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welcome to the inner workingsof the not so genius mind.
I'm Amanda McCombs, the not so genius Mrs.
Daybreak.
Um,
things with life seem to justkeep moving really, really fast.
And
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You know, there's a lot of healingthat I have done, and I have a
lot of healing I have yet to do,and I am gearing up for The Mrs.
Utah America pageant as Mrs.
Daybreak.
And last year, I think, you know,I was just kind of getting my
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toes wet and trying to figureout what any of this even was.
And, um, I talk with my hands a lot.
Um,
a lot of doing the pageantwas figuring out who I am.
And
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Saying, I am Mrs.
Daybreak, and claiming that as part of myidentity, like, that's, that's who I am.
Right?
I'm Mrs.
Daybreak.
And then it like,
it's different.
It's not like,
I don't know, I'm trying to thinkof the best way to explain it.
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Sorry for the long dramatic pause.
Um, It was like, being able to claim that,even just for a little bit, is going to
help me figure out who I am and what Ilike and, um, opportunities for help.
Like, I've decided to be a helperinstead of look for a helper, like Mr.
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Rogers talked about.
I need to find that quote.
Now I'm going to Google it.
See, I should have been more prepared.
I have no idea what the heck I'm doing.
So his, it was actually his momthat told him, look for the helpers.
You will always find thepeople who are helping.
And I just, um, I got tired of lookingfor them and decided to be one.
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And I just kind of foundthis charity out of the blue.
I am so sorry, that is Yam Yam.
He's calling to me.
He is my ginger mane, half mane coon.
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He is so sweet, but he is like
very loud.
Anyway, I found a non profit thatI am going to work with and it
was my chiropractor's office,Willow Creek Chiropractic.
That actually led me to itbecause they were collecting
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donations for them in December.
And I was trying to figure outwhat, um, what they were, cause
I hadn't heard of it before.
And, you know, I kept goingto these appointments.
They helped me a ton.
I may wear my, uh, six inch platformstilettos on stage and doing chores around
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the house to bring them in and stuff.
But the rest of the time I'm wearingmy custom fit orthotics that I
got from there because it keepsmy body where it's supposed to be.
Anyway, they've been really helpful.
And I looked up their mission.
If you want to look,it's heartsknittogether.
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org So there's a H E A R T S KN I T T O G E T H E R dot O R G.
It's for my non YouTube people.
Um,
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they, uh, their mission justkinda was a little tender to me.
And, they're little.
They recently had a flood.
I'm going to look them up now becausethat's what I'm supposed to be doing.
I don't have them.
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They recently had a flood attheir facility and they were
home.
There we go.
Just going to their website.
Just because I don't want to getany of this information wrong.
I love their messageand everything about it.
And, um.
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They had a flood at their old location.
They were temporarily set up in NorthSalt Lake and now they're moving
all the way down to Linden, Utah.
And that's not like, it's not a littledrive and they have a lot of stuff.
So we kind of put a pause on collectingphysical donations for right now.
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I was trying to figure out the bestway to help her, um, and to just help
this little, this little nonprofit.
Um, And I'm reading from the website.
Our mission is to show love andsupport for those seeking comfort
and refuge in our local communitiesfrom violence and conflict.
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And that just kind of hit home to me.
They're a nonprofit organizationand they give, um, personal items.
to people that are escaping,I cannot talk, escaping
domestic violence, sexual abuse or war.
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And there's different things thatyou can craft and things to collect
and stuff, animals for kids.
Um, and then they put togetherthese different kits and they
give them to people in need.
And there's even ways that you canorder them, um, in different ways
that you can, like you can do monetarydonations and stuff like that.
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And It was the holidays and, youknow, one thing led to another.
Um.
And
I just kept feeling for a long timethat I needed to do, like, I kept joking
with my friends, like, I think I kindof want to do a gala for my birthday.
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And they're like, yeah, sure, whatever.
I'm like, no, really, I think I want todo like a charity gala for my birthday.
Like I want to find something and I wantto have, I want to have people dress up
for a good cause and I want to show thecommunity that, I mean, everybody together
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doing a little can really do a lot.
And it really made me sad because, youknow, I'm trying to get ready to do
this charity for this non profit, andI'm trying to do it for my birthday,
and I don't want pre like, I reallydon't want presents for my birthday.
