September 30, 2025 • 36 mins
In this special throwback episode, Michelle and Dr. Anita Phillips are planting the seeds! Dr. Anita Phillips discusses her comparison between gardens and the human body. She also shares her personal attachment to championing mental health conversations in religious spaces and the benefits of EMDR.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to Checking In with Michelle Williams, a production of
iHeartRadio and The Black Effect. Coming up on this week's
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episode of Checking In. Is someone so near and very
dear to me, Doctor Anita Phillips. She is a trauma therapist.
She's one of the folks who called me in December
of twenty eighteen when for the second time of that
year where it felt like my world literally was coming
to an end, like really, really really coming to an end,
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And it was doctor Anita Phillips who called me. And
I believe that that was one of the phone calls
in that time that saved my life. And I'm thankful
for her. And you get to hear how she is
so awesome and how is out here saving lives through
her ministry. Not only is she a licensed trauma therapist,
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she is a powerhouse minister, y'all, And I love how
she merges faith and mental health. She is the one
where she says prayer is a weapon, therapy is strategy,
and I personally have known that to be true. So
you guys, pull up a seat and get ready for
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my friend, doctor Anita Phillips. Hey, everybody, you know I
count all episodes of checking it as special because everybody's special,
you know. But listen, this is truly, truly, truly an
extra special podcast for me today because I feel like
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she could be anywhere else in the world, but she
is showing up to be with us today. She is
trusted with Oprah Winfrey, the Oprah Winfrey New work, A
Woman Evolved. She is a trauma therapist, a minister, a
life coach. She has her own podcast called in the Light.
(02:10):
But guess what. She's on her way to be in
a New York Times bestselling author. Please welcome, She's on
her way. She is on her way. We can feel it.
Please welcome to Checking In doctor Anita Phillips.
Speaker 2 (02:25):
Hey, Michelle, thank you so much for having me again.
It's great to see you.
Speaker 1 (02:29):
It is awesome to see you too. I am truly
excited for you. You've made a few changes. You and
your friendly y'all have moved from the East coast. Y'all
are in the south, y'all. She might be by coastal,
I don't know, but last I heard she is living
it up now in Dallas, Texas. May I add you
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and your husband were pastors, and now you've moved to
Dallas where you are serving in another capacity. Is all
of these changes going.
Speaker 2 (03:02):
Let me tell you, it's been a lot of change.
And not only did. We were senior pastors for eighteen
years in Baltimore and then moved to Dallas, and so
we're in a completely different space now. My husband is
leading Bishop Jake's enterprise organization and I'm doing my work independently.
So suddenly ministry is very different. Our lives, our children
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are out on their own. In the last two years
they went out. So it's been a lot of change.
And I have enjoyed all the changes, but sometimes it's
a little overwhelming because even when change is good, it
still can be challenging, and I think we need to
be more honest about that it can still have as
challenges even when it's good. Even more we're grateful it
can still.
Speaker 1 (03:44):
Yes, My older sister has three children. Her last baby
is now on his way to college, so all of
her babies are college students. And she just posted on
Facebook she's feeling empty already and lonely. And some people
are like, girl, this it's time for you to have
some you time, and she was like, I don't need
to hear that right now. I need to help me
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process what I'm feeling. She's basically saying, this empty ness
syndrome is real.
Speaker 2 (04:11):
It's very real. It's having a biological effect on her
because our nervous system kind of balances itself out with
the people that we spend time with, our bodies that
really are connected to and aware of who we're spending
time with. And so when your body is comfortable in
a space with all these other humans and then suddenly
there aren't any, it can feel very jarring. And so
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it's real. It's not just in our phone quote in
our heads. It's in your body, it's in your heart,
and then it also is in your mind.
Speaker 1 (04:40):
Well, I don't think I've ever said this to my mom,
and that is Mama. I was ready to go now.
Speaker 2 (04:47):
I was ready to when I went, I.
Speaker 1 (04:51):
Was ready to go. But I'm not gonna lie. College
started about a week or two before Labor Day weekend,
so you know that, and you're not in school. Why
was home the first place I went back to.
Speaker 2 (05:05):
That's a good thing. If that was a safe place
for you, you know, then it's like or a safe person.
I miss. Our bodies craved familiarity. So when we have
a place that's safe, and our body knows that it
asks for it back. That's why when we move as
it takes a month or two to start to feel
that comfort, be able to drive home without thinking about
the directions. All of that stuff adds to how we
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feel safe. We don't even realize it, and so it
can take time to feel safe physically and subconsciously in
a new space.
Speaker 1 (05:35):
Come on, doctor Anita, listen. She's talking about a safe
place and how we can cultivate a safe place is
going to be the question that I asked next. But
at the same time, a lot of those questions can
and will be answered in your amazing new book called
The Garden Within, where the War with your Emotions end
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and your most powerful Life, that drops on September eighteenth.
I am excited because, y'all, yes, I'm a brag. I
got the manuscript right here. I'm not gonna lie. It's
right here. It's right here in my iPad. I have
pre read it and guess what I ordered. I pre
ordered my copy. You can pre order the copies now.
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Anita Phillips has had an amazing place in my journey
beginning in twenty eighteen. You guys have heard me say
time and time again that prayer is a weapon, therapy
is a strategy, and I always say I got it
from doctor Anita Phillips. I am not one that takes
people's quotes and not give credit to the person that
coined it. And I literally did buy the T shirt
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as well the book The Garden Within. We want to
talk about cultivating safe places, but changes that happen neurologically.
You talk about the nervous system, you talk about the mind,
you talk about the you talk about so many things,
but you also bring the Word of God in it
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at the same time. But can you just share how
trauma can sometimes create flowers.
Speaker 2 (07:15):
Well, we are designed as gardens. That's how the Creator
made us. And so that's why the Bible begins with
this meticulous description of how the garden was created, because
what we haven't realized is that there is insight into
our biological, emotional, psychological, and spiritual makeup based on the garden.
So it was like a blueprint was being laid out
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in the first six days of creation, and then God
made us. We are embodied gardens and the soil is
our heart, our emotional life, and that sits in our bodies,
and so we have to think about ourselves that way.
And trauma is an earthquake. It shakes the soil, and
that can change everything.
Speaker 1 (07:55):
In the beginning of the book, you share with us
things about your family and what even inspired you to
go into the mental health space. You so lovingly and
with grace and gentleness. You speak to us about your sister,
but you share something that happened at the age of six,
that there was a devastating moment that planted the seeds
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for this very book. Can you share briefly what that
moment was?
Speaker 2 (08:24):
Yeah, so that will We will buy the book.
Speaker 1 (08:26):
We will buy the book.
Speaker 2 (08:27):
Yes you will. That was the night that I was
first awakened by my sister's screams. We were close sister,
she was six years older than me. We shared her bedroom,
and my sister woke up the middle of the night
just screaming, streaming, and that awakened me. And that was
the first time that her symptoms which would eventually tell
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us the mental illness that she had, came to light,
and she was seeing demons standing in our bedroom door.
And of course I grew up church. You got in
christ in Penteople, So you know, a demon is an door.
