January 26, 2025 • 34 mins
Can a hysterectomy be healing and life changing!? This week Mikki has her beautiful Aunty, Ali Kay back on the podcast to talk about her recent hysterectomy. As a Reiki Master herself, Ali had done everything to heal her womb space and understand the trauma’s stored within it. But a constant “Get rid of it” kept ringing in her head.
What a powerful choice it has ended up being. Mikki did a healing and ritual on Ali before her surgery and it was downright the wildest healing she has ever done.
This is such a powerful and necessary story to share and one I’m sure so many people with and without wombs need to hear.
You can book a healing with Ali through her Instagram @soul_alignment_reiki
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Speaker 1 (00:05):
Apologie Production. I'm Mickey Fisher, and welcome to the Village
Crazy Lady. People are talking to me and they are
not physically in this room, so to just strap in
for that. Can't call me crazy, So I said it first.
Whoever's try to come through whatever messages need to come through, like,
(00:26):
just bring it on, Let's do it Crazy Crazy Crazy
the Village Crazy Lay Podcast. Hello, gorgeous legends, and welcome
to another episode of the Village Crazy Lady. Today. I
have a definite Village Crazy Lady in the room with
me or my beautiful auntie Allie Kay, who has come
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on the podcast before, and we chatted about well, you
chatted about your experience like growing up in the church
and sort of realizing that you know, you had these
abilities and more that you just started to really learn
yourself and understand your intuition and that whole journey and experience,
and I know a lot of people were listening to
that and they learned so much from that. Today, I'm
(01:12):
so excited to chat because you recently how to hysterect me.
I did, and I really want to talk about one
like the journey of how you came to that decision
because obviously you're a spiritual person. You're a reiki teacher, practitioner, master,
and so you understand sort of like you've been on
(01:33):
the journey of healing it and understanding that part of
you and understanding what was sort of in that space.
You've done womb, spiral, womb healings, all of that kind
of thing, which is so fascinating, and I know even
for a lot of people, they assume that to have
a womb space, you have to have a womb. But
then also I want to talk about because before you
(01:54):
went in for your he directed me a few days before,
I came over and did a healing and it was
like the main Oh my god, it was so farking wild.
I've got goosebumps just thinking about it, Like probably the
coolest because to me, it wasn't even a healing, it
was like a ritual. It was like a ceremony.
Speaker 2 (02:14):
It was a ceremony.
Speaker 1 (02:15):
It was a ceremony, and the journey of it was
so beautiful and so amazing. So I want to talk
about that, but let's start with like your journey and
how you got to going. All right, I'm done, let's
get it out.
Speaker 2 (02:28):
It's good out well, yeah, as you had said, you know,
I've done womb spiral, which was great, and womb healings,
and I guess, you know, for me that womb space
has always been a little bit problematic. I guess you'd say,
like i'd you know, as a teenager, I never had
regular periods. You know, I had to go through IVF
to have my son, fell pregnant naturally with my daughter,
(02:51):
but that also came with a lot of health issues
IVF for me, so I feel like it was great
because that got me my son and then that then
I was able to have you know, full naturally with Olivia.
But you know, my periods were never something that we're enjoyable,
not any periods enjoyable. But yeah, people can just go
(03:11):
through that monthly period and don't have pain, don't have discomfort,
don't have the PMT. And that was a real revelation
for me when I learned that, I was like, really, like,
I thought that was just part and Parcel, I thought
that's just what your path was. So I guess as
I was more connecting. Fast forwarding to the last few
years when studied reiki, became spiritually aware of what my
(03:36):
spiritual needs were really felt at the time, like I thought,
womb space healings and wals, I thought, you know, that's
really connected to the pain that I feel. And look
that none of those things really helped my physical aspects
of what was happening with in my period, but there
(03:58):
was just so much healing to be done in my
womb space. That was just I had no idea. And
as you do things, you learn more about the ancestral
side of how much your womb space holds in that
regards as well. So that was just that was actually
just such a big learning journey for me.
Speaker 1 (04:18):
What do you think for some of the biggest things
that you learned, Like on that journey, how much I didn't.
Speaker 2 (04:23):
Like myself and how much that lack of understanding of
myself was in my womb space, and how much of
that was generational, Like yeah, it all just and how
much of that when your birth comes with you like
that is that just I ha didn't know that, Like
(04:44):
it was just nothing that I understood. So I did
all the womb healings and did all of that. Really
kind of kept getting this voice in my head that
kept saying, it needs to go, it needs to go,
it needs to go, and I'll be like, now it
does not like, no, I'm so close to menopause and
no way, Like I'm a healer. I can heal myself
and I can go to other people and I have
(05:05):
this healed. It's fine. Like I'm such a sensitive body,
I can't go through an operation. Why would I do
something so drastic? And then I think the more I did,
the more that just kept coming to the service. The
more I released, the more I let go. That voice
was so strong. Wow, it has to go.
Speaker 1 (05:24):
It has to go.
Speaker 2 (05:26):
And so that's when I kind of started investigating. I
started seeing a few different doctors, found the doctor I
liked and was able to find my voice, which I
wouldn't have been able to do a few years ago.
Speaker 1 (05:39):
It's almost like there's so much that I guess we
can do. You know, you do the spiritual healing, the
energetic healing, the understanding, the ancestral thing that which is
so important because it gives you so much knowledge and understanding.
But I think people sometimes forget, especially when you're on
the spiritual journey and you're like in this world, you
(05:59):
forget that there's so much that can be, like the
physical side of things and the the evolutionary side of things,
you know, the ability to have a hysterectomy, Yeah, has
so much power in it also, as you said, getting
a choice, getting to use your voice.
Speaker 2 (06:18):
Yes, and for once actually saying this is what I
want and this is what my body needs. And why
do you think that? Because I know, because I know
I've been told it's done. I know my body so well,
I know it's so intimately well now, Yeah, through all
of those healings and through Reki, and Reki has just
been such an integral part of this, the whole process
(06:40):
from since when I've made the decision to have the hysterectomy.
And of course you know, I'm so impatient. I wanted
it done yesterday, Like I was like, man, can't you
fit me in next week?
Speaker 1 (06:49):
Like you're starting to get this done?
Speaker 2 (06:50):
What I've done, Yeah, it's done. And you know, I
had to wait three months and that was the best
thing that could have ever happened, because it gave me
so much time to really release what I didn't need anymore,
shifting my womb space into my heart space and putting
all what needed to go into there. So when my
(07:13):
uter has got taken out, all of that got taken
out as well. Yeah, it's it was probably it's the
most powerful thing I've ever done.
Speaker 1 (07:21):
Wow, I love that. That's why I needed you to
come on so I can talk about it because for that, like,
it's the most powerful thing I've ever done. And I
always think, like, even when we're having this conversation, I
keep seeing the conversation that I've had with Lauren, the
Spirit Baby communicator who's come on. Yeah, and she said
that often, especially now, like babies are choosing to come
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through via c section because they're wanting to bypass the
vaginal canal because they're like these physical parts of us
have emotional energetic that it's all intertwined in it. And
when they're coming out of the vaginal canal, they're also
taking all of the trauma that stored in there with
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them and they're going, no, thank you, I don't want that.
