April 9, 2025 • 40 mins
We are currently in a powerful period of energetic regeneration, which can bring intense feelings of expansion, beauty, and breakthrough, unlocking a sense of infinite potential. However, these profound moments can quickly feel distant and elusive, leading to disorientation.
This transformative time can feel like the stillness within a storm – a place of deep knowing and presence that can suddenly feel lost. Just as the pain of literal death can lead to profound understanding and transcendence, this energetic "death" can significantly shift our perception and consciousness.
This energy encourages us to understand our lives as an interconnected whole, where past, present, and future exist simultaneously. This period can be a major turning point, where letting go leads to enlightenment and expansion.
Right now, the prevailing energy feels like a strong regenerative force, requiring the shedding of deep-seated aspects of our consciousness. We may revisit old wounds and traumas, fluctuating between higher awareness (5D) and familiar patterns (3D), bringing buried pain to the surface for eventual healing and growth. This process, though it may feel like upheaval, is essential for new beginnings.
This death portal is inherently fertile, a transitional space where profound suffering exists alongside infinite possibility. We are active participants in the quantum field, shaping new realities. It's important to allow space to process any pain, while consciously nurturing this space with love, hope, and positive intentions.
We have the ability to transform this intense energy. Reflect on your relationship with death and any underlying fears it brings to light. Now is the time to directly confront these fears. The current astrological influence of Neptune in Aries indicates a change in how we engage with challenges, emphasizing facing our fears directly and acknowledging them.
Consider the metaphorical endings you've experienced that have led to renewal. Identify what no longer serves you, making room for what is emerging. Find grounding practices that bring you back to your center, such as nature, journaling, therapy, and exercise. Be present in each moment, embracing all aspects of this experience and finding its meaning. Trust this process of regeneration and recognize the immense value and potential this energy holds for the future.
We encourage you to observe any signs, synchronicities, and insights you receive during this time and share your experiences with us at podcast@soulsessions.me.
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Speaker 1 (00:08):
Hi, everyone, It's Amanda Rigor Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions.
Thank you for joining me. I hope all of you
are doing well. There is tremendous regenerative energy that we
are all experiencing, and it's like a mixed blessing. It
has moments and elements of transcendence, ecstasy, bliss, beauty, breakthrough, expansiveness,
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that that feeling of insensation of infinite potential where you
reach out and you grasp something fundamentally innately true within yourself,
and then moments or hours later, it feels utterly distant, elusive,
far away. And this tends to be happening at a
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very rapid pace. It's like a torn name or a
twister of energy and being in the eye of a storm.
It's like sometimes I come into the eye and I'm
still and steady and knowing and present, and that expansive,
higher dimensional consciousness feels innate and true, like everything as
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it's supposed to be. And then it can be like
I said, moments or hours later and it feels fundamentally
lost or just out of reach, and then I can't
remember what I was putting together. I hope this resonates
with you. All, but I want to talk a little
bit about death today, maybe a little bit, maybe a
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lot of it about death today. And as I say
death and laugh, you know, sometimes that's all you can
do in the midst of immense pain, loss and tragedy
because it is so displacing and uncomfortable. In this lifetime,
I've had a lot of encounters with death on a
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multitude of levels, and it's one of those things that
is difficult and painful, and it has also brought me
the greatest transcendence and knowing of the divine. The first
time my mediumship skills came through at a young age
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with a spirit whom I knew. It was my grandmother,
my father's mother. And I was seven years old and
I was feeding the neighbor's cats. They were out of town.
I was in like second grade or third maybe I
was third grade, so I was third grade. I do
know what grade I was in. But it was feeding
their cats. We lived on a river, the Chafuncta River
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on the north shore of New Orleans in Louisiana. They
had this huge bay window and I had just fed
the cats and I was about to go downstairs and
I looked out the bay window, and I'm in third
grade and I looked out and I saw my grandmother.
It was not an apparition. It was like I saw
her energy in the water. It was almost like it
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drew me in. It mesmerized me where I was. I
remember like standing. I'm in third grade and I remember
standing in trance, staring at the water, connecting with her,
and her telling me she had crossed over to the
other side, that she had died, and she had Alzheimer's,
she was ill. She lived in Baton Rouge, a couple
of hours away from us, and nothing in the days
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leading up to that had my parents shared with me
or that known about that she was imminent in her
stages of her disease progression. I didn't. They hadn't talked
about her being taking a downturn or going downhill. She
was in a care facility. But she told me she
died and that she was fine, that she was free,
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and that it was okay. And when I got back
home and I walked in the house, my parents said, hey,
they sit down. We need to talk to you about something.
And I said, oh, grandi ed died, and I mean
I remember, I remember the couch I remember yeah. I
mean I can remember the scene and them looking at
me and I and then both of them went to
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she overheard a conversation, but they didn't, and my mom
had and I had discussions about this later in my
life that they hadn't been talking about it because they
had really just gotten a call that, you know, the
night before, and they hadn't shared anything with me but
that she had taken a turn. But I wasn't even
in the house when all this discussion was going on,
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and I shared it matter of factly, and that has
been a repeat theme for me around death. When I
talk about death, sometimes I can sound very distant, disassociated
and matter of fact. And I just said, oh, Grandy
Ed died. She's okay, she's on the other side, like
it was like, yeah, it's happened, it's fine. And then
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I remember going to the funeral and she had an
open casket. I mean I remember looking into the casket
and seeing her all done up, and she was extremely
prim and proper. My grandmother was the most eloquent woman,
and any of my family listening out there like if
you knew my grandmother, like she was put together and
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next level right, next level prim and proper, but I
remember seeing her in the casket. I remember the emotions
of the funeral and what happens after death, the beginning
to mourn and grieve and process and recognize that someone
is humanly not going to be there. But in that moment,
I remember just saying, Oh, yeah, she's gone. She's on
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the other side, and she's fine. She told me, and
my parents Neither one of them discounted that. I think
they were confused by it and trying to figure out
how I found this stuff out, But we really didn't
revisit it again the discussion, and after that, others spirits
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started coming to me, spirits that I was not familiar with,
And in that house I used to put all these
stuffed animals around me in the bed because all these
spirits would come in at night, and also quite frankly,
extra dimensional beings. And that's another story for another episode,
and also a pretty miraculous story with a child I
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got to work with years later who was having the
same visitations in her room, but spirits were coming through
extra dimensionals and the volume just turned up. And learning
to navigate that and not not being able to communicate
it or have the language to or the understanding, and
then also thinking maybe it was just normal. Everybody had
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this imaginary friends or you know, not so imaginary and
spirits visiting them. But it started to come through just
more rapidly. And I think that first encounter, as far
as seeing beyond the veil the others, I'd connecting innately
with a spirit that I was very close to loss death.
