September 15, 2022 • 60 mins
The first in a series of the most highly anticipated Scrub sessions OF ALL TIME. We’re sitting down with Red Star himself, Roby Yadegar, to hear the intimate details of his relationship with Tanya.
Nothing is held back and nothing is off the table as we ask Red Star ALL of your questions. We dive deep into “the trigger event”, their future together and what it’s REALLY like to date Tanya.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya red An I
Heart Radio podcast. Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in and
today it's a big day, a huge day. Some might
call it a holiday holiday because we have Robbie red
(00:24):
Star had a garb. This has been how many years
in the making, almost three the relationship, Yeah, almost three
years in November. Wait, guys, before we dive in here,
I actually have a little surprise. So when I woke
(00:46):
up this morning, I didn't realize that it was your
fifth anniversary, and I just thought that this is something
that we need to celebrate. First of all, honored to
be on your fifth anniversary show. Um, but uh, watching
this kind of from afar for the past a couple
(01:08):
of few years, just really uh impressed and inspired by
kind of what you guys have built and it's worth celebrating,
not just YouTube, but everybody who is behind this podcast
really an incredible team. Uh and uh so we have
to pop this champagne to start this podcast. Give me
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one second, not even a minute, and I'm crying. So
there's that. Okay, I'm just gonna let him take over,
probably interview yourself. Oh god, I'm nervous. Gonna like shoot up. No,
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he's good at it. He knows what he's doing. Not well,
it's not crystal clear still here that wow. Thank you Robbie,
so kind and I am so honored that you are
our guest on the anniversary. I know, it's really crazy,
(02:12):
Like I'm so excited because start crying. Um, because I
talked about you all the time, you know what I mean,
It's been like years I'm like talking about this guy,
and now like you actually get to speak and like
the scrubbers get to like hear you and like with you.
So it's like, really, um, it's really nice. We're finally
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giving Robbie his voice. Let him speak for yourself exactly.
So done, a good job. Cheers, two cheers, five years,
cheers your relationship and you finally scrubbing in and Amy
(02:53):
and Danielle and East and Allison and Mark on the
zoom and we literally could not we we wouldn't do
this podcast about anything. Amy reached out to me five
years ago and was like, hey, do you want to
do a podcast? I was like, sure, that sounds fun,
and like it's so cool that five years later we're
in the room doing something like this. So cheers to
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everybody for you doing this till we're eighty. Oh lord,
I love you. All right, He's gonna need to drink
a little more of that champagne. You might want to
drink a little more of that. Okay, I do want
to start because that leads me righting to my first question.
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I've been hearing word that you were a little nervous
and hesitant, not hesitant to come on. But just like
I'm not sure what to expect. Where where did that
come from? No, I mean I don't. I mean I'm excited,
and I'm a little bit nervous. You know, I don't.
I'm not a podcast or I'm not really a public figure.
So I'm a little nervous to be on here, but
no more excited than anything. When you've like listened to
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the podcast, did you ever think because we started calling
you a nickname? Like basically, I mean, Tanya's whole thing
was she nicknamed the men that she was dating. So
we had many nicknames, and many many that meant nothing
until you, but none of them got a real name
(04:16):
until you. No one was named it tell you nameless,
but names never got actual names. But I'm curious, like,
did you ever see yourself like coming on the podcast
and talking about y'all's relationship and stuff. No, I mean
I never. I don't know that I didn't, but I
definitely like did not envision that happening. Though it wasn't
a plan. It wasn't. I didn't have a rule that
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I wouldn't, but no, I wasn't. It was not a
plan at all to be sitting here with you guys
right now. No, Well, I want to start at the beginning.
Y'all first saw each other on Hinge. This has been
a debate on the podcast of who made the first move,
But before we get into that debate, what was the
first thing or like your first opinion when you saw
Tanya's Hinge profile. So the thing that struck me about
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tying this Hinge profile was just obviously she's beautiful, but
obviously you know, I mean, you're gorgeous, and I that
struck me. But the thing that really jumped out at
me was kind of you're just like your energy um
as much as you can feel that through a Hinge profile,
yours came through and like I really felt that you
were just like a positive, happy, vibrant um person. And
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I think you know, you're smiling in a lot of
your pictures, but and you have to just a beautiful
smile and you're just looked just like you're a very
positive person. So that's what struck me on her Hinge profile.
It's interesting because I was really debating the putting, like
what photos on my hinge profile because you never know,
like just selfies because you just want you don't you
don't want like other people in them because you don't
want them to think like, oh, who is it? Which
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is the girl? But all my pictures had friends and
like you were in one. I was like, had Sofia
not all of them? No, no, no, probably, but I
was very I really picked those out thoughtfully, and I
don't think Becca was in it. And I saw it
because I would have recognized Becca, but I didn't recognize her.
Should do that on purpose kept me off the roster.
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I definitely had you. Maybe it was my Riot profile.
We never saw that one, y'all. Never made it to
the never made it to the Riot of Page. I
had it forwarded to me by a friend that remember
after after we'd been dating for a while, a long time,
a long time, like half into our relationship, I get
a text for a buddy. Hey, just so you know
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your girls on Riot and I was like, no, no,
it's probably a fake account whatever, and I brought it
up to her. I was like, yes, I'm maybe make
a fake account for you on right, which, by the way,
apparently you can't do. So my friend was like, okay, sure,
and I guess you just hadn't I had someone. I
didn't even realize it until like he told me, and
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I was like, that's so weird. Someone's using my photos
or whatever. And then I went into my apps. Uh,
and I was still paying for my Maria account, like
thirty dollars a month or something, and I was like,
it's hard to get into Rise and you don't want
to lose my account was still active, like I was
fully still on. I deleted the app off my phone
and I never like deactivated it, so like fully, I'm
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dating for a year and a half and people are
seeing me on on Riya, which is hilaric. Good lesson everyone.
If you're in a relationship, go ahead and deactivate all
of your logout wasn't easy. You have to know you
have to go to subscription. Yeah. Well, there's always been
this debate of like who made the first move between
you all? Because because he did, we're ending this debate today,
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thank god, because everyone knows everyone knows the story, right, Okay,
so in this room, who thinks I made the first move?
Nobody made the first room? Everybody wait, wait, hold on,
I tell the story. Yeah alright, but they know the story,
the story, all right, So let me. I want to
hear from your perspective, because we've only heard telling you
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a story. Yeah, so it's pretty straightfor words, so on, hinge,
on hinge. You maybe I was paying for the premium version.
I don't know, but I could see what he was
paying for the premium version. You can see who likes
you before you like them, right, So in other words,
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I can see who reacted to my profile that so
I so she liked my picture before I noticed her.
So so it's like, here's my analogy. Let's say you're
at a bar. Okay, we're sitting at you're sitting at
the bar. You're not together, right, and you look up
across the bar and you and you make we make
eye contacts, still close to your mouth, okay, and then
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that person like winks at you were like waves that
you or does something make makes a gesture to show
that their interest is Okay, then if I were to
get up and walk over and talk to her and
get her name, the first move the wave, Oh my gosh,
because again looks to a lot of people, you don't
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you don't give I mean you give looks to a
lot of people. You don't give up the look to
a lot of people. I don't know about that one.
Oh okay, now she's trying to act like she's hard
to get um. So Tanya has always talked about how
after girls first kiss, she had what she calls the
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vagina tingals. Did you experience the same, like did you
have that moment? I don't know if guys have this
moment like girls do, like when they have a first kiss.
But did you leave being like that was different? Or
for you? Was it like that was great? I can't
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wait to see her again. Yeah, I don't. I've except
for like maybe like the first like one or two
times I kissed a girl like the first couple times,
I don't think I ever felt like a like necessary,
like a that type of area tingle. But I think
you feel when it kisses special, you know, you feel
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when it kiss like feels more I don't know, romantic
or just like you feel more connected to the it's
just special. So yeah, I felt that for sure. Were
you in the dating world, like for like, had you
been dating people before you met Tanya? Like what I'm
saying is if you were dating before and like going
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out with other woman when you kissed her, were you like, oh,
that was different than what the others were because there
was a different others. Yeah? No, yeah, well I don't
know how we should get as much as you want.
He was dating somebody at the same time when we met.
He was dating Someoneren't you dating somebody first of all?
Kind of you? So you ended it quickly? I was,
(10:50):
But I was I was dating more let's say, cas
frivolously or casually like before. And then um, those those
kisses meant nothing. Uh and then I you know, and
then I kind of got into some slightly more serious relationships,
not serious at all, but more real relationships, and um,
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yeah the kiss felt different. Yeah, you were looking No,
you were looking for company, not companionship until you met Tom. Wow.
The that was that was deep? Yeah, that was really good.
Comes to you it happens. Um. Tanya is very like open.
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I we've talked about how y'all have navigated different religious backgrounds,
and um, I feel like I'm more Jewish than he is. Yeah,
from what we've heard, Tanya has really learned the words
the encyclopedia. She knows Jewish. What was it Valentine's Day?
Jewish Valentine's Day? And I still haven't gotten a card
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for by the way, I had never heard of it. Yeah,
Tanya write her own Jewish book. Leave it to Tony
to find like the love the love day in any holiday?
I do. Like, I'm like, I got like a key
shaped Hollia. What holiday was that for? There was It's
like a tradition to get a key shaped halla for
this holiday, And so I brought it to him. I
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was like the key represents the and he was like
I never heard that before and something what am I
doing literally studying a Jewish encyclopedia, which I mean it's funny,
but also like it's so like amazing that she would
do that, you know, put the effort in and she
like made me like a stator plate one year for
for the high holidays, and so you know, it's just
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the love and thoughtfulness. Yeah, I will say, Tanya is
probably the most thoughtful person I know. So I always
I've always wondered. I always remember saying like when you
when you start dating someone and get into relationship, he
will never have dated someone like you because there's no
one like you. Do you feel that, like, has Tanya
brought out like different parts of you that, like people,
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other people haven't been able to tap into. Yeah, for sure.
I mean listen, Tanya is that everybody's unique, but Tanya
is particularly um yeah, I know, but our connection is
h Yeah, it's very special and very unique. Were you
looking for specifics into which different yeah? Care is like
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what parts of Tanya that that stand out from other
people that you've dated in the past. I think Tanya
is is, as you say, the most thoughtful person I've
ever met. So she um just put so much effort
into understanding me, not just me, by the way, I mean,
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she's like this is everybody who she cares about. But
you know, it's really an incredible feeling to be like,
you know, the romance, love getting that side of it.
Yeah that's right. But yeah, I mean I think that's
kind of the number I would say the number one
thing that kind of sets her apart. Yeah, I agree.
