EP 310: Soul Snatching Hands & Good Vibes (Ft. Ms Sapphire)

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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decision. Hey, guys,
welcome to another episode of Harby Bled. This is your
I'm your girl, Mandy b aka Peg the Stallion aka
Mandy Basking taka dead Bitch aka I'll fuck your daddy
and your brother. Um okay, girl, girl, I'm single and

(00:25):
want to take him beat. I'm weazy. Welcome back to
this episode. If you've never heard of us before, you're
infer a ride. Well, I just said I would like
your daddy and your brother. No, if you have siblings
for a ride, not for me, because I ain't riding.
And you know that. Well, I just started yoga so
I might start riding. It's gonna taking time. Be someone
that pucking me in a gymp It's gonna take a time.

(00:46):
Have you never heard of us before. We're a disgusting
show and we're normally based out of New York, but
today we're in LA and we have a guess that's right,
we have misstap Fire joining us. Welcome to the stage.
I feel like I gotta say that it's a stripper name.
It really is. Were you a stripper before? There's your
government name? No? Okay, it's changed name it is, and

(01:07):
I'm glad that we're in LA. I think it's as
soon as we knew. We were like looking for guests, um,
and I said it. I love talking to other sex workers,
other women in the space and getting all these Are
you a sex worker? I am? She got her only
fans a week. I was just girl curious workers. No, no, no,
I was curious because I heard you say that you
don't do something which I'm sorry we'll talk about later. Yeah,

(01:29):
I wasn't under if you consider yourself a sex worker
or am SEUs both? But I keep it separately, dude,
Like in what way? I don't get happy endings? So wait,
but you're still a sex worker. But but we yeah,
we don't get Like, let's talk about what you do.
So you consider yourself a sex worker animal suite, what
part of it is considered sex work? That's a good question. Well,

(01:50):
I started off with only fans first, so I've been
doing only fans for like four years now, So I
was doing dat first. That's sex work. But I started
um must ssaging a year ago, and that's something totally different,
Like when I started with my mentor um the moment
like first section. He told me that I'm a healer,
and like started crying because I didn't want it. I

(02:11):
didn't want that job, but I heard it my whole life.
So we've been working for like a whole year on
my healing and for me to get to a place
where I'm able to heal without it affecting me. So
I figured that massaging was my way of healing because
I always heard my whole life my hands or like
healing or magic or just calm people. So that's why

(02:31):
I started massaging. And I wanted to separate the two
because but I just X work. Got it necessarily mean
you gotta make them. Oh you know what I'm saying,
Like if something is erotic, it could still be. Yeah,
I'm still very sacid with my massages. I just like
to separate the two because I don't want to make
it about I don't know. I just I don't feel

(02:52):
comfortable using sex with healing, even though sensual energy is healing.
But I still use my sensual energy. I like to
separate the two. And they say that, I mean sex
is spiritual sex for sure, connection there's all of those
things as well. And um, I did I know you
were you came in. Girl. First off, I thought you
were gonna be a little bit more shy so shy um,

(03:14):
but ironically too. I do want to share with the audience.
I found you because quite a few people were sending
you to me. I don't remember exactly the video, but
you have blonde hair. So there was a video where
literally I had like three dms like, YO, thought this
was you? Thought this was you. Now. Normally, any light
skin bitch with short blonde hair gets sent to me

(03:37):
and I'd be like, y'all, we're not the same at all.
But when I looked, I was like, I'll see it.
She kill What was the video? I have no idea.
You see her Instagram. I did what I'm saying. I
don't remember the one. I think the one where you
were massaging your partner, okay with the dreads, but the
one where you on top of him because you you small,
but baby, when you when you bend over and you

(03:58):
do it on the art, it's a crazy bit. That's
actually Emmanuel that I was massaging. That was Emmanuel. And
Emmanuel you said was your mentor. Um, No, no, no,
he's not my mentor. He's just a friend that inspired
me to start massaging as well. Well, we're gonna do
a really quick icebreaker. It's giving this so that and
you can explain to your answer for it. I want

(04:20):
to have fun. I picked these because I kind of
want you to get into it too, with your whole ass.
All right, oral oral for hours or quickie with penetration,
oral for hours, pleasing quickly with penetration, quicker with penetration
for me too? Why oral flowers? Um? Is it for me?
Or am I giving it? You're you're Oh? I considered both.

(04:42):
I considered both. Does the answer change for no? Okay,
it doesn't change. Okay, I can't suck a different hours.
My I can suck a day for twenty five minutes,
which is pretty long. That's long. I told y'all, I
get lazy. So that's why I love eating as and
sucking balls because it's not as much work on my
jaw because it's not open. It's just but like when
it's did, it's like the muscle here isn't that strong?

(05:05):
I don't think. So you're doing you're doing oral for hours?
All right? Yeah? Toes in mouth or tips in mouth?
What do you proper? For you too? But I don't
get it. But when it, when I get it, it's
just like, oh my god, are you putting your toes
in there? I mean, you know what's funny? I mean, sorry,
guys toes before? Do you like it? Um? It was

(05:27):
a little weird because its toes big? But what made
you do it? He wanted it, and I'm a pleaser,
so I like to please people. It gets me off,
So I think that's why I choose oral. Four plays
just does it for me. I can't I can't have
four play. I mean, I can't have a quickie without.
Did you suck the toe like I did? I did it.

(05:48):
It was a big one. It's just like what else
nice toes though, So that's why I did it. I'm
not gonna lie, I think. I mean, y'all know how
I have been with feet in the past, but like
you have been with feet, Like it was like you
know what I've been with Puerto Rican man and also feet.
Well no, I used to not like anything with feet,
but my but my ex like was a toe foot
sucker like crazy, and I think it was just the

(06:11):
sexiest thing. Like I have a video recording him doing it,
and I'm like, this is the hottest fucking thing in
my phone. I was like, damn, I wish you had
a ski mask on so I could really sending this
to mother. I don't know. I don't like feeling like
my feet feeling wet, like, oh it tickles. Girl. I
was laying down like this and then I feel like
I'm gonna hit a tooth. Girl. No, you lay in

(06:32):
between their legs, right, So I'm laying in between his legs.
My foot is in his mouth, and he's rubbing my pussy.
At the same time, I was bit y'all had a
different type of orgasm. I ain't even gonna hold your
missionary with the toes in the mouth like it it's hot,
but I'm used to still like, okay, let's get the
little side and stuff. I don't want to feel the
spit in between. It feels like spacers with spit, like

(06:53):
faces with spit. All right, sex in front of your
parents or never having sex again? Oh my god, damn
what I never have sex? Ag. I think, okay, I'm
just gonna pick the parents because I think, yeah, yeah,
I'll be a grumpylate. Maybe it's like what like I'm
in a show, Like what do you mean sex in

(07:13):
front of parents, like they walk in and they're out.
No bit you you perform in front of your parents,
Oh my god, and you know you've been getting all
kinkies shit you. If I just had to lay there,
I could do it. If you just had to lay there.
If I could just lay there and be blindfolded and
just pretend they're not there. Can I wear a mask on?
You know what's crazy? Mom came in and said you

(07:35):
are the number one dick sucker. She would have to
see if she really do mean, I would do it.
How No, she just knows from the way Nigga's act
about you. And then she'd be like, oh, you're a
great dick sucker, which I am. Come on, great dick,
thank you, Juel. All right? Last one small penis or
premature ejaculator. Premature ejaculator sounds great. Yeah, I think I'm

(08:00):
gonna go with that too, which I don't care small
dick shaming every other. Now that I found out that
com comes out of one ball, you got another ball
to work with it, So one ball at a time,
don't get me there. So I was saying on a
Patreon episode that someone I know had testicular cancer and

(08:20):
when they were talking about the prosthetic ball. Basically, I
guess the doctor had implied like, hey, like, you may
notice a difference in being able to take your refractory period,
which is when you're able to get up and get
hard again, right, And apparently it's because the com comes
from one ball. So he's like it had something to
do with that, And I was like, oh, I mean,
not that I've ever thought about it, but I was like, oh,

(08:41):
you've got one more net first. I just learned too,
when you get a basectomy that it separates. I didn't
know sperm and semen were two different things. So apparently
the basectomy separates the sperm from the semen because the
sperm is what swims to a little egg. Yeah, this
is not a science podcast. The semen is the fluid.
But then how do you suffer from from the fluid.

