Relentlessly Selfless with Shaunell Kennard

Big Bank and special guest Shaunell Kennard discuss a variety of topics including the concept of faithfulness in relationships, and the importance of having a plan and bringing value to a partnership, the need for emotional support and understanding especially for men who often carry childhood trauma, the significance of forgiveness and the negative impact of holding onto anger and resentment. They also share their perspective on politics, expressing frustration with the current system, the lack of support for hardworking individuals and much more. Tune in and join the conversation in the socials below.

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:01):
It gets no better than this. You are now in June,
respect us.

Speaker 2 (00:06):
With big Let's get straight to it, work to perspective
with bank. I got my dog with my twin with me.
Now what's up, queen? How are you feeling?

Speaker 3 (00:19):
I'm amazing.

Speaker 1 (00:21):
What are your mental at right now?

Speaker 3 (00:23):
Oh? I'm just here to have a good time, just.

Speaker 1 (00:25):
Period in life, not right now, just in life where
you're mental?

Speaker 3 (00:27):
Oh, I'm good like life is good. Life is great,
like God is always good even if you having a
bad day. God is real good.

Speaker 2 (00:34):
In fact, I can cur that in your own words,
to strive yourself to drive.

Speaker 1 (00:38):
Who you are?

Speaker 3 (00:39):
Out of my mind?

Speaker 1 (00:41):
Oh? Oh, reread out of my mind?

Speaker 3 (00:46):
Me too, me too, but in a good way. Like
but I'm out of my mind and that's that's just
the honest truth.

Speaker 1 (00:55):
Do you feel.

Speaker 2 (00:58):
Do you feel I got I thought it was out
for you a Gemini, fellow Gemini, So I already know
where you're at with it. So I'm gonna ask you
questions about things that I go through in my mind
to get clarification from your perspective. You know what I'm saying.
Do you feel sometime that you the only one think
how you think?

Speaker 3 (01:18):
Absolutely? My whole life. I've always thought different from everybody else,
and it really puts you in like this really small
box until you just decide to be okay with it.
Like I tell people like I have a fairy tale brain,
but not in like a weird way. Like when I
was in New Orleans, I looked around and I never
saw nothing that I ever wanted to be. I didn't

(01:40):
know what I wanted to say. This ain't it. Oh yes,
everybody just a nurse. Everybody's just a doctor, a lawyer.
I want to be bigger than this. I want to
have bigger houses than this. Didn't have a plan, didn't
know what I wanted to be. I just knew I
didn't see it. So my mom everybody'd be like, girl,
just go be a nurse, just go be I'm like, nah,
that ain't it. So I was like, you know what,

(02:02):
I'm just moving. So I moved at like five o'clock
in the morning, like in the middle of the night.
My sister got married August fourteenth, twenty two thousand and four.
She got married. At the reception, I got on the
mic and said, everybody come to my house and helped
me pack my shit. I'm moving to Atlanta. They thought
I was crazy. I had never even been to Atlanta.

Speaker 1 (02:24):
Who why you choose Atlanta?

Speaker 3 (02:26):
Because all the black people was in that Now, I
had always heard that if you go to Atlanta and
you're black, you can make it. Yeah, i'd never been
to Atlanta. One of my homegirls had moved to Atlanta,
but that was it. I was like, look, I don't
know what I'm going to be, but that place, Atlanta,
I'm going there to figure it out.

Speaker 2 (02:42):
Now watching you, watching you from Afar, I see that
you figured it out when you got here.

Speaker 3 (02:46):
Oh I'm figuring out meny.

Speaker 2 (02:48):
So yeah, So I ain't gonna ask you how tod
Atlanta treat you because I know it did cause good
to me.

Speaker 1 (02:53):
You're a serial entrepreneur.

Speaker 3 (02:54):
Right yeah, Like do you feel something?

Speaker 2 (02:56):
Do you feel like you go with a wind blow?
Like like you me too?

Speaker 3 (03:02):
Yeah, it's just I wake up. Oh just what we're
doing today? Okay?

Speaker 1 (03:05):
Here?

Speaker 3 (03:06):
Oh tomorrow? Oh at two pm? We're doing this right here?
Go cool?

Speaker 2 (03:10):
Is it hard to make plans unless it's business? Is
it hard to make like plans with people?

Speaker 3 (03:15):
I'm not really good at playing me neither. I just
wake up and I just do it. So I spend
more money that way, then yeah, me too. So I
tell people now with my life, like I need to
figure out how to plan, but I can't think that far,
like in the sense of like my friends they want
to go on a cruise and I'm like, I don't
want to go on no cruise. But if I want
to go, I don't pay the last day or when

(03:37):
y'all getting on the plane, I don't be like, look,
excuse me, can I get on? I'm that kind of person.
Me too, But I wake up in the morning, like
if I'm having a bad day, like last weekend, I
was like, oh, I don't feel like being in Atlanta.
I just went to the airport. I found me somewhere
to go. Didn't have a hotel. We got me a hotel,
didn't have nothing, Like I'm just gonna figure it out.
But I'm kind of like go with the flow. Person.

(04:00):
If I want to change my scenery, I'm doing it.

Speaker 2 (04:03):
Do you think that's like a gift and the curse
of being imposive, because that's.

Speaker 3 (04:06):
What it is, right, Yes, it is not good because
well it's good and bad, Like it has worked out
for the better for me. Yeah, it has also cost
me a lot of money. So that's why I think
it's good and bad. You I probably should be a
little different.

Speaker 1 (04:23):
No, you don't.

Speaker 2 (04:24):
If you do, you ain't gonna be you, though, And
I'm just if you do, you're not gonna be you.

Speaker 3 (04:28):
Tell tell people.

Speaker 2 (04:29):
I take my mistakes on the head, even, Like if
I do some impostal shit that I didn't supposed to do,
I just take it on here because it worked so
many times for me.

Speaker 3 (04:37):
Yeah right, yeah, so when it don't, it's like, yeah,
it worked more than it don't exactly, And now I
like to go with it like that. I like to
go with life like that.

Speaker 1 (04:49):
What you're both intentional about. When you wake up in
the morning.

Speaker 3 (04:51):
Prayer, Okay, every day. I pray before I do work.
I pray before I do Instagram. I pray before I
do anything. I pray before I peep. Like as soon
as I wake up, I'd be like, all a big dog,
let's get it.

Speaker 1 (05:04):
So me and God we have like own relationship.

Speaker 3 (05:07):
It's different kind of I'm not like I talk about
God a lot, but I'm not like real churchy, if
that makes sense. So like as soon as I wake up,
I'm like, all right, big dog, what you got for me?
And sometimes I'd be like, all right, yesterday you had
a whole lot of crazy stuff for me. Look today,
give us some break now, you know. But I wake up,

(05:27):
I talk to guy, I pray with my church Monday
through Friday from eight to eight thirty, and then I
start like working and talking to people after that.

Speaker 1 (05:36):
Do you think, cause you got a lot of shit
going on and I'm the same way. I do a
lot of shit.

Speaker 2 (05:41):
Do you think we make we stretch our days more
than other people.

Speaker 3 (05:45):
It's geminis, Like I do a fifty hour day in
twenty four whiles me too. Every day. Yeah, people my
mom sit there and be like, oh my god, girls,
sit down, I'm so worried about you. I'm like, but
if I don't do it, I don't feel right. So
if I don't have a lot to do, I don't
feel right. I feel like I'm wasting my day or
I'm wasting my time. So unfortunately, I like to be overworked.

(06:09):
I like to be overly consumed, because if I'm not,
I'm sitting around like, oh, I ain't doing nothing.

Speaker 1 (06:15):
Do you think when you sit it makes your mind?
Your mind? You get stuck in your thoughts.

Speaker 3 (06:19):
Yeah, and then I'll go down a rabbit hole.

Speaker 1 (06:21):
Yeah, me too.

Speaker 3 (06:22):
And I'm like, girl, go fight this something, dude. Yeah no,
I don't worry me. Sitting don't work.

Speaker 2 (06:30):
What's what's an experience in your life that just changed
it for the better, for the better.

Speaker 3 (06:37):
I think having my son changed me for the better
because I was real crazy and I was real loud.

Speaker 1 (06:43):
I'm still real loud and I'm find crazy.

Speaker 3 (06:46):
So I just used to say anything to people, like
I used to get into a whole bunch of stuff
or whatever when I was in high school. Like I say,
and still to this day, like I say anything, and
it's just what I think. I'm not intentionally trying to
do some bullshit, but my brain, God's still working on that.
But I think with him it made me more responsible

(07:08):
because I have somebody else to worry about. So, girl,
you can't go out there having no fights because you
got this little boy. So a lot of things in
my life, even with me going to college and with
me opening my businesses and just certain actions, it's like, Okay,
you got somebody looking at you now, and his impression
of me is very important to me, Like he not
about to say his mama ain't nothing. He'd be like, man,

(07:30):
y'all see my mama. And I hear him telling his
friends like, man, my mama. So that's like, it's like,
all right, girl, you're doing that right because your son
proud of you?

Speaker 2 (07:40):
No, no, in fact, yeah, so basically saying it's still
it's still there. Oh, but now you know how to challenge.
How did you learn how to challenge? You say, your son,
what's the reason you start challenging? Like things to come
out your mouth? How did you learn? How hard was
it to do?

Speaker 3 (07:57):
So? When I was eighteen, I got into a fight
with this girl. I was messing with her baby daddy,
cause that's what her baby daddy he had. He had
just bought me some Nikes, a whole Nike outfit. Like
I was fresh to death, you hear me. I had
just got my hair done, my little nail money. So

(08:19):
we lived in the same apartment complex. She stayed across
from the building I stayed in. Boy, she called him
coming up out of there. She hit me and him
at the same time, Like I don't know where she
came from. She was like six s feed Okay, that
thing right, hooked both of us together, bags falling all

(08:42):
on the floor, and the police came.

Speaker 1 (08:44):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (08:44):
So when the police came, he like, if I can't
figure out who started, everybody going to jail. And I say, oh,
wait a minute, jail, what do you mean? So I
had to call one of my other homeboys that I knew,
who knew the police. I said, boy, you gotta get
a buy of this this man and put me in
a car. Me going to jail. I'm baby, I don't

(09:05):
fit in there. So when I realized, oh now I
can go to jail, Oh baby, girl, sit down. Oh no,
And I'm not even going see to see if I
fit in. I'm not showing up. So at that point
I said, so now everybody make fun of me. People
be saying stuff to me, saying crazy stuff. Girls will

(09:27):
be in my face and I'll be like, if you
hit me, you going to jail, and I'm sewing the
pits out of you. Can't wait. Hold on everything you got.
Hit me good.

Speaker 4 (09:38):
When you hit me, knock me the fuck out, give
me some proof.

