August 11, 2025 • 37 mins
Tori opens up about the sale of her family’s iconic Los Angeles estate, The Manor — once the largest home in America and the last place she lived with her father, Aaron Spelling. Despite its grandeur, the house that had everything never truly felt like home. With candor, humor, and a few surprising stories, Tori shares personal memories, what it meant to her family, and why she’s surprisingly okay with letting this piece of Hollywood history go.
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Speaker 1 (00:08):
Misspelling with Tory Spelling and iHeartRadio podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:14):
So here in misspelling. I have periodically done episodes titled
Secrets of the Manner, but recently in the news currently
the Manor, I guess it's not called the Manner anymore.
(00:35):
It just sold. It just sold again to a new
owner that is re titling it to five nine four.
I guess that's the modern version because the address is
five nine four South Mapleton Drive, and so it's now
no longer going to be called the Manner. It's going
to be called five nine four. So when news broke
(00:59):
of the Manner selling, a lot of people sent me
the article and they're like, have you seen this? And
I did hear about it, but I don't know. There
was something that kept me from like clicking on this article,
and it was clickbait for me too, because I wanted
to know the details. I'm not gonna lie that is,
you know what people like think of my childhood home,
(01:21):
even though I technically only lived there for like two years,
but still it was something my mom created, and you know,
it's part of my history. So obviously I have connections
to it, but I yeah, I don't know. I couldn't
open the article and I didn't even know why. I
was just like in my head, like, you know, I
(01:42):
had taken my kids on vacation. I was like, I'm
focusing on my kids, and like, you know, I'm not
looking online as much, and I'm not on Instagram and
I'm not you know, all that stuff. But still at
all the time in the world to click on every
single article out there about Liam Neeson and Pamela Anderson
fasting it with those two, like, oh my gosh, the
new IT couple. I am just like can't get enough
(02:04):
of them, just like everybody else. But that's like a
happy story, right, That's like she's like the comeback queen
and he finally, you know, found love again and they
both have been through so much personally and professionally and
now they deserve This is what everyone's saying. And so
that's a magical, happy ending and that's something we all
hope to translate into our own lives. So that's something
(02:25):
we want to see. But I never clicked on the
manner because I was just like, oh, it's sold again.
Keep in mind it sold once before when my mom
owned it. She sold it to the Egglesteins, and I
did see pictures when she redid it and made it.
(02:45):
She kept the bones of it and didn't really change
you know, the bearing wall, you know, nothing really changed
to the architecture, but just totally renovate the look inside.
And it was really modern. I remember seeing like black
lacquered stuff and you know a lot of geometric stuff,
and I was just like, oh my gosh, very different
(03:07):
than how my mom. And my mom spent years. She
designed the home, you know, with a great team and
did every was involved in every aspect of the architecture.
And because you know, they tore that home down to
the ground, and you know, I still remember the day,
like the day they started building it, and they had
(03:29):
like a ribbon cutting ceremony and they started construction, so
like the whole team and I feel like my whole
family was wearing hard hats and I think I was, Yeah,
I was twelve, and my brother and I were there
and they had this whole like ribbon cutting with this huge,
crazy big scissors, and my mom and dad cut it
(03:53):
and they broke ground. Basically, I have to find those
pictures somewhere. But yeah, she puts so much dedication into
that home. She not only created the entire house itself,
but she then flew to Europe and did extensive you
know home decort design and every piece in that home
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and a lot of like antique old French, you know architecture.
And I'm like, isn't it funny? I can talk so
much about this world, but I'm like, actually finding it
hard to find my words when it's my own home,
my family's home. I don't know. I think there's like
some locked memories there. That not bad, it's just obviously
(04:38):
it was a gorgeous house and very beautiful pieces in
each room, but it definitely didn't have the heart of
when I grew up. You know, we were a family
of four, and I guess going into a house that big,
while we tried to keep it and my mom did
a great job as warm as it could feel, family
(05:00):
as it could feel. She did a great job executing that.
But in a home that is what noted is fifty
six thousand square feet, I think it's just impractical to
think that it could ever hold the charm and spacing
of an intimate family home. And I often reflect on,
(05:23):
you know, the rooms we primarily used as a family
of four were the kitchen, my mom's office, which was
like our family office. My dad has owned separate working office,
but my family office, the kitchen, my parents' bedroom, the
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breakfast room where we would have family dinners. Other than that,
I guess the screening room, the projection room, but that
got less and less as my dad got older and
we were my brother and I got older and we
were out with our friends, so we didn't do family
screening nights as much. And yeah, like it's wild to
think those are the rooms we used. In a room
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in a house, there was fifty six thousand square feet
estimated to have. Sorry, I sorry, I have to look
it up. I should know this in my brain from
reading it for so long and being asked about it.
It says it had fourteen bedrooms. That can't be true.
I feel like there was way more anyway. Yeah, fourteen bedrooms,
(06:26):
twenty seven baths, fifty six five hundred square feet of space. Yeah,
it's just wild anyway, I always said, like after it
was put on the market years ago, I was like,
oh my gosh, I wonder if I emailed the realtor
and be like, hi, it's story. Spellings in my family
home way back when, so anyway I could just come
(06:46):
see it and bring my kids. When my mom was
moving out, I believe, before it's sold, I had Liam
and Stella and they were very little. I think they
were like three and two maybe two and one baby,
so they have no memory of it. But I remember
Dean and I and Liam and Stella went to visit
(07:10):
Exit before my mom, I mean she pretty much moved out,
but before she put it on the market, I said,
I really want my babies to be here. I think
the rooms were all empty. I remember like holding baby
Stella and taking her into rooms and they were like
empty rooms, so taking a picture so I could like
show them later, like this was Mom's room, This is
(07:32):
you know, Grandpa Aaron and Grandma Candy's room. Like I
don't know, I don't know what I was thinking, but yeah,
so that's like my last memory. And then my really
like holding memory was my dad passing and that's where
we had like his funeral gathering afterwards, was back at
(07:52):
the Manner And so yeah, those two memories are kind
of not great memory because it's like a finality, and
when I draw on childhood memories, there's absolutely no connotation
to that house. It's not in my heart and soul,
(08:14):
it's not the house I grew up in. So when
I dream about my childhood and we all go back
in time, I never have dreams about that house. Like
I'll be my adult self now, I'll even be with
my kids now at their present age, but I'm back
in the house I grew up in, which, for anyone
that doesn't know, was on the same street so on Mapleton,
but it was one to eleven North Mapleton, and it
(08:38):
was still a very big house. But it was, you know,
maybe ten thousand square feet, which is still enormous, you know,
something in a lifetime, I don't think I'd ever be
in a house that big, but like, it definitely was
a very warm family home and I have really beautiful
memories growing up there with my family. Anyway, now that
(09:01):
I have clicked on this, so yes, so it just
sold again at one hundred and ten million dollars to
the head of Google, Eric Schmidt. Yeah, so the Google CEO,
Eric Schmidt and his wife Wendy. So I'm reading this
(09:22):
for the first time, you guys, while I do this
with you, because I haven't wanted to before. And yeah,
so I'm scrolling to see what it says, and so
it's saying, Oh my gosh, it seems like they're not
even going to live there. It says reportedly they are
planning to use the manner, which they are now relabeling
(09:46):
is five ninety four, to host meetings and nonprofit events.
