January 27, 2020 • 54 mins
Welcome to Season 4 of Locatora Radio & the first episode of the year! On this capítulo we share our Season 4 concept, "Asesinas Wanted for Crimes against the Patriarchy."
This capítulo we talk about: conspiracy theories, Aaron Hernandez, unfulfilling jobs, and our favorite & least favorite things about each other.
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This capítulo we talk about: conspiracy theories, Aaron Hernandez, unfulfilling jobs, and our favorite & least favorite things about each other.
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Radio Radio Radio Commies of Myth and Bullshit a radio
phonic novella radio hosted by Malamn. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi,
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look amotis welcome to season four of Look Radio rosas
Assina's wanted for Crimes against the Patriarchy. Look At Radio
is a radiophonic novella archiving the brilliance and legacies of
women and fems of color. I'm Diosa and I'm Mala,
and we are Las Mammies of Myth and bullshitas locals
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of radio radio phonic novella, which is just a really
extra way of saying a podcast. Welcome. It's season four.
It's so much newness, so much newness, also so much
sameness at the same time. It's fun. Yes, I'm excited
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to introduce our season four concept to talk about it. Yes,
by now you have hopefully seen a flyer announcements circulating
on Instagram four season four with some new visuals. Absolutely
so to recap season three we were from revenge never
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sounded so sweet and this year season four, new season,
new theme. We are us wanted for crimes against the
patriarchy and we're just continuing along with the idea of
seeking revenge against machismo and the patriarchy, and now we
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are probably on the run for our crimes and they're
not going to catch us because they can't keep up.
And that's where we're at. Yeah, you can't keep a
bad bitch down, basically, you can't. You cannot kill a
bad bitch. No, no, no, indestructible. Yes. And then when
thinking about our visuals and our concept we were looking
back at the Roaring twenties, right, so if you look
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at our hair and the flyer, definitely like inspired by
the Roaring twenties and thinking about how we are literally
in now so kind of like an old meats new
futuristic at the same time, Yes, like everything all at once,
but make it futuristic and sort of like a neo
noir feel. We had the pink suspenders. Um, we sort
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of like business bitch vibes, like a hard film mafiosa vibes.
That's the feeling. So we want to shout out Chapin
Michelle our visuals team for helping us out as far
as photography, editing, putting the posters together. Um, it's really
fun collaborating, Like we come up with the concepts, the ideas.
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Robbert our makeup artists helps us like look lamb and
put it out together and that's teamwork and then it's
a beautiful thing. Yeah. Yeah, this is one of my
favorite shoots. It was definitely the most professional shoot we had.
We booked a location, we had to make up artist in,
hair stylist Robert doing everything um And it's so funny
because he asked us, like, so you'all would just do
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this yourselves before and we were like, yeah, it was
a mess. But we're leveling up this year and in
one year, that's a big leap to make from doing
every little thing ourselves and like building the set in
choppin Michelle's living room, to like having a location and
all these different elements. It's a good leap. It's a
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good leap. I mean, okay, I think this episode is
going to be a lot of um us ambiguously talking
about the the glow ups that we're working on that
are to come, that are in progress, and um this
is all part of it, you know, definitely even stepping
up the aesthetics in that way. Yeah, it's exciting. It's
exciting to see the grow like from season one, like
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we took our our very first episode promo picks we
took in Mala's neighborhood. Yeah, you know on my my
DSLR camera. Yes, that's all We'll say. We'll leave it
there and then we you know, did pictures at Vista
Mosta one year. We worked with Ruth and Truth another
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year where we did the Pink BoA's That was like
the very first look at that a live promo that
we did. So we've just like progressively become more ridiculous
in the best possible way with the themes for our
photo shoots and for our season four concepts. Yeah, and
we want to thank Getty that Los Angeles for the
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earrings that we're wearing in the shoot. Uh. Those are
like gold dollar sign earrings, dangly ones that were both wearing.
So shout out Getty the Los Angeles for the drip
shade it. Yeah. So you can check her out at
Getty the Los Angeles dot big Cartel dot com. She
is a Latina entrepreneur. She runs her own business and
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she has beautiful accessories if you want to check her out.
Thanks to her again for providing the jewels for our
photo shoot. The adornment important. Uh, something else that's new
this season is our return to Patreon. We relaunched. We
never actually left Patreon, we just weren't active active. We
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were not giving our patrons any incentives in return for
their monthly donation. But they continue to donate just in
support and in solidarity of the work, which we appreciate.
Thank you for full transparency. When we realized we weren't
able to keep up with it, we um asked our
patrons if they would like for us to return their money,
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and they many of the all of them said no,
we would like to be able to own it you
to you monthly instead of using the venmo. They liked
having the pat patre generous. So shout out to all
of our founding members of our Patreon there are founding members,
they have been with us since. And also shout out
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to our new patrons Tony, Carla, Xavier, Yes, Chef and
Dan there are newest patres Patreons. Thank you for joining
our digital social circle. It's gonna be a great year.
We are like determined to really grow this Patreon absolutely,
you know, like we are totally of the mindset that
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it's good for us to have our content live in
multiple places and not just on Apple podcasts or on
Instagram for example, Like it's good to have your own
little piece of the internet, you know, um where you
can share your work. And we really want to make
the Patreon community a solid one, a strong one, and
active one. So check us out look at at a
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Radio on Patreon. There's multiple tiers. You can even started
five bucks. There's a ten dollar tier, there's a twenty
five dollar tier. Check us out, sign us out Patreon
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the incentives is really cool for the ten dollar homegirl
in tier. With that tier, you can actually we're going
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to give you a private number on Google Voice and
you'll call in and you can be a part participate
in Oya Locas, so you know that's one of our
favorite segments. So you'll be able to ask questions that
way and also be featured on the podcast. So definitely
check out Patreon dot com, slash Local Underscore Radio. And
then there's at the dollar tier, you will have access
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to information about secret get togethers and meet ups. And
the name of that little community is look amore is Anonymous,
So if you want to be one of our look
on what is anonymous? Check out that twenty five dollar tier,
and um, that's going to be like I think, pretty
specific to l A. Yeah, absolutely, yeah, yeah, And if
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you're not in l A, I mean we could do
a FaceTime or something. We'll figure it out. We'll make it. Yes,
I'm not concerned, alright. And then we're also launching something
new this year. We are launching our newsletter, a Look
at our Radio newsletter. So exciting. Yes, So that will
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be a cute little way to receive the newest episode
straight to your inbox, in addition to other things that
were into that week, stuff that we're feeling, events there
were planning. It will definitely be a behind the scenes
exclusive as to what look At That is doing that,
what you won't necessarily find on the Instagram just yet.
So it'll be a good sneak peek and a good
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way to keep up with us and what's to come.
So I'm going to put that in our show notes
so you can subscribe and we hope to see you
there on the newsletter. That's going to be like a
fun new edition. Yeah. We're like acting on lots of
ideas that we've had. We're putting them into motion now,
which is exciting. It is exciting, and like Mama mentioned,
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like it's good to not just live on one social
media platform. A newsletter is a good way for us
to have direct communication with our listeners because we're sending
you info, we know that you'll see it. In the
same like the Patreon, we can build community with you
in ways that we can to via Instagram. Especially all
last year we talked about shadow banning and all of that,
(09:28):
so this will be a new way to keep up
with us. Absolutely, the shadow ban is real. Um, we
don't trust any of these social media platforms. They don't
belong to us, we don't own them, we don't have
a whole lot of control over how they work. So
you know, we got to go to other places. Um. Yeah,
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And I've been saying about like brujas especially, get their
accounts taken down, get their comment section blocked so they
can post, but they literally can write captions and no
one can comment. It's just a whole mess. It's weird,
and it's just very interesting who is getting censored and
we know who it is. You know, a lot of
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hate speech is also happening via social media, but then
that never seems to get taken down. So it's very
interesting to see what's playing how it's playing out, and
all the memes that, like, all the memes that point
out how how much of an extraterrestrial life form, like
Mark Zuckerberg looks like it's not helping, right, he like
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is morphing into something like non human and that's what
happens when you do evil things. We should have a
conspiracy theory episode. I agree, because you know, like that
like belief of like the reptilian you know, have you
ever dived into that? Okay, so that's scary. Yeah. So basically,
(10:57):
so my friend was telling me because she came into
contact with these people that were of the belief that
like reptilian people exist. So if you look at people
in power, they look like reptilian. So like one good
example is like Trump literally looks like a toad. I'm screw. Yeah.
So there's like all these different examples of people in
history and how they have very reptilian like features. Yeah,
(11:19):
so that's like all that he does. So that's like
all I can really say about it right now because
that's like the bare minimum that I know about it.
So it's reptilian belief, right, But I think that we
should we should do an episodehere we dive into conspiracy theories.
I agree completely. Um. I think that Mark Zuckerberg, the
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sameness of his haircut over the years also disturbs me,
like to a degree that's hard for me to What
kind of reptilian would he be? Oh my god, he
would be a reptilian. I don't know enough about reptiles
to place him. Hold on, let me think so if
up as a toad and Zuckerberg has those kind of
like his eyes are dead set and beauty at the
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same time confusing, and he needs eye drops. He looks
that his eyes look itchy. Some type of a lizard,
some type of a lizard. YouTube video called Mark Zuckerberg
is a lizard. Oh god, the whole meme community that
doesn't think Mark Zuckerberg wait for it is human. There
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you go. We're not the only ones. Other people have
made this observation stress. Other people have noticed. Ikay, I
closed it. Thank you. He can't hurt us. Well anyway, Well,
I think the downfall of Instagram is when it got
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sold to Facebook, because I had its glory days. I
like this. That's how one of the ways that you
and I met. You and I met aside from Twitter.
