March 17, 2025 • 63 mins
On this episode of Perspective with Big Bank, special guest Big Jess shares her journey from Monroe, Georgia, to becoming a dynamic entrepreneur and actress. She opens up about the challenges of the acting industry, balancing motherhood and career, and the valuable lessons learned in relationships.They discuss the realities of love, trust, and personal growth—exploring perspectives on honesty, emotional health, and the role of communication in relationships, modern dating dynamics, self-worth, and the importance of understanding personal preferences in intimacy.
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Speaker 3 (00:56):
It says, and not about how much you do, It's
about how you balance, what really matter. Welcome to Perspective
Bank today. I got my dog with me, Big Jess.
How you doing, queen man, I'm blessed.
Speaker 1 (01:09):
You look nervous? A why why are you nervous? I
don't know where you meant. Let I always do a
well to check before I get started where you're meant.
Speaker 4 (01:17):
Taking everything one day at a time.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
That's the way. Zero team, where you at zero, like
on your member scale.
Speaker 3 (01:30):
Six, they're good. I'm yeah, they're good. At I averaged
a deuce. I averaged the two or three.
Speaker 1 (01:39):
Now.
Speaker 3 (01:39):
I just think people might not know who you is.
Let them know you is, where you're from, how you come?
Speaker 4 (01:44):
Okay? I go by big Chess. I'm from Monroe, Georgia,
but I've been on for some years now. I like
almost the I want a couple of businesses. I have business,
a couple of tax offices. My kids got a real
estate business. I do acting. I'm in a couple of
(02:05):
two movies. I'm in a dirty D Seriars of a
Hustle to Holly Experience. I did a couple of background
stuff for Tyler Perry.
Speaker 5 (02:16):
I'm about to.
Speaker 4 (02:16):
Get me an agent. I'm about to take my I'm
about to take my acting series like that.
Speaker 1 (02:20):
You know, Oh so you just you most of the
roads you got, you just got just on the whim me.
That's how I did. I ain't never took it. See her,
Like you said, I need an agent, I need a.
Speaker 4 (02:30):
I did take acting classes and then it was everything
went fast to me.
Speaker 1 (02:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (02:34):
So I took acting class and then six months later
I got my first role. In another six months I
got my other role. Like it was just really really fast.
I ain't had time. Just I need I need more
acting class. I do know that you got to act
in coach.
Speaker 3 (02:48):
Okay, do you feel like you put acting first or
you put what pay you first? What really pay you first?
Speaker 4 (02:53):
I put my money first, and this this problem why
but it'll pay off eventually. So yeah, I'm I'm gonna
start taking see.
Speaker 1 (03:00):
The Dirty d So, I mean the season it was
a dirt y that's that's like it's.
Speaker 4 (03:06):
It's we're working on four right now. So right now
it's three out down two be and Peacock. Well yeah,
they don't peak out two and we're working on four
now or it should be filming the end of this month.
Speaker 1 (03:18):
What's that's about? But people who never watched What's the
Dirty Deal About.
Speaker 4 (03:21):
It's Detroit. I'm out of here, but it's Detroit. It's
about a club, and it's our types. He's just got
it's our type of stuff. Lista go in like that's
who you at least on the play a girl named
Jordan's on Alisa Brown is who made it?
Speaker 1 (03:39):
Okay, yeah, Jordan? What Jordan about? On the movie?
Speaker 4 (03:42):
I'm a bottle girl okay? And I ended up nesting
with one of the bosses and then you're watching them
find out a race.
Speaker 1 (03:52):
Okay. Tears of a Hustler too, was in that too? Right? Yes?
What your role wasn't though.
Speaker 4 (03:56):
I play a girl named Destiny. I'm always so well,
either change somebody's getting cheated on. I don't know, like
I gotta switch this narrative for real. I feel like
that's why I gotta take it serious. They're like, oh,
she'll do she'll get cheated on. She can be the
one cheating he cheat weed. No, but yeah, and there
(04:20):
me and g Money got something going on. If you
watch his little Hustle one, it's good. What's your biggest
white white who's that he produced it?
Speaker 3 (04:33):
What's your what's your biggest challenge of being an actress.
We'll hold you back and what push you for? Like
both of them, what holds me? I guess I'll be
scared sometimes.
Speaker 4 (04:47):
Because it's a lot of competition out there, and it's
a lot of like honestly, and I heard mynque say this,
I haven't really auditioned. I be like peak a lot.
You know, auditionally it's part of the job, but it
makes you nervous a lot because it's so many other
people that you see, so many other people that's better
(05:07):
than you and then just get it with your head.
But I think it's about it. I'll just be scared.
Speaker 3 (05:13):
So take us back to the beginning, Like mumbo jogs,
you first jumped down the porch, what was your first
dream to be?
Speaker 1 (05:19):
What? I want to be? A singer?
Speaker 4 (05:21):
I always wanted to say, I alway want to be
some kind of entertainer. It didn't matter like I always want.
Speaker 1 (05:26):
Did you ever pursue it though?
Speaker 4 (05:28):
No, because I felt like, Okay, so the kids who
malmost had money, they could put them in classes, do
this and it. My mama didn't do that for me,
so I was just like, hem Ma, I could have
got up some money, so real man.
Speaker 1 (05:46):
Need vocal coaches and stuff.
Speaker 4 (05:48):
Yes, of course, I know a lot of people couldn't
sing at first, They couldn't sing right for Domn they
got on vocal coaches, and her is amazing. Now y'a
gotta go back and listen to her before she she's amazing.
Speaker 1 (06:01):
Did you ever tried, though? Did you ever tried like
singing in the shower and stuff? Did you ever try some?
Of course?
Speaker 4 (06:06):
I'm not even gonna tell you where you sound the
best it? Well, I ain't gonna tell you you sound though,
best it.
Speaker 1 (06:13):
In your head?
Speaker 3 (06:14):
No, please tell because that might sound good enough to
know you can't go in there.
Speaker 4 (06:20):
Oh exactly, you sound though best in there. I don't
know what it is about in them whiles and the
trembling and all that. I don't know you sound.
Speaker 3 (06:28):
Oh okay, okay, okay. What's the biggest misconception people have
on just black actresses?
Speaker 4 (06:40):
I think the industry is so messed up now and women.
I hate to say this, but a lot of them
try to sleep their way in and I just I
feel like it's just they gotta miss so they feel
like everybody liked it just because you're a producer. Something
that don't mean I'm gonna mess with you. I don't care.
Like I didn't come in, he'll just dead broke. So
(07:01):
I ain't gotta do what you know, the next woman
might do, not knocking what the next person doing this?
They business, but I ain't gonna do it.
Speaker 1 (07:08):
How was it like back to that? Like growing up?
How was it for you growing up?
Speaker 4 (07:12):
Though? Me and my mama had like a a love
hate relationship. I had my like first apartment when I
was sixteen, so yeah, that girl over there with my roommate.
But yeah, so I had to grow up fast. I
got praynant I was sixteen. He had my first child
(07:33):
when I was sixteen, So like I've always been, had
like to do a lot on my arm.
Speaker 1 (07:38):
What you think me to be the rip between mothers
and daughters? Like what you think caused that?
Speaker 4 (07:47):
I don't know. I just felt like when I was
not Now we got a good relationship now, but back
then I just felt like my mom didn't like me
for some reason. I don't know.
Speaker 1 (07:56):
We just did not get along.
Speaker 3 (07:58):
If you look back on it was it was it
was you taking it that she ain't like you?
Speaker 1 (08:01):
Or was she just trying to crazy?
Speaker 4 (08:06):
I don't know, cause I'm a grandma and grandad baby.
So I'll go back too old soul so I always
feel me, but I don't know. I just back then.
I just really and I and as an adult, they
dude take a toll on you. So it's a lot
of stuff that happens with that. But I just feel
like we can get along that then. I don't know
why we were great now, how did.
Speaker 1 (08:27):
Y'all get to that point, like to get everything all good?
Speaker 6 (08:29):
Now?
Speaker 1 (08:32):
I grew up.
Speaker 4 (08:33):
I guess she she let whatever she was going through go,
cause you never s like as we younger, we don't
know what our mama's going through. She s could have
been going. I didn't know.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
I'm young.
Speaker 4 (08:42):
I don't know what you're going through. He could have
been anything. Oh, I know she was married or through
the divorced mother stuff. Happy she left, but she didn't
just leave me without she like paid my apartment lef
for like six six to eight months. Somebody that pushed
the left and after that I was still in school.
I was I was at the top of my class,
always made a y'all always been smart. It'd be my
(09:03):
thing like I come from. I beliast like my first cousin.
I be least students like we do this career. So
what's been smart? I went to school, had two jobs
in high school.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
What's some uh, what's some things you did? Because you
what you got little girl? The boy was you boys? Okay,
so so you knew how to handle the boy. Boy?
Gonn lorve they mom anyway?
Speaker 4 (09:25):
Facts love me to deal. They're not nobody to mad
with me now, like my kids love me.
Speaker 3 (09:30):
What's some things you did just to make sure y'all
kept that close relationship throughout and your kids.
Speaker 4 (09:37):
I talked to my kids like I really talked to them.
Some people don't talk. I talked to my kids.
Speaker 1 (09:42):
I want to listen.
Speaker 4 (09:43):
Yes, they tell me they'll coach me like they see
me like what a guy names? They ain't feeling. They
be like, mom, I want you to be happy. Then
I ain't that ain't for you? Like yeah, my eighteen
year old here, I ain't laying in owie. They're like
my dad on the low. Don't play really, I.
Speaker 3 (10:02):
Go motherhood and work, Like how it is balancing that
though stressful?
Speaker 1 (10:07):
What makes it stressful because when.
Speaker 4 (10:09):
You're doing so much, you feel like you spend those
time with your kids. Like it's like I'm like I said,
I'm a bess, I'm an actress. I was a bartend.
I was working at Blaze at night on Money's a Wednesdays.
I just stopped doing that on Monday. So it's like
it's a lot.
Speaker 1 (10:24):
Okay.
Speaker 4 (10:25):
I call myself on ig money making just because I
don't know. I got a thing. You do something funny
making money, I don't know. I get you some drenaline risk,
Like I just like doing it. Anything like for real,
anything to make some money. I love doing it.
Speaker 1 (10:38):
You feel some fight way I can dig that.
Speaker 3 (10:42):
So back to your boys, like, what's some stuff you
let me? Let me ask you this, like do you
what you teach your boy Do you teach them to
find a good woman, treat her like a good woman.
Speaker 1 (10:53):
Do you teach them the holes and shit?
Speaker 4 (10:55):
Like be honest, I'm gonna say a little bit of both.
But don't be stupid, not be greed, be stupid, because
be you will finish you.
Speaker 3 (11:06):
Yeah you feel me, don't let nobody use you.
Speaker 4 (11:10):
But don't disrespect the woman. I'm big on because I
didn't dealt with a man put his hands on I
don't want my kids to ever hit a woman. I
don't play you feel me like, don't he don't hit
no one, don't disrespect no one because I don't want
y'all expect me because just think about if a man
deemon like that, how y'all go off? Other than that,
you gotta be sleep bitches asleep. They got the best
(11:33):
game I here is from a woman. What you feel me?
So you have to watch them.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
What's what's some?
Speaker 3 (11:41):
What's some uh loops and curves you point out to
him like watch for this hook.
Speaker 4 (11:45):
Oh. I hate to say that my son, my oldest son,
had some girl take someone, say you pregnant? I said,
that's the when she got prey the girl and I
already said that it's him and another person like whatever.
The basically the stuff didn't add a blocker.
Speaker 1 (12:06):
Damn blocker.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
It's a lie.
Speaker 1 (12:10):
It's a lie. Uhh.
Speaker 4 (12:12):
Now some people do. Some women don't be knowing who
that girl, that girl on them dates. It still didn't
add girl.
Speaker 1 (12:21):
So you overprotect them your boys when they come to women.
Speaker 4 (12:24):
Yes, and no, I ain't gonna say that. I let
them do what they want to do, Like I ain't
that type of mom, Like I'm not FeelA no, I don't.
I hate them type of moments. I just to deal
with me and they had them type of moments.
Speaker 1 (12:34):
Stay child, be what okay, come on with like what what?
What business? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (12:40):
Like I say the guy and the mama was wanting
to know everything, like are you sucking your son? Like what?
Why are you in the being of that bag? Okay?
Speaker 1 (12:48):
Maybe she knew, she knew these women that schlicks.
Speaker 4 (12:51):
I wasn't doing the most when I when I went him,
I wouldn't do what the most I could see. But
if you you could, that's a possibility. So that why
mom got damn watching a boy. One thing about it.
I got a dad in a mama too, and my
dad and mama noha, lay us sit down. They don't
(13:11):
do that because you was like that in your younger day.
Just relax, I'm not doing it to yourself. Chill. But again,
like I said, I stabbed my kids business.
Speaker 1 (13:22):
What's been like just pushing through? You know, life is
a journey.
Speaker 3 (13:25):
That's what I like to say, something like, what's been
the toughest moment of your journey and how you push
through it?
Speaker 4 (13:30):
Hmm? The toughest is it gotta be a little situation
I got going on now like this been the worst,
like time I'd never had of ups and downs. I
don't have everybody basically that was close to me turn
on me. I lost friends left and right. Oh we
(13:54):
guys I dated, I had guys trying to use me
or like it's just been a lot. Like I've been
inspired a little bit. But let me tell you now,
my career and stuff been going up, but like my
social life and family and friends and ship that should
be plumbering, like this should been just cute.
Speaker 1 (14:11):
But that's a blessing. Though people be looking at that
like that's a negative.
Speaker 3 (14:16):
That be a blessing, Like that's getting the folk something
out of the way, so you prepare you for your
next level.
Speaker 4 (14:21):
Right, that's true, that's true. You said all this shit
over here working, but you know I'm talking about all
these shit and then like everything else, they getting mad,
they getting jealous, They feel like I owe them? How
do I owe you? What did you do for me?
Nobody can ever say they feel like.
Speaker 3 (14:37):
They feel like they owe you, owe them because they
know you.
Speaker 1 (14:40):
No, that's how people feel.
Speaker 4 (14:41):
I know that. But I remember when she I got friends,
I didn't flew, I didn't ask you for what I
flew you to Dubai. I just took a couple of
longs to Jamaica. I took like maybe twelve people to VAK.
You don't have to pay for Nick.
Speaker 1 (14:53):
Whyn't you take up?
Speaker 7 (14:54):
You should have told me.
Speaker 4 (14:56):
I'm just saying this don't mean nothing. But I'm just saying,
like I she said, I just do stuff just to
do it because I you know, I would want somebody
to do that for me. But y'all get jealous of me,
and then here come the hate, here come this this
net live. You're like, I ain't got time, but now
I'll just be I'll be chilling. I don't I probably
(15:16):
got like two or three friends for real.
Speaker 1 (15:20):
I can dig it. He see.
Speaker 3 (15:21):
Let me let me ask you something. Have you ever
noticed that the people that you do the least for
love you the most? Facts that shit crazy, right, And
the people you do the.
Speaker 4 (15:28):
Most hate you facts facts.
Speaker 3 (15:32):
That shit crazy man. So let me let me see
what I was. What advice would you give your youngest self, Like,
if you can go back and tell yourself, so at fifteen,
when you first sixteen, when you forgot your first spot.
Speaker 4 (15:44):
Did you better not be stupid? Bout these niggas. Lead
these niggas along, get your money.
Speaker 1 (15:50):
Being stupid about the niggas. That what that is? What
part is that? What's that?