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It was that glimpse of oh, she's over there and
she's okay, She's totally fine. It's her energy, She's okay,
And that set the wheels in motion. Whether I knew
it or not. For this ability to trust the process
of death, whatever that may look like, it doesn't mean
that I like it or enjoy it or I am
asking for it to show up. But I have encountered
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death in so many junctures in my life. Of course,
I lost my other two grandparents at a later stage
after that, but most impacting for me was the loss
of my father at age eighteen, and he died in
our home the Sunday morning after Easter. It was very sudden,
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it was acute, it was traumatic, and it was an
event that forever changed my life, course of my life.
It impacted me on a consciousness level and on a
spiritual level that I wouldn't puzzle piece together for many
years to come. But essentially what happened is he had
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a pulmonary embolism and congestive heart failure. We don't know exactly,
but it was some kind of combination of the two.
And I remember hearing my parents downstairs. I was in
high school. It was my senior year, and it was
about five fifteen am on a Sunday morning, and I
could hear them downstairs wrestling around and my mom trying
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to help my dad and asking what was going on.
And I remember distinctly hearing it all, and right when
I woke up, I said, and there, And my dad
had not been sick leading up into this. He had
been getting tired, he had just had a physical, he
changed insurance. There was stuff going on, but he had
not had any acute instances or issues going on prior
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to this. But I remember waking up in my bed
and I'm curled up upstairs, and I heard all the
commotion and I literally woke up heard it and I said,
like in my body, it was like, oh my gosh,
my dad is dying. And I remember pulling the covers
over my head and saying, if you go back to sleep,
this isn't real. If you go back to sleep, this
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isn't real. Like I knew, I knew something bad was happening.
I knew there was no turning back, and whatever it
was was tragic and fatal. But I kept thinking, if
I pull the covers over my head and go to
sleep and pretend and shut this out and pretend it's
not happening, it's not going to happen, although I knew
fundamentally that wasn't the case. And you know, about ten
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seconds later, my mom is like, Amanda, come downstairs. You
know your dad is very sick, and you know, throw
some jeans on in a sweatshirt, come downstairs. And I did,
and and you know, commotion ensued after that that it
was chaos and my dad, essentially it was a pretty
traumatic death. He just filled with fluid and essentially drowned
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in that fluid and couldn't speak. And the coroner I
lived in Baton Rouge, Louisiana at the time, in the
corner of Baton Rouge, lived next door to us, and
he was over there working on my dad before the
paramedics got there, and you know, the paramedics arrived late.
It was just a comedy of errors, to put it mildly.
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But what happened that was most impacting in that experience,
apart from the just sheer trauma of it all, was
I remember standing in my parents' doorway. The paramedics are there,
doctor Cataldi. His name was Lewis Cataldi. My dad's name
was Lewis as well. Doctor Cataldi was working on my dad.
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My mom is standing there and they're trying to suscitate him,
and I'm standing in between the doorway and I had
one foot on their carpet. There was carpet in my parents' bedroom,
and then there was a wood floor in the four
year hallway, and I had one foot on the carpet,
one foot on the wood floor because I'm standing in
the doorframe. And I didn't know what was happening, but
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I knew that I wasn't in my body, like I
was in a dissociated state at the time, and up
until then, of course, I didn't have the language to
say I was in a dissociated state. I didn't know
what that was, but I was not in my body yet,
I was cognizant simultaneously, and it was like my spirit
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floated up to the top of the room, and I
distinctly remember watching what was going on, the disorder and
chaos and drama of what was happening in the room,
and then noticing that my spirit had disassociated and was
having some conversation, you know, up in the ethers on
the ceiling with another being. But it was like I
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couldn't hear the words. I just knew two things were
happening at once, and literally they're working on my dad,
and all of a sudden, I look over and I
say to the paramedics, he does not want to be intubated.
And I've shared this before publicly, but the room got silent,
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and my mom is standing there frozen because she's panicked
and afraid and everything. And my mom like snapped, you know,
into awareness, and she said, she's right, he does not
want to be innovated. He does not like he just
do not innovate him. And then one of them said,
how the heck does this teenager know about intubation? And
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then my mom just really quickly snapped off her father's
a pharmacist, I'm a nurse. She comes from a medical family.
You know, and I mean that was true. But at eighteen,
it just came to me and I realized in the
you know, I realized years later because it all flooded
back in. It's like putting these puzzle pieces together. And
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this very much relates to the energy we are experiencing now.
It's like time is simultaneous. The past, the future, and
the now are all relevant, and it's like puzzle pieces
are coming together. And this was like, years later, as
the clarification of my psychic abilities came through, it all
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was fundamentally clear of what happened. I connected with my dad.
He was communicating and in that moment, the other thing
that was happening was it was like he got a
hold of me and he said, life is about to
get harder than you can imagine, and it is going
to be tragic and painful for the years ahead. And
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you are going to six seed and achieve, and you
are going to fall flat on your face and make
grave mistakes. Do it all like, do it all? It
all has meaning. The beauty and the success and the
fulfillment and the adventures, as well as your mistakes and
your challenges and your darkness and your ugliness. All of
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it has meaning and is leading you somewhere, and I
find that to be true. I know it to be
true in my experience that what's interesting is my dad dies.
It was very traumatic after that for my mom and
I and my family, and a lot of things happened
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that really significantly impacted who I am in my life
in that time. But a couple of things are quite interesting.
A couple of things are quite interesting. One that dramatic
event was one of the significant turning points in my
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psychic abilities because all of that trauma, the death, the
acuteness of that death, it disassociated me. It taught me
how to step aside, to become the observer, to channel.
I mean, it's really what led into me being able
to channel like I do and drop into altered states
of consciousness. It has a dark side too, where I
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can dissociate and not pay attention and not be in
my body, which I'm very aware of that today. But
also what was interesting is I didn't know how to grieve.
I didn't therapy and those sorts. They was nineteen ninety
nine totally different than what we have access to today.
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And as far as the awareness around healing and grief
and therapy and the mainstream, so to speak, and the
availability of it, but it just it was kind of
pushed to the side. Keep moving, keep going, keep going forward.
And I had a refriend reflect back to me in
my mid twenties, I think I was about twenty six,
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and she said to me, we had reconnected after college,
and she said to me, because something came out about
my dad being dead and losing my dad and when
it had happened, And she said, Amanda, I knew you
all throughout college, and I had no idea your dad died.
And looking back, you know, at that moment, I realized
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I pushed through, I shut out, and I mean close
friends of mine knew that my father had died. It
wasn't like I hid that, but a lot of people
in my public persona had no idea my story, my journey,
the pain, and just before my dad died, my mom
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had almost died the year before with breast cancer. So
eleventh grade and twelfth grade basically they were pretty crappy,
you know. And I didn't know they were pretty crappy
until looking back and realizing how much was going on
in my life at that time and how impactful it was.
