October 13, 2024 • 12 mins
We are taking a look back at some great moments of The Village Crazy Lady.
Back in Season 2 Mikki sat down with Aunty- Ali Kay. Ali has been a huge part of my life and somebody who has always understood me, even when I didn’t understand myself. We have always felt like the rainbow sheep within a very religious family. Ali’s story is so real, honest and something I’m sure so many people can relate to. Navigating family, religion, generational traumas, being able to communicate with Spirit and her own taught beliefs.
Hear the full chat back in season 2
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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Appogiate production.
Speaker 2 (00:12):
I think because it was such a healing thing for me.
It was like this overwhelming sense I had found what
felt true to me, like I had found what was
everything for me and so and I think there was
a lot of letting go of Dad's expectations of me too,
Like I think there was a massive part of that,
(00:32):
and I realized our dad would have just loved me
to see me happy. But I think I'd built up
so much of that religious side of him in my
mind that I really felt like there was a lot
of judgment.
Speaker 1 (00:46):
Have you connected to him since? Oh?
Speaker 2 (00:48):
Yeah, yeah, And he comes through a lot when I
reiki healings on my kids, Like he was very close
to my kids, and I think he found grandchildren his
way to parent in a way that he maybe couldn't
do with us, so they felt complete love from him him. Yeah,
he's a grandparent.
Speaker 3 (01:07):
So just for reference, he's my great uncle, mine nana
who if you've listened to this podcast, who comes to
a lot.
Speaker 1 (01:13):
I was really really close to your annie, Jen.
Speaker 3 (01:16):
Yeah, and so your dad and my nana were brother
and sisister and.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
They were I've got goosebumps. It was only the two
of them.
Speaker 2 (01:22):
Yeah, and they were really close, really really really close.
And I can look back now and go, maybe there
were some stuff from Dad about judging what I was doing,
but I think at the end of the day, he
would have only wanted and he says that to me,
and he's come through on readings to me that he
just loves me and he has asked for my forgiveness
of him.
Speaker 1 (01:40):
Wow.
Speaker 2 (01:41):
But yeah, so I think there's been a lot of that.
And then Rayki Chu said that really blew my mind.
Ray Kichwo was just like, I love this. I love it,
I love it, I love it. This is what I
want to do. I started getting my girlfriends to come in,
and I was doing it on my family, and I
think I just felt as a mum too, like this
way of helping my kids, yes, and for them, like
(02:04):
a help of releasing emotions, Like I feel like the
emotions would get stuck and they didn't have the understanding
of what they were to be able to release them,
and sometimes giving those emotions a name for them to
think about and go, oh, that's what it is. You're right, Like, yeah,
that kind of fits because I feel like the more
you have these emotions that you haven't worked through, it
(02:26):
becomes toxic in your body, and I feel like at
leads to like health issues. That's what I believe and feel.
So for me, I just felt so grateful that I
could do that for them and help them in their spaces.
Speaker 3 (02:39):
For people listening. So your kids, I love them so much.
They're adults now, but because like, obviously I do reiki
on my kids, but they're a lot younger, So.
Speaker 1 (02:48):
What is that like?
Speaker 3 (02:49):
And obviously your kids are so beautiful and so receptive
and just like little earth angels, But what was that
like them seeing you go through this change of you
finding reiki and you being like, hey can I do
reiki on you?
Speaker 1 (03:04):
Can I help?
Speaker 3 (03:05):
You know?
Speaker 2 (03:06):
They were so amazing, so amazing me. Oh, they're just
like you know, I think my daughter is I probably
do it not in her presence, like she's happy for
me to do it, but she's you know, she has
no desire to lie there while I do it, whereas
my son is different like he is would be really
to you know, and he'll often say, oh, Mom, can
(03:26):
I have a raiking session? But I think for them,
like I always say to them, they're very individual and
I feel like they're quite strongly connected with themselves, so
they're you know, I feel like they're very true to
themselves and what I believe in, and I feel like
that has helped me in my journey to be true
to myself and not have so much judgment around Oh
(03:47):
my god, so what you hippie like you believe in
crystals and making spirits and guides And but they will
say the opposite. They will say, Mum, seeing you become
more true with what you believe in has helped us
to be more authentic to ourselves. So I think, you know, like,
isn't that beautiful that you just have that with your
(04:07):
kids that you feel like they're helping you, but really
you're helping them at the same time. Like, no, again,
you have been a big part of that too. Me
Like you're just being your true self in that social
media where there is so much other stuff happening that's
hard to believe and can take you away from what
is reality. Like I think that's a really big thing.
