May 11, 2022 • 67 mins
Jen talks to therapist and OCD specialist, Kimberley Quinlan about Exposure Therapy and Response Prevention (ERP) for intrusive thoughts, and how nothing you've ever thought could shock an OCD therapist.
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Speaker 1 (00:08):
This is the Anxiety Bites podcast and I am your host,
Jen Kirkman. Welcome to another episode of Anxiety Bites. I
am your host Jen Kirkman. Now today we are talking
about o c D, obsessive compulsive disorder. I did do
an episode a few months ago with my friend Andy Kindler,
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who is a comedian who suffers from o c D,
and it was great to get his perspective of what
it feels like for him, how it moved through his life,
what it felt like in his body when he was
having o c D experiences, what he's come to now
after getting treatment. But I also wanted to talk to
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someone who is a specialist in o c D so
we could really dial down into the nitty gritty of
what exactly is obsessive compulsive disorder and what are the many,
many ways that it can manifest. And I'm sure in
this interview we have only scratched the surface. But what
I enjoyed in my conversation with Kimberly Quinlan is that
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she talks about what is perhaps the most normal O
c D symptom is unwanted thoughts, and I actually, if
you had asked me, I would have thought it was
more the handwashing and the you know, germ phobia, contamination phobia,
and she said, while those are pretty common, what most
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people rushed to seek treatment for are the unwanted thoughts.
Thoughts that they might harm someone they love, Thoughts that
they might uh, you know, harm a child, that they
might harm their partner, someone in their family. And it's
it's difficult to talk about because it sounds like the
minute you say that, right, someone should luck you up
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and throw away the key. And what has been discovered
in o c D treatment is that people who have
these thoughts are the least likely people to do anything
about it, because what they're worried about is what if,
because they it is the last thing they want to
do is to harm someone, especially someone they love. And
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it's really debilitating and it disturbs people and it's it's tough.
So she talked all about having a sense of humor
about it and how that is actually part of the treatment.
That it may seem like it's such a big deal
to be having these thoughts, but again, the key component
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of it that makes it obsessive compulsive disorder and that
makes it harmless is that it is an intrusive unwanted thought,
and so you may find this very interesting if this
is something this is something that you've been living with,
you've been afraid to talk about it. Hopefully this really
brings it home for you that it is normal, common,
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very treatable. And so a little bit more about my
guest today, kim Really Quinlan. Her website is linked in
the show notes. She does compassionate, science based treatment for
O c D, anxiety disorders, and eating disorders. We didn't
even get into anxiety disorders and eating disorders today, but
of course you can go to her website and learn
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more about it. Today we really just focused on obsessive
compulsive disorder involving obsessions and compulsions. And again, an obsession
is an intrusive and unwanted thought that creates significant anxiety
and discomfort, and a compulsion is an overt or covert
behavior done in an attempt to reduce the discomfort of
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the intrusive thoughts and feelings. And so even though Kimberly
Quinland practices out in California, she does have her own
kind of online school where you can take courses to
get treated for obsessive compulsive disorders. So again that's in
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the show notes, but her CBT school dot com has
online resources for obsessive compulsive disorder, anxiety disorders, hair pulling,
skin picking. She has online video courses Mindfulness for o
c D and o c D online course Overcoming Anxiety
and Panic, a time management course. So check that all out.
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Because even if you are unable to find a therapist
in your area or get to a therapist, you can
begin doing some of the exposure therapy work by taking
a course. So let's get right to it, because Kimberly
is she really knows her stuff. She's totally brilliant, and
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I think you will enjoy learning about exactly what o
c D is and what it isn't. All right, I'm
gonna start out with what I think you know, hopefully
not too basic and boring of a question. But can
you just define o c D obsessive compulsive disorder? Sure? No,
that's not a basic question at all. It's actually a
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really important question because to have o c D you
need to have a certain criteria of things. So number one,
you have to have obsessions. But obsessions aren't like I
love lego, or I love sweaters, or I love or
your cookies like I'm obsessed with binge watching Netflix, like
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it's not. That is what an obsession is. But in
the terms of o c D, an obsession is usually
an intrusive, repetitive, and unwanted. So it has to have
those three pieces um and it usually shows up in
the form of a thought, but it can also show
up in the form of a feeling or a sensation
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or an image that keeps popping up into your brain
um or it could even be an urge. This sort
of urged comes up and overwhelms your body. So you
have to have that first criteria to have the obsession,
and you have to have a compulsion. Now, a compulsion
is a behavior that we do um to reduce or
remove uncertainty or anxiety or any form of discomfort even
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maybe even discussed. A big misconception is that that compulsion
has to be physical, so we know sort of Hollywood
o c D, which is like jumping over cracks, washing
your hands, counting objects. They're all great portrayals of having
o c D. But there are other ways in which
people can do compulsions that are actually completely unseen by
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the eye. Like one really big one is mental compulsions.
Mentally ruminating and and resolving and trying to solve problems
in your mind. Another one is simply avoidance. So some people,
a lot of people unfortunately who have O c D,
will go to a doctor and they'll say, you don't
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have a CD. I don't see you doing anything. I
don't see you doing any behavior. But this person has
avoided of their life, right, And that's the compulsion that
they do. And the other one is reassurance seeking, So
they're constantly googling or asking for reassurance from a person,
you know, did this happen, could it happen, will it happen?
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Did I do something wrong? So, so there are many
ways in which a compulsion can show up, um, that
our society isn't aware of. And then the deep part
disorder what I mean, that's just the name of an
obsessive compulsive disorder? So is there anything in the deep
part that makes it the disorder like that you have
to look for? Yeah, Well, to be diagnosed with a
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c D, it has to disrupt your life and you're
functioning to a degree that is problematic. Um. You know,
some people will often say like they have some symptoms
of obsessive and compulsive they have to be haveviors, but
it's not to the degree in which it is disordered,
meaning there is now lack of order. Um that it's
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not debilitating their life taking away their functioning. So the
people that I see how usually coming in there doing
it for more than one or two hours a day.
Most of the time it's taking up many, many, many
hours of their day to the degree where they've lost
some functioning. So that's sort of where the wood disorder
comes into play. And that's true for any disorder, anorexier depression,
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it's usually you know, the symptoms have started to impact
my well being. And do you like the name obsessive
compulsive disorder? Does that work for you in terms of, um,
what what it is that you know, the people you
treat and what they have, and what it's called. Do
you find that that's an accurate description of it? A
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lot of people with o c D find that the
disorders name actually describes even the treatment right and the
way in which we treat it, because it helps identify
that there are multiple components of this disorder and that
we have to look at each component in order to
treat them really well. So I you know, we look
at other terms like anorexia nervosa, it's like that doesn't
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even that's just syllables match together to make a certain word,
Like it doesn't really even make any sense. But with
this case, it does help us to identify the two
core pieces that are showing up and you have to
have both. And then it also it helps us to
sort of put forward a plan. Um. So, I mean,
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I think that the problem with it, if we were
to look at both sides of the coin, is because
it's so misunderstood and stigmatized. I know a lot of
people who don't like the term because of the stigma
that go with it. But in terms of the correctness
of the name, I think it's wonderful. And you are
an O c D specialist, and I've heard you said,
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I've listened to some other interviews you've done that that
there's very few of you in that sense to kind
of I mean, I'm putting words in your mouth. You
didn't say like this, but like you kind of know
what they're doing, you know, is it hard? Um? Tell
me what makes you? Tell me? Um? Tell me what
sets you apart from other people that think they're treating
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O c D and and why it's important to I
don't know. I guess go see someone like you as
opposed to just any kind of therapist or anxiety specialists. Yeah. Well,
what I will say before I start is, thankfully, over
the last decade that I've been specializing in it, we've
had such growth of more therapists. So you know, there's
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so many therapists now who are trained and correctly you know,
supervised and so forth. So thankfully that's going in the
right direction. But the O c D community has still
a crisis on their hand. It still takes seven to
fourteen years to get correctly diagnosed. That's a lot of years.
So that means that these people have sought treatment from
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some other kind of therapist, maybe even doctor, and the
person has not even named what they have as o
c D, or they've been named with o c D,
but they're they're not getting the right help with it both.
So a lot of people will be declined the diagnosis
and therefore can't get the treatment because of the misinformation
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around the compulsions. Right, like you don't have O c D.
You can't your room's messy, you can't have O c D. Right, So,
like what you were saying before they they're not noticing,
they're not know speed on the other compulsions. Yeah, yeah,
So there's that group there, the other group who get
told they have a c D but then may be
referred to a form of treatment that you know, out
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of the goodness of their soul, have tried to help,
but often what they're using is techniques that actually make
the compulsion and the disorder worse. So with the treatment
of O c D, we actually purposely face our fears.
That's the gold standard treatment. It's called exposure and response prevention.
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But if you're not trained in that naturally, any human
I'm sure before you listen to this episode or knew
anything about O c D, naturally your instincts would be, oh,
if you have a fear that sounds really painful, you
should avoid it. More like, can we figure out a way,
Like there are even apps that have been created to
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help people take photos of their stove so that they
know for certain they have turned their stove off or
they've locked their door. And instinctually that makes sense, right, like, well,
if you know you've locked your door, you shouldn't worry.
But those behaviors actually act as compulsions. And keep the
disorder going. So it's it goes against the recovery. And
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so that's where there's sort of there was a crisis
and we are working our way out of it in
edge acting mental health and medical professionals to to direct
people to the correct care because it can go so wrong.
We'll be right back. I haven't talked to anyone yet
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about exposure therapy. It's been casually mentioned in other episodes
I've done, but the focus wasn't that, so I didn't
really follow that trail. And I know that it's it's
probably obviously different with every anxiety disorder, and but weird
it's been brought up has been episodes that are more
centered on panic attacks and things like that. Um, so
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I'm sort of familiar with it in terms of what
I've done for panic attacks. But can you tell us
what is exactly you said exposure and what response prevention?
Tell us what exposure response prevention is? Sure? So, Um,
Exposure and response prevention we call it e r P
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for short, is where we so go back to the
obsessive and compulsive parts, so we expose them to their obsession. Right,
So that's pretty easy, right, you identify your fear, we
find a way to face your fear. Back in the day,
we only used to do exposure. We go, okay, if
you're afraid of dogs, go and hang out with dogs,
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or if you're afraid of germs, go and touch germs.
But what we found there was that's manly really fifty
of the work, because then they just go and do
all these compulsions to undo their fear or reduce or
remove their fear. So the response prevention is where once
you've exposed yourself to your fear, the response prevention is
targeting eliminating those compulsive behaviors. So not only would you,
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you know, touch germs or be around germs, but then
you would reduce and remove the compulsive hand wash or
the rumination, or the reassurance seeking or the googling and
that kind of behavior. So both must be a part
of treatment for the treatment to be really successful. So
if I come to you, um, how soon do we
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get into exposure therapy? Is it session one? Usually session
two or three, depending on the complexity of the case.
So we always want to do a thorough assessment, make
sure we have the right diagnosis. We also want to
do a ton of education because let me ask you,
how how excited are you about facing your worst fear?
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Not excited? No, I mean I think of ump. I'll
say a couple of my worst fears. I think I'm
pretty excited about them because I don't need them in
my life, so they don't debilitate me. But I used
to have a fear flying and I was not excited
to face that, but I did. So that's the thing.
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So anyone, I always say to my patients, like, no
one wants to see me, no one likes to come
visit me, no one likes to come and be my client.
But they want to get better and so that's why
they do. And so I have to do a lot
of education about what is o c D, what is
exposure and response prevention to build trust with them because
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I'm going to ask them to do the thing they
absolutely don't want to do rightfully. So um, and that's
probably the thing that frightens them the most. And usually
o c D attacks the things we value the most.
So if you value your relationships, it will target your relationships.