I mean, she has a lot of things that set
her apart, but it's too long of a Liz to
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dive into. I'm when so good when you when it
came to introducing the kids, I know that was like
a big conversation. You have two boys there, the cutest,
and I know it was I had so much respect
for me. I remember having conversations with Tanya where she
was like, I just you know, I want to beat
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the boys. I want to be involved, and I'm like,
I love that Robbie is taking his time to, you know,
do this on his own page. What was it that
prompted you into moving into that next step of y'all's relationship,
like introducing Tanya to the boys. I mean, that's a
very very deep question that I could probably talk about
for a while. I mean, I think the short shorter
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ants and I don't know that would be too entertaining,
but the shorter or informative think the shorter answer really
is that, um, you know, I had these preconceived notions
as to um what that looked like, and I had
like these plans and kind of had had had um
these ideas that at the end of the day were unrealistic,
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but you don't You can't figure that until you're actually
kind of going through it, um, and so you learn
as you go. UM. But I mean still fundamentally the um,
the idea that I wanted to make sure that I wasn't,
you know, introducing my children to a revolving door of
girlfriends and really making sure that it was something very
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meaningful before I did. That was really kind of the
guiding force there. We reference the trigger event trigger event,
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which was a small short time window were all we're
not together and dark time. A lot of people I
put up talks and a lot of people were wondering
what led to that moment of like going your separate
ways for that time, but then what also brought you back?
Like what was it that? Because we'll get into this also,
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but there's the wrong right person, wrong time debate, and
I'm curious, like what led to you feeling like there
needed to be that break? Wait before you go into that,
Before you go into that, I do want to say
I feel like when I met you, I was so
focused with like, um, always doing the right thing. So
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I was like, I should meet the kids now, and
I should do it now. And I should. Like I
was always focused on like what's the right thing to do?
But what I've realized being this relationship is like there's
no right and wrong. It's just whatever feels good to you.
So if like, if you're a single parent and you
want to introduce somebody to your kids a weekend, that's
your prerogative. That's you and your partner's pregative. If you
want to wait a year, if you want to wait
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two years, if you want to wait six months, three months, like,
it's all what you and your partner want to do
and what feels right for you and your relationship. And
I think that like that reality and like that aha
moment was like very eye opening for me because I
was like, it's been six months and I haven't met them,
Like this is wrong, Like you know what, I kept saying,
this is wrong and this is right, and it's just
like that's not it's not how it is. It's just
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whatever feels comfortable and good for you and your partner
and whatever that is. So that was very freeing for me. Yeah,
I know, that's that's right now. The hard part, though,
is when what feels right for one person doesn't feel
right for the other person. Then you've got to figure
out how to navigate that. So but I think we've
done a really good job of that. And I think
you know, honestly your patience and understanding. Um, I never
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knew the word patient meant until I met you, because
I'm a very instantaneous. I'm a very instantaneous person. What
he'sn't bad to say that that sounds like a little
bit like you know, like that I that you had
to be really really patient. Well I have, but but
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in terms of like my life, in terms of my life,
I feel like I was rewarded for being impatient, Like
especially with my career, Like I was always like moving
forward and like it was like go get her and
like not sleep and just keep going. And I was
impatient in a lot of ways. And I was not
patient in many aspects of my life until you came
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into it. And it's yeah, And it's very interesting because
whenever I would get into moments of like frustration, Riquel
would always remind me. She's like the Bible says love
is patient. That's the first word that it says. She's like,
don't you find that weird? And I was like, yeah,
that's such a I would never say. I would say
love is amazing, love is beautiful, love is romantic, love
is all these things. But love is patient, Like what
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is that? And it like actually stands true. Like I'm like,
I have never wanted to be patient until you. M hm,
I feel like you when I hear a conversation. Not
that she ever tells me anything about y'all's relationship. She
would never do that, but if she did sometimes one
time mention it. It sounds like you and I have
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very similar personalities and how we handle a lot of
things in life. And I've I've always felt like Hayley
and Tanya have a lot of similarities and how they
handle certain things too. So Tania has come to me
and been like Robbie said, or did this, and I'm like, yeah,
that makes perfect sense to me. Or she asked she
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goes to her other friend and then or she'll text
me and ask for advice and I'll say something she'll go,
that's literally exactly what Robbie said. Honestly, it's so funny
because she like, she'll never bring you up as a
someone who supports WHI it's never you know, It's like,
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that's good to know. I don't listen. I don't know.
I don't know you or Haley well enough in that
way to know that, but yeah, I mean I knowing
either way, I know you. I think that does kind
of make sense that that you think about things kind
of similar to the way I do. Yeah. Yeah, I've
definitely noticed some similarities. Wait, but we were about to
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kind of actually hit and I think possibly a huge
scrubbing revelation that you're a Becca. That's obvious. I've known
that for a long time. Another revelation the wait, so
you asked me about the triggering event, and like, what,
it's just trigger event? Trigger event? Do we are we
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are the people aware of the first event? No? Actually,
maybe I think I mentioned because remember we broke up
for like a hot sec Oh yeah, I think I
mentioned it because we broke up for like two weeks
and when it was really like checking in on you
because you were down. I was down. But you talked
about it on the podcast. I think think eventually she
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said after I talked about them when we broke up
for real, I was like, it happened a month before. Yeah, yeah,
so they know. So maybe not a huge revelation, but
I think it's important, like in terms of answering your question,
which I've totally forgotten now, Well, it was basically what
led to what led you out of the trigger event, right,
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So the pre Trigg event was was the result of
kind of my yeah, inability to um or just time
to night, not seeing eye to eye on um, kind
of the integration with the kid kids issue. Um. Uh,
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it kind of got it, you know, got to it
reached ahead where she just couldn't be compartmentalized in that
way anymore. And and yet I was not comfortable um
kind of bridge, you know, crossing integrating her into the
with the kids. So I couldn't do it, and she
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couldn't continue, and so she broke up with me the
first time. Uh. And UM, I think both of us
in that moment felt that that that we shouldn't that
that shouldn't have been the case, that we shouldn't have
broken up, um, but that in order to get back together,
in order for us to have a relationship, we would
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need to kind of address this issue. And I would
really more kind of I needed to kind of look
deep within and kind of address the issue. So so
I did. UM. And it wasn't just on me, I
think Tanya, you know, uh also kind of made a
lot of effort and communicated to me kind of that
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um she ah, she supported how I felt, but but
at the same time kind of needed to be involved more.
And so we had these conversations and I realized that
my it helped me realize that my preconceived notions that
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I was talking about before of kind of how this
needs to work don't really work. You can't get to
the point you can't you can only reach a certain
point in a relationship when you have two kids, UM,
without that person being involved in meeting those two kids.
And so it kind of took the first event for
me to realize that, UM. And so uh, we got
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back together kind of on the premise that UM, I
would that we would start integrating her into the kids
with the kids, UM. And we did that and very
very slowly, very methodically, very kind of deliberately, very kind
of again all with an eye towards making sure that
the kids were comfortable and dealing with it well. And
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so we did that, and I thought we did it
really really well. So did you have a moment, Because
then y'all got back together and there was like, what
a few months, a couple of months, two months, March
or something that was in December, and then we got
back together end of February early March. Did you kind
of have that feeling of like I'm always I'm always
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going to hit this roadblock, whether it's Tanya or someone
else in this Like if I'm getting into a relationship
with someone, I'm always going to hit this roadblock at
a certain point, because, like you said, you can't move
forward in a relationship without integrating both the kids in
the person. I wasn't thinking about other relationships, So no,
I I didn't think that way, but that's right. But
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I was just thinking about our relationship and how it
was working and what was important to kind of everybody.
I mean, you know, I wanted to take my feelings
and consideration. I want to take ton just feel as
a consideration, but almost more than anybody's. I want to
take my kids feelings in the consideration. You know, They're
They're the priority when it comes to this. Not that
my feelings um are too far behind. There's but you know,
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uh so so yeah. But I think the maybe another
way of answering your question is that I was learning
all of this kind of as I go, my first
time experiencing it, my first time kind of going through
all that. So yeah, I was just I was learning
as I as I went, and and to getting kind
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of what Tony said earlier. There's no right or wrong right.
There's no right way to do it or wrong way
to do it's just kind of the way you feel, um,
and there's multiple people's feelings we're kind of taking into
account here. Tony was like out and out during that
time and was like trying to make it seem like
she was like thriving and living her best life. And um,
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did you get the impression just based on what you
saw in social media that she was like moved on
and doing her own thing and during the breakup, I
didn't get it wasn't the impression for social media. It
was the impression from like a couple of interactions that
we had or didn't have. It wasn't on social media
you to feel that we weren't really harked really hard
(26:31):
for that, So thanks for noticing. Okay, Well, I kind
of I think I saw through that, but I think
when you honestly know I did, But I think when
you didn't like respond to like a particular text or this,
and that combined with all that, then I was like, okay,
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so she's she's moved on, she's moved on. Little did
you know? Little did you know? I was still writing
in that your future husband doing all about you? Thank
you so much. That literally leads right into my next question.
How many questions are on that? Doing all of them?
Are you doing? Okay? You're feeling okay, I feel great,
but I feel like I'm way ahead? Are you guys
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on the champagne? Um? Here? Cheers, cheers? Do you want
to know? What let him out of the trigger event?
It was just how hot I looked? Okay? I So
someone asked us. They were like, was it saying because
Tanya some of those red carpet looks were like, Tanya,
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the orange, I gotta, I gotta get her back. It
was hard. The orange was hard. So it's so funny
because what he's talking about is he'd reached out a
couple of times to me and I didn't respond to
him multiple times, and then on my birthday, on his birthday,
I aisd him I did not reach out to him.
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You didn't deserve it. We went to dinner that night.
We were with Ashley I and Lizzie and um Jade
and we were all talking about because she was devastated
the day. I was like, I need somebody to take
my mind off this. I can't be alone. Yeah. So
he reached out to me on multiple occasions and I
did not respond and I did not reach out to
Hi Hi another day. Yeah, multiple days. And then on
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your birthday, I was really him making high because I
was going to send you a cake. And then all
my friends were like, are you to send him a
cake after he broke up with you? He doesn't deserve
a cake. I was liked, which friends, I was probably
one of those. But the thing is about the breakup
was that I was always like because Tanya was dead
set like this is my guy. We're gonna and I'm like, Tanya,
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it's not. It's not happening right now. So but I
was always I was definitely like, don't send him a
cake on his birthday. But I was like, Robbie is
an amazing guy. Like if you all can work it out,
I support it. But but it's really funny because I
did the Globes and I had that was when I
was in the orange dress and he reached out to me,
and for some reason, I think I was like exhausted,
I hadn't slept, and so I saw his message and
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I just got emotional and like I responded to that one.