It's a lot. It's a way that a lot of
us met, a lot of us have built community, folks
have organized via Instagram, and now it's just like shadowing
no caption. There was a day, there was a time
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of very heavy posting on our parts and just spending
lots and lots and lots of time on I just
my day was very much about Instagram totally, which like
saying that out loud and like thinking about that is
so funny, but it's true, Like that's what we were.
(13:37):
I mean, yeah, we were also working or whatever. Yeah,
we were on Instagram. We're on Instagram. Yeah. But also
it was thanks to our micro followings on i G.
It's that we were able to fund all those funnel
those followers into the podcast. I mean, don't get me wrong,
I'm still on Instagram. I still spend plenty of time
on there. It just doesn't feel the same. It's not
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the same. Yeah, do you all agree, listeners? Let us
know is that how you feel? Do you feel the same? Also,
if you know about the reptilians, please comment, because I'm
sure that you all know about it. Tell us about
more reptilians that you have seen or in history. Okay,
So my friend was hanging out with this couple and
it goes without saying that they were white. Okay, let's
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start there. So she was hanging out with these people
that believe in the Reptilians, and they also believe that
they could move things with their mind. So she was
hanging out with them for like a minute, and then
she said she started she called and she started telling
me about these people. And I was like, I'm going
to stop you right there. They're trying to get you
to join a cult. I'm telling you right now, they're
trying to get you to join a cult. So then
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she tells me that she like hangs out with them,
and all of a sudden, there's like a meeting, like
a bunch of people are coming over, and I was like, girl,
you need to go, Like, you need to get out
of there first. I know first. So eventually she was like, Okay,
things got really weird. I'm no longer hanging out with them,
but yeah, that that was my first exposure to the
Reptilian conspira rac theory. They're really out there, are recruiting people. Yes,
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there are people that like firmly believe this I'm scared.
I hope we haven't like invoked their their spirit. They like,
this is true, Well it's out there. Fuck it all right, Well,
if we disappear, you know what happened. You know what
happened in the repilions. The other conspiracy theory that I
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like is about like Ted Cruz being the Zodiac Killer
and him looking like he could be the Zodiac if
you know, if it came out that he was a
serial killer, I would believe it. I wouldn't be shocked
speaking of serial killer, speaking of conspiracy theories. Okay, so
we were watching, we were pre recording. We were talking
(15:46):
about the Aaron Hernandez documentary, the series, the docuseries. We
both watched it separately. We didn't tell each other. We
didn't where do we begin? What do you think? Where
do we start? Okay, well I saw this For those
who maybe don't know who Aaron Hernandez is or who
haven't seen it, who was who was Aaron Hernandez? Aaron
Hernandez was a I forget his position, but he was
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in the NFL. He was to the tight end of
the Patriots right, and so he was this really like
young twenty four year old Puerto Rican from Connecticut and
he was drafted into the Patriots. So he's like at
the height of his career and signed for forty million dollars. Yes,
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lived in a mansion, had like the dream life, right,
like he had made it. He like accomplished his goals,
basically won the Super Bowl for the Patriots. Basically, Yes,
like a darling of the NFL and of the United States.
I didn't know this that we were watching it, and
I was like, I like pointed out to my to
my man, like, oh, like while people were really like
(16:54):
rollying for him, and and he was like, yeah, he's
a he was a fucking Patriot, And like I didn't
understand stand, like because you know, I'm not really a
sports person, but like people are really committed to their
sports team. So yeah. Anyway, Um, so he was tried
for and convicted for murder, and at the same time
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while they were investigating that case that he was also
um a suspect in another murder that that predated his
Patriot Super Bowl winner Bowen right before he had even
been drafted, before he had been signed. Yes, so when
he was a college student. Yes, So there was there's
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a lot of theories there's a lot of Yeah, there's
a lot of theories going around right now, especially on
Twitter and so and what's interesting, you know to I
think to me about all of this is so, you know,
he was a lot of things. There's so many layers,
there's so much to say and unpack, and so many questions.
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Interesting that he was such like a national hero and
that he was of Puerto Rican descent in the NFL,
that's not really like a narrative we hear all the time.
There was that particular attention on him, and then he
was a superstar at such a young age, and and
also like the survivor of child abuse, of childhood sexual abuse,
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and which his brother spoke about DJ hernandez Um on
the in the docuseries. And then there was a lot
of focus on these different speculations and conversations about his sexuality.
And we were like sort of talking about how they
used so many different words and labels to talk about
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and describe him. So some people throughout the docuseries he
was gay, he was closeted, he was bisexual, and just
the like jumping back and forth between all these words.
It was interesting and odd, you know, And this was
talked about like the folks in the docuseries had a
balance of perspectives and said, you know what, no matter
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what it was that he was going through, he still
made choices and he killed people, and accountability like matters,
you know, And it goes along the saying, Okay, there's
just such a genre of film and entertainment of let's
hyper focus on men who have murdered people and abused
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people and think about all angles and all sides of
their lives and contemplate their humanity and sympathize over them
and with them. But there are dead people like in
their way. When we first started watching it, because I
watched it with my man, with my partner, and um,
just the opening like montage of like all these different
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photos of him, I thought, when I said aloud to him,
like how difficult is this for the families that he murdered,
Like you know, the are seeing the way that we're
humanizing this murderer, and I think, I don't know, Like
there I understand the importance of nuance and having that
conversation about his life and like everything that led up
(20:11):
to you know, these different murders at the same time,
exactly like you said, we're also humanizing someone that killed
multiple people. Yeah, it's wild. And all of his victims
were black men, you know, and what's that like, what
what is that about? And whatever rage you have? Why
are you direct Why was he directing it at black
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men specifically? Like, and that's a piece that wasn't I
don't think remember hearing that being touched on or discussed
in the docuseries. And then we had talked about how
there was very small mentioned towards the end of just
the physical and mental damage that happens to you when
you're a football player, when you're like receiving all these
blows to your body and your head for years and
(20:55):
years on end while you're training and playing. That that
the like the specialists, the brain specialists that UM examined
his brain post mortem said that it was like the
worst case of CTE in a person, in such a
young person that they had ever seen. Like his brain
was like like atrophied, Like it was very advanced. And
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I mean, again, so many different factors UM. And it
also it says so much too about this continued conversation
about the NFL and players being expendable and those players
are their bodies are wrecked, like completely, they retire, So yeah,
you know, and just people are expendable to the NFL,
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the domestic violence victims that they overlook and ignore so
that you know, abusers can continue play and play. You know,
their players literally suffering prolonged and constant brain damage. And
and the NFL is considered a nonprofit, so then thinking
of all the tax write offs that they must receive
because they're suffied as a non are they they are?
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That is effing crazy. Yeah, that's too much. I can't
even like. And I remember because my dad is a
big football fan and when we all lived together, like
Sunday night football and then Monday night football were like
a big deal. And so you know, Dad's got the
TV on Sunday nights and then on Monday nights and
(22:25):
we're a Raiders family. Um, but Aaron harnd Is was
a huge name, and he was a huge deal. So
when the although I myself don't really watch football, when
the docuseries came out, I was like hesitant. I was like,
I don't know if I want to. That's how I
thought about it too, Yeah, but I was curious. But same,
that's how they get you. I had no one I
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have no investment in football or the Patriots. I mean
the owner is a known Trump supporter, same as Tom Brady,
So like, I have no interest in watching anything related.
But it's a Netflix DOCUSERI reason when Neflix has great advertising,
the timeline is on fire and everybody and everyone's talking
about well I want to know too, Well, let me
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find out, you know, oh my god. But yeah, I know,
like it's totally unacceptable, like his actions and his behavior.
It's a huge conversation about professional football and the way
that players are treated, I mean, the way that victims
are treated when a celebrity causes harm to the public,
you know, and getting like kind of second hand treatment.
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And then even in the docuseries, it's the same dynamic. Dynamic. Yeah,
And I was really put off by the way they
showed um Lloyd's body multiple times during the Netflix docuseries,
like in court, they like his mother was looking at
photos of her dead son's boss was horrible, you know,
in the morgue, and I like that really was off
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putting to me, And I thought, like, this is just
for effect and not because we actually needed to see it, right,
I didn't need to see his mother looking at her,
you know, she didn't need to see that. That was
a lot. I mean, um, it's really interesting sort of
the way that they laid out the narrative of his
life and the speculations around his sexuality and the focus
(24:11):
on it, and it was it was a lot of speculation.
It was a lot of it was investigators and and
and people commentators, like people making comments but who weren't
close to him. And I saw, you know, we were
looking at a Twitter thread, right, um, and somebody had questioned,
like that quarterback from high school, like when was the
(24:32):
last time that they had seen each other spoken? And
why was he such a primary source on him? I thought,
I thought that was strange too, because it's also one
of those things of like, are you outing someone that
was never out and I don't know, a very big
speculation on their sexuality, and then the person isn't here
(24:53):
to say, yes, that happened, no, that didn't happen. Yeah,
So then he committed suicide supposedly after he was acquitted.
I don't know. There's a lot you know, when people,
when people die in prison, especially the Epsteins of the world,
the Aaron hernandez Is of the world, like who's motivated
to keep them alive or to see them dead. And
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so it's hard to believe and to trust what you
hear coming out of a prison. It's just really hard
to really know the truth. Um. And then the speculating
about his sexuality, not to say that he wasn't queer,
but the amount of time that they spent on it
and speaking to non like people who weren't in his
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life was just very weird. There was a weird fascination
about it. I agree with you. I wish they would
have spent more time on the trauma that his body
experienced as a professional athlete, you know, because like there
are like real implications that of your of all the
(25:58):
damage to your brain and like what that actually does
to your decision making. Not in a way to like
not hold them accountable, but as someone that works with
folks with developmental disabilities, we actually have clients that were
in a car accident and then now all of a
sudden have this developmental disability right have to be an
assisted living you know. So it's like, I don't know,
there's it would have been it would have been worth
(26:19):
spending time on, but it wasn't. Yeah, So you know,
the question of things like sympathy and empathy come up
and are hard to wrestle with, and um, I try
not even to necessarily go there or think about things
like sympathy in these cases because it's there's there's a
(26:39):
very real tragedy in like people were killed and that's
just a fact of of that, and we don't want
to avoid or overlook that reality. But I think that
is the point of these types of docuseries or documentaries,
not just There and Hernandez one, but you know, even
(26:59):
like Ted Bundy, Ted Bundy was that that was a
Netflix original too, right, it was like a Ted Bundy series,
and like all the folks on Twitter that we're like,
oh Ted Bundy was so fine or whatever that I
never understood. I don't under she was a serial killer.
