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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Check the check.
Speaker 2 (00:02):
Check Daily morning show with DJ four and it's Sad Morning.
Speaker 1 (00:08):
Bustin's number one for hip hop jam in ninety four
or five. Hi, everybody, good morning.
Speaker 3 (00:18):
I know that people will be able to relate to
this feeling, and I want to say that I am,
at this point in my life mature enough to be like,
my anger is certainly misplaced. And I have this like
internal battle of complaining about anything in my life because
I know how fortunate I am to have two kids,
(00:41):
and I know how hard it was for me, and
I am I am obviously very thankful for that. But
you know, I think with anybody in life, whether you
have kids or not, not sleeping can change somebody. It
makes you irritated, you're on edge, you're just not yourself.
I mean, if you ask any health expert, they're gonna
say that one of the most important things.
Speaker 1 (01:02):
For you to do is get eight hours of sleep.
Speaker 3 (01:04):
And yeah, and with our job, we're never gonna like
we're you gotta go to bed matterly to get eight hours,
so that that kind of really doesn't happen for us.
Speaker 1 (01:14):
Kids are not.
Speaker 3 (01:16):
But then you add in that, you know, I'm just
kind of in the thick of it right now, and
I'm getting some nights maybe two hours of sleep and
then coming in here like depending you know, so at
home this past weekend, like the fartman is my best
friend period, like that's my guy.
Speaker 1 (01:35):
Uh.
Speaker 3 (01:35):
But sometimes I and I hate I hate to admit this.
I think I just want to hear him say like, damn,
it's I wouldn't want to be you good hard, like
a good job, like I wouldn't want anybody else doing it.
It must be really hard, and I hate that. I
feel like I need that little bit of praise sometimes
because I shouldn't.
Speaker 1 (01:55):
But I think for some.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
Like he worked so much last week and I was
by myself a lot. So then this past weekend I
think I wanted to hear that and did it. And
I know that with the then you add in the
lack of sleep, little things were setting me off.
Speaker 1 (02:09):
And I'm gonna use this example because.
Speaker 3 (02:13):
It it's not about the belt, Okay, it's not about
the sandwich.
Speaker 1 (02:18):
It's not.
Speaker 3 (02:26):
So there's this well, no, I'm ex I am using
this as the example to show you that I'm not myself.
So there's a spot in Duxbury because I'm a self
short girly now, and I might be pronouncing it wrong,
but it's called bond gies.
Speaker 1 (02:39):
That's what I call it. B o n g I s.
It is like this turkey farm.
Speaker 3 (02:44):
They might have the best stuff that they have the
best turkey bilt I've ever had in my life. And
all I was thinking about all week was it's been
a crazy week. I really want this turkey belt. Okay,
so Saturday happens. The baby's teething, has gymnastics, but we're
worried because she's potty training, so we're trying to make sure.
I must have told her eight times we don't pee
(03:05):
on Cinderella because he's in that she's wearing siloverta Cinderella underwear.
Speaker 1 (03:09):
So it's just it's just tensions are high.
Speaker 3 (03:12):
But we're gonna go get our We're gonna go get
turkey sandwiches for lunch. So I'm very excited about this.
Turkey sandwiches are in the car. Now we have to
drive home. It's a it's a solid thirteen minute drive, right,
like solid, that's not that's ten, it's it's thirteen. And
you want you don't want that bread to get sold
because there's a lot of bread on there, you know
what I mean. So the fireman's driving, and this is
(03:33):
just a testament to where I'm at, and I know
that I'm at I'm not. We are driving home and
he had never been, and so We're coming upon the
left to get to our house and I'm like, oh,
you're gonna make this left. Man is zooming like I
don't know where he's headed in his Dodge charger, but
he is zooming and he zooms past the left.
Speaker 2 (03:54):
But when did you tell him? Because sometimes whyte he could?
Speaker 1 (03:59):
Now the man drives a fire just as he can
figure it out. He was fine, it was fine.
