June 12, 2023 • 20 mins
Chiquis describes the challenges she’s faced all her life when it comes to weight. She tells us what it was like growing up as a “bigger” girl, how her mom Jenni’s own struggles with weight were passed on to her and the impact that had on her as a young adult. Chiquis also opens up about the methods and procedures she’s tried in an effort to lose weight and how she’s come to the realization that there’s no substitute for hard work.
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Speaker 1 (00:03):
I've always loved myself. I've always been pretty confident, but
the music career, especially in our Latin culture, the thinner
you are, the prettier you are, the more accepted you are.
That's something my mom struggled with and my grandpa would
always tell her. He would say, so you know best,
so if you're not going to find a man, and
it really did. It affected her. We did a part
(00:24):
of the interview and then on the break he literally
looked at me and he said, oh, Win said, you
know what he told me? He said. I was like,
what up? Guys? Happy Monday. I am so glad to
be in front of the mic today talking to you guys.
I think this is an episode you guys will really
(00:45):
enjoy because it's about something I think a lot of
us have dealt or we'll deal with. I'm going to
be opening up about how weight loss affects how we think,
how we feel, and even how people treat us. It's
just going to be meeting you today, so let's hop
into it. This Isy's and chill. So, as you guys
(01:08):
probably know already, weight and body image is something I've
dealt with my entire life, and as women, I think
so many of us are taught that our value or
self worth is tied up to our appearance. How pretty
we are or how thin we are really matters in
our culture and in society, and it's annoying. This episode
is going to be divided into two parts. In this
(01:30):
first part, I'm going to be talking about my journey
all the way from the beginning. So let's talk about it.
As a kid, I was always a little bit overweight,
since like I can remember, I was always thicker than
the other girls in school. I always struggled with wine clothes.
I think it started, like where I started really noticing
(01:50):
was when I was ten years old and I would
be made fun of and it was just it was tough.
I want to say that it started when I realized
that what was happening to me because I was sexually
abused by my dad was not right. Because it started
when I was eight years old, and at ten, the
conversations at school started changing with my friends, and I
(02:11):
started realizing what sex is, and that's where, you know,
fifth grade, they start talking about sex education and it
just started like kind of tormenting me, and I started
holding on to my weight, and that's where it just started,
you know, spirallling out of control, and it just started,
I think, getting worse as I got older. My period
(02:32):
came when I was twelve years old. My body started
changing and then it just it's been a thing, you
know what I mean. So I and I talked to
my therapist about this and she said, yeah, it's because
you weren't expressing certain things, so you were holding on
to your weight as a form of protection. So AnyWho,
it's something I've been dealing with forever. At home, it
was always a conversation because my mom also struggled with
(02:55):
her weight, and it could Yeah, it's it's hereditary, you
know what I mean. Like it's something that like I
think comes from my grandfather's side. They're a little bit
more on they're a little bit more on the heavier side.
And so that's something my mom struggled with. And my
grandpa would always tell her, and I know this because
she would tell me. He would say, so, you know best,
So if you don't lose weight, you're not gonna find
(03:16):
a man like you. You can't be fat, you can't
be a gorra, you know what I mean. And it
really did. It affected her and then she had me
at fifteen. Imagine her little body because she was fairly like,
you know, on the thinner side, I guess. Such at
fifteen she had me, she got pregnant, and she gained
eighty pounds. That's a lot, and and she just said,
(03:39):
oh my god, you she would always say, you fucked
up my body. But I'm like o, gage was like
my stretch marks came, like she lost I'm sorry, she
gained so much weight, and she was she was young.
And then four years later she had my sister, and
you know what I mean. So it's something that she
struggled with and she didn't want us to go through
what she had gone through and how she felt. So
(04:01):
at home, it was always like we were on every
freaking diet that you can think of. It was the
Zone diet, it was Adkins, it was you know, all
these things, and we couldn't have fun cereals. We would
only have kicks because you know, back then we were
like on you know, Wick and Welfare and food sam
so it was like certain stuff that we can afford,
(04:22):
and it was like, you know, at Wick they would
give us kicks. So it was just a different type
of childhood. Like my lunches were different, you know, and
we had to have non fat milk. I mean, imagine
being freaking eleven twelve years old and it's like, oh,
you have to have egg whites and tomatoes and a
slice of a greate fruit the half of a great
fruit and non fat milk when all your friends are
(04:44):
having bacon and freaking pancakes. So it was like always
a conversation, and it was always like you have to
work out to the point where I think my sisters
and I we all feel the same. Like Jackie always
talks about it. My sister Jackie always talks about how
my mom sent her to school with her lunch in
a brown bag and it was a can of green
beans and some tuna and a fork, like that's what
(05:07):
she had to eat. And she was so embarrassed. She
didn't even put it like in a cute little tuble
where she just put in a bag and said here,
open it, and this is what you're going to have.