They already own other properties in LA and nearby Montecito,
plus London, Washington, DC, Miami Beach, New York City, San Francisco,
and on Nantucket Island. Wow, that's a lot of properties. Okay,
So I was wondering. It's so funny, I guess something
(10:08):
that big. It doesn't seem like a family home. But
my instinct when I heard they bought it, I was like, Oh, okay,
do they have a big family Like I don't know,
but I mean, I like, they're going to use it
for nonprofit events, but meetings, I don't know. Kind of
bums me out, just because in some form it's my
(10:29):
dad mom's legacy. Like, my dad's not here and it
was the last place I lived with him, So it's
hard to think that it's going to be used for
just like a meeting hall. I wonder if they'll change
up anything inside. What does Eric Schmidt intend to do
(10:57):
with the manner that he just bought. It's so hard
to talk about this. I didn't even think it would
be this hard to talk about. And it feels weird
inside talking about it, like some like repressed block, Like
I feel this is so strange. I'm talking about this
and it's feeling like an elephant sitting on my chest,
like maybe I have things I haven't talked about. You guys,
(11:20):
it's really this topic is very challenging for me to
talk about because if you know me, you know that
I have strived my whole life and career to kind
of be the anti rich girl. It was something that
I was bullied really bad when I was little about
my dad having money and being famous, and it's something
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I took on to such a degree that I actually
change it, manifested in a way that it changed my
trajectory in my lifetime. Look at me, I'm so savvy
talking about something serious and I still managed to get
my name in there. I'm sorry I distracked with comedy.
It wore on me so heavily that I do feel
(12:06):
on some level that I manifested my life staying small.
Like everyone has these perceptions of who I am and
what I am as defined by who my father is
and his wealth. So I'm going to make a note
to be the anti that my whole life and see
(12:27):
if people like me better then And let me just
tell you, like lean into what you're given and what
you are, because it doesn't help to me the other way.
Like anyone that's met me will say, oh, she's so nice,
she's so kind, she's great. But in some way, I
I'm a very intelligent woman, and I feel like I
(12:52):
have not on purpose, but like almost like subconsciously like
defeated myself or like tanked myself at times throughout my career.
I think people said, you know, people would say things
all the time like she's not talented, she's not And
now doing a nine oh two and a rewatch that
(13:13):
Jenny Garth and I do called nine O two one, OMG,
check it out if you haven't. We are on season
seven doing a rewatch. Now I watch it all back
and I'm like, gosh, I moved forward in a career
thinking I couldn't act, thinking I wasn't good enough, thinking
that I would never have succeeded in this industry if
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it wasn't for my dad. I heard it so often
that I actually believed it. And now I watch it
back and I'm like, subjectively, I'm watching as a fan,
and I'm like, Donna is really good. Taking myself out
of it for a second, you guys, Tory spelling. Look,
it's even hard for me to say is a very
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good actress. And it's like, wow, now at fifty two,
my brain's like, what we have to rewire and learn this.
We believed all the other stuff for so long. So anyway,
going back, I think I don't even know what I
was talking about. You know, I get so sidetracked. But
going back, it was so ingrained in me to be
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the opposite. I mean, growing up, I used to go
into our laundry room and I would bring my blanket
and my stuffed animals, and I would get like food
and drink and books and like my diary, and I
would go into a cupboard in the laundry room and
I'd be like, I was always very respectful, So I
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would never tell my parents like I hate that we
have this like big house, and I hate that we
have this big these big lives, and it's really hard
for me. So I think keeping that repressed as a
little girl at like five and six and seven and eight,
and just kept going. But yeah, granted, our lifelaundry room
is like was bigger than like the size of my
bedroom now, but it wasn't crazy thing. But like the cupboard,
(15:08):
it was large enough for me, as like a six
year old child to fully stand up in. But I
would go in there and like decorate and put stickers
on one of the cupboards in the laundry room and
take the rooms down and everything and be like, this
is my home. This is all I want, Like I
don't want this big house. And I was like, this
is where I feel coziest. And keep in mind, I
(15:31):
feel like now we're so forward thinkers. We're such forward thinkers,
especially with our children about you know, therapy and you know,
mental health awareness and conversations about emotions. Keep in mind,
I grew up in the seventies and it was no
fault to my parents, but that just wasn't really talked about.
(15:53):
So as a child, you know, having these thoughts, it
wasn't like my parents weren't talking me through stuff. But
I never thought to communicate that to them. I never thought,
you know, and I'm sure they didn't think to communicate
it with me a child. So yeah, you can imagine
if I lived in a ten thousand square foot house
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and was so shamed because of that that I wanted
to live in a cupboard in the laundry room. Imagine
what it was like when the world found out we
were building a house and moving into a fifty six
thousand square foot house. I think I just literally went
numb inside, and I don't know, just like shut off
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that part of that connection with that house. And still
when my kids see pictures of it online, they're like,
is that the White House is that? They're like, what
is that? And I'm like, that's my family home. And
I still I look at it and I feel like
I have no real real connection to it. But I'm
(16:58):
sure it just lies beneath the emotions are there, and
it's just so strange to see it turning over to
new hands. Anyway, I always wish I could get one
more walk through it, but maybe the past is better
left in the past. So I wonder what they'll do
(17:20):
to it. I wonder how they'll redecorate it. I wonder
if they're well, they're having a nonprofit event I could
get an invitation one day. Remember when it was it
was all in the news that j Lo and Ben
when they were together, they were going to possibly buy it.
Do you remember this, Yeah, and they had looked at it.
