August 3, 2026 • 49 mins
If anyone tells you that they’re not even a little bit insecure, they’re lying, in denial, or both. It’s a fact of life that we all feel insecure at times - about how we look, behave, our achievements, and whether we are liked by others. In this episode, we examine the psychology behind common insecurities, recognise how we can be our own worst enemies, and consider the ways we can come to accept that we are all flawed, and might not actually need ‘fixing’.
We unpack:
• The surprising evolutionary benefits that come with insecurity
• How our levels of insecurity change throughout our lives
• The ‘liking gap’, and why we think others like us less than they do
• How being insecure can feed insecurity, in a vicious cycle
• Why people pleasing and over confidence are often signs of insecurity
• How we can address insecurities that negatively impact our lives
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https://www.centerforanxiety.org/what-is-hyper-independence-is-it-a-bad-thing/
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Speaker 1 (00:04):
Hello everybody, I'm Jemma Spake and welcome back to the
Psychology of Your Twenties, the podcast where we talk through
the biggest changes, moments, and transitions of our twenties and
what they mean for our psychology. Hello everybody, Welcome back
(00:26):
to the show. Welcome back to the podcast. It is
so great to have you here back for another episode
as we, of course break down the psychology of our twenties,
Psychology of Your Twenties, Psychology of My twenties. Today we
are talking about the psychology of insecurity. Yeah, I'm just
gonna bite the bullet and say, truth is I am
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a very insecure person. I'm insecure about so many things,
from silly little things from my childhood like I don't
know my teeth straight enough that I was like tea
at when I was a kid, to big things like
am I a good friend? Am I doing well enough
in my career? Being insecure, as you guys know, is
a very lonely existence because the only way to truly
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process it is to often talk about it. But A,
were too insecure or do that that's our problem in
the first place, and B you really want the other
person to say the right thing, because one wrong phrase,
one miscommunication, one wrong wording quickly can very much feed
the insecurity and make it worse. So it remains a
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very silent thing and therefore has a very strong influence
over us. I know, for a long time, my insecurities
just dictated how I saw myself more than any other factor,
no matter what external evidence I had, no matter what
happened beyond me, what validation I received, whatever it was
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my brain and always came back to what am I
insecure about. I'm sure it's very similar for many of you,
but I think it was only when I started almost
looking into the ancestry and the origin point of my
insecurity is, and I realized, you know, ninety percent of
our thoughts are recycled. I was not inherently born insecure,
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and neither were you. I have been taught this self consciousness.
Therefore it can be untaught that I kind of started
seeing my insecurities differently. At its very core, how I
see it now is that insecurity is a protective mechanism
that has outlived its psychological usefulness. This is how we're
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going to treat it today, and we're going to talk
about where insecurity comes from. Why a little bit of
insecurity was perhaps useful for you, how it then goes
on to transform into something that is definitely not useful
over time. How to identify you know, whose voice, whose
influence shaped your insecurities the most, because that is an
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important part of this equation, And most importantly, how to
start unlearning those recycled thoughts. How to start unlearning the
negative ways you feel about yourself. Because, as I said before,
if insecurity has been borrowed, it can be returned. There
is so much psychology to unpack. I'm literally not gonna
waste any more time with an intro for this episode.
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Let's just get straight into it. Stay with us. Let
me start by saying this, show me someone who claims
to have no insecurity, and I will show you a liar.
At the very least, I'm going to show you someone
who uses mechanisms of denial, displacement, projection to cocoon themselves.
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Because the existence of insecurity proves the existence of ego,
which proves the existence of your soul and your own consciousness.
To not have insecurity would be to not be conscious.
Here's the thing we need to make very clear from
the beginning of this episode. On some level, we are
all insecure, and that insecurity does at times serve a
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very valuable psychological purpose. That self consciousness we often hate
is what allows us to approach life in a way
that balances caution and courage, and it's what prevents us
from slipping into what we call in psychology, but more
specifically in psychiatry, delusions of grandeur. We definitely don't want
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to go there. There is a Goldilocks level of insecurity
that's like, just right, that's kind of what I'm getting at.
You know, if we're too insecure, our life becomes dictated
by our life becomes dictated by the potential judgments of others. Equally,
if we are overly confident, our life becomes dictated in
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another way by an inability to take criticism, by an
inability to hone our skills because we don't think there's
anything we're bad at, by an inability to experience humility,
and most certainly to properly interpret opportunities that we are
given every single day to be better. For example, there
is research that was published in twenty nineteen in the
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Journal of Personality and Social Psychology that found when people
experience a mild level of what they call self image threat,
they are more likely to save, they're more likely to
be financially prudent, and they make smart financial decisions. So
that's just one area you might be doing better at
if you're an insecure person like me. Further theories have
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also suspected that a healthy amount of insecurity keeps people,
as I said, motivated to improve in relationships at work
when it comes to their physical health. Although that's definitely
a gray area, shaky area, it's also correlated with a
greater openness to learning. You know, if you're overly secure again,
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you just simply I don't think you need to improve,
therefore you will not. This is a deep belief I have.
I say this to my friends all the time. I
truly believe every single person needs to know one thing
about themselves that could be better or that is a
flaw in order to be a well rounded human like
you have to have something that you know you are
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not good at if you want to claim that you
are self aware. There's also some evidence that it can
drive greater social harmony as well. This is the evolutionary
explanation for insecurity. Why we have insecurity? You know, the
evolutionary explanation claims it, if something exists, it has to
be useful. Their opinion is that insecurity and being a
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socially harmonious person requires acknowledgment that other people have complex
in a world that we form a part of, and
that as we are a part of these complex in
a world, people can have poor judgments about us. Those
judgments matter. Therefore, the insecurity we have around them is
important because it leads us back to the group. It
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nudges us into being a good person. If there was
somebody who existed who never felt any level of insecurity
about their behavior of their actions, they would become a
very dangerous thought force. They would have no reason to
control their urges or their behavior. So these theorists, these
researchers believe that insecurity in this sense doesn't have a
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positive force, doesn't have a negative force. It has a
neutral force in that it maintains a level of social order.
Of course, when this self questioning bleeds into crippling levels
of doubt or self scrutiny, we have a problem. That's
an interesting question in itself. When does it get to
that level? More importantly, what makes somebody more or less
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insecure If we are all, according to this evolutionary theory,
born with like a baseline level of insecurity. Are we
just born this way or are we shaped to be
this way? What component is nature? What component is I
guess nurture in a sense, like where does that equation land?
So let's start with nature firstly, our inborn temperament naturally
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plays a big part. Just as all of us have
different colored hair, eyes, so on, we all have different
in built temperaments. Temperaments are basically our natural state of being. Now,
the four temperaments, according to something called proto psychological theory,
are melancholic, choleric, phlegmatic, and sanguine. This is not our personality.
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This is a layer below our personality. Whichever one you
are is said to correlate to how you naturally show
up in situations, including how insecure or secure you are,
how reactive or calm we are, how observant or judgmental
we are. It's the building block for personality that comes before.
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If you have a melancholic temperament, you are more prone
to deep seated insecurity. That is what the theory says,
that is the basis of this self consciousness you have.
Researchers have gone a step further. They've long tried to
measure just how much of our temperament and also our personality,
including our level of insecurity, is actually hard wide within
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the genome. Basically, can we tell how insecure somebody's going
to be based on their genes. One way that they've
done this is through a large genetic study in the
UK from twenty sixteen. They had over one hundred thousand
samples in this study and they explored whether traits like
anxiety and emotional instability packaged together. This is what psychologists
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called neuroticism. Whether neuroticism can be traced back to our DNA.
Researchers had participants complete personality questionnaires measuring neuroticism and other
factors including insecurities. Whilst they kind of analyzed their DNA. Literally,
they there was millions of genetic variations. They wanted to
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look at them all correlate them to these self reports
see if there was any patterns. What the research has
found is that there isn't There is not a simple
insecurity gene. However, there are multiple genetic regions that play
a small role in dictating whether you are going to
be a more or less insecure person. These common genetic
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variants that they found accounted for around fifteen percent of
the differences in Euroticism between individuals on their own holding
for other things. So, in other words, because I always
find this confusing. In other words, about fifteen percent of
the variations between those of us who are insecure or
not Eurotic or not can be linked to a specific
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genetic difference that has perhaps influenced you in that direction.
And this genetic difference was one that the researchers were
able to measure importantly, because when we talk about genes,
I feel like sometimes this can get confusing. Genes don't
determine your destiny. They're just a blueprint. People can always
build the house differently. Our environment, the way we are nurtured.
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These also shape whether some genes are more or less
likely to emerge. Our choices also shape this later on,
So your temperament, your genes, they're just the beginning. With
that in mind, though, let's talk about some of those
other ones. What are those? Let's talk about the nurture
component of this. How much of our insecurity is learnt?
