November 25, 2025 • 31 mins
Falen and Jenny discuss Jenny's trip to Morocco, a new movie and album Falen is loving and more! Happy Thanksgiving!
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
And we're officially back. What's up, Jenny, warn't you and
Morocco orre's that tan ad dog?
Speaker 2 (00:06):
Okay, Well, it's like their winter there. Okay, it's just
like he's not. I'm like summer year round there.
Speaker 1 (00:11):
First of all. Also, I do think that my skin
does not tan like it used to after being here,
but people will always do that. When I come back
from beat vacation, like you were just in Hawaiian, I'm
like f off, so I thought I would be that
annoying person to you.
Speaker 3 (00:24):
No, I mean I was mostly in like city cities.
They do have a lot of coastal towns that people
go to visit and stuff. But even on the coastal
side of things, like the sun wasn't that hot, it
wasn't like booming town.
Speaker 1 (00:34):
Sweaty in your pictures.
Speaker 3 (00:36):
There was only a couple times where I got sweaty,
just because when I tell you, I'm very good at directions,
but these cities are so confusing. I don't even know
how to describe them. I've never been in cities like
that before. So I would have a reservation or something somewhere,
and I'd be like busting ass to get there, and
I would get lost, and so then I'd sweat a
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little bit in my attempt to get somewhere on time.
But luckily in Morocco, they kind of are like island
time people where they're very relaxed and chill.
Speaker 2 (01:05):
And if you're late, it is what it is.
Speaker 3 (01:07):
They're late, like the markets open at like maybe ten am,
depends on what they're feeling.
Speaker 1 (01:12):
Right day, you know, kind of vibe.
Speaker 2 (01:14):
So no, I stayed mostly not too sweaty.
Speaker 3 (01:18):
There was one video, so if you follow me on Instagram,
you might have seen this video I posted where I
was like on the back of some random person's moped.
So right before that video, I recorded myself being like, man,
I'm like so pumped be in this city. There's like
hills and I'm getting to work out in and I
feel like I've been eating a lot and not getting
much of a workout in.
Speaker 2 (01:38):
But holy shit, am I sweating right now?
Speaker 3 (01:41):
And then I find out I'm going the wrong way
like two seconds literally like seconds later, the sky rolls up.
He was the manager of the place I was staying.
He's like, Jenny, you're going the wrong way whatever, and
then I hop on the back of that and it
was so nice because the wind was blowing my pits
and I was getting that like breeze and I was like, oh,
thank god, because I was like, I love vacation where
I'm not profusely sweaty me too. I mean, islands are great,
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but there's a part of me that eventually I'm like,
I'm fucking overbeing so.
Speaker 1 (02:08):
Hot A grade A grade everymore. So that's why I
like my sister like loves living in Florida. I'm like,
I couldn't live there. No, I could visit either, for sure,
but I yeah, okay, so I have tons of Morocco questions. Okay,
we literally usually debrief before the podcast.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
We haven't about Morocco, so we haven't.
Speaker 1 (02:25):
Okay, so let's start from the first. A lot like
their initial concern was you were just afraid to travel
by yourself, Yes, safety, various reasons like that. So how
was that portion?
Speaker 4 (02:37):
So?
Speaker 3 (02:38):
Yes, I was nervous, more so about the fact that
everywhere that I was kind of reading about things, it
was kind of advised to not go to Morocco solo
as a female. And it was not saying that you couldn't.
You just had to take extra precautions and stuff. And
now I've traveled alone in my van in the Midwest,
but I've never gone to a different country. Yeah, that
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speaks a different language, Like that's so different. So after
literally the first day, I felt perfectly fine. Okay, And
I will say that, don't believe everything you read online.
Moroccan people are very friendly. Yes, there is an extreme
amount of harassment from the vendors because they're just trying
to get you to buy things.
Speaker 1 (03:19):
Liking it to a ton of mal Kiosk workers.
Speaker 3 (03:22):
Exactly, it's like every two seconds someone's trying to talk
to you. And I got extra harassment, I would say,
for the sense that I was a solo woman. Yeah,
but it was never in a way that made me
feel unsafe. It was in a way that that's their culture,
Like that's literally their job to like holler at you
and try to get you to come shop or whatever,
and they just want to talk and stuff. So literally
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I had said on this podcast and too fallin that
I will make sure that I only stay out when
it's light out, and I do this and this and that,
and second day and I was going to dinner at
like six. I stayed out till like ten pm that night,
because I wanted to see this belly dancing show, so genuinely,
I felt very safe. I did bring a taser with
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me just in case, So like a couple nights when
I was walking by myself and everything, I kind of
closed off. I did hold that in my hand, just
because I would do that literally anywhere.
Speaker 1 (04:12):
And you stayed and you but you stayed mostly on
pretty popular area and things like that. Yeah, yeah, very much.
Speaker 3 (04:20):
So I stayed in the areas that like, basically where
tourists are going. So it's not like I was going
to the outskirts of the city that nobody really would
venture to as a tourist. Yeah, but I mean, in
full honesty, yes, I felt safe. However, I'm not going
to deny the fact that I did have a full
blown panic attack the first day. So basically what had
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happened is I travel. I had a pretty stressful start
to my travel because something weird was going on, saying
I had to have this other credit card associated with
my sky Miles account and I didn't have that, and
they were like, hey, well you have twenty five minutes
to figure it out, and then we can't get your
luggage on the plane, and you can't go, and I
was like, well, what the fu And the guy wasn't
really helping me, So.
Speaker 2 (05:02):
That gets figured out.
Speaker 3 (05:02):
But that was literally like thirty minutes of stress to
start the entire long travel day. Then I travel It's
a REDDA flight to Morocco from Atlanta. I slept for
maybe twenty minutes, and I had a whole row to myself,
Like I laid across the seas and I just could
not sleep.
Speaker 2 (05:18):
So I'm exhausted.
Speaker 3 (05:19):
But I get there, hit the ground running, like just
start doing a million things, and I can feel my
body starting to crash. So I get back to my
read which is like their version of hotels there, and
it's like five PM and I'm kind of just chilling
and I lay down and it's like seven and I
fall asleep for like twenty minutes and then I wake
up and I started feeling really anxious, like super anxious,
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and I could tell it was leading to worse, and
I stood up and I started having a panic attack.
And I don't know, I know what caused it to
an extent, it was the fact that Marrakesh is a
crazy city. It is bustling, it is people everywhere, it's confusing,
and I'm in a foreign country, so I know that
I was like overwhelmed right off the bat. I was
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so fucking tired because I had barely slept for like
twenty four hours. I was starting my period. Got it
the next day, and I knew I was about to
start it. And then I get I don't know what
it's called, but I've learned more about it recently. I
think it's like PMDD, where it's like pre menstrul disorder
something where you get higher anxiety and like or like
depression or something. And I definitely know that I get that.
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And so all of these things I think compiled on
top of the extreme lack of sleep, and I started panicking.
And when that happens sometimes I can't call myself and
I had to like get up and pace, and I
was like, what am I going to do? And in
my head like this is how anxiety works, Like I'm
in fight or flight mode, Like I feel like I'm dying,
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and I'm like I want to go home and I'm
so far away from home right now. And so I
sat there and I'm.
Speaker 2 (06:53):
Like what do I do? What do I do?
Speaker 3 (06:54):
I was like just walk, just walk around, just breathe,
and eventually I went up to the rooftop and I
got some like fresh and it went away, and I
was good, but I was stressing out because I feel
like the last time I started having a panic attack
like that, it lasted a very long time, and so
I just I don't know. I once again hate anxiety
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for the fact that I'm a logical human who needs
to understand exactly what just happened. And I couldn't understand
why that was happening because I was so excited all day,
like I was having a really good time. But then
I literally slept for not twelve ten hours that night,
and then I woke up. I felt like a new person,
and then the rest of the trip was fine. But
that first night I really started a panic and my
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sister had messaged me really early and I was like,
are you alive? Like it's a seven hour difference, So
I think she was concerned because I hadn't like posted
anything in a while, and so her and one other person,
the guy I'm seeing, are the only people I told
that I kind of freaked out a little bit, and
I was like, well, don't tell mom, So hi Mom,
if you're listening, yeah, I had a little bit of
a panic attack, but I'm good. But I told my sister,
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I'm don't tell mom this. I don't want her to
like freak out whatever. So, yes, it was a very
good trip minus the panic attack. And even with the
panic attack, I'm still happy.