(17:40):
That would have been fun, But like, what did they
need the house that size for? What does anyone need
house that size for kids? I mean except between my
brother and I we have seven kids as grown adults
will be grandparents to multiple generations grandkids and great grandkids hopefully,
(18:03):
and we could have used that. It could have been
like I mean, honestly, I would say it should be
like a bet. I always wanted it to be like
a bed and breakfast that my brother and I like
had together and then our kids could like stay there.
I don't know, it would have been nice. I want
to say it would have been nice to keep it
(18:24):
in the family, but again, it's not something that I
feel represents our family. Like my childhood home. I would
love like if my brother and I still had that
and keep it in the family, and because that's where
all the memories are. It's so rare in life. I'm
always curious about people that say, you know, the stories
(18:46):
that people are like, Okay, later in life, like their family,
they kept the family home in the family and then
when people passed away, it got handed down and they
kind of moved their own family in there and make
new memory. I'm always curious about people who are like, oh,
I still live in my family home, like my mom
dad passed away and then we kept it. I'm always curious,
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like what happens, like because you have such memories of
being a kid there, They're like, then you have to
shift gears to being an adult there. I don't know.
The pool house alone in that property is bigger than
my own house, so that I could have easily my
my five kids and I could have lived in the
house alone, been very, very happy. We could have been squatters.
(19:33):
It was on the market for a long time. I've
seen horror films. What are they called froggers. Have you
heard of this? No? Oh, that's right, Damn. We had
so much in common till that froggers. I believe maybe
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this is not a real thing, Like if you have
an attic space or something like people live there, they
break in and live there and while you're living in
the house. Nope, never am I making this up? No,
but I'm saying nope, like, I don't want any part
of that. What are froggers that live in your house? Frogging?
(20:21):
It's p hrgg i g when someone secretly lives in
your attic without your knowledge. Yeah. This term refers to
the act of someone living in a house without the
homeowner's consent or knowledge, often in hidden spaces like addicts,
crawl spaces, or even basements. The term is thought to
originate from the idea of a person leaping from space
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to space like a frog, potentially to avoid detection. So
if you didn't know about it, I'd scare the shit
out of everybody out there, because if you have any
type of attict space or something, it could be a
frogger living in it. Sorry anyway, my point being, oh
(21:04):
my gosh, if someone lived in the attic of the
manor the attic was my mom had like a beauty
salon up there, but not really a beauty salon. My
dad would always go to the barber, but as he
got older or have the barber come to him and
just cut his hair in his bathroom. But she put
(21:26):
up a salon up there with like a hair like
washing bowl, everything like a stand like to like you
would go to a beauty salon and you're at like
a station. She put like two stations in there. One
and half was like the barbershop. One was the beauty
salon for her, and that was up in what you
would call an attic. But literally the attic didn't look
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like the addict, you know, it was like pallacious, I
want to say, like, oh my gosh. The square footage
had to have been I mean, it's the length of
the house, but it was like the third floor and
our basement was in a basement. The base is where
we had the bowling alley and the arcade and the
doll museum and the gym and the bar and recreation room.
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So we technically didn't have like like in the the
mechanics of the house, like you know what am I
talking about, Like the air conditioning unit and the air filters.
Like everything was like in the behind the scenes of
the manor. So you would like push a wall in
one room, which was the bowling alley, and you would
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go into like hallways behind the scenes where all the
power stuff was and like everything that made the manner
light up and have power, and then you would come
down the other side in the Doll Museum, like a
hidden passageway got him. I'm like creeping myself out now
telling these stories. But it wasn't creepy. It was like
fun and friends were really impressed, were really excited, and
(22:52):
I was always like, oh god, no. But anyway, froggers,
if you lived in an attic at the Manor, you
have literally it had to have been at least ten
thousand square feet or more, so you could have literally
a huge home. You could have like two families lived there. Okay,
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that's my view on the Manor five ninety four. And
my mom always had like stationery that would say like
all the heads of the sorry, all the notepads. The
header would say the Manor and property of the Manor
like pens and everything, all that stuff that like hotels
would have, but kind of we had that. That's so wild.
(23:38):
Oh my gosh, I wish I had some of those saved.
I love that. Yeah, it was pretty cool. I mean
think about it. It was the size bigger than hotels anywhere.
Like you had to have some like wink wink nod nod,
like kind of fun gesture about like I have the
biggest at the time single family residence anywhere. It's being
(24:02):
compared to the taj Mahal on Google, Like, oh my god,
I feel like I read that it was bigger than
the taj Ma Hall. But I could be I read
that too, and my brain always trying to like apologize
for growing up with wealth. I read that too, and
instead of saying it was even bigger than the taj Mahll,
(24:22):
I couldn't even say that. So I said the size
of the taj Mahll. Fine, they say it was bigger.
Oh what wild what a wild ride life is?
Speaker 1 (24:34):
Did you watch the video to see what it looks like?
Speaker 2 (24:38):
No, I can't open and wait to hold them.
Speaker 1 (24:41):
Welcome to the Manor, one of the finest estates in
Los Angeles is over fifty six thousand square feet.
Speaker 2 (24:46):
That's where I got married.
Speaker 1 (24:48):
The White House close that offers fourteen bedrooms twenty seven
bathrooms on four point six acres all. This is on
the market for one hundred and sixty five million dollars.
This is the foyer of the Manor. The ceilings are
thirty feet high. It has a double staircase, very grand.
(25:11):
The chandelier has a mechanism that raises and lowers it
and the staircase railing is a one continuous piece hand
forged in Texas. It is legendary in the city. It
is the most important entry hall by far, and it
is a site to behold. The manner was built in
the style of a French chateau, with many details from
that period, including.
Speaker 2 (25:31):
The lions out front of day Lackerism flat.
Speaker 1 (25:34):
The manor was built on the former estate of Big Crosby.
Aaron and Candy Spelling tore the house down to build
their dream vision, a family home that would be cherished
for them and for other generations. It took seven years
and one hundred and fifty workers every day.
Speaker 2 (25:50):
Oh that part made me sad that he said, like
their dream vision, first family home for many generations to come,
that didn't happen. It looks nice. I think that's the design.
(26:10):
Like the renovation, not renovation, but like the home deke Hoar.
Inside is what the Eggosteines did before. Definitely modernized it
a bit. It did. It did look a little more
like Homie like cozy. The foyer was changed. The foye
is exactly the way my mom built it, except it
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was like a brass I think the chandelier I believe
is the same. My mom had that put in and
it did like you could push a button and it
would come down so that they could clean all the crystals.
