Chloe Holladay: Secretly Getting Married & The Waiting Season That Changed Her Life

This week on The Upload, Brooke Taylor & Pastor Mark Evans sit down with creator, majorette, and Nashville newcomer Chloe Holladay—and she drops a revelation right at the top of the episode: she secretly got married.

The details? Let’s just say… it wasn’t the fairy-tale, sparkly, over-the-top moment everyone would expect from someone who’s self-admittedly “extra” in almost every area of her life. Chloe shares exactly why she and her now-husband kept it quiet, what led them to make the decision so quickly, and the surprising outfit she ended up wearing to say “I do.”

Chloe also opens up about her journey from Crimsonette at the University of Alabama to becoming the first-ever majorette for the Tennessee Titans -- a position that didn’t exist until she boldly pitched it herself. Before that breakthrough, there was a long, uncomfortable waiting season where she moved to Nashville with zero plan, trusting that if God had led her there, He would provide the next step. And He did.

Chloe also gets vulnerable about her rise on social media. For two years she built a massive platform without sharing much about her faith. But after an influencer event in Los Angeles left her with overwhelming anxiety and a weight she couldn’t explain, she realized she had been grounding her identity in numbers, aesthetics, and doing things “for the video.” Stepping away from social media, she felt God speak clearly: her platforms would be used for His glory. When she returned, everything changed -- her voice, her content, and even her audience. She went from 300k followers to over a million simply by being obedient.

Chloe talks through the online hate, the comparison trap she fell into in college, and the spiritual grounding that brought her out of it. She shares what it looks like being a newlywed, growing her faith alongside her husband, and why their funniest (and fiercest) argument so far has involved grocery store leftovers.

🎧 Listen in to hear the full story behind Chloe’s secret wedding and the moment everything shifted.

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hey, y'all, I'm Chloe Holiday. When you start blowing up,
it's like you define your worth in that and it's
really hard not to. And I was living for the
video and not for Jesus or for even like the
people I was around. I have to trust God that
I know that he's preparing me for something. And this
is the upload.

Speaker 2 (00:24):
Well, we're talking about Alabama obviously because Chloe Holiday is
on the upload.

Speaker 3 (00:28):
Welcome having me.

Speaker 2 (00:30):
I love the fact that basically Alabama is just like
how the world became to know you.

Speaker 1 (00:36):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (00:37):
I remember scrolling through TikTok and I was just like, Oh,
this girl's cute, and then watching you get ready for
game day and stuff like that, and then learning who
you are and getting to know you. And then you
moved to Nashville. We met at a random influencer event.

Speaker 1 (00:48):
And we just crazy. That was like what two years.

Speaker 2 (00:50):
Yeah, two years ago, and you were like, wait, I
think I might be moving to Nashville and I was like, sweet,
let me know when you get here. And girl, you've
hit the ground running since you got here. I have.

Speaker 1 (00:58):
It's been so much fun though, it's been really fun.
It's been a whirlwind. I feel like I'm busy every
single day. Yeah, such a blessing.

Speaker 2 (01:04):
But you graduated with a nursing degree. Yes, in December,
basically moved to Nashville, got engaged, got a new job,
all within like a seven month period.

Speaker 3 (01:13):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (01:14):
Yes, it was like we got engaged in July and
then I graduated nursing school in December. Then January I
started chasing after the Titans. We also went to the
courthouse in January and got married because me and my
husband we moved here like by ourselves, all of our
family in Alabama, so I'm like, I'm not gonna we
didn't want to live together before marriage, so we just
went to the courthouse. We didn't tell our family or anything.
So yeah, for like a few weeks and my mom

(01:36):
when we sent this selfie to my mom, my mom
was like, what in the world is this like a joke?
Like nah, she said, did you not take pictures? I
went to the courthouse in a sweat set because I
do everything so extra that I was like, you know what,
let's just be let's just go get married. It's on
a random you know, it was a random Tuesday. I
had just got into spray Tan. He just got back
from the gym and we got married.

Speaker 2 (01:56):
So they're like, no, I'm not taking pictures with a
fresh spray tan okay, right exactly.

Speaker 1 (02:00):
And I'm like, the wedding's next, well this may. It's crazy.
I'm also planning a wedding right now. But yeah, I
was like why not? So and I obviously living together
for marriage is a big thing for us, so and
I wasn't going to live in a separate house in
Nashville with usposed both being new here, so it just
made sense.

Speaker 4 (02:16):
Yeah, good for you, that's cool. That's that's a really
cool story. I love it. And then you're doing a
big wedding with everybody in your family's coming as a celebration.

Speaker 2 (02:24):
Yes, let's go honestly, like just kick the whole wedding period.
Like you guys are married, you're having things, save the money,
buy a new house, you know what I mean?

Speaker 1 (02:33):
Right, I mean, I feel like that job. I'm not
in like the wedding planning as much as I am
right now because there's so much a plan. But I'm like, oh,
it'll happen. But I almost like we're married, so yeah,
you know.

Speaker 2 (02:42):
Well I want to I want to come back around
to sort of the convictions of not wanting to live
together before marriage, yes, coming up, but first to kind
of just like start things off defining your faith and
like say, you know somebody that follows you, that meets
you in person, and they're like, what do you believe in?

Speaker 3 (02:57):
What is your faith? What would you tell them?

Speaker 1 (02:58):
Well, I mean, of course, Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior,
came on the earth, died for my sins and so
I would have everlasting life in heaven. So obviously that's
my everyday faith that I live by, and the Holy
Spirit and all my discernments come from Him, and just
walking out my faith and not living for the world,
living for God. I feel like that's my everyday you
know motto, That's what I live by.

Speaker 2 (03:18):
Yeah, and you're not ashamed to talk about it on
social media too, with millions of followers. I think that
that's such a it's like a diamond in the rough
kind of thing. Nowadays, I feel like a lot of
people are very scared to talk about what they believe
in on social media. For you ever get nervous about it, Well,
I will.

Speaker 1 (03:34):
Say when I started, like my first two years, I
didn't really talk about God within the first because I
didn't really know what social media have for me. I
didn't start social media thinking it was going to blow up.
I just started for fun at Alabama, just transitions, and
then it started blowing up. And then I was you know,
it was going so fast that I didn't know what
was happening. And then I realized one day I was like,

(03:54):
am I going to be known as just like some
girl that goes to Alabama? Or am I going to
be known as Klae Holiday? I love Jesus, and this
is what my life looks like. And I really had
a shift in my life. I went to a influencer
event in LA and this was like my first big
thing that I'd ever really went to that had the
influencing side of things. And the second I touched down

(04:15):
in LA, I had so much anxiety that came over me.
It was just like weighing down on me. And it
wasn't that anything happened. It was just like I felt heavy.
And so when I got back home, I was just like,
I don't know what's going on. And of course I
was going to church and I was in my faith,
but I feel like I wasn't really deeply rooted because
social media you don't get deeply rooted. It like takes
you out of everything because you're sitting there reading the comments,

(04:37):
the positivity, the negativity, and it's like when you start
blowing up, it's like you define your worth in that
and it's really hard not to because it all happened
so fast. And that's where I was getting everything in
my life was like, so, how can I make a video?
I'm going to make a video for this and this
and this, And I was living for the video and
not for Jesus or for even like the people I
was around. I'm sure it was not. It was very

(04:58):
annoying for like family and friends too, because it was like,
how can I put a camera at what time? And
so I got back from LA and it was like
a shift in like I don't think I'm gonna do
social media if I don't do it for God. And
so I went through about a week or two of
like not posting at all, trying to figure out what
God wanted. So then I went to church those two
weeks and it was like God spoke to me. It was
like this platform is gonna be for me, And it

(05:21):
shifted within the next month I went from three hundred
thousand followers to a million in like seven months. Wow.
And it was me like talking about God and so
it was was like God was preparing me through throughout
that season and it just blew up. And that was
such a god thing because I wasn't doing anything different
at all. It was just me talking about God and
telling my story. And it was like people started listening

(05:43):
and you know, relating throughout, like, hey, I'm in college,
but I'm still loving the Lord. So that was a
big shift in my content.