Speaker 1 (04:28):
But I think that's like even just speaking to the
stepping into your truth, and I mean it's something we
hear all the time, right, They're.
Speaker 3 (04:34):
Like, you know, when you step into your truth going
to change.
Speaker 2 (04:41):
Like a different person. That's just bullshit to a sense, literally,
like it just yeah, it's.
Speaker 1 (04:48):
Not as simple as that.
Speaker 3 (04:49):
But like and for me, I don't think about that
sort of thing, but like I think you forget that
it's kind of as truthful as it is not as
simple as that, you know, Like it's not as simple
as just like stepping into your truth and like problems
are solved, You've solved everything, because the concept of truth
is the fact that truth is messy. Truth doesn't have
(05:09):
like this perfectionist like art such. Yeah, and it's awkward,
you know, and it's like growing pains because a lot
of the time I was like, you know, how we
have this thing and you've probably experienced it where it's like, oh,
but I don't know everything yet.
Speaker 1 (05:23):
I can't do it yet because I don't know. And
I know that's true, and it's.
Speaker 3 (05:31):
Like, I'll fully step into my truth once I'm ready to.
Speaker 2 (05:35):
You, and I know there's so much about that. I
just would look at other people and think, oh, just
not quite there yet. I'm not quite there yet, And
I think, yeah, there was so much I had to
heal before, and I think there was a lot that
I used to say to myself, but I think that's
a lot of ego talking that Oh look when I
step into this and once I'm really connected with Sauce,
(05:58):
oh you know, everything's going to change. And I actually
did have those thoughts Mickey, like I did have those
thoughts feeling like, yeah, i feel like an amazingly new
person and I'm gonna just feel like clarity about everything.
It's not truth, that's.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
Not right, it's so true. I felt the same though.
Speaker 2 (06:16):
Yeah, it's funny, isn't it. What is that like? And
I think, why do I think that wasn't good enough?
Speaker 1 (06:21):
As I was?
Speaker 2 (06:21):
Yeh in a sense, like what did I feel like
I had to be completely changed and rebooted? Yes I didn't.
Speaker 3 (06:27):
But even like just the content of the expectations right,
and even like I was like, because like I always
like see things, but I didn't, you know, see a
dead person sitting in front of me, as though you are, like,
Nana are talking to me, you know what I mean,
Like Nana's not grabbing the fucking microphone and she's like,
I'm coming on your podcast. Nana would be like she'd
talk to me. In my mind, I see pictures of her,
(06:48):
I'd like, shit, the way that I would see things
was so different to just someone sitting in front of
me and being like, hello, I'm dead.
Speaker 1 (06:54):
Can we chat?
Speaker 3 (06:56):
And so I just kept expecting and kept waiting for like, oh,
I'll be a real medium when when I can fully
see this all like same thing, you know, all of
a sudden, I was like, I'm waiting for my third
eye to fucking click it.
Speaker 1 (07:09):
The amount of times I would sit there.
Speaker 3 (07:10):
Meditating, like they're like, open up your third eye, and
I'm like imagining this eye in the middle of my
forehead fucking open, and I was like, I'm ber again,
why doesn't it work? But I was seeing it the
whole time, but I was expecting it to look like
this big thing, and I looked like this new person
and felt like this new person, and like everything was
(07:31):
just multicolored and blah blah blah blah. But the thing is,
it's like the awakening isn't all of a sudden.
Speaker 1 (07:36):
We see it.
Speaker 3 (07:37):
It's just all of a sudden we're listening to it
and noticing it. It was there the whole time.