Speaker 3 (04:05):
Zooming past, like I'm not really sure where he was headed,
but he zooms past.
Speaker 1 (04:10):
Added four minutes to the drive.
Speaker 3 (04:13):
I am, I'm really going to try to You would
have thought that he looked at me and was like
you are fat, ugly and disgusting, and.
Speaker 1 (04:21):
I am cheating on you.
Speaker 3 (04:23):
That is how mad I got. That was the rage
that I found. I didn't speak cause I was but
the rage that I felt, and I'm like, I literally
in the car was talking to myself being like, who
are you? Why are you so mad?
Speaker 1 (04:37):
Now?
Speaker 3 (04:37):
But I was so hot, Like when I got home,
I didn't really want to speak while I had my
turkey BLT because I should should.
Speaker 1 (04:44):
Have been having it four minutes sooner than what I was.
Speaker 3 (04:47):
Like, you know, when you get in the house, we
gotta get everybody up, we gotta get one out of
the car seat, gotta popera on the butt, like, but
we were delayed then, and I just but that is
like and it's my anger is ill advised, Like it's
not his fault had he missed that turn. But again,
I'm so irritable just because I'm not sleeping that I
feel like I'm taking things out on him that I
(05:10):
I shouldn't And I just feel like that our priority
levels are not with each other. And that's hard because
we try to at night, but then everybody's so tired.
Everybody wants to rush to bed because we know we're
not going to sleep at night. And it's just listen,
I know over and over that it's just a chapter.
And I have these emotional moments where I take a
step back and I'm like, oh my god, like they're
(05:31):
only going to be babies for five years. I have
to suck it up because this is this is the time,
Like this is I I am going to be so
sad when this is over. And I know that, but
I'm also just like I'm.
Speaker 1 (05:43):
Just tired, a bit, just tired. Okay, I really wanted
that sandwich.
Speaker 2 (05:49):
She was thin tomato.
Speaker 3 (05:57):
Like it's stupid little things like I'll notice, like my
dog doesn't shed and his does, and I'll see chunks
of his dog's hair all over the house, so I'll
pick them up, right, I'll pick them up, or I'll
vacuum them. I'll watch I'll watch him walk over the
same chunk of hair sixteen times and I and again,
like normally I would just go pick.
Speaker 2 (06:15):
It up, but.
Speaker 1 (06:19):
Because no, it's a mean thing. I know it is.
Speaker 2 (06:21):
It is, Yeah, but at least I mean because most
people would just blame, blame, blame, at least.
Speaker 4 (06:27):
It is.
Speaker 3 (06:27):
It is one hundred percent me. It's one hundred percent
of battle in my head. And I like, I I'm
sure to a lot of people I sound unrelatable, but
then I know there are some moms that get what
I'm saying, because it's like once the day ends, I
am so overstimulated and that I'm like I don't even
want it to talk to anybody.
Speaker 1 (06:45):
I don't anybody to touch me, because you know, once
you put one to sleep, then the other one wants you.
Speaker 3 (06:49):
And it's it's just constant, constant, constant, And I wouldn't
change it for the world, Like I couldn't picture my
life any other way. Obviously, this is all that I've
ever wanted. But that doesn't mean it doesn't I'm not tired. Yeah, yeah,
I'm tired.
Speaker 2 (07:01):
I don't think it gets easier. But this point in
your life, I feel like is the was the biggest
challenge for us. Where we were like just on different pages.
We were like learning how to be parents, like learning
how to own a house, like all these various things
that were coming into play, like, but we had what
we did figure out how to work with each other.
But the stress will always be there. But I think
the communication has gotten better with us, So I feel
like it's a it's just a learning curve, and.
Speaker 1 (07:22):
I think it's also a mom thing.