Speaker 2 (08:10):
That I went.
Speaker 3 (08:11):
And I would advise anyone who considers solo traveling to
be something you maybe want to do but you're scared
to try it at least, like maybe try it once.
Speaker 2 (08:20):
If it's not for you, it's not for you.
Speaker 1 (08:21):
Two more questions, What was the food, Like, did you
like it?
Speaker 3 (08:24):
I'm gonna be honest, it's good, but it's good for
a day, yep, And I was pretty ready to get
home for that. That was the only minus the panic attack.
The only other part I didn't love was I just
felt like I was so sick of the food and
also like there's not a lot of healthy options there
and I just wanted to go to like a market
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and get stuff, but like they advise you not to
eat the fruit because unless it has appeal, So like
I was like trying to find bananas and stuff like that,
which I was able to find, but that was about it.
Like I didn't eat a vegetable for like a.
Speaker 2 (08:56):
Week pretty much. So that that I did love.
Speaker 3 (09:00):
And just like the part that I did get like
a little lonely was eating alone, yeah, constantly. That was
like the only part because I'm not usually a person
if I'm eating a meal with someone, I'm not on
my phone, you know, like meals, I usually don't sit
on my phone at all. But then like I felt
like there was nothing else for me to do but
look at my phone at those moments, and so I
got kind of bored with eating by myself. So that
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was the only part. I mean, I met a few
different people. I had a lunch where these two women
got sat next to me. I was a mom and daughter,
and they asked me one question then we ended up talking.
They both like lived in Texas for a while. Mom
lives in Miami now, daughter lives in London, and we
ended up talking pretty much the whole meal then, So
that was nice. It was like I kind of ate
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with them, sort of had a meal with them. And
then I met just like a couple of random like
people who worked in the markets. I would have conversations
with them about life, Like Moroccan people just love to
talk about their culture, and one guy who I bought
a leather bag from, he told me how Morocco really
is like super safe, And then he was talking about
how this one American girl had come and she was
(10:05):
saying how the city she lives in America is not
very safe, like she's felt so much better in Morocco
than she does in the city that she lived in.
And I was trying to figure out what city it was,
but he couldn't remember, but yeah, it was. It was
really fun. Like I said, would you recommend going.
Speaker 1 (10:21):
For a week or would you say stop in for
a few days and then go do with some other stuff.
Speaker 3 (10:26):
I would recommend going for longer than a week if
you plan on doing the amount of things I did,
because I did way too much in seven days. I
also would have loved to go to like the Sahara
Desert and done like that, or go to the one
of the coastal towns, but I just couldn't because the
thing with Morocco is if you want to see all
the things that are kind of worth seeing, you have
to be willing to like hop on trains, buses, cars,
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taxis whatever like pretty often. And I was getting really
drained from doing all of that, so I would say, yes,
it's worth it, because every city is different. I went
to four different cities and they were all so different
and so interesting to see. I mean, they all would
have markets and stuff like that, but it's like the
northern part has like a Spanish vibe to it, and
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then like the imperial cities have the palaces and like
the history of sultans and stuff like that, and then
like the Blue city I went to was just like
in the mountains, and so I feel like there's so
many different things you can see that it's hard to
be like only go for a few days. Yeah, only
spend a couple days in each city. But I would
like go to even more cities and go out to
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the desert still and do that.
Speaker 1 (11:34):
Okay, yeah, well that's awesome. Yeah.
Speaker 3 (11:36):
Let me tell you the one thing. Now, I did
say this on the morning show, so sorry if you
listen to the Morning Show and this and hear repetitive stories.
Speaker 2 (11:43):
But I can't remember if I told you this.
Speaker 3 (11:45):
How I started stressing out when I had to take
one plane from like the north part of the country
back to Marrakesh. I tell you it, Okay, So I
that whole fucking day was crazy because it started with
they have an app called in Drive. An in drive
is technically not legal, but that's like their version of Uber,
and it's not legal yet because of like all this
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regulation and taxi drivers are like, you're taking our business.
Speaker 2 (12:09):
Whatever.
Speaker 3 (12:10):
So I set up an in drive driver to take
me to the airport. The next day at twelve thirty,
I get a text from him at eleven and eleven
am and he goes, hey, Jenny, a few of my
friends have been pulled over today and they got their
license taken away for thirty days. Like I'm sorry, but
like I can't take you to Tetuan. I would advise
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you not doing a drive, like taking a drive with
an inn drive driver, like the police are out looking
for them today.
Speaker 2 (12:37):
Oh wow okay, and I go, okay, great.
Speaker 3 (12:39):
Luckily I hadn't booked my flight because of the fear
of that happening, so I hadn't booked the flight yet,
so I wasn't in like panic modent. I'm like, I
got some time, I'll figure it out. So I get
on a bus. I was able to find a bus,
which I originally would have done anyways, but it's said
that the bus was full that I needed for the
time I needed, but there ended up being a spot,
so I get a bus. I get to that city
where the airport is. No nobody really speaks English there
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and I hadn't experience that yet. Most people spoke at
least good enough English to be able to communicate, and
the city it was. Any taxi person that pulled over
was like not picking me up and taking me to
the airport, and I'm like, well fuck. Finally I get down,
I redownload in Drive and I was like, I'll just
like get an in drive driver then yeah, and then
as soon as I download it, it says there's suspicious
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activity on your account blah blah blah blah, and then
I shut it off. And I think after that was
when I googled is in drive legal and it said
it's not, and I was like, well, fuck yeah, so
I delete it. Finally get a taxi to the airport.
I'm there like three and a half early, three and
a half hours early for my flight, and I'm like
waiting to check in. They finally let me check in
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and then I go through the little tiny TSA area.
I get through that and then there's like passport control.
The passport control guy goes Marrakesh, You're going to Marrakesh
and I go yeah, and he kept asking me and
I go yeah. And then he hands my passport to
another guy who's like, you're going to Marrakesh, and I
was like, how many fucking times do I have to
say it, Yeah, I'm going to Marrakesh. And then he
hands my passport to another person who has like police
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on his like vest, and I'm like, well, this is
stressing me out. And I'm like, what what is happening?
And then like they're all looking and they're speaking in
whatever language they're speaking in, and I can't understand anything.
Most of them couldn't understand English. And so then eventually
this guy's like, come with me, and I was like,
oh my god, it's happening. I'm getting detained in Morocco
because I fucking downloaded intro.
Speaker 2 (14:26):
Oh no, and I'm panicking.
Speaker 3 (14:28):
And what it comes down to a very long story
longer is I was just there too early and they
didn't want to let me through to the part where
you can just sit and wait for a plane because
there was another plane to Amsterdam that still hadn't boarded,
so they were like this airport's too small. We're not
letting you through to like the seating area. Okay, so
wait out here. But at first the guy goes wait
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here for four and I go for four minutes, like
what is that? So I'm like sitting there waiting for
like ten minutes, like if someone's going to take me away? Now,
like am I in trouble? And finally I went up
to some woman who I knew spoke a little bit
of English that worked there, and she's like, yeah, they
probably just didn't let you through because like it's such
a small airport and I'm like, okay, well, y'all are
stressing me the fuck out, passing my passport around, asking
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me a.
Speaker 2 (15:11):
Million questions as so, are you going to a Marrakesh?
Speaker 3 (15:13):
Are you going to Marrakesh, and then taking me out
of that area and like escorting me out like I
don't know what to think at that point.
Speaker 2 (15:19):
Yeah, So yes, I was.
Speaker 3 (15:21):
A little like I was stressed, but I was pretty
proud of how I handled it in the sense of
like internally, because five years ago I would have been
having another panic attack. Yeah, And I was like fine,
there was a little bit of anxiety, but I was like,
it's okay, you really.
Speaker 2 (15:36):
Didn't do anything wrong.
Speaker 3 (15:37):
Sure, you downloaded an illegal app and you probably should enough.
But I literally thought I was getting like pulled aside
because I had downloaded in drive.
Speaker 1 (15:45):
And your mind goes to crazy place. Yes it does.