My parents came running from to the same oil. We're
gonna get the oil. We're going to rebuke this. And
I have no problem with that, because the devil was
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real and demonic activity is an issue, but it is
not always the only issue, or the central issue, or
the initiating issue. So I don't say that to say
it's not real. The spear of room is not real
because I embraced my faith, it's as much as I
embraced my profession. But what happened was, over time, my
sister continued to have those what we found out were hallucinations,
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and the prayer and the rebuking of the enemy was
not doing it. So we knew it had to be
something distinct because if it was the enemy, if it
was the devil, he'd a big cast out of our house.
I can tell you that it wouldn't it wouldn't have stood.
And so as time passed, it just spiraled. My sister's
symptoms that were and now this is the early eighties,
so we didn't understand mental illness in the early eighties.
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There was no conversation. My parents weren't being like religious
and rejecting it. It wasn't on the table in the
early eighties, we just didn't know, and se mentally became
addicted to drugs and then that while decades of her
life in itself, and so unfortunately she passed away young,
late forties. And even though she we thank god, in
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the last seven years of her life she got clean,
she had married. She really lived a beautiful life. We
were built a lot of our relationship. But I still
see untreated mental illness as the cause of my sister's death.
She didn't die by suicide, but untreated mental illness stole
so much of her physical health and body that her
body lastly just broke down because of the drug youth,
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which was a response to the mental illness. So often
we're just looking at the addiction, but the addiction is
just an infection in a wound. The wound was the
untreated mental illness. And so even once the addiction was cleared,
it had been someone standing to her body and the
mental illness still needed to be treated. And so I
don't say I used to say mental illness killed my sister,
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but I'm now careful to say untreated mental illness killed
my sister because when we get treatment, we can live.
Speaker 1 (11:01):
Hand raised as someone who understands the importance of treating
mental illness. Now, I'm like you as far as in
the eighties, Well, for me, even being in school in
the nineties, I didn't know that there was even a
word called depression.
Speaker 2 (11:22):
Right.
Speaker 1 (11:23):
We heard of things like AIDS cancer. I don't even
say loupis only because my aunt had.
Speaker 2 (11:31):
It, right, it had to happen to somebody, you knew.
We weren't having all these different health conversations. Like I said,
the HIV conversation was huge, You're right, but we didn't
know about mental of them.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
It was huge. Or because even being in middle school,
when I can trace back symptoms of depression and anxiety,
we even heard about STDs. But when mental illness was
talked about, it was called well, you know she's crazy, right,
you know he's crazy where you know your granddaddy.
Speaker 2 (11:59):
Was and Jay emotional? They just need to get theirself together.
It's not being so emotional, you know. That was the blame,
is that emotions were the problem. That's one of the
reasons why I'm talking about emotions so much, because a
lot of the sigma that's attached to mental illness really
starts with a stigma attached to emotion. We believe emotions
are bad, We believe emotion makes us weak. We believe
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emotions or something we can we should be controlling in
our everyday lives. And so then if someone has depression
or anxiety disorder, that's emotion on steroids. So now it's
even more of a stigma. So I really think changing
the way we see emotions will eventually change the way
we see mental illness. HM.
Speaker 1 (12:39):
Well, speaking of that, you definitely link cutting edge scientific
inquiry and scriptures ancient use of gardens to reveal what
it means to truly truly flourish. Can you share a
bit about how you came across these ideas and how
you link them.
Speaker 2 (12:57):
Yeah, you know, it was a leap of faith in
a way. I in my very first neuroscience class, way
back when I was a PhD student, I saw a
picture of a neurons for the first time, and it
looked just like a seedling, like a plant, And I
was so struck by it that I thought, am I
just gonna let this go by as a coincidence, or
do I really believe in the God of my Sunday
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school stories, because if I do, then God must have
done this on purpose. What is he trying to teach
us about our minds by having neurons look like it?
And I decided, what if I really just take a
leap of faith here and believe that their spiritual significance
to this parallel. And so I went down the rabbit
hole and found out it was significant. And even now
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I always say science is catching up with scripture, because
in recent years we are learning more and more about
how much we are like plants, down to the fact
that plants actually communicate with each other through their roots
by sending chemicals across the soil. Our neurons communicate with
each other through their branches by sending chemicals between the spaces.
And plants use some of the same chemicals dopamine, serotonin,
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they are actually using in some of their communication patterns.
And so you can chalk that up to what you want.
But I chalk it up to a creator who left
me very clear information, even though he knew we wouldn't
see it until the twentieth cent Yes, here it is.
And so if my neurons, what comprises my mind is
based on a plant, then where's the soil. The soil
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is the heart. You can't understand a plant without understanding
where it's plant hid. It's called a plant like it's
defined by where's planet. And so we love to talk
about the mind. But if plants are meant to teach
us about our mind, then we have to look at
where the plant is planted. If we're going to be
like trees planted by rivers of living water. If we
are planted, we have to know. And the Bible tells
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us that the soil is the heart. And so that's
why I started researching coming to understand emotion, because if
our hearts are that valuable to God that he would
plant us in that emotion space, then we have this.
We might have it wrong how we see emotions. We're
not seeing emotion the way that God does.
Speaker 1 (15:08):
So we're not seeing emotions the way that God sees emotions.
We're taught that have any emotions is a bad thing.
Speaker 2 (15:16):
Yep, We're taught there's something we have to control, manage, repress, separate,
and that's just emotional pain. Because everybody's fine with feeling good.
But the emotional pain, we have come to believe one
that it is a product of the mind. That is
a product of thinking. But how can a plant create soil?
How it doesn't work that way. It doesn't work that way.
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And so when Jesus told us the parable the sower
in Matthew chapter thirteen, he tells us the heart of
the soil, the fruit is our behavior, the seed is
the words that we believe. And we know from that
neuron that the plant is the mind. And so anytime
we're worried about where we're what our thinking is doing,
I always want to ask, how are you feeling? Because
it is the emotional pain in our hearts that drives
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that are painful. And then we try and wrestle with
the thought instead of being honest about the feeling. And
so if we work on healing our hearts, we can
often quiet our minds.
Speaker 1 (16:10):
Come on, you posted something. I'm being present, but as
you're speaking, it's making me go to your Instagram page
as we speak to look up something you posted the
other day. It was so beautiful. I actually went and
looked up the artists because I was like, I want
that piece of art. When you said your hearts was
never meant to be a battlefield, your heart is a garden,
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and the artist Sarah Alama's I believe.
Speaker 2 (16:35):
I don't know. See I think it's.
Speaker 1 (16:38):
Oh Sorah, Okay, so the heart and then she has
these beautiful flowers and the ventricles of the heart. But
when you're talking about the heart and distance, you're not
actually talking about the thing that's beating in us.
Speaker 2 (16:53):
I'm talking about both because our biological heart is actually
a part of our emotional experience. Is amazing, So yeah,
I am talking about our emotions and that also talking
about our heart.
Speaker 1 (17:05):
Yeah, no, I know that, But when people I just
wanted information to be clear, because listen, I'm just gonna
be honest when you talk about the mind and the
brain as two different things. So I didn't want no
one to get it twisted. Are you meaning the heart that? Yes,
the heart? How can I articulate this the heart that's
beating in you? Okay, yes, we get that. Because when
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you are anxious your heart, you can have physical symptoms
and your heart flutters. When you're in love, your heart
might skip a beat. When you're sad, maybe it slows
down a little bit or you just feel that heavy.