If you love your job, it'll target your job. If
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you will love your children, it'll target your children. So
because I'm asking them to do really scary things and
things they value. I do give them some time and education,
but I also emphasize the faster we can start getting
you to face your fear, the quicker you recover. And
so it's sort of a little dance that we do
together of trust and courage and repair and encourage and
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like it's an encouragement, it's it's a dance that we
do together. And I just realized in my example I
gave about you know, I had a fear of flying,
and I did do some exposure therapy for that. I'm
not really talking about O c D. So tell me,
Like I had to visitly, get exposed to an airplane,
get on it, touch you know whatever, touch the outside
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of the airplane, first, had to look at it. But again,
I wasn't dealing with an O c D issues, dealing
with the phobia. So what are you being exposed to
in obsessive compulsive disordered people? Like, what are they being
exposed to when they seek exposure therapy? If someone's having
um intrusive thoughts, emotions, or urges, which maybe we should
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define that before you tell me how you do it. Um,
I'd love to know because I'm assuming the exposure therapy
is different than like for a phobia. Right. So there
are multiple different categories of types of o c D. Again,
majority of people know about contamination o c D, which
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is the fear of germs and bodily fluids and so forth,
things like that. Um. Other people know about symmetry obsessions, right,
which is like lining things up and making sure things
are very straight and perfectionist stick right. Um. Other people
know about checking obsessions around danger. You know, will I
put the you know, if I don't unplug my um
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my hair curlor, will the house set on fire? And
I'll be responsible for you know, terrible terrible things. Um.
So we know about those, but in fact they're the
lesser concerns that we see in our practice. Right. We
see a lot of people have obsessions around, um, harming people,
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and this is a very common one. Usually when I
do interviews like this, I get like an influx of
emails from people going, oh my god, I never thought
I had O c D until you said, like these
obsessions because no one had conceptualized them as o c D.
So harm O c D is actually really common one.
It Usually obsession is what if I harm somebody that
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I love or person in my life. The thing to
remember again is the thought is unwanted, repetitive and distressing.
Like we talked about, so people who have harm obsessions
are probably like the sweetest people in the world. The
thought of this is so just heartbreaking, and for them
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it's repetitive, like it's all day in their head, in
their head, in their head. And so for E. RP.
For that example, we would expose them too often the
people that they're having thoughts about, right, and then the
response prevention would be not to do those safety behaviors
like you know, okay, so don't do the safety behaviors
that they used to do to try to stop the thoughts, right, yes,
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so you know, And exposure can be just about very
simple like go and be with the people that you're
afraid of being with. In some cases it needs to
be more aggressive if they've got very severe O C
d um of you know, having them chop vegetables because
for them, they have avoided knives for months or years
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in fear that they are not responsible with a knife
like that they're just gonna go crazy and run down
the hall and stab their husband or something exactly exactly.
So we also have people with sexual obsessions, particularly around orientation.
So let's say if you're heterosexual, you may be fear
that am I You have a lot of uncertainty around
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am I gay or straight? Again, think of O c D.
We call it the uncertain disorder. It usually thrives on uncertainty, right,
So the more uncertain you are, the more anxiety you feel,
so you may have fears around that. In that case,
we would expose you to the thoughts or the feelings
or the sensations, and then you would practice not engaging
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in avoidance safety behaviors or ruminaty of safety behaviors. So
there's just a couple of examples. There's probably twenty common
ones that could be related to religion. Um. It could
be related to existential like the obsession around what's the
point of life? Um. There are many ways in which
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these obsessions can target. It could be a relationship obsession.
A lot of people with relationship obsessions ruminate on whether
they will cheat on their partner, or ruminate on whether
they've picked the quote unquote right one. Um. And then
again and for some people listening, they may maybe like,
but I do a little bit of that right. So
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it's important to know that people who don't have o
c D maybe having these same fears, but not at
the at the degree of repetition or extremely how extreme
it is, and then you're able to manage that uncertainty.
For people with o c D, they've very much struggle
to stop doing compulsions around the obsession. And that's when
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we would intervene and with someone with like, for example,
the relationship obsession, you know, interests of thoughts about relationships.
It's not even based in any real thing I assume
where it's like, you know, actually this isn't working out
for me. We have different life goals. I mean, it's
really not based in the same reality that someone who goes,
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oh I have that. Sometimes it's like is it that
like you could be with the perfect partner and having
no problems, but your mind is just going and going yea.
So from this is a little bit of psycho clinical talk,
but there is a term called ego dys tonic and
egosyn tonic. So for people with o c D, their
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obsession is clinically ego dys tonic, meaning the obsession doesn't
line up with their values. So just as you were saying.
Often a client will come to me crying, sobbing in disbelief,
and they'll say, it makes no sense. I love my
child so much, but I can't stop thinking that maybe
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I'll harm them. So you can see that it doesn't
line up with their values, and that's why it's so distressing,
because it's so confusing. Ecosyntonic is where you have a
thought or a feeling or a sensation and urge that
does line up with your values, right um. And so
people with O c D, their obsessions are usually egodis
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tonic um. So if that helps sort of clarify, they
usually will say, like, it makes no sense. I really
do care for my partner. I don't know understand why
I'm having these obsessions about cheating or I love. It
could be again religion, like I am so committed to
my religion, but I keep having this intrusive image of
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a sin or so for we'll continue the interview on
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As part of my anxiety journey, I I've dabbled in
some O c D thoughts. I know exactly what an
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intrusive thought feels like, and it's terrible. You know, how
does someone know who's just sitting at home hearing this
the difference between that and what it would be like
to be maybe schizophrenic and you're hearing voices saying go
push this woman in front of the subway. So how
does someone know? I mean, I would assume the difference is,
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like you said, it's they don't want these thoughts. They're
not like excited by them. Um, so does that mean
that people who are going to harm people like the
thoughts feel different? Like, how does someone know and they're
if they're just listening? Well, I think I think number
one don't if if listeners. If I could offer one
piece of advice is don't try and figure that one
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out on your own. Um, try and seek out somebody
who can do a good assessment on you. Because one
thing to know is if you have anxiety, you will
most likely at some point think you're crazy. Like they
just go together. It feels you feel like a crazy person.
I have anxiety myself, like, so you're not really probably
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the best person as an anxious person to assess yourself.
I would always encourage you to go to try, just
even if it's just for the assessment. And just get
the assessment so you know specifically what you meet criteria for.
The other thing is is because O c D is
around uncertainty and targets uncertainty. Often people with O c
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D or some of the other anxiety disorders then question
the diagnosis. A part of their obsessive and compulsive disorder
is questioning whether or not they have O c D
and maybe that this is just a mistake and they
really are a killer or they really are a pedophile, right,
so that that in and of itself is also a
symptom of O c D. Most people who meet criteria
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for a c D question their diagnosis at some point.
So in terms of doing an exposure therapy, so let's say, okay,
we're ready to do it. Um, you know, I'm like
the woman used you know an example of a woman
who's sitting there thinking, ruminating over is this the right
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relationship from your something, or someone who's worried about harming someone?
If do you give them suggestions of what to do
and then they go home and do it alone, or
does exposure therapy like does anyone ever have their therapist
with them in the situation or you send them out
on their own kind of thing. Listen, and I say
to all my patients this was pre COVID, of course,
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but I always say to them, like the walls of
this office when I used to be face to face
have seen everything, Like all the exposures have been done
in this room. So yes, we do it often, we
will do it together because I want to be able
to coach the person through the rise and fall of discomfort.
So it's like a wave, right, You'll do the exposure
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and then if you practice response prevention, you're going to
have to ride out a big wave of anxiety, similar
to I'm sure you felt on your the airplane, right
is right, And so yes, we'll do that in session.
But we are pretty clear at the front end of
treatment like this is homework heavy therapy. Recovery isn't going
to therapy once a week. Recovery is doing around forty
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to ninety minutes of exposure and response prevention a day,
right a day. So and that doesn't have to mean
you have to schedule it and do nothing. You could
be doing exposures while you wash the dishes, or you
could be doing a lot of what we do is
you know, here is a great example, um to use
the harm exagm pull. If let's say you have a
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fear of harming your baby or your husband or your
wife or so forth. Is as you're washing the dishes,
you could sing to the happy Birthday song like I'm
gonna hurt my my husband to day doo da or
whatever you mean, Like you can you can be exposing
yourself to the obsession in your mind while you drive
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to work, while you have a shower, and so forth. Right, um,
The work of exposure therapy is to change the way
you respond to a thought. So instead of responding to
it with importance and and terror and you know that
it has to be solved right away, we actually solve
it by either treating it with no importance at all
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or making fun of it being creative. People with OCD
and anxiety are usually super creative people, so we'd be
creative with it. And like you said before, you could
do exposure therapy by being around the people you're afraid
you're going to harm. But now it sounds like in
the homework section, you're washing your dishes and you're exposing
yourself to your own thoughts. Right okay? And I love
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this because I love the notion of not giving the
thoughts importance. And you know, like we hear this all
the time in so many different ways. You know, if
we're doing mindful meditation, we don't have to latch onto
the thoughts and get distracted in anxiety. We don't have
to believe the thoughts that we're dying right now during
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this panic attack. So it all always boils down to
the same thing that we have, um, maybe not control
over the thoughts coming in, but we can control how
we react to them. It's always about that, right, And
what I love about this is it's so counter intuitive,
as was as his panic disorder recovery is like, I'm sorry,
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did you not hear me? I am thinking of harming
my husband? And it's like, no, no, you're not thinking
of harming your husband. You're obsessively worrying what if I
did that? Almost the way that like if you're in
church or something and you have this thought like what
if I just screamed fuck right now, you know, in
the middle of Christmas Eve Mass, And you know, I
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think the average person has had those weird little moments
and then it goes away. Actually, I just had a
session with a patient where I said exactly this, which is,
your thoughts aren't the disorder, you're The disorder comes when
we respond to them as if they're super important and
need to be taken away and stopped. But people without
O c D have the same O c D thoughts
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that people with O c D have. Um, Yes, there's
some cognitive and and actual physiological differences in the brain,
but the main thing is they go, huh, that was
the weird thought, and then they go on with their day.
People with O c D have the thought and they go,
this must mean something really important. And I think it
is my responsibility to make sure this doesn't happen right,
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And so that in again in that little places where
we intervene mean and go, let's have some fun with
this again. I love like I always joke with clients
like no one wants to see me, Like it's it's
terrible to have to see Kimberley because it means you
have to do really hard things, and you're going to
have to face some really hard things. But we can
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also find some really great, creative fun ways to do this. Right.
If you're afraid of screaming out fuck you, could you know,
write the word out if you're afraid of certain things,
you can, you know, get your I've had clients right
full scripts about their obsessions and turn it into art.
I've had people, you know, turned it into poetry, purposely
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staring their fear in the face. You know it's funny.
I'm in comedy and I'm a writer, and I've been
doing it the whole time. I've had anxiety. And I
treated my anxiety with such reverence, you know that. It
was like, never the two shall meet. There shall be
no laughter or creativity about my anxiety. And there wasn't
until a few years ago. Finally, literally decades, I was like, oh, okay,
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maybe I'll apply a sense of humor to it, which
is why I wanted to start this podcast. And I
had the psychiatrist who was the guy that prescribed my
medication for twenty years, and seriously a lot of the
time he would say things that I would go home
and just get so upset about because I think he
went to school for this. I need a more serious doctor.
This is he is not. He is bad at his
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job and people are going to die because of him.
And now I realized he was trying to appeal to
my creative side. And he was right. So it's like
I kept thinking he was saying do something easy, because
he was saying do something creative, and it's not easy,
Like you have to first admit that you were wrong
about how you're thinking about this, and I guess I
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just I don't know. I didn't want to be wrong
about it, or I just thought if I tried this
silly thing and it doesn't work, them really screwed you know. Yeah,
well now, actually, I mean I want to validate you,
because fear is a response to danger for and that's
what we've developed, we've grown on all these years because
of that. Right when the wilder beast ran at us,
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fear showed up and we knew to run. And so
when our brain, now in this evolved world, shows up
with fear and there isn't an imminent danger, we it
naturally we're going to be like, let's take this really serious,
Like this is what kept us alive for so many
years and has allowed us to evolve, so it must
be important and worthy of our attention. So it's hard
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to flip the switch on that, right, It's it's hard
to treat fear like it's a thought. Um that is
kind of intuitive. So it does take some time and
trust to sort of make that step, but once you
make it, then you're often you're running. So with o
c D, like, is there a spectrum you know, it's
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like to like least severe to most severe or is
it like, oh, you can have some of the symptoms
but not all of them, or is it different than
other anxiety disorders in that way. No, so yes, we
have like mild, moderate, and severe, but no, one obsession
is different than the other. In fact, we treat them
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all the same. Um. The severity is very much person dependent,
so it really just see, so it doesn't matter really
what the symptom is. It's all the same. Like you said,
reaction to uncertainty. Yeah yeah, so um, again, it depends
on the degree in which it debilitates you. So some
patients my essay, I have a small fear of germs.