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Short answer, a whole lot of it. I think a
lot of us can remember a time where there was
like one critical moment that turned us from somebody who
didn't think that much about our appearance or our personality,
or how loud we were, or whether people liked us
into somebody who thought about that a whole lot. What
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kind of events one off of repeated trigger this? A
bunch of them I want to talk to are a
lack of unconditional or lack of conditional love and approval
from parents, sibling comparison, judgment from adults, bullying, body image,
social media, to name a few that influence how insecurity
shows up in us as individuals. And let's just start
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at the top. Let's just start with conditional love put
simply and also put rather sadly, but not everyone had
the fairy tale childhood that we collectively deserve. One of
the most common roots of insecurity is experiencing love, attention,
or approval as something that has to be earned, rather
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than as something that is freely given as it should be.
In other words, you learned that being accepted and supported
is a luxury that does not have to be given
to you all the time. This is what psychologists sometimes
referred to as conditional regard. Or conditional positive regard. It
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was a concept first explored by the very famous humanistic
psychologist Kyl Rogers, who we literally talk about in every
second episode. But Rogers believed children thrive when they receive
unconditional positive regard. Love and acceptance is not dependent on achievement,
It's not dependent on obedience or meeting certain expectations. When
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affection is only given in response to good grades, good behavior,
sporting success, being an easy child, or you know, being
a child that looks a certain way. That is when
we begin to internalize this belief that my worth is conditional.
If I'm not receiving love, there is something I'm doing wrong. Therefore,
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there is something I should be insecure about. Rather than
thinking I am loved because I exist, we learn I
am loved because of what I do for others, and
I am loved because of how I perform. Research by
the psychologist Edward Dessi and Richard Ryan has shown that
environments where approval is contingent on a certain level of
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performance or appearance undermines our level of intrinsic worth and autonomy,
and over time, this creates what psychologists call contingent self esteem.
I know a lot of psychology terms in this part,
but contingent self esteem self esteem or self worth that
rises and falls depending on external validation, therefore meaning that
you are more likely to be insecure because external validation
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is fick or The sad thing about these circumstances and
I think about this all the time, they also create
these limiting beliefs that restrict whether somebody can challenge that
additional belief or not. It restricts what they feel capable
of for the rest of their life. It is so tragic.
But I often get these comments of people being like,
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you know, that sounds nice, but that's not for somebody
like me, or I did this episode recently that was
like I want to do everything, so I do nothing.
And I was like leave a comment down below of
like what is your big dream? What is the one
thing you really want to do? And this person was like,
I really want to I'm not going to say the
job because it will give it away, but it was
like I really want to do this, but like people
like me don't do that, and there's no way that
I'll find success. And I was like, that is so
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sad to me. That is so tragic, because you know
you do have what it takes to succeed. But these
early beliefs, in these early words and these early feelings,
have put this restriction on you. And now you're out
of the game, like you've taken yourself out of the game,
or more specifically, somebody's voice in your head is taking
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you out of the game before you can even try,
and now it is guaranteed that you will not be successful.
And it's interesting how that limiting belief becomes reality just
because you have been forced to think it time and
time again about yourself. It becomes reality and we see
it as and as soon as it becomes reality, we're like, well,
that was always destined to happen because of what these
people told me, because they told me I wasn't good enough.
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Another way out upbringing influences our insecurity levels in a
very similar way, but also a very different way, is
sibling rivalry and comparison, which we just did an episode
on a few weeks. I feel like I do this
all the time. I look into something, and then it
will just keep popping up time and time again in
future episodes. So apologies if you're up to date, and
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if you already know what I'm going to talk about
because you listened to that episode. But sibling comparison is
a factor that, like I do not see people talking about.
Hence why it deserves its part in this episode. It
seems natural, it seems fairly common. It can be deeply
damaging to some extent. Comparison between siblings occurs because we
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are different and people who are different compare. But consistently
feeling that you are less worthy than a sibling who
excels at things, who is celebrated by your parents, who
is smarter than you, who is more fun, who was
more loved, who is easier, can create an ingrained sense
of inadequacy from childhood that bleeds into your life beyond
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childhood and beyond your family unit. This is particularly the
case with parental favoritism, and I just New York Times
article about this parents favoring one child over the other.
This New York Times article essentially said, you know, there's
been this back and forth around do parents have favorites?
Do they not? And they looked at this two thousand
and one study that wanted to investigate it once and
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for all, and it essentially found they absolutely do. The
study was conducted at Perdue University. The research is recruited
five hundred parents. Every one of these parents had to
have two children or more, and they can't just outright say,
like do you have a favorite child? They ask some
more sneaky questions. They ask them, you know, which child
do you spend more money on? Who do you feel
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emotionally closer to? Like who do you think looks more
like you? Who are you more disappointed in? They asked
these questions plus a bunch more over, like many many years.
They literally have been tracking some of these families for
twenty five years to the point where they're now looking
at favoritism that passes on to the grandchildren. Do you
want to guess how many of these parents had a favorite?
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Two thirds? Two thirds of these parents had to prefer child,
although very few of them admitted it, and that favoritism
lasted over decades. Knowing you aren't your parents' favorite is
shown to greatly contribute to a higher baseline level of insecurity,
almost because like the call is coming from inside the house,
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Like you get your initial sense of self worth from
your parents. If you can tell they don't like you,
how are you going to overcome that? You know, if
you've been compared and felt less then since you were
a kid, explicitly, implicitly, obviously not obviously, that is going
to really deeply influence how you see yourself. The very
famous American author John Bradshaw has also spoken about how
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when that turns into judgment and now having harsh or
judgmental parents who really overcorrect you and really want to
make you feel bad as a way of discipline leads
to an impoveraged self image and what he calls a
shame based identity. A shame based identity is one that
is rooted in failure versus success. Essentially because of our
childhood as adults, if we grew up with harsh parents,
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our primary reaction to any setback, shortcoming, small mistake is
to feel shit about ourselves, is to shrink and self
blame rather than look for opportunities or solutions to expand,
because we're waiting for somebody to come down and be
like bad, naughty and you. Therefore, well, it's not you.
Your experiences put a stealing over your ability to grow
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now unless we have a strong counterforce to this, such
as you know, a strong support system outside the family
or really great friends, or we tackle those early beliefs
through therapy or similar we just are left feeling that
we are inherently unworthy. We inherently should feel insecure because
the people who were meant to provide unconditional love and
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support couldn't. And what kind of parent can't love their
child must be something wrong with us when we're a kid.
That's the other thing. We can't understand that this has
nothing to do with us and everything to do with
them because we don't have that self awareness. So again,
it influences us deeply to ourcore. Let's talk about some
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contributors beyond the family system, shall we. We're going to
do that after this short break. Stay with us. I
will talk about this every day until the cows come home,
until people listen. If you were bullied as a child,
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even if you are over it, even if you don't
see those people anymore, even if you don't think it
was that serious, even if it was years ago, I
am telling you right now, your baseline confidence level is
already lower than the average person. The thing about bullying
is that it often occurs when our self concept is
at its least stable and most vulnerable. If you think
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about our self concept as a chart that kind of
tracks alongside age. Between the ages of twelve and seventeen,
you're going to see a massive dip in our self concept.
There was a survey, I think it was reported in
the Journal of Psychology and Aging in two thousand and two.
It questioned over three hundred thousand people aged nine to
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ninety and the results showed that nine to twelve years
old is when we had our highest level of self esteem,
and then our self esteem after twelve just plummets for
an extended period of like five to ten years. It's
a very significant drop at the beginning of puberty. Both
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genders experienced equal drops in self esteem. It was also
when individuals were most likely to report memories of being
bullied and memories of bullying being at its highest intensity.
So that is when we're going to get hit, like
right at that point where we are at our lowest
and it's a very slow recovery from there. As we
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get older, just in general, our self esteem levels out well,
it only recovers from that drop in like our mid
fifties to sixties, Like it takes forty to fifty years
to get back to how we felt as children again
in adulthood. But it is very clear in this study
and from many other studies that there are certain points
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that we are most sensitive to, even minor knocks to
our internal sense of self. And it also is these
points where any damage is magnified. Bullying is always going
to be a terrible experience. It's psychologically very violent, very disarming,
but especially as a child or teenager, it's harder to escape.
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First of all, it's also harder to rationalize. It's harder
to counterfactualize as well, because we don't know who we
are yet, we don't have that confident bodyguard to step
in and be like, I don't think that's true. It
can take years to not have your bully's voice with
the first thing that pops into your mind whenever something
goes wrong in your life, or whenever something goes right,
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and that leaves a lingering impact of on insecurity. Then
sometimes to make it worse, the bully isn't even one
person or two people or a group. It is a
societal system. It is a societal system that endeavors to
bully all of us to make us feel bad for profit.
