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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Native Lampod is a production of iHeartRadio in partnership with
Reason Choice Media. Welcome home, everybody, this is your favorite
politics and culture podcast, Native Lampod coming at.
Speaker 2 (00:12):
You with episode four.
Speaker 1 (00:18):
We are your hosts Angela Rae, Tiffany Cross, and Andrew Gillum.
And as you know, we keep it real because what
else can you keep?
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What's up everybody? What's up you guys?
Speaker 3 (00:29):
What's good? What's good?
Speaker 4 (00:31):
Everybody? As usual.
Speaker 5 (00:34):
I want to give a quick shout out to the
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Speaker 1 (00:44):
Andrew and tiff I miss you guys. It's been too long.
I'm gonna see you in person next week. I'm excited
about that.
Speaker 5 (00:50):
I was gonna say, let's get together in person time.
I think we would flow better when we're in the
same room. We can.
Speaker 3 (00:59):
Energy send you from here, put hands on it, okay
and required.
Speaker 1 (01:06):
But here's what we need the people to do in
the meantime until we get back together, and that is
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Speaker 2 (01:17):
We can take a hater remark here and there, but
we mostly want to.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
Keep the love, okay, everybody, So I gotta say, it's
crazy how much has happened since we last got together.
Joe Biden said he's ready to shut down the border.
All the while, the House Committee on Homeland Security is
teeing up an impeachment of the DHS Secretary of New
Yorkis cities are reeling with the response to migrants, and
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residents are filling the pinch of being left behind. Donald
Trump has designated Tim Sick and Tire Scott as the
head of White Outreach.
Speaker 2 (01:49):
Oh my bad, My bad.
Speaker 1 (01:50):
It's supposed to be black outreach, but it probably should
have been white either way. He's thinking there's a play
for the blackmail vote on today.
Speaker 2 (01:57):
Those are my bars.
Speaker 1 (01:58):
Tip, You're not the only one, but I think this
is not exactly the case. Meg the Stallion hissed that
Nikki and send her into a spiral of online bullying
for seventy two hours in counting.
Speaker 2 (02:10):
Is that how we honor in hip hop fifty?
Speaker 3 (02:12):
I don't know you've been following this for seventy two I.
Speaker 1 (02:15):
Mean the people have said, speaking of hip hop, fifty
K Solo said, your mom's in my business.
Speaker 2 (02:22):
She's in my business.
Speaker 1 (02:23):
I wonder what he would say about the NSA being
in the business. So we can talk a little bit
about that too. And it wouldn't be Home without our
listeners and viewers. So we are doing Q and A
throughout this episode to create even more of a conversation.
And we even have some inspiration from a faithful listener
that's a surprise, so make sure you stay tuned. Also
today my governor and my co host, my brother Andrew Gillam,
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is sharing his very courageous story. You do not want
to miss this, y'all. This is episode for a welcome home. Okay.
So from Kamala Harris's viral moment, do not come to
the Biden administrations and initial proposal that was to restore
humanity and American values to our immigration system, Joe's taking
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a hard turn to the right.
Speaker 2 (03:07):
Joe Biden is now saying this not.
Speaker 3 (03:10):
Biller the law today.
Speaker 4 (03:11):
I'd shut down the border right now and fix it quickly.
Speaker 6 (03:14):
And Congress needs to get it done.
Speaker 2 (03:16):
Okay.
Speaker 1 (03:18):
So, as you all know, there is a lot going
on with our community in particularly excuse me, in particular
with immigration.
Speaker 2 (03:27):
I think we're real divided.
Speaker 1 (03:28):
We got a lot of pushback, even from the audience
of Native lampod Last week. We were joking about New Hampshire,
like what New Hampshire got to do with border security?
But folks are like, actually a whole lot there are
differing opinions here, and apparently, y'all we're not necessarily in
lockstep with the culture. So I would like to have
y'all weigh in here. And I'm definitely not in lockstep
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but what Biden's talking about, and I'm even more definitely
not in lockstep with what Donald Trump has said about
the border.
Speaker 2 (03:54):
So hey, aint, y'all what you got?
Speaker 5 (03:56):
Yeah, I gotta tell you, angel I was really disappointed
with a lot of the comments. They were very anti immigrant,
and I just want to kick us off and is
having this conversation by saying, listen, this country has not
been kind to any community of color and weaponizing communities
of color against each other. That is the devil's work,
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and I just don't want us to do that. I
think there are legitimate questions around the strain that immigration
places on us from a federal policy, especially to a state.
Speaker 4 (04:27):
And local government.
Speaker 5 (04:28):
I actually I don't think we were really joking around
New Hampshire, because it was a legitimate question, what is
the huge immigration policy that would be number two that
most New Hampshire states were voting on, particularly when that
state is nearly ninety four percent white. So I think
those were legitimate questions. I think the consistent comment in
a lot of from a lot of our viewers was
this notion that immigration takes away resources from black communities.
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And I just want to say that is not true.
Undocumented immigrants pay more than eleven billion dollars in taxes
every year. Undocumented immigrants are not really eligible for a
lot of federal benefits, and some of the labor shortages
that we see in our community would have happened anyway.
That is not You have to consider things like automation
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and the way the economy is going that is not
undocumented immigrants taking away from you. I understand that I'm
speaking as someone who hasn't worked on this policy, but Andrew, you,
I mean, you were a mayor, you were running to
run a state. I'm really curious for you because you
look at mayors like Eric Adams and what's happening in
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New York, what's happening in Chicago with these you know,
immigrants getting dropped off? What is I don't want us
to lose the humanity in all of this, but what
is like common sense immigration solutions? And do these folks
have a point for being so upset about it?
Speaker 3 (05:45):
You set it up well, Angela, and it is a
real broad conversation. But I want to go back to
the premise, which was Biden's talking point of I'm going
to close the border. The American borders have always been closed.
Let's reject the Republican talking points. There is always been
a process for legal entry and asylum entry and a
whole bunch of other designations we are not going to
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go through on this show. But there have always been
processes in place by which people legally enter this country.
That's number one. Don't accept the Republican talking point and
frame on this frame this thing to what it is
in real life. To people who are you know, saying
I agree with Trump and the Republicans, these folks who
taking jobs. I am not going to tell you to
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betray your very beautiful twenty twenty vision seeing eyes because
I know from experiencing my own community, and I heard
about it on the trail and otherwise. Jobs. At one
time I could drive past and see black folk doing
I've experienced it's largely in the blue collar sector where
it's most visible when you're driving past and they're construction
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workers on the street, and they are folks who are
doing the traffic, you know, the road repairs and all
that kind of stuff. There used to be a lot
more black men when I was growing up and where
I live, and folks have noticed that the faces have
shipped have changed in that y'all. This is no different
than what folks up in the Northeast during the still
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boom and industrial the Irish folks was coming in to
replace the good white man. If you were in Detroit,
Michigan working for Henry Ford, and he bought in Middle Easterners,
which is why it's the largest concentration of Middle Easterners
in the world outside of the Middle East is in Detroit.
He bought them because he didn't want to shut the
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factories down during the summer. It was molding hot, and
he didn't want to have to take the workers off
the line. He wanted to continue to produce. So what
did he do. He got planes and boats, well not
planes but ships, and bought over Middle Easterners who now
are still huge constituency parts of Detroit and Michigan and
all around. Our Congresswoman Rashida till Alive could tell us
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about that. But again, there was some replacement that was
happening for a corporate economic need. In my state of Florida,
we have a lot of immigrants who do a lot
of the farming grapefruits and oranges and so on and
so forth, and those are tending to be around the people.
But if an employer a company is prepared and willing
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and able to give away the work to workers who
are willing to do it at either half the cost
or off the books, or for a cash trade rather
than whatever, then there's always going to be a market
for people who are going to do it less. And
I think if we were serious about real immigration reform,
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we would put the emphasis on a national comprehensive solution
that is led by cracking down on the economic powers
of this country who are manipulating, using benefiting from the
hard labor of folks, but they're not being paid with
their worth and they're making the trade off. But displacing
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a whole different set of people. But to your point, Tiffany,
at the local level, these folks pay taxes that they
don't get tax refunds for. And my state, where we
don't have a property, we have a property tax, but
we don't have a state income tax. The large percentage
of taxes are collected through sales. So if you go
and buy milk and eggs and groceries and you're paying
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the text of the gas station, you're contributing to Florida's
tax base in a regressive way. I might add, but
you're paying into the system and you're not taking from it.
I know you're never gonna believe that these folks are
not here and replacing you, But the truth is they're
here making contributions and are not getting the resources that
they would otherwise receive, and we end up at the
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local level paying the huge lion's share of burden of
cost here because the federal government isn't willing to do
anything solve the problem by fixing the rules.
Speaker 5 (09:52):
Well, I'm key, you're saying, but you're saying that we
paid the burden of cost, and I think that's what
a lot of the people who are leaving these comments
suggesting that it is a strain on our resources.
Speaker 3 (10:03):
Immigrants are and they're paying more. And by the way,
these folks aren't wrong that they're seeing the bill because
they see their taxes go up and they make the contribution. Well, y'alling.
We're paying at the local level to solve an immigration
and issue, more than Donald Trump paid in the entirety
before becoming president of the United States or since, and
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taxes working folks have paid more than the wealthy class
and taking care of this problem. They give us lip service,
but they don't give us no green you to help
us through the Issuas.
Speaker 1 (10:36):
You've reference the comments, I do want to get into
the comments because this is a safe place for our audience,
our listeners. So this is from Dina in New York,
where we know there's also a migrant crisis that they're
actively trying to solve. Dina says, how do we own
the conversation surrounding the southern border? Black people in my
community feel like Trump would handle the alleged crisis better
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than Biden. Also, I'm extremely concerned that Biden will sign
a bad deal to appease a voting block that will
not vote for him anyway. I believe immigration reform is
desperately needed, but this hardline position held by right wing
Republicans will put us right back where we were prior
to the Civil Rights movement, only allowing Caucasians into this country.
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I would love to hear your views on this. I
love this question from Dina. I think she spot on.
This is exactly why I started with Biden's plan today.
It is a hard right turn towards right wing Republicans
that are never going to vote for him, and he's
abandoning potentially some of his base.
Speaker 2 (11:34):
TIF you had an excellent point before.
Speaker 1 (11:36):
We got on today about why you thought he actually
is not making the pivot to right wing Republicans.
Speaker 2 (11:42):
What did you say, Tip.
Speaker 5 (11:43):
And why that he's not making it? Well, I don't
know what did I say.
Speaker 1 (11:48):
You were talking about how you think he actually is
trying to appease the base because to the point, we
have black folks in our comments who actually agree with
some of what Joe Biden has done.
Speaker 4 (11:57):
Oh yeah, yeah.