Er No, but it's like we have this weird fascination
(27:20):
with men that are serial killers. It's true individuals. Okay. Also,
can I just say, like, if we are going to
talk about attractive serial killers, it's not Ted Bundy. It's
not Ted Bundy. I mean, like you know, like, of
course like not to glamorize, but if we're going to
talk about like hotties, no, one ever ever mentions Richard Ramirez.
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Knew you were going to say an amazing bone structure,
was a monster, got married in prison, he had hell
of women writing to him, showing up for his court dates,
sitting in the audience, like, listen, if he wasn't a
serial killer, I would sit here and say, Richard Ramires
is a baddie, like with perfect bone structure. But you
know he was a monster and terrorised the youth side. Like,
(28:03):
let's not forget that. But I'm just saying, if we're
engaging in that conversation and I call bullshit, it's not sucking,
Ted Bundy, I called bullshit. This is whild I met
this out. This took I meant every word I said.
Do not edit this out? Alright, So moving on, speaking
of um, new year, same hose, how's your year treating
(28:27):
me so far? This has been a long January. Okay,
I feel already ever ending? Yeah, um, but no, I
feel like refreshed. I feel ready lots of changes coming.
I feel good about it. I feel like we've been
talking so much about all the things that we're planning
in like we're also seeing it come to life already.
(28:50):
Oh my god, Yes, we are reaping. We're reaping the
benefits already. We have been sewing a lot of seeds.
And even just in the past like seventy two hours,
so many things have just come towards into the inbox.
Is a treasure trove right now, keep it coming, keep
(29:11):
it up. Like even like last night late I get
a text from the ASA. Um what with the screenshot
containing details I will not share, but it was very exciting,
you know. It was more more announcements to come, like
(29:32):
a lot more. But anyway, this is a good time
to share that we will be at U C. Davis
February eight and we will be doing a platica about sexuality,
sex education, pleasure consent. See. Yes, there will be a
sex toy raffle if Davis or in the surrounding area.
Definitely come through. More details to come. Um, yes, that's
(29:56):
going to be great. Oh. I just remembered something that
I wanted to air today. We had a little birthday
party for my grandpa. Happy birthday. Um, he's been stressed
recently because of everything going on in Puerto Rico and
like all of his sisters you know, live on the island,
and very weird. All these earthquakes like not normal for
(30:19):
the region, so people people are freaking out obviously, and
Pierre has just been through a lot with the hurricanes
and all that stuff. So anyway, so we had a
birthday party for him today, and last year, in towards
the end of the year, he said that I was
at this morning, he said, I was a chingana nice.
I like that shift and like this is a good sign.
(30:40):
Is looking Maybe you were in a better mood. Maybe
you've been in a better mood. I have been in
a better mood. I was. I was that year. It
was a little bit kick my ass. I'm not going
to share exactly what I went through at the end
of the year because I'm going to save that story
(31:03):
for something else because it's really fucking funny. But just
know that I was like down for the count, like
I was done. Like I stayed home for New Year's
tried to keep me there, but I survived. I made
it to the other side. I'm here, bitch, intact one
piece that it was crazy. Oh but I downloaded Hinge
(31:29):
and back on the apps. Did you delete it yet? Okay? Look,
I asked my i G community on my story if
I should delete hinge. One hundred percent of people that
responded said yes, bitch, delete that ship or not an app.
I don't know what I need. Not an app. You
need to meet someone at the dog park. I need
(31:49):
a dog dad to help me co parent baba. You
know what I was realizing. I'm tired of being responsible
for like my own survival, like my own life force,
you know what I mean. And I want to outsource
my survival to someone else, like I need a partner
to It's really nice having that, Yes, you know what
I mean, like saying, keeping myself alive is so much work,
(32:11):
so much work. Um. Fernando often asked me like, well,
I thought you were a strong, independent woman, and I
always respond, no, I am not. I need you to
take care of me exactly, because that's his way of
like trying to be like, you can do this, go
do that, do this, and no, I don't want to
take care of me exactly. Stomps foot. Yeah. And then
(32:35):
we also had the conversation of how I'm actually a brat. Yeah,
that's true, that's true, and feed her. She gets angry.
I get really angry. And I didn't know this until
we started working. Oh my god, I didn't know this
about myself. I like see it coming. And if we're
like working with people, I'm like, oh my god, oh
my god, I'm god. And I like run and I
(32:56):
like get food for her, and then I like to
bring her an offering. I'm like, please don't hurt that anyway.
I get really tired and I need snacks. I need
constant snacks. This happened to me at work this past
week where I didn't pack enough snacks and I'm not
really cranky. So then that same day, I went to
(33:18):
Trader Joe's and I bought a bunch of stuff and
I made my own trail mix that's so cute. It
was delicious. So I packed myself that all week. So
I needed to have multiple snacks about the day. So
I'm trying to be more on top of that so
that I'm not cranky and I'm not out buying. I
spend so much money on food. I spend so much
money on food. It's so much easier to just pack
(33:40):
the snacks and the lunches. Pack the snacks. Yeah girl, um,
if there's any Snacks sponsors that want to place an
ad here, yeah, okay, specifically, I'm going to put out
a request, you know, like the adult lunchables, the like
the portable charcooterie. Basically that's what I anybody out there,
(34:01):
that's the sponsorship we want. Those are the snacks we're
looking for. Those really get you through, They really do,
they really really do. I'm gonna like wish, make a
wish on that. Let's hope that it comes true. Let's pray. Alright, y'all,
So we are going to get started with our last
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segment of the day of this episode. Ye look as
my favorite segment, the best segment. Let's see what y'all
want to know about. Look as here we go. Okay,
so this first question is how do you allow yourself
to leave a job that isn't fulfilling, fulfilling, feeling that guilt,
(34:43):
leave a job that isn't fulfilling, feeling that guilt. Well, Um,
the second I get an offer from a job where
they're offering me more money, I'm going to take it
and not feel bad about it. Because we live in
a capitalist society and we have to exchange our labor
for money to eat and have housing. I cannot feel guilty.
(35:08):
I can't feel guilty. Yeah, and also because your employer
will replace you easily, immediately. Immediately, they will replace you.
So I wouldn't feel guilty if you are in a
position to leave without having another job lined up, meaning
you have enough savings, you have you know, housing is secure,
(35:31):
all those different things like that's an option for you.
I would definitely explore that. If it's not, then I
would start applying to new jobs. And also, I think
it's important to be it's okay to be picky about
the jobs that we applied to and even the jobs
we accept. I know, the very first job that I
applied to out of college, it seemed amazing, um, and
it was also my first job off for ever, and
(35:53):
I thought, well, how can I not accept this right?
Even though the pay was decent, it was okay, it
was isn't great, um, but it was my first job offer.
And I could have waited and kept going and looking
and applying. But there's like so many things that play
like if you've come from a working class background, if
you're an immigrant, if you're all these different you know,
there's these different things, so many things, so many layers,
(36:15):
which kind of just makes you accept these jobs and
maybe aren't good for you in the long run. I mean,
if you're able to, I'm like, do what you gotta
do to survive and to achieve as much happiness as
you can. Like, if you can maximize income and happiness
at the same time, do it, do it, you know
what I mean. But if you've got to kind of
hustle and get out of a bad environment in order
(36:37):
to maximize your happiness, sometimes you have to like sacrifice
some one area right to increase your happiness and overall productivity.
Sometimes in other areas, if you hate your job, you're
not necessarily actually like working, you know. Like you could
be at a job and just hate it and not
do shit. Yep, that's a thing, you know. Or you
(37:00):
could be at a job where they're just completely overworking you,
you know. And so even for health reasons, it's always
okay to choose your health over a stressful or unhealthy
work environment. I agree, I mean always. I feel guilty
taking a sick day. I feel guilty taking time off,
Like I really that makes me feel guilty. But I
(37:21):
like try to remind myself, like this is literally a
lotted to me. I get sick days, I get paid vacation.
Not everyone does, right, So I should use it. I
need to use it. It's here. If I don't use it,
nobody else is going to use it. It's gonna not rollovers.
It's not. It's what's the point. I saw a tweet
(37:43):
ones Oh my god, I hate that we reference Twitter
so much, but it's a thing we are um to
put things in perspective. This tweet was like, literally, if
you were to die the next day, your employer is
like posting your job to be filled. They do not
give a ship. The individual human people that you call
(38:05):
coworkers you might form relationships with, but the job, the company,
the organization, the infrastructure, the machine does not care. The
machine is feeling and needs to keep churning out product,
whatever it is. So you know, yeah, we're also in
(38:27):
like the position of we want to quit our jobs
to do this whole time in the mindset, in the mindset,
in mind that that's our energy, right yeah, and that
we're not saying go quit your job, you know, not
site us and say that, because watch we have there
are a lot of creatives who like jump into the
(38:49):
abyss and quit their jobs without necessarily having a plan.
That's a way to do it. Some people do that.
We have not done that. We still work full time
and do all of this, you know what I mean,
because we cannot be without income. We can't just we don't.