Speaker 4 (15:54):
I used to have this. I got a homegirl like
this too. We used to be uh. I don't want
to call it build the bitches, but you be want
to help people, but you can't help everybody. And sometime
you help a man, he gonna resent you for that.
He's gonna go get another woman. They're gonna be here,
trophy goigl right because you the struggle woman. He don't
struggle with you. So he don't want you to know
(16:16):
cause you remind him and everything y'all that went through.
Now he up, he could go to the other beach and
everything you that taught him. You then show him now
he could do it with her. They ain't gonna sit
back and watching. And now you resent everything, And then
you got to think, use that nigga pedestal. You can't
be that.
Speaker 3 (16:31):
Let me ask you something, do you do women hold
that over a nigga head like, let me ask me.
Speaker 1 (16:38):
Let me ask the question.
Speaker 3 (16:39):
Okay, if I was struggling with you, right, we ain't
struggling him on nothing, baby, We ain't thinking about that
no more. Let's get this money, Let's keep going, Let's
go up. Do you continue to tell me and remind
me of who I used to be? Like I remember
when this, I remember when that?
Speaker 1 (16:52):
Do you do that?
Speaker 4 (16:53):
No? No, no, no, let me tell you that all the time.
I think that would happen if you get besides yourself.
But that's how y'all you get the big head. What's
the nigga started to feel yourself? You wasn't talking to
me crazy like you've been this nigga. Baby, Please you.
Speaker 1 (17:06):
See what I'm saying.
Speaker 4 (17:06):
But but like we now had you calm down, simmer
the fuck down, because you was you wasn't that.
Speaker 3 (17:13):
But when you remind me that, calm down, cimmer now,
I wasn't that, But I'm that now.
Speaker 1 (17:17):
So that means I can't.
Speaker 3 (17:18):
Deal with that because you don't even see me now
because I am you bro, you ain't doing on your own.
Speaker 4 (17:23):
I respect not saying that. I'm gonna brag about it,
but you.
Speaker 3 (17:26):
But but you already slapping me in the face with
no because why you treat me like that?
Speaker 4 (17:30):
Treating you like what I'm like a man. I'm being
a man though, No you're not in my.
Speaker 1 (17:35):
Wage, acting my wage.
Speaker 4 (17:38):
What's no, you're not acting your wage. You're acting an
ass and you're being low down to me because, like
I said, that's the only time a woman gonna do
that is when a man get the big head.
Speaker 3 (17:49):
But hold on, women call just because a nigga stay
out later.
Speaker 1 (17:54):
Now he got the big head. No no, what's not speak.
Speaker 4 (18:01):
Pay you the big head. Okay, So now you don't
want me around. Now you got all you just start
dealing with other women Like I told you that happens,
They gonna come weedy.
Speaker 3 (18:10):
But nigga fucking with other women when you broke, he
just he just didn't have enough niggas broke.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Can nigga got all the time in the world for
another bitch.
Speaker 4 (18:19):
Broke niggau better than That's what I'm saying, depend on it.
So yeah, I get that. But at some point, like women,
we really like, we don't want to broke.
Speaker 1 (18:30):
Okay.
Speaker 4 (18:31):
But when I'm saying, come on, got the money, you
get ahead, and you know I'm this woman that didn't
been besides you for sure, Now you shipping on me.
You don't want to do that with me. You ain't
coming home no more. You out here with these other women.
Is that okay?
Speaker 1 (18:46):
No, that's not okay, but that's what y'all. Don't do that.
I wouldn't do that.
Speaker 4 (18:51):
You wouldn't do that.
Speaker 1 (18:52):
No.
Speaker 3 (18:52):
But the thing about it is everything magnifies. Once I
started to get the money. I been a nigga sneaking
to the more movie with bitches broke, okay or whatever
I was doing the broke shit.
Speaker 1 (19:04):
You get what I'm saying. I've been doing this ship.
Speaker 3 (19:06):
But now it's you're getting upset because you seeing me
in a different light. Right, you know what I'm saying.
You're looking at me now as I ain't something else
that I ain't.
Speaker 1 (19:18):
I'm still me, but now you see my worth.
Speaker 4 (19:21):
You you were nicer to me when you were broke.
Speaker 1 (19:26):
When I was broke.
Speaker 4 (19:28):
No, I mean you were broke, okay, and I ain't
forget that.
Speaker 1 (19:38):
Situation. Come on, help me understand. I want to understand
this part.
Speaker 4 (19:43):
Please, at the end of the day, if I was
there before the come up, don't treat me no different
when you come up.
Speaker 1 (19:54):
Okay, but I understand that what you're saying, Big Jess,
But let me ask you a question.
Speaker 3 (19:59):
You you could have been there before I came up,
but you could have been a problem while I was
coming up.
Speaker 1 (20:07):
Brush.
Speaker 4 (20:07):
So you're gonna stay with me knowing I'm a problem,
then you gonna come up, then you gonna shoot on me.
Speaker 1 (20:13):
I didn't shut your problem. Hold up, but I didn't
shoot on you, baby, I just I just adjusted. Ain't ship.
Speaker 4 (20:21):
These are just these.
Speaker 1 (20:23):
Are different now, baby, No you hey, you can't talk
to me. You can't call no fucking moore.
Speaker 5 (20:27):
Not.
Speaker 1 (20:27):
I got boundaries because I got money. Just niggas ain't
have no boundaries. Broke. You ain't gotta say it at
your mouthfuck nig You can act like I'm.
Speaker 4 (20:37):
A fucking okay, don't do fu niggash, But.
Speaker 1 (20:42):
Nigga doing fuck nigga ship broke. This what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (20:47):
This guy, you've seen all these red flags in this nigga,
and you made sure he saw. But no, he don't
want to hear the red flag no more. That's the difference.
That's how you feel like you're doing wrong because now
he got a voice.
Speaker 1 (21:01):
I'm not tripping plea till on tripping.
Speaker 4 (21:04):
Why it took you to get some money to have
a voice. Why you want a man? Bro You supposed
to be a man regardless. A man is a man.
So you mean to tell me you a little boy
because you ain't got no money.
Speaker 3 (21:13):
So many any nigga that move in with a woman
or need a woman at it like I know how
to cook, clean everything, Like my wife won't have to
do nothing for me.
Speaker 1 (21:23):
We have six.
Speaker 3 (21:24):
I not do everything else in the world. Been that
way since I was a kid. I know I do everything.
I don't need no woman to do ship for me
but love me so but you got some niggas that
need women, so.
Speaker 1 (21:37):
I can't.
Speaker 3 (21:37):
I'm speaking for them now. I'm speaking for them, but
I can't relate to that. You get what I'm saying,
But at the end of the day, I get it
because I know niggas who be.
Speaker 1 (21:45):
In situation where and bitch, man, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (21:49):
It's all like I but you knew that when you
first got this nigga.
Speaker 4 (21:55):
But again, if you was like that at first, why
I switch up when you get a little motion.
Speaker 1 (22:02):
But you already seen that he was the type that
would switch up. Though.
Speaker 4 (22:06):
That's why I was saying to my younger self, I
would tell her she she gotta pay attention to the clues.
Speaker 1 (22:10):
Okay, I didn't.
Speaker 4 (22:12):
Used to pay attention, and now listen, I peep everything.
Now I'm like, I'm gonna just stopping right here. Back
we were going no.
Speaker 1 (22:19):
Further park it.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
Yeah, no, we ain't gonna do that real shit. You
ain't gonna wait, my time waste, it's all gonna have.
Speaker 3 (22:24):
But women be saying they got intuition knowing all that shit,
like how you couldn't feel this nigga was a fuck
nigga for you help them come.
Speaker 4 (22:32):
Up blinded by list or the sex was good, or
it's something that will blind you a bit. She can
get digmatized very fast, some of them, and it ablinds
you for a little bit. So you just sit down
and you get to thinking. And again their intuition don't play.
Speaker 3 (22:50):
We know, but what I'm saying, you can know, and
then don't do nothing. Then resent me when I know
how old you know what I'm saying. Listen, you can
know somebody. You can know exactly who I am as
a person. Men, and you get in a relationship right now,
you know who I am. You know who I am,
but in your mind, you thinking you can love me
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out of being who I am.
Speaker 4 (23:15):
You know I told you they be the bill to
be the same. We be thinking we just change people,
we can help them, and you know some of us,
I'm over this stage, Like how you get over that?
Being burnt so many times? Like, nig do you work
on some anytime you're gonna be like, I ain't doing
it no more. See now, if you ain't got what
I got or more than what I have, I don't
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want to deal with you. I don't want to deal
with you. It is a headache in itself. Yeah, I'm
not gonna help you do shit and go be with
somebody else. I don't build niggers credit all type of shit.
I'm not doing none of this ship no more. Not, No,
I'm not.
Speaker 1 (23:54):
Damn. It's a cold world we're living in.
Speaker 4 (23:58):
That's not a co world. It's just being grown and
you having sense.
Speaker 1 (24:02):
But what your sign is? Oh yeah, what mean?
Speaker 4 (24:08):
What mean? What Sash do?
Speaker 1 (24:11):
Crazy?
Speaker 4 (24:11):
We're crazy? You know, we're blunt, what's straightforward, and we
don't play.
Speaker 1 (24:17):
Crazy.
Speaker 3 (24:22):
But at the end of the day, right, you can't
build a nigga and tearing down at the same time.
Speaker 1 (24:29):
You're right, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (24:30):
You could be building a nigga and tearing them down
at the same time. Women don't understand. Some women ain't
gonna I hate when I be just saying I don't
like to charagorize everybody. But some women don't understand that
you could build me and tear me down at the
same time.
Speaker 1 (24:42):
I could be blind too in the moment like I
love her.
Speaker 3 (24:45):
Bro, that's just how women is until you realize, no, brother,
this is trauma. This is not how women are.
Speaker 1 (24:51):
This is abuse.
Speaker 3 (24:54):
And now I switched up because I found out you're
abusing me.
Speaker 4 (24:58):
Nah, I don't think I have abused per se.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
But you just don't like the name of that word abuse.
Abuse could be mentally abused, to be a drawing, you
could be you could you could withdraw from a person
in the owner.
Speaker 4 (25:12):
But I don't feel like i've ever I used to
have a bad like I want my leak back, like,
so you're gonna have to do something to me before
I abuse you. And I don't even lead back.
Speaker 1 (25:28):
That's abuse.
Speaker 4 (25:30):
So the you want somebody doing it to you, abusing
you when you live them.
Speaker 1 (25:34):
You member. Michelle Obama said, when they go low, you
go high. You weren't supposed to go lower people.
Speaker 4 (25:43):
When they go low, you go to hell. You take it.
People is low down in this world, they is low down.
I don't know what it's wrong with people.
Speaker 1 (25:59):
Where you go where they go, better go. No, I
feel that though. I just I'm just playing double after
man only on perspective. We listen. We don't judge. We
just give a different perspective. You know what I'm saying.
I get it. Ain't no niggas supposed to be in
no situation as well a woman. Now everybody need help.
(26:20):
He in that.
Speaker 3 (26:20):
But you don't let nobody bill you because the same
motherfucker bier can tell you down.
Speaker 1 (26:25):
That's just how I look at it.
Speaker 4 (26:26):
Fast. I done been through that too. Now let the
man help me. Oh lord, he reminded me every single
day I made you. I made you, Uh, I know
you did. I became bit just after you. Like.
Speaker 3 (26:38):
But that's how niggas feel though, like you could be
there just because you knew me when I was broke.
Speaker 1 (26:43):
Don't mean you made me, you know what I'm saying.
Even though you helped me do whatever whatever, we helped
each other.
Speaker 3 (26:49):
Baby, we we never but a woman would drag that
on you and niggas don't want to sit around and.
Speaker 4 (26:55):
Hear that facts. But were not dragging thathing. Like I said,
the only time that I've seen you, I don't know
about nobody else that a woman brings that up is
when a man does something to make you bring them
like hold on, hold on now, just a couple months ago,
blah blah blah blah blah.
Speaker 1 (27:13):
That's justification, though, Man, it's just a facation. It's just
the case, like you can't justify if you bring it up.
You bring it up.
Speaker 3 (27:25):
It's just like a nigga. Like you tell a nigga,
I don't like to be disrespectful. I don't like you
put my hand in hand, So a nigga do it
and then say.
Speaker 1 (27:32):
I did this because and I yeah, you can't.
Speaker 4 (27:36):
Do that fast.
Speaker 3 (27:38):
Ain't no cause, nigga, don't do that. Ain't no cause,
just don't do it. Don't do that, don't we won't
play like that. It's the same thing like women don't.
Some women don't understand like how a man can be cut.
You can be cut believing on the inside internally and
don't even know how to stitch it up heel or nothing.
Speaker 1 (27:59):
You know what I'm saying. And then we get to
a point to where it ain't that I came up.
Now it's just like, bro, you know what, it ain't ship,
not you.
Speaker 4 (28:12):
I'm saying, but we're speaking hypothetically. How I ain't shop
on now I was a ship.
Speaker 1 (28:18):
You really won.
Speaker 3 (28:19):
I just didn't know our blind like you said, why
man can't be blind?
Speaker 4 (28:23):
Yeah, it'd be some blind man. He's perfect. Now I
know I ain't perfect, But I'm just saying majority of
the time, idiot.
Speaker 1 (28:33):
Yes, damn, this is.
Speaker 3 (28:37):
A cold world we're living. Then I ain't gonna be
able to get away around that one. But let me
go to something else, man, let me figure out.
Speaker 1 (28:51):
Oh, let me see. Is she ever justified as always
a dead breaker?
Speaker 6 (28:58):
Now that I'm a little old, it could be what
like what justified?
Speaker 4 (29:05):
So tell your situations. Even that situation, a woman stopped dealing,
they had little problems. She stopped messing with her. Man
stopped fucking. Yeah, went months without fucking him. So you
think this grown ass man, this grown ass man, it's
not finna. You knew his sexual preferences, but when you
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was fucking him, you know how he loved the fulk
You stopped fucking him for months and you thought he
was gonna go out and fuck nobody, crazy Gaby. Yeah
he gonna fuck off on then, how she thought. And
I'm just like, I'm listening that shoulderling on. But in
my mind, like, girl, nigga was cheating the first two
weeks after you went fucking him.
Speaker 3 (29:47):
He was chea before that probably was. Now you just
really dropped it up like showing folks she found out. No,
she ain't given no pussy. Like, let me ask you something,
do you think do you think me and cheat because
just because of that or they.
Speaker 4 (30:01):
Just cheat, Yeah, they just cheap. It depends on the
man some of them. Like I was just dealing with
this dude, and he was an habitual cheater, like he
just gotta kick a heat. Old we like and his
sports like he just liked the fucking like I mean older,
I'm thirty four older, it's not old. I like me
and the forty I love it. Oh my god, I
can't stand your niggas. Stop liking me, your niggas, please,
(30:23):
But anyway, love season like my age group who I
would like today thirty two to forty six. But anyway, yeah,
he just loved he gotta be six nights a week.
This motherfucker got to go out.
Speaker 1 (30:43):
He wants something else, need be that horney. I ain't
gonna say that.
Speaker 4 (30:47):
No, no, listen, oh my soul, I said the same
thing me and my homegirl was just talking. I said
that nigga gots to be gay.
Speaker 5 (30:54):
I ain't.
Speaker 4 (30:55):
No, I'm saying, I ain't no grown there. See nice week,
different women. It's different women in a lenta nasty. It's
a lena. Is you crazy?
Speaker 1 (31:10):
Bro? He crazy?
Speaker 5 (31:12):
Bro?
Speaker 4 (31:13):
You trying to a little fool of me. I already
knew what it was.