Speaker 2 (17:44):
So it can actually slow down a little bit and
you do feel that happiness and it can even change
shape in a way that can kill you. There's an
actual medical condition called broken heart syndrome tackles throople syndrome
where the breath hormones rush to the heart under that
kind of pressure in grief and change the shape of
the heart and it has, you know, to cause heart
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attacks and kill people. But what you're saying is true
when because I often make sure people understand, the mind
and the brain are not exactly the same thing. They overlap,
but they're not the same. And it's the same thing
with our hearts. Our hearts and our emotional lives are
not exactly the same thing, but they are connected because
our emotions begin in our body, in our autonomic nervous
system outside of our wareness, and then that system sends
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that information to our heart like a router almost, and
it sends the information to the brain. And so the
heart is very much involved in communicating emotional information from
your body, yes, brain, and so they are overlapped.
Speaker 1 (18:40):
Even in the book you even tell us it's reminding
me of we'd be trying to disconnect, yes, from the
emotions and from because we don't we don't want to
feel that pain in the heart. We don't want to
feel that.
Speaker 2 (18:54):
We don't want to feel that stomach turning, We don't
want to feel that breath, you know, changing all the
things that happens when we are emotional pain. So we
disconnect from that, and by doing that, we disconnect from
our bodies.
Speaker 1 (19:05):
That's so danger it is so dangerous. But you are
on a mission to help reverse the effects of that,
especially trauma, and so I'm thankful. I'm really excited for
everybody to get And I got to say it right,
I missed a word. It is called the garden within,
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where the war with your emotions ends and your most
powerful life begins.
Speaker 2 (19:30):
Indeed, that's where it starts.
Speaker 1 (19:32):
Yes, yes, I miss that word begins. And I'm really excited.
Now I'm gonna tease my listeners as your book helps
us to resolve the battle between heart and mind once
and for all, and you help to identify personal pain
and trauma. I wish people would admit that, hey, it
is trauma. And I always say respectfully, trauma isn't always
blood and guts on the ground. Trauma could be how
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it made you feel when you saw your parents go
to physical blows. How did that? It's for sure you
weren't able to get over that feeling. What's a tool
you can share with us to start us in the
right direction when you talk about cultivate a unique inner garden.
Speaker 2 (20:11):
Yeah, so where trauma is concerned, it's important for people
to realize that trauma is an event that overwhelms your body,
your nervous system's capacity to cope. It changes how your
autonomic nervous system is working. It can put you in
a state of hyper vigilance, a fight or flight, unresolved
stress responses. It's not in your mind. It's not even
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just a feeling that we make it sound like our
mind's creating feelings. It's a biological shit. And so that's
why triggers are not something we do on purpose. These
things are all happening outside of our conscious awareness and
our conscious control. And so when it comes to cultivating
your inner garden, that soil of your heart has been
shaken like an earthquake. And so we want to begin
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to repair what has happened in our bodies. And we
do that and foremost by finding safe faces for ourselves.
And we started out talking about that. And the safest
place I want there to be in your life is
inside your body where inside of you you can cultivate peace.
And that starts with making my body safe, breathing exercises,
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not spending time with toxic people who cause my nervous
systems alarms to go off. Please please pleep. There are
so many things because we don't trust our bodies. We've
been taught not to trust them. I want you to
start trusting your body. When your body says, hey, this
isn't a safe place for me, you're like, well, maybe
that's just my trauma. Well maybe it is, but that
don't mean you're wrong.
Speaker 1 (21:38):
Wait a matter, No you're wrong does not mean you're wrong.
And that even means sometimes y'all have to get her
because she she ain't telling you don't go to the
family reunion. She ain't telling you not to have relationship
with family members. But trust how you are made to feel.
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Especially if you try to have a conversation with someone,
you try to create a safe space and their response
isn't so safe, Well, then you you then have to
say you know what I'm gonna I have to almost
love you from afar.
Speaker 2 (22:11):
Sometimes that's true?
Speaker 1 (22:13):
Is it just what black folks will? We'll be like
on best family that is your brother. You gotta make
it right on. That's your mother. She brought you in
this world and she can take you out.
Speaker 2 (22:24):
I think that black folks definitely have a strong instansis
on the family unit, right, and many other people of color,
and that's beautiful about us. But sometimes we go a
little too far and demand that people suffer traumatic experiences
as a result of genetic connection. And I am not
required to be traumatized because we have a genetic connection
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and so boundaries are required. But at the same time,
I want to encourage people to do their trauma therapy work,
especially when it comes to thematic practices, embr thematic experiencing,
because those things help to remove the visual effects of
trauma from your nervous system. And I've done a lot
of my own trauma work. You'll say, I'm not just
a I'm not just a president. I'm a member. Remember
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the hairclub guy who's just right as a president. I'm
a member. I've done trauma work, and over the years,
as I engage that work, when I would go home
to visit family, I would have less physical responses to
the space. There was a time where there was so
much trauma from that space for me when I would
lead home from visiting. Nothing bad might have happened, but
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my body still would feel tense. But there may come
a time when you don't have the same reaction in
their presence because of the trauma work that you're able
to do. And so then you also the boundaries as needed.
You can move them closer or further as needed on
your journey.
Speaker 1 (23:47):
So when you are doing the work, it is left
up to you, but you are saying that it is
possible that you once you do the work, you can
go into those spaces again and not feel I guess effect.
Speaker 2 (24:02):
Yeah, sometimes absolutely, this is not a life senting.
Speaker 1 (24:06):
It's so good.
Speaker 2 (24:07):
Tauma's not a life denting.
Speaker 1 (24:13):
Doctor Nita Phillips is actually she told me about EMDR
towards the end of twenty eighteen, and I was okay
with therapy, but there were certain techniques that I didn't
know about, or certain techniques that I was like, wait
a minute, is this going to take me into a
different spiritual realm? Is this gonna be?
Speaker 2 (24:30):
You know?
Speaker 1 (24:31):
And there are times I've done EMDR and I felt
like I could fly. There was a freedom that came
because there were certain lies that I believed, and I
will never forget having awakening in a therapy session once saying,
oh my gosh, that was a lie.
Speaker 2 (24:48):
I was, y'all.
Speaker 1 (24:49):
Probably I got up and I said, that was a lie. Y'all.
I felt like I could fly. I felt like I
could jump on go in the building and have some wings.
And I was like, Okay, don't do that.
Speaker 2 (25:00):
You don't, don't.
Speaker 1 (25:02):
You don't want to do that, because it's gonna be
a different type of ending. Don't do that. And then
there are moments of E M d R eye movement, resensitive.
Speaker 2 (25:12):
Movement, desensitization, and reproble.
Speaker 1 (25:15):
Yes, yes, Dr, I'm glad we got the doctor in
the building because I said, receense it's decent. And there
was a time I felt maybe low, some regret or something.
And then this one session I had a couple months ago,
Doctor Phillips, I let out a cry and well, I
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feel like it came from the pit of my belly
butt where the umbilical court used to be like. And
I think therapists sometimes even feel like I cannot hug
my client. But my therapist came and consoled the little girl.