We we don't have safety nets like that. There's nobody
(39:10):
paying our bills for us. We we don't have like
inheritance behind us. We don't have like, um, what's it
called generational wealth, so you know, like our parents don't
support us. So we have been working like triple time,
(39:31):
and we're only going to quit our jobs when we
are in a position to financially. So we would never
we never encourage people, Oh yeah, just quit your job,
follow your dream, no bitch, make sure you can pay
your bills and you can eat literally, yeah, you know, yeah,
they sit and see it's hot. Because we're also of
the generation where like as millennials, it is said statistically
(39:52):
that like the majority of us only have a thousand
dollars in our savings account. And that's like even if
you have a savings account, because so many of us
can't even do not put money away right we have,
We literally spend it all on bills, student loan, debt, healthcare, rent,
like all these different things, gas, especially if you live here,
so it is advised that you do have six months
(40:16):
worth of living expensive in your savings, and who and
who has that? I don't know who has that. I
know anybody that has that. It's also crazy because I
was explaining this to my partner because he doesn't have
student loans. He didn't qualify for student loans for any
different reasons. So even if I were to get a raise,
Let's say I was to get a ten percent increase
in my salary, I would then have to report that
(40:39):
to my federal loans and private loans, and then my
payment will increase. So even if I making more money,
more of it is going to get allotted to my
student loans. So I still can't put anything into my savings.
It's a fucking mess. And then what's crazy to me
is sometimes having the loans and paying on them is
(40:59):
what boost our credit. I know that's the case for me,
that I've been paying on these loans monthly for years
and it actually is a benefit to my credit. And
then hearing about people once they pay off their loans
now their credit is negatively affected because now they're no
longer making those monthly high payments. You know what I mean?
(41:20):
How do you offset that. I don't know. We need
an accountant. That's the other thing we needed ant, A
good one, A good one. You know how to handle
whatever it is that we do it. If you know
how to handle this. We have W two and we
have we do so it's like a mess. It's it's
(41:45):
it's it's all over the place. So we need a
little help if you know an accountant out there, not
W two. We have W nine's and we have all
those thing of it. So hit us up. Come through. Anyways,
next as we went in, we went off on a tangent.
You can really tell we feel ways about employment. My god. Yeah, anyway,
(42:11):
this question with an eating disorder, what do you think
is the best way to deal with food as a Latina?
Oh my god. I appreciate when these questions come up.
They do come up a lot for us, um, which
is valid because it's something we all deal with. But
I don't I feel like I give a different answer
each time each time this question comes up. I don't
(42:33):
remember what my position is on this. Okay, well you
think about it. I'm going to answer. Go for it, Okay,
for it. So I have been thinking a lot about
intuitive eating and I have been trying to practice that.
So just letting your body tell you what it is
that you want and giving it that. And for me
that's helped because I have been like on a consistent
gym routine for the past three months. But I'm so
(42:56):
then I'm in diet culture and I'm in gym culture,
and then it becomes it can become are toxic if
you're recovering from an eating disorder. So I'm very cognizant
of not getting into any like boot camps like um
what are they called um like fitness like six week
challenges type of thing, finish challenge challenges because they're all
about calorie counting and they offer you quote nutrition. But
(43:19):
it's really just it's not good if you've had an
eating disorder because it just will spiral into an eating
disorder once again. It's just hyper controlled eating is a
stepping stone, it really is. It's it's it's its own
type of orthorexia. And even thinking about the fact that
(43:40):
those fitness things are framed as challenges and kind of
making people compete against their own bodies and metabolism, it's
very weird, like who really is winning? But any and
as we know, those things are like not sustainable, and
rapid weight loss is not something that you can keep
up with. You will gain the weight back if that's
(44:03):
if you're losing weight as a result of those things,
and it's just not organic, you know what I mean,
it's very forced. Um, I don't think I know the
best way to deal with food as a Latina in general, like,
even if you don't necessarily have a history of eating disorders, Like,
I think it's a constant battle because there's such a
(44:25):
deeply entrenched cultural like norm of commenting on people's bodies,
and especially women's bodies and weight and dress and and
presentation and the way we walk and the way we
sit and the way we do our makeup, Like, there
is constant commentary. So for me personally, especially because I
live with a lot of older people, and you know,
(44:48):
it's very hard to like change people's perspectives and minds
and ways of communicating. I don't try and do so much.
When I was younger, I tried doing like educating and
boundary setting and that worked for a little bit, but
you know, they're very set in their ways and they
forget they're so old. My poor grandparents, you know, and
(45:11):
my parents too in their own way. So I just
kind of like, I'm desensitized to things. I just let
things roll off me. They really don't comment on my
body anymore, but they what they do a lot of
is like, oh, don't worry like this, this won't make
you fat. There's a lot of that stuff. There's a
lot of that stuff for like, oh, like if I
(45:31):
don't want a secondthea, it's like, oh, she's watching her figure.
There's always that sort of commentary. And so it's not
like direct and intentionally like malicious, but it's still there.
And so in the past I might have said like, well,
maybe I want to gain weight, but now I just
I don't even need to say anything, you know what
(45:52):
I mean. Well, maybe that's my goal. Maybe I do
want to gain weight, Maybe I will, you know what
I mean. Now, I'm just like, what can one even
I'm tired, what can one even say? It doesn't matter? Um, Well,
I wanted to plug this uh Latina that I follow
on Instagram that's a nutritionist and she talks a lot
about recovery eating to sort of recovery and intuitive eating.
(46:14):
So I just wanted to shout her out because I'm
following her, and she can definitely you can learn more
about this subject because she is able to talk about it.
So your dot Latina dot nutritionist and she's a dominicana
and she has like really cool graphics that she makes,
and especially during the holidays, she was like posting a
(46:35):
lot about like it's okay to eat, you know, for
the holidays, Like it's okay, you know, So like all
those different things of normalizing eating because it is normal
and it's weird because it's like we make tons of
food and then at family gatherings there's tons of food, right,
but then we can't but then I did, I'm like
(46:57):
not supposed to eat it or I can't eat it
without some sideways commentary. It's very frustrating, but I'm like,
this is our culture and I am but one bitty bitch,
and I can't change the entire thing. I can only
control my little spear, you know, Yes, I agree, and
(47:18):
just control my language when I'm talking about food, you know,
and try and lead by example. You know. I'm just
tired over it's been so many years. It's st a lot.
Yeah right now I'm like trying to I'm ok making
it okay and normalizing it to myself that I don't
have to go to the gym every day because I
(47:39):
used to be like when Mole and I started recording,
I had a trainer, Like I was very hyper like active,
had a trainer, um and all of that. So okay
that I don't go to the gym five days a
week and really go to days two days. There really
is one day or not at all that week, and
it's fine. So just like normalizing your just jans and
(48:00):
like letting yourself know is okay. Yeah, that helps absolutely
at Thank you for that question. Last question, this is
a spicy one, and our listeners are constantly trying to
get us to fight each other on air. Don't think
we don't notice. What read the question? These instigators, what
(48:24):
is your favorite and least favorite thing about each other?
You believe let's start with least favorite. Okay, Well, they
really want to see a fight. They want to see
a fight. I'm here, We'll give them. We'll give them
a fight. Give them a fight, will you go for?
(48:44):
It's about to be what a girl fighting? Okay, honestly,
don't make me do this. I don't want to starts
the year like feuding, we disband like the friendship is ruins.
We like no no, no, no, no okay, um okay,
(49:07):
no you start, you say you say something, okay, um
let's see. Okay, my, what do you hate about me? Most?
You know what I hate about you? Nothing? Um okay,
Well we both do this, but what we both do this.
(49:31):
But if I had to pick one thing, I would
say that, Um, we and by we I meet you
run a little late. Yeah yeah, I mean I think
we run late at the same rate, and it's like,
you know, life happens. We live far away from each other.
(49:52):
Um yeah, I would say the same thing. That's it.
Nothing else. Never asked that question again. Okay, now what's
your favorite thing? Okay? My favorite thing about Mala. This
is easier. It's like, let me count the weight. The
first thing that I love about Mama. My favorite thing
about her is her eloquence. She is a really good
(50:13):
speaker wherever we go, whenever we do presentations, even on
the podcast. You have this way of just getting your
thoughts out so beautifully. Thank you, And that's one of
my favorite things about you. That's really nice. So that's beautiful.
Oh my goodness. There are so many wonderful qualities about you.
(50:36):
You have so many fabulous attributes, but I would say
that you are very very very perceptive and intuitive and
you notice things and catch on and like if there's
like a little hint of a of a clue of
a thing, you like see it right away. Like Fosa
(50:57):
is always sending me like her little oh Heath those
are always is always on the timeline like and she
peeps every Yes, I see it all and she sends
me things and I'm like all day. No, you're like
a low key detective. You're very sharp. You're very sharp.
I will piece it together accurately in a well yeah,
(51:18):
and I'm like, what, thanks crime solver. Well thanks girls, yeah,
thank you asked us questions like that, Yeah, hater, hater,
least favorite thing about each other? You'll find this account.
I'm gonna block you right now, just killing you. Love
(51:39):
you so much. No, but seriously send us spicy questions. Um,
they tickle us. Yes, they're very funny. Yes, one time
we got to what's your least favorite? And we were like,
what the fun are you trying to insinuate that there's
a least favorite in the world, hater? I don't get it.
(52:02):
Doesn't make it make sense anyways, So, I mean, wow,
our first episode, how cute I've had it? This has
been really fun. It's been fun. This was a fun episode. Okay,
question do you all want this season to our listeners?
Do you all want more interviews? Less interviews? Right? What
do you what do you want you want from season four?
(52:24):
What do you want from it? We have like some
interviews planned. We love interviewing folks that are like doing
amazing work. And we're also wanting new segments this year.