Speaker 3 (31:20):
We're gonna shift gears on buttery. Would would you rather
be lied to and be happy or hear the truth.
Speaker 1 (31:26):
And be hurt?
Speaker 4 (31:30):
It depins who are begetting lied to? A being happy with?
Is it a regular person?
Speaker 1 (31:39):
What the hell is a regular person?
Speaker 4 (31:42):
Is it a regular person? Did you if you gonna
got there A lied to me and.
Speaker 1 (31:46):
Make like, oh is you a niggae building?
Speaker 4 (31:49):
No? No, are you a regular person? You got some
money or.
Speaker 5 (31:53):
Like some like?
Speaker 4 (31:54):
No?
Speaker 1 (31:55):
Oh, I don't get it. See they're gonna say, don't
break it down.
Speaker 4 (32:00):
So NFL player, you might let that nigga lies as
lie to you and you're gonna be happy. You're gonna
cry in the roads one the double lad baby this regularly.
You're not fingnna make me cry in a hondle.
Speaker 1 (32:18):
No, it didn't worry like it. But he lied, though
he ain't make you cry. He lie?
Speaker 4 (32:22):
I mean yo, but still we're in a hondle.
Speaker 1 (32:26):
I've already cried.
Speaker 4 (32:30):
But that's all put up without him. That's the That's
the onlyest guy I'm gonna put up with it. If
this is like that, I don't feel like saying.
Speaker 3 (32:43):
If you're in love, like no matter what the person
that you would you rather be lied to and be
remain happy or a nigga tell you the truth.
Speaker 1 (32:52):
And just be hurt.
Speaker 4 (32:55):
Tell me the truth.
Speaker 1 (32:58):
And then you're gonna resent the nigga. So then what
are you to do?
Speaker 4 (33:02):
He lied to me and I find out, I'm still
gonna hate you.
Speaker 1 (33:04):
But when you find out what did with that? Then
so let me say something. No, I'm kidding, I'm just playing.
I don't tell lie.
Speaker 4 (33:12):
You know what I'm saying. He's straightforward. Man, Ma, motherfucker,
be like, bro, I need a woman to tell me that.
Speaker 1 (33:18):
Let me tell me, like, Bro, I don't want to hit.
Don't tell me now, because I.
Speaker 3 (33:22):
Tell you that I want a woman to tell me
that retarded truth. I tell her, I tell a lie.
Make you look like the ship that I don't even
really want to do, like ship.
Speaker 1 (33:35):
Really I want five bitches. I tell you that I
don't even want it, just to see if you could
take the truth.
Speaker 4 (33:41):
You look like you tell a good ass lie.
Speaker 5 (33:43):
I don't, and make it believable.
Speaker 1 (33:46):
I can't, but I don't.
Speaker 4 (33:48):
It is given.
Speaker 1 (33:50):
Would you rather be lied to? I wanna keep asking
that question.
Speaker 4 (33:59):
That's what I said, the truth.
Speaker 1 (34:01):
But can you handle the truth? No?
Speaker 4 (34:03):
I can't, But so tell me the truth. I don't
want to live no fairy tale a bunch of lives.
I don't. I did that before and they found out
the truth, and that's hurtful to thank your man? Is
this this? This?
Speaker 1 (34:17):
This?
Speaker 3 (34:18):
This is what you already know, yours wishful already tell
you what kind of nigga did.
Speaker 7 (34:22):
It?
Speaker 3 (34:23):
No?
Speaker 5 (34:23):
What the hell?
Speaker 1 (34:24):
How inituition work? God wouldn't use me? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (34:27):
It come in different times. You been, You could have
been been a full five years. Then your intuition kick
in and you start paying attention to everything. Now you're
going back and investigating. Now you have found out them
five years when them butterlie?
Speaker 1 (34:40):
Oh so that she got to lay on it.
Speaker 4 (34:41):
I mean, I mean it opens. I can't always so
for real, I can't always say mood and so wish
you gonna kick in. I don't know when she come,
but when it come, it come now, because you're gonna
be able to like you ain't gonna be able to
shake it. You gonna know, you're gonna feel it, and
you gonna know.
Speaker 1 (34:56):
So all right, we was in a relationship right now
and I come tell you something that hurts you, the truth.
How do we move forward? Do we stay together or
what happens depends on what you just told me? All right?
A deal breaker you got?
Speaker 4 (35:08):
You made a baby on me. No, I'm saying your
boy know what she looked like? Crazy, I'm saying, whatever
it is the truth, Okay. No, why would you fuck
my sister all this our ear?
Speaker 1 (35:27):
She was ready?
Speaker 3 (35:28):
It was a fatasy of mine. I need to control baby.
That's why I'm telling you. Let's get me some help.
Speaker 4 (35:35):
Please, we can do that. I'm still not gonna fuck
with you. I used to be big. If I get
my lip back, so.
Speaker 1 (35:41):
You why why isn't if a nigga know that, Why
would he tell you the truth.
Speaker 4 (35:48):
Because you want to?
Speaker 1 (35:50):
That don't happen in real life. I know. If a
nigga knowing tell you the truth, though, if you want
to get rid of.
Speaker 3 (35:56):
You, if I want to get rid of you, I'm
gonna tell you your deal breaker.
Speaker 5 (36:06):
Mhm.
Speaker 4 (36:07):
No way. You might be right because I have told
the niggas something that will make me leave you alone,
and he did it. He want to get rid of me.
Speaker 1 (36:17):
Damn, God, damn he wanted to get rid of me.
Speaker 4 (36:20):
Because I definitely said that and you definitely did.
Speaker 5 (36:25):
Mm hmm.
Speaker 3 (36:26):
A nigga ain't finna. If I want to keep you
and all of this shit, I'm gonna take that to
my grade.
Speaker 1 (36:31):
Like women do mhm. They know how to cryn or die.
Speaker 4 (36:36):
No, I don't. I'm telling you. If I cry, you
hurt me. I rarely cry, rarely. Anybody that knows me,
they can count on one hand how many time they
didn't seen me cry in thirty four years. I don't cry.
I gotta be hurt, baby, you gotta hurt me.
Speaker 1 (36:57):
You know something though, right, But they can cry? Hang
up like that.
Speaker 4 (37:01):
I'm an ask you plan on it can cry.
Speaker 1 (37:07):
Damn man, I'm trying to see, like, so how we
move forward? Okay?
Speaker 3 (37:10):
If I tell you something that hurts you but it's
not a deal breaker, how do how does how do
what's working through?
Speaker 4 (37:15):
If you're a good man and I feel like you
just made a mistake or we can get through it.
I'm saying because it ain't that many good man out here,
like for real, come on you correct? I haven't ran
across that meaning.
Speaker 1 (37:26):
How do is what I'm saying. I'm trying to I'm
trying to analyze this. How does working through it go?
Speaker 3 (37:31):
Like?
Speaker 1 (37:31):
What what does that consist?
Speaker 4 (37:32):
Of talking it out? Seeing what we could do to
prevent it from happening?
Speaker 1 (37:36):
How many times we're talking about this?
Speaker 4 (37:38):
We're gonna we're gonna talk about the ones you do
it again? Nigga, that's a choice. You're making a choice
to do it. Then we didn't try to fix it.
Speaker 1 (37:44):
How long do I live this?
Speaker 3 (37:45):
What I'm saying is like, let me ask you a question.
If I hurt you today, we talk about it, man,
I ain't doing that no more. You're right, I'm sorry.
Speaker 1 (37:55):
This ain't what I want to do. I want to
hurt you. I love you? Cool I suppose to live
this after that day. That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 4 (38:04):
Yo oh oh, I'm not gonna bring it up unless
you do something else again. That's kind of like what
you already did before. And then I gotta remind you, nigga,
g just did this. Why the fuck would you be
doing this? Like you said, I'm trying to.
Speaker 1 (38:21):
He said, you said, you said.
Speaker 5 (38:25):
So.
Speaker 1 (38:25):
Basically, if I trigger you, you're gonna bring it.
Speaker 3 (38:28):
Okay, I ain't did the same exact thing, but I'm
doing something that seemed like it's leading my my, my,
can please be finished because I'm ready by routine seeming
like I'm about to do that again, so that will
make you bring it up.
Speaker 4 (38:45):
Of course, I gotta let you know what has happened.
It's just like I'm your therapist. I'm gonna say, hey,
we just did this, we talk about this, but now
you're doing this.
Speaker 1 (38:55):
Baby, I ain't did that. Though we said I wasn't
gonna do that. We ain't said I was gonna it moves.
We ain't say I wasn't gonna beat me.
Speaker 4 (39:03):
At some point, a grown ass man got to know
what he and the wrong and what he doing is wrong.
Speaker 1 (39:08):
I said, I was wrong.
Speaker 5 (39:09):
What is you doing it?
Speaker 1 (39:11):
Listen? I said I was wrong. Let me let me,
let me, let me break it down. What I'm trying
to say.
Speaker 3 (39:15):
Please, if you found out that I ate your last
cookie and that was use man, and I'm just saying,
I'm gona use something.
Speaker 4 (39:23):
Why you had to use a cookie?
Speaker 1 (39:25):
All right? Banana? The fuck? Whatever? If I told your
car and left it, left it on E okay, and
use mad as hell?
Speaker 3 (39:34):
Baby, ain't gonna do that no more. Right, I'm just
trying to use something simple, cool, and I ain't gonna
do that no more?
Speaker 1 (39:41):
Okay? Cool? Yeah, that ain't nothing.
Speaker 3 (39:44):
But I'm just saying, not just that, but I'm just saying,
but then I'm in your car and you in my car.
I don't need you to comim like bad. Don't bring
a carback on E.
Speaker 4 (39:56):
No, I'm gonna wait till you get that. And if
it's on E again, I'm gonna say, baby, with your.
Speaker 1 (40:00):
Handy talk exactly, didn't you? But no?
Speaker 4 (40:04):
Did you just say you weren't gonna do it again?
You did it again?
Speaker 1 (40:08):
You correct?
Speaker 4 (40:08):
That's correct, that's a pattern. That's what I'm saying. You
gotta there is a sign you gotta pay attention to that.
You mean that means the small ship, That mean they
ain't gonna keep doing some ship he said he ain't
gonna do.
Speaker 3 (40:19):
You correct about that? You correct about that just like that.
I guess you missing what I'm saying. I know what
you're saying.
Speaker 4 (40:23):
You're going over what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (40:25):
I say, if I do it again, then you gotta
right to check me. Exactly what I'm saying is, don't
check me before I do it.
Speaker 4 (40:31):
I would not do that.
Speaker 1 (40:33):
Don't pre check me like you just PreCheck you.
Speaker 4 (40:37):
Yeah, no women to do that though, right, yes I do.
Speaker 3 (40:40):
But I hear my car daddy come back with it
on eh man, don't make sure you don't text me.
Speaker 1 (40:46):
I said, I wasn't gonna do that no more. And
how I mean think? Yeah, let me fuck up first again?
Speaker 4 (40:56):
Okay again, you wanna up again?
Speaker 3 (40:58):
And again I'm saying, don't remind me that I'm I'm
a fuck up. If we passed that, Okay, made sense,
I just want to make a listen.
Speaker 1 (41:08):
That's I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Can a relationship survive if
the sex ain't ship?
Speaker 4 (41:20):
So? So it been a while ago, So I had
this holl girl, and she wasn't satisfied well her niggle,
and I wasn't satisfied with my niggas. So I was
talking to her about it, and she was like, you
got to brain toys into it. I ain't getting to
play with you. But I just can't see my man
sticking no object. Yeah, deal though in me the road,
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I love the rolls like I love the rolls like
it's in my chicken bag. I just I would be everywhere.
But listen, I love the role. But I'm just saying
I don't. I don't like no God playing on me
like you gotta know what you're doing. And for me,
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it ain't a deal breaker because I didn't be with
somebody that said it's some good. I don't tried and
try to try like I wasn't even in I was faking.
Speaker 1 (42:14):
The whole time. Damn, that's fucked up.
Speaker 4 (42:16):
But he was good to me though him. Be the
niggas that good to the one that can't fuck.
Speaker 1 (42:21):
Hey, can you give me one of the juices please?
The green that's fucked up.
Speaker 4 (42:26):
The niggas that came up are so good to you.
They are so good to you because they got to
make up for the lack thereof. But then you have
big deep Willy it ain't ship They comes through his
slang as ship fucking ship up and right, ship ship up,
and you know he's coming out there.
Speaker 3 (42:46):
So it's like, but when I'm trying to see it,
damn if you're doing your damned if you don't, basically no, you're.
Speaker 4 (42:54):
Gonna have to let me tell you something.
Speaker 1 (42:56):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (42:58):
The man got to figure out, well he not good
at if you know, let's let's just say this. You
know you're you don't have your growing area is not
the big then you're gonna have to be so dominant
in the master it motherfucker eating the coolie cat. You
feel me, you're gonna have to do something that someone
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well then that and a woman for you. You're gonna
have to find a woman.
Speaker 5 (43:24):
That's for you.
Speaker 3 (43:24):
Then even bag just gonna get you one, a little
Chinese woman that you know, like I can't take no,
like you just gotta y'all just fuck to your side. Man,
you know what I'm saying, Like, be trying to get
these women. Well, you know your dad can't go it.
Speaker 4 (43:38):
Mother, It is crazy. They like thick women like why
they loved him a thick as they said, we can't
take all these but yeah, but I don't know, y'all.
It's hard, you know, I don't know. I don't know
because that wasn't good like that, joh one, I ain't
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really have many people that ain't this. The head gotta
be phenomenal, ill, That's all I know. If you ain't,
nobody can compete with the roads that s burned out
though undefeed it.
Speaker 1 (44:16):
She burned.
Speaker 4 (44:17):
No, I'm gonna say that. I don't use it like
that now.
Speaker 1 (44:21):
No, they said that should have burned yut like.
Speaker 4 (44:24):
Like it'll make it sensitive, it super sensitive. It ain't
burning anything that.
Speaker 5 (44:33):
Stopped working.
Speaker 4 (44:37):
Like natural sensation. Is gonna be hard to get it
so like from another curson, like the dog be mad,
it's gonna be hard and would come because he's so used.
Speaker 1 (44:44):
To the crazy.
Speaker 6 (44:47):
But y'all know, we.
Speaker 4 (44:50):
It might be true because I really I used to
love head. I love it when the worlds came in
the world. I don't care for head like this. It baby,
you could stick it in. I'm gonna do this and
we're gonna be happy and gonna make a job easy though. Yeah,
I'm talking about we gonna go out, especially a quick nigga,
(45:10):
we finna go out together. Baby, we're going to sweep
taking out what you're gonna do.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
It again and have your past calls to your phone.
It depends if you got his.
Speaker 4 (45:23):
If we're on that type of time. Well, so listen,
I have been in a relationship where I have not cheated.
I have and it was a six year Well it
was long to see you, but for six years I
did not cheat. Oh yeah, when I said I gotta
give my link back, give my go damn lip bit,
but it ain't no, ain't no inspiration that on when
(45:44):
I get my leak back, when that link comes gat with,
I'm gonna keep getting it and keep getting it and
keep because why you fuck with me like that? Cause
why you play with me?
Speaker 1 (45:54):
Damn?
Speaker 4 (45:55):
Because I loved you, motherfucker. I loved you.
Speaker 1 (45:58):
So let me ask you. So when you get your ni,
do it make you upset? When nigga don't give a
fuck by that lip like?
Speaker 4 (46:04):
So, no could get what you ain't gonna even know
when I'm getting my lead back, it's a key key
for me.