Speaker 2 (25:55):
Yes, good for her, good, good for her, because the
little girl is who traumatized and being able to get
back there and let her let that cry out.
Speaker 1 (26:05):
Yes, any chance I get you, guys, I think doctor
Anita Phillips to her face on the phone or through text,
because since then that's a technique that I've used. Em dr.
It must be with us licensed practitioner who thee the
space is safe because you might cry, you might laugh,
you might get up and dance. I don't know what
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your response is gonna be, but it must be with
someone safe and someone licensed to do what you do.
You found a beautiful bridge to connecting church with therapy,
and you have shared your emotional pain is not mutually
exclusive with your spiritual power. Jesus taught us that holding
the pain doesn't make our faith stronger. It weakens us physically,
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mentally and spiritually. Keep it real. That's what Jesus did.
So the question is how much as a culture do
you feel that we as a culture have to unlearn
holding in trauma?
Speaker 2 (27:06):
One hundred percent. We have brought culture to church. The
culture around us says emotion is bad. The mind is
where your power is. Change the way you think you'll
change everything. But honey, it's heal the heart, and you'll
change everything. Jesus never held in a painful emotion. We
see him crying, we see him mad, we see him
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afraid in the garden of Getsemone, begging God for a break.
I mean Jesus never repented, which means no emotion is wrong,
because Jesus never said sorry. And so I think we
really need to pay close attention to that example and
then look back and see that every time Jesus expressed
a painful emotion through his words, through tears, through his
body expressions, spiritual power showed up quickly. After that, he
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cried at Lazarussum and he raised them from the dead.
He flipped tables at the temple with anger, and then
he healed people from diseases, ring in Goosemite begging God
to let him off the hook, and then walks out
of Goodsemite and says, I am he and soldiers are
knocked off their feet by the power of his voice.
So every time Jesus allowed his emotional pain to flow
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out of him, spiritual power followed. And so there's a
connection between my emotions and my spirit. And if we
would stop trying not to break down, we might have
more breaking through.
Speaker 1 (28:24):
Come on, Okay, wait right now. In this interview, you
have vascillated between therapists and and a powerhouse preacher. Y'all.
She preaches across this world, and some recent sermons have
been at the Potter's house. I want to know how
has that been or as far as seeing churches people
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of faith embrace mental health being talked about in the poolpit.
Speaker 2 (28:56):
I'm not gonna start crying, but I could. It is
everything because my sister might be alive if we had this.
And I asked God to give me the chance to
be a voice in this movement. And why he said yes,
I don't know, but I'm so grateful that this is
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the message. These are the sermons, This is the book
that my family needed. Yeah, and every other family can
now have. It's not just about illness. It's about how
to be well. It's about how to live your spiritual
life in full power with your heart and your mind
and your body. It's everything we were created to be.
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This is the definition of an abundant life, God suitful garden. Yes,
so grateful to have been a part of this shift
in the body of Christ. It means everything to me.
Speaker 1 (29:52):
Well, we certainly thank you so much for your Yes.
People don't understand the cost, still saying yes, you know
there's a cost, Yes, there is a cost to living
in purpose. I was, you know, thinking this morning. I
don't know if I was having an out of body experience,
(30:15):
a grad I don't know what it was, but I
was like, I am a living being, walking and sharing,
and I think I was getting fearful of assignment. But
so much breakthrough is attached to when we are walking
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in purpose and doing what God wants us to do
and speaking of purpose and walking and talking and teaching.
You will be at the Woman Evolve conference this year.
Speaker 2 (30:50):
Yeah, I'm so excited. We're just September fourteenth or sixteenth.
It's going to be incredible.
Speaker 1 (30:57):
We are excited. And the com diference is kind of
on the eve or the week of your book release,
and we are so excited. I'm going to be their honey,
oh yay, bells, bring in. My older sister is gonna
come with me. And I'm so excited. I'm just so excited, y'all,
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Please please please the garden within. Yes, there are people
who have inflicted pain on us, and I've heard the
same over and over and over again, we're not responsible
for that, but we are responsible for the healing part.
Speaker 2 (31:33):
Yeah. Yeah, we're not responsible for what happened to us,
but we're responsible for healing.
Speaker 1 (31:39):
Are responsible.
Speaker 2 (31:40):
No one's going to do it but you. No one
can do it for you but you.
Speaker 1 (31:44):
You say your most powerful life begins, y'all. Your most
powerful life can begin when we do the hard work.
Somebody said, choose your heart.
Speaker 2 (31:54):
Yeah, for sure, choose your heart and chose.
Speaker 1 (32:00):
Now, do you want to live in healing or continually
in the fruit of dysfunction? That's hard, That's gotta be hard.
Speaker 2 (32:08):
I refuse, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (32:11):
I refuse. Well, sister, I'm excited. I'm excited y'all. The
book The Garden Within, where the war with your emotions
ends in your most powerful life begins. You, guys, I
promise you you want to get the book. There are
just certain details I'm not sharing because I want y'all
to read it. And y'all have been good about your
(32:31):
pre orders. You guys send us DMS or all kind
of messages holding up your book saying you got the
book because of checking in. You've got the book. So
let it be that because of checking in, we are
going to add to those numbers. She didn't ask me
to say this, but this message has to be This
message has to get out there, authentic, fruitful and powerful
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doctor Phillips.
Speaker 2 (32:55):
Thank you, Thank you for having me.
Speaker 1 (33:07):
Wasn't this powerful, Doctor Nita Phillips is a force I
hope you felt empowered. And we're so forceful with the
healing topic because this is what she said off air.
Sometimes you don't know how sick you've been until you
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get well. Sometimes you don't know how sick you've been
until you get healed. And so I just encourage people
do the work of healing. Cultivating environment in your home
and on your job of safety, cultivating environment of healing.
Maybe plants, good soothing music, even what we put in
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our bodies, drinking more water, you know, watching the conversations
that we have with people. Do people bring you life
or do they bring you mess? Do people bring you
life or do they bring just anxiety and foolishness and shenanigans. Yes,
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we love a good key key. Now I'm not saying
not to key key with your friends, but if the
majority of the conversations are not life giving, I don't know.
I think check your surroundings, check your surroundings. I want
every listener of Checking In to have amazing testimonies about
their healing journeys. You know what I mean. And if
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you have never dealt with trauma, abuse, betrayal, neglect, abandonment,
broken relationships, you probably won't understand. And that's okay. I
love that testimony for you too. You know, there are
some people who can say honestly have had b beautiful
childhood's parents who were able to love on you because
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of the love that maybe they received from their parents
or the love that they get from God that continuously
fills them up. And that's what I want for all
of us. Maybe you didn't get the love from both
of your parents growing up, but press into the one
and only God who can fill you up with his love.
Because once you get filled up with love, then that
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is what you will give to other people. Is love,
all right, That's what God is. God is love. I'm
so thankful for y'all. I'm so thankful for this journey
with all of you. Guys. Again, make sure you get
doctor Anita Phillips's new book. I'm really excited about it.
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I got the pleasure of writing an endorsement for her
book and Sarah Jakes Roberts has done the forward to
her books, So I'm excited to be in good company.
