"Funcast" pt2

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
We are going to go back into these cards again tonight.
I did not edit last night's episode. I just cut
the beginning of it so we can use it for
the episode three thirty nine, which we released today on Patreon.
So I want to do this again tonight. Hopefully this
will work and we won't have the robot issues because
I reset a whole lot of shit last night, like factory,

(00:21):
really a whole lot.

Speaker 2 (00:23):
You're back here for like twenty five minutes.

Speaker 1 (00:25):
Yeah, yeah, I fucking did computer updates, program updates, mixer updates,
obs updates. The mixer actually didn't have an update, so
I reset it to its factory setting and reinstalled the
firmware on it. So we shall see missswol Broham same
just join this morning. Well, thank you for being here.

Speaker 3 (00:43):
Hello.

Speaker 1 (00:44):
So before we get into that, you have one spot
left in the women's retreat.

Speaker 3 (00:47):
Yes, one spot. It can occupy two people if y'all
are cool with sharing a king sized bed.

Speaker 1 (00:52):
Yeah. And it has a private bathroom, which is yes,
it does have a private bathroom. I looked how much
to see how much it would cost to rent that
same Airbnb for us when we did the men's retreat
in March and it was three times the price.

Speaker 2 (01:03):
Insane right right of my favorite pictures of.

Speaker 1 (01:06):
Us, Yeah, I have the picture of her just flicking
me off without being able to see it. So I
only brought up the women's retreat thing because we sold
another spot on the men's retreat this morning and one
of the guys that's in the men's retreat chat asked
if I'm willing to do one on one stuff? And
I know that you do your Awakened Women group and
you have your one hour call? Was it once a

(01:28):
week once a month? How do you do bi weekly?
So you give two calls a month for two undred
bucks a month.

Speaker 3 (01:34):
It's also you also get sacred sisterhood included in that.

Speaker 1 (01:37):
Yeah, yeah, I'm I have been asked a couple of
times now for one on one shit, and I don't
know if I want to do it, But if I
do decide to go that route, it's going to be
like you did with a limit of five or six people.
I think that they would get a lot more value
than the men's group because the men's group is just instructions.
Like the guys aren't showing up for calls, you know

(01:57):
what I mean? Like I'm not I can't force people
to be there, so when we obviously have miscalls too,
like we had something come up on Sunday and I
couldn't get in there. Yeah, but I know that would
affect our schedule quite a bit. I would have to
schedule my calls the same time that you have your calls,
and I would have to work around other people's work schedules.
And she's a lot that goes into that. I don't
know if I really want to get into that, but

(02:17):
I do think that there's value there and I think
that I would be able to help people. Yeah, so
almost two am there in Germany. Crazy.

Speaker 2 (02:28):
Oh my gosh, thank you for being here.

Speaker 1 (02:30):
I don't like how big this screen is. I'm going
to minimize this for a second and then there we
go much better.

Speaker 3 (02:37):
Oh that doesn't look a lot better.

Speaker 1 (02:38):
Yeah, well, I can see a whole lot more than
three messages on the chat.

Speaker 3 (02:41):
Now, so I don't have my glasses.

Speaker 1 (02:43):
That sucks. I can make it bigger again for I'm
going to because I'm gonna be reading from this. We're
gonna pull this back out and go again.

Speaker 3 (02:51):
All right, let's go.

Speaker 1 (02:53):
I'm not gonna read this one because it's a cheesy question.
Ok So we're gonna skip that one.

Speaker 3 (03:00):
This is not what we did last night.

Speaker 1 (03:01):
These are These are the same deck, just different questions. Okay, continuing,
So this is the level three. Oh man, who is
someone you need to forgive and have not? We're gonna
skip that because that's that's personal and I don't want
that on the internet.

Speaker 3 (03:14):
Yeah, I'm not ready for that.

Speaker 1 (03:16):
That would be a good question for us to have
a discussion of, for sure. Oh yeah, but.

Speaker 3 (03:20):
That's not You didn't tell me that thing last night.

Speaker 1 (03:22):
I didn't have to. I told you were That's right. Okay, Okay.
This one is from Alex Hermosi, which is somebody that
I follow on social media. The person you cherish, cherish
most in life dies, Oh my gosh, tomorrow you have
a sixty second phone call with them. What do you
tell them? I'm sorry, I forgive you, I love you,

(03:48):
thank you.

Speaker 3 (03:52):
I would say so much more than that. I can't.
I can't do this. Okay, I'm only gonna say one's yeah.

Speaker 2 (04:07):
I can only say one.

Speaker 1 (04:10):
You want me to beat your old toilet paper.

Speaker 3 (04:14):
Oh my gosh, I am proud of you and you
saying that you did the best you could come us
with meaning behind it.

Speaker 1 (04:25):
I hate this.

Speaker 3 (04:28):
Why are we doing this?

Speaker 1 (04:29):
I don't know. I wasn't expecting to cry and I've
been good all day. No right, fuck, alright, this one's
from Tony Hawk to pro skater love Tony Hawk. This
is a level two.

Speaker 3 (04:42):
All right, don't hurt me.

Speaker 1 (04:44):
When do you feel the most emotionally connected to yourself?

Speaker 3 (04:48):
Most the most emotionally connected to myself? Do you have
an answer for that?

Speaker 1 (04:53):
I do?

Speaker 2 (04:54):
Okay, you go first, because I have to think two.

Speaker 1 (04:55):
To three weeks after a psychedelic experience, a big dose
psychedelic experience, Yeah, because I get that after glow for
me last sometimes up to a month, month and a half.

Speaker 3 (05:06):
Yeah, I agree with that. I would say that that's
the same, and.

Speaker 1 (05:09):
I am most connected to everything. It's not just my emotions,
Like I'm able to work through so much shit over
that month long period that I can't do on my own,
Like that is the life hack for me. And I'm
not going to cut that out of the podcast because
I believe in that ship. So yeah, there's a level one.
I don't like this. I don't like this question. I'm

(05:30):
gonna I'm gonna gonna read it.

Speaker 3 (05:31):
I don't like it.

Speaker 1 (05:32):
It's from Josh Peck. I don't know who that is, but.

Speaker 3 (05:37):
That was that was too fast of a reaction. Sorry, guys,
who is you know who that is?

Speaker 2 (05:44):
Josh Peck? He played Josh and drag and Josh.

Speaker 3 (05:46):
Okay, that was really fast, guys. I'm so sorry.

Speaker 1 (05:50):
What have you done recently for someone else?

Speaker 2 (05:53):
What have I done recently for someone else?

Speaker 1 (05:56):
While she's thinking of her answer, I bought one for Jenny, yeah,
and send it to her in Canada, and bought one
that was similar, thinking that it would be just like hers.
And it's got a different lid on it. And it's
a picture that you pour out of instead of a
cup that you drink out of. And I fucking hate it.
Oh but I love how cold that it keeps my shit? Yes,
so yes, I am drinking out of a picture instead

(06:18):
of out of a cup.

Speaker 3 (06:18):
Okay, So I have mine. What was the question again?
Was it the most recent or what have I done
for somebody?

Speaker 1 (06:24):
What have you done recently for someone else?

Speaker 3 (06:27):
I did my women's call, I held space, and I
gave advice, clarity, reassurance.

Speaker 1 (06:37):
I paid for some people's retreats loan money, things like that.
What retreats the one that we're going to in a week. Oh,
I don't know if I can call giving a loan
to somebody doing something for them because I'm getting it back.
It does help them, but it's temporary, like it's alone.

(06:59):
It's not like here's whatever you need? So does that count?