Speaker 5 (11:58):
So the different is I think both parties are right,
but both parties are doing this by weaponizing communities of
color against each other. Look, Republicans do not have any
interest in protecting black men and their pathway to you know,
being construction workers or black women in their pathway. But
they're very strategic and targeting black men with that message,
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and so you hear a lot of people parroting those
same talking points, which something that that you know was
going to happen anyway. My only point is that immigrants,
undocumented immigrants even are not stealing those levels that level
of resource from our community. It's just not true. Study
after study, from the from the Pew Research Center to
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the acl you has shown that there's not some sort
of resource stuff going on. Angel I actually had a
question for you though, because a lot of people don't
know your policy background, but you actually started on Capitol
Hill working on Homeland security for mister Bennie Thompson, who,
as we know, yeah, when they were in the majority,
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chaired the Homeland Security Committee. So I do wonder when
we talk about a federal immigration policy, what could that
look like, because then you get into the issue of states'
rights and you know, usurping some of these local governments.
So I don't know the solution, but I know I
would like to take away that rhetoric of we're stealing,
you know, the brown folks are stealing from us, because
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that's the devil's work.
Speaker 2 (13:26):
It is the devil's work. Tip. I will say a
couple of things.
Speaker 1 (13:29):
One is, I think that we often forget that black
people are immigrants too, and oftentimes, like I don't know
if you all remember, of course, you remember the very
traumatic photo we saw that took us back to slavery,
when you saw that white border patrol officer on a
horse almost cracking a whip on a Haitian migrant, right like,
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we have to remember our humanity first. I also and
shout out to the indigenous community who've been so kind,
embracing and talking to us about this pod. These borders
are artificially created, right Like, I'm not saying that there
shouldn't be immigration policy, but we could. We putting up
borders on land that wasn't theirs to begin with. You're
putting up borders on stolen land, which is a mind boob.
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I'm not gonna say the cussword, but y'all know what
I'm thinking. It's really like very triggering and traumatizing and
annoying to me. White folks can come in here and
blend in and our folks stand out like sore thumbs,
and we forget about it. So I would say to
the people who at home, you know they will make
a special exception for their girlfriend or their side piece,
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or their nanny or their cleaning lady. How about Milangya
or your first lady, right like all of these other people,
you'll make.
Speaker 5 (14:44):
Except at the Einstein visa listen for some unknown talent.
We have yet to discuss trying to figure out her
unknown talent. Where is that she was able to leap
frog over everybody. Here's that Ted talk and get this
Einstein visa listen.
Speaker 4 (14:56):
But they were fine with that.
Speaker 2 (14:57):
Listen.
Speaker 1 (14:57):
But from the very beginning, Congressman Thompson put out border principles,
standards that we should be governing by legislation that we
should be pushing. It's not just visas for folks that
want to work in tech companies. You should care about
the people who need work permits, who are picking fruit
and repairing toilets and cleaning floors like we should be
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humane in our approach to our border security, which is
why I'm so troubled by the direction that the Biden
administration is now taking. I will say it is also
immensely troubling, and I'm sure that part of his strategy
is including this to think that the Republican Party is
impeaching Secretary Mayorcis for not enforcing border policy. And on
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top of that, Joe Biden has now said, Okay, fine,
let's go with your plan, but they're not going to
go for it because Donald Trump ain't about to let
them go rogue and give Joe Biden this alleged win.
I do want to pivot here, Andrew, and come back
to you. There was a Chicago City Council meeting on
Chicago being a sanctuary city, and an Alderman spoke up
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in this meeting. I want us to roll that clip
because I think, again, your perspective on local policy here
is really important.
Speaker 7 (16:07):
The reason I have brought this with some of my
colleagues to the floor is not to eliminate Chicago as
a sanctuary city.
Speaker 8 (16:17):
But what it is is.
Speaker 7 (16:18):
To find some kind of compromise and threshold to stop
the bleeding that we're undertaking right now. When you look
at what the city is dealing with, we're spending when
we had twelve thousand migrants, we were spending thirty one
million dollars a month at that time. We have twenty
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thousand migrants today, So what is the price tag on
that now? And we can't get solid answers to what
is costing us right now?
Speaker 9 (16:56):
Y'all don't care what y'all trying to find.
Speaker 8 (16:58):
Y'all trying to find housing.
Speaker 9 (16:59):
For the for for for Venice, for for Venezuelans, for
the Latinos, for all that, y'all, y'all keep it sending
them over here when that needs to go back, y'all
one time, y'all sent ice there, Ice need to come after.
Speaker 8 (17:11):
There's prostitution. There's prostitution that's behind there's prostitution that's behind
all of these police districts.
Speaker 9 (17:19):
I love that Streeterville as prostitution right up the street.
Speaker 6 (17:23):
I mean, it's it's it's it's it's a it's.
Speaker 3 (17:25):
A disrespect, that's real. I don't like it. No, no, no, no,
let me I hate it. All of us have to
not like it. But the truth is this is where
we create the way for Republicans to come in and
go after very discreet sets of voters. We talked about
this before. They don't need everybody, they don't even need
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most of everybody. They just need a few And so
this is the kind of thing. We can't tell these
folks to disbelieve their lying eyes. Their lived experience is
gonna be what it is, but very quickly one. This
thing is based in a very racist and also separatists
otherising American tradition of the elite and corporate interests finding
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and figuring out a way to keep us separate, divided,
and conquered. When the union started to peep up during
the early beginnings of the industrial complex and say, listen,
these were white men. We're dying here. We need work
hours that respect us, we need a weekend, we need
to pay that, they went and did that. What did
the union bosses do, They saytiated them as best they
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could so they didn't have to kill them. Outside of
the mills where they were blocking the entrances of them
importing more cheap labor and to replace them, they blocked them.
And then they came up with a strata system. What
they started giving these folks titles but doing the same
work on the floor, so that the new title people
who didn't even make more with the new title, they
still made the same amount that everybody else did, but
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it created strata so that they could never come together
and do this thing as a as a as a unit.
So this has been an intention from the very beginning, y'all.
Divide and conquer is the name of the game, and
the writers of the rules are these corporate interests. But
as Angela and Tivity both said, the devil is a lie.
But not only is the devil a lie, or this
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is the devil's work, it is also a lie that
immigrants are not paying their fair share. But nobody's going
to believe that. As a fact, they pay more than
their fair share, therefore contribute more to the system than
they take from Hate me, love me, don't have an opinion,
it's a fact. The other thing, the other rising, is
a way to divide. And this whole thing, y'all, goes
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back to the very beginning, and it's divide and conquer.
So long as they keep us thinking that the enemy
is you and me, this and this, then we ain't
never paying attention to how much the corporate board made.
Speaker 5 (19:47):
I think that's such a I want to punctuate everything
Andrew just said, because I think that's such an important point.
I also want to make the point that Angela spoke
about nine percent of Black Americans have a foreign born
parent that their parent was also an immigrant, and one
out of ten black people living in the United States
is considered an immigrant as well. So those are all
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things to keep in mind.
Speaker 3 (20:11):
But y'all also hit on the fact that we cannot
ignore the racism that is steeped in our immigration policy.
In Florida, we had wetfoot dry foot. If you were
wet foot, it meant you came on a boat from Cuba.
If you were dryfoot, it meant you. And they would
let the boats that were coming from Cuba in and
onto shore, they'd become dryfood Haitian boats. They wouldn't let
them in the port. They turn them around in the
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sea so they couldn't get drift foot and send them
right back to Haiti. Everybody knows it. Why were there
two different policies, didn't make sense. It's steeped in racism.
Speaker 5 (20:41):
Well, I just think it's an important thing to point
out to our audience that a lot of the reasons
why these people are migrating to the US is because
of how US policy has impacted their native countries. We
have had an adverse impact on so many of these countries.
Because if it's something that's good for ten percent of
the people in the United States but bad for ninety
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percent of a population, guess what the United States does.
They proceed accordingly, and they prioritize our interest over everyone else.
So before we shun people and lose our humanity and
look at somebody trying to cross over a razor wire
at the southern border with their child and their arms
and watching them drown, just think about how you would
like to be treated, and never lose sight that these
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are human beings that we are talking to under the
most desperate of circumstances, trying to find a better life.
Speaker 3 (21:29):
And by the way, we leave the master's tools with
the master. We are on the same team, and we
don't have the same vision. Our vision is that everybody
out of work, make a good way for themselves, have
opportunity to be able to produce, and that's it. The
corporate agenda is not that. Yes, So the sides are
not Americans versus internationals who want to come in and
take our things. The sides are those who believe in humanity,
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the ability to work hard, play hard, get what it
is they deserve, versus those who want to keep more money,
more recent sources pocketed amongst their ten set of friends.
Those are the sides.
Speaker 1 (22:04):
And speaking of more money in order for us to
ensure that we can keep this pot going and keep
your listener questions coming in.
Speaker 2 (22:11):
We're going to take a quick commercial break.
Speaker 5 (22:18):
All right, Welcome back, everybody. Something that has been the
subject of a lot of conversation in your group chats, maybe,
but this week also in the media, is this narrative
around the black male voting block, even that descriptor. I
have challenges with I have to tell you. But the
Washington Post had a really interesting read this week that
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essentially suggested that Biden is having trouble with black men voters.
I have so many challenges and issues with this, Angela.
You know, we're in a group chat where we talk
about this kind of thing a lot all the time,
and I just think the media framing on this is wrong.
There are black people are one of the most faithful
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Democratic voters, and we've already talked about we're not faithful
to a political party. We're faithful to ourselves. We're voting
in favor of harm reduction. But this notion that somehow
we're going to lay the failure of Joe Biden at
the feet of black folks, particularly black men. I have
an issue with it. I think there is a small
sect of black men who vote Republican. They certainly don't
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represent the masses. And when the media writes about this,
I just want to scream, because you know who the
largest conservative voting bloc is, white men. Write about white
men voting overwhelmingly for this president with ninety one indictments,
who brags about grabbing women by their private parts, who
got one, two, three baby mamas all up in the
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White House. Right about that group of people because of
their conservative beliefs, they are overwhelmingly voting for him. Write
about the people who sit at the right hand of
that power, white women who support this president. So I
have a lot of issues to say about it. But Angela, I,
because we had talked about this so aggressively at our
group chat, I know you have some thoughts about it too,
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because we have to ask the question how do we
engage black men in these conversations? And I have to
say Vice President Kamala Harris, I think has been doing
a great job at that. It's not highly publicized, but
I know she's had some black mail centric dinners, and
I think it's wise of the administration to do that.
Speaker 1 (24:21):
I will tell you that I do have a lot
of thoughts. But we also have a question that's closely
enough related to this from one of our listeners, Monica Williams.
Speaker 10 (24:29):
Hey Native Land Podcast Spam. I wanted to kind of
get your thoughts. I saw in a Black Enterprise article
recently that stated that about fourteen to thirty percent of
the black vote was seemingly leaning towards.
Speaker 2 (24:46):
Donald Trump, which I thought was kind of a.
