In today’s soul-stirring episode, Josephine Enumah gets real about a conversation many avoid: the blurry line between spiritual warfare and unresolved trauma — especially in African and faith-based communities.
Could that delay, addiction, or dysfunction you’ve been praying against be rooted in suppressed childhood wounds? Are we over-spiritualising what we’ve never emotionally processed?
This episode will challenge your thinking, stir your heart, and offer both biblical truth and practical tools to begin your healing journey — mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Josephine shares: ✨ How unhealed childhood trauma shows up in adulthood ✨ Why prayer alone isn’t enough for soul wounds ✨ Scriptures that anchor your healing ✨ A personal story of breakthrough ✨ How to start the work — spiritually and physically
It’s time to stop calling trauma a curse — and start calling it what it is: a cry for healing.
💬 Share this with someone who needs it. 🎧 Listen, take notes, and let God meet you in the hidden places. 📲 Follow @JosephineEnumah for more on faith, healing, and fruitful living.
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Hello beautiful souls and welcome back to I
Am Fruitful podcast.
It has been a minute.
Amen.
I've been so busy with life, taking care of
things, as you know, dealing with so many
things.
But here we are.
I'm back.
I'm back.
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And for everybody that have been
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What is I Am Fruitful Podcast? Let me just
introduce our new followers that don't know
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what this podcast is about.
I wanted to share with you,
this is where we meet together, we
fellowship together.
in words, in encouragement,
where he limits truth, where we stop hiding
our pain behind religious cliches,
and where we
get real,
real, real
about what's going on beneath the surface.
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walking through emotions and just dealing,
really.
And you know, if this, any of this
resonates with you, then you are on the
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Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome.
My name is Prophetess Josephine Enema.
For those of you that are following our
ministry channels, God bless you.
If you don't know about the ministry
channels,
then you can find us
on all
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Amen.
I'm excited for what God is doing in this
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I'm recording with a newborn strapped to my
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that's why sometimes I have to cover the
screen because I wake him up as well. So
bear with me.
Motherhood is
obviously taking his real moment.
Motherhood means
meets ministry in real time.
That's what we're facing right now.
And I'm getting used to it.
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I'm adjusting and thank you to all of you
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It means a lot.
I'm learning that sometimes your mic is in
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and nappy changing is happening in the other.
So God bless you all for,
you know, being patient with me,
understanding the process
and just really
You know, bear with me through this
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process. Amen.
Because this episode is worth every baby
sound and late night recording as necessary
as this one is taking place right now
in the middle of the night while baby is
sleeping.
But I felt I needed to get the word out
today.
This word has been burning and yearning in me
for a few weeks now, but getting the time
to record it
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has been the issue.
But here we are.
Better late than never, right?
I'm excited to share with you
today's
message for somebody that needs to hear it.
I don't know what you've been going
through.
This is the what if series.
And we've been discussing
the what if scenarios
that,
you know, we don't necessarily want to talk
about, but it's necessary to talk about.
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I don't know if that makes sense to you.
Like things that people are going through,
but as a Christian, sometimes we feel
ashamed to even question certain things or
to even think about about certain things.
And I feel this is the platform where I can say it
unapologetically.
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I can say it without being judged, without
being criticized, without being, you know,
frowned upon, but understanding that my
spiritual stance still standing strong,
even though I'm asking the question.
I hope that resonates with you.
I hope it makes sense to you. But
here we are.
And today we're talking about something
that might shake a few tables.
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You know,
some people may be like, oh,
what's she talking about?
But yeah, what I want to talk about today
is what if it's not spiritual attack also
oppressed
childhood trauma. Uh
oh, mama's back with another one.
What if what you're going through is not
spiritual attack, but actually undealt
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or hidden childhood trauma.
There are many things that we go through in
life and we suppress it, we hide it, we
bury it, especially with the African
culture or shall I say black culture, we
tend not to deal with situation, we tend
to,
you know, keep it down, keep it buried, you
know, the
Don't talk about it.
Oh,
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like it's forbidden fruit.
Oh, let's not talk about that.
Oh, get over yourself.
In many homes growing up, we were told to
be strong.
Don't cry like a girl, even though you're a girl.
You wipe your tears.
Don't let that break you.
Don't talk back,
you know, those kind of comments.
And those things have got us, especially
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growing in the era that I'm a millennial.
So growing up as a millennial, you,
you, you are taught to hide things.
You're taught to not speak on things.
You're taught to
look at things strangely, but don't talk
about it.
I don't know if I'm talking or resonating
with somebody today.
There are situations you've gone through
and it's like, you know, something doesn't
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quite fit.
doesn't quite sit with you
or feel right,
but yet you're not allowed to talk about it.
Whether it's from guilt, whether it's from shame,
whether it's from, you know,
embarrassment or not wanting to embarrass
your loved ones or not wanting to say
something that may make them question their
behavior towards you.