And she even sent Jackie and even Jenica for a
little bit to what they call fat camp literally it's
called fat camp to lose weight. So it was always
a conversation and my mom would be like if I
would eat something, she'd be like, oh my god, you
(05:29):
know it's going to go straight to your thighs or
things like that. So it was sticks so in my mind. Anyways,
I mean, she she did help me lose weight. You know,
there was a time when my mom and I weren't talking.
She sent me to go live at my grandma's house.
And then when I came back to live with her,
she put me on this like strict diet, dude, like
strict diet, and I had to just dance my way
(05:50):
every day, washing clothes in the garage. You know, I
think I've told you guys the story before, but like
to lose weight, and she and I did lose weight.
She was a very good trainer. Like even I want
to say, I was eleven twelve years old in our
living room in Long Beach listening to Michael Jackson, and
she would do like a freaking dance class. She was
so good at dancing. And we would sit there and
do aerobics and her friends and her and I would
(06:13):
do it and it was just like a thing. So
it's something that like our whole family has struggled with,
and it's been something that's been embedded in our in
our brain. And you guys know that food is such
a huge part of our culture. It's you go to
your theas house, to your grandma's house, to anyone's house.
Is like they want to feed you. And they don't
want to feed you a little bit. They want to
feed you a lot because that's the way they show
that they love you. And then if you don't eat
it or you say no sofin, then they get kind
(06:35):
of like hurt. So then you feel like, you know,
I have to eat it. And well as a Mexican,
as a Latina, you know, you have your beans and
your rice and then your protein, and you have tortilla
or sometimes you have bread. It's like it's a lot
of carbs, you know. So it's something that in our household,
it's like here, this is how I'm going to show
you my love. And also our culture loves to use manteka,
(06:59):
you know what I mean, instead of using all oil.
So it's like little things like that throughout the years
that I've learned that, yeah, the beans are freaking refried
beans are delicious with manteka, you know, with lard. But
there are healthier ways of cooking them, you know. But
it's it's in our culture, it's part of of us,
you know. And not only that, but I remember hearing
from everyone in my family that it's like you have
(07:22):
to finish everything on your plate because there are starving
children in the world, and there are kids that don't
have food, and you're so lucky, so you need to
eat it all, you know what I mean. One time,
I remember my mom made I think it was like,
uh Pierre had chicken legs, and she made peas and carrots,
and I think there was white rice, and I didn't
(07:43):
really like the bone, you know what I mean. Like
I was more of like, you know, a chicken breast
type of girl, but the chicken legs are like less expensive.
So she would make that a lot. And one day
I kind of like, I was like, I'm just gonna
like pretend I, you know, I ate it, and I
threw it in the trash ooh girl. She made me
get it out of the trash can and eat it
right in front of her. She's like, Nope, you're gonna
eat it all, and you're gonna eat your peas and
(08:05):
your carrots. She made me get it out of the
trash can. You guys's like, you're not gonna throw away
food in this household. If you don't like it, then
you need to move out, or you need to give
me money, and the food is expensive and you're not
gonna like And I was just saying, I'm like, oh
my god, okay, you know what I mean. Like, I
was like, I don't like it, said, oh, you can't
pick and choose. So it was like a thing like
it's like you eat when mom is making or you
don't eat it all. And sometimes I wouldn't eat because
(08:26):
she's like, Okay, if you don't like what I'm making,
then you're not gonna eat. I wouldn't eat till the
next day dinner time. I don't know if I've ever
said this out loud, or maybe I didn't in my book.
I don't remember. It's been I have three books, you guys,
but people always ask me, Okay, did you get liposuction?
Have you gotten any cosmetic work done? And yes, I have.
(08:49):
Before I was a little bit more embarrassed to say
because it was like frowned upon and it was like,
oh my god, only celebrities do that. But I had
my first liposuction when I was eighteen, almost nineteen years old,
my mom took me to TJ with her doctor when
brostro God rest his soul. He's no longer alive, but
he did my mom's ypo section. And my mom was
(09:09):
so like consumed with us looking good, and she's like,
you're eighteen, you know, we need to like get you
more of a waste. And so she took me at
nineteen years old. I had no choice. I mean, I
guess I did have a choice. I could have said no,
but it was kind of like no, it's gonna be
good for you. It was like so celebrated. I guess that.