Speaker 3 (07:05):
Happen?

Speaker 1 (07:05):
I don't want to talk about that on here. Otherwise
i'd have said who I did it for? Yeah, you
know about it though I told you I was doing it.

Speaker 2 (07:13):
Okay, must not have been that recent.

Speaker 1 (07:16):
It was. It was like within the last four days.

Speaker 3 (07:19):
That's not recent. I think anything beyond forty eight hours
is declared ancient history. Okay, I would say that counts.

Speaker 1 (07:31):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (07:32):
Yeah, even if.

Speaker 3 (07:33):
It's alone, you're helping somebody get something that they might
really need in the moment.

Speaker 1 (07:38):
Yeah. Who Okay, So this was from doctor phil Oveda Ovidia.
I don't know who that is either. Who is one
person in your life that deserves the greatest things? And
if you were to give them that thanks today? What
would you say?

Speaker 2 (07:53):
The greatest thanks? Do you have yours?

Speaker 1 (07:59):
My answer came very quick and it's not a good one.

Speaker 3 (08:01):
Mm yeah, mine. Mine's kind of fucked up, so is mine.

Speaker 1 (08:06):
I would thank my mom for all the abuse.

Speaker 3 (08:08):
Yeah, thanks for fucking me up so I can get
to where I am right.

Speaker 1 (08:12):
Everything that you put me through made me the man
that I am today, and I wouldn't have done it
if you were any different than you were. And I
love who I am. So even though you fucked me
up as a child and like into my adult life,
I'm grateful for it. I will never speak to you again,
so you'll never get that thank you. I like who
I am now. I don't know how to explain that
to people. That's just crazy. I am grateful for my.

Speaker 3 (08:35):
Abuse, yeah, all of it.

Speaker 1 (08:38):
Like I could not have evolved into this version of
me without all of the ugly that I've experienced in life.
It's fucking wild. Yeah, this is a level one question
from Simon Sinek. I love that dude. I don't know
who he is, A inspirational speaker, he is super fucking intelligent. Okay,

(09:00):
like he's he's like Jordan B. Peterson smart, A huge,
huge fan. Anyways, what advice did you get from someone
earlier in your career that you followed but now in
hindsight wish you hadn't and why our career is still
very early on. So let's let's do in life instead

(09:20):
of career.

Speaker 3 (09:21):
Can I can I do like adulthood advice?

Speaker 1 (09:25):
Uh have to be like, well, we said instead of career,
we could do life. So just a piece of advice.

Speaker 2 (09:32):
All men are pieces of shit.

Speaker 1 (09:34):
You followed that for a while, Yeah.

Speaker 3 (09:38):
Can't trust them, can't rely on them. If you want
something done right, you have to do it yourself. Can't
trust a man.

Speaker 1 (09:46):
I have a hard time with was because also the
advice that I was giving as I was growing up
turned me into the man that I am, Because if
I wouldn't have taken that advice and followed through that,
I wouldn't have learned the way that. So I can
say the worst piece of advice that I got was
learning how to use people to get to where I
needed to go when I was younger.

Speaker 2 (10:06):
Oh yeah, yeah.

Speaker 1 (10:09):
There's a lot of regret in that, but it was
also one of those things that I had to learn
and had I not learned that, I would have ended
up being way more manipulated growing up. All right, you
have one last piece of work to do. What is
that piece of work? And why this is seth Rogen,
I hate him.

Speaker 3 (10:27):
One last piece of work to do?

Speaker 1 (10:28):
Yea one last piece of work to do? What is it?
What is that piece of work and why?

Speaker 3 (10:34):
Like I'm about to die, this is my last.

Speaker 1 (10:37):
You have one last piece of piece of work to do.
What is that piece of work and why it's going
to be your final krim della krim piece of your life.
You're about to retire and never create whatever it is
that you create ever again, what is it going to be?

Speaker 3 (10:50):
Why? It would be a compilation of our life and
something with me maybe playing the saxophone one last time
and thank you.

Speaker 1 (11:06):
I don't know how to answer this question.

Speaker 3 (11:09):
It would it be a video. It would all be
a video.

Speaker 1 (11:11):
Yeah, yeah, that makes sense. It's actually a really good
answer when you think about it, because that would be
the final goodbye for our podcast. Right. It's crazy because
my my brain didn't go to podcast. No, Nope, I
went through like in my head that question is a
And this is why these questions matter, right, and why
they're open ended and vague, because everybody's going to have

(11:33):
a different concept of what you're talking about. For me,
it was the last thing that I do in life
that I would be remembered for. You know, you think
of the great art artists of the world that have
like the Sistine Chapel and Michael Angelo's David and all
of those things, and like, that's You're going to be
remembered for something, and it's going to be your final
thing that you do before you bow out on the world.

(11:54):
What would it be? And I don't know what I
would want to do. I would want it to be impactful,
and I would want it to be something that ties
up my legacy. But I don't know how that would
look right because I don't I know, the podcast is
going to be our legacy and it'll be here way
after we're gone, and unless we delete everything or YouTube
goes away or all the other platforms that we're on
just disappear, our legacy will continue and the podcast is

(12:17):
going to be that. So I don't know, Like I
don't know what my goodbye would be, but I would
want it to impact on an emotional level, and I
would want it to be the thing that I am
remembered most by, even more than the thousands of episodes
we've created. You know, I don't know. I would like
to get all the people that we like all of

(12:38):
the people who wrote in over the years, and all
the people that we have connected with, especially the ones
who said that we saved their life and their here
past their expiration dates, and I would want to do
something for them. I think that those lives and the
trickle down of them still being here is the biggest
change we've made. So that would be Mike Krim Dela

(13:02):
Crim all right, Gary Breca.

Speaker 2 (13:07):
I don't know who that is.

Speaker 1 (13:08):
The name is familiar, but I can't place his face.
This is some cursive ass handwriting. What is the most
controversial idea you believe that within your industry most people
disagree with. I I don't know of anything that people
disagree with. Because of our industry and the people we
talk to, I think that all the things that we
think is controversial people agree with. Yeah, because we're content creators.

(13:31):
I think the biggest controversial things are all the things
that people are doing or hurt themselves. Are other people
for content, and we know it's controversial. We disagree with,
but so does everybody else.

Speaker 3 (13:39):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (13:40):
I think.

Speaker 3 (13:42):
Mommy vlogging and family voguing of very young minor children,
like below the age of sixteen, maybe even eighteen, should
be illegal.

Speaker 1 (13:55):
Yeah, they agree, and it said exploiting your children for views.
What is the unobvious thing that you struggle with?

Speaker 3 (14:05):
What is the unobvious thing that I struggle with?

Speaker 1 (14:08):
I'm about to be real vulnerable.

Speaker 3 (14:10):
I'm gonna let you go first.

Speaker 1 (14:12):
I need a minute.

Speaker 3 (14:14):
Okay, can you read it one more time?

Speaker 1 (14:17):
What is the most what is the unobvious thing that
you struggle with?

Speaker 3 (14:22):
Okay, I have mine?

Speaker 1 (14:25):
Go ahead?

Speaker 3 (14:26):
Feeling woman enough for you?

Speaker 1 (14:29):
Can you elaborate on that? Because you're a whole lot
of women like you. You have the divine feminine thing
on lockdown.

Speaker 3 (14:38):
Yeah, all of it being sexy, confident, flirtatious, cute.

Speaker 1 (14:45):
I don't struggle with us at all. Yeah, there's not
an unobvious thing that I struggle with when it comes
to our relationship.

Speaker 3 (14:54):
Mm hmm.

Speaker 1 (14:57):
I'm sorry that that's the thing.

