November 25, 2024 • 34 mins
Welcome to the janky, chaotic, and unapologetically raw first episode of my one-man podcast, Brain Juice. This podcast is my attempt to document my thoughts, refine my voice, and figure out what the hell I’m doing—all while oversharing and veering wildly off-track.
Today, I explore life lessons from The Very Hungry Caterpillar by GOATed legend Eric Carle, I drill down the name of the show, and ramble about ambition, failure, and why batteries are underrated.
We're still finding out what this show is. I wish I could tell you with clarity what the future of this show might look like, but honestly, I have no idea. That's why it's fun.
I'm betting episode 10 is going to look very different than episode 1, so when that eventually rolls around, I hope to see you there.
P.S. If we hit 100,000 listens, I’ll tattoo The Very Hungry Caterpillar on my ass.
Thank you to Second Suitor for the use of our theme song Get It off of their 2018 album Safe Space.
Special thanks to Brandon Chrysler for editing the show. I appreciate you man and couldn't do this without you. Hit up Brandon for all your audio editing and post produciton needs: blc9918@gmail.com.
Support the show (and all my creative work) on Patreon: www.patreon.com/noahchrysler
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Eric Carle's claim to fame was thathe wrote the very Hungry
Caterpillar, that was my favoritebook as a kid, and it's not even close.
Okay.
You've got this relatable characterthat is a caterpillar.
Okay? fucking.
He's just, like, crawling his way aroundon the fucking ground, okay?
The ultimate underdog.
And that motherfucker,he knew, he knew he was destined
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for great things,Yo, I might someday gan Eric Carle tattoo.
If this podcast gets to 100,000
listens, we're over a fucking very hungrycaterpillar on my ass.
On average, the human brain containsjust over a liter of juice.
And for this show,I'm going to use every last drop.
Welcome to Brain Juice with Noah Kreisler.
That's me.
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I want you to get.
I just want you to understand
I'm doing the best I can,but not as good as I want to be.
I just want to get it.
I just want to comprehend
that I have to make amendswith the monster
inside of me.
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But I keep forgetting
the things I need to know.
Let me.
Where I'm from becomes
the great unknown.
Whoa oh.
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And I can't seem to get it.
Hello everybody,and welcome to the first episode
of a New thing that I thinkI'm going to make called Brain Juice.
I had this idea in the showerto make a thing called brain juice.
I have a lot of self-doubt.
I have a lot of thoughts in my brain thatI'm like, ooh, that could be something.
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If I did that idea.
And then I start ruminating on it,and then I don't take action right in it.
And it comes to this pointwhere it's like,
ooh, I think about something so muchthat it kills the project, inevitably.
And so partially.
What I think could help me in
my life is like reducing the barrierbetween idea and output, right?
Posting unedited stuff where I'm not doinglike hyper production of stuff
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because like as far as improvisingand riffing goes, I'm pretty damn good.
That's kind of like my thing, right?
I really just lovejust turn it on and speak.
And so this podcast, it's purely audio.
It's purely just the juice.
Here's my thing, okay. I love audio.
Audio is the best.Audio is the best. You know why?
Because it's like programingthat you can just stick into your ears.
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I like the name Brain Juice.
And if you search on Apple Podcasts,there's two other podcasts
with the name Brain Juice.
And this is going to be the third one,or likely the 10th one,
if we're being honest.
Because like, there were two that I foundthat had brain juice as the title,
but there are probably many morewith that name anyway.
I'm going to call it Brain Juice with NoahChrysler, because that's my name.
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My God given name.
Why am I doing that?
Because I feel like audio is such of cool.
I love audiobooks, I love podcastsbecause you stick these earbuds
or you stick them in your ears, and thenthey blast sound literally at your brain.
You know,which is a crazy thing, you know?
And I guess, I guess it's the same thingtechnically with video,
you know, you're watching a screenand that screen is maybe two feet
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in front of your face as you're scrollingon your little Black Mirror iPhone.
But with audio, I don't know.
I think it's different.I think it's different.
I think you get to live your own lifeand do your own stuff and wash the dishes
and drive a car, but then you just getmy thoughts beamed into your from like,
gray matter.
I think that's cool as shit, right?
So anyway, this is that if I publish this,this is what that is.
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This is happening.
This show is also an exercisein helping me find my own voice, I think.
Right.
There's a Bill Hader clip where he talksabout, like, editing and writing,
and he's like, you know, you can't you
if you're going to write a screenplaylike, I could never go into a word
processor and write down all my thoughtsinto the into the word processor, right.
Because there's that cursor and it'slooking at you and it's judging you.
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It's going, what do you got today?
And then you write it outand then you just like ruminate it
and you read it back and you're like,that's shit.
And then you change itand then you keep going, right?
That happens to mewith literally everything.
And so he says, instead of doing that,using an audio recorder,
because audio is a one way medium baby,you're on a one way track through time
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and you cannot go back in timeas much as you wish you could.
You cannot go back and change that dumbass thing that you just said, right?
Instead, you got to plunder through. Baby.
We're on a one way timetrain to the future, and it's
chugging along real slow,but also like scary fast.
So jump on the train and ride it.
And eventually you will make something.
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And it might be shit.
It might be shit.
But here's.
And the other thing isthat you can trust your instincts, right?
I've been making stuff for over ten years.
I have been consuming stuff for literally.
I'm 28 years old,so I've been consuming stuff.
I've been consuming informationsince I was like, you know, a fetus.
And I've been consuming media sinceI was like, you know, 1 or 2, right?
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Starting with, what did I watchwhen I was 1 or 2, probably Sesame Street.
I was big Sesame Street kid,I think. Thomas the Train.
I wasn't really a big Thomas a train kid.
My cousin was a huge Thomas a train kid.
Big, big Tom was a train guy,and now he collects shit.
So maybe that had a lasting impact on him.
We don't know.
He's got like thousands of dollars of,like, action figures and stuff, you know?
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And I'm just thinking those little trainsthat he bought when he was a kid,
maybe that spiked, that spiked it.
Anyway, whatever.
If you trust yourself as a creator,if you trust this mechanism,
this nervous systemthat's been absorbing material
for almost 30 years, right,then it's all you got to do, right?
You're probably going to make somethingreally cool.
You're a natural storyteller.
You're a natural entertainer.
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Or at least I am, right?
I'm a kind of a performative guy. Right?
So that's what this is.
It's also an exercise in injust in just being cool with myself.
Right.
Because I think that I have a little,just like a little bit of self-hate,
just a little bit, just like,you know, when I make something, I'm like,
that's not great, right?
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So this is an exercise
not in self-love because I think self-loveis kind of cringing.
Right.
But instead I just want to like I want tofeel at least indifferent towards myself.
You know, self-love might be a steptoo far where
I'm like, oh, that's a little indulgent,you know?
I don't need the self-love.
How about just just be indifferent,just like, all right, that guy,
that guy's got it going on a little bit.
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You know, he's doing his thing.So anyway, that's my.
That was the thoughtthat hit me in the shower,
turn on an audio recorderand talk into it.
And then probably throw it into some sortof software and just clip it out.
Or maybe have a friend just like,
you know, buzz through it andjust take out the shit that just so like,
you know, rambles on and on and on andmaybe just make it a little bit punchier,
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you know,
but basically just create a just offaudio experience through and through.
So that's kind of the plan.
We've talked about the name Brain Juice.
I just like the name juice too,because like at the end of the day,
at the end of the day,that's what we're making here, right?
You're sticking earbuds in your earsand your brain is making juice.
Baby, you're reacting to the things I say,going, ooh, it's a little cringe or
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he's got a point or oh,I never thought about it like that,
you know, and all that right there.
It's being controlled by juice.
And if you're a scientist or chemistor whatever, you like, actually
it's endorphins in at the Gaba receptorsthat actually it's the SSRI.
That SSRI is.
But the what is that serotonin?
I think that's a juice.