Speaker 1 (46:10):
You're still gonna be doing you like you know what
I'm saying. But if you You can't key on a
nigga who really don't give a fuck what you doing.
Speaker 3 (46:18):
Some nigga don't give a fucke. I ain't met one yet, nigga,
don't give a nigga.
Speaker 4 (46:26):
That don't care like you. Listen, listen. I ain't even
fit to say no names, but you you know, niggas care.
Speaker 1 (46:35):
I know niggas care that. Yeah, oh yeah, I know.
Speaker 4 (46:40):
Out get an NBA player or NFL player. Niggas care.
Speaker 1 (46:44):
Congratulations baby nah, congratulations, you made it.
Speaker 4 (46:49):
Niggas finna cry.
Speaker 3 (46:50):
Niggas is an idiot, These ain't Loyalis's.
Speaker 4 (46:53):
Gonna cry.
Speaker 1 (46:56):
Because at the end of the day, brou what's for
me is for me. You know you mean me ask
you so let me.
Speaker 8 (47:00):
Let me, let me, let me, let me, let me,
let me, let me help you all understand, pull your
head please come on now, a nigga have to have
an insecurity to nigga can go get Donald Trump.
Speaker 3 (47:12):
Mayweather, the biggest nigga in the world that's still doppingbody
wants Trump.
Speaker 1 (47:18):
I'm just saying she get the president mixed with the
athlete missed with every nigga successful nigga there is, he
ain't bank that's just how I look at it.
Speaker 4 (47:27):
No that could get with jail like that.
Speaker 5 (47:31):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (47:32):
So at the end of the day, I don't even
fuck how you find that bitch is what she got going?
She ain't.
Speaker 3 (47:38):
Yeah, it's it's congratulations baby. They gotta be a lot
of self esteem for you to care what.
Speaker 1 (47:43):
A little yo?
Speaker 4 (47:44):
What bain what? It's a lot of people that like
that self esteem.
Speaker 1 (47:47):
It is it is, but there is I feel sorry
for though.
Speaker 4 (47:50):
It's a lot of like that, don't you saying? I
tell everything that you can't make me mad by no beach.
I don't go for who that he be honest, you
can't make me mad by no beach Church.
Speaker 1 (48:04):
That's what I'm saying. Like ass here, I know me.
Speaker 3 (48:07):
He got some nigga that be mad at him, man like,
and I hate the niggas will be saying what they
bitch won't do.
Speaker 4 (48:14):
I hate the beaches that say, well they nigga won't
do girl, then be the main ones. Now that I'm single,
Oh my god, I see out of respect. I don't
do married me. I don't do married men because when
I do get married, because I don't turn down two marriages.
When I do get married. I don't want that ship
to happen to me. What's called what it is? I
(48:35):
think it is. I'm married, and she I don't know,
not me see what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (48:46):
Is that's the thing about it. It's a it's a
it's a it's a it's a tight cash man. We're
just talking about that. It's tight. Cast you're tight.
Speaker 3 (48:54):
He's gonna, he's gonna. He's gonna like women because you're
not gonna get a nigga that women don't want.
Speaker 4 (49:04):
True, because you know ain't. Now. I had another homegirl
say this, She said, nowadays, you're gonna have to take
somebody niggacause all the good men.
Speaker 1 (49:12):
Too, they holding on women holding on to the nigga lead.
Speaker 4 (49:16):
They all took and they getting on their nerve. So
this why.
Speaker 5 (49:27):
Ain't getting on their nerve?
Speaker 1 (49:29):
So you got the swoop. You can't say today, say today.
Speaker 4 (49:37):
I saw what to god. I Big was here talk
about it. She said, Oh, b we gotta get somebody.
Take somebody this samebody hold try to get your nigga.
You at gonna give them if you see something you
because at the end of the day, technically, if you
still searching a single on an application and you ain't married.
You up for grabs in the paperwork. Jady, y'all, boys,
(50:00):
I don't care about boyfriend and girlfriend. She you up
for grass, my nigga.
Speaker 5 (50:06):
You can go.
Speaker 4 (50:08):
About of here, bitch.
Speaker 1 (50:09):
You can leave tomorrow.
Speaker 4 (50:12):
Oh it's the truth. But you married and you just
boyfriend and girlfriend shacking up. That nigga up for grass,
bitch made the best bitch win and I'm her. So
don't let me come around your nigga, bitch because I
want them.
Speaker 1 (50:27):
Let me ask you. Let me ask you something though?
Is it true how you give them? It's how you
lose the facts fast because you're gonna gett on the nurse.
Speaker 4 (50:37):
It's I'm reading a book, y'all. Ooh we all? Are
you gonna tell ya? This book? It's called Whole Tactics.
Speaker 1 (50:46):
J L after the Book of the Week. That's the
book of the week.
Speaker 4 (50:50):
Tell the beginning with Whole tax is by Jay Jay
No g Al Limbert.
Speaker 1 (50:55):
Look it up.
Speaker 4 (50:56):
Boaka is on kindle now and you can buy it all. So, y'all,
that books so funny, well and tell you all type
of sheep. It tell you the different types of men
out here. So you got tricks. You got treaters, tricks
and sponsors, treats other niggas. That's gonna do the simple
(51:17):
load light shit. They gonna take you to the movies,
might take you to the club.
Speaker 1 (51:21):
You you treat me dinner, You treat me.
Speaker 4 (51:24):
Now you got the tricks tricks, gonna step it up.
They're gonna buy you a bag. Might take you on
the goddamn on vacation. You feel me? Now, you got
them sponsors. Beaches out here looking for sponsors. Sponsors, got
them investing their beating me. They don't take them kids,
They don't pay them bills, all the bills. When ain't
talking about fifty to fifty them sponsors. It's what a
(51:44):
beach looking for.
Speaker 3 (51:45):
So they ain't got the nigga. Now they ain't got
the other nigga. Now who the niggah who ain't ain't
now one of them?
Speaker 4 (51:56):
This book called Hotel. Nobody cares about people, that cares
about that. Listen this book. Y'all got to read this book.
I don't even know how crossed I stumbled across as
I've been on my reading ship lately. And man, when
(52:17):
I read that book, I'll be on the floor laughing.
Speaker 1 (52:20):
She said, count that don't matter. So most of the
sponsors are taking up.
Speaker 4 (52:27):
Sponsors are married or yes they're taking and most of
all of them are. But the key to keeping the
sponsor ease, you gotta keep them happy, so you'll let
their inner hoe out because what they got at home,
they really done got tired. So you gotta keep it
alive on them. You feel young so that you will
be older season like you know, stuff like that. You
just keep it lying. You got the book, see you.
Speaker 1 (52:53):
The treaters, what the treat get?
Speaker 4 (52:55):
Treats you get So with treaders you can have multiple
of them. They just nigga.
Speaker 1 (53:02):
You shd go.
Speaker 4 (53:02):
You just go out with them. Then the fun Boys,
the fun Boys and Atlanta, the Atlanta, the Scammels, the
treatise to hang out like let go out, y'all get
a section, y'all for pop a bottle if you want
to make your I g lit go get your treat y'all.
Finna get a sextion, y'are finna pop a couple of bottles.
You're gonna take out to eat if you ever tell
you to want them five star restaurant.
Speaker 5 (53:22):
They look good.
Speaker 1 (53:23):
So what you what you do with the treata though, and.
Speaker 4 (53:25):
See you you really need suppose to fuck the treat
by the book.
Speaker 1 (53:29):
I don't know.
Speaker 4 (53:31):
The treats. What the trick do the truths? I told
you they give the bags in the vacation. Yeah, you
take you on a vacation. You're on vacation.
Speaker 1 (53:40):
You sponsored the sponsors. You wanna marry him?
Speaker 4 (53:43):
Like, that's the nigga you trying to sponsor. Is a
nigga you're trying to get. This is like I said,
you gotta take somebody. You're trying to take that sponsor.
You're trying to get that nigga. There the ones the
beaches that gonna get pregnant by these NFL player They
got wife stuff. They're sponsors. You're trying to you. That's
what you do with them.
Speaker 5 (53:59):
This is what you do with them.
Speaker 1 (54:00):
What if you let me ask you something. If you
date a nigga he didn't like to get his dicks up,
I don't want to dix up. Would that be like
a red flat, I don't want to suck your Listen
what I'm saying. If the nigga that if you want
it to suck in, HI don't want you to suck it.
Would you be upset.
Speaker 4 (54:17):
I don't know why my energy and it's something you
gotta do to do that. Yeah, that's a lot.
Speaker 1 (54:26):
That's a whole lot of it's a you're gonna talk
about him though, No I'm not.
Speaker 4 (54:32):
You don't want your dix up, baby, I'm glad, but
I want my puss. I ain't got they do with
you that one. You don't want a guy got three thousand,
but I'm gonna want this motherfucker.
Speaker 1 (54:42):
You don't think that's weird.
Speaker 4 (54:44):
I don't feel like it's weird. Some people don't like. Hey,
I know guys that can't let off head.
Speaker 5 (54:49):
I still say I.
Speaker 4 (54:51):
Lost o my friends. I got more homeboys now than
I got female friends. So they tell me about their situations.
So I just say that. Can listen because i'mnna write
my own book eventually, I don't know.
Speaker 3 (55:01):
Yeah, Nigga still got dog that mouth hot only even
I know her not And she ain't even be out
here this sucking, dicking, not and tucking mind.
Speaker 4 (55:12):
I mean what she don't get good head?
Speaker 1 (55:15):
Damn. I can't explain it. Yeah, you can't explain that.
You gotta be you know, you gotta be the truth.
Speaker 4 (55:24):
You go for different people though different.
Speaker 1 (55:26):
Yeah, everybody prefering different.
Speaker 4 (55:29):
Let you see, I don't like people like like, you know,
that's so hard. I hate it. Who told you all
to do that? What the fuck did y'all learn to
do that?
Speaker 1 (55:43):
Stupid? Would you? I think a niggas supposed to ask
a woman how she what she like and how she
likes it?
Speaker 4 (55:50):
You really got a teacher man was like, and I
always do that, Like, I'm gonna let you know, I
really because in that department I'm not shy at all
because I'm gonna tell you what I want.
Speaker 5 (56:00):
I don't.
Speaker 4 (56:00):
So that's just what that is, all right.
Speaker 1 (56:04):
That's the word with the word, I'm gonna say a word.
You say a word, first word come in your head?
Speaker 4 (56:09):
Oh God?
Speaker 1 (56:11):
Really?
Speaker 4 (56:11):
Oh? I ben't drinking?
Speaker 6 (56:12):
Cohead, love, hate, cheating, lords, commitment, scared, green.
Speaker 7 (56:27):
Flags, red flag, red flag, blackly, proposal, marriage, four, play six,
turn offs, turn offs, insecurities, trust, secrets, lies, pren.
Speaker 1 (57:05):
Money, baby dad, by you mommy, you can't say that obviously,
Okay you baby daddy?
Speaker 4 (57:16):
Say what really?
Speaker 3 (57:17):
From your head?
Speaker 4 (57:18):
Is?
Speaker 1 (57:18):
Okay?
Speaker 5 (57:20):
History but a history money, experimental.
Speaker 1 (57:31):
Uh, the.
Speaker 4 (57:39):
Deception, mm hmmm, I'm gonna say mean on it.
Speaker 3 (57:45):
Forgiveness, God, treat dad, a treat, allowance, coast respect, be back, Hey,
(58:09):
with one of the rarest stuck out to you? Which
one you said, which one stuck out you think, shah,
she got stuck on? Which one you got stuck on?
You said, oh yeah yeah, Why do you why you
picked me on the steps?
Speaker 4 (58:26):
As I got struggled with it a little bit. Why
just cause I always I got a mental thing while
I'm always battling with myself about like I told, I
just lost a whole bunch of friends and sit right,
oh well, friend of me, I lost a lot of
'em or whatever, and it they just really be on
the like in the back of my head a lot,
(58:47):
and I just struggle with it, like it's people sepup
to me, or how people look at me, or am
I doing things right? Or am I doing things wrong?
Like I be trying to figure shit out, trying please people.
I used to be a people please really bad.
Speaker 1 (59:02):
Now I ain't.
Speaker 4 (59:03):
I really be like everybody. I honestly be like it
now you got to That's what I smell someone with
you because like mm hmmm, but I really struggled it
and I'll be trying to like I'm trying to go
sometimes sometimes people I wa't blame mother for y'all look
at you right now. Let me tell you about this
journey I'm on right now, and I feel I feel
(59:23):
like God put me on this journey. It's about figuring
out just okay, feel me? Everybody like looking at me.
J I gotta figure out me. I gotta see what
I'm doing right, what I'm doing wrong?
Speaker 1 (59:34):
Feel me.
Speaker 4 (59:35):
He wants me to sit down and focus right now.
This is my main thing right now the nick couple years.
You want me to focus.
Speaker 9 (59:42):
So yeah, I'm trying to figure that. You got it,
You're still you got this ship? But um hm, alright,
what's next? What's next on your journey?
Speaker 4 (59:56):
I become an author. Told I'm gonna take the se
I'm gonna take this ship off, get me a agent.
Speaker 1 (01:00:02):
You know you need age, but.
Speaker 4 (01:00:06):
I take off with it instead.
Speaker 1 (01:00:10):
What's your dream role?
Speaker 4 (01:00:12):
I want to I want to make it the Victually.
I would always like a main role with like what
doing what? Though I don't want to be like a
battered woman, no ship like that, But I don't want
to be like no six semon neither, like I need
some oh challenge me. I can play a bad cop
(01:00:36):
I don't know, or a judge. I play anything like that.
Mm hmm. By the Citizen used to be my favorite movie.
Speaker 1 (01:00:50):
That ain't up.
Speaker 4 (01:00:52):
Like that nigga was smart.
Speaker 1 (01:00:55):
I don't like them for a whold up? What did
I actually say that, nigga? But they they smart as
how smartest as you'll watch Godfather? I did not real.
Speaker 4 (01:01:09):
Yeah, I ain't even watch Snowfall. You're about to know
why Snowfall. I did watch Power the Ghost. I want
to do that. Fifty put me on your ship?
Speaker 1 (01:01:22):
Which one?
Speaker 4 (01:01:24):
Fifty put me on your ship?
Speaker 1 (01:01:28):
Which which show would you rather be on out of
all the shows? Fifty mm hmmm, I don't know.
Speaker 4 (01:01:37):
Because they got damn oh it gotta be one of
them powers and looking when Marriage did her thing, I
like him on. They want me gonna get boots and everything.
I had to go get this. I would have bought
some fifteen hundred boots because you bitch, because your I.
Speaker 1 (01:01:55):
Want to Mary been there bitch though, Yeah from the
from the rip, so yo, damn big just I think
you dope. Man. You gotta come back. I will gotta
come back when you get ready to drop the book.
Brain the book. Nah, for sure. What's the name of
the book gonna be? I don't know you Okay, there's a.
Speaker 4 (01:02:11):
Whole much of story, true stories, though you.
Speaker 1 (01:02:14):
Don't make the book of the week is what she said?
The name of it?
Speaker 4 (01:02:17):
O tag this by g L Limbert.
Speaker 1 (01:02:20):
Hole tag this tag what it is? It's like a
structure book or what is it?
Speaker 4 (01:02:25):
It's just a bunch of story. He's just telling the
whole bunch of store like.
Speaker 1 (01:02:28):
It's good.
Speaker 5 (01:02:28):
Though.
Speaker 1 (01:02:29):
You listen to it, you read it.
Speaker 4 (01:02:30):
I read it, okay, my homegirl, she got the audio
audio one, but I read man, so yeah, I like it.