Speaker 3 (09:41):
Yeah, I wanna lay. Okay, I'm gonna get that bag
up out of your home. So you sleeping with my nigga,
and you mad with me, slap the ship out of me.
Let me sit up, Let me sit up, Let me
make sure my shoulders right.

Speaker 4 (10:00):
Let me.

Speaker 3 (10:03):
They smacked the ship out of me, and I've been
in every lands home.

Speaker 4 (10:07):
Don't worry about it.

Speaker 3 (10:10):
My nigga gonna pay you. But if y'all gonna give
me some money, honey, as long as you know I'm
wearing the braids, I'm doing all of that. Everything you
hear me, the back brace, I'm gonna have a cane.
I can't wait. I can't wait.

Speaker 5 (10:29):
Come on home to j right to jail, and.

Speaker 3 (10:36):
Judge I can't work. And then I'm gonna show the
nigga how much I make a day. So that's what
bitch's gonna have a problem at, old bitch, because I
need thirty days of this. Be sell your car, selling
fake ass jewelry at you or something for self, and
if you got, bitch, come home with it, because then
I'm gonna show a motherfucker would count you heard me? Sorry,
this is what I make a day, lost wages. Please

(10:59):
here you are. How many years of this you want
to see?

Speaker 1 (11:05):
And I can't sleep, can't.

Speaker 5 (11:07):
Do nothing.

Speaker 3 (11:09):
Back hurt Wood blash, I can't drive, so now I
need a driver. Oh baby, I can't wait to hit you.

Speaker 2 (11:23):
Uh uh.

Speaker 1 (11:25):
I had wrote down a few questions.

Speaker 2 (11:27):
Let me see, I said, at what point did you
did you decide like start funk with real estate?

Speaker 3 (11:33):
So when did I get into real estate? Two thousand
and fifteen. So I was married and he used to
be into real estate, and so I was in a
beauty industry, and I was doing real good in a
beauty industry, like I was doing good, and everything I
would read, everything he would talk about would be about

(11:55):
real estate and wealth. Every time I heard anybody say
anything about wealth, it was you need to invest in
real estate, you need to own some properties, and things
like that. So I was like, okay, cool. He the
guy that I was married to at the time, he
was like, let's start flipping houses. Let's start doing these things.
So I was like, okay, cool. So we bought two houses,

(12:17):
started flipping them, and I'm like, oh, that's a cute check.
So then we bought two more, Then we bought two more.
Then we bought commercial property. Then so then when I
looked up, we had fifteen different commercial properties laying residential
things sit We was in there. We was in that thing.

Speaker 1 (12:35):
You say you say you was married at the time
you been married.

Speaker 3 (12:40):
I've been married four times.

Speaker 1 (12:41):
How you do that though?

Speaker 3 (12:43):
You see me? What it is?

Speaker 5 (12:52):
I said?

Speaker 1 (12:52):
How you get getting in and out though?

Speaker 3 (12:54):
Like? Cause niggas ain't shit, bro, and I'm cute.

Speaker 1 (12:57):
Still, But is you picking the same type.

Speaker 3 (12:59):
Niggas they picking me? I ain't ask the nigga to
marry me, yes.

Speaker 1 (13:02):
Saying is you? Is you agreeing to marry the same
type nigga?

Speaker 3 (13:05):
You buy me a motherfucking ring. Let's go, we get
married tomorrow. You got.

Speaker 1 (13:12):
I don't know, no.

Speaker 4 (13:16):
No ring now, no, let's be.

Speaker 3 (13:22):
Nigga just asked me to marry him. I said no,
and I still kept the ring. Do you hear me?
Don't listen.

Speaker 5 (13:28):
I'm not turned down.

Speaker 1 (13:29):
You think it, you're still thinking about it.

Speaker 3 (13:30):
You're thinking about it. I'm still thinking about it.

Speaker 4 (13:34):
I'm not turning down.

Speaker 3 (13:35):
No diamonds, baby, what's wrong with you? I ain't that.
I ain't that great of a person to telling motherfucker
no and let them take them, ot them talkings back
with them.

Speaker 1 (13:45):
Don't great.

Speaker 3 (13:47):
I ain't gonna bad to do it, baby, give me
them dyving honey, sig hey, can't wait, can't wait, I
can't wait to do it. You've seen the last ring
I had, yes, twenty three carriage. I fucked the ship
out of that, nigga. I still got it.

Speaker 5 (14:11):
I still got it.

Speaker 3 (14:12):
I'm a house with that motherfucker.

Speaker 1 (14:15):
One of these things, I'm saying, what what goes wrong?

Speaker 3 (14:23):
What goes wrong?

Speaker 1 (14:25):
What goes wrong?

Speaker 3 (14:26):
It was always wrong. Every marriage I ever been in
was wrong before it started. You, completely honest with you.
It was all wrong because none of them was built
on a real foundation. Okay, So like so, my third
husband and my fourth husband is the same man. We
got divorced and then we got married again, like a
year and something later. But when I met him, we

(14:49):
started dating, he was married to somebody else. We was
living together, and he was married to somebody else. I
didn't know till the lady called me and say, you
fucking my husband. I said, bet you, I got my own, nigga,
what's wrong with you? That was her motherfucker husband.

Speaker 1 (15:06):
Though he called me.

Speaker 3 (15:10):
So I caught him on three way with the lady.

Speaker 4 (15:13):
I still pout such and such, sing you her husband.

Speaker 5 (15:21):
You know what that motherfucker said?

Speaker 3 (15:23):
Man, I'm something happy you found out, man, he trod
out the lady. Bet you know I want John even
be over there. But damn, MA ain't know how to
tell you I was married to that bitch. Like, help
me get a divorce from the whole. Like, he was
so happy I found out he was married, he said,
because he knew because the first day that we met,

(15:44):
he asked me what I messed with a married man?
I said, Man, I can get my own nigga. I'm
too cute for that, so I don't gotta be with
nobody else nigga. Like, I may get some money from
your motherfucker husband, but I ain't fucked your husband, ma'am.
But I ain't turn it down. No, I ain't got
no bad Okay, I ain't that fucking slow, and I'm
not that dumb. If your nigga want to buy me something,

(16:06):
come on, sir. But I ain't fucked him. Okay. So,
but it's but I did for her husband, but I ain't.

Speaker 5 (16:13):
No, I ain't know.

Speaker 3 (16:16):
I didn't know. It wasn't my fault. But so yeah,
he said, man, I'm so happy you found out I
was married to that bitch. And he said, look, I'm
in the middle of giving me some money, I'm gonna
have to call you back, and that motherfucker hung up
the phone. And we were together for twelve years. It
was what it was.

Speaker 1 (16:34):
Oh so y'all got you say, y'all got divorce, and
then I got remarried, and.

Speaker 3 (16:38):
Then we broke up for like a year and he
just couldn't get enough. He just he just didn't want
to go nowhere. So he came back around and my little,
silly little ass went right on back. Stupid motherfucker.

Speaker 1 (16:51):
How you say it's stupid though, cause.

Speaker 3 (16:52):
It ain't because it didn't work. It was never gonna work.
He's such a great person. He's a terrible husband.

Speaker 1 (16:59):
But good, I'm glad you said that, so you can
be a great person.

Speaker 3 (17:02):
He's a right human. Let me tell you something, he's
a hell of a human thing. Yeah, he's a terrible husband.
So I tell people even to this day, like people
be like, well, he did all these things. It doesn't
mean he's a bad person. He just don't know how
to do this one thing.

Speaker 1 (17:19):
He's just not a good idea of a good husband. Though,
we'll see.

Speaker 3 (17:23):
My issue is is but just can't be talking about
they pregnant. Come on now, sir, God damn, you ain't
find no condoms. I leave condoms in your truck and
your glove compartment. You cann't pick them, bitches up. I
can put them in your pocket if you need me to.

Speaker 4 (17:37):
You care what I'm saying, take it out, un rapid.

Speaker 3 (17:40):
Put it on like at a certain point. So I
don't think no husband is faithful. And I'm gonna just
say that I have never met a faithful husband. And
I know a lot of husbands, and I hope you
all don't put that on there, because it's gonna be
a lot of bitches mad with me because they know
I know they husband. But all I'm saying is is
I'm not saying every husband in the world right is unfaithful.

(18:05):
Just the ones I know, and so just the ones
I know. But I do not believe that there is
one man and one woman that's gonna be together thirty
years and ain't nobody gonna get They dick suck and
they pushyate by nobody else. And I don't even want that.

(18:26):
I don't even want a man that think I'm gonna
sit with his little limp as dick for thirty years
bro bro.

Speaker 1 (18:34):
No, so you just getting married for nothing?

Speaker 3 (18:37):
No, uh huh. I need life insurance. I need to
pay these motherfucking bills around here. I need me to
build a foundation with one motherfucker. I can't have five
boyfriends and try to build five teams. You can't build
five teams. I need to build one team, but inside
this one team. Nigga. Every other month, go get your
dicksuck and bring your bitch ass in here so we're
gonna watch the Netflix like you know what I'm saying.

(19:02):
And then why you get your dick suck. I'm on
the motherfucking picnic with the corny nigga cause the stream
nigga ain't taking me on the motherfucking picnic while you
can your dick suck and have the threesome with the
bitches that's impressed with you because of me. You get
what I'm saying. I'm holding hands with the nigga at
the motherfucking part that ain't trying to sleep with me
until we get married, and we're never getting married by

(19:23):
taller in five months. I'm gonna leave you because I.

Speaker 4 (19:26):
Know it's screams.

Speaker 3 (19:27):
I can get rid of him, So I got.

Speaker 4 (19:31):
I got my game forget yeah cold, I learned.

Speaker 3 (19:40):
From the realist nigga. That ain't no. My husband is
the realist nigga I ever met my ex husband. Realist
nigga I ever met in my life. I got all
the game from his ass.

Speaker 1 (19:48):
Oh what you say?

Speaker 3 (19:51):
Hear hear and his friends talk and I'll be like,
let me write that down. So that's what y'all doing
of these bitches. Because listen, when the other niggas get
kicked out, they come to our house because we had
a big house. So nigga need to sleep on the couch.
Nigga needs to go sleep in the room. Nigga needs
you ca know what I'm saying. I'm listening to the
whole play and my husband, ex husband giving them the

(20:14):
game nine nigga you was supposed to see And I'm like,
yd ship, I got my game from the col nigga
a lot my ex husband do it and I ain't

(20:35):
mad at him because nigga ain't getting no wrong me.
Now another motherfucker.

Speaker 5 (20:39):
Time you hear me.

Speaker 2 (20:41):
They so do you like the type of niggas that
would be that type of nigga? No, yeah, could you
marry the pic nick niggas?

Speaker 3 (20:48):
Oh no, I want your ass.

Speaker 5 (20:50):
What you see how crazy y I am?

