Did I better than the night before? Better than the
night before? Just bagged?
Speaker 2 (04:17):
I was saying to Mogi.
Speaker 3 (04:18):
Actually, because I've been having shockers for a day after day,
I had a really early call this morning and I had.
Speaker 2 (04:25):
A great sleep.
Speaker 4 (04:26):
Well it.
Speaker 3 (04:29):
Was actually it was actually sex there. I had to
be that they changed and you had a good sleep.
I had a really good sleep.
Speaker 1 (04:34):
That's really weird.
Speaker 2 (04:35):
And I woke up, you.
Speaker 3 (04:36):
Know, because I got up at about five and I
felt good. Right, There was no no sort of ah,
it was like, yeah, I had some decent hours there.
Speaker 1 (04:46):
I always wake up way too early for those things.
How did filming go?
Speaker 4 (04:51):
You know? Your lines?
Speaker 1 (04:52):
What were they?
Speaker 4 (04:53):
Again?
Speaker 2 (04:55):
Just in us?
Speaker 4 (04:56):
One line?
Speaker 3 (04:56):
I can't he went that way like that?
Speaker 2 (05:01):
Though, yeah I did. Oh god, he went that way?
Speaker 1 (05:04):
Surely that's not the line. Really he went that way?
The riding is top not.
Speaker 2 (05:09):
Yeah, so good.
Speaker 1 (05:11):
We've been at the pub all afternoon. Yeah, what's the occasion?
Speaker 2 (05:14):
Friday?
Speaker 4 (05:14):
Am? All right?
Speaker 1 (05:15):
Big Dilly one half of the Ummy Boys, it's his
final day. Was in tinship?
Speaker 4 (05:19):
Are they not keeping them on? Now?
Speaker 1 (05:20):
He'll be staying around for a wee bit but until
an actual job comes up, I guess. But he's covering
the pants Man while he's away for five weeks, so
plenty of you know.
Speaker 4 (05:28):
So he's not leaving for another five weeks. But you
guys went on the past for three hours.
Speaker 1 (05:32):
But what it is is, when you finish your internship,
you've got this whole assignment thing. You need a hand
in and it's quite involved. However, he asked for an extension,
so he hasn't actually done that yet.
Speaker 2 (05:41):
Did Pegs go along for the drinks?
Speaker 1 (05:44):
Pugs refused to come along for the first sort of
hour and a half to two hours, and then popped
by at the end had half a beer.
Speaker 2 (05:50):
I was going to say slearing when I came in today, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (05:55):
And then spilt aoli down his shirt and then we left.
Speaker 2 (05:57):
I'm not going to say what even for me it
was not what was it?
Speaker 4 (06:03):
Just your brain seduced it said.
Speaker 2 (06:05):
No, I rejected it before it came out of.
Speaker 1 (06:08):
My mouth, because last night before we left, Jason's mouth
has filtered. It pretty much disappeared that the stuff you
were saying, Remember the stuff was he saying about it's
towards It was in the six o'clock hour. Then we
were like, Jesus, I can't remember about you guys crushing
your bulls together in the bath.
Speaker 2 (06:25):
Yeah, yeah, that's all right. Of course, it is a surprise.
Speaker 4 (06:28):
I was surprised by that.
Speaker 3 (06:29):
I said it on the well, what else do you
mean to do with them when you're in a bath together?
It's the whole purpose of two men being in a
bath together is to crush the bullets.
Speaker 1 (06:38):
That's so physically tough to do.
Speaker 2 (06:43):
My god, the whole.
Speaker 1 (06:50):
Archy Big Show days from four on Radio Hurdarchy.
Speaker 2 (06:55):
Remember the Big Show podcast.
Speaker 3 (06:57):
Because you said you did that when you hit that
spar with doing Christ, shouldn't you my mate?
Speaker 2 (07:02):
Yeah?
Speaker 4 (07:02):
Three years ago?
Speaker 1 (07:04):
This is three years ago, very early doors in the show,
Jason's still referencing to you.
