Sporadic Thoughts Podcast Episode 44

An extremely special edition of Sporadic Thoughts with a very special guest!

Episode Transcript

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This podcast was recorded in the IHeart Radio line of Podcasting Center. It's
your girl, Courtneyo, It's yourbig dog, Matt Sanders. The difference
between me and you, leave yourtruth? What's your truth? What everybody
else is thinking that? Say whatevercomes to your mind and shop it up.

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But today we got time. Ilove that boy, yo, yo
yo. It's your girl COURTNEYO.And it's your big dog Matt Sanders.
And welcome to another episode of Sporadicevery Thoughts. Eric Alradys Alrady and we

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got a special guest in the house, real stage. We got the one
and only the musical surgeon, theaudio god shooting. You a food for
this one, good man Himothy Right, we got Shooter in the building.
It's always a pleasure and an honorto have guests, but it's extra special

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that we have Shooter in the buildingtoday shooting. It's our guy, Yo,
It's needed, it's needed. Howyou feeling the day, bro,
bro bless I'm blessed to be here. Absolutely okay. How are you day
going? It's going pretty good.I can't really complain about it. Yeah,
you know, you know, Iain't gonna that's just busting. That's
vasoline cocoa butter. You have analcohol, Yeah, that's the cocoa butter,

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that basoline with the shape butters likeya, I'm blowing. It's a
little hot, but it's okay.Yeah for sure. Hey, my day
ain't going bad. You know,honestly, I've been nourishing my back for
real. What you do to yourback? Oh yeah. On Saturday,

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I did like a little just astretch. I was extremely exhausted. Okay,
I did a little strangle and thenthe higher end of my back did
like a little pool and I waslike, oh, I stopped at mad
Stretch and just sat down. Andwhen I got up, I was like,
oh yeah, I was down andout this whole weekend. Man,
it was okay. I wonder youwas just relaxing the nine, you know,

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ye from Matthew. I seen MattScrew but no Matt, Yeah,
I didn't get a chance to makeI was there in spirit. Absolutely.
Yeah. I've seen Kaylin and kidscome through. I knew it was Mad
Screw, like I said, MattScrew, So yeah, no doubt.
How was your weekend? My bridgeare in. My weekend was busy?

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Yeah, it was very busy.Okay, Okay, I had a great
father's day. Yeah you both.YEA. Always Um, anytime you hear
the be able to spend time whenin your family, Yes, mother,
it can't get no better than that, YEA, desolutely blessings on blessing.
So let's talk about this music thatyeah we're gonna write. I want to

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hear with the musical surgeon guy.Man, we got out into the music
industry. Oh wow. I wasalways artiging with words. Okay, play
scrabberly shit, Uh, somewhat likethat. Okay, man, it came
out, y'all got me her smiling. It came out because I always younger.

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Uh, I had a thing forthis older lady. Okay, school
like I'm a young I'm a jigyeah yeah, eight nine day. And
I didn't know how to like talk, like say what I want to say,
right, you know, because youknow, damn because it boils into
my brother so kind of it's kindof touchy. But watching my older brother,

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you know what I'm saying, Um, I see how smooth he always
was. He never had the females. He can sing like Tory phenomenal or
his voice he can sing. AndI didn't understand like that was his sauce.
You know what I'm saying, wouldn'thave no issues communicating with females neatness
to say. I didn't know howto do that, so it was like,

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oh man, hamma, let herknow. Then I'm younger than her.
And everybody was popping. That wassomebody had all theer. I'm sitting
in the bag. I was.I guess I was the one that I
was the outcast. So my mommy way was I just wrote something and
was like, oh, well,I'm gonna write it. Yeah. Yeah,
I didn't know how it was expressingmyself poetically or whatever you gave it.