You push a button, it would raise back up because
thirty feet what do you say, thirty feet dolls ceilings
and thirty foot dolls. Wow. But that staircase, I remember
(26:55):
asking her once because it was this double entryway Foye staircase,
and it was so grand and it completely connected. So
you would go one side of the staircase and it
was like the little, you know, hallway. You would stand
looking over very like Romeo and Juliet, and then you
would go down the other side, so it was all
one continuous staircase. And I did ask her once why
(27:22):
such a big staircase, and she said, so when you
get married one day, you can walk down that staircase.
And I was like, oh, that's so romantic. But I
did actually get married there first to my first husband,
but we didn't walk down that staircase. We actually started
outside and my dad was old and sick by that point,
(27:45):
so he couldn't walk me that far. I was already
walking across the whole driveway. It was a long walk,
so maybe that's why we didn't come down the staircase.
And also that staircase like growing up spelling like my
dad his vision like Dinahs, that staircase reminded me of Dynasty,
which came before the Manner, So I'm like, oh my gosh,
I wonder if that was always the intention, like to
(28:09):
walk down that staircase. Very very fancy. I feel like
it's been so prevalent in the news about the Manner selling,
(28:29):
and everyone has asked me how I feel about it
that I just I don't know, like I said, shut
down on it, and I thought, well, it's probably interesting
for people to hear my thoughts on how I feel
about it selling. So I decided to do this episode
on it. Didn't read any of the information except that,
(28:51):
you know, I knew the head of Google bought it
until I started this podcast today, and I just wanted
to be raw and kind of whatever came up. You know,
me never at a loss for gab, Like I can
talk and talk and talk, and like I've said, this
episode might seem a little scattered, but it's because I
(29:14):
always have something to talk about, and I could talk
about anything, and I never shy away from any topic,
as you guys know, and this one, as as it's
unfolded right now in the last hour, been very hard
for me to talk about. And like I said, it's
feeling like a weight on my chest and it's feeling
(29:34):
bringing up some sort of memories and emotions that I
am trying to access while keeping the ball rolling as
a host of this podcast. And it's conflicting because I
don't know what all these emotions are that are coming up.
I guess I should ask my therapist what this means. Oh,
(29:57):
I should bring around the show. We should talk about
the manner. But yeah, so I just wanted to say,
you're kind of getting me at my ross right now.
And this is the intimate Like I don't even have
any comedic things to say about it right now, but
it's definitely bringing up a lot of emotions. I think
(30:19):
there's a twofold thing coming to hand right now, to
head to hand to heart, to all of the above.
I did a TV series which was a single camera
sitcom which was loosely based on my life called So Notorious.
(30:42):
With it was an amazing show. It was It's okay
for me to say that, hey is the first time
in my life. I got critical acclaim from like people
out there, They're like, oh my gosh, And I knew
that was a kiss of death when everyone wrote, like
in the press, the was like critically acclaimed that I
(31:02):
was actually good for ones, Like I should have known
it wasn't going to work. But that said, it was
me and Lannie Anderson and Zach Quinto and James Carbonello,
and it was and a wonderful cast, and it was
a really fun show because it was, while loosely based
(31:27):
on my life, it basically was a show that I
co created and the idea came from everyone had a
preconceived notion of me, of my life. And this took
place when I was in my late twenties. So at
that time I was off nine o two and zero.
But you know, the press always had something to write
about me. The tabloid said something I'd write about me,
and this was my time to you know, I remember
(31:48):
my pitch was I took all the bad tabloid articles
about me, the crazy stuff written even and made a
little scrap book and I took that into pitch meetings
a T shirt with all the rumors about me and everything,
and yeah, and I went in and said, I laughed
(32:09):
about it, and I said, here's everything. It was very
you know, relied on self deprecating humor and just kind
of if you can't beat them, join them. And the
show originally was created for NBC and the pilot didn't
get picked up there. We then took it to vh one,
where it went one season. But this was at a
(32:32):
time when they hadn't done scripted TV. It was all
unscripted reality and competition shows and the big big show
there was like Flavor of Love and you know, Finding
Love and all that. So it didn't quite work for
that audience, but I still stand by it was a
really fun show and really well received and a lot
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of it took place. The reason I'm bringing this up
is we had a fictitious manner and a lot of
it was like the jokes of going We obviously couldn't
use the real manner, and you know, all names it
was loosely based on people that had been in my life,
but we changed all the names and we added different
qualities of you know, new characters. The only one that
(33:18):
was really real ish was me, you know, and I
played Tory Spelling. But it was like a heightened version,
a comedic version of everything, and you know, every joke
in the book, and then some about me making fun
of myself basically because everyone else does. And we had
(33:38):
to rent another house that was oddly enough, in the
same area as my parents' house. Couldn't quite get one
as big because it didn't exist, but we filmed there
and we filmed it as the manner and all that
and me getting lost in the house and my friends
couldn't find me, all those jokes. But it's just odd
(34:01):
timing that memories of that are coming up. And my
on camera mother, Lonnie Anderson, just passed away recently, so
it and she was so amazing and lovely and one
of those people that come into your life and we
didn't work together for that long, only for a year,
but she's someone who has stayed in my heart for
(34:25):
the rest of my life and really taught me so
much about a female in this business and on screen.
And you know, I was still the age at the
time and she had been you know, the Angeenu for
years and now it was a different time and place,
(34:46):
you know, playing an older woman on TV. And she
always taught me, you know, you don't need this now,
but lighting's going to be very important to you later
as an actress. Always have them light you from below.
I've never forgotten that. Yeah, And she just taught me
so much about being kind and humble, and she was
(35:06):
such a legend and a star and so and was
very formative in my life when I started my relationship
with Dean and when I became a mom for the
first time, and just one of those amazing humans that
just sticks with you and your soul forever. But it's
just the uncanny timing of she played my mom in
(35:29):
a fictitious world based on my life and her passing away,
and then like the keys of the kingdom changing hands,
the manner itself getting sold, and it's just now I'm
talking about my feelings of that, and it's just like,
oh my god, I can't find the words, and it's
(35:50):
just all like all coming into my being right now
of emotions of how I feel about everything. So it's
just bizarre timing, that's all. But yeah, so I just
want to say sorry, this episode might have seem a
little scattered, but this is how I feel, and I
(36:10):
feel like I want to do a deeper dive into
how I really feel about what others call my childhood
home because it would be interesting to figure out where
the repressed memories are and feelings that I'm obviously having
get to the bottom of that. So I guess, as
I'm trying to say, is I don't have an end
to this ending. I know there's a lot of finality
(36:36):
with this, but I guess I haven't found my finality
with this in my heart. So yeah, but you know me,
I always got to bring comedy into it. So I
guess when they say you can't ever go home again,
this is true. It just sold I really can't go
home now.