Speaker 2 (05:51):
Well, and I feel like, too, you're very open about
just like the only God moments in your life. You're like,
this is only God, Like this doesn't make any sense
because only God could have done that.

Speaker 1 (06:00):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (06:00):
And I feel like your story too with working for
the Titans isn't only God's story. Absolutely, Yeah, So kind
of take us through that story because I feel like
this is one of those like dream come true.

Speaker 3 (06:11):
God made it happen moments for you.

Speaker 1 (06:13):
Right, And it wasn't always a dream of mine because
I didn't know it was a possible dream. Because you know,
there's not been an NFL major ate in over two decades.
The Titans have never had a major atte Two years
ago we met. I didn't even know for sure if
I was going to be moving in Nashville. I just
felt like God was leading me there, but I had
I really didn't know at that point because I was
still in college and so it was honestly not this time.

(06:34):
Last year's probably the August September, I started going to
some of the Titans games and they have the Blucher
drum line, and I started watching them and I was like, hmm,
that's interesting, Like I wonder if that's something I could do,
And it was just like a little seed planet and
then of Sports Illustrated, they came to Alabama and did
like a big documentary story on me, and it was
a full day documentary, you know how that goes like
a to eight, like follow me around all day talking

(06:56):
about from kindergarten to Alabama, And the only thing that
they covered throughout that entire interview on social media was
that I wanted to be an NFL majrette and they
put it on blast like that was the only thing
that they covered, which of course they put the story
on YouTube, but all across social media that's what went
out and it went crazy viral, and so then everyone
started tagging the Tennessee Titans because everyone knew that I

(07:18):
was liking Tennessee. And then a week later, the Tennessee
Titans reached out and asked me to be the guests
of the game. So I went out and I got
to go on like the little ATV and got to
meet Track and all the things, and so of course
when I was there, I had that seed in my
brain like, you know, this could be a possibility, but
also like am I just crazy? But I obviously met

(07:42):
a lot of great people there, and I don't know
then that was in It was actually a week ago
last year, which is crazy because we had a game
last week and I was at the game last year.
I was wearing like just a Titans jersey with my
name on it, and then last week I had the
Blue Cree jersey. And it was just like a full
circle moment because yeah, because it was our jersey game
that we wore the jerseys and I didn't even realize

(08:03):
till the day of because I was putting my jersey on.
And then I got my snapchat one year ago today
and I was like, that's a god moment in itself
because three hundred and six. Five days later, I'm wearing
the same jersey, but just like on the field in
a different aspect. That was a very emotional game for me.

Speaker 3 (08:16):
I was like, are you crying the whole time?

Speaker 1 (08:17):
I was, because it's just like crazy that God has
so many things planned out for you and you have
no idea, like in that moment. Obviously I had the
small seed, but I had no idea that that's a
big dream to have, you know, It's just one of
those things. It's like, that's awesome, but is that actually
going to happen? Maybe? Maybe not.

Speaker 2 (08:34):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (08:35):
So then once I graduated, cause I wanted to wait
things out obviously because I was in full season of
Alabama in a nursing school and doing social loss. It
was a lot. That last semester was a lot. But
graduating December and then January moved to Nashville. Me and
Collen got married, and then I had to make the
decision like as to what I was going to do,
because I mean I had just been full time like

(08:55):
social media, full time Alabama major red nursing, and then
my entire schedule when's completely different after graduation, and of
course I had that seat in my heart that I
wanted to go after it, and I was like, I
don't know how this is going to look like, but
I'm going to start now. And so I started practicing
like six hours a day every single day, which obviously
was my full day basically, and I was doing this

(09:18):
without telling people. Obviously, on social media, no one knew
that I really was chasing after the dream. They just
knew it was like something cool, you know, and so
I had to keep that a secret obviously. So, you know,
with social media, not being able to post everything that
you're doing every single day is also really hard because
I'm having to go double time making content like that
I'm actually not doing right and that's not normal for
me because I'm so transparent about everything that I do.

(09:40):
And my family didn't know either because I didn't want
to tell my family, So the only person that knew
was Colored and my mom. Wow, which is really really
hard to do because like I'm dedicating my whole life
to that, like Monday through Sunday, basically, I'm practicing every
single day and my Mom's like, what are you doing today?
And I'm like, oh, just chilling.

Speaker 3 (09:58):
Again, you know.

Speaker 1 (10:00):
And so I found a couple of emails from Titans.
I started sending emails like email up to email, and
of course, you know organizations, you have to find the
right person, and so I just kept on and kept
on until I got an in person interview. And I
was like, someone, just sit down with me face to face,
so it's not just an interview like just over the phone.
And I did. It was the most intimidating interview I've

(10:21):
ever had, just because you're going in and asking for
a position that's not a position for the NFL, is
like very intimidating. But I went in with a PowerPoint
having every single slide tell them what the position would
look like, the details of it, so basically it would
be easy for them to say yes because they wouldn't
have to work towards like oh what would this look like?
And so it was a great interview, but it was

(10:41):
kind of left of like Okay, we'll get back to you.
And of course during that time, like it's you're putting
so much time into something. It was such a waiting
season where it's like I have to trust God that
I know that he's preparing me for something, but also
like the enemy was like, okay, are you actually putting
time and you're just gonna get a know and then
all this time is gonna go to waste. And so
it was like a really a big battle in my
brain because that was from January to May, so it's

(11:02):
almost half a year of me practicing and putting my
all into something that was up in the air, which
is really really scary. So then March came around about
a month after the interview, so I had in her
back and so I decided the only question they had
like during the interview was I don't know how it
looked like if you're performed alongside the Blue Crew, because
the band is like a four hundred piece band Alabama.

(11:23):
You have the marching band with all the different instruments
and it's just the Blue Crew for Titans. And so
I put together a mix of all the different Blue
Crew YouTube sounds that they had and I made a
routine to it and I sent it to them. So
I was like, you know what all they can do
is tell me no, and I will just annoy them
until they tell me no, basically, So then I sent

(11:44):
that to them, still didn't hear anything back. And then
a month came later in May and they emailed me
and they're like, hey, can you give us a call?
And that I was like sure, Like what does this mean?
And they're like if you still want the position? And
I was like, if I still want that.

Speaker 2 (11:57):
Position, You're like, sister, did you watch my powerful Yes?

Speaker 1 (12:01):
I still want the position. So that happened in May.
So it was six about six months of like just
relentlessly pursuing a dream that I just had a faith through.
Especially that last month was like really really hard because
I don't know, I was just questioning God, but I
knew he had me there for a reason. So it's
just the having faith and like I would practice and
I cry and then I'd start practicing again. Just it

(12:23):
was just really hard. It was like a you know,
in my brain. I was just in my brain a
lot during that time.

Speaker 2 (12:27):
Yeah, I like hearing this story and I'm like the blood,
the sweat, the tears, the doubt, the faith, the blood,
the sweat, the tears, the doubt.

