July 2, 2025 • 16 mins
Across the last 18 seasons of the Clink, We have had some really raw conversations. This is one of most listen to episodes with Jayden Sheridan
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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Approche production. Mum was on the Gatorade saxophones. I think
my step stepdad was at the time. I think everyone
in the Bloody Court was at the time, all the
adults are.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
And so when we talk about that, just for our listeners,
let's let's be a little bit clearer. Yeah, we talked
bombs or we talk yeah.
Speaker 3 (00:31):
Yeah. So there on there on the bongs, I'm just
smoking weed.
Speaker 1 (00:35):
From there, there's there's one moment back, like my stepdad
used to just get stoned and he plays Nintendo sixty
four and pissed mom off one time and she ended
up smashing his Nintendo sixty four and dragged his cartridges
through the mud and stuff like that.
Speaker 3 (00:52):
And another time he might not have to come home
or something. Man he had he had a car and yeah.
Speaker 1 (00:58):
And she just took a best of block for his
through all his windows one time, smashed it all up.
He had to flog it off her cheap because he
didn't have the money to get the windows pigs and
it was just going to get fucked.
Speaker 3 (01:08):
And that's that's kind of where it started going.
Speaker 1 (01:10):
And then from there there was one time and mum,
Mum snapped and her and Rob were having a fight,
and I remember being in a lounge and there's just screaming.
There's heavy screaming, and all of a sudden, my stepdad
he runs out and he pulls the door shut into
(01:32):
the hallway and Mum's on the other side of it.
And I don't know how well my memory is with it,
but I'm pretty sure she had a knife and she
was trying to stab.
Speaker 3 (01:41):
Him, and from there she was it.
Speaker 1 (01:44):
Was like a huge Johnny moment coming through the top,
and I'm pretty sure kicking it. She might have had big,
big boots on the weather then leather boots and kick
him through there.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
And I got ushered out by that.
Speaker 1 (01:57):
Point, I think by my mum's best friend, and I'm
obviously freaking out, and Mum couldn't get through, and she
ended up taking a knife to herself and she slid
her wrists and from there that's when she actually found
out she was bipolar.
Speaker 3 (02:19):
So she was admitted into award.
Speaker 1 (02:21):
And obviously, as I mentioned before, with the smoking weed
that I personally don't think that helped by myself.
Speaker 2 (02:31):
And do you think it was more drug in juice psychosis?
Speaker 1 (02:34):
Would you personally from seeing it later on from seeing
it later on in life. I think that my mum,
I've had discussions with her and she said it's a
probability that it could have been that.
Speaker 3 (02:49):
I think she doesn't.
Speaker 1 (02:50):
Want to be if she says it, it's it's holding
her accountable for me. And the way I explained that
to her, I said, holding yourself accountable is the first
step of making change.
Speaker 2 (03:03):
That's the first step of healing, right, Yeah, very powerful.
Speaker 1 (03:07):
Yeah so and that's what I said. So I think
she she got the help she needed. She got put
on by polar meds, and she she got off the weed.
I think not long after that we were I don't
know what the decision was, but my stepdad and mum
(03:28):
said we're moving to Queensland. So we got out of
our little commission house in that street and we ended
up moving to Queensland. And my mum and sisters flew
up first and my stepdad and I caught the bus up.
Funnily enough, that's when I found out had I get
motion sickness And I was throwing up for three days
on the bus. The poor for everyone, yeah, pour everyone
(03:50):
else on the bus, just just me vile coming up
the whole time.
Speaker 3 (03:55):
It was not good. And we get up there. It
was a hottest day they had on record.
Speaker 1 (03:58):
It was it would have been like two thousands, early
two thousands, and it was like forty five degrees. And
I come from Seymour with pissing down all the time
kind of thing, and we got there forty five degrees
in no air on worked how But up there life
was good.
Speaker 3 (04:15):
Life was honestly really good. Mum was good.
Speaker 1 (04:19):
Dad was working, Stepdad. I called him Dad my whole
life kind of thing. He was working, he was concrete, and.