I'm pretty sure I'mpretty sure it's a fluid or it's a solid.
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But I don't you know,when you see a brain on TV,
it doesn't look likeit's filled with powder. Right.
Looks like it's pretty.
It's like a juicy.
It's like a water balloon.
It's like many different spaghettinoodle water balloons.
Kind of like braided together.
And they are filled with juice.
And so that's, that's the name of thepodcast is Brain Juice with Noah Chrysler.
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And why is it thateven though there's ten other ones?
Because I like the nameand that's all we need.
I got some books from the library,
which blows my mind because if you goand you buy a book, it's $30.
You can go to a library.They'll give it to you for free.
There you go.
Lifehack boom.
Libraries explained by 28 year old man.
But anyway, I got I got a book,I got a bunch of books from the library,
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and I'm reading these books
and I'm thinking to myself,and I normally listen to audiobooks, but
I'm really I'm reading these library booksand I'm thinking to myself,
you know, these guys, they write like,especially with these, like,
kind of like self-help books, but, like,they're not really self-help.
They're kind of like more business books.
I read,I read Antifragile by Nassim Taleb,
and then I'm trying to make it throughskin in the game.
But man, skin inthe game is worse, in my opinion.
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It's boring.
But like, you know, antifragile was cool.
He was like, you know, certain
businesses are less fragile than others,and the ones that are antifragile succeed.
Skin in the game is like, hey,you got to do it.
Instead of just instead ofjust being an academic,
you got to actually go make something,put it out in the world and try
to, like, start something and then like,you're gonna have some skin in the game
at least that's what I'm getting so far.
Maybe I haven't fully absorbedthe ideas in that book.
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Anyway, whatever my thing is, is that I'mreading these books and I had a thought.
And I'm thinking to myself,you know, these men
who write these books and women too.
I actually, you know what?
That sounds sexist to me,but I'm reading Angela Duckworth's book.
There's an Angela Duckworthbook in there, too, so can't be mad at me.
It's not grit. It's. It's the other one.
She's a smart Lee.
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She's probably my favorite female author.
So come at me. What was I saying?
I'm reading these books,and I'm thinking to myself,
you know, these motherfuckers,they probably don't have
significantly more mental intellectthan I do, right?
And maybe that'sbecause I feel self-important,
but it just seems to meit's like these people took months
of their lives, or years of their lives,to just riff about a certain topic
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for a very long time,and then they went and cherry
picked studies and stuff and evidence,and they ran experiments,
and they put together personal anecdotesto put together their frame of the world.
And that's all they did.
That is all they did.
And and I can do those things.
I could do those.I do those things every day.
That is how my brain works.
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I thinkcertain things about myself in the world.
And then I go and I cherry pickinformation to support my worldview.
And you can lie to yourself
and say that you don't do that,but everybody does that.
It'd be really coolif we were human monkeys
that looked at the informationout in the world.
And then after we tookin all of that information,
then we decided to write some heuristicsand conclusions that we come to,
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not because of ego and not because ofemotion, but because of that information.
But if you're a human person on thisplanet, it usually works the opposite way.
You usually say, I think this.
I feel this, and here's why.
And then you retroactively justifythe way you think and feel.
Anyway, whatever.
I'm reading these booksand I'm thinking to myself,
I could author, I could, I could orate,I could do this.
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But what it would takeis a positive relationship with oneself.
What it would take is hard work.
In the same vein,you know, there's that scene.
Okay, this is really corny,but do you know that scene in Iron Man?
There's like a GIF too,and like to come in there.
If you go to Instagram,you leave a comment,
and when the GIF think there'sa GIF of of Tony Stark,
RDJ, and he's hammering awayat a piece of steel on an anvil.
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And I liked that gif a lotbecause it just keeps going over and over
and over again. I'm like, yeah, he'sthe hero. He's really working.
He's he's working on an ideain a cave with a box of scraps.
Right.
And he believes it himself,and he has a high sense
of what I think is self-efficacy.
Right.
The idea that I believe in my abilityto solve problems and to create value.
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Right.
And I think that Tony Stark has a highdegree of self-efficacy in that scene.
And so I think about itsometimes when I'm just like
doing stuff and I'm like, oh,I could use some self-efficacy right now.
I get TonyStark in a cave with a box of scraps.
Anyway, whatever.
I'm reading these books, I'm
thinking about Tony Stark in the cavewith a box of scraps,
and then I'm thinkingabout all of these projects
that I start and fail and,you know, and, like, don't continue.
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And then I think about how many projectsI start, and then I never publish
because I'm afraidthat I'm going to not continue it.
I think about it a lot, and I and itand I get caught in rumination
and, and I don't want to do that anymore.
Also,this first episode is really important
because there's a lot of wisdomthat's going to be gleaned from this.
And the first piece of wisdom,another piece of wisdom
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here for you guysis the power of batteries.
Okay? Batteries are important things.
And when they run out
of your audio recorder,then then the audio stops recording.
It's.
So, you know, that time
Choo-Choo that we were talking about,it continues to chug along,
and you might be talking into your timerecorder, you know, choo choo.
If you don't change the batteries
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in that little cool device,then it turns off and it stops recording,
which might have beenwhat happened a few moments ago,
but that would be unprofessionalto say that that happened.
So it didn't happen.And everything's great.
And I'm a professional.You don't part the kimono.
You never knowwhat's gonna happen next. What?
What a pro.
Cool. Batteries are important.
Open. I'm.
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Ladies and
gentlemen, thank you for listeningto episode one of Brain Juice.
I really appreciate it.I know this show is kind of a mess.
This is the first episode,but you know what?
We're finding it together.
And I appreciate you coming on the ride.
Comment on thetilt a whirl and spin it around with me.
And, you know,maybe you ate too much popcorn
and candy and cotton candyand you're going to spew on the way.
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But you know what? We're finding what?
This show is together.
And I appreciate you for being here on mytilt a whirl.
Maybe I'm the carny.
Am I the carny in this scenario?
I don't know.
Anyway, guys,if you'd like to support this show,
you can visit Patreon.com slashNoah Chrysler.
I'm launching a Patreon.
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I, you know, it'skind of a weird and tender thing for me
to do, asking people for moneyto help me support my dreams
and my vision isis a strange leap of faith.
And I, I hope that you don't get upsetwith me for doing that.
But you know what?
If this is ever goingto become a reality,
you gotta just fucking bite the bullet.
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And and, you know, take a leap.
And this is me taking a leap.So if you want to go learn
more about that, visit Patreon.com slashNoel Chrysler.
There's a bunch of different tiersand things.
One of the tiers is going to belike a personalized thank you.
At the end of every episode,you can get that.
Also, I'm going to also be creating videocontent in,
in tandem with this show.
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So you can go to Patreon.com slashNoah Chrysler to support that.
Also another way you can supportthe show is by leaving a five star
review, either on Apple Podcastsor your podcast platform of choice.
If you're like, oh,that's it's premature to do that.
This episode is a long, ramblingmess. Also understood.
Totally, totally fair.
And, you know, hopefully, hopefully,you know,
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the other way you can supportthis show is just by continuing to listen.
That'd be really coolbecause we're finding this in the air.
We're building the plane in the air.
So I don't know.I appreciate you coming to episode one.
Hopefully we see it episode twoand hopefully we see you at episode ten.
Last thing is thatthank you very, very much
to my cousin Brandon for editing this showand piecing it together.
Brandon is a sound engineerextraordinaire.
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He is fantastic.
If you want some helpediting your podcasts or you have,
you know, music that needs to be masteredor something, reach out to Brandon.
What is Brady's email? Let me find it.
It is BLC 9918 at gmail.com.
Britney,you need a better email. Matt. Buddy.
So people can find it.
Anyway, guys, thanks for listening.
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Now back to episode one.
Open. I'm.
I read these authors.
I look at stuff online.Another major influence on me.
There's two other major influences on me.
The first one is The Tim Dillon Show,and the second one is Harmon Towne
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with Dan Harmon.
