Episode 17 - Q&A with Confetti & Psyche

Welcome back! This week MiLadyConfetti and Psyche answer some questions about their favorite equipment, stream routines, and their inspirations. Definitely added a few items to the shopping list! 

 

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Speaker 1 (00:03):
I Confetti, how have things been in your world lately?
Very busy as pretty if you are a vig con right,
I have been at Big con yep um, I was
at an Xbox event right before that, and then uh
redacted event right before that. So oh, I see, very
very very busy. You got it all going on. I

(00:27):
see this is funny. I I've actually had like a
super hectic couple of weeks, but I feel like I
haven't really done anything, and I hit it when that happens.
But it feels like I haven't been on the podcast
and age, so it's really nice to be recording with
you again. Yeah. Same, Well I'm going to go ahead
and introduce the podcast before we get started, So welcome
back to Boss Level Everyone, a podcast where we feature

(00:49):
conversations with guests who have leveled up bringing an XP
boost to the table. Today we have a very special episode.
A few weeks ago you heard from Jess and Hey
Shitty Lady in a of a sort of host highlight episode,
and this week it's going to be myself and Confetti
asking some questions of each other and just kind of
catching up a little bit. So I figure, maybe let's

(01:11):
I don't know, get into character select and maybe start
with a kind of high level overview and reminder of
who we are. So, Confetti, do you want to start? Yeah?
So I am Lady Confetti. I am a black, a
sexual variety content creator, calls player. UM, I do a
lot for charities I host, and I'm also um a
shoutcaster and um honestly, I feel like I am a

(01:34):
mogul at this point, trying to make moves. But yeah,
that's a little bit about me, a little bit of
everything sweet and I'm Psyche. I'm a former games industry
project manager turned full time content creator from Northern Ireland. UM.
I stream and otherwise create content full time. And I
live in a sort of cottage kind of thing with

(01:55):
my partner in our three cats, Crash, Curly and a
zero fail or as for short, Ash named after Crash
Override from Hackers and Early and As named after the
Angel and Demon pair from Good Omens. And they definitely
lived up to their names, which was probably a really
bad idea on my park. Oh, we have to name
our pets. Well, there's Zuko. Oh hell, he also lives

(02:16):
up to his name. Unfortunately, you probably hear him in
the background. Why is your attention not on me? What
is that? Cats are ridiculous for that? I feel like
at least usually it's crashed for me. He's my my firstborn,
but cruelly lives up to the demon energy so so well,

(02:36):
and he's got like particularly But anyway, I could talk
about my cats for hours, but that's not why we're here. Well,
I mean cats on streams, I mean they help. They
definitely help with I know Zuko does hell. Yeah, I
feel like having a cat came or a pet came
or whatever, I think just adds value. I used to
have one for my other cat area. Um, they're like,

(02:58):
why is it the cat I want? Today'm because she's
not here. Yeah, I want to do your own life.
I keep joking that my cats need to get a
job and start paying rent, but they haven't obviously done
that yet, and my partner can the day really seriously
root of them. A partner was like, you need to
figure out how to monetize our cats because they are

(03:20):
causing more trouble the older they get. I don't know
what it is. The kitten stage was very cute and
now they've just got really sassy. I'm like, okay, do
you need to start paying your way. Our kid, Zucho's
kitten phase never ended, so and he's about to be six,
so help. Oh and yeah, what what was I thinking
getting three? Yeah? That one? Oh God? Well okay, so

(03:46):
I figure maybe since we're on the topic of like
streaming and stuff, we could head into the first level
today with some streaming related questions. So, um, confetti, what
do you have like a single piece of equip it
or something that you think is super key to your
content creation journey, like something that you cannot live without. Um,
I would say, um. For me personally, UM, I use

(04:12):
the Logitech G six So for well, this is this
podcast is not sponsored by Logitech, but like I'm affiliated
with them. But this is not to shut up. This
is just for me personally. I use a g Logic
G six SO four mouse, and I also use um,
the Logitech vertical mouse. UM the Penguin because it just
came out. They used to have the gray one. I
used to use. UM. Just from me personally, because I

(04:35):
have carpal tunnel and when I play certain games and
I get very competitive, Um, you know, I can have
carpal tunnel flare ups. So UM, A lot of things like,
so I usually, like you know, go through like a
physical therapy sessions to help like with you know, flare
ups and pain stuff and like that pain management because
I don't really like to take like you know, pills

(04:56):
and stuff every day for like you know, inflammatory things.
So I try to do what I can for a
wellness outside of it to mitigate pain and reduce that
so I can still game and do what I do
what I love to do. Yes, it's really hard having
like chronic pain of any kind, but like carpal tunnel is,
so I guess linked to what we do as people

(05:16):
who create content and who play games and are constantly
using our hands and probably not necessarily being very organic.
I'm certainly not very ergonomic about it. But sometimes that's
the cost like too, and I make things, it takes
hours and then I have to like monitor what I do. Yeah,
I mean, if I guess, it can be quite fiddly,

(05:37):
like trying to kind of get all of the different
things because you're you're crafting stuff right for costplay. So
there's a lot of a lot of what's the word
I'm looking for? I know, I don't know what the
had the word I'm looking for but you have to
do a lot of crafting, so your hands are used
like all the time for that all the time. That's wild.
Do you find the vertical moist release. I've never used
one before because I've always been like really intimidated by

(05:57):
the idea of playing a game with it. I don't
know why I had. It takes them getting used to
It is a learning curve, especially when you do like
first person shooters or UM. Even in something as like
low key as Dead by Daylight, UM, even for there,
it is a learning curve because you're so used to
doing things a certain way, so now you have to
do it the opposite way. But it is such a relief,

(06:19):
like it is such a relief on my on my
wrist and all my my arm, my farm so um. Yeah.
So sometimes you'll see me like switch mice, like in
between streams. That's too. I'm typically going between the six
or four and then the vertical mouse. You see. Even
that kind of inspired me to look out. So I
have problems with carpal tunnel in my left arm from
when I used I used to fly Quick three competitively

(06:41):
and I my PC was set off at the bottom
of my bed and I had like I had like
a metal bed frame, so my arm I used to
rest my elbow and the metal bed frame and then
I would like twist my hand runs my wrist was
at a really awkward angle and I used to play
it relentlessly for like unhealthy amounts of time. And my
left arm I actually have a tattoo of the quick

(07:03):
three logo on my arm as like a kind of
I don't know, reminder, like, hey, you messed up your
arm playing this stupid game. So I feel like I
need to start. Yeah, right, I need to and I
catch myself doing it again. I've actually recently twisted the
um the arms of my chair inwards so that I
can actually rest my arms at a better angle because

(07:25):
I was not doing it right, and I don't I
feel like a vertical mouse could possibly help me because
I've started having issues with my right arm nor as well.
It just they're so different, I guess, because you kind
of get used to what you'd be using for most
of your life, right, I would say, like to do
it offline has helped me a lot. Um, Yeah, like
just playing offline and just like because it's less pressure

(07:47):
on you, because like it's offline with who cares. You're
just you know, another gamer um and you're not like,
you know, on the performance aspect of like streaming and
stuff like that. So that really helps me. But also
like if I'm doing i don't know, just regular like
checking emails there something that just to get used to it,
like regular setting, and then when it comes to like

(08:08):
you know, like adding the then pressure of you know,
performing and streaming, then you know, that's just gonna take
some getting used to too. But at least you have
like the basic comfort ability. Now, yeah, that's a really
good idea. I'll get it about you. I actually eat
you know what. I asked you that question, and then
as soon as I asked it, I was like, I
actually don't know what I would say to this, because
I I feel like I'm not I'm not going to