Speaker 3 (04:26):
And yeah, it was. It was so good.
Speaker 1 (04:30):
If I honestly, if we had a stayed up there,
it would have been so good. There was There's one thing,
and it was this is my first introduction to seeing
a side of something. And then I didn't fully understand it,
but I knew it was.
Speaker 3 (04:44):
There was something going on. My uncle, so he came
up and visited, but he was actually had a warrant
and he just bailed and took up the Queen's and
so they couldn't get him out there.
Speaker 1 (04:57):
He just done the dodge and comes there with us.
And by this point skateboarding is my thing, Like.
Speaker 3 (05:04):
I can't the fuck up about it, it's it's that's
my thing.
Speaker 1 (05:07):
I'd say, we're all on the spectrum and that that's
my thing that I grabbed and and it always has been.
And he's get me ged up, and he's like, we're
going to go for a skate. We'll go skate all
these parks. We'll go around the whole Sunshine Coast. I'm like, yeap, grease,
this is living Berry.
Speaker 3 (05:25):
And from there, all of a sudden, I reckon.
Speaker 1 (05:28):
We hit two parks all day, and that the reason
for that is because he went around to every doctor's
on the Sunshine Coast and told him about his back
pain from his rugby accident he had and was obviously
just trying to get some morphine or and don't or
something like that so he could get on and yeah, yeah,
(05:51):
and he he's the whole day, we honestly spent probably
half an hour collectively collectively at two parks. And then
the last, the last doctor, went to everyone he was
he was blacklisted or weather the doctors, and the last
one gave it to him and then he's like, all right, cool,
And that's when we went to escape up the last
skape park and had a skate there and.
Speaker 3 (06:15):
We got home and he.
Speaker 1 (06:18):
Stopped and got a lighter on the way or something,
and all of a sudden we pull over just around
the corner from my house. They're building a new estate
just there, and he's gone in and he's like, you
sit in the back, just don't look up the front.
So I'm sitting in the back, and all of a sudden,
he's just putting his spoon down, he's putting his bag down,
(06:38):
he's putting everything down just on top of the center
console while he's just getting it all ready, and he's
just whipped up in the front seat with me in
the back, I'm watching everything. You tell a little kid
like me not to look at something, that's the first
thing I'm going to do.
Speaker 3 (06:55):
And yeah, he was.
Speaker 2 (06:56):
He was basically breaking down the opiate tablets to get
stoned and injecting that not not so much chasing heroin,
but chasing anything.
Speaker 3 (07:05):
Basically.
Speaker 2 (07:06):
I think you get to get him stoned.
Speaker 3 (07:08):
Yeah, yeah, one hundred percent. So, And.
Speaker 1 (07:12):
I ended up like we'll touch on it soon. But
I ended up living with him later on because I
had no other choice. And he was just a smackhead
man like, and that's he still is. And I don't
speak to him for this reason. But from there we
were actually going to move up to Cans. My stepdad
got some work further up, so we're going to move
up there. And that's when all the floods happened, and
(07:34):
we had already got out of the house and we
got stuck in accommodation. All the floods and Cans happened,
we had no where to live up there. We're stuck
in accommodation on the Sunshine Coast and it was just
costing too much. So my mum decided said that stuff this,
We're moving back to Seymour. I've got friends and stuff there.
Speaker 3 (07:53):
And that's just kind of.
Speaker 1 (07:54):
Where it all fell apart. That's where it all went
back to shit. I think for everyone. That's we got
back and my stepdad stayed in cans and we're going
to move up further. And once mum got a taste
for it back in and Seymour here, she.
Speaker 3 (08:12):
Said, no, I'm not leaving kind of things. So anyway
he gets.
Speaker 2 (08:16):
More just sort of sticking with what she knew best
in that comfort zone of just she knew the knew
the environment, knew exactly what she could do where and.
Speaker 1 (08:24):
How am I, And yeah, I don't.