Dan Harmon is a genius.
Dan Harmon is like,I he's a genius that hates himself
and like, is mentally unwell and just,you know, and makes
some of the best stuff in the worldand just and is just filled with misery.
And I love the deathand I and I and I think that
if I could do work similar to his, like,that's a good life, you know?
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And so like his show Harmon Town,if you've never seen that show,
you know, he'd get a live studio audience.
He would get Jeff, I think Jeff Probst,Jeff Probst, who's on, who's on
Whose line is it anyway?
But he's like co-hostThe thing with Dan Harmon
and they basically Dan Harmongets like pretty drunk every episode
in front of a live studio audienceand then over shares about his life
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and like how he kind of hates himself.
But then also, just like all these,like, butts that just kind of
are swirling around in a, in a brain soupand it's beautiful.
It's beautiful, it's beautiful.
There are some moments from that show
where I'm just like,this is this is super cool.
It's also this, like ego driven thing.
You can tell that, like,
he both hates himself,but also thinks that he's the shit.
Right?
And I think that that's also likeI resonate with that really hard, right?
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I think to myself, you know,I am a special little boy.
And and so that's why I think that, like,I'd actually be more willing
to just talk into this recorderall the time
because it's like,I think I'm a special little boy.
I would love to post that.
Let's bring it back to something concrete.
What am I doing in my life right now?
Well, I'm living in this, in this house,on this lake here.
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And my aunt owned this,but she has since moved into a senior
living community, and,and my family kind of owns this place,
but they're graciously allowedto let me stay here
for the cost of the bills of this place,which is really cool,
because it's kind of given me some timein my life to, like, take a breath
and recover and like, reassessand be like, hey, what do I want to do?
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What kind of stuffdo I want to make it all make stuff.
When I that do, I want to put,
do I want to be a part of this thingthat puts stuff out into the world
that's like kind of grossand kind of like mean?
Is that what I want to door do I want to put stuff
out into the worldthat like, isn't that way.
Like, am I going to be fear driven?
Am I going to say, well, you know,I need people to watch it?
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And one thing that I know that they'regoing to watch is, is mean, gross stuff.
It's like, I don't know,
I think that there might be other waysto live other than that.
I think that there are other thingsthat I can put out into this world.
And so I think I'd rather do that.
So I live in this househere, and I'm trying to get a job.
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Here's another pretentious
little thing that I've realizedis that, like,
I am not going to be satisfied until I'mmaking content like full time, like
like my goal in this life, in this world,in the modern world that we live in.
And you know what?You can call me vain and call me stupid.
You can say, well, we need more plumbers
and we need more tradesmen,and that's fair and we totally need them.
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But I want to make contentfor social media.
It's just what I want to do,
and I'm not going to be satisfieduntil I am doing that with my career.
Right.
And that is a very risky business,and it's a very competitive business,
and it's everybody and their motheris trying to make it in that industry
and in this industry.
And and the chances of successare up in the air.
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Right.
And, and and it's cutthroat and brutal.
And so there are
I can give you probably 200 reasons to notget into the content creation business.
And I believe in them.
And there are good reasonsyou shouldn't do it, but
it doesn't change the factthat it's what I want to do.
Right?
It's again, it's that thing of like,we make decisions emotionally.
We make decisions before
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looking at any information,and then we retroactively justify
the decision that we madeusing the information available. Right.
That is what I have done. Likethere's something about my ego.
There's something about my the waymy brain creates thoughts and ideas where
I'm just like, I need to make contentbecause it just excites me.
I feel like content creatorsnowadays are modern rock stars, right?
Back in the day, my parents had like Kissand Def Leppard and whatever, right?
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And those people were the superstarsof their generation.
The superstars of our generationare these content creators that can go out
and they can share their thoughts.
They can make something that they think iscool or funny,
they can share with other people.
Those other people think it's so coolor funny
that they'll give themtheir attention, their time,
and then eventuallythey'll give them their money.
If they if they really supportwhat that person is doing,
that's what I want to do with my time.
And if that's truly what I want to do,and I understand myself
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and I acknowledge those parts of me,so much so that comes with sacrifice.
And that sacrifice might be a high salary,right?
It might be,you know, over $100,000 a year.
And what a sacrificinga high salary mean, right?
While it means comfort. Right?
Like it means that like yourit means safety, right?
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Like you're you're probably less safe thanthan you would be without that salary.
Right?
Because like, you know, you're subjectedto potentially falling victim to,
you know, companies that one of you overlike credit card companies
or that sort of thing.
And so there's a trade off that comes with
pursuing the things that you want to do.
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And money safety.
Another thing that I think isa part of that trade off is status, right?
Because right nowI'm looking at part time jobs, right?
Bartending, waiting tables.
And I think that those jobs are valuableand respectable things to do.
There are certain timesI go to a restaurant
and we have a waitress, and I'm like,that person is a rock star.
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And I don't
I don't even know if I could dowhat that person is doing
because that person'sgot it down to a tee.
They are perfectly like,you know, socially, like nailing this.
And then they're also managinglike a dozen different things at one time.
And that's awesome.
Same thing with like really coolbartenders. I respect the fact of them.
That said, like, I went to a high schoolthat were like, everybody was like,
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one time this guy who went, who had a kidgoing to the like other district,
he goes, oh, oh, that'swhere you were to school.
That's what happenswhen you put a dollar in the system.
And I was like, what does that even mean?
But like, he meant like,you know, it's like competitive, right?
People compete on status.
And so if I'm going to go get a jobat food, certain food service at 28 years
old, right when my when my peers are,you know, going to become doctors
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and lawyers and doctorsand lawyers and business executives,
then there is a status trade off there.
And it's also a little humiliatingto accept help.
Right.
There's a there's a thing in my egothat says,
I need to do all of this on my own,and I'm going to do all of this on my own.
But, you know, when you runto do audacious and big things like you,
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you can't just do them on your own.
Like that's just not how it works.
You don't just get to just have thethe world does not bend to your will.
You know, you got to kind of work with itand you got to kind of use the, the,
the, the sticks and mud at your disposalto build your little, you know, teepee.
This is a weird metaphorfor why you're building a teepee.
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But anyway, so I'm back home.
I'm back home after living in Atlanta.
After living in Austin, I'm back homeand I am going to get a crappy job.
As long as my parents will have me hereand be cool with me
just covering the expenses of this placelike I am happy to be here.
I feel grateful for that support becauseI understand that not everybody has that.
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And maybe I'm
a child of privilege and maybe, you know,I'm not a pussy and you know what?
And whatever. And maybe that's true.
Like that's fine.
And I accept those things.
I accept, I accept thatif you think that me accepting help
means that I'm lessthan, I accept that I accept the shame.
And and I think differently, I just doI think I've let go of that
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because I want these thingsso badly in my life,
and I want to create a life for methat works.
And because I have acknowledged that,like creating a life for me, that I feel
satisfied and requires some sacrifice,I am okay with with that stuff.
I'm okay with that loss of safety.
I'm okay with that loss of status,and I'm okay
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with the humility that comeswith accepting help from other people.
And I'm also okay with the loss of controlthat accepting help from other people
requires. Oh, okay is a strong word.
I am, I am, I,I accept the loss of control
and it's not total loss of control,but it's a little loss of control, right?
It's like okay.
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Like,you know, if I'm going to accept help,
then that means thatI have to do some stuff to help too.
And I'm happy to do thatGuys, here's an idea.
okay.
I saw something this morning from my guy,Eric Carle.
Fucking God bless and rest his soul.
Do you guys know Eric Carle is Eric Carle?
Is this as a man on this planetthat I respect the fucking shit out of?
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Eric Carle's claim to fame was thathe wrote the very Hungry Caterpillar,
the fucking story book for childrenall across the globe.
It's been a classic for years. Okay.
And here'smy thing is that Eric Carle knew
how to write the shitout of a fucking children's storybook.