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Just I gave it like I'm like, here, just read this somebody.
And then when she read it,I see the response. I'm watching
because he was in a love library. Okay, I'm watching and she was
spending the letter. Okay, okay, so mind you, I'm young and
I'm writing properly. So he didn't, so I I didn't. I didn't.
I didn't. I didn't realize thatI had a gift or nap with

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words like that until I did itagain. They started pushing p Yeah,
okay, so I was. Iwas. I was clever with words,
and yeah, that's beautiful though.I think they to connect how words can
be impactful and utilize in multiple differentways besides just musically. You know,

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communication and it brings understanding. Understandingbrings you. Yes, now you gotta
tell us about your brand, becauseShooter just doesn't do music. Shooter,
it's a brand. Come on,explain it to us. That's what we
do. Um like like Shoot becamelike Shooter, Shooter is man. I

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had so many handles, but howI became a brand it was just more
so I was focused on like asa as a creator or as an artist.
God like people focus on being anartist and they not realizing that.
People not identifying you with you asan artist, they identifying with you as
a brand. Yeah, a lotof people that still shoot off a lot

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of people here. Yeah, wellhow are you doing this? And ain't
I ain't put out no music,hen't doing this. I'm a brand.
I established myself. I didn't makeyou rock with me as an artist.
You rock with the moment and whatI do as a person as in a
brand, so you identify with itall. Yeah, I did do a
different resource. I rock with thatbrand because you got you got some you

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got some that won't necessarily mess withyou as an artist, what they mess
with you as a brand. Oryou might got some clothes they might not.
They might not mess with your clothes, what they rock with your music.
One way or the other. Theyidentify to your brand, and some
people, whatever they have going on, whatever it's egos, ultimately it gets

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shattered because you have no choice butto identify to this brand. First off,
I'm from here, Okay, youknow what I'm saying. And I'm
a staple here. I'm know,I'm I'm a humble person. That's real.
But I can I can be Theyknow everything that I'm putting out.
This is it's real. They knowit. It's like that's really him.
You know. It's all very andthat's just the beauty of different things because

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they they recognize you being authentic forreal. I can go so deep into
the branding part. Man, it'sjust you know, um my passion and
who I am. Okay alutely.So, I mean, what do you
really love about the industry? Nothing? Okay, that's different. Nothing I

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love nothing about it. Break itdown a little bit, um, get
the little taste. Taste. Youcan start out with nothing okay and have
everybody, oh okay, say thatone more time. You can start out
with nothing and have everybody you takea step above a ladder. They're looking
where you're going, take a nervousstep, and like hold on, hope

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y'are listening. You started sending peopleno longer a looking face value with you.
They start to have to look upas you make your way up,
and um, that brings out theugly and people like and that's just really
like like I wasn't I want mymind, My mind is making me gonna

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go to so I'm gonna go toSporadically, I got um, I got
a big thing about giving appreciation towhoever said a tone or precedence. Um,
I still see some of my bigdogs or somebody that I admired or

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was inspired by, you know,you know, like like Shot like Slim
Slim, that's like man, that'smy brother. But then I think about
No Man's and were talking to music. But it's gonna get bigger, get
bigger, right, I'm I'm notI'm not a bass to saying. You
play the role in how move gotas a businessman, as an artist,

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as an entrepreneur, you got tothink about it, somebody started that role
and the pay attention. You didn'tdo it yourself, right, even though
he doing it, You didn't doit yourself. Somebody influenced you to do
it, definitely, And and likelike when I started gaining quote unquote some
form of sup I started feeling different. Then I started feeling different because the

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people around me start acting different.And I ain't even made it nowhere yet,
right, That's that's that's I'm tryingto But the thing about me is
I'm always the first to come lastto help somebody else. I've always been
like that. My mama used toalways tell me stop doing that because when
I do get somebody somewhere else orhelp them get somewhere else, they're not
looking back. So that made mefall out of love. I don't love

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I don't love the industry whatsoever.I don't love the ugly that come with
it, because the thing about itis like it's much ugly come with it.
I can be ten times that uglyand stand on it though everybody know
that, you know what I'm saying. So I don't want that ugly to
make me be ugly. I'm toohandsome for that. But it's like real,