Speaker 3 (08:27):
I think she missed her friends. I don't think it
was a high life or anything she chased.
Speaker 1 (08:31):
I think it was just familiar already whatever, like just
being familiar with everyone and everyone knows everyone.
Speaker 3 (08:39):
Small town antics kind of thing. So yeah, so.
Speaker 1 (08:44):
And in Queensland one thing that because I wouldn't shut
up about skateboarding, I was a little bit pudgy. I
wasn't I wasn't bad or anything, but kids, kids are
brutal in Queensland. I copped a bit of shit. Sometimes
we can't go to school for a couple of months
at a time just because I was going. And I
was a bit precious when I was, I was you
know what, I wear it and I'm soft especially these days,
(09:07):
like I was soft then, I was a bit precious.
I've come to find later in life and now I
realize I'm probably my whole life been undiagnosed ADHD. It's
just a thing for it. Then that I could feel
more emotions and stuff when I was younger, and I
didn't know how to how to deal with everything then,
and then when I got to see more.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
You're you're diagnosed now you are.
Speaker 3 (09:29):
No, no, I'm not actually diagnosed.
Speaker 1 (09:32):
I think for the sake of talking on it and
stuff like that and given some empowerment to people, I
will be going to get diagnosed. I think at the
moment of how busy and stuff I am, and now
I use that as my superpower. Back it's as you're
hear from my schooling, it didn't work for me at all,
(09:53):
and now that's that's what keeps me going.
Speaker 3 (09:57):
So yeah, So from there.
Speaker 1 (10:01):
I got to see more and I thought, this is
my chance to kind of be cool kind of thing,
you know what I mean, Like.
Speaker 3 (10:08):
Let's get in.
Speaker 1 (10:09):
I don't have to and I got to see MOREE
my mate who I was friends with in the court,
he was already he knew everyone.
Speaker 3 (10:17):
At a small town, it's not hard to kind of
do anything.
Speaker 1 (10:20):
And then so when I got there, I wasn't I
wasn't as shy and stuff like that. So I didn't
just sit in class and shut up. I would be
the b the class clown and stuff like that. And
I was putting this box man, and I'm sure so
many people can relate and top like giving something on
a board and said this is what you're learning. And
for me, there's so much more interesting just going on
(10:40):
around me let alone in the world. So school just
quickly went down the pipe. Year seven expelled, suspended until
they expelled me from there. I was under sixteen. They
had to take me back. They tried to give me
to other schools. I was going to get baptized at
one point so I could go to a Catholic school
because then they had to take me.
Speaker 3 (11:01):
So yeah, so year.
Speaker 1 (11:02):
Seven, at twelve was straight to the skate park. I
met people there. I was no one's responsibility. I had
no older siblings. I was no one's younger brother. No
one knew my parents and stuff like that. So all
of a sudden, I'm getting invited to parties and stuff,
and I'm twelve and I'm going out with sixteen seventeen
(11:23):
year olds. And that's when I just started getting pissed.
When I was twelve, so heavily drinking, passing out nearly
every time.
Speaker 3 (11:30):
And yeah, as I.
Speaker 1 (11:31):
Said, I was no one's responsibility. And from there atkin
I got caught, got grounded for.
Speaker 3 (11:37):
A few months.
Speaker 1 (11:38):
My stepdad he skated and stuff when he was younger,
so I was just like, oh, the boys are going
motor ride, and can I just go stay with them
and then we'll go motor ride in the morning. Yeah,
go for it, you motorid, and that's sweet. I'll just
go get pissed again. So that was my little loophole
around that. And then from there I kind of got
(11:58):
a little bit older, and that's when the skate park
fights and stuff started happened.
Speaker 3 (12:03):
I think people could smell it, smell me coming from.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
A mile away and knew I was a bit lame
and a bit weird, a bit different, and they and
they would call me out and I'd just have to
keep that balloon chest on and kind of that's when
all that stuff kind of started. And then fourteen that's
that's where that's where it actually the kind of story starts.