(09:02):
The sperm is the little the swimmers. Yeah, but aren't
the swimmers in the fluid, right? I feel then they
just disappear. Here's how I imagine. And it's funny because
there's probably a nurse listen to this, but I feel
like they probably got two little poles right where it's
like or like, you know, like tubes and then they

(09:23):
just plug one up like a tampon and then boom,
you just get one side and I right, I'll quit
the show. I'm becoming doctor got more than just that.
I don't think they're handing out doctor degrees for knowing, uh,
the difference between sperms. Listen the way that I stuck.
They might need me to go to not they Well,

(09:43):
this next one I'm gonna eat out because it has
to do with ultimatums and it also has to deal
with you bringing something into the bedroom and then being mad.
So the Vanilla Ship comes from Newsweek and it's about
a wife who is distraught over her husband's browser history.
Let me get into the to the tail is oldest time.
So a wife described her shock and heartbreak after discovering

(10:04):
her husband's browsing history. The woman explains that she has
been married for nine years, has two children, and leads
a happy life. In an attempt to reconnect after having children,
the couple decided to explore bringing a man into their
sex life. We had one experience and it was great,
but was uncontrollably cut short. So we've opened our minds
to the possibility of trying to find a male friend.

(10:26):
In the meantime, the husband has gotten a new job
and started traveling more. She says that the night before
her husband was to leap or work to Europe for
ten days, he asked if it would be all right
for him to have sex with a man. After she
said no to him, she writes, I couldn't talk. I
just cried myself to sleep. She explains that her husband
assured her that he would not act on the suggestion.

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Well later, the woman went through his browser history and
found that he had spent many hours researching escorts, massages
and other things in the area. So she's here staring
at her kids, heartbroken and now hiding from the world.
The post drew sympathy, and of course people tagged in,
but the update is that she confronted him with an ultimatum.

(11:12):
He immediately apologized for everything. He said. He visited a
strip club and one sex club but was turned off,
and he told her that he was death, that he's
become desensitized from sex over the years. She gave him
an ultimatum that she would leave the child and tell
everyone why, and she says since then he's been amazing

(11:32):
to them. Now if you're planning to out your husband,
and now he's just showing up as this amazing man.
I do feel like maybe he's not being honest with
you now. I do also want to I wanted to
have the conversation with both of y'all about and I
think a lot of our audience may do this when
you introduce something to the relationship and then you decide, Okay,

(11:54):
this doesn't work for me. Now I want to pull
it away, but your partner is still kind of like, well,
I kind of still want this. What was introduced? Men? Right? Right?
I was like, did I wanted to be? I was curious, like,
was it like them a like escorting men's particularly but okay,
and so she gave the ultimatum. She also, i would say,

(12:14):
threatened him by quote unquote all him. But I wanted
to know Wheezy and you if y'all have ever had
any relationship where something got introduced and it either damaged
the relationship or you didn't wanted to retract and the
partner did not want the same, I've never been in
a situation like that, Okay. I know, like from feeling
my story is old, You're like, and I had three

(12:39):
sums and then he basically just said, hey, she's cool
with me fucking other bitches and fucked every bitch in
New York. But the difference was that for me, it
felt obviously, if we're having three sums together, it feels like,
you know, we made the decisions together, like it's one
person is consenting, the other person is consenting. Great. I
also think that women that are bisexual that welcome three stems,

(13:02):
in which a lot of girls do. It's difficult because
you have to really like beat over a man's head
that you're not cool with him sucking out the hose,
because I've heard this so many times, not even just
from him, but like when I would vent to homeboys, like, well,
why are you mad if you just know that he
just wants to get some pussy. Sometimes sometimes you get pussy.
It's still lying, right, And men sometimes think they're like
saving your feelings by not telling you that's not when

(13:24):
in reality, it's like when you find out that someone
was that deceitful, you can't get over it. And I
know a lot of people probably don't understand. They listened
to the show like, oh, well maybe he started cheating
at this point X y Z like I found out
it was the entire three and a half years i'd
been with him, you know. So when that ship came out,
a lot from browser history too, and I realized you
searched the browser history. I at one point saw his

(13:47):
laptop right, and then it was just like, damn, this
is like kind of insane. So I was like, how
is he just meeting all these girls? That's one of
my questions. He was in escorts too, for both of y'all,
what does your partner's history tell about them? Like do
you judge a partner by the porn they watch? What? Like?
How did you judge his brows history? So I saw

(14:08):
escorts in the browser history. Have you ever looked through
a browser history? She's like, no, which I don't care about.
I respect people's privacy. I feel like if I can't
if I'm looking, that means I can't trust you. So
why am I with you? I only look if I
have a really bad, strong feeling, but I'm seeing That's
like a lot of people say that, like, oh, if
I'm gonna look like I shouldn't be with you. But

(14:31):
that's a difficult thing to say because I've said that
before too. But I feel like we don't really mean
it until we're presented it. Right, Yeah, let's say that
we got like this fight or something doesn't feel right,
like when if it's easy, right, Like I'm not saying that.
I was trying to mcguiver and open up the laptop
if it's easy, and sitting there, I'm kind of like, oh,
let me just look right, you get this inkling and

(14:51):
the one thing I will say that made it difficult,
which is why it's really hard. And I'm like, I
hope I never do this again. Once I saw a
piece I needed to know the rabbit hole, how far
we're gonna keep doing? Like all I saw it was
one little thing about a bitchy fuss, and I was like, Okay,
if there was just one bit you fuck during COVID,
ain't no way you wouldn't sucking them holes with the
world one down. And so like it started growing and growing,

(15:14):
and then you know a lot of my friends would
say shit to me like oh, I'll just leave them right,
and I was like, oh my god, like I don't
know if I could do it. I don't know if
it is easy. Maybe I'm gonna find something that made
me feel better, like it's almost like your brain can't stop,
bro and it's trash. But how I knew it was
really bad? And it's funny because the escorts actually made
me think, Okay, he has no idea what he's doing,

(15:36):
like emotionally, like he's not trying to hurt me. Right,
you're that obsessed with sex that you can't just go
a Wednesday night without me fucking like you actually need
to go buy some pussy? Who an attractive man in
New York who can't just go out and get it.
It's like you need it to be that accessible, like
you really do it sex. I think it's a power
thing too. Yeah, sure you thinking? I think I think
the power I mean money. That's why man, I think

(15:57):
worked so hard to make money is to be able
to literally buy what they want, no feelings attached. Well,
now you know why you're here. I think a lot
of people also like disposing a woman. I don't know
if paying for pussy makes people feel powerful. I think
not all the time. I feel like some guys feel ashamed. Yeah,
I was gonna say, yeah, I don't think I think