Speaker 3 (12:36):
It's just like that's welcome to being a Christian.

Speaker 1 (12:39):
Absolutely. It was the most testing, I feel like time
of my life, and social media people were like hammering me.
Even like in January, people started hammering me obviously I'm
very much about my faith. They're hammering me about me
and Collen living together for marriage, but they had no
idea that we were already married. And I wanted to
get married and not tell people because I at first
because I wanted to do it for us and God

(13:01):
and not that I was doing it to make sure
that everyone it pleased everyone else. And so that's why
we didn't say anything for the first month. And honestly,
during that it taught me a lot about you don't
know what others like, what's going on behind the screen.
Just because you see something doesn't mean that's what's actually happening.

Speaker 4 (13:18):
It's enough to judge people from a distance.

Speaker 1 (13:20):
Right, and you have no idea, And honestly, like I'm like,
you don't even know the truth of what the situation is.
And so people would come up to me and like
Colin would be wearing a band and they'd what, what's
that And I'm like, yeah, we're married. You just have
no idea. You have no idea, but you're sitting here
like I got people finding my number, calling me, sending
me the craziest most negative messages, and it just like

(13:41):
really opened up my eyes as like even with my
day to day, like I'm like, I hope I don't
ever judge someone not knowing what their story is.

Speaker 4 (13:48):
You know, it's just evil the day, the accuser of
the brethren, of the accuser of God's people. It's the
devil's job, right, Yeah, So if we do that willingly
on willingly, we are doing the devil's job. And so
we think about like encourage or discourage, judge or grace

(14:09):
like it's not without truth, but man, I am on
to people about I'm onto myself whenever I've done the
devil's job. There's a parable when Jesus was like the
guy who has his debt forgiven then goes, He's like,
thank you so much, and then he goes and he
calls in someone who owes him less and makes him
pay up. And I've been with been the devil's debt

(14:32):
collector many times, and so I'm confronted by that. I'm like, dang,
I don't want to be that guy who's like, I've
had my debt forgive, I have my sins forgiven. And
I'm like, yeah, and it's not even true. Number one,
with your situations, it's not even true. But even if
it was, it doesn't matter because I've had my debt forgiven,
and who am I to call up and be like, hey,
pay up. But that's just not that's not the gospel,

(14:54):
that's not God. So come on, fire up, back off, everybody,
check yourself.

Speaker 1 (15:00):
And it was I'm like, you have to remind yourself,
like I'm like, you're not God, but you're not here
to judge me, and I'm not here to judge you.
And I feel like a lot of people use the
verse of like we're supposed to hold each other accountable
within the church, but I feel like a lot of
people take that the wrong way. I'm like, if you
don't really know that person, that person's a stranger, do
you How can you hold someone accountable that you don't
even know?

Speaker 3 (15:18):
That's a fact.

Speaker 1 (15:19):
And I feel like a lot of people on social
media they see, oh, they posted that video and I'm
gonna hold them accountable. I'm like, you're not holding them accountable,
you're judging.

Speaker 4 (15:27):
So you're the one in the whip that picked up
a stone around the woman and Jesus comes and holds
her accountable by saying, who condemns you? All right, guys,
stop throwing the okay, no one neither do I condemn
you and go and sin no more. That's accountability. If
you look at the Bible, they take it out of context.
They have this one little verse over here, two little
verses here, but they miss all grace. They miss the

(15:48):
new way and that the Bible says, be careful that
none of you fall short of receiving the grace of
God by not showing it right. And that's the enemy's plan.
He wants people to fall short of God's grace by
being a stone thrower. Don't do it. I don't know
if you can tell, but I feel like protective over you.
I feel like I feel like a big brother is like,
come on, come on, let's who's who do I need

(16:08):
to fight? Because there are a lot of people that
are throwing stones right now that need to drop them
and stop doing the devil's job and be like Jesus,
I agree, And it's not to turn it. It's not though,
So then do we go on Roman six? Do we
then go on? Sin more? Do we you know, test
the whole grace and experience that one. No, we're a
slave to righteousness. But the balance is, don't be a
stone thrower. Don't miss the plank in your eye. Everybody

(16:32):
for the speck of even not even truth in this
in this case, but don't even even if it was,
it doesn't matter. It's a speck compared to my plank.
That's the truth. If I'm honest, it's a spec And
so I don't know why I'm so passionate, but I'm
just like, I hate it. It's like, why are we
Why are we cannibalize our brothers and sisters? Why do

(16:56):
we do this to our own kin? This is you're
my fan. Whether I slightly agree disagree with a different
flavor of this and we sing a different song doesn't matter.
Your family and the enemy has been cannibalizing the body
of Christ for way too long. Enough's enough?

Speaker 3 (17:12):
Yeah, Enough's enough is enough?

Speaker 1 (17:14):
I agree? Yeah.

Speaker 2 (17:15):
Well, and it's so easy too. I mean, you talked
about it earlier. How you're you know, you're going through
this time of not knowing what's next. You're seeing comments online,
people are accusing and doing all these things you mentioned.
You know, you're taking a second out of the day,
you're crying, and then you're back at it again. So
let's go to that moment where you're on the floor,
you're crying, you're upset, you're not sure what to do,

(17:38):
keeping a positive mindset, keeping your faith, trying to look
towards Jesus and you know, figure out what's going on.
What are those feelings that you're feeling in those moments,
and how are you staying grounded in what you say
you believe in.

Speaker 1 (17:51):
I feel like every day I start out in the
Bible and the Word just because it calms me down.
Because the second that I wake up, if I get
on my phone, you're just fieled with everything the world
has to you. Because even though my social media is
super positive, there's always gonna be an opposite side of that. No,
I'm not gonna please everybody. So every single day getting
up and reading what God has to say about me.
But even in those times during the day when I

(18:13):
would be like so down to myself, even though I
was so upset and I was so confused as to
like what he was calling me to do, I knew
that he was calling me to be where I was at.
So I just didn't stop, even though it was like
so hard. I was like until I get a definite no,
I'm not going to I'm like close the door if
it's not what you want from me. But I felt
so much in my heart that he wanted me to

(18:35):
keep going after that, and I didn't know what it
looked like. I'm like, if even if I get a no,
then obviously as a reason for the season that he
was putting me through, and maybe it was just that
I would have patience with him, And so that was
It was hard, but I knew that I was where
I was supposed to be at. So even when I
was doubtful, I still had faith in the doubt, knowing
that like I was gonna be okay. And I feel

(18:55):
like that's a testament to everything I've ever been through
my life. Looking back, I'm like, Okay, I was full
and things weren't okay, but I still made it through
because of God. So knowing that and having trust that
He was going to take me through that, like I
never doubt that.

Speaker 2 (19:09):
This brings to mind a story that one of my
girlfriends was talking about a Bible study the other night.

Speaker 3 (19:14):
She was just like, people keep asking, well.

Speaker 2 (19:17):
I'm not hearing the Lord say yes or I'm not
hearing him say no, And she's just like, that's because
he trusts you to make a decision, and if he
has not told you no, he trusts you to make
that decision. And I love this kind of like similarity
in it because he didn't say no, right and he
was just like, if you want to.

Speaker 3 (19:34):
Go for a sister, go for it and I'll make away.