Speaker 3 (15:48):
Yeah, when you're like across the world, no one's near you,
no one's speaking English, it's like, well fuck yep. But anyways,
I'm trying to think, because I did write down like
a bunch of stories, if they're anything in particular, I
did message talent that. Unfortunately the morning before the ten
hour flight back to atlantacause I thought the food was
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gonna rip you up before and throughout the trip.
Speaker 2 (16:12):
It didn't.
Speaker 3 (16:13):
It didn't until that morning. I was looking through just
the souvenir shops and the airport and I feel a
rumble and I go, oh no, And I had to
jet into the bathroom. And I spent like three different
turns in the bathroom leading up to having to board
that plane, and I'm like, is this how this ten
hour flight is going to go?
Speaker 2 (16:31):
I am so miserable right now?
Speaker 1 (16:33):
Are you fine? On the plane?
Speaker 2 (16:35):
I was fine. I didn't have any problems it eventually
went away.
Speaker 3 (16:38):
I think I got whatever out of my system like
at the airport, but it was, yeah, I was I
was getting like hot in the face thinking about having
to be on the air plane and needing to like
maybe shit my brains out.
Speaker 2 (16:50):
Yeah, like I just I don't even know so.
Speaker 1 (16:53):
Well, the photos were beautiful, looked like a very very fun,
beautiful time.
Speaker 2 (16:57):
Yeah, it was.
Speaker 1 (16:58):
It was great.
Speaker 3 (16:58):
And I'm telling y'all, tripods are the new Instagram boyfriends. Okay,
forget your Instagram boyfriend or Grandpa's that or partner. Just
get a fucking trypod and one that has a clicker
so you can just like snap a million photos. Because
one guy did come up to me in the Blue
City and was like, hey, can I take your picture here?
Because I was like taking photos of like a pretty
famous spot. He's like, I've been waiting for someone like
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with a yellow dress and he's a professional photographer. And
I said sure, perfect. I was like, let me follow
you on Instagram then, and so he sends me the
photos hideous, awful, awful lighting, awful angles, awful, features of
my face were like in focus, and I was like,
what the how did my tripod that I just hit
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the clicker a million times, take better pictures than you
with your fucking like three thousand dollars camera. Yeah, and
you have like forty thousand followers on Instagram. Like no,
And so he tried to I feel like this sounds
so snobby and influencery.
Speaker 2 (17:56):
But he tried to collab with me on the post he.
Speaker 3 (17:58):
Did of me, and I was like, absolutely cannot and
I'm sorry, thanks for taking the photos. I liked his post,
but I am not collabbing on this film.
Speaker 1 (18:06):
Yeah that's funny. I've had that before. Yeah, someone with
a fancy camera take the worst photos. I'm like, all right, yeah,
I'm like.
Speaker 2 (18:14):
I was so pumped.
Speaker 3 (18:15):
I was like, oh, I'm gonna get some great photos,
like professional photos that he just wanted for his own portfolio.
And they were yeah, not great. So well, what did
I miss while I was gone? What have you been
up to?
Speaker 2 (18:26):
What if I did you miss me?
Speaker 1 (18:28):
That's all I thought about.
Speaker 3 (18:29):
I know, I figured you got to see my face
all over Instagram, but you didn't get to see it
in person.
Speaker 1 (18:34):
I know it's hard for me. No, I I did
a lot. I feel like I'm I've been constantly scheduling
booking things. Yeah, this is the time of the year
where I'll be like with what we do. We get
invited to a lot of previews of holiday things, so
I've had to be like yes, no, yes, no, maybe
kind of thing. So my schedule is full, Like I
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don't think there's a single thing else I could add
to it at this point, and which is a good
problem to have. But I so I've been doing a
lot of that, like ordering Christmas cards. I've threatened everyone
in my life that they have tell me what they
want before Block Friday because I'm buying all their stuff
on Block Friday to save money. And we ordered our
Christmas cards. That's all set. So I got those, got
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delivered today and I'm gonna stamp those bitches get them out.
Just trying to get things checked off the list. And yeah,
and I'm excited for a short week, which is like
really nice. We like this weekend. Dylan turns eighteen on Thanksgiving,
which is crazy, so we're doing like a nice steak
dinner for him Saturday. We're gonna go we like every
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year we go to that Miracle at Big Rockets out
near Taylor's Falls. I really love that one. It's my favorite,
like kind of like walk through light things.
Speaker 2 (19:42):
I'll never be to that one.
Speaker 1 (19:44):
They all be honest, I do partnerships with them.
Speaker 2 (19:46):
Yeah, but you love it.
Speaker 1 (19:47):
I love it because I would. I would have said
no after your one if I didn't love it. And
I was trying to think, oh, I saw that movie Eternity,
so I've seen now. I saw Wicked for good. I
thought it was fine.
Speaker 2 (20:00):
I've been so that's making me sad because I kind
of thought i'd go see it over.
Speaker 1 (20:04):
You should still see it.
Speaker 3 (20:05):
I definitely am gonna still see it, but I'm like,
do I wait because I'm not really a movie theater person,
and wait till I can just watch it at home?
Speaker 1 (20:11):
Or do I need to see that the Wicked movies
you wouldn't want to see in the theater. But I think,
you know, it's been so so, so so long since
I've seen the musical. I didn't remember that, like the
majority of the best songs are in the first half
of the play, and I thought there was a lot
of like they went through a lot. Yeah, and even
though it was two hours, it's like, I don't know,
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I part one. I prefer some people prefer part two,
but definitely. I feel like Part one got better reviews maybe,
but I saw Eternity with Tina that one might be
the best or probably the second best movie I saw
this year. I think the best movie I've seen this
year as Sinners. So I would say this is so different.
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It's like a romantic comedy kind of and the just
is Elizabeth Olsen's character. She dies and she has to
decide who she spends eternity with, her husband she was
married to for like two years but he died in
the war, or the husband she spent like sixty seven
years with and they had kids together because she never
got like the full life experience. What the first husband.
Speaker 2 (21:12):
I have seen the trailer this.
Speaker 1 (21:14):
And so it was so good. I haven't had a
unique seen a unique plot for a movie. Yeah, it
was so funny and I cried. I thought it was
so good. So anyway that one comes out, I think
like the twenty sixth or something, So I would recommend it.
Other thing. Last time we talked, I was super into
the Lily Allen album. Now I'm obsessed with the Hayley
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Williams album from Paramore. She went independent. She like job
this new album. I skip a handful of songs, but
there are like six or seven just great songs on
it kind of meet for me. It's like the first three,
the last three, and then there's like one kind of
in the middle that's like what I keep finding myself
going to but really really into that, And yeah, that's
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kind of what I've been doing, just been like I
listened to The Housemaid because I wanted to like listen
to that book before I saw the movie. So I
when I see that movie when it comes out, which
I think comes out in December, which is exciting.
Speaker 3 (22:09):
I So this is a really random thing from my trip.
So one of the reads I stayed at, the guy
who like set me up in my room. He shows
me around the read, gives me the tour, and then
he like shows me the room and stuff, and up
in like the corner there is the book The Housemaid
Funny and he points at it and he goes, have
you read this?
Speaker 2 (22:26):
And I was like, no, but I've heard it's really good.
He goes, yeah, that's my book. I love it. And
I was like, you just.
Speaker 3 (22:31):
Like randomly put it into one of the rooms that
people like there's nothing else in this d Like this
was like kind of the lamest read I stayed at
throughout the trip of the four I stayed at and
he's like, oh, and then he started talking about it,
and I wanted him to stop because I didn't want
him to spoil anything for me, and I already I
knew that I would forget what he said anyways, and
so I have forgot most of what he said, and
(22:51):
I don't think any of it was really necessarily a spoiler,
but I kind of wanted to be like, please stop talking,
because I did want to read this someday and I
don't want you to spoil it, or I want to.
Speaker 2 (22:58):
See the movie.
Speaker 1 (22:59):
It was. I kind of predicted the main twist, I guess,
but I was like, I don't know how this is
going to end. Yeah, So I liked it. I'm excited
to see it. But we did get an email like, literally,
I meant to rate it on the last podcast, so
I'm going to do it.
Speaker 2 (23:16):
Oh was it timely?
Speaker 4 (23:17):
No?