(09:30):
I was like, okay, cool. Yeah, So we went and
I got my first LiPo section and I loved it.
I'm not gonna lie. I was like, oh damn all
look good. You feel me Like it was like the
first one. So my body was a virgin. So it's
like that's the best kind of like time I guess
to have a LiPo section because it just comes out
so much better. So it did help my self esteem.
I did feel good. My waist was a lot smaller
(09:51):
my arms. I think it did like a full like
on my back and stuff like that. It was like
a full like three sixty type of LiPo section. So
I was very happy. The only thing thing is I
didn't take care of myself. And that's the thing people think, Oh,
lipol suction is a forever fix, and that is not
the case. If anything, you can ruin the shape of
your body if you don't take care of yourself, because
they're removing fat cells from your body that your body
(10:14):
needs to survive. So if they remove it from your
abdomen and your back and your arms, well guess what
It's going to go to your legs. And that's exactly
what happened to me. I at eighteen nineteen, Like I
was like, okay, whatever, Like you know, I was eating
freely and yes, you know, my mom try to keep
us on track, but I mean we're teenagers. I would
go to school, I was driving, I would go to
(10:36):
you know, fast food restaurants behind her back and all
this stuff. So I wasn't taking care of myself and
I felt comfortable and I felt just content with my body.
So I'm like, okay, I can eat. So I started
going to my fingers, to my neck, to my cheeks,
to my legs, so the fat will go somewhere. Trust me,
your body is like, Okay, you need this amount of
freaking fat in your body, I'm going to find a
(10:58):
place to live. And it does even it'll go down
to your toes. So that's what I learned throughout the
years and after getting I don't know, I probably have
gotten three LiPo sections, you guys, three okay throughout the
years because it's like, oh my god, now the fat
went to my legs. Okay, I want to like kind
of bring down my thighs now and you know, and
(11:18):
oh my god, my arms got big again. Do it again.
So it's like I've done liplo section, but it's like
now I'm so turned off by LiPo section. Like people
think that I did LiPo section now to lose weight,
and I didn't. I'm cool whatever you want to do.
I'm a huge advocate for like cosmetic surgery. Do it,
do your thing, like whatever's going to make you happy.
But I did not this last time. And honestly, I
(11:39):
try to just stay away from it because, like I said,
it can really change your body. And I'm not mad
at my mom for taking me to get plastic surgery
so young, but I wish I would have waited to
be honest. Until I educated myself a little bit more,
I never really had an eating disorder. I mean, I'm
the type of person that I eat if I'm happy,
(11:59):
I eat if i'm sad. I love food. I'm a foodie.
I love it. It's part of what makes me happy.
And now that I'm getting more mature, i'm getting older,
I'm realizing that food should be something that just nourishes
our body and not see it as something like that.
I absolutely, yes, I need it, but it's more of
like having a different type of relationship with food. I
(12:20):
did start taking like I don't know if you guys remember,
I think they still have them out there, but hydroxy
cut because I saw it on a commercial, so I
ordered it. And I started taking that at a very
young age. And that also, I think through my body
and my system through a loop. I was so young.
I was too young to take that stuff. I must
have started at I don't know, like twenty nineteen something
like that. I even took like breast growth pills that
(12:43):
I saw on TV. Yes, I'm that girl the infomercials.
I'm that girl that Yes, they always get me. So
my mom would always make fun of me for that.
So I would order all kinds of stuff and I'm
not like, I think it really did. It fucked things up,
you know, in my hormones. I was taking estrogen for
my loops to get bigger because I want to figure boobs,
Like who does that? You know what I mean? Like,
(13:04):
and it's all because of what we see on TV
and all this stuff and now with social media. So
it's like, I feel it's important for us to have
these conversations, especially in our culture, about food and about
educating ourselves before doing things because it can really affect
us in the long run. I never made myself like
throw up or anything like that. I was just like
taking pills and doing even fantramine. I did fenermin for
(13:27):
a little bit, and all that stuff affects you. It
really does. And once you stop taking it, like the
hydroxy cut and the fentermine and all that stuff that
helps you lose weight really quick, because we all want
that magic pill that's going to do it like this,
you know, real fast. Once you stop taking it, you
are going to be a lot heavier than you first started,
you know what I mean, Like it's going you're gonna
(13:48):
get bigger, you know what, I mean like it's just
it just happens because your body's like, oh my god,
where's that thing that drug that's helping me feel good
and lose weight, and then in front of mein like ooh,
let me tell you it made me feel so crazy
jittery and well, anyways, that's all stuff that happened before
my singing career, you know what I mean. I did
all this crazy stuff before my singing career. I think
(14:08):
I did the first two light bul sections before I
was twenty six, I think, and then I started singing
at like what twenty seven, and that was a whole
other situation. I never had an issue no matter how
(14:31):
big I was or how small I was. I think
the lightest I've ever been was when my mom put
me on that diet when I was what fifteen, When
I moved back with her, I was one hundred and
twenty eight pounds. That was like the lightest I've ever been,
I think in my life. Besides when I was like six.