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COVID was a big trigger for a lot of people
like I have a small fear of germs, but I
can handle it. What really bothers me is this other
obsession whereas and and often this is something to think about.
Two is, when I used to run groups for O
c D in my internship, you would have a group
of eight people with eight different types of o c D,
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and the guy over here who's having hum obsessions or
pedophilia obsessions, or sexual obsessions like more of those, like
things that we don't know about. He would sit across
from the guy with contamination and be like, I wish
I had contamination. I could totally handle contamination. That would
be so much easier. And the guy with contamination is
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sitting across from him, going, what if I had your
type of o c D that would be so much easier.
So I think the thing to remember is the suffering
is the same for all of it, right, It's all
the same degree of suffering, and that it's you have
to tolerate high levels of uncertainty, high levels of anxiety.
Often there's a lot of shame associated um so no,
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we treat them all equally. So when you say uncertainty,
I mean obviously that's life is the most uncertain thing.
When you see that O c D targets uncertainty, like,
what exactly does that mean? So let me dig down
the person who says, you know, I'm ruminating, I'm obsessing
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over if my husband is the right person for me.
I mean unlike the the more quote normal person who's like, oh,
I think that sometimes. Like to me, that seems like
the quote normal person is having some moments of uncertainty,
whereas the O. C D person it's not real uncertainty.
So am I getting this wrong? Like what what do
you mean by it targets uncertainty? Well, similar to like
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you talked about with the egodystonic piece, right is, clients
will often say like I don't wanna hurt that person
or I don't want you know, I really love my partner.
So they may even have some really great ground in
knowing who they are in that moment, but it's the
uncertainty that really gets them. Oh of like what I
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don't know if I will or not. I don't know
what the future will hold, And that uncertainty is really painful, right,
And it's repetitive. It's not just like I don't know,
it's like I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.
You've got to solve it. You've got to solve like
in their head, it's like think of it like um
in if you had the radio station in the background saying,
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but what if you want to what if you want
to what if you want to what if this isn't right?
What if bad things are going to happen? What if?
And it's all uncertainty based, right, It's it's often focusing
on you might lose control and bad, bad, bad things
are going to happen and so um. And that's true
for any anxiety disorder, but for people again with O
c D, it tends to be more repetitive and disregulating, right,
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because when you have that degree of discomfort, naturally your
instincts will be, well, let's just solve this, let's figure
it out. But when you figure it out with a
compulsion means you've treated the thought like it's important, which
means now your brain thinks it's important and you're stuck
in a loop. So if someone has a c D,
um that isn't the obvious kind of washing my hands
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and checking the stove. If it's more like the ruminations
like what if? What if? What if? What could like
their worst day look like like they call in sick
to work and they just sit in bed and kind
of ruminate all day until like they can't eat sleep.
I mean, is that kind of what happens? The best
way a client multiple clients have explained this, but a
client once said to me, it's like you have a
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jigsaw puzzle and your entire life is depending on whether
you can finish the jigsaw puzzle, and no matter what
you can do, you cannot get the pieces to match.
Like in your mind it feels like if I just
get these pieces to go in riot and I get
the final piece, and then I can have relief, but
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they can't find it. And then what they're tolerating with
it is not just uncertainty. It's the distress of that
and the and the frustration of that, and then it
becomes also about the you know, sort of it targets
your identity, like what does it mean about you? If
you keep having these thoughts? You must be a terrible
person who thinks about sexual thoughts like this all day?
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What kind of human are you? And because you can't
solve the puzzle, you're left with this massive mess of
just thinking, and so it could be just laying in
bed ruminating. For many people, it's repetitive actions, like asking
reassurance over and over and over and over and over again,
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even though you know they've answered it as soon as
you ask the question. The uncertainty just comes right back.
And it's not just like, oh, maybe uncertainty, it's like
urgent uncertainty. Anxiety bites will be right back after a
quick little message from one of our sponsors. I don't
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mean it's like where does this come from? But is
there a known reason why, like someone may develop O
c D as opposed to like a phobia of driving
or something like that. Is there any kind of genetic
reason or nature nurture thing both, So we understand there
is a nature and a nurture components. So genetics are
very strong. If you have a family member with O
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c D, you're more likely. But the truth is, I
think of we think of an umbrella, and the umbrella
is what we call O c D related disorders. So
O c D is under there, as is panic disorder,
health anxiety, phobias, hair pulling, skin picking. So there are
many other disorders that fall under the obsessive compulsive umbrella,
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and often genetically you will have one or more of
those disorders. Social anxieties another one. Um. So yes, there
is a genetic component. There's also a nurture component in
that if you were raised with very of course, like
strict rules and and strong, very strong beliefs that that
can can impact it. What we know scientifically about the
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brain of someone with OCD is think about everyone can
just imagine in your brain is a pair of brakes
and an accelerator, right, and everybody has intrusive thoughts, right,
But for the person with o c D, they their
brake system is not connected very well, and so it's
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really hard to pump the brakes on those thoughts, and
their accelerator is a little overreactive or overactive, and so
when you have those thoughts, it presses the accelerator really
really fast. Imagine, Um, this is not physiologically correct. As
you know, we don't have brakes and accelerators in our brains,
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but imagine our brain has an accelerator. So when you
have no CD and you have a thought, it's like
they've pushed the brakes and they're going strong, like really loud,
really repetitive and so forth. So that we know that
this physio logical pot is happening in their brain as
well for reasons, yet we don't understand. Yeah, do you
think that, Like, I mean, it sounds like every anxiety
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disorder when it gets down to it is fear of
the unknown. It's like a big existential crisis that we
all have, right, we all have our different disordered ways
of dealing with it, and for some people aren't even
bothered by this. You know, who knows. But do you
think if if we had certainty in life, like if
we had every answer we wanted, that we would just
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find a way to still have all of our anxieties
and O c D, Like, I'm sure that wouldn't be
enough either, right, or that would be the cause of
our stress or something. Well, and let me use O
c D as the perfect example. So let's say there's
another kind of o c D called need to know
o c D, and so it's often love I never
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heard of this. Yeah, there's many different subtypes, but one
is called need to know. So it's not even that
there's a danger involved. It's just that their brain is saying,
but I just need to know. So like example might
be the one that I was given when I was
in training. Is like, let's say someone has the need
to know about a certain brand of toilet, Like it
could be as random as that, but the urgency and
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the urge to find out the answer is so strong
and so uncomfortable. I don't want to minimize this is
so painful. They just have to go and find out,
like I just have to know. So they go and
they check and they get the name of the toilet
or they get the name of whatever it is that
their obsession has targeted. And so, okay, I got it.
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I relieved it right. But it only takes one millisecond
for the brain to go, are you sure? Are you sure?
So imagine you go okay. Like health anxiety is another
example of this, Oh what if I'm dying of cancer?
So you go and you get the m R I,
and then all that has to happen is as you're
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walking out of the doctor's office, he says, yours healthy
as can be. All you have to do is have
the thought, well, what if the doctor missed it MHM,
or what if the m R machine wasn't working well
that day, or what if um I didn't answer a
question correctly? And that meant like it only takes one
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thought to undo all of the certainty that you've got.
And that's a very typical experience of O c D.
It sounds like a real control issue two in the
sense of like, if I do this correctly, I will
get the absolute right answer and then I can rest well.
Most anxiety disorders are caught up in what we call
cognitive errors or cognitive distortions, and often one of the
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most is black and white thinking like it's has to
be all good or all bad, right, So so those
distorted thoughts can often fuel our urgency to get certainty
or relief. Does o c D ever get confused with
other disorders? Like do people get misdiagnosed You've mentioned I
think that you know in the seven to fourteen years
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to get it right, Like, what are common things people
get misdiagnosed with? It could be unfortunately anything Commonly, a
d h D is a common one because people will
report difficulty with concentrating, you know, racing thoughts. You know,
it's very common for that to be and vice versa.
People who have actual diagnosis of a d h D
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can sometimes be diagnosed with anxiety as well. UM. So
often a d h D sometimes bipolar UM, often mostly
generalized anxiety. They'll get a generalized anxiety diagnosis. UM. You know,
it could be any diagnosis right that they could be
misdiagnosed with. Most commonly, what I hear is more of
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the dismissive like you don't have a disorder, you just
think too much, or you know, like you need to
you know, you need to eat this whole grain diet
and this this sort of quirkiness will go away. So
it's more of that kind of thing. And so what
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are some treatments for o CD? We've talked about exposure therapy?
Is there like a most successful or is it a
company you know, is there a great medication for their
What are you seeing people who are really recovering? What
are they doing? Right? So, the gold standard treatment for
our c D is exposure and response prevention. However, if
you can match that with an S s R at
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an o c D dose, that's your golden combination. If scientifically,
if you had to choose between medication and e m P,
you would choose EMP. It has better outcomes, right, UM,
But that's what we know at this date and time.
But what we've really learned in the last decade is
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there also these supplemental treatments that can elevate the EMP
and the medication and they are mindfulness practice as you've
mentioned um all, So acceptance and commitment therapy UM, which
is an amazing supplement to e P which helps you
to number one, practice some very under the lens of
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my mindfulness skills, but also helps you to define what
your values are. So instead of doing compulsions, you would
engage in value based behaviors UM, which is really wonderful.
App Like another way for us to frame e m
P is not only we're not going to take away
your discomfort and just let you sit in terrible nous,
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We're actually going we're going to actually pivot towards the
thing that you value and you want in your life. UM.
So that's really wonderful. There's new research now around adding
dialectical behavioral therapy UM, which is for those who struggle
with regulation. So so we're getting these new sciences every
day that sort of helps supplement and complement the work UM.
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But at the end of the day, what I would
say to to anyone with O c D is EP
he has to be the focus because if you aren't
facing your fear UM, it's likely you're avoiding it. And
if you're avoiding it, you're doing that compulsion right and
you're like feeding it exactly. And and so in the
acceptance and Commitment therapy, I love. That is that What
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does the word commitment means? That? Is that like the
defining your values part? Like, yeah, so the commitment pieces
not just committing to the values, but committing to the
actual experience. So there's a lot of radical acceptance in there.
It's committing to staying in the present and staying with
the feeling instead of running away from the feeling. So
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commitment can take multiple can be multiple aspects to it, right,
So imagine you're uncomfortable. You have to commit to being uncomfortable.
You have to commit to not doing the compulsions. You
have to commit to your values, like, there are many
things that you commit to in that moment. I'm assuming
you do a lot of um helping people get acquainted
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with uncertainty or to the point where they're tolerating uncertainty
and getting comfortable with it. Is that sort of the
goal in all of this on yes, I mean I yes,
I will preface is last year I wrote a book
UM called the Self Compassion Workbook for a cd UM
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published stud New Parbenter Publications. I wrote that book because
number one EP sucks and it's really hard and no
one wants to do it, and so it is also
important that you sort of what I say is you
wrap the exposure in self compassion. So I'm not doing
saying that as a plug. I'm saying it as more
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of because it sucks so bad and because it's so
heavy lifting kind of therapy, it is important that you
also have a gentle, compassionate approach to it. Um that
tends to keep morale up and motivation up. I think
it's a huge piece of the work as well. So
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the compassion part isn't saying, you know, take a break.
It's like, you're gonna do this thing, but we're going to. No,
compassion doesn't say take a break. That's the misconception of compassion.
So let me let me just quickly say, so compassion,
if you really dropped into the compassionate person inside you,
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it never it doesn't say take And of course if
you're sick and you're exhausted, yes it would say that.
But when it comes to fear, the wise compassionate part
would say, I got you. Let's face this fear like this.