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I don't know.
If something traumatic happens,
abuse, neglect, parental abandonment, that
was very popular, parental abandonment,
witnessing violence or deep rejection.
It was often under the carpet,
swept under the carpet.
You know,
don't raise it,
get over it,
move forward, be strong.
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And those coping mechanisms, we find things
to help us cope
and bury those memories.
and not deal with those memories.
But growing up now
and raising children, I'm realizing that
there are certain things that we
actually have to talk about.
We actually have to open up.
We actually have to deal.
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So it doesn't become an issue.
And I think
with my children going through the
circumstances they've gone through recently
of losing a father,
I want them to heal.
I want them to grow up being stronger.
I want them to be in a
in an environment where they can feel, they
can speak freely about what they're
feeling, their anger, their frustration, the,
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the,
the
unspoken words,
anything that they're feeling inside.
Because I don't want them to grow up
and, you know, get to a stage where they,
they, they, they
start to
be triggered by certain things that they're
going through or
start to form an addiction or
fall into sin or, you know,
go through a certain
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stage of their life where they haven't
dealt with their childhood trauma.
And I think it's something that we need to
speak about because a lot of those things
are happening now in our society and we are
blaming it on spiritual attacks.
Oh, it must be the demons inside.
Oh, it must be
the
father's house or the mother's house,
or, oh, it must be, you know,
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the things that they're going through.
It might not necessarily even be
spiritual attack to begin with or demonic
attack to begin with, but because the
gateway
of not dealing with
childhood trauma has opened the door
for the sin to now form within the adult
that has now grown
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away from that childhood trauma into an
adulthood and now,
you know, sinning as a way of coping
with the trauma,
which then leads to
things
we say
are spiritual attacks.
Here's the truth.
What you don't process,
your body and your behavior will eventually
express.
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What we don't process, our body and
behavior will eventually express it.
We see grown adults battling anxiety, rage,
addiction, sexual sin,
relationship, dysfunctions, and we say a
spiritual attack.
But what if it's not spiritual attack, but
it is actually childhood trauma.
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The things they've opened their gates or
their parents have allowed the gates to be
open to,
their eyes, their years,
the
people that they've been around,
the
sleepovers that with cousins or
uncles or aunties that they shouldn't have
been on and has opened them up to things
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that they cannot process at that age
in their childhood.
But then as an adult, they're now
beginning to form an understanding
of what they went through, but it's too
late to deal.
So the way they deal with it is rather than
talk about it and feel feel the shame or
feel the neglect or feel the anger or the
frustration
of their childhood, what they now then do
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is act it out through
addiction, through rage, through anxiety.
And when you watch
popular programs like Criminal Minds or,
you know, SVU, Special Victims Unit, or
if you're into law enforcement like I am,
you begin to realize and process that, wow,
a lot of the things that you see, those
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heinous crimes that you see happen.
is linked in some way to childhood trauma,
undealt childhood trauma.
And especially in the black culture, we
don't, we don't advise therapists, we don't advise
seeking help.
We don't advise,
you know,
actually talking things out and going
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through
what needs to be gone through to deal with
those situations that you've gone through
as a child that you may not be
able to form an understanding or process
and then
in later years your body and your behavior
begin to express them yeah so but what if
the root of your emotional neglect
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the root of all this is from the emotional
neglect you felt as a child during your
childhood Proverbs 4:23 says keep thy heart
with all diligence for out of it
are the issues of life
Out of it are the issues of life.
The heart, your inner life
is where your issues stem from.
And if we never tend to the wounds
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of our childhood,
Those issues bleed into adulthood,
and that's where a lot of us are suffering.
And we're praying and asking God to deliver
us, but we're not dealing with the root
cause of the problem.
We're not actually addressing and facing
the demons from our childhood.
We, we think it would just go away or it
would just be buried if we just pray, but
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praying is actually going to the source,
dealing with the issues.
Let me share a
true story with you all
that
may or may not resonate with you but you
gain a better understanding of what I'm
talking about
this night, this evening, this morning,
wherever you are,
wherever time
this message meets you.
But what I'm talking about is,
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let me share this story.
It says,
um, a man
who grew up in a home where anger was the
only emotion allowed.
If you cried, you are seen as weak.
If you spoke up, you were rude.
I'm sure many will understand this.
He grew up, got married, became a father, but
but was quick to rage,
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emotionally distant, back to the secret
addiction.
His wife took him to deliverance services
after delivering services.
but yet nothing broke because they didn't
have an understanding of what was happening
with him.
Then one day during a counseling session,
he broke down sobbing and crying.
He hadn't cried in
over 20 years because why buried emotions.
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Turns out he had been sexually abused as a
boy by a relative.
He had buried it, but no one ever asked him.
No one, he
never told anyone.
No one understood why he behaved the way he
behaved.
That trauma had
shaped his reactions, his relationship, and
his coping mechanisms.