Speaker 3 (12:26):
Yep it.
Speaker 1 (12:30):
Mum, stepdad. He's down here. By this point, they're real rocky.
He just one day gets up and leaves. He just
takes off.
Speaker 3 (12:40):
He like he was.
Speaker 1 (12:43):
I lies him as my dad. All I knew was
a dad, and he was my sister's biological father. And
he just had enough of my mum and left. And
by this point he was always smoking weed. Just suddenly
nothing too much him in the Queen's Land. But he
could handle that kind of stuff. Before he left, him
(13:04):
and mum smoking a bit of weed. So then when
he's left, that's that's all that was there for My
mum was that she thought she needed to go out
and socialize. So she's getting pierced and going to the
pub and stuff like that. And at fourteen, that's kind
of when by that point, I'm trying to sneak into
the pub for as long as I can before I
(13:24):
get kicked out. So sometimes i'd sneak into the pub
my mom's in there dancing, might stay.
Speaker 3 (13:28):
Away from me, like you don't want people going, oh
look there's your mum man.
Speaker 1 (13:35):
And yeah, So she's she started smoking quite heavily and
eventually she's kind of she's up to She would sit
there and smoke quarter her a day sometimes, like she
would just sit in the back room. I wouldn't see
all day. She she'ld get the girl sort of some
(13:56):
food and she would just sit there and smoke, just
flatch out, just going. And then she started to lose again,
like her she she's told me her meds got changed
for a bipolar and once again, it was never the
weed for me.
Speaker 3 (14:13):
She wasn't there because of the weed.
Speaker 1 (14:14):
Like she was in that background smoking when she'd come
home from the pub, like I might be home and
she just brought a party back to her house. And
like then when I was younger, that was cool, man,
you know what I mean. I'm around all these older
people and stuff like that. But once again, that's kind
of one of my downfalls is I got used to
that life like she. At one point she I wasn't
(14:38):
getting I would ask her for money, There'd be no food,
house find chill with it.
Speaker 3 (14:44):
And from there I would be like, can I have
some money? She's like, no, I've got none.
Speaker 1 (14:49):
Can I take By this point, my mate's are smoking weed.
I'm not smoking weed because I see what it does
to my mum. I start selling her weed so I
can go get money for food, and I would just
do it. I would just do it cheaper.
Speaker 3 (15:03):
Than everyone in town. I'm getting it for free. Man.
Speaker 1 (15:05):
Mom was buying bags and stuff at a time. It's
no worries whatever, So I would just grab sell fifteen
dollars six sticks to the boys. People started catching onto that,
or the older blokes wanted off me.
Speaker 3 (15:19):
So then all of a.
Speaker 1 (15:19):
Sudden, that kick started me into selling weed. I've kind
of seen that there's a life in it for me
doing that, and that's the way I can. I can
take care of myself. And then it was hard to
be at home. Mum had a couple of boyfriends, and yeah,
I couldn't stand any of them, and one of her
(15:42):
boyfriends he used to throw me around a little bit
and I would.
Speaker 3 (15:47):
Never fight back.
Speaker 1 (15:49):
It's yeah, I didn't know how I was forty kilos, ringing,
wet like Honestly, I wouldn't have been able to do much.
Speaker 3 (15:57):
And the one time that all changed.
Speaker 1 (16:00):
He was throwing me around a bit and my mum
stepped in to get off him, get off him, and
he turned around and he clocked my mum in front
of me.
Speaker 3 (16:09):
And.
Speaker 1 (16:11):
From there that was the first time I fought back,
and that punch was a very crucial punch in my life.
It was a big ship mixer. I didn't I didn't
know how to swing properly. It was a big haymaker.
He's just stepped back. He spun me around, clocked me
in the back of the head, threw me up against
the fridge, started wailing into me a bit. Mums kind
(16:33):
of ripped him off.
Speaker 3 (16:34):
But after that first punch. That's my knuckle state by.
I was angry at the world. I was. That's that's
what I was, Just filled with anger and just hatred
for him.