Speaker 3 (20:53):
I'm gonna run clean over the picnic, Nigga, I need
a motherfucker with some basin. They goddamn voice, tell me
see my ass in the corner sometimes like I'm a Gemini.
You cannot let me.

Speaker 5 (21:04):
Walk over you.

Speaker 3 (21:05):
You are in trouble. You better fucking take your balls out.
Motherfucking let them bitches hang. Look look, bitch, you was
getting out of control. Go sit down somewhere. Your mouth too,
because my mouth is going to rip you apart. As
a man. I can't have no man that can't take it.
I don't really mean nothing by it. I'm just mad
at the moment. I'm gonna love you in five minutes,

(21:27):
That's what Jemini cast. We go in and nigga in
five minutes, I love you to.

Speaker 5 (21:34):
Yet you hungry what we're eating?

Speaker 3 (21:48):
Though. My EXE used to be like just come on,
come on, like I said what I had to say,
and then I'm done with it. Though, like and I
don't know why I'm like that, but I'm gonna cut
you to I'm gonna cut you to pieces and then
I'm done with it. I don't dwell on it. I
don't go to sleep with it. I'm done. Come on, nigga, Yeah, nigga,

(22:08):
won't got your dick, suck you dick don't even work,
and y'all here giving it to motherfucking people come to.
Don't work for you though, No, that bitch don't work.

Speaker 1 (22:16):
How you can't say that?

Speaker 3 (22:17):
Let me tell you so, I fucked like a motherfucker
you hear me.

Speaker 1 (22:20):
But that ship don't that ship get.

Speaker 4 (22:22):
Like like you just said this, Sometimes it is.

Speaker 3 (22:24):
That's why I have to give me another nigga exactly.

Speaker 2 (22:27):
But sometimes niggas go out there and get a boost
and come back and be different.

Speaker 1 (22:32):
So that ain't never happen.

Speaker 2 (22:33):
It might be like it shit wasn't working then now,
but you somebody showed you some new ship that shit works.

Speaker 3 (22:38):
That's all of my fucking pills and god damn lean
and all the motherfucker cigarettes and ship. While that ship
don't motherfucker work.

Speaker 1 (22:44):
That it will take your game.

Speaker 3 (22:45):
That's what taking game. Drugs, Yeah, them drugs, some drugs.

Speaker 1 (22:50):
Mother, it will take your game.

Speaker 3 (22:52):
So and then when you get older, I'm not messing
with no twenty year olds. You get what I'm saying,
Like I'm forty. So all of my men though the
seven fifty one fifty two different stuff like that. Some
of them got diabetes, some of them got all kind
of shit wrong with them at this point. But I mean,
but it could be like a nigga at the end
of the day. If you with somebody ten fifteen years,

(23:13):
they might be tired of the same pussy. You can
only swing from so many ceiling pans, you can only
swing be cross so many couches and shit.

Speaker 4 (23:21):
Come on, a nigga tied.

Speaker 3 (23:23):
But see, I would go get you a bitch when
I want met some bags and some shit, and I
see you having a bad day, I'm I'm gonna look
at the bitches that's right in your DM stalking you.
I'm gonna send them a message like, let me give
you a thousand to come fuck my nigga for me.

Speaker 1 (23:37):
That's cold you, Uh, Come on, bitch, I need I need.

Speaker 3 (23:41):
To get some money from this motherfucker. He didne had
a bad day for a whole week. Let me gonna
get his dick s uck. Come on, sir, let me
go get you some pussy.

Speaker 1 (23:48):
So, so you why did you leaving niggas? Then? Why
did you leave niggas.

Speaker 3 (23:54):
Because there's shit get embarrassing, so you should when you.

Speaker 1 (23:57):
Go, do it on your own, when you go, when
you make me look like a fool, that's what you're saying, Like.

Speaker 3 (24:02):
Yeah, you can't make me look like a fool. So
I would never leave a man because he slept with somebody.
I'm just not I'm just not that great. I'm just
because I don't know any faithful men with men. But also,
you can't make me look stupid because if I look stoopid,
because I'm okay with you doing bullshit, just contain it.

(24:24):
So when you get bold enough to let this shit
be out everywhere, oh bitch, we got a problem because
ain't a bigger cheat than me. I ain't never been
faithful to a nigga in.

Speaker 1 (24:34):
My life, so I'm no bigger cheat than me.

Speaker 3 (24:40):
So you're gonna play in my face, show you I
do my shit, and you don't know. The niggas ain't
bothering you. The niggas ain't fucking with you. They ain't
they ain't texting me, and late that night, they ain't
doing all that dumb shit because they know what the
play here is already. You think you about play in

(25:03):
my fance.

Speaker 2 (25:03):
But do you think a nigga probably know that and
just lose respect for the relationship, Like I know she
shlicked some people re energy though I can feel if
you've been on that picnic, you won't know, you won't
know what you can feel it. I'm telling you, trying
to tell like women think they got intuition, men do too.

Speaker 1 (25:23):
Song got insight.

Speaker 3 (25:25):
I agree, I can agree with you on that, but
I doubt Like when you find out that I'm cheating
on you, I want you to know because I'm ready
for you to get up on out here.

Speaker 1 (25:37):
But you but you already know. You got that mouth.

Speaker 2 (25:39):
You can say some shit to make a nigga sound
like okay nigga and nigga, I damn there. Know if
we having a conversation and you done caught me in
some ship, the ship you'll say out your mouth would
lead me to do She'll do something.

Speaker 3 (25:52):
I'm never gonna snitch on myself.

Speaker 2 (25:54):
You ain't got a snitch. It's like a warning, like
you get a nigga warning, like like you know you,
you know what you are? You like, But I ain't
like saying I ain't gonna keep going for that what
that sound like to a nigga? And you ain't leaving
out the door.

Speaker 3 (26:07):
But guess what my ex used to be like? So
whenever I knew he was cheating, it would never really
be an argument. So when we broke up so many
people it's like what happened? Like this shit was all
of a sudden because I knew what he was doing.
But I'm a person of if I'm not going nowhere
right now, just shut the fuck up, Like why is

(26:29):
we even about to upset the house? Why am I
about to play with my bill money and all this shit?
And I already know I'm not going nowhere to day.
But then when I get fat up, it's like a damn,
what happened? I always do this, but I just let
it kind of like simmer and simmer and simmer. Then

(26:50):
it's like, oh no, I'm out of here.

Speaker 1 (26:52):
Do you think you think All puts the gota price
on it?

Speaker 3 (26:59):
Absolutely? Absolutely. It may not be an upfront, it may
not be a transaction. It's so so this is how
I look at it. Right, I'm not getting with nobody
that can't help me do nothing. But if you get
with me, I'm gonna help you do something. So you're
not getting with somebody that can't do nothing for you either.

(27:20):
Now do I believe in like they? I feel like
men are getting real soft these days. Like I don't
know what's going on in the water, but it's a
little it's a little funny, what you mean. But because
men will be like what she bringing to the table, Nigga,
you better be at to stand up on your goddamn own.
But believe me, if you are day short, bitch, I'm

(27:42):
coming through with whatever the fuck we got and what
we need to come through with. And then when we
get here, it's not just you go and make the
money and then I'm just gonna spend the money. That's
a liability. I'm gonna say, Okay, babe, whoop are you
working on? What are you doing? Okay, let's do this,
this and this, or let's try this, this and this.
I'm gonna help bring some money in the house. I'm
not sitting in the house trying to just spend no man,

(28:02):
motherfucking money. No. I want him to look at me like, damn,
my wife is cold. Boy like that motherfucker gonna come
up with a plan every man not ever been with.
They gonna be like, boy that now that nail got
something in her goddamn brain. Boy, I fucked it up.
Even my ex he tell people that's the coldest motherfucker

(28:23):
I ever met. Now, he said, you get with what
I'm saying. He'd be like, I fucked that up because
I ain't met I'll tell you your story. Me and
Mike said, we broke up like three years ago at
this point, but like a year ago, he said. He
was like, I tried to do what you did with

(28:43):
somebody else because I wanted you to see it, Like
because he wanted me to be hurt about it. He's saying,
giving these bitches now another dollar of my motherfucking money.
It don'ts don't know how to do nothing but spending
my motherfucking money. He said, damn at least you came
with a plan, you came with a business, you came
with some It's in needo to be something. It's not
in me to be no leech up on no man.

(29:06):
But I'm definitely not getting with no man. And then
I gotta help you pay your cardinal or I got
the goddamn let you use my car while I'm mad working,
you riding around with your homeboys, I'm not her either.
You get what I'm saying. I'm something in the middle. Like, Nigga,
we're gonna we're gonna be able to live. We are
going to live in a house that you can afford.
We're not gonna put our income together because if one
of us lose the income, I need to have money

(29:29):
saved because you've been paying all the bills so that
now I can cover the bills that we need it. Like, so,
I'm gonna make sure that my family is good. But nigga,
you the man, you're gonna run around this bitch, or
you gonna do what you need to do in here.
So I just I just think men that say that like, oh,
she needs to bring me this, this, and that, or

(29:49):
a man that talking about, oh, my me and my
wife's splitting the bills. Nigga, I'm gonna get a roommate.
If I gotta split the bills with you, I'm gonna
get a roommate. Nown a husband is a lot of work,
having a spouse in a partner, it's a lot. Y'all
want to get fucked every day, bitch wanna be feeling
like fucking every day. But guess what, let me roll over,
Let me suck his dick. Let me get this ship
up out of the way. Nigga, you need some food.

(30:11):
Nigga sometimes need their pills from off the counter. God
damn it. Like niggas be mean on.

Speaker 1 (30:26):
Name.

Speaker 3 (30:26):
Ship ship ship. Y'all got all these baby mamas that's calling.
Then you gotta take care of the step kids. I
fuck with the kids now me and the kids. I
didn't take all them bitches. Get rid of the bitches.
Like if I here with a man, just bitch, can
we keep the kid you ain't got a call and
check on them? I'll send you pictures every day. Like

(30:49):
but because it's just a lot. Like if I take
the man and you got ten kids, is you plus ten,
because I'll come with one. It's me plus one all
the time. I'm never a single a single human. So
when you take on people, you take on all they
ship and men have a lot of childhood trauma and
stuff that they have not dealt with. Me. You do,

(31:11):
But then the wife gotta take on his ship. And
then you gotta be quiet about it. But you can't
tell your nigga business. But you gotta figure out how
to build this man up because his whole life, especially
I deal with black men, so his whole life people
and told him no people and said he couldn't do this.
So now you gotta keep his ego here.

Speaker 5 (31:29):
You got different.

Speaker 1 (31:32):
You ask the first ship you said.

Speaker 3 (31:35):
Was but you gotta do that too.

Speaker 5 (31:40):
You have one of the morning gets.

Speaker 3 (31:41):
Oh fuck no, hell no, I don't live with her.
I ain't got to take on her ship.