Speaker 3 (07:24):
I I have. The best way I can explain this
is as a mother. I know sometimes I need a break, right,
Like I need to get out of the house and
do something for myself, Say I'm getting my nails done
for an hour. That entire time I am gone getting
my nails done that entire hour. The anxiety in which
I feel that I need to be back at home
mothering is it's almost not fun for me to leave,
(07:47):
Like I know I need to leave to have a break,
but I am so rushed, Like she'll be like, do
you want me to massage your head? No, God, no,
I don't have time for massage, Like I have to
get back to the house. It's crazy. It is such
a roller coaster of emotions. Amanda is in Plymouth also
with a six month old. Uh, they're they're not They're
not into sleep right now. They do not They're not
for it.
Speaker 4 (08:05):
No, I literally am in this same exact boat. And
I have a three year old too, so I think
he's a little bit older. But it's it's so bad
right now, Like and I feel the same way too.
I won't even know get my hair done because I
have mom guilt about going to get my hair done.
Speaker 3 (08:23):
Yeah, you feel like there's only one place that we're
supposed to be and that's at home.
Speaker 4 (08:28):
Say exactly, if you're not at work, then it's then
I feel like I should do with them. So I
feel you and then all my friends are like, we
need to do a girl's night, and then I'm like, oh,
I don't want to be away from them, but I
do need it, so I know.
Speaker 3 (08:43):
I know sometimes I'll be like, let's do a girl's night,
but can we do it after I get everybody down,
So then I feel less guilt that I've I've done
the nighttime routine.
Speaker 1 (08:51):
Yeah, it's such a.
Speaker 3 (08:52):
Weird thing, but thank you for saying that, because I'm like,
I'm sure some people are listening and they're thinking, God,
it's the same thing.
Speaker 4 (08:58):
And I'm pumping and on my way and work right now.
Speaker 3 (09:00):
Oh girl, yeah, hey, Danty knows, I'm about to get
mine out. Seven am is my first pump at work.
Speaker 1 (09:06):
Trust me.
Speaker 3 (09:06):
And by the way, because these little these little babies
aren't sleeping, I'm pumping less too, and that's upsetting too. Yeah.
Speaker 4 (09:13):
So I was so happy because he just went into
his crib because I waited forever. Since he's my last
I'm like, I'm going to keep him in the room.
So I put him in his crib and then he
slept through the night and I was like, oh, right now,
my surpi is going to go down. I have to
start pumping and then now he's up all night, so
I'm like.
Speaker 3 (09:31):
Okay, yeah, yeah, no, it's it's a lot, and I
thank you for making me feel seen because it's it's
a grind.
Speaker 4 (09:39):
Out here right like literally it sounded I had to
call in because I'm like, this is just like my.
Speaker 1 (09:44):
Life, Twinsy's good luck, Amanda. We're gonna get through it.
It's gonna be fine.
Speaker 4 (09:51):
Yes, we'll get through it.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I I like again, I there's I we know how
hard I want to number two? Like this is this
is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. But then
it's hard.
Speaker 1 (10:02):
Yeah, yeah, it definitely is. Yeah, it just it is
what it is.
Speaker 2 (10:06):
Does get better though I can't.
Speaker 3 (10:07):
No, I know.
Speaker 1 (10:08):
And you know what's so crazy?
Speaker 3 (10:09):
I feel like I'm not a like God works in
mysterious ways type of.
Speaker 1 (10:14):
Like I don't.
Speaker 3 (10:15):
But I was at home Goods yesterday and I had
the baby and I was, I know, people think I'm crazy,
Like I'll hold things up to Daisy if we're walking
around her Lylan and be like should I get this,
like do you think I need it? And just see
if I get a response from Layla. But it was
just me and Daisy, so I'm holding stuff up, like
should I get this, and a woman leans in and
she's like, yeah, should your mommy, you know, get this?
(10:37):
And we started laughing and she leans over and she's like,
so is she sleeping.
Speaker 1 (10:41):
I'm like, no, no, we don't really sleep much in
our house. And she's like, well, you know what, honey,
I have I see I'm getting emotional. She's like, I
have an.
Speaker 3 (10:47):
Eighteen and a nineteen year old, and now I feel
like I sleep too much.
Speaker 1 (10:51):
So don't worry. One day you're gonna get there.