Speaker 2 (07:42):
And don't block it, isn't it. I don't block it
like you just let it come. And I know that
I don't see things or hear things the way that
you do. And you know, sometimes it's kind of oh,
need actually know We're all individual, aren't We all have
individual experiences. So I think how we see it or
feel it is going to be completely different to somebody else.
And I think, and that was another thing I did.
(08:04):
I did a room spy with Kylie, which was probably
the biggest thing I could have done, She'll be honest,
because I feel like and there was part of that.
And I know I listened to your podcast with her
a couple of weeks ago, and I think that feeling
for me. Another big thing was clearing it for generations past,
Like I think that is so important, like that womb
(08:25):
clearing that womb space and that yeah, for generation se
And I feel like that what I've done for my
kids is the same, Like I've been able to clear
that for them that they don't hold onto that past trauma.
Speaker 1 (08:37):
And how about for your mom?
Speaker 2 (08:39):
Yes, and clearing up for mum. And you know, I
can almost see a shift in her.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
You said that to me the other day, how you
seeing like a shift?
Speaker 2 (08:46):
I can see a shift in her in her own
value of herself, which I think she's not quite always had,
Like she's a beautiful, giving, caring person, and I don't
know if she's always seen that side of herself. So
I feel like that's been a big thing for her too,
that I have seen in her. And I think I
just started that, like trying to think back to your
(09:08):
like what happened? What did I do? And I think
doing all these things to help myself, thinking hearing and
seeing things like maybe that you had done other people
had done, and going I can't think I can get
benefit out of that, and asking myself like really listening
to my intuition and saying would this benefit my high self?
Like yes, no, yeah, yes, yeah, and going that feels right,
(09:30):
and it kind of also going, well if it's not right,
I'll still be getting something out of it, yes, And
it would be little things like I think there was
a lot of fear too about with this is I'd
go on a walk and say, okay, Universe, can you
show me white feathers on my walk today, like to
help me really get over this, and but I'd be
holding on this fear and that I actually wouldn't see
a white feather what happens if I wouldn't see a
(09:51):
white feather, and that means I don't believe that, that
means that the university isn't looking after me. But I
would always see a white feather. Oh, I would say,
Mom and Dad where they lived, have these beautiful little
fairy rents. And I would say, oh, my walk today,
can I see a fairy rent? That'd be Dad to
see me. I'd see a ferry run like without fail,
and so like, I think these little things that help
me kind of get over that fear of me not
(10:15):
seeing what I wanted to see. And what if I
didn't see what I wanted to see? You know what
would that mean?
Speaker 3 (10:22):
Yes, it is such a like journey. It is just
a journey of trust. And trust doesn't come like that.
Trust doesn't just go, oh, I'm gonna trust myself now
and it's.
Speaker 1 (10:33):
Like problem solved.
Speaker 3 (10:35):
Trust is like almost these tiny little risks that you
take with yourself, this tiny little like gambles or these
tiny little like I wonder if or like, I'm just
going to try and trust myself with this And it's
only like one small thing. And for every little time
that you put yourself in a situation where you have
to trust yourself and you allow yourself to do that
(10:55):
and then you get the evidence Okay, oh my god,
I trusted myself and it worked out. Or like you know,
as you said, like you know, show me a white feather. Yeah,
and you're sitting there going whole time, and I do.
I still sometimes do that. I still sometimes have this
fear of like, oh, I'm not going to see a
white feather or like and it's just depending on the day.
But then you do and you trust yourself that little
(11:15):
bit more, or like you know, you ask for guidance
and you receive something. Okay, I trust myself a little
bit more. And it's just the more that you start
to trust those little things, all of a sudden that
compounds and you're the trust that you have for yourself
grows and then you're able to trust like huge things.
Speaker 1 (11:32):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (11:33):
And I think that not dismissing them, like I think
we're so quick to dismiss stuff like oh, I'll become
a proper medium when such and such and such happens,
And I think you don't see the small things that
are happening along the way because you're kind of dismissing
them or putting to them desire, whereas if you kind
of look at everything and not dismiss it or things
(11:53):
along the way that might be happening to you, you
kind of get there that a little bit quicker instead
of blocking. So oh no, no, that's not right. I'm not
the same as such and such. That's not the same
as me. Yeah. I think that makes a big difference, totally.