I'm talking about social media. Here is a not so
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fun fact. The earlier you are exposed to social media,
the greater your chances of what we call pathological and
maladaptive insecurity. That's a scary term, but it's true. Frequent
social media usage increases a psychological phenomena known as self objectification,
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whereby we view ourselves as a physical object first, something
to be looked at, something to be hopefully liked, and
an emotional and psychologically complex individual. Second, when our thoughts
about our physical form become negative or become inaccurate, or
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the body standard changes, as it does so rapidly these days,
if we have higher levels of self objectification, we risk
being completely mentally and emotionally derailed because our sense of
self esteem is once again conditional on something that isn't
solid or stable, and more specifically, isn't internal. I think
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we associate body image issues with people who were in puberty,
people who were like in their late teens, but with
social media becoming more ubiquitous nowadays, body image and securities
are showing up younger and younger. There was one review
I think in twenty sixteen that identified body dissatisfaction in
children under the age of six is increasing at a
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rapid rate because of social media exposure. There are heaps
of estimates out there, depending on what source you look at,
but one study that measured body image in a group
of eleven to sixteen year olds in the UK found
that seventy nine percent thought that how they looked was
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incredibly important, and over half of them worried about how
they looked on a daily to weekly basis. That stuff
that insecurity sticks because once you start thinking those thoughts
of like, am I ugly? Should I lose some weight?
Why don't I look like that person? How can I
look like that person? Why does my nose look like that?
Why did my clothes look like that? There are a
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few days when you don't think a thought like that,
even quietly, perhaps even for the rest of your life.
I think something else that's interesting is that different domains
or categories of insecurity are going to not only impact
people differently the way body image impacts people differently, but
are going to be more prevalent in certain groups based
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on how we are socially conditioned. It's probably something I
should have addressed, actually a lot earlier on probably very
at the beginning of the episode, so apologies, But insecurity
is not just this one thing somebody can have deep
financial insecurity, but amazing image insecurity. They can be really
worried about money and whether they have enough, but feel
great about themselves. They can have terrible professional insecurity, amazing
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social and relationship security. To list some of the main
categories of insecurity, we have social insecurity, image insecurity, relationship insecurity,
professional insecurity, financial insecurity, intellectual insecurity, health insecurity. It's like
flavors of ice cream. It goes on and on and on.
There are so many. Which type of insecurity you display
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most as an adult is highly revealing of what emotional
battles you went through as a child or teenager. If
you think about yourself, everything you know about yourself, which
one is most prominent for you, and what does it
trace back to? What was the origin point? What's the
ancestry of your insecurity? More often than not we can
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find a psychological, social, or a more origin to our
primary insecurity. The death of a parent from an illness
that increases health insecurity. Not feeling like you had somebody
who believed in you as a child or who was
a role model increases career insecurity. Being relentlessly teased about
a certain physical feature. Image insecurity honestly, with the hindsight
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of adulthood, you'll be surprised how many epiphanies you start
having of like, Wow, of course I am the way
I am. How could I not be? How could I
not be this person? When that was my past, that
was my conditioning. I was made to feel bad about
this since the day I could I could think about
myself as a human. So what is the cost of insecurity?
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Next question? You can see we're moving through this quickly. Strangely,
it's not always what you think. I think. There's this
typical idea that someone who is insecure will perhaps be
very reclusive. They'll shrink away, very silent, faggy, closed, very
softly spoken. That's deaf. One way it presents in a
kind of silent self sabotage or just a silence. But
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the mind and the ego find many creative ways to
protect us, and one of those ways is counterintuitively through
artificial overconfidence. Sometimes the loudest person in the room, the
one you're like most afraid of, is deep down the
one who's most afraid themselves. They are most afraid that
they will be found out. They're equally convinced that one
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day everybody's going to realize why they hate themselves and
that they should hate them for the same reasons. They
mask this deep insecurity and sadness with bravado. It's what
we call a compensatory defense mechanism, and one twenty thirteen
study found that it's deeply correlated to self doubt, not
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actual confidence as we would think it was, like, it's
not arrogance, it's self doubt. Now, as to why some
people use over confidence to mask insecurity and others don't,
we actually don't really know yet, but researchers do have
a theory that it has to do with social signaling.
So we want to send out as many positive signals
about our skills as we can, especially if we're insecure
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about them, and we kind of hope that if we
send out heaps of signals, heaps of positive messaging, heaps
of arrogant messaging, more people will believe that that's who
we are, and we will be able to believe it ourselves.
It's almost like it is fake it till you make
it on a mass scale, and the instinct to fake
it till we make it is coming from this place
of deep insecurity. But because we aren't doing this from
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an organic, natural place. We kind of don't know what
the correct level, that is, natural confidence would look like,
and we don't know where to turn it off. And
then so eventually it doesn't look that great from the
outside because we're not doing it in a normal way.
Of course, this protection mechanism doesn't work. Bravado arrogance over confidence.
There will always be cracks. There's always going to be
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the need for further compensatory behaviors to help you keep
up this facade because deep down we don't have a
well of positive regard or a well of positive thoughts
or feelings about ourselves to draw from. We just don't
have it. It can also start to develop into using
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others to feel better in nasty ways, like putting them down,
like gossiping about them, like not helping them when we
know we should for fear that others shining very brightly
will make us personally look worse. That's one of the
worst forms that insecurity can take. It's still understandable, but
it can be difficult to deal with on both sides.
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It's a particular form of validation seeking link to social
comparison theory, but also a very specific kind of anxiety
called status anxiety. There was a study from two thousand
and five that looked at the nature of status insecurity.
They basically define it as whether somebody does or doesn't
doubt their level of respect or admiration in a group,
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and across seventeen studies they looked at all these different
ways that status anxiety shows up in society. Literally, one
of the ways they did this was that they randomly
analyzed the final speeches from the reality showed survivor such
a weird experimental method. They did some more serious stuff,
like they did a bunch of observational studies. They did
a bunch of like experimental work as well looking into
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status insecurity, and what they found was that when people
are status insecure, they tend to believe that status is
a zero sum game or a zero sum resource. Whereby,
if Sally was to receive a boost, okay, Sally's a
friend of mine, I'll use a different name. If Billy
was to receive a boost in status, you would lose out.
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Gemma would lose out. And so we become protective, reactive.
We become reluctant to celebrate or champion other people because
we think their gain is our loss, and it makes
us very not aggressive, not insecure, but just very alert. Ironically,
what the study also showed was that the more people
clamor for status, the more they want status, the more
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they perform behaviors that typically make people like them less,
therefore making them even more insecure. There is a terrible
cycle going on here that we can recognize. In contrast,
people who were more secure in these studies, they gave
credit to other people's status. They said, Billy's doing a
great job, Billy is such a great team player. They
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saw status as less important. They believe that everybody could win,
and that in turn actually made them more popular, made
their status greater, and also made them more confident because
of that organic social validation. It just goes to show
how insecurity like it just twists our reality to be
something that it's not, both in terms of our thoughts
about ourselves and that we're these bad people, but also
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in terms of it convinces us to do things that
actually don't help us. They don't make us more popular,
they don't make us happier, they don't make us successful,
they don't make us feel more secure. I think this
is a deeply important take away from this episode, both
in terms of calling out our own behavior at times,
but also being aware of why others act the way
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they do towards you when you're doing well, when you
feel like you're achieving. Arrogances is rarely pure of origin.
It's often masking something a lot harder to understand and
work through, and that is fear, and that is disappointment
in ourselves. So over confidence, bravado, they are coby mechanisms,
they are facades, they're actually they have a specific scientific
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name that I should use. They're called overactive or exaggerated
defense mechanisms. We can also have underactive avoidant mechanisms in
response to our insecurity. The biggest one you may know of.
In response to feeling insecure, we become people pleasers, whereby
we further downgrade our own desires, our own needs, our
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own sense of self, in an attempt to gain external
validation and in an attempt to plug an emotional hole
that tells us when good enough. I think we all
know what people pleasing looks like these days, but for
a little bit of a revision, you know, it's over
committing to plans with people you don't like. It's agreeing
with people when you deeply know you don't agree with them,
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and that's okay, but you just can't bring yourself to
do it. Always going out of your way to do
things with people, even though it's a deeply inconvenient for you.
You know they're not going to do it back, even
just small I say small, not so small things like
constantly apologizing, constantly paying for things, constantly taking the blame
for others for things that just like aren't your fault.
Workplace things, friendship things, relationship things. Once again, people pleasing
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is rooted not in manipulation. It's not even rooted in kindness.
It's rooted in something I guess. It's straight down in
the middle. Fear. Fear that somebody won't like you, fear
that they will abandon you, fear that all your fears
about yourself will come true, all your deep insecurities will
come true if you can not get this person's positive
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opinion of you. It also stems from this belief once more,
that love is not only conditional. Love is also an exchange.
People liking you and giving you approval is an exchange.