(08:30):
cast shade on specific brands or anything, but like I
feel like some stuff in my setup I've been using
for so long because at the time it was the
only thing that was available that filled that particular niche,
and it doesn't really serve me very well anymore. So
I'm like, you know, this question has kind of made
me sit back and think I need to reevaluate my
setup and what works for me, because there's a lot

(08:52):
of like I have. In fairness, I think maybe for
me it's always been my lights. Because the first thing
that I did that really scaled up the quality of
my stream was I got these like ginormous soft box lights,
like proper photography style soft box lights that took off
way too much room in my tiny, tiny office. Um,
but they did, they did work right, they were really
really great. And I used to stream with a green

(09:15):
screen and they were perfect. But I recently, because I'm
not using the green screen anymore, I dongraded to a
complete off brand of like these desk mounted lights, and
they're not perfect, but they use so little power and
they use so little space that it's kind of given
me this feeling of having a much bigger office than
I did before, which is really really nice. But it

(09:36):
seems like such a rubbish answer compared to like your
cool ergonomic most I'm like, that's true, You're not wrong,
but yeah, I think I think I need to reevaluate.
I actually was giving someone advice the other day about UM.
They wanted to get a new upgraded microphone and they

(09:56):
were thinking of going with I have the sure sm
sev B and they were think you ab upgrading to that.
I hear wonderful things about that, Mike. I want it
so bad. It's really good. But I had to know.
This is my problem with my own setup. I had
some issues getting it to selling the way I wanted
it to. And uh that I'm not an audio person.
I don't really need their mind any of that stuff.

(10:17):
It's not too bad to set up. But the problem was, um,
I had one of the cables I had was like
crossing over and was plugged into a really old power
strip and it was causing this super this is so weird.
It was causing the super high pitched tone that no
one could hear except like two people on the internet.
And I was baffled because I couldn't figure it out

(10:38):
and it took me forever, and then I just randomly
switched plugs and then I I find out that I
had stopped happening, and I was like, are you serious? Yeah,
Like sound is very weird and specific like that. So
that's why, like I have people who are good at sound.
I'm like, can you just help me? Like yeah, sound okay,
and like and then like everybody's like you sound fine.

(10:58):
But then when I listened to myself, I'm like, no,
I want to sound like how your YouTube video sound.
How do I do that? Because I don't like this. Yeah,
I get you completely, and I don't know how to
get there, but I know what I want to sound like.
So I'm just like, yo, consult understand sound math exactly.
So when I got with with the microphone, they were

(11:19):
asking for advice and I was like, okay, well, you're
going to need like, uh like an interface or a
mixer or something. And I don't really know what kinds
of like interfaces to recommend to people. I'm I'm using
a go Xlr. Same. I don't know that I wouldn't
necessarily recommend I would maybe I'll say this in four
K full shade. I hate this machine. Okay, all right,

(11:41):
you know what I've had it. I want to I
want to throw it into the sun, but like literally
anything else. Because I remember weird talking with um a
realion um Aaron who um she like knows a lot
about sound, but she recommended this sound board. I was like, okay, cool,
and that thing was like three thousand dollars. I was like,
oh my god, exit, oh my god, I don't have

(12:02):
that kind of money, but like when it comes to
sound like it takes sometimes that type of machinery to
get to that quality. Because she was saying like this
particular thing was like used by podcasters and people in
the industry, like this thing is really dope, and yeah,
I was like, I don't have that kind of money,
you know, right, I get you completely, Like, so the

(12:25):
go excel. The problem I've had with it is that, um, like,
this is I'm holding a grudge. Okay, this is this
is not a problem that I've had like a lot.
It's just that I'm holding a grudge for this one time. Um,
they did an update their like uh something or other.
It wasn't just a firmware update, but they did an
update that basically recalculated the algorithm they used to determine
certain things with your audio. So the compression settings I

(12:49):
was using, even though nothing on the slider changed, it
completely changed the sound of my voice. Right. I don't
know about you, but I don't feel the need to
check my audio at the moment I go live every
single time to make sure that it's exactly the same.
So I assumed that if I didn't change anything, nothing changed.
I had put off updating this software for so long,
and it apparently updated in the background and I didn't know.

(13:11):
So I went live and people are like, oh my god,
you're sawing awful. You saw him like you're talking through
like a tin can. What the het? And I was like,
I haven't changed anything. I don't understand, and it turns
like they had just reset everything. So I had to
spend like two hours sitting there going like dragging the
slider up and then listening to myself talking and going Nope,
that's not right, and then doing it, and it's so frustrating.
So I'm like, I do you know, maybe I don't

(13:33):
want to. Also, my cat sat on it once and
a bunch of stuff changed, and then he sat on
it again, and then he fixed a problem I've been
having with it for six months by sitting on it,
and I'm just like, I don't know. Maybe he could
be my tech support from Probably there's a job. Oh yeah,
there's a job begin but I have to pay him.

(13:54):
That takes away from it a little bit. Yeah. As
far as like sound, I don't I don't know. Like
I think if I had like a long term goal,
i'd probably see if I to get that piece of technology,
but it would probably take me like two years to
get UM because like when I remember when the Gouxler
came out and I saw it UM premiered like they
did their little premier at twitch Con San Jose and

(14:17):
that small cramped place UM, and it looked really cool,
and like I remember, I was there with this other
creator UM. His name is dream Dad, and we were
just like yeah, because like sound is like a struggle
for me, Like I don't like, can can this simplify it?
And in a lot of ways it has, but like
like you said, like it does change your sound every

(14:38):
once in a while. For me, when I was getting started,
it was changing almost every day, and it was very
frustrated because like again, like you, I wasn't touching anything,
and I knew not to touch it because I knew
it wasn't you know something that I could you know, UM,
what do you call that? UM fixed very quickly, especially
like when you're a live and stuff like that. That's

(14:58):
really tough. So UM. And then also like I don't know,
in my opinion, they don't have the greatest customer service,
so UM that was just like completely turned off and
I thought that maybe the Algado one was going to
be a little bit better. They had sent me one,
but it doesn't have the capabilities that the go xcep
Lara does. So I took the R and made it
more simple. But like, you don't have as much control

(15:20):
over your sound. So like then I was sounding like
a little bit like a roboce. I was like, so
it might be time. It might be time to invest
in the big boy. I'll see in two years and
you know, you know what. I'll let you get it
first and then you can tell me what you think
and then we'll think. We can have our folks at
I heart help me. I love that for us. UM,

(15:46):
we've talked kind of about like hardware. Do you have
like software related things that you find UH, particularly like
helpful third party apps are plug ins that you think
are kind of like must have for streaming, UM, I
think must haves. UM. I I'm also I am not
affiliate with Elgatto whatsoever. UM, but I know the stream

(16:08):
deck is something that UM a lot of people have.
There's the software you can I think you can just
have the software or you can have it to your phone.
UM you can have it also the physical thing UM
and also like you know, they have different apps or
like going live UM like o b S obviously is
like the main one. Twitch has their own type of
UM streaming service that's very interactive. I've only personally used

(16:30):
it at twitch Con San Jose going back to that,
particularly Twitch kN UM, so it's not something necessarily that
I like to use UM. But yeah, like O b
S is awesome, Like a lot of UM elcatos like
software things are are pretty decent as well. They also
have like a bottleneck on the industry. They're kind of

(16:51):
like the only option. Yeah, I feel like it would
be really nice to see uh, some more GAS competitors
coming out there and the I've seen other people coming
out with UM kind of similar stuff to the stream deck,
and I'd like to see that because nothing against Algato.
I think that what they've done is great. But yeah,
having a competition is good because then everyone improves right