Approche production. Mum was on the Gatorade saxophones. I think
my step stepdad was at the time. I think everyone
in the Bloody Court was at the time, all the
adults are.
Speaker 2 (00:23):
And so when we talk about that, just for our listeners,
let's let's be a little bit clearer. Yeah, we talked
bombs or we talk yeah.
Speaker 3 (00:31):
Yeah. So there on there on the bongs, I'm just
smoking weed.
Speaker 1 (00:35):
From there, there's there's one moment back, like my stepdad
used to just get stoned and he plays Nintendo sixty
four and pissed mom off one time and she ended
up smashing his Nintendo sixty four and dragged his cartridges
through the mud and stuff like that.
Speaker 3 (00:52):
And another time he might not have to come home
or something. Man he had he had a car and yeah.
Speaker 1 (00:58):
And she just took a best of block for his
through all his windows one time, smashed it all up.
He had to flog it off her cheap because he
didn't have the money to get the windows pigs and
it was just going to get fucked.
Speaker 3 (01:08):
And that's that's kind of where it started going.
Speaker 1 (01:10):
And then from there there was one time and mum,
Mum snapped and her and Rob were having a fight,
and I remember being in a lounge and there's just screaming.
There's heavy screaming, and all of a sudden, my stepdad
he runs out and he pulls the door shut into
(01:32):
the hallway and Mum's on the other side of it.
And I don't know how well my memory is with it,
but I'm pretty sure she had a knife and she
was trying to stab.
Speaker 3 (01:41):
Him, and from there she was it.
Speaker 1 (01:44):
Was like a huge Johnny moment coming through the top,
and I'm pretty sure kicking it. She might have had big,
big boots on the weather then leather boots and kick
him through there.
Speaker 3 (01:56):
And I got ushered out by that.
Speaker 1 (01:57):
Point, I think by my mum's best friend, and I'm
obviously freaking out, and Mum couldn't get through, and she
ended up taking a knife to herself and she slid
her wrists and from there that's when she actually found
out she was bipolar.
Speaker 3 (02:19):
So she was admitted into award.
Speaker 1 (02:21):
And obviously, as I mentioned before, with the smoking weed
that I personally don't think that helped by myself.
Speaker 2 (02:31):
And do you think it was more drug in juice psychosis?
Speaker 1 (02:34):
Would you personally from seeing it later on from seeing
it later on in life. I think that my mum,
I've had discussions with her and she said it's a
probability that it could have been that.
Speaker 3 (02:49):
I think she doesn't.
Speaker 1 (02:50):
Want to be if she says it, it's it's holding
her accountable for me. And the way I explained that
to her, I said, holding yourself accountable is the first
step of making change.
Speaker 2 (03:03):
That's the first step of healing, right, Yeah, very powerful.
Speaker 1 (03:07):
Yeah so and that's what I said. So I think
she she got the help she needed. She got put
on by polar meds, and she she got off the weed.
I think not long after that we were I don't
know what the decision was, but my stepdad and mum
(03:28):
said we're moving to Queensland. So we got out of
our little commission house in that street and we ended
up moving to Queensland. And my mum and sisters flew
up first and my stepdad and I caught the bus up.
Funnily enough, that's when I found out had I get
motion sickness And I was throwing up for three days
on the bus. The poor for everyone, yeah, pour everyone
(03:50):
else on the bus, just just me vile coming up
the whole time.
Speaker 3 (03:55):
It was not good. And we get up there. It
was a hottest day they had on record.
Speaker 1 (03:58):
It was it would have been like two thousands, early
two thousands, and it was like forty five degrees. And
I come from Seymour with pissing down all the time
kind of thing, and we got there forty five degrees
in no air on worked how But up there life
was good.
Speaker 3 (04:15):
Life was honestly really good. Mum was good.
Speaker 1 (04:19):
Dad was working, Stepdad. I called him Dad my whole
life kind of thing. He was working, he was concrete, and.