The last time I was a size six was like
when I was six years old. You guys, right now,
I can tell you I'm a size six, but we'll
get into that later. So AnyWho, I never had an
(14:52):
issue finding someone, you know. I always had a boyfriend
or talking to someone, even when I was younger at school,
you know, seventeen years old, and so I never really
thought like, Okay, I know I'm a little thicker than
everyone else around me, like a lot of girls my age.
But when I really notice, oh man, okay, well I
(15:13):
guess I'm a lot bigger than I think I am.
Because when I started singing and I started doing reality
obviously television makes you gain at least ten pounds more,
if not more than ten pounds, I just started getting
a lot of criticism, like a lot of people just
talking crap on television on social media, and it really
(15:36):
just started affecting me, and I started, like, I started
seeing myself differently. Like I've always loved myself. I've always
been pretty confident. I mean sometimes I was like, by myself,
I think I'd probably be like, oh man, I wish
this was a little different, you know what I mean
or whatever. But the music career, it's like, especially you guys,
that's another thing in our Latin culture. It's like the
(15:58):
thinner you are, the prettier you are, the more accepted
you are, you know, and it's like, if you are
an artist, if you are an actress, like you need
to be a certain freaking size, like and if you're not,
then it's like what are you teaching people. It's like,
in order to be considered one of the beautiful people,
like you need to be a certain size, especially because
(16:18):
you're on TV. And that's what I would get all
the time, like, oh my god, you have such a
pretty face, but when are you gonna lose weight? Literally
like that, I'll never forget them. Francisco. I don't know
if you guys ever watched some Francisco Hiante. I went
to his show. We were on a break, we did
a part of the interview, and then on the break
he literally looked at me and he said, oh, okay,
Gwanda the pissel kinse I just I just finished, like,
(16:42):
actually I just lost fifteen pounds. You know what you
told me? He said, he said, well, we can't really
tell what I was like, So then the cameras turned
back on and I'm just like, oh my god, I
felt like crap. Dude, like literally looked at me like, oh,
you can't tell that you just lost fifteen pounds, dude,
I'll never forget. I was just like, dude, I grew
(17:04):
up watching you with my grandma, and now I'm like, dude,
you're not even that thin yourself. And then you find
these people on social media talking crap and saying, oh,
you're fat, you're this or that, and then you look
at their profile picture and they're bigger than you, and
I'm just like what, I was so confused, And I'm
not gonna mention another person that has said that I'm
big and that my legs are too big and stuff
(17:26):
like that, like he's very big, extremely and that's fine,
whatever tickles your pickle, Like I don't care. I'm not
one to go and judge people for their size or
I will never call all your fat or like no,
I just I cannot. But this person, this guy is
really big, and he has and has had the audacity
to say like, oh my god, her legs are just
so fat, like and then it just sounds worse in
(17:49):
Spanish like oh my god, so spirit and it's like,
oh my god, dude. It's been tough. It's been tough
to just give people in the media sometimes the middle
finger and just say you know what, if you guys
and I've had to work through it because I'm like, no,
you're not gonna break me. You are not going to
break me. You're not going to stop me. I'm not
going to give up because you think I should because
I'm not the size you want me to be. No,
(18:11):
absolutely not. So it's been it's been tough. It has
been tough. But thank goodness, amongst everything my mom taught
me and yes, how to eat better and how to
work out and everything. She also was a woman that
was considered out of the norm completely for having five children,
a single mother and not being a size too and
(18:34):
a very successful singer. That she always taught me to
be confident and to love myself and never had an
issue with finding someone to love her. So that's one
thing I thank her for so much, because no matter what,
no matter how much, it was like a conversation, and
the biggest topic in our household was losing weight, it
was also about self love. So I think that's what
got me through because I was like, well, my mom
(18:56):
went through it. They talked about her a lot, and
she became the biggest regional Mexican artist, So we're gonna
be all right, So thank God and shout out to Jenny,
I love you, Mom. But okay, guys, so we're gonna
stop this episode right here. Stay tuned for part two
tomorrow because that's what I'm going to talk about, my
weight loss and how it's affected me and how I'm treated.