Dude, that book, that was my favoritebook as a kid, and it's not even close.
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Okay.
Eric Carle was a fucking bookwriting prodigy.
He fucking mailed it in one.
I have no idea about his other worksand things,
but I'm just assumethis is what feels right to me.
Is that like he wrote one book,he had one one hit wonder,
and then he never did anything else.And you know what?
He never needed to,because that book was so fucking good.
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Dude.
Think about The Very Hungry Caterpillar,okay?
You've got this relatable characterthat is a caterpillar.
Okay? He's an everyman. He's just fucking.
He's just, like, crawling his way aroundon the fucking ground, okay?
The ultimate underdog. But he's not a dog.
He's a worm or a caterpillar. Really?
Because those are different.
He's worm in his way on the ground. Okay.
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And this motherfucker, he's.
The Very Hungry
Caterpillar is the very first DavidGoggins.
Okay. Do do you understand that? Right.
Think about the Very Hungry Caterpillar.
He's fucking worming his wayaround the ground, and then he's.
He starts to eat.
And that motherfucker, he knew, he knewhe was destined for great things, right?
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He eats fucking one thing this day.
Oh, he's still hungry.
Then he eats two things the next day.
Okay, then. You know.
Okay, here'swhy that book's so fucking good, right?
You've got the characterizationof this underdog narrative, right?
Thenand when you're a kid, you don't really.
You're not thinking two steps ahead.
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When you're an adult, you think, oh,caterpillars turn into butterflies.
When you're a kid, you fucking don't knowwhat's coming, right?
So he eats one thing that one day,then he's still hungry.
He eats two things, the next thing,then we heighten.
Dude, we continue to heightenand we continue to build tension.
Right? And it's fucking all, baby.
Oh, it's so goodthat you just ratchets it up.
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Okay, here is a titular innovationthat Eric Carle
brought to children's storybooksand that is that.
Do you remember those pages?
Do you remember thatone section of the book where
there's like an accordion assignment,an accordion?
It's like a it's like a staircaseof fucking, like multilayered pages.
Right?
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And it's like,oh, one apple, two pears, three plums, or
I don't know the exact fruit, but like,
you know, and it's like,and you open them up and you can.
And as a kid, as a kid,when you are fucking just first exploring
what a book could possibly bewhen your nervous system is six months old
or like eight months old, and you'rejust discovering what the world is,
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and you can have this, like tactile,like staircase of,
of multi-layered pages in this book
that is like cocaineto the young developing brain,
the of an oven of a child'snervous system.
Or at least it was for mine.
What a fucking go.
Eric Carle is also not.
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Let's not stop there.But he's got the staircase, right?
There's a fucking hole in each andevery single one of those pages, right?
And as a child, I'm just thinking tomyself, wow, this is what books can be.
This is an innovation in this genre.
And cool. So great.
So we've got the characterizationof the caterpillar.
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We've got this like built in hero'snarrative. Right.
We've got thislike linear progression of in a
in done and expressed in a very cool wayand very uniquely,
you know, taking advantage of the mediumin his own original way.
And then we hit the titular moment,right?
The fucking caterpillarfinally eats all this shit, and he's like,
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you know, and we.
And there's this, like,there's this, there's this
focus in of energy, right?
And it's like.And finally the caterpillar.
I don't remember the exact story,but I but from my memory of things,
the caterpillar then turns he's he'sthat he stops being hungry.
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Right. And he turns into a chrysalis.
And if you're a child, I'm telling youright now, we're gonna get real close
and real intimate to this.
If you're a child and you don't know thatcaterpillars become butterflies.
Like, I didn't know the first timeI read that fucking book,
you state that caterpillarsfucking dead, dude.
Imagine. Imagine being eight months old.
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You have no fucking conceptthat a caterpillar turns into a butterfly.
All you know is that you.
I have identified you have empathizedwith this little fucking worm
and how he's eaten all this shit,and you're fucking grinding with him.
You're Gogginsesque with this caterpillar.
There's a part of youin his little fucking brain right?
And thenyou experience, after you've climbed
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your highest mountain,you experience death, right?
Or at least that'swhat I'm assuming happens in the book.
From my memory.
And then
the last page, we turn the fucking page.
And you know what? It fucking paid off.
Maybe we're a fucking.
We are a fucking butterfly, dude.
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Do you know how fucking coolit would be to be a butterfly?
You fly around like as an eight monthold, there's nothing cooler than fuck, I'm
a butterfly.
Bring joy, dude, I'm a pollinator.
I'm going to fucking you.
You want you want crops, you want apples?
I'm going to bring crops. Apples.
I mean, maybe get eaten by a bird.I'm going to do it all.
I'm a butterfly, I bring joy,I fly around, you can catch me in a net.
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And I'm also going to eat theI think I think
butterflies eat, like bad insects.
Is that true? Now that's spiders.
I don't know, but if you just.
Dope. Right. Nobody's.Nobody's hitting a butterfly.
Like, it's like, you know, a pest.
No, a butterfly is awesome.
And so I just think that Eric Carle isone of the greatest artists of all time.
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What a fucking goat.
God rest his soul.
He's from Syracuse, new York. Okay?
And somebody sent mesomething about The Very Hungry
Caterpillar this morning,and I was just looking at it.
And I'm thinking to myself, you know what?
If Eric Carle can be a fucking goatedfucking innovator
in children's storybooks,
and he can useall of these storytelling tools,
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and he can uniquely use his medium,and he can fucking warp
the mind of an eight month oldand tell them a mind shattering story.
If he can do all that from Syracuse,New York, I bet I can fucking figure out
how to pay my bills from heremaking content and shit right?
I don't know. Anyway, Eric calls the goat.
Yo, I might someday gan Eric Carle tattoo.
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Could you imaginea very hungry caterpillar?
Just like fucking Like on my chestor something.
Just like very big and very province.
That's actually a great idea.Maybe on my ass.
A very hungrycaterpillar on my ass is a fantastic idea.
I'm gonna. I'm gonna earmark that one.
If this podcast gets to 100,000listens, we're going to fucking put it.
over a fucking very hungrycaterpillar on my ass.
anyway, whatever.
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We've gone off on a tangent,which is kind of the point of this show.
It's called brain juice.
It's not called,you know, organized essay.
So if you want to go look up the show,organized essay
and let's do an organized essay,go listen to that.
But if you want to listen to a, a trainthat sometimes goes off the rails
and takes a little detourthrough the woods
and comes back on the railsto make it to the station,
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we're going to get to the stationeventually.
There's our destination station, baby,and it's the end of the episode,
which we have reached here.
Thank you for listening to the firstepisode of Brain Juice with Noah Kreisler.
That's me.
I hope that I post this,and I hope that you listen to the next one
and subscribe on Apple Podcastsor Spotify or Ball Liquor.
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I don't know what I don't know. And hey,you know what?
I think if you rate the show,I think that also is helpful.
And but you know, if you're going to rateat five stars, try not to duke be
try not to be like, oh, this guy one star,live your life, make your choices.
I'm going to go work on a video,a hyper produced, edited thing
that I ruminate on for months and
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yeah, they go brain juice.
I suppose your favorite clips take clips,stick 30s out of this conversation
and be like, I like this.
Just, you know, make an Instagram storyand tag me and I
and I'll say, oh, cool, maybeI'll make Danny do short or some shit.
Oh man, I've seen these shortsfrom Jack County where he does his podcast
and he has like artist who art overit looks really expensive to produce,
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but man, maybe someday,maybe when I go get my table waiting job,
I'll have enough moneyto produce that shit. Cool.
All right, talk to you later.
Now it's an answering machine. Bye bye.
Thank you to Second Suitor
for the use of our theme song,Get It off of their 2018 album Safe Space.
Make sure to go check outSecond Suitor over on Spotify.
Thank you also to my cousinBrandon Chrysler for editing the show.
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Want you to get it.
I want you to understand.
I'm doing the best I can,but not as good as I wanna be.