Speaker 1 (01:02:37):
No, you're welcome back anytime. I appreciate you putting up.
Let these folks know where follow you and.
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Oh yeah, follow me in money making underscore chest on
TikTok and I g we look.
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Bank today. I got my dog with me, Big Jess.
How you doing, queen man, I'm blessed.
Speaker 1 (01:09):
You look nervous? A why why are you nervous? I
don't know where you meant. Let I always do a
well to check before I get started where you're meant.
Speaker 4 (01:17):
Taking everything one day at a time.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
That's the way. Zero team, where you at zero, like
on your member scale.
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Six, they're good. I'm yeah, they're good. At I averaged
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Speaker 1 (01:39):
Now.
Speaker 3 (01:39):
I just think people might not know who you is.
Let them know you is, where you're from, how you come?
Speaker 4 (01:44):
Okay? I go by big Chess. I'm from Monroe, Georgia,
but I've been on for some years now. I like
almost the I want a couple of businesses. I have business,
a couple of tax offices. My kids got a real
estate business. I do acting. I'm in a couple of
(02:05):
two movies. I'm in a dirty D Seriars of a
Hustle to Holly Experience. I did a couple of background
stuff for Tyler Perry.
Speaker 5 (02:16):
I'm about to.
Speaker 4 (02:16):
Get me an agent. I'm about to take my I'm
about to take my acting series like that.
Speaker 1 (02:20):
You know, Oh so you just you most of the
roads you got, you just got just on the whim me.
That's how I did. I ain't never took it. See her,
Like you said, I need an agent, I need a.
Speaker 4 (02:30):
I did take acting classes and then it was everything
went fast to me.
Speaker 1 (02:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 4 (02:34):
So I took acting class and then six months later
I got my first role. In another six months I
got my other role. Like it was just really really fast.
I ain't had time. Just I need I need more
acting class. I do know that you got to act
in coach.
Speaker 3 (02:48):
Okay, do you feel like you put acting first or
you put what pay you first? What really pay you first?
Speaker 4 (02:53):
I put my money first, and this this problem why
but it'll pay off eventually. So yeah, I'm I'm gonna
start taking see.
Speaker 1 (03:00):
The Dirty d So, I mean the season it was
a dirt y that's that's like it's.
Speaker 4 (03:06):
It's we're working on four right now. So right now
it's three out down two be and Peacock. Well yeah,
they don't peak out two and we're working on four
now or it should be filming the end of this month.
Speaker 1 (03:18):
What's that's about? But people who never watched What's the
Dirty Deal About.
Speaker 4 (03:21):
It's Detroit. I'm out of here, but it's Detroit. It's
about a club, and it's our types. He's just got
it's our type of stuff. Lista go in like that's
who you at least on the play a girl named
Jordan's on Alisa Brown is who made it?
Speaker 1 (03:39):
Okay, yeah, Jordan? What Jordan about? On the movie?
Speaker 4 (03:42):
I'm a bottle girl okay? And I ended up nesting
with one of the bosses and then you're watching them
find out a race.
Speaker 1 (03:52):
Okay. Tears of a Hustler too, was in that too? Right? Yes?
What your role wasn't though.
Speaker 4 (03:56):
I play a girl named Destiny. I'm always so well,
either change somebody's getting cheated on. I don't know, like
I gotta switch this narrative for real. I feel like
that's why I gotta take it serious. They're like, oh,
she'll do she'll get cheated on. She can be the
one cheating he cheat weed. No, but yeah, and there
(04:20):
me and g Money got something going on. If you
watch his little Hustle one, it's good. What's your biggest
white white who's that he produced it?
Speaker 3 (04:33):
What's your what's your biggest challenge of being an actress.
We'll hold you back and what push you for? Like
both of them, what holds me? I guess I'll be
scared sometimes.
Speaker 4 (04:47):
Because it's a lot of competition out there, and it's
a lot of like honestly, and I heard mynque say this,
I haven't really auditioned. I be like peak a lot.
You know, auditionally it's part of the job, but it
makes you nervous a lot because it's so many other
people that you see, so many other people that's better
(05:07):
than you and then just get it with your head.
But I think it's about it. I'll just be scared.
Speaker 3 (05:13):
So take us back to the beginning, Like mumbo jogs,
you first jumped down the porch, what was your first
dream to be?
Speaker 1 (05:19):
What? I want to be? A singer?
Speaker 4 (05:21):
I always wanted to say, I alway want to be
some kind of entertainer. It didn't matter like I always want.
Speaker 1 (05:26):
Did you ever pursue it though?
Speaker 4 (05:28):
No, because I felt like, Okay, so the kids who
malmost had money, they could put them in classes, do
this and it. My mama didn't do that for me,
so I was just like, hem Ma, I could have
got up some money, so real man.
Speaker 1 (05:46):
Need vocal coaches and stuff.
Speaker 4 (05:48):
Yes, of course, I know a lot of people couldn't
sing at first, They couldn't sing right for Domn they
got on vocal coaches, and her is amazing. Now y'a
gotta go back and listen to her before she she's amazing.
Speaker 1 (06:01):
Did you ever tried, though? Did you ever tried like
singing in the shower and stuff? Did you ever try some?
Of course?
Speaker 4 (06:06):
I'm not even gonna tell you where you sound the
best it? Well, I ain't gonna tell you you sound though,
best it.
Speaker 1 (06:13):
In your head?
Speaker 3 (06:14):
No, please tell because that might sound good enough to
know you can't go in there.
Speaker 4 (06:20):
Oh exactly, you sound though best in there. I don't
know what it is about in them whiles and the
trembling and all that. I don't know you sound.
Speaker 3 (06:28):
Oh okay, okay, okay. What's the biggest misconception people have
on just black actresses?
Speaker 4 (06:40):
I think the industry is so messed up now and women.
I hate to say this, but a lot of them
try to sleep their way in and I just I
feel like it's just they gotta miss so they feel
like everybody liked it just because you're a producer. Something
that don't mean I'm gonna mess with you. I don't care.
Like I didn't come in, he'll just dead broke. So
(07:01):
I ain't gotta do what you know, the next woman
might do, not knocking what the next person doing this?
They business, but I ain't gonna do it.
Speaker 1 (07:08):
How was it like back to that? Like growing up?
How was it for you growing up?
Speaker 4 (07:12):
Though? Me and my mama had like a a love
hate relationship. I had my like first apartment when I
was sixteen, so yeah, that girl over there with my roommate.
But yeah, so I had to grow up fast. I
got praynant I was sixteen. He had my first child
(07:33):
when I was sixteen, So like I've always been, had
like to do a lot on my arm.
Speaker 1 (07:38):
What you think me to be the rip between mothers
and daughters? Like what you think caused that?
Speaker 4 (07:47):
I don't know. I just felt like when I was
not Now we got a good relationship now, but back
then I just felt like my mom didn't like me
for some reason. I don't know.
Speaker 1 (07:56):
We just did not get along.
Speaker 3 (07:58):
If you look back on it was it was it
was you taking it that she ain't like you?
Speaker 1 (08:01):
Or was she just trying to crazy?
Speaker 4 (08:06):
I don't know, cause I'm a grandma and grandad baby.
So I'll go back too old soul so I always
feel me, but I don't know. I just back then.
I just really and I and as an adult, they
dude take a toll on you. So it's a lot
of stuff that happens with that. But I just feel
like we can get along that then. I don't know
why we were great now, how did.
Speaker 1 (08:27):
Y'all get to that point, like to get everything all good?
Speaker 6 (08:29):
Now?
Speaker 1 (08:32):
I grew up.
Speaker 4 (08:33):
I guess she she let whatever she was going through go,
cause you never s like as we younger, we don't
know what our mama's going through. She s could have
been going. I didn't know.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
I'm young.
Speaker 4 (08:42):
I don't know what you're going through. He could have
been anything. Oh, I know she was married or through
the divorced mother stuff. Happy she left, but she didn't
just leave me without she like paid my apartment lef
for like six six to eight months. Somebody that pushed
the left and after that I was still in school.
I was I was at the top of my class,
always made a y'all always been smart. It'd be my
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thing like I come from. I beliast like my first cousin.
I be least students like we do this career. So
what's been smart? I went to school, had two jobs
in high school.
Speaker 1 (09:15):
What's some uh, what's some things you did? Because you
what you got little girl? The boy was you boys? Okay,
so so you knew how to handle the boy. Boy?
Gonn lorve they mom anyway?
Speaker 4 (09:25):
Facts love me to deal. They're not nobody to mad
with me now, like my kids love me.
Speaker 3 (09:30):
What's some things you did just to make sure y'all
kept that close relationship throughout and your kids.
Speaker 4 (09:37):
I talked to my kids like I really talked to them.
Some people don't talk. I talked to my kids.
Speaker 1 (09:42):
I want to listen.
Speaker 4 (09:43):
Yes, they tell me they'll coach me like they see
me like what a guy names? They ain't feeling. They
be like, mom, I want you to be happy. Then
I ain't that ain't for you? Like yeah, my eighteen
year old here, I ain't laying in owie. They're like
my dad on the low. Don't play really, I.
Speaker 3 (10:02):
Go motherhood and work, Like how it is balancing that
though stressful?
Speaker 1 (10:07):
What makes it stressful because when.
Speaker 4 (10:09):
You're doing so much, you feel like you spend those
time with your kids. Like it's like I'm like I said,
I'm a bess, I'm an actress. I was a bartend.
I was working at Blaze at night on Money's a Wednesdays.
I just stopped doing that on Monday. So it's like
it's a lot.
Speaker 1 (10:24):
Okay.
Speaker 4 (10:25):
I call myself on ig money making just because I
don't know. I got a thing. You do something funny
making money, I don't know. I get you some drenaline risk,
Like I just like doing it. Anything like for real,
anything to make some money. I love doing it.
Speaker 1 (10:38):
You feel some fight way I can dig that.
Speaker 3 (10:42):
So back to your boys, like, what's some stuff you
let me? Let me ask you this, like do you
what you teach your boy Do you teach them to
find a good woman, treat her like a good woman.
Speaker 1 (10:53):
Do you teach them the holes and shit?
Speaker 4 (10:55):
Like be honest, I'm gonna say a little bit of both.
But don't be stupid, not be greed, be stupid, because
be you will finish you.
Speaker 3 (11:06):
Yeah you feel me, don't let nobody use you.
Speaker 4 (11:10):
But don't disrespect the woman. I'm big on because I
didn't dealt with a man put his hands on I
don't want my kids to ever hit a woman. I
don't play you feel me like, don't he don't hit
no one, don't disrespect no one because I don't want
y'all expect me because just think about if a man
deemon like that, how y'all go off? Other than that,
you gotta be sleep bitches asleep. They got the best
(11:33):
game I here is from a woman. What you feel me?
So you have to watch them.
Speaker 1 (11:40):
What's what's some?
Speaker 3 (11:41):
What's some uh loops and curves you point out to
him like watch for this hook.
Speaker 4 (11:45):
Oh. I hate to say that my son, my oldest son,
had some girl take someone, say you pregnant? I said,
that's the when she got prey the girl and I
already said that it's him and another person like whatever.
The basically the stuff didn't add a blocker.
Speaker 1 (12:06):
Damn blocker.
Speaker 4 (12:09):
It's a lie.
Speaker 1 (12:10):
It's a lie. Uhh.
Speaker 4 (12:12):
Now some people do. Some women don't be knowing who
that girl, that girl on them dates. It still didn't
add girl.
Speaker 1 (12:21):
So you overprotect them your boys when they come to women.
Speaker 4 (12:24):
Yes, and no, I ain't gonna say that. I let
them do what they want to do, Like I ain't
that type of mom, Like I'm not FeelA no, I don't.
I hate them type of moments. I just to deal
with me and they had them type of moments.
Speaker 1 (12:34):
Stay child, be what okay, come on with like what what?
What business? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (12:40):
Like I say the guy and the mama was wanting
to know everything, like are you sucking your son? Like what?
Why are you in the being of that bag? Okay?
Speaker 1 (12:48):
Maybe she knew, she knew these women that schlicks.
Speaker 4 (12:51):
I wasn't doing the most when I when I went him,
I wouldn't do what the most I could see. But
if you you could, that's a possibility. So that why
mom got damn watching a boy. One thing about it.
I got a dad in a mama too, and my
dad and mama noha, lay us sit down. They don't
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do that because you was like that in your younger day.
Just relax, I'm not doing it to yourself. Chill. But again,
like I said, I stabbed my kids business.
Speaker 1 (13:22):
What's been like just pushing through? You know, life is
a journey.
Speaker 3 (13:25):
That's what I like to say, something like, what's been
the toughest moment of your journey and how you push
through it?
Speaker 4 (13:30):
Hmm? The toughest is it gotta be a little situation
I got going on now like this been the worst,
like time I'd never had of ups and downs. I
don't have everybody basically that was close to me turn
on me. I lost friends left and right. Oh we
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guys I dated, I had guys trying to use me
or like it's just been a lot. Like I've been
inspired a little bit. But let me tell you now,
my career and stuff been going up, but like my
social life and family and friends and ship that should
be plumbering, like this should been just cute.
Speaker 1 (14:11):
But that's a blessing. Though people be looking at that
like that's a negative.
Speaker 3 (14:16):
That be a blessing, Like that's getting the folk something
out of the way, so you prepare you for your
next level.
Speaker 4 (14:21):
Right, that's true, that's true. You said all this shit
over here working, but you know I'm talking about all
these shit and then like everything else, they getting mad,
they getting jealous, They feel like I owe them? How
do I owe you? What did you do for me?
Nobody can ever say they feel like.
Speaker 3 (14:37):
They feel like they owe you, owe them because they
know you.
Speaker 1 (14:40):
No, that's how people feel.
Speaker 4 (14:41):
I know that. But I remember when she I got friends,
I didn't flew, I didn't ask you for what I
flew you to Dubai. I just took a couple of
longs to Jamaica. I took like maybe twelve people to VAK.
You don't have to pay for Nick.
Speaker 1 (14:53):
Whyn't you take up?
Speaker 7 (14:54):
You should have told me.
Speaker 4 (14:56):
I'm just saying this don't mean nothing. But I'm just saying,
like I she said, I just do stuff just to
do it because I you know, I would want somebody
to do that for me. But y'all get jealous of me,
and then here come the hate, here come this this
net live. You're like, I ain't got time, but now
I'll just be I'll be chilling. I don't I probably
(15:16):
got like two or three friends for real.
Speaker 1 (15:20):
I can dig it. He see.
Speaker 3 (15:21):
Let me let me ask you something. Have you ever
noticed that the people that you do the least for
love you the most? Facts that shit crazy, right, And
the people you do the.
Speaker 4 (15:28):
Most hate you facts facts.
Speaker 3 (15:32):
That shit crazy man. So let me let me see
what I was. What advice would you give your youngest self, Like,
if you can go back and tell yourself, so at fifteen,
when you first sixteen, when you forgot your first spot.
Speaker 4 (15:44):
Did you better not be stupid? Bout these niggas. Lead
these niggas along, get your money.
Speaker 1 (15:50):
Being stupid about the niggas. That what that is? What
part is that? What's that?
Speaker 4 (15:54):
I used to have this. I got a homegirl like
this too. We used to be uh. I don't want
to call it build the bitches, but you be want
to help people, but you can't help everybody. And sometime
you help a man, he gonna resent you for that.
He's gonna go get another woman. They're gonna be here,
trophy goigl right because you the struggle woman. He don't
struggle with you. So he don't want you to know
(16:16):
cause you remind him and everything y'all that went through.