Mhm
Appogiate production.
Speaker 2 (00:12):
I think because it was such a healing thing for me.
It was like this overwhelming sense I had found what
felt true to me, like I had found what was
everything for me and so and I think there was
a lot of letting go of Dad's expectations of me too,
Like I think there was a massive part of that,
(00:32):
and I realized our dad would have just loved me
to see me happy. But I think I'd built up
so much of that religious side of him in my
mind that I really felt like there was a lot
of judgment.
Speaker 1 (00:46):
Have you connected to him since? Oh?
Speaker 2 (00:48):
Yeah, yeah, And he comes through a lot when I
reiki healings on my kids, Like he was very close
to my kids, and I think he found grandchildren his
way to parent in a way that he maybe couldn't
do with us, so they felt complete love from him him. Yeah,
he's a grandparent.
Speaker 3 (01:07):
So just for reference, he's my great uncle, mine nana
who if you've listened to this podcast, who comes to
a lot.
Speaker 1 (01:13):
I was really really close to your annie, Jen.
Speaker 3 (01:16):
Yeah, and so your dad and my nana were brother
and sisister and.
Speaker 1 (01:20):
They were I've got goosebumps. It was only the two
of them.
Speaker 2 (01:22):
Yeah, and they were really close, really really really close.
And I can look back now and go, maybe there
were some stuff from Dad about judging what I was doing,
but I think at the end of the day, he
would have only wanted and he says that to me,
and he's come through on readings to me that he
just loves me and he has asked for my forgiveness
of him.
Speaker 1 (01:40):
Wow.
Speaker 2 (01:41):
But yeah, so I think there's been a lot of that.
And then Rayki Chu said that really blew my mind.
Ray Kichwo was just like, I love this. I love it,
I love it, I love it. This is what I
want to do. I started getting my girlfriends to come in,
and I was doing it on my family, and I
think I just felt as a mum too, like this
way of helping my kids, yes, and for them, like
(02:04):
a help of releasing emotions, Like I feel like the
emotions would get stuck and they didn't have the understanding
of what they were to be able to release them,
and sometimes giving those emotions a name for them to
think about and go, oh, that's what it is. You're right, Like, yeah,
that kind of fits because I feel like the more
you have these emotions that you haven't worked through, it
(02:26):
becomes toxic in your body, and I feel like at
leads to like health issues. That's what I believe and feel.
So for me, I just felt so grateful that I
could do that for them and help them in their spaces.
Speaker 3 (02:39):
For people listening. So your kids, I love them so much.
They're adults now, but because like, obviously I do reiki
on my kids, but they're a lot younger, So.
Speaker 1 (02:48):
What is that like?
Speaker 3 (02:49):
And obviously your kids are so beautiful and so receptive
and just like little earth angels, But what was that
like them seeing you go through this change of you
finding reiki and you being like, hey can I do
reiki on you?
Speaker 1 (03:04):
Can I help?
Speaker 3 (03:05):
You know?
Speaker 2 (03:06):
They were so amazing, so amazing me. Oh, they're just
like you know, I think my daughter is I probably
do it not in her presence, like she's happy for
me to do it, but she's you know, she has
no desire to lie there while I do it, whereas
my son is different like he is would be really
to you know, and he'll often say, oh, Mom, can
(03:26):
I have a raiking session? But I think for them,
like I always say to them, they're very individual and
I feel like they're quite strongly connected with themselves, so
they're you know, I feel like they're very true to
themselves and what I believe in, and I feel like
that has helped me in my journey to be true
to myself and not have so much judgment around Oh
(03:47):
my god, so what you hippie like you believe in
crystals and making spirits and guides And but they will
say the opposite. They will say, Mum, seeing you become
more true with what you believe in has helped us
to be more authentic to ourselves. So I think, you know, like,
isn't that beautiful that you just have that with your
(04:07):
kids that you feel like they're helping you, but really
you're helping them at the same time. Like, no, again,
you have been a big part of that too. Me
Like you're just being your true self in that social
media where there is so much other stuff happening that's
hard to believe and can take you away from what
is reality. Like I think that's a really big thing.