And that's kind of the impetus to how we started
like talking again. It was then what was that? What
was the date? It was like end of February, early March. Yeah,
that sounds right. Yeah, story checks out. Yeah. I'm gonna
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ask both of you this. Do you feel like the
breakup major relationship stronger in some capacity? I'm gonna say no, Oh, yeah,
I don't think it did for me. I think that
there's two sides of this. So in one sense, it
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made our relationship weaker because it put in her mind
for a very long time. I know if it's still
there that if I'm faced with this again, traumatic kind
of adversity, adverse, Yes, intense adversity. Um, would I break
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up with her again? Um? So that was a negative
from Tanya's perspective, But I think I don't know if
it was a positive from my perspective. I mean, it
ended up being a positive. I didn't it would only
be a positive. I needed the breakup to kind of
have the revelation that I had, which I don't necessarily
know that I did, but at the end of the day,
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I had it, and that's kind of what matters. He
missed me. That's so interesting because like from my perspective,
I thought that was going to be a no brainer. Yes,
because to me, as soon as y'all got back together,
I felt like y'all were moving in a forward direction.
But she was holding she would hold on to that,
and Tana was holding on because I think, like, it's
(30:54):
I think it's a very like if you bring if
someone breaks up with you, how are you supposed to
they feel like, Okay, if we get back together, few
if something happens again, you're not going to jump ship
again because I have to understand. I know, I know,
I know, but I think, like, you know, for me,
what I'm saying is like that was not a great
place for me, for me to have as an insecurely
attached woman, that's a hard place to be in. Do
(31:17):
you still feel insecurely attached? Yeah, I'm definitely getting better.
Like he's so securely attached it's like annoying, Like, God,
bless you, has Tanya ever done anything that made you jealous,
like feel like jealous, No, I want to hear no,
not no, not really jealous. But we joke about the
(31:38):
Hairy Styles thing, like yeah, I mean and not only
was eye contact, it was like doing an extra song
for her and was calling her after the show to
invite her to the whatever. Yeah, I too felt jealous,
jealous of myself for that too, all right, So the
standards quite high to make jealous, Harry Styles has to
(32:00):
be involved, and that's a securely attached person. And that's
what it's like. I'm like, I would love to know
what it feels like to be in your shoes, you know,
like it's just not like that in these boots literally
appeared hard. Have you always been that way or does
Tanya make you feel that way? No, it's uh no,
(32:22):
I've always I've always been that way in relationships where
I shouldn't have been. I was so yeah, I've always
been that way. Where do you where I come from?
You know? I mean that's that you can't teach it deep.
I have no idea. Oh yeah, I mean you probably
know better than me. You've like you've simply put days.
(32:47):
I don't know. This question is very specifically, very important,
to me, what was your first impression of me? That's
a good question. Uh, well I've had I've had a
couple of firsts. You first impressions of you, well, so
you know that. Well no, not well you know that.
So first time I ever have been the first impression
(33:10):
I ever had. He was on the Bachelor, so I
was like a not so d L Bachelor fan, So
like I saw you on the Bachelors, I was the
first impression. I just thought you were a you know,
like nice girls, nice girl, not one of the train work.
So that was my very first impression. Then my impression
of you was really before I met you, but kind
(33:32):
of through Tanya and like hearing about and seeing about
you guys friendship, and my my impression of that was
you know, how incredible of a friend you are, and
like how great you guys were in terms of your friendship.
And then when I met you, uh for the first
time and we started hanging out, Uh, I was just
(33:56):
like this, this girl is really really cool. Um, and
I thought we kind of hit it off right away.
What's going on over here? Um? Yeah? And then I'd
beat you in ping pong multiple times. Well, sorry you
skipped over that. Don't play ping pong, and as of
(34:18):
not as it stands now, I have one. You know,
she I don't know the exact the exact pality, but
she is definitely leading the overall series bye bye, probably
three or four games at this point. I did win
the most recent game. Where was that? With the table?
(34:44):
Like that? Playing under any conditions? What challenges do you
(35:06):
face dating Tanya? Not? None of the challenges I face
dating Tanya are Tanya related. The challenges that we face
are more kind of like circumstantial. Whoa shocking, Yeah, that's impressively.
I'm happy with that answer. I can be a lot.
(35:26):
I know I can be a lot. Yeah, but like, okay,
I mean everybody could be a lot. You're great, and
I think you're great. So I love you. Do you
love the like daily letters and affirmations from Tanya? Because
I do. It feels so great. It's so nice. No, no,
(35:49):
it is, I love it. But also part of me
is like, okay, I mean this is like a lot,
but it's really really nice. Okay, but this is the question.
It was that that's really funny you say that because
the question was like, does it feel like it means less?
Because it's done every single thing. The fact that she
does it every day shows and proves that it's who
she is. Right, if she did it every once in
(36:11):
a while, I think it would mean less, if that
makes sense. That's just who she is. I think it's
quite nice to get a nice love note every day.
It's really really nice. Do you have a favorite one?
Do I have a favorite one? So I have a
literal like it's not even called a stack, it's like
a it's like a mound of them in like a shell. Uh,
(36:37):
But there's not a particular favorite one. She wrote a
hilarious rhyming poem like yeah, it was a little dirty.
It was a little dirty made chuckle in the morning.
Do you have it with you know? They're like if
she had that like all photographs on her phone. But
you know what it is, sweetie, He's saved like anytime
(36:59):
I've ever written him and know a card, like literally
anything I've ever left him, he like saves it. So
like I actually saw it up in the closet the day.
I was like, what is all this stuff? It's like
stacks and stacks and I was just like, wow, I've
given you a lot of love notes all Yeah, Okay,
I'm still it's impressive. Yeah, have you ever listened to
the podcast? Like, have you ever like sat down and
(37:20):
listened to a full podcast? I have. I've listened. So
there's like this unspoken thing that Tanya has communicated to
me with her eyes, which basically means like, don't listen
to the podcast. So I do respect that, kind of
give her her own free space where I'm not listening
in and she can talk about whatever. And you know,
(37:41):
I have full trust that she's uh, you know, respecting
whatever boundaries kind of I might have or we've discussed.
So I'm not worried about that, but I have. I have.
So when we first met early on, I listened to
a few just to kind of see what this is
all about. And let me tell you, I'm a big fan.
You guys hilarious. You guys are really really funny. The
(38:03):
show is really really great. And then during the breakup
I did listen to a couple just to hear what
you were saying, which was really effing hard. Um. Yeah, uh,
And I've obviously been to the live show, which one
more thing about Becca, sorry, one more thing about that
at the live show. But when I first like met
(38:26):
that guy was like, she's not really that funny at all,
Like she's not that funny. I was like, so, I
was like, so, what's the dynamic here, Like she's like
the serious one and Tanya is the funny one. But no, no,
but the point I'm for something And then but over
time I think you're hilarious. You're just hilarious. And you guys,
(38:49):
look at the live show. You don't think it was
funny or like meeting me, um, I don't. I didn't.
It didn't strike me how funny you were at the
live show. Like I was just like, she's just not
that funny. She's this serious one. I guess I get it. Like,
so what's the Becca, what's a Tanya? Becca's are more
serious there? Funny? I was like. I was like, I
(39:12):
was like really grappling with this. But what's really funny?
Was like now when he watches like the videos and stuff,
that's all of him do now he's like, God, Becca's
timing is just so and he's like the way that
you guys, he's like the way you guys bounce off
each other, just like you can't you can't, you can't
just make that up. But not even just on the podcast,
like your Instagram, Like, I just think you're hilarious. You're very,
(39:34):
very very funny, but you're since a humor. It took
me a second. I'm so happy I redeem myself. That
means a lot to me. He just really bombed at
that Life show then, right, Sorry everybody. It was the
early days. He was still like trying to figure things out. Yeah,
I don't think I got although I do remember when
he broke his ribs and he was like just on
all these drugs in the hospital and he had nothing
to do in the hospital room. He's like I listened
(39:56):
to a couple of the p and I was like,
oh god, I can't remember. It was like after we
said something like super embarrassing. But I knew he was
like on so many drugs he would to remember. Um. So,
I don't know if you listen to the podcast about
Tanya talking about vabbing. I'm sure you saw the clip
of it. I see, I see. That's the thing. I
(40:17):
see all the Instagram stuff. Yeah, Crystal, Wow, she's a
champion of champions. Um. So, Robbie texts me after Tanya
like the clip of us talking about it, how I
was like upset that you hugged me and didn't tell me,
and we're always like I don't think she yeah, and
(40:37):
you were like I don't think she really did it. No,
that's not what Yeah, you're like, she didn't do that,
or you were like she no, no, no, that's not
what I said. No, no, no, sorry, I forget exactly
I thought what I was saying was no, I oh
it's in her head that yeah, okay, so you're saying
(40:59):
like he umple minimui, he goes no, like, I don't
think that's true. But well, we'll tell you multiple times.
I'd say in the last two weeks, you said, God,
you look extra beautiful today. Did you vab this morning? Yeah?
Now I'm like, now I'm like worried. Now I'm not
your mom. No, like I'm at work, like you look
(41:20):
really good? Did you like? Am I being hypnotized? But
but there is a thing, there's like a it's like
a psychological phenomenon that if you like do something, then
you're more hyper aware of things. So I think that's
kind of what was happening with her. So you're not
like grossed out by the bab Yeah, yeah, yeah, I
think it's disgusting. Ye, So like you're like in your
(41:43):
head thinking that she's doing this gross thing, but it's
making you actually more attracted to her. I get that
that's complicated, yeah, but it's not I know I think
that in my heart. I know that's not true, but yeah,
do you do you so? Um? Tanya also talks about
like the e T toe that she says she'll like
reach over and touch you with her toe. We call
it the e T toe. Do you like the T toe? Touch?
(42:06):
I mean quick movies responsive touch. No. But here's here's
the thing though, So like if we're like we sleep
apart right that we don't sleep like some people sleep
like spooning or cuddling. No, we like cuddle. We cuddle
(42:28):
and then when it's bedtime, it's like I break right
and I go to one side. So if the toe
is touching me during the cuddle, that's totally fine. But
if we break and the toe touches, that's a complete
that's when the toe happened. That's right. Yeah, I'll kick
it over, you punt it, put it back to it
doesn't stay there. But I like to be touching when
(42:50):
I fall asleep. I want I understand like, I like
having separate sides of the bed. I don't need to
be like touching touching, but I want to be touching
a part of him. What's the point of sleeping with
somebody if you're not going to touch them. No, there's
a whole side felt thing on this. This this idea
that you're sleeping not actually mean you do. Yes, you don't.