By facing this fear, you get your life back. Let's
do that. That's the compassionate act um. So no, at
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the beginning of the book, as a whole chapter on
like compassion is not unicorns and fairies. It's facing fear
and writing waves of really uncomfortable ship. But it's so
rewarding and so empowering if you can do that. It
sounds like it's just the opposite of like beating yourself up,
like you loser, What do you mean you're gonna check
your stove again? Like come on, normal people don't do this,
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Like that's not a compassionate approach. No, it's very supportive
and almost coaching, like I call it like the kind coach.
It it's saying instead of saying like get down and
give me twenty your loser, it's saying, you can do
this just one one more minute. You can do it
to stay on, stay with it just a little longer.
We got to like hang on. It's it's that kind
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of thing. And so in your work, how I don't
mean like how long does this take? But you know
someone out there who's like, Okay, I'm gonna go start
going in there be for my O, C D. What
can they look forward to if they put in the work.
I mean, well, they feel monumentally better in a year. Yeah,
So yes, you should definitely see an improvement by a year.
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So as a typical host of treatment for a CD,
I don't like to kind of give dates because everybody
is different and if you've got um extra a diagnosis,
it takes a long But under science they say twenty
four sessions and you should have some pretty massive change. Right.
That's great. Yeah, But I even go as far as
to say, like, the way that we do treatment is
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very gradual. We don't throw you under the bus. We
start baby steps and you get you know, you get
the hang of it, and then you go for it.
Then what we do is we usually do a huge
inventory of all the compulsive behaviors you do, and we
just work our way up them, right, like start easy,
and you work your way cross out the list, cross
out the list. So often when people start crossing out
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these compulsions, that in and of itself is rewarding, like, wow,
I'm doing it right, like I'm starting so as I
think real recovery is really looking at that list and
getting it all the way down. But a lot of
people will be shocked at how even the first exposure
of going wow, I didn't do that compulsion and I
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faced my fear, or maybe I even had the full
on panic attack and I survived. That in and of
itself will change how they view themselves. They'll feel more empowered,
like it's a it's it's hard work, but it's so
empowering and it's so like it's badass work. Yeah. I
know in my own work that my self esteem would
just leap when when I was able to say I
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did this thing. And sometimes I have to not belittle
myself and go, yeah, you got on a plane. Good
for you. So it's like no, no, no, this is
I'm a big girl. This is a big deal, Like
I have to celebrate that. You know. Um, of course
it's easy to do something you're not afraid of, but like,
I'm even more badass than the people on this plane
that aren't afraid because it is easy for them, but
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you know, I had to reframe it that way. And
and so lastly, what should people look for, you know,
when they're looking for, um, a therapist to help them
with their O c D. I mean, there's no messing around,
like that person has to have O c D in there.
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I don't I don't mean title, but but it can't
be like, oh, I just you know, I do everything
like that's not going to work, is it. No? No, No,
We Like I said, a thorough assessment can determine how
much you can recover, right, And the truth is, um,
it's also how honest you are. So often you know,
I have staff that work for me and we're constantly consulting.
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Is a lot of times people don't even want to
tell their therapist about their thoughts because they're so ashamed.
So the more the more you could be honest with
your therapist, reach out and get a O c D
therapist who treats using e r P. And if you
can really just sort of oh, let it come out, like,
just really be honest with them, you can make massive,
massive changes. Um. So absolutely yeah. It does require, um first,
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knowing you have O c D and be an assessed correctly,
but then it does require some work for sure. The
crossover between talking about these things and the world I
was in before of comedy is that I say things
on stage that I think in my private mind, and
I I know it's going to be relatable because I
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know I'm not special. So if I thought it, so
does everybody. And it's like a magic trick you're doing
when you say confessional things and then people go, oh
my god, I thought I was the only one. And
I can't believe the things I say that people come
up and go, I thought I was the only one.
I want to go, really, you really didn't think anyone
else thought this? You know. It's like and so it
seems like in that same way, I mean, there's really uh,
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it's like there's really nothing anyone could say that would
shock the therapist. Right, it's like there's no the worst
I thought you're having anyone out there. I mean, I
hate to say, you're probably not that special, right, No, No,
I I I love I'm a big goofy this way,
but I love like the first few sessions where I say, like,
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I guarantee you won't shock me, and they say, oh,
but you haven't heard my thoughts, like you know, like ah,
and they when I always just love that moment when
they do tell me, and I'm like, nah, I had better,
like like I've read worse. Like I think that that
is so true. I think it's shocking to people that
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there are more. I think because often the content of
their obsessions are pretty scary. But no, there's there's nothing
I haven't heard, right, Um, and there's always those people
who are so overjoyed that they're not the only one,
which just shows you how much work we've got to
do with stigma around mental health. You have this course
that we were talking about before we started recording. Can
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you just tell me a little bit about that, right? Yeah, So, Um,
I have a private practice, so I see clients face
to face. But what was happening is I was having
an influx of people who I couldn't help. They they
lived in out of this country, out of the state,
or so forth, or the fact that therapy is expensive, um,
and so out of sort of a sense of desperation,
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I decided I'd make a course basically explaining exactly how
I would tell my clients the process. Remember we kind
of talked about like the first session is explaining what
is the e O CIT, what is e r P
how you would put together like the list of all
the compulsions. So it's called e ar P School. Um
CBT school is the name of the website, but e
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r P School is the course, and it basically helps
teach you how to put together a plan where they
can start facing their own fears in their own time,
in their pajamas, if that's how they want to do
it from home. It was really great during COVID because
you know, it was hard to get access to care.
So yeah, it's it's I'm just so proud of it
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and happy to offer it. I'm so glad you do. Yeah,
and anything we can do in our pajamas, I think
is just really exactly Well. Thank you so much for
enlightening me. And I'm hoping a lot of people hear
this and they go, oh my god, I don't have
this major major craziness. I'm oh my god, I can
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maybe live a full life and get some recovery. Oh
my god, I'm not so special, but you're special. But
you know what I mean, You're you're special. But that
was a lot of good information, wasn't it. I hope
you're feeling a lot better if you relate to any
of these symptoms and you've been avoiding getting treatment and
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just thinking something's really really wrong with you. No. No,
So here are some of the takeaways from my chat
with Kimberly Quinlan. To have o c D, you must
have a certain criteria of things. First and obsession, which
is defined by an intrusive repetitive and unwanted thought. Second,
a compulsion the behavior that we do to reduce or
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remove uncertainty or anxiety or discomfort usually due to those thoughts.
And third, it's a disorder, which means that the obsessions
and compulsions are disrupting your life and you're functioning to
a problematic degree. An obsession usually shows up in the
form of a thought, but it can also show up
in the form of a feeling or a sensation or
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an image that keeps popping up in your brain, or
it could be an urge that comes up and overwhelms
your body. A common misconception about compulsions is that they
have to be physical, like washing your hands, but many
compulsions can't be seen by the eye, and one of
the biggest is a mental compulsion ruminating trying to resolve
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problems in your mind, and another compulsion is avoidance. People
are often misdiagnosed by doctors unfamiliar with this, who think
that people with o c D are only displaying physical compulsions.
There has been recently a growth of therapists who specifically
treat O c D, but the community is still in
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crisis as it takes seven to fourteen years for someone
with o c D to get correctly diagnosed. There are
apps that have been created for people with o c D.
For example, you can take a picture of your stoves
so that you know for certain you've turned it off
or that you've locked your door, but that still acts
as a compulsion and it keeps the disorder going, and
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a lot of these apps are giving people the opposite
of recovery skills. The gold standard for o c D
treatment is exposure and response presentation known as e r P.
I don't think the word presentation is correct. I think
it's exposure and response prevention. And I don't know why
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I wrote yes, it's prevention, not presentation. Forgive me, it'll
be correct on my website. So the gold standard treatment
for o c D is exposure and response prevention known
as the RP. You would think that I subconsciously have
a presentation do or something. No, I really don't know
whether word came up um. In e ARP, the patient
is exposed to their obsession, they identify their fear, they
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find a way to face their fear, and then the
response prevention is that once as patient has been exposed
to the fear, the RP targets eliminating the compulsive behaviors,
but both must be a part of treatment for recovery
to be successful. O c D attacks the things that
we value the most, So if you value your relationships,
you'll have o c D around your relationships. If you
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love your job, you could have o c D around
your job. There are multiple categories of o c D.
The majority of people are only familiar with contamination o
c D the fear of germs or something like symmetry
obsession or checking obsessions around danger, like if I don't
unplug my hair curl, or I'll set the house on
fire and be responsible for terrible things. The physical compulsion
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types of o c D are the lesser concerns that
most therapists c But most O c D patients have
an obsession around harming people. They're terrified that they're going
to harm someone they love. It's an unwanted, repetitive and
distressing thought. People with harming obsessions are usually the sweetest
people in the world, and the thought of harming others
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is heartbreaking to them, but the thoughts are repetitive all
day long in their head. Some people can have o
c D related to religion. It could be an existential
obsession like what's the point of life? O c D
is a disorder of uncertainty. The more uncertain someone is,
the more anxiety they feel. Some people in a relationship
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have an obsession with ruminating on what if they cheated
on their partner or did they pick the right person,
or even thinking, you know what if I'm gay and
I thought I was straight this whole time. It sounds normal,
but for someone with o c D, this is an
extreme degree of repetitive thoughts about all of this, which
causes them to do safety behaviors and compulsions to control
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their obsession. There are terms called ego dis tonic and
ego syn tonic, so people with o c D have
obsessions that are clinically egodsk tonic, meaning that the obsession
doesn't line up with their values. For example, the patient
who would never harm their child but has intrusive thoughts
about harming their child. It's distressing because it's so confusing.
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If you think that you have o c D from
listening to this episode, don't try to figure it out
on your own. Sec a therapist who can do a
good assessment on you, because if you have anxiety, you're
not the best person to assess yourself. Often people with
o c D even question their diagnosis, and part of
their o c D becomes obsessing on wondering whether or
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not they really have o c D. Maybe the diagnosis
is a mistake and they're really a serial killer or
a pedophile. That is a classic symptom of o c
D as well. The work of exposure therapy is to
change the way that someone responds to a thought. Instead
of responding to an intrusive thought with importance and terror
and the urge to solve it right way, the work
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is to treat the thought with no importance at all
and even make fun of it to be creative. People
with o c D usually are very creative people, and
developing o c D has a nature and nurture component.
Genetics are strong, and if you are raised with strict
rules and strong beliefs, that kind of nurturing can impact
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o c D. Think of the brain as having a
pair of brakes and an accelerator like a car, and
for the o c D person, their brake system is
not connected very well and it's hard to pump the
brakes on their intrusive thoughts. There is an umbrella of
o c D related disorders, and o c D falls
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under panic disorder, help anxiety, phobias, hair pulling, skin picking,
and social anxiety. O c D is often misdiagnosed as
a d h D, bipolar and most often generalized anxiety.
The most common misdiagnosis is, unfortunately, from doctors who can
be dismissive and tell patients things like you just think
too much. The best treatment for o c D is
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exposure and response prevention, as well as an SSRI, which
is an antidepressant at an o c D dopes. Mindfulness,
practice and acceptance and commitment therapy are great solutions as well.
And having compassion towards working on your o c D
doesn't mean taking a break and nets ferries and unicorns. Wise,
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compassion says, I got you. Let's face this fear. But
by facing this fear, you're going to get your life back.
Let's do that. The work of overcoming o c D
is about facing fear and riding waves of really uncomfortable shit.
But it's so rewarding and empowering. If you can do it,
the average person can see a pretty massive change in
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their o c D in about sessions or within a year.
You cannot shock your therapist with your thoughts. They've heard
it all before. You're unique, but your thoughts aren't. Can
Really wrote a book called the Self Compassion Workbook for
o c D, and you can get it by going
to the link in the show notes. And Kim Really
also has an online school to help people with o
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c D called e r P School. You can face
your fears in your own time, in your pajamas, and
again that link is in the show notes. Who I
learned a lot today. I hope you did too. Again,
just want to normalize everything for everybody before they take
that step in in um getting some help with anything.
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favorite shows.