There's children wanting to come like they're wanting to come
through via adoption and surrogacy and everything else because they're
wanting to bypass all of that for the sake of
the relationship with you. Yes, you know, So then I
think of like exactly what you've said, you know, when
it's like taking out the physical womb. It's taking all
(08:28):
of that shit with it.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Yeah, and it's an in and it's it's having an
informed choice, isn't it. Like I did so much research
on it, but at the end, nobody could tell me
otherwise because I just knew.
Speaker 1 (08:39):
I knew.
Speaker 2 (08:40):
I knew that's exactly what I needed to do for
my body. I knew that that uters was now toxic
for me. Like, you know, I was bleeding. You know,
I'm fifty one, so I've got a great GP.
Speaker 1 (08:52):
But he was male, and he just kept.
Speaker 2 (08:55):
Saying, yeah, you're so close to menopause. You're so close
to menopause, Like just waited out, and I kept being Yah,
you're right, you're right, you're right, And then that so
I thought, no, you're actually not right. Guess you're not right,
not right. I'm not listening. I'm not for the listening
to myself, and I feel like it. I was having
periods every two and a half three weeks. You know
(09:16):
how much stuff I've done homopathically, acupuncture, spiritual healings, all
the other things, and I just knew that that was
a time that it had to go, because yeah, periods
every two and a half three weeks. I was in pain.
I was exhausted all the time. I couldn't kept my
eye up. There was just so much to it physically
as well as spiritually and emotionally.
Speaker 1 (09:38):
Okay, how long has it been now since you got
it taken out?
Speaker 2 (09:41):
Five weeks on Friday?
Speaker 1 (09:42):
How do you feel? Amazing?
Speaker 2 (09:45):
Yeah? Great, And it was you know, I was so prepared.
I don't know how often in life sometimes we get
to choose to have surgery. I felt so grateful that
it was in my control so I could I could
prepare my body as best as possible. And yeah, it's
not a walk in the park.
Speaker 1 (10:03):
It's not great.
Speaker 2 (10:05):
I think for the first trips I probably cried every day,
you know, like but that it was really painful. It
was just I was incapacitated and I was out of control,
and I don't like feeling sick. It's not you know,
I'm not a good patient. I'm an impatient patient, so
you know, and I think there's still a lot of
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releasing and healing to do. Even though you're so ready
for it to come out, there's still a lot that
you need to do.
Speaker 1 (10:32):
Well, were the things that were coming up? Do you think.
Speaker 2 (10:34):
Oh, it was so interesting really, pretty much straight after
I had the hysterectomy and I was doing raking on
myself and releasing emotions, and so much was coming up
of me being in my mum's room, so pre birth,
so stuff that was pre birth. So I think every
time I've done a healing in myself, it's been about
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pre birth. So I was not expected as a third child, like,
it was not on the plan, life plan for mom
and dad. But I really needed to come through. It
was on my plan, my records. I had to come
through that time. But you know, they were dealing with
a lot. You know, Mum had had post sountal depression.
You know, it was a big ass for her to
have another baby. So there was so much that needed
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to be healed for her and for me. And I'd
not done any pre birth healing at all until i'd
have the hysterecter.
Speaker 1 (11:27):
Me.
Speaker 2 (11:28):
Yeah, and it's been really interesting watching her over these
last few weeks and seeing stuff shift from her.
Speaker 1 (11:36):
How about your kids? Have you noticed anything with the kids?
Speaker 2 (11:38):
Oh, yeah, you know, that's funny. I was thinking about
that the other day. Not really, No, No, no, I haven't.
Speaker 1 (11:45):
But how amazing, like the way that you will be
able to support them through everything. It will obviously there
will be things that will come up for them at
certain times and things that they were moving through and
like for you to be able to understand and support
them through it.
Speaker 2 (12:02):
Well, I think even just seeing that I've made my
own own choice that you know that, yeah, I could
have just kept waiting and waiting and hoping menopause stopped
a period and I could get out of that pain
and discomfort. But just I think for them going, oh, yeah,
mum's just made that choice herself, Like she's just taken
upon herself to go to the doctor and say this
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is what I need, like be a voice for herself.
Speaker 1 (12:28):
Do you think that through you really finding your voice
and understanding your body and listening to yourself and listening
to your own healing and going this is what I need,
does it help you understand their autonomy more?
Speaker 2 (12:41):
Definitely. So that's been a really big learning curve for
me as a parent. And yeah, actually my son brought
something up to me the other day and it is
I feel like, actually that's maybe that's one thing like
we've talked more about like early parents and experiences and
there were things that I think, oh my god, I
can't He wanted a Wham T shirt and you know,
he would have been probably grade seven or something, and
(13:02):
I was kind of like, oh, I don't know, mate,
that like could give the wrong impression about you know,
who you are, Like what the fuck? Why would I
say that? Like I was just so like, man, and
I think you need to own these things too that
you say, because you know, I was able to say
to him, yeah, that I was so caught up in
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needing to parent in a way that caused no distress
or caused no one to look at us differently. I
needed to be a safe parent. I needed you to
be just that, you know, the child that is just
does not step out of their boundaries, does not do
anything different. I need you just to be very cookie
(13:47):
cutter child. And of course neither of my children are.
Speaker 1 (13:51):
But yeah, so I think you know that was and
it was really good to.
Speaker 2 (13:54):
Be able to stay him. I'm really sorry, and I
own that. And I can't believe I said that, but
I know I now I can explain to you why
I said that.
Speaker 1 (14:01):
And he was like, I mean, he was.
Speaker 2 (14:03):
Like, mum, I can see how much you've changed and
how things are so different for you now. But yeah,
they're the kind of things that you kind of go, yeah, wow,
that's so.
Speaker 1 (14:13):
Like I find that so important and empowering though, to
be able to like have that relationship with your kids
where they also get to see you be fucking human,
you know, and like, I don't think that it's our
job to be perfect for them, because we can't be,
and that's impossible, and any display of that is dishonest
because if they can't see that, we can say things
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or do things that we then change our mind about,
or that we go, oh my god, I'm so sorry,
or that's all I knew at the time, thank you
for teaching me more, or you know, I really took
that as an opportunity for growth, whatever it is. Then
they're not going to be able to do the same,
that's right.
Speaker 2 (14:51):
And I have learnt so much from them. They you know,
they are my children for a reason, and then my
children because I needed those lessons to be taught to
me of freedom and being not judgmental and you know,
like that freedom of express yeah, you know, not feeling
like I had to be this perfect person all the time,
and you know, Oh, it's yeah, it's that's big.
Speaker 1 (15:14):
Let's talk about the ceremony ritual healing thing that we
did before you went in, because that was like the
coolest fucking thing. I was crying in it. And obviously
we're related and we which makes it so much more
powerful because we obviously share ancestors. So that's like, it's
so beautiful getting to do a healing on you and
(15:37):
surrounded by our family, you know, like that's always so special,
but this was on another level, on an absolute another level,
And I want to be I want to talk about
like my perspective, but then your perspective, because for me,
it was the craziest thing. And I always go into
a healing and I'm like, always have this thing where
it's like, who knows, maybe I see nothing, maybe nothing
(15:59):
significant comes.
Speaker 2 (15:59):
Up, Bunny that you.