Check the check.
Speaker 2 (00:02):
Check Daily morning show with DJ four and it's Sad Morning.
Speaker 1 (00:08):
Bustin's number one for hip hop jam in ninety four
or five. Hi, everybody, good morning.
Speaker 3 (00:18):
I know that people will be able to relate to
this feeling, and I want to say that I am,
at this point in my life mature enough to be like,
my anger is certainly misplaced. And I have this like
internal battle of complaining about anything in my life because
I know how fortunate I am to have two kids,
(00:41):
and I know how hard it was for me, and
I am I am obviously very thankful for that. But
you know, I think with anybody in life, whether you
have kids or not, not sleeping can change somebody. It
makes you irritated, you're on edge, you're just not yourself.
I mean, if you ask any health expert, they're gonna
say that one of the most important things.
Speaker 1 (01:02):
For you to do is get eight hours of sleep.
Speaker 3 (01:04):
And yeah, and with our job, we're never gonna like
we're you gotta go to bed matterly to get eight hours,
so that that kind of really doesn't happen for us.
Speaker 1 (01:14):
Kids are not.
Speaker 3 (01:16):
But then you add in that, you know, I'm just
kind of in the thick of it right now, and
I'm getting some nights maybe two hours of sleep and
then coming in here like depending you know, so at
home this past weekend, like the fartman is my best
friend period, like that's my guy.
Speaker 1 (01:35):
Uh.
Speaker 3 (01:35):
But sometimes I and I hate I hate to admit this.
I think I just want to hear him say like, damn,
it's I wouldn't want to be you good hard, like
a good job, like I wouldn't want anybody else doing it.
It must be really hard, and I hate that. I
feel like I need that little bit of praise sometimes
because I shouldn't.
Speaker 1 (01:55):
But I think for some.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
Like he worked so much last week and I was
by myself a lot. So then this past weekend I
think I wanted to hear that and did it. And
I know that with the then you add in the
lack of sleep, little things were setting me off.
Speaker 1 (02:09):
And I'm gonna use this example because.
Speaker 3 (02:13):
It it's not about the belt, Okay, it's not about
the sandwich.
Speaker 1 (02:18):
It's not.
Speaker 3 (02:26):
So there's this well, no, I'm ex I am using
this as the example to show you that I'm not myself.
So there's a spot in Duxbury because I'm a self
short girly now, and I might be pronouncing it wrong,
but it's called bond gies.
Speaker 1 (02:39):
That's what I call it. B o n g I s.
It is like this turkey farm.
Speaker 3 (02:44):
They might have the best stuff that they have the
best turkey bilt I've ever had in my life. And
all I was thinking about all week was it's been
a crazy week. I really want this turkey belt. Okay,
so Saturday happens. The baby's teething, has gymnastics, but we're
worried because she's potty training, so we're trying to make sure.
I must have told her eight times we don't pee
(03:05):
on Cinderella because he's in that she's wearing siloverta Cinderella underwear.
Speaker 1 (03:09):
So it's just it's just tensions are high.
Speaker 3 (03:12):
But we're gonna go get our We're gonna go get
turkey sandwiches for lunch. So I'm very excited about this.
Turkey sandwiches are in the car. Now we have to
drive home. It's a it's a solid thirteen minute drive, right,
like solid, that's not that's ten, it's it's thirteen. And
you want you don't want that bread to get sold
because there's a lot of bread on there, you know
what I mean. So the fireman's driving, and this is
(03:33):
just a testament to where I'm at, and I know
that I'm at I'm not. We are driving home and
he had never been, and so We're coming upon the
left to get to our house and I'm like, oh,
you're gonna make this left. Man is zooming like I
don't know where he's headed in his Dodge charger, but
he is zooming and he zooms past the left.
Speaker 2 (03:54):
But when did you tell him? Because sometimes whyte he could?
Speaker 1 (03:59):
Now the man drives a fire just as he can
figure it out. He was fine, it was fine.