When we look at the scripture, Psalm 34
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verse 18, it says, the Lord is near
unto them that are broken hearted and
saviour such as
be of a constrite spirit.
God was near to him, but healing had to
begin with truth and not just prayer.
Healing had to begin with truth and not
just prayer, but what most of us are
struggling with
is the truth.
We don't deal with the truth, but we're
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just praying.
And that can lead to us just praying by the
situation, but not really dealing with the
root cause
of that situation, not uprooting
from the foundation.
We are spirit, soul and body.
Sometimes what manifests spiritually starts
with what was buried emotionally and really
dealing with that.
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will help us to conquer spiritually.
2 John 1:2 says,
Beloved, I wish above all things that thou
mayest prosper and be in her even as thy
soul prospereth.
Your soul prospering matters.
Your soul prospering matters.
Your mind, your emotions, your memories,
they affect your spiritual growth.
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They affect your spiritual being.
They affect your spiritual stance.
Unprocessed trauma can distort your view of God.
feels absence like a father was your view
of yourself feeling unworthy dirty always
to blame feeling like I'm not I'm not I'm
not good enough
your relationship also also is affected
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through trust issues
fear of intimacy control
not feeling like you can ever be loved
and yet
we call it warfare but sometimes it Is it
warfare though? Is it warfare? It can be.
I'm not saying it cannot be.
Sometimes it actually is warfare,
but other times
it's just cry for healing.
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Cry for healing.
And sometimes we,
we, we tend not to understand what our
soul, our body, our mind is needing and
needing to process.
So this is coming to light to help somebody today
to understand that you, you need to go
through your healing.
If you've ever gone through any form of
trauma as a child, to get to a
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full place of being used by God,
the way God wants to use you and not fall
into sin and not fall into that,
that place the enemy wants you to be in,
that cage of rage, of anxiety, of, of,
of loss of control, of
relationship dysfunction,
of not being able to keep down with man or being
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in a place where you'll be loved
or
a vice versa of not being able to hold down
in home in commitment.
What is causing it?
Let's go back to the root.
Healing is both spiritual and practical.
Here's how you start to heal today.
Acknowledge what has happened.
Suppressing it won't heal it, not at all.
Naming your trauma is not dishonoring, it's
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freeing yourself from it.
It's freeing yourself from it.
Secondly, you need to invite God into that
memory.
Ask the Holy Spirit to show you where He was
and what He wants to say to that wounded
version of yourself.
Amen.
Allow the Holy Spirit to guide you.
Allow the Holy Spirit to take you back
there to that moment.
And you process that memory and get to that
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place of really knowing where God was at
the time
and how God can help you
overcome and get to a better version
of yourself.
seek Christian counseling or trauma
informed therapy.
I would say trauma informed therapy is good
because some Christian counseling is, again,
based on their understanding.
There's a lot of Christian counseling that
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is just based on what should be and not
necessarily what has been.
Amen.
So sometimes we need to go back to the
foundation and rather than form judgment,
listen and process.
So I think it's important to know which one
is good for you.
Jesus sells souls
for therapy.
it helps to unravel soul wounds. Amen.
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And I think combining both will
really help you to understand where you are
and how to grow from there.
Stop spiritual, spiritualizing dysfunction.
This is very vital.
And I think we do this a lot.
And I've learned this as well, going
through my own personal trauma
of losing a husband.
Many will say to me, that's not trauma.
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That's your understanding. But
for me, it's never happened to me before.
I've never been so close to someone that I
mean,
the person that I've lost before
is my grandmother, but she was of age.
She grew to a fine, good old age,
and we had a very
pleasant relationship.
So to lose a husband at 39 wasn't, I mean,
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I was actually 38 at the time, about to
turn 39, wasn't something that
I've encountered or gone through before.
And someone said to me personally, like,
oh, dear mother,
went through it and raised three kids and
she's fine.
So it's not trauma.
Yes, to your mother, it may not have been
trauma,
but to me, I consider it to be trauma. So
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I
should be allowed to go through it the way I'm
going through it and how I'm handling it.
Just because your mother went out through it fine
in a home way and she was able to raise
three kids okay.
Kudos to her.
I can't fault her for that,
but don't compare.
That's not a way to console.
That's not a way to
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to
help someone heal in that process.
That just, by the way, I just wanted to
address that. So stop
over spiritualizing dysfunction.
Meaning every delay isn't witchcraft.
Every delay is not witchcraft.
It could just be God's timing is not yet
for you.
Seasons.
And God even says times and seasons
happening to them all is your time or your
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season.
Not every delay is witchcraft.
Every addiction isn't possession.
It could just be
childhood trauma,
undealt with,
undealt childhood trauma.
Sometimes it's just pain and people need to
deal with the pain.
and get over the pain to get to a better place.
Amen. I
hope this is resonating with somebody
tonight.
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And another thing is pray for inner
healing.