Speaker 3 (14:59):
It's my own.

Speaker 1 (15:00):
Have I done anything to make that a thing? Is
there anything that I can do to make that not
a thing? No?

Speaker 3 (15:06):
Maybe conversation off the podcast, Okay.

Speaker 1 (15:09):
I I am lonely. Other than you, I have no one.

Speaker 2 (15:15):
I get that.

Speaker 1 (15:17):
My closest friendship is five minute interactions with Sean when
I happen to see him dropping things off. I don't
have consistent conversations with anyone on the Internet. I get
most of my social interaction from the discord when I
have a free moment to do it. I have never
felt so disconnected from society in my fucking life. And

(15:37):
part of it's the podcast. Part of it's the lack
of internet. I'm not gaming anymore, there's.

Speaker 3 (15:41):
No community time.

Speaker 1 (15:46):
Yeah. There's also been a disconnect from friendships. The last
five years of my life, I have completely lost my
social circles. Everyone that I was super close to at
some point has either burned a bridge with me or
done something that i'vehemently disagreed with, and I've written them
out of my life, and that that speaks on my

(16:07):
integrity and like, there are limits to the things that
I'm willing to associate with people over. But I fucking
hate it. We talked about this a little bit earlier today.
I was not expecting this question to come up. Is
it ever appropriate to hurt someone's feelings? This is a
yes or no question, I think, and the answer for
me is yes.

Speaker 2 (16:25):
I'm gonna say yes, yeah.

Speaker 1 (16:27):
Yeah. If you could give one piece of advice to
yourself at the start of your life, what would it
have been?

Speaker 2 (16:34):
You have the power to make your life what you
want it to be.

Speaker 1 (16:39):
Can you elaborate on that, because I want to see
how close we are to the same answer.

Speaker 3 (16:43):
I put myself in a lot of situations that I
didn't have to be in due to people pleasing or
feeling the lack of confidence and standing my ground, and
I got into a lot of relationships because well, he's

(17:03):
not my type or we don't really have a lot
in common, but who else is going to be interested
in me? So I went through a lot in life
that I otherwise wouldn't have to go through if I
just had confidence and boundaries and healthy standards and expectations
of myself and the people around me.

Speaker 1 (17:25):
Trying to think of a way to word this eloquently,
our answer sounded the same in the beginning with your statement,
with the variance is very different. I would tell myself
that you were created by the divine Creator, and therefore
you have that in you. I didn't realize until I
was in my late thirties that everything that I have

(17:48):
ever set out to accomplish, I've accomplished. I might have
failed a few times, but everything that I've like I
want to do that, I have accomplished it. Business, you know, hobbies, tattooing,
body piercing, the podcast, vlogging, anything, Anything that I've ever
set out to do, I have done it. And it

(18:08):
took me until I was in my late thirties to
realize that I don't have to ask for help. I
don't have to to speak to a higher power to
beg for something. I don't have to beg other people
to help me get to where I'm trying to go.
That I have the ability because I believe that I
was created in the Maker, you know, the image of
my Maker, and that I can speak things into existence.
And I would have told myself that when I was

(18:29):
a kid. Fucking believe in yourself. Yeah, so much insecurity
growing up?

Speaker 3 (18:37):
Yeah, I truly hated myself growing up.

Speaker 1 (18:40):
Yeah yeah, same until I was in my like mid thirties.
There was a light switch that went off right towards
the end of my thirties that I just fucking I
was able to change my perspective on everything. And when
that light turned off, a new light came on and
I was able to change sure, change trajectory. And now

(19:03):
it's been one of those things that you know, even
with us being together, every time I've said we're going
to do something, that's happened, and there's not even a
whole lot of planning that goes into evolved being involved,
like this is what's what we're going to do, and
then it happens. But there's a belief in me knowing that,
like I'm not going to let you down, and I'm
definitely not going to let me down. Right, I have

(19:23):
a faith in myself that I didn't have before, and
I think that it took a whole lot of fucked
up life lessons to learn that, you know, to learn that,
And there's even a negative undertone to that, you know,
fuck you. I don't need anyone, right, Like I can
do this on my own, and there's a strength in that,
and it's lonely because I don't want to do this
on my own. Like I'm so grateful that you're in
my life and having you here makes me want to

(19:48):
work harder to provide those things and do those things.
And knowing that I haven't let you down, and every
time I've given you my word on something, it's followed through,
Like it makes me feel empowered even more. It's a lot,
a lot to think about.

Speaker 2 (20:01):
Before you read the next one.

Speaker 3 (20:03):
Today on the Woman's Call, Jenna hit me with everything
that I've set out to do, I've done it and
it's been successful. Like even the bathline, even though I'm
not doing anymore. It was an ended decision by me,
not by.

Speaker 1 (20:16):
Consumer, and it's been requested since.

Speaker 2 (20:19):
Yeah, that fucked me up a little bit.

Speaker 1 (20:22):
It's crazy in it.

Speaker 2 (20:23):
Yeah, it's crazy to recognize that you're powerful.

Speaker 1 (20:27):
Yeah, this is going to be sacrilege and I'm going
to say it anyways, and it's going to piss off
a lot of actual Christians. But you are God like
we are made in His image. Therefore we are bringers
of life. We have the ability to mold the environment
around us and create our existence. If that doesn't make
you a creator, I don't know it does, right. I

(20:51):
think that was part of the role of Jesus, you know,
it was to remove you from the church and the
need to fucking you know, pray to other people and
do all of those things. You are the light.

Speaker 3 (21:01):
He came down specifically as man.

Speaker 1 (21:03):
To show us, okay, so that we can ascend.

Speaker 3 (21:05):
Right, that that we can reach this level. I don't know.

Speaker 1 (21:10):
You're right for the next one. Yes, If you were
on your deathbed and could leave only one lesson behind,
what would it be? I hate all these death questions.

Speaker 3 (21:20):
Yeah, this is fucked up. You're allowed to love yourself.

Speaker 1 (21:26):
That's that's a really hard question. Who are you leaving
it to?

Speaker 3 (21:32):
Oh?

Speaker 1 (21:32):
That matters right, right, Because if you're on your deathbed
and you're somebody super famous and you can leave one
lesson lesson that's going to affect the entire world. That's
very different than leaving a note to your children or
your husband you know, or your wife. Can we skip
this this question? Yeah? Okay.

Speaker 3 (21:49):
Uh.

Speaker 1 (21:49):
If you could say only one thing to a family
member you've lost, who would it be? What would you say?
And why? I got nothing I I have, I have
disc I don't have family members anymore. I have disconnected
myself from every blood relative I have. But I have
best friends. I have three friends specifically that I lost.

(22:11):
What would you say and why? Who would it be?
What would you say and why? That's hard to pick
between three people. I think I would. I would say
my friend Dave, who died of a drug overdose. I'm

(22:32):
sorry I wasn't there.

Speaker 3 (22:35):
Deep breath. I'm gonna get you a tissue that was hard.
I'm proud of you for doing it, though You're right
for the next one.

Speaker 1 (22:45):
Can you describe what winning means to you?

Speaker 3 (22:50):
Accomplishments, satisfaction, doing things like taking the kids to a
fort for the day and then walking along.

Speaker 1 (23:00):
For me, it means not quitting. I think that's the
easy way out for a whole lot of things. Yeah,
somethings are pretty hard. Do uncomfortable situations bring the best
or worst out of you?

Speaker 2 (23:13):
It depends on the awkward situation.

Speaker 1 (23:14):
I agree. That was actually going to be my answer.
Uncomfortable not awkward.