If the other person doesn't feel like they're getting something
from you, or your relationship. It's not going to be
worthwhile for them, because your worth is only what you
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can provide. You do not have worth intrinsically. It is
only what you can give other people. The psychoanalyst Donald
Winnicott theorized that this behavior is rooted in infancy to
begin with, and it's rooted specifically and linked to the
development of what he called the false self. We talked
about this in an episode recently, but according to this
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Guardian article on this, Winnicott thought that the false self
emerges when a baby intuitively senses that their care does
not have the capacity to manage their true feelings, their hunger,
their needs, their rage, their love, their pain, and so
the false self takes over and fills up that space
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where the true sense of self might grow through obligation
and through the need to take care of ourselves. And
this child then becomes an adolescent, who thence becomes an
adult who realizes that nobody can fulfill my needs. I
have to fulfill them myself. I have to not just
fulfill my needs, but I have to prove to other
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people that I'm worthy of loving. Because I didn't get
that when I was a kid, and therefore exists two
versions of us if you've been through this process, the
version of us that would make us happy and that
would be supported by others, and a version of us
that makes others happy. We choose that second version to
exist because we know we can rely on ourselves we
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don't know that we can rely on other people, but
also because it means more external validation, which is something
that we feel is more valuable than internal validation. As
we continue to make that choice, we choose the false self,
we choose the other self. We choose them again and
again and again. The true self slowly dies and disappears,
and it is one of the greatest costs of insecurity.
In our efforts to become more likable, more loved. We
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just don't know who we are anymore. We don't know
what it is that they even see in us. So
how do we begin to unravel and address our insecurity?
Next question for the episode? Next big question for the episode.
We're going to talk about that and so much more
after this short break to stay with us. So how
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do we address insecurity when it sits at the deepest
levels of our personhood? It's a pretty big question. We're
basically asking. Yeah, we're basically asking, how do I love
myself after twenty years of thinking that I shouldn't maybe longer?
How do I turn back time? How do I restructure
my self concept, my identity, the things that I never
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think about because they naturally came up with me? Hopefully
goes without saying. Podcast episode is a nice place to start.
It can't take you all the way there. There's a
lot of work that needs to be done individually and
with a therapist. However, we can begin by questioning why
everyone else can make mistakes, everyone else can have imperfections,
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and we can like them for their imperfections. Everyone else
can be complex, but you can't. Why do you get
to be the exception to the rule? Why are you
so uniquely unlikable? I think it's almost like playing uno
reverse on our insecurity, as in, why do you think
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we're so special that we can't be like everyone else?
Deeply flawed, imperfect and still worthwhile? Why are we above
self acceptance? I think this creates a bit of an
internal system error. How can we have these two opposing
truths be correct at the same time. I'm worthless, I'm
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not special, I'm insecure, the point where I have nothing
good about me, but I'm also worth so much that
I'm the only person who could possibly be perfect. Like,
those two things can't exist at the same time. It's
a contradiction. That is step one, slowly revealing the lies
that insecurity is so great at selling you. That one included.
It's so important to realize the irony and the contradictions
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of insecurity because once you start realizing it doesn't make
logical sense, it becomes harder to just like willingly obey.
The thing that really feels insecurity is this false belief
that if you were to fix this thing about yourself,
then the next thing, and then the next thing, and
then the next thing, you will finally reach an end
point where you don't need to change it all, and
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you will finally be happy. It's what drives people to
surgery addictions. It's what drives people to greed. You know
you will only be worthy when there's nothing left to criticize,
and you can get to that level by just consuming
and claiming and just going as far as you can.
This is a false destination. You'll never get to get there.
It is a psychological mirage that you can be one
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hundred percent happy with yourself all the time, and it
keeps you trapped in this mindset of self hatred that
you implicitly think is protecting you. There's another paradox at
the heart of insecurity, which is that the more time
we spend thinking about ourselves, in our attempts to outsmart
our insecurity or in our attempts to find contradictory evidence,
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the more insecure we become. This has a name. It's
called the self absorption paradox. The more time you spend
thinking about yourself, the more critical you become of yourself.
Is what the theory says and what research is investigating
this phenomena often talk about is that sometimes the only
way to tackle insecurity is just to think about yourself
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less and to just focus more on the outside world.
Is to just be like, I am really not that important,
which is ironic because insecurity would already have us feel
that way. Think it a little bit more. This isn't
to belittle our experiences of insecurity. Being insecure is crippling,
it's terrible. Thinking about it less doesn't always work. It's tough,
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but sometimes the best way to challenge our insecurities is
to demote their mental relevance and importance by giving our
mind all this other stuff to just think about and
consider and to be occupied by. If you're feeling insecure
about your body, it's a lot harder to feel insecure
about your body, I think, if you are outside, spending
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time in nature with your friends, doing things, moving, using
your body in a way that is beyond just its
appearance based value. If you're feeling bummed out by social media,
it's a lot harder to feel insecure about your online
presence or feel insecure about whether or not you're left out.
If you are active in your community, if you're volunteering,
if you're picking up rubbish at your local beach, if
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you're finding new ways to connect to your need to
belong that is beyond a screen. I hope you kind
of see my point. Getting outside of your own small,
tiny world and your own small tiny mental ecosystem and
emotional ecosystem allows you to see your problems in the
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grand scheme of things, and your ownsecurities in the grand
schemes of things. I think, instead of constantly searching for
evidence that your insecurities are incorrect, just stop thinking about
them as making a valid enough point to begin with
that you'd have to go searching for evidence against it
for do you know what I mean? Like demote it.
It's not even important enough to try and gather arguments
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for or against your insecurities. You do not even need
to consider them as facts in the way that evidence
needs to be gathered. I feel like I've said the
same sentence like seven times, but I just think that
that's something that you need to honor in yourself. Thinking
about your insecurities also involves thinking about how you're going
to disprove them, and by doing that, they just get
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further entrenched. Thinking about anything else, anything besides that. Preoccupying
and feeling your mind with other things is one of
many antidotes. I believe you also deserve to interrogate, Yes,
where your insecurities came from, like we were speaking about
before and their autobiographical digging, But you need to interrogate
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who benefits from you being insecure? This is what I
always ask myself me feeling bad about myself, Who does
this serve? Who wins from my sense of loss or
my sense of deficiency? Because isn't me I'm not winning
from feeling insecure? Somebody is gaining from me not feeling good,
whether it is economically by the fact I go out
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and try and buy things to make myself feel better,
whether it's through opportunities that I turn down that somebody
else gets to get, whether it's through love and romance,
where somebody benefits from me not feeling good enough so
that they can treat me worse, like somebody is always
benefiting from your lack of self worth and the fact
that you don't feel like you're enough. This isn't to
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say that every insecurity has been deliberately imposed on you.
Every insecurity, you know, somebody is puppeteering it. It's just
that many have originated in a way that, you know,
by people trying to correct your behavior early on through rejection, criticism, comparison.
They've been trying to get you to behave in a
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certain way that makes their life more comfortable. And once
those insecurities exist, even when they're no longer useful for
the person who originally implanted it in you, they become
useful for other institutions. They become useful at work, for
your boss, you know, not needing to give you anything
more because you don't ask for it. They become useful
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again in romance, people not having to treat you well,
They become useful to big companies and to friendships to
benefit from you feeling like you know they're doing you
a service by hanging out with you, that you need
to buy their product. If my insecurity is costing me,
it must be paying somebody else. Therefore, there is something
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to be gained from my own unconditional self love. There
is something that they are gaining that I get to
take back. More freedom, more time, more money, more openness
to experiences, more opportunities, more risks. I want those things
for myself, But that means I have to be okay,
and I have to be fully ready to act to
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accept parts of myself that I don't think are ready
to love yet. Like that is the exchange, that is
the price that I will probably have to pay. I
have to be ready to part with the idea that
my insecurities are in any way helpful or in any
way protecting me. Once again, it's another irrational lie that
your insecurities are helping you. How can something that limits
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me be helpful in a world that rewards people who
feel limitless, who take risks, who just like say fuck
it and try. The degree to which I limit myself
is the degree to which somebody else gains from my
sense of limitation. That is a quote that I think
of all the time, all the time. Finally, finally, I
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know it's been a long episode. You guys have made it. Congratulations.
The ultimate off switch for any momentary, pesky feeling of
insecurity is just realizing how little it's going to matter
in the long run. One of the only benefits I've
been able to identify to my own existential fears or
my own fears around mortality and death, and genuinely it's
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one of the only ones, is that it's an incredible
antidote to feeling bad about myself. If I think I
look ugly in that dress and my stomach is poking out,
who cares I'm going to be dead one day? Immediately
I feel better if I feel cringe for posting my
work online or being seen to try too hard for
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an outlinders dream. Literally nobody is going to remember me,
or you or anybody. If I'm feeling silly or embarrassed
over literally anything, I just have to remind myself my
time on earth is short. Why am I wasting it
on this genuinely the existential approach to insecurity, Like it's
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not one you can have all the time because we
still want to connect, but the fact that life has meaning.
But if your insecurity is blocking you in the moment
from enjoying the time that you are in, if it's
blocking you from taking a risk or a choice that
you know is needed to get to the next phase
or stage of life, it is if it's stopping you
from pursuing love or pursuing something that is truly worthwhile,
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having that little existential moment of like nobody's gonna remember
me is an amazing fix. With that in mind, let's
wrap up this episode for good. Let's finish our conversations
around insecurity for the day. I really hope that you
enjoyed it. I really hope that it's been a kind
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of a door way into analyzing, like where did your
own insecurities come from? I feel like once I started
doing this, it's a road you can't come back from.
But it's so useful because when I hear these negative
thoughts about myself and my own mind, I know where
they came from, and I can assign them a voice
that is not my own, and that has been so useful.