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like I don't. I don't loveit. I don't I used to
be Yeah, yeah, I don'teven like shut studio down. I don't
want to help nobody. I don'tnone of that. I can turn you
that way. They take everybody usingsomebody in life. Okay, I don't.
I'm not gonna draw this out,but I'm gonna make sense of what
I'm saying. Okay, it's adifference between you to someone and miss you

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come someone. Okay. Everybody needssomeone for some form of degree that I
might be coordiny to speak. Imight need cordy to openness through accordey,
I need to speak to this person. I might need you to introduce me
to X, Y and Z.So somebody uses someone, right, the
differences miss you Okay. One ofmy big dogs s broke that down to
me because I'm like, bro,I'm like like like like, this ain't

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add up. I ain't. Howam I getting used? And I'm one
helping everybody say it's it's it's thepoint in the mall behind it. It's
like, that's because that's who youare. He said, don't change,
don't don't don't let that change whoyou are. But it do they do
because it can make I mean,one point in time, I was severely
up and I ain't gonna go intoI was. I was good right and

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somebody was like, okay, actlike you got less there. I'm ain't
doing that. Ain't me. Idid it and everything came of light and
that's facts. Wow, facts,facts facts. That's why I don't wear
the jury and all that. Man, I can do all of that,
I just don't. But it showedme something. It really showed me that
because I'm like, nah, theyloved me. They loved me. Now

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I'm him. Everybody mess with me, from the youngest to the old heads.
They but that's in secrecy. Nothingsilly again, Loki need a documentary
absolutely, because that was very verydocumentary. How about you, uh let

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us know and talk to us aboutthat. Oh um, that is that
word. It's it's it's it's dopethat you bring that up. But yeah,
that is that words. It's likeit's needed, like it's that's that's
as. I'm a part of it. But it's my brother's vision, you
know, t J. Smith.You know, that's my family, it's

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my relative you know, But itwas ultimately his vision. You know,
he um reached out to me,not even knowing that Humble Giant was Mines.
He didn't he didn't even know HumbleGiant but was Mines. And so
uh, he he understood with thethriller sickness uh signified. He understood the

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signeya behind the gorilla, and heunderstood stood the Humble Giant portion or where
I was coming from with it.He knows my story as well, um,
but he didn't know it was me. So he, you know,
reaching out like yo, I'm feelinghis clothing brand blah blah blah. And
you know, um, we initially, uh, he initially had the idea
of a team group, a teamgroup or outreached for for not necessarily teams,

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but for anybody to need guidance,okay. And so before he got
into the details of that, itwas more so like, oh, man,
I like the clothing. I wantto use it for this idea I
have. And me being me,I'm like all right, cool, and
he was like, hold up,who was you? I didn't realize who
I was. And then that's whenit then that's when we up the score.

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That's July first. But but andso we went from there um,
that's much as I would like totake a lot of the kudos from behind
it. That's his footwork. I'mjust a staple, I'm a voice.

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I'm an influence behind it. Herealized that. Again it might sound cliche,
but I kind of got the streets. But I ain't in a negative
fashion. I'm gonna use it forpositive. So you see the hands that
I have for the for for thosethat's miss guided and miss led that come
to me for whatever reason, Istopped him from doing a lot of stuff.

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So he see the empowerment behind that. So he could have he could
have chose a right right he's seenhe because before he could he could have
picked anybody. I think Missus Vickiis mom. She didn't go Vicky.
Missus Vicki is the goat, bythe way, that's my t T.
But she go right. So butlike, yo, definitely big shout out,
definitely definitely definitely definitely the goat forthat. You know that. But

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I say that to say, like, he didn't have to reach out to
me. He could have did me, Like, but who really got the
shoulders to do that? Who reallygot the mind state to do that?
Like? And I take enough fromnobody, but but like honestly, who
really been through it all? Andthen detour the plan? So see with
that, it also has a away about it where I'm surprised you guys

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didn't get like pushback death, butwe did. Y'all just don't see it,
okay, y'all, just y'all justdon't see it. T J good
at what he do. Not gonnalet you because, um, I see
it's a lot of it. It'sall let's let's say, let's let's let's
let's say, let's say because Igotta be mindful of what I say,