Speaker 4 (31:48):
I gotta split this ship with you.

Speaker 5 (31:49):
You want me to sit hear you?

Speaker 3 (31:52):
You crying that too in the morning, in the corner
from whatever they happen. I'm sitting there with you, motherfucker. Nigga,
what's wrong? Nigga?

Speaker 1 (31:59):
No, we get up.

Speaker 3 (32:00):
If you got to sit in the corner for three days,
my nigga, I'm sitting in the for three days.

Speaker 5 (32:05):
So her.

Speaker 3 (32:07):
You get what I'm saying, because I want you to
be good internally. And when you're good internally, and then
I'm the person that made you good internally, You're gonna
make sure I'm good. And see, that's what women don't get.
You gotta make sure your man is good internally because
the world beat them up every day and it's somebody calling,
especially if the man making some money everybody calling can

(32:28):
I get this? Can I get that? But nobody stop
to say, how is your day? Good morning, good afternoon?
Simple shit like that means means the world to me.
Simple shit. You're not that complicated, to be honest, y'all
want to fuck a few bitches, but y'all want somebody
that genuinely love you. So when you get me and

(32:49):
your life, motherfucker, I'm gonna love the shit out of you.
And you gonna know it, though, like, because it's gonna
be bigger than what money can do. It's gonna be
bigger than all that different stuff you do, what I'm saying, right,
So women, women miss the mark a lot of times
because they don't care about that. And then social media
have people so twisted on what stuff need to be.

(33:10):
Oh the man, if he han't sending me two thousand,
I ain't going on a day bit. You ain't even
got two thousand in your account? What are you talking about?
Like this ain't your daddy, it's your nigga.

Speaker 1 (33:19):
So it's just it's no na, you just hear it.

Speaker 3 (33:22):
Here's a whole different tomorrow.

Speaker 2 (33:25):
That one. That one, the last one, the last one
you say is the most important thing to any nigga.
Any nigga that got is just trying to you know
what I'm saying, dude, you gotta do out here in
this world. That's most important. If you bitch change your therapy.
She ain't nothing, she and nothing, she and no. You
might even get rid of her if she don't make
you feel better when you feel worse sharing that.

Speaker 3 (33:47):
She and none. And that's what women don't get like
people be like, oh, I'm cute, Yeah you cute, but
then what yeah you just but then what like the
I don't like men that say like, oh, if she
ain't bringing no money to the table, boy, the trauma
is more than some money. Boy. Hey, but it's just different.

(34:10):
And what I know is is I am I am
somewhat friends with everybody that I've ever been with, because ultimately,
when they're not with me no more and they go
back into the world, they be like, now fucked with me?
Like that girl really cared them, you get with them.
And so that's the part of me that people, even

(34:31):
when it don't work out, they just want me a
part of this life because they know it's genuine in
that instance, because I'm not around just because no money
if I don't love you and I don't fuck with you,
it's a bunch of niggas with some money out here, scammers.
The scammers got all the money. You got all the
money right now.

Speaker 1 (34:52):
Let me ask you some so, how much stress do
that brain on a woman? Though? Taking on your stress shit.

Speaker 3 (35:00):
A lot, a lot, your health fall out, you got
damn gain weight, You do all kinds of stuff because
you got to think about it. The woman still has
to run the house. And if you are like me,
I'm an entrepreneur, so I'm trying to build these businesses up.

Speaker 5 (35:15):
I have a child.

Speaker 3 (35:16):
I'm trying to deal with your stuff. I'm trying to
deal with my family stuff because at a certain point,
I'm the first person that made seven figures besides one
of my uncles and my whole family. So I'm paying rents,
I'm doing this, I'm doing that. I got a whole
load of people on my own. So but then I
gotta take on his load because that's my responsibility. So

(35:38):
then you you crying, But I gotta go cry in
a closet. I can't let him see it because I
need him to release all that so that he can
feel better. And when he feel better. He take care
of me. It's okay for me to go cry in
the corner. I'm gonna go talk to a therapist. So
I'm gonna talk to my homegirls, or I'm gonna go
do something about it. My your man, well, I have

(35:59):
never had a man that can fix my internal problem
because they always had an internal problem that needed to
be fixed. So I fixed my stuff. Sitting in these
people office who don't care nothing about me but that
I'm gonna pay them at the end of this thing,
and my business ain't gonna be told all across the
world if they get mad, and if they do, run

(36:22):
me my coin.

Speaker 1 (36:23):
So are you sewing again? Oh?

Speaker 3 (36:25):
Oh yeah?

Speaker 1 (36:26):
So do you you think therapy is important?

Speaker 3 (36:28):
It's super important. It's the reason I'm not in jail.
I know that for a fact. That's a fact.

Speaker 2 (36:35):
What's the most vagabe thing they talk in therapy like
did you hold right now like this?

Speaker 1 (36:42):
That's where I need to go to therapy to hear that.

Speaker 3 (36:45):
I can't control it. And I have to be okay
with being embarrassed. Yep, I gotta be okay.

Speaker 1 (36:52):
That's gotta be okay with taking 's in front of
the world. That's real. You gotta be okay with it.

Speaker 3 (36:58):
That's the biggest And if I'm not okay with it,
I just need to go be a regular person.

Speaker 1 (37:03):
Yep, I'm fast it.

Speaker 2 (37:06):
I was just telling my homeboy this today, Mike Will
talking about I was trying to get the nigga come
out of there. God, I said, our pride really hurts
us more than in a certain instant. That shit hurt
because we're so proud for to learn some new shit.
Won't want nobody to see us bad at nothing because
we already been good at something before in front of

(37:27):
the world. So I don't want to come out here
and learn golf with some niggas who know how to
play and I look like I said, But a lot
of people be afraid to do that. Sometimes you got
to go through the motions of that shit.

Speaker 3 (37:37):
But that's hard. That's hard when you are so it
took me a year. So in my last relationship, it
took me a year to leave because I didn't want
to be embarrassed because everybody said it wasn't gonna work.
So I stayed because I'm like, y'all ain't about to
be right. You get what I'm saying. I knew it

(37:59):
wasn't working. You get what I'm saying. The parts that
I really wanted to work, I knew wasn't working. So
no matter if I'm in a corner with you, no
matter whatever it is, and I'm doing with you, this
still isn't working. But when I let go of the
fact that people is about to clown me, like I'm
about to look like a fool, life changed and now

(38:21):
I'm okay with it. Because people talk about you, whether
you do good or you don't do ba, they talk
about you. If you leave, they talk about you. The
common denominator is these people got something to say. They
ain't got nothing to do with them, fact when they
should be worrying about their own business. And that's why
they bank account like because they all in your business.
So you're gonna talk about me anyway, So I might

(38:43):
as well go and try to be happy. Ain't let
you just say, oh, the bitches took my nigga. Oh
whatever they are? Maybe so, but I got a better one. No,
for sure, I'm gonna give me a better one.

Speaker 1 (38:56):
Man.

Speaker 2 (38:56):
At the end of the day, people people like you said,
people can't be afraid, not even just in relationship you
can't be afraid to go through something in front of people.
You can't because you when you try to hold that
shit in, try to you know what I'm saying, internalize it.

Speaker 1 (39:09):
That's how you go crazy on your own nigga being.

Speaker 2 (39:11):
Wonder like why the nigga just snap cause you get
you ain't letting it out, bro, I don't care what
see you say.

Speaker 1 (39:18):
I don't care at this point, but.

Speaker 3 (39:20):
See, it takes you to grow to a different level
in life to be okay with it, because I'm sure
at one point you a Gemini rich won't look.

Speaker 1 (39:29):
Dune nor I don't think I'm looking dun.

Speaker 3 (39:34):
It for you to go through things in life and
for you to be fed up. I was just fed up,
and I was to the point where it's like I'm
getting with all of this and I just literally one
day woke up and I put my whole life on
the floor and walked out the door.

Speaker 1 (39:52):
You know it'd be hard for well, it be hard
for me.

Speaker 2 (39:56):
And I don't know if it's a Gemini thing to
just say somebody like fuck you, if friends, family, will
that be hard?

Speaker 1 (40:03):
But once I do it, it's like I can't go
back from it.

Speaker 2 (40:08):
So what's like a deal breaker for you, Like a
motherfucker just did the wrong shit, Like they can't gotta
be relationship family friends, Like I just can't fuck with
you no more.

Speaker 3 (40:17):
I can't say it out loud. My deal breakers in
life I don't have many, So the few.

Speaker 2 (40:26):
That I have is like, it's just and if I
if I say it out loud, you're gonna not do
it because you know that's a deal breaker.

Speaker 3 (40:34):
Well that, but then you're gonna know possibly what the
other person did, and I don't want to tell they.

Speaker 1 (40:41):
My own yea, yeah.

Speaker 3 (40:44):
So that's the thing. Like when I tell a story,
I don't try to include a whole bunch of people
in the story, especially if they not ready to tell
their part of So with some of my homegirls, I
can't really say because I mean this a podcast. So
to be honest with you, somebody might see this that
may know the people that I cut off, and I

(41:04):
don't want them to know they business Okay, to be honest,
so I can give you a mediocre one, but then
I would be doing you a disservice, giving you some
ship that I don't really feel like that's really my
deal breaker. My deal breakers is like it take a
lot for me to cut you to but when I do,
I can't undo it.

Speaker 2 (41:23):
Do you think your deal breakers like you can't explain
what they come as the person do it? Like damn,
I can't, Like it has to be morally wrong, like
like I can't just call them out. But when you
do it, I know that.

Speaker 3 (41:35):
Yet that's that's it right there. Let me gather my
fings because people like like, so people will thinking like
in like relationships that I've been there, like women will
be like, oh she's stupid, Oh she dumb, Like he
did this, so he did that. Oh this girl sending

(41:55):
ultrasounds and all this theF but that wasn't a deal
breaker for me. But then else that people may be
like what but like I said, I can't.

Speaker 2 (42:06):
Say it all loud, how important you think it is
to have a full education school and all that? Do
you think people should just go to school and learn
the shit they're gonna make the money off of.

Speaker 3 (42:22):
I have four college degrees. Yeah, so I am a
big I am like the biggest school person that you
will ever find. But I do it as a hobby.
So I'm about to get my doctor in October fifth
and just because I want to call myself doctor Knark.

(42:42):
Not gonna make no money off. But I wasn't leaving
here without being fucking doctor. Can you hear me? I
don't care what. I wasn't busting over Giina's open. I
wasn't messing with nobody bones. I don't want to know surgeries.
I was gonna be y'all, God damn conar you hear me?
And that's just it. I'm doing it just because for

(43:05):
no reason, no other reason. I'm not gonna make no
money from me. It's gonna sit in my house in
the karage.

Speaker 4 (43:15):
You're gonna take some good pictures and everything.