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I've always loved myself. I've always been pretty confident, but
the music career, especially in our Latin culture, the thinner
you are, the prettier you are, the more accepted you are.
That's something my mom struggled with and my grandpa would
always tell her. He would say, so you know best,
so if you're not going to find a man, and
it really did. It affected her. We did a part
(00:24):
of the interview and then on the break he literally
looked at me and he said, oh, Win said, you
know what he told me? He said. I was like,
what up? Guys? Happy Monday. I am so glad to
be in front of the mic today talking to you guys.
I think this is an episode you guys will really
(00:45):
enjoy because it's about something I think a lot of
us have dealt or we'll deal with. I'm going to
be opening up about how weight loss affects how we think,
how we feel, and even how people treat us. It's
just going to be meeting you today, so let's hop
into it. This Isy's and chill. So, as you guys
(01:08):
probably know already, weight and body image is something I've
dealt with my entire life, and as women, I think
so many of us are taught that our value or
self worth is tied up to our appearance. How pretty
we are or how thin we are really matters in
our culture and in society, and it's annoying. This episode
is going to be divided into two parts. In this
(01:30):
first part, I'm going to be talking about my journey
all the way from the beginning. So let's talk about it.
As a kid, I was always a little bit overweight,
since like I can remember, I was always thicker than
the other girls in school. I always struggled with wine clothes.
I think it started, like where I started really noticing
(01:50):
was when I was ten years old and I would
be made fun of and it was just it was tough.
I want to say that it started when I realized
that what was happening to me because I was sexually
abused by my dad was not right. Because it started
when I was eight years old, and at ten, the
conversations at school started changing with my friends, and I
(02:11):
started realizing what sex is, and that's where, you know,
fifth grade, they start talking about sex education and it
just started like kind of tormenting me, and I started
holding on to my weight, and that's where it just started,
you know, spirallling out of control, and it just started,
I think, getting worse as I got older. My period
(02:32):
came when I was twelve years old. My body started
changing and then it just it's been a thing, you
know what I mean. So I and I talked to
my therapist about this and she said, yeah, it's because
you weren't expressing certain things, so you were holding on
to your weight as a form of protection. So AnyWho,
it's something I've been dealing with forever. At home, it
was always a conversation because my mom also struggled with
(02:55):
her weight, and it could Yeah, it's it's hereditary, you
know what I mean. Like it's something that like I
think comes from my grandfather's side. They're a little bit
more on they're a little bit more on the heavier side.
And so that's something my mom struggled with. And my
grandpa would always tell her, and I know this because
she would tell me. He would say, so, you know best,
So if you don't lose weight, you're not gonna find
(03:16):
a man like you. You can't be fat, you can't
be a gorra, you know what I mean. And it
really did. It affected her and then she had me
at fifteen. Imagine her little body because she was fairly like,
you know, on the thinner side, I guess. Such at
fifteen she had me, she got pregnant, and she gained
eighty pounds. That's a lot, and and she just said,
(03:39):
oh my god, you she would always say, you fucked
up my body. But I'm like o, gage was like
my stretch marks came, like she lost I'm sorry, she
gained so much weight, and she was she was young.
And then four years later she had my sister, and
you know what I mean. So it's something that she
struggled with and she didn't want us to go through
what she had gone through and how she felt. So
(04:01):
at home, it was always like we were on every
freaking diet that you can think of. It was the
Zone diet, it was Adkins, it was you know, all
these things, and we couldn't have fun cereals. We would
only have kicks because you know, back then we were
like on you know, Wick and Welfare and food sam
so it was like certain stuff that we can afford,
(04:22):
and it was like, you know, at Wick they would
give us kicks. So it was just a different type
of childhood. Like my lunches were different, you know, and
we had to have non fat milk. I mean, imagine
being freaking eleven twelve years old and it's like, oh,
you have to have egg whites and tomatoes and a
slice of a greate fruit the half of a great
fruit and non fat milk when all your friends are
(04:44):
having bacon and freaking pancakes. So it was like always
a conversation, and it was always like you have to
work out to the point where I think my sisters
and I we all feel the same. Like Jackie always
talks about it. My sister Jackie always talks about how
my mom sent her to school with her lunch in
a brown bag and it was a can of green
beans and some tuna and a fork, like that's what
(05:07):
she had to eat. And she was so embarrassed. She
didn't even put it like in a cute little tuble
where she just put in a bag and said here,
open it, and this is what you're going to have.
