We all know the feeling: life should be good. From the outside, everything looks fine—even enviable. But inside? It’s a different story. In this deeply moving episode, Brytani shares her journey as an active duty Marine who quietly carries the weight of depression, suicidal thoughts, and the ache of loneliness.
Despite the strength she shows on the outside, Brytani’s story reveals the hidden cracks beneath the surface—the loss of meaningful relationships, the struggle to find purpose in a career that no longer feels aligned, and the painful fight to access the mental health care she desperately needs.
Her honesty will stop you in your tracks. Because her story is our story—the story of holding it all together while falling apart. Of smiling in photos, but crying alone. Of feeling despair even when the world sees a beautiful life.
If you’ve ever felt the disconnect between what your life looks like and how it actually feels, this conversation will make you feel seen.
Brytani reminds us that healing begins with honesty. That doing the basics is sometimes the bravest thing we can do. And that reaching out—whether you’re the one hurting or the one who wants to help—matters more than we know.
Listen in for a conversation that’s raw, real, and achingly relatable. You are not alone.
Mental Health and Suicide Prevention Help, US and Canada:
Canada:
Crisis Services Canada: Provides a national helpline, available 24/7, for individuals in crisis or distress.
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- Website: https://www.crisisservicescanada.ca/
- Helpline: 1-833-456-4566
Canadian Mental Health Association (CMHA): CMHA offers a range of mental health resources, support, and information, including resources specifically for depression.
- Website: https://cmha.ca/
Kids Help Phone: A 24/7 helpline for young people in Canada to reach out for support and information.
- Website: https://kidshelpphone.ca/
- Helpline: 1-800-668-6868
Centre for Addiction and Mental Health (CAMH): CAMH provides resources, treatment options, and education on mental health and addiction.
- Website: https://www.camh.ca/
United States:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: The Lifeline provides 24/7, free and confidential support for people in distress, as well as prevention and crisis resources.
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- Website: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
- Helpline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Crisis Text Line: A free, 24/7 text messaging service providing support to people in crisis.
- Website: https://www.crisistextline.org/
- Text line: Text "HELLO" to 741741
Mental Health America (MHA): MHA offers resources, information, and online screening tools to assess mental health concerns.
- Website: https://www.mhanational.org/
National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH): NIMH provides information on mental health conditions, including depression, and conducts research to advance the understanding and treatment of mental illnesses.
- Website: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/
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