(16:17):
you're thinking of it, like like I think when my
homeboys like flying girls out and doing shit like that
dipping them off, then I think they get a little power.
But if you really got to pay for and nobody knows,
like who is the power work? The girl that takes
some money to me is the one who kind of
run in the show, but flying somebody else, flying somebody
I was still paying just not right right right, just
but like you kind of feel like you send them

(16:38):
up when someone has a service. I actually don't think
you have power if you're buying a service in my brain,
but maybe because over the year, so maybe why but
I always have this like high I don't know, I've
got a super high value for sex workers over the
last few years doing horrible where I'm just like these
niggas really as these girls are tricking off like for

(17:02):
for even your only fans um and the content that
you know was out there if you were with a partner,
are there are there like any sort of subscriptions that
you would feel away if your partner was subscribing to them,
like now you know and kind of what you give
to others, Like look and you you're making our face
like yeah, bitch, no, I'm laughing because my current partner,
he used to be a fan of me before we

(17:23):
sat a dating so he used to be subscribed to
my own fans and he used to watch my videos.
So it kind of makes me feel good that he
used to jerk off to me. And Okay, so then
is there but is there an even insecurity? If he's
following another bitch, he may want more because from you.
So there was an insecurity in the beginning because he

(17:43):
did express to me that there was another girl that
he had a big crush on that was also a
sex worker, and when I seen her, I was like,
we look nothing alike, So what is your type? Like,
why do you like me? I don't? Was like we did?
We did? And I was like, I kind of and
I probably flip flop with this because I'm not sure,
but like there's moments where I see a nigga's type,

(18:04):
I'm like, Okay, well, at least I know you're into me,
But if I see you go all the way left,
I'm like, do you even like me? That's what I
didn't know until I saw every girl that but that
brought an insecurity out of you did see him like
another girl that didn't look like you? Yes, why did
you talk to him about that? We didn't, and he

(18:25):
stopped liking herself and that's why he's my pipe. Wait
wait wait wait, So we have multiple conversations about it
because again, even though when he did stop, I still
felt like you're only stopping because I said something. But
we had multiple conversations until I got to the point
where I did trust what he was saying. What what

(18:47):
made you? What was his response about like his type?
Did he say he has no type? He said he
like all his Yeah. He was like, I don't think
I really have a type. Um, I' data girls that
didn't have tattoos then, but tattoos. I I'm gonna try
to set the girls with tattoos. It's just like a
little extra on, you know, on top of everything else.
But he was like, most of my girls don't have
tattoos because the girl was headed up. So I'm just like,

(19:10):
how wait huh? To me, it's more like bodies about
body too, because she's thicker, like I'm a little tinier.
I don't have fat ass to do when you've been over, yes,
you do. You know what I've learned here for anybody
that kind of has a body type like me, it's
where like you got some curs with your ass, saying like,

(19:32):
b yeah, I realized, Like Nigga's just like ass. They're
gonna end up with who they end up with, but
they are always that, always gonna look like everybody likes ass.
Like I know, I got a small frame and I
got like a little BC cup booty. You know what
I'm saying. It fits my size. But if a nigga
sees some poor with a fat ass, he's cooking on it.
He kind of like his thing his feet, and he

(19:52):
loves my feet. So he got nothing to do with
the physical. It might just be the feet tower her feet.
I don't never see that he was subscribed. It was
her only fans different than yours, Like what was your
what's your content versus hers? Um, she does solo stuff.
I only see her stuff on Twitter, but she only
does solo stuff. Um. But he just kept saying like

(20:13):
that was my high school cuch Like that's not you
know I met her. I'm pretty one. How he is
twenty eight? You said high school? Culs, I'm my only
fans been out there long? No, no, he said before
like probably wouldn't. Oh they didn't. But he said he
knew her before, like she's older, she been. But that's
why I trust him, because like we've had multiple conversations

(20:34):
that he just kept telling me, like trust me, you're
my dream girl, like you're at my dream girl. I've
seen you and I wanted you. Like when I seen you,
I was like, I will wipe that girl, he said
with her, he was like, oh, I would just suck her.
He was like that's a difference. And I'm like, what
do you mean though today and listen, I don't know
what that means either. I've been having this conversation like
because you a lot of Danny get to my A

(20:55):
lot of fans, A lot of men even say they
wouldn't wife sex workers or with a girl he couldn't
have only fans so say that. But I'm not into
guys like that, So I know that's right, but clearly
a huh, I don't know. I don't know how. I
don't know what how guys think, because like when niggas
say that to me, there's I've had been say that

(21:18):
to me too. I'm sure you probably heard yeah like that.
I mean Dave said that to me too. Wait wait,
hold on, I was talking about the opposite. I was
saying I've had niggas say, oh, no, I'm into you,
but this girl's just x y Z And I'm like,
yeah that but why but why because also like I've
got hor right in my bio. It's giving niggas by.
He's probably saying it to the other bitch too, maybe,

(21:41):
But he's monogamous though, so it's not like he's saying
that he would suck her now. It's just he said
when he saw her, he was just like, oh, I
would suck her. But when I saw you, it was like,
oh I will wife her. Okay, got you? Yeah, all right?
These niggas be lying, well, it may also be that
he wants to wife you because you also go by
the sault snatch a baby. We have been known as

(22:06):
well to snatch some souls from time to time during
ard you know from from every time. That's what you
thought I was doing during the rain. And so for
the hore Derve this week, I wanted you to share
some oral tips on snatching souls because you say you
do it, and you do it well. There was a

(22:28):
video where you went byrow snatching it. So give us
some tips on what has worked for you and what
every man kind of it's worked across the board. I
feel like sometimes you just can't teach look like energy
or passion. I feel like I snatch souls because I'm

(22:48):
very passionate with it because I actually enjoy it. Um.
I feel like it has to do with the sloppiness,
the passion, the eyes. I just it's just like slow.
But I don't know, I just I don't know how
to explain it because it just feels right for me,

(23:10):
and I don't know how to like teach that. But
you do with your eyes. You mentioned your eyes eye contact. Umm,
I even give like little innocent eyes or the like that, right,
so but I give that like that, but it's the

(23:30):
eyes that just like like that's it. They love it.
It's like but I remember, like when I was nineteen,
was like I was eighteen, I was this this guy
he told me I sucked and that was the moment

(23:52):
that I my pride hurt, right because I can't suck
at things like I have to be good at things.
So I'm actually grateful for him to telling me the
truth because I made it. Did he say was bad?
I don't. He didn't necessarily tell me. He just said
I stopped. This is bad. And I was so embarrassed
that I told myself, I'm never gonna hear this ever again.

(24:13):
And so I watched the video. It took only me
watching one video. I don't remember because it was very old.
But the lady explained that the little thing in the
back of the head, of the tip of the head,
the front of him, yes, they said, she said that
was the spot. And I just rang with it, and
I don't know that's what helped. And I died something
that can be uncomfortable for people. No, but that I

(24:36):
saw it. I was throbbing over here right now. You
don't give my contact, Oh yeah, I'll gonna rub all
this pussy juice on his couch. So I realized. I
realized that most guys that's their spot. So me, I
have a small mouth. I don't know how to deep
throat for ship, and so that's why I tell people
I don't deep throat, but I learned how to be

(24:57):
good at giving head other ways. You can also cover
the whole dick without deep throating, and I think girls
sometimes just stay at the top without like getting the side. Yeah,
because I gag a lot, So if I like get
the side of your dick, like why has the side dry?
It shouldn't be only went from spit in my hand,
like okay, but do you fake gack? I still go
as far as I can go because I try to

(25:17):
get the spit from the back of my throat because
they do like it's sloppy, you know. So I do
do that, but I can't go that far. And so
I always tell people like I do not got the throat,
but I am a soul snatcher like period, because I
know a lot of people do assume like deep throating.
I mean, yeah, the niggas don't be having that much
dick to give anyway, that don't ye? Can you do?