But her saying to me, I had no idea that
you had lost your dad just before you came to school,
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and I didn't know this. And it just shows me
these parts of myself that reacted to trauma, that repressed
paying grief and trauma and the impact it had on
me and also the people around me and what I
put out in the world. And you know, looking back,
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what a gift that trauma was and what a tragedy
it was. And then years later into my late twenties,
I ended up working in hospice, And in hospice, of course,
I was dealing with death on a daily basis and
with interdisciplinary teams who were able to do remarkable healing
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and support work in the death, dying grief process with
patients families and getting to walk alongside of those skilled
individuals and heart centered individuals and a multitude of capacities.
But I will never forget when I started in hospice,
my first job was helping to sign consent paperwork documentation
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for patients coming on to hospice, and I had shadowed
a cohort of mine, my friend Joe, and Joe was
just great at what he did, and I remember getting
to go with him. And while you know the consent process,
there's legal documentation and paperwork and people are dealing with
a loved one and making the decision to sign someone
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onto hospice. It's a lot. It's a lot to talk
someone through the documentation, the actual process, and then you're
dealing with death, dying someone dying, the family members and
then the layers of that coming through. And so I
remember the very first time it was like, I think
you can do this on your own. It was a
really busy Friday, and they said, okay, Amanda, like we're
throwing you in the water. We need you. And we
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had a pediatric hospice, the hospice that I worked with,
and we had a pretty high census of one of
the largest pediatric censuses for hospice in the country actually,
and we had an amazing pediatric team and they needed me.
It was a Friday afternoon and they needed me at
one of the Texas Medical Center hospitals in Houston. And
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they didn't really They gave me some particulars about what
was going on, but nothing could prepare me for what
I was about to encounter. And you know, I was
ready to go. I had all my paperwork. I was
nervous just because I'm like, what if I tell them
the wrong thing or I don't know the answers to
the questions. And I walked into this crowded hospital room,
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I mean like overly crowded, so many family members, and
I introduced myself and there was a seventeen year old
in the bed, really in a comatose state. And his
name was Cedric, and his mom was standing right there.
And when I walked in, I introduced myself and she
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just hugged me. And I didn't know what to say, right,
it was very overwhelming, it was shocking, and I just said,
just tell me a little bit about Cedric, and she
began to tell me what an amazing child and son
he had been. She goes, he's such a good boy.
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He's a good son. She said, he was amazing at sports,
he always showed up, he never was in trouble. He's
been such a good son. And he had stage four
pancreatic cancer, which if many of you have dealt with
pancreatic cancer, usually it's the terminal diagnosis and it happens
the disease progression is fast. But I mean, he was
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seventeen years old, this kid and handsome, and she just said,
we don't know why, but he's been so good, it
doesn't make sense why God is taking him. And I
remember sitting down with them and with that whole family
around me, and walking through the paperwork and talking about
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hospice and we were going to move him to our
impatient unit because his condition was pretty acute and symptoms
needed to be managed, and it was the best decision
for to get him out of that hospital setting and
it's somewhere where the family could be comfortable and just
spend time with him. And I distinctly remember, as we're
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doing the paperwork and I'm signing it, like his energy
just standing with me, and at that point in time,
spirits and ghosts, and like they had been silent for
a while or I had shut them out, and like
he had given me words to share things with her,
and I didn't share them with her from oh, I'm
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a medium, I can share gifts nowhere near any of
that ability or cognition or awareness. But I remember he
was not in his body. I remember seeing him and
who he was, and then having his spirit there, which
was powerful, and I could feel it in the room
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and He gave me the language and the words to
comfort them and give them the information they needed to
make that transition as smooth as possible, as smooth it
could as it could be under those horrible circumstances. And
I remember leaving that day and you know, as I
got in the elevator and then went to my carage sobbed,
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you know, and I sobbed, and it was like this
these tears of what sadness, grief and loss feels like,
and also what the infinite feels like. That I could
feel his spirit and he kept saying, there's a story.
Worry through this. They don't know what they don't know yet.
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I'm not supposed to be here anymore. Yes, this is
painful and this is horrible, but it's it's for them.
There's a reason for this. They need have lessons to learn.
And it was just it was like a knowing. It
wasn't like I had a notebook of information he was
giving me, but it was a knowing. And then after that,
I mean I worked in hospice for God a lot
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of years and worked with a lot of death and
dying on you know, getting to walk alongside it in
multiple journeys and see it and be at the bedside
with patients dying, or with families and in differing circumstances.
And you know, towards the end, when my gifts were
coming through more clearly, messages would come through and I
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would begin to deliver them. And that's when it became
confusing for me as to my role professionally and in
healthcare and what I did. And so my role from
an avocation standpoint, from a spiritual standpoint, but me being
in hospice gave me the opportunity to recognize that I
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had not grieved and at my father's death at nineteen,
and I think a lot of us can relate to
repressed or suppressed grief. And the reason I am highlighting
these experiences now and death it's twofold one. The volume
right now in the energy field is very turned up.
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It's loud. It's like multiple radio stations are playing at
one time. The energy is feeling very transitional. So there's
a sensitivity and a vulnerability and an exposure energetically where
we can be interpreting that in a multitude of ways. Fear, pain, suffering,
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wanting to give up, moments of breakthrough, ecstasy, joy, as
I mentioned and earlier that is happening, but it also
feels like a big death. There is literal death happening,
And in fact, I was on the phone with someone
this morning who is making the compassionate decision most likely
to have a pet crossover, and having those conversations and
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seeing the energy and the energy the messages that come
through from spirits. The human me doesn't sometimes like to
deliver what comes through, but I can also feel it,
and I know that through the death experience there's enlightenment.
There is incredible expansion. And having lost my mom two
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years ago in a very different way than I lost
my father, it was kind of like more of a
long game and us talking about death and grieving while
she was still alive. But in the days leading up
to her death, In and around her death, there was
a portal of energy that was opened, and I moved
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my office down to my mom's room a while ago.
I think some of you probably remember that because the
energy in this room there's like a portal or a vortex,
and I can feel it. One of the things I
know from my experience around death is where death occurs,
there's an imprint, there's a portal and whether it is acute, traumatic, painful,
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destructive death. We all know what it's like to walk
along the grounds of old battle fields, burial grounds, graveyards,
even just different areas where death is prevalent or has
been prevalent at some point in time. But if you
have intimately experienced death with someone been by their side
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as they have crossed over, even if it is a pet,
because that's pretty powerful too. Enough of that which I
just celebrated sadly and beautifully a year of my dog
texts his crossing over, which you know, a year I
miss him tremendously, but it was also beautiful. It was
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painful and beautiful. And my mom's death was the same.