Speaker 3 (04:26):
And yeah, it was. It was so good.
Speaker 1 (04:30):
If I honestly, if we had a stayed up there,
it would have been so good. There was There's one thing,
and it was this is my first introduction to seeing
a side of something. And then I didn't fully understand it,
but I knew it was.
Speaker 3 (04:44):
There was something going on. My uncle, so he came
up and visited, but he was actually had a warrant
and he just bailed and took up the Queen's and
so they couldn't get him out there.
Speaker 1 (04:57):
He just done the dodge and comes there with us.
And by this point skateboarding is my thing, Like.
Speaker 3 (05:04):
I can't the fuck up about it, it's it's that's
my thing.
Speaker 1 (05:07):
I'd say, we're all on the spectrum and that that's
my thing that I grabbed and and it always has been.
And he's get me ged up, and he's like, we're
going to go for a skate. We'll go skate all
these parks. We'll go around the whole Sunshine Coast. I'm like, yeap, grease,
this is living Berry.
Speaker 3 (05:25):
And from there, all of a sudden, I reckon.
Speaker 1 (05:28):
We hit two parks all day, and that the reason
for that is because he went around to every doctor's
on the Sunshine Coast and told him about his back
pain from his rugby accident he had and was obviously
just trying to get some morphine or and don't or
something like that so he could get on and yeah, yeah,
(05:51):
and he he's the whole day, we honestly spent probably
half an hour collectively collectively at two parks. And then
the last, the last doctor, went to everyone he was
he was blacklisted or weather the doctors, and the last
one gave it to him and then he's like, all right, cool,
And that's when we went to escape up the last
skape park and had a skate there and.
Speaker 3 (06:15):
We got home and he.
Speaker 1 (06:18):
Stopped and got a lighter on the way or something,
and all of a sudden we pull over just around
the corner from my house. They're building a new estate
just there, and he's gone in and he's like, you
sit in the back, just don't look up the front.
So I'm sitting in the back, and all of a sudden,
he's just putting his spoon down, he's putting his bag down,
(06:38):
he's putting everything down just on top of the center
console while he's just getting it all ready, and he's
just whipped up in the front seat with me in
the back, I'm watching everything. You tell a little kid
like me not to look at something, that's the first
thing I'm going to do.
Speaker 3 (06:55):
And yeah, he was.
Speaker 2 (06:56):
He was basically breaking down the opiate tablets to get
stoned and injecting that not not so much chasing heroin,
but chasing anything.
Speaker 3 (07:05):
Basically.
Speaker 2 (07:06):
I think you get to get him stoned.
Speaker 3 (07:08):
Yeah, yeah, one hundred percent. So, And.
Speaker 1 (07:12):
I ended up like we'll touch on it soon. But
I ended up living with him later on because I
had no other choice. And he was just a smackhead
man like, and that's he still is. And I don't
speak to him for this reason. But from there we
were actually going to move up to Cans. My stepdad
got some work further up, so we're going to move
up there. And that's when all the floods happened, and
(07:34):
we had already got out of the house and we
got stuck in accommodation. All the floods and Cans happened,
we had no where to live up there. We're stuck
in accommodation on the Sunshine Coast and it was just
costing too much. So my mum decided said that stuff this,
We're moving back to Seymour. I've got friends and stuff there.
Speaker 3 (07:53):
And that's just kind of.
Speaker 1 (07:54):
Where it all fell apart. That's where it all went
back to shit. I think for everyone. That's we got
back and my stepdad stayed in cans and we're going
to move up further. And once mum got a taste
for it back in and Seymour here, she.
Speaker 3 (08:12):
Said, no, I'm not leaving kind of things. So anyway
he gets.
Speaker 2 (08:16):
More just sort of sticking with what she knew best
in that comfort zone of just she knew the knew
the environment, knew exactly what she could do where and.
Speaker 1 (08:24):
How am I, And yeah, I don't.
Speaker 3 (08:27):
I think she missed her friends. I don't think it
was a high life or anything she chased.
