A Conversation With God & Self

For a long time, I lived in a loop — starting, stopping, trying again, and falling back. I couldn’t put my finger on why until one day a trigger pulled me right back into coping mechanisms I thought I had already healed from. That moment changed everything.

It made me realize something deeper:
 What if the issue wasn’t that I couldn’t stay consistent…
 What if the root of who I became was the real thing standing in the way?

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Who knew that getting things done had less to do with motivational quotes and affirmations—and more to do with how you see the task in front of you?

Over the past few weeks, as I began analyzing my own procrastination patterns, something hit me hard…
 What if it isn’t the task that overwhelms us—but the way we look at it?
 What if the way we perceive it controls our emotions, which then shapes our language—and that language ...

For the longest, I couldn’t understand how I could be so motivated to start new habits—working out, reading, meal prepping. I would get into a good flow, feel consistent, feel proud… and then one day I’d wake up and the feeling of not wanting to do it would completely overpower all the progress I had made. Before I knew it, I was right back in the same habits I worked so hard to overcome.

And it finally hit me—
 What if it isn’t...

What do you do when you enter a season of discouragement—when it feels hard to open your Bible, spend time with God, or even sit in His presence? When the emotions you’re carrying don’t lead to motivation, but instead create shame, guilt, and distance?

We all experience moments when our faith walk isn’t as strong as we hoped it would be. And in those moments, scrolling on social media can easily replace real time with God—...

This episode was long overdue because there comes a time when we all have to ask ourselves a serious question: Are you a true follower of Christ… or just a fan?

When life hits hard, do you run towards God or away from Him?
When your flesh needs to be challenged, do you sit in the discomfort, or do you choose the easier route—even when it’s harmful?
When you pray, do you wait patiently, or do you take matters into your own ...

How many times have you pushed something off? Avoided doing it because it wasn’t perfect? Sheww, I’m even doing it right now—knowing I had all the time in the world to get it done. But why is that? Why do we keep pushing tasks back instead of knocking them out? What’s the real root of procrastination?

Every time you make that choice—every time you follow that familiar habit of putting things off—it affects you more negatively than y...

How often do you actually reflect on your life when you turn a year older?
We celebrate, we go out with friends and family — but we rarely sit still long enough to look back at our growth… where we improved, where we fell short, and how far we’ve really come.

In this episode, I take time to reflect on what I’ve been working on, what still needs work, and the places where I’ve seen God move in my life. This kind of reflection he...

We often talk about how Judas betrayed Jesus, but we don’t talk enough about how Jesus still loved Judas — even knowing what he would do. And if we’re honest, many of us don’t want to admit that we have a little Judas in us too.

There are moments we’ve betrayed Jesus in our own way — not because we wanted to, but because He didn’t meet our expectations… or because He allowed us to fail… or because His plan didn’t look like what we p...

How long have you either lied to yourself or lived in a lie because you feared rejection, judgment, or the fear of change? That was me — someone who was in a chokehold by fear and guilt based on my past.

But you know what the LORD did for me? He allowed me to see that no matter what my truth is, it’s where I am loved the most by Him.

The fear of man can blur our vision of what God wants to do through us. Sometimes we are so tainted b...

For years, I kept quiet — haunted by the burdens of who I used to be. The mistakes I made, the things I did... I no longer trusted myself. I couldn’t even look at me.
 I actually planned to stay mad at myself for the rest of my life because it felt safe — and honestly, the world justified it.

We often praise women through the lens of feminism, telling them to do what feels right for them and their bodies. But what if what we cho...

 In this episode, Lovasia talks about forgiveness — what it truly is and how it affects us in more ways than we realize: our hearts, our reactions, and even our actions. Forgiveness is a gift — one that’s meant to be given and received.

Lovasia dived  into Matthew 6:14, where God calls us to forgive others so that we can fully experience His holy forgiveness. She also broke down the negative effects of unforgiveness — how it impacts...

In this episode, I share how my relationship with God first began—it felt like meeting a kind stranger. Someone who was always there when I needed Him the most. Over time, that curiosity and desire to know Him more turned into a real relationship. There was never any pressure, just my heart wanting to draw closer to Him.

But with that closeness came questions:

• If I truly know Him, then why do I sometimes struggle to trust when He...

In this episode, we break down the worries of the mind and ask the real questions:

• What is your focus as a Christian believer?
• Are you still going against God’s Word when He says, “Do not worry” because His Father will provide all you need?
• Do we allow the world to create worry in us—and let that worry turn into hopelessness?

We dive into what could be holding us back from our future, why we obsess over it, and why—if we care ...

This episode is all about learning to accept the people we love right where they are.

So often, when we experience something new—whether it’s healing, growth, or a deeper walk with God—we want everyone around us to experience it too. But here’s the truth: you made the decision to change… they haven’t yet. And trying to force them to change because you did isn’t fair to them—or to you.

Sometimes, that urge to “pull them along” is real...

How many times have you asked yourself:
“What have I done to be stuck in this cycle of self-sabotage?”
“Am I holding myself back, or is there a part of me that refuses to move forward?”

In this episode, I break down the **avatars we create from trauma and pain**—the versions of us that show up when we’re triggered. These avatars might feel like protection, but really, they keep us from showing up as who we truly ar...

When reality doesn’t match what you imagined, it’s easy to start questioning everything.

“Am I even on the right path?”
“Will the goals I set ever come to pass?”
“If I knew better back then, would I be in a better place now?”

We stress ourselves out comparing where we thought we’d be two years ago to where we are today. And in that stress, the cycle of self-sabotage only gets louder—bad jobs, bad relations...

Whew… this episode opened up *a lot* for me.

Accepting your past? It’s not easy. It brings up old emotions, confirms hard truths, and forces you to look at things you’d rather leave buried. But here’s the thing—dipping into the past isn’t about staying stuck in survival mode. It’s about understanding where you’ve been so you can shape where you’re going.

In this episode, I share how looking back can actually **bri...

Whew… for years I wrestled with anxiety over my future—trying to control the outcome, panicking when my plans didn’t align with what I *thought* was supposed to happen. I used to think if things didn’t go exactly right, then maybe I’d miss the promise altogether.

But the truth is... I was idolizing the destination more than I was trusting the process.

In this episode, I share the weight of that pressure and the pe...

Have you been feeling like you’re behind?
Like no matter how hard you try, something always pulls you back—whether it’s procrastination, fear, or just avoiding the healing you know you need?

Whew… trust me, I’ve been there.
Honestly, I’m still walking through it.
In this episode, I had to sit with a hard question:
Is my self-sabotage holding me back… or secretly pushing me forward?

Sometimes we thi...