This is the Anxiety Bites podcast and I am your host,
Jen Kirkman. Welcome to another episode of Anxiety Bites. I
am your host Jen Kirkman. Now today we are talking
about o c D, obsessive compulsive disorder. I did do
an episode a few months ago with my friend Andy Kindler,
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who is a comedian who suffers from o c D,
and it was great to get his perspective of what
it feels like for him, how it moved through his life,
what it felt like in his body when he was
having o c D experiences, what he's come to now
after getting treatment. But I also wanted to talk to
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someone who is a specialist in o c D so
we could really dial down into the nitty gritty of
what exactly is obsessive compulsive disorder and what are the many,
many ways that it can manifest. And I'm sure in
this interview we have only scratched the surface. But what
I enjoyed in my conversation with Kimberly Quinlan is that
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she talks about what is perhaps the most normal O
c D symptom is unwanted thoughts, and I actually, if
you had asked me, I would have thought it was
more the handwashing and the you know, germ phobia, contamination phobia,
and she said, while those are pretty common, what most
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people rushed to seek treatment for are the unwanted thoughts.
Thoughts that they might harm someone they love, Thoughts that
they might uh, you know, harm a child, that they
might harm their partner, someone in their family. And it's
it's difficult to talk about because it sounds like the
minute you say that, right, someone should luck you up
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and throw away the key. And what has been discovered
in o c D treatment is that people who have
these thoughts are the least likely people to do anything
about it, because what they're worried about is what if,
because they it is the last thing they want to
do is to harm someone, especially someone they love. And
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it's really debilitating and it disturbs people and it's it's tough.
So she talked all about having a sense of humor
about it and how that is actually part of the treatment.
That it may seem like it's such a big deal
to be having these thoughts, but again, the key component
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of it that makes it obsessive compulsive disorder and that
makes it harmless is that it is an intrusive unwanted thought,
and so you may find this very interesting if this
is something this is something that you've been living with,
you've been afraid to talk about it. Hopefully this really
brings it home for you that it is normal, common,
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very treatable. And so a little bit more about my
guest today, kim Really Quinlan. Her website is linked in
the show notes. She does compassionate, science based treatment for
O c D, anxiety disorders, and eating disorders. We didn't
even get into anxiety disorders and eating disorders today, but
of course you can go to her website and learn
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more about it. Today we really just focused on obsessive
compulsive disorder involving obsessions and compulsions. And again, an obsession
is an intrusive and unwanted thought that creates significant anxiety
and discomfort, and a compulsion is an overt or covert
behavior done in an attempt to reduce the discomfort of
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the intrusive thoughts and feelings. And so even though Kimberly
Quinland practices out in California, she does have her own
kind of online school where you can take courses to
get treated for obsessive compulsive disorders. So again that's in
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the show notes, but her CBT school dot com has
online resources for obsessive compulsive disorder, anxiety disorders, hair pulling,
skin picking. She has online video courses Mindfulness for o
c D and o c D online course Overcoming Anxiety
and Panic, a time management course. So check that all out.
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Because even if you are unable to find a therapist
in your area or get to a therapist, you can
begin doing some of the exposure therapy work by taking
a course. So let's get right to it, because Kimberly
is she really knows her stuff. She's totally brilliant, and
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I think you will enjoy learning about exactly what o
c D is and what it isn't. All right, I'm
gonna start out with what I think you know, hopefully
not too basic and boring of a question. But can
you just define o c D obsessive compulsive disorder? Sure? No,
that's not a basic question at all. It's actually a
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really important question because to have o c D you
need to have a certain criteria of things. So number one,
you have to have obsessions. But obsessions aren't like I
love lego, or I love sweaters, or I love or
your cookies like I'm obsessed with binge watching Netflix, like
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it's not. That is what an obsession is. But in
the terms of o c D, an obsession is usually
an intrusive, repetitive, and unwanted. So it has to have
those three pieces um and it usually shows up in
the form of a thought, but it can also show
up in the form of a feeling or a sensation
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or an image that keeps popping up into your brain
um or it could even be an urge. This sort
of urged comes up and overwhelms your body. So you
have to have that first criteria to have the obsession,
and you have to have a compulsion. Now, a compulsion
is a behavior that we do um to reduce or
remove uncertainty or anxiety or any form of discomfort even
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maybe even discussed. A big misconception is that that compulsion
has to be physical, so we know sort of Hollywood
o c D, which is like jumping over cracks, washing
your hands, counting objects. They're all great portrayals of having
o c D. But there are other ways in which
people can do compulsions that are actually completely unseen by
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the eye. Like one really big one is mental compulsions.
Mentally ruminating and and resolving and trying to solve problems
in your mind. Another one is simply avoidance. So some people,
a lot of people unfortunately who have O c D,
will go to a doctor and they'll say, you don't
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have a CD. I don't see you doing anything. I
don't see you doing any behavior. But this person has
avoided of their life, right, And that's the compulsion that
they do. And the other one is reassurance seeking, So
they're constantly googling or asking for reassurance from a person,
you know, did this happen, could it happen, will it happen?
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Did I do something wrong? So, so there are many
ways in which a compulsion can show up, um, that
our society isn't aware of. And then the deep part
disorder what I mean, that's just the name of an
obsessive compulsive disorder? So is there anything in the deep
part that makes it the disorder like that you have
to look for? Yeah, Well, to be diagnosed with a
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c D, it has to disrupt your life and you're
functioning to a degree that is problematic. Um. You know,
some people will often say like they have some symptoms
of obsessive and compulsive they have to be haveviors, but
it's not to the degree in which it is disordered,
meaning there is now lack of order. Um that it's
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not debilitating their life taking away their functioning. So the
people that I see how usually coming in there doing
it for more than one or two hours a day.
Most of the time it's taking up many, many, many
hours of their day to the degree where they've lost
some functioning. So that's sort of where the wood disorder
comes into play. And that's true for any disorder, anorexier depression,
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it's usually you know, the symptoms have started to impact
my well being. And do you like the name obsessive
compulsive disorder? Does that work for you in terms of, um,
what what it is that you know, the people you
treat and what they have, and what it's called. Do
you find that that's an accurate description of it? A
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lot of people with o c D find that the
disorders name actually describes even the treatment right and the
way in which we treat it, because it helps identify
that there are multiple components of this disorder and that
we have to look at each component in order to
treat them really well. So I you know, we look
at other terms like anorexia nervosa, it's like that doesn't
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even that's just syllables match together to make a certain word,
Like it doesn't really even make any sense. But with
this case, it does help us to identify the two
core pieces that are showing up and you have to
have both. And then it also it helps us to
sort of put forward a plan. Um. So, I mean,
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I think that the problem with it, if we were
to look at both sides of the coin, is because
it's so misunderstood and stigmatized. I know a lot of
people who don't like the term because of the stigma
that go with it. But in terms of the correctness
of the name, I think it's wonderful. And you are
an O c D specialist, and I've heard you said,
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I've listened to some other interviews you've done that that
there's very few of you in that sense to kind
of I mean, I'm putting words in your mouth. You
didn't say like this, but like you kind of know
what they're doing, you know, is it hard? Um? Tell
me what makes you? Tell me? Um? Tell me what
sets you apart from other people that think they're treating
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O c D and and why it's important to I
don't know. I guess go see someone like you as
opposed to just any kind of therapist or anxiety specialists. Yeah. Well,
what I will say before I start is, thankfully, over
the last decade that I've been specializing in it, we've
had such growth of more therapists. So you know, there's
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so many therapists now who are trained and correctly you know,
supervised and so forth. So thankfully that's going in the
right direction. But the O c D community has still
a crisis on their hand. It still takes seven to
fourteen years to get correctly diagnosed. That's a lot of years.
So that means that these people have sought treatment from
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some other kind of therapist, maybe even doctor, and the
person has not even named what they have as o
c D, or they've been named with o c D,
but they're they're not getting the right help with it both.
So a lot of people will be declined the diagnosis
and therefore can't get the treatment because of the misinformation
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around the compulsions. Right, like you don't have O c D.
You can't your room's messy, you can't have O c D. Right, So,
like what you were saying before they they're not noticing,
they're not know speed on the other compulsions. Yeah, yeah,
So there's that group there, the other group who get
told they have a c D but then may be
referred to a form of treatment that you know, out
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of the goodness of their soul, have tried to help,
but often what they're using is techniques that actually make
the compulsion and the disorder worse. So with the treatment
of O c D, we actually purposely face our fears.
That's the gold standard treatment. It's called exposure and response prevention.
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But if you're not trained in that naturally, any human
I'm sure before you listen to this episode or knew
anything about O c D, naturally your instincts would be, oh,
if you have a fear that sounds really painful, you
should avoid it. More like, can we figure out a way,
Like there are even apps that have been created to
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help people take photos of their stove so that they
know for certain they have turned their stove off or
they've locked their door. And instinctually that makes sense, right, like, well,
if you know you've locked your door, you shouldn't worry.
But those behaviors actually act as compulsions. And keep the
disorder going. So it's it goes against the recovery. And
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so that's where there's sort of there was a crisis
and we are working our way out of it in
edge acting mental health and medical professionals to to direct
people to the correct care because it can go so wrong.
We'll be right back. I haven't talked to anyone yet
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about exposure therapy. It's been casually mentioned in other episodes
I've done, but the focus wasn't that, so I didn't
really follow that trail. And I know that it's it's
probably obviously different with every anxiety disorder, and but weird
it's been brought up has been episodes that are more
centered on panic attacks and things like that. Um, so
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I'm sort of familiar with it in terms of what
I've done for panic attacks. But can you tell us
what is exactly you said exposure and what response prevention?
Tell us what exposure response prevention is? Sure? So, Um,
Exposure and response prevention we call it e r P
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for short, is where we so go back to the
obsessive and compulsive parts, so we expose them to their obsession. Right,
So that's pretty easy, right, you identify your fear, we
find a way to face your fear. Back in the day,
we only used to do exposure. We go, okay, if
you're afraid of dogs, go and hang out with dogs,
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or if you're afraid of germs, go and touch germs.
But what we found there was that's manly really fifty
of the work, because then they just go and do
all these compulsions to undo their fear or reduce or
remove their fear. So the response prevention is where once
you've exposed yourself to your fear, the response prevention is
targeting eliminating those compulsive behaviors. So not only would you,
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you know, touch germs or be around germs, but then
you would reduce and remove the compulsive hand wash or
the rumination, or the reassurance seeking or the googling and
that kind of behavior. So both must be a part
of treatment for the treatment to be really successful. So
if I come to you, um, how soon do we
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get into exposure therapy? Is it session one? Usually session
two or three, depending on the complexity of the case.
So we always want to do a thorough assessment, make
sure we have the right diagnosis. We also want to
do a ton of education because let me ask you,
how how excited are you about facing your worst fear?
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Not excited? No, I mean I think of ump. I'll
say a couple of my worst fears. I think I'm
pretty excited about them because I don't need them in
my life, so they don't debilitate me. But I used
to have a fear flying and I was not excited
to face that, but I did. So that's the thing.
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So anyone, I always say to my patients, like, no
one wants to see me, no one likes to come
visit me, no one likes to come and be my client.
But they want to get better and so that's why
they do. And so I have to do a lot
of education about what is o c D, what is
exposure and response prevention to build trust with them because
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I'm going to ask them to do the thing they
absolutely don't want to do rightfully. So um, and that's
probably the thing that frightens them the most. And usually
o c D attacks the things we value the most.
So if you value your relationships, it will target your relationships.
