I Have A Vision

Kalie is feeling creative again!  Is this the start of a new era?

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hey guys, I'm Kaylie Shortt and this is too much
to say. A questions it out you, Okay. So I've
talked a lot about the creative process and how it

(00:21):
works for me and I over the past year. I
haven't released any music for over a year, and I
think that's the longest I've ever gone, and I haven't
felt very inspired for myself. I've been writing all the time.
I mean, obviously I was focusing on the move to
l A, which was time consuming, but um, I've just
been kind of waiting for it to fall into place,

(00:42):
Like I remember the moment Open Book started to take shape.
I wrote over half the album in February of nine
and recorded in April, so it like happened really fast.
But it was the you know, the chasing down of
the ins for ration, Like it doesn't really work like that.
You can't just run it down. It's like you're waiting

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on something to click. And it's very frustrating because this
is my fucking job and I'm just relying on my
little brain to come up with something creative and exciting
and not to mention, like my job is creativity, so
there's still a lot of other output. I need to do, like,
you know, social media posts and writing songs for other
people and my podcast and all of these things. My

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deepop store, all this creativity, and I feel they'd be very,
very lucky. But it's like you're just it's like chasing
a white rabbit. It's absolutely bad ship that this is
how like my life works. So I just felt really
like creatively stale over the past year, and full disclosure,

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I was like pretty bummed at how the release for
my last DP went. Um, I wasn't I wasn't happy
with how it was promoted, and um, it was not
any one person's fault, but they're definitely worth some things
that should have happened that didn't, And it's just disappointing
when you work really hard on something and it doesn't

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get the love you feel like it deserves. So I've
just been not really feeling like an artist, not really
feeling like myself, Like I was describing it as a
little douche, but I was describing it to Sam a
few months ago that I was like, I don't feel
like I've been Kayleie Sure for a very long time.
I've just been Kaylee Anne Shure just like chilling and Um,

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I had a right the other day and everything clicked.
I mean, there's still so many more things to click,
but I like it was like, that's so raven when
she has a vision and she like zooms out and
you just see her eye going crazy, Like that's me.
That's me when I get a vision for my project.
And I am so happy to be in this phase
of the creative process. And I'm gonna tell you a

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little bit more about it when we come back. So
for me, it's always been like I need to have
a visual. I need to see some sort of like
color palette, artistic inspiration, some sort of thing that I
can turn into a Pinterest board before I make it

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into music. Because and when I know like the aesthetic
I'm writing towards, I kind of like we'll pepper those
words in throughout the songs and then make it all
really cohesive. And you know, for my EP Awake that
I put out in UM, there was a song called
Candy on there, and it talks a lot about like
you know, like different like it's like it's just a

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very like cotton candy sort of vibe happening there. And
the cover of the EP looks like I'm in a
bunch of cotton candy clouds and um. It also had
like a little bit of um like I was doing.
I had a very emo influence on that. And so
there's a lot of checkers from like checkered vans, and
that's I mentioned them in Cool Kids, And I just
created this like little universe at the project existed, and

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I picked like three colors pink, purple, and blue, and
like also like silver and black, and just like ran
with it, and that was like the only colors I
wore for like a year long period. I don't know
if you guys remember that, but it was like my
whole closet was pink, purple, and blue. And I have
since branched out and I'm wearing other colors. But that
was a very fun time. It made it easy to

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pick out my offense. But this time it just it
feels a lot like when things started to click for
open Book. But open Book was a slow process. I
decided I was going to make a record in June.
I got I just got the feeling. I was like, Okay,
I think I'm gonna be I think that's what I'm doing.
I think I'm making an album. I don't think I'm

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making an EP. I think I think it's going to
be an album. And the original idea for Open Book
was called Roses and Bones, and it was based on
this poem I wrote on my Little Sad Girl Poetry
account and it was like you have to let the
good things grow and the bad things go. Water the
roses and bury the bones, and so was like this
kind of dichotomy of like really pretty things and also

(05:06):
like dying things. So like just the contrast of like
good things and bad things happening at the same time,
and that really helped me get going on the album.
But it ended up changing because truthfully, just there were
a lot more bones by the time I was making
the album than there were rosians. Like it wasn't like
I fell in love after a horrible breakup. It wasn't like,