(43:11):
Sleeping together doesn't mean actually sleeping together. The sleep has
nothing to do with the other things. So anyways, this
is a very famous episode. I feel like I've heard
that quote before. I've never watched the field. Did you
know that he didn't like the t to ors? This
breaking news? No? I mean I know, I know he
doesn't like a lot of things. Yeah, Like sometimes I'll
(43:31):
be cuddling out is like stare at him, Like I
was like, stare at him, looking at you. Woke up
to her on the flight over here. I'm like, and
I go, what are you doing with you? Guys? I'm
just examining all the details on your face, like like
what the little hairs Going back to the one of
(43:54):
the challenges will be like watching Love Island and like
Robbie's using the TV and I'm looking at him, and
I'll just be like just staring at him and not
watching us like TV's that way, Like I'm like, I'd
rather watch you. Yeah, that's uncomfortable. But I'm genuinely so
proud of your handling this because I feel like you
(44:16):
would just be like so crushed to hear this. I
know he doesn't like it, but don't do it. It's
like I'm like, yeah, looked, however, and he's like, it's
a really good episode. You should Yeah, So I know
I already know. It doesn't stop me. A modern woman,
I do what I want. Yeah, you don't look at
(44:39):
that gorgeous face instead of the TV. That's what I'm
gonna do. The differencete me and you guys that I
know it means so much to her, so I you know,
I let her let her. I let her she my
boundaries all the time. I'm a WinCE a little bit,
but I don't shove her off of me. I some
(45:00):
just let her know it's not my favorite. Do you
do you enjoy sitting on the same side of the
booth with her? I do. I'm into that, but I
my ideal scenario would be you eat across from each other.
And then maybe for like dessert, you go, that's the
move because honestly, talking side by side is it's it's
(45:23):
a weird head. Your head has to turn to the side.
You're not that far across from the table. But then
you kind of you know, then you switch it up.
You have like two different experiences. Haley and I always
hold hands across the table. Across the table is like antarctica.
So far it was like cold or what? Um? Who
(45:47):
said I love you? First? What? What what was that
like for you? Oh? This leads into another question, what
what what was that like for you? That she said?
At first? Well, you guys, I heard it on the radio.
She didn't say it to me. First. I heard her
say she loved me on the radio. What scial I
(46:12):
don't think I know about the race on the morning show.
She somehow it was like a revelation on the air.
Like they were like, oh, you don't love him, and
I was like, no, I think I love him. Like
I was like I love him. And so then they
decided to take that and like played on loop for
the next like however long, And so I heard it
(46:33):
on the radio. That's when I heard it. So then
I'm holding that in for how long before you were
in person for a week. It was probably a week,
a week or two at the most. Thought yeah. And
then what was the time in between you saying you
saying Tony saying I love you till you sing it back.
(46:55):
It was May to July. I don't remember. I told
you in May. I felt it sooner. You know that
I felt it were it was an I said it
was an unspoken I love you for a long and
I knew he felt it when I said it, but
I knew he wasn't ready to say it to me.
So I said it, and I was like, I know
you're not going to say it back to me, and
(47:15):
I know you feel it, but I want to. I
want to say it. I want to start saying it
to you. So I said it to him in May,
and then you said it back to me in July.
It was the worst two months because I love you
and he was like, nice, it's nice to be loved,
it's nice to be in your shoe. I love you.
(47:40):
The immediate response that was nice, feel good? Right then
would you say it? Yeah? And then he said it back.
I said it right back. Yeah, you didn't say for
a while yeah, we have a couple of those things. Um,
do you see marriage in your future again? Yeah? For sure?
(48:02):
Do you That was quick? Good answer, so good. What
about do you have? You have two kids? Do you
see more kids in your future? With Tanya? Tanya and
I kind of talk about this all the time, and um,
I always said that for me, I the decision about
kids is really more about finding the life partner that
(48:26):
I want, um, and the kind of decision about kids
who kind of flow from there. So some of the
Tanya and I definitely talked about a lot. Yeah, right, Tanya,
Speaking of examining Robbie space, Yeah, what do you notice
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(50:26):
would you say is Sunny's favorite person of the two
of you? It depends on the day, because she has
like a thing with Robbie, like he like she does
this like growl with him, like he knows how to
massage her. It's a moan and she like he like
touches her and she's like, I can't do it. She
(50:49):
doesn't do it with me at all. But I think
she loves me more. Mm hmm. I really don't know.
I honestly, she loves us both so much. It's hard
for me to say. If if I have to say,
I'd say me, but it's close to it would be
you should do that thing where we like, I'm down
to like trying to put her in the middle different ways.
(51:11):
You gotta have a oh, like okay, so you'll start
together in the I do think that she might like
it might be different one day from the next. I think, like, yeah,
certain days she's way more into me, certain days she's
more into you. It's interesting, but she loves Yeah, I
feel have I have I missed any questions? Tny? Have
I asked everything you could ever want me? To ask,
(51:34):
I think so, I mean you hit all the ones.
I was personally curious. Yeah, which one's really hit? Struck
a chord with you? Easton? Well, obviously I was curious
about the marriage, the future together, if you're going to
propose right now? That was a question I had. Do
you have something you want to say, Robbie? Uh, you know?
(51:54):
And then of course the who made the first move?
I was really excited about that confrontation. Confrontation, Um, we
didn't settle the final debate over does Robbie believe in
right person, wrong time? No? I do think that that so, sorry,
just so I'm clear on this right person, wrong time
(52:15):
meaning it doesn't work right right? Uh yeah, I know.
I think right person, wrong time does not work. And
I know that I have heard this conversation. We are
not right person, wrong timerect we are not right personally
personal weird time, very difficult time, weird time. Yea difficult time,
weird time. But it's it was. It was a time
(52:36):
that was wrong for y'all to be together. No, I don't,
I don't think it. What do I just say in
this podcast? There's no right and wrong. Wait, I'm gonna
take it a step Further, I think that that it
was we met at the perfect time perfect. Yeah, I do.
I think so. I think that both Tanya I was
(52:58):
brought in a time his life and time just brought
into my life at the perfect time for each other.
That doesn't mean that it was opportunity. There were there
aren't challenges, or that there aren't you know, things that
we're working through in our relationship. Every relationship has its
own issues. Um, I can't wait to hear about yours
(53:20):
and Hayley's. But you know what I do, what I
do think is interesting, and I tell people this all
the time because I'm like, we had to go through
so much, Like we've gone through so much in the
early days of our relationship when like when people first
meet and there you know, when you're like both single
and unattached and there's not like so much going on, um,
and then like either you have kids and you do
(53:41):
you do with like that and and all the stuff
that comes along with that, or you have all these
challenges as you get married and like whatever. Like we've
faced all these challenges, Like we've frontloaded all those challenges,
Like we dealt with all this stuff in the very
beginning and like we've always had kids involved. It was
never you know what I mean, we never had that
(54:02):
part of a relationship that was as carefree as they
can be, if that makes sense. I'm like, we've frontloaded
all of our stuff, so like it's gonna be its
smooth sale. So yeah, I don't know that. I don't
know that we're not going to have challenges in the future,
but certainly we've dealt with early challenges which have made
us stronger for sure, and we're gonna be more capable.
(54:24):
We already are more capable of communicating and dealing and
working through those challenges. Yeah. So so you were both
on the same page that wrong first, right person the
wrong time is just the wrong person. Yeah yeah, but
that's not us. Yeah, thank you be Yeah, Okay, stand
(54:46):
and steak and on this because you'll broke up and
got back together. But a lot of people break up
and get back together, so that eliminate that makes that
means that it could be the right person wrong to time.
What I know, I'm with him, Yeah, I understand, I understand.
What Wait, the right you can break up if you're
(55:08):
the right person right time, true true speaking, the true
the breakup has nothing to do with the right person,
wrong time. But I'm saying that people if someone meets
someone and they're like, I met someone, but it's not
the right time, but I think they're my person. The
breakup was it was not because it wasn't the right time.
(55:30):
That wasn't why we broke up. It's not. I mean,
you can say no, it's not. It's not technically, but
it's like some could argue, you know that your lawyer,
you could say the words not the right time, but
that's not fundamentally why we broke up. I don't think right.
(55:51):
I agree. All right, Well, I'm glad you all have
each other to agree. What tonya sorry I'm touching you?
Oh my god? Or a podcast? I was gonna say it.
(56:13):
You know, I really enjoyed the second to last question,
but I feel like that's more for you and Haley.
Wait let me see it. Oh oh yeah. I also
so you know, Haley got her nickname because we were
at a live show and it was a truth or
drink game and the question was what is the percentage
(56:33):
that you will marry the person that you're dating? And
Haley staring at me in the crowd if I drink
I'm in trouble. If I don't say the right percentage,
I'm in trouble. So I went so that became her.
I can't wait to hear that. I can't wait to
hear her response to like how it felt hearing that
in that moment. I cannot wait for that. So I'm
(56:56):
curious about your percentage unmarrying Tanya. Yeah, see, I don't know.
I don't think there's a percentage. I think what you
do is, you know, we're getting lawyer more of a
philosophical discussion. In case Socrates, at the end of the day,
when you're ready to get married, you get married. Okay,
(57:19):
where you got percentagewise on that? If you had to
quantify and percentage, I'm not ready today to get married,
if that's if that's what we're asking. Yeah, well I
also wasn't ready, but I still throughout a percentage zero. Yeah,
that's what I'm here in zero things? You know, eight hundred?
(57:45):
What's the right? Are we? At least about my end?
We're getting deeper and deeper over here. There's no there's
no percentage. You you, you and I know. It's a
good time to end the podcast. Time of death September,
(58:11):
our fifth anniversary. I avoided it, and you said you
wanted to know. I was curious. Curiosity killed the cat.
Now I'm just curious serious percentage to it, which I
think you'd probably agree with after he said no, she
felt strong in But you can't say there's no. You
(58:31):
don't put a percentage on it. I don't think my opinion,
I can put a percentage on it. Okay, what's your
percentage about time? Thinne over here? Well, on that note,
(58:52):
were the cheers to five years together? Five Thank you
for coming on letting us out hard. I know, thank
you so much. I I don't know how I roped
you into this, But was it scary? No, not at all. Okay, Okay,
thank you for honesty. I know it's like we do
(59:14):
this every week, and I really appreciate you coming on
and answering, and because I also think too, like a
lot of people are in the situation that we are in.
You know, it's like a really weird, hard thing to navigate,
and I think your transparency, um, I think it will
help a lot of people. I really do. I hope. So.