Speaker 1 (19:36):
Yeah. And I feel like that even the whole year before,
it was like little God seeds, because this isn't normal.
This is a normal story of like the NFL Majorrette thing,
you know, and it just came. It wasn't obviously, like
I said, it wasn't a dream. My whole life was
to be a Crimson in Alabama and that dream came true.
And then my senior year was like these little seeds
started being planted. And I knew two years ago that

(19:58):
I wanted to come to Tennessee, but I I didn't
have any thought in my brain of oh, I would
love to know twirl for the Titans. And then it
was like everything started lining up perfectly and it was
not a me thing, it was a God thing. Looking
back on every single aspect is like every single thought
I had did not come from me, like it was
all from God. And so that's why even in the

(20:20):
waiting season, I knew that God was preparing me for something.
I didn't know what it was for, but don't even
preparing me for something? And even now having this position,
at first, I was like, what do you want me
to do with this position? God obviously performing, but like
that's not the main part of things. That's just the outer,
the outer show of everything, And like, how can I
reach people talking about God talking about you, even if

(20:43):
it's the story? And I feel like this story has
been a huge testament to you know, not only God.
And obviously I talk about God on my social media,
but I also do the hair, the makeup, and so
it's even people that go on my video sometimes that
don't even believe in God. They're like, I don't believe
in God, but I love how passionate and how much
you love Him and it makes me yearn for something
like that. And so it's like God's planning the seed

(21:05):
from a video of mine, even if they aren't Christians.
And the more that they watch, I feel like I
hope that they see how much God and Jesus loves
them just from a video, even if it's me dooing
my makeup talking about like my life and how thankful
I am for everything, and so even if it's just
that that's what he's using this position for, is planning
that seed to let people know and like all those

(21:26):
small little girls, I have dreams of doing things big
like that. It's you know, dream big, take the different
path that no one's on, because you know, it's very scary.
I feel like the world wants to put you in
a box. Especially whenever I graduated. I feel like that
was something really hard for me because I graduated with
a nursing degree, and so when you graduate with a degree,
everyone expects you to use that degree the day after.

(21:47):
And I knew that God was not calling me to
do that, Like I knew that he was calling me
to this, and so you know, going against the green
essentially and knowing that, like, hey, I know that he
put me through nursing school for a reason, but he's
not me to nursing right now. And it was really
hard for me at first because I'm like I thought
I wanted to deserve people in the nursing world. But
I thank God put me through nursing school because he

(22:09):
knew I was supposed to serve people. I'm just serving
people in a different way right now, And I just
had to really trust that because I had a lot
of hate whenever I graduated. That was really really hard,
really hard, because I was confused because I was trying
to listen to what the world was saying about, like
you should do this, and you should do this, and
I'm like, why am I going to listen to someone

(22:30):
that's a stranger that doesn't know me, doesn't know my life?
And then you always hear that what's the quote that
if you don't know the person, if you don't agree
with their actions, and why would you take advice from them?
And that's been a big thing for me because I'm like,
why am I taking advice from a stranger that is
being negative about my life?

Speaker 2 (22:45):
Because that's what the world tells us to do, right,
you know, the world wants you to have validation from
other people. People want to be validated from other people.
And I think once you grow into your faith and
you actually have a relationship with the Lord, you start
seeking validated from him and all the other noise just
quiets down. And I think that's such a testament to

(23:05):
your story and how steadfast you've been in your faith
and throughout it all to say, you know what, you know,
if you want me to use my nursing degree, cool,
If you don't want me to use my nursing degree,
show me where to go.

Speaker 3 (23:15):
And he's just like, I know ever real.

Speaker 2 (23:20):
I mean, I just there's just so much heaviness with
the influencer community in the world, all eyes on you.

Speaker 3 (23:28):
What are you doing, how are you feeling?

Speaker 2 (23:30):
You know, you feel like you can't have those moments
to yourself when there is so much noise out there,
you know, and you're hearing all these negative things from
other people. Staying rooted spiritually and you know, maybe starting
to believe lies that you have to break off. What
are some of those things that you've maybe listened to
that you could offer advice to people listening that might

(23:52):
be in the same boat.

Speaker 1 (23:53):
I feel like I have believed so many different lies
over the course of because I've been doing such mania
for and half five years now. So it's like different
seasons of different lives as the enemy tries to like
plant in me. And I feel like Alabama, it was
comparison because you're around a lot of beautiful girls that
are doing a lot of amazing things. So the enemy
wants to compare you, like what do you have what

(24:15):
do you not have? And I feel like that was
a big thing in me. Is like finding my identity
in Christ was a huge thing for me in college
because when you go into college as a new freshman,
it's really hard to not want to do and be
like everyone else around you, especially even being on a team.
I was on a team of like thirty beautiful girls
that were all very successful women, which is amazing, but

(24:36):
the enemy wants to turn that so quickly as to
like they have this going on and you don't have that.
So it's just like a and then it creates these
like walls between you and your friends because it the
enemy wants that. The enemy doesn't love community. And so
that was a big thing early on in college, was
finding my identity in Christ and knowing that like, I'm
unique to myself and whatever I have is what God

(24:56):
wants me to have, and whatever I don't, I can
be happy that my neighbor has that. So that was
a huge thing in college and now it's I'm so
happy that I have that because all the people in
my life, it's like we want the best for each other,
and that's the best friend to have because you just
I feel like over the years I have had a
lot of friends. It's obviously very different in the influencing
community or just in the spotlight. It's really hard to

(25:17):
be around someone and I've learned that even I mean,
and it's not even out of spitefulness, and it's just
like the enemy wants to put in these little jealousy
seeds and it ruins relationships because it's like they get
mad at you even though you can't really help everything
that's going on. And I feel like that was a
big shift in my life too when social media happened,

(25:37):
and even with family, because you're taking on you're getting
a lot of spotlight. And that doesn't mean that your
family or friends want that spotlight. But it's almost like
even with color, like once I got all that, he
had to kind of come in with me, and it's
just a part of the life that you live when
you do it. So definitely was a season of confusion,

(25:58):
and but I learned so much about it myself and
so much about like my foundation in Christ because I
realized that I wasn't I didn't have a good foundation
when I started social media. I feel like it's hard
to though, whenever you you know, you get so much negativity,
but you also get so much positivity, so it's hard
to I've told calling this so many times, like it's
hard to really find worth in words because I'm getting

(26:21):
so many words every single day. So even if I
get something positive, it's not like I'm taking it and
like really sinking it in. And especially at first, i
was like, oh, it's just another comment, but now I'm
like I whenever I read stuff, I'm like, you know what,
that's coming from a single person that's a God's child,
and it's someone that's taking the time to sit there
and say something positive and just realizing that, which is

(26:45):
it's hard to not when you have so many things.
It's hard to realize like the extent to how many
people are like saying these amazing things or these negative
things about you, just because the numbers. I feel like
social media, you look at the numbers and you don't
realize how many people like you get a million views
and it's like that's a million people, and that's hard

(27:06):
to wrap your brain around. And then also like you're
influencing a million people as to whatever that video was,
whether it's a good influence or bad influence. So definitely
my identity in Christ and finding that, and then I
feel like, now my biggest thing recently is just finding
my calmness in Christ because I have always been the

(27:30):
busiest be ever. I have something going on every single
day of my life and that's how I operate, which
is great, but I've realized that sometimes I let the
business go above God. And I read a quote recently
and it was like, if the devil can't make you sind,
he'll make you busy, and I felt so i read that,
I was like, oh, my goodness, that's what's happening right now,

(27:50):
because even though I'll sit down and I'll do my
quiet time, but it's like the enemy wants to make
my brain have so much noise where I'll read a
passage and I'm like, what in the world did I
just read? And so I feel like that's been a
big thing for me, is finding that time with Christ
and like, you know what, the world will go on,
but like, if I don't spend time with God and
listen to what He has to say for me and
about me every single day, then I'm not really living

(28:12):
for him, you know, even in the business, like He's
given me all these blessings, but if I'm not spending
time with him for him to bless the blessings, then
I'm just blessing it myself, which makes it a worldly
thing and not a God thing. So that's been a
very big thing for me recently, just because I'm just
a busy person. I love being busy, but I need
to like chill for real, so good.