It was painful and beautiful. And there's something that happens
when we walk between those worlds where we are so
viscerally feeling suffering, pain, loss, that it is just organic.
It's primitive and at the same time where it brushed
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up against the divine, the other worldly. Right now, the
energy feels like the death portal. Right now, the energy
feels like the death portal. There's regeneration happening, and yet
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at the same time, something profound is shifting and dying.
Our consciousness is shifting into new levels. And often times
as we shift into another level of reality, a new
level of awareness, growth, evolution, personal development. You can look
at it from a multitude of angles. A lot of
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times we revisit where we were, We revisit pain and trauma.
And I've said this before, and a good reference for
this is my podcast on five D Consciousness and shifting
into five D Consciousness, because it defines different levels of
consciousness and gives you some tools and resources the podcast,
and there's a blog that goes along with it. But
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it feels like right now we are in five D
and keep shifting back into three D, and that three
D shift, it's like we're revisiting lower frequencies, old stories,
old pain, really deeply buried, whether it is on our
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conscious pass in this lifetime or lifetimes, or in our
cellular memory and DNA. It feels like all of it.
By the way, lots of old stuff in my life
has been coming back up in my conscious awareness and
through precognitive energies where I'm puzzle piecing into the past.
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There's a lot of past life energy and symbolism and
visions coming through for me. And then there is ancient
past in humanity coming through, and it's like it's all
flooding in and it feels like there is wreckage and
pain being closed and consolidated in order for something new
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to be born. Yet there's something happening simultaneously. And I
hope as I'm sharing this, I don't sound too esotear
and I'm losing you because I've shared with all of
you what's happening right now. It's like the language hasn't
quite formed yet to explain what we're going through. We're
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in the middle of a vast paradigm shift. So whatever
you're experiencing now, I encourage you. I'm laughing at what
I'm about to say. I encourage you to think about death.
And if you are literally right now walking through a
death experience of someone you love, or you're taking care
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of someone who is terminally ill, you've recently experienced a
death or not even recently, and it's coming up, sit
with all of your feelings and not just your feelings
of pain, suffering and sorrow, but where do you see
the divine through whatever you're walking through? And if literal
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death isn't showing up for you right now and hopefully
it's not showing up for a lot of us. But
if literal death isn't showing up, what within you is
being buried, is dying, has no business coming with you
into the future. What in you is fundamentally changing in
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order to regenerate something new? And can you sit in
the discomfort And I don't mean consternate or get stuck
in the discomfort, but when the waves of suffering, pain, disillusionment,
disorientation flood through your body, embrace them, breathe into them,
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and honor that flushing of energy that literally is changing you.
Because that energy right there, the energy that we're in,
is very fertile. And that's what I found in let's
call it the death portal, the literal death portal. Is
it is so fertile because it's it's like walking between
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the worlds. The most visceral, suffering, primal experience alongside of
the infinite. It is this, it's the quantum field. And
I feel like right now, for me especially, and I
have a lot of people have recounted this to me,
it's like we're in the quantum field. We're writing new timelines,
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new stories, and making space to process the pain and
the fear and the suffering and acknowledge it, but seeding
it with more love, more hope, more faith, pure positive potential.
And this morning, quite literally early this morning, I got
in the car after my pilates class and I was
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just feeling this flood of discomfort and disorientation and I
noticed it. So I just sat down before driving out
of my parking space, and I sat in the car
and I just said, bring it on, bring it on,
and I inhaled and exhaled for a handful of breaths,
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and as I started to do that, it was like
the sides of my mouth turned up. After two or
three breath cycles, the anxiety and the flush of disorientation
and kind of panic flushed through and a smile. Like
energetically it turned into a smile. I mean literally it did,
and energetically it did, and it was like, okay, one
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wave down, three thousand ago. But I just kind of laughed,
because we have the ability to alchemize and transmute this energy.
Now how are you doing that? And I'm going to
ask a question as I wrap up here, because I
think there's two camps and maybe the answer can be
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yes to both or note of both. I think you know,
anything goes. Do you fear death or do you fear
living forever? And of course I'm in the camp of
if there's a fear, I don't fear death. I'm like,
if that is the case, I know it is a
transition from one space to another and that is not
something I've ever feared or fundamentally feared. But what do
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I fear infinity living forever? If there is a fear
between one and the fear, do you fear dying and
it all being over? Or do you fear living forever?
And the fear of mine would be like infinity because
it's so vast. That's my question for you. You know, is
it that you're afraid of death? Or is it that
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you're afraid of forever? And that's that's kind of the question,
like from the soul, my soul lately that's been coming
through what is it that I'm afraid of? And it's
being able to blot out fear, face my fears head on.
And I think with Neptune in arees, it's been quite curious.
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The energy is different, it's very different, the signature is different.
The rules of engagement are getting to change and I'll
talk more about that later in some practical tools and
insights around this, but I will tell you that with
Neptune and ares, it's not about being fearless. It's about
facing your fears square in the eye, head on, head
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to head, looking at those fears, claiming them, naming them
in order to transmute, and that that's this regeneration process
we're in. I encourage everyone to sit down in journal
anytime you want, but in the next handful of days,
sit down in journal and journal around death and what
comes up for you, whether it's memories and experiences around death,
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what you're walking through now, or phases in your life
where parts and aspects of you have died in other
in order for other parts of you to be born,
or if that regioneration is happening for you now. Because
the more that you clarify what is no longer serving you,
what is changing fundamentally within you in order to make
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space for what is coming through, the more centered you
will be and feel. Someone reminded me this weekend about
centering prayer. We were talking about God and the divine
and we had all these insane synchronicities. Just some peripheral
friends that we connected with, and I really enjoyed myself
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and this woman. We were just talking about our spiritual
lives and she said, yeah, we do centering prayer at
our church, and I've participated in centering prayer before, but
really meditation and connecting and connecting with the divine and
with yourself. Finding ways to center within yourself right now,
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whether it be through nature and grounding, journaling, meditation, your therapy,
your community, support, your exercise, make your life a centering
prayer right now, because the energy is enriching and it
has tremendous value for the years ahead, especially with the
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turbulence we're experiencing on a multitude of levels with the Earth,
with economics right now and geopolitics, the dissension is polarizing
in this year twenty twenty five, I truly believe is
going to become more volatile and drastic. And for me,
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it's keeping my own center, my own point of attraction.
So I am safe and divinely directed no matter where
I am. And I hope that and believe that for
all of you. So whatever practice is right now that
you are finding clarity and solace in, keep practicing those
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but think about what is dying within you or literally
around you if that is the case, and I have
a lot of tenderness and prayers coming out to if
you are walking through death right now, because it's just
not easy at any time. But what I do know
about death in my experience and for many people I've
shared with, is through it, there's transcendence, there's something other,
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there's something greater that can come through it, and we're
in it right now. So in order for something greater,
be in the now, be in all of it, make
all of it meaningful, and trust trust this regeneration, even
when it feels unstable and unsteady and hard to find
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your way, trust come back to your sinner. Okay, everybody,
here's to death. Here's to a beautiful week ahead for everyone.