Speaker 11 (24:48):
Curious stat and kind of wondering what your thoughts are
on that, if that stat is in fact true, or
if you feel that it's leaning more or black men
are going towards Donald Trump versus Black women, or kind
of what that looks like, and if that's the case,
if there's anything that the Democratic Party can do to
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kind of stop the faucet from running.
Speaker 2 (25:14):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (25:14):
I think we know right that there's a distinction between
black women vote and black men vote, and it's still
not significant enough to call as much attention to it
as is called in the press every single cycle. It's
not new to tips point. I do think that I
believe that there's an alarm being sounded, and it should be.
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There should be no light between people of color and
Democrats in terms of policy, but there has been traditionally
and it continues to be a problem. This all hands
on deck approach to recruiting back a base that Democrats
lost long ago, and I would like to see them
keep that same energy to ensure that our voters don't
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leave when they don't feel heard, aren't seen, you know,
feel ignored, feel like their policy desires are not heard.
I also think, again I say this every week now,
that we need to be really clear about what our
demands are and what our agenda is. Andrew, I want
to come to you, and then I want to go
to one other clip.
Speaker 3 (26:16):
Black male voters need to be talked to like a
target community, as they would what you call the independent
lane center voter. That we're going to spend what six
times the amount we would on a base voter trying
to get out and say that we're their choice. Black
folks are not a monolith. We say this often, but
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increasingly when it comes to economic strata. If you are
not talking to me about more than a social program,
but one that yes, allows everybody to survive. But I
need a thriving agenda. I want to see the agenda
on a small black business, recruitment development, early seed investments,
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and then the kind of coverage and support that folks need.
You know, Donald Trump, you need daddy. God is from
his daddy. But institutions who are supposed to do that,
our banks aren't lending to us. So what public policy
are you going to produce that makes that door opened
and easier? During COVID, what black women were the fastest
starters of new business, yet something like ninety seven percent
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of all startup capital was going to white men. Yeah,
make it make sense. The policy isn't lining up. So
don't bring me no Chitlin circuit mess and think I'm
going to be impressed by it. We are not. We
now want you to go further.
Speaker 6 (27:37):
It is.
Speaker 3 (27:38):
It is boilerplate to take care of basic human needs.
Now I need you to tell me how in second
and third generation college we're gonna thrive. What's that agenda?
And so we've got to be willing to speak to it.
And if we don't, if we keep thinking that the
same three things are gonna motivate us civil rights paved
the way, and we owe our ancestors a lot. We
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understand that, and it is baked in the cake. But
those talking points are not applying to an emerging voter
black men being I think at the apex of it,
who want more. Yeah, they want more, and they deserve more,
just as we would give more if they were considered
a swing voter.
Speaker 1 (28:14):
Absolutely, And speaking of just that, there's a man named
Keith Rivers who spoke at a Black Voters Matter town
hall recently. I want to shout out Roland Martin who
gave us access to this footage for this town hall
that I actually moderated in South Carolina last Friday.
Speaker 2 (28:30):
Let's take a listen.
Speaker 12 (28:31):
We are a little city that is right about twenty
miles from the Virginia line, and so all of our
media comes out of Virginia. So North Carolina doesn't see us,
and we don't see North Carolina, and everything around.
Speaker 8 (28:49):
Us is rule.
Speaker 12 (28:51):
Within twenty four hours of the sharp.
Speaker 6 (28:54):
And verdict right ouf the George Floyd excuse me.
Speaker 8 (28:59):
On April the twenty first, twenty twenty one, they shot
a brother in the back of the head with the
AR fifteen rifle fired thirty some of the shots in
his head when he was rolling out. He was goldly
going away. The Corners report said that it was homicide,
and the media came into our city. They sold out
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every hotel in the city, and we marched for almost
a year. And we didn't burn down any buildings, We
didn't shoot each other, we didn't do anything. And the
media left. The media left, and those deputies that murdered
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Andrew Brown Jr. Go to work every day. And my
question is, where's the media now? Where's the black media
who's telling our story? Now? Where's the black media to
tell this story that these white deputies, one of them
is by Ray. Sure, they don't make no difference. They
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all of them, that wall of blue. They shot this
brother in the back of the head. And nobody's telling
this story today. And maybe if this story get told,
the same sheriff got reelected the district attorney, it became
a judge. We don't have a black judge in our district.
Speaker 6 (30:24):
Who's telling our story in these rural areas.
Speaker 8 (30:26):
But maybe if our media, if the black media start
telling our story, we won't have a problem getting people
to the polls.
Speaker 1 (30:37):
Okay, So I know that you guys might be asking
why did we play this clip around black media, But
I think it is so clear, and I want to
tell you, guys, because Andrew and tiff y'all are some
of the greatest public servants I know. When I heard
this man and saw this grown man cry at the
mic like that, I said, I'm committing to you. We
are putting this story on the podcast. We will talk
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about Andrew Brown Junior. But the thing that he said
that is so poignant, and I know y'all feel this.
When we talk to rural black voters a lot of times,
they say they feel forgotten. They are only thought about
every four years. And he hits that right on the
head when he says the media sold out these hotel rooms,
that they were everywhere. They were swarming right after this
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man was shot and killed, but shortly thereafter because they
left because there was no more attention placed on this.
Because the tv ads are Virginia and not North Carolina.
The sheriff was reelected, the DA became an elected judge.
And Andrew Brown Junior's legacy is brought on by the
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people who were to boost up and to fortify his killers.
This I mean, if there's not something that encapsulates the
problem better. I don't know what it is. Like the
reason black men are like, yo, I'm not doing this,
the reason our people are like forget it.
Speaker 2 (32:00):
But the reason young people are like, I'm just trying to.
Speaker 1 (32:02):
Understand what you're doing with Gaza though, like you're not
speaking to my humanity.
Speaker 2 (32:06):
In fact, you don't even see me until you need
my vote.
Speaker 1 (32:09):
That is the issue, Like we have to drill down
on the actual problem. This isn't even about going at policy.
Sometimes it's just like, do you see me? Can you
acknowledge my existence?
Speaker 2 (32:22):
I matter? Talk to me like I matter.
Speaker 1 (32:24):
Latasha and Clip founded Black voters Matter, and they do
the work all year long, not just in an election year,
but three sixty five seven days a week, all of
the time because we matter all of the time. Our
engagement matters all of the time, and what we hear
from this man. And I also don't want to blame
black media. We got a resource challenge rather just like
everybody else, but like we have to do the work
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of staying engaged and ensuring that our folks feel seen
all the time because we cannot count on any elected official,
no matter the race, to do that all the time
for us, We've got to do that. Thank God for
a Black Voters Matter for making this happen. But truly,
that's where I believe the work is, and that's where
I think the disconnect really lies.
Speaker 2 (33:06):
We got to do that well.
Speaker 5 (33:08):
I think it's a really good point is about rural America, right,
because when you hear people talk about rural America and
the mainstream media, so often we are not included the
rural America. In mainstream media, the white is silent. So
assume that everyone lives in rural America is a white
farmer who has somehow been disenfranchised, when in reality, more
than seven percent of black folks call rural America home.
(33:30):
And I want to say people of color comprised more
than thirty percent of rural America across this country. So yes,
we see you, we hear you, we understand you. I
have to too, echo Angela sentiments and defend black media.
It is a more than a resource challenge. Media everywhere
is challenged, and so if you can imagine that when
it comes to black media, it is a severe resource
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challenge that they do not have the resources to be
on ground and cover everything like that. So I wouldn't
lay that film at the foot of black media. I
lay this failure at the foot of media, at white
decision makers who do not see faces like this as
being real America or the heart of America. That is
a challenge that we all have to press forward on
and we can't depend on, you know, white run newsrooms
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to do that for us. That's why there's always been
such credo and importance to media that centers us black
run media, black owned media. But I just want to
say that when it comes to because this was such
a huge conversation around the Georgia race where Stacy Abrams
ran for governor, and there was a similar conversation around
black men. And you think about there's Atlanta, which is
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a hard blue spot on a very red map, and
so as Georgia turns purple, you think about all the
people in rural America there And just to give black
men a shout out, because I know you all stand
with us. There's a small margin of people who venture
over to the other side. But in Georgia, twenty seven
percent or twenty three thousand people, excuse me, voted for
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Brian Kemp. Twenty three black men voted for Brian Kemp.
If you took all twenty three thousand of those black men,
they would have done nothing for the more than fifty
thousand lead that he had. So I just rebuke any
time we're laying failure in this democracy at the foot
of black folks, we have to turn that mirror and say,
how are white folks voting? Because they are still the
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largest voting block.
Speaker 3 (35:20):
Yeah, you don't go after your number two highest contributing
member to your success period, bar nne By sharing the
vote and say you're the blame for the loss. If
you got a fifty cheap, fifty numbered long list of
who your constituency is, and black men right behind black
women are the number one and two performers, you would
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think that your ad resourcing money would be so heavily
concentrated on maximizing that community and being there and doing
what needs to be done for that community that you
make no light in between. But what black folks are
willing to do in black men and black women too.
I think we're pragmatic voters. But let's just take what
Donald Trump has said and is doing on the issue
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of criminal justice. I find it largely self serving given
his particular condition right now, But his head face on
attack about the corruption of the FBI and what federal
prosecutors are doing and state prosecutors and so forth, that
resonates with our community. Those were our talking points before
he co opted them and the folks on the right
(36:26):
co opted them. We were saying, this is a system
that is not designed for us, but it is except
to our demise. If we let them run away with
criminal justice as an issue, in the corruption of institutions
as an issue, then I can tell you we will
have something to worry about. Because I am done sick.
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I no longer will lay down and blindly support any
governmental institution or law enforcement entity, agency, or individual or
set of people without scrutinizing it to the highest degree,
because I've been on this where those systems have cooperated
maliciously to make a thing that wasn't a thing a
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thing and ruining and crushing lives, communities, families, neighborhoods in between.
So when I look at MSNBC or CNN or any
of these cable news networks, and I'm hearing the same
black voices that were on there saying during Barock's administration
that we need a criminal justice reform and a prosecutorial
accountability who are now saying, hell, when prosecutors put together
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their case against Trump, you know they're not going to
leave any stone unturned. And now giving these folks unfettered
credibility for their work, no, serve you lose me. I'm
not with that because no institution's beyond reproach and certainly
not a governmental institution. And I think he's tapping on
something and people are willing to hear that.
Speaker 1 (37:52):
Absolutely well, we got to pay some more bills and
we'll be right back after this break.
Speaker 2 (38:05):
Okay.
Speaker 1 (38:06):
As you all know, politics are everywhere and they're definitely
in hip hop. We have Nicki Minaj versus Meg the Stallion.
Meg the Stallion his first with her track.
Speaker 2 (38:18):
Called His These Hos don't be mad at Megan. These
host made at Megan's law.
Speaker 13 (38:22):
I don't really know what the problem means, but I
get see y'all want me staring.
