A Conversation With God & Self

We often talk about how Judas betrayed Jesus, but we don’t talk enough about how Jesus still loved Judas — even knowing what he would do. And if we’re honest, many of us don’t want to admit that we have a little Judas in us too.

There are moments we’ve betrayed Jesus in our own way — not because we wanted to, but because He didn’t meet our expectations… or because He allowed us to fail… or because His plan didn’t look like what we p...

How long have you either lied to yourself or lived in a lie because you feared rejection, judgment, or the fear of change? That was me — someone who was in a chokehold by fear and guilt based on my past.

But you know what the LORD did for me? He allowed me to see that no matter what my truth is, it’s where I am loved the most by Him.

The fear of man can blur our vision of what God wants to do through us. Sometimes we are so tainted b...

For years, I kept quiet — haunted by the burdens of who I used to be. The mistakes I made, the things I did... I no longer trusted myself. I couldn’t even look at me.
 I actually planned to stay mad at myself for the rest of my life because it felt safe — and honestly, the world justified it.

We often praise women through the lens of feminism, telling them to do what feels right for them and their bodies. But what if what we cho...

 In this episode, Lovasia talks about forgiveness — what it truly is and how it affects us in more ways than we realize: our hearts, our reactions, and even our actions. Forgiveness is a gift — one that’s meant to be given and received.

Lovasia dived  into Matthew 6:14, where God calls us to forgive others so that we can fully experience His holy forgiveness. She also broke down the negative effects of unforgiveness — how it impacts...

In this episode, I share how my relationship with God first began—it felt like meeting a kind stranger. Someone who was always there when I needed Him the most. Over time, that curiosity and desire to know Him more turned into a real relationship. There was never any pressure, just my heart wanting to draw closer to Him.

But with that closeness came questions:

• If I truly know Him, then why do I sometimes struggle to trust when He...

In this episode, we break down the worries of the mind and ask the real questions:

• What is your focus as a Christian believer?
• Are you still going against God’s Word when He says, “Do not worry” because His Father will provide all you need?
• Do we allow the world to create worry in us—and let that worry turn into hopelessness?

We dive into what could be holding us back from our future, why we obsess over it, and why—if we care ...

This episode is all about learning to accept the people we love right where they are.

So often, when we experience something new—whether it’s healing, growth, or a deeper walk with God—we want everyone around us to experience it too. But here’s the truth: you made the decision to change… they haven’t yet. And trying to force them to change because you did isn’t fair to them—or to you.

Sometimes, that urge to “pull them along” is real...

How many times have you asked yourself:
“What have I done to be stuck in this cycle of self-sabotage?”
“Am I holding myself back, or is there a part of me that refuses to move forward?”

In this episode, I break down the **avatars we create from trauma and pain**—the versions of us that show up when we’re triggered. These avatars might feel like protection, but really, they keep us from showing up as who we truly ar...

When reality doesn’t match what you imagined, it’s easy to start questioning everything.

“Am I even on the right path?”
“Will the goals I set ever come to pass?”
“If I knew better back then, would I be in a better place now?”

We stress ourselves out comparing where we thought we’d be two years ago to where we are today. And in that stress, the cycle of self-sabotage only gets louder—bad jobs, bad relations...

Whew… this episode opened up *a lot* for me.

Accepting your past? It’s not easy. It brings up old emotions, confirms hard truths, and forces you to look at things you’d rather leave buried. But here’s the thing—dipping into the past isn’t about staying stuck in survival mode. It’s about understanding where you’ve been so you can shape where you’re going.

In this episode, I share how looking back can actually **bri...

Whew… for years I wrestled with anxiety over my future—trying to control the outcome, panicking when my plans didn’t align with what I *thought* was supposed to happen. I used to think if things didn’t go exactly right, then maybe I’d miss the promise altogether.

But the truth is... I was idolizing the destination more than I was trusting the process.

In this episode, I share the weight of that pressure and the pe...

Have you been feeling like you’re behind?
Like no matter how hard you try, something always pulls you back—whether it’s procrastination, fear, or just avoiding the healing you know you need?

Whew… trust me, I’ve been there.
Honestly, I’m still walking through it.
In this episode, I had to sit with a hard question:
Is my self-sabotage holding me back… or secretly pushing me forward?

Sometimes we thi...

Where do I even start?
This episode… whew, chile. It hit deep in ways I didn’t even expect.

We got into the roots of self-sabotage—how it’s often tied to unhealed trauma, and how that trauma quietly shapes the way we see God, ourselves, and what we think we deserve.
I’m talkin’ about thought patterns that keep us stuck, how we try to control everything because of hyper-independence, and the emotional walls we put u...

In this episode, I’m kickin’ off a brand new series that’s been heavy on my heart—**Awareness & Suffering**.

We’re diving deep into what it really means to know who you are*—not just what you want, but *who you have to become to actually carry what you’re praying for.

This ain’t about surface-level faith. We’re talking about the **real stuff**:

• self-doubt that creeps in when no one’s watching...

Have my emotions been blocking me from pursuing God—because of how I feel about my past?
Whew… this one hit deep.

The closer I got to Jesus, the more I saw my own humanity.
And honestly? That exposure made me feel ashamed to even be in His presence.
Instead of running toward Him, I started pulling back.

Have you ever felt like that?
Like your pain and your past disqualify you from His love?

Have you been sinning... and didn’t even realize it?
Or maybe you’ve been holding on to anger so long, you forgot where it even started…

In this episode, I dig into the heavy-hitter: unforgiveness—
How it quietly creeps in, sits in our hearts, and starts showing up in our personal growth, our emotions, and our walk with God.

We talk real about how bitterness and unresolved anger can linger, and how sometim...

He thought he was broken... until God showed him what was already in him.

💭 In this episode, TimelineBrice gets raw about his struggle, and discovering purpose through pain. If you've ever questioned your worth or felt like you're chasing something you already have, this one’s for you.

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“Lord, if You loved me, why did You let me go through that trauma?
Why did You let me get hurt like that? Betrayed like that?
Why would You let the very thing that hardened my heart toward You… happen?”

Yeah… this episode got real deep.
I wasn’t even going to post it. Missed both my deadlines.
But I refused to let self-sabotage have the final say.

Perfectionism? It’s a drug I’m breaking free from.<...

What happens when prayer doesn’t feel like enough? When you’re trying to get close to God, but He still feels distant… do you lean in—or do you slowly walk away?

In this episode of A Conversation with God & Self, I’m getting real about the parts of the walk nobody really warned us about. The part where you realize this relationship with God requires endurance, maturity, and deep roots—not just surface-level faith.

Are you rooted ...