Speaker 3 (43:17):
Hey, you want to see her Instagram? I got a
hell of a goddamn picture.

Speaker 2 (43:22):
On already with your whole robe, bone and everything.

Speaker 1 (43:26):
What doctor?

Speaker 3 (43:28):
Can't wait?

Speaker 1 (43:28):
October?

Speaker 3 (43:29):
Doctor, October fifth, I will being big dogs still on
the same pag. I'm gonna be up that right. You
hear me, y'all they're gonna be sick of me, And
I mean, like, oh, that's show now. If I don't
know who you're talking about, I am doctor Connor.

Speaker 1 (43:53):
This year the city stole man. I got papers I
got I didn't pay for it.

Speaker 5 (43:59):
Alright, you're me.

Speaker 3 (44:01):
It's sealed. I just gotta get to the date. So
I may not be a good person to ask that
question to because literally every time I'm not in school,
I just go back to school for something else. So
like when I'm done in October, I'm going back to
school because I want to be an anesthesiologist, just because,

(44:23):
like I have no fucking reasons. I'm probably never going
to be. I might, but sit when I go with
how much they make? They only make four fifty? Should
I feel like I can subdict for that. Want me
to go to work? You want me to work for thousand?

(44:47):
You taking Texas? Oh shit, that's asking a lot, just asking.

Speaker 5 (44:55):
A lot of me.

Speaker 1 (44:57):
I don't know, but you know, like tax free.

Speaker 3 (45:07):
I don't know. I don't know. You never know what
God has for you, But I don't think God has
for me.

Speaker 1 (45:15):
You think it's.

Speaker 2 (45:17):
You think it makes people envy that you can recreate
yourself in anything. MoMA, like tomorrow, like in October, you're
gonna be doctor Kannaks.

Speaker 1 (45:24):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (45:25):
It sounds good.

Speaker 4 (45:26):
Yeah, No, that that's good.

Speaker 3 (45:28):
I like that.

Speaker 2 (45:29):
So next year and I'm telling what you might be
doing you're gonna be on the bigger and better and
greater things. What I'm saying is, do you think that
that caused a lot of envy that people is afraid
to try to see you try shit, and shit just work,
even if it don't go all the way. This shit
worked though I did it. I ain't taking no ail,
ain't lose I did it.

Speaker 1 (45:50):
You know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (45:50):
Let me tell you some of these bitches in Atlanta
sickle meat. Hear me. They sick of me. They can't
wait to put me in a corner. They'd be like,
she go again, Damn, she go again. She's making money again.
She opened this again. They sick of me. They sick
of me, sick of me. So I know it.

Speaker 4 (46:13):
Can't they over it?

Speaker 3 (46:14):
They over it, But so they tell people don't like
if I think it right? Like when we first started this,
we said, like, do anybody think like you? I have
so many ideas in my brain.

Speaker 1 (46:26):
They won't stay.

Speaker 3 (46:30):
Wake me up in the middle of the night, like
I be writing stuff down, Like you should see the
papers on the side of my bed. It's all from
when I wake up in the middle of the night
and what I was thinking about and sometimes like, God,
just don't that's hard. Every time I think of something,
every time something come up, I get up and I
write it down and I put dates on stuff because

(46:51):
I'd be like, man, I know I thought about that before.
I go back to the papers to see when I
thought about it. So for me, I want to see
if it comes come back to me. And if something
come back to me, it might mean I'm supposed to
do this. You get what I'm saying. But I don't
want to have no regrets in life. And I'm not
a what if kind of person. So I'm gonna bet
everything on myself, every everything, everything I've got. Bro, I'm

(47:15):
gonna give it my all, and I'm going to see
if I can't do it, because why not me? Like
why can't I do it? Like you tell me why
I can't? I know that I can't. So you know,
like I want to be I want to be bigger
than Louis Laton. Right, I'm forty. So when I tell
people that, they be like, what are you talking about?
But like these shoes I got on, these are my shoes,

(47:37):
these are sks, this jewelry right here, this this, this, this,
this is my jewelry. I have purses, I have clothes,
I have all sorts of stuff. People be like, Damn,
but you do real estate. Damn, but you sell the
beauty product. Damn, but you got the school and I
got this too. This ain't around here fucking for not.

Speaker 5 (47:59):
What's we doing.

Speaker 3 (48:00):
I'm gonna keep trying because one of these things is
gonna be a slam dunk. It's gonna change my whole life.
And that's how I feel. And I don't see nobody
better to do it but myself.

Speaker 1 (48:14):
I agree. That's how I feel.

Speaker 2 (48:17):
Man.

Speaker 1 (48:18):
I come up with all the type of shit. I
hike it with bank, karate with bank. I'm gonna do
whatever y'all want to do. We gonna do everything. That
something Coca Cola, somebody gonna come over and see that.

Speaker 3 (48:31):
I'm gonna come with some money.

Speaker 1 (48:33):
Yeah, money.

Speaker 3 (48:34):
And once they always tell people when God see you
trying and you trying, and you trying. And one thing
in life, anybody that know me, if they like me
or if they don't, the one thing they gonna say
is that girl gonna go try to do something. You
know what I'm saying, Like, you will never not be
able to say that I didn't try to do something

(48:55):
with my life, and God go one day look at
that and be like, let me just get this girl
fifty billion, Like what's wrong? Like this girl don't tried
her whole life. And see what people don't realize is
is you can try something for twenty years and then
at twenty first year it worked. So social media make
these people believe that you're supposed to be a millionaire overnight.

(49:18):
You get what I'm saying, And these people making all
this money. If you got a shopify, I can show
you how to show that you that made you a
million dollars. Is gonna take me fifteen seconds to show you,
and then the people put that on Instagram and get
all these people enthused about it. Oh, I'm coaching you
into showing you how to make seven figures. They didn't
really make that, but then they end up making the

(49:39):
seven figures because they know how to lie to you
and show you numbers. So I always tell people one
thing about me. I'm never showing numbers on social media.
You gonna come to me cause you see me doing
the work because I know people lie about the numbers.
It's just a big lie. And not everybody but some

(50:00):
of the people that show their numbers, they didn't really
have them numbers, but then they got them because they
showed you that they had that number, and then you
started buying their products, and then you started buying into
their courses and their ebooks and all that, and then
they really did make the money. So, like, I've helped
over ten thousand people start their business in Atlanta in
all these different places, right, so I know a lot

(50:22):
of the back end stuff. Like I'm like the glue
that plugged a lot of businesses together. Because I've just
helped so many people, some of the greatest people in Atlanta.
I've helped them with their business. But I don't have
to be the face of it. I don't have to
drop a bunch of names, say oh, I helped this,
this one and that, because that's not how I'm gonna
make my money. You gonna come to me because you
like that girl know something, Let me pay her because

(50:44):
I see her doing the work. And so that's what
I think.

Speaker 1 (50:48):
Na, that's dope. So did you start what is it
called beauty?

Speaker 3 (50:54):
I started called beauty in the hospital.

Speaker 1 (50:57):
What do you mean?

Speaker 3 (50:58):
So in two thousand nineteen, I was pregnant.

Speaker 1 (51:06):
And my dog.

Speaker 3 (51:08):
So I hate dogs, but I don't hate dogs. Let
me let me not say that I don't like animals
in the house. My ex bought an animal and I'm like,
watch this damn dog. I don't know where this dog
gonna go. And he left. I was pregnant. I was
like four and a half months pregnant. The dog, at
like two in the morning started screaming, so I'm scared.

(51:30):
I hear something moving. I think somebody's in the house.
So I run downstairs with the gun and all of that.
I'm like, well, they ain't about to get me in
this room, like, let me go figure out what's going on.
And I fell down and we had these long stairs
at a house that we lived in. I missed a
step because it was in the middle of the night,
and so I tumbled down the steps, landed at the

(51:54):
bottom of the steps, bleeding everywhere. Gotta go to the
emergency room. And when I was then until I got
admitted to the hospital, and so lost the baby. But
then I stopped breathing, so they reviving me. They I'm
hearing the man say, channel, can you hear me? Chanel,
can you hear me? And I'm like, yeah, I.

Speaker 5 (52:15):
Can hear you. I can hear you.

Speaker 3 (52:18):
Nigga like, why can't you hear me? And then I
realized I'm saying this in my brain. I can feel
them like putting like all the little things on me.
He stuck some needles in me, shit burning through my
whole body. But I wasn't alive no more. And so
then I came back and I was like, when I
realized that was happening, I'm like, somebody need to call

(52:40):
my mama. So the first thing that I said when
they got me back was called my mama, because I'm like,
my mama, come in. She ain't come and get me.
She come and figured this thing out. So anyway, I
had lost too much blood and they had left me.
And what's crazy is I wasn't even gonna start coil

(53:01):
because my ex at the time wanted me to do
something he wanted me to do, so I'm like, I'm
gonna just do his business. He left me in the hospital,
said he was gonna take a shower, and he got
on an airplane. I'm in the hospital, admitted in the hospital.

Speaker 6 (53:19):
You hear me.

Speaker 3 (53:20):
He went and got on an airplane. And it's gonna
sound like a bad story, but it was a story
that started. My coy has made seven figures, so it's
a story that has now made me seven figures.

Speaker 1 (53:30):
Right.

Speaker 3 (53:31):
But he left me to go fuck around with some
bitching Ohio. So he was like, I'm gonna take a shower.
I'm coming back. Gone didn't come back. I only stopped
breathing because I was struggling, Like I knew I wasn't
breathing right. So I'm trying to press the bad thing,
but my bad thing wasn't working. So a lady, a nurse,

(53:51):
came into the room. She wasn't even my nurse, but
I had been so nice to that lady. She was
my nurse for like three four days prior to her
coming in a room. She was like, I'm just coming
in a room to laugh with you because I used
to have the whole flow laughing. They like, girl, you
and I see you, and you got all of us
in here cracking up because I'm like, bitch, I'm a

(54:12):
taller joke. We got I'm fucked up in here, but
we gonna laugh. So long story short, the girl came
checked on me, and that's how I'm alive and it's
literally my personality is why I'm alive today. So in
the hospital, I said, you know what, I'm not gonna
do what he wanted me to do. I'm gonna start
the business that I wanted to start. And that's how

(54:32):
I started courting congratulation. Yeah, that's how I started. It
started off rough.

Speaker 1 (54:38):
How you feel about forgiveness?

Speaker 3 (54:40):
Though, you gotta forget everybody immediately?

Speaker 1 (54:44):
Right?

Speaker 2 (54:44):
What type of forget? Because people, what's your definition of forgiveness?

Speaker 3 (54:48):
See, forgiveness has nothing to do with the person that
did something to you. It has everything to do with
what you holding in inside of you. So if you
don't forgive people, then you harbor and hate and angry
and all of that, and that gets in the way
of you being great.