Speaker 1 (23:19):
Okay, So she said, I listened from the first episode
of your podcast and then I went and binged from
like day one, and she said she is getting lots
of loos from each episode. So she said, I got
to the episodes last night about adopting Frank. I had
(23:40):
already heard the newer, very descriptive Cane I'm Self Pleasure episode.
Now hearing when you adopted him describing him as super
sweet and cuddly is so fucking funny to me. I'm thinking, Kay, Fallon,
you're in for it with this freak. I just imagine
you're sick. Well, he maintains shameless eye conduct and continues anyway,
so happy I picked up the pod. I was two
(24:01):
lame for Radio Binger Morning Show podcast Daily and Minnesota
Goodbye Listener. But my schedule changed and I fell off
the morning show plus the Minnesota Goodbye a little before
you left. Seriously, I missed you two together the most.
Have a great weekend. I don't know how this email
ended up so long. Forgive me father.
Speaker 3 (24:17):
Oh gosh, it was not It wasn't at all. I
was like, I feel like that was actually quite to
the point.
Speaker 1 (24:22):
Yeah, and then let's see I'm trying to go through.
Oh I wrote down just or I had screenshotted something
from Instagram, you know, like you'll see those things, and
I thought it was just like, oh, I want to
read that.
Speaker 3 (24:36):
Yeah, okay, is it an inspirational, Yeah kind of. I'm
gonna tell by the way your voice just changed a
little bit that it was going to be like, I
don't know.
Speaker 1 (24:43):
If it's inspirational or eye opening. Okay, So she said
this girl posted, It just was like, I don't know.
Maybe she's the local, maybe she's not. My grandma told
me about this thing, and it's been living rent free
in my mind. In five years, most of the people
you see every day will be strangers again. The colleague
you laugh with at lunch, the neighbor you chat to
on the stairs, the gem buddy you spot between sets gone,
(25:03):
not in a tragic way, just faded out of your orbit.
That's how life works. People flow in, they flow out.
And here's the kicker. You can't control who stays. Sometimes
even the people you think are forever become five year strangers.
When I first realized this, it's stung. I thought about
all the energy I've poured into trying to make everyone
like me, all the times I said yes to things
(25:24):
I didn't want to do, all the times I shrink
myself to fit into someone else's version of me, only
for them to disappear from my life anyway. And then
it hit me. If so many people are only here
for a chapter, why am I living my whole story
for them? This is your reminder You're allowed to invest
your energy where it matters to you. You're allowed to
outgrow people. You're allowed to build a life that feels
(25:47):
good to you, even if it doesn't make sense to
anyone else, because in five years they might be strangers again,
but you will still be here. And you actually said
something to me. I won't get into the details of
It had nothing to do with like relationships in a way,
but you were talking about about something. It was like honestly,
like an event or something. You're like, I was gonna
say yes to this and then decided not to because
(26:09):
I've your Jenny's really bad about like putting everyone before
herself basically, and you were like and I finally was
just like no, I'm like, I want to do this
for me or whatever. And I was like, hell yeah.
So I read that, and I was like that made
me think of you, and like just all the times
you've said yes to things you didn't want to do
and just shrink yourself to fit. And so anyway, and
(26:31):
I think a lot of people listening will probably feel
that as well. Yeah, and it's like those people that
you are shifting who you are or saying yes to
doing going to an event or some shit you don't
want to do very well, likely will be strangers to
you in five years. So like I know, like you
can't just always put yourself first, yeah, but you should
be primarily putting yourself first.
Speaker 3 (26:52):
So I yes, it is something I have learned a
lot of in the last handful of months because I
don't know, I just you know, lots of things obviously
have changed for me. But like I also, I am like
I feel like I have caused so much stress on
myself to please other people, and like, I don't know,
(27:13):
it's like there's so many things I pinpointed over the
last probably year or so of why I have anxiety,
Like there are reasons that are like chemical imbalances, but
there's also reasons that are self induced. And I think
a lot of it has to do with the fact
that I stress myself out so much thinking I'm going
to disappoint someone and I don't want to do that,
(27:34):
and so then I say yes to things and Fallin
messaged me while I was in Morocco asking me to
go to something and I literally go ask someone else.
Speaker 2 (27:42):
I'm not signing up for anything right now.
Speaker 3 (27:44):
I am drained from this trip currently, and I don't
think I want to do much like I want.
Speaker 2 (27:49):
It to be a free space for me to do
whatever I want when I get back.
Speaker 3 (27:52):
So and I didn't feel bad about it because I
knew you'd understand. But like someone else that maybe would
have asked me, I probably maybe would have felt bad,
you know, But with you, I feel like you fully
understood where I was coming from.
Speaker 1 (28:05):
And yeah, I know. I'm like, it's this is the
time of year you have to start saying no because
it's the busiest time of year and you have a
million things to commit to. And so anyway, I saw
that and I liked it, and I was like, I'm
gonna share that. I just saved like a little video
on Instagram.
Speaker 3 (28:22):
I liked the video I sent you of the God
what now I'm gonna say it wrong, but like the
fucks one. Yeah, because like Fallin's bit is to like
flip me off or whatever. So a lot of times
we'll send each other reels where like someone's doing something
weird and you don't know how it's gonna end, it's
like them flipping you off. Yeah, and this guy was
like doing like a samurai sword. Fuck. He's like, do
(28:44):
this fuck and then he'd like samurai sword his fingers
down till he has this middle finger up. And I
just thought it was so funny. And I'm like, Fallon
should do a video like this. I know, it's not
like I feel like it's more of an inside joke
than like if you were to post it on social
media that people would necessarily understand to be a TikTok
post probably, But yes, Coln also sent me a very
nice reel, which normally we don't send each other nice reels.
(29:07):
It's usually like joking me me kind of things. But
you sent me a nice one about like what was
it like you missed me or something. It wasn't you
missed me, but it's like when you miss a person
that's like, yeah, you're bestie or something.
Speaker 4 (29:18):
And I was like, oh, you missed me someone else
for you, Well, welcome back, Happy to have you have
you back on the podcast he is doing for Thanksgiving.
Speaker 1 (29:31):
By the way, we are, we always go to Jake's Moms,
so Linda b hosting, so we're doing that on Thanksgiving.
The next morning, we are going to go to the
Taylor Falls area and we're actually going to go to
Miracle Big Rock for Friday, but we're staying the night,
getting up in the morning, coming back, and we're doing Dylan,
my stepsin's eighteenth birthday dinner that night, and which we're
(29:56):
we he like, you know, he's a protein guy, so
we're doing like a.
Speaker 2 (30:00):
A big Dylan's a protein guy.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
He's a protein guy. So I booked him a steakhouse.
I love it. And then all of his birthday party Sunday,
so full weekend planned for Thanksgiving.
Speaker 2 (30:11):
Damn, And I'm.
Speaker 3 (30:12):
Over here about to be an asshole and not go
home for Thanksgiving because I'm exhausted from traveling. Well, come
over to our Thanksgiving at least for dinner. I'll let
you know, because yes, I would love to if I'm around.
I just I feel like I have to go home
because I do have some little presence for the fam,
which I was kind of gilted into. I'll tell you
about that later. God, but it was my mom's birthday yesterday, so.
Speaker 1 (30:38):
It would be related. Cindy.
Speaker 3 (30:39):
It would be nice to see her, and I did
get her something specifically, that I wanted to get her
because I was in Morocco and I wanted to give
it to her for her birthday. So I feel like
I really do want to go home. However, I just
I just want to lay in my bed. I want
to be one with my bed. I want to have
a heating pad on my crooked neck that's been fucked
up for like three weeks from sexual intercourse.
Speaker 1 (31:01):
You're gonna share that part.
Speaker 2 (31:02):
I don't really care anymore.
Speaker 3 (31:04):
Whoever, listens, listens and they can hear what I have
to say, and I honestly.
Speaker 1 (31:08):
What a statement. Ever listens, listens and they can hear
what I have to say. Wow, you just encapsulated our podcast.
So well, that's lovely, all right?
Speaker 3 (31:17):
On that note, every Thanksgiving, yes, everything's giving
And we're officially back. What's up, Jenny, warn't you and
Morocco orre's that tan ad dog?
Speaker 2 (00:06):
Okay, Well, it's like their winter there. Okay, it's just
like he's not. I'm like summer year round there.