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It's also just given me so much more audacity and
courage to realize that once again, I benefit in no
way from being small, only other people do. And it's yeah,
given me a lot more, a lot more bravado, but
not in the toxic way as we spoke about. I
want to thank our researcher Lucy Davidson for her help
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Hello everybody, I'm Jemma Spake and welcome back to the
Psychology of Your Twenties, the podcast where we talk through
the biggest changes, moments, and transitions of our twenties and
what they mean for our psychology. Hello everybody, Welcome back
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to the show. Welcome back to the podcast. It is
so great to have you here back for another episode
as we, of course break down the psychology of our twenties,
Psychology of Your Twenties, Psychology of My twenties. Today we
are talking about the psychology of insecurity. Yeah, I'm just
gonna bite the bullet and say, truth is I am
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a very insecure person. I'm insecure about so many things,
from silly little things from my childhood like I don't
know my teeth straight enough that I was like tea
at when I was a kid, to big things like
am I a good friend? Am I doing well enough
in my career? Being insecure, as you guys know, is
a very lonely existence because the only way to truly
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process it is to often talk about it. But A,
were too insecure or do that that's our problem in
the first place, and B you really want the other
person to say the right thing, because one wrong phrase,
one miscommunication, one wrong wording quickly can very much feed
the insecurity and make it worse. So it remains a
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very silent thing and therefore has a very strong influence
over us. I know, for a long time, my insecurities
just dictated how I saw myself more than any other factor,
no matter what external evidence I had, no matter what
happened beyond me, what validation I received, whatever it was
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my brain and always came back to what am I
insecure about. I'm sure it's very similar for many of you,
but I think it was only when I started almost
looking into the ancestry and the origin point of my
insecurity is, and I realized, you know, ninety percent of
our thoughts are recycled. I was not inherently born insecure,
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and neither were you. I have been taught this self consciousness.
Therefore it can be untaught that I kind of started
seeing my insecurities differently. At its very core, how I
see it now is that insecurity is a protective mechanism
that has outlived its psychological usefulness. This is how we're
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going to treat it today, and we're going to talk
about where insecurity comes from. Why a little bit of
insecurity was perhaps useful for you, how it then goes
on to transform into something that is definitely not useful
over time. How to identify you know, whose voice, whose
influence shaped your insecurities the most, because that is an
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important part of this equation, And most importantly, how to
start unlearning those recycled thoughts. How to start unlearning the
negative ways you feel about yourself. Because, as I said before,
if insecurity has been borrowed, it can be returned. There
is so much psychology to unpack. I'm literally not gonna
waste any more time with an intro for this episode.
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Let's just get straight into it. Stay with us. Let
me start by saying this, show me someone who claims
to have no insecurity, and I will show you a liar.
At the very least, I'm going to show you someone
who uses mechanisms of denial, displacement, projection to cocoon themselves.
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Because the existence of insecurity proves the existence of ego,
which proves the existence of your soul and your own consciousness.
To not have insecurity would be to not be conscious.
Here's the thing we need to make very clear from
the beginning of this episode. On some level, we are
all insecure, and that insecurity does at times serve a
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very valuable psychological purpose. That self consciousness we often hate
is what allows us to approach life in a way
that balances caution and courage, and it's what prevents us
from slipping into what we call in psychology, but more
specifically in psychiatry, delusions of grandeur. We definitely don't want
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to go there. There is a Goldilocks level of insecurity
that's like, just right, that's kind of what I'm getting at.
You know, if we're too insecure, our life becomes dictated
by our life becomes dictated by the potential judgments of others. Equally,
if we are overly confident, our life becomes dictated in
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another way by an inability to take criticism, by an
inability to hone our skills because we don't think there's
anything we're bad at, by an inability to experience humility,
and most certainly to properly interpret opportunities that we are
given every single day to be better. For example, there
is research that was published in twenty nineteen in the
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Journal of Personality and Social Psychology that found when people
experience a mild level of what they call self image threat,
they are more likely to save, they're more likely to
be financially prudent, and they make smart financial decisions. So
that's just one area you might be doing better at
if you're an insecure person like me. Further theories have
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also suspected that a healthy amount of insecurity keeps people,
as I said, motivated to improve in relationships at work
when it comes to their physical health. Although that's definitely
a gray area, shaky area, it's also correlated with a
greater openness to learning. You know, if you're overly secure again,
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you just simply I don't think you need to improve,
therefore you will not. This is a deep belief I have.
I say this to my friends all the time. I
truly believe every single person needs to know one thing
about themselves that could be better or that is a
flaw in order to be a well rounded human like
you have to have something that you know you are
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not good at if you want to claim that you
are self aware. There's also some evidence that it can
drive greater social harmony as well. This is the evolutionary
explanation for insecurity. Why we have insecurity? You know, the
evolutionary explanation claims it, if something exists, it has to
be useful. Their opinion is that insecurity and being a
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socially harmonious person requires acknowledgment that other people have complex
in a world that we form a part of, and
that as we are a part of these complex in
a world, people can have poor judgments about us. Those
judgments matter. Therefore, the insecurity we have around them is
important because it leads us back to the group. It
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nudges us into being a good person. If there was
somebody who existed who never felt any level of insecurity
about their behavior of their actions, they would become a
very dangerous thought force. They would have no reason to
control their urges or their behavior. So these theorists, these
researchers believe that insecurity in this sense doesn't have a
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positive force, doesn't have a negative force. It has a
neutral force in that it maintains a level of social order.
Of course, when this self questioning bleeds into crippling levels
of doubt or self scrutiny, we have a problem. That's
an interesting question in itself. When does it get to
that level? More importantly, what makes somebody more or less
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insecure If we are all, according to this evolutionary theory,
born with like a baseline level of insecurity. Are we
just born this way or are we shaped to be
this way? What component is nature? What component is I
guess nurture in a sense, like where does that equation land?
So let's start with nature firstly, our inborn temperament naturally
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plays a big part. Just as all of us have
different colored hair, eyes, so on, we all have different
in built temperaments. Temperaments are basically our natural state of being. Now,
the four temperaments, according to something called proto psychological theory,
are melancholic, choleric, phlegmatic, and sanguine. This is not our personality.
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This is a layer below our personality. Whichever one you
are is said to correlate to how you naturally show
up in situations, including how insecure or secure you are,
how reactive or calm we are, how observant or judgmental
we are. It's the building block for personality that comes before.
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If you have a melancholic temperament, you are more prone
to deep seated insecurity. That is what the theory says,
that is the basis of this self consciousness you have.
Researchers have gone a step further. They've long tried to
measure just how much of our temperament and also our personality,
including our level of insecurity, is actually hard wide within
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the genome. Basically, can we tell how insecure somebody's going
to be based on their genes. One way that they've
done this is through a large genetic study in the
UK from twenty sixteen. They had over one hundred thousand
samples in this study and they explored whether traits like
anxiety and emotional instability packaged together. This is what psychologists
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called neuroticism. Whether neuroticism can be traced back to our DNA.
Researchers had participants complete personality questionnaires measuring neuroticism and other
factors including insecurities. Whilst they kind of analyzed their DNA. Literally,
they there was millions of genetic variations. They wanted to
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look at them all correlate them to these self reports
see if there was any patterns. What the research has
found is that there isn't There is not a simple
insecurity gene. However, there are multiple genetic regions that play
a small role in dictating whether you are going to
be a more or less insecure person. These common genetic
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variants that they found accounted for around fifteen percent of
the differences in Euroticism between individuals on their own holding
for other things. So, in other words, because I always
find this confusing. In other words, about fifteen percent of
the variations between those of us who are insecure or
not Eurotic or not can be linked to a specific
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genetic difference that has perhaps influenced you in that direction.
And this genetic difference was one that the researchers were
able to measure importantly, because when we talk about genes,
I feel like sometimes this can get confusing. Genes don't
determine your destiny. They're just a blueprint. People can always
build the house differently. Our environment, the way we are nurtured.
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These also shape whether some genes are more or less
likely to emerge. Our choices also shape this later on,
So your temperament, your genes, they're just the beginning. With
that in mind, though, let's talk about some of those
other ones. What are those? Let's talk about the nurture
component of this. How much of our insecurity is learnt?
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Short answer, a whole lot of it. I think a
lot of us can remember a time where there was
like one critical moment that turned us from somebody who
didn't think that much about our appearance or our personality,
or how loud we were, or whether people liked us
into somebody who thought about that a whole lot. What
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kind of events one off of repeated trigger this? A
bunch of them I want to talk to are a
lack of unconditional or lack of conditional love and approval
from parents, sibling comparison, judgment from adults, bullying, body image,
social media, to name a few that influence how insecurity
shows up in us as individuals. And let's just start
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at the top. Let's just start with conditional love put
simply and also put rather sadly, but not everyone had
the fairy tale childhood that we collectively deserve. One of
the most common roots of insecurity is experiencing love, attention,
or approval as something that has to be earned, rather
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than as something that is freely given as it should be.