Speaker 1 (16:04):
Seriously, every time, every single time I do a healing,
I'm like, maybe fucking two words will come up, maybe
nothing will happen. Maybe all I need to do is
like flap my hands around and you go on your
own experience or whatever, and then I start and it's
kind of like a little bit like that, you know,
I'm just sort of like, you know, channeling in, tuning in,
going yeah, no, you need to go to your heart,
need to do a little bit of this or the
(16:25):
other thing. And then next minute, I'm like basically taken
into The only way I can describe it is a
portal that I'm like these ancestors and these guides have
like brought me into. I had to like basically walk
into this sort of like bubble, and like when I'm
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doing these healings, like my eyes are closed for ninety
nine percent of it except for when I'm needing to
like move around. But even when my eyes are open,
pretty much all I can see is everything I'm being shown.
I'm basically taken to like a new place, and I've
been taken into this sort of portal thing and I've
walked in and this I don't even know what happened.
(17:07):
It was like I was taken on this little journey
and I step out and I just keep even seeing now.
So there was so much to do with flowers, which
is so random, and that comes up later. But I
walk out and I'm basically in a forest, and like
I'm in a forest and you were in front of
me in this forest, and it became a full ceremony,
(17:30):
like we had these ancestors around, like your dad was
there as well, and he did his own thing, and
then like Nana was there, your your nana was there,
Like everyone was there, and then like ancestors that you
know I don't even know about, yes, exactly, it just
(17:52):
became this and just I can't, I can never, I
can't get the forest out of my mind. And because
you're such, you're so connected to earth as well, so
none of this felt surprising, no, that we were there
and I was like on my knee is beneath the table,
like taking things from you and like putting them into
the earth. And as I did, it was like flowers
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grew out of this earth. And then I basically was
like I did a lot of stuff and was like
you know, obviously in this fucking forest, just being guided
to do whatever it was. And then the coolest part
was when it was like time basically to remove the womb,
and the journey that went on and all the healing
(18:33):
done before that was like really beautiful. But then I
basically had to stand at the edge like the at
your feet, and it was almost like birth. It was
like you there was like this moment where it was
almost like you it had to like be fully pulled out,
like you were birthing your room. I was like, okay,
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and it's the craziest thing, Like it all sounds so
fucking intane exactly when you're in it. It is like
I'm in a forest and I am helping my auntie
birth her womb right now with like the fucking forest,
I felt like snow white, like with the fucking like
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you know, forest creatures around like they're sitting there just
like you know, like you're sleeping beauty or something. And
this womb came out and I had to like walk
over to this other part of the room in the
real world, but in forest world, it was just like
this other spot between these trees, and I had to
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like literally take my time like basically digging a grave
for not a grave, because that's the absolute wrongest word,
and wrongest is a wrong word anyway, the wrong word. Yeah,
we'll take wrongest to basically give it back to the earth.
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And it was the most beautiful thing and I had
to like really slowly bring it into the earth and
it was like the earth like absorbed. And while we
were doing this, like these female ancestors were like standing
around you and there were flowers growing around you. Oh
my god. It was just the most beautiful thing. And
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all I kept thinking afterwards was just like I wish
more people got to experience and understand this, you know,
to be able to as you've said, like the choice
to go. I know, I need to do this. I'm
doing this for my body. I'm like, you know, because
there's so much noise. There's so many people who could
(20:40):
tell you, you know, you could just work through it. You
could just do this, You just do this, blah blah blah,
whatever it is. Have you tried medication, Have you tried
you know, going to live with the monks and meditating
the pain out of you or whatever? You know, everyone
has their own opinion on whatever it is. But the
power to go, I'm listening to exactly what I need,
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and I'm making this decision for myself. But then to
like go through that experience of like you know, understanding
and seeing the ancestral line of it and getting to
have that experience where we got to have like a
ceremony around it.
Speaker 2 (21:18):
Yeah, And I think, like you said, I wish there
were more women that understood the rituals around things and
how comforting a ritual can be, and how soothing and
healing that a ceremony can be when about your body
like it, I mean that healing for me was just
I knew it had to happen, Like it was just
(21:39):
it just had to be done. Yeah, before you know,
I knew, and it was you that had to do
it for me. And it was amazing. I mean I
was really like pretty out of it the whole time.
I do remember feeling like almost that feeling a bit
giving birth, that releasing from my body. It was like
so full of my uterus just leaving and it was
so peaceful and calm, and it was at that point
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I was like, yeah, I'm definitely making the right decision.
Like it was just that feeling like I was being
split open, you know, I said to you, I just
felt like I was just being I could feel my
body expanding and expanding and expanding and expanding. It was
could feel like the heat and intenseness in my third
(22:20):
eye and in my diaphragm, in my solar plexus, like
you're feeling so much at the same time as been
on this other level of healing. And then after that,
the amazing thing was I was just you know you're saying.
There was the ancestral people like the women that you
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you know, and Dad was there like, which was amazing
because he's really evolved in that spiritual world. But for
the next few days until I went to surgery, those
ancestral women followed me around around sat behind so but
like sat find my just stood behind my head on
either side of my shoulders and they followed me around.
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I felt so comforted, so protected, so supported, Like going
into that surgery, I just they were there, that were
just I knew nothing was going to go wrong because
I knew that they had me. They knew and it
was like they were just cheering me, going, yes, you're
doing this for the right reasons, and thank you for
releasing us from all of this as well, Like yeah,
(23:25):
I think, yeah, that that understanding. There's so much more
that's happening on so many different layers when we're doing
things for ourselves.
Speaker 1 (23:35):
Yes, the choice, the doing things for ourselves. It's so interesting.
I've literally like almost forgotten and I love that we
are doing this podcast and talking about all of this
now because in the last like five group healings that
I've done the same kind of thing. Especially for a
few weeks the same thing kept coming up and I
just am like, oh wow, okay, they were again just
(23:57):
like this needs to be shared, especially when you were
talking about your like female ancestors around you and like
how they was so soh the celebration of it, and
just the like, yes, yes, yes, you're making a decision
for yourself because they've been coming through so strongly lately
for people, and you're going to be feeling them, Like
(24:19):
for people listening to this, You're going to be feeling
these ancestors on your shoulders and it's going to feel
like they're constantly pushing you to make decisions for yourself
because they literally came through the other week and they
were like basically begging. They're like, please, please, please please.
Do not get to the end of your life and
(24:40):
realize that you lived for everybody else except for yourself. Yeah,
do not get to the end of your life and
realize that you just people pleased and you said yes
when you wanted to say no. You stayed in relationships
because you felt like you had to, and you and
you lived because you were told that's how you were
supposed to live. Because they're like because you'll get to
the end of your life and you realize, like, none
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of that fucking mattered, and what was the point it
was my life? Why was I living it? Because like
a lot of these women lived lives like that.
Speaker 2 (25:11):
Oh, And I think there's just so much around that
womb space that needs to be released from women. And
I think especially when we get to my age as well,
where where our bodies are completely changing and there's such freedom,
like we're about to step into a whole different lifetime.
I feel like of freedom, like don't hold onto what
(25:34):
doesn't need to be there anymore. And just even that
connecting with your there's so much negativity I think around menopause,
and yeah, it sucks. There's things about perimenopause that make
life really tricky and hard. But I feel like the
more connected you can be with that space, then the
more understanding you'll have of your body and the less
fear you'll have. And that when you had Rosy rees
(25:57):
on and she was really connecting with your vagina, yes,
and connecting with that's oh what was it.
Speaker 1 (26:02):
In the mirror? Yeah, in the mirror. Alie sent me
a photo of she's like not off her vagina but
she's like I'm like, she's like, I'm holding space all
and it was all these.