And give me some feedback. Let me know what's going
on in your life and any insights or things that
are happening for you. I know a lot of people
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have a lot of rich dreams happening right now. I've
been experiencing that, and there's a lot of immediacy in
my dreams, a lot of volatility that I'm seeing and
other people are as well. There's a lot of prevalence
in that. So let me know how messages, signed, synchronicities
downloads are coming through for you, because, like I said,
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the volume is turned up and being able to synthesize,
interpret and utilize that in a healthy way can be
quite confusing. So reach out, let me know and we will.
We'll share some of the feedback and insight that might
seem relevant to everyone. Be well, everybody, Thank you so
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Hi, everyone, It's Amanda Rigor Green. Welcome to Soul Sessions.
Thank you for joining me. I hope all of you
are doing well. There is tremendous regenerative energy that we
are all experiencing, and it's like a mixed blessing. It
has moments and elements of transcendence, ecstasy, bliss, beauty, breakthrough, expansiveness,
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that that feeling of insensation of infinite potential where you
reach out and you grasp something fundamentally innately true within yourself,
and then moments or hours later, it feels utterly distant, elusive,
far away. And this tends to be happening at a
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very rapid pace. It's like a torn name or a
twister of energy and being in the eye of a storm.
It's like sometimes I come into the eye and I'm
still and steady and knowing and present, and that expansive,
higher dimensional consciousness feels innate and true, like everything as
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it's supposed to be. And then it can be like
I said, moments or hours later and it feels fundamentally
lost or just out of reach, and then I can't
remember what I was putting together. I hope this resonates
with you. All, but I want to talk a little
bit about death today, maybe a little bit, maybe a
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lot of it about death today. And as I say
death and laugh, you know, sometimes that's all you can
do in the midst of immense pain, loss and tragedy
because it is so displacing and uncomfortable. In this lifetime,
I've had a lot of encounters with death on a
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multitude of levels, and it's one of those things that
is difficult and painful, and it has also brought me
the greatest transcendence and knowing of the divine. The first
time my mediumship skills came through at a young age
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with a spirit whom I knew. It was my grandmother,
my father's mother. And I was seven years old and
I was feeding the neighbor's cats. They were out of town.
I was in like second grade or third maybe I
was third grade, so I was third grade. I do
know what grade I was in. But it was feeding
their cats. We lived on a river, the Chafuncta River
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on the north shore of New Orleans in Louisiana. They
had this huge bay window and I had just fed
the cats and I was about to go downstairs and
I looked out the bay window, and I'm in third
grade and I looked out and I saw my grandmother.
It was not an apparition. It was like I saw
her energy in the water. It was almost like it
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drew me in. It mesmerized me where I was. I
remember like standing. I'm in third grade and I remember
standing in trance, staring at the water, connecting with her,
and her telling me she had crossed over to the
other side, that she had died, and she had Alzheimer's,
she was ill. She lived in Baton Rouge, a couple
of hours away from us, and nothing in the days
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leading up to that had my parents shared with me
or that known about that she was imminent in her
stages of her disease progression. I didn't. They hadn't talked
about her being taking a downturn or going downhill. She
was in a care facility. But she told me she
died and that she was fine, that she was free,
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and that it was okay. And when I got back
home and I walked in the house, my parents said, hey,
they sit down. We need to talk to you about something.
And I said, oh, grandi ed died, and I mean
I remember, I remember the couch I remember yeah. I
mean I can remember the scene and them looking at
me and I and then both of them went to
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she overheard a conversation, but they didn't, and my mom
had and I had discussions about this later in my
life that they hadn't been talking about it because they
had really just gotten a call that, you know, the
night before, and they hadn't shared anything with me but
that she had taken a turn. But I wasn't even
in the house when all this discussion was going on,
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and I shared it matter of factly, and that has
been a repeat theme for me around death. When I
talk about death, sometimes I can sound very distant, disassociated
and matter of fact. And I just said, oh, Grandy
Ed died. She's okay, she's on the other side, like
it was like, yeah, it's happened, it's fine. And then
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I remember going to the funeral and she had an
open casket. I mean I remember looking into the casket
and seeing her all done up, and she was extremely
prim and proper. My grandmother was the most eloquent woman,
and any of my family listening out there like if
you knew my grandmother, like she was put together and
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next level right, next level prim and proper, but I
remember seeing her in the casket. I remember the emotions
of the funeral and what happens after death, the beginning
to mourn and grieve and process and recognize that someone
is humanly not going to be there. But in that moment,
I remember just saying, Oh, yeah, she's gone. She's on
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the other side, and she's fine. She told me, and
my parents Neither one of them discounted that. I think
they were confused by it and trying to figure out
how I found this stuff out, But we really didn't
revisit it again the discussion, and after that, others spirits
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started coming to me, spirits that I was not familiar with,
And in that house I used to put all these
stuffed animals around me in the bed because all these
spirits would come in at night, and also quite frankly,
extra dimensional beings. And that's another story for another episode,
and also a pretty miraculous story with a child I
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got to work with years later who was having the
same visitations in her room, but spirits were coming through
extra dimensionals and the volume just turned up. And learning
to navigate that and not not being able to communicate
it or have the language to or the understanding, and
then also thinking maybe it was just normal. Everybody had
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this imaginary friends or you know, not so imaginary and
spirits visiting them. But it started to come through just
more rapidly. And I think that first encounter, as far
as seeing beyond the veil the others, I'd connecting innately
with a spirit that I was very close to loss death.
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It was that glimpse of oh, she's over there and
she's okay, She's totally fine. It's her energy, She's okay,
And that set the wheels in motion. Whether I knew
it or not. For this ability to trust the process
of death, whatever that may look like, it doesn't mean
that I like it or enjoy it or I am
asking for it to show up. But I have encountered
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death in so many junctures in my life. Of course,
I lost my other two grandparents at a later stage
after that, but most impacting for me was the loss
of my father at age eighteen, and he died in
our home the Sunday morning after Easter. It was very sudden,
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it was acute, it was traumatic, and it was an
event that forever changed my life, course of my life.
It impacted me on a consciousness level and on a
spiritual level that I wouldn't puzzle piece together for many
years to come. But essentially what happened is he had
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a pulmonary embolism and congestive heart failure. We don't know exactly,
but it was some kind of combination of the two.
And I remember hearing my parents downstairs. I was in
high school. It was my senior year, and it was
about five fifteen am on a Sunday morning, and I
could hear them downstairs wrestling around and my mom trying
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to help my dad and asking what was going on.