And she even sent Jackie and even Jenica for a
little bit to what they call fat camp literally it's
called fat camp to lose weight. So it was always
a conversation and my mom would be like if I
would eat something, she'd be like, oh my god, you
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know it's going to go straight to your thighs or
things like that. So it was sticks so in my mind. Anyways,
I mean, she she did help me lose weight. You know,
there was a time when my mom and I weren't talking.
She sent me to go live at my grandma's house.
And then when I came back to live with her,
she put me on this like strict diet, dude, like
strict diet, and I had to just dance my way
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every day, washing clothes in the garage. You know, I
think I've told you guys the story before, but like
to lose weight, and she and I did lose weight.
She was a very good trainer. Like even I want
to say, I was eleven twelve years old in our
living room in Long Beach listening to Michael Jackson, and
she would do like a freaking dance class. She was
so good at dancing. And we would sit there and
do aerobics and her friends and her and I would
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do it and it was just like a thing. So
it's something that like our whole family has struggled with,
and it's been something that's been embedded in our in
our brain. And you guys know that food is such
a huge part of our culture. It's you go to
your theas house, to your grandma's house, to anyone's house.
Is like they want to feed you. And they don't
want to feed you a little bit. They want to
feed you a lot because that's the way they show
that they love you. And then if you don't eat
it or you say no sofin, then they get kind
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of like hurt. So then you feel like, you know,
I have to eat it. And well as a Mexican,
as a Latina, you know, you have your beans and
your rice and then your protein, and you have tortilla
or sometimes you have bread. It's like it's a lot
of carbs, you know. So it's something that in our household,
it's like here, this is how I'm going to show
you my love. And also our culture loves to use manteka,
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you know what I mean, instead of using all oil.
So it's like little things like that throughout the years
that I've learned that, yeah, the beans are freaking refried
beans are delicious with manteka, you know, with lard. But
there are healthier ways of cooking them, you know. But
it's it's in our culture, it's part of of us,
you know. And not only that, but I remember hearing
from everyone in my family that it's like you have
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to finish everything on your plate because there are starving
children in the world, and there are kids that don't
have food, and you're so lucky, so you need to
eat it all, you know what I mean. One time,
I remember my mom made I think it was like,
uh Pierre had chicken legs, and she made peas and carrots,
and I think there was white rice, and I didn't
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really like the bone, you know what I mean. Like
I was more of like, you know, a chicken breast
type of girl, but the chicken legs are like less expensive.
So she would make that a lot. And one day
I kind of like, I was like, I'm just gonna
like pretend I, you know, I ate it, and I
threw it in the trash ooh girl. She made me
get it out of the trash can and eat it
right in front of her. She's like, Nope, you're gonna
eat it all, and you're gonna eat your peas and
(08:05):
your carrots. She made me get it out of the
trash can. You guys's like, you're not gonna throw away
food in this household. If you don't like it, then
you need to move out, or you need to give
me money, and the food is expensive and you're not
gonna like And I was just saying, I'm like, oh
my god, okay, you know what I mean. Like, I
was like, I don't like it, said, oh, you can't
pick and choose. So it was like a thing like
it's like you eat when mom is making or you
don't eat it all. And sometimes I wouldn't eat because
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she's like, Okay, if you don't like what I'm making,
then you're not gonna eat. I wouldn't eat till the
next day dinner time. I don't know if I've ever
said this out loud, or maybe I didn't in my book.
I don't remember. It's been I have three books, you guys,
but people always ask me, Okay, did you get liposuction?
Have you gotten any cosmetic work done? And yes, I have.
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Before I was a little bit more embarrassed to say
because it was like frowned upon and it was like,
oh my god, only celebrities do that. But I had
my first liposuction when I was eighteen, almost nineteen years old,
my mom took me to TJ with her doctor when
brostro God rest his soul. He's no longer alive, but
he did my mom's ypo section. And my mom was
(09:09):
so like consumed with us looking good, and she's like,
you're eighteen, you know, we need to like get you
more of a waste. And so she took me at
nineteen years old. I had no choice. I mean, I
guess I did have a choice. I could have said no,
but it was kind of like no, it's gonna be
good for you. It was like so celebrated. I guess that.
(09:30):
I was like, okay, cool. Yeah, So we went and
I got my first LiPo section and I loved it.