Yes on the pod, so that will to keep it new,
to keep it fresh, have some new people, have some
new guests as well. But yeah, I mean, what do
you want to see from us this season four? What
(52:45):
do you want to hear about? Do you have guests
in mind that you've always wanted us to interview? Do
you have topics in mind you've always wanted to hear
us discuss? Um? Let us know. Also, remember that we're
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Radio Radio Radio Commies of Myth and Bullshit a radio
phonic novella radio hosted by Malamn. Hello, Hello, Hello, Hi,
(00:23):
look amotis welcome to season four of Look Radio rosas
Assina's wanted for Crimes against the Patriarchy. Look At Radio
is a radiophonic novella archiving the brilliance and legacies of
women and fems of color. I'm Diosa and I'm Mala,
and we are Las Mammies of Myth and bullshitas locals
(00:45):
of radio radio phonic novella, which is just a really
extra way of saying a podcast. Welcome. It's season four.
It's so much newness, so much newness, also so much
sameness at the same time. It's fun. Yes, I'm excited
(01:05):
to introduce our season four concept to talk about it. Yes,
by now you have hopefully seen a flyer announcements circulating
on Instagram four season four with some new visuals. Absolutely
so to recap season three we were from revenge never
(01:26):
sounded so sweet and this year season four, new season,
new theme. We are us wanted for crimes against the
patriarchy and we're just continuing along with the idea of
seeking revenge against machismo and the patriarchy, and now we
(01:46):
are probably on the run for our crimes and they're
not going to catch us because they can't keep up.
And that's where we're at. Yeah, you can't keep a
bad bitch down, basically, you can't. You cannot kill a
bad bitch. No, no, no, indestructible. Yes. And then when
thinking about our visuals and our concept we were looking
back at the Roaring twenties, right, so if you look
(02:09):
at our hair and the flyer, definitely like inspired by
the Roaring twenties and thinking about how we are literally
in now so kind of like an old meats new
futuristic at the same time, Yes, like everything all at once,
but make it futuristic and sort of like a neo
noir feel. We had the pink suspenders. Um, we sort
(02:33):
of like business bitch vibes, like a hard film mafiosa vibes.
That's the feeling. So we want to shout out Chapin
Michelle our visuals team for helping us out as far
as photography, editing, putting the posters together. Um, it's really
fun collaborating, Like we come up with the concepts, the ideas.
(02:56):
Robbert our makeup artists helps us like look lamb and
put it out together and that's teamwork and then it's
a beautiful thing. Yeah. Yeah, this is one of my
favorite shoots. It was definitely the most professional shoot we had.
We booked a location, we had to make up artist in,
hair stylist Robert doing everything um And it's so funny
because he asked us, like, so you'all would just do
(03:18):
this yourselves before and we were like, yeah, it was
a mess. But we're leveling up this year and in
one year, that's a big leap to make from doing
every little thing ourselves and like building the set in
choppin Michelle's living room, to like having a location and
all these different elements. It's a good leap. It's a
(03:39):
good leap. I mean, okay, I think this episode is
going to be a lot of um us ambiguously talking
about the the glow ups that we're working on that
are to come, that are in progress, and um this
is all part of it, you know, definitely even stepping
up the aesthetics in that way. Yeah, it's exciting. It's
exciting to see the grow like from season one, like
(04:02):
we took our our very first episode promo picks we
took in Mala's neighborhood. Yeah, you know on my my
DSLR camera. Yes, that's all We'll say. We'll leave it
there and then we you know, did pictures at Vista
Mosta one year. We worked with Ruth and Truth another
(04:23):
year where we did the Pink BoA's That was like
the very first look at that a live promo that
we did. So we've just like progressively become more ridiculous
in the best possible way with the themes for our
photo shoots and for our season four concepts. Yeah, and
we want to thank Getty that Los Angeles for the
(04:46):
earrings that we're wearing in the shoot. Uh. Those are
like gold dollar sign earrings, dangly ones that were both wearing.
So shout out Getty the Los Angeles for the drip
shade it. Yeah. So you can check her out at
Getty the Los Angeles dot big Cartel dot com. She
is a Latina entrepreneur. She runs her own business and
(05:10):
she has beautiful accessories if you want to check her out.
Thanks to her again for providing the jewels for our
photo shoot. The adornment important. Uh, something else that's new
this season is our return to Patreon. We relaunched. We
never actually left Patreon, we just weren't active active. We
(05:34):
were not giving our patrons any incentives in return for
their monthly donation. But they continue to donate just in
support and in solidarity of the work, which we appreciate.
Thank you for full transparency. When we realized we weren't
able to keep up with it, we um asked our
patrons if they would like for us to return their money,
(05:56):
and they many of the all of them said no,
we would like to be able to own it you
to you monthly instead of using the venmo. They liked
having the pat patre generous. So shout out to all
of our founding members of our Patreon there are founding members,
they have been with us since. And also shout out
(06:16):
to our new patrons Tony, Carla, Xavier, Yes, Chef and
Dan there are newest patres Patreons. Thank you for joining
our digital social circle. It's gonna be a great year.
We are like determined to really grow this Patreon absolutely,
you know, like we are totally of the mindset that
(06:39):
it's good for us to have our content live in
multiple places and not just on Apple podcasts or on
Instagram for example, Like it's good to have your own
little piece of the internet, you know, um where you
can share your work. And we really want to make
the Patreon community a solid one, a strong one, and
active one. So check us out look at at a
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(07:20):
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way and also be featured on the podcast. So definitely
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and um, that's going to be like I think, pretty
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I'm not concerned, alright. And then we're also launching something
new this year. We are launching our newsletter, a Look
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(08:24):
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were into that week, stuff that we're feeling, events there
were planning. It will definitely be a behind the scenes
exclusive as to what look At That is doing that,
what you won't necessarily find on the Instagram just yet.
So it'll be a good sneak peek and a good
(08:46):
way to keep up with us and what's to come.
So I'm going to put that in our show notes
so you can subscribe and we hope to see you
there on the newsletter. That's going to be like a
fun new edition. Yeah. We're like acting on lots of
ideas that we've had. We're putting them into motion now,
which is exciting. It is exciting, and like Mama mentioned,
(09:08):
like it's good to not just live on one social
media platform. A newsletter is a good way for us
to have direct communication with our listeners because we're sending
you info, we know that you'll see it. In the
same like the Patreon, we can build community with you
in ways that we can to via Instagram. Especially all
last year we talked about shadow banning and all of that,
(09:28):
so this will be a new way to keep up
with us. Absolutely, the shadow ban is real. Um, we
don't trust any of these social media platforms. They don't
belong to us, we don't own them, we don't have
a whole lot of control over how they work. So
you know, we got to go to other places. Um. Yeah,
(09:48):
And I've been saying about like brujas especially, get their
accounts taken down, get their comment section blocked so they
can post, but they literally can write captions and no
one can comment. It's just a whole mess. It's weird,
and it's just very interesting who is getting censored and
we know who it is. You know, a lot of
(10:12):
hate speech is also happening via social media, but then
that never seems to get taken down. So it's very
interesting to see what's playing how it's playing out, and
all the memes that, like, all the memes that point
out how how much of an extraterrestrial life form, like
Mark Zuckerberg looks like it's not helping, right, he like
(10:36):
is morphing into something like non human and that's what
happens when you do evil things. We should have a
conspiracy theory episode. I agree, because you know, like that
like belief of like the reptilian you know, have you
ever dived into that? Okay, so that's scary. Yeah. So basically,
(10:57):
so my friend was telling me because she came into
contact with these people that were of the belief that
like reptilian people exist. So if you look at people
in power, they look like reptilian. So like one good
example is like Trump literally looks like a toad. I'm screw. Yeah.
So there's like all these different examples of people in
history and how they have very reptilian like features. Yeah,
(11:19):
so that's like all that he does. So that's like
all I can really say about it right now because
that's like the bare minimum that I know about it.
So it's reptilian belief, right, But I think that we
should we should do an episodehere we dive into conspiracy theories.
I agree completely. Um. I think that Mark Zuckerberg, the
(11:44):
sameness of his haircut over the years also disturbs me,
like to a degree that's hard for me to What
kind of reptilian would he be? Oh my god, he
would be a reptilian. I don't know enough about reptiles
to place him. Hold on, let me think so if
up as a toad and Zuckerberg has those kind of
like his eyes are dead set and beauty at the
(12:08):
same time confusing, and he needs eye drops. He looks
that his eyes look itchy. Some type of a lizard,
some type of a lizard. YouTube video called Mark Zuckerberg
is a lizard. Oh god, the whole meme community that
doesn't think Mark Zuckerberg wait for it is human. There
(12:34):
you go. We're not the only ones. Other people have
made this observation stress. Other people have noticed. Ikay, I
closed it. Thank you. He can't hurt us. Well anyway, Well,
I think the downfall of Instagram is when it got
(12:54):
sold to Facebook, because I had its glory days. I
like this. That's how one of the ways that you
and I met. You and I met aside from Twitter.
It's a lot. It's a way that a lot of
us met, a lot of us have built community, folks
have organized via Instagram, and now it's just like shadowing
no caption. There was a day, there was a time
(13:16):
of very heavy posting on our parts and just spending
lots and lots and lots of time on I just
my day was very much about Instagram totally, which like
saying that out loud and like thinking about that is
so funny, but it's true, Like that's what we were.
(13:37):
I mean, yeah, we were also working or whatever. Yeah,
we were on Instagram. We're on Instagram. Yeah. But also
it was thanks to our micro followings on i G.