Now he up, he could go to the other beach and
everything you that taught him. You then show him now
he could do it with her. They ain't gonna sit
back and watching. And now you resent everything, And then
you got to think, use that nigga pedestal. You can't
be that.
Speaker 3 (16:31):
Let me ask you something, do you do women hold
that over a nigga head like, let me ask me.
Speaker 1 (16:38):
Let me ask the question.
Speaker 3 (16:39):
Okay, if I was struggling with you, right, we ain't
struggling him on nothing, baby, We ain't thinking about that
no more. Let's get this money, Let's keep going, Let's
go up. Do you continue to tell me and remind
me of who I used to be? Like I remember
when this, I remember when that?
Speaker 1 (16:52):
Do you do that?
Speaker 4 (16:53):
No? No, no, no, let me tell you that all the time.
I think that would happen if you get besides yourself.
But that's how y'all you get the big head. What's
the nigga started to feel yourself? You wasn't talking to
me crazy like you've been this nigga. Baby, Please you.
Speaker 1 (17:06):
See what I'm saying.
Speaker 4 (17:06):
But but like we now had you calm down, simmer
the fuck down, because you was you wasn't that.
Speaker 3 (17:13):
But when you remind me that, calm down, cimmer now,
I wasn't that, But I'm that now.
Speaker 1 (17:17):
So that means I can't.
Speaker 3 (17:18):
Deal with that because you don't even see me now
because I am you bro, you ain't doing on your own.
Speaker 4 (17:23):
I respect not saying that. I'm gonna brag about it,
but you.
Speaker 3 (17:26):
But but you already slapping me in the face with
no because why you treat me like that?
Speaker 4 (17:30):
Treating you like what I'm like a man. I'm being
a man though, No you're not in my.
Speaker 1 (17:35):
Wage, acting my wage.
Speaker 4 (17:38):
What's no, you're not acting your wage. You're acting an
ass and you're being low down to me because, like
I said, that's the only time a woman gonna do
that is when a man get the big head.
Speaker 3 (17:49):
But hold on, women call just because a nigga stay
out later.
Speaker 1 (17:54):
Now he got the big head. No no, what's not speak.
Speaker 4 (18:01):
Pay you the big head. Okay, So now you don't
want me around. Now you got all you just start
dealing with other women Like I told you that happens,
They gonna come weedy.
Speaker 3 (18:10):
But nigga fucking with other women when you broke, he
just he just didn't have enough niggas broke.
Speaker 1 (18:16):
Can nigga got all the time in the world for
another bitch.
Speaker 4 (18:19):
Broke niggau better than That's what I'm saying, depend on it.
So yeah, I get that. But at some point, like women,
we really like, we don't want to broke.
Speaker 1 (18:30):
Okay.
Speaker 4 (18:31):
But when I'm saying, come on, got the money, you
get ahead, and you know I'm this woman that didn't
been besides you for sure, Now you shipping on me.
You don't want to do that with me. You ain't
coming home no more. You out here with these other women.
Is that okay?
Speaker 1 (18:46):
No, that's not okay, but that's what y'all. Don't do that.
I wouldn't do that.
Speaker 4 (18:51):
You wouldn't do that.
Speaker 1 (18:52):
No.
Speaker 3 (18:52):
But the thing about it is everything magnifies. Once I
started to get the money. I been a nigga sneaking
to the more movie with bitches broke, okay or whatever
I was doing the broke shit.
Speaker 1 (19:04):
You get what I'm saying. I've been doing this ship.
Speaker 3 (19:06):
But now it's you're getting upset because you seeing me
in a different light. Right, you know what I'm saying.
You're looking at me now as I ain't something else
that I ain't.
Speaker 1 (19:18):
I'm still me, but now you see my worth.
Speaker 4 (19:21):
You you were nicer to me when you were broke.
Speaker 1 (19:26):
When I was broke.
Speaker 4 (19:28):
No, I mean you were broke, okay, and I ain't
forget that.
Speaker 1 (19:38):
Situation. Come on, help me understand. I want to understand
this part.
Speaker 4 (19:43):
Please, at the end of the day, if I was
there before the come up, don't treat me no different
when you come up.
Speaker 1 (19:54):
Okay, but I understand that what you're saying, Big Jess,
But let me ask you a question.
Speaker 3 (19:59):
You you could have been there before I came up,
but you could have been a problem while I was
coming up.
Speaker 1 (20:07):
Brush.
Speaker 4 (20:07):
So you're gonna stay with me knowing I'm a problem,
then you gonna come up, then you gonna shoot on me.
Speaker 1 (20:13):
I didn't shut your problem. Hold up, but I didn't
shoot on you, baby, I just I just adjusted. Ain't ship.
Speaker 4 (20:21):
These are just these.
Speaker 1 (20:23):
Are different now, baby, No you hey, you can't talk
to me. You can't call no fucking moore.
Speaker 5 (20:27):
Not.
Speaker 1 (20:27):
I got boundaries because I got money. Just niggas ain't
have no boundaries. Broke. You ain't gotta say it at
your mouthfuck nig You can act like I'm.
Speaker 4 (20:37):
A fucking okay, don't do fu niggash, But.
Speaker 1 (20:42):
Nigga doing fuck nigga ship broke. This what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (20:47):
This guy, you've seen all these red flags in this nigga,
and you made sure he saw. But no, he don't
want to hear the red flag no more. That's the difference.
That's how you feel like you're doing wrong because now
he got a voice.
Speaker 1 (21:01):
I'm not tripping plea till on tripping.
Speaker 4 (21:04):
Why it took you to get some money to have
a voice. Why you want a man? Bro You supposed
to be a man regardless. A man is a man.
So you mean to tell me you a little boy
because you ain't got no money.
Speaker 3 (21:13):
So many any nigga that move in with a woman
or need a woman at it like I know how
to cook, clean everything, Like my wife won't have to
do nothing for me.
Speaker 1 (21:23):
We have six.
Speaker 3 (21:24):
I not do everything else in the world. Been that
way since I was a kid. I know I do everything.
I don't need no woman to do ship for me
but love me so but you got some niggas that
need women, so.
Speaker 1 (21:37):
I can't.
Speaker 3 (21:37):
I'm speaking for them now. I'm speaking for them, but
I can't relate to that. You get what I'm saying,
But at the end of the day, I get it
because I know niggas who be.
Speaker 1 (21:45):
In situation where and bitch, man, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (21:49):
It's all like I but you knew that when you
first got this nigga.
Speaker 4 (21:55):
But again, if you was like that at first, why
I switch up when you get a little motion.
Speaker 1 (22:02):
But you already seen that he was the type that
would switch up. Though.
Speaker 4 (22:06):
That's why I was saying to my younger self, I
would tell her she she gotta pay attention to the clues.
Speaker 1 (22:10):
Okay, I didn't.
Speaker 4 (22:12):
Used to pay attention, and now listen, I peep everything.
Now I'm like, I'm gonna just stopping right here. Back
we were going no.
Speaker 1 (22:19):
Further park it.
Speaker 4 (22:20):
Yeah, no, we ain't gonna do that real shit. You
ain't gonna wait, my time waste, it's all gonna have.
Speaker 3 (22:24):
But women be saying they got intuition knowing all that shit,
like how you couldn't feel this nigga was a fuck
nigga for you help them come.
Speaker 4 (22:32):
Up blinded by list or the sex was good, or
it's something that will blind you a bit. She can
get digmatized very fast, some of them, and it ablinds
you for a little bit. So you just sit down
and you get to thinking. And again their intuition don't play.
Speaker 3 (22:50):
We know, but what I'm saying, you can know, and
then don't do nothing. Then resent me when I know
how old you know what I'm saying. Listen, you can
know somebody. You can know exactly who I am as
a person. Men, and you get in a relationship right now,
you know who I am. You know who I am,
but in your mind, you thinking you can love me
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out of being who I am.
Speaker 4 (23:15):
You know I told you they be the bill to
be the same. We be thinking we just change people,
we can help them, and you know some of us,
I'm over this stage, Like how you get over that?
Being burnt so many times? Like, nig do you work
on some anytime you're gonna be like, I ain't doing
it no more. See now, if you ain't got what
I got or more than what I have, I don't
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want to deal with you. I don't want to deal
with you. It is a headache in itself. Yeah, I'm
not gonna help you do shit and go be with
somebody else. I don't build niggers credit all type of shit.
I'm not doing none of this ship no more. Not, No,
I'm not.
Speaker 1 (23:54):
Damn. It's a cold world we're living in.
Speaker 4 (23:58):
That's not a co world. It's just being grown and
you having sense.
Speaker 1 (24:02):
But what your sign is? Oh yeah, what mean?
Speaker 4 (24:08):
What mean? What Sash do?
Speaker 1 (24:11):
Crazy?
Speaker 4 (24:11):
We're crazy? You know, we're blunt, what's straightforward, and we
don't play.
Speaker 1 (24:17):
Crazy.
Speaker 3 (24:22):
But at the end of the day, right, you can't
build a nigga and tearing down at the same time.
Speaker 1 (24:29):
You're right, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 3 (24:30):
You could be building a nigga and tearing them down
at the same time. Women don't understand. Some women ain't
gonna I hate when I be just saying I don't
like to charagorize everybody. But some women don't understand that
you could build me and tear me down at the
same time.
Speaker 1 (24:42):
I could be blind too in the moment like I
love her.
Speaker 3 (24:45):
Bro, that's just how women is until you realize, no, brother,
this is trauma. This is not how women are.
Speaker 1 (24:51):
This is abuse.
Speaker 3 (24:54):
And now I switched up because I found out you're
abusing me.
Speaker 4 (24:58):
Nah, I don't think I have abused per se.
Speaker 3 (25:03):
But you just don't like the name of that word abuse.
Abuse could be mentally abused, to be a drawing, you
could be you could you could withdraw from a person
in the owner.
Speaker 4 (25:12):
But I don't feel like i've ever I used to
have a bad like I want my leak back, like,
so you're gonna have to do something to me before
I abuse you. And I don't even lead back.
Speaker 1 (25:28):
That's abuse.
Speaker 4 (25:30):
So the you want somebody doing it to you, abusing
you when you live them.
Speaker 1 (25:34):
You member. Michelle Obama said, when they go low, you
go high. You weren't supposed to go lower people.
Speaker 4 (25:43):
When they go low, you go to hell. You take it.
People is low down in this world, they is low down.
I don't know what it's wrong with people.
Speaker 1 (25:59):
Where you go where they go, better go. No, I
feel that though. I just I'm just playing double after
man only on perspective. We listen. We don't judge. We
just give a different perspective. You know what I'm saying.
I get it. Ain't no niggas supposed to be in
no situation as well a woman. Now everybody need help.
(26:20):
He in that.
Speaker 3 (26:20):
But you don't let nobody bill you because the same
motherfucker bier can tell you down.
Speaker 1 (26:25):
That's just how I look at it.
Speaker 4 (26:26):
Fast. I done been through that too. Now let the
man help me. Oh lord, he reminded me every single
day I made you. I made you, Uh, I know
you did. I became bit just after you. Like.
Speaker 3 (26:38):
But that's how niggas feel though, like you could be
there just because you knew me when I was broke.
Speaker 1 (26:43):
Don't mean you made me, you know what I'm saying.
Even though you helped me do whatever whatever, we helped
each other.
Speaker 3 (26:49):
Baby, we we never but a woman would drag that
on you and niggas don't want to sit around and.
Speaker 4 (26:55):
Hear that facts. But were not dragging thathing. Like I said,
the only time that I've seen you, I don't know
about nobody else that a woman brings that up is
when a man does something to make you bring them
like hold on, hold on now, just a couple months ago,
blah blah blah blah blah.
Speaker 1 (27:13):
That's justification, though, Man, it's just a facation. It's just
the case, like you can't justify if you bring it up.
You bring it up.
Speaker 3 (27:25):
It's just like a nigga. Like you tell a nigga,
I don't like to be disrespectful. I don't like you
put my hand in hand, So a nigga do it
and then say.
Speaker 1 (27:32):
I did this because and I yeah, you can't.
Speaker 4 (27:36):
Do that fast.
Speaker 3 (27:38):
Ain't no cause, nigga, don't do that. Ain't no cause,
just don't do it. Don't do that, don't we won't
play like that. It's the same thing like women don't.
Some women don't understand like how a man can be cut.
You can be cut believing on the inside internally and
don't even know how to stitch it up heel or nothing.
Speaker 1 (27:59):
You know what I'm saying. And then we get to
a point to where it ain't that I came up.
Now it's just like, bro, you know what, it ain't ship,
not you.
Speaker 4 (28:12):
I'm saying, but we're speaking hypothetically. How I ain't shop
on now I was a ship.
Speaker 1 (28:18):
You really won.
Speaker 3 (28:19):
I just didn't know our blind like you said, why
man can't be blind?
Speaker 4 (28:23):
Yeah, it'd be some blind man. He's perfect. Now I
know I ain't perfect, But I'm just saying majority of
the time, idiot.
Speaker 1 (28:33):
Yes, damn, this is.
Speaker 3 (28:37):
A cold world we're living. Then I ain't gonna be
able to get away around that one. But let me
go to something else, man, let me figure out.
Speaker 1 (28:51):
Oh, let me see. Is she ever justified as always
a dead breaker?
Speaker 6 (28:58):
Now that I'm a little old, it could be what
like what justified?
Speaker 4 (29:05):
So tell your situations. Even that situation, a woman stopped dealing,
they had little problems. She stopped messing with her. Man
stopped fucking. Yeah, went months without fucking him. So you
think this grown ass man, this grown ass man, it's
not finna. You knew his sexual preferences, but when you
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was fucking him, you know how he loved the fulk
You stopped fucking him for months and you thought he
was gonna go out and fuck nobody, crazy Gaby. Yeah
he gonna fuck off on then, how she thought. And
I'm just like, I'm listening that shoulderling on. But in
my mind, like, girl, nigga was cheating the first two
weeks after you went fucking him.
Speaker 3 (29:47):
He was chea before that probably was. Now you just
really dropped it up like showing folks she found out. No,
she ain't given no pussy. Like, let me ask you something,
do you think do you think me and cheat because
just because of that or they.
Speaker 4 (30:01):
Just cheat, Yeah, they just cheap. It depends on the
man some of them. Like I was just dealing with
this dude, and he was an habitual cheater, like he
just gotta kick a heat. Old we like and his
sports like he just liked the fucking like I mean older,
I'm thirty four older, it's not old. I like me
and the forty I love it. Oh my god, I
can't stand your niggas. Stop liking me, your niggas, please,
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But anyway, love season like my age group who I
would like today thirty two to forty six. But anyway, yeah,
he just loved he gotta be six nights a week.
This motherfucker got to go out.
Speaker 1 (30:43):
He wants something else, need be that horney. I ain't
gonna say that.
Speaker 4 (30:47):
No, no, listen, oh my soul, I said the same
thing me and my homegirl was just talking. I said
that nigga gots to be gay.
Speaker 5 (30:54):
I ain't.
Speaker 4 (30:55):
No, I'm saying, I ain't no grown there. See nice week,
different women. It's different women in a lenta nasty. It's
a lena. Is you crazy?
Speaker 1 (31:10):
Bro? He crazy?
Speaker 5 (31:12):
Bro?
Speaker 4 (31:13):
You trying to a little fool of me. I already
knew what it was.
Speaker 3 (31:20):
We're gonna shift gears on buttery. Would would you rather
be lied to and be happy or hear the truth.
Speaker 1 (31:26):
And be hurt?
Speaker 4 (31:30):
It depins who are begetting lied to? A being happy with?
Is it a regular person?
Speaker 1 (31:39):
What the hell is a regular person?