All right, Okay, everybody, I love you, Bye bye. Checking
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Welcome to Checking In with Michelle Williams, a production of
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episode of Checking In. Is someone so near and very
dear to me, Doctor Anita Phillips. She is a trauma therapist.
She's one of the folks who called me in December
of twenty eighteen when for the second time of that
year where it felt like my world literally was coming
to an end, like really, really really coming to an end,
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And it was doctor Anita Phillips who called me. And
I believe that that was one of the phone calls
in that time that saved my life. And I'm thankful
for her. And you get to hear how she is
so awesome and how is out here saving lives through
her ministry. Not only is she a licensed trauma therapist,
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she is a powerhouse minister, y'all, And I love how
she merges faith and mental health. She is the one
where she says prayer is a weapon, therapy is strategy,
and I personally have known that to be true. So
you guys, pull up a seat and get ready for
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my friend, doctor Anita Phillips. Hey, everybody, you know I
count all episodes of checking it as special because everybody's special,
you know. But listen, this is truly, truly, truly an
extra special podcast for me today because I feel like
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she could be anywhere else in the world, but she
is showing up to be with us today. She is
trusted with Oprah Winfrey, the Oprah Winfrey New work, A
Woman Evolved. She is a trauma therapist, a minister, a
life coach. She has her own podcast called in the Light.
(02:10):
But guess what. She's on her way to be in
a New York Times bestselling author. Please welcome, She's on
her way. She is on her way. We can feel it.
Please welcome to Checking In doctor Anita Phillips.
Speaker 2 (02:25):
Hey, Michelle, thank you so much for having me again.
It's great to see you.
Speaker 1 (02:29):
It is awesome to see you too. I am truly
excited for you. You've made a few changes. You and
your friendly y'all have moved from the East coast. Y'all
are in the south, y'all. She might be by coastal,
I don't know, but last I heard she is living
it up now in Dallas, Texas. May I add you
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and your husband were pastors, and now you've moved to
Dallas where you are serving in another capacity. Is all
of these changes going.
Speaker 2 (03:02):
Let me tell you, it's been a lot of change.
And not only did. We were senior pastors for eighteen
years in Baltimore and then moved to Dallas, and so
we're in a completely different space now. My husband is
leading Bishop Jake's enterprise organization and I'm doing my work independently.
So suddenly ministry is very different. Our lives, our children
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are out on their own. In the last two years
they went out. So it's been a lot of change.
And I have enjoyed all the changes, but sometimes it's
a little overwhelming because even when change is good, it
still can be challenging, and I think we need to
be more honest about that it can still have as
challenges even when it's good. Even more we're grateful it
can still.
Speaker 1 (03:44):
Yes, My older sister has three children. Her last baby
is now on his way to college, so all of
her babies are college students. And she just posted on
Facebook she's feeling empty already and lonely. And some people
are like, girl, this it's time for you to have
some you time, and she was like, I don't need
to hear that right now. I need to help me
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process what I'm feeling. She's basically saying, this empty ness
syndrome is real.
Speaker 2 (04:11):
It's very real. It's having a biological effect on her
because our nervous system kind of balances itself out with
the people that we spend time with, our bodies that
really are connected to and aware of who we're spending
time with. And so when your body is comfortable in
a space with all these other humans and then suddenly
there aren't any, it can feel very jarring. And so
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it's real. It's not just in our phone quote in
our heads. It's in your body, it's in your heart,
and then it also is in your mind.
Speaker 1 (04:40):
Well, I don't think I've ever said this to my mom,
and that is Mama. I was ready to go now.
Speaker 2 (04:47):
I was ready to when I went, I.
Speaker 1 (04:51):
Was ready to go. But I'm not gonna lie. College
started about a week or two before Labor Day weekend,
so you know that, and you're not in school. Why
was home the first place I went back to.
Speaker 2 (05:05):
That's a good thing. If that was a safe place
for you, you know, then it's like or a safe person.
I miss. Our bodies craved familiarity. So when we have
a place that's safe, and our body knows that it
asks for it back. That's why when we move as
it takes a month or two to start to feel
that comfort, be able to drive home without thinking about
the directions. All of that stuff adds to how we
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feel safe. We don't even realize it, and so it
can take time to feel safe physically and subconsciously in
a new space.
Speaker 1 (05:35):
Come on, doctor Anita, listen. She's talking about a safe
place and how we can cultivate a safe place is
going to be the question that I asked next. But
at the same time, a lot of those questions can
and will be answered in your amazing new book called
The Garden Within, where the War with your Emotions end
(05:58):
and your most powerful Life, that drops on September eighteenth.
I am excited because, y'all, yes, I'm a brag. I
got the manuscript right here. I'm not gonna lie. It's
right here. It's right here in my iPad. I have
pre read it and guess what I ordered. I pre
ordered my copy. You can pre order the copies now.
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Anita Phillips has had an amazing place in my journey
beginning in twenty eighteen. You guys have heard me say
time and time again that prayer is a weapon, therapy
is a strategy, and I always say I got it
from doctor Anita Phillips. I am not one that takes
people's quotes and not give credit to the person that
coined it. And I literally did buy the T shirt
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as well the book The Garden Within. We want to
talk about cultivating safe places, but changes that happen neurologically.
You talk about the nervous system, you talk about the mind,
you talk about the you talk about so many things,
but you also bring the Word of God in it
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at the same time. But can you just share how
trauma can sometimes create flowers.
Speaker 2 (07:15):
Well, we are designed as gardens. That's how the Creator
made us. And so that's why the Bible begins with
this meticulous description of how the garden was created, because
what we haven't realized is that there is insight into
our biological, emotional, psychological, and spiritual makeup based on the garden.
So it was like a blueprint was being laid out
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in the first six days of creation, and then God
made us. We are embodied gardens and the soil is
our heart, our emotional life, and that sits in our bodies,
and so we have to think about ourselves that way.
And trauma is an earthquake. It shakes the soil, and
that can change everything.
Speaker 1 (07:55):
In the beginning of the book, you share with us
things about your family and what even inspired you to
go into the mental health space. You so lovingly and
with grace and gentleness. You speak to us about your sister,
but you share something that happened at the age of six,
that there was a devastating moment that planted the seeds
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for this very book. Can you share briefly what that
moment was?
Speaker 2 (08:24):
Yeah, so that will We will buy the book.
Speaker 1 (08:26):
We will buy the book.
Speaker 2 (08:27):
Yes you will. That was the night that I was
first awakened by my sister's screams. We were close sister,
she was six years older than me. We shared her bedroom,
and my sister woke up the middle of the night
just screaming, streaming, and that awakened me. And that was
the first time that her symptoms which would eventually tell
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us the mental illness that she had, came to light,
and she was seeing demons standing in our bedroom door.
And of course I grew up church. You got in
christ in Penteople, So you know, a demon is an door.
My parents came running from to the same oil. We're
gonna get the oil. We're going to rebuke this. And
I have no problem with that, because the devil was
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real and demonic activity is an issue, but it is
not always the only issue, or the central issue, or
the initiating issue. So I don't say that to say
it's not real. The spear of room is not real
because I embraced my faith, it's as much as I
embraced my profession. But what happened was, over time, my
sister continued to have those what we found out were hallucinations,
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and the prayer and the rebuking of the enemy was
not doing it. So we knew it had to be
something distinct because if it was the enemy, if it
was the devil, he'd a big cast out of our house.