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you know, I started like I found myself for sure.
That was very exciting. I definitely I don't think I've
known myself better than I than I did when I
was making Open Books, like even even more than now.
I like where is she? Um? But I started just
there and elaborated on it, and then as I was
writing songs like um Alice in Wonderland and Gatsby. I

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was like, Okay, this is a theme that's popping up
and it's literature. So I was like, I'm going to
compose the album as a book and it's going to
have the thirteen chapters, and then there's gonna be like
Alice in Wonderland references like teacups and um, there's gonna
be Gatsby stuff like you know, just um kind of
unhinged party things like there's an unreleased photo from the

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Open Book photo shoot that um is me like in
a bathtub with like a bottle of wine. That was
very much the aesthetic was just like messy party girl,
ripped heights, like party dress that looks like it was
on a like baby doll kind of thing, and the
aesthetic just kind of unfolded. And I ended up using
a skull for my logo, which kind of originated with

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the roses and bones thing. And we had these little
icons that were reminiscent of a lot of the songs,
like we had an angry butterfly and um, they all
had something kind of hidden in them that was related.
And so when these things started to click, it was
like the best feeling ever to just watch it come together,
and it made the writing process so much easier because

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I just had the palette and the colors from Much
to Pain. So for whatever this new era looks like, UM,
the inspiration kind of started a couple of weeks ago.
I wrote a song in Nashville, of all places, um,

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even though I've talked so much about Nashville and feeling
creatively like stifled there. Of course I wrote this song
in Nashville. But there was a song I posted on
my Instagram and it was like the first song I
wrote after I found out my ex boyfriend cheated on me,
and it was the first UM thing I really posted
that was like indicative of the fact that I just
gone through a breakup. Like I remember a lot of
people text me after that and we're like, are you okay?

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And I was like, nope, not even a little bit um.
But I always loved the song and it was based
off of like an argument we had after he cheated
and he was like, what can I do to make
it up to you? Like there has to be something
and I was like thinking, and I'm like, okay, well
you could go back in time and unkissed her. That
would probably fix it. Um, and sometimes it's a real thing,

(08:03):
like where the only thing that somebody can do to
completely fix something is to just have not done it
in the first place. And that's a really schetty feeling.
I think you can come back from that, um, but
it's not. It was. It was hard. So I said
that to him, and then I was like, you know,
sitting by myself after he was staying somewhere else and
I just wrote the song and so that just fell out.

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And that was when like a lot of stuff started
to take shape for the album too, and for Open Book.
But then I came back to it like four years
later now because I've always loved that song. I wrote
it by myself, so there's not like copyright infringement or
anything like I have to worry about what that. It's
a percent me And so I brought it into them
and kind of mixed it with some other lyrics I

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had written down, and we created this whole new thing.
And as soon as I got the demo, I was like, Oh,
my fucking god, this is this is it. This is
the sound for the next thing. This is like the
kind of lyrics I want to write. And there's a
line in the song that I feel like is the
title for the EP, and now that I have that,
I can like really build off of it. So I
went into a manic rage, like rages in like a

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good rage, but like I was just like all over
the place, like making Pincher's boards, and like I just
I finally came to me and I've been waiting for
this for so long and it feels so good to
have it, and I think things will move quickly. I
don't want to go that much longer without releasing music.
I felt really weird and um stifled, and I've also

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felt like very like irrelevant, Like my job is to
release music and I haven't done it for over a year.
It feels fucking weird to have an entire year of
my life where I didn't do that because I've been
releasing music consistently since i was twenty one. So not
the best feeling. But now I'm like, I'm high on
the inspiration and I'm so excited to share it with you.

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It's still obviously in the very beginning phases, but I
just like I know that now that this is clicked
into place, everything is gonna move so fast and it's
gonna be really fun Era. So I'm so happy to
just feel something again. And and honestly, there's no better
feeling than when I love a song than I wrote
so much that I listened to it in my car
like ten times in a row. And I can't stop
listening to this one. I can't wait till you guys

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get to hear it. And um, I love you all
so much. Hope you are having a lovely week. I'm
Kaylie Shott. This is too much to say, and I'll
see you next week. Don't go asking questions now it
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