(17:11):
right exactly, And I think we've reached a safe point.
So I will give you my answer afterwards, but let's
take a super short break. Welcome back, UM, and we
are going to kick off right with Psyche answering the

(17:32):
question what is UM when piece of software we're talking
about that you just can't you know, exists without. So
you kind of mentioned some of the like really big
ones that I think are kind of things I couldn't
have with, Like but like a plug in that I
can't live with. It is some form of captioning software
for accessibility, because I think super super important. I know

(17:56):
you use them on your stream as well. Yeah, web captioner.
So there's web captioner I personally use. UM. I don't
actually know what the captioning is called, but it's by
someone called rat with a compiler and you can find
it on get hubs. So there there are options for
like Twitch extensions, there are browser based ones. There's also
the one that I use is UM. It comes through

(18:18):
the Twitch player so people can click the little like
caption button in there and like modify stuff, although it
does confuse people sometimes because they come in and they're like, yo,
your captions are directly in front of your subtitles in
the game or over your face or something, and I'm like,
you can actually move those, um. But ever since I
started using them, I I have find that, like I
just can't live without them, because I discovered there's quite

(18:39):
a lot of people in my community who really relied
on captions that I had no idea um and that's
something that's really important. Also having a Northern Irish accent,
I usually struggle a lot with captions to actually understand me.
And for some reason, Rat with a compiler whatever, the
actual captioning sober is called um it works really well,
so they have like they go through Google's captioning I think, okay,

(19:02):
which I think a lot of the captioning software actually does.
But um it has an option for Irish English and
it actually understands me. And it's really cool, right because
I feel like I actually I'm going to tell you
a really sad story about me. But um I played
a lot of Elite Dangerous and there was this thing
that a lot of people used called voice Attack that

(19:23):
allowed you to give yourself voice commands. You can use
it in other games as well, but a lot of
people used it in Elite to do things like, you know,
jump to the next system, or like deploy or retract
your landing gear stuff like that, so you didn't have
to have so many key bindings. And I used it
and it could not understand me. And I remember one
day getting so frustrated and upset because I was repeatedly

(19:46):
telling it to do something and it was just going
didn't understand that, didn't understand that. I ended up crying
because my partner was just happily, you know, talking through
he has He has a very um I don't really
know the way to describe his accent, but he lived
in so He's from South Africa and he lived in
California for a while, so I feel like his accent
was a lot easier to understand than mine. So he

(20:08):
was fine mine, even though I had done voice training
with my accent, understood him better than me, and I
was just sitting there, going, who want my ship listen
to me? So having the captions actually understand me it
is really nice. And it's kind of funny because people
will come in and say, hey, it's really cool that
your captions actually seem to be pretty accurate, and I'm like, yeah, finally,
this never happens to me. Yeah. I don't know if

(20:30):
what captioner is like a learning sentient being Um, that
sounded very dark and dys top but um, it does
get better, Like for over the years it's been getting better.
I think they've just probably been in improving the quality
of like their their site. Um, but yeah, I always
have it on, like I know. That was a big

(20:50):
part of like I did something with Steam and the
New Dead by Daylight Killer, And a major reason why
they sought me out was because I had captains on
my screen because Steam can't provide that service on their
store because like, if you're watching a stream like they,
you can't capture it. And it's also happening well, it
wasn't happening live live. It was they were replaying a

(21:12):
loop of my VOD. But so people who didn't have
a sound no, I can see what I'm saying, but
also people who needed it could you know? That's really interesting. Yeah,
so it's very important to have your stream be accessible. Yes,
absolutely so if you're listening and you're a streamer, get
some captions set up on your stream. It's not hard. Promise.
If I could do it, you could do it. It's

(21:33):
literally the easiest thing ever. Um. So, since we're like,
we're kind of guess going really deep on the streaming topic,
which is you know it makes sense streamers. Yeah, I
mean I spent so much of my time streaming, Um,
do you this is something that, like I I have
started developing for myself recently, I guess because of my

(21:54):
mental health. Do you have like a kind of pre
stream ritual on like a post stream ritual that you
do every time or or like you try to do
quite often, UM appreciating ritual. UM. I do my makeup
and I watch um this YouTube channel called Coffeehouse Crime. UM.

(22:14):
I absolutely love that channel. And I because like you know,
true crime is you know, interesting, but I love this person,
like his name is Adrian, who um runs the channel,
but he very much humanizes the stories that we're talking about,
because you know, sometimes how people get caught up in
like oh, like you know, they forget that these are

(22:35):
real people, these are victims, these are you know, perpetrators,
and these are real people's lives story and like I
love that Adrian always centers that and what he does
when talking about these things. Um. It was interesting because
one of the crimes he actually did was like in
my area, and I was like, oh, yeah, I remember
that happening. Uh. But like even still like he I mean,

(22:57):
he he handles all his cases with such gentleness and
such respect for the victims and their families and stuff
like that. So UM, I usually watch um one of
his YouTube videos he uploads often UM, which I don't
understand because he's an engineer in real life. I don't
get it. I really don't understand. And um he And

(23:20):
so I'm doing my makeup, UM, I'm typically like breathing deeply.
If I'm not watching that, I'm usually watching like a
japan walking tour because it's very relaxing to me. UM.
Post dream, I'm typically probably crying because I'm hyper critical
of myself. I really get that. I had a cry
right after stream today and right before podcasts recording. Yeah,

(23:40):
It's like that's very real, and it's it's it's a
lot going on all the time. So UM, it's typical
that I'm either watching my makeup off I'm like either
playing something off stream. UM. I haven't been able to
really do that consistently these past couple of weeks just
because I've been so busy. UM. But I know whole fully,
I'm going to get back into the swing of things

(24:02):
and then hopefully a vacation because your girl leaves it.
But that's typically what I. Excuse me, that's typically what
I do. UM, as bricks man, we need to start
I can't definitely stop yelling at me. Thanks it's so
led in here. Um. I have actually so like I said,
I kind of have started trying to have a ritual

(24:24):
kind of thing before stream and after stream. I haven't
been on top of it either for the last couple
of weeks because I feel like my personal life has
been very busy rather than my work life, and that's
got in the way. Um. So, normally, I I take
my coffee. I'm not even a coffee snob, but I
take my coffee very seriously. So like I make sure
to make a fresh pot of coffee right before stream

(24:44):
and have a cup. And I have to check on
the cats because they're always causing trouble, like I said earlier,
and that's kind of like my pre stream I do.
I also sit in my office. I have like a
window that looks like into my garden, and I'll do
my makeup in front of that window for the natural light. Um.
While some times watching sometimes watching or listening to like
podcasts or um just YouTube channels. I actually watch a

(25:06):
YouTuber called It's Blitz, and the reason I find her
was that she did a SMR videos and I really
enjoy a SMR buth. She does a lot of like
lifestyle content as well, and I just I don't know.
I find she frequently motivates me to do random stuff
like clean my kitchen or like cook a healthy meal
or something when I've been really struggling to do that.