And I remember distinctly hearing it all, and right when
I woke up, I said, and there, And my dad
had not been sick leading up into this. He had
been getting tired, he had just had a physical, he
changed insurance. There was stuff going on, but he had
not had any acute instances or issues going on prior
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to this. But I remember waking up in my bed
and I'm curled up upstairs, and I heard all the
commotion and I literally woke up heard it and I said,
like in my body, it was like, oh my gosh,
my dad is dying. And I remember pulling the covers
over my head and saying, if you go back to sleep,
this isn't real. If you go back to sleep, this
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isn't real. Like I knew, I knew something bad was happening.
I knew there was no turning back, and whatever it
was was tragic and fatal. But I kept thinking, if
I pull the covers over my head and go to
sleep and pretend and shut this out and pretend it's
not happening, it's not going to happen, although I knew
fundamentally that wasn't the case. And you know, about ten
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seconds later, my mom is like, Amanda, come downstairs. You
know your dad is very sick, and you know, throw
some jeans on in a sweatshirt, come downstairs. And I did,
and and you know, commotion ensued after that that it
was chaos and my dad, essentially it was a pretty
traumatic death. He just filled with fluid and essentially drowned
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in that fluid and couldn't speak. And the coroner I
lived in Baton Rouge, Louisiana at the time, in the
corner of Baton Rouge, lived next door to us, and
he was over there working on my dad before the
paramedics got there, and you know, the paramedics arrived late.
It was just a comedy of errors, to put it mildly.
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But what happened that was most impacting in that experience,
apart from the just sheer trauma of it all, was
I remember standing in my parents' doorway. The paramedics are there,
doctor Cataldi. His name was Lewis Cataldi. My dad's name
was Lewis as well. Doctor Cataldi was working on my dad.
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My mom is standing there and they're trying to suscitate him,
and I'm standing in between the doorway and I had
one foot on their carpet. There was carpet in my parents' bedroom,
and then there was a wood floor in the four
year hallway, and I had one foot on the carpet,
one foot on the wood floor because I'm standing in
the doorframe. And I didn't know what was happening, but
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I knew that I wasn't in my body, like I
was in a dissociated state at the time, and up
until then, of course, I didn't have the language to
say I was in a dissociated state. I didn't know
what that was, but I was not in my body yet,
I was cognizant simultaneously, and it was like my spirit
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floated up to the top of the room, and I
distinctly remember watching what was going on, the disorder and
chaos and drama of what was happening in the room,
and then noticing that my spirit had disassociated and was
having some conversation, you know, up in the ethers on
the ceiling with another being. But it was like I
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couldn't hear the words. I just knew two things were
happening at once, and literally they're working on my dad,
and all of a sudden, I look over and I
say to the paramedics, he does not want to be intubated.
And I've shared this before publicly, but the room got silent,
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and my mom is standing there frozen because she's panicked
and afraid and everything. And my mom like snapped, you know,
into awareness, and she said, she's right, he does not
want to be innovated. He does not like he just
do not innovate him. And then one of them said,
how the heck does this teenager know about intubation? And
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then my mom just really quickly snapped off her father's
a pharmacist, I'm a nurse. She comes from a medical family.
You know, and I mean that was true. But at eighteen,
it just came to me and I realized in the
you know, I realized years later because it all flooded
back in. It's like putting these puzzle pieces together. And
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this very much relates to the energy we are experiencing now.
It's like time is simultaneous. The past, the future, and
the now are all relevant, and it's like puzzle pieces
are coming together. And this was like, years later, as
the clarification of my psychic abilities came through, it all
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was fundamentally clear of what happened. I connected with my dad.
He was communicating and in that moment, the other thing
that was happening was it was like he got a
hold of me and he said, life is about to
get harder than you can imagine, and it is going
to be tragic and painful for the years ahead. And
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you are going to six seed and achieve, and you
are going to fall flat on your face and make
grave mistakes. Do it all like, do it all? It
all has meaning. The beauty and the success and the
fulfillment and the adventures, as well as your mistakes and
your challenges and your darkness and your ugliness. All of
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it has meaning and is leading you somewhere, and I
find that to be true. I know it to be
true in my experience that what's interesting is my dad dies.
It was very traumatic after that for my mom and
I and my family, and a lot of things happened
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that really significantly impacted who I am in my life
in that time. But a couple of things are quite interesting.
A couple of things are quite interesting. One that dramatic
event was one of the significant turning points in my
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psychic abilities because all of that trauma, the death, the
acuteness of that death, it disassociated me. It taught me
how to step aside, to become the observer, to channel.
I mean, it's really what led into me being able
to channel like I do and drop into altered states
of consciousness. It has a dark side too, where I
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can dissociate and not pay attention and not be in
my body, which I'm very aware of that today. But
also what was interesting is I didn't know how to grieve.
I didn't therapy and those sorts. They was nineteen ninety
nine totally different than what we have access to today.
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And as far as the awareness around healing and grief
and therapy and the mainstream, so to speak, and the
availability of it, but it just it was kind of
pushed to the side. Keep moving, keep going, keep going forward.
And I had a refriend reflect back to me in
my mid twenties, I think I was about twenty six,
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and she said to me, we had reconnected after college,
and she said to me, because something came out about
my dad being dead and losing my dad and when
it had happened, And she said, Amanda, I knew you
all throughout college, and I had no idea your dad died.
And looking back, you know, at that moment, I realized
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I pushed through, I shut out, and I mean close
friends of mine knew that my father had died. It
wasn't like I hid that, but a lot of people
in my public persona had no idea my story, my journey,
the pain, and just before my dad died, my mom
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had almost died the year before with breast cancer. So
eleventh grade and twelfth grade basically they were pretty crappy,
you know. And I didn't know they were pretty crappy
until looking back and realizing how much was going on
in my life at that time and how impactful it was.
But her saying to me, I had no idea that
you had lost your dad just before you came to school,
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and I didn't know this. And it just shows me
these parts of myself that reacted to trauma, that repressed
paying grief and trauma and the impact it had on
me and also the people around me and what I
put out in the world. And you know, looking back,
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what a gift that trauma was and what a tragedy
it was. And then years later into my late twenties,
I ended up working in hospice, And in hospice, of course,
I was dealing with death on a daily basis and
with interdisciplinary teams who were able to do remarkable healing
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and support work in the death, dying grief process with
patients families and getting to walk alongside of those skilled
individuals and heart centered individuals and a multitude of capacities.