I don't think we do this enough.
I don't think we ask God to restore our
mind enough,
to regulate our emotions enough, to fill
every broken place in our body enough.
And I think that is very necessary for us
to get to that place
of true
healing. Amen.
To get to that place of true healing,
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to get to that place of really
understanding who we are in God. Amen.
And this month is the month where we've
decreed and declared
that this is our month where we're settled
in the sovereignty.
And to really be settled in the
sovereignty, you really need to change your
mindset.
And to change your mindset is going back to
the foundation.
Why do I think this way?
Why do I feel this way? What is bringing me
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to a place of being unsure,
being afraid, being fearful?
I spoke of what if
what you're faced with is not fair,
but
could be generational.
Again, it's me going back to the
foundation.
I'm learning to really go to the core
and the roots of things
that I'm feeling
to understand why I'm feeling that way.
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And sometimes where we are is not as a
result of what
anyone has done to us, but as a result of
our own mindset.
And even the scripture tells us to renew
our minds.
It means that your mind is important.
And what shapes our mind is
our upbringing, what we've gone through,
our experiences.
what we've processed.
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So sometimes we need to go back to those
moments
and figure out what went wrong
and what needs healing. Amen.
Isaiah 61 verse one says, it reminds us of
Jesus' mission.
It says, he had sent me to bind up
the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives.
When we look at it, it's not just to cast
out demons, no,
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but to heal the brokenhearted.
So healing is very key to
our spiritual journey.
It's very key for us as Christians to
really grow. Amen.
If this message has got something in you,
I'm so glad and I'm so blessed
that it's not just me that is feeling this way.
And I want you to speak this truth over
your life today.
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I am not cursed.
I am not possessed.
I am a child of God healing from wounds.
Amen.
I am a child of God healing from these deep
wounds.
Let's break this shame, this name blaming
game that we do.
Let's stop it.
Let's name the pain.
Let's invite God
to the buried places of our hearts
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and begin to truly heal tonight. Amen.
You're not just being attacked by the devil
all the time.
You are being invited into oneness by the
Father.
And sometimes the devil attacks
A place of weakness.
And what is that place of weakness?
The untreated wounds,
the place that you've neglected to handle,
the place that you've,
you've left the crack open by ignoring it.
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Don't do that.
Fix it.
Go down to the root.
Uproot what needs to be uprooted.
replaster one needs to be replastered
and seal up that wound.
So therefore the devil will not have space
to enter
in the future.
Amen.
God bless you and thank you again for
joining me on this podcast.
The what if series is really going deeper
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every day.
And if this is something that you think,
who this one is deep and it means a lot to
me, don't forget to share it.
Don't forget to share, tell somebody.
If this episode was for you, please
Please don't walk this journey alone.
Seek help.
Talk to someone safe,
someone you trust.
Find a good therapist,
a Christian therapist, someone that can mix
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the teaching of, you know, the mind with
the spiritual aspect.
So you have
best of both worlds.
Join a support group.
Start journaling.
I started journaling in 2022
and it's the best decision I've ever made
because of things I can't process.
in my mind,
writing it down helps me to really put it
into context.
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And if you're following my blog, you'll see
me unravel
in ways you've never done before.
So most importantly, stay in God's word.
His word is powerful
and it helps us to understand who we are.
And as we grow in Him,
we begin to form a new identity in God. Amen.
You're not your past, you are your future.
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And the way to get to the future sometimes
is to go back a step to accelerate even
bigger and faster forward. Amen.
Tag me on Instagram @josephineenima.
Share your thoughts.
Let's continue to have this conversation.
Put your comments down below on
those of you on YouTube and on Facebook.
Let me hear what you think.
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Healing is not a destination.
It's a sacred journey. Amen.
And I want to know what your thoughts are.
on this topic.
Until next time, remember, it's not always
spiritual
attack.
Sometimes it's just
unprocessed
trauma.
But healing is possible
and you can be free as I am being free
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every day.
And the scripture say, whom the Lord has
set free is free indeed.
God bless you and thank you once again for
joining me on
I Am Fruitful podcast
on all
available podcasting platforms.
Please download today and share with as
many as you can.
Until next time,
have a good one.
Bye-bye.
God bless you.
I pray for you today that this message
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speaks to your heart.
And I pray that every healing that needs to
take place in your life, in your hope
begins to form right now in the name of Jesus.
May the Lord touch you from the crown of
your head to the sole of your feet.
May you never be in a place of being broken again
in the name of Jesus.
May
God bind up that wound in the name of Jesus
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Christ.
May you begin to walk in liberty
in the mighty name of Jesus.
You are set free today in Jesus' name.
God Almighty will continue to be your
strength and your shield,
your glory and the lifter up of your head
in the name of
Jesus.
God bless you and thank you once again for
joining me today.
My name remains Prophetess Josephine Enumah
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and you have been listening to the What If
series
on I Am Fruitful podcast.