I can tell you that it wouldn't it wouldn't have stood.
And so as time passed, it just spiraled. My sister's
symptoms that were and now this is the early eighties,
so we didn't understand mental illness in the early eighties.
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There was no conversation. My parents weren't being like religious
and rejecting it. It wasn't on the table in the
early eighties, we just didn't know, and se mentally became
addicted to drugs and then that while decades of her
life in itself, and so unfortunately she passed away young,
late forties. And even though she we thank god, in
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the last seven years of her life she got clean,
she had married. She really lived a beautiful life. We
were built a lot of our relationship. But I still
see untreated mental illness as the cause of my sister's death.
She didn't die by suicide, but untreated mental illness stole
so much of her physical health and body that her
body lastly just broke down because of the drug youth,
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which was a response to the mental illness. So often
we're just looking at the addiction, but the addiction is
just an infection in a wound. The wound was the
untreated mental illness. And so even once the addiction was cleared,
it had been someone standing to her body and the
mental illness still needed to be treated. And so I
don't say I used to say mental illness killed my sister,
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but I'm now careful to say untreated mental illness killed
my sister because when we get treatment, we can live.
Speaker 1 (11:01):
Hand raised as someone who understands the importance of treating
mental illness. Now, I'm like you as far as in
the eighties, Well, for me, even being in school in
the nineties, I didn't know that there was even a
word called depression.
Speaker 2 (11:22):
Right.
Speaker 1 (11:23):
We heard of things like AIDS cancer. I don't even
say loupis only because my aunt had.
Speaker 2 (11:31):
It, right, it had to happen to somebody, you knew.
We weren't having all these different health conversations. Like I said,
the HIV conversation was huge, You're right, but we didn't
know about mental of them.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
It was huge. Or because even being in middle school,
when I can trace back symptoms of depression and anxiety,
we even heard about STDs. But when mental illness was
talked about, it was called well, you know she's crazy, right,
you know he's crazy where you know your granddaddy.
Speaker 2 (11:59):
Was and Jay emotional? They just need to get theirself together.
It's not being so emotional, you know. That was the blame,
is that emotions were the problem. That's one of the
reasons why I'm talking about emotions so much, because a
lot of the sigma that's attached to mental illness really
starts with a stigma attached to emotion. We believe emotions
are bad, We believe emotion makes us weak. We believe
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emotions or something we can we should be controlling in
our everyday lives. And so then if someone has depression
or anxiety disorder, that's emotion on steroids. So now it's
even more of a stigma. So I really think changing
the way we see emotions will eventually change the way
we see mental illness. HM.
Speaker 1 (12:39):
Well, speaking of that, you definitely link cutting edge scientific
inquiry and scriptures ancient use of gardens to reveal what
it means to truly truly flourish. Can you share a
bit about how you came across these ideas and how
you link them.
Speaker 2 (12:57):
Yeah, you know, it was a leap of faith in
a way. I in my very first neuroscience class, way
back when I was a PhD student, I saw a
picture of a neurons for the first time, and it
looked just like a seedling, like a plant, And I
was so struck by it that I thought, am I
just gonna let this go by as a coincidence, or
do I really believe in the God of my Sunday
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school stories, because if I do, then God must have
done this on purpose. What is he trying to teach
us about our minds by having neurons look like it?
And I decided, what if I really just take a
leap of faith here and believe that their spiritual significance
to this parallel. And so I went down the rabbit
hole and found out it was significant. And even now
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I always say science is catching up with scripture, because
in recent years we are learning more and more about
how much we are like plants, down to the fact
that plants actually communicate with each other through their roots
by sending chemicals across the soil. Our neurons communicate with
each other through their branches by sending chemicals between the spaces.
And plants use some of the same chemicals dopamine, serotonin,
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they are actually using in some of their communication patterns.
And so you can chalk that up to what you want.
But I chalk it up to a creator who left
me very clear information, even though he knew we wouldn't
see it until the twentieth cent Yes, here it is.
And so if my neurons, what comprises my mind is
based on a plant, then where's the soil. The soil
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is the heart. You can't understand a plant without understanding
where it's plant hid. It's called a plant like it's
defined by where's planet. And so we love to talk
about the mind. But if plants are meant to teach
us about our mind, then we have to look at
where the plant is planted. If we're going to be
like trees planted by rivers of living water. If we
are planted, we have to know. And the Bible tells
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us that the soil is the heart. And so that's
why I started researching coming to understand emotion, because if
our hearts are that valuable to God that he would
plant us in that emotion space, then we have this.
We might have it wrong how we see emotions. We're
not seeing emotion the way that God does.
Speaker 1 (15:08):
So we're not seeing emotions the way that God sees emotions.
We're taught that have any emotions is a bad thing.
Speaker 2 (15:16):
Yep, We're taught there's something we have to control, manage, repress, separate,
and that's just emotional pain. Because everybody's fine with feeling good.
But the emotional pain, we have come to believe one
that it is a product of the mind. That is
a product of thinking. But how can a plant create soil?
How it doesn't work that way. It doesn't work that way.
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And so when Jesus told us the parable the sower
in Matthew chapter thirteen, he tells us the heart of
the soil, the fruit is our behavior, the seed is
the words that we believe. And we know from that
neuron that the plant is the mind. And so anytime
we're worried about where we're what our thinking is doing,
I always want to ask, how are you feeling? Because
it is the emotional pain in our hearts that drives
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that are painful. And then we try and wrestle with
the thought instead of being honest about the feeling. And
so if we work on healing our hearts, we can
often quiet our minds.
Speaker 1 (16:10):
Come on, you posted something. I'm being present, but as
you're speaking, it's making me go to your Instagram page
as we speak to look up something you posted the
other day. It was so beautiful. I actually went and
looked up the artists because I was like, I want
that piece of art. When you said your hearts was
never meant to be a battlefield, your heart is a garden,
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and the artist Sarah Alama's I believe.
Speaker 2 (16:35):
I don't know. See I think it's.
Speaker 1 (16:38):
Oh Sorah, Okay, so the heart and then she has
these beautiful flowers and the ventricles of the heart. But
when you're talking about the heart and distance, you're not
actually talking about the thing that's beating in us.
Speaker 2 (16:53):
I'm talking about both because our biological heart is actually
a part of our emotional experience. Is amazing, So yeah,
I am talking about our emotions and that also talking
about our heart.
Speaker 1 (17:05):
Yeah, no, I know that, But when people I just
wanted information to be clear, because listen, I'm just gonna
be honest when you talk about the mind and the
brain as two different things. So I didn't want no
one to get it twisted. Are you meaning the heart that? Yes,
the heart? How can I articulate this the heart that's
beating in you? Okay, yes, we get that. Because when
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you are anxious your heart, you can have physical symptoms
and your heart flutters. When you're in love, your heart
might skip a beat. When you're sad, maybe it slows
down a little bit or you just feel that heavy.