Speaker 2 (26:21):
Things because I think you're investigating yourself, like you're understanding,
and so for me it was like wow, you know,
I guess so much of my upbringing in the church
was about such negativity around sexual awakening and sexual understanding
and about your vagina, and to me, it wasn't part
of my body, Like I had such disconnect with that
as well. Like it was like and when I did that,
(26:43):
it was like I couldn't stop crying. I was like,
oh my God, Like this is me. This is actually
all of me, my vagina, my uterus, my room space,
this is actually part of who I am and my soul.
And there's so much feeling in that. Like I think
I was so disconnected from that. There was no Yeah,
I just had pushed all of the feeling away from
(27:05):
my from my sexual being or just even being a vagina.
It was just too many bad experiences.
Speaker 1 (27:11):
And I think, like even when you're talking about menopause
before and like obviously there's such a not a negative
conno tape because I think, you know, women are starting
to like own it a bit more and talk about
it God and a hundred percent thank God. But I
think like we are really needing to connect to these
parts of ourselves. And it starts from like, like you know,
(27:33):
we've spoken about it before in this podcast, where like
as kids going through you know, our cycles, and it
was always a shameful thing, Like God forbid anyone sees
that you like got a tampon in your pocket, or
like you have your parage to hide everything.
Speaker 2 (27:48):
Don't say anything, don't swim, don't say you're not swim
because you've got.
Speaker 1 (27:52):
Your period or oh yeah, all of those things, and
like there's so much shame around these parts of ourselves.
And even like not even just the period, but just
one hundred percent when we were saying, like have just
having a vagina, I remember even like having pubes, for
God's sake, I remember like the amount of mental space
that my my pubes took up when I was a
(28:14):
teenager of like no one taught me what to do
with these things. But also like I've got to wear
swimmers that you know, like cut off half of my
funny and like you can literally see everything, and like
I can't go to like the swimming carnival with pubes
coming out, but no was telling me what to do
about these things, and also how much shame and I'm
(28:35):
gonna get bullied and like yeah, insay, no wonder we
have such a disconnect to that part of ourselves. And
I'm the same, Like even I still haven't even done it,
the like sitting in was gonna ask you if you've
done it yet, I've bitched out, No.
Speaker 2 (28:48):
It's so good, Wiki, you need to do it. Honestly,
it's so It's so healing and so therapeutic and and
just makes you feel so connected and in tune with yourself.
And yeah, I just didn't realize how much of that
was just like literally separate part of me, Like you
like sat out here, not in here.
Speaker 1 (29:09):
Because.
Speaker 2 (29:12):
I'm putting to my womb space and vagina was not there.
Speaker 1 (29:15):
So what we're talking about for everyone who's like, what
do you even mean like literally sitting in front of
a mirror, legs spread.
Speaker 2 (29:24):
Looking at your vagina, caressing it, understanding it, seeing it
for what it is, feeling it and not like in
a sexual masturbation way. For me, it was really about
loving it and loving the experiences I've had with I
guess for me as a teenager, when it just felt
like such a negative thing a vagina at all, really,
(29:47):
and to have any yeah, I have any sexual feelings
at all.
Speaker 1 (29:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (29:51):
So yeah, just really feeling that connection and that love
and being grateful for it, not being disconnected from it.
Speaker 1 (30:00):
You said at the beginning, like a lot of the
feelings that were coming up in regards to your womb
space were around and not liking yourself. Oh yeah, How
different do you feel from like this time last year
to now?
Speaker 2 (30:11):
Oh? Not a different person and not in a like Oh,
I'm so glad I left that old me behind because
I feel freer. Yeah, I feel freer. I feel Yeah,
I just feel lighter. I feel freer. I feel like
when these emotions, obviously stuff still comes up. That's just
what happens. You don't something to be free of it all.
(30:32):
But I feel like I can tap into that so
much quicker now than what I could before because I'm
not pushing so much away either. So I feel so
much more connected to my spiritual side and my higher self.
Speaker 1 (30:47):
I think I would say, and especially in regards to
like that, because that's such a it's a hard feeling,
but I think it's something that probably so many people
can relate to that feeling of like not liking yourself,
you know, I know, even for me, like I want
to be of.
Speaker 2 (31:00):
So much shame around who I was and thing's going
to happen in the past and thoughts I had and
not needing to be so perfect, understanding that no one
is perfect. And yeah, I think that would probably be
the biggest change I feel that you like yourself.
Speaker 1 (31:21):
Yeah, I love Yes, yes, I love that. That would
be your advice to anyone who is maybe on this
journey or like, you know, whether it's just wanting to
learn more about their womb space or like understanding how
much is in there and how much we can learn
from it and how much is stored in there, or
even people who are like I've been thinking, I've been
(31:44):
feeling that feeling of like it needs to be gone,
I need to do it, or whatever decision it is.
Speaker 2 (31:49):
Yeah, I just think listen to yourself, like listen to
what keeps coming up for you, and certainly take on
other people's advice. But I think you know in your
heart what's right, and I think you're knowing your heart
what suits your body. And I think just you know,
do womb space healings or I have Reiki sessions and
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ask for it to be centered around your womb. Investigate
that because I think that kind of can help you
get to where you need to be as well, because
it would bring up emotions that maybe you need to
work through before you can even make that decision. Because
I even if I had made that decision this time
last year, I'm so glad I never went through with
it because I wouldn't have been ready yet, I wouldn't
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have been at where I was now fully ready to
heal and let it go. So just just don't second
guess yourself.
Speaker 1 (32:40):
Yes, yeah, And also I think like that what you
said about just the making the choice. I think like
we can do all the womb healings in the world.
We can do all the energy healing, we can get acupuncture,
we can do all the things, but sometimes the most
healing thing and the real lesson and empowerment that we
need is getting to make a choice for ourselves.
Speaker 2 (33:01):
Absolutely, And I think there was still a lot of
for me, like I think, oh, but I'm a healer.
How am I supposed to be a healing if I'm
going surgery to remove my uterius? Like that doesn't make sense,
you know. I think I said to you, I just
feel like I'm my fraud, But it's not. It's about
knowing there's all these things you can do and you
have so many choices. Yes, yeah, not feeling like you're
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just stuck. Don't ever feel like you're stuck because you're not.
Speaker 1 (33:25):
Yes, I love that. I think that's a beautiful place
to end. And I'm so I feel like this is
going to be so relevant to probably like more people
than we even realize, you know, And again, just like
coming back to that, getting to make a choice is
so important for yourself. Yeah, you guys can actually like
get healings from Ali as well, and if you, she's
(33:48):
one of the most incredible healers ever. And I'm not
just saying that because I love her. I'm saying that
because I've received them and you walk away feeling like
the most loved I cry, I like, and she's just
she makes you feel so loved and you move through
so many amazing things. You don't do distance yet, do
you you're doing You're such an in person touch.
Speaker 2 (34:11):
I am a bit of an in person I do
do distance healing, but I am definitely an in person, nurturing, touching.
Speaker 1 (34:19):
Kind of person, absolutely, which is what makes you so amazing.
How can people book with you and find.
Speaker 2 (34:25):
I'm on Instagram? So soul alignment Reiki on Instagram. I
will have a website up shortly. My lovely husband is
working on that for me at the moment. But yeah,
just DM me. I'm not doing healings at the moment.