(59:34):
I mean, you know, every situation is different, but if
I could have helped one person. That'd be great. Well,
I love you guys, and my percentage for y'all is
so I'm still twenty alright. We love you guys and
love you. Let me come back. We'll be back with
(59:56):
no I think there will be a game. It's going
to be and then we're gonna play a game all
four of us. So really the next week and a half,
keep and keeps on giving. Happy five years. Happy, love you,
love you, Bye, love you Bye,
Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya red An I
Heart Radio podcast. Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in and
today it's a big day, a huge day. Some might
call it a holiday holiday because we have Robbie red
(00:24):
Star had a garb. This has been how many years
in the making, almost three the relationship, Yeah, almost three
years in November. Wait, guys, before we dive in here,
I actually have a little surprise. So when I woke
(00:46):
up this morning, I didn't realize that it was your
fifth anniversary, and I just thought that this is something
that we need to celebrate. First of all, honored to
be on your fifth anniversary show. Um, but uh, watching
this kind of from afar for the past a couple
(01:08):
of few years, just really uh impressed and inspired by
kind of what you guys have built and it's worth celebrating,
not just YouTube, but everybody who is behind this podcast
really an incredible team. Uh and uh so we have
to pop this champagne to start this podcast. Give me
(01:29):
one second, not even a minute, and I'm crying. So
there's that. Okay, I'm just gonna let him take over,
probably interview yourself. Oh god, I'm nervous. Gonna like shoot up. No,
(01:50):
he's good at it. He knows what he's doing. Not well,
it's not crystal clear still here that wow. Thank you Robbie,
so kind and I am so honored that you are
our guest on the anniversary. I know, it's really crazy,
(02:12):
Like I'm so excited because start crying. Um, because I
talked about you all the time, you know what I mean,
It's been like years I'm like talking about this guy,
and now like you actually get to speak and like
the scrubbers get to like hear you and like with you.
So it's like, really, um, it's really nice. We're finally
(02:32):
giving Robbie his voice. Let him speak for yourself exactly.
So done, a good job. Cheers, two cheers, five years,
cheers your relationship and you finally scrubbing in and Amy
(02:53):
and Danielle and East and Allison and Mark on the
zoom and we literally could not we we wouldn't do
this podcast about anything. Amy reached out to me five
years ago and was like, hey, do you want to
do a podcast? I was like, sure, that sounds fun,
and like it's so cool that five years later we're
in the room doing something like this. So cheers to
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everybody for you doing this till we're eighty. Oh lord,
I love you. All right, He's gonna need to drink
a little more of that champagne. You might want to
drink a little more of that. Okay, I do want
to start because that leads me righting to my first question.
(03:34):
I've been hearing word that you were a little nervous
and hesitant, not hesitant to come on. But just like
I'm not sure what to expect. Where where did that
come from? No, I mean I don't. I mean I'm excited,
and I'm a little bit nervous. You know, I don't.
I'm not a podcast or I'm not really a public figure.
So I'm a little nervous to be on here, but
no more excited than anything. When you've like listened to
(03:56):
the podcast, did you ever think because we started calling
you a nickname? Like basically, I mean, Tanya's whole thing
was she nicknamed the men that she was dating. So
we had many nicknames, and many many that meant nothing
until you, but none of them got a real name
(04:16):
until you. No one was named it tell you nameless,
but names never got actual names. But I'm curious, like,
did you ever see yourself like coming on the podcast
and talking about y'all's relationship and stuff. No, I mean
I never. I don't know that I didn't, but I
definitely like did not envision that happening. Though it wasn't
a plan. It wasn't. I didn't have a rule that
(04:38):
I wouldn't, but no, I wasn't. It was not a
plan at all to be sitting here with you guys
right now. No, Well, I want to start at the beginning.
Y'all first saw each other on Hinge. This has been
a debate on the podcast of who made the first move,
But before we get into that debate, what was the
first thing or like your first opinion when you saw
Tanya's Hinge profile. So the thing that struck me about
(05:01):
tying this Hinge profile was just obviously she's beautiful, but
obviously you know, I mean, you're gorgeous, and I that
struck me. But the thing that really jumped out at
me was kind of you're just like your energy um
as much as you can feel that through a Hinge profile,
yours came through and like I really felt that you
were just like a positive, happy, vibrant um person. And
(05:27):
I think you know, you're smiling in a lot of
your pictures, but and you have to just a beautiful
smile and you're just looked just like you're a very
positive person. So that's what struck me on her Hinge profile.
It's interesting because I was really debating the putting, like
what photos on my hinge profile because you never know,
like just selfies because you just want you don't you
don't want like other people in them because you don't
want them to think like, oh, who is it? Which
(05:47):
is the girl? But all my pictures had friends and
like you were in one. I was like, had Sofia
not all of them? No, no, no, probably, but I
was very I really picked those out thoughtfully, and I
don't think Becca was in it. And I saw it
because I would have recognized Becca, but I didn't recognize her.
Should do that on purpose kept me off the roster.
(06:08):
I definitely had you. Maybe it was my Riot profile.
We never saw that one, y'all. Never made it to
the never made it to the Riot of Page. I
had it forwarded to me by a friend that remember
after after we'd been dating for a while, a long time,
a long time, like half into our relationship, I get
a text for a buddy. Hey, just so you know
(06:29):
your girls on Riot and I was like, no, no,
it's probably a fake account whatever, and I brought it
up to her. I was like, yes, I'm maybe make
a fake account for you on right, which, by the way,
apparently you can't do. So my friend was like, okay, sure,
and I guess you just hadn't I had someone. I
didn't even realize it until like he told me, and
(06:52):
I was like, that's so weird. Someone's using my photos
or whatever. And then I went into my apps. Uh,
and I was still paying for my Maria account, like
thirty dollars a month or something, and I was like,
it's hard to get into Rise and you don't want
to lose my account was still active, like I was
fully still on. I deleted the app off my phone
and I never like deactivated it, so like fully, I'm
(07:14):
dating for a year and a half and people are
seeing me on on Riya, which is hilaric. Good lesson everyone.
If you're in a relationship, go ahead and deactivate all
of your logout wasn't easy. You have to know you
have to go to subscription. Yeah. Well, there's always been
this debate of like who made the first move between
you all? Because because he did, we're ending this debate today,
(07:35):
thank god, because everyone knows everyone knows the story, right, Okay,
so in this room, who thinks I made the first move?
Nobody made the first room? Everybody wait, wait, hold on,
I tell the story. Yeah alright, but they know the story,
the story, all right, So let me. I want to
hear from your perspective, because we've only heard telling you
(07:57):
a story. Yeah, so it's pretty straightfor words, so on, hinge,
on hinge. You maybe I was paying for the premium version.
I don't know, but I could see what he was
paying for the premium version. You can see who likes
you before you like them, right, So in other words,
(08:17):
I can see who reacted to my profile that so
I so she liked my picture before I noticed her.
So so it's like, here's my analogy. Let's say you're
at a bar. Okay, we're sitting at you're sitting at
the bar. You're not together, right, and you look up
across the bar and you and you make we make
eye contacts, still close to your mouth, okay, and then
(08:40):
that person like winks at you were like waves that
you or does something make makes a gesture to show
that their interest is Okay, then if I were to
get up and walk over and talk to her and
get her name, the first move the wave, Oh my gosh,
because again looks to a lot of people, you don't
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you don't give I mean you give looks to a
lot of people. You don't give up the look to
a lot of people. I don't know about that one.
Oh okay, now she's trying to act like she's hard
to get um. So Tanya has always talked about how
after girls first kiss, she had what she calls the
(09:24):
vagina tingals. Did you experience the same, like did you
have that moment? I don't know if guys have this
moment like girls do, like when they have a first kiss.
But did you leave being like that was different? Or
for you? Was it like that was great? I can't
(09:45):
wait to see her again. Yeah, I don't. I've except
for like maybe like the first like one or two
times I kissed a girl like the first couple times,
I don't think I ever felt like a like necessary,
like a that type of area tingle. But I think
you feel when it kisses special, you know, you feel
(10:07):
when it kiss like feels more I don't know, romantic
or just like you feel more connected to the it's
just special. So yeah, I felt that for sure. Were
you in the dating world, like for like, had you
been dating people before you met Tanya? Like what I'm
saying is if you were dating before and like going
(10:28):
out with other woman when you kissed her, were you like, oh,
that was different than what the others were because there
was a different others. Yeah? No, yeah, well I don't
know how we should get as much as you want.
He was dating somebody at the same time when we met.
He was dating Someoneren't you dating somebody first of all?
Kind of you? So you ended it quickly? I was,
(10:50):
But I was I was dating more let's say, cas
frivolously or casually like before. And then um, those those
kisses meant nothing. Uh and then I you know, and
then I kind of got into some slightly more serious relationships,
not serious at all, but more real relationships, and um,
(11:14):
yeah the kiss felt different. Yeah, you were looking No,
you were looking for company, not companionship until you met Tom. Wow.
The that was that was deep? Yeah, that was really good.
Comes to you it happens. Um. Tanya is very like open.
(11:35):
I we've talked about how y'all have navigated different religious backgrounds,
and um, I feel like I'm more Jewish than he is. Yeah,
from what we've heard, Tanya has really learned the words
the encyclopedia. She knows Jewish. What was it Valentine's Day?
Jewish Valentine's Day? And I still haven't gotten a card
(11:56):
for by the way, I had never heard of it. Yeah,
Tanya write her own Jewish book. Leave it to Tony
to find like the love the love day in any holiday?
I do. Like, I'm like, I got like a key
shaped Hollia. What holiday was that for? There was It's
like a tradition to get a key shaped halla for
this holiday, And so I brought it to him. I
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was like the key represents the and he was like
I never heard that before and something what am I
doing literally studying a Jewish encyclopedia, which I mean it's funny,
but also like it's so like amazing that she would
do that, you know, put the effort in and she
like made me like a stator plate one year for
for the high holidays, and so you know, it's just
(12:41):
the love and thoughtfulness. Yeah, I will say, Tanya is
probably the most thoughtful person I know. So I always
I've always wondered. I always remember saying like when you
when you start dating someone and get into relationship, he
will never have dated someone like you because there's no
one like you. Do you feel that, like, has Tanya
brought out like different parts of you that, like people,
(13:04):
other people haven't been able to tap into. Yeah, for sure.
I mean listen, Tanya is that everybody's unique, but Tanya
is particularly um yeah, I know, but our connection is
h Yeah, it's very special and very unique. Were you
looking for specifics into which different yeah? Care is like
(13:27):
what parts of Tanya that that stand out from other
people that you've dated in the past. I think Tanya
is is, as you say, the most thoughtful person I've
ever met. So she um just put so much effort
into understanding me, not just me, by the way, I mean,
(13:52):
she's like this is everybody who she cares about. But
you know, it's really an incredible feeling to be like,
you know, the romance, love getting that side of it.
Yeah that's right. But yeah, I mean I think that's
kind of the number I would say the number one
thing that kind of sets her apart. Yeah, I agree.