It's that we were able to fund all those funnel
those followers into the podcast. I mean, don't get me wrong,
I'm still on Instagram. I still spend plenty of time
on there. It just doesn't feel the same. It's not
(13:58):
the same. Yeah, do you all agree, listeners? Let us
know is that how you feel? Do you feel the same? Also,
if you know about the reptilians, please comment, because I'm
sure that you all know about it. Tell us about
more reptilians that you have seen or in history. Okay,
So my friend was hanging out with this couple and
it goes without saying that they were white. Okay, let's
(14:20):
start there. So she was hanging out with these people
that believe in the Reptilians, and they also believe that
they could move things with their mind. So she was
hanging out with them for like a minute, and then
she said she started she called and she started telling
me about these people. And I was like, I'm going
to stop you right there. They're trying to get you
to join a cult. I'm telling you right now, they're
trying to get you to join a cult. So then
(14:41):
she tells me that she like hangs out with them,
and all of a sudden, there's like a meeting, like
a bunch of people are coming over, and I was like, girl,
you need to go, Like, you need to get out
of there first. I know first. So eventually she was like, Okay,
things got really weird. I'm no longer hanging out with them,
but yeah, that that was my first exposure to the
Reptilian conspira rac theory. They're really out there, are recruiting people. Yes,
(15:03):
there are people that like firmly believe this I'm scared.
I hope we haven't like invoked their their spirit. They like,
this is true, Well it's out there. Fuck it all right, Well,
if we disappear, you know what happened. You know what
happened in the repilions. The other conspiracy theory that I
(15:25):
like is about like Ted Cruz being the Zodiac Killer
and him looking like he could be the Zodiac if
you know, if it came out that he was a
serial killer, I would believe it. I wouldn't be shocked
speaking of serial killer, speaking of conspiracy theories. Okay, so
we were watching, we were pre recording. We were talking
(15:46):
about the Aaron Hernandez documentary, the series, the docuseries. We
both watched it separately. We didn't tell each other. We
didn't where do we begin? What do you think? Where
do we start? Okay, well I saw this For those
who maybe don't know who Aaron Hernandez is or who
haven't seen it, who was who was Aaron Hernandez? Aaron
Hernandez was a I forget his position, but he was
(16:10):
in the NFL. He was to the tight end of
the Patriots right, and so he was this really like
young twenty four year old Puerto Rican from Connecticut and
he was drafted into the Patriots. So he's like at
the height of his career and signed for forty million dollars. Yes,
(16:32):
lived in a mansion, had like the dream life, right,
like he had made it. He like accomplished his goals,
basically won the Super Bowl for the Patriots. Basically, Yes,
like a darling of the NFL and of the United States.
I didn't know this that we were watching it, and
I was like, I like pointed out to my to
my man, like, oh, like while people were really like
(16:54):
rollying for him, and and he was like, yeah, he's
a he was a fucking Patriot, And like I didn't
understand stand, like because you know, I'm not really a
sports person, but like people are really committed to their
sports team. So yeah. Anyway, Um, so he was tried
for and convicted for murder, and at the same time
(17:18):
while they were investigating that case that he was also
um a suspect in another murder that that predated his
Patriot Super Bowl winner Bowen right before he had even
been drafted, before he had been signed. Yes, so when
he was a college student. Yes, So there was there's
(17:39):
a lot of theories there's a lot of Yeah, there's
a lot of theories going around right now, especially on
Twitter and so and what's interesting, you know to I
think to me about all of this is so, you know,
he was a lot of things. There's so many layers,
there's so much to say and unpack, and so many questions.
(18:00):
Interesting that he was such like a national hero and
that he was of Puerto Rican descent in the NFL,
that's not really like a narrative we hear all the time.
There was that particular attention on him, and then he
was a superstar at such a young age, and and
also like the survivor of child abuse, of childhood sexual abuse,
(18:22):
and which his brother spoke about DJ hernandez Um on
the in the docuseries. And then there was a lot
of focus on these different speculations and conversations about his sexuality.
And we were like sort of talking about how they
used so many different words and labels to talk about
(18:43):
and describe him. So some people throughout the docuseries he
was gay, he was closeted, he was bisexual, and just
the like jumping back and forth between all these words.
It was interesting and odd, you know, And this was
talked about like the folks in the docuseries had a
balance of perspectives and said, you know what, no matter
(19:06):
what it was that he was going through, he still
made choices and he killed people, and accountability like matters,
you know, And it goes along the saying, Okay, there's
just such a genre of film and entertainment of let's
hyper focus on men who have murdered people and abused
(19:28):
people and think about all angles and all sides of
their lives and contemplate their humanity and sympathize over them
and with them. But there are dead people like in
their way. When we first started watching it, because I
watched it with my man, with my partner, and um,
just the opening like montage of like all these different
(19:50):
photos of him, I thought, when I said aloud to him,
like how difficult is this for the families that he murdered,
Like you know, the are seeing the way that we're
humanizing this murderer, and I think, I don't know, Like
there I understand the importance of nuance and having that
conversation about his life and like everything that led up
(20:11):
to you know, these different murders at the same time,
exactly like you said, we're also humanizing someone that killed
multiple people. Yeah, it's wild. And all of his victims
were black men, you know, and what's that like, what
what is that about? And whatever rage you have? Why
are you direct Why was he directing it at black
(20:32):
men specifically? Like, and that's a piece that wasn't I
don't think remember hearing that being touched on or discussed
in the docuseries. And then we had talked about how
there was very small mentioned towards the end of just
the physical and mental damage that happens to you when
you're a football player, when you're like receiving all these
blows to your body and your head for years and
(20:55):
years on end while you're training and playing. That that
the like the specialists, the brain specialists that UM examined
his brain post mortem said that it was like the
worst case of CTE in a person, in such a
young person that they had ever seen. Like his brain
was like like atrophied, Like it was very advanced. And
(21:17):
I mean, again, so many different factors UM. And it
also it says so much too about this continued conversation
about the NFL and players being expendable and those players
are their bodies are wrecked, like completely, they retire, So yeah,
you know, and just people are expendable to the NFL,
(21:39):
the domestic violence victims that they overlook and ignore so
that you know, abusers can continue play and play. You know,
their players literally suffering prolonged and constant brain damage. And
and the NFL is considered a nonprofit, so then thinking
of all the tax write offs that they must receive
because they're suffied as a non are they they are?
(22:02):
That is effing crazy. Yeah, that's too much. I can't
even like. And I remember because my dad is a
big football fan and when we all lived together, like
Sunday night football and then Monday night football were like
a big deal. And so you know, Dad's got the
TV on Sunday nights and then on Monday nights and
(22:25):
we're a Raiders family. Um, but Aaron harnd Is was
a huge name, and he was a huge deal. So
when the although I myself don't really watch football, when
the docuseries came out, I was like hesitant. I was like,
I don't know if I want to. That's how I
thought about it too, Yeah, but I was curious. But same,
that's how they get you. I had no one I
(22:46):
have no investment in football or the Patriots. I mean
the owner is a known Trump supporter, same as Tom Brady,
So like, I have no interest in watching anything related.
But it's a Netflix DOCUSERI reason when Neflix has great advertising,
the timeline is on fire and everybody and everyone's talking
about well I want to know too, Well, let me
(23:07):
find out, you know, oh my god. But yeah, I know,
like it's totally unacceptable, like his actions and his behavior.
It's a huge conversation about professional football and the way
that players are treated, I mean, the way that victims
are treated when a celebrity causes harm to the public,
you know, and getting like kind of second hand treatment.
(23:28):
And then even in the docuseries, it's the same dynamic. Dynamic. Yeah,
And I was really put off by the way they
showed um Lloyd's body multiple times during the Netflix docuseries,
like in court, they like his mother was looking at
photos of her dead son's boss was horrible, you know,
in the morgue, and I like that really was off
(23:49):
putting to me, And I thought, like, this is just
for effect and not because we actually needed to see it, right,
I didn't need to see his mother looking at her,
you know, she didn't need to see that. That was
a lot. I mean, um, it's really interesting sort of
the way that they laid out the narrative of his
life and the speculations around his sexuality and the focus
(24:11):
on it, and it was it was a lot of speculation.
It was a lot of it was investigators and and
and people commentators, like people making comments but who weren't
close to him. And I saw, you know, we were
looking at a Twitter thread, right, um, and somebody had questioned,
like that quarterback from high school, like when was the
(24:32):
last time that they had seen each other spoken? And
why was he such a primary source on him? I thought,
I thought that was strange too, because it's also one
of those things of like, are you outing someone that
was never out and I don't know, a very big
speculation on their sexuality, and then the person isn't here
(24:53):
to say, yes, that happened, no, that didn't happen. Yeah,
So then he committed suicide supposedly after he was acquitted.
I don't know. There's a lot you know, when people,
when people die in prison, especially the Epsteins of the world,
the Aaron hernandez Is of the world, like who's motivated
to keep them alive or to see them dead. And
(25:16):
so it's hard to believe and to trust what you
hear coming out of a prison. It's just really hard
to really know the truth. Um. And then the speculating
about his sexuality, not to say that he wasn't queer,
but the amount of time that they spent on it
and speaking to non like people who weren't in his
(25:38):
life was just very weird. There was a weird fascination
about it. I agree with you. I wish they would
have spent more time on the trauma that his body
experienced as a professional athlete, you know, because like there
are like real implications that of your of all the
(25:58):
damage to your brain and like what that actually does
to your decision making. Not in a way to like
not hold them accountable, but as someone that works with
folks with developmental disabilities, we actually have clients that were
in a car accident and then now all of a
sudden have this developmental disability right have to be an
assisted living you know. So it's like, I don't know,
there's it would have been it would have been worth
(26:19):
spending time on, but it wasn't. Yeah, So you know,
the question of things like sympathy and empathy come up
and are hard to wrestle with, and um, I try
not even to necessarily go there or think about things
like sympathy in these cases because it's there's there's a
(26:39):
very real tragedy in like people were killed and that's
just a fact of of that, and we don't want
to avoid or overlook that reality. But I think that
is the point of these types of docuseries or documentaries,
not just There and Hernandez one, but you know, even
(26:59):
like Ted Bundy, Ted Bundy was that that was a
Netflix original too, right, it was like a Ted Bundy series,
and like all the folks on Twitter that we're like,
oh Ted Bundy was so fine or whatever that I
never understood. I don't under she was a serial killer.