Speaker 2 (23:18):
I mean uncomfortable, right, It depends.

Speaker 1 (23:20):
It depends on the situation.

Speaker 3 (23:21):
Like if there's like an like I'm meeting somebody for
the first time and there's like awkward tension, I thrive
in that shit.

Speaker 1 (23:28):
I don't. It's the exact opposite for me. When there's
chaos and there's things that got to be done, I
thrive in that, like I can like ADHD superpower in
an emergency. Yeah, but when it comes to like meeting
people for the first time, there's that awkward like do
I shake their hand? Like I don't know this person,
I don't know their energy. Do I really want them
to touch me?

Speaker 3 (23:48):
Like?

Speaker 1 (23:49):
I struggle hard with that.

Speaker 3 (23:51):
Yeah, I have a hard time with Like if I
were in an uncomfortable conversation, uncomfortable situation, like at a
gas station with a man, I'm more likely to like
start stuttering and like shaking and panicking and shit, is

(24:12):
this a bad one?

Speaker 1 (24:12):
This is? I think this could be a fun one.
If you could only speak with slash call slash C
slash touch four people for the next four years, who
would they be?

Speaker 3 (24:23):
You? The children? Is ivy? A person? Does that count?

Speaker 1 (24:29):
Is not a person?

Speaker 3 (24:30):
She g it's just free touches, all right? I can
only touch one more person? Am I going to touch?

Speaker 2 (24:36):
Do you have four people?

Speaker 1 (24:37):
I don't think I do, because touches in there. Yeah.
If touch wasn't in there, if it was just speak
call C that I can find four people. I don't
want four people on the planet touching me. I am
very big on other people's energy transferring to me, and
I don't want people touching me like I'm if I

(24:58):
know you or like I feel comfortable with you, I'm good,
But like people out in public that try to shake
my hand and shit like I don't want you to
touch me, Like I have to be very close to
you to like be okay or like feel good around
your energy for that to be a thing, and that
that's a new development that's moving within like the last
three weeks.

Speaker 2 (25:13):
Yeah that sounds new.

Speaker 1 (25:14):
Yeah, there's an energy transfer that happens. And like it's
one thing to get like a vibe from somebody and
feel uncomfortable. It's another to to have somebody make you
feel uncomfortable and have to shake their hand and be polite.
Like I'm not doing that anymore. I used to be
one of those people too that like I was cool
and not shaking somebody's hand, but it was a respect thing.
Like if somebody stuck their hand out, I'd be like,

(25:35):
I don't know you, and well, I'm not shaking your hand.
I don't know you. That's a sign of respect. And
because I don't know you, I can't shake your hand.
That was a thing for a long fucking time. Yeah,
a handshake meant a lot to me. But I think
that I've gotten a lot better about reading the room
and the people that are there, and if somebody makes
me feel uncomfortable, I'm just not gonna fuck with them, Like,
I don't care who they are at this point. It

(25:56):
would be you, Sean. I would really like to have
my cousin Joe back in my life, so I would
say him, but I know that that's not an option.
And I'll say the kids, but as a unit, not
as two, okay, because they are around the same age
and they're constantly together an upper ass, So okay, one
person's that's a hard one because of the touch thing. Yeah,

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what scares you the most today?

Speaker 2 (26:24):
What scares me in the most today?

Speaker 1 (26:27):
What has scared you the most today? How about that?

Speaker 3 (26:34):
I don't want to do this one?

Speaker 1 (26:36):
Will you tell me later.

Speaker 3 (26:38):
I tripped over something. I thought I was gonna faceplant
the concrete and I got scared.

Speaker 1 (26:42):
That was me on Monday when I almost passed out
on the porch.

Speaker 3 (26:46):
You know, like that heart skip and like the stomach
drop and you're.

Speaker 1 (26:48):
Like tunnel vision. Yeah, everything went black and had my
body not naturally grabbed onto that door, i'd ate shit
right there and I had ended up pinioning all that aluminum,
like I'd have fucked myself up had I fallen. I
think AI is the thing that has scared me the
most today.

Speaker 3 (27:01):
Fuck AI terrifying, terrifying. There are things now where like
I'm really having to pay attention to the details just
to tell if it's real life or AI. Yeah, absolutely insane.

Speaker 1 (27:19):
Falling as an adult is a huge reality check. Yes
it is. Yes, it fucking is because gigantas my body
is fucked already, that fall would not do good for me.
All right, here's here's one that is kind of morbid.
But it's by Neil deGrasse Tyson.

Speaker 3 (27:35):
Okay, word, I love him.

Speaker 1 (27:36):
What do you want on your tombstone to read about you?

Speaker 3 (27:41):
Do we have like a word limit?

Speaker 1 (27:42):
I mean, it depends on how big your tombstone is.

Speaker 3 (27:46):
I'm gonna cheat the question. I'm gonna have my tombstone.
But on my tombstone there's gonna be like a binder attached,
and in that binder is going to be a collection
of like our love letters and like the kids drawings.

Speaker 1 (28:01):
That's cheating, pictures of us on vacation. It's cheating. I disagree,
that's cheating.

Speaker 3 (28:08):
He's not here to say that's cheating, and I feel
like that's acceptable.

Speaker 1 (28:11):
Well, that's photos. It's not being read about you.

Speaker 3 (28:16):
What if I did in Braille. That's a really heavy question.
I don't think I can I can give you an
answer real quick off of that.

Speaker 1 (28:25):
I hope the change and enjoy that I brought to
the world last way longer than I did. Oh, what
did you learn from your greatest failure?

Speaker 2 (28:38):
That I'm not a piece of shit?

Speaker 3 (28:40):
And that I do have value?

Speaker 1 (28:44):
That no one has your best interest in their heart.
Where were you when you felt the most vulnerable? And why?

Speaker 2 (28:52):
Okay, so two things can in mind.

Speaker 3 (28:55):
I don't know if the first one counts because it's
like physically vulnerable. So first one, like I said, is
physically vulnerable, and it's when I had to be cut
open for c sections. And then when we got married.

Speaker 1 (29:12):
You felt vulnerable when we got married, Yeah, like.

Speaker 3 (29:15):
Very vulnerable and open and like our souls were melding.

Speaker 1 (29:20):
It's not vulnerability.

Speaker 3 (29:21):
Okay, then, elaborate scientists.

Speaker 1 (29:24):
That's openness. Okay, that's closeness. There's no vulnerability there. Stop that.

Speaker 2 (29:30):
Okay, So what.

Speaker 3 (29:32):
Are we meaning by vulnerability admitting something hard?

Speaker 1 (29:38):
Well, it took vulnerable as like a moment of weakness,
like you're not safe. I'll read the definition of all
because I'm not learned very well susceptible to physical or
emotional attack or harm, in need of special care, support
or protection because of age, disability, or risk of abuse neglect.

Speaker 2 (29:59):
Oh damn. Okay, so stands have a target.

Speaker 3 (30:03):
I was working for a soda company and I came
across this homeless guy and I was trying to be
nice and I bought him lunch. And I can't remember
how it transpired, but like, I was at the target
and he ended up at the target as well, and
he gave me a hug and started whispering shit in

(30:24):
my ear, like about how sexy I was and stuff
and trying to group me. Yeah.

Speaker 1 (30:30):
Mine was the first time I got stabbed.

Speaker 3 (30:32):
Terrifying.

Speaker 1 (30:33):
Yeah, all right, what makes you the most angry about society?

Speaker 3 (30:38):
That there are people out there having children that are
being starved to death, being left at home by themselves
for hours or days on end. There are children being
left at home. Why mothers go on vacations for days,
children living in tents because their parents are drug addicts.