Speaker 2 (17:44):
So it can actually slow down a little bit and
you do feel that happiness and it can even change
shape in a way that can kill you. There's an
actual medical condition called broken heart syndrome tackles throople syndrome
where the breath hormones rush to the heart under that
kind of pressure in grief and change the shape of
the heart and it has, you know, to cause heart
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attacks and kill people. But what you're saying is true
when because I often make sure people understand, the mind
and the brain are not exactly the same thing. They overlap,
but they're not the same. And it's the same thing
with our hearts. Our hearts and our emotional lives are
not exactly the same thing, but they are connected because
our emotions begin in our body, in our autonomic nervous
system outside of our wareness, and then that system sends
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that information to our heart like a router almost, and
it sends the information to the brain. And so the
heart is very much involved in communicating emotional information from
your body, yes, brain, and so they are overlapped.
Speaker 1 (18:40):
Even in the book you even tell us it's reminding
me of we'd be trying to disconnect, yes, from the
emotions and from because we don't we don't want to
feel that pain in the heart. We don't want to
feel that.
Speaker 2 (18:54):
We don't want to feel that stomach turning, We don't
want to feel that breath, you know, changing all the
things that happens when we are emotional pain. So we
disconnect from that, and by doing that, we disconnect from
our bodies.
Speaker 1 (19:05):
That's so danger it is so dangerous. But you are
on a mission to help reverse the effects of that,
especially trauma, and so I'm thankful. I'm really excited for
everybody to get And I got to say it right,
I missed a word. It is called the garden within,
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where the war with your emotions ends and your most
powerful life begins.
Speaker 2 (19:30):
Indeed, that's where it starts.
Speaker 1 (19:32):
Yes, yes, I miss that word begins. And I'm really excited.
Now I'm gonna tease my listeners as your book helps
us to resolve the battle between heart and mind once
and for all, and you help to identify personal pain
and trauma. I wish people would admit that, hey, it
is trauma. And I always say respectfully, trauma isn't always
blood and guts on the ground. Trauma could be how
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it made you feel when you saw your parents go
to physical blows. How did that? It's for sure you
weren't able to get over that feeling. What's a tool
you can share with us to start us in the
right direction when you talk about cultivate a unique inner garden.
Speaker 2 (20:11):
Yeah, so where trauma is concerned, it's important for people
to realize that trauma is an event that overwhelms your body,
your nervous system's capacity to cope. It changes how your
autonomic nervous system is working. It can put you in
a state of hyper vigilance, a fight or flight, unresolved
stress responses. It's not in your mind. It's not even
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just a feeling that we make it sound like our
mind's creating feelings. It's a biological shit. And so that's
why triggers are not something we do on purpose. These
things are all happening outside of our conscious awareness and
our conscious control. And so when it comes to cultivating
your inner garden, that soil of your heart has been
shaken like an earthquake. And so we want to begin
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to repair what has happened in our bodies. And we
do that and foremost by finding safe faces for ourselves.
And we started out talking about that. And the safest
place I want there to be in your life is
inside your body where inside of you you can cultivate peace.
And that starts with making my body safe, breathing exercises,
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not spending time with toxic people who cause my nervous
systems alarms to go off. Please please pleep. There are
so many things because we don't trust our bodies. We've
been taught not to trust them. I want you to
start trusting your body. When your body says, hey, this
isn't a safe place for me, you're like, well, maybe
that's just my trauma. Well maybe it is, but that
don't mean you're wrong.
Speaker 1 (21:38):
Wait a matter, No you're wrong does not mean you're wrong.
And that even means sometimes y'all have to get her
because she she ain't telling you don't go to the
family reunion. She ain't telling you not to have relationship
with family members. But trust how you are made to feel.
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Especially if you try to have a conversation with someone,
you try to create a safe space and their response
isn't so safe, Well, then you you then have to
say you know what I'm gonna I have to almost
love you from afar.
Speaker 2 (22:11):
Sometimes that's true?
Speaker 1 (22:13):
Is it just what black folks will? We'll be like
on best family that is your brother. You gotta make
it right on. That's your mother. She brought you in
this world and she can take you out.
Speaker 2 (22:24):
I think that black folks definitely have a strong instansis
on the family unit, right, and many other people of color,
and that's beautiful about us. But sometimes we go a
little too far and demand that people suffer traumatic experiences
as a result of genetic connection. And I am not
required to be traumatized because we have a genetic connection
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and so boundaries are required. But at the same time,
I want to encourage people to do their trauma therapy work,
especially when it comes to thematic practices, embr thematic experiencing,
because those things help to remove the visual effects of
trauma from your nervous system. And I've done a lot
of my own trauma work. You'll say, I'm not just
a I'm not just a president. I'm a member. Remember
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the hairclub guy who's just right as a president. I'm
a member. I've done trauma work, and over the years,
as I engage that work, when I would go home
to visit family, I would have less physical responses to
the space. There was a time where there was so
much trauma from that space for me when I would
lead home from visiting. Nothing bad might have happened, but
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my body still would feel tense. But there may come
a time when you don't have the same reaction in
their presence because of the trauma work that you're able
to do. And so then you also the boundaries as needed.
You can move them closer or further as needed on
your journey.
Speaker 1 (23:47):
So when you are doing the work, it is left
up to you, but you are saying that it is
possible that you once you do the work, you can
go into those spaces again and not feel I guess effect.
Speaker 2 (24:02):
Yeah, sometimes absolutely, this is not a life senting.
Speaker 1 (24:06):
It's so good.
Speaker 2 (24:07):
Tauma's not a life denting.
Speaker 1 (24:13):
Doctor Nita Phillips is actually she told me about EMDR
towards the end of twenty eighteen, and I was okay
with therapy, but there were certain techniques that I didn't
know about, or certain techniques that I was like, wait
a minute, is this going to take me into a
different spiritual realm? Is this gonna be?
Speaker 2 (24:30):
You know?
Speaker 1 (24:31):
And there are times I've done EMDR and I felt
like I could fly. There was a freedom that came
because there were certain lies that I believed, and I
will never forget having awakening in a therapy session once saying,
oh my gosh, that was a lie.
Speaker 2 (24:48):
I was, y'all.
Speaker 1 (24:49):
Probably I got up and I said, that was a lie. Y'all.
I felt like I could fly. I felt like I
could jump on go in the building and have some wings.
And I was like, Okay, don't do that.
Speaker 2 (25:00):
You don't, don't.
Speaker 1 (25:02):
You don't want to do that, because it's gonna be
a different type of ending. Don't do that. And then
there are moments of E M d R eye movement, resensitive.
Speaker 2 (25:12):
Movement, desensitization, and reproble.
Speaker 1 (25:15):
Yes, yes, Dr, I'm glad we got the doctor in
the building because I said, receense it's decent. And there
was a time I felt maybe low, some regret or something.
And then this one session I had a couple months ago,
Doctor Phillips, I let out a cry and well, I
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feel like it came from the pit of my belly
butt where the umbilical court used to be like. And
I think therapists sometimes even feel like I cannot hug
my client. But my therapist came and consoled the little girl.
Speaker 2 (25:55):
Yes, good for her, good, good for her, because the
little girl is who traumatized and being able to get
back there and let her let that cry out.