Speaker 1 (38:25):
And Nicki Minaj hit back with a track called Bigfoot
Shi by Bigot.
Speaker 2 (38:34):
I want to talk about this because it just went
a little far for me.
Speaker 1 (38:39):
It went a little far for me, and I want
to reference first in Meg's track Hiss, she referenced something
called Meghan's Law. So she says, these holes don't be
mad at Meghan. These holes be mad at Meghan's Law.
And she referenced Megan's Law, which is about the required
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for a sexual offender to report that they are in
fact a sexual offender. It's a federal law that requires
law enforcement to make information available about registered sex offenders.
We know that Nicki Minaj is married to one Kenneth
Petty who's a registered sex offender.
Speaker 2 (39:19):
So Nikki hit back and she came at her about bigfoot.
Speaker 1 (39:25):
Meg is five to ten and I guess this is
something about that, as well as hitting at the fact
that she was shot in the foot by Tory Lanes,
which we all know anyway, we don't have to get
in all that. But my question is, just like, what
do we do with this. It's online bullying for seventy
two hours. I thought we could leave it all on
the sixteen bars, but apparently not. So I'd like to
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hear y'all thoughts about that.
Speaker 5 (39:48):
Yeah, I gotta say, I'm so disgusted by this Angela.
I think it's so tragic. Number one, that these two
women are fighting like this and the public eye ladies,
there is nothing attractive about tearing down another black woman.
It just Isn't you look so much more secure and
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happy and together when you're secure enough in yourself to
stand next to another queen whose light shines as bright
as yours, and if her light ain't shining as bright
as yours, you're trying to lift her up to make
sure her light shines as bright as yours. The challenge
with this is when this kind of like petty back
and forth, and I believe Nicki Mina said something about
Megan's deceased mother. It feeds such a baser instinct and
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find you a tribe and let's celebrate sisterhood because I
couldn't imagine Salt and Peppa going after MC light, who
was going after mony Love Like we just didn't have
that coming up. And I don't want a morphine. So
one of those get off my lawn. Middle aged women.
I'm certainly not seeing the Lauras Tucker sitting up here
on this panel.
Speaker 4 (40:51):
But this ain't it.
Speaker 5 (40:52):
You know, whatever you all think this is accomplishing, it doesn't.
Sixty four percent of young adults experience online bullying. You
have black people who say, oh, suicide that ain't something
we do.
Speaker 4 (41:02):
That is not true.
Speaker 5 (41:03):
Suicides among black youth seventeen ten to seventeen years old
is up one hundred and forty four percent, and that
number is attributed to online bullying. So to talk about
somebody who was a victim of assault, to talk about
somebody's body shaping, I believe Niki is almost forty years old.
If she's not over forty, over forty, it doesn't matter
how old you are, but that kind of behavior is disgusting.
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I also want to make the point Angela that she
tweeted she was tweeting with Ben Shapiro. Nicki Minaj was
Ben Shapiro is a right wing conservative zealot, a MAGA extremist.
And so any time that you are so caught up
in belittling another woman, you would align yourself with somebody
who doesn't even see your humanity. I would hope that
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you question yourself. And I pray for both their healing,
but especially Nicki Minaj I pray for your healing, sys
because something inside you was broken that you would go
to that level of disgusting attack on someone who lost
their mother and who was the victim of an assault.
I don't like any of it, it's not entertaining at all.
Speaker 1 (42:04):
To the point tip, just so you know, this online bullying,
as we know, finds its way into what happens in
real life. We saw that on January sixth, it turns
into an insurrection. Well, there was an insurrection at Meg
the Stallion's mother's grave site. Yep, they actually went to
her grave site to deface the grave. That's where we are, Andrew,
I saw you about to weigh in.
Speaker 3 (42:25):
No, yeah, y'all, I'm learning about this as I'm listening
to y'all, so quick question.
Speaker 10 (42:30):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:31):
Nicki Minaj's critique before this thing seemed to degrade in
the black hole, was that Meghan's law or.
Speaker 1 (42:41):
My point was that Meg said in the lyrics, she says,
you think Holds is mad at Meghan, but they're really
mad at Meghan's law, like the fact that he has
to report.
Speaker 2 (42:50):
That's actually the lyric.
Speaker 5 (42:51):
She's talking about Nicky's husband who's a registered sex offender.
Meghan's law is yes, it already, but she's saying, oh.
Speaker 3 (42:57):
Right, okay, so she threw it back at her as
it did.
Speaker 2 (43:00):
Nicki responded with bigfoot. But here's the other thing.
Speaker 1 (43:02):
This is happening in real time, while like literally today
we record, you guys know, we pre record. There is
a Kids Online Safety Act being discussed in the Senate.
This has everything to do with bullying and harassment and
all these things. So I'm saying, you got adults demonstrating
why this is so dangerous for kids. There are kids who,
when they're bullied online, go home and commit or die
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by suicide. We have to be mindful of how we're
carrying ourselves, particularly when you have a fan base. Charles
Barkley said in that commercial back in the day, I'm
not a role model. Guess what you are as soon
as you step in that limelight. There are kids who
are emulating themselves to try to be like you. There
are adults who are trying to be like you. Nicki
minaj Sis you're forty one, I'm forty four. I'm just
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saying we might have to shine a light and be
a role model, even for the sisters in their twenties,
like Meg. Meg's been through a lot, right, Like, I mean,
come on, and it's hip hop there, I mean, you know.
Speaker 2 (44:00):
It's hip hop. There's always been rap battles at hip hop.
Speaker 4 (44:03):
You ain't gotta take its a Twitter.
Speaker 2 (44:05):
It's too far.
Speaker 4 (44:06):
Never like this, Never like this. I mean I do
think of ll Cool Day and Cool Mode.
Speaker 5 (44:11):
They had one of the dopest rat battles and when
you you know, hear those jay z Exactly throughout history
there's always been rat battles.
Speaker 4 (44:18):
This is something else.
Speaker 5 (44:19):
And the fact that people are going to her mother's
grave debasing her grave, I just find it all disgusting.
And listen, Angela and I and Andrew, all of us
have been have experienced ugly comments on social media. I
am a grown ass woman, so I know the difference
between my real life and what people are on here saying,
and still it can impact me when somebody overwhelmingly is
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saying something. People have an opinion on your hair, your outfit,
everything you look like, who you date, all of that stuff.
It can be overwhelming to a grown adult who's securing herself.
So you imagine being thirteen or fifteen and seeing this
behavior play out and then mimicking it with your peers,
and the consequences are dire. So monitor to social media. Kids,
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share responsibly, behave responsibly. If you're the victim of online bullying,
you can report those comments. There are some safe practices
out there for you that you can google. But this
is not This is not normal behavior. This is the
behavior of at least one broken woman, if not too
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and it's nothing to celebrate.
Speaker 3 (45:24):
I want to co sign everything again, less informed about it,
but I do know this much. I don't have to
be that informed to know this. This is the point
at which the close friends, the enlightened ones who are close,
respectively to these women. This is when you tell them
on the side to take a bee, and y'all going
to handle this inside the door rather than out in
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the yard, in the street, and up at the community plaza.
Because these beats happen all the time. Grown folks have them,
young folks have them. It impacts all of us differently,
in every one of us has areas of brokenness. But
this ain't the forum and these women. My colleagues have
pointed out many reasons why it isn't, but it to
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me underscoes why you have to have people around you
who are willing to pull you up and out so
you can stop being at the three inch level and
get out to the three thousand level and see what
the big picture is. Then women don't know enough about
each other to go at one another so viscerally and
so personally. That's a disconnect. I used to feel this
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way when I get emails from people who would just
tearing me to pieces. Don't know me from Tom Adam
Katt except for the comment or the clip or whatever
they read. And I had to quickly come to a
place and I thank YACHTI for this. Angela knows her.
I had to get into a place where, look, your
opinion of me is not my business, because you can't
feel this much unless you've experienced something in your life
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personally that has been triggered and lifted and you are hurt.
And so guess what. I know. You put my name there,
but you can change it to whomever this is intended for,
because some healing has to happen there.
Speaker 6 (47:05):
You can't.
Speaker 3 (47:06):
You don't know me well enough to feel that way
about me? Whatsoever? Ought to take the time to write
that much about me? To take take that back to
who it is intended for, because your opinion of me
is not my business.
Speaker 2 (47:19):
It's not.
Speaker 3 (47:20):
And these women need friends who are pulling them up
all that time.
Speaker 4 (47:23):
You spend all that time right into a stranger.
Speaker 5 (47:25):
Okay, let me I just can I just say really quickly,
because Angela knows this, like we there are different social circles,
and you know, for the young people at what you
do at twenty will still stick with you when you're thirty,
when you forty. So you always want to try to
live like a good life. And everybody deserves redemption. There
are people who might be who I might not be
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their favorite person, you know, and they might say, oh,
Tiffany Cross, I don't like her. And somebody comes to
me and they say, oh, well, Susie Q says she
don't like you. At this moment, I have a choice.
I can say I don't give a shit. If Susie
Q don't like me, who cares? Or I can say,
you know, that's really unfortunate. I've always liked her and
I thought she was a pleasant person. But I hope
she's well and I'm whatever I did, I hope that
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she can find healing in it for her own.
Speaker 4 (48:09):
Life in that moment.
Speaker 5 (48:11):
Who looks like the more senior person, So Nikki and
Megan and somebody not everything so deserves the response.
Speaker 3 (48:17):
My response with a band, why are you chasing over
here to me to tell me somebody's business and why
they feel comfortable telling you and not me.
Speaker 4 (48:27):
Right, that's the whole other conversation.
Speaker 5 (48:29):
What you say when they say they ain't like me,
and why they feel comfortable telling you they ain't like me.
That's something to think about too. Stay out of mess,
keep your mouth shut, and stay out of mess.
Speaker 2 (48:41):
Anyway.
Speaker 1 (48:42):
So we spent a lot of time in mess today,
and I just gotta say, you know who else is
in our mess?
Speaker 2 (48:48):
Didn't nobody ask them to be there? The n essay.
Speaker 1 (48:51):
So the Senate has held a hearing on this because
you know, we're trying to understand what tech company's responsibility
to us. There's this ability right now for folks to
buy internet metadata that is telling all our business. So
you think you're going to do something online and you
hit that delete button that's still there, booboo. And there's
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somebody who I'm really surprised I agree with, who had
something to say about this. Let's roll that clip.
Speaker 14 (49:19):
Mister Zuckerberg, you and the companies before us. I know
you don't mean it to be so, but you have
blood on your hands. You have a product. You have
a product that's killing people.
Speaker 11 (49:35):
Now.
Speaker 14 (49:36):
Senator Blumenthal and Blackburn who've been like the Dynamic duo
here have found emails from your company where they warned
you about this stuff, and you decided not to hire
forty five people that could do a better job of
policing this. So the bottom line is you can't be sued.