Speaker 4 (28:33):
I just want to point back and exclamation point this
statement of like God gets the credit only God. So
everything that you said three hundred to a million, like
all the little nuggets. What I'm sensing and what I
want to wrap up in a bow for people for you,
is how encourage I aim, as a father of daughters,
a mother of daughters that there are people who are

(28:55):
witnesses for Jesus like you that give God the credit
the success. God gets the credit. You know. I think
people like, how do I make it? I figure it
out and in my own strength and strategy, But like
your story is, God gets the credit every step of
the way, and that is why God wants the credit.

(29:16):
When I realize, I'm like, oh, seek first the Kingdom
of God, ascribe the glory do his name, and I
read the Bible and I'm like, God wants the credit
because that's the definition of me being a witness, me
being a light on a lampstand. So it's just beautiful
to see. Like, if you want to know a great
key to success and you want God behind you and
him to be the wind in your sales, give him
the credit. Want to just reinforce that. And it's just like,

(29:37):
all right, my girls they're only five and two, but
when they get Instagram, they're following you. You know, they're
like doing their little ballet right now there with Lauren
doing ballet. It's just cool to see godly women that
aren't afraid to be a lamp on a lampstand, that
give God the credit. That man, this is all because
of him. And let's shout that from the mountaintops. So

(30:01):
I don't know where to go from there other than
just to say, whurrah is.

Speaker 1 (30:05):
That you say?

Speaker 4 (30:08):
No, I'm just trying to be American.

Speaker 2 (30:11):
Okay gets his green card and doesn't know what to
say a real fast no.

Speaker 3 (30:20):
I feel like just to kind of echo that.

Speaker 2 (30:22):
It's just I know that coming out of college and
entering the real world, there is a lot of unknown
and there is there's a lot of people who are
probably like, well, that's good for Chloe, because Chloe is
doing her a thing. But I'm still working my job
that makes twelve dollars an hour. I'm working at Costco,
you know, doing this?

Speaker 3 (30:42):
What am I?

Speaker 2 (30:43):
How do?

Speaker 3 (30:43):
How am I happy for her? What about me?

Speaker 2 (30:46):
Like?

Speaker 3 (30:46):
You know that kind of situation?

Speaker 2 (30:48):
And I feel like a lot of times, as women,
we tear each other down because it makes us feel
better or it makes us feel like, you know, we
can kind of level the playing fields. You know, what
would you say to somebody who is listening to this
and they're like, you know what, I want to be
happy for Chloe, but I really wish I could get there,
or I really wish I could do something cool with

(31:09):
my life that feels like it has purpose. That girl
that's feeling discouraged, what would you say to her?

Speaker 1 (31:15):
I feel like a big story that I whenever I
started social media, it was like the ninety nine that
found the One, like God goes after to find the one.
And I feel like, no matter if I'm speaking to
a million people or if I'm speaking to one person,
you're still speaking to one of God's children, and you're
letting that one person that may have not went to
heaven is going to heaven. So no matter if you're
influencing the people at work, you're influencing at school, it's

(31:37):
still you're such. You're as much as an influence as
an influencer is. And so knowing that, like, you have
a unique worth wherever God has placed you at in
your life, and obviously like, this is awesome that I
have this position, But even if I didn't have this,
I would be doing the same thing. I would still
be talking to the people around me, and I would
just be serving in a different capacity. So I am

(31:59):
blessed that I have, you know, this platform where I
can serve people and talk to people, but I would
just encourage them to serve wherever you're at, Serve wherever
you feel called to, and you will find that worth
in God and you won't have to be like, why
does that person have this going for them? And how
am I supposed to be happy for them? Whenever? My
life doesn't look like that, because when you're serving for
God and truly for God, you don't look at what

(32:20):
other people have and what other people you know, what
you don't have the other people have and you're just
happy for them. It's like, Okay, they're serving the Kingdom
of God. And at the end of the day, that's
what all of us are supposed to be doing, is
serving for the Lord. That's what we're called, that's what
we're on earth for. So why would we compare ourselves
to others in the Kingdom that are doing that same thing,
Because we're all called to bring these people to Christ.

(32:41):
And so if you're serving in you know, around two
to three people or two hundred people, it doesn't matter.
You're still bringing people to the Lord. And that's what
I would just encourage, you know, everyone to do. It's
just like, look and see. Even the opportunities to day
to day, you miss so many opportunities, even if you're
going to order something, you know, a restaurant, It's like,
what am I missing out on? That God's really calling

(33:03):
me to talk to this person. Even with me, I
feel condemned even day to day. I'm like I could
have talked to them and I could have talked about
God and it couldn't have just been a high How
are you?

Speaker 4 (33:12):
You know?

Speaker 1 (33:13):
It's just planning that seed is a huge thing, and
I think, you know, if you just are serving for God,
you're not going to try and.

Speaker 3 (33:19):
Save for the world.

Speaker 4 (33:20):
And two can become two hundred can become two hundred thousand.
Faith with the small much will be given the talents one, two, five,
one turn into two, turn into four, turn into eight.
If you're faithful and continue that obedience, that that long
obedience in the right direction. It is multiplication, it is
be fruitful and multiply. That is God's promise, that's his

(33:41):
desire for us. And often we just get so caught
looking at with bitter envy and jealousy, like you're saying,
which is very real. James calls it demonic, like it's, yeah,
it's a very real thing that I'm so stuck on
that that I'm not even stewarding. Whereas and that's what
happens to the guy with one. He's like, well, I
just was kind of buried it, and it's like, all right,

(34:03):
take that and give it to the one with five.
And it's that is what I don't want that for people,
and I love that. It's just like, hey, you got two, four, eight, sixteen.
That's what my math sins right there.

Speaker 1 (34:14):
But you know, I'm not a mad person.

Speaker 4 (34:18):
I'm an English person. So there you go.

Speaker 2 (34:20):
Well, you said something earlier that I kind of want
to like run back to really quick about how you know,
if it's one person or one million, or you know,
I'm speaking to one million people. I feel like just
to like really just bring it down even a level
to somebody watching or listening to this, that's like, well,
I only have forty five followers.

Speaker 3 (34:38):
Okay, well forty five.

Speaker 2 (34:39):
People in one room, in this room right here, forty
five people would feel.

Speaker 3 (34:43):
Like a crowd, right, you know what I mean?

Speaker 2 (34:45):
And it's just like it's so easy to look at
a number on a screen and be like, oh, well
she has four thousand followers and I only have forty
well forty people in a room and talk to them
and give them each a compliment, or let them all
each give you a compliment.

Speaker 3 (34:57):
That's forty compliments.

Speaker 1 (34:58):
You would be like, ohoh feeling yourself Yeah.

Speaker 4 (35:01):
That's a good point. Yeah, sorry, this is a Do
you feel that still? Do you feel like looking at
other accounts being like they've got four thousand and I've
got forty, like or do you feel like, man, I
got the most in the world or does it ever end?
Do you ever get to a point where you feel like,
oh man, I've got I'm like satisfied, or do you
still feel like that creeps in of like one day I'm.