Speaker 1 (55:03):
I agree with that.

Speaker 3 (55:04):
So if I sit here, if you do something to me,
it's not my responsibility to hold you accountable. That's not
my responsibility. My responsibility is is God forgave me for
everything that I did. So guess what I immediately have
to forgive you? Now. I don't got to talk to
you no more. I don't got to let you in
my space anymore. But I don't I don't have a

(55:26):
I have forgiven everybody in my life. But that's part
of my problem because I forgive fast, and sometimes I
don't cut you out of my life fast enough because
I'm such a forgiven person. But yeah, you have to.

Speaker 1 (55:41):
No, that's all about to ask you.

Speaker 2 (55:42):
So do you like what type of like I think
forgiveness is when you'll let them on fucker do the
same thing to you again.

Speaker 3 (55:50):
No, that's not forgiveness that's being done.

Speaker 1 (55:52):
But you just to what they're saying. That's what they saying.
Forget that they get a new shot.

Speaker 3 (55:57):
No, you don't get a new shot and make me
look like a goddamn food.

Speaker 1 (56:00):
That's what I'm saying. So forgiving that I really forgive.

Speaker 3 (56:04):
No, I have forgiven you, but now I'm smarter and
wiser in my decision making with you, So now.

Speaker 1 (56:13):
Forgive me.

Speaker 2 (56:14):
Look at giveness does not mean if I look at
the definition, that's saying something else that I They ain't wrong. Ship.

Speaker 3 (56:25):
Let me tell you something God did not say. If
I come into your life and I throw acid on you,
that you gotta forgive me and let me back in
your dough. And I didn't throw acid on you. You
gotta forgive me because that ship gonna kid it. You're
gonna have to Now you got asked all over you.

(56:46):
You're not about to let me back around you. You're
gonna be a goddamn food like that don't make sense.
Definitions like let me call up people tell them that
ain't what the Lord said.

Speaker 6 (57:05):
No, forgiveness is involved, will wipefully you put it in
a side feelings and resentment for someone who has committed
a wrong, being unfair or hurtful, or otherwise harm you
in some way. Forgiveness is also not merely accepting.

Speaker 3 (57:20):
What happened or ceasing to be angry. So it's making
you just cease from being angry.

Speaker 1 (57:25):
Said, Oh yeah, that's it.

Speaker 3 (57:26):
It's just taking it up out of you. It is
not your responsibility to hold me accountable, that's what that's
God's responsibility. But it's your responsibility to say, you know what,
I gotta get it up out of me. This happened
to me for whatever reason they happened to me. I'm
not gonna let it happen again. No, you fucking stupid,
you're slow.

Speaker 4 (57:47):
No, you can't do that.

Speaker 3 (57:48):
But you don't have to hate that person. You don't
have to go around bashing that person or anything like that.
When people do that, that mean they haven't forgiven. That
mean they're angry. They harboring it inside it them. But
if I'm trying to be as great as I'm trying
to be, I can't harbor all that stuff in me.
So many people that did me so much that I
would just walk around angry all day. And it don't

(58:11):
work because it eats you up, It takes away from you,
It eats you up, and it takes your mind off
of you actually be as amazing as you can be
because you sitting there like, oh, they did me so wrong?
You mad, you mad for what?

Speaker 5 (58:25):
They don't even know?

Speaker 3 (58:26):
You mad though? You mad? You angry, you looking crazy,
and they done moved on with their life. They're gonna
fuck up somebody else's day. They then fucked up yours,
you sitting in it, and now they're gonna mess up
somebody else's. It don't make sense. Let that shit go, baby.
God gonna spend a block, baby, and what he do.
I'm putting my good glasses on.

Speaker 4 (58:53):
My good classes.

Speaker 1 (58:57):
Politics. What you think about what's going on?

Speaker 3 (59:01):
I hate it. It's just a whole bunch of rich
people bossing each other around, stealing a whole bunch of money.
But you gotta do it. You just gotta do it.
You have to know what's going on, right, And a
lot of people they don't like to talk about it,
they don't like to look at it. But you have
to vote. Like, so I tell people like, I'm not

(59:23):
really I'm not a Democrat at all. I know that
for a fact. But I'm not necessarily a Republican neither.
I'm somewhere in the middle me too, like, and I
don't know what you call that, right, And so this
is a real sticky thing and a lot of conversations
I get into with this. People don't like what I say.

(59:45):
But the thing is is Democrats don't help people like me.
They help people that are lazy. So you can get
food stamps your whole life, you can get section at
your whole life. You can sit there and have a
bunch of kids and get free health care. While I'm
paying eleven hundred dollars a month for health care and
then I gotta pay kodpays and all that. Well, I'm

(01:00:05):
trying to figure out a budget at the store. But
you got thirteen hundred dollars in food slams that you
get to sell me like, I just feel like like
I just feel like, where's our leg up? Like the
people that are trying, where's that leg up? And the
rig and the Democrats only give stuff to people that
ain't trying for real. Now, some people do really need help,

(01:00:28):
some people mentally, and all those different things. You don't
take away from that. But I have friends that's been
on section eight in food slams their whole life, and
they won't go get a job because they don't want
to lose those things. And they have a bunch of babies,
different baby daddies. Everybody get Medicaid, everybody got free braces,
and I have to pay two fifty a month for

(01:00:48):
my son brace. As you go, what I'm saying, I
was sixty five hundred. So you know, like I just
don't think they play fair. Like I just don't think
they play fair for us. We end up taking care
of a whole bunch of people, and we work in
our butts off and we barely have what we need.
But then Republicans they just so crooked. It's just like, oh, man,

(01:01:11):
come on, like how Trump is a feeling and then
he's sitting around here running for president like these people,
these people playing in our face. Bro. But somebody, little
John John, who made one mistake at seventeen. He a
convicted fella. He gonna get his CDL license, and everybody
won't give him a job because he a convicted felling.

(01:01:32):
But we can watch a convicted fella with private jets.
So it's okay to be a feeling if you got money,
but it's not okay if you want to get your
life together. I don't think that's right. But I am
for I need that goddamn tax break you're talking about, motherfucker,
So let's go and run with it. You get what
I'm saying. If you ain't in jail for tax evasion,
me me the god damn what kind of shit we

(01:01:52):
get over here? So I like some of that, but
I don't think they placed there. But when you got
money and when you have power, you don't all have
to play fair. So that's why I think I'm somewhere
in between, because it's like, I don't like that component
because I got homeboys that them did on robbery, or
they sold drugs or they did different things, and then
they like, you know what, I got these kids I'm

(01:02:14):
out of jail. They are trying right now. I have
a friend right now, he trying. He can't get a
job to save his life. With the president, this nigga
about to be the president on us. The only difference
is he got more money than him, and he got
more power than him. That's the only difference. Both of

(01:02:35):
them are feelings, so it's like, that's not right. So
I'm somewhere in between. But when it comes to voting,
I vote with I have more people that don't have
nothing to do than do, right, So at the end
of the day, I just go with the Democrats because
I'm just like, they gonna help these people, and they
gonna keep these people from my goddamn house from breaking

(01:02:56):
in because if you stop helping them, they gonna come
try to take my stuff. So let me just go
ahead and go on over there. You get what I'm saying.
And then, but if a Republican win, I don't be
mad about it. I ain't necessarily mad about it, but
I'm not gonna go against eighty percent of the people
that I know either.

Speaker 1 (01:03:17):
Damn.

Speaker 2 (01:03:18):
That's crazy. That's a crazy perspective right there. Nah Nah,
I fuck with that. Yeah, life I fuck with that.

Speaker 3 (01:03:24):
Everybody don't got no money.

Speaker 2 (01:03:25):
So if you need your so you're saying, excuse me clean,
you'll tell you're saying morally, you don't even feel right
going for the she I'm the fuck these folks for
the bad, so I need to but.

Speaker 1 (01:03:36):
Nah, I need folks.

Speaker 3 (01:03:37):
I gotta go with them.

Speaker 1 (01:03:38):
Yeah, nah, I fuck with that.

Speaker 3 (01:03:40):
I got to fuck because it ain't about me, like
and so life isn't about me. So I tell people
God put me on a planet to serve other people.
So that's why I've trained a whole bunch of people.
I've made a lot of money and training. I've did
a lot in the world, but it's because I help
other people. So I can't now all of a sudden
want to be selfish. So if I have to give

(01:04:01):
a little extra money for the majority to be okay,
then that's what I'm here for. And it just is
what it is. It's not personally about what's okay for Chanelle,
what is okay for my cousins and my cousins, cousins
and all those different people. Because Chanelle gonna get up
every day and she gonna go for it. So I
just go with the people. That I know that need

(01:04:22):
it because I actually, even though I want it, I
don't need it. So you go for they need it,
let's go with it.

Speaker 2 (01:04:32):
I beg you his own like manifesting, like talking shit
in existence and thinking like, man, this shit gotta work.

Speaker 1 (01:04:39):
You believe manifestation.

Speaker 3 (01:04:40):
It's the only thing I got. It's a manifest this shit,
this shit gotta work. That ain't God, that's all you got.

Speaker 1 (01:04:48):
You.

Speaker 3 (01:04:49):
I be on a wing and a priy around here
like that's it.

Speaker 5 (01:04:53):
That is it.

Speaker 3 (01:04:53):
But I always believe that if I can believe it
within my soul and what I can really really want it,
I can have it.

Speaker 1 (01:05:01):
So you ain't doing that if you don't feel it,
like if you're good, ain't it it? Ye fussed with?

Speaker 3 (01:05:06):
Oh no, I can't. I'm not gonna give it. I'm
not gonna give it all I got. So in order
for something to be amazing and great, you got to
put for all your effidence. But if I don't believe it,
then I can't give it all my fact, so then
it just absolutely does not work. It doesn't work.

Speaker 1 (01:05:23):
I agree. What type of books you be reading? What's
your favorite book?

Speaker 3 (01:05:27):
I don't read a bunch of books. You know I don't.

Speaker 1 (01:05:31):
You don't have time.

Speaker 3 (01:05:31):
I don't got time, and I need to. My pastor
is reading a book about like building teams and stuff
or whatever, and I said, I was gonna get it, but.

Speaker 2 (01:05:40):
I don't read no book. It is it don't do
never wake up the ship that's already inside of you,
and shit, you know that's.

Speaker 3 (01:05:46):
Not You know why I don't read bookstore because I'm
always in college, so I'm always reading like the books
for that. So by the time I do that and
run three companies, I barely have time to go to sleep,
so to pick up a spare book. I'm reading books.
But it has nothing to do with leisure reading. It
has everything to do with all these degrees. I just

(01:06:08):
told you I got full college degrees. I got one
coming in October, and I already know what I'm doing
in twenty twenty five, so it's not leisure books. But
I have a homeboy. All he does is read books,
and he like, shaw, No, you gotta start reading books.
And I say, when I stopped this college thing that
I got going on, I'm gonna start reading more books.