I just wanna get it
through because it will manifest.
I'm not getting any rash as it is.
I only want a dream.
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I just wanna get it,get it, get it, get it, get it,
get it, get it,get it, get it, get it, get it, get.
Eric Carle's claim to fame was thathe wrote the very Hungry
Caterpillar, that was my favoritebook as a kid, and it's not even close.
Okay.
You've got this relatable characterthat is a caterpillar.
Okay? fucking.
He's just, like, crawling his way aroundon the fucking ground, okay?
The ultimate underdog.
And that motherfucker,he knew, he knew he was destined
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for great things,Yo, I might someday gan Eric Carle tattoo.
If this podcast gets to 100,000
listens, we're over a fucking very hungrycaterpillar on my ass.
On average, the human brain containsjust over a liter of juice.
And for this show,I'm going to use every last drop.
Welcome to Brain Juice with Noah Kreisler.
That's me.
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I want you to get.
I just want you to understand
I'm doing the best I can,but not as good as I want to be.
I just want to get it.
I just want to comprehend
that I have to make amendswith the monster
inside of me.
(01:05):
But I keep forgetting
the things I need to know.
Let me.
Where I'm from becomes
the great unknown.
Whoa oh.
(01:26):
And I can't seem to get it.
Hello everybody,and welcome to the first episode
of a New thing that I thinkI'm going to make called Brain Juice.
I had this idea in the showerto make a thing called brain juice.
I have a lot of self-doubt.
I have a lot of thoughts in my brain thatI'm like, ooh, that could be something.
(01:48):
If I did that idea.
And then I start ruminating on it,and then I don't take action right in it.
And it comes to this pointwhere it's like,
ooh, I think about something so muchthat it kills the project, inevitably.
And so partially.
What I think could help me in
my life is like reducing the barrierbetween idea and output, right?
Posting unedited stuff where I'm not doinglike hyper production of stuff
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because like as far as improvisingand riffing goes, I'm pretty damn good.
That's kind of like my thing, right?
I really just lovejust turn it on and speak.
And so this podcast, it's purely audio.
It's purely just the juice.
Here's my thing, okay. I love audio.
Audio is the best.Audio is the best. You know why?
Because it's like programingthat you can just stick into your ears.
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I like the name Brain Juice.
And if you search on Apple Podcasts,there's two other podcasts
with the name Brain Juice.
And this is going to be the third one,or likely the 10th one,
if we're being honest.
Because like, there were two that I foundthat had brain juice as the title,
but there are probably many morewith that name anyway.
I'm going to call it Brain Juice with NoahChrysler, because that's my name.
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My God given name.
Why am I doing that?
Because I feel like audio is such of cool.
I love audiobooks, I love podcastsbecause you stick these earbuds
or you stick them in your ears, and thenthey blast sound literally at your brain.
You know,which is a crazy thing, you know?
And I guess, I guess it's the same thingtechnically with video,
you know, you're watching a screenand that screen is maybe two feet
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in front of your face as you're scrollingon your little Black Mirror iPhone.
But with audio, I don't know.
I think it's different.I think it's different.
I think you get to live your own lifeand do your own stuff and wash the dishes
and drive a car, but then you just getmy thoughts beamed into your from like,
gray matter.
I think that's cool as shit, right?
So anyway, this is that if I publish this,this is what that is.
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This is happening.
This show is also an exercisein helping me find my own voice, I think.
Right.
There's a Bill Hader clip where he talksabout, like, editing and writing,
and he's like, you know, you can't you
if you're going to write a screenplaylike, I could never go into a word
processor and write down all my thoughtsinto the into the word processor, right.
Because there's that cursor and it'slooking at you and it's judging you.
(04:04):
It's going, what do you got today?
And then you write it outand then you just like ruminate it
and you read it back and you're like,that's shit.
And then you change itand then you keep going, right?
That happens to mewith literally everything.
And so he says, instead of doing that,using an audio recorder,
because audio is a one way medium baby,you're on a one way track through time
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and you cannot go back in timeas much as you wish you could.
You cannot go back and change that dumbass thing that you just said, right?
Instead, you got to plunder through. Baby.
We're on a one way timetrain to the future, and it's
chugging along real slow,but also like scary fast.
So jump on the train and ride it.
And eventually you will make something.
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And it might be shit.
It might be shit.
But here's.
And the other thing isthat you can trust your instincts, right?
I've been making stuff for over ten years.
I have been consuming stuff for literally.
I'm 28 years old,so I've been consuming stuff.
I've been consuming informationsince I was like, you know, a fetus.
And I've been consuming media sinceI was like, you know, 1 or 2, right?
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Starting with, what did I watchwhen I was 1 or 2, probably Sesame Street.
I was big Sesame Street kid,I think. Thomas the Train.
I wasn't really a big Thomas a train kid.
My cousin was a huge Thomas a train kid.
Big, big Tom was a train guy,and now he collects shit.
So maybe that had a lasting impact on him.
We don't know.
He's got like thousands of dollars of,like, action figures and stuff, you know?
(05:29):
And I'm just thinking those little trainsthat he bought when he was a kid,
maybe that spiked, that spiked it.
Anyway, whatever.
If you trust yourself as a creator,if you trust this mechanism,
this nervous systemthat's been absorbing material
for almost 30 years, right,then it's all you got to do, right?
You're probably going to make somethingreally cool.
You're a natural storyteller.
You're a natural entertainer.
(05:50):
Or at least I am, right?
I'm a kind of a performative guy. Right?
So that's what this is.
It's also an exercise in injust in just being cool with myself.
Right.
Because I think that I have a little,just like a little bit of self-hate,
just a little bit, just like,you know, when I make something, I'm like,
that's not great, right?
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So this is an exercise
not in self-love because I think self-loveis kind of cringing.
Right.
But instead I just want to like I want tofeel at least indifferent towards myself.
You know, self-love might be a steptoo far where
I'm like, oh, that's a little indulgent,you know?
I don't need the self-love.
How about just just be indifferent,just like, all right, that guy,
that guy's got it going on a little bit.
(06:32):
You know, he's doing his thing.So anyway, that's my.
That was the thoughtthat hit me in the shower,
turn on an audio recorderand talk into it.
And then probably throw it into some sortof software and just clip it out.
Or maybe have a friend just like,
you know, buzz through it andjust take out the shit that just so like,
you know, rambles on and on and on andmaybe just make it a little bit punchier,
(06:54):
you know,
but basically just create a just offaudio experience through and through.
So that's kind of the plan.
We've talked about the name Brain Juice.
I just like the name juice too,because like at the end of the day,
at the end of the day,that's what we're making here, right?
You're sticking earbuds in your earsand your brain is making juice.
Baby, you're reacting to the things I say,going, ooh, it's a little cringe or
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he's got a point or oh,I never thought about it like that,
you know, and all that right there.
It's being controlled by juice.
And if you're a scientist or chemistor whatever, you like, actually
it's endorphins in at the Gaba receptorsthat actually it's the SSRI.
That SSRI is.
But the what is that serotonin?
I think that's a juice.
I'm pretty sure I'mpretty sure it's a fluid or it's a solid.
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But I don't you know,when you see a brain on TV,
it doesn't look likeit's filled with powder. Right.
Looks like it's pretty.
It's like a juicy.
It's like a water balloon.
It's like many different spaghettinoodle water balloons.
Kind of like braided together.
And they are filled with juice.
And so that's, that's the name of thepodcast is Brain Juice with Noah Chrysler.
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And why is it thateven though there's ten other ones?
Because I like the nameand that's all we need.
I got some books from the library,
which blows my mind because if you goand you buy a book, it's $30.
You can go to a library.They'll give it to you for free.
There you go.
Lifehack boom.
Libraries explained by 28 year old man.