Misspelling with Tory Spelling and iHeartRadio podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:14):
So here in misspelling. I have periodically done episodes titled
Secrets of the Manner, but recently in the news currently
the Manor, I guess it's not called the Manner anymore.
(00:35):
It just sold. It just sold again to a new
owner that is re titling it to five nine four.
I guess that's the modern version because the address is
five nine four South Mapleton Drive, and so it's now
no longer going to be called the Manner. It's going
to be called five nine four. So when news broke
(00:59):
of the Manner selling, a lot of people sent me
the article and they're like, have you seen this? And
I did hear about it, but I don't know. There
was something that kept me from like clicking on this article,
and it was clickbait for me too, because I wanted
to know the details. I'm not gonna lie that is,
you know what people like think of my childhood home,
(01:21):
even though I technically only lived there for like two years,
but still it was something my mom created, and you know,
it's part of my history. So obviously I have connections
to it, but I yeah, I don't know. I couldn't
open the article and I didn't even know why. I
was just like in my head, like, you know, I
(01:42):
had taken my kids on vacation. I was like, I'm
focusing on my kids, and like, you know, I'm not
looking online as much, and I'm not on Instagram and
I'm not you know, all that stuff. But still at
all the time in the world to click on every
single article out there about Liam Neeson and Pamela Anderson
fasting it with those two, like, oh my gosh, the
new IT couple. I am just like can't get enough
(02:04):
of them, just like everybody else. But that's like a
happy story, right, That's like she's like the comeback queen
and he finally, you know, found love again and they
both have been through so much personally and professionally and
now they deserve This is what everyone's saying. And so
that's a magical, happy ending and that's something we all
hope to translate into our own lives. So that's something
(02:25):
we want to see. But I never clicked on the
manner because I was just like, oh, it's sold again.
Keep in mind it sold once before when my mom
owned it. She sold it to the Egglesteins, and I
did see pictures when she redid it and made it.
(02:45):
She kept the bones of it and didn't really change
you know, the bearing wall, you know, nothing really changed
to the architecture, but just totally renovate the look inside.
And it was really modern. I remember seeing like black
lacquered stuff and you know a lot of geometric stuff,
and I was just like, oh my gosh, very different
(03:07):
than how my mom. And my mom spent years. She
designed the home, you know, with a great team and
did every was involved in every aspect of the architecture.
And because you know, they tore that home down to
the ground, and you know, I still remember the day,
like the day they started building it, and they had
(03:29):
like a ribbon cutting ceremony and they started construction, so
like the whole team and I feel like my whole
family was wearing hard hats and I think I was, Yeah,
I was twelve, and my brother and I were there
and they had this whole like ribbon cutting with this huge,
crazy big scissors, and my mom and dad cut it
(03:53):
and they broke ground. Basically, I have to find those
pictures somewhere. But yeah, she puts so much dedication into
that home. She not only created the entire house itself,
but she then flew to Europe and did extensive you
know home decort design and every piece in that home
(04:17):
and a lot of like antique old French, you know architecture.
And I'm like, isn't it funny? I can talk so
much about this world, but I'm like, actually finding it
hard to find my words when it's my own home,
my family's home. I don't know. I think there's like
some locked memories there. That not bad, it's just obviously
(04:38):
it was a gorgeous house and very beautiful pieces in
each room, but it definitely didn't have the heart of
when I grew up. You know, we were a family
of four, and I guess going into a house that big,
while we tried to keep it and my mom did
a great job as warm as it could feel, family
(05:00):
as it could feel. She did a great job executing that.
But in a home that is what noted is fifty
six thousand square feet, I think it's just impractical to
think that it could ever hold the charm and spacing
of an intimate family home. And I often reflect on,
(05:23):
you know, the rooms we primarily used as a family
of four were the kitchen, my mom's office, which was
like our family office. My dad has owned separate working office,
but my family office, the kitchen, my parents' bedroom, the
(05:44):
breakfast room where we would have family dinners. Other than that,
I guess the screening room, the projection room, but that
got less and less as my dad got older and
we were my brother and I got older and we
were out with our friends, so we didn't do family
screening nights as much. And yeah, like it's wild to
think those are the rooms we used. In a room
(06:06):
in a house, there was fifty six thousand square feet
estimated to have. Sorry, I sorry, I have to look
it up. I should know this in my brain from
reading it for so long and being asked about it.
It says it had fourteen bedrooms. That can't be true.
I feel like there was way more anyway. Yeah, fourteen bedrooms,
(06:26):
twenty seven baths, fifty six five hundred square feet of space. Yeah,
it's just wild anyway, I always said, like after it
was put on the market years ago, I was like,
oh my gosh, I wonder if I emailed the realtor
and be like, hi, it's story. Spellings in my family
home way back when, so anyway I could just come
(06:46):
see it and bring my kids. When my mom was
moving out, I believe, before it's sold, I had Liam
and Stella and they were very little. I think they
were like three and two maybe two and one baby,
so they have no memory of it. But I remember
Dean and I and Liam and Stella went to visit
(07:10):
Exit before my mom, I mean she pretty much moved out,
but before she put it on the market, I said,
I really want my babies to be here. I think
the rooms were all empty. I remember like holding baby
Stella and taking her into rooms and they were like
empty rooms, so taking a picture so I could like
show them later, like this was Mom's room, This is
(07:32):
you know, Grandpa Aaron and Grandma Candy's room. Like I
don't know, I don't know what I was thinking, but yeah,
so that's like my last memory. And then my really
like holding memory was my dad passing and that's where
we had like his funeral gathering afterwards, was back at
(07:52):
the Manner And so yeah, those two memories are kind
of not great memory because it's like a finality, and
when I draw on childhood memories, there's absolutely no connotation
to that house. It's not in my heart and soul,
(08:14):
it's not the house I grew up in. So when
I dream about my childhood and we all go back
in time, I never have dreams about that house. Like
I'll be my adult self now, I'll even be with
my kids now at their present age, but I'm back
in the house I grew up in, which, for anyone
that doesn't know, was on the same street so on Mapleton,
but it was one to eleven North Mapleton, and it
(08:38):
was still a very big house. But it was, you know,
maybe ten thousand square feet, which is still enormous, you know,
something in a lifetime, I don't think I'd ever be
in a house that big, but like, it definitely was
a very warm family home and I have really beautiful
memories growing up there with my family. Anyway, now that
(09:01):
I have clicked on this, so yes, so it just
sold again at one hundred and ten million dollars to
the head of Google, Eric Schmidt. Yeah, so the Google CEO,
Eric Schmidt and his wife Wendy. So I'm reading this
(09:22):
for the first time, you guys, while I do this
with you, because I haven't wanted to before. And yeah,
so I'm scrolling to see what it says, and so
it's saying, Oh my gosh, it seems like they're not
even going to live there. It says reportedly they are
planning to use the manner, which they are now relabeling
(09:46):
is five ninety four, to host meetings and nonprofit events.