(25:28):
So I was watching a bunch of her videos. But
I've now I subscribed to Coffee House Crime thanks to you,
So I guess that's going to be on the rotation zone. Yeah, yeah,
I get what you're saying about it being kind of
I guess sometimes people already detached from it and that
can come across as not being very respectful, right, So yeah,

(25:49):
I'm I'm keen to have. And also the fact that
this person puts like so much content is really good
for me because I tend to binge. Yeah. I really
don't know how he does it because when he did
like his Q and A thing, He's like, like, is
you the person? I asked, like, is YouTube all you do?
Because he uploads so often? Um, or do you like
do this like on like on the side he was like,
Oh no, I'm an engineer. Wow, I'm like, I don't

(26:11):
know how people. Are you tired? Are you okay? But no,
he was like yeah, he was like yeah, just he
said that so casually. I was like, I can't relate
to cannot relate to that at all. When I was
working full time, my content was like maybe once or
twice a week if if that, and I struggled. I
struggled a lot um after stream. I like to have

(26:34):
a bubble bath if I can, because that tends to
help me just kind of have a hard reset. But
this really weird problem recently where I I can't focus
on anything, so like I like reading, but I cannot
focus on a book even though I'm super engaged with
the book and I'm really enjoying it, I just can't
sit down and stare like I end up just working

(26:57):
even in the bath. I think the only time I
haven't been working was like when I've been at the
events and things that I'm doing, because I'm just so
tired because it's these things have been like taxing, like
I know Xbox, like I had to travel to get
there vid Con, like I'm literally working all day um
and like I have like all all these events too.

(27:19):
I'm so glad that I have my friend who comes
with me, who helps me with like other things because
I'm just so like scattered everywhere, being pulled in fifty
different directions, so like I feel very behind. So then
like I had to convince myself today not to work,
um because like my body is in pain, and like
because I was standing in heels for pretty much four days,

(27:41):
I had to literally convince myself not to do anything today.
And then I don't have any a say, and then
I keep losing power. So like the universe, said Jill,
but like also it's hot, so suffered. Yeah, yeah, I
love that combo. That's just like, you know, really general
us of the universe, just to see you when you're

(28:02):
so busy and be like, ha, we decided this would
be a good time. Um. I get that because I
feel like I have a really hard time stopping myself
from from working. And I think, I don't know. I
feel like with content creation, a lot of the time
people don't understand what work goes in off stream for
example or behind the scenes. I guess, yeah, because there's

(28:22):
so much Yeah, and it's like really scary because like
I haven't streamed in who is this now? Day five?
And like I know people say, first of all, I
ignore streamer Twitter because I've actually muted anything related to
the same topics I keep seeing every two days. But
like people say like, oh, like you know, I take

(28:43):
breaks and like come back and like when you come
back and like people aren't there, and like that's an
actual real thing because like it's how dare you take
a break or how dare you have like other opportunities happening?
And like I know numbers aren't everything, but like when
you're in a lot of spaces, especially a Vican or
anything like that, sometimes it is. It's a big thing.

(29:05):
It is. It was very weird because I had this
very interesting like running with somebody, um because I'm not
a YouTube partner yet and like, but I don't have
as many like subscribers, says like my friend, for example,
who came with me, Like he has an automotive YouTube channel.
He has about forty subscribers versus my like two thousand,
and like they were more interested in talking to him,

(29:25):
and he's like, well, no, she's a future creator, Like
don't talk to me. Like I'm glad he had enough,
Like you know, well, I mean he's my friend, but
like he had enough self, like trying like to check
that person. But it's just like oh, well, you only
have two k Like, why are you here? I'm like,
but I'm still here as a future creator and you're not.
People like people like to say that you know, like

(29:48):
numbers aren't important, and they are, Um, I don't. I
agree that numbers aren't everything and that there's so much
more that goes into your impact as a creator. But ultimately,
whenever rands are trying to assess whether or not to
work with you, the first thing they see is numbers.
And that can be really really hard mentally to deal with. Whenever,
you know, like because every time I always experience when

(30:12):
I take a break, my very first stream back from
a break is awesome, and then everything after that is
really not and that's weird, and it can really like
I I have, I've had situations where I feel like
my my content hasn't changed at all, but my viewership
has and I don't really know. And I know that
like Twitch, for example, is very fickle. There could be

(30:33):
so many different things going on that could cause an
impact of viewership, but that doesn't really help. Whenever you
need to take a break for your mental health and
you come back and you feel like you've lost ground
or you've lost momentum is the biggest one for me.
I think, yeah, And I have so many ideas and
things that I do because like I I write a
lot of things down because I'm forgetful, um, and like

(30:57):
there's so many things. I think there's a lot of
people who do see the hard work I do. It's
just like the showing up part is a little tough.
And also I think people have like I think I
talked about this on like the first episode, but people
have this perception of like, Okay, you do you hang
out with Xbox sometimes, um, or you do you know this?
That and the fourth and it's like Okay, well you

(31:17):
don't need my support anymore. But it's like I'm still
a dark skin like a sexual creator in a space
that's white male dominated. I'm never like you know what
I mean, Like that's that's just like that's just the reality.
So like that's not true. Like I was so interesting
because like I was thinking, um and talking to other creators,

(31:38):
like the black community, there is no black woman who
is to like the extent of like the top ten creators,
like we don't we don't have we we don't have
that person, like we don't have for lack of a
better example, like we don't have a ninja. We should
we should have like a bizilion of them, because the
talent is there, but it's just like, yeah, we we
do need the support. It astins me because, like I

(32:02):
I have met recently, No this is this is just
like meeting in person, because I obviously was already aware
of these creators, but I've met so many like really
talented black women creators recently who deserve the world because
they're putting the work in and they're very entertaining. But
as you say, they just don't have they don't have
the um that's the word I'm looking for, the access.

(32:24):
I guess people aren't giving them the chance. And it
astins me that anybody could look at that and look
at their content and not understand that that's a problem
and not like see that that's a problem, and like
be surprised whenever people bring it up, because like literally
all you have to say is look at the top ten,
look at the top fifty, look at the top one
hundred content creators. The tap one. I don't even think.

(32:46):
I don't think we maybe there are any black women
in the top one. I mean I could be miss speaking,
but I don't think so. And yeah, it astins me
that anybody just like the fact that it doesn't even
occur to people like you could really see the the
data is right there, and I just I don't know.
It's very frustrating. And that means that I guess that

(33:07):
has an impact on when you feel like you feel
comfortable taking a break and taking that step away and
having a vacation that you need to have. Yeah, and
it's just very Um, it's just a lot to always
think about. So it's like when I'm resting and my
brain is allowed to rest, that's exmediately where it goes to. Yeah,

(33:29):
I got that. I get that from a different perspective
because obviously I don't understand what that feels like. But um,
I think whenever you are in any way not Look,
I'm just gonna call it what it is. The people
who are not straight white men on twitch. Um, that
is something we constantly have to think about, and some

(33:51):
of us more than others, and that is I think
a burden I guess that other people don't have to
think about. So that's an added I guess stressor. And
that's why it really frustrates me when people talk about
how I like, you know, streaming, Oh, it's not that stressful.
It is absolutely stressful. I am I am a very
I'm a workaholic, and I am a very the high

(34:14):
strong person. So when I was a project manager, I
was stressed all the time. Don't get me wrong. This
is not the same kind of stress, and it's probably
not as stressful as my job as a project manager,
but it's still very stressful and it has unique stresses
that I think a lot of people don't know or
don't think about it. Yeah, and it's just weird. It's
it's very weird, and I just I just hope people

(34:37):
like for me. For me, I always say like, you know,
decolonize your mind and you like, because I would say,
like this is everything racist. I said, Racism touches everything,
even a technology that we use, even our streaming platforms.
You know, racism, colorism, it all touches it. And like
the thing is, I know, like a lot of people

(34:57):
as said, why do you keep talking about racism? Why
do you keep talking about colorism? Because it still exists
and it still affects people. You know, I realize you
can't see the face I just made because like the
fact that anyone would even ask that of you is
just astounding to me. It happens, I'm sure it does,
but it's it's it's frankly bullshit that it does. That's

(35:18):
just it's just wild. I I feel like, I don't know.
It was something that came up recently actually on Twitter
that stood out to me that um, someone was posting
about how there's this expectation that UM content creators will
either have something to say about everything that happens, and
this is something that you and I talked to pleasantly
twisted boy actually as well, UM, like people deciding what