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let's say unnecessary obstacles. Okay,uh damn it. We didn't think they
was gonna achieve this this fast.Think about it like this, an average
it takes a person to the twoto five years to start the daycare center.
Man that man did this in months, right months. He got support

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from people that you would never believethe support came. But he also assimilated
a Megatron team. Everybody had,everybody had their own specialty at something.
However, the giving was that everybodyhad a heart or have a heart to
help. Because the difference of itis like there's nothing wrong with acknowledging that

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a dad is needed. We're gonnasay it like that because I want to
be here. I don't want to. I don't want to. I don't
want to be them. I don'twant to be their own backlash and they
be like, oh no, that'snot it's a reason behind that. He's
at work. Like bo been throughsome stuff too, you know what I'm
saying. Bod been through some stufftoo. We all have been through some
stuff too, and we all haveneeded as significant person without a father,

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without a dad, none of thiswill be okay. Mom's cook and bake,
but without the dad, look wherehe had, look at the misguidance,
look at the laws. So hispassion behind that, his passion lined
up with minds equally. And Ididn't even notice what he was doing,
you know, And it came outto this again, that was his baby.
We're just helping nourish it. Whenwhen you're expecting for the daycare to

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be open, and um, Iwould like I just want to say that.
I just I want to say assoon as possible, because we didn't
clear most of the hurdles because here'speople waiting on a date, and if
I drop a date. They're gonnabe, like he said, a date.
So within the next thirty days weever have something going down. Can
you please, because we switched overto my life, can you please explain

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what you got going on with thedaddy daycare? Oh? Okay, it
is okay, so quick. Sowith so with the with the daycare daddies
that work, it's it's pretty muchwe're hoping those it's unfortunate for the most
part. Okay, Um are themind state or the mantra of it is
this, if you're catching watery youngand you groom him to proper, properness,

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then you excel all the way through. Okay, So, so you
got from eleven months you have somebodyis a ten or eleven months. I
might be wrong in the months,but from that early stage on up,
you got somebody that actually cares inthe groom and the guidance of where you're
going. And see, I lovethat because what we have done for so
many years, clearly it's not working. Facts. So now it's time to

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try something different. And I evensee it with the programs like Emanuel Curtis
got going on with them NBK,My Brother's Keeper. It's time for men
to step up to the front linebecause we as women, we type right,
absolutely, it's time for us tohave that mel dominated as it should
be. Right. Yeah, Iagree that that that that sentiment is,

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it's true and it's power for initself. Um, it's time, it's
it's it's it's so much deeper.Daycare though ya don't like the daycare.
It's just like a start, likelike we really helped them give jobs.
Like we and we young. Stillwe ain't where we ain't we we we
were not. We're doing this thatwhere we can be doing other stuff,

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you know, and you to theold See that's the kicker, like we're
touching both fields and now and thenwe are already in a hybrid state.
You get what I'm saying. Solike with that, it's it's it's oh,
it's a lot of responsibility behind anythingyou do when you have any momentum
or anything going, whether it's personal, like like like like if we separate

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all our entities or businesses, westill have things going. You know,
we can we can disassociate and everythingwill still move accordingly. We don't applaut
about that. You know, youguys are strong enough to know how to
keep pushing through when the opticles arriveand just follow through. It's definitely worth.
It's definitely worked. But you gottahave a heart to do it though,
like you And when I say hard, I don't mean be tough.

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You gotta have the heart that theactual soul and the spirit you want to
make a change or a difference becauselike I know, plenty of fellows that's
in position to God, but theymiss God. I got a lot this
man, I got a lot tosay. I got I got a whole
bunch to say. You know,they can stay tuned to the new album
drop my man. My man's involvedwith leading little youth. Um I heard

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you added acting to yours. Ohyeah, shout out. Definitely definitely looking
for more up the scores. I'mI don't mean to drop that Althora.
We definitely trying. I definitely man, it's up man, That's all I'm
gonna say. Like, it's gonnabe a busy this next decade gonna be
a busy turn for me. Idon't, I don't, I don't.