(31:02):
YouTube families that neglect and torture their children if they
don't behave properly in videos. Yeah, I think all of that,
the treatment towards children, and the fact that anybody can
just reproduce sickens me.

Speaker 1 (31:17):
Mine is the hive mind mentality without the hive mind feeling.
And I can explain that with you realize how connected
we are when when you're in the medicine, Yeah, and like,
we are all fucking connected, but we don't feel connected.
And people hive mind and follow follow herds and don't

(31:39):
think for themselves, and like, I would rather have the
hive emotion than the hive mind.

Speaker 3 (31:43):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (31:44):
I think that we would have a whole lot more
love and happiness in the world if if people realize
that we are all connected like that, it changes so
many things.

Speaker 2 (31:53):
I agree.

Speaker 3 (31:54):
I agree.

Speaker 1 (31:55):
Who was the person who first believed in you?

Speaker 3 (32:00):
Who was the person that first believed in me? I
can't remember the first time someone ever said that to me.

Speaker 1 (32:06):
I have said that to you? No, I know you have, Okay,
So if you can't remember anyone else me, I'm the answer.
I'm actually say for me, it's me.

Speaker 2 (32:17):
Yeah, damn, I love that.

Speaker 1 (32:21):
What would you do if you absolutely weren't afraid?

Speaker 3 (32:25):
What would I do if I weren't absolutely afraid? I
do everything even though I'm absolutely afraid.

Speaker 1 (32:30):
You really do a whole lot of there's not been
anything that you've chickened out from yet. Yeah, you almost
chickened out from the lighthouse I did.

Speaker 3 (32:39):
That was terrifying. But you were like two levels above
me and you just walked away. So I was like, Okay,
I gotta go.

Speaker 1 (32:46):
You also crossed that fucking the largest bridge, largest swinging
bridge in Costa Rica, in the dark.

Speaker 3 (32:51):
I did. I think it was easier in the dark
because I couldn't see anything but my little strip of
walking bath. A couple of times my bracelet got stuck
and I was like, this is it?

Speaker 1 (33:01):
Grazy, Ella said sing on the podcast.

Speaker 3 (33:05):
Sing on you bitch. She found the thing.

Speaker 1 (33:12):
That's funny.

Speaker 2 (33:14):
That's it.

Speaker 1 (33:14):
That's the one Jenny said, quit my job, pack up
all my shit and move, kids and move. That's a
really hard question. I think fear stops a lot of
people from ever accomplishing their goals. I think the fear
of not like, not reaching success is one of those
things that hold holds people back. I did I beat

(33:37):
my greatest fear by being here? K Yeah, So I
at this point, there's not a whole lot that I'm
too afraid of. When you were sitting on a road
that's in the middle of nowhere with no houses, that's
got grass growing up through the concrete that has barely
ever used, and you're sitting in your car with your

(33:59):
gun in your hand, and you are debating on whether
or not you want to go home, because it would
be easier to end everything than it would be to
wake up tomorrow morning and continue living the life that
you're living. And you decide to not do that and
to start making the changes necessary to get out of
the situation that you were in, regardless of the cost
and the risk of it. In my situation, that was

(34:23):
my greatest fear because I was I didn't think I
was going to make it out of that situation. So
I don't have the greatest fear anymore.

Speaker 3 (34:32):
Yeah, you know what, You're right. Yeah, leaving my first
marriage was pretty fucking scary.

Speaker 1 (34:38):
Yeah, the fear of the unknown is what gets a
lot of people. Yeah, what is your selfish dream?

Speaker 2 (34:45):
Oh?

Speaker 3 (34:45):
What is my selfish dream?

Speaker 1 (34:49):
Mine is so fucking stupid. I want to play guitar
and sing around a fire with our friends, like every
every eighties montage movie where you see a fire pit
on the beach with a bunch of people hanging out
and like swaying singing and some dudes playing the guitar
and like rocking that shit like that is the dream
that I've always wanted to do. But I can't play

(35:09):
guitar and there's no way I'm singing in front of
people like that.

Speaker 3 (35:12):
Why is that a selfish dream?

Speaker 1 (35:14):
Because I don't want to do it for other people.
I want to do it for me. That is pure.

Speaker 3 (35:19):
Yeah, so you can be like the I just want
that's it.

Speaker 1 (35:23):
I want to experience that moment.

Speaker 3 (35:25):
It's a nice moment.

Speaker 1 (35:26):
It would be would be pretty cool.

Speaker 3 (35:27):
I mean, I've never played the guitar, but in playing
the saxophone like it, it's dope. Mine is Oh golly,
a selfish dream. I want a bird, I want a macaw.

Speaker 1 (35:45):
Yeah, that's funny.

Speaker 3 (35:46):
That's it. That's my selfish dream.

Speaker 1 (35:48):
Ghosty asked if we'll ever hear you play the saxophone.
She actually played it on the podcast.

Speaker 3 (35:52):
I have played it on the podcast.

Speaker 1 (35:54):
Hotel California specifically, what do you mean that's the song?

Speaker 3 (35:59):
What about?

Speaker 1 (36:00):
That's the song that I would want to sing and
play on. Oh and I would want to like be
able to play the entire song, and I want to
be able to beat on the guitar like in the
moments that I'm not playing, like I have a whole
thing in my head. But I would have to sit
down and learn every chord and practice for hours upon
hours to do that, And then I would have to
get so good with the muscle memory of just playing
it that I could then sing on top of it.

(36:22):
I just I'm not that coordinated.

Speaker 3 (36:25):
I'm not doing I'm not you are.

Speaker 1 (36:29):
I can't even play the drum and not think about
what I'm doing like I have to in my head.
Go but dunt, dunt, dunt, like while I'm playing, and
the moment that I fucked it up, it goes to shit.
There's no way I'd be able to sing and play
the guitar or sing and play the drum at the
same time. It's just no way.

Speaker 3 (36:42):
You need to let go.

Speaker 1 (36:43):
And do what just make a whole bunch of mistake.

Speaker 3 (36:47):
Yeah, exactly that. Don't move on to the next card.
I'm not done talking to you. I have seen you
maintain a rhythm.

Speaker 1 (36:55):
Yeah, but it's not like beating on my belly. It's
not the same thing.

Speaker 3 (37:00):
The fuck it isn't.

Speaker 1 (37:04):
Yeah, it's just not the same thing. I honestly, I
think that in order for me to learn the drum,
I would either have to go and take drum lessons
or guitar lessons, and I would have to do it
with somebody that doesn't enough that like I can be
encouraged and engrossed in that. It's no different than learning
another language. To me, Yeah, I have to be immersed
in it to do it. Because that drum has been
sitting ony through my desk since I bought it. I've

(37:24):
played it like three times and it's been for like
four minutes.

Speaker 3 (37:27):
Yeah, So I think you need to take a note
from Natasha Benningfield, I don't know who it is, and
release your inhibitions. Feel the right, yes, no one knows.

Speaker 1 (37:39):
Feel you're gonna actually sing? Oh no, I'm not okay.
What are what are you missing in life? What are
you missing most in your life? What are you missing
most in your life? A billion dollars with a B,
not an M. That's what I'm missing most. I need
all the.

Speaker 3 (37:58):
Money waking up to right now and howler monkeys.

Speaker 1 (38:01):
Well, if we had a billion dollars, that would be easy.

Speaker 3 (38:03):
Right, So like it coincides rights.

Speaker 1 (38:06):
Just need the money. Everything else will fall into place
commune in another country. Fucking dude. Just need the money, babe,
sold We have everything else in life. What is your
biggest regret and if you could go back, and what
would you different? I'm not reading that I don't have regrets.
I have life lessons that made me who I am.