I mean, she has a lot of things that set
her apart, but it's too long of a Liz to
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dive into. I'm when so good when you when it
came to introducing the kids, I know that was like
a big conversation. You have two boys there, the cutest,
and I know it was I had so much respect
for me. I remember having conversations with Tanya where she
was like, I just you know, I want to beat
(14:36):
the boys. I want to be involved, and I'm like,
I love that Robbie is taking his time to, you know,
do this on his own page. What was it that
prompted you into moving into that next step of y'all's relationship,
like introducing Tanya to the boys. I mean, that's a
very very deep question that I could probably talk about
for a while. I mean, I think the short shorter
(14:56):
ants and I don't know that would be too entertaining,
but the shorter or informative think the shorter answer really
is that, um, you know, I had these preconceived notions
as to um what that looked like, and I had
like these plans and kind of had had had um
these ideas that at the end of the day were unrealistic,
(15:20):
but you don't You can't figure that until you're actually
kind of going through it, um, and so you learn
as you go. UM. But I mean still fundamentally the um,
the idea that I wanted to make sure that I wasn't,
you know, introducing my children to a revolving door of
girlfriends and really making sure that it was something very
(15:44):
meaningful before I did. That was really kind of the
guiding force there. We reference the trigger event trigger event,
(16:06):
which was a small short time window were all we're
not together and dark time. A lot of people I
put up talks and a lot of people were wondering
what led to that moment of like going your separate
ways for that time, but then what also brought you back?
Like what was it that? Because we'll get into this also,
(16:27):
but there's the wrong right person, wrong time debate, and
I'm curious, like what led to you feeling like there
needed to be that break? Wait before you go into that,
Before you go into that, I do want to say
I feel like when I met you, I was so
focused with like, um, always doing the right thing. So
(16:50):
I was like, I should meet the kids now, and
I should do it now. And I should. Like I
was always focused on like what's the right thing to do?
But what I've realized being this relationship is like there's
no right and wrong. It's just whatever feels good to you.
So if like, if you're a single parent and you
want to introduce somebody to your kids a weekend, that's
your prerogative. That's you and your partner's pregative. If you
want to wait a year, if you want to wait
(17:10):
two years, if you want to wait six months, three months, like,
it's all what you and your partner want to do
and what feels right for you and your relationship. And
I think that like that reality and like that aha
moment was like very eye opening for me because I
was like, it's been six months and I haven't met them,
Like this is wrong, Like you know what, I kept saying,
this is wrong and this is right, and it's just
like that's not it's not how it is. It's just
(17:31):
whatever feels comfortable and good for you and your partner
and whatever that is. So that was very freeing for me. Yeah,
I know, that's that's right now. The hard part, though,
is when what feels right for one person doesn't feel
right for the other person. Then you've got to figure
out how to navigate that. So but I think we've
done a really good job of that. And I think
you know, honestly your patience and understanding. Um, I never
(17:55):
knew the word patient meant until I met you, because
I'm a very instantaneous. I'm a very instantaneous person. What
he'sn't bad to say that that sounds like a little
bit like you know, like that I that you had
to be really really patient. Well I have, but but
(18:17):
in terms of like my life, in terms of my life,
I feel like I was rewarded for being impatient, Like
especially with my career, Like I was always like moving
forward and like it was like go get her and
like not sleep and just keep going. And I was
impatient in a lot of ways. And I was not
patient in many aspects of my life until you came
(18:39):
into it. And it's yeah, And it's very interesting because
whenever I would get into moments of like frustration, Riquel
would always remind me. She's like the Bible says love
is patient. That's the first word that it says. She's like,
don't you find that weird? And I was like, yeah,
that's such a I would never say. I would say
love is amazing, love is beautiful, love is romantic, love
is all these things. But love is patient, Like what
(19:00):
is that? And it like actually stands true. Like I'm like,
I have never wanted to be patient until you. M hm,
I feel like you when I hear a conversation. Not
that she ever tells me anything about y'all's relationship. She
would never do that, but if she did sometimes one
time mention it. It sounds like you and I have
(19:23):
very similar personalities and how we handle a lot of
things in life. And I've I've always felt like Hayley
and Tanya have a lot of similarities and how they
handle certain things too. So Tania has come to me
and been like Robbie said, or did this, and I'm like, yeah,
that makes perfect sense to me. Or she asked she
(19:43):
goes to her other friend and then or she'll text
me and ask for advice and I'll say something she'll go,
that's literally exactly what Robbie said. Honestly, it's so funny
because she like, she'll never bring you up as a
someone who supports WHI it's never you know, It's like,
(20:04):
that's good to know. I don't listen. I don't know.
I don't know you or Haley well enough in that
way to know that, but yeah, I mean I knowing
either way, I know you. I think that does kind
of make sense that that you think about things kind
of similar to the way I do. Yeah. Yeah, I've
definitely noticed some similarities. Wait, but we were about to
(20:24):
kind of actually hit and I think possibly a huge
scrubbing revelation that you're a Becca. That's obvious. I've known
that for a long time. Another revelation the wait, so
you asked me about the triggering event, and like, what,
it's just trigger event? Trigger event? Do we are we
(20:49):
are the people aware of the first event? No? Actually,
maybe I think I mentioned because remember we broke up
for like a hot sec Oh yeah, I think I
mentioned it because we broke up for like two weeks
and when it was really like checking in on you
because you were down. I was down. But you talked
about it on the podcast. I think think eventually she
(21:12):
said after I talked about them when we broke up
for real, I was like, it happened a month before. Yeah, yeah,
so they know. So maybe not a huge revelation, but
I think it's important, like in terms of answering your question,
which I've totally forgotten now, Well, it was basically what
led to what led you out of the trigger event, right,
(21:35):
So the pre Trigg event was was the result of
kind of my yeah, inability to um or just time
to night, not seeing eye to eye on um, kind
of the integration with the kid kids issue. Um. Uh,
(22:01):
it kind of got it, you know, got to it
reached ahead where she just couldn't be compartmentalized in that
way anymore. And and yet I was not comfortable um
kind of bridge, you know, crossing integrating her into the
with the kids. So I couldn't do it, and she
(22:24):
couldn't continue, and so she broke up with me the
first time. Uh. And UM, I think both of us
in that moment felt that that that we shouldn't that
that shouldn't have been the case, that we shouldn't have
broken up, um, but that in order to get back together,
in order for us to have a relationship, we would
(22:46):
need to kind of address this issue. And I would
really more kind of I needed to kind of look
deep within and kind of address the issue. So so
I did. UM. And it wasn't just on me, I
think Tanya, you know, uh also kind of made a
lot of effort and communicated to me kind of that
(23:07):
um she ah, she supported how I felt, but but
at the same time kind of needed to be involved more.
And so we had these conversations and I realized that
my it helped me realize that my preconceived notions that
(23:29):
I was talking about before of kind of how this
needs to work don't really work. You can't get to
the point you can't you can only reach a certain
point in a relationship when you have two kids, UM,
without that person being involved in meeting those two kids.
And so it kind of took the first event for
me to realize that, UM. And so uh, we got
(23:53):
back together kind of on the premise that UM, I
would that we would start integrating her into the kids
with the kids, UM. And we did that and very
very slowly, very methodically, very kind of deliberately, very kind
of again all with an eye towards making sure that
the kids were comfortable and dealing with it well. And
(24:15):
so we did that, and I thought we did it
really really well. So did you have a moment, Because
then y'all got back together and there was like, what
a few months, a couple of months, two months, March
or something that was in December, and then we got
back together end of February early March. Did you kind
of have that feeling of like I'm always I'm always
(24:35):
going to hit this roadblock, whether it's Tanya or someone
else in this Like if I'm getting into a relationship
with someone, I'm always going to hit this roadblock at
a certain point, because, like you said, you can't move
forward in a relationship without integrating both the kids in
the person. I wasn't thinking about other relationships, So no,
I I didn't think that way, but that's right. But
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I was just thinking about our relationship and how it
was working and what was important to kind of everybody.
I mean, you know, I wanted to take my feelings
and consideration. I want to take ton just feel as
a consideration, but almost more than anybody's. I want to
take my kids feelings in the consideration. You know, They're
They're the priority when it comes to this. Not that
my feelings um are too far behind. There's but you know,
(25:24):
uh so so yeah. But I think the maybe another
way of answering your question is that I was learning
all of this kind of as I go, my first
time experiencing it, my first time kind of going through
all that. So yeah, I was just I was learning
as I as I went, and and to getting kind
(25:45):
of what Tony said earlier. There's no right or wrong right.
There's no right way to do it or wrong way
to do it's just kind of the way you feel, um,
and there's multiple people's feelings we're kind of taking into
account here. Tony was like out and out during that
time and was like trying to make it seem like
she was like thriving and living her best life. And um,
(26:08):
did you get the impression just based on what you
saw in social media that she was like moved on
and doing her own thing and during the breakup, I
didn't get it wasn't the impression for social media. It
was the impression from like a couple of interactions that
we had or didn't have. It wasn't on social media
you to feel that we weren't really harked really hard
(26:31):
for that, So thanks for noticing. Okay, Well, I kind
of I think I saw through that, but I think
when you honestly know I did, But I think when
you didn't like respond to like a particular text or this,
and that combined with all that, then I was like, okay,
(26:51):
so she's she's moved on, she's moved on. Little did
you know? Little did you know? I was still writing
in that your future husband doing all about you? Thank
you so much. That literally leads right into my next question.
How many questions are on that? Doing all of them?
Are you doing? Okay? You're feeling okay, I feel great,
but I feel like I'm way ahead? Are you guys
(27:12):
on the champagne? Um? Here? Cheers, cheers? Do you want
to know? What let him out of the trigger event?
It was just how hot I looked? Okay? I So
someone asked us. They were like, was it saying because
Tanya some of those red carpet looks were like, Tanya,
(27:33):
the orange, I gotta, I gotta get her back. It
was hard. The orange was hard. So it's so funny
because what he's talking about is he'd reached out a
couple of times to me and I didn't respond to
him multiple times, and then on my birthday, on his birthday,
I aisd him I did not reach out to him.
(27:54):
You didn't deserve it. We went to dinner that night.
We were with Ashley I and Lizzie and um Jade
and we were all talking about because she was devastated
the day. I was like, I need somebody to take
my mind off this. I can't be alone. Yeah. So
he reached out to me on multiple occasions and I
did not respond and I did not reach out to
Hi Hi another day. Yeah, multiple days. And then on
(28:17):
your birthday, I was really him making high because I
was going to send you a cake. And then all
my friends were like, are you to send him a
cake after he broke up with you? He doesn't deserve
a cake. I was liked, which friends, I was probably
one of those. But the thing is about the breakup
was that I was always like because Tanya was dead
set like this is my guy. We're gonna and I'm like, Tanya,
(28:45):
it's not. It's not happening right now. So but I
was always I was definitely like, don't send him a
cake on his birthday. But I was like, Robbie is
an amazing guy. Like if you all can work it out,
I support it. But but it's really funny because I
did the Globes and I had that was when I
was in the orange dress and he reached out to me,
and for some reason, I think I was like exhausted,
I hadn't slept, and so I saw his message and
(29:07):
I just got emotional and like I responded to that one.