Speaker 1 (00:11):
First of all. Also, I do think that my skin
does not tan like it used to after being here,
but people will always do that. When I come back
from beat vacation, like you were just in Hawaiian, I'm
like f off, so I thought I would be that
annoying person to you.
Speaker 3 (00:24):
No, I mean I was mostly in like city cities.
They do have a lot of coastal towns that people
go to visit and stuff. But even on the coastal
side of things, like the sun wasn't that hot, it
wasn't like booming town.
Speaker 1 (00:34):
Sweaty in your pictures.
Speaker 3 (00:36):
There was only a couple times where I got sweaty,
just because when I tell you, I'm very good at directions,
but these cities are so confusing. I don't even know
how to describe them. I've never been in cities like
that before. So I would have a reservation or something somewhere,
and I'd be like busting ass to get there, and
I would get lost, and so then I'd sweat a
(00:56):
little bit in my attempt to get somewhere on time.
But luckily in Morocco, they kind of are like island
time people where they're very relaxed and chill.
Speaker 2 (01:05):
And if you're late, it is what it is.
Speaker 3 (01:07):
They're late, like the markets open at like maybe ten am,
depends on what they're feeling.
Speaker 1 (01:12):
Right day, you know, kind of vibe.
Speaker 2 (01:14):
So no, I stayed mostly not too sweaty.
Speaker 3 (01:18):
There was one video, so if you follow me on Instagram,
you might have seen this video I posted where I
was like on the back of some random person's moped.
So right before that video, I recorded myself being like, man,
I'm like so pumped be in this city. There's like
hills and I'm getting to work out in and I
feel like I've been eating a lot and not getting
much of a workout in.
Speaker 2 (01:38):
But holy shit, am I sweating right now?
Speaker 3 (01:41):
And then I find out I'm going the wrong way
like two seconds literally like seconds later, the sky rolls up.
He was the manager of the place I was staying.
He's like, Jenny, you're going the wrong way whatever, and
then I hop on the back of that and it
was so nice because the wind was blowing my pits
and I was getting that like breeze and I was like, oh,
thank god, because I was like, I love vacation where
I'm not profusely sweaty me too. I mean, islands are great,
(02:04):
but there's a part of me that eventually I'm like,
I'm fucking overbeing so.
Speaker 1 (02:08):
Hot A grade A grade everymore. So that's why I
like my sister like loves living in Florida. I'm like,
I couldn't live there. No, I could visit either, for sure,
but I yeah, okay, so I have tons of Morocco questions. Okay,
we literally usually debrief before the podcast.
Speaker 2 (02:23):
We haven't about Morocco, so we haven't.
Speaker 1 (02:25):
Okay, so let's start from the first. A lot like
their initial concern was you were just afraid to travel
by yourself, Yes, safety, various reasons like that. So how
was that portion?
Speaker 4 (02:37):
So?
Speaker 3 (02:38):
Yes, I was nervous, more so about the fact that
everywhere that I was kind of reading about things, it
was kind of advised to not go to Morocco solo
as a female. And it was not saying that you couldn't.
You just had to take extra precautions and stuff. And
now I've traveled alone in my van in the Midwest,
but I've never gone to a different country. Yeah, that
(02:58):
speaks a different language, Like that's so different. So after
literally the first day, I felt perfectly fine. Okay, And
I will say that, don't believe everything you read online.
Moroccan people are very friendly. Yes, there is an extreme
amount of harassment from the vendors because they're just trying
to get you to buy things.
Speaker 1 (03:19):
Liking it to a ton of mal Kiosk workers.
Speaker 3 (03:22):
Exactly, it's like every two seconds someone's trying to talk
to you. And I got extra harassment, I would say,
for the sense that I was a solo woman. Yeah,
but it was never in a way that made me
feel unsafe. It was in a way that that's their culture,
Like that's literally their job to like holler at you
and try to get you to come shop or whatever,
and they just want to talk and stuff. So literally
(03:43):
I had said on this podcast and too fallin that
I will make sure that I only stay out when
it's light out, and I do this and this and that,
and second day and I was going to dinner at
like six. I stayed out till like ten pm that night,
because I wanted to see this belly dancing show, so genuinely,
I felt very safe. I did bring a taser with
(04:03):
me just in case, So like a couple nights when
I was walking by myself and everything, I kind of
closed off. I did hold that in my hand, just
because I would do that literally anywhere.
Speaker 1 (04:12):
And you stayed and you but you stayed mostly on
pretty popular area and things like that. Yeah, yeah, very much.
Speaker 3 (04:20):
So I stayed in the areas that like, basically where
tourists are going. So it's not like I was going
to the outskirts of the city that nobody really would
venture to as a tourist. Yeah, but I mean, in
full honesty, yes, I felt safe. However, I'm not going
to deny the fact that I did have a full
blown panic attack the first day. So basically what had
(04:42):
happened is I travel. I had a pretty stressful start
to my travel because something weird was going on, saying
I had to have this other credit card associated with
my sky Miles account and I didn't have that, and
they were like, hey, well you have twenty five minutes
to figure it out, and then we can't get your
luggage on the plane, and you can't go, and I
was like, well, what the fu And the guy wasn't
really helping me, So.
Speaker 2 (05:02):
That gets figured out.
Speaker 3 (05:02):
But that was literally like thirty minutes of stress to
start the entire long travel day. Then I travel It's
a REDDA flight to Morocco from Atlanta. I slept for
maybe twenty minutes, and I had a whole row to myself,
Like I laid across the seas and I just could
not sleep.
Speaker 2 (05:18):
So I'm exhausted.
Speaker 3 (05:19):
But I get there, hit the ground running, like just
start doing a million things, and I can feel my
body starting to crash. So I get back to my
read which is like their version of hotels there, and
it's like five PM and I'm kind of just chilling
and I lay down and it's like seven and I
fall asleep for like twenty minutes and then I wake
up and I started feeling really anxious, like super anxious,
(05:42):
and I could tell it was leading to worse, and
I stood up and I started having a panic attack.
And I don't know, I know what caused it to
an extent, it was the fact that Marrakesh is a
crazy city. It is bustling, it is people everywhere, it's confusing,
and I'm in a foreign country, so I know that
I was like overwhelmed right off the bat. I was
(06:05):
so fucking tired because I had barely slept for like
twenty four hours. I was starting my period. Got it
the next day, and I knew I was about to
start it. And then I get I don't know what
it's called, but I've learned more about it recently. I
think it's like PMDD, where it's like pre menstrul disorder
something where you get higher anxiety and like or like
depression or something. And I definitely know that I get that.
(06:26):
And so all of these things I think compiled on
top of the extreme lack of sleep, and I started panicking.
And when that happens sometimes I can't call myself and
I had to like get up and pace, and I
was like, what am I going to do? And in
my head like this is how anxiety works, Like I'm
in fight or flight mode, Like I feel like I'm dying,
(06:47):
and I'm like I want to go home and I'm
so far away from home right now. And so I
sat there and I'm.
Speaker 2 (06:53):
Like what do I do? What do I do?
Speaker 3 (06:54):
I was like just walk, just walk around, just breathe,
and eventually I went up to the rooftop and I
got some like fresh and it went away, and I
was good, but I was stressing out because I feel
like the last time I started having a panic attack
like that, it lasted a very long time, and so
I just I don't know. I once again hate anxiety
(07:17):
for the fact that I'm a logical human who needs
to understand exactly what just happened. And I couldn't understand
why that was happening because I was so excited all day,
like I was having a really good time. But then
I literally slept for not twelve ten hours that night,
and then I woke up. I felt like a new person,
and then the rest of the trip was fine. But
that first night I really started a panic and my
(07:39):
sister had messaged me really early and I was like,
are you alive? Like it's a seven hour difference, So
I think she was concerned because I hadn't like posted
anything in a while, and so her and one other person,
the guy I'm seeing, are the only people I told
that I kind of freaked out a little bit, and
I was like, well, don't tell mom, So hi Mom,
if you're listening, yeah, I had a little bit of
a panic attack, but I'm good. But I told my sister,
(07:59):
I'm don't tell mom this. I don't want her to
like freak out whatever. So, yes, it was a very
good trip minus the panic attack. And even with the
panic attack, I'm still happy.