In other words, you learned that being accepted and supported
is a luxury that does not have to be given
to you all the time. This is what psychologists sometimes
referred to as conditional regard. Or conditional positive regard. It
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was a concept first explored by the very famous humanistic
psychologist Kyl Rogers, who we literally talk about in every
second episode. But Rogers believed children thrive when they receive
unconditional positive regard. Love and acceptance is not dependent on achievement,
It's not dependent on obedience or meeting certain expectations. When
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affection is only given in response to good grades, good behavior,
sporting success, being an easy child, or you know, being
a child that looks a certain way. That is when
we begin to internalize this belief that my worth is conditional.
If I'm not receiving love, there is something I'm doing wrong. Therefore,
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there is something I should be insecure about. Rather than
thinking I am loved because I exist, we learn I
am loved because of what I do for others, and
I am loved because of how I perform. Research by
the psychologist Edward Dessi and Richard Ryan has shown that
environments where approval is contingent on a certain level of
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performance or appearance undermines our level of intrinsic worth and autonomy,
and over time, this creates what psychologists call contingent self esteem.
I know a lot of psychology terms in this part,
but contingent self esteem self esteem or self worth that
rises and falls depending on external validation, therefore meaning that
you are more likely to be insecure because external validation
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is fick or The sad thing about these circumstances and
I think about this all the time, they also create
these limiting beliefs that restrict whether somebody can challenge that
additional belief or not. It restricts what they feel capable
of for the rest of their life. It is so tragic.
But I often get these comments of people being like,
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you know, that sounds nice, but that's not for somebody
like me, or I did this episode recently that was
like I want to do everything, so I do nothing.
And I was like leave a comment down below of
like what is your big dream? What is the one
thing you really want to do? And this person was like,
I really want to I'm not going to say the
job because it will give it away, but it was
like I really want to do this, but like people
like me don't do that, and there's no way that
I'll find success. And I was like, that is so
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sad to me. That is so tragic, because you know
you do have what it takes to succeed. But these
early beliefs, in these early words and these early feelings,
have put this restriction on you. And now you're out
of the game, like you've taken yourself out of the game,
or more specifically, somebody's voice in your head is taking
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you out of the game before you can even try,
and now it is guaranteed that you will not be successful.
And it's interesting how that limiting belief becomes reality just
because you have been forced to think it time and
time again about yourself. It becomes reality and we see
it as and as soon as it becomes reality, we're like, well,
that was always destined to happen because of what these
people told me, because they told me I wasn't good enough.
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Another way out upbringing influences our insecurity levels in a
very similar way, but also a very different way, is
sibling rivalry and comparison, which we just did an episode
on a few weeks. I feel like I do this
all the time. I look into something, and then it
will just keep popping up time and time again in
future episodes. So apologies if you're up to date, and
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if you already know what I'm going to talk about
because you listened to that episode. But sibling comparison is
a factor that, like I do not see people talking about.
Hence why it deserves its part in this episode. It
seems natural, it seems fairly common. It can be deeply
damaging to some extent. Comparison between siblings occurs because we
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are different and people who are different compare. But consistently
feeling that you are less worthy than a sibling who
excels at things, who is celebrated by your parents, who
is smarter than you, who is more fun, who was
more loved, who is easier, can create an ingrained sense
of inadequacy from childhood that bleeds into your life beyond
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childhood and beyond your family unit. This is particularly the
case with parental favoritism, and I just New York Times
article about this parents favoring one child over the other.
This New York Times article essentially said, you know, there's
been this back and forth around do parents have favorites?
Do they not? And they looked at this two thousand
and one study that wanted to investigate it once and
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for all, and it essentially found they absolutely do. The
study was conducted at Perdue University. The research is recruited
five hundred parents. Every one of these parents had to
have two children or more, and they can't just outright say,
like do you have a favorite child? They ask some
more sneaky questions. They ask them, you know, which child
do you spend more money on? Who do you feel
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emotionally closer to? Like who do you think looks more
like you? Who are you more disappointed in? They asked
these questions plus a bunch more over, like many many years.
They literally have been tracking some of these families for
twenty five years to the point where they're now looking
at favoritism that passes on to the grandchildren. Do you
want to guess how many of these parents had a favorite?
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Two thirds? Two thirds of these parents had to prefer child,
although very few of them admitted it, and that favoritism
lasted over decades. Knowing you aren't your parents' favorite is
shown to greatly contribute to a higher baseline level of insecurity,
almost because like the call is coming from inside the house,
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Like you get your initial sense of self worth from
your parents. If you can tell they don't like you,
how are you going to overcome that? You know, if
you've been compared and felt less then since you were
a kid, explicitly, implicitly, obviously not obviously, that is going
to really deeply influence how you see yourself. The very
famous American author John Bradshaw has also spoken about how
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when that turns into judgment and now having harsh or
judgmental parents who really overcorrect you and really want to
make you feel bad as a way of discipline leads
to an impoveraged self image and what he calls a
shame based identity. A shame based identity is one that
is rooted in failure versus success. Essentially because of our
childhood as adults, if we grew up with harsh parents,
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our primary reaction to any setback, shortcoming, small mistake is
to feel shit about ourselves, is to shrink and self
blame rather than look for opportunities or solutions to expand,
because we're waiting for somebody to come down and be
like bad, naughty and you. Therefore, well, it's not you.
Your experiences put a stealing over your ability to grow
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now unless we have a strong counterforce to this, such
as you know, a strong support system outside the family
or really great friends, or we tackle those early beliefs
through therapy or similar we just are left feeling that
we are inherently unworthy. We inherently should feel insecure because
the people who were meant to provide unconditional love and
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support couldn't. And what kind of parent can't love their
child must be something wrong with us when we're a kid.
That's the other thing. We can't understand that this has
nothing to do with us and everything to do with
them because we don't have that self awareness. So again,
it influences us deeply to ourcore. Let's talk about some
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contributors beyond the family system, shall we. We're going to
do that after this short break. Stay with us. I
will talk about this every day until the cows come home,
until people listen. If you were bullied as a child,
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even if you are over it, even if you don't
see those people anymore, even if you don't think it
was that serious, even if it was years ago, I
am telling you right now, your baseline confidence level is
already lower than the average person. The thing about bullying
is that it often occurs when our self concept is
at its least stable and most vulnerable. If you think
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about our self concept as a chart that kind of
tracks alongside age. Between the ages of twelve and seventeen,
you're going to see a massive dip in our self concept.
There was a survey, I think it was reported in
the Journal of Psychology and Aging in two thousand and two.
It questioned over three hundred thousand people aged nine to
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ninety and the results showed that nine to twelve years
old is when we had our highest level of self esteem,
and then our self esteem after twelve just plummets for
an extended period of like five to ten years. It's
a very significant drop at the beginning of puberty. Both
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genders experienced equal drops in self esteem. It was also
when individuals were most likely to report memories of being
bullied and memories of bullying being at its highest intensity.
So that is when we're going to get hit, like
right at that point where we are at our lowest
and it's a very slow recovery from there. As we
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get older, just in general, our self esteem levels out well,
it only recovers from that drop in like our mid
fifties to sixties, Like it takes forty to fifty years
to get back to how we felt as children again
in adulthood. But it is very clear in this study
and from many other studies that there are certain points
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that we are most sensitive to, even minor knocks to
our internal sense of self. And it also is these
points where any damage is magnified. Bullying is always going
to be a terrible experience. It's psychologically very violent, very disarming,
but especially as a child or teenager, it's harder to escape.
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First of all, it's also harder to rationalize. It's harder
to counterfactualize as well, because we don't know who we
are yet, we don't have that confident bodyguard to step
in and be like, I don't think that's true. It
can take years to not have your bully's voice with
the first thing that pops into your mind whenever something
goes wrong in your life, or whenever something goes right,
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and that leaves a lingering impact of on insecurity. Then
sometimes to make it worse, the bully isn't even one
person or two people or a group. It is a
societal system. It is a societal system that endeavors to
bully all of us to make us feel bad for profit.
I'm talking about social media. Here is a not so
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fun fact. The earlier you are exposed to social media,
the greater your chances of what we call pathological and
maladaptive insecurity. That's a scary term, but it's true. Frequent
social media usage increases a psychological phenomena known as self objectification,
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whereby we view ourselves as a physical object first, something
to be looked at, something to be hopefully liked, and
an emotional and psychologically complex individual. Second, when our thoughts
about our physical form become negative or become inaccurate, or
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the body standard changes, as it does so rapidly these days,
if we have higher levels of self objectification, we risk
being completely mentally and emotionally derailed because our sense of
self esteem is once again conditional on something that isn't
solid or stable, and more specifically, isn't internal. I think
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we associate body image issues with people who were in puberty,
people who were like in their late teens, but with
social media becoming more ubiquitous nowadays, body image and securities
are showing up younger and younger. There was one review
I think in twenty sixteen that identified body dissatisfaction in
children under the age of six is increasing at a
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rapid rate because of social media exposure. There are heaps
of estimates out there, depending on what source you look at,
but one study that measured body image in a group
of eleven to sixteen year olds in the UK found
that seventy nine percent thought that how they looked was
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incredibly important, and over half of them worried about how
they looked on a daily to weekly basis. That stuff
that insecurity sticks because once you start thinking those thoughts
of like, am I ugly? Should I lose some weight?