Speaker 2 (07:08):
But was that more sort of sword fight scenario.
Speaker 1 (07:11):
That was me visiting a friend who had recently moved
down there and married one of my relatives. And then
as crushing our balls together.
Speaker 2 (07:20):
As a us.
Speaker 3 (07:21):
Yeah, for people not finding out about the two crushing
your balls together.
Speaker 1 (07:25):
Do you know what's funny is pug Son is now
online friends with that guy park Son hasn't doesn't realize
that we've crushed our balls together, and I because we
game together.
Speaker 2 (07:35):
And let me just tell you game.
Speaker 3 (07:37):
If you're if you're good, if you're doing a scissor.
Speaker 2 (07:41):
With Bloody no scissoring, it's called if you're scissoring.
Speaker 3 (07:45):
With pArg Son, your bulls are going to be crushed
with his massive malons.
Speaker 1 (07:52):
Oh he's got massive so it's not just a massive piece,
it's huge testicles as well, of course, of course keys
of you.
Speaker 2 (08:01):
Yeah, seriously think rock melon wow? Yeah, yeah, not honey Jew. Yeah,
it could be a honey Jew far out game.
Speaker 3 (08:12):
I've got a feeling Magie's gonna have one of those
days where he shouts out random.
Speaker 4 (08:17):
I'll tell you what. I've got to bring the energy somehow.
Speaker 2 (08:19):
So yeah, I read go smash it in. They're really good.
Speaker 4 (08:24):
I want to be able to watch the league eight
o'clock tonight. I don't want to be for that.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Yeah, that's good eight o'clock.
Speaker 1 (08:30):
Is it eight o'clock in the Tigers must win a
Warrior is by thirty. Yeah, but Mogi, if you had
a red Bull now, then both you and Jace could
be having panic attacks at the same time.
Speaker 4 (08:40):
On It been actually pretty good with the panic attacks lately.
I think both you and I have come pretty good
on that.
Speaker 2 (08:45):
Yeah. I haven't had too many. Yeah, early on my
standy four or five a day, Yeah.
Speaker 4 (08:50):
Only five a day. Yeah, got through stints. But it's
been a little while, which is nice, nice little break
from that. And is it when you really busy? Nah,
there's no rym or reason to it, right. Yeah. When
they first started, now, when they first started ten years ago.
(09:13):
Was I'd never been happier, right, And I was on
holiday right, And I think it was because I was
so happy that my brain said, I'm going to give
you something.
Speaker 1 (09:28):
To worry about, Yeah, something very much.
Speaker 4 (09:31):
I honestly think that's what it was, because I was
so happy, like I just met the missus. I can't
remember what was happening with work, but it must have
been going good. And then yeah, and I I was
so happy. I could have died happy. That's how happy
I was. Yes, Wow, And said that to a mate
like I was driving up to Auckland from Wellington, caught
it with some mates and Leven I said, honestly, man,
if anything happens to me on this drive, just know
(09:52):
that I would die happy. That I picked the misses
up from the airport and I had a fucking enormous
panics which I'd never have experienced in my life. And
then they went for four months, Yes, every single day.
Speaker 3 (10:05):
Yeah, it's your brain telling you, oh, it's all going
too good, brother, it's about time to fall apart.
Speaker 2 (10:11):
I got them in my twenties. That good time.
Speaker 3 (10:14):
Where's one that I ever had? What I told you
about was the opening night of Viagra monologues. Standing on
stage under the lights, full house, two hundred and fifty
people there staring at me. I've got sixteen pages of
script monologues to do, and I can't think of my
first line. And my heart was hammering, full panic attack,
(10:34):
to the point where I couldn't even see the crowd.
Speaker 1 (10:36):
So what did you do?
Speaker 2 (10:37):
And I felt like I was breathing through a straw.
Speaker 1 (10:40):
Did you get the lines out?
Speaker 2 (10:41):
I did?