Speaker 2 (08:10):
That I went.
Speaker 3 (08:11):
And I would advise anyone who considers solo traveling to
be something you maybe want to do but you're scared
to try it at least, like maybe try it once.
Speaker 2 (08:20):
If it's not for you, it's not for you.
Speaker 1 (08:21):
Two more questions, What was the food, Like, did you
like it?
Speaker 3 (08:24):
I'm gonna be honest, it's good, but it's good for
a day, yep, And I was pretty ready to get
home for that. That was the only minus the panic attack.
The only other part I didn't love was I just
felt like I was so sick of the food and
also like there's not a lot of healthy options there
and I just wanted to go to like a market
(08:45):
and get stuff, but like they advise you not to
eat the fruit because unless it has appeal, So like
I was like trying to find bananas and stuff like that,
which I was able to find, but that was about it.
Like I didn't eat a vegetable for like a.
Speaker 2 (08:56):
Week pretty much. So that that I did love.
Speaker 3 (09:00):
And just like the part that I did get like
a little lonely was eating alone, yeah, constantly. That was
like the only part because I'm not usually a person
if I'm eating a meal with someone, I'm not on
my phone, you know, like meals, I usually don't sit
on my phone at all. But then like I felt
like there was nothing else for me to do but
look at my phone at those moments, and so I
got kind of bored with eating by myself. So that
(09:23):
was the only part. I mean, I met a few
different people. I had a lunch where these two women
got sat next to me. I was a mom and daughter,
and they asked me one question then we ended up talking.
They both like lived in Texas for a while. Mom
lives in Miami now, daughter lives in London, and we
ended up talking pretty much the whole meal then, So
that was nice. It was like I kind of ate
(09:43):
with them, sort of had a meal with them. And
then I met just like a couple of random like
people who worked in the markets. I would have conversations
with them about life, Like Moroccan people just love to
talk about their culture, and one guy who I bought
a leather bag from, he told me how Morocco really
is like super safe, And then he was talking about
how this one American girl had come and she was
(10:05):
saying how the city she lives in America is not
very safe, like she's felt so much better in Morocco
than she does in the city that she lived in.
And I was trying to figure out what city it was,
but he couldn't remember, but yeah, it was. It was
really fun. Like I said, would you recommend going.
Speaker 1 (10:21):
For a week or would you say stop in for
a few days and then go do with some other stuff.
Speaker 3 (10:26):
I would recommend going for longer than a week if
you plan on doing the amount of things I did,
because I did way too much in seven days. I
also would have loved to go to like the Sahara
Desert and done like that, or go to the one
of the coastal towns, but I just couldn't because the
thing with Morocco is if you want to see all
the things that are kind of worth seeing, you have
to be willing to like hop on trains, buses, cars,
(10:49):
taxis whatever like pretty often. And I was getting really
drained from doing all of that, so I would say, yes,
it's worth it, because every city is different. I went
to four different cities and they were all so different
and so interesting to see. I mean, they all would
have markets and stuff like that, but it's like the
northern part has like a Spanish vibe to it, and
(11:12):
then like the imperial cities have the palaces and like
the history of sultans and stuff like that, and then
like the Blue city I went to was just like
in the mountains, and so I feel like there's so
many different things you can see that it's hard to
be like only go for a few days. Yeah, only
spend a couple days in each city. But I would
like go to even more cities and go out to
(11:32):
the desert still and do that.
Speaker 1 (11:34):
Okay, yeah, well that's awesome. Yeah.
Speaker 3 (11:36):
Let me tell you the one thing. Now, I did
say this on the morning show, so sorry if you
listen to the Morning Show and this and hear repetitive stories.
Speaker 2 (11:43):
But I can't remember if I told you this.
Speaker 3 (11:45):
How I started stressing out when I had to take
one plane from like the north part of the country
back to Marrakesh. I tell you it, Okay, So I
that whole fucking day was crazy because it started with
they have an app called in Drive. An in drive
is technically not legal, but that's like their version of Uber,
and it's not legal yet because of like all this
(12:06):
regulation and taxi drivers are like, you're taking our business.
Speaker 2 (12:09):
Whatever.
Speaker 3 (12:10):
So I set up an in drive driver to take
me to the airport. The next day at twelve thirty,
I get a text from him at eleven and eleven
am and he goes, hey, Jenny, a few of my
friends have been pulled over today and they got their
license taken away for thirty days. Like I'm sorry, but
like I can't take you to Tetuan. I would advise
(12:31):
you not doing a drive, like taking a drive with
an inn drive driver, like the police are out looking
for them today.
Speaker 2 (12:37):
Oh wow okay, and I go, okay, great.
Speaker 3 (12:39):
Luckily I hadn't booked my flight because of the fear
of that happening, so I hadn't booked the flight yet,
so I wasn't in like panic modent. I'm like, I
got some time, I'll figure it out. So I get
on a bus. I was able to find a bus,
which I originally would have done anyways, but it's said
that the bus was full that I needed for the
time I needed, but there ended up being a spot,
so I get a bus. I get to that city
where the airport is. No nobody really speaks English there
(13:01):
and I hadn't experience that yet. Most people spoke at
least good enough English to be able to communicate, and
the city it was. Any taxi person that pulled over
was like not picking me up and taking me to
the airport, and I'm like, well fuck. Finally I get down,
I redownload in Drive and I was like, I'll just
like get an in drive driver then yeah, and then
as soon as I download it, it says there's suspicious
(13:22):
activity on your account blah blah blah blah, and then
I shut it off. And I think after that was
when I googled is in drive legal and it said
it's not, and I was like, well, fuck yeah, so
I delete it. Finally get a taxi to the airport.
I'm there like three and a half early, three and
a half hours early for my flight, and I'm like
waiting to check in. They finally let me check in
(13:43):
and then I go through the little tiny TSA area.
I get through that and then there's like passport control.
The passport control guy goes Marrakesh, You're going to Marrakesh
and I go yeah, and he kept asking me and
I go yeah. And then he hands my passport to
another guy who's like, you're going to Marrakesh, and I
was like, how many fucking times do I have to
say it, Yeah, I'm going to Marrakesh. And then he
hands my passport to another person who has like police
(14:04):
on his like vest, and I'm like, well, this is
stressing me out. And I'm like, what what is happening?
And then like they're all looking and they're speaking in
whatever language they're speaking in, and I can't understand anything.
Most of them couldn't understand English. And so then eventually
this guy's like, come with me, and I was like,
oh my god, it's happening. I'm getting detained in Morocco
because I fucking downloaded intro.
Speaker 2 (14:26):
Oh no, and I'm panicking.
Speaker 3 (14:28):
And what it comes down to a very long story
longer is I was just there too early and they
didn't want to let me through to the part where
you can just sit and wait for a plane because
there was another plane to Amsterdam that still hadn't boarded,
so they were like this airport's too small. We're not
letting you through to like the seating area. Okay, so
wait out here. But at first the guy goes wait
(14:49):
here for four and I go for four minutes, like
what is that? So I'm like sitting there waiting for
like ten minutes, like if someone's going to take me away? Now,
like am I in trouble? And finally I went up
to some woman who I knew spoke a little bit
of English that worked there, and she's like, yeah, they
probably just didn't let you through because like it's such
a small airport and I'm like, okay, well, y'all are
stressing me the fuck out, passing my passport around, asking
(15:11):
me a.
Speaker 2 (15:11):
Million questions as so, are you going to a Marrakesh?
Speaker 3 (15:13):
Are you going to Marrakesh, and then taking me out
of that area and like escorting me out like I
don't know what to think at that point.
Speaker 2 (15:19):
Yeah, So yes, I was.
Speaker 3 (15:21):
A little like I was stressed, but I was pretty
proud of how I handled it in the sense of
like internally, because five years ago I would have been
having another panic attack. Yeah, And I was like fine,
there was a little bit of anxiety, but I was like,
it's okay, you really.
Speaker 2 (15:36):
Didn't do anything wrong.
Speaker 3 (15:37):
Sure, you downloaded an illegal app and you probably should enough.
But I literally thought I was getting like pulled aside
because I had downloaded in drive.
Speaker 1 (15:45):
And your mind goes to crazy place. Yes it does.