Bye bye.
Hello beautiful souls and welcome back to I
Am Fruitful podcast.
It has been a minute.
Amen.
I've been so busy with life, taking care of
things, as you know, dealing with so many
things.
But here we are.
I'm back.
I'm back.
I promise I am back.
And for everybody that have been
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downloading our podcast on Spotify,
on Podbean, on all social media platforms,
God bless you.
You have been a real gem,
supporting what we do here on I Am Fruitful
Podcast
and just spreading the good news
everywhere.
God bless you.
What is I Am Fruitful Podcast? Let me just
introduce our new followers that don't know
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what this podcast is about.
I wanted to share with you,
this is where we meet together, we
fellowship together.
in words, in encouragement,
where he limits truth, where we stop hiding
our pain behind religious cliches,
and where we
get real,
real, real
about what's going on beneath the surface.
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And I'm just glad that you're here with
sharing the journey with me through this
moment.
We talk about grief, we talk about loss, we
talk about,
you know, rejuvenating life, refreshing
life, businesses,
walking through emotions and just dealing,
really.
And you know, if this, any of this
resonates with you, then you are on the
right platform.
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Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome.
My name is Prophetess Josephine Enema.
For those of you that are following our
ministry channels, God bless you.
If you don't know about the ministry
channels,
then you can find us
on all
available platforms.
Amen. Amen.
Amen.
I'm excited for what God is doing in this
season of my life.
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And you know,
many of you would have been hearing baby cool,
cooling, cool.
Coo, coo, coo, coo,
cooing
or coos
in the background,
unexpected cry moments during the I am
fruitful moments every morning, you know,
when I get the chance to be up, because
it's not every time that I'm up.
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I'm recording with a newborn strapped to my
chest sometimes. And
that's why sometimes I have to cover the
screen because I wake him up as well. So
bear with me.
Motherhood is
obviously taking his real moment.
Motherhood means
meets ministry in real time.
That's what we're facing right now.
And I'm getting used to it.
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I'm adjusting and thank you to all of you
that have been sending your encouraging words.
It means a lot.
I'm learning that sometimes your mic is in
one hand
and nappy changing is happening in the other.
So God bless you all for,
you know, being patient with me,
understanding the process
and just really
You know, bear with me through this
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process. Amen.
Because this episode is worth every baby
sound and late night recording as necessary
as this one is taking place right now
in the middle of the night while baby is
sleeping.
But I felt I needed to get the word out
today.
This word has been burning and yearning in me
for a few weeks now, but getting the time
to record it
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has been the issue.
But here we are.
Better late than never, right?
I'm excited to share with you
today's
message for somebody that needs to hear it.
I don't know what you've been going
through.
This is the what if series.
And we've been discussing
the what if scenarios
that,
you know, we don't necessarily want to talk
about, but it's necessary to talk about.
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I don't know if that makes sense to you.
Like things that people are going through,
but as a Christian, sometimes we feel
ashamed to even question certain things or
to even think about about certain things.
And I feel this is the platform where I can say it
unapologetically.
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I can say it without being judged, without
being criticized, without being, you know,
frowned upon, but understanding that my
spiritual stance still standing strong,
even though I'm asking the question.
I hope that resonates with you.
I hope it makes sense to you. But
here we are.
And today we're talking about something
that might shake a few tables.
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You know,
some people may be like, oh,
what's she talking about?
But yeah, what I want to talk about today
is what if it's not spiritual attack also
oppressed
childhood trauma. Uh
oh, mama's back with another one.
What if what you're going through is not
spiritual attack, but actually undealt
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or hidden childhood trauma.
There are many things that we go through in
life and we suppress it, we hide it, we
bury it, especially with the African
culture or shall I say black culture, we
tend not to deal with situation, we tend
to,
you know, keep it down, keep it buried, you
know, the
Don't talk about it.
Oh,
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like it's forbidden fruit.
Oh, let's not talk about that.
Oh, get over yourself.
In many homes growing up, we were told to
be strong.
Don't cry like a girl, even though you're a girl.
You wipe your tears.
Don't let that break you.
Don't talk back,
you know, those kind of comments.
And those things have got us, especially
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growing in the era that I'm a millennial.
So growing up as a millennial, you,
you, you are taught to hide things.
You're taught to not speak on things.
You're taught to
look at things strangely, but don't talk
about it.
I don't know if I'm talking or resonating
with somebody today.
There are situations you've gone through
and it's like, you know, something doesn't
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quite fit.
doesn't quite sit with you
or feel right,
but yet you're not allowed to talk about it.
Whether it's from guilt, whether it's from shame,
whether it's from, you know,
embarrassment or not wanting to embarrass
your loved ones or not wanting to say
something that may make them question their
behavior towards you.
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I don't know.
If something traumatic happens,
abuse, neglect, parental abandonment, that
was very popular, parental abandonment,
witnessing violence or deep rejection.