Speaker 1 (04:28):
But I think that's like even just speaking to the
stepping into your truth, and I mean it's something we
hear all the time, right, They're.
Speaker 3 (04:34):
Like, you know, when you step into your truth going
to change.
Speaker 2 (04:41):
Like a different person. That's just bullshit to a sense, literally,
like it just yeah, it's.
Speaker 1 (04:48):
Not as simple as that.
Speaker 3 (04:49):
But like and for me, I don't think about that
sort of thing, but like I think you forget that
it's kind of as truthful as it is not as
simple as that, you know, Like it's not as simple
as just like stepping into your truth and like problems
are solved, You've solved everything, because the concept of truth
is the fact that truth is messy. Truth doesn't have
(05:09):
like this perfectionist like art such. Yeah, and it's awkward,
you know, and it's like growing pains because a lot
of the time I was like, you know, how we
have this thing and you've probably experienced it where it's like, oh,
but I don't know everything yet.
Speaker 1 (05:23):
I can't do it yet because I don't know. And
I know that's true, and it's.
Speaker 3 (05:31):
Like, I'll fully step into my truth once I'm ready to.
Speaker 2 (05:35):
You, and I know there's so much about that. I
just would look at other people and think, oh, just
not quite there yet. I'm not quite there yet, And
I think, yeah, there was so much I had to
heal before, and I think there was a lot that
I used to say to myself, but I think that's
a lot of ego talking that Oh look when I
step into this and once I'm really connected with Sauce,
(05:58):
oh you know, everything's going to change. And I actually
did have those thoughts Mickey, like I did have those
thoughts feeling like, yeah, i feel like an amazingly new
person and I'm gonna just feel like clarity about everything.
It's not truth, that's.
Speaker 1 (06:12):
Not right, it's so true. I felt the same though.
Speaker 2 (06:16):
Yeah, it's funny, isn't it. What is that like? And
I think, why do I think that wasn't good enough?
Speaker 1 (06:21):
As I was?
Speaker 2 (06:21):
Yeh in a sense, like what did I feel like
I had to be completely changed and rebooted? Yes I didn't.
Speaker 3 (06:27):
But even like just the content of the expectations right,
and even like I was like, because like I always
like see things, but I didn't, you know, see a
dead person sitting in front of me, as though you are, like,
Nana are talking to me, you know what I mean,
Like Nana's not grabbing the fucking microphone and she's like,
I'm coming on your podcast. Nana would be like she'd
talk to me. In my mind, I see pictures of her,
(06:48):
I'd like, shit, the way that I would see things
was so different to just someone sitting in front of
me and being like, hello, I'm dead.
Speaker 1 (06:54):
Can we chat?
Speaker 3 (06:56):
And so I just kept expecting and kept waiting for like, oh,
I'll be a real medium when when I can fully
see this all like same thing, you know, all of
a sudden, I was like, I'm waiting for my third
eye to fucking click it.
Speaker 1 (07:09):
The amount of times I would sit there.
Speaker 3 (07:10):
Meditating, like they're like, open up your third eye, and
I'm like imagining this eye in the middle of my
forehead fucking open, and I was like, I'm ber again,
why doesn't it work? But I was seeing it the
whole time, but I was expecting it to look like
this big thing, and I looked like this new person
and felt like this new person, and like everything was
(07:31):
just multicolored and blah blah blah blah. But the thing is,
it's like the awakening isn't all of a sudden.
Speaker 1 (07:36):
We see it.
Speaker 3 (07:37):
It's just all of a sudden we're listening to it
and noticing it. It was there the whole time.
Speaker 2 (07:42):
And don't block it, isn't it. I don't block it
like you just let it come. And I know that
I don't see things or hear things the way that
you do. And you know, sometimes it's kind of oh,
need actually know We're all individual, aren't We all have
individual experiences. So I think how we see it or
feel it is going to be completely different to somebody else.