Speaker 3 (04:05):
Zooming past, like I'm not really sure where he was headed,
but he zooms past.
Speaker 1 (04:10):
Added four minutes to the drive.
Speaker 3 (04:13):
I am, I'm really going to try to You would
have thought that he looked at me and was like
you are fat, ugly and disgusting, and.
Speaker 1 (04:21):
I am cheating on you.
Speaker 3 (04:23):
That is how mad I got. That was the rage
that I found. I didn't speak cause I was but
the rage that I felt, and I'm like, I literally
in the car was talking to myself being like, who
are you? Why are you so mad?
Speaker 1 (04:37):
Now?
Speaker 3 (04:37):
But I was so hot, Like when I got home,
I didn't really want to speak while I had my
turkey BLT because I should should.
Speaker 1 (04:44):
Have been having it four minutes sooner than what I was.
Speaker 3 (04:47):
Like, you know, when you get in the house, we
gotta get everybody up, we gotta get one out of
the car seat, gotta popera on the butt, like, but
we were delayed then, and I just but that is
like and it's my anger is ill advised, Like it's
not his fault had he missed that turn. But again,
I'm so irritable just because I'm not sleeping that I
feel like I'm taking things out on him that I
(05:10):
I shouldn't And I just feel like that our priority
levels are not with each other. And that's hard because
we try to at night, but then everybody's so tired.
Everybody wants to rush to bed because we know we're
not going to sleep at night. And it's just listen,
I know over and over that it's just a chapter.
And I have these emotional moments where I take a
step back and I'm like, oh my god, like they're
(05:31):
only going to be babies for five years. I have
to suck it up because this is this is the time,
Like this is I I am going to be so
sad when this is over. And I know that, but
I'm also just like I'm.
Speaker 1 (05:43):
Just tired, a bit, just tired. Okay, I really wanted
that sandwich.
Speaker 2 (05:49):
She was thin tomato.
Speaker 3 (05:57):
Like it's stupid little things like I'll notice, like my
dog doesn't shed and his does, and I'll see chunks
of his dog's hair all over the house, so I'll
pick them up, right, I'll pick them up, or I'll
vacuum them. I'll watch I'll watch him walk over the
same chunk of hair sixteen times and I and again,
like normally I would just go pick.
Speaker 2 (06:15):
It up, but.
Speaker 1 (06:19):
Because no, it's a mean thing. I know it is.
Speaker 2 (06:21):
It is, Yeah, but at least I mean because most
people would just blame, blame, blame, at least.
Speaker 4 (06:27):
It is.
Speaker 3 (06:27):
It is one hundred percent me. It's one hundred percent
of battle in my head. And I like, I I'm
sure to a lot of people I sound unrelatable, but
then I know there are some moms that get what
I'm saying, because it's like once the day ends, I
am so overstimulated and that I'm like I don't even
want it to talk to anybody.
Speaker 1 (06:45):
I don't anybody to touch me, because you know, once
you put one to sleep, then the other one wants you.
Speaker 3 (06:49):
And it's it's just constant, constant, constant, And I wouldn't
change it for the world, Like I couldn't picture my
life any other way. Obviously, this is all that I've
ever wanted. But that doesn't mean it doesn't I'm not tired. Yeah, yeah,
I'm tired.
Speaker 2 (07:01):
I don't think it gets easier. But this point in
your life, I feel like is the was the biggest
challenge for us. Where we were like just on different pages.
We were like learning how to be parents, like learning
how to own a house, like all these various things
that were coming into play, like, but we had what
we did figure out how to work with each other.
But the stress will always be there. But I think
the communication has gotten better with us, So I feel
like it's a it's just a learning curve, and.
Speaker 1 (07:22):
I think it's also a mom thing.