But anyway, I got I got a book,I got a bunch of books from the library,
(08:29):
and I'm reading these books
and I'm thinking to myself,and I normally listen to audiobooks, but
I'm really I'm reading these library booksand I'm thinking to myself,
you know, these guys, they write like,especially with these, like,
kind of like self-help books, but, like,they're not really self-help.
They're kind of like more business books.
I read,I read Antifragile by Nassim Taleb,
and then I'm trying to make it throughskin in the game.
But man, skin inthe game is worse, in my opinion.
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It's boring.
But like, you know, antifragile was cool.
He was like, you know, certain
businesses are less fragile than others,and the ones that are antifragile succeed.
Skin in the game is like, hey,you got to do it.
Instead of just instead ofjust being an academic,
you got to actually go make something,put it out in the world and try
to, like, start something and then like,you're gonna have some skin in the game
at least that's what I'm getting so far.
Maybe I haven't fully absorbedthe ideas in that book.
(09:13):
Anyway, whatever my thing is, is that I'mreading these books and I had a thought.
And I'm thinking to myself,you know, these men
who write these books and women too.
I actually, you know what?
That sounds sexist to me,but I'm reading Angela Duckworth's book.
There's an Angela Duckworthbook in there, too, so can't be mad at me.
It's not grit. It's. It's the other one.
She's a smart Lee.
(09:33):
She's probably my favorite female author.
So come at me. What was I saying?
I'm reading these books,and I'm thinking to myself,
you know, these motherfuckers,they probably don't have
significantly more mental intellectthan I do, right?
And maybe that'sbecause I feel self-important,
but it just seems to meit's like these people took months
of their lives, or years of their lives,to just riff about a certain topic
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for a very long time,and then they went and cherry
picked studies and stuff and evidence,and they ran experiments,
and they put together personal anecdotesto put together their frame of the world.
And that's all they did.
That is all they did.
And and I can do those things.
I could do those.I do those things every day.
That is how my brain works.
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I thinkcertain things about myself in the world.
And then I go and I cherry pickinformation to support my worldview.
And you can lie to yourself
and say that you don't do that,but everybody does that.
It'd be really coolif we were human monkeys
that looked at the informationout in the world.
And then after we tookin all of that information,
then we decided to write some heuristicsand conclusions that we come to,
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not because of ego and not because ofemotion, but because of that information.
But if you're a human person on thisplanet, it usually works the opposite way.
You usually say, I think this.
I feel this, and here's why.
And then you retroactively justifythe way you think and feel.
Anyway, whatever.
I'm reading these booksand I'm thinking to myself,
I could author, I could, I could orate,I could do this.
(10:58):
But what it would takeis a positive relationship with oneself.
What it would take is hard work.
In the same vein,you know, there's that scene.
Okay, this is really corny,but do you know that scene in Iron Man?
There's like a GIF too,and like to come in there.
If you go to Instagram,you leave a comment,
and when the GIF think there'sa GIF of of Tony Stark,
RDJ, and he's hammering awayat a piece of steel on an anvil.
(11:21):
And I liked that gif a lotbecause it just keeps going over and over
and over again. I'm like, yeah, he'sthe hero. He's really working.
He's he's working on an ideain a cave with a box of scraps.
Right.
And he believes it himself,and he has a high sense
of what I think is self-efficacy.
Right.
The idea that I believe in my abilityto solve problems and to create value.
(11:41):
Right.
And I think that Tony Stark has a highdegree of self-efficacy in that scene.
And so I think about itsometimes when I'm just like
doing stuff and I'm like, oh,I could use some self-efficacy right now.
I get TonyStark in a cave with a box of scraps.
Anyway, whatever.
I'm reading these books, I'm
thinking about Tony Stark in the cavewith a box of scraps,
and then I'm thinkingabout all of these projects
that I start and fail and,you know, and, like, don't continue.
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And then I think about how many projectsI start, and then I never publish
because I'm afraidthat I'm going to not continue it.
I think about it a lot, and I and itand I get caught in rumination
and, and I don't want to do that anymore.
Also,this first episode is really important
because there's a lot of wisdomthat's going to be gleaned from this.
And the first piece of wisdom,another piece of wisdom
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here for you guysis the power of batteries.
Okay? Batteries are important things.
And when they run out
of your audio recorder,then then the audio stops recording.
It's.
So, you know, that time
Choo-Choo that we were talking about,it continues to chug along,
and you might be talking into your timerecorder, you know, choo choo.
If you don't change the batteries
(12:47):
in that little cool device,then it turns off and it stops recording,
which might have beenwhat happened a few moments ago,
but that would be unprofessionalto say that that happened.
So it didn't happen.And everything's great.
And I'm a professional.You don't part the kimono.
You never knowwhat's gonna happen next. What?
What a pro.
Cool. Batteries are important.
Open. I'm.
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Ladies and
gentlemen, thank you for listeningto episode one of Brain Juice.
I really appreciate it.I know this show is kind of a mess.
This is the first episode,but you know what?
We're finding it together.
And I appreciate you coming on the ride.
Comment on thetilt a whirl and spin it around with me.
And, you know,maybe you ate too much popcorn
and candy and cotton candyand you're going to spew on the way.
(13:35):
But you know what? We're finding what?
This show is together.
And I appreciate you for being here on mytilt a whirl.
Maybe I'm the carny.
Am I the carny in this scenario?
I don't know.
Anyway, guys,if you'd like to support this show,
you can visit Patreon.com slashNoah Chrysler.
I'm launching a Patreon.
(13:55):
I, you know, it'skind of a weird and tender thing for me
to do, asking people for moneyto help me support my dreams
and my vision isis a strange leap of faith.
And I, I hope that you don't get upsetwith me for doing that.
But you know what?
If this is ever goingto become a reality,
you gotta just fucking bite the bullet.
(14:16):
And and, you know, take a leap.
And this is me taking a leap.So if you want to go learn
more about that, visit Patreon.com slashNoel Chrysler.
There's a bunch of different tiersand things.
One of the tiers is going to belike a personalized thank you.
At the end of every episode,you can get that.
Also, I'm going to also be creating videocontent in,
in tandem with this show.
(14:38):
So you can go to Patreon.com slashNoah Chrysler to support that.
Also another way you can supportthe show is by leaving a five star
review, either on Apple Podcastsor your podcast platform of choice.
If you're like, oh,that's it's premature to do that.
This episode is a long, ramblingmess. Also understood.
Totally, totally fair.
And, you know, hopefully, hopefully,you know,
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the other way you can supportthis show is just by continuing to listen.
That'd be really coolbecause we're finding this in the air.
We're building the plane in the air.
So I don't know.I appreciate you coming to episode one.
Hopefully we see it episode twoand hopefully we see you at episode ten.
Last thing is thatthank you very, very much
to my cousin Brandon for editing this showand piecing it together.
Brandon is a sound engineerextraordinaire.
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He is fantastic.
If you want some helpediting your podcasts or you have,
you know, music that needs to be masteredor something, reach out to Brandon.
What is Brady's email? Let me find it.
It is BLC 9918 at gmail.com.
Britney,you need a better email. Matt. Buddy.
So people can find it.
Anyway, guys, thanks for listening.
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Now back to episode one.
Open. I'm.
I read these authors.
I look at stuff online.Another major influence on me.
There's two other major influences on me.
The first one is The Tim Dillon Show,and the second one is Harmon Towne
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with Dan Harmon.
Dan Harmon is a genius.
Dan Harmon is like,I he's a genius that hates himself
and like, is mentally unwell and just,you know, and makes
some of the best stuff in the worldand just and is just filled with misery.
And I love the deathand I and I and I think that
if I could do work similar to his, like,that's a good life, you know?
(16:25):
And so like his show Harmon Town,if you've never seen that show,
you know, he'd get a live studio audience.
He would get Jeff, I think Jeff Probst,Jeff Probst, who's on, who's on
Whose line is it anyway?
But he's like co-hostThe thing with Dan Harmon
and they basically Dan Harmongets like pretty drunk every episode
in front of a live studio audienceand then over shares about his life
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and like how he kind of hates himself.