Speaker 1 (08:31):
I think it was just familiar already whatever, like just
being familiar with everyone and everyone knows everyone.
Speaker 3 (08:39):
Small town antics kind of thing. So yeah, so.
Speaker 1 (08:44):
And in Queensland one thing that because I wouldn't shut
up about skateboarding, I was a little bit pudgy. I
wasn't I wasn't bad or anything, but kids, kids are
brutal in Queensland. I copped a bit of shit. Sometimes
we can't go to school for a couple of months
at a time just because I was going. And I
was a bit precious when I was, I was you
know what, I wear it and I'm soft especially these days,
(09:07):
like I was soft then, I was a bit precious.
I've come to find later in life and now I
realize I'm probably my whole life been undiagnosed ADHD. It's
just a thing for it. Then that I could feel
more emotions and stuff when I was younger, and I
didn't know how to how to deal with everything then,
and then when I got to see more.
Speaker 2 (09:27):
You're you're diagnosed now you are.
Speaker 3 (09:29):
No, no, I'm not actually diagnosed.
Speaker 1 (09:32):
I think for the sake of talking on it and
stuff like that and given some empowerment to people, I
will be going to get diagnosed. I think at the
moment of how busy and stuff I am, and now
I use that as my superpower. Back it's as you're
hear from my schooling, it didn't work for me at all,
(09:53):
and now that's that's what keeps me going.
Speaker 3 (09:57):
So yeah, So from there.
Speaker 1 (10:01):
I got to see more and I thought, this is
my chance to kind of be cool kind of thing,
you know what I mean, Like.
Speaker 3 (10:08):
Let's get in.
Speaker 1 (10:09):
I don't have to and I got to see MOREE
my mate who I was friends with in the court,
he was already he knew everyone.
Speaker 3 (10:17):
At a small town, it's not hard to kind of
do anything.
Speaker 1 (10:20):
And then so when I got there, I wasn't I
wasn't as shy and stuff like that. So I didn't
just sit in class and shut up. I would be
the b the class clown and stuff like that. And
I was putting this box man, and I'm sure so
many people can relate and top like giving something on
a board and said this is what you're learning. And
for me, there's so much more interesting just going on
(10:40):
around me let alone in the world. So school just
quickly went down the pipe. Year seven expelled, suspended until
they expelled me from there. I was under sixteen. They
had to take me back. They tried to give me
to other schools. I was going to get baptized at
one point so I could go to a Catholic school
because then they had to take me.
Speaker 3 (11:01):
So yeah, so year.
Speaker 1 (11:02):
Seven, at twelve was straight to the skate park. I
met people there. I was no one's responsibility. I had
no older siblings. I was no one's younger brother. No
one knew my parents and stuff like that. So all
of a sudden, I'm getting invited to parties and stuff,
and I'm twelve and I'm going out with sixteen seventeen
(11:23):
year olds. And that's when I just started getting pissed.
When I was twelve, so heavily drinking, passing out nearly
every time.
Speaker 3 (11:30):
And yeah, as I.
Speaker 1 (11:31):
Said, I was no one's responsibility. And from there atkin
I got caught, got grounded for.
Speaker 3 (11:37):
A few months.
Speaker 1 (11:38):
My stepdad he skated and stuff when he was younger,
so I was just like, oh, the boys are going
motor ride, and can I just go stay with them
and then we'll go motor ride in the morning. Yeah,
go for it, you motorid, and that's sweet. I'll just
go get pissed again. So that was my little loophole
around that. And then from there I kind of got
(11:58):
a little bit older, and that's when the skate park
fights and stuff started happened.
Speaker 3 (12:03):
I think people could smell it, smell me coming from.
Speaker 1 (12:05):
A mile away and knew I was a bit lame
and a bit weird, a bit different, and they and
they would call me out and I'd just have to
keep that balloon chest on and kind of that's when
all that stuff kind of started. And then fourteen that's
that's where that's where it actually the kind of story starts.
Speaker 3 (12:26):
Yep it.