(25:44):
Can you grow? Can you grow your dick? Sir? When
you watch Pouring up and you see the ad pop
up order one of those fucking pills you us favorite. Sorry,
I'm gonna I don't really oh yeah, And I'm like, also,
just I don't know it. Just I woke up on
the side of the bed that wasn't right. Um, you said,

(26:06):
fuck the medium. Well for the horrible decision. We finally
go get into it. We're gonna get into your magic hands, okay,
and you being a masseuse and doing erotic massages. Let's
get into erotic massage. Let's do the difference. Because what's
the difference between your erotic massages? And do they come

(26:28):
with happy endings? Um, they don't come with happy endings.
But I have given happy endings, So you can't pay
me for a happy ending. But if I've vibe with you,
it just depends on energy. If I decide to just
give you one in the spot, then I decided to
give you one, I gave you more that wasn't a

(26:48):
part of the package. Most people tip me, so yeah,
like it's no issues. So what makes your massages erotic? Um?
I think it's just my sensual energy. Are you making
that what you're wearing is? I do wear song sports
brawl or like a bathing suit, so I'm always like
half naked. But I think it's just more so my touch, um,

(27:11):
my sensual touch. I also get on top of you,
I get close to your like face. I start so
like I'm on top of you and my face is
right next to your face. I'm singing in your ear
along with can I hear a little song saying girl,
I'm not singing, what the fuck are you singing? Well?
I usually play Sabrina Claudio do you know yeah, I

(27:32):
love her too. Yeah, yeah kind of, But honestly I
didn't even eventually at a little it's not weird to
be talking about how like the humming, you know, it's
vibrating and all that. Men like that. Yeah, so I
need to what you be because to put me on
my boys a little deep, but what you'll be putting

(27:54):
in the ear for them to be like, say, I'm
you gave us your eyes and you can't use us
your vocals? Yeah, is there anything with your mouth? Are
you kissing or you licking or is it all just
your hands? It's just all my hands, all my energy. Um.
It's crazy because I didn't intentionally start singing, like I

(28:16):
was just singing along while I massage because I it
just makes me get into the mood. Um. And then
I just started getting complimented on my singing. So I
just made it a part of it after that because
I'm like, damn, everybody like singing. Do you only do men? No?
I do women too, and so yeah. So one of
my friends was like, you gave me like a girl,
a boyfriend experience, a girlfriend experience. He was like, when

(28:38):
you were singing Oh my god. I felt like I
was being serenaded. Like I was just like, okay, So, yeah,
everybody compliments that part, so I guess that's what makes
essential too. Um. But yeah, every every guy mostly they
get hard and does that make you uncomfortable? No, it doesn't.
It's a compliment. For me. I feel like I'm doing
my job. Well, it's weird because I know regular massages

(29:00):
be turning me on. I'll be like, I do not
like this. Yea woman rubbing me right now, ain't nothing
about I'm sexy, but goddamn, I don't know whatever you're imagining.
I'll be like, opening my lab happened. Well, I did
have once, but that was okay. We ain't gonna get
into that. So I get horny and massage, but not
for the person because I go to these like rinky
dinky places a lot. So when I'm at the rinkyd right,

(29:22):
And why did they always do this? I swear if
you go to a little shitty massage place, right, they like,
I'm not doing an accent, but I'm telling you the exit.
Just just hear me. Tell me, y'all ain't had this happen.
So I go to a mad spots in Korea town
even in New York, it's like reneweled or whatever. They
got like a bunch of them. Anytime I'm face down,
I can't see who was about to massage me. When

(29:44):
it's a man, it's always a little man anyway. You
just hear them. That is so fun, you know what
I'm saying. You hear the feet and they're like okay,
but like and I'm just like, I don't know, he
looks like and everything it's okay, but they do like okay, okay, okay,
let me find out be masages are damn near glory
holes for you. You don't know who who is such
a bo I never know because my face is always

(30:06):
down so towards the end of the massage, and like,
I guess i'd be tense when I know it's a man,
so they always have to be I'm sowhere, and then
by the time I flip over, I'm so relaxed. Then
I don't want to look at them because I'd be like, damn,
now I'm kind of turned on. So I don't want
to look at you and you not be what I
want to see, you know what I mean. I'll be
squeezing my eyes clothes, wait until they get the towel

(30:28):
to put over me, and I'm always given and then
and then it's given up. I don't even see him
at the end because I'm telling you, they'd be so
in and out. It's like their turnover is crazy. At
the massage places, think about when you go in one
of them, there's like ten books, you know what I mean.
And that's actually the difference between Like I actually have
someone that comes to massage me. Oh my god, his

(30:48):
name is Joe. He is tied and he's fired. But
I realized, like when someone comes to your house and
you spend a little more money, they really focus on you.
Oh yeah, he's a healer too, right, And like I
realized my massages customs how I'm feeling. So it's like
spending extra money on a massage I will do if
the person's worth it. And I've noticed that the people
to come to your house normally, are you do you

(31:09):
do you do couples as well? Yeah, I've done couples.
How do you do it? How is that? Yeah? It's
actually really fun, Like it's fun because they do it
with me. So so I have a friend that's a
couple and he wanted to give his girlfriend a forehand
massage for her birthday. And it was so cute because

(31:30):
he just kept trying to follow everything I was doing,
and I was just like, just be yourself, like you
don't have to do exactly what I'm doing. So it's
cool because I get to teach them. I get to
teach them how to be more intimate. So yeah, I
had fun. I was telling him what to do, like
kiss her forehead, do this, and do that, and yeah,
she was loving it. She had a big smile on
her face, like, oh my god, this is amazing. So

(31:51):
I do love helping couples, you know, be more. See,
I'm gonna be honest with you. I don't know if
I could, like, and I'm a really respectful person. Yeah,
I don't know if I can hire somebody attractive to
give me a couple of massages. Why no, because like
I'm gonna want to fuck. And she said the energy, right,
I know. But like the thing though, you don't you

(32:14):
know what I mean. You don't want to be rude.
But like if I got a girl telling me what
to do, what, I'm robbing my nigga and be like
did you kissing with me? You should just ask, so
what's the about the packages? What else do you come with? No?
But so one of the things that I really enjoyed though,
like and I wanted to your captions and I really
liked it through central massages. Through these massages, you say

(32:36):
that a part of it is also creating a safe
space for black men specifically, and I kind of wanted
to dig into that because what does intimacy and a
safe space? What does that look like to you? And
how do you how do you bring that? You know
to your partners. First, I just feel like I have
the energy that just I don't know what it is.