Speaker 1 (35:22):
Going to I feel like I don't compare following anymore.
I feel like whenever I started and I wasn't rooted
within Christ, it's all about a number and all about
how how many likes and how many comments can I
could get? But then I obviously started being rooted within Christ,
and my why change. My why isn't like why do
I want to get bigger?

Speaker 2 (35:39):
Why?

Speaker 1 (35:39):
It's like my white is God. So whether I get
a thousand views or I get one hundred thousand views,
I'm still reaching people. And I know I'm doing what
God's calling me to do. So I'm not going to
compare her. But I do see videos and I'm like,
you know what that inspires me? That motivates me, Like
a lot of people, like my Christian family, I see
and I'm like, you know what, I could be doing that.
So instead of it being a comparison, it's more of
a inspiration. And when I watch people or obviously on

(36:02):
the vice versa, I see things and I'm like, you know, like,
what are they doing that? I feel like I don't do.
I have a piece of that where people are getting
the wrong view of things, especially like a lot of
times obviously have a lot of amazing things going for me,
but I don't want my social media ever to look
like a highlight reel. And I feel like a lot
of people it looks like that. And so when I
have a lot of little kids that follow me, like

(36:24):
actually my age range from, it's like the little kids
and then their moms follow me, and then their grandma's
follow me, which is the biggest compliment ever because if
their family, their moms and grandma's trust these little five
six year olds to watch me, like that's the biggest
compliment ever that they trust their kids to like me
to speak into their kids' lives. But if my why
is not in the right place, then it's like I'm

(36:45):
influencing them to the completely wrong direction. Yeah, and so
I always want my life to be so transparent on
social media that like, hey, I have all these blessings,
but also number one then from God and number two,
that's not what day to day looks like, Like things
are hard. Life is going to life a lot of times,
and I'm not perfect either, Like I'm not Jesus. And
I feel like a lot of times on social media,

(37:07):
whenever you say that you're a Christian and you walk
out the Christian life, people expect you to be Jesus,
and so when you make one mistake, people are so
quick to judge and so quick condemn you. And I'm like,
I'm not Jesus. I'm just walking out the Jesus life
and doing what it says in the Bible that I
am a sinner in need of a savior. And I'm
showing y'all that I am a sinner and I need
a savior because I make mistakes as well. And I

(37:27):
just feel like I never want my social media just
to be that highlight reel where people are like, oh,
she is it all going for her and like God's
blessing one person and not someone else, because I have
so many testimonies where that is the complete opposite. So
that is what I hope people know a byt my
social media is that I'm just you know, and I'm
just a human. I feel like a lot of people
who say of like seeing someone on social media and

(37:50):
they don't realize that I'm like, I'm just like you.
I live and just like you, you know, like I.

Speaker 3 (37:56):
Go to the babom.

Speaker 1 (38:00):
And even when I meet people in person, like it's
so cute that they're so so excited and I'm so
thankful that they're get excited. I'm like, I am just
like you, like it would be vice first time. I'm
so excited to meet you because like they watched my
videos every single day. They know what I ate yesterday morning.
So the fact that they come up and they say, like,
you know, we've fallen along with you and like You've

(38:20):
inspired us to do x y Z. And I'm like,
you're inspiring me by telling me this, because it's really
cool just to see the day to day of people's stories.
And I recently opened up a po box and that
shifted my perspective on another level because people were handwriting
me letters of their story and telling me that like, oh,
your video of x y Z, you know, helped me

(38:40):
through this season of God and God. You know, I
wasn't a believer before this, and it's like seeing God's
hand in all of these stories through what I'm doing,
it just it brought me to tears. You know you
don't see that, like whenever you don't really hear those stories,
I just know that God's calling me to it. But
actually seeing that pen and paper they took the time

(39:01):
to write out something and send it by mail to
tell me what God had done in their life through
my video, it just like that just told me that
God has me where I'm supposed to be at.

Speaker 2 (39:10):
You're tangibly seeing the fruit, right, and I think that's
what that's what it's all about, Right, what fruit are
you bringing to the world, right, And having you know,
a tangible piece of paper to say, hey, this is
this is how you brought me closer to Christ. Like
what a sweet gift that God gives you to say,
like absolutely, yes, keep doing that.

Speaker 1 (39:29):
And even on the days that I feel like discouraged,
like looking at those and I'm like, you know what,
these are the people that are Especially when I get
the negativity coming in, it's really hard not to focus
on I might have one negative comment versus one hundred positive,
but obviously the enemy wants you to see that one
negative that one negative comment I'll get shot, right, And
it's like dang, And sometimes I question myself. I'm like
some of the things that they say, I'm like, was

(39:50):
that true? And so going back to the word of
God in my why and even like reading those it
just like, really, I don't know it blesses my soul
seeing stuff like that.

Speaker 2 (40:00):
Well, let's talk to that one negative comment right now
in camera. They're they're sitting here, They're talking to you.
They're saying mean things about you. They are cutting you
down and questioning what you believe. What is something that
you would love for them to know about Jesus?

Speaker 1 (40:15):
You know, my worth is in God and your worth
is in God as well. And Jesus loves you every
single day, And no matter what you're going through, no
matter what the enemy is putting in your heart that
makes you feel like you have to say those things
about someone else, Jesus still loves you. And Jesus gives
you grace. He died on the cross for your sins,
and you two can have the life that all of
us have. You just have to let go of everything

(40:37):
that the enemy feels like is putting in your heart.

Speaker 3 (40:39):
So good, I want my daughter to follow.

Speaker 2 (40:41):
Emma and Ellie are going to get their Instagram first
follow Cleeve.

Speaker 4 (40:44):
I had no idea that that was like a thing
for you, you know, that audience. But I could feel
like as a dad, as a protector, just that trust,
you know, And I could And that's why I said it,
because I could I feel that just all over you,
that groundedness in the word and humility and the right
why behind the what it's good and having grace for
people who don't have grace. That's what God's trying to

(41:06):
teach me right now, because it's hard. It's really, yeah,
it's hard because I can see like you do have
it's obvious that you have a genuine love for those people,
but it's hard to have grace for those people who
don't have grace, who they make it their job to
tear down. And that's just like part of me do
I do my flesh And it's like realizing that's just

(41:28):
the same thing, right, that's no different. Oh my goodness,
I am a sinner who just gets triggered, just like
they just got triggered by something I did but it
wasn't the right And it's like, but it's worse because
I didn't do anything to them, and I'm like, no,
it's not worse. It still needs grace and I still
got to surrender that to God. So it's it's beautiful.

(41:49):
It's it's the beautiful wrestle of hopefully rendering well done,
good and faithful servants, the words we're all laying down
our lives of, like God, that's all we want. We
just want to live a life that we hear those
words from you.

Speaker 2 (42:04):
I I want to circle back to sort of the
beginning of our conversation. We were talking about you guys
getting married and deciding you didn't want to live together
before marriage and things like that, because I feel like
in today's world that's just not common anymore. It's a
very you know, it's one of those taboo topics where
people are like, it's not a big deal, don't worry
about it, and it all boils down to conviction, right,

(42:24):
you know. And I'm curious to know about you and
Colin's story of like how you guys came to that
you know, decision and then obviously living it out online
has got to be a vulnerable state to be into, right.