I really want to justtake care of other people.
If you want to Get meanything for my birthday.
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Maybe help me donate to the charityand help me, um, cover my pageant
contestant costs and things like that.
Um, anyway, it's just a lot.
There's a lot, there's alot on my plate right now.
And my brain is like a little biteverywhere, but I just, I really
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wanted to give everybody an update.
And I have no idea, like, I honestlyhave no idea who listens to this.
Unless they tell me, like, you could havebeen listening the whole time, I have
like absolutely no idea, so, if you arelistening, and if any of this has been
helpful for you, please let me know.
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And I had like, I had so many intentionsof recording last week, and then there
was just a lot outside of my control,um, pardon me, emotional support.
I have a lot of really,really big feelings.
And I was like, I kept showingup at all these different
events that were really fun.
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Like I was having a lot offun at them and I was meeting
a lot of really great people.
And I was networking and, um,you know, we would chit chat.
And, um.
Go our separate ways and somepeople would stay connected, you
know, if it clicks, it clicks.
And if it doesn't, it doesn't andpeople just kind of drift away.
But, um, a lot of crazy stuff going on.
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So
just really felt like I wanted todo something big for my birthday
because there were a lot of timeswhere I would like, this is going
to be like some trauma trauma stuff.
I'm going to childhood trauma dump on you.
Are you ready?
Ready for some word vomit?
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Here we go!
Um, so there were just a lot of timeswhere I would show up for other people and
then it like really really kind of has hithard especially since I lost both parents
because usually at least oneof them would show up for me if
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I'm doing these kinds of things.
Um, and I have showed up for a lotof people at a lot of events and like
I try to help wherever I can, andeven though I have my stuff going
on, like, my stuff isn't too big tonot help you with your stuff, right?
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The load is lighter ifwe carry it together.
Um, but like,
things just kind of, every time Iget to this time of year, there's
usually something that happens, andin one of my PTSD, I see PTSD, means
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complex post traumatic stress disorder.
So, Ahem, um.
And I've just had a lot of events happen.
And usually it's like, you just have,you just have to make it through
and you don't have any other choice.
And so you just move on and you thinkafter you've had the event and you've
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dealt with it, then that you're notgoing to deal with it ever again.
But that's not true.
Um, I have had, and I've talked aboutsome of it before, but I've had a lot
of things happen to me that I probablyshouldn't have had happened, but it really
hit me when like, My wedding came and Iinvited tons and tons of people, people
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that are like, I've gone to their birthdayparties and I've gone to their weddings
and I've gone to all of their eventsand I only had like a handful of people
and then like I have this ideaand I'm really excited about it.
And I just don't ever like, it waslike, I wasn't putting faith in
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myself that it was something that Icould do, that it was a possibility.
Sorry about the dogs.
It's like, it wasn't even apossibility to do some kind of big
event for my birthday because Ireally don't want it to be about me.
I want it to be about the charityand I want it to be about giving back
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because I don't I'm doing okay now,but I know a lot of people that aren't.
Um, and it's taken a lotof work to get where I am.
And there, there have been timeswhere I've really needed somebody
and I didn't have anybody.
And so I try to be open and availablebecause I know what that feels like.
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Um, and it's not fun to feel alone.
And I feel alone a lot.
So I get really, really nervouswhen I like try to get ready to plan
Because usually things come up, likeit was really, really, I think the
hardest thing for me, like, it wasn'tthat it wasn't that there was a lack
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of people that came to the wedding.
It was that instead of.
Instead of, like, not coming, someof them called and said that they
were going to have a girls nightinstead of come to my wedding.
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that just kind of hurt.
Cause it really made me feel likeI'm very low at the priority list.
Right.
And then it just kind of happenedlike over and over and over again.
Like you get cheated on or myhusband hasn't cheated on me.
Talking about in the past, you get cheatedon or like, Somebody tells you they're
going to take you out and they don't,or you get stood up or you get ghosted.
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I've been ghosted so many times.
And it just really, really, ithurts to not feel like you matter.
Right.
And so I really began to internalize thatuntil I was like, I miss this daybreak.
And then I have to be like, who's that?
And then I have to explain whatI stand for and what I'm doing.
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And I talk about taking care ofyourself, but like, Oh, I'm still
trying to figure out what that means.