Er No, but it's like we have this weird fascination
(27:20):
with men that are serial killers. It's true individuals. Okay. Also,
can I just say, like, if we are going to
talk about attractive serial killers, it's not Ted Bundy. It's
not Ted Bundy. I mean, like you know, like, of
course like not to glamorize, but if we're going to
talk about like hotties, no, one ever ever mentions Richard Ramirez.
(27:41):
Knew you were going to say an amazing bone structure,
was a monster, got married in prison, he had hell
of women writing to him, showing up for his court dates,
sitting in the audience, like, listen, if he wasn't a
serial killer, I would sit here and say, Richard Ramires
is a baddie, like with perfect bone structure. But you
know he was a monster and terrorised the youth side. Like,
(28:03):
let's not forget that. But I'm just saying, if we're
engaging in that conversation and I call bullshit, it's not sucking,
Ted Bundy, I called bullshit. This is whild I met
this out. This took I meant every word I said.
Do not edit this out? Alright, So moving on, speaking
of um, new year, same hose, how's your year treating
(28:27):
me so far? This has been a long January. Okay,
I feel already ever ending? Yeah, um, but no, I
feel like refreshed. I feel ready lots of changes coming.
I feel good about it. I feel like we've been
talking so much about all the things that we're planning
in like we're also seeing it come to life already.
(28:50):
Oh my god, Yes, we are reaping. We're reaping the
benefits already. We have been sewing a lot of seeds.
And even just in the past like seventy two hours,
so many things have just come towards into the inbox.
Is a treasure trove right now, keep it coming, keep
(29:11):
it up. Like even like last night late I get
a text from the ASA. Um what with the screenshot
containing details I will not share, but it was very exciting,
you know. It was more more announcements to come, like
(29:32):
a lot more. But anyway, this is a good time
to share that we will be at U C. Davis
February eight and we will be doing a platica about sexuality,
sex education, pleasure consent. See. Yes, there will be a
sex toy raffle if Davis or in the surrounding area.
Definitely come through. More details to come. Um, yes, that's
(29:56):
going to be great. Oh. I just remembered something that
I wanted to air today. We had a little birthday
party for my grandpa. Happy birthday. Um, he's been stressed
recently because of everything going on in Puerto Rico and
like all of his sisters you know, live on the island,
and very weird. All these earthquakes like not normal for
(30:19):
the region, so people people are freaking out obviously, and
Pierre has just been through a lot with the hurricanes
and all that stuff. So anyway, so we had a
birthday party for him today, and last year, in towards
the end of the year, he said that I was
at this morning, he said, I was a chingana nice.
I like that shift and like this is a good sign.
(30:40):
Is looking Maybe you were in a better mood. Maybe
you've been in a better mood. I have been in
a better mood. I was. I was that year. It
was a little bit kick my ass. I'm not going
to share exactly what I went through at the end
of the year because I'm going to save that story
(31:03):
for something else because it's really fucking funny. But just
know that I was like down for the count, like
I was done. Like I stayed home for New Year's
tried to keep me there, but I survived. I made
it to the other side. I'm here, bitch, intact one
piece that it was crazy. Oh but I downloaded Hinge
(31:29):
and back on the apps. Did you delete it yet? Okay? Look,
I asked my i G community on my story if
I should delete hinge. One hundred percent of people that
responded said yes, bitch, delete that ship or not an app.
I don't know what I need. Not an app. You
need to meet someone at the dog park. I need
(31:49):
a dog dad to help me co parent baba. You
know what I was realizing. I'm tired of being responsible
for like my own survival, like my own life force,
you know what I mean. And I want to outsource
my survival to someone else, like I need a partner
to It's really nice having that, Yes, you know what
I mean, like saying, keeping myself alive is so much work,
(32:11):
so much work. Um. Fernando often asked me like, well,
I thought you were a strong, independent woman, and I
always respond, no, I am not. I need you to
take care of me exactly, because that's his way of
like trying to be like, you can do this, go
do that, do this, and no, I don't want to
take care of me exactly. Stomps foot. Yeah. And then
(32:35):
we also had the conversation of how I'm actually a brat. Yeah,
that's true, that's true, and feed her. She gets angry.
I get really angry. And I didn't know this until
we started working. Oh my god, I didn't know this
about myself. I like see it coming. And if we're
like working with people, I'm like, oh my god, oh
my god, I'm god. And I like run and I
(32:56):
like get food for her, and then I like to
bring her an offering. I'm like, please don't hurt that anyway.
I get really tired and I need snacks. I need
constant snacks. This happened to me at work this past
week where I didn't pack enough snacks and I'm not
really cranky. So then that same day, I went to
(33:18):
Trader Joe's and I bought a bunch of stuff and
I made my own trail mix that's so cute. It
was delicious. So I packed myself that all week. So
I needed to have multiple snacks about the day. So
I'm trying to be more on top of that so
that I'm not cranky and I'm not out buying. I
spend so much money on food. I spend so much
money on food. It's so much easier to just pack
(33:40):
the snacks and the lunches. Pack the snacks. Yeah girl, um,
if there's any Snacks sponsors that want to place an
ad here, yeah, okay, specifically, I'm going to put out
a request, you know, like the adult lunchables, the like
the portable charcooterie. Basically that's what I anybody out there,
(34:01):
that's the sponsorship we want. Those are the snacks we're
looking for. Those really get you through, They really do,
they really really do. I'm gonna like wish, make a
wish on that. Let's hope that it comes true. Let's pray. Alright, y'all,
So we are going to get started with our last
(34:21):
segment of the day of this episode. Ye look as
my favorite segment, the best segment. Let's see what y'all
want to know about. Look as here we go. Okay,
so this first question is how do you allow yourself
to leave a job that isn't fulfilling, fulfilling, feeling that guilt,
(34:43):
leave a job that isn't fulfilling, feeling that guilt. Well, Um,
the second I get an offer from a job where
they're offering me more money, I'm going to take it
and not feel bad about it. Because we live in
a capitalist society and we have to exchange our labor
for money to eat and have housing. I cannot feel guilty.
(35:08):
I can't feel guilty. Yeah, and also because your employer
will replace you easily, immediately. Immediately, they will replace you.
So I wouldn't feel guilty if you are in a
position to leave without having another job lined up, meaning
you have enough savings, you have you know, housing is secure,
(35:31):
all those different things like that's an option for you.
I would definitely explore that. If it's not, then I
would start applying to new jobs. And also, I think
it's important to be it's okay to be picky about
the jobs that we applied to and even the jobs
we accept. I know, the very first job that I
applied to out of college, it seemed amazing, um, and
it was also my first job off for ever, and
(35:53):
I thought, well, how can I not accept this right?
Even though the pay was decent, it was okay, it
was isn't great, um, but it was my first job offer.
And I could have waited and kept going and looking
and applying. But there's like so many things that play
like if you've come from a working class background, if
you're an immigrant, if you're all these different you know,
there's these different things, so many things, so many layers,
(36:15):
which kind of just makes you accept these jobs and
maybe aren't good for you in the long run. I mean,
if you're able to, I'm like, do what you gotta
do to survive and to achieve as much happiness as
you can. Like, if you can maximize income and happiness
at the same time, do it, do it, you know
what I mean. But if you've got to kind of
hustle and get out of a bad environment in order
(36:37):
to maximize your happiness, sometimes you have to like sacrifice
some one area right to increase your happiness and overall productivity.
Sometimes in other areas, if you hate your job, you're
not necessarily actually like working, you know. Like you could
be at a job and just hate it and not
do shit. Yep, that's a thing, you know. Or you
(37:00):
could be at a job where they're just completely overworking you,
you know. And so even for health reasons, it's always
okay to choose your health over a stressful or unhealthy
work environment. I agree, I mean always. I feel guilty
taking a sick day. I feel guilty taking time off,
Like I really that makes me feel guilty. But I
(37:21):
like try to remind myself, like this is literally a
lotted to me. I get sick days, I get paid vacation.
Not everyone does, right, So I should use it. I
need to use it. It's here. If I don't use it,
nobody else is going to use it. It's gonna not rollovers.
It's not. It's what's the point. I saw a tweet
(37:43):
ones Oh my god, I hate that we reference Twitter
so much, but it's a thing we are um to
put things in perspective. This tweet was like, literally, if
you were to die the next day, your employer is
like posting your job to be filled. They do not
give a ship. The individual human people that you call
(38:05):
coworkers you might form relationships with, but the job, the company,
the organization, the infrastructure, the machine does not care. The
machine is feeling and needs to keep churning out product,
whatever it is. So you know, yeah, we're also in
(38:27):
like the position of we want to quit our jobs
to do this whole time in the mindset, in the mindset,
in mind that that's our energy, right yeah, and that
we're not saying go quit your job, you know, not
site us and say that, because watch we have there
are a lot of creatives who like jump into the
(38:49):
abyss and quit their jobs without necessarily having a plan.
That's a way to do it. Some people do that.
We have not done that. We still work full time
and do all of this, you know what I mean,
because we cannot be without income. We can't just we don't.