Speaker 3 (07:24):
I I have. The best way I can explain this
is as a mother. I know sometimes I need a break, right,
Like I need to get out of the house and
do something for myself, Say I'm getting my nails done
for an hour. That entire time I am gone getting
my nails done that entire hour. The anxiety in which
I feel that I need to be back at home
mothering is it's almost not fun for me to leave,
(07:47):
Like I know I need to leave to have a break,
but I am so rushed, Like she'll be like, do
you want me to massage your head? No, God, no,
I don't have time for massage, Like I have to
get back to the house. It's crazy. It is such
a roller coaster of emotions. Amanda is in Plymouth also
with a six month old. Uh, they're they're not They're
not into sleep right now. They do not They're not
for it.
Speaker 4 (08:05):
No, I literally am in this same exact boat. And
I have a three year old too, so I think
he's a little bit older. But it's it's so bad
right now, Like and I feel the same way too.
I won't even know get my hair done because I
have mom guilt about going to get my hair done.
Speaker 3 (08:23):
Yeah, you feel like there's only one place that we're
supposed to be and that's at home.
Speaker 4 (08:28):
Say exactly, if you're not at work, then it's then
I feel like I should do with them. So I
feel you and then all my friends are like, we
need to do a girl's night, and then I'm like, oh,
I don't want to be away from them, but I
do need it, so I know.
Speaker 3 (08:43):
I know sometimes I'll be like, let's do a girl's night,
but can we do it after I get everybody down,
So then I feel less guilt that I've I've done
the nighttime routine.
Speaker 1 (08:51):
Yeah, it's such a.
Speaker 3 (08:52):
Weird thing, but thank you for saying that, because I'm like,
I'm sure some people are listening and they're thinking, God,
it's the same thing.
Speaker 4 (08:58):
And I'm pumping and on my way and work right now.
Speaker 3 (09:00):
Oh girl, yeah, hey, Danty knows, I'm about to get
mine out. Seven am is my first pump at work.
Speaker 1 (09:06):
Trust me.
Speaker 3 (09:06):
And by the way, because these little these little babies
aren't sleeping, I'm pumping less too, and that's upsetting too. Yeah.
Speaker 4 (09:13):
So I was so happy because he just went into
his crib because I waited forever. Since he's my last
I'm like, I'm going to keep him in the room.
So I put him in his crib and then he
slept through the night and I was like, oh, right now,
my surpi is going to go down. I have to
start pumping and then now he's up all night, so
I'm like.
Speaker 3 (09:31):
Okay, yeah, yeah, no, it's it's a lot, and I
thank you for making me feel seen because it's it's
a grind.
Speaker 4 (09:39):
Out here right like literally it sounded I had to
call in because I'm like, this is just like my.
Speaker 1 (09:44):
Life, Twinsy's good luck, Amanda. We're gonna get through it.
It's gonna be fine.
Speaker 4 (09:51):
Yes, we'll get through it.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I I like again, I there's I we know how
hard I want to number two? Like this is this
is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing. But then
it's hard.
Speaker 1 (10:02):
Yeah, yeah, it definitely is. Yeah, it just it is
what it is.
Speaker 2 (10:06):
Does get better though I can't.
Speaker 3 (10:07):
No, I know.
Speaker 1 (10:08):
And you know what's so crazy?
Speaker 3 (10:09):
I feel like I'm not a like God works in
mysterious ways type of.
Speaker 1 (10:14):
Like I don't.
Speaker 3 (10:15):
But I was at home Goods yesterday and I had
the baby and I was, I know, people think I'm crazy,
Like I'll hold things up to Daisy if we're walking
around her Lylan and be like should I get this,
like do you think I need it? And just see
if I get a response from Layla. But it was
just me and Daisy, so I'm holding stuff up, like
should I get this, and a woman leans in and
she's like, yeah, should your mommy, you know, get this?
(10:37):
And we started laughing and she leans over and she's like,
so is she sleeping.
Speaker 1 (10:41):
I'm like, no, no, we don't really sleep much in
our house. And she's like, well, you know what, honey,
I have I see I'm getting emotional. She's like, I
have an.
Speaker 3 (10:47):
Eighteen and a nineteen year old, and now I feel
like I sleep too much.
Speaker 1 (10:51):
So don't worry. One day you're gonna get there.
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