They already own other properties in LA and nearby Montecito,
plus London, Washington, DC, Miami Beach, New York City, San Francisco,
and on Nantucket Island. Wow, that's a lot of properties. Okay,
So I was wondering. It's so funny, I guess something
(10:08):
that big. It doesn't seem like a family home. But
my instinct when I heard they bought it, I was like, Oh, okay,
do they have a big family Like I don't know,
but I mean, I like, they're going to use it
for nonprofit events, but meetings, I don't know. Kind of
bums me out, just because in some form it's my
(10:29):
dad mom's legacy. Like, my dad's not here and it
was the last place I lived with him, So it's
hard to think that it's going to be used for
just like a meeting hall. I wonder if they'll change
up anything inside. What does Eric Schmidt intend to do
(10:57):
with the manner that he just bought. It's so hard
to talk about this. I didn't even think it would
be this hard to talk about. And it feels weird
inside talking about it, like some like repressed block, Like
I feel this is so strange. I'm talking about this
and it's feeling like an elephant sitting on my chest,
like maybe I have things I haven't talked about. You guys,
(11:20):
it's really this topic is very challenging for me to
talk about because if you know me, you know that
I have strived my whole life and career to kind
of be the anti rich girl. It was something that
I was bullied really bad when I was little about
my dad having money and being famous, and it's something
(11:42):
I took on to such a degree that I actually
change it, manifested in a way that it changed my
trajectory in my lifetime. Look at me, I'm so savvy
talking about something serious and I still managed to get
my name in there. I'm sorry I distracked with comedy.
It wore on me so heavily that I do feel
(12:06):
on some level that I manifested my life staying small.
Like everyone has these perceptions of who I am and
what I am as defined by who my father is
and his wealth. So I'm going to make a note
to be the anti that my whole life and see
(12:27):
if people like me better then And let me just
tell you, like lean into what you're given and what
you are, because it doesn't help to me the other way.
Like anyone that's met me will say, oh, she's so nice,
she's so kind, she's great. But in some way, I
I'm a very intelligent woman, and I feel like I
(12:52):
have not on purpose, but like almost like subconsciously like
defeated myself or like tanked myself at times throughout my career.
I think people said, you know, people would say things
all the time like she's not talented, she's not And
now doing a nine oh two and a rewatch that
(13:13):
Jenny Garth and I do called nine O two one, OMG,
check it out if you haven't. We are on season
seven doing a rewatch. Now I watch it all back
and I'm like, gosh, I moved forward in a career
thinking I couldn't act, thinking I wasn't good enough, thinking
that I would never have succeeded in this industry if
(13:35):
it wasn't for my dad. I heard it so often
that I actually believed it. And now I watch it
back and I'm like, subjectively, I'm watching as a fan,
and I'm like, Donna is really good. Taking myself out
of it for a second, you guys, Tory spelling. Look,
it's even hard for me to say is a very
(13:55):
good actress. And it's like, wow, now at fifty two,
my brain's like, what we have to rewire and learn this.
We believed all the other stuff for so long. So anyway,
going back, I think I don't even know what I
was talking about. You know, I get so sidetracked. But
going back, it was so ingrained in me to be
(14:19):
the opposite. I mean, growing up, I used to go
into our laundry room and I would bring my blanket
and my stuffed animals, and I would get like food
and drink and books and like my diary, and I
would go into a cupboard in the laundry room and
I'd be like, I was always very respectful, So I
(14:43):
would never tell my parents like I hate that we
have this like big house, and I hate that we
have this big these big lives, and it's really hard
for me. So I think keeping that repressed as a
little girl at like five and six and seven and eight,
and just kept going. But yeah, granted, our lifelaundry room
is like was bigger than like the size of my
bedroom now, but it wasn't crazy thing. But like the cupboard,
(15:08):
it was large enough for me, as like a six
year old child to fully stand up in. But I
would go in there and like decorate and put stickers
on one of the cupboards in the laundry room and
take the rooms down and everything and be like, this
is my home. This is all I want, Like I
don't want this big house. And I was like, this
is where I feel coziest. And keep in mind, I
(15:31):
feel like now we're so forward thinkers. We're such forward thinkers,
especially with our children about you know, therapy and you know,
mental health awareness and conversations about emotions. Keep in mind,
I grew up in the seventies and it was no
fault to my parents, but that just wasn't really talked about.
(15:53):
So as a child, you know, having these thoughts, it
wasn't like my parents weren't talking me through stuff. But
I never thought to communicate that to them. I never thought,
you know, and I'm sure they didn't think to communicate
it with me a child. So yeah, you can imagine
if I lived in a ten thousand square foot house
(16:14):
and was so shamed because of that that I wanted
to live in a cupboard in the laundry room. Imagine
what it was like when the world found out we
were building a house and moving into a fifty six
thousand square foot house. I think I just literally went
numb inside, and I don't know, just like shut off
(16:36):
that part of that connection with that house. And still
when my kids see pictures of it online, they're like,
is that the White House is that? They're like, what
is that? And I'm like, that's my family home. And
I still I look at it and I feel like
I have no real real connection to it. But I'm
(16:58):
sure it just lies beneath the emotions are there, and
it's just so strange to see it turning over to
new hands. Anyway, I always wish I could get one
more walk through it, but maybe the past is better
left in the past. So I wonder what they'll do
(17:20):
to it. I wonder how they'll redecorate it. I wonder
if they're well, they're having a nonprofit event I could
get an invitation one day. Remember when it was it
was all in the news that j Lo and Ben
when they were together, they were going to possibly buy it.
Do you remember this, Yeah, and they had looked at it.
(17:40):
That would have been fun, But like, what did they
need the house that size for? What does anyone need
house that size for kids? I mean except between my
brother and I we have seven kids as grown adults
will be grandparents to multiple generations grandkids and great grandkids hopefully,
(18:03):
and we could have used that. It could have been
like I mean, honestly, I would say it should be
like a bet. I always wanted it to be like
a bed and breakfast that my brother and I like
had together and then our kids could like stay there.