Speaker 4 (31:42):
Is it a regular person? Did you if you gonna
got there A lied to me and.
Speaker 1 (31:46):
Make like, oh is you a niggae building?
Speaker 4 (31:49):
No? No, are you a regular person? You got some
money or.
Speaker 5 (31:53):
Like some like?
Speaker 4 (31:54):
No?
Speaker 1 (31:55):
Oh, I don't get it. See they're gonna say, don't
break it down.
Speaker 4 (32:00):
So NFL player, you might let that nigga lies as
lie to you and you're gonna be happy. You're gonna
cry in the roads one the double lad baby this regularly.
You're not fingnna make me cry in a hondle.
Speaker 1 (32:18):
No, it didn't worry like it. But he lied, though
he ain't make you cry. He lie?
Speaker 4 (32:22):
I mean yo, but still we're in a hondle.
Speaker 1 (32:26):
I've already cried.
Speaker 4 (32:30):
But that's all put up without him. That's the That's
the onlyest guy I'm gonna put up with it. If
this is like that, I don't feel like saying.
Speaker 3 (32:43):
If you're in love, like no matter what the person
that you would you rather be lied to and be
remain happy or a nigga tell you the truth.
Speaker 1 (32:52):
And just be hurt.
Speaker 4 (32:55):
Tell me the truth.
Speaker 1 (32:58):
And then you're gonna resent the nigga. So then what
are you to do?
Speaker 4 (33:02):
He lied to me and I find out, I'm still
gonna hate you.
Speaker 1 (33:04):
But when you find out what did with that? Then
so let me say something. No, I'm kidding, I'm just playing.
I don't tell lie.
Speaker 4 (33:12):
You know what I'm saying. He's straightforward. Man, Ma, motherfucker,
be like, bro, I need a woman to tell me that.
Speaker 1 (33:18):
Let me tell me, like, Bro, I don't want to hit.
Don't tell me now, because I.
Speaker 3 (33:22):
Tell you that I want a woman to tell me
that retarded truth. I tell her, I tell a lie.
Make you look like the ship that I don't even
really want to do, like ship.
Speaker 1 (33:35):
Really I want five bitches. I tell you that I
don't even want it, just to see if you could
take the truth.
Speaker 4 (33:41):
You look like you tell a good ass lie.
Speaker 5 (33:43):
I don't, and make it believable.
Speaker 1 (33:46):
I can't, but I don't.
Speaker 4 (33:48):
It is given.
Speaker 1 (33:50):
Would you rather be lied to? I wanna keep asking
that question.
Speaker 4 (33:59):
That's what I said, the truth.
Speaker 1 (34:01):
But can you handle the truth? No?
Speaker 4 (34:03):
I can't, But so tell me the truth. I don't
want to live no fairy tale a bunch of lives.
I don't. I did that before and they found out
the truth, and that's hurtful to thank your man? Is
this this? This?
Speaker 1 (34:17):
This?
Speaker 3 (34:18):
This is what you already know, yours wishful already tell
you what kind of nigga did.
Speaker 7 (34:22):
It?
Speaker 3 (34:23):
No?
Speaker 5 (34:23):
What the hell?
Speaker 1 (34:24):
How inituition work? God wouldn't use me? Yeah?
Speaker 4 (34:27):
It come in different times. You been, You could have
been been a full five years. Then your intuition kick
in and you start paying attention to everything. Now you're
going back and investigating. Now you have found out them
five years when them butterlie?
Speaker 1 (34:40):
Oh so that she got to lay on it.
Speaker 4 (34:41):
I mean, I mean it opens. I can't always so
for real, I can't always say mood and so wish
you gonna kick in. I don't know when she come,
but when it come, it come now, because you're gonna
be able to like you ain't gonna be able to
shake it. You gonna know, you're gonna feel it, and
you gonna know.
Speaker 1 (34:56):
So all right, we was in a relationship right now
and I come tell you something that hurts you, the truth.
How do we move forward? Do we stay together or
what happens depends on what you just told me? All right?
A deal breaker you got?
Speaker 4 (35:08):
You made a baby on me. No, I'm saying your
boy know what she looked like? Crazy, I'm saying, whatever
it is the truth, Okay. No, why would you fuck
my sister all this our ear?
Speaker 1 (35:27):
She was ready?
Speaker 3 (35:28):
It was a fatasy of mine. I need to control baby.
That's why I'm telling you. Let's get me some help.
Speaker 4 (35:35):
Please, we can do that. I'm still not gonna fuck
with you. I used to be big. If I get
my lip back, so.
Speaker 1 (35:41):
You why why isn't if a nigga know that, Why
would he tell you the truth.
Speaker 4 (35:48):
Because you want to?
Speaker 1 (35:50):
That don't happen in real life. I know. If a
nigga knowing tell you the truth, though, if you want
to get rid of.
Speaker 3 (35:56):
You, if I want to get rid of you, I'm
gonna tell you your deal breaker.
Speaker 5 (36:06):
Mhm.
Speaker 4 (36:07):
No way. You might be right because I have told
the niggas something that will make me leave you alone,
and he did it. He want to get rid of me.
Speaker 1 (36:17):
Damn, God, damn he wanted to get rid of me.
Speaker 4 (36:20):
Because I definitely said that and you definitely did.
Speaker 5 (36:25):
Mm hmm.
Speaker 3 (36:26):
A nigga ain't finna. If I want to keep you
and all of this shit, I'm gonna take that to
my grade.
Speaker 1 (36:31):
Like women do mhm. They know how to cryn or die.
Speaker 4 (36:36):
No, I don't. I'm telling you. If I cry, you
hurt me. I rarely cry, rarely. Anybody that knows me,
they can count on one hand how many time they
didn't seen me cry in thirty four years. I don't cry.
I gotta be hurt, baby, you gotta hurt me.
Speaker 1 (36:57):
You know something though, right, But they can cry? Hang
up like that.
Speaker 4 (37:01):
I'm an ask you plan on it can cry.
Speaker 1 (37:07):
Damn man, I'm trying to see, like, so how we
move forward? Okay?
Speaker 3 (37:10):
If I tell you something that hurts you but it's
not a deal breaker, how do how does how do
what's working through?
Speaker 4 (37:15):
If you're a good man and I feel like you
just made a mistake or we can get through it.
I'm saying because it ain't that many good man out here,
like for real, come on you correct? I haven't ran
across that meaning.
Speaker 1 (37:26):
How do is what I'm saying. I'm trying to I'm
trying to analyze this. How does working through it go?
Speaker 3 (37:31):
Like?
Speaker 1 (37:31):
What what does that consist?
Speaker 4 (37:32):
Of talking it out? Seeing what we could do to
prevent it from happening?
Speaker 1 (37:36):
How many times we're talking about this?
Speaker 4 (37:38):
We're gonna we're gonna talk about the ones you do
it again? Nigga, that's a choice. You're making a choice
to do it. Then we didn't try to fix it.
Speaker 1 (37:44):
How long do I live this?
Speaker 3 (37:45):
What I'm saying is like, let me ask you a question.
If I hurt you today, we talk about it, man,
I ain't doing that no more. You're right, I'm sorry.
Speaker 1 (37:55):
This ain't what I want to do. I want to
hurt you. I love you? Cool I suppose to live
this after that day. That's what I'm saying.
Speaker 4 (38:04):
Yo oh oh, I'm not gonna bring it up unless
you do something else again. That's kind of like what
you already did before. And then I gotta remind you, nigga,
g just did this. Why the fuck would you be
doing this? Like you said, I'm trying to.
Speaker 1 (38:21):
He said, you said, you said.
Speaker 5 (38:25):
So.
Speaker 1 (38:25):
Basically, if I trigger you, you're gonna bring it.
Speaker 3 (38:28):
Okay, I ain't did the same exact thing, but I'm
doing something that seemed like it's leading my my, my,
can please be finished because I'm ready by routine seeming
like I'm about to do that again, so that will
make you bring it up.
Speaker 4 (38:45):
Of course, I gotta let you know what has happened.
It's just like I'm your therapist. I'm gonna say, hey,
we just did this, we talk about this, but now
you're doing this.
Speaker 1 (38:55):
Baby, I ain't did that. Though we said I wasn't
gonna do that. We ain't said I was gonna it moves.
We ain't say I wasn't gonna beat me.
Speaker 4 (39:03):
At some point, a grown ass man got to know
what he and the wrong and what he doing is wrong.
Speaker 1 (39:08):
I said, I was wrong.
Speaker 5 (39:09):
What is you doing it?
Speaker 1 (39:11):
Listen? I said I was wrong. Let me let me,
let me, let me break it down. What I'm trying
to say.
Speaker 3 (39:15):
Please, if you found out that I ate your last
cookie and that was use man, and I'm just saying,
I'm gona use something.
Speaker 4 (39:23):
Why you had to use a cookie?
Speaker 1 (39:25):
All right? Banana? The fuck? Whatever? If I told your
car and left it, left it on E okay, and
use mad as hell?
Speaker 3 (39:34):
Baby, ain't gonna do that no more. Right, I'm just
trying to use something simple, cool, and I ain't gonna
do that no more?
Speaker 1 (39:41):
Okay? Cool? Yeah, that ain't nothing.
Speaker 3 (39:44):
But I'm just saying, not just that, but I'm just saying,
but then I'm in your car and you in my car.
I don't need you to comim like bad. Don't bring
a carback on E.
Speaker 4 (39:56):
No, I'm gonna wait till you get that. And if
it's on E again, I'm gonna say, baby, with your.
Speaker 1 (40:00):
Handy talk exactly, didn't you? But no?
Speaker 4 (40:04):
Did you just say you weren't gonna do it again?
You did it again?
Speaker 1 (40:08):
You correct?
Speaker 4 (40:08):
That's correct, that's a pattern. That's what I'm saying. You
gotta there is a sign you gotta pay attention to that.
You mean that means the small ship, That mean they
ain't gonna keep doing some ship he said he ain't
gonna do.
Speaker 3 (40:19):
You correct about that? You correct about that just like that.
I guess you missing what I'm saying. I know what
you're saying.
Speaker 4 (40:23):
You're going over what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (40:25):
I say, if I do it again, then you gotta
right to check me. Exactly what I'm saying is, don't
check me before I do it.
Speaker 4 (40:31):
I would not do that.
Speaker 1 (40:33):
Don't pre check me like you just PreCheck you.
Speaker 4 (40:37):
Yeah, no women to do that though, right, yes I do.
Speaker 3 (40:40):
But I hear my car daddy come back with it
on eh man, don't make sure you don't text me.
Speaker 1 (40:46):
I said, I wasn't gonna do that no more. And
how I mean think? Yeah, let me fuck up first again?
Speaker 4 (40:56):
Okay again, you wanna up again?
Speaker 3 (40:58):
And again I'm saying, don't remind me that I'm I'm
a fuck up. If we passed that, Okay, made sense,
I just want to make a listen.
Speaker 1 (41:08):
That's I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Can a relationship survive if
the sex ain't ship?
Speaker 4 (41:20):
So? So it been a while ago, So I had
this holl girl, and she wasn't satisfied well her niggle,
and I wasn't satisfied with my niggas. So I was
talking to her about it, and she was like, you
got to brain toys into it. I ain't getting to
play with you. But I just can't see my man
sticking no object. Yeah, deal though in me the road,
(41:44):
I love the rolls like I love the rolls like
it's in my chicken bag. I just I would be everywhere.
But listen, I love the role. But I'm just saying
I don't. I don't like no God playing on me
like you gotta know what you're doing. And for me,
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it ain't a deal breaker because I didn't be with
somebody that said it's some good. I don't tried and
try to try like I wasn't even in I was faking.
Speaker 1 (42:14):
The whole time. Damn, that's fucked up.
Speaker 4 (42:16):
But he was good to me though him. Be the
niggas that good to the one that can't fuck.
Speaker 1 (42:21):
Hey, can you give me one of the juices please?
The green that's fucked up.
Speaker 4 (42:26):
The niggas that came up are so good to you.
They are so good to you because they got to
make up for the lack thereof. But then you have
big deep Willy it ain't ship They comes through his
slang as ship fucking ship up and right, ship ship up,
and you know he's coming out there.
Speaker 3 (42:46):
So it's like, but when I'm trying to see it,
damn if you're doing your damned if you don't, basically no, you're.
Speaker 4 (42:54):
Gonna have to let me tell you something.
Speaker 1 (42:56):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (42:58):
The man got to figure out, well he not good
at if you know, let's let's just say this. You
know you're you don't have your growing area is not
the big then you're gonna have to be so dominant
in the master it motherfucker eating the coolie cat. You
feel me, you're gonna have to do something that someone
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well then that and a woman for you. You're gonna
have to find a woman.
Speaker 5 (43:24):
That's for you.
Speaker 3 (43:24):
Then even bag just gonna get you one, a little
Chinese woman that you know, like I can't take no,
like you just gotta y'all just fuck to your side. Man,
you know what I'm saying, Like, be trying to get
these women. Well, you know your dad can't go it.
Speaker 4 (43:38):
Mother, It is crazy. They like thick women like why
they loved him a thick as they said, we can't
take all these but yeah, but I don't know, y'all.
It's hard, you know, I don't know. I don't know
because that wasn't good like that, joh one, I ain't
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really have many people that ain't this. The head gotta
be phenomenal, ill, That's all I know. If you ain't,
nobody can compete with the roads that s burned out
though undefeed it.
Speaker 1 (44:16):
She burned.
Speaker 4 (44:17):
No, I'm gonna say that. I don't use it like
that now.
Speaker 1 (44:21):
No, they said that should have burned yut like.
Speaker 4 (44:24):
Like it'll make it sensitive, it super sensitive. It ain't
burning anything that.
Speaker 5 (44:33):
Stopped working.
Speaker 4 (44:37):
Like natural sensation. Is gonna be hard to get it
so like from another curson, like the dog be mad,
it's gonna be hard and would come because he's so used.
Speaker 1 (44:44):
To the crazy.
Speaker 6 (44:47):
But y'all know, we.
Speaker 4 (44:50):
It might be true because I really I used to
love head. I love it when the worlds came in
the world. I don't care for head like this. It baby,
you could stick it in. I'm gonna do this and
we're gonna be happy and gonna make a job easy though. Yeah,
I'm talking about we gonna go out, especially a quick nigga,
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we finna go out together. Baby, we're going to sweep
taking out what you're gonna do.
Speaker 1 (45:14):
It again and have your past calls to your phone.
It depends if you got his.
Speaker 4 (45:23):
If we're on that type of time. Well, so listen,
I have been in a relationship where I have not cheated.
I have and it was a six year Well it
was long to see you, but for six years I
did not cheat. Oh yeah, when I said I gotta
give my link back, give my go damn lip bit,
but it ain't no, ain't no inspiration that on when
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I get my leak back, when that link comes gat with,
I'm gonna keep getting it and keep getting it and
keep because why you fuck with me like that? Cause
why you play with me?
Speaker 1 (45:54):
Damn?
Speaker 4 (45:55):
Because I loved you, motherfucker. I loved you.
Speaker 1 (45:58):
So let me ask you. So when you get your ni,
do it make you upset? When nigga don't give a
fuck by that lip like?
Speaker 4 (46:04):
So, no could get what you ain't gonna even know
when I'm getting my lead back, it's a key key
for me.
Speaker 1 (46:10):
You're still gonna be doing you like you know what
I'm saying. But if you You can't key on a
nigga who really don't give a fuck what you doing.
Speaker 3 (46:18):
Some nigga don't give a fucke. I ain't met one yet, nigga,
don't give a nigga.