(35:40):
your activism should look like, and also at the same time,
people telling you, oh, don't be political, like don't talk
about stick to content creation or whatever, as if these
things don't directly impact us as people and content creators.
Because as a content creator you're a person and a
personality and those things absolutely directly impact you. Can you
not have an opinion and express it and then people

(36:05):
are the trip? Yeah. On On that note, I think
we will take another brick. Thank you all for being
with us, and we'll be back in a second. Welcome
back everyone. We are currently talking about all things content
creation really, and we're kind of deep diving a little bit,

(36:26):
So I think I'm going to ask Confetti another question
if you don't mind, I'm here, So yeah, alright, cool. Um,
Since we were talking about like people not really fully understanding, uh,
like what goes into content creation and like streaming and
all of that stuff. Is there a myth or a

(36:46):
misconception about the content that we create that you wish
you could dispel, but like content creation in general, but
also maybe specific to you, is there something that you
wish people understood or that they didn't get wrong all
the time. I would say the amount of work that
goes into it. Um. I would say the misconception about

(37:07):
viral virality. If you have a video that goes viral
on any platform, like you've made it or because vir
virility doesn't make a career. Virility doesn't. It's something it's random,
so it's not something you can necessarily depend on. Even
though like tick to the TikTok's was mostly TikTok, I
have like probably kind of tricked a lot of people's

(37:27):
minds into saying, like, oh, if my video gets like
five million views, like I'm good. No, Um, because there's
a lot of work and branding and things that have
to go into that, um, into creating you know, a
community and creating you know content. UM. I would also
say that once you start streaming, you're just gonna start

(37:50):
making the big books. I don't want to like poop
on anybody's dream. And I would say, like, you know,
a lot of people like and not a lot of um,
mostly white creators are right now saying like, oh, the
market is oversaturated. It's oversaturated with your demographic. Um. But
the thing is, even when you are from a marginalized community, like,
you're gonna have to work twenty times harder than everyone

(38:12):
else to not even get half of like what other
people are getting. And it's not to compare, it's just
the reality. Um. And like you know, when you start
off streaming, you start of content creating. Even if your
stuff does go viral, that doesn't mean that you make
anything from it. You know, everybody with Twitch, you don't
start off as an affiliate, You don't start off as
a partner, you don't start off as a YouTube partner.

(38:32):
You it's a whole journey and a whole process. You know.
It's interesting because like at vig Con, they're there. You know,
there are kids and stuff there and you know when
you sit in the panels and like, you know, it
was just one kid who said, like I want to
be a content creator when I grow up. The framework
of that like concerns me because it's like I want
to create content. Okay, do you know yourself? Do you

(38:54):
know what you're trying to do? Like why are you
doing that? Why do you want to be a content creator? Why?
Because like you see, you know, the glass, the cool
things you see. I'm talking referring most of the YouTubers,
but like you see like the cars and the house
and the things and blah blah blah. But like these
people have been making content for upwards of like twenty years. Um,
So it's like what is the purpose of that? Because
content creation at its core has to have a purpose,

(39:17):
you know, So like you know, it's not it's different
from saying like I want to grow up and be
a doctor. I want to help people. Um, you know,
I want to be a content creator, but like, okay,
what do you want to do with that? I don't know.
The framework of that is just very interesting and seeing
that like come from a child, I'm like, oh my,
like maybe enjoy your childhood exactly. Like that's concerning because, like,

(39:38):
as you were saying that, there has to be a purpose.
And I feel like I I've had people come into
my chat and talk about how they want to become
a full time streamer or whatever. They've either not even
started yet or they've they've just started. And I recently
had someone who literally like I was giving advice to
somebody who asked a question about streaming. I can't remember
how I ended up, but I was talking about how, like,
you know, as a variety streamer, you're kind of selling

(40:00):
yourself to a degree, and it's your personality and you're
the entertainer. You almost kind of have to work harder
at that because you're a variety streamer. And someone said
something along the lines of like, oh, but I'm not entertaining,
and I was like, then what are you doing? Like,
it's it's your responsibility to provide something, whether it's like

(40:23):
being funny or being educational, or um playing a particular
game and being really good at it, or being the
person that other people like you need to see. Um,
you have to provide something. And if you're saying I'm
a really boring person, and I don't really know what
I bring to the table. You need to really soul
search with that for a bit, my friend. You need

(40:44):
to sit down and think about and you solve those
difficult questions. And even like when it comes to like
you know, it's just so it feels so capitalist because
I'm like, I don't I don't know what. I don't
mind me. I'm not a child, so like I don't know,
I don't know what this child or with these you know,
people who are up and coming are seeing like with
a lot of people, like with the people that they admire,

(41:04):
the creators that they look up to. Um, but like
seeing like the car, the car, and like the house,
and like you know, going on like these like oh
I'm just gonna go to the channel store and do
a hall Like I can't do that. Um but um,
you're not seeing the hard work that goes behind that.
And it's like are like you know, being like money

(41:26):
is a great motivator. I'm not saying that it's not,
but like I think with content creation, it cannot be
your soul one because content curators, especially when comes to
these companies, especially when it comes to like if you
are like black or um indigenous or something like that,
Like they don't even want to pay you really because
they're always trying to you know, cut corners and stuff
like that to see you know, because suddenly they don't

(41:47):
have a budget. I'm like, okay, um for you, like
half of what they're offering everybody else or right. So
I would say, like that's I don't want to Like
I said, I don't want to poop on anybody's dream,
but like, really do soul searching to understand why you
want to to get into this, Like I I say
this all the time, Like when I um through the pandemic,

(42:09):
I lost my job in higher education and I had
the ability to go back once things started opening up,
but I said, I wasn't happy there, and I was
making I make significantly less than what I did, you
know with higher end. But I'm able to you know,
provide a roof over my head and stuff like that.
But I was like, you know, this is the hardest
ever work. But I'm so happy. I'm happy what I do.
I love what I do, even there's a lot of issues.

(42:30):
I love what I do, but I know that my
day starts at five am, is sometimes ends at midnight. Yeah,
you know that's real. What about people don't People don't
understand that, And I think that was going to be
the big one for me. It's like the lack of
understanding that, Like I went full time, A lot a
lot of people always asking like when when can I
possibly go full time as a streamer? Like whatever. I

(42:52):
think it's very different for everybody, but like in my
particular instance, I laughed my job in two thousand and
sixteen because I was burnt art and I couldn't do
it anymore. I was so stressed. I was stressed enough
that I was making myself sick. I like, I just
my health was suffering so much, both mental and physical.
And I left my job. We moved back to to

(43:12):
live back in Northern Ireland from I lived in Dublin
and my partner did not actually have a job yet,
but I had some savings, so I was like, okay,
well you can, you can work on finding a job.
I'm not going to get a full time job for
a while. I'm going to write and I'm going to stream.
And I end up streaming full time. I was making
like no money at all, but I was I was
full time streaming because I just needed something creative to

(43:36):
do where I was answering to myself. Um, and I'm
going to be honest, like I even know where I
I see myself compared to when I first started going,
Like when I was quote unquote full time but I
couldn't afford to be full time. Um yeah, I'm making
a lot more money now than I did then, but
I'm still making like a quarter of what I made
when I worked in the games industry. But I'm significantly happier.

(43:57):
And I it is a lot of work, and sometimes
I have a really really hard time with working on
the work life balance. It's very hard for me to
switch off. And I actually sometimes get really excited about
like going to visit my my my Granda, because his
internet is rubbish at his heart, so I actually don't
get any connection on my phone and it means when
I visit him, I can't work, and that feels really good.