But I will never forget when I started in hospice,
my first job was helping to sign consent paperwork documentation
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for patients coming on to hospice, and I had shadowed
a cohort of mine, my friend Joe, and Joe was
just great at what he did, and I remember getting
to go with him. And while you know the consent process,
there's legal documentation and paperwork and people are dealing with
a loved one and making the decision to sign someone
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onto hospice. It's a lot. It's a lot to talk
someone through the documentation, the actual process, and then you're
dealing with death, dying someone dying, the family members and
then the layers of that coming through. And so I
remember the very first time it was like, I think
you can do this on your own. It was a
really busy Friday, and they said, okay, Amanda, like we're
throwing you in the water. We need you. And we
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had a pediatric hospice, the hospice that I worked with,
and we had a pretty high census of one of
the largest pediatric censuses for hospice in the country actually,
and we had an amazing pediatric team and they needed me.
It was a Friday afternoon and they needed me at
one of the Texas Medical Center hospitals in Houston. And
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they didn't really They gave me some particulars about what
was going on, but nothing could prepare me for what
I was about to encounter. And you know, I was
ready to go. I had all my paperwork. I was
nervous just because I'm like, what if I tell them
the wrong thing or I don't know the answers to
the questions. And I walked into this crowded hospital room,
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I mean like overly crowded, so many family members, and
I introduced myself and there was a seventeen year old
in the bed, really in a comatose state. And his
name was Cedric, and his mom was standing right there.
And when I walked in, I introduced myself and she
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just hugged me. And I didn't know what to say, right,
it was very overwhelming, it was shocking, and I just said,
just tell me a little bit about Cedric, and she
began to tell me what an amazing child and son
he had been. She goes, he's such a good boy.
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He's a good son. She said, he was amazing at sports,
he always showed up, he never was in trouble. He's
been such a good son. And he had stage four
pancreatic cancer, which if many of you have dealt with
pancreatic cancer, usually it's the terminal diagnosis and it happens
the disease progression is fast. But I mean, he was
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seventeen years old, this kid and handsome, and she just said,
we don't know why, but he's been so good, it
doesn't make sense why God is taking him. And I
remember sitting down with them and with that whole family
around me, and walking through the paperwork and talking about
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hospice and we were going to move him to our
impatient unit because his condition was pretty acute and symptoms
needed to be managed, and it was the best decision
for to get him out of that hospital setting and
it's somewhere where the family could be comfortable and just
spend time with him. And I distinctly remember, as we're
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doing the paperwork and I'm signing it, like his energy
just standing with me, and at that point in time,
spirits and ghosts, and like they had been silent for
a while or I had shut them out, and like
he had given me words to share things with her,
and I didn't share them with her from oh, I'm
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a medium, I can share gifts nowhere near any of
that ability or cognition or awareness. But I remember he
was not in his body. I remember seeing him and
who he was, and then having his spirit there, which
was powerful, and I could feel it in the room
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and He gave me the language and the words to
comfort them and give them the information they needed to
make that transition as smooth as possible, as smooth it
could as it could be under those horrible circumstances. And
I remember leaving that day and you know, as I
got in the elevator and then went to my carage sobbed,
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you know, and I sobbed, and it was like this
these tears of what sadness, grief and loss feels like,
and also what the infinite feels like. That I could
feel his spirit and he kept saying, there's a story.
Worry through this. They don't know what they don't know yet.
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I'm not supposed to be here anymore. Yes, this is
painful and this is horrible, but it's it's for them.
There's a reason for this. They need have lessons to learn.
And it was just it was like a knowing. It
wasn't like I had a notebook of information he was
giving me, but it was a knowing. And then after that,
I mean I worked in hospice for God a lot
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of years and worked with a lot of death and
dying on you know, getting to walk alongside it in
multiple journeys and see it and be at the bedside
with patients dying, or with families and in differing circumstances.
And you know, towards the end, when my gifts were
coming through more clearly, messages would come through and I
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would begin to deliver them. And that's when it became
confusing for me as to my role professionally and in
healthcare and what I did. And so my role from
an avocation standpoint, from a spiritual standpoint, but me being
in hospice gave me the opportunity to recognize that I
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had not grieved and at my father's death at nineteen,
and I think a lot of us can relate to
repressed or suppressed grief. And the reason I am highlighting
these experiences now and death it's twofold one. The volume
right now in the energy field is very turned up.
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It's loud. It's like multiple radio stations are playing at
one time. The energy is feeling very transitional. So there's
a sensitivity and a vulnerability and an exposure energetically where
we can be interpreting that in a multitude of ways. Fear, pain, suffering,
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wanting to give up, moments of breakthrough, ecstasy, joy, as
I mentioned and earlier that is happening, but it also
feels like a big death. There is literal death happening,
And in fact, I was on the phone with someone
this morning who is making the compassionate decision most likely
to have a pet crossover, and having those conversations and
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seeing the energy and the energy the messages that come
through from spirits. The human me doesn't sometimes like to
deliver what comes through, but I can also feel it,
and I know that through the death experience there's enlightenment.
There is incredible expansion. And having lost my mom two
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years ago in a very different way than I lost
my father, it was kind of like more of a
long game and us talking about death and grieving while
she was still alive. But in the days leading up
to her death, In and around her death, there was
a portal of energy that was opened, and I moved
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my office down to my mom's room a while ago.
I think some of you probably remember that because the
energy in this room there's like a portal or a vortex,
and I can feel it. One of the things I
know from my experience around death is where death occurs,
there's an imprint, there's a portal and whether it is acute, traumatic, painful,
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destructive death. We all know what it's like to walk
along the grounds of old battle fields, burial grounds, graveyards,
even just different areas where death is prevalent or has
been prevalent at some point in time. But if you
have intimately experienced death with someone been by their side
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as they have crossed over, even if it is a pet,
because that's pretty powerful too. Enough of that which I
just celebrated sadly and beautifully a year of my dog
texts his crossing over, which you know, a year I
miss him tremendously, but it was also beautiful. It was
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painful and beautiful. And my mom's death was the same.
It was painful and beautiful. And there's something that happens
when we walk between those worlds where we are so
viscerally feeling suffering, pain, loss, that it is just organic.
It's primitive and at the same time where it brushed
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up against the divine, the other worldly. Right now, the
energy feels like the death portal. Right now, the energy
feels like the death portal. There's regeneration happening, and yet
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at the same time, something profound is shifting and dying.
Our consciousness is shifting into new levels. And often times
as we shift into another level of reality, a new
level of awareness, growth, evolution, personal development. You can look
at it from a multitude of angles. A lot of
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times we revisit where we were, We revisit pain and trauma.
And I've said this before, and a good reference for
this is my podcast on five D Consciousness and shifting
into five D Consciousness, because it defines different levels of
consciousness and gives you some tools and resources the podcast,
and there's a blog that goes along with it. But
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it feels like right now we are in five D
and keep shifting back into three D, and that three
D shift, it's like we're revisiting lower frequencies, old stories,
old pain, really deeply buried, whether it is on our
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conscious pass in this lifetime or lifetimes, or in our
cellular memory and DNA. It feels like all of it.