(32:57):
I've always had guys just be comfortable telling me the
craziest things, and so I just created say, I don't
guys tell me that I have that energy where I
make them feel soft or just comfortable or it's just
like relaxing homie vibes. And so I just beat myself

(33:17):
and they just say things, and I always tell them
it's okay, Like if they cry, it's okay, I'll give
them a hug. It's okay. Let it out. Tell me.
I mean, I mean, if you've given a hundred massages,
how many of them cried um. I feel like one
guy was trying to hold back. It touched my heart though,
because he came to me because he said I just

(33:38):
lost my mom and I just need a woman's touch.
And I was just like, oh, oh wow, that's Jesus.
And I was like, I got you. I'll give you
extra life. I mean, I guess. I mean I'm gonna
be real. I couldn't. You couldn't do it because, like
I feel like when people are grieving sometimes sex helps, right,
Like I remember the first time I had sex after

(33:59):
grieving a loss of my family member. But like, your
mom died, and then it's also like a woman touch
I need. That is a little weird. No, like your
mama just died and you want a woman to be
touching you like this. No, but he's basically saying like
I need some love, you know, keep like keep missing. No,
he did not. It's like it's like if you're saying, like, hey,

(34:22):
I had a bad day of work, I need a
woman's touch. Right, that was just the circumstances they do,
you do hear me? That ship kind of was a
little weird. Was like saying he didn't want to show
up somewhere in here like um, I do. But I
do notice that guys definitely are very tense and they

(34:43):
get um. I don't know it takes them a while,
but I guess them the lashings do even put them
in like do you put them in in submissive positions?
Where wait, I'm assuming it's a regular table right and
their legs in the air like I missed my mom? What?
Maybe all fours? I don't know how people like to

(35:03):
be missiles sometimes on all fours, Mandy, listen, I like
a little missige on all fours. Crack this back? What
that's how you gotta crack it? You know? Like the yoga?
What is the downward dog type shit? Okay, sometimes you
gotta have that ass something the air? What listen. I've
been to yoga, like y'all. Some of the positions I
literally be like the yoga don't do me? And I

(35:23):
did realize I I went twice to see I didn't.
I'll tell y'all what. I just went to it. I
really hope somebody black works at your local one, you nigga.
I went to Solid Court. Y'all heard of that? Yeah, well,
I tell you what someone said you shouldn't go there

(35:43):
if you can't plank for at least a minute. And
I see why. I was like class and I was
like the my I was contracting so much. I thought
I had the ship. That's how strong. Wow, my stomach
had to be. I don't know why you'd be going
to ship like this sounds all thankful, though, it's the point, bitch.
That's how you get lit. That's how I'm getting bro.
I can't tell you I'm I've never had one three

(36:04):
in front of my weight in two years, Like I'm
one thirty something. Maybe it's one thirty nine, but I
think I said in one hundred forty one. I was
one forty nine in Thailand. So the fact that I
lost ten pounds that quick just from like actually like
really working out bugged me the fuck out. That's awesome, right, bat.
It's hard, but it can't get there unless I'm in pain.

(36:27):
So it's either maybe I'm pain. I'll tell you that
I heard about that. Why to try it? I just polize, bitch,
my ribs hurt. To enjoy that pain a little though,
I was like, just somebody just punched me. It feels
like it's working when you feel it. I feel well breathe.
I was like, all right, I know I just worked
out because I feel it. If I could laugh and
feel the pilates, it works. But see, this is what

(36:49):
you gotta do. I've been telling people because they're like, oh,
how'd you gonna lose a weight? Lorie Harvey? It was
gonna eat it. But I was telling you that bitch
is like, I ain't two hundred calories and I burned
them all. And I do work out in the morning
and the night, but basically do intermitte passing with the
twelve hundred collies, like you just really slim down. It's like, okay,
so he does. He's sorry, okay, right, so you don't
got to do half right? Uh let me let me

(37:11):
ask you before we get into our homemail um in
terms of because you get arousal from it, you know
the people are getting arousal from it, what does that
conversation look like when you're giving massages to people outside
of your partner? And clearly he respects the work, but
are there conversations what do you mean around that? Like,
are you guys then in an open relationship? Open? Right?

(37:33):
And that's why she said, did you hear me. You
mentioned monogamous, and that's why I'm asking, because there's such
the sexual energy involved with this. You're aroused sometimes you
know that the people are going to be arousal Oh yeah,
do you be jealous? Like is there? He's not jealous.
And we just started dating, so I haven't really massaged
much people since. So you ain't got there yet. Okay, yeah,

(37:54):
I don't even sage the girl. But he's not jealous.
He's not a jealous person at all. Now, I might
be jealous. Their conversation about now boundaries that he wants
you to have if you go massage men because now
y'all are in a religions. Actually we actually I actually
did massage a guy. But no, he didn't. He was
just like, oh, get your money, Yeah, go ahead. That
was it. We never really him. Come on blacking sex work,

(38:17):
I know that's the fun. You can't get the sex
record too. So he gets what's he doing sex? Yeah? Yeah,
only fans. What's he doing that? Um? Well, before me,
he was, yeah, having sex with other women. Oh wait,
that's how we that's how you makee So he's not
having sex now at work? No, it's just me. Now,
it's just us. But did you put a stop to that?

(38:39):
You ain't telling him to go make his No, I
got judging on it. Low hold on, you said I didn't.
You can get your money, but let me hear it
giving double standards, it's giving you no, no, not at all.
He wants to be monogamous and I want to be
monogamous too. I'm not anything outside of him? What do

(39:02):
you mean work working with each other? What are you
talking about? Old on? Look, he's been looking for somebody
that he only wanted to work with one person. I
was looking for the same thing. So it just worked. Yeah,
but what if he wants to like he doesn't want to,

(39:24):
you know, because I'm sure he does not want to,
because he literally told me, well before we decided to
like work with each other, he said that he's only
working with one person. So I told him, ideally, I'm
looking to work with one person that's not working with
nobody else, and he was like, oh, me too, cut
her off and came to me. So I was like, okay,
So he was working for one person before it did

(39:46):
say I'm switched to another one person to me because
he wanted me, because he actually saw a relationship with me.
You didn't have a relationship with her. He was just
working with her. But he actually saw a relationship with me,
So that's why he was like, okay, now, what is it? Like?
Broadens though, because a lot of only fans creators have
been looking to become contract stars or do mainstream porn

(40:09):
so that a lot of people can see them. How
would you feel about that? Like opening both your careers
up to that. I would never be a porn star.
He said that he wouldn't do it either. How do
you how do you separate outside of the agency of it?
You said I wouldn't be a porn star, but you
have only fans. How do you distinguish between what a
porn star does and what someone on only fans that? Well,

(40:32):
porn star, you get booked and you go on set
and you get paid for that day and that's it.
That video goes on porn sites and all that. I
have a lot of porn star friends, so I hear
stories and I'm like, I convene y'all because I can't
do it. But sometimes you're meeting the person that you're

(40:53):
working with that same day. I can't do that. Oh
sorry me. It's like a process I have to meet
two first. I gotta see if I've I with you,
if I even like you to even want to shoot
with you. And I shoot my own stuff. It's just
us too. There's nobody else, there's no cameraman or and
it just goes on my only fans. It doesn't go
on porn sites and stuff. And I get paid for
my stuff. Do you call porn I'm gonna be honest,

(41:15):
I do call some only fans people like porn. Well,
because some porn stars have only fans. I think, I
just say it in my brain to me, if I'm
paid for having set like I have sex, if they
have sex, I call them porn right to me. But
there's a difference for sure, there's different titles. That's why
I say I'm only because amateur that it's not porn,
like because you mentioned the set, the crew, the staff.