You should be and these emails would be great for
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punitive damages, but the courtrooms closed. Every American abused by
all the companies in front of me.
Speaker 2 (50:05):
Let me find out, Lindsey.
Speaker 1 (50:07):
I mean, I feel bipartisan today because Lindsey tore that down.
Speaker 2 (50:11):
Now it feels like that really went more with Meg
and Nikki.
Speaker 1 (50:14):
But I will say that on this the Senator has
been relentless at figuring out what is happening with tech companies,
like what their responsibility is to the general republic, particularly kids.
Lindsey Graham mentioned Senators Blackburn and Blumenthal, who are also
the co sponsors of the Kids Online Safety Act we
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just talked about. I have got to tell you the
NSA spying is of course not a surprise, that's what
they do. But the ability to pass off our metadata
without a warrant is deeply troubling for me, and I
think this is a place where libertarian Republicans would also
agree with us on this. I don't know if y'all
have stuff on this, but I just I had to
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get that Lindsey Graham clip in there.
Speaker 4 (50:58):
I was surprised, Yeah, I so, Lindsey Graham was.
Speaker 5 (51:02):
Definitely it was in the hearing about online safety and
online bullying, but the NSA a completely different issue. Look,
this is surveillance capitalism run amuck. And obviously, as Black Americans,
we know that government agencies has always taken license to
spy on us, not just during co Intel pro but
even in recent history during Black Lives Matter, when the
FBI had a whole list of folks that they were targeting.
(51:24):
I think it's interesting how you know people are very
paranoid and you know they won't do Certainly, they won't vote,
they won't take the vaccine, and they won't do other
things because they think people are spying on them. Let
me tell you who's spying on you. This right here,
this phone in your hand. They are collecting all your data,
all your information, and spoon feeding you information on your
Google search, on your navigation page, on your Instagram landing page,
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TikTok et, cetera, and so you know, I think technology,
as we've said many times before, is moving faster than
law and policy, particularly when you think about some of
the artificial intelligence tools that are feeding some of our
devices that we engage with every day. Even TikTok, this
is not a business that was born here in America.
I'm the owners of TikTok's are Chinese, and so there
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are features on TikTok that monitor how even your finger movements.
They monitor how you hold your device, how you tap
your device. Now, it might not matter if somebody is
watching your ten year old now, but when that ten
year old becomes a thirty year old and they work
for the NSA and people are collecting their data, it
matters a great deal. So, you know, I wish I
had a solution, but I appreciate you bringing this up,
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Angela and waving a huge red flag. But this is
something that's happening and certainly something that we need to
pay attention to and get ahead of these government agencies
before they get too far ahead of us.
Speaker 3 (52:45):
Well, Lindsey Graham could pass some laws number one, but
until we get that done, he could begin his care
and concern by stop being in an online bully harasser himself.
It's hard for me to take him seriously when he
uses these very same platforms to go individually after people,
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you call for violence, and states and the nations across
the world to threaten other political leaders for whom he disagrees. So,
while y'all are working on the law, could you, at
least I don't know self, govern and start to exhibit
what it means to be a responsible user of this information,
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not just an abuser when it suits you and Zuckerberger, y'all,
I'll just restate this, which is, let's not get the
enemy twisted. It isn't left and right Republican man next
to the Democratic woman. Corporate interests turn those groups on
and off at their pleasure. They create divides at their pleasure.
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They create wedges at their pleasure, because what they understand
is that the matrix that they have built is resilient.
It is intended to produce a certain outcome and to
keep the powerful as powerful as they can be. They
see nothing. They are ungenerous with it. And so I
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love to go after individuals and parties who do there whatever.
But the real enemy here is the corporate interests who
have always been at the center of the design of systems. Well,
they built the system to be resilient. It will not
break because they have tried and true methods like won't
you sick this group against this group, won't you sell
this to this group? And we got to create these
(54:38):
environments where you keep us the some of us, Heather
McGhee separated, So I you know, thank you, Lindsey, appreciate it,
practice what you preach. Okay, Oh we needed that Miami,
that South that base, South City Base. Okay, We're luking
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trita what you need and trick when you need them.
Speaker 1 (55:06):
So speaking at a bounty, we're going to questions from
the audience. So we only have one left because as
you know, we've done such a wonderful job at integrating
them this time. So we're gonna pause here for a
questions for the audience.
Speaker 6 (55:17):
Hello Native Land Podcast. My name is Norvel. I'm a grandfather,
got two granddaughters, five children, and.
Speaker 15 (55:27):
I'm a gen answer my question is how do you
feel technology can help Black America and how do you
feel it's going to hinder us if we don't get.
Speaker 6 (55:40):
Involved with it now, especially with the election season in
full swing.
Speaker 3 (55:47):
That's real, brother, Leville. I was just doing the math
on gen X. I was like, I think I'm one
of them. These generations can be. It's not the point,
I think, hopefully, what he is saying in the use
of technology, It's evolved in a whole bunch of ways,
not just sitting at a computer and reading articles, but
cell phones. How we vote? Should I be able to
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technology advance to a way where I can vote right
from the comfort of my living room, where there are
states that are exhibiting and some local communities are showing
how that could work. I'm a huge advocate for our
aging population to stay connected to technology for as good uses,
because let me tell you, the right is using it,
and they're using it against a lot of black folks
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who are on the internet and use technology.
Speaker 8 (56:31):
I know.
Speaker 3 (56:32):
Angela gave a story the other day I got way
too many to give where my mother takes screenshots saying
you need to contact this person about this bitcoin who
sent me an email saying you know they had money
for me. That folks are using these things for evil
and they're getting directly to who they're trying to target,
and that's you. And what I would say is is
certainly as we age, and with elections coming around, we
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have to check our sources primary source, which means that
is a headline like the Atlanta Constitution Journal to tell
us that whatever your legitimate sources of news, but you're
sending me some Facebook ad article, some what have you
picked up off of? I need sources, need sources, I
need this has to be validated some number of places.
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Don't be giving your social security and all that stuff
out over the internet. All I'm saying is the tools
exist there. They are getting to older folks. We just
need to teach folks how to best use this so
it's not weaponized against them. And right now technology is
being used on both politically for weaponization, but also the
big bad enemy, the huge, huge, huge top one percent
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corporate interests, who has a reason for sending and allowing
and not regulating certain things or allowing certain regulations so
they could get directly to you for this very special purpose.
But it's no mistake, it's intentional.
Speaker 5 (57:56):
Yes, can I just I want to just jump in
and say it's for younger people on technology. It's also
a big deal black people over index when it comes
to using technology, particularly social media. And so if we're
over indexing there. I would love to see more people
pursue fields of study in STEM learn to code, learn
to design, learn how you can benefit financially from something
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that you enjoy doing. And there are increased amounts of
programs that support for young folks who want to pursue
studies in the areas of science, technology, engineering, and.
Speaker 3 (58:32):
Math and pursue it with an intention toward the greater good,
achieve some good.
Speaker 2 (58:38):
We have one more audience question, high Native Lampid.
Speaker 16 (58:41):
My name is Tina West and I'm from Detroit, Michigan,
and my question is how are we going to engage
the younger generation and encourage them to show up and
vote in the twenty twenty four election cycle. A couple
of things. Everyday work in black folks, young folks, they
are not feeling any of the effects of the Biden administration.
Speaker 2 (59:01):
It's hard out here.
Speaker 16 (59:03):
And then they sit on their phones and they see
the genocide that's happening overseas at the hands of Israel,
and they hear Biden saying that he's going to support them.
How do we shift the focus on what is important
here at home and encourage these people to get out
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and vote for their interests. How can we engage them.
Speaker 5 (59:30):
Well, I'm happy that she brought up what's happening in Israel,
because I wonder does the administration understand the why vast
impact this has had on their voting base. You know,
it's hard to look at the imagery that we see
and not have some sort of disdain on what is
being allowed to take place and happen in Gaza. Regardless
(59:53):
of where you stand on this divide in this issue,
it is to me an issue of just humanity, and
I think for people of color, it's hard to look
at this and not identify with those people who we
would call oppressed and oppressed people. And the bloody, gory
violence this week. The latest video I saw was a
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grandmother who had been invited to safety walking with her
grandson waving a white flag and you see her get
gunned down. It's hard to see that imagery and not
be outraged about it. So I at least want to
show up and first validate young people for feeling that
way and seeing that, and we understand that, and we
won't be one of the people who are going to
spin in your face and try to convince you as reigning. No,
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that is real and you have every right to be outraged.
I want to push back, however, on this notion that
gen Z does not benefit from the Biden administration. I
think we have to do a better job at informing
voters across every demographic, every age group we are benefiting
from Democratic led policies, from Democratic push policies. I think
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we have to consider the states you live in. Often,
when the federal government gives money, the local government controls
how that money is issued or spent. And so when
Democrats vote for something, you know, a boost in federal
funding that gets the states if you have a Republican
governor controlling the purse strings, and that money does not
always get to where it needs to get to, especially
(01:01:21):
for people who look like us. I would hold up
Mississippi as a perfect example of that with Tate Reeves,
and look at what's happening with La Mumba down there
in Jackson and their water system. So that's a top
topic for another day. But I just remember, young folks,
there are plenty of policies coming out of the Biden administration,
from infrastructure to the employment rate that are that are
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impacting you. And also remember those down ballot races and
issues that impact you to from ballot initiatives to your
city council, to your school boards, your local government. So
if you don't participate in this process, you cannot shape
them mindocracy to your liking.
Speaker 2 (01:02:03):
Guess what we have this. I've been waiting for this
the whole time. I'm so excited.
Speaker 1 (01:02:07):
We have someone who's already such a fan, such a
part of the Native Lampire community that they submitted a song.
And it's not a traditional Q and A, but we
were gonna take this moment really quick to play a
song that was submitted, a little Native Lampire jingle from
Daniel Lawrence, who I believe is a constituent of our
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good friend Ayanna Presley. He resides in the Roxbury neighborhood
in Boston, Massachusetts.
Speaker 13 (01:02:34):
Let's roll that bang, Welcome Home with the Natives, landing
on the podcast Things six of a Breakness sixty minutes
or so. Hit not too long for the graphigh level
politics in a way that you can taste it, then
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digested politics such a shoe waven if you don't touch it.
Getting Beth to across the tees and doctor I skill
him back to get him standing on business. Will ri
you could have been anywhere to play podcast. So bringing
the trust.
Speaker 2 (01:03:17):
Let me just let me just stand up, Let me
just stand up. I'm just standing on. I'm standing on
with you. Got back down.
Speaker 1 (01:03:27):
Y'all can't see me standing up anything, speaking, standing speaking
our centerments. We got another ad break, and after the
ad break, our brother Andrew Gillam sharing this testimony.
Speaker 2 (01:03:39):
We'll be right back. Okay, we're back.
Speaker 3 (01:03:48):
Andrew, thank you, Thank you, Thank you, sisters, and to
our amazing audience, thank you as well for listening and supporting.