Speaker 1 (10:42):
Was it funny?
Speaker 2 (10:43):
I was amazing? I was fucking amazing.
Speaker 4 (10:49):
In fact, you just blacked out, and when you came
to it was a standing ovation. Peter called it longer
was hanging you remember, you know Peter called it the
reviewer no Ah, Well, he used.
Speaker 2 (10:58):
To review do all the review for the for the Herald,
and he saw up here.
Speaker 3 (11:05):
Yeah, he saw our comedy shows and saw me in
a number of things. And for that particular thing, he said,
and this, Jason Hoyt, boy, oh boy, what a talent
is emerging here.
Speaker 4 (11:19):
And then what happened?
Speaker 2 (11:20):
Do you think I fell apart? My panic attacks took
over my alcoholism.
Speaker 1 (11:27):
And you know, was there an element of you with
your drinking where.
Speaker 4 (11:34):
You sort of the people that you admired as actors,
an artist and things you knew them to be alcoholics,
and so it was sort of a romanticism to it.
Speaker 2 (11:41):
I think so.
Speaker 4 (11:42):
Yeah, I think so too.
Speaker 1 (11:43):
Yeah, Yeah, I feel like they go hand in hand.
There's certainly highly creative.
Speaker 2 (11:48):
People often that way inclined.
Speaker 1 (11:51):
I wonder why that is.
Speaker 3 (11:52):
And also, but to be fair, like the whole panic
attack anxiety thing is society wide, but of course it
is certain certainly prevalent in the art let me put
it that way.
Speaker 1 (12:04):
And not apparently because it sounds stupid, but a friend
of mine who was going through it was saying and
they because they were going through therapy sessions, and the
therapist was saying that if you are a creative person
who uses your creative brain for their work, when it
comes to having depression and thinking and anxiety and thinking
of the things that could possibly go wrong, you're so
creative you can come up with the worst scenario.
Speaker 2 (12:26):
That's the story of my life.
Speaker 1 (12:29):
Whereas someone who's not very creative, Mike like you, you
would be sweet.
Speaker 4 (12:32):
That's true. I think there's some truth on that.
Speaker 2 (12:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (12:34):
So I thought that was really interesting.
Speaker 2 (12:36):
Yeah, so.
Speaker 3 (12:39):
Poignant, poignant into the podcast, there and.
Speaker 1 (12:44):
The poignant special?
Speaker 4 (12:46):
Is this?
Speaker 1 (12:46):
Is this on YouTube? Pugs?
Speaker 2 (12:48):
Can we call this the melon Special?
Speaker 1 (12:51):
Pugson Massive Melon Special? Are you guys excited for that
new promo we're going to do with Pugs and his
massive Load?
Speaker 2 (12:58):
Yeah?
Speaker 4 (12:59):
I be aware of it, but yeah, I'm keen.
Speaker 1 (13:00):
We had a meeting about it on Wednesday ago. You
were there, Oh that yeah, and we were like, it's
called massive pug Soun's Massive load.
Speaker 4 (13:08):
Yeah, get a load of Pugs.
Speaker 1 (13:09):
And he was like, not keen on it. There's another
one the other day too, which was.
Speaker 2 (13:15):
I just oh my god, what's going on in my
brain at the moment?
Speaker 1 (13:18):
Is it Pugs is massive loaf?
Speaker 3 (13:20):
Yes it is, but and combined with the load and
a Connie Ah good ship.
Speaker 1 (13:26):
I'm glad this one's on YouTube.
Speaker 2 (13:27):
Hey, listen to delete that, Pugs, Pugs.
Speaker 1 (13:31):
If this goes on YouTube, we're gonna be furious.
Speaker 3 (13:34):
Yeah, and you know what the title will be, Podcaster
loses the plot?
Speaker 1 (13:42):
Hey, Hoducky seven weekdays? You get around it.
Speaker 2 (13:47):
Or don't, I don't really care.
Speaker 1 (13:48):
What's sweet of God
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