And that's kind of the impetus to how we started
like talking again. It was then what was that? What
was the date? It was like end of February, early March. Yeah,
that sounds right. Yeah, story checks out. Yeah. I'm gonna
(29:29):
ask both of you this. Do you feel like the
breakup major relationship stronger in some capacity? I'm gonna say no, Oh, yeah,
I don't think it did for me. I think that
there's two sides of this. So in one sense, it
(29:49):
made our relationship weaker because it put in her mind
for a very long time. I know if it's still
there that if I'm faced with this again, traumatic kind
of adversity, adverse, Yes, intense adversity. Um, would I break
(30:10):
up with her again? Um? So that was a negative
from Tanya's perspective, But I think I don't know if
it was a positive from my perspective. I mean, it
ended up being a positive. I didn't it would only
be a positive. I needed the breakup to kind of
have the revelation that I had, which I don't necessarily
know that I did, but at the end of the day,
(30:31):
I had it, and that's kind of what matters. He
missed me. That's so interesting because like from my perspective,
I thought that was going to be a no brainer. Yes,
because to me, as soon as y'all got back together,
I felt like y'all were moving in a forward direction.
But she was holding she would hold on to that,
and Tana was holding on because I think, like, it's
(30:54):
I think it's a very like if you bring if
someone breaks up with you, how are you supposed to
they feel like, Okay, if we get back together, few
if something happens again, you're not going to jump ship
again because I have to understand. I know, I know,
I know, but I think, like, you know, for me,
what I'm saying is like that was not a great
place for me, for me to have as an insecurely
attached woman, that's a hard place to be in. Do
(31:17):
you still feel insecurely attached? Yeah, I'm definitely getting better.
Like he's so securely attached it's like annoying, Like, God,
bless you, has Tanya ever done anything that made you jealous,
like feel like jealous, No, I want to hear no,
not no, not really jealous. But we joke about the
(31:38):
Hairy Styles thing, like yeah, I mean and not only
was eye contact, it was like doing an extra song
for her and was calling her after the show to
invite her to the whatever. Yeah, I too felt jealous,
jealous of myself for that too, all right, So the
standards quite high to make jealous, Harry Styles has to
(32:00):
be involved, and that's a securely attached person. And that's
what it's like. I'm like, I would love to know
what it feels like to be in your shoes, you know,
like it's just not like that in these boots literally
appeared hard. Have you always been that way or does
Tanya make you feel that way? No, it's uh no,
(32:22):
I've always I've always been that way in relationships where
I shouldn't have been. I was so yeah, I've always
been that way. Where do you where I come from?
You know? I mean that's that you can't teach it deep.
I have no idea. Oh yeah, I mean you probably
know better than me. You've like you've simply put days.
(32:47):
I don't know. This question is very specifically, very important,
to me, what was your first impression of me? That's
a good question. Uh, well I've had I've had a
couple of firsts. You first impressions of you, well, so
you know that. Well no, not well you know that.
So first time I ever have been the first impression
(33:10):
I ever had. He was on the Bachelor, so I
was like a not so d L Bachelor fan, So
like I saw you on the Bachelors, I was the
first impression. I just thought you were a you know,
like nice girls, nice girl, not one of the train work.
So that was my very first impression. Then my impression
of you was really before I met you, but kind
(33:32):
of through Tanya and like hearing about and seeing about
you guys friendship, and my my impression of that was
you know, how incredible of a friend you are, and
like how great you guys were in terms of your friendship.
And then when I met you, uh for the first
time and we started hanging out, Uh, I was just
(33:56):
like this, this girl is really really cool. Um, and
I thought we kind of hit it off right away.
What's going on over here? Um? Yeah? And then I'd
beat you in ping pong multiple times. Well, sorry you
skipped over that. Don't play ping pong, and as of
(34:18):
not as it stands now, I have one. You know,
she I don't know the exact the exact pality, but
she is definitely leading the overall series bye bye, probably
three or four games at this point. I did win
the most recent game. Where was that? With the table?
(34:44):
Like that? Playing under any conditions? What challenges do you
(35:06):
face dating Tanya? Not? None of the challenges I face
dating Tanya are Tanya related. The challenges that we face
are more kind of like circumstantial. Whoa shocking, Yeah, that's impressively.
I'm happy with that answer. I can be a lot.
(35:26):
I know I can be a lot. Yeah, but like, okay,
I mean everybody could be a lot. You're great, and
I think you're great. So I love you. Do you
love the like daily letters and affirmations from Tanya? Because
I do. It feels so great. It's so nice. No, no,
(35:49):
it is, I love it. But also part of me
is like, okay, I mean this is like a lot,
but it's really really nice. Okay, but this is the question.
It was that that's really funny you say that because
the question was like, does it feel like it means less?
Because it's done every single thing. The fact that she
does it every day shows and proves that it's who
she is. Right, if she did it every once in
(36:11):
a while, I think it would mean less, if that
makes sense. That's just who she is. I think it's
quite nice to get a nice love note every day.
It's really really nice. Do you have a favorite one?
Do I have a favorite one? So I have a
literal like it's not even called a stack, it's like
a it's like a mound of them in like a shell. Uh,
(36:37):
But there's not a particular favorite one. She wrote a
hilarious rhyming poem like yeah, it was a little dirty.
It was a little dirty made chuckle in the morning.
Do you have it with you know? They're like if
she had that like all photographs on her phone. But
you know what it is, sweetie, He's saved like anytime
(36:59):
I've ever written him and know a card, like literally
anything I've ever left him, he like saves it. So
like I actually saw it up in the closet the day.
I was like, what is all this stuff? It's like
stacks and stacks and I was just like, wow, I've
given you a lot of love notes all Yeah, Okay,
I'm still it's impressive. Yeah, have you ever listened to
the podcast? Like, have you ever like sat down and
(37:20):
listened to a full podcast? I have. I've listened. So
there's like this unspoken thing that Tanya has communicated to
me with her eyes, which basically means like, don't listen
to the podcast. So I do respect that, kind of
give her her own free space where I'm not listening
in and she can talk about whatever. And you know,
(37:41):
I have full trust that she's uh, you know, respecting
whatever boundaries kind of I might have or we've discussed.
So I'm not worried about that, but I have. I have.
So when we first met early on, I listened to
a few just to kind of see what this is
all about. And let me tell you, I'm a big fan.
You guys hilarious. You guys are really really funny. The
(38:03):
show is really really great. And then during the breakup
I did listen to a couple just to hear what
you were saying, which was really effing hard. Um. Yeah, uh,
And I've obviously been to the live show, which one
more thing about Becca, sorry, one more thing about that
at the live show. But when I first like met
(38:26):
that guy was like, she's not really that funny at all,
Like she's not that funny. I was like, so, I
was like, so, what's the dynamic here, Like she's like
the serious one and Tanya is the funny one. But no, no,
but the point I'm for something And then but over
time I think you're hilarious. You're just hilarious. And you guys,
(38:49):
look at the live show. You don't think it was
funny or like meeting me, um, I don't. I didn't.
It didn't strike me how funny you were at the
live show. Like I was just like, she's just not
that funny. She's this serious one. I guess I get it. Like,
so what's the Becca, what's a Tanya? Becca's are more
serious there? Funny? I was like. I was like, I
(39:12):
was like really grappling with this. But what's really funny?
Was like now when he watches like the videos and stuff,
that's all of him do now he's like, God, Becca's
timing is just so and he's like the way that
you guys, he's like the way you guys bounce off
each other, just like you can't you can't, you can't
just make that up. But not even just on the podcast,
like your Instagram, Like, I just think you're hilarious. You're very,
(39:34):
very very funny, but you're since a humor. It took
me a second. I'm so happy I redeem myself. That
means a lot to me. He just really bombed at
that Life show then, right, Sorry everybody. It was the
early days. He was still like trying to figure things out. Yeah,
I don't think I got although I do remember when
he broke his ribs and he was like just on
all these drugs in the hospital and he had nothing
to do in the hospital room. He's like I listened
(39:56):
to a couple of the p and I was like,
oh god, I can't remember. It was like after we
said something like super embarrassing. But I knew he was
like on so many drugs he would to remember. Um. So,
I don't know if you listen to the podcast about
Tanya talking about vabbing. I'm sure you saw the clip
of it. I see, I see. That's the thing. I
(40:17):
see all the Instagram stuff. Yeah, Crystal, Wow, she's a
champion of champions. Um. So, Robbie texts me after Tanya
like the clip of us talking about it, how I
was like upset that you hugged me and didn't tell me,
and we're always like I don't think she yeah, and
(40:37):
you were like I don't think she really did it. No,
that's not what Yeah, you're like, she didn't do that,
or you were like she no, no, no, that's not
what I said. No, no, no, sorry, I forget exactly
I thought what I was saying was no, I oh
it's in her head that yeah, okay, so you're saying
(40:59):
like he umple minimui, he goes no, like, I don't
think that's true. But well, we'll tell you multiple times.
I'd say in the last two weeks, you said, God,
you look extra beautiful today. Did you vab this morning? Yeah?
Now I'm like, now I'm like worried. Now I'm not
your mom. No, like I'm at work, like you look
(41:20):
really good? Did you like? Am I being hypnotized? But
but there is a thing, there's like a it's like
a psychological phenomenon that if you like do something, then
you're more hyper aware of things. So I think that's
kind of what was happening with her. So you're not
like grossed out by the bab Yeah, yeah, yeah, I
think it's disgusting. Ye, So like you're like in your
(41:43):
head thinking that she's doing this gross thing, but it's
making you actually more attracted to her. I get that
that's complicated, yeah, but it's not I know I think
that in my heart. I know that's not true, but yeah,
do you do you so? Um? Tanya also talks about
like the e T toe that she says she'll like
reach over and touch you with her toe. We call
it the e T toe. Do you like the T toe? Touch?
(42:06):
I mean quick movies responsive touch. No. But here's here's
the thing though, So like if we're like we sleep
apart right that we don't sleep like some people sleep
like spooning or cuddling. No, we like cuddle. We cuddle
(42:28):
and then when it's bedtime, it's like I break right
and I go to one side. So if the toe
is touching me during the cuddle, that's totally fine. But
if we break and the toe touches, that's a complete
that's when the toe happened. That's right. Yeah, I'll kick
it over, you punt it, put it back to it
doesn't stay there. But I like to be touching when
(42:50):
I fall asleep. I want I understand like, I like
having separate sides of the bed. I don't need to
be like touching touching, but I want to be touching
a part of him. What's the point of sleeping with
somebody if you're not going to touch them. No, there's
a whole side felt thing on this. This this idea
that you're sleeping not actually mean you do. Yes, you don't.