If you love your job, it'll target your job. If
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you will love your children, it'll target your children. So
because I'm asking them to do really scary things and
things they value. I do give them some time and education,
but I also emphasize the faster we can start getting
you to face your fear, the quicker you recover. And
so it's sort of a little dance that we do
together of trust and courage and repair and encourage and
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like it's an encouragement, it's it's a dance that we
do together. And I just realized in my example I
gave about you know, I had a fear of flying,
and I did do some exposure therapy for that. I'm
not really talking about O c D. So tell me,
Like I had to visitly, get exposed to an airplane,
get on it, touch you know whatever, touch the outside
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of the airplane, first, had to look at it. But again,
I wasn't dealing with an O c D issues, dealing
with the phobia. So what are you being exposed to
in obsessive compulsive disordered people? Like, what are they being
exposed to when they seek exposure therapy? If someone's having
um intrusive thoughts, emotions, or urges, which maybe we should
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define that before you tell me how you do it. Um,
I'd love to know because I'm assuming the exposure therapy
is different than like for a phobia. Right. So there
are multiple different categories of types of o c D. Again,
majority of people know about contamination o c D, which
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is the fear of germs and bodily fluids and so forth,
things like that. Um. Other people know about symmetry obsessions, right,
which is like lining things up and making sure things
are very straight and perfectionist stick right. Um. Other people
know about checking obsessions around danger. You know, will I
put the you know, if I don't unplug my um
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my hair curlor, will the house set on fire? And
I'll be responsible for you know, terrible terrible things. Um.
So we know about those, but in fact they're the
lesser concerns that we see in our practice. Right. We
see a lot of people have obsessions around, um, harming people,
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and this is a very common one. Usually when I
do interviews like this, I get like an influx of
emails from people going, oh my god, I never thought
I had O c D until you said, like these
obsessions because no one had conceptualized them as o c D.
So harm O c D is actually really common one.
It Usually obsession is what if I harm somebody that
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I love or person in my life. The thing to
remember again is the thought is unwanted, repetitive and distressing.
Like we talked about, so people who have harm obsessions
are probably like the sweetest people in the world. The
thought of this is so just heartbreaking, and for them
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it's repetitive, like it's all day in their head, in
their head, in their head. And so for E. RP.
For that example, we would expose them too often the
people that they're having thoughts about, right, and then the
response prevention would be not to do those safety behaviors
like you know, okay, so don't do the safety behaviors
that they used to do to try to stop the thoughts, right, yes,
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so you know, And exposure can be just about very
simple like go and be with the people that you're
afraid of being with. In some cases it needs to
be more aggressive if they've got very severe O C
d um of you know, having them chop vegetables because
for them, they have avoided knives for months or years
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in fear that they are not responsible with a knife
like that they're just gonna go crazy and run down
the hall and stab their husband or something exactly exactly.
So we also have people with sexual obsessions, particularly around orientation.
So let's say if you're heterosexual, you may be fear
that am I You have a lot of uncertainty around
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am I gay or straight? Again, think of O c D.
We call it the uncertain disorder. It usually thrives on uncertainty, right,
So the more uncertain you are, the more anxiety you feel,
so you may have fears around that. In that case,
we would expose you to the thoughts or the feelings
or the sensations, and then you would practice not engaging
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in avoidance safety behaviors or ruminaty of safety behaviors. So
there's just a couple of examples. There's probably twenty common
ones that could be related to religion. Um. It could
be related to existential like the obsession around what's the
point of life? Um. There are many ways in which
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these obsessions can target. It could be a relationship obsession.
A lot of people with relationship obsessions ruminate on whether
they will cheat on their partner, or ruminate on whether
they've picked the quote unquote right one. Um. And then
again and for some people listening, they may maybe like,
but I do a little bit of that right. So
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it's important to know that people who don't have o
c D maybe having these same fears, but not at
the at the degree of repetition or extremely how extreme
it is, and then you're able to manage that uncertainty.
For people with o c D, they've very much struggle
to stop doing compulsions around the obsession. And that's when
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we would intervene and with someone with like, for example,
the relationship obsession, you know, interests of thoughts about relationships.
It's not even based in any real thing I assume
where it's like, you know, actually this isn't working out
for me. We have different life goals. I mean, it's
really not based in the same reality that someone who goes,
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oh I have that. Sometimes it's like is it that
like you could be with the perfect partner and having
no problems, but your mind is just going and going yea.
So from this is a little bit of psycho clinical talk,
but there is a term called ego dys tonic and
egosyn tonic. So for people with o c D, their
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obsession is clinically ego dys tonic, meaning the obsession doesn't
line up with their values. So just as you were saying.
Often a client will come to me crying, sobbing in disbelief,
and they'll say, it makes no sense. I love my
child so much, but I can't stop thinking that maybe
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I'll harm them. So you can see that it doesn't
line up with their values, and that's why it's so distressing,
because it's so confusing. Ecosyntonic is where you have a
thought or a feeling or a sensation and urge that
does line up with your values, right um. And so
people with O c D, their obsessions are usually egodis
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tonic um. So if that helps sort of clarify, they
usually will say, like, it makes no sense. I really
do care for my partner. I don't know understand why
I'm having these obsessions about cheating or I love. It
could be again religion, like I am so committed to
my religion, but I keep having this intrusive image of
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a sin or so for we'll continue the interview on
the flip side of a quick message from our sponsors.
As part of my anxiety journey, I I've dabbled in
some O c D thoughts. I know exactly what an
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intrusive thought feels like, and it's terrible. You know, how
does someone know who's just sitting at home hearing this
the difference between that and what it would be like
to be maybe schizophrenic and you're hearing voices saying go
push this woman in front of the subway. So how
does someone know? I mean, I would assume the difference is,
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like you said, it's they don't want these thoughts. They're
not like excited by them. Um, so does that mean
that people who are going to harm people like the
thoughts feel different? Like, how does someone know and they're
if they're just listening? Well, I think I think number
one don't if if listeners. If I could offer one
piece of advice is don't try and figure that one
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out on your own. Um, try and seek out somebody
who can do a good assessment on you. Because one
thing to know is if you have anxiety, you will
most likely at some point think you're crazy. Like they
just go together. It feels you feel like a crazy person.
I have anxiety myself, like, so you're not really probably
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the best person as an anxious person to assess yourself.
I would always encourage you to go to try, just
even if it's just for the assessment. And just get
the assessment so you know specifically what you meet criteria for.
The other thing is is because O c D is
around uncertainty and targets uncertainty. Often people with O c
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D or some of the other anxiety disorders then question
the diagnosis. A part of their obsessive and compulsive disorder
is questioning whether or not they have O c D
and maybe that this is just a mistake and they
really are a killer or they really are a pedophile, right,
so that that in and of itself is also a
symptom of O c D. Most people who meet criteria
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for a c D question their diagnosis at some point.
So in terms of doing an exposure therapy, so let's say, okay,
we're ready to do it. Um, you know, I'm like
the woman used you know an example of a woman
who's sitting there thinking, ruminating over is this the right
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relationship from your something, or someone who's worried about harming someone?
If do you give them suggestions of what to do
and then they go home and do it alone, or
does exposure therapy like does anyone ever have their therapist
with them in the situation or you send them out
on their own kind of thing. Listen, and I say
to all my patients this was pre COVID, of course,
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but I always say to them, like the walls of
this office when I used to be face to face
have seen everything, Like all the exposures have been done
in this room. So yes, we do it often, we
will do it together because I want to be able
to coach the person through the rise and fall of discomfort.
So it's like a wave, right, You'll do the exposure
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and then if you practice response prevention, you're going to
have to ride out a big wave of anxiety, similar
to I'm sure you felt on your the airplane, right
is right, And so yes, we'll do that in session.
But we are pretty clear at the front end of
treatment like this is homework heavy therapy. Recovery isn't going
to therapy once a week. Recovery is doing around forty
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to ninety minutes of exposure and response prevention a day,
right a day. So and that doesn't have to mean
you have to schedule it and do nothing. You could
be doing exposures while you wash the dishes, or you
could be doing a lot of what we do is
you know, here is a great example, um to use
the harm exagm pull. If let's say you have a
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fear of harming your baby or your husband or your
wife or so forth. Is as you're washing the dishes,
you could sing to the happy Birthday song like I'm
gonna hurt my my husband to day doo da or
whatever you mean, Like you can you can be exposing
yourself to the obsession in your mind while you drive
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to work, while you have a shower, and so forth. Right, um,
The work of exposure therapy is to change the way
you respond to a thought. So instead of responding to
it with importance and and terror and you know that
it has to be solved right away, we actually solve
it by either treating it with no importance at all
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or making fun of it being creative. People with OCD
and anxiety are usually super creative people, so we'd be
creative with it. And like you said before, you could
do exposure therapy by being around the people you're afraid
you're going to harm. But now it sounds like in
the homework section, you're washing your dishes and you're exposing
yourself to your own thoughts. Right okay? And I love
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this because I love the notion of not giving the
thoughts importance. And you know, like we hear this all
the time in so many different ways. You know, if
we're doing mindful meditation, we don't have to latch onto
the thoughts and get distracted in anxiety. We don't have
to believe the thoughts that we're dying right now during
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this panic attack. So it all always boils down to
the same thing that we have, um, maybe not control
over the thoughts coming in, but we can control how
we react to them. It's always about that, right, And
what I love about this is it's so counter intuitive,
as was as his panic disorder recovery is like, I'm sorry,
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did you not hear me? I am thinking of harming
my husband? And it's like, no, no, you're not thinking
of harming your husband. You're obsessively worrying what if I
did that? Almost the way that like if you're in
church or something and you have this thought like what
if I just screamed fuck right now, you know, in
the middle of Christmas Eve Mass, And you know, I
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think the average person has had those weird little moments
and then it goes away. Actually, I just had a
session with a patient where I said exactly this, which is,
your thoughts aren't the disorder, you're The disorder comes when
we respond to them as if they're super important and
need to be taken away and stopped. But people without
O c D have the same O c D thoughts
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that people with O c D have. Um, Yes, there's
some cognitive and and actual physiological differences in the brain,
but the main thing is they go, huh, that was
the weird thought, and then they go on with their day.
People with O c D have the thought and they go,
this must mean something really important. And I think it
is my responsibility to make sure this doesn't happen right,
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And so that in again in that little places where
we intervene mean and go, let's have some fun with
this again. I love like I always joke with clients
like no one wants to see me, Like it's it's
terrible to have to see Kimberley because it means you
have to do really hard things, and you're going to
have to face some really hard things. But we can
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also find some really great, creative fun ways to do this. Right.
If you're afraid of screaming out fuck you, could you know,
write the word out if you're afraid of certain things,
you can, you know, get your I've had clients right
full scripts about their obsessions and turn it into art.
I've had people, you know, turned it into poetry, purposely
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staring their fear in the face. You know it's funny.
I'm in comedy and I'm a writer, and I've been
doing it the whole time. I've had anxiety. And I
treated my anxiety with such reverence, you know that. It
was like, never the two shall meet. There shall be
no laughter or creativity about my anxiety. And there wasn't
until a few years ago. Finally, literally decades, I was like, oh, okay,
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maybe I'll apply a sense of humor to it, which
is why I wanted to start this podcast. And I
had the psychiatrist who was the guy that prescribed my
medication for twenty years, and seriously a lot of the
time he would say things that I would go home
and just get so upset about because I think he
went to school for this. I need a more serious doctor.
This is he is not. He is bad at his
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job and people are going to die because of him.
And now I realized he was trying to appeal to
my creative side. And he was right. So it's like
I kept thinking he was saying do something easy, because
he was saying do something creative, and it's not easy,
Like you have to first admit that you were wrong
about how you're thinking about this, and I guess I
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just I don't know. I didn't want to be wrong
about it, or I just thought if I tried this
silly thing and it doesn't work, them really screwed you know. Yeah,
well now, actually, I mean I want to validate you,
because fear is a response to danger for and that's
what we've developed, we've grown on all these years because
of that. Right when the wilder beast ran at us,
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fear showed up and we knew to run. And so
when our brain, now in this evolved world, shows up
with fear and there isn't an imminent danger, we it
naturally we're going to be like, let's take this really serious,
Like this is what kept us alive for so many
years and has allowed us to evolve, so it must
be important and worthy of our attention. So it's hard
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to flip the switch on that, right, It's it's hard
to treat fear like it's a thought. Um that is
kind of intuitive. So it does take some time and
trust to sort of make that step, but once you
make it, then you're often you're running. So with o
c D, like, is there a spectrum you know, it's
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like to like least severe to most severe or is
it like, oh, you can have some of the symptoms
but not all of them, or is it different than
other anxiety disorders in that way. No, so yes, we
have like mild, moderate, and severe, but no, one obsession
is different than the other. In fact, we treat them
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all the same. Um. The severity is very much person dependent,
so it really just see, so it doesn't matter really
what the symptom is. It's all the same. Like you said,
reaction to uncertainty. Yeah yeah, so um, again, it depends
on the degree in which it debilitates you. So some
patients my essay, I have a small fear of germs.