I'll be back in February. Just taking this time to
recover fun. Yes, I'd love to see anyone amazing.
Speaker 1 (34:43):
I'll put all of that in the show notes as well.
Thank you guys for listening, and thank you so much
Alie for sharing that. It's just so beautiful and I'm
just so grateful for you. See soon.
Speaker 2 (34:54):
Bye,
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the Village Crazy Lay Podcast. Hello, gorgeous legends, and welcome
to another episode of the Village Crazy Lady. Today. I
have a definite Village Crazy Lady in the room with
me or my beautiful auntie Allie Kay, who has come
(00:49):
on the podcast before, and we chatted about well, you
chatted about your experience like growing up in the church
and sort of realizing that you know, you had these
abilities and more that you just started to really learn
yourself and understand your intuition and that whole journey and experience,
and I know a lot of people were listening to
that and they learned so much from that. Today, I'm
(01:12):
so excited to chat because you recently how to hysterect me.
I did, and I really want to talk about one
like the journey of how you came to that decision
because obviously you're a spiritual person. You're a reiki teacher, practitioner, master,
and so you understand sort of like you've been on
(01:33):
the journey of healing it and understanding that part of
you and understanding what was sort of in that space.
You've done womb, spiral, womb healings, all of that kind
of thing, which is so fascinating, and I know even
for a lot of people, they assume that to have
a womb space, you have to have a womb. But
then also I want to talk about because before you
(01:54):
went in for your he directed me a few days before,
I came over and did a healing and it was
like the main Oh my god, it was so farking wild.
I've got goosebumps just thinking about it, Like probably the
coolest because to me, it wasn't even a healing, it
was like a ritual. It was like a ceremony.
Speaker 2 (02:14):
It was a ceremony.
Speaker 1 (02:15):
It was a ceremony, and the journey of it was
so beautiful and so amazing. So I want to talk
about that, but let's start with like your journey and
how you got to going. All right, I'm done, let's
get it out.
Speaker 2 (02:28):
It's good out well, yeah, as you had said, you know,
I've done womb spiral, which was great, and womb healings,
and I guess, you know, for me that womb space
has always been a little bit problematic. I guess you'd say,
like i'd you know, as a teenager, I never had
regular periods. You know, I had to go through IVF
to have my son, fell pregnant naturally with my daughter,
(02:51):
but that also came with a lot of health issues
IVF for me, so I feel like it was great
because that got me my son and then that then
I was able to have you know, full naturally with Olivia.
But you know, my periods were never something that we're enjoyable,
not any periods enjoyable. But yeah, people can just go
(03:11):
through that monthly period and don't have pain, don't have discomfort,
don't have the PMT. And that was a real revelation
for me when I learned that, I was like, really, like,
I thought that was just part and Parcel, I thought
that's just what your path was. So I guess as
I was more connecting. Fast forwarding to the last few
years when studied reiki, became spiritually aware of what my
(03:36):
spiritual needs were really felt at the time, like I thought,
womb space healings and wals, I thought, you know, that's
really connected to the pain that I feel. And look
that none of those things really helped my physical aspects
of what was happening with in my period, but there
(03:58):
was just so much healing to be done in my
womb space. That was just I had no idea. And
as you do things, you learn more about the ancestral
side of how much your womb space holds in that
regards as well. So that was just that was actually
just such a big learning journey for me.
Speaker 1 (04:18):
What do you think for some of the biggest things
that you learned, Like on that journey, how much I didn't.
Speaker 2 (04:23):
Like myself and how much that lack of understanding of
myself was in my womb space, and how much of
that was generational, Like yeah, it all just and how
much of that when your birth comes with you like
that is that just I ha didn't know that, Like
(04:44):
it was just nothing that I understood. So I did
all the womb healings and did all of that. Really
kind of kept getting this voice in my head that
kept saying, it needs to go, it needs to go,
it needs to go, and I'll be like, now it
does not like, no, I'm so close to menopause and
no way, Like I'm a healer. I can heal myself
and I can go to other people and I have
(05:05):
this healed. It's fine. Like I'm such a sensitive body,
I can't go through an operation. Why would I do
something so drastic? And then I think the more I did,
the more that just kept coming to the service. The
more I released, the more I let go. That voice
was so strong. Wow, it has to go.
Speaker 1 (05:24):
It has to go.
Speaker 2 (05:26):
And so that's when I kind of started investigating. I
started seeing a few different doctors, found the doctor I
liked and was able to find my voice, which I
wouldn't have been able to do a few years ago.
Speaker 1 (05:39):
It's almost like there's so much that I guess we
can do. You know, you do the spiritual healing, the
energetic healing, the understanding, the ancestral thing that which is
so important because it gives you so much knowledge and understanding.
But I think people sometimes forget, especially when you're on
the spiritual journey and you're like in this world, you
(05:59):
forget that there's so much that can be, like the
physical side of things and the the evolutionary side of things,
you know, the ability to have a hysterectomy, Yeah, has
so much power in it also, as you said, getting
a choice, getting to use your voice.
Speaker 2 (06:18):
Yes, and for once actually saying this is what I
want and this is what my body needs. And why
do you think that? Because I know, because I know
I've been told it's done. I know my body so well,
I know it's so intimately well now, Yeah, through all
of those healings and through Reki, and Reki has just
been such an integral part of this, the whole process
(06:40):
from since when I've made the decision to have the hysterectomy.
And of course you know, I'm so impatient. I wanted
it done yesterday, Like I was like, man, can't you
fit me in next week?
Speaker 1 (06:49):
Like you're starting to get this done?
Speaker 2 (06:50):
What I've done, Yeah, it's done. And you know, I
had to wait three months and that was the best
thing that could have ever happened, because it gave me
so much time to really release what I didn't need anymore,
shifting my womb space into my heart space and putting
all what needed to go into there. So when my
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uter has got taken out, all of that got taken
out as well. Yeah, it's it was probably it's the
most powerful thing I've ever done.
Speaker 1 (07:21):
Wow, I love that. That's why I needed you to
come on so I can talk about it because for that, like,
it's the most powerful thing I've ever done. And I
always think, like, even when we're having this conversation, I
keep seeing the conversation that I've had with Lauren, the
Spirit Baby communicator who's come on. Yeah, and she said
that often, especially now, like babies are choosing to come
(07:44):
through via c section because they're wanting to bypass the
vaginal canal because they're like these physical parts of us
have emotional energetic that it's all intertwined in it. And
when they're coming out of the vaginal canal, they're also
taking all of the trauma that stored in there with
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them and they're going, no, thank you, I don't want that.
There's children wanting to come like they're wanting to come
through via adoption and surrogacy and everything else because they're
wanting to bypass all of that for the sake of
the relationship with you. Yes, you know, So then I
think of like exactly what you've said, you know, when
it's like taking out the physical womb. It's taking all
(08:28):
of that shit with it.
Speaker 2 (08:29):
Yeah, and it's an in and it's it's having an
informed choice, isn't it. Like I did so much research
on it, but at the end, nobody could tell me
otherwise because I just knew.
Speaker 1 (08:39):
I knew.
Speaker 2 (08:40):
I knew that's exactly what I needed to do for
my body. I knew that that uters was now toxic
for me. Like, you know, I was bleeding. You know,
I'm fifty one, so I've got a great GP.
Speaker 1 (08:52):
But he was male, and he just kept.