I don't know, it would have been nice. I want
to say it would have been nice to keep it
(18:24):
in the family, but again, it's not something that I
feel represents our family. Like my childhood home. I would
love like if my brother and I still had that
and keep it in the family, and because that's where
all the memories are. It's so rare in life. I'm
always curious about people that say, you know, the stories
(18:46):
that people are like, Okay, later in life, like their family,
they kept the family home in the family and then
when people passed away, it got handed down and they
kind of moved their own family in there and make
new memory. I'm always curious about people who are like, oh,
I still live in my family home, like my mom
dad passed away and then we kept it. I'm always curious,
(19:09):
like what happens, like because you have such memories of
being a kid there, They're like, then you have to
shift gears to being an adult there. I don't know.
The pool house alone in that property is bigger than
my own house, so that I could have easily my
my five kids and I could have lived in the
house alone, been very, very happy. We could have been squatters.
(19:33):
It was on the market for a long time. I've
seen horror films. What are they called froggers. Have you
heard of this? No? Oh, that's right, Damn. We had
so much in common till that froggers. I believe maybe
(19:56):
this is not a real thing, Like if you have
an attic space or something like people live there, they
break in and live there and while you're living in
the house. Nope, never am I making this up? No,
but I'm saying nope, like, I don't want any part
of that. What are froggers that live in your house? Frogging?
(20:21):
It's p hrgg i g when someone secretly lives in
your attic without your knowledge. Yeah. This term refers to
the act of someone living in a house without the
homeowner's consent or knowledge, often in hidden spaces like addicts,
crawl spaces, or even basements. The term is thought to
originate from the idea of a person leaping from space
(20:43):
to space like a frog, potentially to avoid detection. So
if you didn't know about it, I'd scare the shit
out of everybody out there, because if you have any
type of attict space or something, it could be a
frogger living in it. Sorry anyway, my point being, oh
(21:04):
my gosh, if someone lived in the attic of the
manor the attic was my mom had like a beauty
salon up there, but not really a beauty salon. My
dad would always go to the barber, but as he
got older or have the barber come to him and
just cut his hair in his bathroom. But she put
(21:26):
up a salon up there with like a hair like
washing bowl, everything like a stand like to like you
would go to a beauty salon and you're at like
a station. She put like two stations in there. One
and half was like the barbershop. One was the beauty
salon for her, and that was up in what you
would call an attic. But literally the attic didn't look
(21:46):
like the addict, you know, it was like pallacious, I
want to say, like, oh my gosh. The square footage
had to have been I mean, it's the length of
the house, but it was like the third floor and
our basement was in a basement. The base is where
we had the bowling alley and the arcade and the
doll museum and the gym and the bar and recreation room.
(22:08):
So we technically didn't have like like in the the
mechanics of the house, like you know what am I
talking about, Like the air conditioning unit and the air filters.
Like everything was like in the behind the scenes of
the manor. So you would like push a wall in
one room, which was the bowling alley, and you would
(22:29):
go into like hallways behind the scenes where all the
power stuff was and like everything that made the manner
light up and have power, and then you would come
down the other side in the Doll Museum, like a
hidden passageway got him. I'm like creeping myself out now
telling these stories. But it wasn't creepy. It was like
fun and friends were really impressed, were really excited, and
(22:52):
I was always like, oh god, no. But anyway, froggers,
if you lived in an attic at the Manor, you
have literally it had to have been at least ten
thousand square feet or more, so you could have literally
a huge home. You could have like two families lived there. Okay,
(23:14):
that's my view on the Manor five ninety four. And
my mom always had like stationery that would say like
all the heads of the sorry, all the notepads. The
header would say the Manor and property of the Manor
like pens and everything, all that stuff that like hotels
would have, but kind of we had that. That's so wild.
(23:38):
Oh my gosh, I wish I had some of those saved.
I love that. Yeah, it was pretty cool. I mean
think about it. It was the size bigger than hotels anywhere.
Like you had to have some like wink wink nod nod,
like kind of fun gesture about like I have the
biggest at the time single family residence anywhere. It's being
(24:02):
compared to the taj Mahal on Google, Like, oh my god,
I feel like I read that it was bigger than
the taj Ma Hall. But I could be I read
that too, and my brain always trying to like apologize
for growing up with wealth. I read that too, and
instead of saying it was even bigger than the taj Mahll,
(24:22):
I couldn't even say that. So I said the size
of the taj Mahll. Fine, they say it was bigger.
Oh what wild what a wild ride life is?
Speaker 1 (24:34):
Did you watch the video to see what it looks like?
Speaker 2 (24:38):
No, I can't open and wait to hold them.
Speaker 1 (24:41):
Welcome to the Manor, one of the finest estates in
Los Angeles is over fifty six thousand square feet.
Speaker 2 (24:46):
That's where I got married.
Speaker 1 (24:48):
The White House close that offers fourteen bedrooms twenty seven
bathrooms on four point six acres all. This is on
the market for one hundred and sixty five million dollars.
This is the foyer of the Manor. The ceilings are
thirty feet high. It has a double staircase, very grand.
(25:11):
The chandelier has a mechanism that raises and lowers it
and the staircase railing is a one continuous piece hand
forged in Texas. It is legendary in the city. It
is the most important entry hall by far, and it
is a site to behold. The manner was built in
the style of a French chateau, with many details from
that period, including.
Speaker 2 (25:31):
The lions out front of day Lackerism flat.
Speaker 1 (25:34):
The manor was built on the former estate of Big Crosby.
Aaron and Candy Spelling tore the house down to build
their dream vision, a family home that would be cherished
for them and for other generations. It took seven years
and one hundred and fifty workers every day.
Speaker 2 (25:50):
Oh that part made me sad that he said, like
their dream vision, first family home for many generations to come,
that didn't happen. It looks nice. I think that's the design.
(26:10):
Like the renovation, not renovation, but like the home deke Hoar.
Inside is what the Eggosteines did before. Definitely modernized it
a bit. It did. It did look a little more
like Homie like cozy. The foyer was changed. The foye
is exactly the way my mom built it, except it
(26:31):
was like a brass I think the chandelier I believe
is the same. My mom had that put in and
it did like you could push a button and it
would come down so that they could clean all the crystals.
You push a button, it would raise back up because
thirty feet what do you say, thirty feet dolls ceilings
and thirty foot dolls. Wow. But that staircase, I remember
(26:55):
asking her once because it was this double entryway Foye staircase,
and it was so grand and it completely connected. So
you would go one side of the staircase and it
was like the little, you know, hallway. You would stand
looking over very like Romeo and Juliet, and then you
would go down the other side, so it was all
one continuous staircase. And I did ask her once why
(27:22):
such a big staircase, and she said, so when you
get married one day, you can walk down that staircase.