Speaker 1 (42:37):
Well, me and Colin actually we met on TikTok so
a lot about it. That's so he started out, he
started on TikTok before me, and we actually lived ten
minutes away from each other in our hometown. We had
so many paths thatway across. In high school we went
to rob a hot schools never met, and then I
met him on at TikTok. It was that's in itself
as a God story because I'm like, how did we
never like meet? But so me and Collen and ourselves,

(43:02):
we have our own story. But we I would our
relationship did not start out with God because in that
moment I was a freshman in college, I was not
I obviously loved Jesus, but I was not rooted in Jesus.
And so when we started dating, it's not that we
just didn't prioritize God. We weren't like going to church
every Sunday. We weren't like and we were doing We
did long distance for four and a half years. So

(43:22):
it's really hard to have a joint relationship when you're
doing long distance because it's like, how do we grow
together when we're apart. As we started getting better with that,
we would do our devotionals together and X y Z
and so really leading up to us, you know, me
graduating in us seeing like what is the trajectory of
our future and what do we want to change about

(43:44):
our family? What do we want to This is we're
leaving our mother and father. We're both you know, making
our own family, and what do we want our family
to look like? And I did not We both did
not want our foundation to start off on the wrong path.
The Bible is so clear about what living together before marriage.
And I feel like a lot of people read the
Bible and they take bits and pieces out and they
think that, you know, like, oh, that was in old times,

(44:06):
like it's different now. But the Bible is true today, yesterday, forever,
and I feel like it's sometimes the Bible is not
preached fully a lot of times, and people just want
to like take what bits and pieces that they want.
But this is so and it was so evident to us.
I'm like, you can't get around this, Like it is
so true that God does not want us live in

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together before marriage. I know a lot of people have
their you know, other ideas of that and saying like,
you know, it's good to live together before marriage because
you get to see another side. And I'm like, if
you don't know all sides of your person before you
live together, then we need to rethink this.

Speaker 2 (44:40):
Three and sorry, once you get married, you're still gonna
learn new sides of the person marriage. Look.

Speaker 1 (44:47):
Yeah, our biggest, our first biggest argument was literally about
groceries and food because I'm an only child and Colin
is not an only child, and he's used and he's
also a man, and he eats a lot of food.
I I am not used to sharing my food and
I'm only shots. I'm honestly not used to sharing a lot.
So that was our first big tifle was hey, don't

(45:07):
eat my leftovers ever again?

Speaker 2 (45:09):
Or my name was.

Speaker 1 (45:14):
No actually, and he was like, once it's in the
Fridgi's Free game. No, that's not how this household is
gonna work. Maybe maybe in the past, but this household no.
So so haorry. But yeah, it was very clear and
evident when we Yeah, so after I graduated, we knew
we found a place that we really really loved, and
it was just there was no question we were going
to do that period, and we wanted to not tell

(45:37):
people at first, just because we had already gotten so
many questions about it, and also obviously on social media,
so many people are watching me and they're watching my
I live out my faith, So what kind of influence
and steward of God. Would I be if I'm going
against what the Bible says and I'm picking up bits
and pieces and not living it. Even though obviously I'm
a sinner and I don't do everything you'reright in the Bible,
there are things that God is so clear about and

(45:58):
that is one thing. And if obviously, like me and
Coen share our relationship on social media as well, which
is a big thing because you also get a lot
of opinions on your you know, your relationship. So we
that was just a no brainer for us that we
wanted to do that, and obviously our convictions were that,
but that was from the start. We felt convicted from
the start to do that. And we've been together for
four and a half, well almost five years. We knew,

(46:21):
like I know that he's going to be my husband,
and we had prayed about it and it was a
given that we were going to get married. It was
just I'm like, Okay, do I want to live in
sin so I can plan this big, outurly wedding that
would be honestly for the world, and who has most weddings?
I mean, like it's a big celebration, which is great.
But like the it's not personal for everybody else, it's

(46:42):
for everybody else and not for God. So honestly, yeah,
so I'm like it was even more special it just
being me and him. And that was another reason why,
like I wasn't worried about the photos and the videos
and getting dressed up because I wanted in my heart
to feel like, hey, I'm going in with this with
the right intention and I don't need a to prove
that I'm getting married to the man and I'm doing

(47:02):
it the way that God wants me to do it.
And so it was just such a that was such
a beautiful day of like without the world, without the
photo and the video, all the things that will not
persist within the future, like it's just me and him
and God. And so that was like one of my
favorite days ever.

Speaker 2 (47:20):
Man. I just look, I could go on a whole
spiel about the wedding industry. Me and my husband were like, man,
we wish we could take it back, save all that
money we spent and this day for literally everybody else
to be happy and have a good time. Did we
have fun on It was one of the best days ever.
But like, did we need to spend that much money
for other people to like have a good time, you
know what I mean.

Speaker 3 (47:40):
It's just like.

Speaker 4 (47:40):
Truly ond percent I feel the same way, and it's
so good that you defended it because I'm like, you know,
when people immediately feel it or hear it, they might
feel or they might think certain things are like blah
blah blah with the with the gun in the courthouse.
But that reason, Trump's arguably Trump's my reason for having
a wedding with everybody else. I'm like just doing the

(48:01):
thing that cold. Like if you ask me why, I
didn't really have a conviction other than that's what you do.
I want my wife to be happy and she wants
to come in with the whole family and do all
the things. But like that reason of like it being
private and special and spiritual and focused and intentional and
personal amazing, Like let's make that a thing.

Speaker 3 (48:19):
And free, right oh yeah yeah.

Speaker 4 (48:23):
In your future and get people to like help you
put a deposit down for a fifty hundred thousand dollar anyway,
praise God. I'm not saying your wedding that you're going
to do is a big to be amazing, but I
really really love that reason, and that's like, don't judge
people because you don't know the why, and that's a
pretty amazing why that.

Speaker 2 (48:41):
And then also too, like your wedding, your your bond
between each other is not for anybody else. So it's like,
why does it matter if Chloe and Colin decide to
not have this huge wedding, they decide to go get
married themselves. Good, It's about them. It's not about your
opinion and whatever you have to say.

Speaker 1 (48:59):
So we're going to be like, look, we're going to
be married a year and a half on our wedding,
which is crazy. I'm like, yeah, we're getting married, but
we're having our wedding, but we're gonna be already married
a year and a half, you know, So I don't know.
It's a very and also like just motivating people that
you don't have to wait till having the celebration day
to go ahead and get married, because I feel like

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that's a lot of people's excuses.

Speaker 4 (49:22):
Is like, but hang on, wait, that's burning with passion
and you're not. I wait, that's exactly what Paul says.
M Paul says, better be single, but if you can't,
if there is this burning with passion instead of sinning,
get married, get married. Yeah, that's how she's been the Bible.
But culture, we're like, uh, and we judge that of
like can't control yourself when you really love someone. No,

(49:43):
that's how God made us. Why are we judging people
like that? Yeah, and why Paul says it, it's in
song of songs. Dude, I am for this. This is good. This.
I just want to go. Yes, so I need to
hear this, like this is culturally a freedom thing that
our culture needs.

Speaker 2 (50:01):
It's really good, and I feel like to the world
says that there has to be this huge celebration where
you spend all this money and you do all these things.
It's just like, if you go, and this is me
going off my wedding conspiracy theory tangent, but if you go,
you get you know, bouquets of flowers made for a
birthday party. Say it's four hundred dollars, and then you

(50:23):
mentioned the word wedding and it's the exact same.

Speaker 3 (50:25):
Okay, yeah, it's.

Speaker 2 (50:27):
Really four thousand. You're like, make it makes sense.

Speaker 1 (50:31):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (50:32):
The wedding industry to me is just a scam. It's
a big scam.

Speaker 1 (50:36):
The scam, the numbers. I'm like like wild, yes, actually
wild you your eyes are getting so big.