Speaker 3 (15:48):
Yeah, when you're like across the world, no one's near you,
no one's speaking English, it's like, well fuck yep. But anyways,
I'm trying to think, because I did write down like
a bunch of stories, if they're anything in particular, I
did message talent that. Unfortunately the morning before the ten
hour flight back to atlantacause I thought the food was
(16:10):
gonna rip you up before and throughout the trip.
Speaker 2 (16:12):
It didn't.
Speaker 3 (16:13):
It didn't until that morning. I was looking through just
the souvenir shops and the airport and I feel a
rumble and I go, oh no, And I had to
jet into the bathroom. And I spent like three different
turns in the bathroom leading up to having to board
that plane, and I'm like, is this how this ten
hour flight is going to go?
Speaker 2 (16:31):
I am so miserable right now?
Speaker 1 (16:33):
Are you fine? On the plane?
Speaker 2 (16:35):
I was fine. I didn't have any problems it eventually
went away.
Speaker 3 (16:38):
I think I got whatever out of my system like
at the airport, but it was, yeah, I was I
was getting like hot in the face thinking about having
to be on the air plane and needing to like
maybe shit my brains out.
Speaker 2 (16:50):
Yeah, like I just I don't even know so.
Speaker 1 (16:53):
Well, the photos were beautiful, looked like a very very fun,
beautiful time.
Speaker 2 (16:57):
Yeah, it was.
Speaker 1 (16:58):
It was great.
Speaker 3 (16:58):
And I'm telling y'all, tripods are the new Instagram boyfriends. Okay,
forget your Instagram boyfriend or Grandpa's that or partner. Just
get a fucking trypod and one that has a clicker
so you can just like snap a million photos. Because
one guy did come up to me in the Blue
City and was like, hey, can I take your picture here?
Because I was like taking photos of like a pretty
famous spot. He's like, I've been waiting for someone like
(17:21):
with a yellow dress and he's a professional photographer. And
I said sure, perfect. I was like, let me follow
you on Instagram then, and so he sends me the
photos hideous, awful, awful lighting, awful angles, awful, features of
my face were like in focus, and I was like,
what the how did my tripod that I just hit
(17:43):
the clicker a million times, take better pictures than you
with your fucking like three thousand dollars camera. Yeah, and
you have like forty thousand followers on Instagram. Like no,
And so he tried to I feel like this sounds
so snobby and influencery.
Speaker 2 (17:56):
But he tried to collab with me on the post he.
Speaker 3 (17:58):
Did of me, and I was like, absolutely cannot and
I'm sorry, thanks for taking the photos. I liked his post,
but I am not collabbing on this film.
Speaker 1 (18:06):
Yeah that's funny. I've had that before. Yeah, someone with
a fancy camera take the worst photos. I'm like, all right, yeah,
I'm like.
Speaker 2 (18:14):
I was so pumped.
Speaker 3 (18:15):
I was like, oh, I'm gonna get some great photos,
like professional photos that he just wanted for his own portfolio.
And they were yeah, not great. So well, what did
I miss while I was gone? What have you been
up to?
Speaker 2 (18:26):
What if I did you miss me?
Speaker 1 (18:28):
That's all I thought about.
Speaker 3 (18:29):
I know, I figured you got to see my face
all over Instagram, but you didn't get to see it
in person.
Speaker 1 (18:34):
I know it's hard for me. No, I I did
a lot. I feel like I'm I've been constantly scheduling
booking things. Yeah, this is the time of the year
where I'll be like with what we do. We get
invited to a lot of previews of holiday things, so
I've had to be like yes, no, yes, no, maybe
kind of thing. So my schedule is full, Like I
(18:56):
don't think there's a single thing else I could add
to it at this point, and which is a good
problem to have. But I so I've been doing a
lot of that, like ordering Christmas cards. I've threatened everyone
in my life that they have tell me what they
want before Block Friday because I'm buying all their stuff
on Block Friday to save money. And we ordered our
Christmas cards. That's all set. So I got those, got
(19:16):
delivered today and I'm gonna stamp those bitches get them out.
Just trying to get things checked off the list. And yeah,
and I'm excited for a short week, which is like
really nice. We like this weekend. Dylan turns eighteen on Thanksgiving,
which is crazy, so we're doing like a nice steak
dinner for him Saturday. We're gonna go we like every
(19:37):
year we go to that Miracle at Big Rockets out
near Taylor's Falls. I really love that one. It's my favorite,
like kind of like walk through light things.
Speaker 2 (19:42):
I'll never be to that one.
Speaker 1 (19:44):
They all be honest, I do partnerships with them.
Speaker 2 (19:46):
Yeah, but you love it.
Speaker 1 (19:47):
I love it because I would. I would have said
no after your one if I didn't love it. And
I was trying to think, oh, I saw that movie Eternity,
so I've seen now. I saw Wicked for good. I
thought it was fine.
Speaker 2 (20:00):
I've been so that's making me sad because I kind
of thought i'd go see it over.
Speaker 1 (20:04):
You should still see it.
Speaker 3 (20:05):
I definitely am gonna still see it, but I'm like,
do I wait because I'm not really a movie theater person,
and wait till I can just watch it at home?
Speaker 1 (20:11):
Or do I need to see that the Wicked movies
you wouldn't want to see in the theater. But I think,
you know, it's been so so, so so long since
I've seen the musical. I didn't remember that, like the
majority of the best songs are in the first half
of the play, and I thought there was a lot
of like they went through a lot. Yeah, and even
though it was two hours, it's like, I don't know,
(20:33):
I part one. I prefer some people prefer part two,
but definitely. I feel like Part one got better reviews maybe,
but I saw Eternity with Tina that one might be
the best or probably the second best movie I saw
this year. I think the best movie I've seen this
year as Sinners. So I would say this is so different.
(20:53):
It's like a romantic comedy kind of and the just
is Elizabeth Olsen's character. She dies and she has to
decide who she spends eternity with, her husband she was
married to for like two years but he died in
the war, or the husband she spent like sixty seven
years with and they had kids together because she never
got like the full life experience. What the first husband.
Speaker 2 (21:12):
I have seen the trailer this.
Speaker 1 (21:14):
And so it was so good. I haven't had a
unique seen a unique plot for a movie. Yeah, it
was so funny and I cried. I thought it was
so good. So anyway that one comes out, I think
like the twenty sixth or something, So I would recommend it.
Other thing. Last time we talked, I was super into
the Lily Allen album. Now I'm obsessed with the Hayley
(21:35):
Williams album from Paramore. She went independent. She like job
this new album. I skip a handful of songs, but
there are like six or seven just great songs on
it kind of meet for me. It's like the first three,
the last three, and then there's like one kind of
in the middle that's like what I keep finding myself
going to but really really into that, And yeah, that's
(21:56):
kind of what I've been doing, just been like I
listened to The Housemaid because I wanted to like listen
to that book before I saw the movie. So I
when I see that movie when it comes out, which
I think comes out in December, which is exciting.
Speaker 3 (22:09):
I So this is a really random thing from my trip.
So one of the reads I stayed at, the guy
who like set me up in my room. He shows
me around the read, gives me the tour, and then
he like shows me the room and stuff, and up
in like the corner there is the book The Housemaid
Funny and he points at it and he goes, have
you read this?
Speaker 2 (22:26):
And I was like, no, but I've heard it's really good.
He goes, yeah, that's my book. I love it. And
I was like, you just.
Speaker 3 (22:31):
Like randomly put it into one of the rooms that
people like there's nothing else in this d Like this
was like kind of the lamest read I stayed at
throughout the trip of the four I stayed at and
he's like, oh, and then he started talking about it,
and I wanted him to stop because I didn't want
him to spoil anything for me, and I already I
knew that I would forget what he said anyways, and
so I have forgot most of what he said, and
(22:51):
I don't think any of it was really necessarily a spoiler,
but I kind of wanted to be like, please stop talking,
because I did want to read this someday and I
don't want you to spoil it, or I want to.
Speaker 2 (22:58):
See the movie.
Speaker 1 (22:59):
It was. I kind of predicted the main twist, I guess,
but I was like, I don't know how this is
going to end. Yeah, So I liked it. I'm excited
to see it. But we did get an email like, literally,
I meant to rate it on the last podcast, so
I'm going to do it.