And I was like, oh, that's so romantic. But I
did actually get married there first to my first husband,
but we didn't walk down that staircase. We actually started
outside and my dad was old and sick by that point,
(27:45):
so he couldn't walk me that far. I was already
walking across the whole driveway. It was a long walk,
so maybe that's why we didn't come down the staircase.
And also that staircase like growing up spelling like my
dad his vision like Dinahs, that staircase reminded me of Dynasty,
which came before the Manner, So I'm like, oh my gosh,
I wonder if that was always the intention, like to
(28:09):
walk down that staircase. Very very fancy. I feel like
it's been so prevalent in the news about the Manner selling,
(28:29):
and everyone has asked me how I feel about it
that I just I don't know, like I said, shut
down on it, and I thought, well, it's probably interesting
for people to hear my thoughts on how I feel
about it selling. So I decided to do this episode
on it. Didn't read any of the information except that,
(28:51):
you know, I knew the head of Google bought it
until I started this podcast today, and I just wanted
to be raw and kind of whatever came up. You know,
me never at a loss for gab, Like I can
talk and talk and talk, and like I've said, this
episode might seem a little scattered, but it's because I
(29:14):
always have something to talk about, and I could talk
about anything, and I never shy away from any topic,
as you guys know, and this one, as as it's
unfolded right now in the last hour, been very hard
for me to talk about. And like I said, it's
feeling like a weight on my chest and it's feeling
(29:34):
bringing up some sort of memories and emotions that I
am trying to access while keeping the ball rolling as
a host of this podcast. And it's conflicting because I
don't know what all these emotions are that are coming up.
I guess I should ask my therapist what this means. Oh,
(29:57):
I should bring around the show. We should talk about
the manner. But yeah, so I just wanted to say,
you're kind of getting me at my ross right now.
And this is the intimate Like I don't even have
any comedic things to say about it right now, but
it's definitely bringing up a lot of emotions. I think
(30:19):
there's a twofold thing coming to hand right now, to
head to hand to heart, to all of the above.
I did a TV series which was a single camera
sitcom which was loosely based on my life called So Notorious.
(30:42):
With it was an amazing show. It was It's okay
for me to say that, hey is the first time
in my life. I got critical acclaim from like people
out there, They're like, oh my gosh, And I knew
that was a kiss of death when everyone wrote, like
in the press, the was like critically acclaimed that I
(31:02):
was actually good for ones, Like I should have known
it wasn't going to work. But that said, it was
me and Lannie Anderson and Zach Quinto and James Carbonello,
and it was and a wonderful cast, and it was
a really fun show because it was, while loosely based
(31:27):
on my life, it basically was a show that I
co created and the idea came from everyone had a
preconceived notion of me, of my life. And this took
place when I was in my late twenties. So at
that time I was off nine o two and zero.
But you know, the press always had something to write
about me. The tabloid said something I'd write about me,
and this was my time to you know, I remember
(31:48):
my pitch was I took all the bad tabloid articles
about me, the crazy stuff written even and made a
little scrap book and I took that into pitch meetings
a T shirt with all the rumors about me and everything,
and yeah, and I went in and said, I laughed
(32:09):
about it, and I said, here's everything. It was very
you know, relied on self deprecating humor and just kind
of if you can't beat them, join them. And the
show originally was created for NBC and the pilot didn't
get picked up there. We then took it to vh one,
where it went one season. But this was at a
(32:32):
time when they hadn't done scripted TV. It was all
unscripted reality and competition shows and the big big show
there was like Flavor of Love and you know, Finding
Love and all that. So it didn't quite work for
that audience, but I still stand by it was a
really fun show and really well received and a lot
(32:53):
of it took place. The reason I'm bringing this up
is we had a fictitious manner and a lot of
it was like the jokes of going We obviously couldn't
use the real manner, and you know, all names it
was loosely based on people that had been in my life,
but we changed all the names and we added different
qualities of you know, new characters. The only one that
(33:18):
was really real ish was me, you know, and I
played Tory Spelling. But it was like a heightened version,
a comedic version of everything, and you know, every joke
in the book, and then some about me making fun
of myself basically because everyone else does. And we had
(33:38):
to rent another house that was oddly enough, in the
same area as my parents' house. Couldn't quite get one
as big because it didn't exist, but we filmed there
and we filmed it as the manner and all that
and me getting lost in the house and my friends
couldn't find me, all those jokes. But it's just odd
(34:01):
timing that memories of that are coming up. And my
on camera mother, Lonnie Anderson, just passed away recently, so
it and she was so amazing and lovely and one
of those people that come into your life and we
didn't work together for that long, only for a year,
but she's someone who has stayed in my heart for
(34:25):
the rest of my life and really taught me so
much about a female in this business and on screen.
And you know, I was still the age at the
time and she had been you know, the Angeenu for
years and now it was a different time and place,
(34:46):
you know, playing an older woman on TV. And she
always taught me, you know, you don't need this now,
but lighting's going to be very important to you later
as an actress. Always have them light you from below.
I've never forgotten that. Yeah, And she just taught me
so much about being kind and humble, and she was
(35:06):
such a legend and a star and so and was
very formative in my life when I started my relationship
with Dean and when I became a mom for the
first time, and just one of those amazing humans that
just sticks with you and your soul forever. But it's
just the uncanny timing of she played my mom in
(35:29):
a fictitious world based on my life and her passing away,
and then like the keys of the kingdom changing hands,
the manner itself getting sold, and it's just now I'm
talking about my feelings of that, and it's just like,
oh my god, I can't find the words, and it's
(35:50):
just all like all coming into my being right now
of emotions of how I feel about everything. So it's
just bizarre timing, that's all. But yeah, so I just
want to say sorry, this episode might have seem a
little scattered, but this is how I feel, and I
(36:10):
feel like I want to do a deeper dive into
how I really feel about what others call my childhood
home because it would be interesting to figure out where
the repressed memories are and feelings that I'm obviously having
get to the bottom of that. So I guess, as
I'm trying to say, is I don't have an end
to this ending. I know there's a lot of finality
(36:36):
with this, but I guess I haven't found my finality
with this in my heart. So yeah, but you know me,
I always got to bring comedy into it. So I
guess when they say you can't ever go home again,
this is true. It just sold I really can't go
home now.
Host
Shannen Doherty
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