Speaker 3 (50:43):
You're like, I'm spending so much money, it's crazy.

Speaker 1 (50:45):
Well, it's just like even the amount of details, I
just I guess I didn't grow up like thinking of
this wedding, you know, this huge wedding. Like that's not
how I grew up. And even since you know, we
got married engaged, I didn't think I have not been like, oh,
this is my bridal era. I don't know. I just
have so many other things going on in my life
that I'm just like I can't just just be a

(51:08):
bride right now. And I feel like that's when we
got married. I feel like I realized that, you know,
it's not just about oh it's my bridal era. I
get to do X y Z. It's like what is
the root of the engagement period and learning each other
and what you're about to step into marriage and like
what are you? And I feel like because I went
to the courthouse, we have grown so much within the
Lord during this time that when we get married, it

(51:28):
truly will be a celebration of God because we have
like we were long distance before and a half years,
so we have learned so much about each other, but
we've also started out this relationship like it's just us
and we are creating our own family and our own
traditions and our own things that we are going to
teach our future children. And you know, obviously you have
we come from different families, and like I have an

(51:50):
amazing family, but I wasn't raised in the church, and
so there's different things that like I'm like, I want
that differently for our kids, and I want that differently
for our family, and so getting to spend this intimate
time together and really figuring that out, and it's not
having all these different people like speaking in because you know,
people want to speak into like your marriage and everything else.
And I'm like, no, I'm gonna sit here with him

(52:11):
and we're gonna learn, you know, what God says about
us and what God says about our relationship. And we
found a church here, which is really amazing. We started
going to a small group which is like a married
small group, which has been really really such a blessing
because the enemy really made me feel isolated when we
first got here, because Nashville is so big, but it's
also so small and so and there's so much good,

(52:33):
but there's also so much bad, and so we honestly
isolated ourselves because I was like, I'm not gonna put
myself around you know x y z if I feel
like it's going to lead us in the wrong way.
But I feel like I thought we were lonely, but
it really was just a season of us learning each other.
And I feel like that's how God wanted it to be.
He wanted us to just be like us too, learn
each other and figure out what season you're in. Because

(52:55):
now it's just it's so obviously you know there's gonna
be bickers and stuff, but like we it's such a healthy,
godly marriage and I'm just so thankful that like we've
gotten to grow through every season. Like I said, we
didn't really start out within the Lord and like getting
to have and he's been the biggest supporter through every
Like I would not be where I'm at without him,
just because what I do, it's like it's hard like

(53:18):
having someone like I mean, he's been through the whole
Alabama days and all the things that I'm involved in
with Titans and just I don't know, my day to
day is crazy, and he's just been the biggest supporter
And I feel like that says a lot about a man,
just because a lot of times the man wants to
be the one having a million things going on, and
so it's hard for like roles reverse and so for

(53:39):
him just to like be that person that like lifts
me up and it's like, I'm gonna support you, I'm
gonna be there for x y Z. Has been like
such a blessing because there is so much that's going
on that I need someone there that like loves and
supports and protects. And God really really blessed me with him.

Speaker 3 (53:53):
So what a foundation?

Speaker 2 (53:54):
You know? I just like, have you talking about your
marriage and the decisions you make. I just I just
see this like firm foundation board, and it's truly for you, guys,
you and the Lord, and I think that's so important,
and especially in today's world, man like it's all about
dating as many people as possible and you know, making
sure you found the right one and make sure you

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know everything.

Speaker 3 (54:15):
You know all these things.

Speaker 2 (54:16):
There's so much world right that is spewed up people
And how old are you? Twenty three? Getting married at
twenty three nowadays is like not heard of, you know
what I mean?

Speaker 3 (54:26):
And I feel like people are like, oh you're too young, No.

Speaker 2 (54:29):
No, get married now and then you know, live a
little bit of life together and then have kids and
then do the thing like I'm just happy for you, thanks,
and I'm just I'm excited for you guys, and I'm
glad you're building community. That's another huge thing in marriage
when it comes to, you know, getting three things together.
You need other people that are going through the same
things that.

Speaker 1 (54:48):
You guys are. And in marriage, I feel like with
social media, everyone always is like there's so many options
on social media, so it makes people not want to
commit because they're like, what option could be better? And
I feel like that's what social media is teach people
within marriage and what the en me's trying to teach, Oh,
there's going to be someone better and even when you
get married. That's why, like all the people you know
you have social media, it's like, oh, I could have that,

(55:09):
and then affairs happen stuff like that, and I'm like,
it's the grass is always greener, you know, on the
other side, and it's not like everyone else's is the
same way. And so yeah, yeah, we've talked about it
before too, about you know the world and what they
say about Marria.

Speaker 3 (55:26):
Oh I'm not in the honeymoon phase anymore. We fell
out of love.

Speaker 2 (55:29):
Well, good thing. Love is not going to feel like
butterflies and rainbows all the time, stair.

Speaker 3 (55:32):
It is going to be hard.

Speaker 2 (55:34):
You have to choose it every single day, even when
you don't like the other person. Got to choose it,
and that's a that's a choice. And having that firm foundation,
I think, is what helps get you through that. And
when you have a shaky foundation, that's when you decide, oh,
maybe there's another choice that's.

Speaker 1 (55:49):
Better, right, you know, yeah, come on, who man?

Speaker 3 (55:53):
We just went through all of the.

Speaker 2 (55:54):
Things crazy well in this season. Right now, Chloe, how
can we be praying for you?

Speaker 1 (55:58):
What?

Speaker 3 (55:59):
What is going on in your life that we can
pray for you for?

Speaker 1 (56:01):
I would just say pray for the calmness, because I
feel like right now that's where really where my brain
is if like the enemy is trying to still kill
and destroy me, being able to rest and like really
listen to what God has to say about me. Even
when I'm reading the Bible, there's so much noise in
my brain. And it's not even like negative noise. I
think it's just like I have so much going on
that then me wants to remind me of you have

(56:22):
this and this and this, and you could be doing
this and this and this, And I am praying right
now that I would just have that time during the
day where I could just like really listen to what
God has to say about me, and that that would
like cease because it's just so hard, like when things
are so busy. I feel like my brain I have
like fifty taps going on at once, and I want
to just like lay that all out for God and

(56:42):
be like, you know what this is yours. And I'm
praying for that right now. And I know that I
can and I have that, but it's just been really
difficult with the amount of things that I have going
on right now, and I know the enemy's just trying
to like make his way in. So just prayers that
I can chill.

Speaker 3 (56:58):
Outright pray us out. It's good, Heavenly Father.

Speaker 2 (57:02):
Lord, we just thank you for this conversation, and we
just thank you for the ears on the other side
of these microphones that is hearing this conversation that might
have taken something out of this conversation that they needed
to hear. Lord, and that you would just continue to
speak to them through that season that they're going through.
And we thank you for Chloe and her willingness to
be open about who you are and share the Word

(57:23):
with her followers. God, and we just pray over this
next season of her life that in all of the chaos, Lord,
that you would help her to find calmness, that you
would give her those quiet places to go to that
where she can hear your voice clearly. We pray over
all of the open tabs that she talked about in
her brain, Lord, that you would just close out the
ones that don't need to be open. Lord, that you

(57:45):
would just make away for more of your voice and
less of the outside world. That she would find a
sense of rest in this next season, in the chaos
and the busy, in the midst of all these amazing
opportunities that you give her. Lord, We just pray that
she does and forget who she is and who you've
called her to be, Lord, and that you just give
her rest in Jesus the same we pray, Amen,