(41:37):
Because sometimes some stuff can be like I I'm not
mainstream porn star. I'm just the only fans concept creator,
you know, I'm not. I never got booked for a
scene or anything like that. So so like I always separated,
like for a while early time of only fans, I
was like, oh, it's just like yam girl because Cam
to me was low fi amateur, and then porn would
be set set production. Yeah. But now in my brain

(42:00):
when I'm like, because I pay for only fans content
creators because either I'm cool with them or because I
want to watch them, I'm sex me too. That's me
is porn. Not be mad when I don't see I'm
just buying porn in a different way. And like, do
you do you do you have to see sex if
you're subscribing for some people that I want to see
them have sex. Yeah, but then he posted selfies and
I'd be like, bitch, if you I'll get this shit

(42:21):
off the things. He put that shit on Instagram playing
with me. I don't they want to get to the selfies,
don't you know? Okay? God, that shit be this at me?
All I want to like because this is interesting because
I did it. I did an episode on sex Cells.

(42:42):
And when I was telling you about so Mandy has
a friend that works for Evil Angel, Evil Angel, I
almost said Vivid Evil Angels. So I did one of
an independent creator which is Landed the plug and um
evil Angel. And the interesting thing that the guy that
owned Evil Angel said is like porn stars or only
Fans girls are coming to me now knowing they won't
make as much, but knowing they're gonna broaden now, right,

(43:05):
So they want to do these scenes on a major
market things they can make more money. But the Only
Fans creators that I was reaching out to work with
still said they did porn. They just said to me, like,
I make my own. So the episode was kind of
shot in this way of like, both people are distributing
this content. One just owns their one doesn't. But I
wonder too, because Only Fans has made cardib pop, that

(43:29):
we had that girl who does toorking videos, who's super
subscribe to, like all of these people that aren't fucking
for money? Is that really what it is? Like? If
there was an only fans type porn type site, would
you not do that? Would you prepare to be on
a platform that has everybody? Well, even like porn Hub
allows you to create your own ship, yeah, create your
own subscriptions. Yeah. I just personally don't want to be

(43:50):
on porgn size, even though my stolen content is on there.
I just prefer not to because I don't want to
ruin porn for my family. So I was about to say,
how does your family view you do. They is porn though,
Like yeah, I get, I mean it is part I
make porn. But I just don't consider myself a porn
star because just because I have porn star friends and
they live a different life like that, I just feel

(44:11):
I just don't feel right calling myself a porn star.
Said how is your comba with your family? I mean,
because you're in your thirties, so it's like they should
be able to know. But what somebody's twenty one doing porn,
You're like, oh my god, find a way when you
making decision in your late twenties or early thirties, they're like,
you tried out life. I was. I was very terrified

(44:32):
telling them because they're very old school, but I think
because I moved out first and then I started doing
that and I don't they didn't problem. I literally told them,
and I literally was prepared for them to this only
and they were just like, Okay, we understand why you
were like freaking out and stuff, but we're just more concerned,
more concerned with your safety. And so my mom asked

(44:54):
a lot of questions. I answered all of it, and
they were just like, okay, cool it is. I'm not
thinking Thanksgiving. Now, it's not weird at all because we
don't really talk about things. So it was just like
I just tell them once and that's it. We never
talked about it ever again. Okay, yeah, you know what
to I feel like it's so we're like becoming so
desensitized that, like, in ten years, to find out your

(45:17):
daughter is making porn with her boyfriend, it's just like,
all right, at least it's him, like you know what
I mean. Like, and then if it's like they're doing
it with another thing, like, all right, at least it's
a set, like you're gonna find a way to try
to feel some safety in this. And I think that's
a really good sign of the older generation trying to
acclimate to what we do. Yeah. I think my mom
was okay with it because I told her like, don't worry, mom,

(45:38):
these are not strangers. Because before I was dating my partner,
obviously I was doing it single for four years. So
I would tell her like, don't worry, these are not strangers.
We're getting tested. So I started telling her all these
things and she was like, okay, cool, how was it
making content while you were single? Training? Draining? I tell

(45:58):
you that. I think that's the reason why I slow
down for a little bit, and I was like, really
wanting just one partner. I think it's funny because you're
saying that it was draining. I'm back single and there's
certain people from my past that I haven't even wanted
to entertain because I'm just like, what am I getting
out of this? But also I'm giving you my time.

(46:20):
It's the idea of things being pointless now, and we
talked on this pot about pointless sex. I'm like, I'm
really not that interested. But pleasing someone that you're really
not into that exchange with someone that you're just like,
we're just here, Yeah, becomes draining. I would say, after
the fact, there's not as much aftercare, there's not really communication,

(46:40):
and then you're just sitting with yourself and you're feeling
a lot of things, and that I think is the
draining party, not even actual sexist after feeling less than
and all these things. And that does lead to the
homemail because you even saying that it looks like we
have someone else dealing with it. However, she's asking how
much of a home am I Listen, she said, Hey, y'all,

(47:02):
I'd love to hear y'all's opinions on my attraction to
men and women who are usually emotionally unavailable in some
way or how. I most often find myself attracted to
men who are already in relationships. Running the club me
to we right there. I'm twenty eight from the East
Coast and have had three sons and been a unicorn.

(47:23):
They were both cool. I feel like I can really
care about more than one person at a time as well.
I've also tried to center myself and take time away
from sex to build my relationship with myself and haven't
had sex since November. Before that, I had sex from
June to November with some fire az demon dick that
I had to let go despite of how good it was,
and I haven't had sex for a year before June.

(47:47):
I've learned a lot from taking breaks away. I want
to believe in that spark that Wheezy talks about with niggas,
and that's what usually draws me in. I feel like
I just know when I meet someone I'm a water sign,
and I do think it has to do with my
emotions and being okay with fucking with that fucking can bring,
but also wanting some love and care in it. From

(48:09):
taking a break, I've seen my money go up and
grown a closer relationship to God, travel lots, bought a
new vibrator, built relationships with my friends, then God a vibrator.
All of it I'm thankful for, but I'm honest. I
miss Dick, and I wonder what being attracted to folks

(48:29):
who are partnered says about me. I talked to this
nigga who has partnered. He's Polly. I often find myself
attracted to men who I know I shouldn't, and I
don't want to help anyone cheat. My karma reacts fast.
But I also wonder if this is a part of
my attachment style, if my not liking folks in the
quote unquote typical manner makes me more of a hoe,

(48:52):
and if I'm wrong, and if I'm wrong right now
for considering letting this man who I know is with
someone pay my bills, as he's been asking for almost
the last three years, and I always say no, but
he looks so fine the other day, I'm starting to
consider it. It's also getting mad expensive out here, so
y'all know it would be nice. I don't want to
just give pieces of myself anymore, and because the connection

(49:14):
may not be typical, does that mean it's wrong. Ultimately,
we'll love to hear your thoughts. Thanks. Now, I think
we can break this down. I'll be honest. This is
something recently I noticed in therapy and also y'all thinking,
I think it's a flex that I married men or
men in relationships. It's not a flex. But I also
realize I project the fact that I don't want long

(49:37):
term to me. Long term looks like marriaging kids. Yeah,
we had this conversation recently, and so I think because
I project so much that I don't want marriage and
I don't want kids. Unfortunately, I think the universe is
sending me people who have limitations. The universe. Bitch, if
y'all can talking about stars of Moments, I can talk
about the universe. Citi Medies married Because I don't think

(49:58):
it's me. I think it's the universe. Hey, y'all be
mad at the universe, bitches, don't be mad at me.
Is not bad. These niggers and relationships. The universe will
test you. They will what's the test? But I don't
I don't really want you long term. I want you
to make me feel good and which I told you
they treat me the best. So the universe is like this,
It's documented they treat you so well. Why say that