It was often under the carpet,
swept under the carpet.
You know,
don't raise it,
get over it,
move forward, be strong.
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And those coping mechanisms, we find things
to help us cope
and bury those memories.
and not deal with those memories.
But growing up now
and raising children, I'm realizing that
there are certain things that we
actually have to talk about.
We actually have to open up.
We actually have to deal.
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So it doesn't become an issue.
And I think
with my children going through the
circumstances they've gone through recently
of losing a father,
I want them to heal.
I want them to grow up being stronger.
I want them to be in a
in an environment where they can feel, they
can speak freely about what they're
feeling, their anger, their frustration, the,
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the,
the
unspoken words,
anything that they're feeling inside.
Because I don't want them to grow up
and, you know, get to a stage where they,
they, they, they
start to
be triggered by certain things that they're
going through or
start to form an addiction or
fall into sin or, you know,
go through a certain
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stage of their life where they haven't
dealt with their childhood trauma.
And I think it's something that we need to
speak about because a lot of those things
are happening now in our society and we are
blaming it on spiritual attacks.
Oh, it must be the demons inside.
Oh, it must be
the
father's house or the mother's house,
or, oh, it must be, you know,
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the things that they're going through.
It might not necessarily even be
spiritual attack to begin with or demonic
attack to begin with, but because the
gateway
of not dealing with
childhood trauma has opened the door
for the sin to now form within the adult
that has now grown
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away from that childhood trauma into an
adulthood and now,
you know, sinning as a way of coping
with the trauma,
which then leads to
things
we say
are spiritual attacks.
Here's the truth.
What you don't process,
your body and your behavior will eventually
express.
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What we don't process, our body and
behavior will eventually express it.
We see grown adults battling anxiety, rage,
addiction, sexual sin,
relationship, dysfunctions, and we say a
spiritual attack.
But what if it's not spiritual attack, but
it is actually childhood trauma.
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The things they've opened their gates or
their parents have allowed the gates to be
open to,
their eyes, their years,
the
people that they've been around,
the
sleepovers that with cousins or
uncles or aunties that they shouldn't have
been on and has opened them up to things
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that they cannot process at that age
in their childhood.
But then as an adult, they're now
beginning to form an understanding
of what they went through, but it's too
late to deal.
So the way they deal with it is rather than
talk about it and feel feel the shame or
feel the neglect or feel the anger or the
frustration
of their childhood, what they now then do
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is act it out through
addiction, through rage, through anxiety.
And when you watch
popular programs like Criminal Minds or,
you know, SVU, Special Victims Unit, or
if you're into law enforcement like I am,
you begin to realize and process that, wow,
a lot of the things that you see, those
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heinous crimes that you see happen.
is linked in some way to childhood trauma,
undealt childhood trauma.
And especially in the black culture, we
don't, we don't advise therapists, we don't advise
seeking help.
We don't advise,
you know,
actually talking things out and going
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through
what needs to be gone through to deal with
those situations that you've gone through
as a child that you may not be
able to form an understanding or process
and then
in later years your body and your behavior
begin to express them yeah so but what if
the root of your emotional neglect
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the root of all this is from the emotional
neglect you felt as a child during your
childhood Proverbs 4:23 says keep thy heart
with all diligence for out of it
are the issues of life
Out of it are the issues of life.
The heart, your inner life
is where your issues stem from.
And if we never tend to the wounds
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of our childhood,
Those issues bleed into adulthood,
and that's where a lot of us are suffering.
And we're praying and asking God to deliver
us, but we're not dealing with the root
cause of the problem.
We're not actually addressing and facing
the demons from our childhood.
We, we think it would just go away or it
would just be buried if we just pray, but
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praying is actually going to the source,
dealing with the issues.
Let me share a
true story with you all
that
may or may not resonate with you but you
gain a better understanding of what I'm
talking about
this night, this evening, this morning,
wherever you are,
wherever time
this message meets you.
But what I'm talking about is,
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let me share this story.
It says,
um, a man
who grew up in a home where anger was the
only emotion allowed.
If you cried, you are seen as weak.
If you spoke up, you were rude.
I'm sure many will understand this.
He grew up, got married, became a father, but
but was quick to rage,
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emotionally distant, back to the secret
addiction.
His wife took him to deliverance services
after delivering services.
but yet nothing broke because they didn't
have an understanding of what was happening
with him.
Then one day during a counseling session,
he broke down sobbing and crying.
He hadn't cried in
over 20 years because why buried emotions.
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Turns out he had been sexually abused as a
boy by a relative.
He had buried it, but no one ever asked him.
No one, he
never told anyone.
No one understood why he behaved the way he
behaved.
That trauma had
shaped his reactions, his relationship, and
his coping mechanisms.
When we look at the scripture, Psalm 34
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verse 18, it says, the Lord is near
unto them that are broken hearted and
saviour such as
be of a constrite spirit.