I'm not gonna lie. I was like, oh damn all
look good. You feel me Like it was like the
first one. So my body was a virgin. So it's
like that's the best kind of like time I guess
to have a LiPo section because it just comes out
so much better. So it did help my self esteem.
I did feel good. My waist was a lot smaller
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my arms. I think it did like a full like
on my back and stuff like that. It was like
a full like three sixty type of LiPo section. So
I was very happy. The only thing thing is I
didn't take care of myself. And that's the thing people think, Oh,
lipol suction is a forever fix, and that is not
the case. If anything, you can ruin the shape of
your body if you don't take care of yourself, because
they're removing fat cells from your body that your body
(10:14):
needs to survive. So if they remove it from your
abdomen and your back and your arms, well guess what
It's going to go to your legs. And that's exactly
what happened to me. I at eighteen nineteen, Like I
was like, okay, whatever, Like you know, I was eating
freely and yes, you know, my mom try to keep
us on track, but I mean we're teenagers. I would
go to school, I was driving, I would go to
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you know, fast food restaurants behind her back and all
this stuff. So I wasn't taking care of myself and
I felt comfortable and I felt just content with my body.
So I'm like, okay, I can eat. So I started
going to my fingers, to my neck, to my cheeks,
to my legs, so the fat will go somewhere. Trust me,
your body is like, Okay, you need this amount of
freaking fat in your body, I'm going to find a
(10:58):
place to live. And it does even it'll go down
to your toes. So that's what I learned throughout the
years and after getting I don't know, I probably have
gotten three LiPo sections, you guys, three okay throughout the
years because it's like, oh my god, now the fat
went to my legs. Okay, I want to like kind
of bring down my thighs now and you know, and
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oh my god, my arms got big again. Do it again.
So it's like I've done liplo section, but it's like
now I'm so turned off by LiPo section. Like people
think that I did LiPo section now to lose weight,
and I didn't. I'm cool whatever you want to do.
I'm a huge advocate for like cosmetic surgery. Do it,
do your thing, like whatever's going to make you happy.
But I did not this last time. And honestly, I
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try to just stay away from it because, like I said,
it can really change your body. And I'm not mad
at my mom for taking me to get plastic surgery
so young, but I wish I would have waited to
be honest. Until I educated myself a little bit more,
I never really had an eating disorder. I mean, I'm
the type of person that I eat if I'm happy,
(11:59):
I eat if i'm sad. I love food. I'm a foodie.
I love it. It's part of what makes me happy.
And now that I'm getting more mature, i'm getting older,
I'm realizing that food should be something that just nourishes
our body and not see it as something like that.
I absolutely, yes, I need it, but it's more of
like having a different type of relationship with food. I
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did start taking like I don't know if you guys remember,
I think they still have them out there, but hydroxy
cut because I saw it on a commercial, so I
ordered it. And I started taking that at a very
young age. And that also, I think through my body
and my system through a loop. I was so young.
I was too young to take that stuff. I must
have started at I don't know, like twenty nineteen something
like that. I even took like breast growth pills that
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I saw on TV. Yes, I'm that girl the infomercials.
I'm that girl that Yes, they always get me. So
my mom would always make fun of me for that.
So I would order all kinds of stuff and I'm
not like, I think it really did. It fucked things up,
you know, in my hormones. I was taking estrogen for
my loops to get bigger because I want to figure boobs,
Like who does that? You know what I mean? Like,
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and it's all because of what we see on TV
and all this stuff and now with social media. So
it's like, I feel it's important for us to have
these conversations, especially in our culture, about food and about
educating ourselves before doing things because it can really affect
us in the long run. I never made myself like
throw up or anything like that. I was just like
taking pills and doing even fantramine. I did fenermin for
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a little bit, and all that stuff affects you. It
really does. And once you stop taking it, like the
hydroxy cut and the fentermine and all that stuff that
helps you lose weight really quick, because we all want
that magic pill that's going to do it like this,
you know, real fast. Once you stop taking it, you
are going to be a lot heavier than you first started,
you know what I mean, Like it's going you're gonna
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get bigger, you know what, I mean like it's just
it just happens because your body's like, oh my god,
where's that thing that drug that's helping me feel good
and lose weight, and then in front of mein like ooh,
let me tell you it made me feel so crazy
jittery and well, anyways, that's all stuff that happened before
my singing career, you know what I mean. I did
all this crazy stuff before my singing career. I think
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I did the first two light bul sections before I
was twenty six, I think, and then I started singing
at like what twenty seven, and that was a whole
other situation. I never had an issue no matter how
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big I was or how small I was. I think
the lightest I've ever been was when my mom put
me on that diet when I was what fifteen, When
I moved back with her, I was one hundred and
twenty eight pounds. That was like the lightest I've ever been,
I think in my life. Besides when I was like six.