Speaker 3 (38:26):
So you no regrets?

Speaker 1 (38:28):
How will you control your own greed?

Speaker 3 (38:31):
How will I control my own greed?

Speaker 1 (38:34):
Well?

Speaker 3 (38:35):
I do control my own greed, and it is by
recognizing material items don't matter. My greed comes in forms
of feeling the wind in my hair, washing my feet
off with the hose.

Speaker 1 (38:51):
Can you elaborate on how that feels your greed?

Speaker 3 (38:54):
Because if I was greedy for other things like designer
purses and clothing and big houses and fancy cars and.

Speaker 1 (39:03):
A yacht, what about my time?

Speaker 3 (39:05):
What do you mean your time? Am I greedy for
your time?

Speaker 1 (39:10):
Right? It's not a bad thing. It's not a bad thing. There.
I actually don't think greed is a bad thing. I
understand that it's very frowned upon because it makes people
very evil and it makes people do really gross things,
and that's where the control comes in. But greed makes
you work, that greed makes you do things for other

(39:31):
people because you might get something out of it, and
that could be a selfishness, that could be a whole
lot ugly me doing anything that I do for somebody else,
I do because it makes me feel good. That's it.
I don't expect anything from it other than the dopamine
hit that makes me feel good. So there's a greed
in that I do the things that I do for
other people. It makes me feel good. Yeah, But there's

(39:52):
a check that goes into that, and the check in
that is knowing that at some point for me, at
some point, there is a point of diminishing returns where
the things that I do or the things that I
covet can no longer be as good. If you have
something all the time, you take it for granted, like

(40:14):
if you live on the beach, or if we lived
in Costa Rica and there were howl are monkeys and
rain every morning. After ten years of that, you'd be like,
I wish those monkeys would shut the fuck up and
it would stop raining for five minutes, because that would
be our life all the time. So I think that
the checks and balances have to be there to make
greed not get out of control.

Speaker 3 (40:33):
The duality of it. Yeah, yep, that was a good perspective.
I like that. My mind didn't go to that.

Speaker 1 (40:39):
No, my mind went there because it's I think that
everybody gets to the point where they start taking the
things they have for granted. I keep seeing things pop
up on my social media feeds that was like, do
you remember when all you wanted was what you have
right now? And I do. I do remember that, and
it helps me not take the moments that I have

(41:00):
now for granted. It really like grounds me in the
moment and it gives me moments to be grateful, because
otherwise you do take things for granted. Yeah, what was
the most valuable lesson you've learned in the last year
and why?

Speaker 3 (41:15):
What is the most valuable lesson that I've learned? The
power that I carry within myself and the connection that
I have to nature.

Speaker 1 (41:22):
That's definitely one of them for me too. But that's
not where my brain went right away, and I don't
want to change my answer. Mine was that people will
always do it's best for them.

Speaker 3 (41:30):
Oh yeah, that's a good one too.

Speaker 1 (41:32):
And you can't take it personal, even if what they
do harms you or feels like a major fuck you
to you. It's not It's that they were doing what
was what they felt best for them in the moment,
and you were not a factor in that. What lesson
have you learned from the lowest point? And is there
anything about it that you're grateful for? We're almost done

(41:54):
with these I have another deck though, Yeah, so we
can do this again. I'm gonna end a brigourage you
tating an answer here.

Speaker 3 (42:02):
You go.

Speaker 1 (42:02):
First, being on that road in my car was the
lowest point. And what I learned from it and what
I'm grateful for is the fact that I am I'm here,
and that I'm unstoppable. I have an air of confidence
about me now that I didn't have before that night.

(42:24):
Yeah good, there's a whole lot of watch me, motherfucker
like it's it's it's borderline arrogant. It's bad. Like I've
always had a stick like you know, a chip on
my shoulder, a stick up my ass, or probably want
to word that when it's come to like somebody tell
me I couldn't do something. It's so much worse now,
it's so much fucking worse because I've been in the

(42:46):
darkest like I've been at the lowest you can fucking get,
and I'm here, so I am grateful for that.

Speaker 3 (42:52):
I don't think that's a bad trait in you.

Speaker 1 (42:55):
No, I don't think it is either. I think that
it could be. Yeah, but I think I keep that be.

Speaker 3 (43:01):
I think it comes across as confidence, and I think
that's sexy.

Speaker 1 (43:04):
Yeah, yeah, she called me sexy.

Speaker 3 (43:11):
I would say that My answer is my lowest point
would be the times that I did not have my children,
the times that they were with their biological dad. I
was crashing by the grace of others, and I would
wake up in the morning. I wasn't working, I had

(43:33):
a beat up like nineteen ninety five super Room. It
was a stick shift, and I would wake up eight o'clock,
nine o'clock in the morning, and I would calculate how
much time I would have until I have to leave
the house, or if I didn't have to leave the house,
and I would start drinking. I would say that was
my lowest point, and in that lowest point, I learned
that I was a waste of a human being.

Speaker 1 (43:58):
Looks like some people have lost us. We are still here.
Maybe you guys need to leave discord and come back
in You're ready for the next one. Yeah, what is
your What is a personal legacy you want to leave
for yourself? Slash children?

Speaker 3 (44:14):
I feel like we've touched on those, I do.

Speaker 1 (44:17):
Wow, what is your favorite sound? I know mine? What
is it? It's the sound of your thighs slapping when
you bounce off the bed.

Speaker 3 (44:31):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (44:32):
Yeah, I was.

Speaker 3 (44:36):
Gonna say your heart beat. Oh but I also like
it when you call me a cun.

Speaker 1 (44:46):
Oh no, oh man, next, I have a lot of
favorite sound.

Speaker 3 (44:54):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (44:56):
Your sigh, like the release positive side that you do
does it for my brain? Yeah? Yeah, first time I
heard that, it like shots chills down my back. Yeah.

Speaker 2 (45:07):
I've been trying to increase that.

Speaker 1 (45:09):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (45:10):
Yeah, I feel kind of weird doing it, like in
the middle of a silence and I just sigh. Yeah,
but it's like it's an expel of energy for me.

Speaker 1 (45:16):
Well, when I know when you just sigh, like if
you're like yeah, I can't tell if it's a good
SiGe or not. When I can tell it's a good
side because you're just pushing energy around, You're like, Okay,
she's not having a bad day. Like I don't have
to inquisite, like.

Speaker 2 (45:28):
So I can just make sounds and noises.

Speaker 1 (45:29):
Now you don't give a shit. Hell yeah, ripped to
all of us on buffering. I'm sorry you guys are buffering.
I don't know what to tell.

Speaker 3 (45:39):
Oh damn.

Speaker 1 (45:41):
What has been the most happiest moment of your life?

Speaker 3 (45:46):
Uh?

Speaker 1 (45:46):
Brought you the most joy? And why?

Speaker 3 (45:49):
It would be us getting married and then giving birth
to the children.

Speaker 1 (45:52):
Yeah, in that order.

Speaker 2 (45:54):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (45:55):
Wow, to me, we were already married before we married. Yeah,
so I can't I'm not going to use the marriage thing.
I'm gonna say it was you moving in oh man.

Speaker 3 (46:08):
Yeah.

Speaker 2 (46:10):
Oh, I was so nervous.

Speaker 1 (46:11):
It was such a life change for me.

Speaker 3 (46:13):
Yeah, I'm going to be honest. I was really worried
that you were going to kick us out. It was
too much.