Speaker 4 (46:26):
That don't care like you. Listen, listen. I ain't even
fit to say no names, but you you know, niggas care.
Speaker 1 (46:35):
I know niggas care that. Yeah, oh yeah, I know.
Speaker 4 (46:40):
Out get an NBA player or NFL player. Niggas care.
Speaker 1 (46:44):
Congratulations baby nah, congratulations, you made it.
Speaker 4 (46:49):
Niggas finna cry.
Speaker 3 (46:50):
Niggas is an idiot, These ain't Loyalis's.
Speaker 4 (46:53):
Gonna cry.
Speaker 1 (46:56):
Because at the end of the day, brou what's for
me is for me. You know you mean me ask
you so let me.
Speaker 8 (47:00):
Let me, let me, let me, let me, let me,
let me, let me help you all understand, pull your
head please come on now, a nigga have to have
an insecurity to nigga can go get Donald Trump.
Speaker 3 (47:12):
Mayweather, the biggest nigga in the world that's still doppingbody
wants Trump.
Speaker 1 (47:18):
I'm just saying she get the president mixed with the
athlete missed with every nigga successful nigga there is, he
ain't bank that's just how I look at it.
Speaker 4 (47:27):
No that could get with jail like that.
Speaker 5 (47:31):
Thank you.
Speaker 4 (47:32):
So at the end of the day, I don't even
fuck how you find that bitch is what she got going?
She ain't.
Speaker 3 (47:38):
Yeah, it's it's congratulations baby. They gotta be a lot
of self esteem for you to care what.
Speaker 1 (47:43):
A little yo?
Speaker 4 (47:44):
What bain what? It's a lot of people that like
that self esteem.
Speaker 1 (47:47):
It is it is, but there is I feel sorry
for though.
Speaker 4 (47:50):
It's a lot of like that, don't you saying? I
tell everything that you can't make me mad by no beach.
I don't go for who that he be honest, you
can't make me mad by no beach Church.
Speaker 1 (48:04):
That's what I'm saying. Like ass here, I know me.
Speaker 3 (48:07):
He got some nigga that be mad at him, man like,
and I hate the niggas will be saying what they
bitch won't do.
Speaker 4 (48:14):
I hate the beaches that say, well they nigga won't
do girl, then be the main ones. Now that I'm single,
Oh my god, I see out of respect. I don't
do married me. I don't do married men because when
I do get married, because I don't turn down two marriages.
When I do get married. I don't want that ship
to happen to me. What's called what it is? I
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think it is. I'm married, and she I don't know,
not me see what I'm saying.
Speaker 1 (48:46):
Is that's the thing about it. It's a it's a
it's a it's a it's a tight cash man. We're
just talking about that. It's tight. Cast you're tight.
Speaker 3 (48:54):
He's gonna, he's gonna. He's gonna like women because you're
not gonna get a nigga that women don't want.
Speaker 4 (49:04):
True, because you know ain't. Now. I had another homegirl
say this, She said, nowadays, you're gonna have to take
somebody niggacause all the good men.
Speaker 1 (49:12):
Too, they holding on women holding on to the nigga lead.
Speaker 4 (49:16):
They all took and they getting on their nerve. So
this why.
Speaker 5 (49:27):
Ain't getting on their nerve?
Speaker 1 (49:29):
So you got the swoop. You can't say today, say today.
Speaker 4 (49:37):
I saw what to god. I Big was here talk
about it. She said, Oh, b we gotta get somebody.
Take somebody this samebody hold try to get your nigga.
You at gonna give them if you see something you
because at the end of the day, technically, if you
still searching a single on an application and you ain't married.
You up for grabs in the paperwork. Jady, y'all, boys,
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I don't care about boyfriend and girlfriend. She you up
for grass, my nigga.
Speaker 5 (50:06):
You can go.
Speaker 4 (50:08):
About of here, bitch.
Speaker 1 (50:09):
You can leave tomorrow.
Speaker 4 (50:12):
Oh it's the truth. But you married and you just
boyfriend and girlfriend shacking up. That nigga up for grass,
bitch made the best bitch win and I'm her. So
don't let me come around your nigga, bitch because I
want them.
Speaker 1 (50:27):
Let me ask you. Let me ask you something though?
Is it true how you give them? It's how you
lose the facts fast because you're gonna gett on the nurse.
Speaker 4 (50:37):
It's I'm reading a book, y'all. Ooh we all? Are
you gonna tell ya? This book? It's called Whole Tactics.
Speaker 1 (50:46):
J L after the Book of the Week. That's the
book of the week.
Speaker 4 (50:50):
Tell the beginning with Whole tax is by Jay Jay
No g Al Limbert.
Speaker 1 (50:55):
Look it up.
Speaker 4 (50:56):
Boaka is on kindle now and you can buy it all. So, y'all,
that books so funny, well and tell you all type
of sheep. It tell you the different types of men
out here. So you got tricks. You got treaters, tricks
and sponsors, treats other niggas. That's gonna do the simple
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load light shit. They gonna take you to the movies,
might take you to the club.
Speaker 1 (51:21):
You you treat me dinner, You treat me.
Speaker 4 (51:24):
Now you got the tricks tricks, gonna step it up.
They're gonna buy you a bag. Might take you on
the goddamn on vacation. You feel me? Now, you got
them sponsors. Beaches out here looking for sponsors. Sponsors, got
them investing their beating me. They don't take them kids,
They don't pay them bills, all the bills. When ain't
talking about fifty to fifty them sponsors. It's what a
(51:44):
beach looking for.
Speaker 3 (51:45):
So they ain't got the nigga. Now they ain't got
the other nigga. Now who the niggah who ain't ain't
now one of them?
Speaker 4 (51:56):
This book called Hotel. Nobody cares about people, that cares
about that. Listen this book. Y'all got to read this book.
I don't even know how crossed I stumbled across as
I've been on my reading ship lately. And man, when
(52:17):
I read that book, I'll be on the floor laughing.
Speaker 1 (52:20):
She said, count that don't matter. So most of the
sponsors are taking up.
Speaker 4 (52:27):
Sponsors are married or yes they're taking and most of
all of them are. But the key to keeping the
sponsor ease, you gotta keep them happy, so you'll let
their inner hoe out because what they got at home,
they really done got tired. So you gotta keep it
alive on them. You feel young so that you will
be older season like you know, stuff like that. You
just keep it lying. You got the book, see you.
Speaker 1 (52:53):
The treaters, what the treat get?
Speaker 4 (52:55):
Treats you get So with treaders you can have multiple
of them. They just nigga.
Speaker 1 (53:02):
You shd go.
Speaker 4 (53:02):
You just go out with them. Then the fun Boys,
the fun Boys and Atlanta, the Atlanta, the Scammels, the
treatise to hang out like let go out, y'all get
a section, y'all for pop a bottle if you want
to make your I g lit go get your treat y'all.
Finna get a sextion, y'are finna pop a couple of bottles.
You're gonna take out to eat if you ever tell
you to want them five star restaurant.
Speaker 5 (53:22):
They look good.
Speaker 1 (53:23):
So what you what you do with the treata though, and.
Speaker 4 (53:25):
See you you really need suppose to fuck the treat
by the book.
Speaker 1 (53:29):
I don't know.
Speaker 4 (53:31):
The treats. What the trick do the truths? I told
you they give the bags in the vacation. Yeah, you
take you on a vacation. You're on vacation.
Speaker 1 (53:40):
You sponsored the sponsors. You wanna marry him?
Speaker 4 (53:43):
Like, that's the nigga you trying to sponsor. Is a
nigga you're trying to get. This is like I said,
you gotta take somebody. You're trying to take that sponsor.
You're trying to get that nigga. There the ones the
beaches that gonna get pregnant by these NFL player They
got wife stuff. They're sponsors. You're trying to you. That's
what you do with them.
Speaker 5 (53:59):
This is what you do with them.
Speaker 1 (54:00):
What if you let me ask you something. If you
date a nigga he didn't like to get his dicks up,
I don't want to dix up. Would that be like
a red flat, I don't want to suck your Listen
what I'm saying. If the nigga that if you want
it to suck in, HI don't want you to suck it.
Would you be upset.
Speaker 4 (54:17):
I don't know why my energy and it's something you
gotta do to do that. Yeah, that's a lot.
Speaker 1 (54:26):
That's a whole lot of it's a you're gonna talk
about him though, No I'm not.
Speaker 4 (54:32):
You don't want your dix up, baby, I'm glad, but
I want my puss. I ain't got they do with
you that one. You don't want a guy got three thousand,
but I'm gonna want this motherfucker.
Speaker 1 (54:42):
You don't think that's weird.
Speaker 4 (54:44):
I don't feel like it's weird. Some people don't like. Hey,
I know guys that can't let off head.
Speaker 5 (54:49):
I still say I.
Speaker 4 (54:51):
Lost o my friends. I got more homeboys now than
I got female friends. So they tell me about their situations.
So I just say that. Can listen because i'mnna write
my own book eventually, I don't know.
Speaker 3 (55:01):
Yeah, Nigga still got dog that mouth hot only even
I know her not And she ain't even be out
here this sucking, dicking, not and tucking mind.
Speaker 4 (55:12):
I mean what she don't get good head?
Speaker 1 (55:15):
Damn. I can't explain it. Yeah, you can't explain that.
You gotta be you know, you gotta be the truth.
Speaker 4 (55:24):
You go for different people though different.
Speaker 1 (55:26):
Yeah, everybody prefering different.
Speaker 4 (55:29):
Let you see, I don't like people like like, you know,
that's so hard. I hate it. Who told you all
to do that? What the fuck did y'all learn to
do that?
Speaker 1 (55:43):
Stupid? Would you? I think a niggas supposed to ask
a woman how she what she like and how she
likes it?
Speaker 4 (55:50):
You really got a teacher man was like, and I
always do that, Like, I'm gonna let you know, I
really because in that department I'm not shy at all
because I'm gonna tell you what I want.
Speaker 5 (56:00):
I don't.
Speaker 4 (56:00):
So that's just what that is, all right.
Speaker 1 (56:04):
That's the word with the word, I'm gonna say a word.
You say a word, first word come in your head?
Speaker 4 (56:09):
Oh God?
Speaker 1 (56:11):
Really?
Speaker 4 (56:11):
Oh? I ben't drinking?
Speaker 6 (56:12):
Cohead, love, hate, cheating, lords, commitment, scared, green.
Speaker 7 (56:27):
Flags, red flag, red flag, blackly, proposal, marriage, four, play six,
turn offs, turn offs, insecurities, trust, secrets, lies, pren.
Speaker 1 (57:05):
Money, baby dad, by you mommy, you can't say that obviously,
Okay you baby daddy?
Speaker 4 (57:16):
Say what really?
Speaker 3 (57:17):
From your head?
Speaker 4 (57:18):
Is?
Speaker 1 (57:18):
Okay?
Speaker 5 (57:20):
History but a history money, experimental.
Speaker 1 (57:31):
Uh, the.
Speaker 4 (57:39):
Deception, mm hmmm, I'm gonna say mean on it.
Speaker 3 (57:45):
Forgiveness, God, treat dad, a treat, allowance, coast respect, be back, Hey,
(58:09):
with one of the rarest stuck out to you? Which
one you said, which one stuck out you think, shah,
she got stuck on? Which one you got stuck on?
You said, oh yeah yeah, Why do you why you
picked me on the steps?
Speaker 4 (58:26):
As I got struggled with it a little bit. Why
just cause I always I got a mental thing while
I'm always battling with myself about like I told, I
just lost a whole bunch of friends and sit right,
oh well, friend of me, I lost a lot of
'em or whatever, and it they just really be on
the like in the back of my head a lot,
(58:47):
and I just struggle with it, like it's people sepup
to me, or how people look at me, or am
I doing things right? Or am I doing things wrong?
Like I be trying to figure shit out, trying please people.
I used to be a people please really bad.
Speaker 1 (59:02):
Now I ain't.
Speaker 4 (59:03):
I really be like everybody. I honestly be like it
now you got to That's what I smell someone with
you because like mm hmmm, but I really struggled it
and I'll be trying to like I'm trying to go
sometimes sometimes people I wa't blame mother for y'all look
at you right now. Let me tell you about this
journey I'm on right now, and I feel I feel
(59:23):
like God put me on this journey. It's about figuring
out just okay, feel me? Everybody like looking at me.
J I gotta figure out me. I gotta see what
I'm doing right, what I'm doing wrong?
Speaker 1 (59:34):
Feel me.
Speaker 4 (59:35):
He wants me to sit down and focus right now.
This is my main thing right now the nick couple years.
You want me to focus.
Speaker 9 (59:42):
So yeah, I'm trying to figure that. You got it,
You're still you got this ship? But um hm, alright,
what's next? What's next on your journey?
Speaker 4 (59:56):
I become an author. Told I'm gonna take the se
I'm gonna take this ship off, get me a agent.
Speaker 1 (01:00:02):
You know you need age, but.
Speaker 4 (01:00:06):
I take off with it instead.
Speaker 1 (01:00:10):
What's your dream role?
Speaker 4 (01:00:12):
I want to I want to make it the Victually.
I would always like a main role with like what
doing what? Though I don't want to be like a
battered woman, no ship like that, But I don't want
to be like no six semon neither, like I need
some oh challenge me. I can play a bad cop
(01:00:36):
I don't know, or a judge. I play anything like that.
Mm hmm. By the Citizen used to be my favorite movie.
Speaker 1 (01:00:50):
That ain't up.
Speaker 4 (01:00:52):
Like that nigga was smart.
Speaker 1 (01:00:55):
I don't like them for a whold up? What did
I actually say that, nigga? But they they smart as
how smartest as you'll watch Godfather? I did not real.
Speaker 4 (01:01:09):
Yeah, I ain't even watch Snowfall. You're about to know
why Snowfall. I did watch Power the Ghost. I want
to do that. Fifty put me on your ship?
Speaker 1 (01:01:22):
Which one?
Speaker 4 (01:01:24):
Fifty put me on your ship?
Speaker 1 (01:01:28):
Which which show would you rather be on out of
all the shows? Fifty mm hmmm, I don't know.
Speaker 4 (01:01:37):
Because they got damn oh it gotta be one of
them powers and looking when Marriage did her thing, I
like him on. They want me gonna get boots and everything.
I had to go get this. I would have bought
some fifteen hundred boots because you bitch, because your I.
Speaker 1 (01:01:55):
Want to Mary been there bitch though, Yeah from the
from the rip, so yo, damn big just I think
you dope. Man. You gotta come back. I will gotta
come back when you get ready to drop the book.
Brain the book. Nah, for sure. What's the name of
the book gonna be? I don't know you Okay, there's a.
Speaker 4 (01:02:11):
Whole much of story, true stories, though you.
Speaker 1 (01:02:14):
Don't make the book of the week is what she said?
The name of it?
Speaker 4 (01:02:17):
O tag this by g L Limbert.
Speaker 1 (01:02:20):
Hole tag this tag what it is? It's like a
structure book or what is it?
Speaker 4 (01:02:25):
It's just a bunch of story. He's just telling the
whole bunch of store like.
Speaker 1 (01:02:28):
It's good.
Speaker 5 (01:02:28):
Though.
Speaker 1 (01:02:29):
You listen to it, you read it.
Speaker 4 (01:02:30):
I read it, okay, my homegirl, she got the audio
audio one, but I read man, so yeah, I like it.
Speaker 1 (01:02:37):
No, you're welcome back anytime. I appreciate you putting up.
Let these folks know where follow you and.
Speaker 4 (01:02:41):
Oh yeah, follow me in money making underscore chest on
TikTok and I g we look.
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