Speaker 1 (12:30):
Mum, stepdad. He's down here. By this point, they're real rocky.
He just one day gets up and leaves. He just
takes off.
Speaker 3 (12:40):
He like he was.
Speaker 1 (12:43):
I lies him as my dad. All I knew was
a dad, and he was my sister's biological father. And
he just had enough of my mum and left. And
by this point he was always smoking weed. Just suddenly
nothing too much him in the Queen's Land. But he
could handle that kind of stuff. Before he left, him
(13:04):
and mum smoking a bit of weed. So then when
he's left, that's that's all that was there for My
mum was that she thought she needed to go out
and socialize. So she's getting pierced and going to the
pub and stuff like that. And at fourteen, that's kind
of when by that point, I'm trying to sneak into
the pub for as long as I can before I
(13:24):
get kicked out. So sometimes i'd sneak into the pub
my mom's in there dancing, might stay.
Speaker 3 (13:28):
Away from me, like you don't want people going, oh
look there's your mum man.
Speaker 1 (13:35):
And yeah, So she's she started smoking quite heavily and
eventually she's kind of she's up to She would sit
there and smoke quarter her a day sometimes, like she
would just sit in the back room. I wouldn't see
all day. She she'ld get the girl sort of some
(13:56):
food and she would just sit there and smoke, just
flatch out, just going. And then she started to lose again,
like her she she's told me her meds got changed
for a bipolar and once again, it was never the
weed for me.
Speaker 3 (14:13):
She wasn't there because of the weed.
Speaker 1 (14:14):
Like she was in that background smoking when she'd come
home from the pub, like I might be home and
she just brought a party back to her house. And
like then when I was younger, that was cool, man,
you know what I mean. I'm around all these older
people and stuff like that. But once again, that's kind
of one of my downfalls is I got used to
that life like she. At one point she I wasn't
(14:38):
getting I would ask her for money, There'd be no food,
house find chill with it.
Speaker 3 (14:44):
And from there I would be like, can I have
some money? She's like, no, I've got none.
Speaker 1 (14:49):
Can I take By this point, my mate's are smoking weed.
I'm not smoking weed because I see what it does
to my mum. I start selling her weed so I
can go get money for food, and I would just
do it. I would just do it cheaper.
Speaker 3 (15:03):
Than everyone in town. I'm getting it for free. Man.
Speaker 1 (15:05):
Mom was buying bags and stuff at a time. It's
no worries whatever, So I would just grab sell fifteen
dollars six sticks to the boys. People started catching onto that,
or the older blokes wanted off me.
Speaker 3 (15:19):
So then all of a.
Speaker 1 (15:19):
Sudden, that kick started me into selling weed. I've kind
of seen that there's a life in it for me
doing that, and that's the way I can. I can
take care of myself. And then it was hard to
be at home. Mum had a couple of boyfriends, and yeah,
I couldn't stand any of them, and one of her
(15:42):
boyfriends he used to throw me around a little bit
and I would.
Speaker 3 (15:47):
Never fight back.
Speaker 1 (15:49):
It's yeah, I didn't know how I was forty kilos, ringing,
wet like Honestly, I wouldn't have been able to do much.
Speaker 3 (15:57):
And the one time that all changed.
Speaker 1 (16:00):
He was throwing me around a bit and my mum
stepped in to get off him, get off him, and
he turned around and he clocked my mum in front
of me.
Speaker 3 (16:09):
And.
Speaker 1 (16:11):
From there that was the first time I fought back,
and that punch was a very crucial punch in my life.
It was a big ship mixer. I didn't I didn't
know how to swing properly. It was a big haymaker.
He's just stepped back. He spun me around, clocked me
in the back of the head, threw me up against
the fridge, started wailing into me a bit. Mums kind
(16:33):
of ripped him off.
Speaker 3 (16:34):
But after that first punch. That's my knuckle state by.
I was angry at the world. I was. That's that's
what I was, Just filled with anger and just hatred
for him.
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