And last week Tiffany and La has some sympathy for
my post construction mouth. Mostly they were looking at my
odd expressions. I guess throughout I didn't see it didn't
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bother me. It's okay, but it was painful. And I'm
thankful for y'all's grace and their grace and allowing me
to to start to ump. I love y'all back, to
start to unpack a little bit of my own personal
story and what has allowed me to arrive at this moment.
And before I sort of dive in, I I want
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to just set the stage that part of my sharingness
is actually I can say that what it's not about one.
It isn't about explaining to anybody anything just.
Speaker 17 (01:04:45):
Because you're curious.
Speaker 3 (01:04:47):
It isn't about me feeling forced to do so by
anyone for anything, for any money. It isn't about explaining
for the per purposes of anyone understanding, even because I
know that explanations doesn't necessarily lead to an understanding. And
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it isn't about addressing haters and others who have opinions
of you that will not change. May not change because
I have long ago suspended with the fact that people's
opinions of me and my business, They've got to interrogate
why that is. And I hope this doesn't sound bymbassy
to anybody, but I want to be very clear that
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my reason for wanting to share more about my walk
and my experience is out of hope that through sharing
that there are individuals who may be going through, have
gone through, or whether they know it or not, will
go through. That there are so many of us who
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stand on the other side of that journey, and I
know there'll be many, many, many more life lessons for
me to learn from. I am I am thankful to God,
and it's taken me some time to get here. For
taking what others may have meant for bad and destructive,
(01:06:18):
and I'll just say it, for my death may have
been the exact things that conspired for my resurrection, and
so to God be the glory for that. Many of you, all,
of course, heard about what happened in Miami. If you
didn't know me from running for governor, but you heard
(01:06:40):
about me running for governor, you didn't see me and
my post selection work on CNN or traveling or public speaking.
What you know and last got updated about was a
hotel room and pictures that looked salacious and my inviting
(01:07:00):
in folks to my bisexuality. But what you should know
is that while Miami was loud and explosive and eye catching,
it wasn't the beginning of the bottom mean for me.
It was me really hitting a rock bottom after many, many,
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many many years of work toward a thing, and then
to not reach that goal, and to have a lot
of pain and agony around really all of it, but
nowhere to put it. You start to put it on yourself,
and it becomes incredibly self destructive. So let me stop
(01:07:47):
by saying politicians are oftentimes demonized because they run for office,
and people those politicians, and so there's a thing that
you expect from us, how we show up, what we say,
how inauthentic we may be. Well, I've lived too much
of life at this point and experience too much for superficial,
hype up, superficial really anything. I just want it real.
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And so you should know that I got into public
service from a very very very young young age, and
I was one of those kids, if you let my
mom tell it, one of seven kids, you know, grew
up in poverty, buying large economically down in Miami Dade,
Miami Richmond Heights, shout out. But my mother would joke
(01:08:32):
as she tells stories of my childhood about how I
would run around with penny loafers on after I got
out of school, and I was particular about making sure
my pennies were in there. How I was a very
caring person, but often was very much about the plan,
how are we going to get this done, How we're
going to get this done. And I also told the
story when I was running for governor about some of
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the sadder instances of my growing up where I would
see the police show up at the house and my
mom would start crying hysterically because she'd been told that
one of my brothers had been locked up or got
into some trouble of some sort, and she'd have to
go down.
Speaker 17 (01:09:07):
And see about them.
Speaker 3 (01:09:09):
And as the fifth of seven children, all boys and
one girl, my baby sister and the first of my
siblings to attend college and to graduate, much of the
decision for me to go that route, to go the
rite of service was I remember trying to commit to myself,
if not verbally, to my mother, how badly it hurt
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me to see her cry in life. I just wanted
to make sure that and the things that I did
that I didn't make my mom cry for being sad.
But if she cried, it was because she was happy
and proud, And I didn't want her to be visited
by tears and anguish of me getting into some kind
of trouble, but tears and joy over the good that
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I was doing. And so as a kid, I would
watch c Span and I remember back in the day
Maxine Waters, who was a young young girl woman she's
still young in Congress, and she would be down on
that floor speaking with all kind of power and strength
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and declaration and clarity, and I was like, I.
Speaker 17 (01:10:21):
Want to be her.
Speaker 3 (01:10:22):
I want to know that woman, and that's what I
want to be when I grow up. Because she was
talking like I didn't hear black people talk to white men.
Miss us speak of us such and such and such,
and you know, goe and on, and I was impressed
by that power to be able to show up as
us without compromising what it looks like, what it sounds like,
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and what the truth is. I ran for student government
I was in the sixth grade, got elected and served
every year through high school all through college, becoming student
body president of fam you and a member of the
Board of Trustees, the first student ever to serve on
that board, and then directly after that into city commission,
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where I got elected to a citywide seat in a
city that at the time was almost seventy percent white.
That elected me citywide to the Chilisi City Council, becoming
the youngest person ever in the history of the city
to be elected to serve there, where I served for
you know, three terms, and then ran for mayor and
got elected. I say that to say I've been in
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service for a long time. And I say service for
a reason because I'm almost Pollyannish. I used to be
giddy about it, not about the position, but about the
fact that I could show up at a meeting on
Monday night to deal with I don't know, high utility
bills and make a decision on that same night that
by Wednesday would lower people's rates and that they would
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see a system working for them.
Speaker 17 (01:11:53):
And why that was important to me was because.
Speaker 3 (01:12:00):
As a child, that will watch my mother make calls
for help because she was a little low on what
it was going to cost to make both rent and
keep the lights on pardon me, okay, And I remember
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the feeling of feeling helpless because I couldn't do anything
to help the situation, and that I was a burden
because who was she keeping a roof over the head
of and who was she keeping the light built on?
Speaker 17 (01:12:33):
Boy?
Speaker 3 (01:12:34):
It was us. She was doing what was needed to
help us get by right, making a way out of
no way, which we're all so familiar with in our community.
But those early imprints have been everything to how I've
approached governing and politics that this isn't this is not
a game. What we're doing here tonight is not a joke.
The decisions we're making have real, everyday impact on people's lives,
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so it matters what we do. I say that because
almost up into this day, that's the kind of feeling
I've had about our government and what it can do,
not all the bad treacherous things that have been done,
but the good that can be done there. So as
a true believer, and when I decided to run for governor,
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I made that decision because I was clear about what
I wanted to do for the people of the state
of Florida, expertly clear on so many of the issues
that I saw as a local official that showed up
at the local level that the state didn't seem so
hip or tuned to, or maybe they did, and they
just were making the choice to communicate to me people
who look like me and were situated similarly, that we
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didn't matter. Medicare expansion, real criminal justice reform, where I
would on the trail say that nobody should be judged
forever by their worst day. Where did that come from?
That came from the fact that my brother Chuck did
time for being found guilty of drug sales and at
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high qualities. And I remember my brother Chuck only as
a person who was cutting yards at thirteen and going
through the neighborhood, picking up stuff, I mean, finding any
way he could to hustle so he could bring some
cash home to my mom, so she could add a
little bit more to the pot for what we were
going to eat. So this out just this man who
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wanted to be a man for not just our host hole,
but my aunties and others who were struggling. He did
what he could to make away for them. And so
the fact that he was being judged by a singular conviction,
to me, just didn't seem to make sense. And it
maybe it happened, maybe it didn't. I stand with him,
But why should we judge him and create policies that
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will keep him locked out on his neck and on
his knees all the time because of the ways in
which we eliminate folks. So when I said you shouldn't
be judged for everybody your work, it was because I
believed it, because I had seen it. And y'all, it
would come to pass that after losing that race for
governor by zero point four percent difference, the closest margin
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in the history of the state of Florida, I ran
also instead of choosing to run for reelection as mayor
of the city of Tallahassee. So for the first time
in my life as a forty year old man going
back to sixth grade, but certainly from the age of
twenty three and I'm forty four today, I didn't have
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a title to give me a seat at the table
where decisions were being made about the things and the
people I cared about, as I had been able to
do all of my life up until that point find solutions.
And the night when I gave my concession, I broke
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down when I said that I was sorry to the voters,
that I could bring it home for them. And no
one wrote that line for me. I knew it for
myself because the loss was already beginning to feel like
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my skills could no longer be used for good, to
help lift the community that I cared about, which were
the people of my state, and particularly those who found
themselves at the margins of everything always in my state,
and that I had gotten so close and we just
couldn't get passed at all. And I started thinking about
all the things that got in the way of that
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being possible, the fact that I couldn't do anymore, that
I did everything that I could within my own power,
to win the race for governor, but all the while
was haunted by a particular set of headlines around me
being under FBI investigation and whispers of corruption and corrupt
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activity on my part, and so on and so forth,
and everywhere I went, I would have to ask answer
questions about these things, and I would I I was
rehearsing and polished enough to say, I'm not worried about it.
I have no idea, because I knew what my actions were.
But then to see leaks of information coming out throughout
the course of the campaign that would again suggest that
I was doing something unto ward, it became almost too
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much for voters to be able to overcome that, And
could zero point four percent of voters in a state
of twenty million where eight million plus people had turned
out to vote, had been affected by a narrative that
said that I was a taker in this for the
wrong reason, corrupt and now trying to swindle the people
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out of Florida so that I could, I don't know,
just take care of myself, buy some new shoes.
Speaker 17 (01:17:52):
Whatever that was about.
Speaker 3 (01:17:55):
I say that all y'all to say that Miami was
never just Miami me, And if you want to make
this case in your own life. That thing that you're
embarrassing shame for is never just that thing. We're not
people who can be diced up into all these different
varieties we like to think so, but everything is everything.
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If something impacts you in your walk to become governor
and you lose, and so on and so forth, it
contributes to the way you view the next big risk.
Do you go for that next big thing or are
you too traumatized by what it felt like to not
be able to do? And y'all, despite the way that
I looked in the highlight reel that I tried to
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keep up with and posts over the course of the
rest of twenty eighteen and through twenty nineteen, I was
going off the rail, making horrible decisions for myself drinking.
And understand this whole drinking thing that I wasn't a
drinker in college, didn't do it in high school, didn't
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the first us the time I smoke, we was in college.
I can hope I can say that now, But no, hard, no, no,
no drinking. My daddy was an alcoholic, my grandmother, relatives
before I knew what that looked like. But I was
so high on what I was doing being a service.
I didn't need nothing to take me out of that reality.
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But when you are then faced with another reality that
the universe conspires with circumstances to then say you're not
of service, you get busy, being busy, at least in
my case.
Speaker 17 (01:19:37):
To distract from whatever.
Speaker 8 (01:19:38):
You can.
Speaker 3 (01:19:40):
Fast forward to Miami, where this all hit ahead publicly.
I am not going to get into two things that
I don't know and put out speculation that I can't necessarily.
Speaker 17 (01:20:02):
Confirm, and so on and so forth. I'm not going
to do that to you.
