“Ember: The Relapse That Rekindled Her Fire”-clawsoutpt14

In this episode of Feral But Sober, I sit down with Ember—a new friend I met on TikTok Live just a few weeks ago—who showed up ready to tell the truth about motherhood, addiction, relapse, and rebuilding. Ember shares how her addiction to amphetamines began as a desperate attempt to stay awake and keep up with life as a mom of three boys. What started as survival slowly pulled her into isolation, away from family gatherings, holidays, and the people who loved her most. When her kids began asking why they didn’t go anywhere anymore, she shut down—until the day she finally called her sister and confessed everything. Her family stepped in, ready to help her get to a 30‑day treatment program. But when childcare fell through at the last minute, Ember stayed home, sent her boys to their grandparents for a few days, and locked herself inside—sleeping, stabilizing, and only leaving for meetings. From there, she began to thrive. She joined recovery communities online, poured into others, and built nearly 60 days of sobriety. Then life hit hard, and Ember found herself in a relapse. It lasted only a few days, but it shook her. She talks openly about what pulled her down, what lifted her back up, and what she learned about boundaries, burnout, and the danger of trying to save everyone else before saving yourself. Today, she’s 17 days back in recovery—and we are so proud of her. Ember also shares the heartbreak of losing her brother to an overdose, and how grief shaped her journey without defining it. And in one of the most powerful moments of the episode, she recalls her young son looking at her this past Halloween and saying, “Mommy… I don’t know what happened, but can you stay this way?” That sentence changed her. That sentence anchored her. That sentence reminded her who she’s fighting to become. This is a story about relapse without shame, motherhood without perfection, and recovery without pretending. Ember shows us what it looks like to fall, get back up, and choose yourself again.