(50:20):
your ex was the first man to make to make
you feel x y Z because he was able to
pour into you because he had the time, right he
didn't have because he was retired, But like the jobs,
ain't got a lot of time. But if someone can
only focus on you and not a lot of people,
Like I have a friend that is in a polly
relationship right now, and I had expressed that the only

(50:42):
issue was that their partner was in you know, he
has other partners. It was like, I can't get like
what I need from this person at all times because
he's just got too much going on. Like I'm gonna
be real, like having a bad day of work, normal
nigga can answer the phone is important. I don't want
you to have to move around your wife and kids eat.
Having someone to like lean on is what's great. And

(51:02):
also the love that you were able to get from
your ex. How much could he give you if you
really had a wife and kids at home. I think
that a part of it is still knowing, like I
don't expect from people what I can't give them. And
so I think because my friends, bitch I brought up,
I'm in a polly relationship with all my friends, even
though it's not sexual. Some of them it is, but

(51:24):
it's not always sexual, you know. I just like to
put my friends sometimes not my gay friends. There's there's lines, John, Okay,
But to me, I do know that I'm not giving
someone a hundred percent of my time. I don't even
want you to. But you're not getting ninety. See, yeah,
you're making a point, you know what I'm saying. No,
it's not though, but that's the thing to me. Like,

(51:44):
but if they if we all have limited time, bro,
So if you're telling me you got thirty percent of
your time to give, which is probably what I have
to give, and you got a wife on the side
and children, how much do I get? Well, if if
I'm giving out an X amount of time to somebody,
I'm fine with them finding fulfillment in someone else. And
so to me, because I know I don't have that

(52:04):
time to give you. And I know a lot of
men expect women to be all upon they did because
that's what they do. A lot of men expect you're
gonna stop hanging with your friends. You're gonna you're gonna
drop the world for me because this is what women
do with men. It ain't me and so to me,
I think I come in with some sort of relief
that there's somebody else because I ain't gonna be able
to do that for you. Yeah, I don't want marriage,
I don't want kids, and there's so to me, there

(52:27):
is a stop. I think I think it's my it's
it's a bad negative thing. Yes, I think it's my
safe haven to know the expectations are only gonna go
but so far because you either got it already or
you're lacking in something. So I can be that person
and we can be in this blissful bubble of naivity.
I don't give a fuck. Yeah, but I don't want

(52:47):
to be single. Then no, that's the thing. I want
a relationship. But I'm fine with Like, I'm not gonna
hold you literally about this conversation, and you know the nigga,
I'll tell you all. But like he was married and
had a girlfriend. I was open to being girlfriend number two.
The problem is he, like lig me, Nigga said I
couldn't have sex outside. So I'm like, no, you don't
even live you don't even live here. I don't care
if you take care about my bills. The fact that

(53:09):
I have to wait on sex for you doesn't seem appeasing, right.
So to me, the married men that I've been with,
I've literally asked, can we talk to your girlfriend you
know about me? Can we allow it? Like? Can? I? Like,
I'm fine, I would at least you're doing that. I'm
being in an opening is good? Yeah, yeah, I don't
want to be a mistress tee. That's marygas. No, they're

(53:29):
married because they wife don't know about me, Okay, that
they're not Polly, that's like, let me teach you about
these things because I think we can make this work.
Like that's the difference. But I think it's because those
two that how I came in, you know what I mean.
It's not only to ruin her home, but the dynamic
of her relation whatever. This is why I wanted to
have this conversation as well with both of you. Because
she said, because I don't want a traditional love, does

(53:51):
that make me a hope? Doesn't mean I'm giving someone pieces? Um.
I think falling in love with couples though it's a
different thing because you're attracted just like the love. But
what about to just someone that you know is, like
she said, emotionally unavailable because they're either already in relationships.
By the way, nigga being in a relationship, no me
emotionally unavailable them. Niggas hold emotionals for a lot of
different bitches. Just be his favorite, That's what I say.

(54:13):
Being favorite is just being favorite. Oh niggas being a
shiny car that he likes to drive all the time.
Don't be the bucket that he liked. Shit, I gotta
get an oil change in the one I really like.
Now letting me drive this one be his favorite. I
think with women, if you go in just wanted to
be a nigga's favorite, you will live a happier life because, baby,
you are getting cheated on, you are being lied to.
I'm sorry. I've been around a lot of friends lately

(54:36):
literally are finding out their boyfriends are married. I was
in a car the other day. Boy I didn't even
know he was married and expecting. And I'm in the
car with a sidebitch and she's telling me, you know this,
nigga married and expecting. You know I know the wise spacebook.
Should I hit the white spacebook in front of her?
In front of him? He was driving. I said, now,
why are you dealing with a craziest sidebitch threatening to

(54:56):
hit your wife up? This ain't the type of bit
you need to be with. But I'm literally like around
all of these men who have multiple relationships going on.
Swear to God, Swear to God. All my friends have
relationships with men, so that are I don't know. Girlfriend,
my girl is saying to me, She's like, oh, why
am I attracted to people that are already taken? I
feel like if you are looking for something, for one,

(55:19):
you need to know what you're looking for, right, Yes,
Like I know what I'm looking for, So when I
meet men that are taken, I'm off it. What's ending
of her? I mean, I have men that have been
lying to me. That's how I get a little caught up.
But it's like, if you're getting so far down the
line where you are attracted to them, you must not
see a relationship as assigned to stop, which is a
you thing. Like it doesn't mean your way of loving

(55:41):
is wrong, but like that's a you problem to me.
I agree, Unless you want a Polly relationship. If you
want a polly relationship, maybe that's why this is appeasing
to you. But if you're like, why does this keep
happening to me? Bitch? Is pretty easy. If a nigga
told me he got a girl, I'm off. You just
don't deal with them. You know what I'm saying. You care?
I don't, but yes, right. For example, I recently fucked
the skater nigga. I didn't know he had a girlfriend

(56:04):
until after we had That's crazy. That ship was crazy.
Fucked him. Didn't know your a girlfriend went on a
second day. It was so ready to get some dick.
The girlfriend popped out. I was living. I was done.
Oh I went back without Then I came back to
New York two months later and I said, I'm gonna
just suck this nigga because I feel like it and
that's all I want. However, that was one of the

(56:24):
first times in a while I was like, this is
actually all I want. Is just I think that when
you're looking for love and you cross those lines, that's
the problem because you get delusion on you think that this. Yeah,
I agree, I agree. If you go in knowing, then
that makes sense. Girl. Everybody's fun when they unavailable. I
feel like we always want people we can't have. So

(56:44):
that's exactly it. Like if I why, I don't know why.
I don't know why either. Think about the Red Boots.
The Red Boots me too, three hundred and fifty dollars.
I don't know what they did. They get them too
every celebrity, right, and we know we can't have them,
so now they're like fifteen hundred and two thousand, even
though they're only three fifty like as so far, yeah,

(57:05):
so now we want them. I the boots are dumb.
And then I started looking at him like, damn, I
guess like a rock those like what my brain made
me think? Find out niggas getting married? Just this? Do
you think crazy? You know? I did hear that taking
men have way more girls in their d ms, way
more yes, And I'm just like, what saies look put together?