And I think, and that was another thing I did.
(08:04):
I did a room spy with Kylie, which was probably
the biggest thing I could have done, She'll be honest,
because I feel like and there was part of that.
And I know I listened to your podcast with her
a couple of weeks ago, and I think that feeling
for me. Another big thing was clearing it for generations past,
Like I think that is so important, like that womb
(08:25):
clearing that womb space and that yeah, for generation se
And I feel like that what I've done for my
kids is the same, Like I've been able to clear
that for them that they don't hold onto that past trauma.
Speaker 1 (08:37):
And how about for your mom?
Speaker 2 (08:39):
Yes, and clearing up for mum. And you know, I
can almost see a shift in her.
Speaker 1 (08:42):
You said that to me the other day, how you
seeing like a shift?
Speaker 2 (08:46):
I can see a shift in her in her own
value of herself, which I think she's not quite always had,
Like she's a beautiful, giving, caring person, and I don't
know if she's always seen that side of herself. So
I feel like that's been a big thing for her too,
that I have seen in her. And I think I
just started that, like trying to think back to your
(09:08):
like what happened? What did I do? And I think
doing all these things to help myself, thinking hearing and
seeing things like maybe that you had done other people
had done, and going I can't think I can get
benefit out of that, and asking myself like really listening
to my intuition and saying would this benefit my high self?
Like yes, no, yeah, yes, yeah, and going that feels right,
(09:30):
and it kind of also going, well if it's not right,
I'll still be getting something out of it, yes, And
it would be little things like I think there was
a lot of fear too about with this is I'd
go on a walk and say, okay, Universe, can you
show me white feathers on my walk today, like to
help me really get over this, and but I'd be
holding on this fear and that I actually wouldn't see
a white feather what happens if I wouldn't see a
(09:51):
white feather, and that means I don't believe that, that
means that the university isn't looking after me. But I
would always see a white feather. Oh, I would say,
Mom and Dad where they lived, have these beautiful little
fairy rents. And I would say, oh, my walk today,
can I see a fairy rent? That'd be Dad to
see me. I'd see a ferry run like without fail,
and so like, I think these little things that help
me kind of get over that fear of me not
(10:15):
seeing what I wanted to see. And what if I
didn't see what I wanted to see? You know what
would that mean?
Speaker 3 (10:22):
Yes, it is such a like journey. It is just
a journey of trust. And trust doesn't come like that.
Trust doesn't just go, oh, I'm gonna trust myself now
and it's.
Speaker 1 (10:33):
Like problem solved.
Speaker 3 (10:35):
Trust is like almost these tiny little risks that you
take with yourself, this tiny little like gambles or these
tiny little like I wonder if or like, I'm just
going to try and trust myself with this And it's
only like one small thing. And for every little time
that you put yourself in a situation where you have
to trust yourself and you allow yourself to do that
(10:55):
and then you get the evidence Okay, oh my god,
I trusted myself and it worked out. Or like you know,
as you said, like you know, show me a white feather. Yeah,
and you're sitting there going whole time, and I do.
I still sometimes do that. I still sometimes have this
fear of like, oh, I'm not going to see a
white feather or like and it's just depending on the day.
But then you do and you trust yourself that little
(11:15):
bit more, or like you know, you ask for guidance
and you receive something. Okay, I trust myself a little
bit more. And it's just the more that you start
to trust those little things, all of a sudden that
compounds and you're the trust that you have for yourself
grows and then you're able to trust like huge things.
Speaker 1 (11:32):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (11:33):
And I think that not dismissing them, like I think
we're so quick to dismiss stuff like oh, I'll become
a proper medium when such and such and such happens,
And I think you don't see the small things that
are happening along the way because you're kind of dismissing
them or putting to them desire, whereas if you kind
of look at everything and not dismiss it or things
(11:53):
along the way that might be happening to you, you
kind of get there that a little bit quicker instead
of blocking. So oh no, no, that's not right. I'm not
the same as such and such. That's not the same
as me. Yeah. I think that makes a big difference, totally.
Mhm
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