Why don't I look like that person? How can I
look like that person? Why does my nose look like that?
Why did my clothes look like that? There are a
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few days when you don't think a thought like that,
even quietly, perhaps even for the rest of your life.
I think something else that's interesting is that different domains
or categories of insecurity are going to not only impact
people differently the way body image impacts people differently, but
are going to be more prevalent in certain groups based
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on how we are socially conditioned. It's probably something I
should have addressed, actually a lot earlier on probably very
at the beginning of the episode, so apologies, But insecurity
is not just this one thing somebody can have deep
financial insecurity, but amazing image insecurity. They can be really
worried about money and whether they have enough, but feel
great about themselves. They can have terrible professional insecurity, amazing
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social and relationship security. To list some of the main
categories of insecurity, we have social insecurity, image insecurity, relationship insecurity,
professional insecurity, financial insecurity, intellectual insecurity, health insecurity. It's like
flavors of ice cream. It goes on and on and on.
There are so many. Which type of insecurity you display
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most as an adult is highly revealing of what emotional
battles you went through as a child or teenager. If
you think about yourself, everything you know about yourself, which
one is most prominent for you, and what does it
trace back to? What was the origin point? What's the
ancestry of your insecurity? More often than not we can
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find a psychological, social, or a more origin to our
primary insecurity. The death of a parent from an illness
that increases health insecurity. Not feeling like you had somebody
who believed in you as a child or who was
a role model increases career insecurity. Being relentlessly teased about
a certain physical feature. Image insecurity honestly, with the hindsight
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of adulthood, you'll be surprised how many epiphanies you start
having of like, Wow, of course I am the way
I am. How could I not be? How could I
not be this person? When that was my past, that
was my conditioning. I was made to feel bad about
this since the day I could I could think about
myself as a human. So what is the cost of insecurity?
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Next question? You can see we're moving through this quickly. Strangely,
it's not always what you think. I think. There's this
typical idea that someone who is insecure will perhaps be
very reclusive. They'll shrink away, very silent, faggy, closed, very
softly spoken. That's deaf. One way it presents in a
kind of silent self sabotage or just a silence. But
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the mind and the ego find many creative ways to
protect us, and one of those ways is counterintuitively through
artificial overconfidence. Sometimes the loudest person in the room, the
one you're like most afraid of, is deep down the
one who's most afraid themselves. They are most afraid that
they will be found out. They're equally convinced that one
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day everybody's going to realize why they hate themselves and
that they should hate them for the same reasons. They
mask this deep insecurity and sadness with bravado. It's what
we call a compensatory defense mechanism, and one twenty thirteen
study found that it's deeply correlated to self doubt, not
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actual confidence as we would think it was, like, it's
not arrogance, it's self doubt. Now, as to why some
people use over confidence to mask insecurity and others don't,
we actually don't really know yet, but researchers do have
a theory that it has to do with social signaling.
So we want to send out as many positive signals
about our skills as we can, especially if we're insecure
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about them, and we kind of hope that if we
send out heaps of signals, heaps of positive messaging, heaps
of arrogant messaging, more people will believe that that's who
we are, and we will be able to believe it ourselves.
It's almost like it is fake it till you make
it on a mass scale, and the instinct to fake
it till we make it is coming from this place
of deep insecurity. But because we aren't doing this from
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an organic, natural place. We kind of don't know what
the correct level, that is, natural confidence would look like,
and we don't know where to turn it off. And
then so eventually it doesn't look that great from the
outside because we're not doing it in a normal way.
Of course, this protection mechanism doesn't work. Bravado arrogance over confidence.
There will always be cracks. There's always going to be
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the need for further compensatory behaviors to help you keep
up this facade because deep down we don't have a
well of positive regard or a well of positive thoughts
or feelings about ourselves to draw from. We just don't
have it. It can also start to develop into using
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others to feel better in nasty ways, like putting them down,
like gossiping about them, like not helping them when we
know we should for fear that others shining very brightly
will make us personally look worse. That's one of the
worst forms that insecurity can take. It's still understandable, but
it can be difficult to deal with on both sides.
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It's a particular form of validation seeking link to social
comparison theory, but also a very specific kind of anxiety
called status anxiety. There was a study from two thousand
and five that looked at the nature of status insecurity.
They basically define it as whether somebody does or doesn't
doubt their level of respect or admiration in a group,
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and across seventeen studies they looked at all these different
ways that status anxiety shows up in society. Literally, one
of the ways they did this was that they randomly
analyzed the final speeches from the reality showed survivor such
a weird experimental method. They did some more serious stuff,
like they did a bunch of observational studies. They did
a bunch of like experimental work as well looking into
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status insecurity, and what they found was that when people
are status insecure, they tend to believe that status is
a zero sum game or a zero sum resource. Whereby,
if Sally was to receive a boost, okay, Sally's a
friend of mine, I'll use a different name. If Billy
was to receive a boost in status, you would lose out.
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Gemma would lose out. And so we become protective, reactive.
We become reluctant to celebrate or champion other people because
we think their gain is our loss, and it makes
us very not aggressive, not insecure, but just very alert. Ironically,
what the study also showed was that the more people
clamor for status, the more they want status, the more
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they perform behaviors that typically make people like them less,
therefore making them even more insecure. There is a terrible
cycle going on here that we can recognize. In contrast,
people who were more secure in these studies, they gave
credit to other people's status. They said, Billy's doing a
great job, Billy is such a great team player. They
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saw status as less important. They believe that everybody could win,
and that in turn actually made them more popular, made
their status greater, and also made them more confident because
of that organic social validation. It just goes to show
how insecurity like it just twists our reality to be
something that it's not, both in terms of our thoughts
about ourselves and that we're these bad people, but also
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in terms of it convinces us to do things that
actually don't help us. They don't make us more popular,
they don't make us happier, they don't make us successful,
they don't make us feel more secure. I think this
is a deeply important take away from this episode, both
in terms of calling out our own behavior at times,
but also being aware of why others act the way
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they do towards you when you're doing well, when you
feel like you're achieving. Arrogances is rarely pure of origin.
It's often masking something a lot harder to understand and
work through, and that is fear, and that is disappointment
in ourselves. So over confidence, bravado, they are coby mechanisms,
they are facades, they're actually they have a specific scientific
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name that I should use. They're called overactive or exaggerated
defense mechanisms. We can also have underactive avoidant mechanisms in
response to our insecurity. The biggest one you may know of.
In response to feeling insecure, we become people pleasers, whereby
we further downgrade our own desires, our own needs, our
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own sense of self, in an attempt to gain external
validation and in an attempt to plug an emotional hole
that tells us when good enough. I think we all
know what people pleasing looks like these days, but for
a little bit of a revision, you know, it's over
committing to plans with people you don't like. It's agreeing
with people when you deeply know you don't agree with them,
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and that's okay, but you just can't bring yourself to
do it. Always going out of your way to do
things with people, even though it's a deeply inconvenient for you.
You know they're not going to do it back, even
just small I say small, not so small things like
constantly apologizing, constantly paying for things, constantly taking the blame
for others for things that just like aren't your fault.
Workplace things, friendship things, relationship things. Once again, people pleasing
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is rooted not in manipulation. It's not even rooted in kindness.
It's rooted in something I guess. It's straight down in
the middle. Fear. Fear that somebody won't like you, fear
that they will abandon you, fear that all your fears
about yourself will come true, all your deep insecurities will
come true if you can not get this person's positive
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opinion of you. It also stems from this belief once more,
that love is not only conditional. Love is also an exchange.
People liking you and giving you approval is an exchange.
If the other person doesn't feel like they're getting something
from you, or your relationship. It's not going to be
worthwhile for them, because your worth is only what you
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can provide. You do not have worth intrinsically. It is
only what you can give other people. The psychoanalyst Donald
Winnicott theorized that this behavior is rooted in infancy to
begin with, and it's rooted specifically and linked to the
development of what he called the false self. We talked
about this in an episode recently, but according to this
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Guardian article on this, Winnicott thought that the false self
emerges when a baby intuitively senses that their care does
not have the capacity to manage their true feelings, their hunger,
their needs, their rage, their love, their pain, and so
the false self takes over and fills up that space
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where the true sense of self might grow through obligation
and through the need to take care of ourselves. And
this child then becomes an adolescent, who thence becomes an
adult who realizes that nobody can fulfill my needs. I
have to fulfill them myself. I have to not just
fulfill my needs, but I have to prove to other
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people that I'm worthy of loving. Because I didn't get
that when I was a kid, and therefore exists two
versions of us if you've been through this process, the
version of us that would make us happy and that
would be supported by others, and a version of us
that makes others happy. We choose that second version to
exist because we know we can rely on ourselves we
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don't know that we can rely on other people, but
also because it means more external validation, which is something
that we feel is more valuable than internal validation. As
we continue to make that choice, we choose the false self,
we choose the other self. We choose them again and
again and again. The true self slowly dies and disappears,
and it is one of the greatest costs of insecurity.
