“I Thought I Had to Earn Love—Until I Remembered Myself”

EPISODE 1 – “I Thought I Had to Earn Love—Until I Remembered Myself”

 

Have you ever felt like you had to work hard just to be loved?

Do you question your worth when things fall apart?

What if the unraveling is really a remembering?

 

In this first episode of Attune. Heal. Transform., I open my heart and share the story of how I went from massage therapist to medicine woman.

I talk about failing my TCM license exam—twice—walking through a divorce, and awakening to the sacred wisdom of the menstrual cycle.

 

This isn’t just a story about letting go.

It’s a story about coming home—to the body, to truth, and to self-worth that no longer needs to be earned.

 

You’ll hear about:

 

• How a TCM doctor changed my view of the womb
• What I learned from tracking my own menstrual seasons
• The emotional collapse that became my turning point
• The choice to end a marriage—and begin a life rooted in truth

 

 

If you’ve ever buried your needs, tolerated too much, or wondered if you’re the problem… this episode is for you.

 

Come as you are. This space is for your remembering.

 

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ABOUT RACHEAL | AYNI THE MEDICINE WOMAN

Racheal, known as Ayni the Medicine Woman, is a sacred space holder, intuitive healer, and guide for women seeking to remember who they are beyond the roles they’ve been told to play. Rooted in the wisdom of Traditional Chinese Medicine, the rhythms of the menstrual cycle, and the sacred art of energetic healing, she gently leads others through deep emotional, ancestral, and spiritual transformation.

 

After 12 years of giving endlessly in a marriage that left her depleted, Racheal reclaimed her truth through a journey of self-remembrance—learning to honor her needs, rest before collapse, and receive with grace. The name Ayni came to her during a time of great inner winter, as a sacred reminder that healing happens through balance: between giving and receiving, strength and softness, self and others.

 

Today, she supports women in embodying their truth, reconnecting with their cycles, and creating space for their own care—so they no longer break themselves to serve the world, but rise from overflow.

 

Follow her journey and offerings on Instagram: @ayni_the_medicine_woman