Finding Rock Bottom: thinking a man could save me from myself

In this episode of Perfection Hangover, I’m sharing the raw truth about the moment my life completely fell apart—the breaking point I didn’t see coming, and the painful patterns I kept repeating without even realizing it.

⚠️ CONTENT WARNING: This episode contains discussions of childhood physical abuse, sexual assault of a minor, domestic violence, substance abuse, suicidal ideation, and a suicide attempt. Please prioritize your mental health and listen when you feel emotionally prepared.

Resources:

• National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 988
• RAINN Sexual Assault Hotline: [phone]
• National Domestic Violence Hotline: [phone]

I open up about the crisis that pushed me into my first marriage, how my attempt to end my life became the catalyst for a relationship built on survival, and how divorce sent me into a season of chaos I pretended was freedom. From a wild six week rule that caused lots of dating the wrong men to marrying a man who cheated on me, I was chasing the dream of being saved… but I didn’t realize they couldn't save me. 

If you’ve ever rushed into a relationship hoping it would fix the pain you didn’t want to face… If you’ve ever felt empty, unworthy, or desperate for someone to choose you… If you’ve ever hit rock bottom and wondered how you’d rebuild your life…

This episode is for you.

We’re talking about trauma patterns, codependency, survival mode, and the moment God revealed the real wound beneath it all. This was rock bottom for me—and the beginning of true healing.

Inside this episode:

• How crisis led me into marriage before I was ready

• Why childhood wounds often shape our adult relationships

• The link between validation-seeking and self-worth

• Divorce, chaos, and trying to numb pain with “freedom”

• Loving someone who cheats and what it forces you to confront

• How rock bottom became the catalyst for transformation

• Learning to choose yourself when you never felt like enough

If you’re starting over, rebuilding, or trying to break lifelong patterns, you’re not alone. This is where we stop pretending, surrender the perfection, and finally start healing from the inside out.