But then also, just like all these,like, butts that just kind of
are swirling around in a, in a brain soupand it's beautiful.
It's beautiful, it's beautiful.
There are some moments from that show
where I'm just like,this is this is super cool.
It's also this, like ego driven thing.
You can tell that, like,
he both hates himself,but also thinks that he's the shit.
Right?
And I think that that's also likeI resonate with that really hard, right?
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I think to myself, you know,I am a special little boy.
And and so that's why I think that, like,I'd actually be more willing
to just talk into this recorderall the time
because it's like,I think I'm a special little boy.
I would love to post that.
Let's bring it back to something concrete.
What am I doing in my life right now?
Well, I'm living in this, in this house,on this lake here.
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And my aunt owned this,but she has since moved into a senior
living community, and,and my family kind of owns this place,
but they're graciously allowedto let me stay here
for the cost of the bills of this place,which is really cool,
because it's kind of given me some timein my life to, like, take a breath
and recover and like, reassessand be like, hey, what do I want to do?
(17:53):
What kind of stuffdo I want to make it all make stuff.
When I that do, I want to put,
do I want to be a part of this thingthat puts stuff out into the world
that's like kind of grossand kind of like mean?
Is that what I want to door do I want to put stuff
out into the worldthat like, isn't that way.
Like, am I going to be fear driven?
Am I going to say, well, you know,I need people to watch it?
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And one thing that I know that they'regoing to watch is, is mean, gross stuff.
It's like, I don't know,
I think that there might be other waysto live other than that.
I think that there are other thingsthat I can put out into this world.
And so I think I'd rather do that.
So I live in this househere, and I'm trying to get a job.
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Here's another pretentious
little thing that I've realizedis that, like,
I am not going to be satisfied until I'mmaking content like full time, like
like my goal in this life, in this world,in the modern world that we live in.
And you know what?You can call me vain and call me stupid.
You can say, well, we need more plumbers
and we need more tradesmen,and that's fair and we totally need them.
(18:59):
But I want to make contentfor social media.
It's just what I want to do,
and I'm not going to be satisfieduntil I am doing that with my career.
Right.
And that is a very risky business,and it's a very competitive business,
and it's everybody and their motheris trying to make it in that industry
and in this industry.
And and the chances of successare up in the air.
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Right.
And, and and it's cutthroat and brutal.
And so there are
I can give you probably 200 reasons to notget into the content creation business.
And I believe in them.
And there are good reasonsyou shouldn't do it, but
it doesn't change the factthat it's what I want to do.
Right?
It's again, it's that thing of like,we make decisions emotionally.
We make decisions before
(19:42):
looking at any information,and then we retroactively justify
the decision that we madeusing the information available. Right.
That is what I have done. Likethere's something about my ego.
There's something about my the waymy brain creates thoughts and ideas where
I'm just like, I need to make contentbecause it just excites me.
I feel like content creatorsnowadays are modern rock stars, right?
Back in the day, my parents had like Kissand Def Leppard and whatever, right?
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And those people were the superstarsof their generation.
The superstars of our generationare these content creators that can go out
and they can share their thoughts.
They can make something that they think iscool or funny,
they can share with other people.
Those other people think it's so coolor funny
that they'll give themtheir attention, their time,
and then eventuallythey'll give them their money.
If they if they really supportwhat that person is doing,
that's what I want to do with my time.
And if that's truly what I want to do,and I understand myself
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and I acknowledge those parts of me,so much so that comes with sacrifice.
And that sacrifice might be a high salary,right?
It might be,you know, over $100,000 a year.
And what a sacrificinga high salary mean, right?
While it means comfort. Right?
Like it means that like yourit means safety, right?
(20:47):
Like you're you're probably less safe thanthan you would be without that salary.
Right?
Because like, you know, you're subjectedto potentially falling victim to,
you know, companies that one of you overlike credit card companies
or that sort of thing.
And so there's a trade off that comes with
pursuing the things that you want to do.
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And money safety.
Another thing that I think isa part of that trade off is status, right?
Because right nowI'm looking at part time jobs, right?
Bartending, waiting tables.
And I think that those jobs are valuableand respectable things to do.
There are certain timesI go to a restaurant
and we have a waitress, and I'm like,that person is a rock star.
(21:30):
And I don't
I don't even know if I could dowhat that person is doing
because that person'sgot it down to a tee.
They are perfectly like,you know, socially, like nailing this.
And then they're also managinglike a dozen different things at one time.
And that's awesome.
Same thing with like really coolbartenders. I respect the fact of them.
That said, like, I went to a high schoolthat were like, everybody was like,
(21:50):
one time this guy who went, who had a kidgoing to the like other district,
he goes, oh, oh, that'swhere you were to school.
That's what happenswhen you put a dollar in the system.
And I was like, what does that even mean?
But like, he meant like,you know, it's like competitive, right?
People compete on status.
And so if I'm going to go get a jobat food, certain food service at 28 years
old, right when my when my peers are,you know, going to become doctors
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and lawyers and doctorsand lawyers and business executives,
then there is a status trade off there.
And it's also a little humiliatingto accept help.
Right.
There's a there's a thing in my egothat says,
I need to do all of this on my own,and I'm going to do all of this on my own.
But, you know, when you runto do audacious and big things like you,
(22:36):
you can't just do them on your own.
Like that's just not how it works.
You don't just get to just have thethe world does not bend to your will.
You know, you got to kind of work with itand you got to kind of use the, the,
the, the sticks and mud at your disposalto build your little, you know, teepee.
This is a weird metaphorfor why you're building a teepee.
(22:56):
But anyway, so I'm back home.
I'm back home after living in Atlanta.
After living in Austin, I'm back homeand I am going to get a crappy job.
As long as my parents will have me hereand be cool with me
just covering the expenses of this placelike I am happy to be here.
I feel grateful for that support becauseI understand that not everybody has that.
(23:18):
And maybe I'm
a child of privilege and maybe, you know,I'm not a pussy and you know what?
And whatever. And maybe that's true.
Like that's fine.
And I accept those things.
I accept, I accept thatif you think that me accepting help
means that I'm lessthan, I accept that I accept the shame.
And and I think differently, I just doI think I've let go of that
(23:42):
because I want these thingsso badly in my life,
and I want to create a life for methat works.
And because I have acknowledged that,like creating a life for me, that I feel
satisfied and requires some sacrifice,I am okay with with that stuff.
I'm okay with that loss of safety.
I'm okay with that loss of status,and I'm okay
(24:02):
with the humility that comeswith accepting help from other people.
And I'm also okay with the loss of controlthat accepting help from other people
requires. Oh, okay is a strong word.
I am, I am, I,I accept the loss of control
and it's not total loss of control,but it's a little loss of control, right?
It's like okay.
(24:22):
Like,you know, if I'm going to accept help,
then that means thatI have to do some stuff to help too.
And I'm happy to do thatGuys, here's an idea.
okay.
I saw something this morning from my guy,Eric Carle.
Fucking God bless and rest his soul.
Do you guys know Eric Carle is Eric Carle?
Is this as a man on this planetthat I respect the fucking shit out of?
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Eric Carle's claim to fame was thathe wrote the very Hungry Caterpillar,
the fucking story book for childrenall across the globe.
It's been a classic for years. Okay.
And here'smy thing is that Eric Carle knew
how to write the shitout of a fucking children's storybook.
Dude, that book, that was my favoritebook as a kid, and it's not even close.
(25:06):
Okay.
Eric Carle was a fucking bookwriting prodigy.
He fucking mailed it in one.
I have no idea about his other worksand things,
but I'm just assumethis is what feels right to me.
Is that like he wrote one book,he had one one hit wonder,
and then he never did anything else.And you know what?
He never needed to,because that book was so fucking good.
(25:27):
Dude.
Think about The Very Hungry Caterpillar,okay?
You've got this relatable characterthat is a caterpillar.