(44:21):
And my partner said, like, you should really see that
as a problem. You should see it as a problem
that you need to go somewhere where you don't have
internet so that you don't work. But you know, it's
the process. I'm working on it, but it's it is
it's it's the idea that you know, you you you
get partnered and you make tons of money works and
it's not going to be that way. If that's the

(44:42):
reason that you get into it. Yeah, I think people
also are like, um, their bubbles being burst about the
whole checkmark thing and like they're like, oh, like y'all
get your subs. No, we didn't change at all. I
don't have a part her manager. Like, I'm not even
worthy of that. It's wild to me because I like,

(45:05):
I actually I kind of assumed that most people knew
how it worked, and that like, you know, a bunch
of people, maybe like the kind of people are newer
to the platform and stuff, probably didn't know, but most
people knew. And I mentioned it on stream one day
and the amount of people who were like, wait, you
need to get fifty of a sub like, yeah, I do,
most people do. Most partners do. And they were like what.

(45:26):
And then that article came out that was talking about
the potential and I don't know how how TRIA is,
but the potential of like people who were on a
higher contract where they were getting a higher split of
their subscriber revenue being brought back down to fifty and
everyone was kind of an uproar. I'm like, don't get
me wrong, I was honestly when I saw that, I
was laughing because majority of those people are have their

(45:46):
mouths clothes when it comes to other issues, when it
comes to twitch. So like, I'm like crime a River
Ridge people that I want this. I want them to
actually increase our sub revenue. So the fact that they're
reducing people that they already had on a higher split
on makes me think maybe they're just not going to
do that. Then um, probably they aren't. But like there

(46:10):
was this little like kind of optimist inside me, this
little kernel of like hope inside me that maybe maybe
they would see the like user voice post to be like,
oh yeah, actually we are a platform that is taking
the highest cut from our content creators. That doesn't really
make any sense. And there's out of every platform the
high which is said, which is sad when you're worse

(46:32):
than TikTok. That's true, you don't want to be in
that position. But like that, it's so weird to me
that there's so much more competition and things are getting
so much better in theory, Like I would still say, um,
I'm not going to say that like Twitch is the
best place to be a content creator, because I think
there's a lot of issues, but I'm happy where I am.

(46:54):
I don't plan to move. Um. But at the same time,
I feel like like YouTube is talking about their livestream
becoming a more I guess core feature of the platform,
and I hope that I do put work into it.
I will say, it's just coming from vidcan. Yes, yes,
they're well that's good because like, even if I don't
plan on leaving, and even if you don't plan on leaving,

(47:15):
maybe that will make Twitch. Man. I don't know, we'll see,
I guess, because there's also like the difference between like
because um, there was one thing my mentor was talking about.
She was talking about the differences between YouTube and Twitch
and that YouTube is an audience, that Twitch is a community,
and that's not something that YouTube has. So yeah, they're
working on their their their tech and stuff like that

(47:38):
to make you know, streaming and stuff like that easier
and compatible and like doing all the things, but they're
still like that audience versus community thing Like that was
really like mind blowing to me because I'm just like,
that's very true, and it's like you know, so how
are they going to do that? Because like how does
YouTube interact with the communities? What do they do for

(48:00):
for pride? Like as far as like you know, even
just recorded content versus you know, now you're gonna bring
in the live streaming aspect, you know, do they have
things for Blackstem Accessibility Awareness Month? You know? Um what?
What do they do as far as the community that
they invest in? That's also not just the faiths that
you constantly see on the trending page. Um So it's

(48:23):
like that. So like while the mechanics and things like
that are definitely there, and like being at bid com,
like you know, it's just like you can see the potential,
like it's really dope, but they don't have that community aspect.
So that's something that Twitched thrives on. So it's like,
you gotta it's very very true because YouTube is more

(48:46):
of like I kind of I don't want to say
a possive um consumption, but I think I think you
know what I mean. The people, if they're going to engage,
they'll like leave a comment, and that's kind of it.
There's not really the same level of agement that you
get on Twitch, where people come back every day at
the same time, and they're talking with each other and
they're like. One of my favorite things in the whole

(49:07):
world is whenever I see people who are in my
community playing games together, not just expecting to play games
with me, they want to play games with each other
because they like each other. That's very powerful, and I
suppose I don't really see that as much from like
a YouTube audience. It's a really good way of looking
at it. M I'm going to pivot a little bit
here because I think we've we've talked quite a lot

(49:28):
about like streaming and stuff, and I am itching to
talk about something in particular right now. So I am
going to ask if you have a particular game you're
very excited for this year, because I do, and I
want to talk about it, so before before you give
me your answer, I'm really excited for Starfield And they

(49:49):
just did the big reveal a couple of weeks ago,
and oh my god, it looks so good. Yeah. I
was hoping for um some of things about the sky,
and I'm just like, I don't do space, Like space
is like on my brain, Like there's something in me
that just shuts down. I got just like Okay, where's

(50:10):
the Dragons magic? Um. I will say a lot of
things from the the Xbox showcase that I did, like,
I like, I love that there was like a lot
of black women representation, so anything starting a black woman
and looking forward to UM. I am also looking forward
to um the Personas coming to game Pass because that

(50:34):
you ever just have Like I love that games reported
onto Steam. I love that you never just have a
game you just know, like I just it's a console game,
Like I want to put my feet up. I'm gonna
lay in my bed and just have a control on
my hand and game. Like I feel like the Persona
experience is that for me? So like, oh my god,

(50:55):
you should Persona five Broil is coming out, um later
in the year. I'm going to have to give it
a go because I keep it. They're doing it on
game Pass too, so as so as you have that
your gucci. Um yeah, I I'm so excited for that
because I want to play for I just can't do
it on Steam. Like I'm just like I don't want
to sit at my computer. I just want to kick

(51:16):
back and relax. So like I'm not a huge console gamer,
but there are some games that I just feel you
need to be like couch playing or like in your
bed hang and I just lying back and relaxing. It
doesn't feel the same to set at a PC to
play it. It just doesn't complete. I'm really looking forward
to that, um honestly. Also, I'm just looking forward to

(51:37):
getting through more of my backlog. I'm just being more
um rigid with myself when it comes to like, you
don't need to stream this game off? What's that like? Um,
trying to have that as my post virtual so it's like,
have a good cry session and then just game, just
be a gamer. Um. Yeah, so that's that's what I'm

(51:59):
looking forward to. What's on your back Bog, you have
the time. I just please don't judge me. I just
finished all out FO later got to the ending ending
because I stopped. Like once they were trying to make
me make a decision and I'm like, I'm I'm too
indecisive for this. But like then I got a computer

(52:19):
built that says like, oh, this is my computer cases
from Voltech. Um not the actual company, but n z
x T. They have a Voltech case and they shifted
in from Germany. I'm like, oh my god. But yeah,
so I finally like finished, got the ending ending, and
then I was very emotional. Um. There's a lot of things. Um.
I'm trying to get more into Valiant um because I

(52:41):
had so much fun playing a miss ash Rocks. Um.
And it's just it's just fun to play with friends. Um.
Oh my god, the Miles Morales, spider Man um. Um.
What is that called demon Souls? Still in the dropping
since PlayStation five punch Day? Oh my gosh, I just

(53:02):
got the new Cooney to Um. I'm just about to
be dragon Age or not dragon Age? Um? Dragon Quest?
Was that a lemon? Holy crap? Yeah, there's so many
of them. There's so many, but yeah, I just like
beat that. So I'm I'm getting through it slowly, but
surely that's cool. I have some games on my backlog
that I swear I shouldn't still have their, Like, I

(53:22):
want to do the dragon Age series at some point. Oh,
you have to, that's man, I really need to. I
feel like I really like them. I know this podcast
is just going to be you playing through. Yeah, I'm
just gonna be like, Okay, let's just check in weekly,
check in how far if I got through dragon Age? Um.
And I also really want to do the Final Phantasy
seven remake, and I know for a fact you're a Saffro.