Speaker 1 (26:05):
Yes, any chance I get you, guys, I think doctor
Anita Phillips to her face on the phone or through text,
because since then that's a technique that I've used. Em dr.
It must be with us licensed practitioner who thee the
space is safe because you might cry, you might laugh,
you might get up and dance. I don't know what
(26:27):
your response is gonna be, but it must be with
someone safe and someone licensed to do what you do.
You found a beautiful bridge to connecting church with therapy,
and you have shared your emotional pain is not mutually
exclusive with your spiritual power. Jesus taught us that holding
the pain doesn't make our faith stronger. It weakens us physically,
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mentally and spiritually. Keep it real. That's what Jesus did.
So the question is how much as a culture do
you feel that we as a culture have to unlearn
holding in trauma?
Speaker 2 (27:06):
One hundred percent. We have brought culture to church. The
culture around us says emotion is bad. The mind is
where your power is. Change the way you think you'll
change everything. But honey, it's heal the heart, and you'll
change everything. Jesus never held in a painful emotion. We
see him crying, we see him mad, we see him
(27:28):
afraid in the garden of Getsemone, begging God for a break.
I mean Jesus never repented, which means no emotion is wrong,
because Jesus never said sorry. And so I think we
really need to pay close attention to that example and
then look back and see that every time Jesus expressed
a painful emotion through his words, through tears, through his
body expressions, spiritual power showed up quickly. After that, he
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cried at Lazarussum and he raised them from the dead.
He flipped tables at the temple with anger, and then
he healed people from diseases, ring in Goosemite begging God
to let him off the hook, and then walks out
of Goodsemite and says, I am he and soldiers are
knocked off their feet by the power of his voice.
So every time Jesus allowed his emotional pain to flow
(28:13):
out of him, spiritual power followed. And so there's a
connection between my emotions and my spirit. And if we
would stop trying not to break down, we might have
more breaking through.
Speaker 1 (28:24):
Come on, Okay, wait right now. In this interview, you
have vascillated between therapists and and a powerhouse preacher. Y'all.
She preaches across this world, and some recent sermons have
been at the Potter's house. I want to know how
has that been or as far as seeing churches people
(28:49):
of faith embrace mental health being talked about in the poolpit.
Speaker 2 (28:56):
I'm not gonna start crying, but I could. It is
everything because my sister might be alive if we had this.
And I asked God to give me the chance to
be a voice in this movement. And why he said yes,
I don't know, but I'm so grateful that this is
(29:20):
the message. These are the sermons, This is the book
that my family needed. Yeah, and every other family can
now have. It's not just about illness. It's about how
to be well. It's about how to live your spiritual
life in full power with your heart and your mind
and your body. It's everything we were created to be.
(29:41):
This is the definition of an abundant life, God suitful garden. Yes,
so grateful to have been a part of this shift
in the body of Christ. It means everything to me.
Speaker 1 (29:52):
Well, we certainly thank you so much for your Yes.
People don't understand the cost, still saying yes, you know
there's a cost, Yes, there is a cost to living
in purpose. I was, you know, thinking this morning. I
don't know if I was having an out of body experience,
(30:15):
a grad I don't know what it was, but I
was like, I am a living being, walking and sharing,
and I think I was getting fearful of assignment. But
so much breakthrough is attached to when we are walking
(30:35):
in purpose and doing what God wants us to do
and speaking of purpose and walking and talking and teaching.
You will be at the Woman Evolve conference this year.
Speaker 2 (30:50):
Yeah, I'm so excited. We're just September fourteenth or sixteenth.
It's going to be incredible.
Speaker 1 (30:57):
We are excited. And the com diference is kind of
on the eve or the week of your book release,
and we are so excited. I'm going to be their honey,
oh yay, bells, bring in. My older sister is gonna
come with me. And I'm so excited. I'm just so excited, y'all,
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Please please please the garden within. Yes, there are people
who have inflicted pain on us, and I've heard the
same over and over and over again, we're not responsible
for that, but we are responsible for the healing part.
Speaker 2 (31:33):
Yeah. Yeah, we're not responsible for what happened to us,
but we're responsible for healing.
Speaker 1 (31:39):
Are responsible.
Speaker 2 (31:40):
No one's going to do it but you. No one
can do it for you but you.
Speaker 1 (31:44):
You say your most powerful life begins, y'all. Your most
powerful life can begin when we do the hard work.
Somebody said, choose your heart.
Speaker 2 (31:54):
Yeah, for sure, choose your heart and chose.
Speaker 1 (32:00):
Now, do you want to live in healing or continually
in the fruit of dysfunction? That's hard, That's gotta be hard.
Speaker 2 (32:08):
I refuse, Yeah.
Speaker 1 (32:11):
I refuse. Well, sister, I'm excited. I'm excited y'all. The
book The Garden Within, where the war with your emotions
ends in your most powerful life begins. You, guys, I
promise you you want to get the book. There are
just certain details I'm not sharing because I want y'all
to read it. And y'all have been good about your
(32:31):
pre orders. You guys send us DMS or all kind
of messages holding up your book saying you got the
book because of checking in. You've got the book. So
let it be that because of checking in, we are
going to add to those numbers. She didn't ask me
to say this, but this message has to be This
message has to get out there, authentic, fruitful and powerful
(32:55):
doctor Phillips.
Speaker 2 (32:55):
Thank you, Thank you for having me.
Speaker 1 (33:07):
Wasn't this powerful, Doctor Nita Phillips is a force I
hope you felt empowered. And we're so forceful with the
healing topic because this is what she said off air.
Sometimes you don't know how sick you've been until you
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get well. Sometimes you don't know how sick you've been
until you get healed. And so I just encourage people
do the work of healing. Cultivating environment in your home
and on your job of safety, cultivating environment of healing.
Maybe plants, good soothing music, even what we put in
(33:55):
our bodies, drinking more water, you know, watching the conversations
that we have with people. Do people bring you life
or do they bring you mess? Do people bring you
life or do they bring just anxiety and foolishness and shenanigans. Yes,
(34:18):
we love a good key key. Now I'm not saying
not to key key with your friends, but if the
majority of the conversations are not life giving, I don't know.
I think check your surroundings, check your surroundings. I want
every listener of Checking In to have amazing testimonies about
their healing journeys. You know what I mean. And if
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you have never dealt with trauma, abuse, betrayal, neglect, abandonment,
broken relationships, you probably won't understand. And that's okay. I
love that testimony for you too. You know, there are
some people who can say honestly have had b beautiful
childhood's parents who were able to love on you because
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of the love that maybe they received from their parents
or the love that they get from God that continuously
fills them up. And that's what I want for all
of us. Maybe you didn't get the love from both
of your parents growing up, but press into the one
and only God who can fill you up with his love.
Because once you get filled up with love, then that
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is what you will give to other people. Is love,
all right, That's what God is. God is love. I'm
so thankful for y'all. I'm so thankful for this journey
with all of you. Guys. Again, make sure you get
doctor Anita Phillips's new book. I'm really excited about it.
(35:45):
I got the pleasure of writing an endorsement for her
book and Sarah Jakes Roberts has done the forward to
her books, So I'm excited to be in good company.
All right, Okay, everybody, I love you, Bye bye. Checking
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