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I don't see nothing less than implementingyou know, my legs. But it's
beyond me though, it ain't forme it's it's like like like like like
the radiance that I got, likelike, young man, listen, I
try to keep my emotions in checkbecause I got so much flowing through me,
like for real, um like,I got a different purpose now,
man, like I honestly do umthis uh uh, it's so much that's

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needed. I used to be scaredto take on this role. Ain't gonna
lie because the responsibility behind it.I never forget. I had a young
man reach out to me. I'mfresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh moving
around, and it's like I gotall these were responsibilities and priorities. I
didn't realize that I could have beenthe difference in this man's life. It's
young life. So they hit mecompletely different. The studio stuff, I'm

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not looking for that, you knowwhat I'm saying. I made a studio
for me because I'm an artist.I'm a creator. I didn't make a
studio to end up becoming the centerfoldor the Epex. So this I didn't.
I didn't do that for that.I don't care about that. Y'all
can have that if that's what youwant, y'all can have that. It's
a bigger purpose. I did itfor me to to to to have my
own sort of therapy. You knowwhat I'm saying that I recently just came

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off of a I recently just cameoff from a mental health retreat UM,
and it was beautiful, you know, just to be haven understanding and be
able to connect and bond with youknow, black kings and just form a
brotherhood and have a safe zone wherewe're able to speak and invent and take

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advice. Um. It was somethingthat was so beautiful that I don't believe
a lot of people our age aregoing to have a chance to experience it.
But if we keep pushing this mentalhealth and and and um, the
values of of understanding yourself to thisnext generation, then they're gonna it's gonna
be normal to them. Oh mygod, it's so needed. You know.

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The biggest thing I got out ofit is you know how about this?
So just two questions. You don'thave to answer them, but I
want you to think about it andthen go from there for another time.
But who owes you an apology?And who do you owe an apology?
Communication brings understanding, an understanding,bringing unity. So when you figure those

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two answers out, just remember thatright, but that kicked it off at
the retreat. And you know it'sten ten kings, you know, are
about ten fifteen minutes apiece, ifnot more. We had a nice,
powerful session and a lot of thingsthat um, I'm, I'm, I'm,
I'm gonna give a part answer tothis question, okay, because like

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it's selfish. That makes sound allmyself an apology. And I say that
because I didn't give myself the properchance I needed to become who I am
now. I stagnog you know whatI'm saying, and and and and taking
accountability for my own actions makes allthe difference, that's all. It's all

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based on integrity. My Mama thrilledthat in me. She say, man
ain't got nothing if he ain't gotintegrity, okay, And and that it's
like, you realize how many peoplelook up to you, m I was
careless at one point of time.So all myself an apology for not believing
that I was strong enough to dothe right now that I am. It's

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like, dude, why didn't youall the why didn't doesn't change the nouns,
However, it gives you a brightervision of the goal. And then
saying that I owe myself an apology. I'm not apologizing for the mistakes I've
made. I'm apologizing for the lackof understanding within self. And most people

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might be huh and if that shipover your head, the lack of understanding
for your If you don't understand yourself, you can never understand nobody else or
help nobody else. And everybody's notmeant to help someone. True, I
realize I am. Yeah, Andyou know what I was thinking, that's
kind of like each and every oneof us in this room. I think
we're we all fall in that categoryof the chosen one. Absolutely, and

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it makes us move differently, rightbecause I it was a time when you
know, I was a reckless,reckless as a young girl, young lady,
you know, yeah, growing up, But you just have to move
differently. And like you said,people look up to you. I didn't
ask for people to look up tome, man, but I realized that

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and that makes me move differently,absolutely, Yeah, because they want you
didn't think they go How many peoplewould love to say, called Matt slipping,
Yeah, call Shoot is slipping.I called Courtney slipping. Look at
this, Yeah, like that's that'sweight on it, solf. But then
then but then being mindful of that, it makes it that much more scoop.