(57:29):
You said they look put together? They'd be like, look
at this, look at he be on nice vacations? Who
is that woman on his arm? Anyway he looks great?
Or maybe they're just curious, like why is he in
the relationship, Like what qualities does he have? Like I
want to know? Maybe you're the same as these things.
Who's single? That's what I want to know, if nobody,
because what if they single, they don't want to be

(57:50):
with nobody. I'm not looking for anything, is exactly why
you said something that I used to believe and a
lot of people say this, Oh they change my mind.
You used to say, if a dude's else, you ain't
looking for nothing listening to him. Oh for sure. But
I'm sorry, I'm gonna tell y'all. And I've been saying, listen, nigga,
I'm talking to me, and both agreed. I was like,
you know, men say they're not looking for anything, but

(58:12):
maybe y'all tell me anytime I've ended up in a relationship,
the nigga was never looking for a girlfriend. We just
ended up together. Danny, you were married, Tell me what
were you looking for? A girlfriend or a wife? You
know what. I was just talking about this the other
day with my partner because I always talk to men
like because they say, oh, you know, I'm focused on

(58:32):
my career at okay, So what if when you get
when you hit your goal in your career, aren't you
gonna have another goal? So I just feel like you
just haven't found the right They just don't want to.
That's literally, you're not the most important thing I've learned.
I've had a nigga like and this is the whole
recent stuff, and it's very real for me, Like whether

(58:53):
it be a conversation with someone else that he wasn't
looking for something, or like you know, and just conversations
about what about the people before me? Right, the last
two people updated. I've asked that and it's like, Oh,
it's clear you just weren't into them. You know what
I'm saying. You're telling me you're different from ninety days
ago when you fuckus. Hole. Nah, you're just looking at
me like I'm that person for you, which is totally fine.

(59:16):
Like that happened to Oh, way, hadn't had a girlfriend
in eight years. Why he's a whore that lives in
New York, that's attractive and makes money, get it? He
told me. Remember we were in Detroit and he set
flowers and basically he was like, oh, we're not going
together and I was like, oh we're not. Okay, I'm
done and then he can't, running right back like no,
I can't be without you. And as fucked up as
that is to think that it took that sometimes I

(59:37):
really believe that men are like, I'm gonna keep milking
what I can out of you. You know what I'm saying,
because I do be fucking sucking just as good as
I'm not gonna front if I was probably married. This
is what I do. I'm a passionate dick sucker here,
So how much better am I gonna lose? Once I'm
down the aisle? This is the dick sucking I got
to get. So what makes you want to wipe me up?
If you know, hey, I could just go get it.
So I think that we need to start act to

(01:00:00):
lead just multiple like women need to start dating multiple
people because if we do that, our eggs aren't only
one basket. And the three niggas that are looking for girlfriends,
it's the numbers game. One of them gonna end up
with your girl. Yeah, just take it from me. They
just don't let all of them know you're dating, because
then you're a whole, and then you're really worth being.
Sometimes that's the help, bully, that's the help. Be like, hey,

(01:00:20):
the niggas, be like, I was gonna take you serious,
but sin see why here fucking lead all these other
though you just know when somebody's gonna take you serious
or it's taking you serious through action not words. So
action not words. That's the team, Miss that Ferd. Please
let everybody know what they can follow you, subscribe and
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Instagram because I like you most of them. I know

(01:00:41):
they are getting deleted like everybody every day. Well, yeah,
and I follow. I think I actually follow your backup
one you follow my backup? Following your backup? What does
the backup page means? It's a backup page. It's the same, yeah,
just in case. Yeah, So what I do is like
I'll post all my backup and I'll just do a
collaborator with my main so us in case, like if
a video gets flagged, my main page is not getting deleted.

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(01:03:11):
Just as you own by. It's Bony's beat. Welcome back, Hoose,
I'm trying to get my shit together, Yes, welcome welcome back.
It's so crazy because we recorded pretty much the next
month of Horrible Decisions last week, and it was giving

(01:03:32):
I haven't had sex, It was giving I haven't gone
on the date it was giving. I don't even know
what I'm gonna talk about, and I ended up going
out this weekend and literally in the last few days,
I have met two guys that I'm talking to. One
is local, one doesn't live here. But the one that

(01:03:52):
lives here already has a nickname. His nickname is Black Jesus.
I already told him not to listen to the podcast,
but he knows his name is Black Jesus. And because
he's giving Black Jesus, he looks like Black Jesus, and
what's crazy. So we're gonna talk about how I met
him because I was like not even looking to day.

(01:04:15):
I went to this party over the weekend. No, we
actually went to every Day People together. We spent the
whole weekend together after meeting each other. So and then
we also had a date last night. So I have
now spent three of the last four days with him.

(01:04:36):
Uh yeah, and I really, I mean, he's great. So
let me tell y'all to Tea about how to fuck
I even met him. So I'm at this party on
Saturday and I lose my home girl. Now that I
lost her, she went to the bathroom and so I
left the table to go look for her. Is he
a Brooklyn nigga? Rewind he lived in Brooklyn, but he's

(01:05:01):
not a Brooklyn nigga. No, not even he's an x fat.
He's like, yeah, like he's he's been in New York
less time than I have, like the States. He's not
an American, yeah, like x time, Like he's not from
New York, like he was from somewhere else and lives

(01:05:21):
here now. Um So, anyways, I'm looking for my homegirls.
Let me let y'all know, I am drunk as fuck
and all shrums at the same time. So I just
took like this little square of the chocolate shrums and
I was like, okay, it's a vibe wind you. It
took me so long to even take the square because
so many of our fans were there. It was like

(01:05:44):
overwhelming for me, like I was on FaceTime, Like every
man that approached me called their girlfriend or wife and
had me on FaceTime with their girl wife. And then
all the girls that were there were just like buying,
like offering me drinks and I'm like, yeah, I'm already drunk.
So anyways, I go to find my home girls after

(01:06:04):
I'm feeling a little buzz on the shrooms and I
passed him and I didn't know what to do because
I'm on shrooms and I don't know what the word like,
what's going on? So I just started me mugging his
ass and I'm like, I don't just mean mugging him.
I don't even know words even come out. And he
was like what's up? And I was like, you find
a shit? That's literally the only thing that came out

(01:06:25):
of my mouth. I'm like, you actually too fine to
be here? What the fuck you doing here? What you all?
I knew what you say to him? So where to God?
That's all pbo. So it was like a party like
with tons of like all the Africans and Nigerians and
like a lot of people had like their African garbs
on women was fine up in there. So anyways, I

(01:06:48):
approached him and I'm like you you find a ship?
And well I know how to say, and then I'm like,
you know what, I have my whole foot in my mouth. Sorry,
I'm on shrooms. Would you like some all I knew
what to do was for him drugs, So mind you
his responses, I'm actually shruman right now. Yeah, sure I'll
take some, So he takes some, and I'm like, well,

(01:07:10):
I'm still looking for my friends, but I would really
like to exchange like information. Can I get your Instagram
or your phone number? At this point, foot in my
mouth again, He's like, yeah, let's exchange instagrams. So I
immediately feel curved. I immediately feel like Nigga ain't fucking
with me, because anytime I really don't want to give
someone my number, I give them my Instagram, even though

(01:07:32):
I asked for Instagram. And I think I only felt
curve too because the nigga's Instagram was private. So I'm like, Nigga,
this does me no good. I'm not gonna remember your page.
Now I have to follow you, like I'm not even
gonna remember what your name is to find you through
who I followed. So I was just like, okay, well
this was pointless. So anyways, I find my I'm like,

(01:07:52):
all right, well I'm gonna go find my friends. I
find my friends. We go back to the table and
we're vibing now like I'm with my friends. He passes
the table and goes to like touch my shoulder to chat.
I say, hey, so I'm with my friends. Now there's
a lot of really good looking women in here. You
should like do a walkthrough, go get some numbers, like

(01:08:13):
that's what you're here for, right, and like completely dismissed him,
completely dismissed that so

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