Speaker 2 (46:20):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (46:21):
What is your deepest fear?

Speaker 2 (46:23):
My deepest fear waking up and this was just a.

Speaker 1 (46:27):
Video game, a video game like like like a simulation.

Speaker 3 (46:32):
Yeah, I get out of this and I'm a completely
different person, living a different life.

Speaker 1 (46:41):
Mine is having to wake up without you.

Speaker 3 (46:44):
Yeah. I think about that a lot.

Speaker 1 (46:49):
What is it inadequacy you admit to that you could
work on starting tomorrow, dropping the.

Speaker 3 (46:57):
Ball to maintaining us when I'm going through mental.

Speaker 1 (46:59):
Things You've admitted that already.

Speaker 3 (47:03):
Does that not count? So I need to find a
new thing.

Speaker 1 (47:06):
I don't have nothing for this because I have. I
have hit you with every flaw that I am currently
aware of, and I'm working on them. That's the whole
point of the podcast. That's why we do what we do.
I'm sure that something will eventually come up. The most
recent thing was the garden situation, the little thing that
we had, because I need to understand things like that's

(47:28):
a flaw, Like I can't just take somebody for the word.
I need to understand. It's not enough to just be
like they got it, you know what I mean. That's
something that speaks on maybe trust or it could be autism.
I don't know, but I have to understand how things
work in order to feel comfortable in accepting it. That
was the most recent, but that wasn't something that I

(47:49):
was even aware of until you know, four days ago.
We have three left, a level three and two level twos.
I'm not reading that one. We've answered that one and
like four different variants two left. Tell me something you
have never told anyone before? What do you I don't
think about it like that's that's a real vulnerable moment,

(48:10):
like if you haven't told somebody something, there's a reason
for it.

Speaker 2 (48:14):
How fucked up to we want to get with this?

Speaker 1 (48:17):
I don't know. This is gonna be a hard one
for me. Yeah, because I don't have a whole lot
of shame. I think that when you don't tell somebody something,
it's it's fear, shame, judgment, It's it's because you feel
like there's going to be an attack of some sort
against your character. And all of my flaws and shortcomings
and all the things that I've had to work through

(48:37):
our strong suits now, So like, I don't have that.
I honestly don't think that there's anything that I've never
like I've totally kept secret. I think that I've told
at least somebody something everything.

Speaker 3 (48:48):
Yeah, I can't think of anything.

Speaker 1 (48:51):
All right, let's skip it. Last one. When was the
last time you've cried of happiness? Really for you?

Speaker 3 (49:01):
Yeah?

Speaker 1 (49:02):
Yesterday?

Speaker 3 (49:03):
No?

Speaker 1 (49:03):
Or today? I remember you telling me what it was.

Speaker 3 (49:07):
Do you really want to know?

Speaker 1 (49:09):
I'm pretty sure I do know. I can't remember. I
can't remember if it was today or yesterday, but you
were in the bathroom. Was that yesterday or today?

Speaker 3 (49:19):
Honestly every day. But it's different reasons. So what what
reason do you remember?

Speaker 1 (49:26):
Because you said you were like, it's so fucking stupid.
I just cried because of how much I love you.
Was that yesterday or.

Speaker 3 (49:32):
I think that was yesterday. I cried today.

Speaker 1 (49:37):
From happiness.

Speaker 3 (49:38):
Yeah, from happiness. Okay, I'm trying to find a delicate
way to phrase it. After you made my thigh clap
and uh is that on the toilet? Listen to the

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Titanic song.

Speaker 1 (50:00):
You have to explain that, oh, this is gonna get
so gross. Guys.

Speaker 3 (50:11):
All right, guys, we can't look at each other when
I say this. Everyone look away. So when I'm waiting
for the I'm just gonna fucking say it. When I'm
waiting for the seamen to drop out of my vagina,

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my mind goes, dude.

Speaker 4 (50:34):
Do do That's the whole Titanic moment, because just like
the Titanic.

Speaker 3 (50:47):
They didn't make it and they're going down. So that
is a thing every time after my husband I have sex. Yeah,
and I sat in the bathroom and I cried because.

Speaker 1 (51:07):
Jenna said they're all drowning. Yeah, you said they all
went down and didn't make it. Ye, chat's going nuts.

Speaker 3 (51:16):
But yeah, I cried because you still make me feel
pretty and beautiful and I have a hard time with
that sometimes.

Speaker 1 (51:22):
Yeah. I don't remember the last time I cried out
of happiness. I think it was in ceremony. Yeah, it
probably was at ceremony. I've cried a lot over the
last seventy two hours. Yeah, but it's been it's been
a lot of a lot of ugly cry ugly things.
It's not been from a joy perspective. I've worked through
a lot in the last seventy two hours.

Speaker 3 (51:43):
A lot of purging happening.

Speaker 1 (51:45):
Yeah, that failure thing hit me yesterday really hard, and
it fucked up my whole mental Like, I was so
good until yesterday morning, and it just went downhill from there.
I think the gratitude that I got in the first
ceremony that we went to that I was still here
was probably the last time that I cried from happiness.
Before that, I can't remember. For crying from happiness, I

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might have been like six or seven. First time I
rode a dirt bike or.

Speaker 3 (52:09):
Something, exchanging our vowels, that was a love moment. Fuck you,
that's a happy moment. Don't don't no, no technicalities here. Okay,
so if you can, if you can change that up,
I want my binder on my tombstone.

Speaker 1 (52:27):
That was that was a love thing. That was That
was me being fulfilled and knowing that I'm not going
to be alone for the rest of my life. That
was knowing that I have somebody that is fucking here
for me. That there was so much more than like,
that's not happiness. You can't call it happiness, you call
it joy. It's not the same thing.

Speaker 3 (52:41):
So you're elevating it. Oh that makes me Yeah, okay,
I'll still I'll still forego my binder.

Speaker 1 (52:47):
Yeah you can. You can have a binder on your tooms.
But if you want, I think somebody in the chat
set of QR code earlier would be way better. Yeah,
because that can be digitally printed. You can go to
our you know, the podcast.

Speaker 3 (52:57):
Oh it's true. That's a good idea. I'm hungry.

Speaker 1 (53:02):
Well, we can wrap up, moving on for an hour,
sticking around this was this is fun stuff. This is
I enjoy doing non non podcast content. And I don't
know how any of this is gonna get clipped and
actually used because none of these are long answers. But
it's a whole lot of short form content, and some
of it's feel good. I just have to be very
selective on what gets posted, Like you know, I'll have

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to go through and delete ship that I don't want
on the Internet. Internet.

Speaker 3 (53:27):
I want to and watch TV.

Speaker 1 (53:29):
I don't. There's we are so fucking binge TV out
at this point that like, I don't know what to watch.

Speaker 3 (53:35):
We can watch The Asylum American Horse.

Speaker 1 (53:38):
I don't like the American horror story movies or shows.
That's just not That's not not good for me. What
do you mean we didn't agree to that. I've watched
two of them, and both of them were It felt
like a waste of time to me. I don't enjoy
horror movies. I just or horror shows like thriller is
not fun for me. I get that psychological thrillers like

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did you ever watch that movie with Edward Norton when
he was a young man? It was way before he
was the dude from Fight Club. I am Jack's wasted life.
He was not Brad Pitt. He was the other guy
in fight Club.

Speaker 3 (54:14):
Oh, the guy who was crazy right? Okay.