The last time I was a size six was like
when I was six years old. You guys, right now,
I can tell you I'm a size six, but we'll
get into that later. So AnyWho, I never had an
(14:52):
issue finding someone, you know. I always had a boyfriend
or talking to someone, even when I was younger at school,
you know, seventeen years old, and so I never really
thought like, Okay, I know I'm a little thicker than
everyone else around me, like a lot of girls my age.
But when I really notice, oh man, okay, well I
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guess I'm a lot bigger than I think I am.
Because when I started singing and I started doing reality
obviously television makes you gain at least ten pounds more,
if not more than ten pounds, I just started getting
a lot of criticism, like a lot of people just
talking crap on television on social media, and it really
(15:36):
just started affecting me, and I started, like, I started
seeing myself differently. Like I've always loved myself. I've always
been pretty confident. I mean sometimes I was like, by myself,
I think I'd probably be like, oh man, I wish
this was a little different, you know what I mean
or whatever. But the music career, it's like, especially you guys,
that's another thing in our Latin culture. It's like the
(15:58):
thinner you are, the prettier you are, the more accepted
you are, you know, and it's like, if you are
an artist, if you are an actress, like you need
to be a certain freaking size, like and if you're not,
then it's like what are you teaching people. It's like,
in order to be considered one of the beautiful people,
like you need to be a certain size, especially because
(16:18):
you're on TV. And that's what I would get all
the time, like, oh my god, you have such a
pretty face, but when are you gonna lose weight? Literally
like that, I'll never forget them. Francisco. I don't know
if you guys ever watched some Francisco Hiante. I went
to his show. We were on a break, we did
a part of the interview, and then on the break
he literally looked at me and he said, oh, okay,
Gwanda the pissel kinse I just I just finished, like,
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actually I just lost fifteen pounds. You know what you
told me? He said, he said, well, we can't really
tell what I was like, So then the cameras turned
back on and I'm just like, oh my god, I
felt like crap. Dude, like literally looked at me like, oh,
you can't tell that you just lost fifteen pounds, dude,
I'll never forget. I was just like, dude, I grew
(17:04):
up watching you with my grandma, and now I'm like, dude,
you're not even that thin yourself. And then you find
these people on social media talking crap and saying, oh,
you're fat, you're this or that, and then you look
at their profile picture and they're bigger than you, and
I'm just like what, I was so confused, And I'm
not gonna mention another person that has said that I'm
big and that my legs are too big and stuff
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like that, like he's very big, extremely and that's fine,
whatever tickles your pickle, Like I don't care. I'm not
one to go and judge people for their size or
I will never call all your fat or like no,
I just I cannot. But this person, this guy is
really big, and he has and has had the audacity
to say like, oh my god, her legs are just
so fat, like and then it just sounds worse in
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Spanish like oh my god, so spirit and it's like,
oh my god, dude. It's been tough. It's been tough
to just give people in the media sometimes the middle
finger and just say you know what, if you guys
and I've had to work through it because I'm like, no,
you're not gonna break me. You are not going to
break me. You're not going to stop me. I'm not
going to give up because you think I should because
I'm not the size you want me to be. No,
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absolutely not. So it's been it's been tough. It has
been tough. But thank goodness, amongst everything my mom taught
me and yes, how to eat better and how to
work out and everything. She also was a woman that
was considered out of the norm completely for having five children,
a single mother and not being a size too and
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a very successful singer. That she always taught me to
be confident and to love myself and never had an
issue with finding someone to love her. So that's one
thing I thank her for so much, because no matter what,
no matter how much, it was like a conversation, and
the biggest topic in our household was losing weight, it
was also about self love. So I think that's what
got me through because I was like, well, my mom
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went through it. They talked about her a lot, and
she became the biggest regional Mexican artist, So we're gonna
be all right, So thank God and shout out to Jenny,
I love you, Mom. But okay, guys, so we're gonna
stop this episode right here. Stay tuned for part two
tomorrow because that's what I'm going to talk about, my
weight loss and how it's affected me and how I'm treated.
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I'm also going to open up about my experience with ozembic.
It's gonna be a good one. You're not gonna want
to miss it, so make sure to listen. Ask the Manyana.
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