(43:11):
Sleeping together doesn't mean actually sleeping together. The sleep has
nothing to do with the other things. So anyways, this
is a very famous episode. I feel like I've heard
that quote before. I've never watched the field. Did you
know that he didn't like the t to ors? This
breaking news? No? I mean I know, I know he
doesn't like a lot of things. Yeah, Like sometimes I'll
(43:31):
be cuddling out is like stare at him, Like I
was like, stare at him, looking at you. Woke up
to her on the flight over here. I'm like, and
I go, what are you doing with you? Guys? I'm
just examining all the details on your face, like like
what the little hairs Going back to the one of
(43:54):
the challenges will be like watching Love Island and like
Robbie's using the TV and I'm looking at him, and
I'll just be like just staring at him and not
watching us like TV's that way, Like I'm like, I'd
rather watch you. Yeah, that's uncomfortable. But I'm genuinely so
proud of your handling this because I feel like you
(44:16):
would just be like so crushed to hear this. I
know he doesn't like it, but don't do it. It's
like I'm like, yeah, looked, however, and he's like, it's
a really good episode. You should Yeah, So I know
I already know. It doesn't stop me. A modern woman,
I do what I want. Yeah, you don't look at
(44:39):
that gorgeous face instead of the TV. That's what I'm
gonna do. The differencete me and you guys that I
know it means so much to her, so I you know,
I let her let her. I let her she my
boundaries all the time. I'm a WinCE a little bit,
but I don't shove her off of me. I some
(45:00):
just let her know it's not my favorite. Do you
do you enjoy sitting on the same side of the
booth with her? I do. I'm into that, but I
my ideal scenario would be you eat across from each other.
And then maybe for like dessert, you go, that's the
move because honestly, talking side by side is it's it's
(45:23):
a weird head. Your head has to turn to the side.
You're not that far across from the table. But then
you kind of you know, then you switch it up.
You have like two different experiences. Haley and I always
hold hands across the table. Across the table is like antarctica.
So far it was like cold or what? Um? Who
(45:47):
said I love you? First? What? What what was that
like for you? Oh? This leads into another question, what
what what was that like for you? That she said?
At first? Well, you guys, I heard it on the radio.
She didn't say it to me. First. I heard her
say she loved me on the radio. What scial I
(46:12):
don't think I know about the race on the morning show.
She somehow it was like a revelation on the air.
Like they were like, oh, you don't love him, and
I was like, no, I think I love him. Like
I was like I love him. And so then they
decided to take that and like played on loop for
the next like however long, And so I heard it
(46:33):
on the radio. That's when I heard it. So then
I'm holding that in for how long before you were
in person for a week. It was probably a week,
a week or two at the most. Thought yeah. And
then what was the time in between you saying you
saying Tony saying I love you till you sing it back.
(46:55):
It was May to July. I don't remember. I told
you in May. I felt it sooner. You know that
I felt it were it was an I said it
was an unspoken I love you for a long and
I knew he felt it when I said it, but
I knew he wasn't ready to say it to me.
So I said it, and I was like, I know
you're not going to say it back to me, and
(47:15):
I know you feel it, but I want to. I
want to say it. I want to start saying it
to you. So I said it to him in May,
and then you said it back to me in July.
It was the worst two months because I love you
and he was like, nice, it's nice to be loved,
it's nice to be in your shoe. I love you.
(47:40):
The immediate response that was nice, feel good? Right then
would you say it? Yeah? And then he said it back.
I said it right back. Yeah, you didn't say for
a while yeah, we have a couple of those things. Um,
do you see marriage in your future again? Yeah? For sure?
(48:02):
Do you That was quick? Good answer, so good. What
about do you have? You have two kids? Do you
see more kids in your future? With Tanya? Tanya and
I kind of talk about this all the time, and um,
I always said that for me, I the decision about
kids is really more about finding the life partner that
(48:26):
I want, um, and the kind of decision about kids
who kind of flow from there. So some of the
Tanya and I definitely talked about a lot. Yeah, right, Tanya,
Speaking of examining Robbie space, Yeah, what do you notice
about it? You know what's important when you're looking at
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(48:47):
but if I could, I might do a few things differently.
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(50:26):
would you say is Sunny's favorite person of the two
of you? It depends on the day, because she has
like a thing with Robbie, like he like she does
this like growl with him, like he knows how to
massage her. It's a moan and she like he like
touches her and she's like, I can't do it. She
(50:49):
doesn't do it with me at all. But I think
she loves me more. Mm hmm. I really don't know.
I honestly, she loves us both so much. It's hard
for me to say. If if I have to say,
I'd say me, but it's close to it would be
you should do that thing where we like, I'm down
to like trying to put her in the middle different ways.
(51:11):
You gotta have a oh, like okay, so you'll start
together in the I do think that she might like
it might be different one day from the next. I think, like, yeah,
certain days she's way more into me, certain days she's
more into you. It's interesting, but she loves Yeah, I
feel have I have I missed any questions? Tny? Have
I asked everything you could ever want me? To ask,
(51:34):
I think so, I mean you hit all the ones.
I was personally curious. Yeah, which one's really hit? Struck
a chord with you? Easton? Well, obviously I was curious
about the marriage, the future together, if you're going to
propose right now? That was a question I had. Do
you have something you want to say, Robbie? Uh, you know?
(51:54):
And then of course the who made the first move?
I was really excited about that confrontation. Confrontation, Um, we
didn't settle the final debate over does Robbie believe in
right person, wrong time? No? I do think that that so, sorry,
just so I'm clear on this right person, wrong time
(52:15):
meaning it doesn't work right right? Uh yeah, I know.
I think right person, wrong time does not work. And
I know that I have heard this conversation. We are
not right person, wrong timerect we are not right personally
personal weird time, very difficult time, weird time. Yea difficult time,
weird time. But it's it was. It was a time
(52:36):
that was wrong for y'all to be together. No, I don't,
I don't think it. What do I just say in
this podcast? There's no right and wrong. Wait, I'm gonna
take it a step Further, I think that that it
was we met at the perfect time perfect. Yeah, I do.
I think so. I think that both Tanya I was
(52:58):
brought in a time his life and time just brought
into my life at the perfect time for each other.
That doesn't mean that it was opportunity. There were there
aren't challenges, or that there aren't you know, things that
we're working through in our relationship. Every relationship has its
own issues. Um, I can't wait to hear about yours
(53:20):
and Hayley's. But you know what I do, what I
do think is interesting, and I tell people this all
the time because I'm like, we had to go through
so much, Like we've gone through so much in the
early days of our relationship when like when people first
meet and there you know, when you're like both single
and unattached and there's not like so much going on, um,
and then like either you have kids and you do
(53:41):
you do with like that and and all the stuff
that comes along with that, or you have all these
challenges as you get married and like whatever. Like we've
faced all these challenges, Like we've frontloaded all those challenges,
Like we dealt with all this stuff in the very
beginning and like we've always had kids involved. It was
never you know what I mean, we never had that
(54:02):
part of a relationship that was as carefree as they
can be, if that makes sense. I'm like, we've frontloaded
all of our stuff, so like it's gonna be its
smooth sale. So yeah, I don't know that. I don't
know that we're not going to have challenges in the future,
but certainly we've dealt with early challenges which have made
us stronger for sure, and we're gonna be more capable.
(54:24):
We already are more capable of communicating and dealing and
working through those challenges. Yeah. So so you were both
on the same page that wrong first, right person the
wrong time is just the wrong person. Yeah yeah, but
that's not us. Yeah, thank you be Yeah, Okay, stand
(54:46):
and steak and on this because you'll broke up and
got back together. But a lot of people break up
and get back together, so that eliminate that makes that
means that it could be the right person wrong to time.
What I know, I'm with him, Yeah, I understand, I understand.
What Wait, the right you can break up if you're
(55:08):
the right person right time, true true speaking, the true
the breakup has nothing to do with the right person,
wrong time. But I'm saying that people if someone meets
someone and they're like, I met someone, but it's not
the right time, but I think they're my person. The
breakup was it was not because it wasn't the right time.
(55:30):
That wasn't why we broke up. It's not. I mean,
you can say no, it's not. It's not technically, but
it's like some could argue, you know that your lawyer,
you could say the words not the right time, but
that's not fundamentally why we broke up. I don't think right.
(55:51):
I agree. All right, Well, I'm glad you all have
each other to agree. What tonya sorry I'm touching you?
Oh my god? Or a podcast? I was gonna say it.
(56:13):
You know, I really enjoyed the second to last question,
but I feel like that's more for you and Haley.
Wait let me see it. Oh oh yeah. I also
so you know, Haley got her nickname because we were
at a live show and it was a truth or
drink game and the question was what is the percentage
(56:33):
that you will marry the person that you're dating? And
Haley staring at me in the crowd if I drink
I'm in trouble. If I don't say the right percentage,
I'm in trouble. So I went so that became her.
I can't wait to hear that. I can't wait to
hear her response to like how it felt hearing that
in that moment. I cannot wait for that. So I'm
(56:56):
curious about your percentage unmarrying Tanya. Yeah, see, I don't know.
I don't think there's a percentage. I think what you
do is, you know, we're getting lawyer more of a
philosophical discussion. In case Socrates, at the end of the day,
when you're ready to get married, you get married. Okay,
(57:19):
where you got percentagewise on that? If you had to
quantify and percentage, I'm not ready today to get married,
if that's if that's what we're asking. Yeah, well I
also wasn't ready, but I still throughout a percentage zero. Yeah,
that's what I'm here in zero things? You know, eight hundred?
(57:45):
What's the right? Are we? At least about my end?
We're getting deeper and deeper over here. There's no there's
no percentage. You you, you and I know. It's a
good time to end the podcast. Time of death September,
(58:11):
our fifth anniversary. I avoided it, and you said you
wanted to know. I was curious. Curiosity killed the cat.
Now I'm just curious serious percentage to it, which I
think you'd probably agree with after he said no, she
felt strong in But you can't say there's no. You
(58:31):
don't put a percentage on it. I don't think my opinion,
I can put a percentage on it. Okay, what's your
percentage about time? Thinne over here? Well, on that note,
(58:52):
were the cheers to five years together? Five Thank you
for coming on letting us out hard. I know, thank
you so much. I I don't know how I roped
you into this, But was it scary? No, not at all. Okay, Okay,
thank you for honesty. I know it's like we do
(59:14):
this every week, and I really appreciate you coming on
and answering, and because I also think too, like a
lot of people are in the situation that we are in.
You know, it's like a really weird, hard thing to navigate,
and I think your transparency, um, I think it will
help a lot of people. I really do. I hope. So.
(59:34):
I mean, you know, every situation is different, but if
I could have helped one person. That'd be great. Well,
I love you guys, and my percentage for y'all is
so I'm still twenty alright. We love you guys and
love you. Let me come back. We'll be back with
(59:56):
no I think there will be a game. It's going
to be and then we're gonna play a game all
four of us. So really the next week and a half,
keep and keeps on giving. Happy five years. Happy, love you,
love you, Bye, love you Bye,
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Tanya Rad
Rebecca Tilley
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