Speaker 1 (54:17):
He also played the Incredible Hulk in one of the
Incredible halk movies. But he was in a movie called
Prime Prime Evil, and he he had split personality or
created a fake personality. It had Richard Greer in it,
where he was a stuttering kid that ended up killing
a priest who raped him, and like through the entire
movie he's a stuttering, broken person and then when Richard
Greer realizes what's happened, he turns it off and like

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shows his true colors of who he is and why
he did what he did. And it was fucking like amazing.
That was a great performance, that kind of psychological thriller.
I'm fucking here for it. But like just stupid murder shows,
Like it's a waste of TV time to me.

Speaker 3 (54:56):
Yeah, yeah, I hate that we don't have any more
of The Handmaid's Tale.

Speaker 1 (55:02):
Yeah, we flew through that.

Speaker 3 (55:03):
We really didn't.

Speaker 1 (55:04):
Shutter Island was so good. Fuck that movie. We were
like three minutes in. She's like, he's crazy, isn't he.
I'm like, you fucking bitch, Like I was so excited
to watch this movie with you, and you weren't gonna
get it. You got it so quick.

Speaker 3 (55:15):
I was like, they're staging the whole thing for him,
aren't they?

Speaker 1 (55:17):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (55:18):
Yeah, he's like, how did you know?

Speaker 1 (55:20):
Yep?

Speaker 3 (55:21):
Yeah, he didn't believe me that I just guessed it.

Speaker 1 (55:24):
Yeah, well, you don't ever guess TV shows like I do, ever,
and like that was not like I do. I call
shit as soon as it happens, Like I am Johnny
on the spot with that shit, and I thought you
would not gonna get that show.

Speaker 3 (55:36):
Oh well, now I really need to pay attention to
what we're watching. I feel like my talents are going unnoticed.

Speaker 1 (55:42):
Yeah, okay, I'm not saying they're going unnoticed. You definitely
call shit.

Speaker 3 (55:47):
I'm joking.

Speaker 1 (55:47):
I'm just saying that I'm better at it, and I'm
not joking. I do think I'm better at calling the
shows than we are.

Speaker 3 (55:56):
All Right, so we're gonna have a little contest.

Speaker 1 (55:59):
Yeah, gotta find shit that neither of want us to
watch though, Right, you have admitted how good I am
at that it happened today, Like yeah.

Speaker 3 (56:10):
Right, no, because I love you and like every time
you do, like, hell, yeah, hype it up, babe?

Speaker 1 (56:16):
Okay, is that what it is?

Speaker 3 (56:19):
We would you rather me not say anything?

Speaker 1 (56:21):
Well, I mean I would rather you be honest.

Speaker 3 (56:24):
I am being honest.

Speaker 1 (56:27):
Uh huh. I don't believe that now. Now I think
you're just hyping me up to make me feel good.
No fun anymore.

Speaker 3 (56:34):
Take it back.

Speaker 1 (56:36):
Why would you do this because this is fun for me?

Speaker 3 (56:41):
Is this the psychological thrillers you were talking about?

Speaker 1 (56:43):
No, but it works, that works, oh man, take it back. Okay, no,
thank you. Mobland was really good. I love through that.

Speaker 3 (57:01):
That show is crazy.

Speaker 1 (57:02):
Yeah. Yeah, it's been renewed for season two. Good we finished.
We watched that Sandman show or whatever it's called on
Netflix that just ended the second season. I guess it's
only six episodes, and they broke season two into two seasons,
and we flew through those six episodes today. I actually
really enjoy that show. Yeah, yeah, because it's not just

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about one character. Like, there's a whole world that's built
inside of that show.

Speaker 2 (57:28):
But that's something not to start over.

Speaker 3 (57:31):
I got into that show the episode where I don't know,
somebody got a dude to be in immortal and report
back to him what it was like to continue living life.

Speaker 1 (57:42):
I remember that that was the one where he kept going.
They kept meeting at the same bar.

Speaker 3 (57:46):
Yeah. Yeah, every like one hundred years or every three
hundred years, something like that.

Speaker 1 (57:50):
Yep. I think it was every hundred years.

Speaker 3 (57:52):
The cycle of life that that he went through. He
was rich and had all this money and then he
was poor begging.

Speaker 1 (57:58):
Yep, and the guy was like, all right, are you
ready did die yet? And he's like, no, absolutely not. Yeah,
even though he was fucking suffering at the time.

Speaker 3 (58:04):
Oh gosh, losing family members, losing love crazy. Oh we
binged Black.

Speaker 1 (58:12):
Mirror, Yeah, yes we did.

Speaker 2 (58:17):
We just rebinged Fallout.

Speaker 1 (58:21):
Yeah.

Speaker 3 (58:22):
I enjoyed that show. I actually paid attention this time.

Speaker 1 (58:24):
Season two comes out next month. Oh good, Yeah, I
think it might be September. I think it's next month,
but it might be September.

Speaker 3 (58:30):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (58:32):
Outlander was too slutty, Jenna said, because Outlander had been
mentioned a couple times in chat. I actually didn't enjoy Outlander.
I tried to watch it, like the first season of
it or whatever. It just it wasn't a thing. Ring
of Power wasn't bad. We watched that. Lucifer was fun.
We watched Lucifer. I don't think we watched Warrior none

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the Boys. I we did. We didn't finish season five
or whatever the season was before the last one. We
didn't finish it.

Speaker 3 (59:02):
It got weird for me.

Speaker 1 (59:03):
I mean it was inappropriate the entire time, but the show,
the show became what can we do to one up
everything that we've done? And then it got and then
it got really political, and I'm done with that, Harley
said jen V. The spinoff is pretty good? Was it?
Because we didn't make it past the first episode?

Speaker 3 (59:22):
Yeah, we watched like the first five minutes.

Speaker 1 (59:24):
Watching a thirteen or twelve year old girl go to
the bathroom and watch her panties hit her ankles, only
to learn she was on her period. It's not fucking
appropriate television.

Speaker 3 (59:32):
Yeah.

Speaker 1 (59:33):
So you guys, when you watch TV shows like that
and you see miners having sex or suggested sex scenes,
you were watching child pornography and watching a minor take
her underwear off and show her period and you get
to see all of that. That's child pornography. In my opinion,
I have a huge fucking problem with that. We finished

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land Man, that was really good too.

Speaker 3 (59:57):
I like that one. Yeah, we can start Game of
Thrones again.

Speaker 1 (01:00:02):
I have read those books multiple times and I've watched
that show so many times that like, I am over
the Game of Throne things. I will I will sit
down and watch it with you, Like, if you wanted
to binge watch that again, I would not be opposed
to it, but like, I'm not going to enjoy it
the way that I used to. Okay, knowing that Martin's
not going to finish that book series was a huge
letdown for me, and like that was one of my
huge nerdoms, like crazy obsessed. Yeah, crazy obsessed, Like I

(01:00:27):
was on forums at two three o'clock in the morning
interacting with other nerds over fan fiction, Like I was
a fucking nerd over Game of Thrones. It was bad.

Speaker 3 (01:00:36):
I love that.

Speaker 1 (01:00:37):
It was bad.

Speaker 3 (01:00:38):
I love it.

Speaker 1 (01:00:40):
You wanna wrap up?

Speaker 3 (01:00:41):
Yeah, I would like to get something neat.

Speaker 1 (01:00:43):
Okay. With that being said, guys, thanks for hanging out
with us this evening. There's a possibility that we might
go live tomorrow or Friday. The goal is to try
to get as much content this week as we can
because we have the kids next week and then we're
going out of town next weekend for ceremonies, so next
week will be a slow week for so you might
get episodes throughout the day, So look for the at everyone,
make sure your notifications are on in discord for the

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everyone ats, and we will see you guys later.

Speaker 3 (01:01:06):
Bye guys,