Right.
Um, and oh, this is the thingI was going to say forever ago.
And then YumYum interrupted me.
So there was somebody that was postingin our local Facebook page about.
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There's some fires over inLA right now, which is awful.
Um, it makes me really really sadbecause there's obviously sad because
there's so many people that have losttheir homes and their animals and
their memories, their photo albums,and my mom's house burned down
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and I couldn't see to gohelp her because of my light
sensitivity, like I still have it.
Hi, baby kitty.
And, um,
when I finally got up there,she had already passed away.
And there,
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there's bits of our life blowingaround in the wind, you know?
Um, Photographs, family recipes, youknow, old, uh, old pictures, you know,
that we drew when we were kids, justblowing away, her sheet music, and some
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awful pictures of me standing by a piano,um, I think I've talked about all of
this before, but this is like, all thesethings that I'm thinking about, right?
I'm not thinking about the politicalparty, or like, I'm looking for
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an opportunity where I can help.
And I did this, I try to do thesame thing wherever I can, right?
If I see somebody is doinga fundraiser, I'll share it.
Even if I can't help, because ifI can't help, somebody else can.
Or maybe there's a resource that theydon't know about that they can get, right?
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And we just deserve somuch more than that.
And my, one of my friends, I'm callingher a friend now, posted about collecting
items to take to people over in LA.
And immediately people werelike, I wouldn't do it unless
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it's like an official charity.
People need to, people needto have the text right off.
And like, We're askingfor clothes and band aids.
Like if you're thinking about yourtaxes, when we're trying to donate
to people who have lost everything,your heart is in the wrong place.
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And then the guy just keptgoing on and on and on.
And it was like, why won'tyou help people here?
Why won't you help people in Florida?
And it was crazy.
And then like, anybody that had any kindof point that proved him wrong, he would
just delete his comment and then it wouldremove the comment that the person said.
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Like, it was just unhinged.
It doesn't matter.
The political party, people are peopleand they need help and we need to
love each other and we need to takecare of each other and we need to
take care of ourselves so we can.
Anyway,
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my plan is to do so much betterat posting and getting you guys
some videos and some podcasts.
I have a lot of guests I'mreally excited to bring on.
Um, The contestants thatI've met so far for Mrs.
Utah America are incredible andthey all have a really, really
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beautiful message and really importantthings that we need to share.
And, you know, I think aboutit and it's a title change.
Like if I, if I were to win, itwould just, yeah, it would elevate a
lot of things and I'd go on to Mrs.
America, holy smokes.
But like,
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somebody else could be Mrs.
Daybreak, right?
And I would just do asmuch good as I could.
And we have got to take care of ourselves.
We have got to let ourselves rest.
I've been so tired.
It's starting to get lighter outside.
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I've been doing a lot of hard work.
Um,
man, what a crazy life, huh?
Um, I will, I'm gonna do my darndestto keep you updated with the birthday
party shenanigans, but right now we'replanning for Uh, like, Old Hollywood Glam.
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Think Marilyn Monroe, Audrey Hepburn.
Style with a marquee.
Whatever.
Fancy.
Um, Mrs.
Daybreak.
Charity Gala.
I have a lot of really wonderfulpeople that are going to help.
And seriously, if you know of anybusinesses or people that would
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love to put together a basketfor a silent auction, I want all
the proceeds to go to charity.
So,
um, Oh, hey, this kitty's going crazy.
I love you guys.
Take care of yourselves.
It's a crazy world out there.
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And in here, I guess.
Uh, follow me on not so cheat.
Not that one.
Follow me at not so genius on Instagram.
And I'm pretty much thereeverywhere else too.
That is also where I am on Facebook.
And if you find me on Facebook, you'llsee that I have two different events.
There's actually one forthe party on February 20th,
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and that's the Charity Gala.
And then there's another one for March29th, and that's actually The Mrs.
Utah America Pageant.
I'm just calling it the Mrs.
Daybreak cheering section because,um, each one of the contestants
gets a unique discount code.
So tune in for that.
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And if I have it in my event, you'llhave all the information you need to
know, like where to get tickets, um, thecharity that it's connected to, and any
other fundraising things that I'm doing.
So let's connect.
Thank you, Ride the Wave Media andBlane for taking care of this hot mess.
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I'll see you next time.