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COVID was a big trigger for a lot of people
like I have a small fear of germs, but I
can handle it. What really bothers me is this other
obsession whereas and and often this is something to think about.
Two is, when I used to run groups for O
c D in my internship, you would have a group
of eight people with eight different types of o c D,
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and the guy over here who's having hum obsessions or
pedophilia obsessions, or sexual obsessions like more of those, like
things that we don't know about. He would sit across
from the guy with contamination and be like, I wish
I had contamination. I could totally handle contamination. That would
be so much easier. And the guy with contamination is
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sitting across from him, going, what if I had your
type of o c D that would be so much easier.
So I think the thing to remember is the suffering
is the same for all of it, right, It's all
the same degree of suffering, and that it's you have
to tolerate high levels of uncertainty, high levels of anxiety.
Often there's a lot of shame associated um so no,
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we treat them all equally. So when you say uncertainty,
I mean obviously that's life is the most uncertain thing.
When you see that O c D targets uncertainty, like,
what exactly does that mean? So let me dig down
the person who says, you know, I'm ruminating, I'm obsessing
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over if my husband is the right person for me.
I mean unlike the the more quote normal person who's like, oh,
I think that sometimes. Like to me, that seems like
the quote normal person is having some moments of uncertainty,
whereas the O. C D person it's not real uncertainty.
So am I getting this wrong? Like what what do
you mean by it targets uncertainty? Well, similar to like
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you talked about with the egodystonic piece, right is, clients
will often say like I don't wanna hurt that person
or I don't want you know, I really love my partner.
So they may even have some really great ground in
knowing who they are in that moment, but it's the
uncertainty that really gets them. Oh of like what I
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don't know if I will or not. I don't know
what the future will hold, And that uncertainty is really painful, right,
And it's repetitive. It's not just like I don't know,
it's like I don't know, I don't know, I don't know.
You've got to solve it. You've got to solve like
in their head, it's like think of it like um
in if you had the radio station in the background saying,
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but what if you want to what if you want
to what if you want to what if this isn't right?
What if bad things are going to happen? What if?
And it's all uncertainty based, right, It's it's often focusing
on you might lose control and bad, bad, bad things
are going to happen and so um. And that's true
for any anxiety disorder, but for people again with O
c D, it tends to be more repetitive and disregulating, right,
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because when you have that degree of discomfort, naturally your
instincts will be, well, let's just solve this, let's figure
it out. But when you figure it out with a
compulsion means you've treated the thought like it's important, which
means now your brain thinks it's important and you're stuck
in a loop. So if someone has a c D,
um that isn't the obvious kind of washing my hands
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and checking the stove. If it's more like the ruminations
like what if? What if? What if? What could like
their worst day look like like they call in sick
to work and they just sit in bed and kind
of ruminate all day until like they can't eat sleep.
I mean, is that kind of what happens? The best
way a client multiple clients have explained this, but a
client once said to me, it's like you have a
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jigsaw puzzle and your entire life is depending on whether
you can finish the jigsaw puzzle, and no matter what
you can do, you cannot get the pieces to match.
Like in your mind it feels like if I just
get these pieces to go in riot and I get
the final piece, and then I can have relief, but
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they can't find it. And then what they're tolerating with
it is not just uncertainty. It's the distress of that
and the and the frustration of that, and then it
becomes also about the you know, sort of it targets
your identity, like what does it mean about you? If
you keep having these thoughts? You must be a terrible
person who thinks about sexual thoughts like this all day?
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What kind of human are you? And because you can't
solve the puzzle, you're left with this massive mess of
just thinking, and so it could be just laying in
bed ruminating. For many people, it's repetitive actions, like asking
reassurance over and over and over and over and over again,
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even though you know they've answered it as soon as
you ask the question. The uncertainty just comes right back.
And it's not just like, oh, maybe uncertainty, it's like
urgent uncertainty. Anxiety bites will be right back after a
quick little message from one of our sponsors. I don't
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mean it's like where does this come from? But is
there a known reason why, like someone may develop O
c D as opposed to like a phobia of driving
or something like that. Is there any kind of genetic
reason or nature nurture thing both, So we understand there
is a nature and a nurture components. So genetics are
very strong. If you have a family member with O
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c D, you're more likely. But the truth is, I
think of we think of an umbrella, and the umbrella
is what we call O c D related disorders. So
O c D is under there, as is panic disorder,
health anxiety, phobias, hair pulling, skin picking. So there are
many other disorders that fall under the obsessive compulsive umbrella,
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and often genetically you will have one or more of
those disorders. Social anxieties another one. Um. So yes, there
is a genetic component. There's also a nurture component in
that if you were raised with very of course, like
strict rules and and strong, very strong beliefs that that
can can impact it. What we know scientifically about the
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brain of someone with OCD is think about everyone can
just imagine in your brain is a pair of brakes
and an accelerator, right, and everybody has intrusive thoughts, right,
But for the person with o c D, they their
brake system is not connected very well, and so it's
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really hard to pump the brakes on those thoughts, and
their accelerator is a little overreactive or overactive, and so
when you have those thoughts, it presses the accelerator really
really fast. Imagine, Um, this is not physiologically correct. As
you know, we don't have brakes and accelerators in our brains,
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but imagine our brain has an accelerator. So when you
have no CD and you have a thought, it's like
they've pushed the brakes and they're going strong, like really loud,
really repetitive and so forth. So that we know that
this physio logical pot is happening in their brain as
well for reasons, yet we don't understand. Yeah, do you
think that, Like, I mean, it sounds like every anxiety
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disorder when it gets down to it is fear of
the unknown. It's like a big existential crisis that we
all have, right, we all have our different disordered ways
of dealing with it, and for some people aren't even
bothered by this. You know, who knows. But do you
think if if we had certainty in life, like if
we had every answer we wanted, that we would just
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find a way to still have all of our anxieties
and O c D, Like, I'm sure that wouldn't be
enough either, right, or that would be the cause of
our stress or something. Well, and let me use O
c D as the perfect example. So let's say there's
another kind of o c D called need to know
o c D, and so it's often love I never
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heard of this. Yeah, there's many different subtypes, but one
is called need to know. So it's not even that
there's a danger involved. It's just that their brain is saying,
but I just need to know. So like example might
be the one that I was given when I was
in training. Is like, let's say someone has the need
to know about a certain brand of toilet, Like it
could be as random as that, but the urgency and
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the urge to find out the answer is so strong
and so uncomfortable. I don't want to minimize this is
so painful. They just have to go and find out,
like I just have to know. So they go and
they check and they get the name of the toilet
or they get the name of whatever it is that
their obsession has targeted. And so, okay, I got it.
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I relieved it right. But it only takes one millisecond
for the brain to go, are you sure? Are you sure?
So imagine you go okay. Like health anxiety is another
example of this, Oh what if I'm dying of cancer?
So you go and you get the m R I,
and then all that has to happen is as you're
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walking out of the doctor's office, he says, yours healthy
as can be. All you have to do is have
the thought, well, what if the doctor missed it MHM,
or what if the m R machine wasn't working well
that day, or what if um I didn't answer a
question correctly? And that meant like it only takes one
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thought to undo all of the certainty that you've got.
And that's a very typical experience of O c D.
It sounds like a real control issue two in the
sense of like, if I do this correctly, I will
get the absolute right answer and then I can rest well.
Most anxiety disorders are caught up in what we call
cognitive errors or cognitive distortions, and often one of the
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most is black and white thinking like it's has to
be all good or all bad, right, So so those
distorted thoughts can often fuel our urgency to get certainty
or relief. Does o c D ever get confused with
other disorders? Like do people get misdiagnosed You've mentioned I
think that you know in the seven to fourteen years
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to get it right, Like, what are common things people
get misdiagnosed with? It could be unfortunately anything Commonly, a
d h D is a common one because people will
report difficulty with concentrating, you know, racing thoughts. You know,
it's very common for that to be and vice versa.
People who have actual diagnosis of a d h D
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can sometimes be diagnosed with anxiety as well. UM. So
often a d h D sometimes bipolar UM, often mostly
generalized anxiety. They'll get a generalized anxiety diagnosis. UM. You know,
it could be any diagnosis right that they could be
misdiagnosed with. Most commonly, what I hear is more of
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the dismissive like you don't have a disorder, you just
think too much, or you know, like you need to
you know, you need to eat this whole grain diet
and this this sort of quirkiness will go away. So
it's more of that kind of thing. And so what
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are some treatments for o CD? We've talked about exposure therapy?
Is there like a most successful or is it a
company you know, is there a great medication for their
What are you seeing people who are really recovering? What
are they doing? Right? So, the gold standard treatment for
our c D is exposure and response prevention. However, if
you can match that with an S s R at
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an o c D dose, that's your golden combination. If scientifically,
if you had to choose between medication and e m P,
you would choose EMP. It has better outcomes, right, UM,
But that's what we know at this date and time.
But what we've really learned in the last decade is
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there also these supplemental treatments that can elevate the EMP
and the medication and they are mindfulness practice as you've
mentioned um all, So acceptance and commitment therapy UM, which
is an amazing supplement to e P which helps you
to number one, practice some very under the lens of
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my mindfulness skills, but also helps you to define what
your values are. So instead of doing compulsions, you would
engage in value based behaviors UM, which is really wonderful.
App Like another way for us to frame e m
P is not only we're not going to take away
your discomfort and just let you sit in terrible nous,
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We're actually going we're going to actually pivot towards the
thing that you value and you want in your life. UM.
So that's really wonderful. There's new research now around adding
dialectical behavioral therapy UM, which is for those who struggle
with regulation. So so we're getting these new sciences every
day that sort of helps supplement and complement the work UM.
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But at the end of the day, what I would
say to to anyone with O c D is EP
he has to be the focus because if you aren't
facing your fear UM, it's likely you're avoiding it. And
if you're avoiding it, you're doing that compulsion right and
you're like feeding it exactly. And and so in the
acceptance and Commitment therapy, I love. That is that What
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does the word commitment means? That? Is that like the
defining your values part? Like, yeah, so the commitment pieces
not just committing to the values, but committing to the
actual experience. So there's a lot of radical acceptance in there.
It's committing to staying in the present and staying with
the feeling instead of running away from the feeling. So
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commitment can take multiple can be multiple aspects to it, right,
So imagine you're uncomfortable. You have to commit to being uncomfortable.
You have to commit to not doing the compulsions. You
have to commit to your values, like, there are many
things that you commit to in that moment. I'm assuming
you do a lot of um helping people get acquainted
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with uncertainty or to the point where they're tolerating uncertainty
and getting comfortable with it. Is that sort of the
goal in all of this on yes, I mean I yes,
I will preface is last year I wrote a book
UM called the Self Compassion Workbook for a cd UM
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published stud New Parbenter Publications. I wrote that book because
number one EP sucks and it's really hard and no
one wants to do it, and so it is also
important that you sort of what I say is you
wrap the exposure in self compassion. So I'm not doing
saying that as a plug. I'm saying it as more
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of because it sucks so bad and because it's so
heavy lifting kind of therapy, it is important that you
also have a gentle, compassionate approach to it. Um that
tends to keep morale up and motivation up. I think
it's a huge piece of the work as well. So
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the compassion part isn't saying, you know, take a break.
It's like, you're gonna do this thing, but we're going to. No,
compassion doesn't say take a break. That's the misconception of compassion.
So let me let me just quickly say, so compassion,
if you really dropped into the compassionate person inside you,
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it never it doesn't say take And of course if
you're sick and you're exhausted, yes it would say that.
But when it comes to fear, the wise compassionate part
would say, I got you. Let's face this fear like this.