God was near to him, but healing had to
begin with truth and not just prayer.
Healing had to begin with truth and not
just prayer, but what most of us are
struggling with
is the truth.
We don't deal with the truth, but we're
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just praying.
And that can lead to us just praying by the
situation, but not really dealing with the
root cause
of that situation, not uprooting
from the foundation.
We are spirit, soul and body.
Sometimes what manifests spiritually starts
with what was buried emotionally and really
dealing with that.
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will help us to conquer spiritually.
2 John 1:2 says,
Beloved, I wish above all things that thou
mayest prosper and be in her even as thy
soul prospereth.
Your soul prospering matters.
Your soul prospering matters.
Your mind, your emotions, your memories,
they affect your spiritual growth.
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They affect your spiritual being.
They affect your spiritual stance.
Unprocessed trauma can distort your view of God.
feels absence like a father was your view
of yourself feeling unworthy dirty always
to blame feeling like I'm not I'm not I'm
not good enough
your relationship also also is affected
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through trust issues
fear of intimacy control
not feeling like you can ever be loved
and yet
we call it warfare but sometimes it Is it
warfare though? Is it warfare? It can be.
I'm not saying it cannot be.
Sometimes it actually is warfare,
but other times
it's just cry for healing.
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Cry for healing.
And sometimes we,
we, we tend not to understand what our
soul, our body, our mind is needing and
needing to process.
So this is coming to light to help somebody today
to understand that you, you need to go
through your healing.
If you've ever gone through any form of
trauma as a child, to get to a
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full place of being used by God,
the way God wants to use you and not fall
into sin and not fall into that,
that place the enemy wants you to be in,
that cage of rage, of anxiety, of, of,
of loss of control, of
relationship dysfunction,
of not being able to keep down with man or being
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in a place where you'll be loved
or
a vice versa of not being able to hold down
in home in commitment.
What is causing it?
Let's go back to the root.
Healing is both spiritual and practical.
Here's how you start to heal today.
Acknowledge what has happened.
Suppressing it won't heal it, not at all.
Naming your trauma is not dishonoring, it's
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freeing yourself from it.
It's freeing yourself from it.
Secondly, you need to invite God into that
memory.
Ask the Holy Spirit to show you where He was
and what He wants to say to that wounded
version of yourself.
Amen.
Allow the Holy Spirit to guide you.
Allow the Holy Spirit to take you back
there to that moment.
And you process that memory and get to that
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place of really knowing where God was at
the time
and how God can help you
overcome and get to a better version
of yourself.
seek Christian counseling or trauma
informed therapy.
I would say trauma informed therapy is good
because some Christian counseling is, again,
based on their understanding.
There's a lot of Christian counseling that
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is just based on what should be and not
necessarily what has been.
Amen.
So sometimes we need to go back to the
foundation and rather than form judgment,
listen and process.
So I think it's important to know which one
is good for you.
Jesus sells souls
for therapy.
it helps to unravel soul wounds. Amen.
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And I think combining both will
really help you to understand where you are
and how to grow from there.
Stop spiritual, spiritualizing dysfunction.
This is very vital.
And I think we do this a lot.
And I've learned this as well, going
through my own personal trauma
of losing a husband.
Many will say to me, that's not trauma.
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That's your understanding. But
for me, it's never happened to me before.
I've never been so close to someone that I
mean,
the person that I've lost before
is my grandmother, but she was of age.
She grew to a fine, good old age,
and we had a very
pleasant relationship.
So to lose a husband at 39 wasn't, I mean,
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I was actually 38 at the time, about to
turn 39, wasn't something that
I've encountered or gone through before.
And someone said to me personally, like,
oh, dear mother,
went through it and raised three kids and
she's fine.
So it's not trauma.
Yes, to your mother, it may not have been
trauma,
but to me, I consider it to be trauma. So
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I
should be allowed to go through it the way I'm
going through it and how I'm handling it.
Just because your mother went out through it fine
in a home way and she was able to raise
three kids okay.
Kudos to her.
I can't fault her for that,
but don't compare.
That's not a way to console.
That's not a way to
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to
help someone heal in that process.
That just, by the way, I just wanted to
address that. So stop
over spiritualizing dysfunction.
Meaning every delay isn't witchcraft.
Every delay is not witchcraft.
It could just be God's timing is not yet
for you.
Seasons.
And God even says times and seasons
happening to them all is your time or your
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season.
Not every delay is witchcraft.
Every addiction isn't possession.
It could just be
childhood trauma,
undealt with,
undealt childhood trauma.
Sometimes it's just pain and people need to
deal with the pain.
and get over the pain to get to a better place.
Amen. I
hope this is resonating with somebody
tonight.
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And another thing is pray for inner
healing.
I don't think we do this enough.
I don't think we ask God to restore our
mind enough,
to regulate our emotions enough, to fill
every broken place in our body enough.