In our efforts to become more likable, more loved. We
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just don't know who we are anymore. We don't know
what it is that they even see in us. So
how do we begin to unravel and address our insecurity?
Next question for the episode? Next big question for the episode.
We're going to talk about that and so much more
after this short break to stay with us. So how
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do we address insecurity when it sits at the deepest
levels of our personhood? It's a pretty big question. We're
basically asking. Yeah, we're basically asking, how do I love
myself after twenty years of thinking that I shouldn't maybe longer?
How do I turn back time? How do I restructure
my self concept, my identity, the things that I never
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think about because they naturally came up with me? Hopefully
goes without saying. Podcast episode is a nice place to start.
It can't take you all the way there. There's a
lot of work that needs to be done individually and
with a therapist. However, we can begin by questioning why
everyone else can make mistakes, everyone else can have imperfections,
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and we can like them for their imperfections. Everyone else
can be complex, but you can't. Why do you get
to be the exception to the rule? Why are you
so uniquely unlikable? I think it's almost like playing uno
reverse on our insecurity, as in, why do you think
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we're so special that we can't be like everyone else?
Deeply flawed, imperfect and still worthwhile? Why are we above
self acceptance? I think this creates a bit of an
internal system error. How can we have these two opposing
truths be correct at the same time. I'm worthless, I'm
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not special, I'm insecure, the point where I have nothing
good about me, but I'm also worth so much that
I'm the only person who could possibly be perfect. Like,
those two things can't exist at the same time. It's
a contradiction. That is step one, slowly revealing the lies
that insecurity is so great at selling you. That one included.
It's so important to realize the irony and the contradictions
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of insecurity because once you start realizing it doesn't make
logical sense, it becomes harder to just like willingly obey.
The thing that really feels insecurity is this false belief
that if you were to fix this thing about yourself,
then the next thing, and then the next thing, and
then the next thing, you will finally reach an end
point where you don't need to change it all, and
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you will finally be happy. It's what drives people to
surgery addictions. It's what drives people to greed. You know
you will only be worthy when there's nothing left to criticize,
and you can get to that level by just consuming
and claiming and just going as far as you can.
This is a false destination. You'll never get to get there.
It is a psychological mirage that you can be one
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hundred percent happy with yourself all the time, and it
keeps you trapped in this mindset of self hatred that
you implicitly think is protecting you. There's another paradox at
the heart of insecurity, which is that the more time
we spend thinking about ourselves, in our attempts to outsmart
our insecurity or in our attempts to find contradictory evidence,
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the more insecure we become. This has a name. It's
called the self absorption paradox. The more time you spend
thinking about yourself, the more critical you become of yourself.
Is what the theory says and what research is investigating
this phenomena often talk about is that sometimes the only
way to tackle insecurity is just to think about yourself
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less and to just focus more on the outside world.
Is to just be like, I am really not that important,
which is ironic because insecurity would already have us feel
that way. Think it a little bit more. This isn't
to belittle our experiences of insecurity. Being insecure is crippling,
it's terrible. Thinking about it less doesn't always work. It's tough,
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but sometimes the best way to challenge our insecurities is
to demote their mental relevance and importance by giving our
mind all this other stuff to just think about and
consider and to be occupied by. If you're feeling insecure
about your body, it's a lot harder to feel insecure
about your body, I think, if you are outside, spending
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time in nature with your friends, doing things, moving, using
your body in a way that is beyond just its
appearance based value. If you're feeling bummed out by social media,
it's a lot harder to feel insecure about your online
presence or feel insecure about whether or not you're left out.
If you are active in your community, if you're volunteering,
if you're picking up rubbish at your local beach, if
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you're finding new ways to connect to your need to
belong that is beyond a screen. I hope you kind
of see my point. Getting outside of your own small,
tiny world and your own small tiny mental ecosystem and
emotional ecosystem allows you to see your problems in the
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grand scheme of things, and your ownsecurities in the grand
schemes of things. I think, instead of constantly searching for
evidence that your insecurities are incorrect, just stop thinking about
them as making a valid enough point to begin with
that you'd have to go searching for evidence against it
for do you know what I mean? Like demote it.
It's not even important enough to try and gather arguments
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for or against your insecurities. You do not even need
to consider them as facts in the way that evidence
needs to be gathered. I feel like I've said the
same sentence like seven times, but I just think that
that's something that you need to honor in yourself. Thinking
about your insecurities also involves thinking about how you're going
to disprove them, and by doing that, they just get
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further entrenched. Thinking about anything else, anything besides that. Preoccupying
and feeling your mind with other things is one of
many antidotes. I believe you also deserve to interrogate, Yes,
where your insecurities came from, like we were speaking about
before and their autobiographical digging, But you need to interrogate
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who benefits from you being insecure? This is what I
always ask myself me feeling bad about myself, Who does
this serve? Who wins from my sense of loss or
my sense of deficiency? Because isn't me I'm not winning
from feeling insecure? Somebody is gaining from me not feeling good,
whether it is economically by the fact I go out
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and try and buy things to make myself feel better,
whether it's through opportunities that I turn down that somebody
else gets to get, whether it's through love and romance,
where somebody benefits from me not feeling good enough so
that they can treat me worse, like somebody is always
benefiting from your lack of self worth and the fact
that you don't feel like you're enough. This isn't to
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say that every insecurity has been deliberately imposed on you.
Every insecurity, you know, somebody is puppeteering it. It's just
that many have originated in a way that, you know,
by people trying to correct your behavior early on through rejection, criticism, comparison.
They've been trying to get you to behave in a
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certain way that makes their life more comfortable. And once
those insecurities exist, even when they're no longer useful for
the person who originally implanted it in you, they become
useful for other institutions. They become useful at work, for
your boss, you know, not needing to give you anything
more because you don't ask for it. They become useful
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again in romance, people not having to treat you well,
They become useful to big companies and to friendships to
benefit from you feeling like you know they're doing you
a service by hanging out with you, that you need
to buy their product. If my insecurity is costing me,
it must be paying somebody else. Therefore, there is something
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to be gained from my own unconditional self love. There
is something that they are gaining that I get to
take back. More freedom, more time, more money, more openness
to experiences, more opportunities, more risks. I want those things
for myself, But that means I have to be okay,
and I have to be fully ready to act to
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accept parts of myself that I don't think are ready
to love yet. Like that is the exchange, that is
the price that I will probably have to pay. I
have to be ready to part with the idea that
my insecurities are in any way helpful or in any
way protecting me. Once again, it's another irrational lie that
your insecurities are helping you. How can something that limits
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me be helpful in a world that rewards people who
feel limitless, who take risks, who just like say fuck
it and try. The degree to which I limit myself
is the degree to which somebody else gains from my
sense of limitation. That is a quote that I think
of all the time, all the time. Finally, finally, I
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know it's been a long episode. You guys have made it. Congratulations.
The ultimate off switch for any momentary, pesky feeling of
insecurity is just realizing how little it's going to matter
in the long run. One of the only benefits I've
been able to identify to my own existential fears or
my own fears around mortality and death, and genuinely it's
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one of the only ones, is that it's an incredible
antidote to feeling bad about myself. If I think I
look ugly in that dress and my stomach is poking out,
who cares I'm going to be dead one day? Immediately
I feel better if I feel cringe for posting my
work online or being seen to try too hard for
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an outlinders dream. Literally nobody is going to remember me,
or you or anybody. If I'm feeling silly or embarrassed
over literally anything, I just have to remind myself my
time on earth is short. Why am I wasting it
on this genuinely the existential approach to insecurity, Like it's
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not one you can have all the time because we
still want to connect, but the fact that life has meaning.
But if your insecurity is blocking you in the moment
from enjoying the time that you are in, if it's
blocking you from taking a risk or a choice that
you know is needed to get to the next phase
or stage of life, it is if it's stopping you
from pursuing love or pursuing something that is truly worthwhile,
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having that little existential moment of like nobody's gonna remember
me is an amazing fix. With that in mind, let's
wrap up this episode for good. Let's finish our conversations
around insecurity for the day. I really hope that you
enjoyed it. I really hope that it's been a kind
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of a door way into analyzing, like where did your
own insecurities come from? I feel like once I started
doing this, it's a road you can't come back from.
But it's so useful because when I hear these negative
thoughts about myself and my own mind, I know where
they came from, and I can assign them a voice
that is not my own, and that has been so useful.
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It's also just given me so much more audacity and
courage to realize that once again, I benefit in no
way from being small, only other people do. And it's yeah,
given me a lot more, a lot more bravado, but
not in the toxic way as we spoke about. I
want to thank our researcher Lucy Davidson for her help
with this episode. If you did enjoy this episode, leave
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a five star review. Wherever you are listening, leave a
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Show me that you're somebody who has a great attention
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And again, I hope you enjoyed the episode. I really
enjoyed making it. So until next time, be safe, be kind,
be gentle to yourself. We will talk very, very soon.
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