Speaker 2 (08:55):
Saying, yeah, you're so close to menopause. You're so close
to menopause, Like just waited out, and I kept being Yah,
you're right, you're right, you're right, And then that so
I thought, no, you're actually not right. Guess you're not right,
not right. I'm not listening. I'm not for the listening
to myself, and I feel like it. I was having
periods every two and a half three weeks. You know
(09:16):
how much stuff I've done homopathically, acupuncture, spiritual healings, all
the other things, and I just knew that that was
a time that it had to go, because yeah, periods
every two and a half three weeks. I was in pain.
I was exhausted all the time. I couldn't kept my
eye up. There was just so much to it physically
as well as spiritually and emotionally.
Speaker 1 (09:38):
Okay, how long has it been now since you got
it taken out?
Speaker 2 (09:41):
Five weeks on Friday?
Speaker 1 (09:42):
How do you feel? Amazing?
Speaker 2 (09:45):
Yeah? Great, And it was you know, I was so prepared.
I don't know how often in life sometimes we get
to choose to have surgery. I felt so grateful that
it was in my control so I could I could
prepare my body as best as possible. And yeah, it's
not a walk in the park.
Speaker 1 (10:03):
It's not great.
Speaker 2 (10:05):
I think for the first trips I probably cried every day,
you know, like but that it was really painful. It
was just I was incapacitated and I was out of control,
and I don't like feeling sick. It's not you know,
I'm not a good patient. I'm an impatient patient, so
you know, and I think there's still a lot of
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releasing and healing to do. Even though you're so ready
for it to come out, there's still a lot that
you need to do.
Speaker 1 (10:32):
Well, were the things that were coming up? Do you think.
Speaker 2 (10:34):
Oh, it was so interesting really, pretty much straight after
I had the hysterectomy and I was doing raking on
myself and releasing emotions, and so much was coming up
of me being in my mum's room, so pre birth,
so stuff that was pre birth. So I think every
time I've done a healing in myself, it's been about
(10:54):
pre birth. So I was not expected as a third child, like,
it was not on the plan, life plan for mom
and dad. But I really needed to come through. It
was on my plan, my records. I had to come
through that time. But you know, they were dealing with
a lot. You know, Mum had had post sountal depression.
You know, it was a big ass for her to
have another baby. So there was so much that needed
(11:17):
to be healed for her and for me. And I'd
not done any pre birth healing at all until i'd
have the hysterecter.
Speaker 1 (11:27):
Me.
Speaker 2 (11:28):
Yeah, and it's been really interesting watching her over these
last few weeks and seeing stuff shift from her.
Speaker 1 (11:36):
How about your kids? Have you noticed anything with the kids?
Speaker 2 (11:38):
Oh, yeah, you know, that's funny. I was thinking about
that the other day. Not really, No, No, no, I haven't.
Speaker 1 (11:45):
But how amazing, like the way that you will be
able to support them through everything. It will obviously there
will be things that will come up for them at
certain times and things that they were moving through and
like for you to be able to understand and support
them through it.
Speaker 2 (12:02):
Well, I think even just seeing that I've made my
own own choice that you know that, yeah, I could
have just kept waiting and waiting and hoping menopause stopped
a period and I could get out of that pain
and discomfort. But just I think for them going, oh, yeah,
mum's just made that choice herself, Like she's just taken
upon herself to go to the doctor and say this
(12:23):
is what I need, like be a voice for herself.
Speaker 1 (12:28):
Do you think that through you really finding your voice
and understanding your body and listening to yourself and listening
to your own healing and going this is what I need,
does it help you understand their autonomy more?
Speaker 2 (12:41):
Definitely. So that's been a really big learning curve for
me as a parent. And yeah, actually my son brought
something up to me the other day and it is
I feel like, actually that's maybe that's one thing like
we've talked more about like early parents and experiences and
there were things that I think, oh my god, I
can't He wanted a Wham T shirt and you know,
he would have been probably grade seven or something, and
(13:02):
I was kind of like, oh, I don't know, mate,
that like could give the wrong impression about you know,
who you are, Like what the fuck? Why would I
say that? Like I was just so like, man, and
I think you need to own these things too that
you say, because you know, I was able to say
to him, yeah, that I was so caught up in
(13:25):
needing to parent in a way that caused no distress
or caused no one to look at us differently. I
needed to be a safe parent. I needed you to
be just that, you know, the child that is just
does not step out of their boundaries, does not do
anything different. I need you just to be very cookie
(13:47):
cutter child. And of course neither of my children are.
Speaker 1 (13:51):
But yeah, so I think you know that was and
it was really good to.
Speaker 2 (13:54):
Be able to stay him. I'm really sorry, and I
own that. And I can't believe I said that, but
I know I now I can explain to you why
I said that.
Speaker 1 (14:01):
And he was like, I mean, he was.
Speaker 2 (14:03):
Like, mum, I can see how much you've changed and
how things are so different for you now. But yeah,
they're the kind of things that you kind of go, yeah, wow,
that's so.
Speaker 1 (14:13):
Like I find that so important and empowering though, to
be able to like have that relationship with your kids
where they also get to see you be fucking human,
you know, and like, I don't think that it's our
job to be perfect for them, because we can't be,
and that's impossible, and any display of that is dishonest
because if they can't see that, we can say things
(14:37):
or do things that we then change our mind about,
or that we go, oh my god, I'm so sorry,
or that's all I knew at the time, thank you
for teaching me more, or you know, I really took
that as an opportunity for growth, whatever it is. Then
they're not going to be able to do the same,
that's right.
Speaker 2 (14:51):
And I have learnt so much from them. They you know,
they are my children for a reason, and then my
children because I needed those lessons to be taught to
me of freedom and being not judgmental and you know,
like that freedom of express yeah, you know, not feeling
like I had to be this perfect person all the time,
and you know, Oh, it's yeah, it's that's big.
Speaker 1 (15:14):
Let's talk about the ceremony ritual healing thing that we
did before you went in, because that was like the
coolest fucking thing. I was crying in it. And obviously
we're related and we which makes it so much more
powerful because we obviously share ancestors. So that's like, it's
so beautiful getting to do a healing on you and
(15:37):
surrounded by our family, you know, like that's always so special,
but this was on another level, on an absolute another level,
And I want to be I want to talk about
like my perspective, but then your perspective, because for me,
it was the craziest thing. And I always go into
a healing and I'm like, always have this thing where
it's like, who knows, maybe I see nothing, maybe nothing
(15:59):
significant comes.
Speaker 2 (15:59):
Up, Bunny that you.
Speaker 1 (16:04):
Seriously, every time, every single time I do a healing,
I'm like, maybe fucking two words will come up, maybe
nothing will happen. Maybe all I need to do is
like flap my hands around and you go on your
own experience or whatever, and then I start and it's
kind of like a little bit like that, you know,
I'm just sort of like, you know, channeling in, tuning in,
going yeah, no, you need to go to your heart,
need to do a little bit of this or the
(16:25):
other thing. And then next minute, I'm like basically taken
into The only way I can describe it is a
portal that I'm like these ancestors and these guides have
like brought me into. I had to like basically walk
into this sort of like bubble, and like when I'm
(16:45):
doing these healings, like my eyes are closed for ninety
nine percent of it except for when I'm needing to
like move around. But even when my eyes are open,
pretty much all I can see is everything I'm being shown.