Speaker 2 (23:16):
Oh was it timely?
Speaker 4 (23:17):
No?
Speaker 1 (23:19):
Okay, So she said, I listened from the first episode
of your podcast and then I went and binged from
like day one, and she said she is getting lots
of loos from each episode. So she said, I got
to the episodes last night about adopting Frank. I had
(23:40):
already heard the newer, very descriptive Cane I'm Self Pleasure episode.
Now hearing when you adopted him describing him as super
sweet and cuddly is so fucking funny to me. I'm thinking, Kay, Fallon,
you're in for it with this freak. I just imagine
you're sick. Well, he maintains shameless eye conduct and continues anyway,
so happy I picked up the pod. I was two
(24:01):
lame for Radio Binger Morning Show podcast Daily and Minnesota
Goodbye Listener. But my schedule changed and I fell off
the morning show plus the Minnesota Goodbye a little before
you left. Seriously, I missed you two together the most.
Have a great weekend. I don't know how this email
ended up so long. Forgive me father.
Speaker 3 (24:17):
Oh gosh, it was not It wasn't at all. I
was like, I feel like that was actually quite to
the point.
Speaker 1 (24:22):
Yeah, and then let's see I'm trying to go through.
Oh I wrote down just or I had screenshotted something
from Instagram, you know, like you'll see those things, and
I thought it was just like, oh, I want to
read that.
Speaker 3 (24:36):
Yeah, okay, is it an inspirational, Yeah kind of. I'm
gonna tell by the way your voice just changed a
little bit that it was going to be like, I
don't know.
Speaker 1 (24:43):
If it's inspirational or eye opening. Okay, So she said
this girl posted, It just was like, I don't know.
Maybe she's the local, maybe she's not. My grandma told
me about this thing, and it's been living rent free
in my mind. In five years, most of the people
you see every day will be strangers again. The colleague
you laugh with at lunch, the neighbor you chat to
on the stairs, the gem buddy you spot between sets gone,
(25:03):
not in a tragic way, just faded out of your orbit.
That's how life works. People flow in, they flow out.
And here's the kicker. You can't control who stays. Sometimes
even the people you think are forever become five year strangers.
When I first realized this, it's stung. I thought about
all the energy I've poured into trying to make everyone
like me, all the times I said yes to things
(25:24):
I didn't want to do, all the times I shrink
myself to fit into someone else's version of me, only
for them to disappear from my life anyway. And then
it hit me. If so many people are only here
for a chapter, why am I living my whole story
for them? This is your reminder You're allowed to invest
your energy where it matters to you. You're allowed to
outgrow people. You're allowed to build a life that feels
(25:47):
good to you, even if it doesn't make sense to
anyone else, because in five years they might be strangers again,
but you will still be here. And you actually said
something to me. I won't get into the details of
It had nothing to do with like relationships in a way,
but you were talking about about something. It was like honestly,
like an event or something. You're like, I was gonna
say yes to this and then decided not to because
(26:09):
I've your Jenny's really bad about like putting everyone before
herself basically, and you were like and I finally was
just like no, I'm like, I want to do this
for me or whatever. And I was like, hell yeah.
So I read that, and I was like that made
me think of you, and like just all the times
you've said yes to things you didn't want to do
and just shrink yourself to fit. And so anyway, and
(26:31):
I think a lot of people listening will probably feel
that as well. Yeah, and it's like those people that
you are shifting who you are or saying yes to
doing going to an event or some shit you don't
want to do very well, likely will be strangers to
you in five years. So like I know, like you
can't just always put yourself first, yeah, but you should
be primarily putting yourself first.
Speaker 3 (26:52):
So I yes, it is something I have learned a
lot of in the last handful of months because I
don't know, I just you know, lots of things obviously
have changed for me. But like I also, I am like
I feel like I have caused so much stress on
myself to please other people, and like, I don't know,
(27:13):
it's like there's so many things I pinpointed over the
last probably year or so of why I have anxiety,
Like there are reasons that are like chemical imbalances, but
there's also reasons that are self induced. And I think
a lot of it has to do with the fact
that I stress myself out so much thinking I'm going
to disappoint someone and I don't want to do that,
(27:34):
and so then I say yes to things and Fallin
messaged me while I was in Morocco asking me to
go to something and I literally go ask someone else.
Speaker 2 (27:42):
I'm not signing up for anything right now.
Speaker 3 (27:44):
I am drained from this trip currently, and I don't
think I want to do much like I want.
Speaker 2 (27:49):
It to be a free space for me to do
whatever I want when I get back.
Speaker 3 (27:52):
So and I didn't feel bad about it because I
knew you'd understand. But like someone else that maybe would
have asked me, I probably maybe would have felt bad,
you know, But with you, I feel like you fully
understood where I was coming from.
Speaker 1 (28:05):
And yeah, I know. I'm like, it's this is the
time of year you have to start saying no because
it's the busiest time of year and you have a
million things to commit to. And so anyway, I saw
that and I liked it, and I was like, I'm
gonna share that. I just saved like a little video
on Instagram.
Speaker 3 (28:22):
I liked the video I sent you of the God
what now I'm gonna say it wrong, but like the
fucks one. Yeah, because like Fallin's bit is to like
flip me off or whatever. So a lot of times
we'll send each other reels where like someone's doing something
weird and you don't know how it's gonna end, it's
like them flipping you off. Yeah, and this guy was
like doing like a samurai sword. Fuck. He's like, do
(28:44):
this fuck and then he'd like samurai sword his fingers
down till he has this middle finger up. And I
just thought it was so funny. And I'm like, Fallon
should do a video like this. I know, it's not
like I feel like it's more of an inside joke
than like if you were to post it on social
media that people would necessarily understand to be a TikTok
post probably, But yes, Coln also sent me a very
nice reel, which normally we don't send each other nice reels.
(29:07):
It's usually like joking me me kind of things. But
you sent me a nice one about like what was
it like you missed me or something. It wasn't you
missed me, but it's like when you miss a person
that's like, yeah, you're bestie or something.
Speaker 4 (29:18):
And I was like, oh, you missed me someone else
for you, Well, welcome back, Happy to have you have
you back on the podcast he is doing for Thanksgiving.
Speaker 1 (29:31):
By the way, we are, we always go to Jake's Moms,
so Linda b hosting, so we're doing that on Thanksgiving.
The next morning, we are going to go to the
Taylor Falls area and we're actually going to go to
Miracle Big Rock for Friday, but we're staying the night,
getting up in the morning, coming back, and we're doing Dylan,
my stepsin's eighteenth birthday dinner that night, and which we're
(29:56):
we he like, you know, he's a protein guy, so
we're doing like a.
Speaker 2 (30:00):
A big Dylan's a protein guy.
Speaker 1 (30:02):
He's a protein guy. So I booked him a steakhouse.
I love it. And then all of his birthday party Sunday,
so full weekend planned for Thanksgiving.
Speaker 2 (30:11):
Damn, And I'm.
Speaker 3 (30:12):
Over here about to be an asshole and not go
home for Thanksgiving because I'm exhausted from traveling. Well, come
over to our Thanksgiving at least for dinner. I'll let
you know, because yes, I would love to if I'm around.
I just I feel like I have to go home
because I do have some little presence for the fam,
which I was kind of gilted into. I'll tell you
about that later. God, but it was my mom's birthday yesterday, so.
Speaker 1 (30:38):
It would be related. Cindy.
Speaker 3 (30:39):
It would be nice to see her, and I did
get her something specifically, that I wanted to get her
because I was in Morocco and I wanted to give
it to her for her birthday. So I feel like
I really do want to go home. However, I just
I just want to lay in my bed. I want
to be one with my bed. I want to have
a heating pad on my crooked neck that's been fucked
up for like three weeks from sexual intercourse.
Speaker 1 (31:01):
You're gonna share that part.
Speaker 2 (31:02):
I don't really care anymore.
Speaker 3 (31:04):
Whoever, listens, listens and they can hear what I have
to say, and I honestly.
Speaker 1 (31:08):
What a statement. Ever listens, listens and they can hear
what I have to say. Wow, you just encapsulated our podcast.
So well, that's lovely, all right?
Speaker 3 (31:17):
On that note, every Thanksgiving, yes, everything's giving
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