Speaker 3 (01:20:05):
What I will say is what I came to learn
about the episode that evening, what I know today and
what most people don't know in the public, you know,
they don't match. And I'm not necessarily in a hurry
to go and re litigate all of those pieces and parts,
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because in truth, my spiraling from twenty eighteen all the
way to March thirteenth of twenty twenty Miami, there were
too many nights in too many days where I should
have deserved a lot worse because I made choices that
should have landed me in a lot worse. I was
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not a model father, not a model leader, not a
model man, not.
Speaker 17 (01:20:54):
A model husband and partner and best friend.
Speaker 3 (01:20:58):
I was the antithesis of all of that by the
point that I reached that day where I made the
choice after a work day I did in Miami to
try to connect with a guy who I knew from
from from a number of times before, not during the campaign,
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where we had a special relationship. We'd get together and
you know, enjoy the company of being around people who didn't.
Speaker 15 (01:21:28):
Care that you.
Speaker 17 (01:21:30):
You know, you're not mayor and you're not governor, and
that you.
Speaker 3 (01:21:37):
But certainly by my measure, pretty powerless, didn't care about that,
but just thought I deserved to have fun.
Speaker 17 (01:21:43):
And being being on how do you say company that
was unjudging.
Speaker 3 (01:21:52):
And all throughout the time, I wouldn't even bore you,
and I wouldn't embarrass my family by going through all
of mischief that you do when you find yourself at
rock bottom. But I will tell you, regardless of the
reasons for doing you think they are, there's a big,
big wound that needs to be healed, and you just
don't know it, so you're willing to fill it with
anything that at a time might feel good. I was
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there on Miami Beach on the afternoon of the eleventh,
about five, after I finished some meetings, the text a
friend of mine, Hey, I know you're down on Miami
Beach from here in town. Let's get up. I've got
to go to the airport and pick up a car
and pick up my wife and some of my best
friends that are coming into town for this wedding this weekend.
But you know, I'll drop by, We'll get a drink
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and whatever, you know, and I'll get onto the airport
and I do drop by, and I do get a
drink at about five thirty maybe six in the evening,
and we'll need to leave soon after. And the last
memory I have is having that drink. And the next
memory I have from that five or six o'clock in
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the afternoon is just around midnight, where I'm awake and
maybe alert, and I'm sitting on the counter in the
bathroom surrounded by what must have been maybe six Miami
Beach law enforcement officers who are all uniformed with their
cameras and on their bodies, and I am naked, on clothed,
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not even a towel, and I say, why is going on?
Speaker 17 (01:23:26):
What happened to Da?
Speaker 3 (01:23:26):
Da? And they start to say, we're responding to a
medical call of an overdose. Da da da da. And
I say, who overdose? Overdose? Of what what's going on?
And they say, well, your friend and their pills and
the and I said, what in the world are you
talking about? And I then say, I'm sorry, but where
are my clothes? I mean really, I'm coming to my awareness.
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And a higher up turns the corner and comes in
and he says, one of you go in there and
grab his clothes, get him a towel, something, you know, decent,
very sort of you know, just yeah, give him his clothes.
I said, okay, Well, what time is it, y'all? Because
I've got to pick my wife and some folks at
the airport. It's whatever plass midnight. And now I'm in
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shock because I've lost all this time and I have
no idea what went on.
Speaker 17 (01:24:16):
Anyway, fast forward past that, they I get dressed.
Speaker 3 (01:24:21):
I then say I've got to get back to my
hotel and get my luggage and then get to the
airport d D. And the officers say, and I said, no,
I can uber, where's my face? Somebody gives me my
fun I can call an uber And this sergeant says,
oh no, we'll give you a ride, and I thought
it was I say, okay, I put my clothes on.
We walk out of the bathroom and now it's about
four higher ups, officers brass and we walked to the
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elevator and down the elevator through the lobby to their
patrol car and we all get in the patrol car
and I tell them where I'm staying, and they seem
to know where I'm staying, but they take me back
out of the beach and across the water back to
my hotel. Well, and I get to the hotel of
mine and I start they walk me and then they
want to walk me all the way up to my room.
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I allow them to escort me up and they tell
me on the drive over, they say, one of those says,
so listen, this is we know you're married, we know
you have kids, but I just want you to know
this is going to be public record because we we
were responding at first to a medical call, but which
would have not been public because it's just medical. But
this was a potential homicide. I said what I said,
(01:25:31):
Oh well it didn't, but we had to report it
as a potential homicide and so it's going to be
made public at some point tomorrow. So I just want
you to know, you know, so that you know the
people you need to talk to you can do that.
And I say absolutely, you know, thank you, thank you
so much. Can you tell me about what time. Can
y'all send me the report when it's written so that
I can see what's in it before it goes Oh yeah, yeah, yeah. Well,
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I say, well, here's my cell phone. We get to
my out there. They walk me up to the door.
I'm not sure if they're going to come in, but
I kind of around and I say, thank you. I
just got to get my luggage. I've got to get
to the Airbnb. I gotta catch up myne And that's
the end of it with those folks. But I'm still
now just totally blurred. But I got to get to
Jay and my wife and I've got to get to AIRBNBB.
(01:26:16):
So I race there and I get there and it's
early in the morning, and I don't want to wake anybody,
but I go and I wake one of my guy
friends and I tell them what I think happened. I
was like I was at this I went metaphor at
a hotel I don't know what, you know went down,
but it wasn't good. I was naked and so on
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and so forth, and he's probably like, what are you
talking about? But I'm piecing it together, y'all as best
I can, and I say, I gotta go up, and
I tell and I gotta tell Jay. I'll let her
sleep a few hours, but I'll go up. But then
I go out and I call the cell number of
the guy who I will not name, that I was
there to meet because I didn't see him before I left.
I mean, I went from the bathroom, which was right
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by the door were out into the elevators to see
if he'd answer and I could find out what this
whole homicide thing was because I was totally unclear. And
lo and behold he answers when I'm told that the
homicide was. He almost dying.
Speaker 17 (01:27:16):
So I'm like, I heard something happened.
Speaker 3 (01:27:18):
Da da da da, And he's like, yeah, it was
really bad.
Speaker 17 (01:27:21):
I was just, you know, knocked out.
Speaker 3 (01:27:22):
This is a sort of thing. But I'm thinking he's
fully awaken. He's got his own cell phone and da.
Speaker 10 (01:27:27):
Da da da da.
Speaker 3 (01:27:27):
And I was like, you know, what if those officers
never took a statement from me.
Speaker 17 (01:27:32):
I didn't write anything, and.
Speaker 3 (01:27:33):
If it was a homicide, why didn't I Why didn't
I do any of that? Now I'm really confused because
I'm like, I just called the homicidal victim and he
answered the phone. And now these four guys have taken
me back to my hotel, but they didn't get anything
off me. And I don't remember ever taking a blood test,
a drug test, getting.
Speaker 17 (01:27:54):
Stuck by a needle. STD said nothing.
Speaker 3 (01:27:58):
So it's still not making sense. But all I know
is I made a set of decisions that landed me
in this situation. And so when Jay wakes up, I say,
I have to tell you something, and I don't know
how you are going to react to it, but let
me let me finish, because it's really bad. And I
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start to say, what's what? And I start confessing to
all kinds of things because I don't know what I
did or what I didn't do, but I know that
I've been modeled before, and so even if I'm confessing
to something that I had done before and you needed
to know it, this was the moment of release because
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everybody will know it tomorrow. And thankfully my wife and
I she already knew I was bisexual, and so she
knew that before we got married, and we talked to
you all that kind of stuff, So there was no
blind spot here, and I could speak very openly about
the things, except that what I said that night about
what had happened I later learned in the days after
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weren't true when we were able to find through a
lot of means all the footage from the cell phone
of the person that I saw there, and then those
things were able to be provided to me later. But
I don't want to jump the story. Jay takes it
as best she can, and then I start to tell
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her we've got to be you know, we're there for
a wedding. In fact, I am going to be presiding
over the wedding of this friend in two days. That's
why we're in Miami. And I say to them, we've
got to tell them. I'm going to help them buind
someone else to do this. I do not deserve this honor.
And I'll pack my things, you know, I'll get out
(01:29:46):
of here and hopefully it'll tamp down so that their
wedding doesn't become, you know, chaos. Ultimately, the couple came
to me they were. She one of the bride stayed
at the house that we were at for one night
and she came to me and she said, we've talked
and there is nobody else who will marry us. If
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it's not you, we will not get married this weekend.
Of course, when I'm thinking the worst of myself and
this is not what I wanted to hear from her.
I really wanted not to be associated with this big day,
but I want to know Kneesha gave me.
Speaker 17 (01:30:31):
A little modicum of humanity when she said that they
wanted me to do that.
Speaker 3 (01:30:36):
Okay, so now I know I can't just rush away
from Miami because we got to stay another day because
this thing has happened. We've got to manage this crisis.
And the day is.
Speaker 17 (01:30:49):
A disaster.
Speaker 3 (01:30:50):
We break the internet, everything just goes Hey why or
the report I was waiting for someone to send me
never came. We learned about it from a blogger, a
right wing blogger on the internet who released it, and
so my first time reading it was from that as
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a source. So it is sufficient to say that the
Miami Beach Police someone took a screenshot of their information
and document and before I was ever notified it was
given to a right wing outlet, and so the day
gets shaped by that. But my friends who are with
(01:31:32):
me are just trying to keep things confined. The couple
goes on eventually to cancel the regular ceremony and we
do a very very very very early beachside ceremony with
just a few of us. And then there is me
trying to get out of Miami, and my brother who
lived in Chicago, flew down to drive Jay and I
(01:31:53):
from South Florida back to town. It has to avoid
just the spectacle of going to the airport and being
in public. These people were camped out everywhere, and my
friend Angie Angela put me with a therapist, a practice
I had no real belief in before, because I just
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didn't understand the purpose of unpacking stuff with people who
couldn't help you put it back together. They couldn't solve
the harm, and they didn't create. They couldn't solve it.
That was my thinking. But Yadi saw me and saved me.
I talked to ijan Lea VanZant that day on the
advice of Van Jones, telling her to give me a call.
I talked to Tyler Perry that day, and this is
where I wanted to make a mention, because he said, Andrew,
(01:32:37):
I'm so sorry this happened. I don't know the details.
I don't know anything, but I'm glad that I'm hearing
your voice right now. And I'm hating this, but I
want you to know that you need to think on
on this moment, what God may have saved you from.
(01:33:00):
I thought back to homicide, and I'm thinking, I guess
the picture. I guess the picture could have looked different.
Speaker 17 (01:33:08):
I hadn't thought about that.
Speaker 3 (01:33:09):
He said, I'm sorry for all that you will lose here,
but who knows what God.
Speaker 17 (01:33:17):
We're saving you from.