By the way, lots of old stuff in my life
has been coming back up in my conscious awareness and
through precognitive energies where I'm puzzle piecing into the past.
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There's a lot of past life energy and symbolism and
visions coming through for me. And then there is ancient
past in humanity coming through, and it's like it's all
flooding in and it feels like there is wreckage and
pain being closed and consolidated in order for something new
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to be born. Yet there's something happening simultaneously. And I
hope as I'm sharing this, I don't sound too esotear
and I'm losing you because I've shared with all of
you what's happening right now. It's like the language hasn't
quite formed yet to explain what we're going through. We're
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in the middle of a vast paradigm shift. So whatever
you're experiencing now, I encourage you. I'm laughing at what
I'm about to say. I encourage you to think about death.
And if you are literally right now walking through a
death experience of someone you love, or you're taking care
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of someone who is terminally ill, you've recently experienced a
death or not even recently, and it's coming up, sit
with all of your feelings and not just your feelings
of pain, suffering and sorrow, but where do you see
the divine through whatever you're walking through? And if literal
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death isn't showing up for you right now and hopefully
it's not showing up for a lot of us. But
if literal death isn't showing up, what within you is
being buried, is dying, has no business coming with you
into the future. What in you is fundamentally changing in
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order to regenerate something new? And can you sit in
the discomfort And I don't mean consternate or get stuck
in the discomfort, but when the waves of suffering, pain, disillusionment,
disorientation flood through your body, embrace them, breathe into them,
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and honor that flushing of energy that literally is changing you.
Because that energy right there, the energy that we're in,
is very fertile. And that's what I found in let's
call it the death portal, the literal death portal. Is
it is so fertile because it's it's like walking between
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the worlds. The most visceral, suffering, primal experience alongside of
the infinite. It is this, it's the quantum field. And
I feel like right now, for me especially, and I
have a lot of people have recounted this to me,
it's like we're in the quantum field. We're writing new timelines,
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new stories, and making space to process the pain and
the fear and the suffering and acknowledge it, but seeding
it with more love, more hope, more faith, pure positive potential.
And this morning, quite literally early this morning, I got
in the car after my pilates class and I was
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just feeling this flood of discomfort and disorientation and I
noticed it. So I just sat down before driving out
of my parking space, and I sat in the car
and I just said, bring it on, bring it on,
and I inhaled and exhaled for a handful of breaths,
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and as I started to do that, it was like
the sides of my mouth turned up. After two or
three breath cycles, the anxiety and the flush of disorientation
and kind of panic flushed through and a smile. Like
energetically it turned into a smile. I mean literally it did,
and energetically it did, and it was like, okay, one
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wave down, three thousand ago. But I just kind of laughed,
because we have the ability to alchemize and transmute this energy.
Now how are you doing that? And I'm going to
ask a question as I wrap up here, because I
think there's two camps and maybe the answer can be
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yes to both or note of both. I think you know,
anything goes. Do you fear death or do you fear
living forever? And of course I'm in the camp of
if there's a fear, I don't fear death. I'm like,
if that is the case, I know it is a
transition from one space to another and that is not
something I've ever feared or fundamentally feared. But what do
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I fear infinity living forever? If there is a fear
between one and the fear, do you fear dying and
it all being over? Or do you fear living forever?
And the fear of mine would be like infinity because
it's so vast. That's my question for you. You know, is
it that you're afraid of death? Or is it that
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you're afraid of forever? And that's that's kind of the question,
like from the soul, my soul lately that's been coming
through what is it that I'm afraid of? And it's
being able to blot out fear, face my fears head on.
And I think with Neptune in arees, it's been quite curious.
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The energy is different, it's very different, the signature is different.
The rules of engagement are getting to change and I'll
talk more about that later in some practical tools and
insights around this, but I will tell you that with
Neptune and ares, it's not about being fearless. It's about
facing your fears square in the eye, head on, head
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to head, looking at those fears, claiming them, naming them
in order to transmute, and that that's this regeneration process
we're in. I encourage everyone to sit down in journal
anytime you want, but in the next handful of days,
sit down in journal and journal around death and what
comes up for you, whether it's memories and experiences around death,
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what you're walking through now, or phases in your life
where parts and aspects of you have died in other
in order for other parts of you to be born,
or if that regioneration is happening for you now. Because
the more that you clarify what is no longer serving you,
what is changing fundamentally within you in order to make
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space for what is coming through, the more centered you
will be and feel. Someone reminded me this weekend about
centering prayer. We were talking about God and the divine
and we had all these insane synchronicities. Just some peripheral
friends that we connected with, and I really enjoyed myself
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and this woman. We were just talking about our spiritual
lives and she said, yeah, we do centering prayer at
our church, and I've participated in centering prayer before, but
really meditation and connecting and connecting with the divine and
with yourself. Finding ways to center within yourself right now,
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whether it be through nature and grounding, journaling, meditation, your therapy,
your community, support, your exercise, make your life a centering
prayer right now, because the energy is enriching and it
has tremendous value for the years ahead, especially with the
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turbulence we're experiencing on a multitude of levels with the Earth,
with economics right now and geopolitics, the dissension is polarizing
in this year twenty twenty five, I truly believe is
going to become more volatile and drastic. And for me,
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it's keeping my own center, my own point of attraction.
So I am safe and divinely directed no matter where
I am. And I hope that and believe that for
all of you. So whatever practice is right now that
you are finding clarity and solace in, keep practicing those
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but think about what is dying within you or literally
around you if that is the case, and I have
a lot of tenderness and prayers coming out to if
you are walking through death right now, because it's just
not easy at any time. But what I do know
about death in my experience and for many people I've
shared with, is through it, there's transcendence, there's something other,
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there's something greater that can come through it, and we're
in it right now. So in order for something greater,
be in the now, be in all of it, make
all of it meaningful, and trust trust this regeneration, even
when it feels unstable and unsteady and hard to find
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your way, trust come back to your sinner. Okay, everybody,
here's to death. Here's to a beautiful week ahead for everyone.
And give me some feedback. Let me know what's going
on in your life and any insights or things that
are happening for you. I know a lot of people
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have a lot of rich dreams happening right now. I've
been experiencing that, and there's a lot of immediacy in
my dreams, a lot of volatility that I'm seeing and
other people are as well. There's a lot of prevalence
in that. So let me know how messages, signed, synchronicities
downloads are coming through for you, because, like I said,
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the volume is turned up and being able to synthesize,
interpret and utilize that in a healthy way can be
quite confusing. So reach out, let me know and we will.
We'll share some of the feedback and insight that might
seem relevant to everyone. Be well, everybody, Thank you so
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thanks so much for listening to Soul Sessions. If you've
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