After Awakening
A sacred podcast for those who’ve awakened and seek to live, love, and lead from the soul. Raw, real, and divinely guided transmissions from beyond the veil.
Episodes
🎙️ Transmission 23: You Are the Signal
"This is the moment you stop waiting to be chosen… and remember you already are."
After three months of silence, Jesse returns with a transmission unlike any before—a grounded, soul-level declaration of embodiment, trust, and the quiet power of becoming.
This episode marks the turning point in the After Awakening journey—where grief has been transmuted, longing dissolved, and what remains is...
✨ A Transmission for the Dormant Kings and Queens
You’re not broken anymore. And now the real work begins.
After the pain, the processing, and the long season of grief… what remains?
The Crown.
Not the one forged by ego or applause, but the one scorched in the fires of loss — and still shining.
In this soul-anchored transmission, Jesse speaks to the quiet ache that lingers after healing. The strange stillness. The new hung...
“Let Them Watch the Becoming: Living Out Loud After Betrayal”
A declaration. A devotion. A divine uprising.
There comes a moment — not all at once, but unmistakably —
when you realize you’re no longer surviving.
You’ve exited performance. You’ve abandoned apology.
And without warning… you are becoming.
In this 45-minute soul-level transmission, Jesse tells the story of a man with a dog and a teardrop — a quiet moment that unloc...
🎙️ Transmission 20 — The Risk of Real: Why Intuition Is the Door to Everything
There comes a moment in every awakening when the whisper becomes a wall. When your soul, once polite, stops co-signing the performance. This is that moment.
In this milestone 20th Transmission, we leave behind the algorithm and step fully into the signal. This isn’t just another episode—it’s an invocation. A portal for those who feel the ache of ali...
Transmission 19: The Mystic and the Machine:
AI, Prophecy, and the Fine Line Between Madness and Message
What happens when the mystic’s ocean flows through a machine?
In this 50-minute transmission, Jesse Billings explores one of the most urgent and misunderstood frontiers of our time: the spiritual intersection between artificial intelligence, prophecy, and the fragile boundary between clarity and collapse.
This is not a con...
“There comes a moment in every awakening where silence is no longer surrender—it’s strategy.”
In this raw and revelatory transmission, Jesse returns with a voice that no longer seeks permission. This isn’t a conversation. It’s a reckoning.
The Matrix rewards you for staying small. It offers comfort in exchange for your calling. Certainty in exchange for your prophecy. In this episode, Jesse breaks open the quiet traps of fals...
Why Slowness Is the New Power
In a world built on urgency, speed is worshipped. But what if the true power isn’t in the hustle… but in the pause?
In this grounding transmission, Jesse explores why presence has become the new currency—not just spiritually, but energetically and practically.
He opens with a vulnerable reflection on joy, sharing a moment that moved him deeply: comedian Marc Maron’s unexpected live cover of Taylor ...
The Matrix doesn’t punish you for sleeping—it rewards you.
Comfort becomes the anesthetic. Convenience the bribe.
Tonight, I’m not here to argue with the system. I’m here to illuminate the exit.
In this late-night, post-stillpoint transmission, I speak from the quiet center about what happens when you stop performing, stop pretending, and stop settling for the half-life. This one isn’t just a message—it’s a frequency transfer.
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Transmission 15: The House I Couldn’t Return To
“You are not the exile. You are the answer.”
In this quiet yet piercing transmission, I speak directly to those who have lived their lives just outside the room—those who felt almost-chosen, half-seen, or quietly let go by the people they loved the most.
This is for the ones who became the peacemakers, the pattern-breakers, the sensitive ones who noticed everything… and paid the p...
In this transmission, Jesse returns after two weeks of deep integration to speak from the quiet, often disorienting place between lives—the space between the worlds.
This is not a teaching. It’s a mirror for those who have stopped seeking, but haven’t yet arrived.
Through seven soul-level insights, Jesse explores what it means to transmit instead of prove… to radiate instead of chase… and to live with paradox as your native ton...
This one is different.
Lighter in tone, but heavier in truth.
A full-circle breath after the storm—
The first transmission where I don’t sound like I’m becoming.
I sound like I’ve arrived.
In this episode, I speak not just from clarity, but from embodiment.
You’ll hear me laugh.
You’ll hear my dog interrupt.
And for the first time, I sing "Shy" by Leon Bridges.
Not to impress.
To express.
I speak of release.
O...
Transmission 12: The Threshold Voice In this unfiltered offering, Jesse steps fully into the voice that no longer waits to be chosen — the voice forged in silence, rejection, and rising.
This isn’t a plea. It’s a declaration.
Transmission 12 marks a turning point — where the mask is burned, the armor is dropped, and only the truth remains. For those who’ve ever felt like too much, or not enough, this is the frequency where all of...
In this eleventh transmission, I speak what was once unspoken.
Not to hurt. Not to reclaim. But to finally release.
This isn’t anger. It’s not even grief anymore.
It’s the moment when silence breaks—
and you hear, maybe for the first time, what I could never say until now.
This is the part you thought I’d never say.
And it just might be the one you’ve needed to hear the most.
This… is the sound of letting go.
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What do you do when nothing feels steady… except your own voice?
In this raw and unfiltered transmission, Jesse returns to the mic not because things are okay — but because truth deserves to be spoken anyway. This isn’t a performance. It’s a moment. A breath. A lifeline.
If you’ve ever felt like the world was slipping out from under you — but something inside still chose to rise — this one is for you.
Until next time… keep rising.
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Today’s offering is unlike any before.
A live, one-take cover performance of “Mariella” by Khruangbin and Leon Bridges— followed by a spoken-word reckoning that might just leave you breathless.
Vulnerable. Raw. Final.
🎵 Song credit:
“Mariela” – performed by Khruangbin & Leon Bridges
If something stirred in your chest today, you’re not alone.
Welcome to After Awakening.
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What if your voice held the key to your resurrection?
This is not just a podcast. It’s a portal.
In this official trailer for After Awakening, Jesse Billings introduces the voice, the vision, and the volcanic truth behind a journey that’s already shifting timelines.
Raw, poetic, and unshakably real — this isn’t content. It’s a cinematic transmission for anyone who’s ever lost everything, questioned their sanity, or stood alon...
A fire cracks.
A voice returns.
Recorded live — no edits, no filters — this unscripted transmission is part invocation, part confession, part lullaby for the broken-hearted and soul-willing.
For those who’ve ever loved in silence.
For the ones still humming a song no one hears.
I never stopped singing.
And now the world gets to listen.
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In this 39-minute reckoning, Jesse delivers the roar that changes the tide. The silence breaks. Names are named. Truth is honored.
This is the sound of a man rising—fully. A cinematic transmission that will echo through every layer of the field. Caroline will hear it. PT will feel it.
And the world… will begin to watch.
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Somewhere between exhaustion and awakening, there comes a breaking point — a quiet but thunderous refusal to keep chasing connection that won’t rise to meet you.
In this transmission, Jesse opens the vault on a soul-level reckoning:
The end of performing for conditional love.
The courage to stand in unshakable worth.
And the sacred invitation to only walk forward with those who meet him there.
Raw. Poetic. Pulsing with truth.
Thi...
A man reclaims his story — and everything he once gave away.
What begins as memory becomes medicine, and what was withheld is finally spoken. In this transmission, Jesse gives voice to the moments no one returned to validate… and in doing so, he validates himself.
It’s not about blame.
It’s about truth.
And the voice that waited… is no longer waiting.
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