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No, it's just like, ohman, I need to blooment too.
I might need to russa. Ihave a moment to clary to let
that out, let that ship justring. You know, I might want
to backyard and screaming something whatever itis. You know what I'm saying.
You have to do it, butwe're not supposed to because we're the people
that are supposed to carry everything yelike bro like like like then it goes
back to mental Yeah it does.It's just it's just it's it's a treadmill.

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We just we can running as fastas you want. We could be
the drug on the case, damster. Whatever you want to worry, just
gonna keep going and going and going. So that when you understand that,
then you know how to take yourtime and move different. You know what
I'm saying. And that's big,like outside you even saying that, think
about some of the conversations we here, like like us on the personal side,

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like like bro like like like asmany people that didn't connect the dots
between us, we still end uplinking up. Think about this bro,
it didn't look how look look howwe're right now. Let's let's let's ex
out the let's ex out the theprofessions, and look at it. There's
two kings linking forces. It ain't. It ain't. There's there's not an

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envy. That's not a competition.You excel at what you do. I
excel at what I do. I'mnot afraid to say, Man, I
need somebody to talk to right now. Time you say it, you can't
take energy? Right lord, youknow appreciate that all knowing you, having
you involved in my life and beingable to be in your life. Um,
we got like it's like it's it'sit's didn't get deeply be just better

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life is I've known you how longpersonally? Months? About six months.
I'm gonna give you some real shit. I'm give you some real game right
here at any six months? Thatdo you know on me? Done more
for me than niggas I know allmy life? See and I feel that
same way about right right Like whenI say that, I might get a

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little emotional abody because it hurt tosay all you niggas, all you individuals
was around me for what the leachto get what you can get out of
me. He never been at withyou, bro, Like, I told
you something that I can find itinto you with bro, and you was
like what got you? And andand you did it? Not you get
it knowing that I wasn't asking youfirst and foremost, you still did it.

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And I ain't got to a lotof ate that, bro. Man,
We've forever locked in. Bro Like, I told you, it ain't
nothing I want. Bro, youneed me, you call me, I
got you, you say, Bro, open the studio up. I got
an artist that's opened up other thanthat studio shot down. I don't.
I ain't messing with nobody like that. Man. I got. I got
a couple of cousins that I careabout. I care about a lot,
and then I want to keep themon the right path. You no,

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I got make some talented individuals.And it tugs on me because I really
want to go back in. Ilove to holpe. I love to create
right but right now and like likelike right now, if it ain't my
nephew a dough boy, I don'twant to deal with it. I don't
want to deal with it because it'sjust different, like because it's genuine love,

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you know, I'm not not usageor miss usage. You know.
I think we're gonna need a parttwo for this. Yeah, definitely to
come back for that shoulter dropping somejewels. I'm just on the listen to
it, like I really. Atthe times we just voratically talking go but
I feel like I need to actuallyhave a guideline and and get some of
these questions that to more out becauseI'm all for becau right. And one

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of the things that you said beforewe switch over to lives is that people
treat you differently. And it's notthe fact that I'm I'm changing for the
better, but a lot of peoplethat you've been around your whole life,
they can't they can't deal with thefact that you're changing for the better and
they're looking at you like we camefrom the same place, the same space,

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how you And I'm having a hardtime deal with that because people I've
been cool with forever, you knowwhat I mean, It's like hit or
miss is it? Is it?Like you got to ask you? I
asked myself this all the time.Once you be comfortable and achieving, or
once once you be comfortable and understandingthe purpose that's for you, A lot
of people are uncomfortable with not knowingtheir purpose. Oh yeah, we ending

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on that note. I feel likewe need to close out with a fan
Yeah so uh they're heavenly Father,We thank you for uniting us together and
giving us clarity and understanding and appreciationand love and the strength to carry on
when no one knows. Um.We asked you to prepare and successfully get

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our mentors together so we can keepbeing who we are and having a heartful,
fulfill to inspire and motivate others inthe Lord's name. Amen, Amen,
Yeah thoughts. This podcast was recordedin the iHeartRadio Podcasting Center. Thanks

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for listening.