We we don't have safety nets like that. There's nobody
(39:10):
paying our bills for us. We we don't have like
inheritance behind us. We don't have like, um, what's it
called generational wealth, so you know, like our parents don't
support us. So we have been working like triple time,
(39:31):
and we're only going to quit our jobs when we
are in a position to financially. So we would never
we never encourage people, Oh yeah, just quit your job,
follow your dream, no bitch, make sure you can pay
your bills and you can eat literally, yeah, you know, yeah,
they sit and see it's hot. Because we're also of
the generation where like as millennials, it is said statistically
(39:52):
that like the majority of us only have a thousand
dollars in our savings account. And that's like even if
you have a savings account, because so many of us
can't even do not put money away right we have,
We literally spend it all on bills, student loan, debt, healthcare, rent,
like all these different things, gas, especially if you live here,
so it is advised that you do have six months
(40:16):
worth of living expensive in your savings, and who and
who has that? I don't know who has that. I
know anybody that has that. It's also crazy because I
was explaining this to my partner because he doesn't have
student loans. He didn't qualify for student loans for any
different reasons. So even if I were to get a raise,
Let's say I was to get a ten percent increase
in my salary, I would then have to report that
(40:39):
to my federal loans and private loans, and then my
payment will increase. So even if I making more money,
more of it is going to get allotted to my
student loans. So I still can't put anything into my savings.
It's a fucking mess. And then what's crazy to me
is sometimes having the loans and paying on them is
(40:59):
what boost our credit. I know that's the case for me,
that I've been paying on these loans monthly for years
and it actually is a benefit to my credit. And
then hearing about people once they pay off their loans
now their credit is negatively affected because now they're no
longer making those monthly high payments. You know what I mean?
(41:20):
How do you offset that. I don't know. We need
an accountant. That's the other thing we needed ant, A
good one, A good one. You know how to handle
whatever it is that we do it. If you know
how to handle this. We have W two and we
have we do so it's like a mess. It's it's
(41:45):
it's it's all over the place. So we need a
little help if you know an accountant out there, not
W two. We have W nine's and we have all
those thing of it. So hit us up. Come through. Anyways,
next as we went in, we went off on a tangent.
You can really tell we feel ways about employment. My god. Yeah, anyway,
(42:11):
this question with an eating disorder, what do you think
is the best way to deal with food as a Latina?
Oh my god. I appreciate when these questions come up.
They do come up a lot for us, um, which
is valid because it's something we all deal with. But
I don't I feel like I give a different answer
each time each time this question comes up. I don't
(42:33):
remember what my position is on this. Okay, well you
think about it. I'm going to answer. Go for it, Okay,
for it. So I have been thinking a lot about
intuitive eating and I have been trying to practice that.
So just letting your body tell you what it is
that you want and giving it that. And for me
that's helped because I have been like on a consistent
gym routine for the past three months. But I'm so
(42:56):
then I'm in diet culture and I'm in gym culture,
and then it becomes it can become are toxic if
you're recovering from an eating disorder. So I'm very cognizant
of not getting into any like boot camps like um
what are they called um like fitness like six week
challenges type of thing, finish challenge challenges because they're all
about calorie counting and they offer you quote nutrition. But
(43:19):
it's really just it's not good if you've had an
eating disorder because it just will spiral into an eating
disorder once again. It's just hyper controlled eating is a
stepping stone, it really is. It's it's it's its own
type of orthorexia. And even thinking about the fact that
(43:40):
those fitness things are framed as challenges and kind of
making people compete against their own bodies and metabolism, it's
very weird, like who really is winning? But any and
as we know, those things are like not sustainable, and
rapid weight loss is not something that you can keep
up with. You will gain the weight back if that's
(44:03):
if you're losing weight as a result of those things,
and it's just not organic, you know what I mean,
it's very forced. Um, I don't think I know the
best way to deal with food as a Latina in general, like,
even if you don't necessarily have a history of eating disorders, Like,
I think it's a constant battle because there's such a
(44:25):
deeply entrenched cultural like norm of commenting on people's bodies,
and especially women's bodies and weight and dress and and
presentation and the way we walk and the way we
sit and the way we do our makeup, Like, there
is constant commentary. So for me personally, especially because I
live with a lot of older people, and you know,
(44:48):
it's very hard to like change people's perspectives and minds
and ways of communicating. I don't try and do so much.
When I was younger, I tried doing like educating and
boundary setting and that worked for a little bit, but
you know, they're very set in their ways and they
forget they're so old. My poor grandparents, you know, and
(45:11):
my parents too in their own way. So I just
kind of like, I'm desensitized to things. I just let
things roll off me. They really don't comment on my
body anymore, but they what they do a lot of
is like, oh, don't worry like this, this won't make
you fat. There's a lot of that stuff. There's a
lot of that stuff for like, oh, like if I
(45:31):
don't want a secondthea, it's like, oh, she's watching her figure.
There's always that sort of commentary. And so it's not
like direct and intentionally like malicious, but it's still there.
And so in the past I might have said like, well,
maybe I want to gain weight, but now I just
I don't even need to say anything, you know what
(45:52):
I mean. Well, maybe that's my goal. Maybe I do
want to gain weight, Maybe I will, you know what
I mean. Now, I'm just like, what can one even
I'm tired, what can one even say? It doesn't matter? Um, Well,
I wanted to plug this uh Latina that I follow
on Instagram that's a nutritionist and she talks a lot
about recovery eating to sort of recovery and intuitive eating.
(46:14):
So I just wanted to shout her out because I'm
following her, and she can definitely you can learn more
about this subject because she is able to talk about it.
So your dot Latina dot nutritionist and she's a dominicana
and she has like really cool graphics that she makes,
and especially during the holidays, she was like posting a
(46:35):
lot about like it's okay to eat, you know, for
the holidays, Like it's okay, you know, So like all
those different things of normalizing eating because it is normal
and it's weird because it's like we make tons of
food and then at family gatherings there's tons of food, right,
but then we can't but then I did, I'm like
(46:57):
not supposed to eat it or I can't eat it
without some sideways commentary. It's very frustrating, but I'm like,
this is our culture and I am but one bitty bitch,
and I can't change the entire thing. I can only
control my little spear, you know, Yes, I agree, and
(47:18):
just control my language when I'm talking about food, you know,
and try and lead by example. You know. I'm just
tired over it's been so many years. It's st a lot.
Yeah right now I'm like trying to I'm ok making
it okay and normalizing it to myself that I don't
have to go to the gym every day because I
(47:39):
used to be like when Mole and I started recording,
I had a trainer, Like I was very hyper like active,
had a trainer, um and all of that. So okay
that I don't go to the gym five days a
week and really go to days two days. There really
is one day or not at all that week, and
it's fine. So just like normalizing your just jans and
(48:00):
like letting yourself know is okay. Yeah, that helps absolutely
at Thank you for that question. Last question, this is
a spicy one, and our listeners are constantly trying to
get us to fight each other on air. Don't think
we don't notice. What read the question? These instigators, what
(48:24):
is your favorite and least favorite thing about each other?
You believe let's start with least favorite. Okay, Well, they
really want to see a fight. They want to see
a fight. I'm here, We'll give them. We'll give them
a fight. Give them a fight, will you go for?
(48:44):
It's about to be what a girl fighting? Okay, honestly,
don't make me do this. I don't want to starts
the year like feuding, we disband like the friendship is ruins.
We like no no, no, no, no okay, um okay,
(49:07):
no you start, you say you say something, okay, um
let's see. Okay, my, what do you hate about me? Most?
You know what I hate about you? Nothing? Um okay,
Well we both do this, but what we both do this.
(49:31):
But if I had to pick one thing, I would
say that, Um, we and by we I meet you
run a little late. Yeah yeah, I mean I think
we run late at the same rate, and it's like,
you know, life happens. We live far away from each other.
(49:52):
Um yeah, I would say the same thing. That's it.
Nothing else. Never asked that question again. Okay, now what's
your favorite thing? Okay? My favorite thing about Mala. This
is easier. It's like, let me count the weight. The
first thing that I love about Mama. My favorite thing
about her is her eloquence. She is a really good
(50:13):
speaker wherever we go, whenever we do presentations, even on
the podcast. You have this way of just getting your
thoughts out so beautifully. Thank you, And that's one of
my favorite things about you. That's really nice. So that's beautiful.
Oh my goodness. There are so many wonderful qualities about you.
(50:36):
You have so many fabulous attributes, but I would say
that you are very very very perceptive and intuitive and
you notice things and catch on and like if there's
like a little hint of a of a clue of
a thing, you like see it right away. Like Fosa
(50:57):
is always sending me like her little oh Heath those
are always is always on the timeline like and she
peeps every Yes, I see it all and she sends
me things and I'm like all day. No, you're like
a low key detective. You're very sharp. You're very sharp.
I will piece it together accurately in a well yeah,
(51:18):
and I'm like, what, thanks crime solver. Well thanks girls, yeah,
thank you asked us questions like that, Yeah, hater, hater,
least favorite thing about each other? You'll find this account.
I'm gonna block you right now, just killing you. Love
(51:39):
you so much. No, but seriously send us spicy questions. Um,
they tickle us. Yes, they're very funny. Yes, one time
we got to what's your least favorite? And we were like,
what the fun are you trying to insinuate that there's
a least favorite in the world, hater? I don't get it.
(52:02):
Doesn't make it make sense anyways, So, I mean, wow,
our first episode, how cute I've had it? This has
been really fun. It's been fun. This was a fun episode. Okay,
question do you all want this season to our listeners?
Do you all want more interviews? Less interviews? Right? What
do you what do you want you want from season four?
(52:24):
What do you want from it? We have like some
interviews planned. We love interviewing folks that are like doing
amazing work. And we're also wanting new segments this year.
Yes on the pod, so that will to keep it new,
to keep it fresh, have some new people, have some
new guests as well. But yeah, I mean, what do
you want to see from us this season four? What
(52:45):
do you want to hear about? Do you have guests
in mind that you've always wanted us to interview? Do
you have topics in mind you've always wanted to hear
us discuss? Um? Let us know. Also, remember that we're
still indie. We're indie. This is still free. Um. If
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You're at over five star ratings, woo woot. And we
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We're greedy little bitches and we want more. Yes, we
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Visit our website. Look I thought our radio dot com. Alright,
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