The Road Less Traveled

November was one hell of a month and I'm not going to lie, I'm very glad it is over. I hope everyone had a great holiday period. Mine was mostly full of stress and minor hardships to be honest. I am incredibly proud to share with everyone that I did finish my writing goal/contest of typing 50,000 words for www.reedsy.com and will be able to submit my rough draft of a book for agent consideration. It wasn't even close to easy given ...

Unfortunately I was hospitalized again for a panic attack that had my blood pressure through the roof and on the verge of an actual heart attack. Trying to remain positive and productive is hard when your own body is attacking itself. Then the financial aspect kicks in. Stressed that you don't have money? Go visit the hospital and get that bill.... then do it again. I never thought the challenges coming out of prison would be like ...

This section of my impromptu and scattered biography covers ages 15 1/2 to 20. Yes, you read that correctly. I've been focused on preproduction for a short film that I wrote and want to direct, so I apologize that this one is a few days late and also ill prepared... even by audio diary standards. I do recognize within the episode that a lot of my coping skills to traumatic events is to either ignore them, distance myself, or insula...

I had a brilliant time with a new weight loss program brought to me by stomach flu. I guess my body enjoys the erratic release schedule for these episodes. Today's episode is on recent events in my life (congrats to my friend getting married!) and also one of my favorites simply because I'm in a much better place now both literally and figuratively. I'm truly thankful to still be alive and br able to be kind, be joyful, and be comp...

I apologize in advance that the middle portion turns into politics, but this is more of a state of affairs episode in the sense that I was catching up with a friend from prison and we couldn't understand the direction of things. This podcast is entirely for me trying to understand my situation having been in prison and the long term mental and physical affects it's had on me. My friend and I caught up and it had me taking stock of ...

A continuation of my autobiography covering ages 10-16. They were pretty rough years unfortunately, and I've been dealing with a lot of that trauma ever since. It's hard to get closure on family deaths when you lose them at a young age. As always, thank you for listening and being respectful. - db

[Note: The plug to my mic wasn't all the way in so it sounds like it gave the recording a hollow sound. I didn't realize until literally...

I'm finally getting around to the biography portion of this now-not-anonymous podcast. It started as an audio diary to help me cope and attempt to move forward after spending over five years in prison. I blacked out at home and woke up at the scene of an accident I had caused that claimed the life of an innocent person. Nothing said in this podcast/diary is an excuse or an attempt to garner sympathy. I'm still trying to this day to...

This episode focuses on storytelling as an artform, something that I believe in and also pride myself in. I always had my imagination fostered as a child (in addition to literally being a foster kid). I've come to love storytelling in various artforms and chose to study film and writing in college. I'm excited to share that my friend has tapped me for my expertise as a writer and assistant director for a 48 Hour Film Festival this ...

I've been reading the book Atomic Habits by James Clear and have been slowly incorporating it into my daily life. After I got out of prison I focused on paying off my financial and legal debts and took a break from reading books. (I had read over 600 books during my time inside so I felt okay with that decision... at the time.) I've realized that I need to get back to some of the routines that I had established when I had minimal d...

We live in a time period where people seem to confuse their belief's and strongly held convictions to be the same if not better than facts. I grew up with a passion for storytelling and went to college to study it as an artform. It blows my mind these days that people continually follow a false narrative or spread misinformation as if it were gospel. Independent thinking is at an all time low and it's only getting worse. As always,...

All the insecurities, fears, self-doubt, self-hatred, and whatever negative thought you could have about yourself run through my mind like a bullet turned to shrapnel. I hate sharing those feelings with my girlfriend because in times like those it seems to hurt the most when someone is trying to be positive, tell you how much they mean to them, how important you are, the most important person in the world, and yet you only feel lik...

I had what I firmly believe was a mild heart attack a couple days ago. I could go on and on about regrets and feeling sorry for myself, etc., but the biggest thing will always be that I'm sorry for my actions that led to me drinking and driving back in 2016 and killing my victim. I don't regret prison, the loss of opportunities for myself, or how difficult and depressing life has become lately. I only regret the harm I caused. -db

I've mentioned on multiple episodes that I work at a restaurant... Well, the secret is out apparently. I wanted to do this episode over a year ago when all these changes started trickling down from corporate but I was also trying to balance and maitain my anonymity with respect to the place that employs me. Please note that I overall have nothing against PF Changs/The Company as you will hopefully understand if you listen to the en...