I'm basically taken to like a new place, and I've
been taken into this sort of portal thing and I've
walked in and this I don't even know what happened.
(17:07):
It was like I was taken on this little journey
and I step out and I just keep even seeing now.
So there was so much to do with flowers, which
is so random, and that comes up later. But I
walk out and I'm basically in a forest, and like
I'm in a forest and you were in front of
me in this forest, and it became a full ceremony,
(17:30):
like we had these ancestors around, like your dad was
there as well, and he did his own thing, and
then like Nana was there, your your nana was there,
Like everyone was there, and then like ancestors that you
know I don't even know about, yes, exactly, it just
(17:52):
became this and just I can't, I can never, I
can't get the forest out of my mind. And because
you're such, you're so connected to earth as well, so
none of this felt surprising, no, that we were there
and I was like on my knee is beneath the table,
like taking things from you and like putting them into
the earth. And as I did, it was like flowers
(18:13):
grew out of this earth. And then I basically was
like I did a lot of stuff and was like
you know, obviously in this fucking forest, just being guided
to do whatever it was. And then the coolest part
was when it was like time basically to remove the womb,
and the journey that went on and all the healing
(18:33):
done before that was like really beautiful. But then I
basically had to stand at the edge like the at
your feet, and it was almost like birth. It was
like you there was like this moment where it was
almost like you it had to like be fully pulled out,
like you were birthing your room. I was like, okay,
(18:54):
and it's the craziest thing, Like it all sounds so
fucking intane exactly when you're in it. It is like
I'm in a forest and I am helping my auntie
birth her womb right now with like the fucking forest,
I felt like snow white, like with the fucking like
(19:14):
you know, forest creatures around like they're sitting there just
like you know, like you're sleeping beauty or something. And
this womb came out and I had to like walk
over to this other part of the room in the
real world, but in forest world, it was just like
this other spot between these trees, and I had to
(19:36):
like literally take my time like basically digging a grave
for not a grave, because that's the absolute wrongest word,
and wrongest is a wrong word anyway, the wrong word. Yeah,
we'll take wrongest to basically give it back to the earth.
(19:56):
And it was the most beautiful thing and I had
to like really slowly bring it into the earth and
it was like the earth like absorbed. And while we
were doing this, like these female ancestors were like standing
around you and there were flowers growing around you. Oh
my god. It was just the most beautiful thing. And
(20:18):
all I kept thinking afterwards was just like I wish
more people got to experience and understand this, you know,
to be able to as you've said, like the choice
to go. I know, I need to do this. I'm
doing this for my body. I'm like, you know, because
there's so much noise. There's so many people who could
(20:40):
tell you, you know, you could just work through it. You
could just do this, You just do this, blah blah blah,
whatever it is. Have you tried medication, Have you tried
you know, going to live with the monks and meditating
the pain out of you or whatever? You know, everyone
has their own opinion on whatever it is. But the
power to go, I'm listening to exactly what I need,
(21:00):
and I'm making this decision for myself. But then to
like go through that experience of like you know, understanding
and seeing the ancestral line of it and getting to
have that experience where we got to have like a
ceremony around it.
Speaker 2 (21:18):
Yeah, And I think, like you said, I wish there
were more women that understood the rituals around things and
how comforting a ritual can be, and how soothing and
healing that a ceremony can be when about your body
like it, I mean that healing for me was just
I knew it had to happen, Like it was just
(21:39):
it just had to be done. Yeah, before you know,
I knew, and it was you that had to do
it for me. And it was amazing. I mean I
was really like pretty out of it the whole time.
I do remember feeling like almost that feeling a bit
giving birth, that releasing from my body. It was like
so full of my uterus just leaving and it was
so peaceful and calm, and it was at that point
(22:00):
I was like, yeah, I'm definitely making the right decision.
Like it was just that feeling like I was being
split open, you know, I said to you, I just
felt like I was just being I could feel my
body expanding and expanding and expanding and expanding. It was
could feel like the heat and intenseness in my third
(22:20):
eye and in my diaphragm, in my solar plexus, like
you're feeling so much at the same time as been
on this other level of healing. And then after that,
the amazing thing was I was just you know you're saying.
There was the ancestral people like the women that you
(22:41):
you know, and Dad was there like, which was amazing
because he's really evolved in that spiritual world. But for
the next few days until I went to surgery, those
ancestral women followed me around around sat behind so but
like sat find my just stood behind my head on
either side of my shoulders and they followed me around.
(23:04):
I felt so comforted, so protected, so supported, Like going
into that surgery, I just they were there, that were
just I knew nothing was going to go wrong because
I knew that they had me. They knew and it
was like they were just cheering me, going, yes, you're
doing this for the right reasons, and thank you for
releasing us from all of this as well, Like yeah,
(23:25):
I think, yeah, that that understanding. There's so much more
that's happening on so many different layers when we're doing
things for ourselves.
Speaker 1 (23:35):
Yes, the choice, the doing things for ourselves. It's so interesting.
I've literally like almost forgotten and I love that we
are doing this podcast and talking about all of this
now because in the last like five group healings that
I've done the same kind of thing. Especially for a
few weeks the same thing kept coming up and I
just am like, oh wow, okay, they were again just
(23:57):
like this needs to be shared, especially when you were
talking about your like female ancestors around you and like
how they was so soh the celebration of it, and
just the like, yes, yes, yes, you're making a decision
for yourself because they've been coming through so strongly lately
for people, and you're going to be feeling them, Like
(24:19):
for people listening to this, You're going to be feeling
these ancestors on your shoulders and it's going to feel
like they're constantly pushing you to make decisions for yourself
because they literally came through the other week and they
were like basically begging. They're like, please, please, please please.
Do not get to the end of your life and
(24:40):
realize that you lived for everybody else except for yourself. Yeah,
do not get to the end of your life and
realize that you just people pleased and you said yes
when you wanted to say no. You stayed in relationships
because you felt like you had to, and you and
you lived because you were told that's how you were
supposed to live. Because they're like because you'll get to
the end of your life and you realize, like, none
(25:01):
of that fucking mattered, and what was the point it
was my life? Why was I living it? Because like
a lot of these women lived lives like that.
Speaker 2 (25:11):
Oh, And I think there's just so much around that
womb space that needs to be released from women. And
I think especially when we get to my age as well,
where where our bodies are completely changing and there's such freedom,
like we're about to step into a whole different lifetime.
I feel like of freedom, like don't hold onto what
(25:34):
doesn't need to be there anymore. And just even that
connecting with your there's so much negativity I think around menopause,
and yeah, it sucks. There's things about perimenopause that make
life really tricky and hard. But I feel like the
more connected you can be with that space, then the
more understanding you'll have of your body and the less
fear you'll have. And that when you had Rosy rees
(25:57):
on and she was really connecting with your vagina, yes,
and connecting with that's oh what was it.
Speaker 1 (26:02):
In the mirror? Yeah, in the mirror. Alie sent me
a photo of she's like not off her vagina but
she's like I'm like, she's like, I'm holding space all
and it was all these.
Speaker 2 (26:21):
Things because I think you're investigating yourself, like you're understanding,
and so for me it was like wow, you know,
I guess so much of my upbringing in the church
was about such negativity around sexual awakening and sexual understanding
and about your vagina, and to me, it wasn't part
of my body, Like I had such disconnect with that
as well. Like it was like and when I did that,
(26:43):
it was like I couldn't stop crying. I was like,
oh my God, Like this is me. This is actually
all of me, my vagina, my uterus, my room space,
this is actually part of who I am and my soul.