Okay? He's an everyman. He's just fucking.
He's just, like, crawling his way aroundon the fucking ground, okay?
The ultimate underdog. But he's not a dog.
He's a worm or a caterpillar. Really?
Because those are different.
He's worm in his way on the ground. Okay.
(25:49):
And this motherfucker, he's.
The Very Hungry
Caterpillar is the very first DavidGoggins.
Okay. Do do you understand that? Right.
Think about the Very Hungry Caterpillar.
He's fucking worming his wayaround the ground, and then he's.
He starts to eat.
And that motherfucker, he knew, he knewhe was destined for great things, right?
(26:11):
He eats fucking one thing this day.
Oh, he's still hungry.
Then he eats two things the next day.
Okay, then. You know.
Okay, here'swhy that book's so fucking good, right?
You've got the characterizationof this underdog narrative, right?
Thenand when you're a kid, you don't really.
You're not thinking two steps ahead.
(26:32):
When you're an adult, you think, oh,caterpillars turn into butterflies.
When you're a kid, you fucking don't knowwhat's coming, right?
So he eats one thing that one day,then he's still hungry.
He eats two things, the next thing,then we heighten.
Dude, we continue to heightenand we continue to build tension.
Right? And it's fucking all, baby.
Oh, it's so goodthat you just ratchets it up.
(26:54):
Okay, here is a titular innovationthat Eric Carle
brought to children's storybooksand that is that.
Do you remember those pages?
Do you remember thatone section of the book where
there's like an accordion assignment,an accordion?
It's like a it's like a staircaseof fucking, like multilayered pages.
Right?
(27:14):
And it's like,oh, one apple, two pears, three plums, or
I don't know the exact fruit, but like,
you know, and it's like,and you open them up and you can.
And as a kid, as a kid,when you are fucking just first exploring
what a book could possibly bewhen your nervous system is six months old
or like eight months old, and you'rejust discovering what the world is,
(27:34):
and you can have this, like tactile,like staircase of,
of multi-layered pages in this book
that is like cocaineto the young developing brain,
the of an oven of a child'snervous system.
Or at least it was for mine.
What a fucking go.
Eric Carle is also not.
(27:54):
Let's not stop there.But he's got the staircase, right?
There's a fucking hole in each andevery single one of those pages, right?
And as a child, I'm just thinking tomyself, wow, this is what books can be.
This is an innovation in this genre.
And cool. So great.
So we've got the characterizationof the caterpillar.
(28:15):
We've got this like built in hero'snarrative. Right.
We've got thislike linear progression of in a
in done and expressed in a very cool wayand very uniquely,
you know, taking advantage of the mediumin his own original way.
And then we hit the titular moment,right?
The fucking caterpillarfinally eats all this shit, and he's like,
(28:38):
you know, and we.
And there's this, like,there's this, there's this
focus in of energy, right?
And it's like.And finally the caterpillar.
I don't remember the exact story,but I but from my memory of things,
the caterpillar then turns he's he'sthat he stops being hungry.
(28:58):
Right. And he turns into a chrysalis.
And if you're a child, I'm telling youright now, we're gonna get real close
and real intimate to this.
If you're a child and you don't know thatcaterpillars become butterflies.
Like, I didn't know the first timeI read that fucking book,
you state that caterpillarsfucking dead, dude.
Imagine. Imagine being eight months old.
(29:19):
You have no fucking conceptthat a caterpillar turns into a butterfly.
All you know is that you.
I have identified you have empathizedwith this little fucking worm
and how he's eaten all this shit,and you're fucking grinding with him.
You're Gogginsesque with this caterpillar.
There's a part of youin his little fucking brain right?
And thenyou experience, after you've climbed
(29:41):
your highest mountain,you experience death, right?
Or at least that'swhat I'm assuming happens in the book.
From my memory.
And then
the last page, we turn the fucking page.
And you know what? It fucking paid off.
Maybe we're a fucking.
We are a fucking butterfly, dude.
(30:03):
Do you know how fucking coolit would be to be a butterfly?
You fly around like as an eight monthold, there's nothing cooler than fuck, I'm
a butterfly.
Bring joy, dude, I'm a pollinator.
I'm going to fucking you.
You want you want crops, you want apples?
I'm going to bring crops. Apples.
I mean, maybe get eaten by a bird.I'm going to do it all.
I'm a butterfly, I bring joy,I fly around, you can catch me in a net.
(30:27):
And I'm also going to eat theI think I think
butterflies eat, like bad insects.
Is that true? Now that's spiders.
I don't know, but if you just.
Dope. Right. Nobody's.Nobody's hitting a butterfly.
Like, it's like, you know, a pest.
No, a butterfly is awesome.
And so I just think that Eric Carle isone of the greatest artists of all time.
(30:51):
What a fucking goat.
God rest his soul.
He's from Syracuse, new York. Okay?
And somebody sent mesomething about The Very Hungry
Caterpillar this morning,and I was just looking at it.
And I'm thinking to myself, you know what?
If Eric Carle can be a fucking goatedfucking innovator
in children's storybooks,
and he can useall of these storytelling tools,
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and he can uniquely use his medium,and he can fucking warp
the mind of an eight month oldand tell them a mind shattering story.
If he can do all that from Syracuse,New York, I bet I can fucking figure out
how to pay my bills from heremaking content and shit right?
I don't know. Anyway, Eric calls the goat.
Yo, I might someday gan Eric Carle tattoo.
(31:34):
Could you imaginea very hungry caterpillar?
Just like fucking Like on my chestor something.
Just like very big and very province.
That's actually a great idea.Maybe on my ass.
A very hungrycaterpillar on my ass is a fantastic idea.
I'm gonna. I'm gonna earmark that one.
If this podcast gets to 100,000listens, we're going to fucking put it.
over a fucking very hungrycaterpillar on my ass.
anyway, whatever.
(31:54):
We've gone off on a tangent,which is kind of the point of this show.
It's called brain juice.
It's not called,you know, organized essay.
So if you want to go look up the show,organized essay
and let's do an organized essay,go listen to that.
But if you want to listen to a, a trainthat sometimes goes off the rails
and takes a little detourthrough the woods
and comes back on the railsto make it to the station,
(32:16):
we're going to get to the stationeventually.
There's our destination station, baby,and it's the end of the episode,
which we have reached here.
Thank you for listening to the firstepisode of Brain Juice with Noah Kreisler.
That's me.
I hope that I post this,and I hope that you listen to the next one
and subscribe on Apple Podcastsor Spotify or Ball Liquor.
(32:40):
I don't know what I don't know. And hey,you know what?
I think if you rate the show,I think that also is helpful.
And but you know, if you're going to rateat five stars, try not to duke be
try not to be like, oh, this guy one star,live your life, make your choices.
I'm going to go work on a video,a hyper produced, edited thing
that I ruminate on for months and
(33:02):
yeah, they go brain juice.
I suppose your favorite clips take clips,stick 30s out of this conversation
and be like, I like this.
Just, you know, make an Instagram storyand tag me and I
and I'll say, oh, cool, maybeI'll make Danny do short or some shit.
Oh man, I've seen these shortsfrom Jack County where he does his podcast
and he has like artist who art overit looks really expensive to produce,
(33:23):
but man, maybe someday,maybe when I go get my table waiting job,
I'll have enough moneyto produce that shit. Cool.
All right, talk to you later.
Now it's an answering machine. Bye bye.
Thank you to Second Suitor
for the use of our theme song,Get It off of their 2018 album Safe Space.
Make sure to go check outSecond Suitor over on Spotify.
Thank you also to my cousinBrandon Chrysler for editing the show.
(33:44):
Want you to get it.
I want you to understand.
I'm doing the best I can,but not as good as I wanna be.
I just wanna get it
through because it will manifest.
I'm not getting any rash as it is.
I only want a dream.
(34:06):
I just wanna get it,get it, get it, get it, get it,
get it, get it,get it, get it, get it, get it, get.
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