(53:42):
I'm playing through that now and I'm pregnant. Every five
seconds comes onto. Sorry I heard, sorry, but I get
like I get. And I really really annoyed my community
because when I played the original Final Phantasy seven, I
had never played it before were and I played it?
Was it last year? I don't remember time is I

(54:04):
don't know. Yeah, I played through it, and I I
was in love with sap Rock. I was like, Okay,
this is it, this is He's I love him. And
I'm almost like, oh my god, what about like Clode
or Zack or whatever? And I'm not no, no no, no, no,
no no no. I have a thing I've been really enjoying,
like your TikTok's because you keep talking about like villains

(54:24):
and stuff, and I'm like, I relate hard, relate villains
more interesting. Cloud is just like generic, like anime, like
brooding dude who thinks the life is so hard and
it's literally not. It's just like just go to therapy.
Um like literally, Cloud is so uninteresting. Um yeah, it's

(54:46):
about a Fantasy seven remake. I liked how they like
framed it in um, whatever recent show just passed. There's
so many of them happening, like back to back, um.
But they talked about like how like, you know this
gives people a more full experience because they're are plat
holes in the original seven just you just ignored it
because it's just like, you know, zef Roth is right there. Um.

(55:07):
But yeah, it's just like I'm glad that they're giving
it a fuller like experience. I'm glad that they're doing that,
and the music are so good. I'm really excited to
play it because I genuinely I really love experiencing things
that I know people in my community are really fond of,
and I'm always yes talk to I said that, no,

(55:31):
no word. I finished it, and I'm very proud of myself,
even if I feel like got that community, like the
elden Ring community is all yeah, but I still feel
like it was cool. And it was the first time
that I actually completed a Soulsborn game on stream or
off stream even and I felt pretty accomplished for that
because I used to just should that that game is hard.

(55:53):
I had a panic attack at the first boss and quit.
Oh no relatable though that first, boss, I swear, but
I I feel really really accomplished, and it's made me
go like I've clearly got this like inflated sense of skill. Now.
I'm like, I could totally do Dark Souls and blood
Born and Demon Soult and I'm just gonna get my
ass handed to me. I know it. That's though, That's okay,

(56:15):
you know what, that's fine. It's we always have Pleasantly
Twisted to guide us. Because she's doing speed funds of
them right now. I genuinely do not know how she
does it, but I respect it very much. And at least,
you know, and she's she's like the friendly what does
she call herself, like the friendly souls Born Stone. I
really appreciate that. So, like I think, yeah, we can

(56:35):
all we can all turn to Pleasantly Twisted for some
advice everything for life. Yeah, basically, um so I would
like to since we've kind of like wind on a
little bit, I would really like to ask you some
questions specifically about youth. That's okay, Oh no, who am
I I promise it's it's okay. It's it's just you.

(56:57):
You talked about costs play earlier, and it's something I
will is being kind of interested in. But like from afar, UM,
what like do you have any particular like cosplay artists
that you really look up to or um costplay designers
that you really look up to? UM? I think my
favorite um cause player is Comoe cosplay. She so when

(57:19):
I caused play because I didn't really I wasn't aware
of her until like last year, UM when she did
her UM when her a Lloy cosway went viral like
again because that wasn't the first time she had did it,
but she just posted it again and it went viral again. UM.
But like you know, I like to do my photo
shoots like I prefer to be outside than in his studio. UM.
I love natural light. UM, I love I love creating

(57:41):
my cosplay. And my goal I want you to feel
like you're there in the anime, in the movie, in
the cartoon show or whatever, and I'm like the main character,
Like I want you to feel, um immersed in the experience.
And I know, like because like because somebody asked it,
they like, do you ever do like so fees And
I'm like, it's not really my thing. UM. I know

(58:03):
those are the ones that go viral all the time.
But like, that's just really not my that's not my style, um,
because I really want to have like it provide an
immersive experience. Um. When I costplay and Camoe, when I
saw that Aloy Cosplay, I said, oh my god, Like
I felt like her art and the way I'm trying to,
you know, craft my art. Um. I just really resonated

(58:26):
with like her the work that she does. Um. Yeah,
she's like somebody that I look up to. As far
as like materials, I use a lot of Yayahan's materials
if I do make my costplay. I'm so sad I
didn't get to meet her yesterday. Um, I was just
so busy. Um. But yeah, she's, um, somebody who's materials
I use. Um also because the place near me that
sells them allows me to use double coupons and I'm like, yes,

(58:49):
her stuff is just very good. Um. And then she
also has it on her website. So Um, as far
as materials, I typically go to her stuff first and
then you know, I'll move away back from there. Did
I read on Twitter? Did you say that you do
most of your own like photography and stuff for your
ideas yourself. Yeah, there's there's if I'm not tagging a photographer,

(59:11):
then it means that I shot it. That's amazing. Yeah, um,
because I love to get my photographers their credit where
credit is due. Like the one friend, his name is Pete,
Like he does a lot of my stuff because he's
local to me. He's also the person that travels with
me the most, so at Big Con, Like you know,
I have a lot of photos that he's you know,
going through right now to see which ones are the best. Um. So,

(59:33):
like you know, I always like credit him or um
Mark Noir and things like that. But like like there's
this one shoot that's coming up. I'm not sure when
I'm going to release it because it's very good. But
like you're gonna like you were going to look at
that and be like you had a photographer. No, I didn't.
It was me. That so cool, that's really awesome. No,

(59:53):
I was just asking, did you have a favorite cost player?
I do? I mean I would say comedy pretty big
for me because I actually met her and I worked
at Riot. Um we brought yeah, I did. She absolutely
not remember this at all because I was I was
so weird, so I didn't unfortunately, but that would have

(01:00:16):
been cool. Um, but we so I was actually in
cosplay at this event because as much as I'm not
a cosplayer, I've never actually made a cosplay myself. I
would love to, but I've never done it before. Um
whenever I worked at Riot, I got asked to take part.
They did like, um, I don't know how familiar are
you with the League of Legends like Laura or anything

(01:00:36):
like that? Are you at all? I know legal legends exist,
and I run very far away it gets to particular
that's fair. So basically there's a band I don't know
even how much of that it is actually canon Laura anymore,
but there's a band called Panta Kill within League of Legends,
and um, I got our producer understanding. I got asked

(01:00:56):
by the We had like four people who were actually
like music Shians and they wanted to do like this
performance at Games Common Germany, and they didn't have anyone
to be Pentakile Sauna, and I that my avatar on
the forums as like my official Riot A point was
pana Kill Sona. So they said maybe you could do

(01:01:17):
it and I was like, okay, but I don't play
like the instruments I used to play as a teenager
are not in pentakill and also I don't know how
to play them anymore, so I like, how am I
gonna And they were like, it's fine. You just have
to be in costume and you have like it's like
a um, I don't even know how to describe it.
The instrument she plays looks kind of like if she
had a keyboard, but it has strings on it, and

(01:01:38):
you just have to look like you're playing it and
we'll play the music and you just kind of have
to be there and on stage. So I said yes
because I thought it was really cool. Yeah. And they
had a costplay a designer, a couple of different costplay
designers design the costume and I got to wear on
stage that it was really cool. I really, It's like
one of the highlights of my career. Was just like
it was so cool, and what's even cooler. I hope