(01:06:29):
But I don't.

Speaker 2 (01:06:30):
What's your most memorable moment that You're like, you can
go back to that moment and just live it again.

Speaker 1 (01:06:36):
You'll do what's your most memorable.

Speaker 3 (01:06:39):
When I have So, I have a DVD that I
did in two thoy fourteen. So I used to teach lashes.
I used to have a shopping buckhead, but before my shop,
I used to just teach lashes and like hotels or
I let people come to my house. Right. I remember

(01:07:01):
I had stopped working at the strip club. I used
to be a waitress at the strip club. I was like,
I'm not doing this no more or whatever. I had
thirty five hundred dollars to my name. The lady charged
me three thousand dollars to make my DVD and she
gave me one copy one and I had Yeah, it

(01:07:23):
was good, it was nice. I put it on I
put it on a website. It was called Conceited EC.
I told people on social media. I didn't have no copies.
I had nothing but that one copy that the lady
gave me. I literally put it on social media. This
was before social media was all fancy and you need

(01:07:43):
a private jet and you gotta pull up in a race.
It was before all of that. I told them people,
I'm like, look, I'm gonna teach you how to get
you some money. I'm telling you, you get this DVD,
it's gonna change your life. I didn't even know how
I was gonna get them the DVD, had no idea,
but I had told them, fucking people, I'm gonna change

(01:08:03):
your life if you buy this DVD. I woke up
the next day with one hundred and something thousand dollars
in my PayPal get I had a fucking copy for him.
You hear me put that one. But then I had
the money.

Speaker 1 (01:08:22):
You get it.

Speaker 3 (01:08:23):
And at that moment it changed something in me that
was like, you actually can really be something, Like you
can actually be some you can actually make your own money.
Because in life, people used to always say you better
get you a rich husband. So my whole life used
to say, God, just give me a rich husband. God,
just give me a rich husband. That's what I need

(01:08:44):
because that's what people used to say, that's what you
need to be, all right. At that moment, I said, girl,
with these people then lie to you. You can actually
figure this out yourself. And that was the moment that
changed my whole life went up from there, I got
them people, them DVDs and what's so crazy?

Speaker 5 (01:09:06):
Right?

Speaker 3 (01:09:06):
What's so crazy that you asked me that A lady.
I'm gonna tell you what time she texts me because
you ain't gonna even believe this. At ten fifty one am,
the lady said, good morning. I am interested in purchasing
your lash, your World of Lashes one on one and
one O two, as well as your manual. Here's my information.

(01:09:28):
I need one copy of one on one, two copies
of one O two, and one copy of your manual.
I started that ten years ago. Somebody just asked me
for that at ten fifteen DVDs. Ain't even I'm no
more somebody that that shit is coming around? Bro in

(01:09:51):
my phone this morning that lady called me in and said,
I've watched you ever since you've been on social media,
and I only want to learn this from you. I
ain't taught lashes in seven years. She was like, I
only want to learn this from you. I'm gonna send
you what I need.

Speaker 2 (01:10:07):
Do you think that last business got like oversaturated with
like when you was in it. People just don't do
it right. It's just now just about money. It's not
about the quality. And like my customers like I was
say therapist, like we was friends, like you know it.
It was just like having a shop was the place
to be. Like I loved being in the shop.

Speaker 3 (01:10:30):
Now it's like, oh, let me just make some money,
let me turn everybody's eyes red, let me have these
lashes flying off. They to me, it's just totally different.
It's different from when I was in it, and I'm
just grateful that i'm not. I'm not in it as
far as like I have to do services. But I
just opened up an aesthetics school on my birthday May
thirty first, and I teach them how to do lashes,

(01:10:53):
and I teach them how to do everything in aesthetics.
My school is fully accredited with the State of Georgia
to teach esthetics and esthetic instructors and like continue on education.
So I'm still in it, but in the teaching component
to make sure I teach people the right way.

Speaker 2 (01:11:09):
For sure, I beg you as on accountability, like people
just oh myself holding myself accountable.

Speaker 3 (01:11:18):
Now I'm big on it. I wasn't big on it
at first. I would kind of like I would say,
I knew once I realized I did something, I would
just try to be nice to you to let's try
to like figure it out instead of saying I used
to have a problem with saying I'm sorry, like when
I was wrong. I used to have a big problem with, like,

(01:11:41):
you know what, I'm sorry I fucked up. I had
a problem with that. But therapy actually like help me
actually start saying, like, no, girl, you was wrong, you
need to apologize, and that that has been a big
thing for me these last like three years of my life.
When I know I did something, I like, you know what,
I don't think I said the right thing to you.

(01:12:02):
So if you was offended, let me go ahead and apologize,
because once I played it back to myself, it didn't
seem right. So I'm big on that for me now.
Other people ain't nobody holding their self accountable. Everybody just
lying and getting no brand.

Speaker 1 (01:12:21):
You know.

Speaker 3 (01:12:22):
But for me, for the last three years, I would
say I have tried to change that part of myself
and grow a little bit. You know. In life, geminis,
we do a lot, you know, like we think a lot,
we do a lot, and holding myself accountable, I wouldn't
know I was wrong, but I wouldn't say I was sorry.

(01:12:43):
I would just try to fix it in another way. Yeah,
and so, but now I actually tell people that I'm sorry.
I actually was wrong, and I don't care if you
accept my apology. But I'm gonna give it to you.
If I feel like I.

Speaker 1 (01:12:56):
Did geet wrong, I give it to you.

Speaker 2 (01:13:00):
I got the spiked what we do like I would,
I wouldn't let me think about it. You can answer
what I would.

Speaker 1 (01:13:06):
I wouldn't let me think about.

Speaker 2 (01:13:13):
Let me see if you knew the results would be
like Kim Kardashianum, what you do a sex tape?

Speaker 1 (01:13:20):
Right now?

Speaker 3 (01:13:21):
You know how many sex tapes I got in my phone?

Speaker 5 (01:13:33):
You had to shipped them up.

Speaker 2 (01:13:37):
I got some ship in here.

Speaker 3 (01:13:39):
You hear me. The rule about my phone is don't
swipe left or right.

Speaker 5 (01:13:45):
What I'm showing.

Speaker 1 (01:13:45):
I say the same, go through that.

Speaker 3 (01:13:50):
You gonna see something.

Speaker 1 (01:13:54):
The road, so you would, Yeah, talking.

Speaker 3 (01:14:02):
About listen a man. A man posted all my naked
pictures on Twitter, like about fifteen years ago. I wish
I could call somebody on speakerphone right now. I was
talking about it. When I was coming over here. One
of my exes was fucking with somebody. Somebody had got

(01:14:25):
all the videos and stuff for me out because I
told you, my phone is a whole porn store of myself,
not the other people porn. But I used to send
my second husband. I used to send him a bunch
of like naked videos of me dancing to songs. I
do all kind of shit. I'm a Gemini, so whatever.

(01:14:46):
But literally somebody got in his phone and posted all
the shit of me on Twitter and they was like
we were just talking about They was like, did you
feel bad? I said, nigga, I was fine. At fucking
mother I got my body was here. My best friend

(01:15:08):
is a trainer, So my best friend, Blair, we've been
best friends for like seventeen years. And so man, all
the crunches that motherfucker would have me throwing for my body,
I was rock hard, you know what I mean. He
was like, you're crazy. No, I look good. I didn't
want my PoTA Aina all over there internet. What I

(01:15:28):
mean it is time. I got a whole lot of
chail bags after that, I tell you.

Speaker 2 (01:15:35):
That, would you be in a relationship with somebody that
you know, worship and the devil would treat you like
a queen?

Speaker 3 (01:15:53):
Hell no, hell no, what you mean? Wait?

Speaker 2 (01:15:56):
Elaborationships the devil like like some devil you don't believe
in he believing what he believe in the devil.

Speaker 3 (01:16:10):
I'm okay with people not believing in God, like people
have e five, people have all these different things. But
you talk about the devil, I'm I don't want to
be a part of that.

Speaker 1 (01:16:20):
I'm sorry, the straight devil.

Speaker 3 (01:16:24):
I'm gonna have to I'm gonna have to just gather
my things church hand and I just gotta get up
out of there. So I wouldn't, I wouldn't.

Speaker 1 (01:16:37):
Would you vote for?

Speaker 2 (01:16:38):
Oh yeah, you already say you're vote for Kamala Harris,
right because it's Democrat.

Speaker 3 (01:16:43):
Only because it's a Democrat. I think it's a bad
idea that she's about to president. You think, what the
is that? And what has she did? Like, let's keep
it so we gotta go with that, right, Like, tell
me five things she done did? What's four? Mo? I

(01:17:10):
don't care that's good or bad. Tell me five things
that you didn't heard that this woman has ever did.
You can't find anything but some bullshit that people mad
at her about. And my thing is is it is
what it is. I'm going with them just because but
I'm I am praying Michelle come on out there and say,

(01:17:33):
you know what, y'all. I got y'all, because if we're
gonna go with a woman, let's go with Michelle. Because
but Rock's still right there. You get what I'm saying.
So they gonna collaborate on something that might make a
little bit of sense. This lady, her white little husband,
and they about to make a clown out of these Democrats,

(01:17:55):
and they.

Speaker 2 (01:17:55):
Try to run and they put it at the top
of the ticket. It's probably gonna be out. She probably
gonna get it. It's probably gonna be out by the
time they announced it too, I mean after they announce it.

Speaker 1 (01:18:05):
So we gotta speak like I mean, I hope.

Speaker 3 (01:18:09):
She went right. If she gone there, I hope she went.

Speaker 1 (01:18:14):
I just think it's a mistake.

Speaker 3 (01:18:16):
I think it's a big mistake. But I mean Trump
just he he really that's what we're gonna do. We
damn sure can't let him win. So if those are
the two options, we gotta go with that. I picked
the Democrats anyway. I never vote for Republicans anyway, just
because that's what I gotta do. You go what I'm saying.

(01:18:37):
But if I had to pick a side, I think
both of them clowns for real. So it's just two
clowns about to be on the ballot. You just picked
the best one.

Speaker 1 (01:18:48):
Damn.

Speaker 3 (01:18:49):
I think both of them are bad idea. I think
Trump is too vocal to run the world. You go
what I'm saying, like he which is we mean? You
can't be no more for the president?

Speaker 4 (01:19:01):
You see how crazy y'all?

Speaker 3 (01:19:02):
Can't I run all these companies I have, all these people,
make this money, and I cuss like a motherfucker. You're
me and I don't care nothing about it. Don't care
if you feel a certain type of way about it.
Don't get your ship here, and this is your ship.

Speaker 4 (01:19:18):
I don't even here.