And there's so much feeling in that. Like I think
I was so disconnected from that. There was no Yeah,
I just had pushed all of the feeling away from
(27:05):
my from my sexual being or just even being a vagina.
It was just too many bad experiences.
Speaker 1 (27:11):
And I think, like even when you're talking about menopause
before and like obviously there's such a not a negative
conno tape because I think, you know, women are starting
to like own it a bit more and talk about
it God and a hundred percent thank God. But I
think like we are really needing to connect to these
parts of ourselves. And it starts from like, like you know,
(27:33):
we've spoken about it before in this podcast, where like
as kids going through you know, our cycles, and it
was always a shameful thing, Like God forbid anyone sees
that you like got a tampon in your pocket, or
like you have your parage to hide everything.
Speaker 2 (27:48):
Don't say anything, don't swim, don't say you're not swim
because you've got.
Speaker 1 (27:52):
Your period or oh yeah, all of those things, and
like there's so much shame around these parts of ourselves.
And even like not even just the period, but just
one hundred percent when we were saying, like have just
having a vagina, I remember even like having pubes, for
God's sake, I remember like the amount of mental space
that my my pubes took up when I was a
(28:14):
teenager of like no one taught me what to do
with these things. But also like I've got to wear
swimmers that you know, like cut off half of my
funny and like you can literally see everything, and like
I can't go to like the swimming carnival with pubes
coming out, but no was telling me what to do
about these things, and also how much shame and I'm
(28:35):
gonna get bullied and like yeah, insay, no wonder we
have such a disconnect to that part of ourselves. And
I'm the same, Like even I still haven't even done it,
the like sitting in was gonna ask you if you've
done it yet, I've bitched out, No.
Speaker 2 (28:48):
It's so good, Wiki, you need to do it. Honestly,
it's so It's so healing and so therapeutic and and
just makes you feel so connected and in tune with yourself.
And yeah, I just didn't realize how much of that
was just like literally separate part of me, Like you
like sat out here, not in here.
Speaker 1 (29:09):
Because.
Speaker 2 (29:12):
I'm putting to my womb space and vagina was not there.
Speaker 1 (29:15):
So what we're talking about for everyone who's like, what
do you even mean like literally sitting in front of
a mirror, legs spread.
Speaker 2 (29:24):
Looking at your vagina, caressing it, understanding it, seeing it
for what it is, feeling it and not like in
a sexual masturbation way. For me, it was really about
loving it and loving the experiences I've had with I
guess for me as a teenager, when it just felt
like such a negative thing a vagina at all, really,
(29:47):
and to have any yeah, I have any sexual feelings
at all.
Speaker 1 (29:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (29:51):
So yeah, just really feeling that connection and that love
and being grateful for it, not being disconnected from it.
Speaker 1 (30:00):
You said at the beginning, like a lot of the
feelings that were coming up in regards to your womb
space were around and not liking yourself. Oh yeah, How
different do you feel from like this time last year
to now?
Speaker 2 (30:11):
Oh? Not a different person and not in a like Oh,
I'm so glad I left that old me behind because
I feel freer. Yeah, I feel freer. I feel Yeah,
I just feel lighter. I feel freer. I feel like
when these emotions, obviously stuff still comes up. That's just
what happens. You don't something to be free of it all.
(30:32):
But I feel like I can tap into that so
much quicker now than what I could before because I'm
not pushing so much away either. So I feel so
much more connected to my spiritual side and my higher self.
Speaker 1 (30:47):
I think I would say, and especially in regards to
like that, because that's such a it's a hard feeling,
but I think it's something that probably so many people
can relate to that feeling of like not liking yourself,
you know, I know, even for me, like I want
to be of.
Speaker 2 (31:00):
So much shame around who I was and thing's going
to happen in the past and thoughts I had and
not needing to be so perfect, understanding that no one
is perfect. And yeah, I think that would probably be
the biggest change I feel that you like yourself.
Speaker 1 (31:21):
Yeah, I love Yes, yes, I love that. That would
be your advice to anyone who is maybe on this
journey or like, you know, whether it's just wanting to
learn more about their womb space or like understanding how
much is in there and how much we can learn
from it and how much is stored in there, or
even people who are like I've been thinking, I've been
(31:44):
feeling that feeling of like it needs to be gone,
I need to do it, or whatever decision it is.
Speaker 2 (31:49):
Yeah, I just think listen to yourself, like listen to
what keeps coming up for you, and certainly take on
other people's advice. But I think you know in your
heart what's right, and I think you're knowing your heart
what suits your body. And I think just you know,
do womb space healings or I have Reiki sessions and
(32:09):
ask for it to be centered around your womb. Investigate
that because I think that kind of can help you
get to where you need to be as well, because
it would bring up emotions that maybe you need to
work through before you can even make that decision. Because
I even if I had made that decision this time
last year, I'm so glad I never went through with
it because I wouldn't have been ready yet, I wouldn't
(32:30):
have been at where I was now fully ready to
heal and let it go. So just just don't second
guess yourself.
Speaker 1 (32:40):
Yes, yeah, And also I think like that what you
said about just the making the choice. I think like
we can do all the womb healings in the world.
We can do all the energy healing, we can get acupuncture,
we can do all the things, but sometimes the most
healing thing and the real lesson and empowerment that we
need is getting to make a choice for ourselves.
Speaker 2 (33:01):
Absolutely, And I think there was still a lot of
for me, like I think, oh, but I'm a healer.
How am I supposed to be a healing if I'm
going surgery to remove my uterius? Like that doesn't make sense,
you know. I think I said to you, I just
feel like I'm my fraud, But it's not. It's about
knowing there's all these things you can do and you
have so many choices. Yes, yeah, not feeling like you're
(33:22):
just stuck. Don't ever feel like you're stuck because you're not.
Speaker 1 (33:25):
Yes, I love that. I think that's a beautiful place
to end. And I'm so I feel like this is
going to be so relevant to probably like more people
than we even realize, you know, And again, just like
coming back to that, getting to make a choice is
so important for yourself. Yeah, you guys can actually like
get healings from Ali as well, and if you, she's
(33:48):
one of the most incredible healers ever. And I'm not
just saying that because I love her. I'm saying that
because I've received them and you walk away feeling like
the most loved I cry, I like, and she's just
she makes you feel so loved and you move through
so many amazing things. You don't do distance yet, do
you you're doing You're such an in person touch.
Speaker 2 (34:11):
I am a bit of an in person I do
do distance healing, but I am definitely an in person, nurturing, touching.
Speaker 1 (34:19):
Kind of person, absolutely, which is what makes you so amazing.
How can people book with you and find.
Speaker 2 (34:25):
I'm on Instagram? So soul alignment Reiki on Instagram. I
will have a website up shortly. My lovely husband is
working on that for me at the moment. But yeah,
just DM me. I'm not doing healings at the moment.
I'll be back in February. Just taking this time to
recover fun. Yes, I'd love to see anyone amazing.
Speaker 1 (34:43):
I'll put all of that in the show notes as well.
Thank you guys for listening, and thank you so much
Alie for sharing that. It's just so beautiful and I'm
just so grateful for you. See soon.
Speaker 2 (34:54):
Bye,
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