And I think that is very necessary for us
to get to that place
of true
healing. Amen.
To get to that place of true healing,
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to get to that place of really
understanding who we are in God. Amen.
And this month is the month where we've
decreed and declared
that this is our month where we're settled
in the sovereignty.
And to really be settled in the
sovereignty, you really need to change your
mindset.
And to change your mindset is going back to
the foundation.
Why do I think this way?
Why do I feel this way? What is bringing me
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to a place of being unsure,
being afraid, being fearful?
I spoke of what if
what you're faced with is not fair,
but
could be generational.
Again, it's me going back to the
foundation.
I'm learning to really go to the core
and the roots of things
that I'm feeling
to understand why I'm feeling that way.
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And sometimes where we are is not as a
result of what
anyone has done to us, but as a result of
our own mindset.
And even the scripture tells us to renew
our minds.
It means that your mind is important.
And what shapes our mind is
our upbringing, what we've gone through,
our experiences.
what we've processed.
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So sometimes we need to go back to those
moments
and figure out what went wrong
and what needs healing. Amen.
Isaiah 61 verse one says, it reminds us of
Jesus' mission.
It says, he had sent me to bind up
the brokenhearted,
to proclaim liberty to the captives.
When we look at it, it's not just to cast
out demons, no,
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but to heal the brokenhearted.
So healing is very key to
our spiritual journey.
It's very key for us as Christians to
really grow. Amen.
If this message has got something in you,
I'm so glad and I'm so blessed
that it's not just me that is feeling this way.
And I want you to speak this truth over
your life today.
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I am not cursed.
I am not possessed.
I am a child of God healing from wounds.
Amen.
I am a child of God healing from these deep
wounds.
Let's break this shame, this name blaming
game that we do.
Let's stop it.
Let's name the pain.
Let's invite God
to the buried places of our hearts
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and begin to truly heal tonight. Amen.
You're not just being attacked by the devil
all the time.
You are being invited into oneness by the
Father.
And sometimes the devil attacks
A place of weakness.
And what is that place of weakness?
The untreated wounds,
the place that you've neglected to handle,
the place that you've,
you've left the crack open by ignoring it.
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Don't do that.
Fix it.
Go down to the root.
Uproot what needs to be uprooted.
replaster one needs to be replastered
and seal up that wound.
So therefore the devil will not have space
to enter
in the future.
Amen.
God bless you and thank you again for
joining me on this podcast.
The what if series is really going deeper
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every day.
And if this is something that you think,
who this one is deep and it means a lot to
me, don't forget to share it.
Don't forget to share, tell somebody.
If this episode was for you, please
Please don't walk this journey alone.
Seek help.
Talk to someone safe,
someone you trust.
Find a good therapist,
a Christian therapist, someone that can mix
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the teaching of, you know, the mind with
the spiritual aspect.
So you have
best of both worlds.
Join a support group.
Start journaling.
I started journaling in 2022
and it's the best decision I've ever made
because of things I can't process.
in my mind,
writing it down helps me to really put it
into context.
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And if you're following my blog, you'll see
me unravel
in ways you've never done before.
So most importantly, stay in God's word.
His word is powerful
and it helps us to understand who we are.
And as we grow in Him,
we begin to form a new identity in God. Amen.
You're not your past, you are your future.
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And the way to get to the future sometimes
is to go back a step to accelerate even
bigger and faster forward. Amen.
Tag me on Instagram @josephineenima.
Share your thoughts.
Let's continue to have this conversation.
Put your comments down below on
those of you on YouTube and on Facebook.
Let me hear what you think.
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Healing is not a destination.
It's a sacred journey. Amen.
And I want to know what your thoughts are.
on this topic.
Until next time, remember, it's not always
spiritual
attack.
Sometimes it's just
unprocessed
trauma.
But healing is possible
and you can be free as I am being free
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every day.
And the scripture say, whom the Lord has
set free is free indeed.
God bless you and thank you once again for
joining me on
I Am Fruitful podcast
on all
available podcasting platforms.
Please download today and share with as
many as you can.
Until next time,
have a good one.
Bye-bye.
God bless you.
I pray for you today that this message
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speaks to your heart.
And I pray that every healing that needs to
take place in your life, in your hope
begins to form right now in the name of Jesus.
May the Lord touch you from the crown of
your head to the sole of your feet.
May you never be in a place of being broken again
in the name of Jesus.
May
God bind up that wound in the name of Jesus
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Christ.
May you begin to walk in liberty
in the mighty name of Jesus.
You are set free today in Jesus' name.
God Almighty will continue to be your
strength and your shield,
your glory and the lifter up of your head
in the name of
Jesus.
God bless you and thank you once again for
joining me today.
My name remains Prophetess Josephine Enumah
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and you have been listening to the What If
series
on I Am Fruitful podcast.
Bye bye.
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