Speaker 3 (01:19:20):
If you go the way, I'm gonna tell you to
get your little wine. Get you that time here. I'm
gonna call you what I'm doing.

Speaker 5 (01:19:29):
You get what I'm saying.

Speaker 4 (01:19:30):
You can't help me the president?

Speaker 3 (01:19:33):
Come you No, Damn, Gemini's wanna be no president? Stop playing?
We so crazy? We so crazy. I don't drink, I
don't smoke, I don't pop no pills, I don't do nothing,
and I am crazy. Bro.

Speaker 4 (01:19:51):
I gonna take you.

Speaker 3 (01:19:53):
Up through here if I got to. Yeah, you can't.
I can't be no get on president. You know the
people playing in our face with both of them, God
damn candidates.

Speaker 2 (01:20:04):
What do you think make you crazy? Though you because
I'm not crazy no more. I'm different.

Speaker 3 (01:20:09):
So I'm crazy in a good way, like I'm saying.

Speaker 5 (01:20:11):
But what you think?

Speaker 1 (01:20:12):
What makes you think you can't run the country?

Speaker 3 (01:20:15):
Oh no, let me tell you something. I can run
the hell out of this country. On the business tip,
we're gonna have strippers at the right house, though.

Speaker 5 (01:20:24):
My nigga, I.

Speaker 3 (01:20:31):
Don't have us up time.

Speaker 4 (01:20:34):
You can't act like that, you know what I'm saying.

Speaker 3 (01:20:38):
Because once you get to a certain level in life,
into a certain caliber, you get what I'm saying. You
can't act like that in public. And see, I don't
care what people think about me, and that's a bit
of a problem. So when you are the president, you
have to have tact. You have to care what people think.
You have to say things the right way.

Speaker 5 (01:20:56):
I'm not what you say. Some ship to me.

Speaker 3 (01:20:59):
I'm going in on your motherfucking mad and I'm be like,
bye bye, see you leave us call me. I meant that,
but I'm sorry, And you know, Jim, I don't think
I think Trump is a great businessman. I think he
knows how to play the game of business. I think
he is very smart. I think his intellect is probably

(01:21:25):
on a different level. Right. He's figured out a lot
of great things in life. But I think he doesn't
have the class required. And just because you have money
and just because you're smart, don't mean you have class
and taste. You can't buy that that type of stuff,
and he lacks that. To be the representative of the

(01:21:46):
whole United States, you have to have those pieces in life.
Is he a hell of a businessman? Yes? Do you
know how to play in these people facing one? Yes,
he know how to do a lot of stuff, But
he don't got no class to me, and you can't
do it and be the president. Now her she you know,
she got class, she got all these but she ain't
smart enough. So how you gonna run all these men?

(01:22:10):
And to be honest, and women are going to hate that.
I am about to say what I'm about to say,
But I say what I want and I say what
I feel. I don't think women are supposed to run
the world. I think we're supposed to help, like we're
supposed to be the one Like you you up there,
But I done told you everything, the goddamn saying. I
think the world gonna get too soft if it come

(01:22:32):
to that, and I think these men already soft, Like,
come on, we can't take everything away from the man. Like.
If we get in that position, then what y'all looking
forward to? Like women are gonna be able to do everything,
then we're gonna be equal, And I don't want to
be equal to no goddamn man. Nah, nigga, you take
the hard stuff, let me back you up. I don't

(01:22:53):
want to be the one with the shit all on
my back and you back me. Ah Ah, No, nigga,
you take the hard stuff, gonna help you out. I
just think women, and a lot of women disagree with
me on this. We can do anything men do. We can,
but do you want to or do you need to?
I can do everything that you know how to do, right.
I have a carpentry degree. It's one of my degrees.

(01:23:15):
I have physically built a whole house with my bare hands.

Speaker 4 (01:23:21):
Cool.

Speaker 3 (01:23:22):
I ain't out there building fucking houses every day, though.
Just because I know how to do it, don't mean
that that's what you're supposed to do. You know what
I'm saying? And I just think women sometimes like when
we realize we can be so amazing and so great,
we ran with that to like a different level. So
now we're trying to make more money than men. Now

(01:23:43):
we're trying to run households and now and it's like, damn, well,
where the little man gonna go? Like where the man
gonna fit in that. I still feel like, let's get
these men something and let them have that one little thing.
Let them be the little president. The president ain't the boss,
no way people running president around. So not that little

(01:24:03):
man had a little spot. But Donald Donald about to
play in all our face if he get it. She
gonna play in our face and he gonna play in
our face. So the next four years is a joke.
That's how I see it.

Speaker 1 (01:24:16):
I agree. Would you date a gay dude that that,
you know what I'm saying?

Speaker 3 (01:24:22):
No, no, anybody in there?

Speaker 5 (01:24:32):
Hell no.

Speaker 1 (01:24:33):
Well if he had, just like it was a rumor.

Speaker 3 (01:24:35):
Though, you stick your dick and the boy you up
out of there. You want a boy to stick his
dick up and you you up out of there. Now,
I'm with all the freaky ship. I'm with all the
ship that people want to be. But I ain't with that.
You gotta find another bitch to do it. I don't
care what I gotta lose. I'll go live under the

(01:24:56):
bridge first, Me and my Chanel bags all my ship.
We're going up under the bridge first. They look hat
a hell no, mm hmmm yeah, yeah, yeah, absolutely absolutely,
you're fucking faggot if you want this big dick in

(01:25:19):
your ass.

Speaker 5 (01:25:20):
No dick in my ass. That ship hurt bro so a.

Speaker 3 (01:25:25):
Motherfucker intentionally getting pounds.

Speaker 5 (01:25:29):
This is the only place you can go.

Speaker 4 (01:25:32):
You fucked up, not clazy, you're crazy.

Speaker 3 (01:25:37):
Why is gonna do that ship? Sometimes because little husbands.

Speaker 4 (01:25:40):
Be like, man, come on, baby, like damn, he is
gonna pay the.

Speaker 3 (01:25:45):
Mortgage to morrisaw and let me go ahead.

Speaker 2 (01:25:48):
But shit, a man, would you lad motherfucker, would you
lie to your husband like for your best friend?

Speaker 3 (01:25:59):
Hell yeah, hell yeah, my dog. Let me tell you something.
My best friend friend, Blair, let me tell you something.
She can't give me to do anything, and she only
got to ask me one time. I don't even know

(01:26:19):
why I gotta do it, she called. She said, Chanelle,
you're gonna rob the bank tomorrow. I bitch, Blair said,
She said, said go ask her for the details, motherfucker.

Speaker 1 (01:26:31):
I'm just this is what we do.

Speaker 3 (01:26:34):
That's the one human in the world I'll do anything for.

Speaker 4 (01:26:38):
Ask me I have.

Speaker 3 (01:26:39):
She don't gotta finish her sentence. She can start her sentence.
I'm gonna end it with whatever it is she says.
That is my best friend in the whole whole existence
of the world. That human So that nigga gotta go. Baby,
he got stuck up. He got to go if he
gotta go when it comes to her, No, there's no

(01:27:03):
greater human in the world to me. Besides like my
son and my mama did, my best friend. She's like
the greatest human I've ever met.

Speaker 1 (01:27:14):
That's col what's her signs? What's her her birthday?

Speaker 3 (01:27:17):
January thirteenth? What is it? I'm gonna say, I don't
really keep up with the signs and stuff, but no, Blair,
she's she's a hell of a human being. And we've
been best friends for seventeen eighteen years. So before I
had any money, Like when I moved to Atlanta, I
met her and my son used to be real bad.

Speaker 5 (01:27:37):
Me and her used to be.

Speaker 3 (01:27:38):
Crying in the corner. I ain't had no money to
feed him she ain't had no money. She would be like, Chanelle,
I'm buying food today. You get with what I'm saying,
like we really like she's successful in her business and
I'm successful or whatever. But we really was like super
broke together and we just we never fell out. We
never had an issue. You know how girls like a

(01:27:59):
fall out get Caddy me and Blair has never had
a falling out. We've never did like and it's hard
to say that with women who's been friends almost two decades.
You go what I'm saying like, she's I've never heard
anything crazy that she said, and vice versa. You get
what I'm saying, Like, but when I had nothing, and

(01:28:20):
I mean nothing, when we were scraping under the couch
trying to find a dollar, she would feed my son
because I didn't have it. And she never asks for nothing.
When I I blew up at one point, she never
asks for nothing. She never tell the story. I tell
a story. She'd be like, you wanna tell people that, yes, motherfucker,
cause you the shit like, yes, this is my mother,

(01:28:42):
either know, because we'd be like cause if they don't
see us together all the time, because she's into stuff
that I'm kind of not really into and kind of
vice versa. So we may work out a be together sometimes,
but we talk all the time. So people don't understand
just because you're best friends. You mean, I see each
other all the time, but we talk all the time.
So when she come around, people be Like somebody had
said one day, I don't talk to somebody right now

(01:29:04):
because they said, when Blair come around, you think she
is just she is, and now you can't come around
she is. And then they had said, oh I don't
think I like her because she acts too bougie. Well,
you can't ever come to my house again.

Speaker 1 (01:29:21):
I don't even know you no more, you can't. I
don't even know you.

Speaker 3 (01:29:25):
That person has never been back around. And I called
Blair and I said, what this mom? She said, calm down, Seanae,
because and she's a human that if I go there,
she just gotta tap me on my shoulder and I
know exactly what that means. So she don't let me
look crazy. You go what I'm saying, like, she's just
a real genuine human being and if you meet her,

(01:29:48):
you'll love her like whoever knows her just absolutely loves her.

Speaker 1 (01:29:52):
Nah Blair dog for sure, and.

Speaker 3 (01:29:54):
She can right hook the fuck out of nigga though.
She gonna lay that ass down with the muscles the
whole game.

Speaker 1 (01:30:02):
Now, I appreciate you pulling up. We gotta do this again.

Speaker 3 (01:30:05):
Oh yeah, this was fun. I had a great time.

Speaker 1 (01:30:08):
Did you tell the people what you got going? What
you got going on? Follow you and shit?

Speaker 3 (01:30:13):
So listen, y'all. Okay, So I have an esthetic school
and college park called Cool Beauty Institute. Follow me on Instagram,
Chanelle Knor. I'm a speller for y'all, for the slow
people in the back. It's s h A U n
E l l k E n n A r D.
I have my jewelry line. I don't know if y'all

(01:30:34):
can see. Let me put it in the camera. My sneakers,
my jewelry, I have handbags. I'm just kind of a
girl that's out here getting to the bag. You see
what I'm saying, So follow me. I'm super dope, super cool.
It's a bike.

Speaker 1 (01:30:48):
So you're gonna change the Instagram name to doctor Knark.

Speaker 3 (01:30:51):
Okay, doctor Seanelle Kanardo.

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