Speaker 3 (01:33:24):
And we get in the car and we start to
make the trip, and at different points, I am we're
pretty much silent on the road. Jay and I are
in the backseat of this suv. My brother's driving in front,
and my phone's blowing up. Everyone is reaching out and
I'm hearing both from good, bad and in in between,
(01:33:48):
and I keep having these moments of breakdown, and this
one moment where I have a breakdown, if you will,
r J reaches over and she starts to rub my back.
I am bowed over in the seat, closed tight as
(01:34:10):
I can tie as they could be my eyes, maybe
thinking that if I blinked hard enough when I opened them,
this will have been a dream. And I hear RJ shuffling,
and I feel her britty body moving around, and I
(01:34:34):
don't know what she's doing, but the silence was interrupted
by a song coming on through the car speakers.
Speaker 8 (01:34:46):
And.
Speaker 3 (01:34:49):
In a moment where RJ had every reason to hate me,
not want to share a car with me, not a
car ride when I had, I've just been the most
undeserving of partners in the world, a bad example of
her dad, I don't know, a horrible human, but absolutely
(01:35:14):
the worst of a spouse. She reached over to me
and rubbing my back, and the song coming on, just
in the moment to disrupt a thought that.
Speaker 17 (01:35:30):
I was having about what it might mean to not
be here, so that.
Speaker 3 (01:35:41):
People may not have reason to talk about my wife
and my kids anymore. And then the voice comes through
and I recognize the song immediately, and the lyrics start
(01:36:02):
and it says, you thought I was worth saving, so
you came and changed my life. You thought I was
worth keeping, so you cleaned me up inside. You thought
I was to die for so you sacrificed your life
(01:36:29):
so I could be free, so I could be whole,
so I could tell everyone I know that you thought I.
Speaker 17 (01:36:37):
Was worth saving.
Speaker 3 (01:36:40):
And in the moment where I was thinking about not
saving my life, the singer the lyrics, but most importantly,
RJ saved my life right there in that moment, because
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I believed for a second that God was saving me
rather than ending me. And instead of RJ being angry
and mad, she saw the person who I was, who
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she chose to marry, who was her best friend. And
while I didn't understand in that moment the word grace,
RJ taught me the meeting of grace, which is even
(01:37:52):
when you don't deserve it, when you've done nothing to
earn it, maybe you've done the exact opposite everything to
lose it, that in this moment you deserve love and humanity.
Speaker 17 (01:38:10):
And care.
Speaker 3 (01:38:13):
So I want to thank RJ first and foremost for
saving me in my life. To then go on and
to then see how viscerally she was being attacked for
her decision to stand by me sent me to a
whole other level.
Speaker 17 (01:38:33):
Because I could take what people were saying about me.
Speaker 3 (01:38:36):
I deserved it, I thought, I couldn't understand what would
cause people to go so horribly against the victim of
the woman who was as in her right to be
angry and hate me and as she can, But she
chose in that moment that we were not gonna make
(01:38:58):
big decisions about our men. We were going to deal
with that, but right now, in this moment, we're just
trying to save your life. So she showed up. She
showed up for me. In the days following, I got
back to Tallahassee, and I had to say goodbye.
Speaker 17 (01:39:18):
To my three kids because I went to rehab a
residential center, and this.
Speaker 3 (01:39:30):
Was at the very start of COVID, and I left
my wife and my family for a few months to
try to get better. Because I didn't talk a lot
about this, but that time caused me to do crazy things.
But I got to the point where a person who
was not much of a drinker was hiding whiskey and
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my coffee mug in the morning because I knew it
was dark and nobody would question me having a coffee
big and deciding to drink drink, drink, drink, drink as
much as I could before we went to public events
so that I could get through them many times, those
evenings ending with me not even knowing how I made
(01:40:16):
it back to my hotel and to my bed. Being
at the events one Tiffany and Angelo. We were at
Tyler Perr's event, a beautiful, beautiful dedication of his buildings
in Atlanta, and.
Speaker 17 (01:40:32):
Being so drunk the night of the.
Speaker 3 (01:40:34):
Event that Kelly Rowland's at the table, of course, my
friend Vergil RJ's there, Beyonce and Jay Z are like
two over, Viola Davis's here, And someone comes around one
of the celebrities that is there and is talking to
me and saying, brother, you don't know me, but I've
been praying for you since.
Speaker 17 (01:40:53):
And I am practically rolling.
Speaker 3 (01:40:56):
My eyes because all I know is I needed to
get out of there. I had been drinking so much
before we got there to get through the evening, but
I had over drank, so we didn't stay for the
great festivities because I told our jad to stay and
stay with the car. I'll leave the car with her,
but that i'd take a ober I get home. But
(01:41:17):
she left the event that she looked so much forward
to a beautiful, wonderful event in evening because she didn't
want me to be by myself in this jounken state,
and that she was going to see me home. And
I showed up the next day at CNN with you
Angela that next morning in Atlanta, and we're all suited
up and given our best political whatever. And I don't
(01:41:38):
think I slept the night before. I was just hung
over and whatnot. And I think about the times where
I had friends cover for me, and it was happening increasingly.
And there's this one time, y'all. I was phoning out
to Vegas to participate in this big speaking event, and
I had gotten so sick from my alcohol intake the
(01:41:58):
night before that when I landed, I didn't make it
all the way to the restroom and time, and so
I had to call my assistant, who was at the
back of the plane, and see if he could bring
me something when he got off the hotel plane, I
mean the airplane to the bathroom.
Speaker 17 (01:42:16):
That I could be appropriate to be in public.
Speaker 3 (01:42:20):
And then we got to the hotel and I threw up,
and I was sick, and I was supposed to speak
the next morning. Suffice it to say, after speaking, I
was supposed to be on a plane right back to
East keeping my busy schedule. Well, I didn't make that
speaking engagement that morning. I didn't make that plane. For
four days, I convalesced in a Vegas hotel room that
(01:42:42):
smelled like God knows what because I was that sick
from my own abuse. So I had to go and
deal with me. But it was hard being away. I
have not had a drink, and coming March in a
few months, March twenty twenty four will make four years
(01:43:04):
of never having touched an alcoholic beverage again. I, who
didn't believe in therapy, was introduced to my healing sister
Yachte through Angela, went to couple's therapy unpacked a whole
(01:43:26):
bunch of stuff that I didn't even know was in
the way. For the first time, I was able to
admit my grief and devastation from the race and all
the people I blamed for it and had internalized but
mostly blaming myself. I tried to make some catharsis with
(01:43:48):
all of the bad decision making that got me to
where I was, and we began to start to repair
a little bit of the things that I wanted to
try to make whole, and whether I chose it or not,
a lot of the distractions removed themselves. A fall from
(01:44:10):
grace tends to take care of those kinds of things
for you. And with the patience of my wife r J,
the beautiful love of my three children, Jackson, Carolina, and Davis,
my parents, a praying pastor and friend therapist, and a
very very small group of people I can count on
(01:44:33):
my ten fingers. They nursed me each day back to
eventually a place where I could get up each day
without breaking down from embarrassment or shame or what if.
And I remember saying to my one healer that I'm
just so worried that I'm not going to be able
(01:44:54):
to put it back together.
Speaker 17 (01:45:00):
Said to me, did you ever consider.
Speaker 3 (01:45:03):
That when God broke it, he meant for it to
stay broken, so that would never ever be put back
that way again? I hadn't thought about that. And then
we got into the healing of Like I said, I
admitted to a whole bunch of things and took responsibility
for a whole bunch of stuff. But in rehab when
(01:45:25):
I had the emergency be pulled over to hear from
my lawyers and others about the images that were being distributed,
and then through an extortion attempt, by this same person
to get tens of thousands of dollars out of me
and to set threatened to sell these photos to journalists.
We were able to get a New York journalist who
was going to buy them, and we were able to
(01:45:46):
get the catalog of them, and I started to go
through them in this therapy period, and I see these
images of myself in every single one of them that
I see shows me that evening looking lifeless, with no
movement except that I had been moved around the room, posed,
and my lifeless looking condition was put in the shower,
(01:46:09):
the showers raining down on me, and this person is
narrating something funny, but I'm not looking like I'm breathing.
I was okay with take your responsibility for all of
these things, because surely, since twenty eighteen, twenty nineteen, surely
I've done some things to deserve whatever happened.
Speaker 17 (01:46:28):
And even though I can't remember a thing, I deserved it,
that is a violation I can't even get. I can't
even process because.
Speaker 3 (01:46:46):
It hurt me badly to see those pictures. And then
there was a video, supposedly a sex tape that I
never looked at, but a woman who worked for me,
and Rosie shout out to you for this. She and
Katie Fang, who has a UH show on MSNBC now,
who was my lawyer during this period. They did get
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the catalog and they did go through it. In this
video is not even of me. It's of some other
some black guy images that were attempted to be sold
and pass off as me that weren't me, an extortion
attempt to get thousands and then to re sell them
to these photo journalists.
Speaker 11 (01:47:23):
It it.
Speaker 3 (01:47:25):
It my fear of being hostage to this person and
whatever machine they had with them. It ends today. You
can't touch me. There's nothing you can do to me
that I haven't already done to myself. And then some
(01:47:46):
And what I thank God for Yati for was getting
me to a place where she could say what happened
wasn't right, It was a violation, It was foul, and
you didn't deserve it forever to release this idea of
what I deserved. And like I said, I can cop
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to anything that I knowingly do and participate in.
Speaker 17 (01:48:11):
And I've been a shitty person a.
Speaker 3 (01:48:13):
Lot of times, but nothing was sitting right on this
except what happened and why and and shame for myself,
but mostly shame because I thought I was going to
(01:48:35):
and my generation make it easier for my kids who
were going to come after me. And it just kept
visiting me that I just made everything worse. But it's
a process and we pushed through. And that year was
hard to celebrate anything, my birthday, mind, whatever, my anything.
(01:48:56):
But we got to the point in this whole period
of time and my periods of recovery, that last year
r J wanted to you know, we have fits and
starts of what she wanted to celebrate. Most days she
wasn't celebrating anything they had to do with me and
vice versa, because there was work to do and we've
(01:49:16):
been doing the hard work. But we go out for
Father's Day and she has bought tickets for me and
the kids and her to go to this special brunch
and we take this picture on the lawn or the
place where we have brunch for Father's Day. And I
started to get this sense that all right, we won't
be okay. And that's when the next week I get
(01:49:42):
a call and the call comes through and it says
this is agent you know such and such and I
calling on behalf of the fbr of government, federal government.
And I need to get with you because we got
a what is it called a sealed grand jury indictment
(01:50:05):
of you on however mind accounts, he says. And I'm
not remembering all this at the time, and we need
to we need we know where you are so you
can surrender yourself.
Speaker 11 (01:50:19):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (01:50:19):
I know you're normally used to us having a call
to action section. We're not going to do that at
all today. Our only call to action is that you
tune in next time to hear this second part of
Andrew's harrowing testimony where he talks about United States of
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