By facing this fear, you get your life back. Let's
do that. That's the compassionate act um. So no, at
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the beginning of the book, as a whole chapter on
like compassion is not unicorns and fairies. It's facing fear
and writing waves of really uncomfortable ship. But it's so
rewarding and so empowering if you can do that. It
sounds like it's just the opposite of like beating yourself up,
like you loser, What do you mean you're gonna check
your stove again? Like come on, normal people don't do this,
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Like that's not a compassionate approach. No, it's very supportive
and almost coaching, like I call it like the kind coach.
It it's saying instead of saying like get down and
give me twenty your loser, it's saying, you can do
this just one one more minute. You can do it
to stay on, stay with it just a little longer.
We got to like hang on. It's it's that kind
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of thing. And so in your work, how I don't
mean like how long does this take? But you know
someone out there who's like, Okay, I'm gonna go start
going in there be for my O, C D. What
can they look forward to if they put in the work.
I mean, well, they feel monumentally better in a year. Yeah,
So yes, you should definitely see an improvement by a year.
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So as a typical host of treatment for a CD,
I don't like to kind of give dates because everybody
is different and if you've got um extra a diagnosis,
it takes a long But under science they say twenty
four sessions and you should have some pretty massive change. Right.
That's great. Yeah, But I even go as far as
to say, like, the way that we do treatment is
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very gradual. We don't throw you under the bus. We
start baby steps and you get you know, you get
the hang of it, and then you go for it.
Then what we do is we usually do a huge
inventory of all the compulsive behaviors you do, and we
just work our way up them, right, like start easy,
and you work your way cross out the list, cross
out the list. So often when people start crossing out
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these compulsions, that in and of itself is rewarding, like, wow,
I'm doing it right, like I'm starting so as I
think real recovery is really looking at that list and
getting it all the way down. But a lot of
people will be shocked at how even the first exposure
of going wow, I didn't do that compulsion and I
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faced my fear, or maybe I even had the full
on panic attack and I survived. That in and of
itself will change how they view themselves. They'll feel more empowered,
like it's a it's it's hard work, but it's so
empowering and it's so like it's badass work. Yeah. I
know in my own work that my self esteem would
just leap when when I was able to say I
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did this thing. And sometimes I have to not belittle
myself and go, yeah, you got on a plane. Good
for you. So it's like no, no, no, this is
I'm a big girl. This is a big deal, Like
I have to celebrate that. You know. Um, of course
it's easy to do something you're not afraid of, but like,
I'm even more badass than the people on this plane
that aren't afraid because it is easy for them, but
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you know, I had to reframe it that way. And
and so lastly, what should people look for, you know,
when they're looking for, um, a therapist to help them
with their O c D. I mean, there's no messing around,
like that person has to have O c D in there.
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I don't I don't mean title, but but it can't
be like, oh, I just you know, I do everything
like that's not going to work, is it. No? No, No,
We Like I said, a thorough assessment can determine how
much you can recover, right, And the truth is, um,
it's also how honest you are. So often you know,
I have staff that work for me and we're constantly consulting.
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Is a lot of times people don't even want to
tell their therapist about their thoughts because they're so ashamed.
So the more the more you could be honest with
your therapist, reach out and get a O c D
therapist who treats using e r P. And if you
can really just sort of oh, let it come out, like,
just really be honest with them, you can make massive,
massive changes. Um. So absolutely yeah. It does require, um first,
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knowing you have O c D and be an assessed correctly,
but then it does require some work for sure. The
crossover between talking about these things and the world I
was in before of comedy is that I say things
on stage that I think in my private mind, and
I I know it's going to be relatable because I
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know I'm not special. So if I thought it, so
does everybody. And it's like a magic trick you're doing
when you say confessional things and then people go, oh
my god, I thought I was the only one. And
I can't believe the things I say that people come
up and go, I thought I was the only one.
I want to go, really, you really didn't think anyone
else thought this? You know. It's like and so it
seems like in that same way, I mean, there's really uh,
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it's like there's really nothing anyone could say that would
shock the therapist. Right, it's like there's no the worst
I thought you're having anyone out there. I mean, I
hate to say, you're probably not that special, right, No, No,
I I I love I'm a big goofy this way,
but I love like the first few sessions where I say, like,
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I guarantee you won't shock me, and they say, oh,
but you haven't heard my thoughts, like you know, like ah,
and they when I always just love that moment when
they do tell me, and I'm like, nah, I had better,
like like I've read worse. Like I think that that
is so true. I think it's shocking to people that
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there are more. I think because often the content of
their obsessions are pretty scary. But no, there's there's nothing
I haven't heard, right, Um, and there's always those people
who are so overjoyed that they're not the only one,
which just shows you how much work we've got to
do with stigma around mental health. You have this course
that we were talking about before we started recording. Can
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you just tell me a little bit about that, right? Yeah, So, Um,
I have a private practice, so I see clients face
to face. But what was happening is I was having
an influx of people who I couldn't help. They they
lived in out of this country, out of the state,
or so forth, or the fact that therapy is expensive, um,
and so out of sort of a sense of desperation,
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I decided I'd make a course basically explaining exactly how
I would tell my clients the process. Remember we kind
of talked about like the first session is explaining what
is the e O CIT, what is e r P
how you would put together like the list of all
the compulsions. So it's called e ar P School. Um
CBT school is the name of the website, but e
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r P School is the course, and it basically helps
teach you how to put together a plan where they
can start facing their own fears in their own time,
in their pajamas, if that's how they want to do
it from home. It was really great during COVID because
you know, it was hard to get access to care.
So yeah, it's it's I'm just so proud of it
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and happy to offer it. I'm so glad you do. Yeah,
and anything we can do in our pajamas, I think
is just really exactly Well. Thank you so much for
enlightening me. And I'm hoping a lot of people hear
this and they go, oh my god, I don't have
this major major craziness. I'm oh my god, I can
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maybe live a full life and get some recovery. Oh
my god, I'm not so special, but you're special. But
you know what I mean, You're you're special. But that
was a lot of good information, wasn't it. I hope
you're feeling a lot better if you relate to any
of these symptoms and you've been avoiding getting treatment and
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just thinking something's really really wrong with you. No. No,
So here are some of the takeaways from my chat
with Kimberly Quinlan. To have o c D, you must
have a certain criteria of things. First and obsession, which
is defined by an intrusive repetitive and unwanted thought. Second,
a compulsion the behavior that we do to reduce or
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remove uncertainty or anxiety or discomfort usually due to those thoughts.
And third, it's a disorder, which means that the obsessions
and compulsions are disrupting your life and you're functioning to
a problematic degree. An obsession usually shows up in the
form of a thought, but it can also show up
in the form of a feeling or a sensation or
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an image that keeps popping up in your brain, or
it could be an urge that comes up and overwhelms
your body. A common misconception about compulsions is that they
have to be physical, like washing your hands, but many
compulsions can't be seen by the eye, and one of
the biggest is a mental compulsion ruminating trying to resolve
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problems in your mind, and another compulsion is avoidance. People
are often misdiagnosed by doctors unfamiliar with this, who think
that people with o c D are only displaying physical compulsions.
There has been recently a growth of therapists who specifically
treat O c D, but the community is still in
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crisis as it takes seven to fourteen years for someone
with o c D to get correctly diagnosed. There are
apps that have been created for people with o c D.
For example, you can take a picture of your stoves
so that you know for certain you've turned it off
or that you've locked your door, but that still acts
as a compulsion and it keeps the disorder going, and
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a lot of these apps are giving people the opposite
of recovery skills. The gold standard for o c D
treatment is exposure and response presentation known as e r P.
I don't think the word presentation is correct. I think
it's exposure and response prevention. And I don't know why
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I wrote yes, it's prevention, not presentation. Forgive me, it'll
be correct on my website. So the gold standard treatment
for o c D is exposure and response prevention known
as the RP. You would think that I subconsciously have
a presentation do or something. No, I really don't know
whether word came up um. In e ARP, the patient
is exposed to their obsession, they identify their fear, they
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find a way to face their fear, and then the
response prevention is that once as patient has been exposed
to the fear, the RP targets eliminating the compulsive behaviors,
but both must be a part of treatment for recovery
to be successful. O c D attacks the things that
we value the most, So if you value your relationships,
you'll have o c D around your relationships. If you
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love your job, you could have o c D around
your job. There are multiple categories of o c D.
The majority of people are only familiar with contamination o
c D the fear of germs or something like symmetry
obsession or checking obsessions around danger, like if I don't
unplug my hair curl, or I'll set the house on
fire and be responsible for terrible things. The physical compulsion
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types of o c D are the lesser concerns that
most therapists c But most O c D patients have
an obsession around harming people. They're terrified that they're going
to harm someone they love. It's an unwanted, repetitive and
distressing thought. People with harming obsessions are usually the sweetest
people in the world, and the thought of harming others
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is heartbreaking to them, but the thoughts are repetitive all
day long in their head. Some people can have o
c D related to religion. It could be an existential
obsession like what's the point of life? O c D
is a disorder of uncertainty. The more uncertain someone is,
the more anxiety they feel. Some people in a relationship
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have an obsession with ruminating on what if they cheated
on their partner or did they pick the right person,
or even thinking, you know what if I'm gay and
I thought I was straight this whole time. It sounds normal,
but for someone with o c D, this is an
extreme degree of repetitive thoughts about all of this, which
causes them to do safety behaviors and compulsions to control
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their obsession. There are terms called ego dis tonic and
ego syn tonic, so people with o c D have
obsessions that are clinically egodsk tonic, meaning that the obsession
doesn't line up with their values. For example, the patient
who would never harm their child but has intrusive thoughts
about harming their child. It's distressing because it's so confusing.
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If you think that you have o c D from
listening to this episode, don't try to figure it out
on your own. Sec a therapist who can do a
good assessment on you, because if you have anxiety, you're
not the best person to assess yourself. Often people with
o c D even question their diagnosis, and part of
their o c D becomes obsessing on wondering whether or
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not they really have o c D. Maybe the diagnosis
is a mistake and they're really a serial killer or
a pedophile. That is a classic symptom of o c
D as well. The work of exposure therapy is to
change the way that someone responds to a thought. Instead
of responding to an intrusive thought with importance and terror
and the urge to solve it right way, the work
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is to treat the thought with no importance at all
and even make fun of it to be creative. People
with o c D usually are very creative people, and
developing o c D has a nature and nurture component.
Genetics are strong, and if you are raised with strict
rules and strong beliefs, that kind of nurturing can impact
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o c D. Think of the brain as having a
pair of brakes and an accelerator like a car, and
for the o c D person, their brake system is
not connected very well and it's hard to pump the
brakes on their intrusive thoughts. There is an umbrella of
o c D related disorders, and o c D falls
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under panic disorder, help anxiety, phobias, hair pulling, skin picking,
and social anxiety. O c D is often misdiagnosed as
a d h D, bipolar and most often generalized anxiety.
The most common misdiagnosis is, unfortunately, from doctors who can
be dismissive and tell patients things like you just think
too much. The best treatment for o c D is
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exposure and response prevention, as well as an SSRI, which
is an antidepressant at an o c D dopes. Mindfulness,
practice and acceptance and commitment therapy are great solutions as well.
And having compassion towards working on your o c D
doesn't mean taking a break and nets ferries and unicorns. Wise,
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compassion says, I got you. Let's face this fear. But
by facing this fear, you're going to get your life back.
Let's do that. The work of overcoming o c D
is about facing fear and riding waves of really uncomfortable shit.
But it's so rewarding and empowering. If you can do it,
the average person can see a pretty massive change in
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their o c D in about sessions or within a year.
You cannot shock your therapist with your thoughts. They've heard
it all before. You're unique, but your thoughts aren't. Can
Really wrote a book called the Self Compassion Workbook for
o c D, and you can get it by going
to the link in the show notes. And Kim Really
also has an online school to help people with o
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c D called e r P School. You can face
your fears in your own time, in your pajamas, and
again that link is in the show notes. Who I
learned a lot today. I hope you did too. Again,
just want to normalize everything for everybody before they take
that step in in um getting some help with anything.
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At least I want you to not feel so afraid
going into taking your next step. You can email the
show at Anxiety Bites Weekly at gmail dot com, and
please give the show five star reviews on Spotify or
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And again, yes, anxiety bites, but you're in control. For
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