(01:01:59):
to share this because it's so cute. There were these
um two very young I don't know what age they were,
but they were young, maybe teenagers um, and they came
to the first show, the Panaicile show. They did it
every day at the very end before the show floor closed,
and these two kids came and they had like one
of the plush ease from the game, and they would

(01:02:20):
wave at the band and stuff and it was really sweet,
and then they kept coming back, and then at the
very end, it was the very first time I had
someone come up to me and say, Hey, there's two
people outside who really want to meet you. And I
was like, what why, because I like, I just I'm
just a plab who worked for Riot, Like, what's excited.
I'm a project manager. That's not very exciting. And I
walked outside thinking it was going to be like, I

(01:02:40):
don't know, you know, some kind of like stodgy business
request or something, and it was these two kids who
were like, oh, we really loved like your show and
stuff and we thought your costume was really and I
was like, oh my god, I'm gonna crying. That's ever happened.
And I was like I almost like I literally I
literally need cried. And the sweetest thing is the next

(01:03:02):
year I was there again, because I worked Games Gone
pretty much every year whenever I worked at riot Um
and the two kids came back and they asked if
they could see Pani kil Sona again and I was like,
I'm literally wearing like a polo shirt and jeans. I'm
not a costumer, and I stepped out and they were like,
do you remember us? And I was like, oh my god,
yeah I do. Oh we just think that's ever happened.

(01:03:25):
But that was the event that we had can Wee
costplay there and she was giving like tutorials on how
to craft certain things. So she had like a part
of the booth where she was showing people how to
craft like armor and stuff. Hers are so helpful and
she makes it look very simple. She's like she's like, listen,
all you need is some tape and a marker from

(01:03:47):
Mdalla's door, and we're gonna make this work. And then
she's like some glue, which makes costly very accessible. Like
I I really want to get more into armor cosplays
because I've never done an armor cosplay yet. I'm so excited.
Um but um yeah, because like I love like the
like I just I want to be a warrior, so

(01:04:09):
um yeah, like three D printing and like stuff like movies,
like books and stuff like that are so just accessible
and I love that. Yeah, now I'm jealous. I'm sorry.
We should have her off for the podcast. Oh my god,
that's actually a really great idea. Cry, I would cry,
we should do that. Let's add her to the list.

(01:04:33):
I so, I I have to like, you do so
many amazing costplayers and I really love seeing them on
my twitter feed and Instagram is just great. But do
you have like a dream costplay that if like money
was no object and you didn't have any like material
barriers or anything, you can make a costplay out of
literally anything. What would be your character you'd want to
cost play? Well, I'm kind of working on that right now,

(01:04:57):
but it's the money is deaf only like an issue,
so I won't reference that just in case it won't
come out. And I also like to I love shock
value too because I even like my patrons they don't
know who I'm cosplaying until the day before or day of,
because I just like, look, I just love surprising people
because my my like, I don't know, you know, like

(01:05:18):
love languages, like how you like engage like with people,
how you like to receive things, but like how I
like to like give love is like the gifts and
like I feel like when I share Cosley and I
surprise people like I'm giving a gift, and I think
that's like I don't know, I just That's how I
view it. But I would say, like if without referencing
that particular thing, if huh, if money wasn't a cost,

(01:05:40):
because I would do like the full costplay, and I
would do the set as well. I would say Glinda
from the Wizard of oz Oh. Cool, Yeah, that set
would be really fun for that yeah. Um, but then
I'd also on the flip end. But when I do Dorothy,
so it would be like a combination thing, so I
can edit it to be thegether because I've done that

(01:06:00):
before with Kikio and co Go Meg, since like one
is the reincarnation of the other, and then I blended
the two together and it actually came out very well.
So I would want to do something like that. Um,
if somebody just wants to write me that check, yeah,
I got It's so it's so wild how expensive it
can be, Like it's ridiculous. I would love to do cosplay,

(01:06:22):
but like you should. I as about to say, like,
what would you do like as a cosplay, Like if
you were to jump back into it. I feel you
on the idea of like wanting to do armor. I
think I would really I don't know if I have
a specific character, but like, I'd love to do like
a full sort of like kind of cool looking armor
and do really really fun things with that because I
think I think it looks fun to craft, you know,

(01:06:42):
it looks really cool. I'm like the materials. It's it's
so funny. Because the costplay that I was talking about
where they crafted the costume, I found a picture of
it I will show you later. So embarrassing because it's
from like ten years ago or whatever. But um, the
costume they made had like chains hanging from the corset,
but they were actually full metal chains, so they were
really heavy. Obviously there are lighter materials that we could

(01:07:04):
have used to make that. Like seeing the way people
make their armor from like really moldible material that's quite lightweight,
so that you're not coming to carry around like something
super super heavy and hot when you're in like a
warm convention hole for example or whatever. So cool to me,
I'd really like to do stuff like that. Yeah, I'm
excited to see. I'm going to like kid myself and

(01:07:26):
enter the Costplight competition while I'm doing what I'll be
doing if it can be done on time. Um, because
I have to commission this because I like I said,
I'm not an armor. I don't really know how to
do it. Like I I feel like there's probably a
lot that you would have to learn that's like a
new skill, if you know what I mean, right, and
like I'm doing I'm doing that slowly and surely, but

(01:07:48):
like I want to do this costplay in like three months,
so yeah, okay, it takes a long time. I think
a lot of people don't realize how much of a
time investment cosplay is. Yeah, like a lot of things
like streaming, cos Twitter life. Literally genuinely feel like people
just assume that when someone does something that they just
kind of like click their fingers and that's it. You
produced the content, you produced the costplay or whatever, and

(01:08:10):
they don't realize that all the stuff you don't see
is the huge amount of time and work and experience
that goes into it. Yeah alright, cool. I mean, do
you have any other questions or anything else you'd like
to talk about before we wrap up? Yeah? Um, when
are we going to meet in person? I swear I

(01:08:30):
would really love to, And I you know what, I
I was just talking to my partner about how someday
i'd really like to go to Twitch con Us because
I think that we could do that. We should do
that and like film the episode live from town. I
would freaking love that. That would be so fun because
they have like they have media rooms and stuff like
that where you can do that or like, um, uh

(01:08:54):
what do you call that? Vendors, like they'll have like
interviewing rooms or um, you know, because you know sound
is the with us obviously important um for podcasting. Um.
But yeah, like there there is so there we have.
We would have the equipment there. We just need to
be there. It's just getting me far away from everybody else.
I would really need me too. I'm on the East coast,

(01:09:15):
so I have to endure a six hour Oh god, yeah,
I suppose, like to be fair me flying to like
San Diego, I think is it's maybe a twelve hour flight.
I suppose I thought for some reason in my brain
I had it being shorter than that. But I think
it's just been so long since I've been in the States,
but I've completely forgotten how long it takes together. Yeah,
time again is an illusion. What do we learn from

(01:09:35):
this podcast today? Time is an illusion? Yeah, that's our
that's our takeaway message for say, time is illusion it
doesn't exist. Um, but yes, I would love to meet
in real life, and I would love to record an
episode in person. I think that'd be so cool. Yeah,
we should definitely make that happen for sure. Okay, well
that's been a really fun episode this today. Yeah, this

(01:09:57):
is one. We gotta do this more often. Yes, for sure,
whether it's for the podcast or not. Right, absolutely, Well,
thank you everybody very much for your support so far.
Don't forget to follow us on social media at the
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before we sign off, I realized I haven't asked Confetti.

(01:10:20):
Where can people find you on the internet? Um, I
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Um and TikTok is like my biggest platform, so we
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(01:10:41):
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(01:11:01):
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